#i mean i'll absolutely save for him if i have the time when his banner comes close to global release. especially just for The Rat

[thegreatyin]

,,,okay unironically while i do appreciate finally having one of the sui brothers and i can enjoy his design on a purely aesthetic "that's pretty neat" level. yeah no i agree with everyone else actually he's a bit boring

[xylodemon]

i've been skimming through The Great Hunt as i plot out the next chapter of my fic and i ended up having some Random Thoughts about the Show

(book spoilers under the cut)

what got me thinking was the Dragon Banner scene in TGH, particularly Mat's less-than-stellar reaction to finding out Rand can channel. it's a hard scene to read - even on rereads, knowing that Mat stops Being Like That fairly quickly - but it does help set up the fact that (nearly) everyone is going to be at least a little afraid of Rand moving forward.

i am, however, wondering if the show will skip all that, thinking that Mat staying behind at the Waygate is enough to put the necessary strain on their relationship. although... Rand defended Mat pretty vehemently in 1x07. it'll be interesting to see if Rand really isn't upset about it, or if he just snapped at Egwene in a "no one talks shit about my boyfriend bestie but me" kind of way.

while i was writing the last chapter of my fic, i rewatched the scene where Min tells Rand about Tam finding him in the snow, which got me thinking about them. i love Rand's screwy love-life, but in the books, Rand/Min is the least compelling of the relationships to me, mainly bc she spends so much of LOC/COS trying to make her viewing happen, regardless of what he wants (or says he wants). Show!Min's "ugh, you" reaction to him walking into the tavern makes me hope wonder if the show is going to rework their dynamic a bit.

Speaking of relationships, the show leaning into Moiraine/Siuan so hard (love it) has me curious re: what it plans to do with Siuan/Gareth and Moiraine/Thom. i have zero investment in either of those relationships, but Thom and Moiraine's feelings for each other are tied up with how the Tower of Ghenjei stuff plays out.

(not me maundering about stuff that'll be in, like, Season 10 or 11 when we're still waiting for Season 2.

back to Season 2: in the promo and the stills, Rand sure does seem to be channeling a lot. i wonder if he's going to skip the whole I'LL NEVER DO IT AGAIN I PROMISE stuff. likely, he starts off like that in 2x01/2x02 but gets "talked" out of it by "Selene." Rand traveling with her alone instead of with Loial and Hurin (RIP) has the potential to do truly bonkers things to their dynamic.

back to Mat (sorry i'm genuinely all over the place today): there's a scene in the promo that looks like he's being Healed, which suggests he's at Tar Valon. i'm wondering how he gets out. i understand that they're collapsing some plotlines from TGH and TDR, which would probably put Mat in the Tower while Egwene/Elayne/Nynaeve are at Falme. that means they won't be there to bust him out with Siuan's Black Ajah hunting letter.

Unraveling the Pattern on YT did a promo breakdown that's convinced me the Rand/Siuan meeting goes down in Cairhien. i'm wondering now if Siuan brings Mat with her. that would get him to Rand in time to go to Falme and blow the Horn.

Sadly, this could end up costing me two of my absolute favorite Mat sequences: his quarterstaff face-off with Gawyn and Galad, and the whole bit where he gambles his way out of Tar Valon.

(he still better answer the door naked when Rand saves him from the Darkhounds. that is peak comedy. PEAK.)

i'm probably not saying anything anyone hasn't already figured out here, but i'm thinking, since TGH and TDR are getting meshed, that Rand goes straight from Falme to the Aiel Waste. i've seen some speculation that Aviendha is the Aiel Perrin rescues from the cage, thus explaining why she's with him at Falme, but she wouldn't be the only Aiel around. i'm betting the show is altering the People of the Dragon prophecy so that it's about Falme (the Car'a'carn appearing in the sky???) rather than the Stone. Maybe Rand takes the Aiel with him when he goes to Tear and picks up his plot coupon Callandor.

okay, that's it. i swear.

[earthtooz]

JFUEKSNFKWN henlo, I'm back owo)/ I'll entertain the burger question first HEHEE So I'm okii with anything what to put inside the burger as long as it's reasonable and lives up to its name! (i.e., an ice-cream burger: buns + ice cream) I don't want any pickles on my burger ;; to me, it ruins the savory taste.

About the Itoshi Rin ask!!

🔹Are you going to save for him in Blue Lock: World Championship? It's a farming mobile game (like ensemble stars basic, there's not much of a gameplay) that you can download on qooapp. Our job there is to become the character's assistant (a manager if you will (｡・//ε//・｡)) basically, we exist in their world now and there are side events where you can converse with them (Japanese language settings though-) It's Nagi's banner today!

🔹MANNNN it's soooooo hard to get a merch of Rin inside an anime convention. Maybe the fact that the anime just released in December a huge factor on why I'm having this dilemma rn. At the end of the convention, I only managed to get an official postcard of Rin (I put it inside my closet for daily motivation purposes HNGGG) and a blue shirt of Blue Lock. I ordered a shirt of him though (even if the back of the shirt says Itoshi, not Rin)

🔹I suddenly have an urge to illustrate a chibi Rin so I can send it to a shop where they can make personalized acrylic keychains or stickers so I can satisfy my loving-Itoshi-Rin tendencies (~￣³￣)~💙💙💙💙

