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so many dramas to catch on , so little time i have
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Hehe heyyyyyyy
Been a minuteeeeeee
College has started up for me and people were NOT lying about the “adjustment period”. It’s definitely a learning curve and my mental health has been fluctuating so much. I haven’t forgotten abt this blog tho or @ask-corrupted-sticks . I want to get back to interacting with yall again!!! I really miss it, and honestly, I need it. Going back to tumblr-ing kinda gives me that “home away from home” feeling while I’m dormed up over here. Feel free to send in any questions (can’t answer with a drawing for now tho 😭 but you WILL get a lil text response)!! Pls tell me how ya feeling, what ya wanna see, anything ya wanna know abt my version of the sticks!! I missed the community man
Have a Henry freaking out in macdonalds for your troubles.
#thsc#thsc fanart#the henry stickmin collection#henry stickmin#henry stickmin fanart#thoughts not art#I miss talking to yall#I’m still trying to find ‘my people’ in college but having this lil community of nerds makes me feel more at home#I’ll be back just gimme time#get ready for the comeback yall XD
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guys more time on my hands means more writing projects coming up 😁😁😁😁😁
#writing tings#HISTORICAL FICS GET READY FOR MEEEEEEE#after one college au i need to refresh on hiding out at etymology.com#and ive been skimming past the Great War and Paris and I missed writing different eras so badly 😭😭#REDACTED au that’s been cooking for years …. she may need a revival …#also for the unanswered asks so so sorry i will get to those …
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i should be sttudying what the fuck
#its currently 4 am where i live in and im not sleeping bcs i told myself i was gonna study but here i am tempted to fucking write a#jongseong au bcs what the fuck im so deprived and i miss him i miss enha holy shit i miss being that delulu ass bitch i was a year ago im#hating college rn bcs im so fucking burnout bcs my prof expects me to be ready when she wants bcs i have to adjust with her schedule so whe#a last minute comes up i get yelled at by my parents but what can i do prof over everything or else i fail and what the fuck i'll be on my#last year of college soon and im not sure if im ready for adult life oh my god what the fuck rawr forgive me for being neurotic tmi i took#tests and they all consistently concluded that i am inf act neurotic and have a high chance on being diagnosed so forgive me RAWR anyway#imma finish this one subject and fucking rest by trying to write this jay au i have in mind yes slay bless
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i am feeling So Many Things at the moment but mostly i just feel like a disaster
#friday chats#tw vent#it's like.#new school - far from family - already behind - new crush - really tired - fucking focus would you?! - new show - undone chores#on and on and on#a big ball of highs and lows that - instead of mellowing out into a net positive or negative -#- just make me feel like i'm being pulled in two opposite directions#why can't i just have the good and not the bad#i really wanted to take a gap year to decompress from All Of High School but my parents refused#kind of wish i took it regardless. just ''whoops - missed the application deadline! i'll get it in next year'' and faced their ire#but then i wouldn't have met my new friend at freshman camp#we both were individually interested in the queer orgs on campus and could have still met that way#but idk. it wouldn't have been the same#mostly i'm just worried i'm not cut out for living on my own. being an adult with a job. doing college at all.#not because people who have to rely on others/don't have a job/drop out are supposedly failures#but bc i don't have anybody i could safely fall back on AND live a life that is entirely my own if i don't make it#all i've got is my family. who will judge me for failing and force me to stay in the closet.#and frankly i don't want to live like that#so i have to keep going#but also part of me's like. ''you're ready to throw in the towel only a week in?? for fuck's sake friday come on''#it was just so much. i don't know. i just want to rest. i've been stressed for so long#i want a life where my needs are met and i feel safe and loved. that's all#but NOO i have to get a DEGREE to get a JOB so i can even begin to THINK of something like that#my family always jokes about how one day when i'm successful as an author i'll be super rich and have a private jet or whatever#and yeah that just speaks to how poorly they know me but more importantly IF i make it that big i just want to settle somewhere nice#somewhere cozy. maybe start a garden. get a cat. hold a loved one close at night. that's it really#and it sure would be nice if i could have that without having to bend over backwards getting a degree and a 9-to-5 or w/e#but i can't. so throwing myself at the wall that is my shit executive function it is.
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Oh, okay. Realised that I can barely remember how my cat's meowing sounded. That hurts. I know that it was high pitched but not always squeaky, but sometimes squeaky. Picturing it in my mind isn't so easy anymore though.
#she died in 2018 but i'm not sure i'll ever really get over it since. i had to watch and she was very distressed as she died#it could've been more traumatic i guess but when she did pass. i don't know how to describe the sheer agonised shout that left me#ready player one was on the tv and despite it being a film i really enjoyed. i can no longer watch it#because every time i see it all i can think of is the way that she suddenly went completely still#since she stopped breathing before she died#i sat alone in that room for a short amount of time with my hand over the lifeless body of an animal i'd watched grow from birth to death#it was christmas day and i found her convulsing in pain and confusion as the cancer killed her#i'm not particularly fond of that day now all things considered. not that i was a major fan before for various reasons#i was 16 and i'd just started college and just cut my mother off and just lost a family member#i miss my midnight#thorn talks
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no one asked bUT imma go off (affectionate) anyways. ahem:
edse (practicum): portfolio is completed, did portfolio presentation this morning, blog is updated, have all the rubrics... DONE
347: major identity essay? done. final “essay”? done. just gotta go to class tomorrow so we can meet for the final exam time slot and we are going to. talk about books. no more assignments, yay!
