#i miss working 12h shifts

[teddybeartoji]

sigh just one more week and i can become a full-time tumblrina i can't wait to read all of my mutuals' works i've been lacking

[fantomette22]

Does it already happened to you guys?

When there’s someone you cross path with often; like at work who’s a very distant coworker or customer that always show up and by pure coincidence they stop coming around at the same time an accident happened? And you start to be afraid that they might have actually passed away?! But then you realise later they are actually ok?!

Well that happened to me.

Context:

I got very concerned and scared that someone i see and chat sometimes with, at work passed away (an older and kind lady who clean up the administration building. I work at an open pit for the mine directly and she’s from an exterior company that came here) but she’s alright! I am so relieved!

2 weeks ago? There was an accident at an intersection with traffic lights in my town where an older woman was hit by a car and sadly passed away.

I passed just next to the police cars a bit after it happened. That was very scary and concerning. There were people sitting on the ground not feeling good (remind me of my own car accident when i had a panicked attack) and then just seeing someone lying on the ground trying to be reanimated but you feel the person might be dead… and it was the case apparently. Articles aren’t really clear on that when they got to the hospital.

And like a couple of days later i thought wait what if it was the kind lady i didn’t saw her this last days?!

But the accident was before 6pm and people who cleaned up normally finish their shift afterwards. So it doesn’t work right? I try to calm down that it was possibly a coincidence. My schedule changed a bit so it’s possible we just « miss » the other while going around the building.

And like a week pass + days off in between(i work 4-5 days then 4-5 off. 12h a day yeah that’s why) all and i grow concerned bc i haven’t saw her since at all. I really did get sad and emotional over this shit. (Ah anxiety…)

And who do i see today far into a corridor? This lady 🙏 man i am so relieved.

Never thought i would be so happy to saw someone alive lmao. You should have seen my face it looked like i witness a miracle or smt

I went to say hi and asked how she was doing.

So yeah good news

[zaptap]

btw my second night at big run was pretty much as not-that-great as the first. didnt raise my record any more, but i did get a couple more shifts above gold, so i guess i may have helped some of my teammates get there.

fought joe a couple more times, still didnt win (though i did on the current rotation) or get gold scales

i also barely made it into the 300s. ive always gotten into big run so late that there's plenty of time for people who can get a lot of eggs and rank way up to have already long since done so, so i always feel like it's more important to focus on just getting through the shift so i can get up there and get better teammates... instead of the ones i usually got who seemed like they were focused on dying repeatedly (there was one shift where i was the one player left 3 times in like 30s)

like i said last big run: i feel like im not going to have a good experience with these unless i can manage to get in right away. but these last 2 big runs had me working at that time, so i didnt get in for like over 12h. maybe in 3 months it'll work out better...?

at least now it isnt that hard to get gold, so i'm not missing out on anything this time. just the experience i guess (i'd still call it less fun than normal salmon run)

[libraincarnate]

I never understood 12th house and what goes in there. I have venus and saturn(both in Gemini) in 12h(Taurus,gemini rising).

barely hear any good thing about this house.am I doomed or something?

so if i’m not mistaken you have your saturn, venus, and rising in gemini, your venus & saturn in the 12th house, and you have taurus in the 12th house too? i’m also assuming you aren’t using the whole sign house system but another one such as placidus.

first of all i’m so sorry but this is long afffff. you just sent me down a rabbit hole & my brain is spiraling, thank you so much :)

also, i want to remind you that i’m not an astrologer!

k here we go, sorry if this is all over the place.

- the 12th house has to do with isolation, prison, hospitals, suffering, mental health, obstacles, selflessness, the spiritual realm & spiritual abilities, etc. a lot of these are dark and heavy.

- gemini is ruled by mercury which is the fastest planet. as a result gemini placements tend to move at a fast pace. they can be impulsive. they have a million different thoughts and bounce from one to the next. gemini risings & gemini/mercury dominants tend to be slim and agile. they move quickly, and when they work they multitask without even realizing it.

geminis want to do things and get them done now. saturn likes this because saturn is about disciple and work ethic and doesn’t like procrastination. if your saturn is retrograde or has harsh aspects to other planets like mars, venus, etc. you may be a procrastinator and like to indulge, especially if you have taurus/libra or 2nd/5th house placements.

geminis talk a lot, speak fast & if you don’t keep up you can miss their jokes or wonder when they started talking about another topic. they notice the details. they know how to adapt to different people and situations because they have great social awareness but also know how to shape shift & wear different masks. child-like, curious, light hearted individuals who are logical and need to process things in a way that makes sense to them.

- saturn on the other hand is the slowest planet and it has qualities that are opposite to those of mercury. saturn is serious, mature, strict, makes me think of a commander of troops. 12th house brings a lack of structure but saturn likes structure and order. with saturn, unless things are up to standard then there’s no moving forward which can bring delays. saturn is thorough just as gemini is detail oriented.

