#i mean...i know it was one of those tumblr favourites back when it first came out and idk if im lame for liking it

[yourlittlettoy]

FIRST “NEST” HIGHLIGHTS ✨

Just for the sake of using this blog like an actual blogging space 💁🏻‍♀️✨ let me tell you about how my first NEST went!!

For those of you that aren’t familiar, NEST is one of the biggest fetish gatherings in North America for us t-word enthusiasts! I’ve known about it since forever ago, and this may it was my first time actually attending. It was: everything I’d hoped it would be (˘▽˘ʃƪ)・ﾟ✧♡ here are some highlights!

This gathering was probably one of the biggest I’ve ever been to in terms of the amount of friends I saw alone! There were pals from our Tumblr community, friends from Japan, everyone from my gathering friend groups, and lots of friends from my local community as well. It was really heaven to just be with all of my favourite people all at once and in one place (˘▽˘ʃƪ)・ﾟ✧♡

The events were REALLY COOL! Definitely a gathering with one of the most comprehensive schedules I’ve ever experienced! I participated in as much as I could, but notably the squid games, auctions, and t-word-theatre (which is a big public t-word show where someone get’s got in front of an audience in a very theatrical way!) was super cool! Having said that…

I GOT KIDNAPPED!! Well, “napped” 😅 don’t worry, no real felonies here hahaha. When I applied to be ‘napped like back in the beginning of the year, I didn’t hear anything back at all about the process of how that was going. Knowing not every applicant ends up getting chosen, I didn’t let myself keep my hopes up. Long story short.. after I excitedly went to the t-word theatre event all pumped to watch someone get got… to my great surprise, that person was gonna be me lmao ‼️😱 I was kinda *taken* from my seat and tied to a chair in front of everyone, then a game show-dating show scenario played out with 3 bachelors behind a curtain answering questions (really funny and witty answers, might I add) that the show host threw their way 😆. Of course, then the host eventually asks the question “our bachelorette loves to laugh, how would you make her laugh?” … and basically I watched as all of them came through the curtain to come get me 😱 one by one…. And then !!! OF COURSE ALL THREE HAD TO COME AT ONCE 😱💀😵!!! And I couldn’t take it right so I was yelling “help meeee” hahaha ya know cause pooOOooOoOor meeeee 🤪😇. And the host was like… “sure I’ll help them” AND JOINED IN ON THE LERS SIDE 💀💀💀! ANYWAYYYY despite how extremely evil that was 😜🥺, it was 10/10 one of the coolest experiences of my life, I got an “I got napped” certificate AND it made me really happy when people approached me later saying they liked my scene (˘▽˘ʃƪ)・ﾟ✧♡ THANK U NEST FOR CHOOSING MEEEE! 🩷

This was the first gathering I been to with a partner and he was beyond lovely and supportive and we didn’t struggle with feeling any kind of restrictions due to each other .. and this means a lot because I intend on going to gatherings for as long as I can and the fact that that won’t interfere with my love life is truly a dream come true for me :)

Oh, and I experienced getting t-worded by one of my most sadistic gal pals in a fully nylon body suit and 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 I think my soul left my body that day lmaoooo RIP ME

Those are the highlights!!! This post really is a summary but happy to share more details if there are any questions 😁 thank you for reading and for following along this lil journey with me <3 I adore and appreciate all of you here with me right now! We’ve come a long way 🥰 maybe see some of you next year!!! 👀😙 that would be amazing!

[studentinpursuitofclouds]

how would the sdv townies react to a farmer that wears lolita / ouji fashion?

like imagine there's a new farmer in town and they tend the farm, go fishing or mining in the most impractical clothes ever !! (but it's pretty so who cares lol)

I searched for the meaning of lolita/ouji, because honestly this is the first time I've heard of it. Quite an enthralling article, by the way! Thanks anon, both for the question and the interesting information 💕🌺

For those who don't know what it is: basically, Lolita fashion is a Japanese subculture that was based on the clothing style of Victorian era and Rococo style. No one knows exactly when this subculture emerged, but Wiki said that it was somewhere around the 70s. Found a Tumblr post for an example of what it looks like, or you can look it up yourself. It's pretty, but it's definitely Hell on earth if you somehow think of working on a farm or in the Mines in such clothes 😅

Sorry anon, but I'll make it for bachelors/bachelorettes this time. Hope you don't mind 💕 Anyway, back to the question...

SDV bachelors/ettes react to a Farmer that wears Lolita/Ouji outfit while working:

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Ha, see! When Haley said that if a person wants to, they will always look beautiful and fashionable EVEN at work. EVEN if that job is digging in the dirt and picking up roots. And back then, people told Haley it was stupid and not practical. But Farmer is proof of her words, look at them! *Pointing at Farmer dressed up in a beautiful outfit that's covered in dirt and grass in a lot of places*. Ewww. Uh, or maybe not....

Sebastian thinks Ouji's gothic outfit is so cool, but doesn't understand why it's what the Farmer wears to pick pumpkins and cranberries. Do they like being stuck doing laundry for so long? Because he doesn't see the logic. They want to look pretty all the time? Okay, Farmer's choice. But they'll definitely need a tonne of washing powder, because dirt and dust will not spare the Farmer's pretty clothes (especially where the fabric is white).

Emily's heart cracked to pieces when she saw that Farmer had soiled their beautiful clothes in slime and monster blood. She was, of course, immensely glad that her chaotic friend was okay, but.... Maybe the Farmer will let Emily make clothes for them that are fashionable AND practical, to their taste and style? Plus the blue-haired girl wouldn't turn down the opportunity to try a new style in sewing clothes, especially considering how incredible and expressive Farmer's outfit are.

This valley seems to attract people with a bizarre choice of clothes. Alex doesn't understand why the Farmer is not satisfied with, say, an ordinary jacket and jeans. Or a T-shirt with jeans. Or any other clothes that don't look as weird. He's seen something similar to Farmer's clothes in Haley's fashion magazines with one eye once, but it's still weird to him. Especially working as a farmer in that suit in the summer heat all day.

Oh yes! Abigail recognised the style! A few years ago she'd always fought with her parents because they wouldn't let her daughter go out in "occult clothing" and couldn't understand that Abby had the right to express herself. The gothic Lolita style was her favourite, but she later wanted something a little more comfortable (and she's not a big fan of skirts). So Farmer, who is going to Mines in this outfit is either the bravest or the craziest person. The outfit is so cool, but it's kinda uncomfortable.

Shane almost choked on his beer at what he saw. A Farmer was seriously going to work in... this? Do they even know how much effort it takes to take care of a chicken coop alone, and that it's not a job for a fucking-? What is this shit anyway? Fashion? They kind of came here to become farmers, didn't they? What the hell does Shane care, though? Let the weirdo wear whatever they wants, he doesn't give a damn.

But that's completely impractical! Maru always prioritises convenience over beauty in her choice of clothes. Who would, say, be engaged in inventions and experiments in dressy clothes, when the probability of spilling machine oil or (Yoba forbid) chemical reagent on oneself is quite high? You can't wash such things afterwards, and it will be a waste of expensive fabric. The Farmer looks great (though a bit eccentric for Maru's taste), but you shouldn't be farming or fishing in such clothes.

As long as Farmer doesn't go overboard with their clothes and expose themself to overheating or difficulty breathing properly - then Harvey has nothing against their style. It's a bit odd and extravagant, but they're an adult and have the right to wear what they like. The worry comes, though, when the Farmer's told the doctor that they're going to fight the monsters in the Mines in these clothes. Yoba have mercy, maybe Harvey can talk them into wearing some protection, like helmet or something? Please, he's getting nervous....

Penny will be honest - as a child, she had secretly dreamed of some dress like this before. But having grown up, the red-haired girl became rather reserved and modest, afraid to step outside the bounds of comfort and afraid of the negative reaction of others. On top of that, such outfits were usually not cheap. Seeing Farmer running around in such a beautiful outfit and not really worrying about it getting ruined, while Penny could only dream of it made her feel.... envy? Sadness? Both? *Sigh* It's complicated...

Wow! Yo, sick outfit! Hey, Sam definitely remembers Abby used to wear something like that before her parents made her stop doing it. Farmer looks great! Except it's unlikely the clothes will be as chic after tilling a field. Or fishing. Willy used to say that some bait stinks for a week at least. So be careful, Farmer, it's easy to ruin an outfit like that.

This is Farmer's choice, but Leah should warn - going to the forest for mushrooms in such impractical clothes will end up with Farmer covered in cobwebs, leaves, and most likely, somewhere a sleeve will get caught on a branch and tear the fabric. As if the artist herself sometimes has a hard time with her clothes - blueberry bushes and thistles can be very treacherous and sticky. And also painful. That's why the Farmer's going to have a hard time. It is better to let them sacrifice one day without their beautiful clothes and go to the forest normally.

Elliot himself spends so much effort and time to style his luxurious and unruly hair, to iron his white shirt perfectly, to polish his shoes to a dazzling shine. The writer can't imagine such a thing - to do all the hard work on his appearance and clothes, to spoil everything in Mines at once. The Farmer looks so wonderful, don't they feel at all bad about ruining the expensive fabric of their clothes? Of course, Elliott is in favour of the idea of trying to look good at all times, but in some places it may be inappropriate.

