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I guess.... tumblr didn't want to upload my post which is.... funny hhhhhh Anyways I'm back!! I met my quota (is that the word?) Which is finishing college and getting a job so I'm here!!! HELLO THERE IS A READ MORE BUTTON NOW???? OKAY COOLLL!!!
Thank you to everyone who checked up on me and to everyone who respected my decision and I hope you will allow me back here 😭😭😭 missed u
#i missed u so much it's unreal#you don't know how much you love the gay people in your phone until u have to stop talking to them#please don't hate me#also if any drama happened while i was gone PLEASE spill the tea!
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YOUNG BEN & VIKTOR HARGREEVES IN THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY SEASON FOUR EPISODE FOUR (2024)
because i can count the things i liked about season four on one hand and one of them is definitely viktor hanging out in (og) ben's room and trying on his domino mask as ben does his own thing and lets him, the two of them sharing comfortable quiet.
#tua#the umbrella academy#ben hargreeves#viktor hargreeves#the amount of feelings i have rn is unreal i giffed this real quick so it's meh BUT!! B U T#brelly ben i miss you so much it's not even fair#67#ciel edits#t.j. mcgibbon#ethan hwang
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he forgot to finish rhe heart
#beeduo#i like to think cranboo is like those cryptids like in that bigfoot way where every photo of him looks Unreal😭😭#girl stay still and SMILE!!!!#cbeeduo#cranboo#ctubbo#cbeeduo fanart#fun little doooddlleee i love my favs miss them so Much u know jow it is
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LOOK AT THEMMMM CRIES
#bleh bla babbles#castlevania#grant danasty#trevor belmont#sypha belnades#akumajou dracula#grant i miss u so much its unreal
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caught up this week right in time for the start of season 5… we’re so back
#i missed this show so bad it’s unreal#if u were concerned yes rita is describing riverdale plot points and YES they are one hundred percent accurate (source: me im an expert)#frankly rita would fucking adore riverdale. the world should embrace this more#anyhow. falling back into old hyperfixations is what the summer is for innit ^_^ and its nice to draw better than 2020 me could. we have fun#the penumbra podcast#tpp#jupeter#juno steel#peter nureyev#rita (tpp)#buddy aurinko#vespa ilkay#jet sikuliaq#god i stopped listening somewhere when s3 was coming out cause school was too much at the time... relistening made me tear up#feels good feels organic feels like i missed juno steel so bad and didn’t even realize tili had him back#nureyev voice do you think these louboutins are too flashy for a kombucha brewing#<- real line from riverdale. rita could attest to that. i know this in my heart
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I’m new here and I absolutely love your type of blogs with analysis and meta and long texts~~
I was wondering—is Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship the kind that could be interpreted as romantic?
first of all, welcome and ty! and sorry it took me so long to reply, i hope u're still around anon. now to answer ur question
i'll take this opportunity to share all my thoughts on the topic bc i have Many.
TLDR: it is possible to read it as romantic if you really want to, but it's not meant to (at least not as of right now in the story aka ch.224)
deep dive under the cut as to why
-> can Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship be interpreted as romantic?
i like how you phrased that bc, the thing is, interpretation is very subjective. you're welcome and allowed to interpret things however you want, but in EY&HJ's case, i feel like you'd have to work a lil extra hard to get to that point.
-> is Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship meant to be interpreted as romantic?
this one's easy bc no. objectively Not. the genre of No Home is drama and slice of life (and once upon a time, horror). even if they were to ever end up in a romantic relationship, that's not what the story is about.
when i ask myself what the author's intention is with this story, i'd say it's to (realistically) portray how a young person with trauma would navigate another young person's trauma. and showing how easy it is to unintentionally fuck it up for various reasons: lacking context as to what exactly said trauma is, generally not knowing how to navigate it, their own trauma getting in the way, lacking the necessary resources. take your pick.
think of it like "how should i carry someone else's baggage when i have my own to deal with?" while also keeping in mind they're kids; they often don't have enough experience to know how to help, and even when they know what the right thing to do is, they're not old enough to take (legal) action.
and especially, the most heart-breaking yet realistic thing, when you're just getting to know someone, you can't know everything about them. it's so easy to accidentally do or say sth that cuts or offends when it wasn't meant to. but when they've got their own issues, it's hard not to take it personally (eg. EY talking about HJ's parents without knowing his mom died not long ago in the beginning of the story).
