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casual day in
#assume hes updated his head to this point because i forgot to get rid of the tv in the photo frame#really ive no idea what the fuck the concept for this was i just wanted to draw my wife without the tv#notice that i keep making all my art with warm lighting i may be obsessed#FUCKK i realize now giving him plain tv antennas would have worked too FUCKKKKKK#i need to start using references.... but i'm lazy...#🌗 art tag#hazbin hotel#radiostatic#hazbin vox#vox hazbin hotel#alastor hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor
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And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am...
#moral orel#orel puppington#adult orel puppington#moral orel fanart#my art#guys it's Iris by the goo goo dolls 🤑🤑 this song has beautiful lyrics literally each part#You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever beAnd I don't wanna go home right now#I'd put the entire song jajajajakjdkenen#Heavily inspired by Marnie's art of Orel with Where Is My Mind lyrics 💙💙#also this heavily inspired by some MCR art I saw...#bro thinks he's in Fight Club ‼️‼️#he's so me I'm so him#I need to be punched until I bleed <3#Maybe I need to shut up#if I do a lot of lyric art with Orel this was the beginning of an era 😭😭#aughghghhh debo pasar otro día deseame suerte...#too lazy to fix any mistakes in my tags 😢
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Do you guys wanna see a thing I tried writing? It's pretty unfinished and I don't think I will finish it but it was fun to play with and it might be okay as a lil snippet! I also have like no energy for drawing right now but I wanna post something lol
(The context is Cross and Killer are alone on a mission in some unspecified au when Killer goes stage 3)
“Killer?”
Cross looked over when he got no response, half expecting Killer to have wandered off in some direction as he did on these longer jobs. His loyalty to Nightmare was often at war with his attention span in the field, and you could expect a job to take longer if it was anywhere a cat was liable to appear.
What he didn’t expect was to catch sight of Killer’s wildly fluctuating soul glinting in the reflection of the knife that was coming right for him.
Cross managed to lunge back just in time for the knife to arc downwards into the snow in his place. Its wielder slowly turned his head, tracking the path to where Cross was now. His empty eye sockets gushed with more ooze than usual, stare somehow colder than the ice he was now shaking from his blade.
“Killer…” Cross began, trying to keep his tone steady and authoritative like a warning. He was ever hopeful that this was some stupid game Killer was playing out of boredom, but that hope died as he watched some of the black goop begin to drip out of the corner of the other’s mouth.
That only happened when he went stage 3.
Shit.
Cross felt his soul drop. He’d never dealt with Killer like this alone, usually they handled him as a team if Nightmare wasn’t there to take over. In the time it would take him to look down at his phone to call for help there would probably be a knife in his head.
This was fine. He could handle it. He always had more training and stamina than Killer anyway, he just had to play keepaway with his life long enough to go home with it.
Killer teleported in front of him, something that caught Cross off guard. In his right mind, Killer almost never seemed to use his magic in fights unless he wanted to fuck around with the other.
[Put the fight part here idk pretend there was a really cool fight, it was so cool, you loved it]
Cross felt his soul drop again, but this time the rest of his body followed. Killer was using his gravity magic to hold him to the ground, and was shambling towards him ready to finish things. Cross struggled for a moment to see if he could fight his way out of the magic’s hold, but to no avail. He was pinned as his assailant now stood threateningly over him, knife raised. In a flash of desperation, he reached out both hands and grabbed Killer’s ankles, quickly moving his head to one side as a bone attack pierced up out of the snow and struck the other in the jaw.
It wasn’t his strongest attack, but it was enough to knock Killer backwards and stun him. As Cross felt his soul being released from the other’s magic, he quickly scrambled forward and sat on Killer’s chest as he lay sprawled out in the snow, pinning his arms down on either side of his head as he began to come back around. His face was leaking so much determination from every crevice that at that point it was hard to make out an expression under it all, but Cross could tell he was frustrated as he felt the rumble of bone attacks beginning to rise up out of the snow around them.
He followed suit, carefully forming a line of his own bone attacks closely around them to act as a barrier. He could feel Killer’s attacks bouncing off of his, each hit more desperate and frantic than the last like an animal clawing at the sides of its cage. He felt some magic encircling his soul again, but this time trying to raise him up rather than push him down. It was weaker than before, whether because Killer’s attention was split with still launching bone attacks or because he was beginning to tire out, but Cross managed to fight against it and stay put.