- because of these opposing qualities between gemini and saturn there may feel like a tug of war going on inside of you. as aforementioned, gemini likes to talk, to gather and share information but saturn (remember it rules capricorn) is reserved, plus it’s in the 12th house of privacy.

you may feel misunderstood, when you talk it's easy to think you revealed too much about yourself or just certain things that you know. your inner world may be completely different to what anyone may think because gemini knows how to put on a mask and the 12th house is known for hiding. people may not really know you.

you’re probably in your head a lot, always thinking and exploring your the different parts of your mind. 12th house has a lot of challenging and dark themes & saturn brings its own challenges as well. you could feel like you are mentally imprisoned or trapped in your head, so you turn to day dreaming, drugs, alcohol, or anything that can help you escape like books, movies, video games, music. life may not feel real sometimes. wish you could leave earth, your body, or at least your mind. you face your battles alone, and there are many. probably have went through a period of time where you were isolated and not really interacting with people. and you may also feel like you haven’t “lived” yet, like your life hasn’t really begun.

- saturn puts restriction on gemini & gemini doesn’t want to sit still. but some of that restriction may be for your benefit. saturn the teacher forces gemini the student to sit in its seat, learn the lesson, and pass the test. saturn can be very tough but not without purpose and usually there is a reward.

gemini tends to want things instantly but saturn can slowing things down and part of the lesson may also be to slow down and chill, to improve your patience. focus on one thing and then the next. it’s like saturn is sifting through, strengthening your weaknesses in this 12th house area of your life. teaching you valuable lessons and habits that may be crucial for the future. it’s cleaning up the past, forcing you to confront it so that positive change can happen. dragging you through your suffering to get you to your reward.

there are probably some really dark intense parts of you that people would never imagine but it's also hard for you to accept. they may be intimidating but that gemini curiosity might not let you ignore those parts of you though, and saturn may not want you to ignore them either. part of saturn’s lesson may be facing those parts of you, doing the work that is needed to deal with them, heal from them.

- venus relates to love, art, romance, music, dance, pleasure relationships, luxury, and harmony. again you have conflicting themes here between what venus represents and what the 12th house represents. the 12th house kinda smothers venus here. relationship, love, and these other joys of venus seem to be covered by a fog. when it comes to romantic relationships this may be a strange area for you. love can be confusing because venus is in the house of mystery but also because gemini needs things to make sense and it may be difficult to understand your feelings. you may be a bit detached yet have really deep feelings. you might attract people who need to be “fixed/saved” or who can relate to the themes of the 12th house. and you may have a soft spot for people like this because you can empathize with them, you guys may feel like you get each other. be careful of trauma bonding. some romantic interests may also get addicted to or obsessed with the way you make them feel.

when it comes to love you take it seriously. you’re considerate, loyal, intense, passionate but playful, flirtatious, you know how to make them feel special, especially with your words. communication is important to you. you may want a partner that can have all sorts of conversations, from superficial to profound. someone who can keep you interested. your primary love language may be words of affirmation and you’d like a strong mental connection with your partner. and remember you’re not crazy, weird, or too intense for love.

with that being said, if venus is here in the 12th house then so is beauty! physical beauty, yes, but also beauty in all the suffering and challenges that you experience. however the beauty in all this may be hidden and you may have to seek out the beauty in all this. finding beauty in the solitude, in being your best friend. and with saturn here there also has to be power. it reveals meaning and understanding with the boundaries it places.

venus may be part of your reward, your hidden gem. it could be in the form of self love. where you accept the past and the person you were, your flaws & mistakes. but you also acknowledge the massive amount of growth & progress you’ve made in becoming the person you are, a better person. you see your resilience, how much you’ve persevered. you love and appreciate the many wonderful qualities you have. you finally stop doubting your intelligence. you stick up for yourself, respect your boundaries. you’re kinder to yourself, you stop being so hard on yourself. the kind words you tell others you start to tell them to yoursef too. you know yourself, like really know yourself but also really love yourself inside in out. & that’s such an asset, a form of power.

another part of the reward may be in the form of romantic relationships. someone who finally understands you and takes you seriously. none of your ideas or words are too strange for them. someone you can open up to and the worst parts of you don’t scare them. a fun relationship with great conversation. a person who loves you for you and oh so deeply. a strong mental understanding and bond filled with moments of telepathy, finishing each other's sentences. your feelings are considered, spoken to with love and respect but also that playful teasing. adored with the sweetest words. a relationship where you feel seen. your beauty, your charm, your creativity, your quirks are all admired and adored.

it could also be pleasures that bring great fulfillment and so much more.

- some of the gemini & saturn traits that clash are still some of your strengths. they can serve as an anchor as you navigate the 12th house. saturn is tough but if there’s balance, which venus knows a thing or two about, saturn will cut you some slack. you’re probably funny af and love to laugh. hold on to that! keep laughing at everything! cherish that child-like curiosity and joy, use and enjoy your creativity, your sensuality, your self expression, the lighthearted aspects of life and of yourself so that you're not always so submerged in the dark.

you’re artistic, creative, and talented. either you hide it from others or you may not see it in yourself but it’s there! a unique and poetic way of expressing your words. a super imaginative individual, clever and intelligent.