-> what even is Eunyung and Haejoon’s relationship??
this one's so funny bc i have no idea how to answer and i'm convinced not even EY and HJ themselves would know how to answer. they're not really friends; they got off on the wrong foot and kept walking with two left feet way too much to call themselves friends. the things that pushed them together the most were the dorms (not anymore) and the same friend group (more or less since EY has multiple).
what fits them best i'd say is "the universe forced us together against our will and now we're stuck with one another altho we hate each other" (<- at least in the beginning) extended with the "misery loves company" sentiment. finding comfort in someone who gets it, even tho they only kinda get it but not really but it works out anyway except it doesn't <- THERE'S NO NAME FOR THAT *cry* they invented a new type of character dynamic smh (i've never read a pairing with so much (romantic) potential only to see them completely fuck up their chance so royally by the end of their interaction EVERY SINGLE TIME. like yeah, enemies to lovers whatever BUT NOT TO THAT LEVEL HOLY SHIT)
they've changed each other, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. they're compatible in the way they understand each other on a deeper level and incompatible in the way they don't.
...however...
this is how HJ thinks of EY: (and also what No Home is truly abt)
and this is how EY feels about HJ after EY found out HJ used to steal as well (aka that HJ isn't perfect like the stuck up bitch EY thought he was at first):
so...
<- -> EY's first impression of HJ was that he was looking down on him and sth like "does this guy have ulterior motives? or is he just that naive being so trusting?" until EY found out HJ wasn't that different from him. after that, EY started admiring HJ for still managing to achieve things in life despite the hardships he had to go through. the type of admiration that can easily (and sometimes does) slip into envy.
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since the beginning, EY has helped HJ (or at least tried to) without him knowing. sometimes it worked out, sometimes not. most times EY tried doing sth nice for HJ was (from EY's perspective) in return to HJ trying to help him or doing nice things for him (which, again, sometimes worked out, sometimes not). EY was just paying back a debt to "this stubborn naive guy who keeps getting into trouble and butting into his business. gotta look out for this idiot or he might get scammed." (<- eg. when EY offered to get HJ's money back from his uncle)
he doesn't do it for credit or friendship or out of obligation, he's just doing what he thinks is the right thing bc he doesn't want to owe anyone anything. he can't accept people just genuinely being kind, genuinely caring and genuinely wanting to help. but he's been learning and slowly coming to terms with it.
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<- -> HJ first wanted to try befriending EY despite not liking him bc, well, the guy did steal his wallet and stab him in their first interaction. after trying and failing at it multiple times, thanksgiving happened, and HJ started thinking of EY as his underclassman bc he realized EY's just a kid with issues and he should keep an eye on him (discretely bc EY hates pity).
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with time HJ has come to understand EY better by going after him whenever he ran off and slowly realized that EY does mean well and has his reasons (as fucked up as they might be sometimes). but his mentality abt EY is still "i gotta push him in the right direction cuz he's my underclassman and i unintentionally got attached to him (somehow??)" (also bc he knows EY already gave up on himself so he needs a lil help to find his way again. also also bc he knows EY is lowkey suicidal and he's scared it'll be his fault if sth happens) <- his care for EY comes from a protective/nurturing (/possibly maybe guilty) place which started when he realized EY was just a kid^^. in other words, HJ still bothers with EY out of a subconscious sense of responsibility/obligation in a way (a good way tho. or at least a way that gets better)
see, sth i struggle with is if HJ thinks he has to or wants to or thinks he should or can't just not help/care for EY. i can't exactly pinpoint where the sentiment is coming from. his face is too blank for me to read sometimes T_T
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to summarize: HJ is EY's goal, what EY wishes he could've been. and EY is HJ's 'responsibility' so to speak (bc 'burden' doesn't quite fit since HJ is there for EY willingly) -> EY has a positive opinion of HJ while HJ has a neutral opinion of EY (which is also gradually getting better)
note1: i think HJ's intention (maybe subconsciously) was to be to EY what HJ's upperclassman was to him. aka someone who's there when you need it and can help guide you. it would explain why HJ kept chasing after EY despite not really having a reason to and EY repeatedly rejecting HJ's care/help.
note2: i also believe the 'upper-under-classman' relationship dynamic fits them the best atm bc it also matches the way the story often singles EY out as he's the only second year (aka younger) of the 6 MCs.