[bazzybelle]

Good Omens 2 and Wayward Son - A Fan's Commentary on Fandom Reactions

I’m going to start off by saying apologies for any obvious grammatical errors. I am writing purely from the heart here. 

Also, apologies to my Sandman friends. If you haven’t read The Simon Snow Trilogy, this will go over your heads. However, I have been going back and forth on writing this meta since the release of Good Omens 2, and I just finished reading a spectacular meta on queer ships becoming canon by @avelera, which you can find here (read it, it’s brilliant). Anyway, I feel now’s a good time to let out all of my feelings when it comes to Good Omens 2 and how similar it was to reading Wayward Son. 

Simon Snow friends, you all know that Wayward Son is my favourite book out of the trilogy. You also know that this can be considered a controversial take within the fandom. And I don’t mean that in a toxic way, this fandom is one of the more wholesome fandoms I’ve seen; But in the way of like… Wayward Son is itself a polarizing book. 

I say this, knowing full well what went down when Wayward Son was released. Perhaps I had the advantage of not being completely embroiled within the Simon Snow  fandom until after I’d finished reading the book, but I lived on the periphery. I followed Rainbow on Twitter (fuck you, I am not calling it X), I had saved some artwork on Pinterest (before I found out those were stolen, wherein I immediately unpinned them and deleted my fandom folders), and I was excited to get Wayward Son as soon as it came out. So much so that I asked my husband to go to the Indigo near his office and buy it because I wanted to read it right away. 

Friends, I demolished that book within a DAY. 

Then I read it again. And again. And again. 

Then I wrote my first fanfiction in eight years. 

This book changed me. But you all know that. I’ve talked about it often, and that’s not what this meta (Editorial? Opinion piece? Shouting into the void?) is about. 

What I am going to talk about is the amount of pure vitriol this book got once it was released. There was SO MUCH complaining about the book. It was too short! There was no point to it! Why aren’t Simon and Baz having sexy vampire sex? Why aren’t they living together (never mind that this was briefly discussed at the end of Carry On, but go off I guess)? 

And you know what’s even funnier? Within a couple of weeks (it might have even been days, I’m a little fuzzy on timelines) Rainbow announced the third book. We knew, right away, that Wayward Son was meant to be an in-between book! Rainbow, being a fandom person herself, has said time and time again that she had always considered Wayward Son as an in-between book, structured like The Empire Strikes Back within the Star Wars original trilogy. Like think of the in-between books of any series, they are ALWAYS the darkest ones. In order to fully appreciate the win in the end, you need to go through the tough shit. 

What I loved about Wayward Son was it took that idea and spun it. It went all “ok, yeah we dealt with the win, now let’s deal with the aftermath. Only then can we have the makeouts and sexy times these guys deserved.”  (and damn, did Any Way The Wind Blows deliver on that promise).

But I am getting away from myself again. Point is, it was always meant to be an in-between book. There was always meant to be a resolution at the end of the trilogy. But that sure as hell didn’t stop people from outright demanding Rainbow give them the happy ending NOW. Pestering her on Twitter, (not so much on Tumblr) demanding she do this, or do that, or “you better not kill Baz” (even though she has ALWAYS SAID SHE NEVER WOULD) or “they better not break up” (even though, narratively, it was heading in that direction). The closer the book got to release date, the more people complained about how awful Wayward Son was. 

It was really disheartening to see. 

Which is why I got really upset when the SAME THING happened after the release of Good Omens 2. 

(For clarification purposes, because several of my friends have spoken to me about their own personal issues with Good Omens 2. And you are all super fucking valid. I am strictly referring to the amount of anger I saw online because although Aziraphale and Crowley kissed, they didn’t have an immediate happily ever after. I am also speaking of the anger expressed because the season wasn’t wrapped up in a neat little bow.)

Like with the release of Wayward Son, people seemed to have forgotten that season 2 of Good Omens was meant to be an inbetween season. Neil Gaiman has not been shy to talk about that. He has said over and over again that Season 2 was always meant to be a bridge between the Good Omens he and Terry Pratchett wrote together, and the sequel they had been planning. 

What… did you all just forget about that? Do you not know how narrative writing works? 

It’s like people refused to take a step back and breathe for a second and appreciate the season for what it was. A beautiful romantic story (because, IT WAS! Just like Neil said it would be), as well as a lead up into what will be the epic, dramatic conclusion. No, instead people started demanding the happy ending NOW, and getting angry when Neil wouldn’t budge and offer more information (even though he never has before) (funny how people just… forgot that).

It was Wayward Son all over again.

Yeah, I’m not going to lie, I was crushed with the way Good Omens 2 left off. Just like I was so confused when Wayward Son ended out of the blue. You know what I did about that? I wrote fic, I read the book again, and I happily anticipated the upcoming final part that would tie up all the loose ends.

Know what I’m doing to heal after Good Omens 2? I’m looking at gifs, rewatching episodes, laughing at memes and crack, and hoping to all the gods of story writing that Amazon approves of a third season, so that Neil Gaiman can be allowed to finish the story he and Terry Pratchett built together.

It’s become sad to watch this feral hunger from fans demanding immediate gratification, and getting upset when it isn’t the ending or gratification they were expecting. Wayward Son came out after years of Carry On fans having nothing else but the one book. Like I said, I wasn’t part of the fandom then, so I don’t know how fans from 2015 felt upon learning they’d get more Simon and Baz. Same with Good Omens. I only really got into the fandom a few months before season 2 came out. So I don’t know how OG fans felt waiting and waiting and waiting. So maybe I have that going for me as an advantage, that my hunger wasn’t growing more and more feral. 

Then again, I’m now a part of The Sandman fandom, and we’re essentially waiting on Season 2 to start development. And while I’m hoping a few things are tweaked (like Dream and Hob’s relationship), I’d be more than fine if it stays the same as in the comics. And if they decide to go about that in an entirely different way, I’d be fine with that too. You know why? Because I’ve learned to trust the writers of the stories I love not to lead me astray. 

And if I’m unhappy with something –because nothing is ever 100% perfect, and even my favourite stories end up coming short– there are always fanfictions to write, gifs to laugh at, and fandom friends to discuss plots and meta with. 

I may have lost the point of this meta. I tend to do that, following a train of thought that doesn’t always make sense in the end. 

Fandom friends, can we all just agree to take a breath and be thankful of the stories given to us? Can we learn to appreciate the entire picture, and not just a tiny section of it? And for the love of all that is holy, can we learn to be patient and to listen when our story tellers remind us to wait and see? To trust them when they assure us that our characters will have a happy ending, even if they need to traverse a little in the dark to get there?

I sure as hell am, and I hope you will too. 

Gonna tag @carryonsimoncarryonbaz because she was instrumental in encouraging me to write this.

[sgtmickeyslaughter]

✨It's the Wednesday Tag Gaammmme✨

happy wednesday everyone, this game has me feeling incredibly sentimental

thanks for tagging me @jrooc @creepkinginc @energievie @doshiart @energievie @lingy910y @blue-disco-lights @spookygingerr

How did you get into the fandom? 

I watched Shameless when someone recommend it and loved the show for many many reasons but the unreal depth and chemistry in Ian and Mickey's relationship came as a real shock to me

How long have you been here?

I actually went back and looked for this question and found out this blogs one year anniversary was a couple weeks ago!

What’s the first fandom channel you found? (Youtube, Reddit, Tumblr, Insta, Twitter, FB, other?)

Tumblr

what’s your favourite now? 

ditto

Which mutual have you known the longest in the fandom?

I honestly have no idea, but gallavichlover19 was the first person I really interacted with and they were really sweet about In Your Love

Which tumblerino’s did you have your first fandom crush(es) on and wanted to get to know?

I think @softmick and @jrooc and @callivich were the first who like, tagged me in things so I thought (and still think!) they're super neat

First Gallavich fan fic you read (or that blew you away that you remember)

I distinctly remember reading the broad shouldered beasts series and thinking oh wow, this fandom has some incredible fanfic quality

First fan art that blew your mind? 

this one was the first that i really really adored, and again, still do

Fanfic trope that you were sure wasn’t for you but now you low key (or high key) love?

This isnt super original, but I havent been able to read highschool au since i was in highschool, its just not that fun or interesting to me but there are always exceptions

What surprised you most about this fandom?

I mean, obviously like everyone else, the gallavich community on here is so sweet and creative and welcoming and I think we generally haver very respectful and nuanced conversations about this complex show, which is awesome

Im also a little surprised by how many non-americans are in the fandom, the commentary that the show makes broadly about the culture of america and very specifically chicago could be more alienating than other tv/movie exports so the fact that it still resonates is interesting and super cool to me. i tried to watch the UK version and just felt like i didnt grasp the cultural context

Moment in the show (or YT vids if you’re one of those) that you fell in hyperfixation with Gallavich?

literally the first time they hooked up in Mickey's bedroom, like you could just tell these two matched each others freak and the love story that unfolded just grew so beautifully and organically

Ian or Mickey?

you know what? IanandMickey. if the gallaghers have to deal with the fact that theyre slowly morphing into a single being, so do we.

Which Gallagher or Milkovich are you?