395: edtpa? DONE. reflection? DONE. self-evaluation for edtpa? DONE. now, all i have to do is edit edtpa and then submit it for like Official grading and not class grading
405: presentation? made and presented. revision portfolio and reflection? DONE (finished it like fifteen minutes ago lol)
444: giant research paper? DONE. reflection? done. presentation? DONE. just gotta go to the final exam period thursday to watch the rest of the presentations, but no more work for meeeeeeee
and then finally... 305... the only final i actually have left...
#y'all i worked SO HARD#i am so so so ready for a break even tho it's p short#i stayed at college for thanksgiving break so i could do homework and i got SO MUCH DONE and i spent the last two weeks like hardcore#working on finals and homework and i did SO MUCH and i'm so relieved and so proud of myself holy trash that was so much#and my 405 prof is suggesting that i submit the fiction piece i wrote somewhere iugfcgvhujijuhygfc idk where but i'm kind of 👀#like i'm a wuss and submitting scares me a bit ngl but like. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH he thinks that i just need to make slight like wording#revisions and then it's ready to go out iuyfgdxghuijohugfcghijo imma miss that class haha#anyways just like. in a Wow state of mind right now#like... it's all finally ending and then i student teach next semester and i freaking finally am about to have a break and like... i did it?#now all i have to do is do well on my 347 papers which aren't graded yet (i: am scared/nervous haha have an a but still ahhhhhhh)#and then write my 305 and get that back... and then edit and submit edtpa and then the worst of it: WAIT AND HOPE THAT I PASS EDTPA UGH#pls pray for me to pass <3#or send good thoughts <3#anyways sorry for rambling i just wanted to be proud of myself okijuhygfdxfgyhujioiuhygf
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about to trauma dump to the ac*u and hope i get the job wish me luck
#theyre so funny for this question like what did they expect the response to be LOLLL#i know they had to change things to not get sued but like damn yall know this is just an excuse for me to trauma dump now#like lmfaaaaoooooo#anyways if i get this done in the next hour it will literally be the [TRAGIC-task youve put off for 2 months only took 15 minutes!]#meme all over again and that will just kill me bc i did put it off for an extra 10 hours today again#anyways i would like to be paid 30 bucks an hour so pleaseeeeeeeeeee hire me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee#if not this its back to the motherland boys so get ready for a 3 hour time difference IM GONE FOREVER SOON#v.txt#literally so excited to graduate and leave for at minimum a year and be literally anywhere but here college is a lie friends#and dont do it unless you are 5345245u34% sure you want to bc i do feel like i have been scammed#I SHOULDVE DONE A TRADE!!!!!!#anyways hears hoping i get this job and find a different way to spend time in peru bc regardless i do miss it there#none of u understand the intricacies of being able to get pollo la brasa or ceviche whenever i want..... without my mom having to make it#none of u understand the intracacies of coming back from the MOTHER-motherland and having the capital police stop ur bus#anyways as per usual if your motherland isnt at least a level 4 DNT for us citizens dont even bother talking to me about it#HAVING YOUR DNI IN YOUR BACK POCKET AT ALL TIME-RS MAKE SOME NOISEEEEEEEE#realiziing i spent here's wrong earlier and i hope you know it haunts me but i wont change it so we'll all have to deal
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ugh every day i remember that this is my real life & i’m not getting a do over
#like i don’t get to go back & finish college with my besties when i’m ready#i just missed out on it#& every day i miss out on more#& i’m doing nothing to change that#🤪✌🏻#personal
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I know there's a common thing of "christians are christians because they haven't actually read the bible" but I actually grew up being told to read the entire bible once a year once I learned to read. I even had a NIV kids' one with a checklist that had you read a certain amount per day. I only ever read my daily amount when forced to by my youth group or family members that did read the whole thing once per year and even then I usually faked it until they left me alone
#and yes my family did believe the conspiracy that NIV bibles were deleting verses since they knew kids would read it over KJV#and they'd grow up reading said bible without learning all of Jesus's miracles or something#turns out#said verses were not missing but put into footnotes since they might not have actually been in the original writings#a lot of my older family dropped out of school p early#so the bible was one of the few things they could readily get and read#and they knew someone would teach them if they couldn't read a part of it#my grandfather was the first to graduate highschool and he was the 13th child out of 14 who lived#my father was first to graduate from college#my mom was the first to finish medical school#so I got super lucky to have family around me that valued education like that#tho they started to get very extreme after that and pushed me towards more and more academic things until I was ready to yeet myself#so reading the bible had a special place in my family both from the fundamentalist standpoint and from an academic standpoint#they were poor black folk in rural NJ GA and FL so#not much to do but have babies do manual labor and go to church especially back then#for a while my family's churches were even anti-ipad bibles#until they learned they could have the audio playing so the older folks that couldn't read all that well#either from lack of education or declining eye site#n e ways I hope y'all enjoyed my ramblings about intersectionality and bible reading#I did attempt it once but got super uncomfortable reading about sex and stuff like that in middle school#and started having terrible intrusive thoughts so I stopped#I also recognize that it's a Jewish tradition to read the entire Torah once a year I believe#And it resets either during Yom Kippur or Rosh Hashanah#my jewish found fam can correct me on that later#but I get wanting to read your holy book to make sure you know what's up and refresh your knowledge#idk maybe I'll write an undergraduate thesis about how the bible comforts black americans as a concept rather than a religion#ex christian#religious trauma