there’s a sense of undoing yourself with these placements. but this leads to great self-discovery and there’s so much power in that. while learning and accepting your self you also learn so much about life and gain experiences that may seem useless, but they’re not. you could possess knowledge of both the physical and spiritual realm. might notice some of the things you say end up happening, you experience things that just can’t be coincidence, or the dreams you dream come true, dreams with deep spiritual meaning. you reflect on things that most people are afraid to. things that are hidden to others aren’t to you and that’s an advantage.

try to define the things you are and aren’t comfortable sharing. like maybe sharing to much about yourself or your spirituality may be uncomfortable and off limits. discussing these themes or similar topics with people you trust can be helpful & freeing. if you do speak about your experiences, you don’t have to tell people they’re yours, just speak in general. but don’t hide that personality which everyone loves! don’t withhold all your knowledge. the information you choose to share can open the eyes of others. it can lead to further discovery. fall in love with your art, share your creative side. you may be an advocate for self-love, uplifting others but remember to uplift yourself too! don’t neglect yourself whether that be emotionally, mentally, or in any capacity! believe in yourself. and i mean it when i say there is so much potential to come out of this as such a redefined, confident, empathic, disciplined, sensuous, wise, powerful individual who takes the darkness and transforms it into something more than just pain and sorrow.

-i know you didn’t ask for an interpretation but again, you sent me down a rabbit hole and i felt like i was learning more about the 12th house (which is also mysterious & vague to me) as i was answering your ask.

now regarding whether you’re doomed or not. at the end of the day, there are patterns in astrology that indicate outcomes that can be both favorable and unfavorable. but there are somethings to remember. for example, your chart doesn’t just consist of your 12th house, your have 11 other houses/signs in your chart that matter too.

there are parts of my chart which i do no relate to at all and i have maily been using the whole sign system. some of my venus persona chart placements are actually more noticeable or have had a stronger impact than some of my natal chart placements. i relate to some of my placements using the placidus system, but not all of them.

there are different factors in your chart that can balance out or counteract, or lessen the severity of “unfavorable” placements. like i said in one of my astrology observation posts, having prominent capricorn/saturn/10th house placements may indicate having issues with your father but if you’re sun dominant that may not be the case, your father may be someone very close and important to you. also, you may have other planets positively aspecting your saturn, venus, etc. and this can have a positive influence.

i personally do not put too much weight on astrology. idk i kinda look at it like a weather forecast you know? how many times have they say there would be rain but there wasn't? no one for certain can say they know exactly what is happening tomorrow, so nothing is set in stone.

also, some people may resonate more with their placements using the using whole sign house system rather than placidus. so if you do use whole sign, you may even notice you have less or different 12th house placements, perhaps none at all.

- anon, i really hope you see this <3 lol what if this doesn’t relate to you AT ALL 😭 i would die. but if it doesn’t i hope someone else with these placements finds this helpful cause my fingers are bleeding 😘

[elysiancloudii]

A post 3-12h shift life tantrum

I’ll start by saying I’m proud of myself for the attitude I had going into this. I knew I had to work three days back to back and I knew what effect that typically has on my mood. So I knew to remind myself that the emotions I have while exhausted are not necessarily a true reflection of my reality.

HOWEVER (lmao)

I had a serious conflict with an ER nurse. It resulted in an extremely public situation and me being ostracized, which is insanity cause I was in the right. But I suppose that’s what you get for being in an insane place: insane results.

My coworker told be after “I know you want things to be done right, I know you care. But you have to stop caring so much. We don’t get paid enough for that.”

My integrity and how I demand justice are seen as faults. I knew this, but I didn’t realize just how much even others with the same complaints viewed it the same. It all returns to the same thing: being too much. Being fundamentally born wrong. And it’s frustrating.

Frustrating is not a good enough description. It’s maddening, exhausting, alienating. I sat back this weekend and realized my bids for connection were seen as annoyance, even bragging in a lot of cases.

I realized, once again, there’s a disconnect between me and other people. One that, no matter how I try, I just can’t seem to bridge. It makes people either openly hostile or subtly hostile. Even people who seemed to enjoy talking to me once, now make sly passive aggressive remarks or plain ignore when I’m speaking.

It’s not fair.

It makes me distrust people further, which worsens my chronic loneliness. I’m not good enough at pretending to be other than what I am, but what I am is like nails on a chalkboard to people.

And it’s not just at work, it’s at home too. People’s eyes glaze over when I talk about my passion. Even mom’s. The rant I have about how I was parentified and now am discarded now that she’s healed and out of that situation could go on for days.

I have no support. I don’t have the expertise or inclination to be other than I am. What do I do?

I literally have to google “how to end chronic loneliness” and “how to trust people again” lol. Most rhetoric I’ve come across is infuriating tho. And honestly, idk if it will even work. The people who claim to love me are either uninterested or emotionally unavailable.

For four days I’ve made a bid for connection with mom to discuss the situation and decompress. Nothing. I feel small and stupid. I feel like everything I’ve been told and taught was a lie.

Part of me wants to move away, far away. I want to punish her. That’s how I feel, now what I actually want to do.

I just want to be treated gently. And I don’t know why no one does. I’m fragile but I’m constantly being hammered away at.

I’m hurt and frustrated and sad. And I feel like the universe keeps telling me: you’re alone, you’re constantly alone, hey did you forget you’re alone. And I just don’t understand the lesson.