Honestly, I think Liam. Maybe? Independant, clever, eclectic, resourceful and thoughtful. And i think hes probably the most introverted in the bunch

hi! tagging below

@iansw0rld @mmmichyyy @mickittotheman @ian-galagher

@mickeym4ndy @gallawitchxx @mickeysgaymom @deathclassic

@em-harlsnow @mybrainismelted @heymrspatel @thepupperino

[melonteee]

When opla was announced I was guarded, but trailers and learning that Oda would have first and last word about everything made me hopeful.

But I knew that live action are never for the actual die hard fans.

Too much need to be cut because of time, as real actors cant look like they only age two years for 26 years, and some cartoon stuff doesnt translate well to live action *cough* garps fist of love *cough*

So I was able to convince my friend to watch opla with me.

She had read the manga when she was little, up to syrup village, so she was excited to see Kuro because she actually liked him back when she read it.

I was mostly there just to observe my friends reaction to it instead.

My favorite moment was watching her freak out after the "grandpa?" reveal.

I dont like that Garp was included that early on, I didnt mind him being there at rogers execution. But more than that seemed too much. I watched some Netflix guy explaining that they wanted to add a reason why the strawhat had to keep moving from island to island, but no marine would do because who would bother chasing a pirate crew with no bounty. I understand that reasoning. Still dont like it, but I understand.

But my friends reaction made it all better.

Did you know netflix wanted a romance between Nami and Zoro? Thank god Oda was there to stop it.

Also my friend and I quote "Oregano is for savages!" a lot now.

I'm truly glad you liked it anon and I do understand the excitement that came with it, but I honestly could not stand it. Nearly every scene and every line was like "Sanji wouldn't say that. Nami wouldn't do that. Why is this happening? Luffy definitely wouldn't say that."

An adaptation must adapt to its medium, true, but that is not what this did. This was an insanely loose reinterpretation that took so much charm away for me. I've talked about it on this Tumblr tons now but I've finally had the time to watch through all of it now that the hype's died down, and it just made me angrier per episode?

They had to shorten things down, but they included so many new scenes that added nothing? They had to explain the Strawhats going from island to island... WHY? They literally had a spine to go off, the original property had them going from island to island to find a crew and get to the grand line. That's literally a very solid reason. WHY did they need any marines chasing them? It just sounded like an excuse to add a fan favourite character so the Garp fans could scream about it.

And I've said this many times, but Oda being part of the process genuinely means nothing to me. Netflix infamously do not listen to their creators, and not only did they admit Oda HATED the Garp addition and they STILL added him, you can tell so much of his original vision was thrown aside for non-anime fan audience convenience. Usopp and Sanji felt like side characters for god's sake, Buggy felt comically evil for a LIVE ACTION, Mihawk's fight was literally so empty due to the fact no one was THERE? NAMI was the one who yelled she believes in Zoro and they'll always be friends??

I truly do not believe Oda would agree to most of that, and considering we know he was ignored for Garp, we know for sure he was definitely ignored for many other things.

As always, if you loved it, great! I'm glad the excitement was met. Maybe I'm cynical, maybe it's not to my tastes, but it screams Netflix cash cow to me and the whole time I watched it I thought "This is not One Piece at all."

As a reinterpretation? Great!

As an adaptation? It failed miserably. None of the characters felt like themselves and the additional scenes were so nothing. Sorry for the sour reply anon but for those on here who know, I indeed have a sore spot for that entire production.

I honestly think a lot of people got blinded by the pretty actors and the millions of dollars that went into production and promotion to really look at it for what it was trying to be.

[fatfables]

Gainfully Unemployed:

A new fat fable about obsessive weight gain.

Gainfully Unemployed

Kyle California was his handle, I didn’t know his real name, not at first. I first came across his YouTube channel in early 2017. I was his first follower. I don’t know if it was his strong jawline, muscular biceps, or Pacific blue eyes that caused me to fall in love. Back then he had short brown hair spiked like a child’s, a deep tan from years spent lying by his parent’s pool, and a soft hairless stomach. His early uploads were of him jiggling his pudge and smiling. He always wore a pair of azure blue Quiksilver boardshorts and spoke softly about wanting to grow bigger. He would post his statistics below his videos. He said that he was 5ft 10 and 183 lbs with a 30 inch waist. He claimed to be 23 years old.

I was the first to subscribe to his Patreon and his OnlyFans. I felt honoured that he allowed me to share in his intimate moments. He invited me to shower with him, let me watch while he sat on his dildo and jerked his thick 10 inch cock right in my face. I really used to love that. I regularly sent him $10 tips that I really hoped he would spend on food. He promised me he would.

Kyle said that he loved to eat and it showed. I watched him working on his legs and arms in the gym. In the changing rooms he would film himself shaking his round belly wearing only a wet towel around his midriff. He wanted to remain healthy and muscular whilst continuing to grow his stomach. I watched him eat pizza and cream cakes. In May 2018, at my request, he bought the same azure boardshorts, 34 inches. He flexed his guns and stroked his swollen round belly. It was so soft, like his face, in contrast to his strong arms and chest. His thighs were thick and round like a fat ballet dancer’s. His ass was perfectly perk and succulent. I loved watching his cheeks bounce while he swallowed his dildo and came. We had such fun.

He first spoke to me when he answered my question on Tumblr and Instagram. Do you think you will always want to keep gaining? He was 220 lbs at this point and had developed nicely thickening love handles that stuck out half an inch over the boardshorts that so beautifully matched his eyes. Yes, I can’t imagine ever not growing bigger. I just love the feeling of too much to ever stop. I believed him.

By 2019 he was one of the most popular gainers online. He regularly got tens of thousands of views on YouTube and had hundreds of followers on his other socials. I was so proud of him. His belly was really starting to balloon, thanks to my encouragement and kindness. Kyle had such a perfect round gut that stuck out two or three inches beyond his 36 inch shorts. He looked so swollen all of the time. Like he had eaten a whole watermelon. He was the perfect all-American gay boy.

When the pandemic hit Kyle lost his service job meaning that his online presence was his only source of income. I felt so sorry for him and really appreciated his honesty and hardwork that he was putting into growing himself and his socials. I more than doubled my contributions and he almost doubled in size.

Being locked-down was so good for Kyle, he got to stay home all day and make a living from eating and jerking off online. I started paying for his Uber Eats and he was so thankful. The weight piled onto his belly, thighs, and ass as he ate junk food daily. Burger King was his favourite. He gobbled down Double Whoppers like they were Tic Tacs and the results were wonderful. During those months he exploded into a real sexy fat boy. His belly bulged and his butt ballooned. Stretch marks started to appear on his love handles as his body grew wider at an unbelievable pace. Quicksilver no longer made the same boardshorts so he would eat in just his underwear. XXL tighty whitey’s that were so deliciously tight. He could no longer go to the gym so his upper body and legs quickly began to soften. Kyle would play with his new moobs for me. Squeezing his thick man breasts while he sucked down supersized shakes. Lockdown was lonely for many people but not for Kyle and me.

By the time he went to get his first vaccination Kyle was 289 lbs. So close to the big 300. His youthful face was soft and chunky with chipmunk cheeks and a thick double chin. I had been with him all the way on his journey and was thrilled to finally be getting the chance to meet him in person.

I had been looking for jobs in Carmel for the previous six months and had finally landed a role at an online shoe retailer which paid enough to support both of us. It was important to me that Kyle could afford not to return to work, or the gym, in order to continue with his gains. When he announced that he was making enough money online to keep doing it full time I was delighted.

I found his parents' house on Google Maps. I had seen the exterior and pool enough times on his earlier videos. Locating his apartment was harder so I had to wait for him to visit his folks. I assumed that he would be thrilled to see me. We had now spoken a few times during his Q&A sessions and had always gotten along so well. I couldn’t wait but his fucking parent’s went and ruined it.

At first meeting him in person was perfect. He was even more beautiful in real life than in any picture or video and I should know, I took thousands of pictures of him during our relationship. He was so circular, a real buxom boy, with a massively plush ass, round and soft enough to turn the head of any Catholic Priest. His balloon belly bounced with every step as he walked up his parent’s driveway. He was wearing a dark yellow t-shirt that did nothing to hide the layers of fat that stuck so beautifully out the front of his distended abdomen. He was very surprised to see me.

At first I was shocked that he had forgotten my name but when he explained how many followers he had I forgave him. I was so proud of his success. When he asked me to leave I was initially furious but he explained that his parents were not aware of his online activities so it was inappropriate to introduce me to them at that moment. I accepted this explanation and told him that we could meet at Burger King the next day. I left in a very upbeat mood. When he didn’t show I was again enraged and sent him twenty seven DM’s. Eventually he responded saying that something else had come up. I tried to rearrange our next date but he was always too busy.

He kept performing online so I wasn’t too brokenhearted. Making videos must have been taking up a lot of his time. His gains had seemed to be slowing down though so I sent him a $200 tip with a short message saying to spend it all at Burger King. I signed it with lots of kisses. I was totally bewildered to discover two days later that the money had been redeposited in my account. Again I DM’d him only to discover that he had blocked my messages. I really started to wonder if I had done something wrong. The idea that I’d done something to upset him caused me real pain.

My mind was put at ease the next day when he posted that he had decided to stop gaining fat and wanted to regain more muscle. This initially relieved me, however, I couldn’t believe that he would make such an important decision without consulting me first. He had after all promised me personally that he would never stop gaining fat. I knew that I would find him at the gym. I had been there many times before.

