#i mean if the whole dash is doing it

[vivitalks]

man. derek is such an interesting character in season 1, especially when you can look at him through the lens of having seen the whole show, because he's like an unreliable narrator for scott, even though he's not a narrator for the show.

the thing is, derek in season 1 is the primary vehicle for werewolf lore. as new viewers, we're reliant on his character to explain to us the rules and conceits of the genre, but once you've seen the whole show, that role is no longer necessary. but for scott, in season 1, derek is the sole source of werewolf intel. derek is werewolf jesus. which means that everything scott initially learns about being a werewolf is filtered through the Derek Hale Trauma Matrix, and neither of them know it.

for example: in 1x05, derek tells scott that pain is what keeps you human (which is a mantra that gets repeated and referenced a ton over the course of the rest of the show). scott has been a werewolf for all of five seconds, and has no choice but to take the word of this obviously much more knowledgeable werewolf. in that way, derek operates as a kind of narrator for scott, giving him information and context he couldn't really get any other way. but it's unreliable info. don't get me wrong - derek isn't trying to be an unreliable narrator; he's not aware of how much his life experience has colored his understanding of his own species. it's just that...well...derek is a twenty-something with the kind of trauma that eats other trauma for breakfast. of course he would say that pain is what keeps you human. at this point in the show, pain is all he has.

this is the same guy who, in the next episode, says this:

DEREK: You getting angry? That's your first lesson. You want to learn how to control this, how to shift-- you do it through anger, by tapping into a primal animal rage, and you can't do that with her around. SCOTT: [defensively] I can get angry. DEREK: Not angry enough. This is the only way that I can teach you.

except we know, and scott quickly learns (in that very same episode, in fact), that this isn't true. anger doesn't work for everyone, and it doesn't work for scott, who's not an angry person. the things that work for derek won't work for all werewolves - but how would derek know that? he's never had to teach someone to be a werewolf before. he's not actually werewolf jesus.

to scott, derek is the only trustworthy source of information on being a werewolf, because he's the only werewolf scott knows. and from derek's perspective, everything he knows about being a werewolf must be true, because it's true for him. derek is the narrator, and it's only as his backstory unfolds that the viewers, and scott, learn just how much his history and trauma have obscured the reality of things, even for derek himself.

pain is not what makes you human. it's what makes derek human. because the moments in derek's life that stand out to him most are all tinged with tragedy. mercy killing his high school girlfriend. losing his entire family in a house fire. the death of his sister. for derek, to be human is to be in pain, and to be angry about that is the only way to be in control. after all, he doesn't have anyone teaching him otherwise.

[aaternum]

bold what applies , italicize sometimes .repost , don't reblog .

fights honorably / fights dirty

prefers close - quarters / prefers range

chats during / goes silent

low pain tolerance / high pain tolerance

attacks in bursts / attacks steadily

goes for the kill / aims to disarm / fights defensively / strikes first

is provoked easily / provokes their opponent / teases

gets visibly frustrated / shouts while attacking

uses strategy / focuses on the battle / experiences conflicting thoughts during battle

rushes in recklessly / tries to read their opponent before engaging

fights wildly / fights calmly / fights apathetically / fights with anger / fights with excitement

fights because they have to / fights because they want to

fights without regard to wounds / runs away when wounded / hides wounds / takes a blow to protect another

prefers a blade / prefers a gun / prefers hand to hand combat / prefers a bow / prefers a shield / prefers a personalized weapon / prefers magic or spells

their greatest weakness is physical / their greatest weakness is mental / their greatest weakness is emotional

transforms for battle / fights as they appear

relies on strength / doubts their strength / relies on speed

uses everything they have / proceeds with caution / hides their full potential

exhausts quickly / has high stamina

behaves arrogantly / brags after landing a hit / belittles their abilities

uses psychological tactics / uses brute strength

avoids civilians / strikes down civilians

damages surroundings / avoids damaging surroundings

signature fighting style / makes it up as they go

mastered skill - set / learning their skill - set

fancy footwork / sloppy footwork

messy fighter / elegant fighter

accepts defeat / refuses defeat / begs for mercy

compliments their opponent / insults their opponent

uses unnecessary movements / moves efficiently / barely moves

prefers to dodge / prefers to block

defends their blindside / has no blindside / leaves blindsides vulnerable

uses all available advantages / strictly uses one main method

plays around / holds back / fights ruthlessly / shows mercy

waits for an opponent to be ready / strikes when opponent isn’t ready

fears death / fears pain / fears killing

has ptsd / avoids fighting

has lost a fight / has won a fight

has killed / refuses to kill

wants to die standing / would succumb slowly

tagged by: @generalzelgius (thank you sm! <3) tagging: @incandescentia, @nezumivc103221, @wintryrevaerie, @solivcgant, @mannequinentity, @inseparableduo + you reading this! c:

[icewindandboringhorror]

finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh

[agonizedembrace]

DOSSIER CHEAT SHEET

LEGAL NAME(?) └ Evelynn NICKNAME(S) └ Eve, Horned Woman, Mistress DATE OF BIRTH └ before 9000 BN ( she's old, folks! ) GENDER └ female ( she/her ) PLACE OF BIRTH └ ??? CURRENTLY LIVING └ ???