I’m tired. I’m tired of my attempts at connection driving people away. I’m sick of being hammered away at. I’m tired of being disrespected. I’m tired of never giving a sliver of what I give. I’m tired of trying over and over and over only to fail again. I feel pathetic.

If I’m going to be this alone, I might as well be alone in the way I want.

Why not move to a big city? Where I may be lonely but at least the shops are open 24/7. Lonely and surrounded by people is at least a little better than lonely somewhere deserted like here. I could listen to my family call and say they miss me, and I could pretend they mean it. That would prob feel a little nice. Better than being here an ignored.

Being human is too stressful. I’m constantly worried about saying the wrong thing, but I feel I’m just fundamentally wrong. Like every time I speak the sims negative social moodlet pops up.

Maybe I should take a vow of silence.

Idk what I’m going to do about work, I have too much integrity and empathy to be a nurse. I love it, but I’m am not right for nursing as it currently stands. I’m too emotional. I care too much. It’s embarrassing that such a cliche notion actually applies.

I’m sad. And I wish I had died any of the times I tried to off myself. I’m not going to again, I know the life cheat code now, but I honestly would prefer if it had happened. I’d be back home with Source. Or maybe reincarnated as a leaf of seaweed destined to be eaten by a sea turtle. Something simple with little to zero consciousness.

The world is wrong and out of harmony, so to fit in with it I would have to be too. But I can’t even find my own little tribe. I want to but there is a common denominator here.

I hate feeling like this. I hate the reality and finality of this. It feels like a punishment that only death would bring the release of.

[dyrwoodan]

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[666bone]

I miss my downers era i miss always being asleep i miss being fucking numb i need something for the edge so bad i need anything man i am frustrated & im tired & wtf man

[planetdream]

Wait you can predict someone’s future spouses occupation through their 12H?? I just know that your Juno and the house (9H Leo 👀) it’s in can indicate what your future spouse is like but your 12H? Hrm.

I have a problem tho…I have a Taurus Sun and a Scorpio rising so when I put my info in the non-whole house calculator, it says that both my 1H and 12H are Scorpio with my 6H and 7H both being in Taurus…but if I do whole sign, my 12H is in libra and all of my house placements are shifted up one? So idk what to go off of? I also don’t have Capricorn or Cancer in any of my houses w/ non whole sign so 🙃 no parental signs of the zodiac for me ig

-🌙

yeah! i explained it here! there’s another way to figure it out, but i always use derivative astrology (that’s when you look into your chart for info on others) cause it just comes naturally for me.

my chart in placidus is similar! cancer/cap axis missing w virgo in the 1H/2H and pisces in the 7H/8H. when i read for others i typically use a mix of placidus and whole sign when it’s like that bc i know it can resonate either way for people. i suggest looking at both and figuring out was resonates best with you (you can still just use both tbh).

you’re a scorpio rising, so naturally you have libra in the 12H. libra 12H intercepted by scorpio i would hypothesize that they could be a socialite (or someone of importance in the fashion OR legal world; perhaps they study law) and are from/work in a highly populated area. probably dealing with taxing situations that will sooner or later take a toll on them.

[dxmedstudent]

I’m a feminist. I’ll fight for the right to access to sanitary products, and for girls all over the world to have access to an education not marred by missing school because they are bleeding and ashamed. I’m all for the movement to embrace periods; make them socially acceptable, and make them as good as possible. Helping people to understand their cycle and feel empowered is a wonderful thing. We spend a lot of time dealing with our cycle, if we can own it, then it’s a good thing. But it’s also important to acknowledge that periods are sometimes, or even often, horrible. Most people get PMS with their periods, some get severe PMS. Period cramps can be painful; sometimes if you have a condition they can be debilitatingly bad. You don’t have to embrace your periods and feel that they are wonderful to celebrate your womanhood; because periods shouldn’t have to be seen as integral to womanhood at all. Some women don’t have periods, and some people with periods aren’t women. You’re not a failure as a feminist or woman if you see periods as an expensive, messy time when your emotions are all over the place and life is generally a bit harder. “It is really just an exaggerated form of saying to women keep your periods quiet, hide them, be secret about them, don’t talk about them, don’t show your tampon when you walk to the bathroom, your boyfriend doesn’t want to know about your periods.”

