#i mean they all have self-guiding penises in this show. it’s okay i’m already suspending my disbelief

[anders-hawke]

sorry i’m just. i’m rewatching the confessions of kristen bouchard rn. getting david’s forgiveness. how clearly the actual act of murdering orson leroux isn’t weighing on her but whether or not the people around her (especially david as her moral authority) will excise her from their lives. how she’s so so so afraid of david cutting her out of his life that she’s reverting to her childhood to approach her feelings of guilt. how the blanket dropping to the floor is her dropping her facade of being okay. how her setting down the ice pick is accepting her dependence on/attachment to david. how she doesn’t want to look at him because then she’ll have to know for sure what he thinks and as much as she pretends to be able to have all the answers through science you can’t navigate emotions through rationality.