“Killer!” he barked, leaning over the other’s face. “That’s enough. You’re not going anywhere until you pull yourself together!”
The gravity magic seemed to cease at his shout, so Cross continued in the fervent hope that he was getting through to him.
“We’ll stay here all night if that’s what it takes, but I’m reporting back to Nightmare when this is over and I’m not leaving without you! Do you hear me?! I don’t care if I have to bring you back hogtied over my shoulder, I’m not gonna hurt you and I’m not gonna let you kill me!”
He didn’t realise he’d been shouting until the clinking and scraping of bone attacks had slowed and stopped altogether, and it was just the sound of his promise echoing off the bones and snow surrounding them.
And the strange gurgling sound coming from below him.
He opened his eyes again in confusion and stared down at the skeleton weakly fighting against his grasp, determination pooling and soaking into the snow from every gap in his skull. It took a second longer than he’d like to admit for Cross to realise that sound was Killer choking on it.
His bone attacks shrunk back into the ground and he shot backwards, landing ungracefully on his backside with a little curse. He hurried to pull Killer up and help him lean forward, swatting his back as he retched and spat the toxic goop up onto the ground where they’d just fought.
It was never an elegant dismount from these things, they’d found there was just no dignified way to get out a ribcage worth of black ooze. After a minute of heaving and gasping, Killer finally got a hold of himself and started glancing frantically around.
“Where’s Dust??” he managed to choke out with the urgency of a parent who’d lost their child. It always seemed to be the first thing on his mind when he came to from one of these episodes, Cross was never really sure why since any other time it seemed like they hated each other.
“He’s at home,” Cross assured, pressing one hand to Killer’s spine for support. “It’s just us, we were on a mission.”
He could see now that Killer’s soul had calmed down from the pulsating mass of spikes it was a few minutes ago and become somewhat soul shaped, still twitching nervously but a far calmer sight than before. That was a good sign that the attack was over. He wondered how much control Killer had over it, since he’d definitely seen it turn that way without having to go through a fight to the death first, but it was rare.
Cross flinched as he felt Killer grab him again, though this time instead of kicking him in the ribs he simply held on for dear life. That was another clear sign, after he was done puking up whatever goop had built up he usually cried for a while.
It was odd, especially the first few times, to see someone who always seemed so disconnected and unphased have a sobbing breakdown after trying to kill you.
“Hey,” Cross said, voice hushed as he wrapped his arms around the skeleton trembling in his lap. “It’s okay… you’re okay…”
Cross had never been the best at comforting words, but he knew Killer just needed someone to cling to while he got a hold of himself, and he was content to be that for a little while. Especially after being thrown around so much, his aching bones were more than happy for an excuse to sit in the snow for a bit. He could feel Killer’s soul being pressed against his chest as he wept silently into Cross’s shoulder, the fear and regret seemed to be radiating from it like smoke from a smothered flame.
He wondered idly if this was what Nightmare could feel all the time.
...
He also wondered just how hard it was going to be to get these black stains out of his jacket again once he pried Killer's face off of it.
#UTDR#UTMV#Cross Sans#Killer Sans#I don't think I need a writing tag cause I don't think I'll do it a whole lot#I also don't have a name for this or anything it was just kinda for funsies#I think the original plan was to have it be like. seeing the whole process of Killer's stage 3 attacks through Cross#And like my hcs on how it goes#And there's still some of that in there like him having extra goop during it and being super guilty and emotional afterwards#But also I got lazy with the rest lol#I don't think it's too bad but writing still feels weird to me cause I don't do it that much#Working on a different writy boy that I'm passionate about though so maybe hopefully there will be more! :D#Killer and Cross won't be in it though. sorry lads#Oh shit I need to wash my hair for work actually okay see you in a bit!!