OK, that’s disappointing to read. Periods are already hidden and stigmatised, and have been for many years. Birth control was neither invented to make periods secretive, nor is it what people use it for. Not wanting to have periods doesn’t make you a pawn of the patriarchy because the reasons most women who can have access to or afford birth control don’t want periods isn’t relating to period stigma but the fact they are uncomfortable, debilitating,expensive, inconvenient and many other things. And anyway blaming people for choices made in the face of stigma wouldn’t be very feminist. And someone wanting to stop their periods, or make them lighter and more manageable is not frivolous, which bothers me because there’s sometimes an undertone of judging women for ‘choosing not to bleed’ unless they have debilitating symptoms. You don’t need to be completely incapacitated for a week to want to avoid periods; they are an absolute nuisance at the best of times. It is irrelevant that periods are ‘natural’ - so is malaria and your teeth falling out, that doesn’t mean that people should suffer. People are living longer with better nutrition, getting menarche later, and having fewer children; all of which mean we are living through many more periods than our ancestors.  I’ve already gone through maybe almost 20 years of menstruating. 20 years of periods. Most of it without the aid of contraceptives to make things more bearable. I mean, I’m not even old - I still have another 20+ years to go, in theory - if my ovaries hold out that long. And I’ve struggled through 12h shifts with periods, relying on multiple medications to stay functional whilst having to make sure I’m not leaving a bloody slime trail everywhere like some kind of menstrual slug. I wouldn’t even say my periods are bad; they aren’t the most painful, or the heaviest. My PMS isn’t severe, though it’s a pain. I can live. But you know what? It’s still unpleasant, and no, it’s not a minor inconvenience, thank you very much. Yes, it’d be great to get more research on the longterm effects of hormonal birth control; as a feminist, a woman and a doctor I want to learn all I can about the longterm effects these medications (like anything else) might have on the body. We need to work towards more knowledge, and listening to people who have had side effects and for whom the medications really haven’t worked very well. We need to acknowledge that they have risks and limitations and don’t work for everyone. But you don’t see anyone whining that blood pressure tablets or diabetes medication are unnatural, making people lose touch with their personhood, or that they shouldn’t take them because there might be longterm consequences. Newsflash: having unwanted pregnancies is also a very big longterm consequence. menstruating for decades when it is unpleasant is a longterm consequence. Not doing anuthing about your periods often has its own consequences. And people need to weigh up all the actual and potential side effects and risks with the effects of bleeding for a week once a month from the afe of 12 to 55 and being fertile.

[gg-astrology]

@scoups_bf on Twitter asked Seungcheol from Seventeen his birth time at a fansign, and he said roughly around 9:00 in the morning, in case that gives any insight into his chart.

Hey there! ❤️❤️❤️ Thanks for telling me, I was quaking so hard when I saw this ask late night… I checked it out @seungcheolsboyfriend ​/ @scoups_bf on twt ✨definitely did God’s Work for us and took it upon himself to Ask The One True question… (also this is a Win for the gays 🏳️‍🌈congratulations!! I’m so happy for you!!❤️)

[Below Cut: A lil bit more on Choi Seungcheol’s  Natal Chart  ✨ ]

Note: This is an abridged version, a little more censored about the private stuff in his natal chart. ❤️ I give/take around 8.30am, 9am, 9.30am for this one ❤️ I decided to use Whole Signs to get a clearer look ✨ It’s just my thoughts/opinions so please read with discretion! ❤️ This is just to maybe hopefully add a little more to the Seungcheol Overview I did earlier ✨

Definitely the first thing we all noticed was that the rising could probably fall between Libra /Virgo ❤️ And isn’t that just so?? fitting for scoups?? ❤️ I think I cried seeing his talent triangles (his tiny trine and 2 sextiles) – Pluto rx (Scorpio) Uranus/Neptune rx (Capricorn) and Saturn rx (Pisces). 

And the other one with Mars (Libra) Jupiter (Sagittarius) and Sun/Venus (Leo) 

The one thing that got to me was his Pluto rx (Scorpio) and Uranus rx (Capricorn) exactly at 27′49 (so 0′00) — so much power, intensity and transformative power. Strong desire, no matter what house it’s actually in. 

When it’s in a talent triangle (with all retrogrades) that’s a lot of self-transformation, regeneration and assertion in one’s strength– to come through as a talent, foundation, and ability to use his own empowerment (through hardship/challenges) to connect and bring changes to people around him as well.

With retrograde, there’s a lot of energy that’s spinning inwards (towards the person). Internalized energy is common, especially with Saturn (choosing to put on a brave face, hiding fear of uncertainty. Of not making ‘the right choice’ – guilt and doubt associated to the this) Uranus/Neptune (restlessness, suspicion of others, wanting to rebel but also abiding/hiding to look like the norm)  and Pluto (fear of manipulation, of vulnerability. Fear of betrayal or looking ‘weak’)

With all of that in his talent triangle, it makes sense that whilst those are part of his strength— but it also has potential to heal, become balanced and understood. One of the thing that stood out immediately was his Chiron/Ceres being pretty close to the ASC.

Chiron and Ceres being close to his ASC (whether it falls in Libra/Virgo) – points to potential for someone who may strongly identify with healing of others (after understanding their own pains) lots of dedication and nurturing, also being nurtured by others (it can also indicate food and fashion, organizing and managing other’s life, giving advice and caring about their health/how they look physically – as indicated by Virgo Ceres)  

Ceres and Chiron in 12H or 1H– whether it’s conjunct to the ASC or not– can also indicate a person’s conscious awareness (or addiction) to their own well-being, their physicality (behaviorally, how they treat themselves). With Virgo as an earth and mutable sign, it’s nature combined with Chiron/Ceres can make someone feel/think a lot of their self-consciousness. Bringing an emphasis on their health, mental well-being, services to others (which they’ll have to struggle and work through– as indicated by Chiron, in order to bring it to the fore-front and help/heal others as well)

It plays a significant role on the person’s behavioral pattern, their mentality and how they’re perceived, as well as how they see themselves. There’s a lot of service, ‘giving back’ nature when it’s in the 12H/1H. In embodying this health (or personal mental well-being/strength) or spiritually healing/giving to others with it— scoups’s asc (no matter whether it’s Virgo/Libra) will also show signs of this demonstrative, practical ‘giving back’ nature as well. 