OTHER INFORMATION :

SPOKEN LANGUAGES └ the safest answer is all. ( for as old as she is, and often she has traveled, she has had ample time to take knowledge of the languages that harbors the nations ) EDUCATION └ none officially - everything Evelynn knows is self taught, through careful observation upon thousand of years HAIR COLOR └ VARIES ; by default ( in her true demonic form ) is a dark purple, with a burning pink front and center. it can be whatever she desires when she takes a disguise. EYE COLOR └ gold, but can be glowing pink when in her demon shade. HEIGHT └ CAN VERY ; but she typically resides to a 5'5" WEIGHT └ never ask a lady her weight, darling. ( likely around 120lbs on average )

FAMILY ( she doesn't have family -- sorry! ) RELATIONSHIP INFORMATION :

SEXUAL ORIENTATION └ pansexual demiromantic RELATIONSHIP STATUS └ in base / runterra verse in all technicalities, she is not taken -- nor does she truly comprehend the idea of relationships, but she certainly has her eyes set on a certain ionian. in the future and other verses ( i.e modern/kda, coven, high noon & several more ) she is happily involved with akali ( the ionian, gasp! @.kalijhomentehti, specifically )

TAGGED BY : @pitgritted TAGGING: @kalijhomentethi , @nameaprice , @tealbeats and you!

[dailydanielewski]

"Transformation never ceased to blossom beyond the threat of permanent loss." - D.A.R.K., The Familiar v3

[helioptilie]

i wish i hadn’t seen so much hype around Armand before starting the show bc i think i was waiting for some shocking revelation instead of truly following the story and developing opinions on my own and now I really don’t know how to take him

[themyscirah]

Thinking about current continuity Vanessa and just getting pissed off again

Like one, LET HER REST oh my god dc you ruin her FUCKING life like an asshole only to bring her back as a villain after she finally got out oh my god-

But also like its just so bad. This is a whole other woman with her name like why are we doing this. Like first you kill her mom (JULIA NOOO) and erase her YEARS of history growing up around diana (the thing that actually made her villain turn [if you can call it that w the level of manipulation involved] interesting and fucking heartbreaking) for some shitty "oh I saved you we were friends" run of the mill whatever. Then to use that and say Nessie had a crush on her OWN SISTER (Diana, so like informally adopted, but still 😡) now????

And then they took away her curls and made her a redhead but not even the realistic kind. DC SHE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT

It just makes me so mad. Freaking guys. They could have used another name like oh my god. She's not even the first silver swan why the fuck would they do that if they're not going to explore her history w diana (which she no longer has!!!!) or how intensely fucked up everything got for her. What is even the fucking point of this then other to drag a main character of the ww supporting cast through the mud again for genuinely no reason. They could have easily had her be Valerie Beaudry (sorry Val) instead or just MADE UP ANOTHER NAME because it's obvious that no one actually cared about her as a character they just wanted the wondy villain back so like !!!!!!!!!! Why even bother

[bisolationist]

This is the part that makes me go. Oh. Hmm.

The response seemed more along the lines of "well OBVIOUSLY it's true that men being sexually assaulted is an immeasurably lesser crime on the spectrum but we should be nice because maybe individually they're really hurt by it uwu"

This is what I mean by how I'm tired of subjectivity-of-experience being a vaguery by which people concede that our trauma (subjective response) might be great while the harm (objective crime) is vastly lesser. I already wrote a very off-hand post about this and I can't believe we even got another assault comparison. Now this response wasn't nearly so bad as what I was referencing to there, but it's still the same pattern of buying into that rhetoric.

The OP's response is seemingly compassionate (and I think there's genuine compassion behind it!), but imo is a rhetorical dead-end and hollow of meaningful criticism.