-> Romance in No Home?
another thing i should mention is that No Home rarely leaves things open for interpretation. the deepest arguments EY&HJ had were always spelled out for us, to make us understand exactly what the problem was, and how there isn't a good guy and a bad guy. it's just two people with issuesTM.
from what we've seen in the story up to this point, i couldn't pick out a moment where i'd go "here! that's romantic! that's the moment they realized SomeThing!" yk
when it comes to romance specifically, i feel like a handful of opportunities were missed. there are scenes which could've easily been written trough a rosy lens but simply weren't.
exhibit A:
HJ was speechless bc "wow this mf really is actively picking a fight with an authority figure. i gotta make sure things don't escalate" not bc "hoLY sHiT hE's PreTTy. all his fangirls are on to something". however, this only becomes more clear when you keep reading the next few chapters, so i understand how you could interpret it as the latter.
exhibit B:
here they got so close and the moment was so deep bc "woaa he said he believes me. no one's said to me that before!". unfortunately, EY was panicking too much for it to mean something bc of the guilt he felt for HJ trusting someone so undeserving of trust like EY.
exhibit C:
this is maybe the closest we got to romantic between these two. i think this might be the only (or at least first) ever deep interaction between them that didn't end in a fight or misunderstanding. is it meant to be romantic tho? -> ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
-> what do i think?
first, full transparency: i went into reading this story fully expecting it to be a BL and for EY&HJ to end up together. but the more i kept on reading, the more i got the ick thinking about them being in a (romantic) relationship bc, at least from what we've seen so far in the story, their relationship would be so ToxicTM (which i personally don't enjoy reading).
as they are right now, i wouldn't want them to be together like that. like, honestly, you still can't really consider these two even friends; they just tolerate each other if the stars align correctly (altho, i'll admit, their relationship is gradually getting better!!). every big argument they had i thought "god, there's no coming back from that. i'd cut ties so quickly if was them wtf". i still don't know how they managed to keep on interacting, props to them ig.
there's a lot of unresolved issues between them. and a lot of resentment which would not bode well in a romantic relationship. the smallest argument would turn explosive and they'd be, at best, in an on&off type of relationship. they both have the power to break the other and neither would be afraid to use it. they have a lot of history together, which is not always pleasant, so if they ever were to go the romantic route, it would have to be a long way to go.
technically, i could see them in a romantic relationship if they both went to therapy first and talked out all the baggage they're carrying (both individual and shared). realistically tho, what i think will happen at the end of No Home is that either they never cross paths again after high school ends (which would absolutely break my heart Wanan pls don't), or they somehow (unintentionally) end up living together bc they both desperately needed a roommate to pay rent (which would be a hilarious fucking gag LMAO). just, HJ going to uni/work and EY doing his own thing (prolly an actor) while still cohabiting together; hanging out to watch a movie before bed <- (whether platonic or romantic being left up for interpretation)
<- -> in conclusion, from what we've seen up to this point, their relationship is mainly upper-under-classman; reluctant (maybe) friends who tolerate each other but also care (too) deeply. they've changed each other, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. in some ways they're compatible and in others they're not.
all this being said, their relationship is improving and romance between EY&HJ is not impossible, just rather unlikely imo. but, again, interpretation is subjective and u're welcome to read their relationship however you want.
#ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF YOU ARE DELULU ENOUGH!! THAT'S HOW SHIPPING WORKS IN GENERAL. IN EVERY FANDOM.#anon. this shit fried my head. it 3.30am and my brain is not braining anymore. i love analyzing these two but goddamn is it HARD.#THERE'S SO MUCH NUANCE TO EVERY INTERACTION THEY HAVE *cry*#life's been hectic and this question demanded i sit down in 7 different sittings to get everything written down. hence why it took me a bit#i tried to write down all my thoughts and i don't think i managed. but i hope what i have here makes sense.#and i also hope i actually answered ur question. i feel like i got side-tracked and possibly missed the target.#no home#no home manhwa#eunyung baek#haejoon goh#ey hj parallels#meta#집이 없어#webtoon#god u guys have no idea how many times while reading i was like 'omg they're gonna kiss omg pls do'#only to keep reading and going like 'hoLY FUCK PLS DO *NOT*!! get away from him omfg!!'#the whiplash was fucking unreal. i remember honest to god SOBBING at 4am every time they fought <- that first time read was rough#also! if you agree/disagree/want to correct me or just talk about the topic i'm open to discussion/criticism. (just pls be nice abt it ><)#my ask box is open <3
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stares at u... i miss hiiai... i miss ttmy .....