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she's live
now you can see what everyones height is in my head because i refuse to download height sliders. look at ass <3
#also works on mobile btw ☝️ !!#me successfully making this is proof you can achieve anything with 500 google searches#you should see my search history#html how to put image. html how to change image size. html how to put images in a row. html how to center a row of images. html how to#their pinterest boards are disabled at the moment because i need to make them look good before i share them#and most tags don't work yet because i'm too lazy to go back through my whole blog and tag almost 2 years worth of posts 😭#going to christen it by reblogging one of those dress up your sim prompt ask games#if i can find it#and then i'm going to get completely stuck into rufus and sawyers gameplay yessss i can't wait#leaving virgils gameplay forever i think because when rufus and sawyer have a kid i'm moving him in as the babysitter#would you believe me if i told you there is 0 cc clothes in this#i've fallen in love with maxis clothing recently idk what happened to me#besides roxys boots and virgils bag its a vanilla lookbook#thank you to everyone who voted on the poll yesterday btw#even though it was 50/50 the majority of the time it was up#it ended up 60/40 after an hour tho so i went with my fav macmahon lifestages instead of young adult stages!#goodnight <3
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Why is everyone in aftg so hecking shippable?? Like literally I think I could justify any (within unproblematic reasoning) coupling with any characters except for like Riko and for some reason Nicky.
#i love you nicky i'm so sorry#like idk why#you're very shippable platonically though?#nicky and erik for life though#do i need an explanation for Riko?#literally it's just that i hate him#oh also grayson. i ship that guy and the worst levels of hell#aftg#all for the game#tfc#the foxhole court#trk#the raven king#tkm#the kings men#tsc#the sunshine court#palmetto state foxes#too many characters that I'm too lazy to tag idk#nicky hemmick#i guess#riko moriyama
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I just remembered something. Not sure if I remember it correctly but I'm gonna share it anyways 😂.
I'm pretty sure I watched a YT video a long time ago of a therapist watching the Mileven bedroom fight from s4. I don't believe he had much, if any, context. And he said that Mike was trying his best to reassure El until she brought up him not saying I love you, and then he got defensive. And I remember him also saying that he was impressed by his attempt to comfort El because he's a teenage boy and usually they aren't really good at being empathetic. And he also said him not being able to say I love you is actually a pretty common thing for couples their age and he wasn't surprised that Mike got so defensive over it.
So a therapist -- someone who knows human behavior better than the average person -- said that Mike did an overall good job during the confrontation for a teenage boy.
Now adding all the trauma onto that, I'd say Mike did a pretty dang good job. Just wanted to share this 😂.
#again i'm not sure this is exact bc I'm too lazy to find the video again#but even if the therapist didn't say this this is what i believe so there you go 😂#also i don't remember what he said about el cuz i was mainly watching for his pov on mike sorry#people somehow forget that Mike is a traumatized teen boy who does not have the best example of loving relationships around him#mike wheeler#el hopper#stranger things 4#stranger things#mike wheeler needs a hug#mike wheeler defender#byler#<— target audience#this isn't really pro mileven or byler but byler are my preferred audience im tagging byler#jay's saying stuff :)#jay's talking ST <3
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(Edit: i just remembered the ending, shh abt me not knwoing his real name lmao) It's like 2 something am rn and I am quite eepy BUT, I had the slightest motivation soo.. Caz art!^^
I don't think I'm the first but still, my motivation ran out halfway through unfortunately lmao- gonna draw more of these characters in the morning cuz artfight is gonna beat my ass in a day or so
#still wakes the deep#caz mcleary#still wakes the deep caz#art#fanart#horror movie art#body horror game#lazy art#i saw a video description of the game call him cameron 'caz' mcleary..#Cameron..#idk if its canon but that is funny as hell if it's his name idk#i want him to be fluffy#okay now I'm just rambling in tags my bad#I got ship ideas for this game cuz thats what my brain does send help#i need more art of this game yall#Muir is immediately next my sweet sweet beloved :)#still wakes the deep fanart#i kinda want him to be fluffy but if the game shadow is him he prob isnt
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I have found 'naked' Heinrix at least. Still searching for the full mesh, which might take me a while cause I've got a lot of other things I need to actually be doing.
But of note, hair? Black, but scalp is dark brown.
I think some other tool might be better for the obtaining of meshes, cause this one, AssetStudio, doesn't maintain the UV mapping, at least in anything I've ripped so far. Might try and fiddle with ninja ripper or something else at some stage.