It’s so cool to see this– because Ceres can often indicate reactivity. Whether it’s spiritually or up-front, it wants to be nurtured and likes being taken care of.

There’s a shy subtle side to Virgo Ceres/Chiron — where on one hand they do want to be acknowledged/subtly taking care of others. Yet on the other hand they may sometimes not speak, or ask for the things they truly want/need. Because their internal energy is through demonstration—so a lot of people with these aspects (especially in these houses) may often show that they want this/that. But won’t ask for it/expects others to read and understand their gestures for something.  

His Sun and Jupiter being in domicile, while Mars lies in detriment within the other talent triangle– gives power to his self-assertion, energy, knowledge and wisdom to shine through. Libra Mars may be in detriment (whether it’s in 1H or 2H) – but the emphasis here is that he may be able to learn, grow and let others lead if he knows he’s being slightly too dogmatic/forceful at a given time (context).

It makes more sense to look at them together, his Libra Mars (1H/2H) would point to areas in the house where he’ll have to ‘let up on’, instead of using his Sun/Jupiter to ‘guard’ against others for (lessons in personal vs others, letting others into their personal– shifting/adapting what’s ‘theirs’ into ‘ours’— houses in 1H/12H, 11H or 3H/4H)  

Traditional values runs strong, especially what’s learnt at the beginning/childhood and what was nurtured/taught to him to value (boundaries). He may guard it fiercely, but within that. The talent triangle might teach him how to grow/learn and make the best of it by using it differently.

Evaluate his own identity/self-assertion, his appearance (keeping an image) financial/material assets that he may be possessive over (has to do with self-identity and kinda…the fear of having that autonomy/things associated to his personal well-fare/being taken away from him)— these can point to his Libra Mars protecting/guarding itself by being irrational, clingy/possessive or what we might call “selfish”– over those areas (wanting to be ‘fair/just’ to itself– but within that, wanting to ‘share’ itself/good-will with others)

Sun/Jupiter could be in 11H/3H or 12H/4H. There’s a generous nature to both Leo and Sagittarius. Giving and caring. It may be nobby heads most of the time, but within the 11H or 12H (for his Sun) – there’s a compassionate nature that could appease this Libra Mars. 

Helping him learn how to heal, give and share himself with others. This is like a ‘gate’ – and then Jupiter in 3H/4H may need a little abit more explaining. Jupiter ultimately wants the best things for the ‘family, siblings, roots and traditions’.

Although the concept or idea of these things can be static/stagnant on what’s considered ‘family, siblings, roots, values, tradition’ – there’s ultimately a highlighted expansive nature to Jupiter. 

What’s considered his ‘roots, siblings, families, traditions’ can benefit a lot depending on how he grew up surrounded by (what’s considered those things). Jupiter can share, protect, guide (‘let up’) and be generous with those it identifies with, grew up alongside. It becomes proud and protective, over those they care about and shares itself to.

Good-will is prominent in this other talent triangle, but seeing his placements possibly being in 11H/12H (Sun/Venus/Pallas/Vesta/Mercury) – especially with Sun/Venus conjunct (4′) really makes me happy because he’s such a genuinely good-willed, sometimes protective but also very nurture/wanting to be nurtured–progressively healing and half the time, a self-sacrificing/self-assertive dichotomy of an individual.

It’s also genuinely nice to see how Aquarius Pars Fortunae could potentially be in 5H/6H. Health is a thing with Seungcheol— particularly if he needs to control/use it well in order to manifest that Chiron/Ceres ASC stuff properly (looking out/after himself). Aquarius Pars Fortunae talks about a little more refinement, particularly on the personal areas (how they treat/think of themselves and thus– how they exert/show it to the world). When their fortune comes flooding through, it has to do with how structured, progressive, refining and adaptable they are.  

This also helps in cutting back on Moon in detriment (Capricorn), dissecting and refining his ego/self and thoughts about what/how he should manifest. If he can use some of the Aquarius’s realigning, some re-thinking/shaping and not let his Leo/Capricorn sun-moon control his ego/emotions– he would benefit a lot from his health improving, and having an easier time being independent/stable away from extremities/bad behavioral habits or core prejudice (coming from the roots/traditions) as well.