SAME ........ i keep telling myself I just have to make it through this week ..(<- has been saying that for the past 3 weeks now.) But in other news I think they're officially littleb bugs now . to me <3
#BUT THIS TIME . THIS TIME I JUST HAVE TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE WEEK . THEN I CAN FINALLLY PROPERLY THINK ABT THEM AGAIN ...#stares back at yoiuu ... fuck what was i gonnna say .#OH YEAH . been thinkin g abt talking with u for the past .. week now? ive just been procrastinating sending an ask or smth lmao.#time is hard . not enough time and yet too much time</3#augh ... miss alka so much its unreal .
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Hi just coming here to say I love your art so much. Finding your Roman art gives me all the copium I need cause I miss him XD
trust me, he loves the attention ;3c
#masky gets the mail#doodle#roman torchwick#rwby#im glad u like him!!! i miss him so much its unreal#I DONT CARE IF NEO GOT HER CLOSURE I NEED MY CLOSURE#IM NOT OVER IT DAMN IT >:o(#dont ask about the pose i got real bored
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hellooo my funny and amazing and beautiful moot riko!!!! how are you!!! how’s the holidays going ?!? do you celebrate christmas ??? hope you’re resting well!! i miss u 🫶🫶🫶
HI GENIE MY POOKIE 🫶🫶🫶 pls that gif is so adorable my heart omg
holidays r going pretty well!! i j landed from a flight and i’m planning on going skiing with my family :3 i am very much enjoying break… having nothing to do is so blissful lol n yes i do celebrate christmas!!!! i love love love the vibe this time of year its probably my fav aside from fall as a whole <3
us !!!!!!
#I SAW UR COMMENTS N RBS ON MY CHRISTMAAS FICS I LOVE U SO MUCH THANK U 🫶🫶🫶#ur literally the best ever#genie>>>>>>> u#wbu how have u been??? missed u sm pookums#i literally feel elated everytime i see u in my inbox it’s unreal#hope u find time to get to csm… :3333#inbox 💌#precious moots!#genie!
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Down to the riverbeds of headlight gold where the real city swarms. Down to the ozone stink of the subway grates and the rabbit punch of the boom-box beat. West toward the river, where the buildings get lower, the alleys narrower. The smells stronger. The faces darker. The accents thicker. Down where the summer heat isn’t something you chat about. It’s something you fight every step. Down to the real city. Gotham City.
Batman: Run, Riddler, Run (1992) #1
(Gerard Jones, Mark Badger)
#batman: run riddler run#batman: run riddler run 1992#bruce wayne#batman#gerard jones#mark badger#dc#dc comics#dcedit#comicedit#comicsedit#u can reblog#TO BE HONEST THIS IS A POEM TO ME.#actual legitimate radical class commentary. a butch puerto rican lesbian named bob. bruce getting rightfully called out#im sorry to say but nineties gerard never missed in his life as much as hes an irredeemable freak nowadays#words#god i miss nineties comics so bad its unreal
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Sparrogie :D
CHARLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE U!!! ILY !!!!!!!!! <3333
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ough i miss my baby wucy so much... i miss her meows and i miss kissing her forehead and i miss holding her... its so hard without her and its so alone and quiet and empty and i want my baby back so so bad. i wish i could turn and see her laying beside me again and just reach out and pet her
#kitty purrs#vent#pet death#watched a video of her and just. broke down#god lucy. i miss u so much its unreal. i miss u
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But. Yeah. i finished reading trigun maximum.
this manga ripped me apart limb from limb, then put me back together again. never have i felt a catharsis this deep before. a manga that made me cry seven times, as opposed to the previous record holders of two times each.
it really is something special. and i love it so, so, SO much.
