#i miss colins grandpas family cemetery i miss the coop i miss the stupid rooster i miss the grass i miss the field full of birds

[king-sassy08]

Why do people act like living in the city is the greatest thing ever. Oh go live in the metroplex you'll meet lots of people and you'll never be alone again and you'll be surrounded by friends. I've never felt more alone in my entire life. I live in a city. I live in the metroplex and I'm so alone. This never happened in the country. The city is so isolating and cold. You're never alone in the country. You see the same people at the single grocery store every day. You probably don't like them. One of them probably bullied you. A few of them probably hate you as much as you hate them. But you see em every time. You see the same roads. The same deer. The same people. It's just...not the same. The city is huge and packed and feels so empty in such a hollow way. The country is huge and open and simultaneously empty and packed and in a way that doesn't feel alone. Or it does. But the alone is different. I can't explain it. I just don't understand how country people leave and talk about how the city is so much better. Sure, political climate, ok, I see that. But anything else? I can't understand it. The two weeks until I go home feel like the longest weeks of my life.