#heinrix van calox#my heinrix tag#rogue trader#wh40k#sad noises at the lack of UV mapping and I'm too lazy to do it for a mesh i didn't make lmao#this is really just meant for fun/my own referance not like 'grr you didn't get him right'#meanwhile I need to download it for the steam deck I foresee a lot of steam deck time in my future
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this pisses me off so bad, i shouldn't be thinking about it for my own mental health, but even with my somewhat limited knowledge of bnha canon the more i think about it the more examples i can find of boku no hero academia's rampant fucking ableism
#rant in tags#bakugo shouto nagant dabi toga twice shigaraki compress all might CHISAKI#the fact that the only 'hero' character who has canon symptoms of a psychological issue/trauma is bakugo#those symptoms of a psychological illness are anger issues#and the anger issues get treated as an immutable part of his character (and as the butt of jokes!)#AND he's presented/used as an antagonistic character despite being a 'hero' character#*AND* those anger issues are used as rationale for severe human rights violations done to bakugo!#(specifically i'm thinking of the sports festival bullshit)#<-ALL OF THIS SHIT WAS A DELIBERATE DECISION ON THE PART OF THE CREATOR/S.#the fact that the only presented psychological symptoms of the abuse shouto canonically suffered are being stand-offish and socially awkwar#and the “quirky cute” kind of socially awkward too. rather than the kind that makes you unpopular and deeply isolated and lonely#<-deliberate decision on the part of the creator/s.#nagant is presented as unrealistically unaffected by over a decade in solitary confinement#a torture method that can infamously produce severe and long-lasting trauma within a couple of DAYS#and it's even more egregious when you look at how chisaki responds to solitary confinement in the story#because chisaki was in solitary for a much shorter time than nagant#<-this shit was a deliberate decision on horikoshi's part. it was in the manga. i read it.#the fact that dabi's scars and shigaraki's skin conditions are both used to mark them as 'ugly' and therefore as villains#<-DELIBERATE DECISION BY HORIKOSHI. PART OF THEIR CHARACTER DESIGN.#toga's character is pretty clearly based off of the homophobic 'lesbian vampire' trope (which is homophobia not ableism)#AND her desire/need for blood is treated as something that makes her inherently 'weird' or 'deviant' or 'creepy'#suffusing even her character design and the way she moves and talks.#<-DELIBERATE. DECISION. BY. HORIKOSHI.#twice? yeah sure he's sympathetic. but his backstory presents his neurodivergence as a punishment for laziness/selfishness#and it's treated as a gag. twice is a gag character. and the gag is his neurodivergence.#<-DELIBERATE DECISION BY HORIKOSHI. you get the point by now.#compress loses his arm and gets it replaced with a prosthetic that functions exactly like an organic arm.#<-deliberate decision by horikoshi.#all might coughing up blood being used as humor#*and* the fact that his injuries and the way they disable him are treated as this oh-so-terrible-secret
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Fun wip because I want to make sure Stray has more than one (1) reference photo lmao-
#light's spot#wip#this is my lazy style (used this w/ Light a lot back in the day) but!!!#I might render it in my lineless style if I'm bored#also Dyson if u see this HIIIII!!!!#glad u like Stray!! istg I need to talk w/ u but my energy is like. so so obliterated- I miss ya!!#okay back to craxy ramble tags#I love deconstructing the pupils of the Star Rail cast now#like. Ratio has completely different ones from Dan Heng. and Sampo has a diamond as his pupil. and March has them big-ol multicolor eyes???#sorry yeah. i'm insane#i do need to look at Arlan more tho#i love him#Stray
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that moment when your wip is actually looking cool and good and you're loving drawing it and just LOOKING at it is enough to make you want to start jumping up and down and screaming
#i love my art now and that's such a foreign feeling#but god i'm so excited for this piece to be done!!!#i just need to work out the physics on the hair a little more and then i can lineart#and i'm not gonna render just flat colours (too lazy)#but AHH#it's a drawing of kon el kent btw <333#dude i showed one of my friends a panel from reign of the supermen during maths#AND SHE HATED KONS SUIT#SAID IT WAS UGLY#SAID HE SHOULDNT WEAR THE LEATHER JACKET#THAT THE BELTS WERE DUMB#I NEARLY CRIED#LEAVE HIM ALONEEEEEEEEE#she also said it looked like bart was naked 💔💔💔#i'll never get over it#she's dead to me /lh#dc#i guess because i rambled in the tags#might post a wip once i'm done the sketch#original post
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(Out of nowhere, you are approached by a familiar lightbulb-headed Cog.)