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I was so close to lowering my queque to acceptable numbers of owed artwork now it's all the way over ten slots again :(
#i wanna get it under 5 for when college starts will i ever be able to go back to those times#still thamk you so much i need money#forever thankful for the internet and people caring to commission#since im blabbering ! i actually need a new keyboard. ive been buying cheap ones and they've been lasting a year or so#but i think im ready to buy a better one if the world insist on it#and not because i still don't have 100% accuracy on the keys and i want to work on the dark#the e is just too far from the i and i don't wanna do the shortcuts again#aughhh if i could only get a new graphics tablet. I'll miss you forever I see you in my dreams girl
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you know what I miss? The adrenaline rush you get when you’re getting ready for a college party that you know your crush is gonna be at
#the pining#the longing#the drunk dancing#I miss it#feeling nostalgic rn#the pregame is included in the getting ready part#sometimes I miss college#sometimes I don’t#it’s a fine line for sure
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There was a fuck ton of freezing rain and it’s still going on, but because schools are stupid they’re not canceling school, only busses
So because my mom actually gives to fucks about my safety, I’m staying home from school today
Fuck you school board, if it’s not safe for the busses, chances are it’s not safe for everyone else trying to get to school
But eh, I needed a mental health day anyways
Yeah it's probably good that you get to have a day to take a break
#it is 7:32#i had a project due at 7:30#and did not start it until 5:40#plus i had to get ready for school and go through homeroom#i am missing Two Paragraphs#but at least my mom can't say I didn't turn anything in#maybe if i fail my mom won't force me to go to an early college course that i'll apparently have to pay for if i (inevitably) fail anyway#despite never wanting to do that fucking course anyway. and now i'll have to pay for something my mom wants for me#it has been days of crying for us both man
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today i realized that i actually really miss being in school. i miss having that sort of intellectual and creative stimulation. there’s so much that i still want to learn in the fields that i’m passionate about, and perhaps one of the reasons i’ve been so creatively dries out lately is because i’m essentially teaching myself a lot of things?
#i want to learn!!! i want to put my theoretical knowledge of the performing arts into PRACTICE#especially with writing tho. i want to get good at it and figure out my style and idk recover the confidence i used to have#and acting is just like… i gotta DO it. i have to just learn through practice#and i want to go to college and find a group of creative friend that i can feel at home with and we can help each other produce our ideas#i was doing application stuff today and i guess it just made me realize how bored i am#i’m made for more#ik that sounds pretentious but i am not ready to settle down. there so much left to DO#…and here i am stuck at home doing math (drudgery) and working in retail (which is okay but I’m not staying there forever)#also i think the real distiction here is i’m longing for ARTS school. i’m missing being able to immerse myself in subjects that I specifical#*specifically love#i DO NOT miss high school#belle speaks#stories of my life#yearning hours#poem idea
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I've got a job interview for a rly nice place next friday
Fellas
pls fucking pray for me
#txts#manifesting....mainifesting.....manifesting#its 35hour weeks w/ over 1k a month which is good for trainee aka Ausbildung stuff#ofc the usual 30 paid vacation days as there dont exist unpaid ones#13 month extra pay and possibility of home office later during training like 2nd year for example#oh and also flexible times so i could start at 7 or i could start at 9 etc#it's also on a big campus so maybe...i can get secondhand college vibes experience ;;#i feel like i missed out okay xD i wouldnt even have the american experience to be fair#like...this is germany aka europe#its not whats presented in american tv at all so its fine#but still#tbh just the 35hour work week is 10/10#cutting 5 whole hours off what i do now? FUCK YEAH#i gotta make like...idk a list of questions to ask or that could be asked#i wanna be prepared#i COULD do the interview at work too#but tbh i prob am just gonna call in sick and do it at home bc i am jittery af and dont wanna hide it from colleagues#and the one i am conspiring isnt around fridays#(also i am fuckinged tired have headaches and have been feeling sick a few days so i wanted to chill tf out for a bit now)#(do NOT talk to me about todays work day unless you are ready for a lot of ranting k thx)
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i miss home
#d speaks#saw pics of nephews back to school#oldest one is off to college#we used to live together. i missed his whole high school experience#the second is so grown up and getting ready for high school#my niece doesnt know me#other family have passed in the years ive been out of the country#i dont know where home is anymore#i feel like i dont belong anywhere
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