When he saw me in the showers he completely lost his mind. I think his parent’s must have found out about his gaining or his OnlyFans or something. I’d never realised before that he could have such a short fuse. His heavy ass glistened when wet and his bulbous belly was so fucking beautiful. I gave it a rub as I knew he liked that, but my compliments didn’t calm him down like I’d hoped. He ripped his shorts trying to put them back on quickly and left the gym with his right ass cheek hanging out below his tight t-shirt.

I followed him to the parking lot trying to calm him down but it was no good. He had now gone stoney quiet so I was the only one doing the talking. I told him how much I loved him and how fat and beautiful he was. I even offered to blow him right there in his car. But it was all to no avail. He drove off at high speed.

I decided to follow him as I needed to make sure that he was alright. I hated seeing him so upset. All I wanted to do was take care of him. Keep him as my own fat boy. But I would never get the chance to take our relationship to the next level. 

He was so stressed out that he ran a red light. The Uber Eats driver t-boned his sedan on the driver’s side. Kyle had left in such a hurry that he’d forgotten to put his seatbelt on. I never knew this before but airbags are designed to protect people wearing belts. The seat belt stops you from being thrown forward towards the deploying airbag. No belt hence massively increases the impact force. The coroner’s report said that Kyle’s heart had been dislodged. He died instantly. If there’s one lesson to be learned from this story it’s that seatbelts save lives.

His last post update said that he was 5 ft 10 and 296 lbs with a 42 inch waist size. He claimed that he was 23 years old.

At the funeral I met his parents. They were lovely and had no idea that Kyle had a boyfriend. They were pleased that he hadn’t spent all his time alone. His weight gain had been a concern to them and they were starting to worry about his well being. I assured them that Kyle had been fine and was perfectly happy with me. It was just a tragic accident. I didn’t mention how stressed and furious he’d been that day as I didn’t want to upset them. They were very nice people and I couldn’t get my head around why Kyle had been so angry at them. They seemed like such a nice family. It’s a real tragedy. I keep in touch with them every so often.

[redgoldblue]

Fic Writing Review 2023 🌈

tagged by @itwoodbeprefect - i have also been thinking about this so thank you for taking the initiative!

tagging @faorism @gallantrejoinder if you'd care to do this in any form (including as writing/art review)!

Words and Fics (on ao3) 📚

words posted: 52,220, apparently. Which is actually... basically last year's but minus 10k because I didn't do H50 Big Bang this year, because med school. most things in my life now can be stated as 'because med school'. (actually I just realised I didn't do it last year either, but that was because I was already finishing a 10k H50 fic. so my point stands)

fics posted: either 6 or 29, depending on whether one counts the advent calendar as one fic or 24. plus 3 posted only on Tumblr.

first fic: love don't treat you like that (babe, I'm letting you know) (H50). on the NINTH of january, apparently. i've already lost my first-fic-of-the-year contest to last year, unless i unexpectedly finish something today.

last fic: Advent Calendar 2023 / ...Zaph Kilkane, the pre-eminent climate scientist of the 22nd century...

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Ships and Fandoms ⚓

would you believe I literally did not repeat a fandom this year, outside of the advent calendar. and this year's AC had the most fandoms since 2019.

Hawaii Five-0 (McDanno)

NCIS: LA (Sallen)

Starsky & Hutch (S/H)

House MD (Hilson)

MASH (Punnihawk)

and then AC-only ones:

Star Trek (Spirk)

The Man From UNCLE (Napollya)

911 (Buddie)

Due South (i don't know ship names. are there ship names? Fraser/RayK)

Good Omens (Azcrow)

Leverage (thiefsome)

Almost Paradise (Ernesto/Alex. alesto. i'm coining it)

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Top 5 Fics by Kudos 🏆

I mean, I have 6 posted fics that can be kudosed separately.

love don't treat you like that (babe, I'm letting you know) (H50)

When You're Loving Me (That's When I'm Loving You) (NCIS: LA)

Advent Calendar 2023 (see above. nine fandoms)

my powers of expression and thoughts so sublime / could never do you justice in reason or rhyme (House MD)

Finding A Cure In You (S&H)

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Top 5 Favorite Fics 💖

okay, I'm going to count distinct chapters of the advent calendar for this. in no particular order and subject to mood change:

When You're Loving Me (That's When I'm Loving You) (NCIS: LA) - I cited this as a contender for my favourite fic I've written a couple months ago, so obviously it has to go in the year's. what can i say, fake dating is an immaculate trope, and this also all came onto the page very easily which is always vaguely miraculous.

there you go pulling me right back in (H50) - sometimes vague prompts i've had down for ages write up as something that's. fine, but a bit clunky, and I just have to move on bc it's the advent calendar and a new fic each day. sometimes I start writing them and they spring into life with joyous delight. or in this case, uninhibited grumpiness and love.

singing yesterday's songs wishing i could be with you tonight (MASH) - the one that didn't make it into the top 5 kudosed, I assume partially due to being locked and partially due to being a serious tone, not terribly shippy, and Peg POV. But I've had some version or other of it for a long time, it's one of those stories I'm genuinely proud of, and I was glad to finally post it.

Totally Normal (Due South) - it's fun. it was fun. I was slightly nervous about it, because the only prior Due South thing I'd written was Dief POV and this was Fraser and RayK POV and the first time writing either of those, but it turns out watching + liveblogging four and two seasons, respectively, of a character in four months is. enough to cement their voices in my head. it was unexpectedly easy and also. fun.

Festive Spice (MUNCLE) - i just think it epitomises the advent calendar. in the words of coolbreezemage, 'yesssss bake cakes and kiss your partner'.

HMs:

Finding A Cure In You (S&H) - this doesn't make it to the above list due to the fact that I haven't actually managed to reread it since I posted it. but just for the amount of time I spent with it, how different it is to my usual M.O. of writing, and the weird way I wrote it (entirely in the notes app, with almost zero rereading while writing), I have to somehow mention it.

A Thousand Words / To Be Spared (Good Omens) - I don't know if they're favourite but I do think they're good. and the format of to be spared was pleasingly experimental and i think it worked.

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Fandom Fic Events 🤝

also the Starsky & Hutch SHarecon zine! which the zine still holds copyright on, but will be posted in April.

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Projects for 2024 👀

mmm gonna sort this differently and also ramble

Ones that will definitely be finished in 2024 and if they aren't you have free rein to come to my house and tie me to a chair come November: MUNCLE wip, The Unwitting Truth Affair/The Honesty Affair, I haven't actually decided which title yet;

Starsky & Hutch, the still-unnamed Huggy & Pete wip.

Ones I have both hope and some amount of faith will be finished in 2024 and if they aren't you have free rein to come into my inbox and harass me about them: Hawaii Five-0 wip, Much Ado About Something (*salutes squares*);

other Hawaii Five-0 wip, state of disrepair. yes, I'm manifesting state of disrepair 2024. probably november/december 2024, but i'm manifesting it anyway;

Leverage wip, all that I want is a kind heart to haunt

Ones I would like to be finished in 2024, and if my brain decides it likes them might be, but all you have free rein for is to politely ask me about them once per business month: Hawaii Five-0 cath/steve/danny pwp, Wait A Minute Let Me Take You There;

horny S&H wip, Previews Of Your Body Driving Me Insane;

S&H Vanessa coda, so cordial / so rotten (don't ask me);

Good Omens wip, love won't you be as you've always been

Ones I don't expect to finish in 2024 but would like to get some words down in: angsty S&H wip, Relentless As The Rain;

ridiculous undercover H50 wip, Four Seasons of Love;

other ridiculous H50 wip, The Irritating, Annoying, Infuriating, (Effective) Seduction Techniques of One Steven J. McGarrett;

SPN ..wip? depending on the time limit on 'progress'?, Smells Like Turpentine.

vague thoughts: i'd like to write a full-length (for whatever value of that. the AC ones actually were full-length, especially the second one, but what I really mean is AC-independent) due south fic. they're very weird and i enjoyed writing them, and I'd also like to write something with RayV in it. maybe if I successfully inspired @itwoodbeprefect to write new ds, when she does that it will inspire me to write something, and we can set up a ping-pong game. no, wait, that's mixing fandoms.

I expect more MUNCLE fic. this one's already 3.5k and rocketing along, and i'm only two-thirds of the way through season 1. what form that will take i don't know at this stage but we'll see.

....i was discussing the vague concept of house/h50 crossover fic with squares literally yesterday and on the one hand I haven't written a crossover since 2014 and also don't want that to be my legacy, but on the other hand i think there is at least a 50% chance it's going to stick in the back of my brain and keep niggling.

[ghostlyarchaeologist]

I need to know more about the 1920s and 1840s cookbooks if you are willing to share! How did you acquire them?

What recipes have you tried and how did they turn out?

Any fun (mis)adventures with them? (Ingredients not sold any more or that don't mean what they meant back then, etc)

Gladly!

(Edit: I am putting this under a cut, as it has gotten very long!)

(I apologise for the state of my phone camera! I tried my best! You drop your phone in a wet trench and it's never the same after...)