Saying that someone's trauma-response to something might merit compassion is good of course, but it does nothing to combat the implication that it should be a far lesser crime in terms of punishment, and seems to implicitly concede the anon's rhetoric on it being a different magnitude of harm. People already know different people react to events differently. But if they see you reacting strongly to something they seem mild, they see you as weak, manipulative, or both. So to people like anon, I think this response doesn't refute any of the beliefs they are espousing, it just reinforces the idea that male SA victims that exhibit trauma responses are reacting strongly to something mild and should be treated accordingly.

All of this to say... uhm, like sorry but sometimes the correct response is to say "being sexually assaulted is not like breaking a fucking ankle being sexually assaulted is not like breaking a fucking ankle being sexually assaulted is not like breaking a fucking ankle", not to plead the case that broken-ankle victims might FEEL as bad as someone who was violently hatecrimed, because that implicitly concedes the premise.

Note on that: not lost on me that the example chosen, a broken ankle, is something more associated with accidents. I've also written before on how people are determined to view victimization they think is unimportant as accidents/collateral and go out of their way to examine it as such (I talk about biphobia being talked about this way too, but I think it carries over to a lot of experiences).

[the-king-of-lemons]

i need to bring back my dood-les for sdmp bro... so many funny bits i could horribly recreate in mspaint

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

[munwa]

one thing i don't really get about people here is being proud of painstakingly blocklist half your mutuals' (and/or blogs you follow) interests // things they're clearing having the time of their life obsessing over simply because that's not what you, and i quote, 'singed up for'.

[nappingmoon]

i’m so glad you like the moodboard!!! my heart is swelling 🥹🥹

GEORGINAAAA LIKE IS FAR TOO CALM A TERM I LOOOOOOOOOVE IT

it is amazing it is the sweetest thing ever it is gorgeous if you type in the term lovely in the dictionary it actually comes up as an example

you are in love is now officially my song w him thank you for that

[hyliasblade]

Wow

[tabithatwo]

okay the STATE of my asks right now lol, i just want to clarify so deeply that i am not gleefully celebrating the fact that i don't like this season. like. i tried to love it. so hard. i think some of you have this impression that i've become obsessed with this piece of media only to then sit in the corner and wait with party poppers for its inevitable downfall?? like who do you think i AM?? i am MOURNING to an UNHEALTHY level lmao my hyperfixation is slipping through my fingers (if you only know me through tumblr, i have also written a stupid amount of fic for this show and studied s1 for it, as in STUDIED, i have spent so many hours with this show, i am hardcore adhd ATTACHED to this content). i promise you i am NOT finding fucking joy in this, i am just discussing the show on my own blog and i SOBBED last night about how UPSET i am. truly going to need people to stop telling me i'm a fucking idiot for not liking narrative choices and/or telling me to shut the fuck up because i "can't understand basic premises." i really truly promise you that i'm smarter than you think i am and perfectly capable of filling in gaps, but i am allowed to think that the show should have done some shit on screen. also it doesn't MATTER, if you love it i am HAPPY FOR YOU and JEALOUS OF YOU lol, if you don't like what i say just ignore it! i don't know why people are so angry but it is EXHAUSTING, get some fresh air thanks so much <3 <3 i am being a sad girl on my own blog <3 <3

[cascadianights]

I understand being upset that the character you saw yourself most in died, that he didn't get to sail off with everyone else. We've been force-fed tragedy and buried gays for years, happiness finally finally dangled in front of them just to lose it all before they could taste it.

But that's not what happened here. Izzy didn't just get to glance at what that life could be, he lived it. He got to experience family, and acceptance. He got to make choices to step forward, to be himself to be HAPPY. The way people are implying that because he died, it was all pointless?! That his healing and growth and huge steps forward all became null and void because he died??? Life and growth and love and choosing family choosing to fight for and protect them even knowing what it might cost is EVERYTHING! It's the WHOLE POINT!!!

This was not a condemnation of Izzy it was a celebration of him. This was a reminder that even though we're all going to die, no matter how much pain you've been through, you can still choose to heal and move forward and live for yourself and the ones you love.

Nevermind the entire rest of the crew?! Nevermind the gay marriage, the chill polyamory, the in depth dive into suicide (via Ed) and how none of us is unlovable. Nevermind that he died surrounded by family and love, something he never thought possible. You CANNOT just discard it all and harass the creators & take this as a message of despair when it is a blazing neon sign to KEEP LIVING KEEP FIGHTING KEEP SINGING!!!!! To do so is to get lost in the pain and the internalized voices that say we Will be miserable forever, when so so many people are working to make this art begging you to be able to feel and move forward and heal from that place.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

yknow when I first watched identity crisis at an age where I could process thoughts about media (ripe old age of 11) and my first thought was "whoa he's just like me fr" despite NEITHER version of danny being even remotely similar to me i really should've. considered.