Alot of health and taking care of himself stuff for Seungcheol ❤️ But potentially it’ll be good on cutting down and helping that retrograde triangle as well ❤️ While there may be a lot of ‘strength’– there’s also a lot that talks about self-healing, self-regeneration and we shouldn’t forget about that especially w/ own  Pluto/Chiron as well ❤️

I hope this is?? good?? ❤️ I hope it makes sense at least ❤️❤️ Again, this is just my little take on it so please feel free to do your own reading/research as well! ❤️

EDIT: oh yeah and here’s:

Virgo ASC 💜

Libra ASC ❤️

and

Leo Sun - Capricorn Moon 👅 | 

From the Sun-Moon Catalogue  ❤️ (we’re still trying to get all of them!❤️ So if you have one of the missing placements, feel free to request it in!❤️)

[bipolar-sociopaths-world-blog]

Why are you looking at me

Just another day. Monday Wake up, brush your teeth wash your face get some coffee...(shit hurry up your gonna be late) Out of the house walk 30mins, catch the train ride 45min, change the train line ride 20mins, get off the train go to work. Got a lot to do (be professional keep up with the deadline) take care of all the complaints, make some phone calls, answer emails.... (shit it's already 5) catch a train ride for 20mins, change the train line ride for 45 mins get off, walk for 30mins.. Home, take a shower, (yes eat you need food) do some more work. go to bed. can't sleep

Just another day. Tuesday Wake up, brush your teeth, wash your face rais your head (whos that), walk away, drink some coffee.... (Your gonna be late again). Out of the house, its raining hard 30mins walk, all wet catch a train 45mins ride, change the train line ride 20mis get to work. A lot of emails, a lot of complaints... (fuck you forgot the files...idiot) try to keep up to the deadline fail miserably (your useless) stay overtime. catch a train ride 20mins, change train line ride 45mins, get off walk 30mins. Home, smoke some weed, take a shower, eat something, go to bed. can't sleep

Just another day. Saturday Wake up (what day is it? what does it matter what day is it they all look the same) brush your teeth, wash your face, look in the mirror (what do you want?) walk away drink coffee... go to part-time work walk for 45mins. Wait tables, Smile, Take orders, Smile, load the stock, Smile, help in the bar, Smile. end 12h shift. walk home 45mins. Shower, drink beer take benzo (your not hungry go to bed) sleep.

Just another day. Wednesday Wake up, brush your teeth, wash your face look in the mirror (why are you looking at me? who the hell are you?) drink coffee... (why are you even going to work? your bad at it anyway) walk for 30mins catch a train ride 45mins(your useless), change the train  line ride for 20misn(numb yourself cuz that's the only thing you know how to do) get to work. A lot to do, answer email (idiot, you missed the deadline again.) make some calls... (hey stupid its 5 go home and mop). catch a train ride 20mins, change the train line ride 45mins, everything hurts (why the hell are you complaining) get off walk 30mins. Home. (your not hungry) I'm not that hungry. (Drink some vodka with benzo) why not. go to bed. restless night.

Just another day. Friday Wake up (why are you even getting out of bed) brush teeth(what are you looking at in the mirror ugly), wash face (who is that even), drink coffee(why are you even breathing, you just waste resource in this world). Get out walk 30mins, catch a train ride 45mins (just get lost in the crowd) change train line (your gonna miss the train cuz your a slow worthless piece of shit) ride 20mis. A lot to do (your always behind on the workload because you're incompetent not because there is a lot to do. don't flatter yourself) answer email, (yeah people are complaining because of your idiotic inability to do anything right not because of the product) handle a lot of complaints. stay overtime. Go home catch a train ride 20mins (you should just crawl in a hole somewhere and die) change train line ride 45mins (yeah buy that bottle of vodka) why not, walk 30mins. Home (yeah numb yourself take some drugs to take your mind off of things) drink some vodka take some benzo. (don't worry even if you are worthless you will always have me, is the only one that understands you, I know you the best.) sleepless night  again (yeah go to bed after all your still gonna be the same useless ugly piece of shit tomorrow like always, it gonna be just another day in your worthless little life.)

This is just a long rant story so just some guidelines the lines in the () are an internal dialogue.

Had to vent and wanted to share.

Tell me how do your voices sound.

[silenthillrn]

Working 4-5 9h shifts a week sucks I miss working my three 12h shifts and that being it

[suiriswhite]

. Happy Weekend!🍹 Just realized I haven't posted in 3 days, didn't even feel that long.. I've been quite busy with work. Yesterday I worked 12h, 2 shifts during the day and then an evening shift at the pub on top. But altogether I only worked 2 days this week so a long day like that is okay I'd say.😆 What made me really happy this week: I finally have my 4g wifi!🎉 Yeees, I know that's nothing special but well, where I live it is and after months with crappy internet you really appreciate being on your phone with everything working, it also takes a lot less time than when you need to wait for everything to load.🙄 Now I can even watch movies on my laptop again which wasn't possible before, really missed my movie nights every now and then. And watching youtube videos in good quality instead of 144p is a nice change as well.😂 . So this weekend will probably be spent watching movies, reading books and looking for a car - really need to focus on finally getting myself a car, I can tell you that.. you're just lost without a car out here.😒 . What are your weekend plans? And have you ever experienced a longer period with very slow internet.. or none at all? It can be nice sometimes because you just get so annoyed, you tend to spend less time in your phone, it's just no fun. However, after a while it just gets hard when you can't do things you'd love to do like watching a movie or even things you really have to do but nothing's working.🤷‍♀️ . ➳plantifulalexandra.com (hier: Outback Queensland) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1hoRuinlP6/?igshid=lx0s5s4r4rnw

[ceciliataormina-internship]

29.03

The last week I have been crazy busy at work unfortunately, doing 12h per day over the last four days, which is something that exhausted me a lot. I haven’t got much time to stay behind the Instagram posting schedule, so I posted everything on the 24th morning, creating also a serie of instagram stories to be the account more present into other people’s home view.