So, a few years ago I ended up helping at the bring and buy book shop that ran in my local village, where I was mostly the muscle who hauled around, went through and put out the boxes of books that would get donated (and there were a lot!)

The idea of going through the donations was to weed out books that weren't able to be sold on, whether they were in too poor a condition (mouldy, incomplete), something we already have a million copies of (50 shades), or just wholly unsuitable! (I'll leave that to your imagination!) I didn't mind doing it as I could just pop in my headphones and zone out for a couple of hours.

So, there I was one Saturday, listening to my tunes and sorting through donations when I came across a very old, grungy book, held together with sticky tape and with only its front cover. Now, old books fascinate me, so I opened it up to the copyright page and almost fell over when I read MDCCCXL - 1840! At that point I knew this thing was coming home with me! And for a grand total of 25p, it did!

If you can't see what the cover says, it's 'Domestic Cookery By A Lady.' This is also repeated on the copyright page.

Look! Isn't it awesome? Now, I would love to show you every page, but there's a lot, and I'm showing you two books, so you'll just get the highlights, I'm afraid.

First things first though, here's something that I love about this book.

See that? The pages all still have indents from the printing press, even after 183 years!

The contents! As you can see, this book covers a lot! It's not just recipes. There's directions on carving, guidence on servants ('One is never to retain a cook who is not fond of her occupation.' for instance, and 'A servant must possess a natural regard for cleanliness, or all the pains in the world will never render her cleanly.'), guidence for servants (aka, how to clean everything!) a wide variety of recipes as well as how to pick the best produce and when certain things are in season.

And just as this book couldn't get any more awesome, it's got pictures too!

Go look at that last picture again for me. You see those dark splodges on the right of the page? Know what they are? They're fingerprints! Fingerprints! Proof that somebody touched and used this book all those years ago! You can't tell me that's not awesome!

I will admit that I have not tried any recipes out of this book, so no misadventures, but I love reading them. There are some that I'm not sure I'd even want to try!

Stuffed cod's head, anyone?

Mock turtle soup?

Of course, if you want real turtle, there's also how to kill and prepare one of them...

How to make coffee.

Also, how big is this blooming cake!?

Not to mention the time it will take!

Anyway, Tumblr has a photo limit on posts and I still have another book to show you, so I will leave you with this final remark on cooking for the poor, especially the bit about the crust of bread.

Mmm, yum!

Onto the next book!

It came from the same place as the last, but this time at the grand cost of 30p! (Inflation, y'know?)

This one is a cookery textbook from Strathearn College, Edinburgh. Copyright page says 1925. Cool, right? Ah, but it gets better!

Ann Burlt Oct 9th 1929. She's the original owner of this book! And she made lots of notes, too!

At a guess, these were her favourite recipes, what page they were on and how many eggs they required.

And one she didn't like! I was pretty sure that there was one recipe that was crossed out with a NO! next to it, but I couldn't find it, so maybe I was wrong.

She also amended some recipes:

Additionally, there's also a few extra special things in this book too that I at least got very excited over:

Bookmarks! This one is a scrap of newspaper, sadly no date on it.

A mini booklet regarding changes to telephone charges. Now, remember that this cookbook is from the 1920s.

Look at the second paragraph on the left. 1970. 1970! This book was still being used in 1970!

And this one, which doubles as both a recipe and a bookmark! And must have been in that book for a while as it's stained the page!

I have tried one recipe out of this one, which was a Roly Poly and was very tasty! I would show you but it would seem I have one more image I can add to this post, so instead I will use it to show you something I never, ever, want to have to try, ever!

Sardine Eclaires? Really?

Excuse me while I go quietly vomit somewhere...

Anyway! Thanks for the ask! I love being able to show these off and wildly flail about things that I think are interesting, and I hope you enjoyed the ride too!

[starlightandfairies]

Hi! I’m kinda new to Tumblr and I just came across your account and I am in LOVE!! I love your Stranger Things fics, especially the Billy ones because he’s my favourite. I would like to request an idea I know it’s out of the blue and random but could you please write a fic when the reader finds out that Billy is ticklish??? If it’s too weird for you to write I totally understand!! I just love your work!! ❤️

Description: The reader discovers Billy is ticklish

Warnings: fluff, female pronouns, swearing

*Thank you for the request, hope you like it and I'm so happy that you love my work, makes me feel really good knowing that you feel that way. I'm sorry it's a short one, didn't really know how to continue it. But I hope you like it anyways.* 😊

Key: Y/N = Your Name, POV = Point of view

Word Count: 556

First-person pov 

It was just a simple day, both Billy and I were just lying around without a care for a world. Both escaping the things that we didn't like in our lives. No matter what was bringing us down, we had each other and I guess that's all that matters. 

Billy and I were facing each other as we cuddled, he traced patterns across my face, while I kept my arms wrapped around his waist. Normally an unspoken word was shared between us, I think with us anyways that more was said when we weren't chatting. We were both loving the silence but I think even at times it got to be too much. 

I moved my arms to get more comfortable, and my fingers trailed across his ribs, he tensed slightly, a smile forming on his lips at the little action but he quickly had to hide it so I wouldn't catch on to what he was doing. 

"Are you ticklish?" 

"No, I'm not." 

"Yes! You totally are!" I quickly started tickling him, laughing as he squirmed away and tried getting me away from him. I tickled him, gaining the upper hand as he fell into a laughing fit, laughing with me and squealed as he flipped me onto the mattress and started tickling me. I laughed way too much, to the point where it started hurting to laugh, he stopped for a moment and laughed out loud as I tackled him to continue tickling him. 

"You suck!" 

"But you love me," I whispered, stopped tickling him and giggled as he pulled me closer to him and placed a kiss on my lips. I hummed as he continued to hold me, I stared into those pretty eyes that he had and fiddled with the ringlets of his mullet. 

"I do love you." He whispered back, whispering the simple three words a few times before each kiss that he placed on my face. 

"You're ticklish." I teased, giggling as he shoved me away slightly, rolling his eyes and holding both my hands in one of his so I couldn't continue to tease him. 

"You're evil, so evil, I'm going to get you back for this." 

"Sure, you are." I challenged him, and he accepted it and repositioned me in his lap. Started blowing raspberries on my belly, he kept me against his lap and didn't let me go. He relaxed slightly, staring at me and laid down beside me. 

"You keep surprising me, Billy." 

"I do?" 

"Yeah, I mean, who knew that this bad boy act is a softie and one that's ticklish? I got lucky, you love me and you keep me safe. You're the first person that's loved me, Billy." He gave me that boyish smile that many had known him for and kissed my lips. 

"All the other guys are stupid, they missed out and now you're the girl I want to be with forever. I'm the guy that has got the sweetest girl in my arms, I'm the guy that has a girl that is gorgeous and she doesn't know it. I'm the guy that's ticklish and has the type of girlfriend that will make fun of that but I love it."

[theultimatenonbinarynerd]

Ranking Big Finish: The 8th Doctor Adventures Series 1

Introduction

Ladies, Gentlemen and my fellow Gender noncomforming folks, the moment you have been waiting for is here. My ranking of the 8th Doctor Adventures! If you've been listening to the Big Finish podcast with Nick and Benji I'm sorry to disappoint but you'll already know my ranking as yes I am indeed that Melody. I mean who else is gonna send info dumping passionate emails to Nick and Benji... 😉

I love this range and whilst my focus for now is some of the earlier 8th Doctor Adventures with Charley and C'rizz, I will eventually come back to the 8th Doctor Adventures somebody yes I will come back. S1 was too much of a blast to not come back to the range eventually. 8 is a really good Doctor and I think he's becoming one of my favourite Classic Doctor's even though he's mainly on audio. Lucie is also a great company and whilst I was iffy on her in Blood Of The Daleks I did grow to love her by the end. Also if your interested you can find my individual Big Finish reviews on my Tumblr page or Storygraph @melsage1823.

With that out of the way let's get onto the ranking...

8: Blood Of The Daleks Part 2

I still really enjoyed this one just not as much as the other ones. Fighting a war against the daleks is something we've seen plenty of times as well as Daleks killing other daleks. I did like the subtle eugenics parallels of the Daleks destroying Martez's Daleks due to their "impurity". Lucie and The Doctor weren't really enjoyable as a duo here as it was their first meeting after all. One of my favourite dalek stories but for me I love it when more original villians are introduced.

Cast was phenomenal and I loved how the people of Red Rocket Rising and fought against the creatures oppressoring them. Great writing and I hope Big Finish have other stories where they use the Daleks just as well.

Number 7 was a tough choice but to fill it I chose...

7: Blood Of The Daleks Part 1

Okay I just want to make it very clear when I say that I do not prefer Part 1 over Part 2. Together and separate they are both really good audio dramas. It's just I loved the world building a lot more. As my first Big Finish audio I was really impressed how Part 1 was able to spectacularly develop the setting of Red Rocket Rising despite not being able to see it visually. Again I wasn't vibing with Lucie and The Doctor's bickering but I loved the concept of her introduction as a companion.

I also love when the big twists are thrown right at you and you can see how stressful the situation is for the 8th Doctor. It's like you can sort of see how different he is from the post regenerated version of himself from the TV movie. The cast is also exceptional and I especially loved Shadwall.

The next one almost made me cry...