Ah, it's you, cat. Thinking you're oh-so-slick. Muttering and whispering under those raggedy whiskers of yours... Thinking I am unable to hear it all...
Well, you've simply underestimated my fantastic hearing. You probably want to know the reason why I'm here, taking a 'break' from my incredibly important scientific breakthroughs? It's quite simple, really!
(She gets close, and squints her eyes.)
I know what you are.
Farewell, now!
(She then leaves the way she came from.)
(Spam giggles immensely, covering her face... it always seems like she's giggling, isn't she? This lasts... at least thirty seconds. Longer than usual.)
And I know what I am too, Sparky! You broke through something, that's for sure. Really, broke through...
(She looks down, continuing to laugh nervously.)
You know, I find it odd you Havent tried to bulb blast me into the stratosphere by now. I mean knowing how you acted with Frostbite. Is there something peculiar about me that you perhaps can't quite track? Something about me that you... don't know what I am?
I know, I know, I'm talking to nobody again. But you were there when I had a moment today with the one the only Frostbite The Bravecog. You may be remaining. Lurking in the shadows. Knowing about these thoughts that I'm thinking.
(The giggling resumes, lasting far shorter this time.)
Your brother's a piece of fucking barp, by the way
(She braces for impact for a few seconds, wincing while smiling, before comically looking around to realize nobody's there. She sighs.)
Wow, okay maybe toony superhero show logic doesn't apply in this situation. Cool.
WAIT I JUST FUCKING REALIZED WHAT SHE MEANT but like. Dude if she meant that then what's the point I mean the whole ahh sellbot department barping knows unless you're Really low on the ladder. Heheh... maybe she did mean what I thought she meant.
Oh i'm so fucking screwed. What kind of bitch gets filament fever
#bright spark#<- for finding this again later. haha i called her sparky#the way she talks fucking tickles my brain so much im so . ohguohguohoghog SHE#SORRY THAT THIS TOOK SO LONG you see i was in the mindset that i would do this one little thing and then i would do my work which uh.#that leads to so so SO much procrastination. including on fun things! oh so fun things.#today was an event.#i also spent quite a bit of time ruminating i “would she really say that” is worse when shes literally you#to clarify. she is spam's aunt by like. building standards. not really in her found family. so its fucked up but as i said in discord this#is like. a “your mom's kinda hot” level crush. you know. also sorry i really wanted to say filament fever its been eating at me okay#nothing SERIOUS the way my f/os (and spam's f/os (plural now?? i guess?? if today was a canon event)) are#honestly mark still feels like the only real one with her to me but damn it. if spam's reflecting My Changes then she's Reflecting My Chang#spam in toontown unlike my other sonas is the most “its just you again” out of all of them and thats partially because her main#cog connection... is frostbite. they bounce off each other like we literally bounce off each other and damn it shes been so stagnant on her#own because of it. mark happened and she mirrored that because i kept fucking talking about him while we were in character and ideally#i should TRY to fix her. but also man because i'm not doing Serious lore stuff with her i dont. even know if i want to.#i kinda brushed it over the rug by saying that she relies on her constant entertainment so readily because she herself still doesnt feel#like she has a place outside of cogs only. sure she's in high roller backstage sure she's in allan's family now but shes not Doing anything#with herself the way that her friends are. mole's a ranger. frostbite cohosts. wishes... has chip. and something she doesn't have--#living and fully growing as a toon. rather than being haphazardly slapped into a world. and in some respects she's envious of frostbite#finding themselves so quickly because she distracts herself because she's still kinda struggling with it. despite everything. yes she lives#happy and carefree a lot of the time but she keeps buying those dumb phones because when she's truly alone... her mind starts to wander.#that's what mark is for. so that spam can dream of a world where she has a purpose. even if its fake and fragile and just nothing compared#to the great friends that she already has. where she feels like its worth it doing something when she doesn't have anyone. and in that#respect. with the goons ma allan parallels in sonboy the spam cathal parallels shine. seeking tv (and to a lesser extent games) as a#method of escapism. even when one's life is already pretty good. because there's nothing else worth doing without friends or family.#the internet isn't just cool. it gives her something to be when it seems like everyone is something but her. and maybe thats a lazy#excuse for why it seems like she doesnt HAVE anything to call her own but that but damn it i'm trying my best to twist it around.#spam has such a HISTORY yknow? even if it feels like i havent established her much.#spam is the hearts to frostbite's spades not just because they're the duo of all time but because spam's fake stupid love keeps her going#sorry i just started rambling in the tags of this post about spam it. happens. she loves her friends so much i need to reiterate that okay