#speculation nation#fanny reads trigun#gonna have to retire that tag maybe#unless i wanna post some dumb screenshots of subsequent read throughs#i do plan on grabbing icons of both wolfwood and vash#probably only them tbh. MAYBE elendira if for nothing else than i LOVE the expressions she makes#and livio. what a big lovable doofus.#elendira and livio tho r around MUCH less often than vash and wolfwood lol. So.#i have some more solid ideas for what i wanna do for my trigun longfic#i know the Exact moment that would work for my purposes.#and right now it feels a little cheap to do. bc it gets rid of that ending. which really was such a satisfying ending.#but get this. i want wolfwood back. SO.#i will do my gay little time manipulations to put wolfwood back into the story. as is my right as a fanfic writer.#(if u missed my last post about it i wanna do a time travel fic for vash lol. a la NG+ for persona games.)#(NG+ is of course very common in persona fandoms & i love the concept. havent seen it in trigun yet so i wanna do one myself)#so. yea. anyways. i love trigun maximum and i could not POSSIBLY recommend it more#yes it made the person who cried only like 4 times TOTAL last year cry seven times by itself#beefed this year's count from 3 to 10 in LESS than a day. jeeeeze#it's so good tho. soooo fucking good. the Tragedy. the Angst. im so in love with it it's unreal.#if you guys thought i couldnt be more obnoxious about trigun WELL you have only seen the beginning#i dont get into new interests easily. not genuinely. once smth reaches this status it is fucking Staying#in the same way that ive been a persona fan since 2014 & show no signs of stopping#i just know that trigun is here to stay in my heart.#which is good for the people who have followed me for trigun!!! hiiiiiiiii#trigun spoilers/
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going through my edits tag rn and i actually have no memory of making any of those sets from 2+ years ago
#she was a different girl then sadly 😔#and my giffing process has changed so much since then it’s unreal#but also#i had like long covid and an ed (which i’ve never talked about on here or like to anyone besides my family like ever) and it’s just…#remember when i had the time and the energy to spend hours on ps#because i was in deeeeeep denial and didn’t want to take time to care for myself#but um!!! anyways!!! fjfkflfl#i’m doing better now and fr getting off tumblr / social media and spending more time w/ myself#was the best thing i could do#trying to be more active on here tho because i missed u all mwah#eating disorder tw#ed tw#<<< just in case ❤️#sameera.txt#to delete
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okaaaayyy finally watched I saw the tv glow :^)
#liked it a lot on a lot of levels. visuals n soundtrack n acting was great. rly subtle n cohesive n effective#i wanna sit with it a little to digest it and maybe rewatch#but unfortunately i didnt get the same emotional resonance a lot of ppl did from it.. possibly bc i was watching w other ppl#but i dont think its that i think i just struggle to connect meaningfully w things that are like. what if the choices u didnt make#alienated u from the world and ur sense of self n what if the life u were living was a hollow bubble separate from the real world etcetc#bc like yeah man im very aware of how unreal my life n the world around me feels at times. and it isnt bc im holding myself within#tight limitations/constraints in order to hide parts of me from myself or forcing myself to be smth im not in order to engage w society#like im just mentally ill n the dissociation n derealisation are symptoms of that..#i can 100% understand why so many queer ppl feel so strongly abt it n the gender stuff implied in it#but thats just not my experience of queerness personally. its never been smth ive had to grapple with much#like yeah i havent fully figured out my gender shit. but im ok w that its not holding me back from living the life i want to be living#my sense of self is just so far divorced from my physical body and the physical world around me..... idk im too tired to articulate this#but that aside i did rly like it as a movie! and it was very heartbreaking.. just not in a way that struck me super personally#which i was rly hoping it would ahh sorry everyone 😔 but hey maybe thatll come after i think abt it some more#lots of cool effects too i liked the different ways they did the moon face thing. i liked how effective the whole distortion of memory#and nostalgia etc was done visually.. aesthetically very yummy. aw man..#i didnt even cry i was rly hoping it would make me cry...... :-(#makes me feel like im missing out on smth cuz everyone else ive seen talk abt it got hit so hard by it#just made my peace w being on the outside looking in i guess.. i shook out all my regrets and what-couldve-beens as a depressed teen#n now im just here to vibe forever..... 😌 i am toooooo tired to be typing i just keep saying the same thing over an dover probably#maybe a 7 or 8 out of 10 movie for me i think which is still pretty damn worth it#okayyy brushing my teeth and going to bed cuz i wanna go climbing tomorrow so need to rest up ‼️#sorry i dont want to rain on anyones parade genuinely did think it was a great movie im glad others are feeling it so intensely#ahhhh!!!!#.diaries
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started watching kingdom bc i am losing it
#ep 1#sunwoo being everyones hype boy i love my aries bestie so much he was SCREAMING and YELLING for everyone 😭😭😭#made me remember just how much i love and miss skz :') i remember watching the perf when it came out and being so proud of them#bobby just living his best life having 0 fucks. i love him#rhythm ta will always be THAT song#but may i say......the boyz fucking slayed are u KIDDING that ending was UNREAL ??? the contemporary dance break thing ???? so unique ??#majestic. also sunwoo had me gripping the sheets curling my toes#btob minhyuk is also so adorable i love him#my top 3 performances were definitely tbz skz ikon#surprised ikon got last place bc they slayed ???#also yes i am... 2 years late to the party. what about it.#i need a survival show to REALLY get into a group what can i say#🌺
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