6: No More Lies

This was a very good one, very good. However the straight in the action opening was exceptionally hard to follow especially on audio, damnn it was tough. Once the plot came together though it was very emotional. Zimmerman is a character you grow both to love and hate. It's really time wimey but damnn it's a punch to the gut once you realise all the twists. If it wasn't for that opening this would have been higher up the list.

Lucie and The 8th Doctor really shone as a tardis team here and it was great too witness them working together. I did not route for this duo at first but especially after the cliffhanger, I found myself routing for this duo all together.

Number 5 walked so the Devils Chord could run..

5: Horror Of Glamrock

There may have not been a musical number from The Doctor and Lucie but damnn this was a good musical episode. From Bernard Cribbins (RIP) to Lucies Aunt to incredible super star twins to creepy Aliens that eat you in the snow Horror Of Glamrock has it all. This was a brilliant one, I was smiling and laughing by the time I was done listening with it. Truly a fabulous and emotional musical episode. Others might find it boring but I found it creative and inventive. If you like the wacky side of Doctor Who you'll enjoy this one.

The music was really enjoyable in this one and I found myself humming all of the tunes. The score and sound design rules. Tim Sutton deserves all the love and praise for the music as it perfectly captured the 70s aesthetic and was incoperated well into the plot. Love it when Doctor Who goes musical and will always appreciate it.

Number 4 was very spooky and gave massive rings of akhaten vibes...

4: Phobos

This was spooky as f*** and had twists and turns that were really good. It was a good psychological horror audio that again managed to perfectly display the creatures without being able to see them visually. I felt terrible for all of the side characters and was worried for all of them. This is a story with immense high stakes and I massively appreciate it for that. I really don't want to spoil the twist but damnn is it shocking, I was gobbed smacked. It portrays the darkside of The Doctor really well and Paul MacGann shines, the speeches he gives in this story are just chefs kiss.

Another thing is the music, gosh as a musician myself I was in love with the common motif played anytime the monsters were mentioned. It adds to the overall sinister nature of the story and also the uncomfortable feeling you get whilst listening. Well done Andy Hardwick you absolutely delivered in every possible way. I had chills up my spine especially during the chase scenes. I really wish there was an individual version of the score cos damnn it was good.

The top 3 were very hard to rank cos these last three were dead top tier 10/10 audios that I'd a hundred percent recommend as they were really good and it's stories where you can tell Paul and Sherridan are at their best.

3: Human Resources Part 1

Despite being the first part in a two parter, this was an absolutely epic listen and I preferred it to the Dalek two parter. Human Resources gave heavy Black Mirror vibes and I loved it. Sheridan gave an amazing performance as Lucie and I loved getting to know the Headhunter better. It was really creepy once you realised what was going on and who was behind everything. Whilst it still has the important formula of Doctor Who it felt more like the unsettling technological nature of Black Mirror. I loved the anti-captilist sentiment and I felt like a great beginning to wrapping up the arc portrayed throughout the first season of The Eighth Doctor Adventures.

I also really loved the office based setting as it served for a very interesting final climactic battle in Part 2. It also adds to the unsettling feeling of the episode as it seems like a normal office with normal pa announcements but underneath the surface something more sinister and corrupt is going. The whole cast handled this bold script really well and I found myself routing for everyone. Karen was immensely likeable and a great friend of Lucie.

Again this top three was very very hard but they couldn't all be joint together that's cheating. So without further or do...

2: Human Resources Part 2

Ranking Part 1 and 2 was really hard as both were absolutely wonderful. Part 2 was really good and although I loved both parts equally if I'm forced to rank, I'd rank part 2 above part 1 as that's the part that has the cybermen and they were really chilling. They were good in Part 1 but barley in it. Human Resources Part 2 created the best battle without visuals that I have ever witnessed in my entire life. It's an epic war battle in a office as The Cybermen are power hungry and desperate to takeover. Paul MacGann and Sheridan Smith really shine in this especially with Sheridan as she portrays Lucies anger at the pure corrupt nature of the timelords. Very good finale that was a delight to listen too from start to finish.

The Cybermen are other villians that have been terribly abused on TV with very meh stories. World Enough And Time And The Doctor Falls are the last time they were really scary and boy they were menacing in this story whilst still being the emotionless husks we know. They finally knew what it was like to be marginalised and wanted to reign all hell on The Doctor, its not shocking the amount of destruction that happens in this episode due to how powerful and menacing they are. Props to the cast because it must have been really hard to act in what should be such a visual script.

Finally we reach the number one stop. What is the number one spot. Well it should be kind of obvious but...

1: Immortal Beloved

Immortal Beloved ahhhhh! I bluming loved this story it was a hundred percent the best out of the set in my eye. Oh my goodness it was heartbreaking but also very powerful and it was also Sonny MacGanns debut. Man it absolutely slapped. I don't want to spoil the big plot twists but damn this slaps. Forbidden romance and a story blending Greek Mythology in a scifi way is absolutely heartwarming and thrilling. It reminded me of the way Star Wars had humanised the Clones. I absolutely loved it. Out of all of the season this has to be the best one. Lucie also really got well developed as a companion and we got to see more of the Doctor's smart wise old sage side.

The Villians are absolutely brilliant as they're very uniquely based on Greek Myths. We've had the Master, we've had the Daleks, we've had the Cybermen but we have never had anything like Zeus and Hera they're brutal man. Its so nice to have an audio where the villian is fresh and unique for once. The Greek God's are powerful and it was nice for once to have a unique and original bad guy. Zeus was also a menace and when the big twist comes in you'll be coming to loathe that guy.

So there you have it, the 8th Doctor Adventures ranked, I might do a top 10 after I've listened to more Big Finish but we'll see.

Conclusion

A fantastic start to the 8th Doctor Adventures and I'm excited to eventually check out Season 2 but Series wise my plans now are The Charley Arc, The Divergent Arc, C'rizz and Charley's exists and Sontarans Vs Rutons. Still very excited though for the rest of the series.

Had me hooked from start to finish and these series of audio firmed my desion to continue with Big Finish and when I can fund them by buying audios. They deserve it, when people said this was the right thing to start with it definitely was. It filled my thirst for more 8 content after watching the camp TV movie. The 8th Doctor is fabulous and Big Finish have given him his era in such a fresh unique way.

Like I said none were stinkers or meh so it was really hard to rank all the adventures together. However I tried and wether you agree or disagree with this ranking I hope this opinion from a new listener satisfys you.

More Big Finish reviews to come.

Until next time.

-Melody-

They/Them

[lauravancity]

Open Letter to Taylor Swift

I have never used Tumblr a day in my life, and wanted to come on here to write a letter to Taylor Swift! I sent a letter back in February to Taylor Nation in hopes of it getting to Taylor but I know this is such a long shot of her reading some random fans letter I tried not to get my hopes up, I've always wanted to send Taylor a letter telling her what her music means to me, and as I'm getting married in September, I thought, "Why not send her an invitation and use this as an excuse to tell her some things I've wanted to say!". I know she's insanely busy, and I don't expect to hear back or receive any recognition, but I know mail can get lost sometimes and maybe coming onto the internet would have a higher chance of her seeing it? Here's to hoping!

Anyways, the letter is posted below, anyone is welcome to read it, and I have revised it since I wrote it last as her latest album came out and I had more to say.

Dear @taylorswift,

My name is Laura, and you might be wondering why I was hoping to have you at our wedding! I first want to preface this and say I’m a huge fan of yours (from album 1), you probably get this a lot, but I remember so vividly, my mother purchasing me your debut album at 11 years old and having ‘Should’ve Said No’, ‘Picture to Burn’, and ‘Our Song’ playing over and over and over, like I had any idea at that age of what those emotions and feelings for a guy were. But I sang my heart out every time I listened to the album until it wore out and my mom had to go and purchase me a new one.

As you grow in life and with your music, I have grown with you and admired every single album and record you have put out. From Debut to The Tortured Poets Department, I couldn't imagine not enjoying them all. My most admired of yours is Folklore, you put it out to the world during a time we all needed it and this whole album you’re a lyrical genius (you always are though). Your lyricism in this album is on another level and I can have it on repeat for days on end and not get tired of it. But, I will say, I do think your new album, The Tortured Poets Department, may overtake Folklore as my new favourite. It's so hard to choose! The songs ‘My Tears Ricochet’ and 'Who's Afraid Of Little Old Me' are my favourites at this moment. It's always hard to choose a favourite and they can switch depending on the mood! Anytime I listen to an album of yours and think I know it inside and out, there is always something new I learn from you.

Needless to say, my love for you and your music has never wavered once. You have been my favourite artist for as long as I can remember, and I feel as though over the years, I have grown so much through the lyrics you write. All the genres you have gone through over the years show your growth and for many of us fans that are here through it all, it is as if you have never once let us down by changing and trying new things. Even now at 28 years old, I get giddy whenever I listen to your music, no matter how many times I've heard them!

I feel so honoured, privileged, and proud to be able to tell anyone who asks, ‘Who’s your favourite artist?’ and to be able to say you, this always puts a smile on my face. Because even though I do not personally know you, the lyrics you write are good enough for me to know that you are an amazing person, and anyone would be proud to be able to call you their favourite.