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can't believe that until a year ago i used to hate genderbending that's so embarrassing lol glad i grew out of that and have learned to appreciate it properly
#i'm not the same anymore uwu and all that jazz#tbf one thing i always hated abt genderbending that sometimes the flaws of a character get erased once they're a woman#to make her a mary sue basically#tho i have learned it depends heavily on fandom and character#shikam*ru (censoring so this doesn't appear in the tags) genderbends are the best example#i'll forever be of the opinion that if shika had been a girl instead he - resp. she - would've been thee most iconic character ever#and when i saw fem shika fics i was so elated#just to find out that in every. single. one. his flaws got erased to make fem shika out more superior#and it's so maddening to me like why would you do that??? his flaws are what makes him human! what makes him real!#he needs to make mistakes that actually bite him in the ass and that he learns from then - that's what makes him a dynamic character#and fem shika writers just erase that. make her smarter (??? as if he's not smart enough already??) and not lazy just for girlboss purposes#thanks for making an interesting character boring now#and it's so prevalent that it ruined the prospect of fem shika to me at all now...#but anyways genderbending rules actually#who needs men when they all could be women actually#(i only wrote this bc i suddenly realized i've never read a fem tony fic after i posted the one two days ago lol)
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#vent in tags#tw blood#i. need. to. move. out.#the entire fucking house is broken. to say nothing of my stepfamily#i cannot place a single foot out of line or express any single ounce of negative sentiment towards my situation#without it being me being ungrateful#stepdad tells me that if it's such a problem to live here then i should fix it on my seven days off#holding my unemployment over my head AS IF I WOULDN'T HAVE A JOB IF THEY'D LET ME.#he and mom told me to take the summer off and then i'm the bad guy and lazy for taking the summer off#something i didn't even want to do to begin with#i said one mildly rude thing about how nobody bothers to tell me anything#(nobody told me the water had been shut off to the entire house)#and he told me to reconsider having said that to him.#like. or what. finish that. or what? are you threatening me? fucking say it.#I want to move out but i don't trust him to not kick me out before I'm ready if i don't stay in line.#he's of the mindset that people grow through hardship. so he inflicts it.#so i'll just sit in my room pretending it's all fine I guess! :) no problems here. just going to be happy all the tie because i'm not#allowed to be anything else.#my options are to either be helpful (I can't be)#or to just be quiet and complacent and convenient#and to just accept everything blindly and endure everything silently
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Sometimes I go on a tangent trying to analyze how I feel about or why I do certain things, & I often feel that by focusing on typing it out it's easier for me to actually make conclusions about the "why", but I still don't have a solution & it's kinda frustrating that I do all this analyzing about myself & still feel like a lazy disappointment to everyone around me.
#tmi#brought to you by me typing up what i hate about different cleaning tasks that makes it difficult for me to motivate myself to do#i ended up deleting my vent blog since i haven't used it in forever. i sometimes type these tangents up on masotdon but the character limit-#-makes it annoying & also i feel like I shouldn't post so much of these tangents online. sometimes i end up in a tangent while messaging my-#-s/o. sometimes it happens in the tags of a post i make or reblog#this time i tried just doing it in my phone's notes but when my s/o asked me what i'm doing i ended up rambling to him#i just get so frustrated with myself. very few people like cleaning but ppl do it anyway bc it needs to be done.#all the advice i find is either “just do the thing” or “break it into smaller steps” & the latter is helpful... but i have a hard time-#-figuring out what the smaller steps should be. also i constantly worry about my parents judging how I cleaned something (esp my step dad)#& everything is so exhausting. & everything needs to be done so frequently.#sometimes in certain situations I actually do enjoy cleaning! but it's never at home#i can be so damn productive at work or in class but as soon as it's time to leave my brain shuts off#& @ home it's like my brain can ONLY focus on what it *wants* to do.#i just hate my brain. my meds help a bit but they aren't a magical cure for my laziness
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