Unfortunately my dad’s manager died, therefore we needed to support her and cover her shift while she was going back to Ghana to visit the family for the funeral. I have to miss Marcus’ appointment this week and go straight to see him on saturday for the workshop.

Last week Marcus decided to record the testimonial to do a video with participants’ feedback and he asked me to think about few questions to ask. This is what I wrote down: 1. what brought you here? Why did you choose phototherapy 2. What has this experience given to you? what did you notice about yourself today? 3. Will you do it again? if so, why? My reasoning to choose these questions it stays behind not only the purpose of the workshop but also to discover how effective it is for people. I thought about what I came back home with, last time and these are very similar questions I asked myself, while I was checking how I was feeling regarding doing it another time or not. I believe Marcus will like them and the participants’ response will be great.

[gingerelve]

Got a new furry friend for my sphynx and she's so adorable. Now I have to work another 12h shift, going to miss my two monkeys.

[introvert-traveler]

The lack of fellowship I have seen

Something that pisses me off so much is the lack of fellowship some work places have.

A coworker wanted to miss work the other day because he was having a bad day or something. I don’t really know much. He asked everyone apparently and everyone said no. He keeps forgetting I don’t speak Danish, so he tagged me -I mostly ignore that group chat because since it’s all in Danish, I don’t understand a thing. And is not like they don’t know it, they all do.

I told him I couldn’t because I had to work. Apparently he got pissed off by no-one taking his shift.

Is not the first time he has been really rude and behaved badly, or tried to get out of going to work last minute because he was having a bad day. Man, if I could not go to work everyday I have a bad day, I wouldn’t work most of the time!

Yesterday I asked if anyone could cover for me because I’m sick - I don’t think going with the flu or a cold to work at a restaurant is hygienic or okay at all. No one could.

The manager said I had to go, but that my coworkers should try to make sure I left as early as possible and to be kind to me.

Me being me, I’m allowing this to happen. I could simply say sorry and not go. I could quit. I could make a scandal, but I don’t.

This morning the manager said I could go one hour later, and changed the shift I had tomorrow for one on Friday evening. He also said he was really sorry I couldn’t miss work today, but that they needed me. I told him I wasn’t feeling good at all and that I wouldn’t be able to do much.

The problematic coworker just messaged me asking if I could go earlier than the time I was told to go. After having to translate everything he said yesterday, after seeing how badly he was behaving, and treating everyone, after fondo it out that is mostly because he wants to be payed more and is making problems out of that, and the fact that I’m feeling so shitty, everything hurts and I have a huge headache, I said thar I was only going because I was forced to go, and that I would be there at the estipulated hour.

My problem with this, is that I don’t think is okay to do this. He is angry about his salary, and is not the first time he takes it out with his coworkers. He says that nobody helps him. I have taken a shift from someone that was sick. All of them know I have a full time job, so is not that I’m saying no because I don’t want, I’m saying no because I can’t or I need to rest. I can’t work more that this. I already have a 37hs job, and if you include lunch breaks and travel time is basically 47hs a week. And then two shifts in the restaurant that can be between 4 and 10hs extra per week, plus travel time which can be 1,5hs more. So I’m already working almost 47hs and having 12hs In breaks and travel times where I’m not really free.

In the job I had before this, I covered people that were sick a few times. I couldn’t miss my job just because he wanted to miss his work, and even if he was sick, Is not that I didn’t want to help him, is that I couldn’t.

A normal day where I do both jobs means waking up really early, leaving at 6am and coming back at 22:30 or later. When I get home sometimes I have less 5hs to sleep and then I have to start the day again. It kills me. It leaves me extremely tired. It means being on my feet for most of the day and working 11-13hs, with 1 lunch break and then a 1-2hr break I spend traveling in between jobs. I’m lucky if I’m in bed by 23:30, and even if I’m tired, I still can’t fall asleep easy. So doing this for more than two days a week is not okay. And I should only be doing it once a week. Or not at all. But I like the job, I like the experience it gives me and some of the people.

So even if I somehow had a morning shift at my other job, and the shift they wanted someone to cover was in a time slot I could actually take, I can’t always take it because I would end up exhausted and sick all the time. I would be overworked, and that is not healthy.

Is not a 11-12hs job that you do all in one go, I’m out of the house for around 16hs and a half. I don’t get to sleep more than 5hs before having to start again.

I’m pissed off by this situation. I don’t want to go to work feeling like this. I called in sick at my other job and they had no problem.

And this has happened before in my other job here. People don’t seem to care is someone is sick. And people don’t seem to care if you tell them why you can’t help. I’m saying no because I have another job, or because I’m overworked, not because I want to mess with you.

If you don’t like your job, don’t take it out on me or your coworkers. If you are having a bad day, is not my fault. If you have a problem with the boss, talk it out with him. Don’t mess with us.