You have proven repeatedly your resilience to things in this world and your strength and I am sure it is not that easy. I relate to you on this on so many levels and this is the reason I personally feel so connected with you. I have always wanted to write to you and tell you this, especially when my mother passed away in 2011, a long time ago, but you helped me through this a lot. I felt connected to you through her as she first showed me your music and I lost something then, but you helped me to gain parts back bit by bit through your music, and I cannot tell you how much it means to me to have your music as a safe space.

Going through this wedding planning, it’s been hard not having my mother around, don’t get me wrong I have a huge support system in my fiancé, and sister-in-law, but there is nothing like a mother’s touch in these situations. Your song “Marjorie” has been hitting me a lot harder these days and it’s so easy to relate to this song. Thank you for making it a part of your Era’s Tour. The grieving process has almost felt as though it has come back and I’m going through it again while keeping it at an arm's length not wanting it to get too close. With this said, your music has been a constant repeat to get me out of my head or to accept the emotions and run with them, welcome them and not be afraid of feeling this way.

All throughout the last 10 years of my relationship with my fiancé, I have slowly progressed to making him a “Swiftie” which I have finally accomplished by going to the theatres and watching ‘The Eras Tour’ movie twice and renting it 8 times now at home and watching it multiple times through Disney+. I was so happy to finally be able to watch this and it felt good having him seeing what I have been seeing this whole time.

I hope this letter and invitation gets to you and you are able to read this, I’m sure you get many things like this, but I’m so happy to have finally been able to write this to you and would absolutely be honoured to host you.

I know you don’t come to Canada, let alone BC very often, but would be privileged if you did! We are hoping to see you in Vancouver this December for your Era’s tour instead of going on a honeymoon, he knows how much this would mean to me (we did not win the great Ticketmaster war, as you can assume!). And so, from converting my fiancé, and sister-in-law, all into Swifties, we can’t wait to hopefully see you then! After being a fan for 17 years now, I can’t think of a better concert to go to see you for the 1st time ever.

My true best regards to you and I wish you nothing but the absolute best in this life, you deserve nothing less!

All my true love and admiration,

Laura

@taylornation

[chillwildwave]

“Let’s call em what it is, it’s a masterpiece!”

Yep, I know what you were thinking, this is yet another concept illustration of Aaron Z from my upcoming fanfiction (I mean, you could tell from that lyric alone, right?) with a bunch of facial expressions that represent a certain way of how he reacts to some situations.

In this fanfic, Z deals with self-worth issues after accidentally messing up his dance practices and has a complex relationship with Robaire since he sees him as a perfect person and is willing to follow the same footsteps as him: by the end of the story however, he will change as a person who learns to accept himself for who it is and to improve his emotional well-being.

Now, here are some extra details about Aaron Z that wasn’t included on my concept art…

. He is Afro-Canadian and Chinese.

. He originally was going to become a dancer but when he auditioned for 4*Town, he already was chosen to become the main choreographer.

. Back at school, people often saw him as a timid yet friendly person who was willing to help those who needed it most.

. He had a job at Sears at the age of 18 until he had to retire his job due to his tight schedule with the group.

. He met Robaire at kindergarten and became a close bond since then.

.He is gay, although he tries his hardest to keep it a secret from the rest of the group as he believed they won’t accept him.

.When writing “Nobody Like U”, he didn’t want a rap verse initially since he felt like he wasn’t the best rapper; after Ro convinced him to give it a try, it actually paid off!

. When communicating with the group, he doesn’t smile much, he often laughs a little whenever something funny pops up, he also tends to lead the group through his dance routines… What the members don’t know is that he can get strict whenever one or two boys messes up.

. His favourite NBA Player was Micheal Jordan (that was the one who influenced his love for basketball as a hobby.)

. Before going on stage, he often uses affirmations in the mirror first thing in order to not mess up or do the wrong thing.

. The conflict between him and Ro started when Ro witnessed Z dancing and asked him to join the group, he said yes but was caught in a halt when Ro told him that he wanted more from him in order to impress his mother, this led to him telling Z that he’ll make him feel like a piece of nothing just so that he can use his skills to achieve everything he can.

Despite this, he and T have an OK relationship when outside of the studio to the point where T does his all sorts of shenanigans just to get Z talking, but in the studio, they actually work together well when it came to writing music: his relationship with Jesse and Tae Young can only be said as awkward. They don’t really talk much, yet they do make hand gestures sometimes as a sign of communication when in a far distance in the studio.

And that’s all I have for Z, I hope that you are all fuelled with anticipation for the fanfiction as I’ll be spending all of August coming up with plans for the chapters while also posting and communicating with all you awesome 4*Townies, writers and illustrators so that I can better develop myself as a writer!

Finally, make sure to like, comment, reblog and share this with others to show how much I respect you all as tumblr creators, 4*Town creators or not, no matter what, I’ll always respect all of you and keep you updated with some updates coming soon.

Don’t forget, there’s more to come…

[devilsainz]

Tagged by @watercolor-hearts, I'm actually surprised someone remembers my @ to tag me in these! quite heartwarming tbh, thank you lovely, hope you have a nice day/evening/morning 🤗💙

Name: my true name starts with a. m. but since i'm a person on the verge of mixing reality w/ virtual i rather be just called goggles lmao (not to be too vague, my second one is miguel, a quite common latino name, but the first one is quite unusual and it feels too real to be called like that so im hiding it lol)

Sign: Leo (i copied from the op who tagged me and yes this is my sign as well)

Time: 19:16 (i definetely spent too much time elaborating and correcting my own answers lmao)

Favourite band/artist: the short version or the long one? cause honestly im kind of into music as a whole, but to select just a few, i'd say Fiona Apple, Joanna Newsom, Beyoncé and Björk. yep, all ladies, dont ask me why but i just connect with female vocalists more

Last movie: ooh.. this one is quite been some time actually... i think it was Knives Out: Glass Onion! just a little bit of silly fun entertainment and cause i was honestly curious cause i liked watching the 1st knives out.

Last show: Drive to survive 🤷‍♂️ im not a very series person tbh (even dts i only watched the eps i actually was curious about lmao)

When I created this blog: this kind of has 2 answers idk. because this used to be a ziam - yes you read that right - a ziam blog lmao but i didnt put much thought into it tho. then i just stopped using for years, and i just came 2 months ago back to delete it and replace with this actual blog cause i discovered the charlos side of tumblr and wanted to interact w the blogs i discoveeed, reblog and all that jazz.

Other blogs: other than the one i deleted, no, i just have this active blog.

Do I get asks: no i turned them off lol but i dont mind actually i get kind of peaceful thinking im just a dot in this vast virtual world of internet, at least here

Followers: 125 accs (i guess, i dont check bots but i dont think there are too much of them)

Average hours of sleep: i guess it varies on 6-8? there are days a sleep a little bit later but tbh i dont keep track of these lol but i can tell i've been pretty okay with my schedule lately, at least my insomnia stopped

Instruments: nope. i have a shitty keyboard but i just gave up on learning, but i do plan on trying again, just dont know when

What I am wearing: green shorts and an ugly printed but comfortable t shirt

Dream job: i mean, it says dream job... so i might go full in... singer/songwriter 🤓

Dream trip: actually i'm not really obsessed about trips anymore... but if i had to pick one i'm just saying Madrid cause its where carlos jr was born 🤓 (i still want to go there and investigate in person to find his official time of birth btw, so yep im picking madrid)

Favorite song atm: i have a lot of songs being my faves simultaneously and it changes fast depending on the moments/moods but im going with In California by Joanna Newsom cause the chorus when she sings "cuckoo cuckoo" its freaking amazing tbh. for my more upbeat side tho i'm picking Those Eyes, That Mouth by cocteau twins.

Tagging:@leclercsbf and @leoramage (tagging you two cause you were the ones to start a conversation w me so i think it wouldn't be too awkward lol but hey, feel free to ignore if you dont want to or dont like these, no hard feelings, were just dots in a virtual space)

(ps: i was actually very defensive about these kind of posts but i tried this one for fun and hey it is fun! it was kind of cool to talk about myself freely without my face or name plastered on it so thanks for that, person who tagged me)

[pantswarrior]

Hii,

I read Fighting Gravity on ao3 earlier this year and I wanted to tell you I loved it! I'm one of those peripheral members of fandoms who haven't read or watched any of the canon stuff, but are too obsessed with the fanworks to stop. It makes me wonder about stories like yours - is some point in the larger canon where something similar happens, or do you just come up with the idea for an unhoused Spock on your own?

I'm sending my ask to thank your for your story, but I also wanted to ask if you were alright with people printing and binding personal copies (ie. not for profit) of the fic for themselves.

I've been hand binding sketchbooks on and off for a little while, and I saw a tiktok of someone's self-bound versions of their favourite fics and thought that trying my hand at fic binding would be a fun project for this summer.

I just wanted to ask bc I heard some authors aren't okay with personal prints, so just let me know please; I'll always love the story regardless.

Aw, thank you so much! I'm sorry it took so long for me to reply - my laptop completely died several months back and the only one I could get online with is 11 years old, freezes up upon trying to load Tumblr, and is physically falling apart. -_- So I have been away from Tumblr all this time and did not see this until I got a new laptop tonight and could load the site again, I apologize! First of all - I consider it a great honor when anyone thinks enough of my fanstuff to want to do ANYTHING with it. =) I mean, I'm just out here being a nerd, writing fic about characters that are not mine. I can hardly be possessive about them. ;) So while I suppose it's rather late for a summer project, if for some reason the inclination strikes you in the future, feel free! It sounds like a beautiful project and I'm honestly flattered that you would think my story worthy. =) As for the inspiration behind that particular story... there is a rather silly story behind it. (tl;dr, possibly...) My partner-at-the-time and I were both really into the new Star Trek movie when it came out in 2009 - and this was not long after both of us were fixated on Ace Attorney fandom, which had recently had a new game released. Before the game was released, there was some character art showing an existing character looking scruffy, and the Ace Attorney fandom decided he must have fallen on hard times. There were multiple fanfics written about the guy he's usually shipped with finding him unhoused and taking him in and helping him get back on his feet. It became sort of a fandom injoke, "Miles adopts a homeless Phoenix". Not long after the first reboot Star Trek movie came out, the ONTD Star Trek community over at LiveJournal (good times!) dug up some screen test pics of Zachary Quinto wearing the Spock ears... but with a scruffy unshaven look and longer hair. So I showed them to my partner, who reacted with six little words:

"So... Jim adopts a homeless Vulcan?" I laughed because that was ridiculous and impossible given how some things work in the Star Trek canon. ...And then I started thinking about it, and how maybe it wasn't impossible, how someone *could* possibly wind up in such a situation in the Star Trek universe, and stopped laughing. ...And then spent the next several months of my life having this offhand joking comment turn into yet another exploration of one of my favorite themes: predestination vs. free will. OOPS. My partner, of course, was laughing their head off incredulously the whole time as I sent them drafts of the next chapter to read over and repeatedly reminded them that this was ALL THEIR FAULT. ;) So that is the...origin story... of that fic. Apologies for the length of this (and again, the lateness of the reply) - though to be honest it's so absurd it's fun to share it again. :D

[risu5waffles]

scattering TEN like rose petals

Gonna have to go quick, there's so much to do and only 30minutes before stream.

Love the look and setting (probably no surprise there), but dear Entropy was the blowdryer gameplay an actual chore and a half. i had a fair amount of issue being able to tell where it was safe to put my feet sometimes, too. A bunch of deaths in there that just felt unearned. Still, like, it's very nice to watch, now that i'm not actually trying to complete it.

Sure, we talk about the glorious early days of LBP1, when people were making amazing things out of a very kludgy set of tools. And that is true. However, it is also true that community levels were, like, at least 40% rocket cheetah races by volume. Then, at least another 40% bomb survival levels. Then another 40% shark survival levels. Like, you probably had maybe 40% actual high quality gold.

Don't check those numbers. i am not math gay.

This one, however, is a really nice LBP1 level. Great vibe, solid shaping, excellent material choices for what they were going for. It's all so pretty. And actually fun on top of that. Love to see it.

As nice as the last one? No, not really. The look definitely feels more in line wiv creators that were actually trying, but maybe quite hadn't developed the skill (that being said, it is a good, bright and poppy look, just a kludgy one). On the other hand, the pacing is maintained better, and it's just a lot of good fun. i can imagine a level like this being a real hoot wiv a group of friends. i got the feeling that there were other paths i could take, but i can only devote so much time to recording, unfortunately.

This is one of my favourite level archetypes from the LBP2-era. Almost impressionistic in the way it shapes its environment. Humourous wiv out smacking you in the face wiv it too hard, and wivout being mean-spirited to boot. Great characters. And, again, it manages to be an enjoyable level to actually play through, not just to watch from the side. Love it, love it.

i know lighting changes are a pretty big issues wiv 1 & 2 levels in LBP 3, but i have the feeling this one was probably overbright and washed out in the original too. Like, it almost hurts to look at. Not in a "oh this is so ugly" way (tho', i wouldn't say it's particularly top notch in that department), but like, it is bright-bright. The creatinator bit here, was... maaaaaan... just such a pain in the butt.

Nothing much more to say about this one that i didn't say last Friday except, fun fact, i chose this level precisely because it came up at random in my recommends at a time when someone i follow here on tumblr was on a month (or more? time is wonky) long tear gushing over Michael J Fox, and specifically MJF in Back to the Future. Like, seriously, that's the whole bit.

i remember playing this one back when it was first published in LBP1, and let me tell you, the way my jaw actually hit the floor. The song repro is soooo good.

Great idea, and i think the execution is probably as good as the creator could get it; but the control on your bee is really wonky, and i feel like i had to fight it to get it where it needed to be. The idea of multiple endings is neat, and i picked up the best, and then the next tier down from that. i should tried to just totally fail, see what would happen there.

Not really a tonne to say about this one. It's a solid, and solidly presented, grappling hook platformer. It's a really fun play, and honestly, i don't often need more than that.

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Whew, five minutes to spare. Girl's gotta motorvate. Stay safe out there! Love ya!

[ambitioncunningpridemieczyslaw]

25 fun and cute questions to brighten the spirits and get us through the holidays!

I was tagged by @halevetica who is literally such an angel and one of the best fanfic writers of all time!!!!!!!

Check them out on Ao3 cuz again they are one of the best and has never written a bad fic 💕

Hiya all! I’ve created this list as a reminder of happy memories and great times with our loved ones since I think we’re all feeling a tad blue this holiday season. Tagging my favourite blogs but all are welcome to answer :)

Best gift you’ve ever gotten: I would have to say the best gift I ever got came from my old high school ap lit teacher/theater director I was in the plays every year from 7th-12th grade and she got me a necklace with the drama faces on it along with a jewelry box that played at the beginning from Anastasia, which was the first song I ever sang with her on stage, when I graduated so yeah she gets the win everytime cuz she had me bawling like a baby at the final cast party we did

Nicest thing anyone’s ever done for you: I have 4 different friends who on 4 different occasions just bought me gifts not because of anything special or because they felt sorry over us fighting or something just they saw something and genuinely thought I would like it. I honestly just love receiving gifts that someone gets you out of the blue just because they simply think of you after seeing something and get it for you like it definitely means a lot to me that I'm the first person they thought of when getting those things

Your favourite holiday memory: Um... I honestly don't know if I have one, but something that I look back and think fondly of is when the one year my mom and I caroled with our church choir like I remember all the baking we did the day before in the church kitchen and it was a lot of us singing to Christmas songs that probably shouldn't be played in church lol and the caroling itself went well we gave out plates of cookies and caroled for any person who was on our prayer list at the time and seeing some of those people's faces like them seeing that people did care and that they weren't alone meant everything to me

Where you want to go first once we can travel again: New Zealand it's always looked so beautiful plus I mean that's where Lucy Lawless is from so it has to be amazing

Your spirit animal: I'm going to say a wolf just because I've always had this obsession with them since I was a kid

Your OTP: See I wanna say Sterek just because they're my favorite ship but I also like them in different pairings... I'm going to do a throwback shout out to Tyrus from Andi Mack cuz I can't handle seeing Tj and Cyrus with anyone but each other.

Tumblr pals you want to meet in real life: Literally anyone and everyone so I have more people to cuddle and binge shows with lol

Soulmates: real or fake: Imma say real like I do believe they're are souls who are cosmically linked together whether it be romantically or platonically I do think we all have that one person who we want to spend forever with

Favourite holiday food: those sugar cookies with the Reese Cups or Hershey Kisses in the center those are the shit tbh

What you wish you were doing right now: it's only 9:30 am so it's my chill in bed and contemplate life time lol but ig if there was something I wish I was doing rn it would be finishing the Sterek fic I'm reading rn

Your safe space/where or who you feel most at home with: My safe space would be while I was in school it was either the library or auditorium but now that I have an apartment that I share with my sister like I finally feel like I have a home to go to and genuinely want to be at so yeah my place is definitely my space but as for people I would say my sister and our two best friends

Favourite hobbies: Reading brings me joy lol which here are pictures I finally finished putting together my other book shelf the other day so if ya'll want to see here are some pictures. Definitely want more books though lol

Cooking or baking: Oh cooking for sure cuz I can't bake for shit 😅

Reading or writing: Reading

Gifsets or mood boards:

Coffee or tea: Coffee!!!!

City or suburbs: To visit city to stay suburbs

Someone who can always make you laugh: I would say my sister and our two friends we're always making each other laugh

Someone who always brightens your day: @crazyassmurdererwall just because anytime I'm having a bad day the fic I go to for comfort is Stuck In Reverse because it is literal perfection

Favourite day of the week: Whatever my day or days off are that week like how today is a glorious Tuesday cuz it's my only day off this week

Favourite animal: Wolves

Dream vacation spot: I mean I've been to the beach nearly every summer since I was a kid so I feel like renting out a nice cabin in the mountains somewhere would be dope af

Writer, artist, or creator(s) you want to see more of: @crazyassmurdererwall & @isthatbloodonhisshirt & @halevetica always 💕

Favourite movie, television show, and song: A Star Is Born (2018), Sex and the City, & You Don't Own Me by Lesley Gore

I tag @justkimberley @acercrea @charming-fan-girl @cinematicnomad only if ya'll want to of course & if I mentioned you and you see this and want to do this go for it!!!! Please tag me if you do and that goes for anyone who sees this I give you full permission to tag me so I can see all of your responses. Love you all!!! 💕💕💕