🔹MANNNNNNNNNN part.2 HAHAHAAHHA Why do I see Rin do this "thing" where he's pretending to fall asleep or be occupied with his earphones (but it's not connected to his phone) inside a car ride just to hear his fem!classmate he's growing to be comfy with, hum a tune (especially when the tune she's humming fits to his taste of music, King Gnu)

first of all: fair enough, as long as a burger is burgering, i have no complaints! ALSO pickles kinda make or break it, i get why you wouldn't like them in your burger but i think at one point i stopped asking to put aside the pickles so i just eat them LOL 😍😍

ALSO I DIDN'T KNOW THERE WAS A BLUE LOCK MOBILE GAME????????? SINCE WHEN?????? IS IT ONLY ON ANDROID BC I CANNOT FIND IT FOR THE LIFE OF ME IN IOS!!!!!?!??!!? NOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHAT THE EFF?!?!?! I WANT TO PLAY THIS SILLY LITTLE GAME SOOOOO BADLY I LOVE MY SOCCER BOYS!!! IF I HAD IT, THEN I WOULD ABSOLUTELY BE SAVING FOR ITOSHI RIN WHAT!???!!? my night is ruined i can't believe i can't play this game </3

i have merch of itoshi rin!!!! i also have some of chigiri, nagi, and isagi!!! but i got that from japan lol so it would make sense that i have them... but hey, at least he's finally introduced in the anime so that means more merch of him at conventions :OOOO but putting the postcard in your wardrobe is so smart 😭😭😭 maybe i should do that. i wake up to his face and immediately start feeling envious of how hard he works so i'll start doing pushups on the floor next to my bed!!!!

also can i see ur chibi rin :(

AND AND AND AND rin would totally do that! BUT I WOULD LIKE TO RAISE YOU THIS INSTEAD! instead of a car ride, it could be on like public transport ride where reader and him are seated next to each other. bc rin is naturally vv standoffish, you feel a little out of place beside him, unsure what to do with yourself, despite how close you two have been getting for the past few weeks.

five minutes in, he sees you reach for your earphones / airpods and glances at your phone in curiosity to see what you'll listen to. then he sees you pulling up king gnu and before he knows it, you're offering a pair of earbuds to him!!! AND HE'S LIKE 'oh... okay' BEFORE TAKING IT AND LISTENING!!!! AND IT'S SO CUTE BC U SHARE FOR BASICALLY THE REST OF THE DAY!!!!! sorry i just love the prompt of sharing headphones, i took my own little spin on your ask - hope that's okay :(

thanks for taking the time to pop into my inbox!!!! have an amazing day and don't forget to take care of yourself! hope 2 see u soon :o

[moririki]

⤷ AN EIGHT-LEGGED PROBLEM

OIKAWA TOORU & SAKUSA KIYOOMI & HAIBA LEV & MIYA ATSUMU X READER -> 1.8K
you save your boyfriend from a massive problem which is currently in the corner of your bathroom )

REQUEST -> n/a
CONTAINS -> spiders, bugs, you picking up said creepy crawlies, hq boys being no! help! at! all! (but that's ok bc we love them for it), fanon-ish sakusa cos i haven't read the manga and he had like 5 seconds of screen time so i'm just going off of what i've read + seen, clear favouritism despite the fact that i know basically nothing about sakusa, manga timeskip spoilers in sakusa's
MORI'S THOUGHTS -> haven't seen one where the reader is the one in the relationship who takes care of bugs so since i'm a #girlboss who throws spiders out of my room whenever i see them without breaking a sweat i'm writing that into a fun lil thing with the haikyuu boys that i strongly believe are scared of bugs. also besides the point but look at the pretty colour palette that their banners make fjfjfjdj will go back to writing the requests after this! inspiration just struck

❍ OIKAWA TOORU

-> omg this fucking guy

-> don't let his pride fool you this man HATES bugs with a burning passion

-> he'll never admit it though

-> between you and the aoba johsai team he would never hear the end of how the great king oikawa would cower at the sight of a moth doing laps around a lightbulb

-> so when you pretended not to hear the shriek that left your boyfriend when he saw something flying around the bathroom light and he declined your offer to get rid of the moth for him, this left oikawa in a pretty difficult situation

-> it was just him alone in the bathroom, trying to brush his teeth while eyeing the bug warily

-> you came in a few minutes later, getting ready to go to bed as well

-> "you know, babe, that moth's been there for quite a while," you teased him

-> oikawa hummed in response, his eyes never leaving it as it continued its circumnavigation of the light fixture

-> "oh, you know. who am i to kick someone out of their home? i'm no monster"

-> you almost snorted at how poor of an excuse that was, but ruffled your boyfriend's hair anyway

-> "i'll take care of it, ru, you just finish getting ready"

-> "but y/n-chan, that moth has feelings! don't be mean to it!"

-> you gave tooru a very blank stare at that

-> "so do you want me to leave you alone with your new friend?"

-> "......no"

-> "that's what i thought"

-> you went up to the moth, managing to trap it in your hands before releasing it from a window

-> oikawa shuddered as you came back to the sink, giving your hands a quick rinse before resuming with brushing your teeth like nothing had happened

-> "you're so brave, my love"

-> "anything for you, babe"

❍ SAKUSA KIYOOMI

-> bless this poor boy

-> so it's no secret that sakusa isn't the fondest of germs

-> and that extends to bugs and spiders too

-> besides a normal amount of disgust that he held for them, the thought of where the insects had been or placed one of their many feet on never failed to make his skin crawl

-> that's where you, his wonderful significant other, comes in

-> as much as he loves you, he just can't understand how you always stared at bugs with wonder in your eyes

-> you'd even pick them up, cooing at the way they crawled up your arm while sakusa just stared at you in disbelief with a can of bug spray in hand

-> tonight was one of those swelteringly hot summer nights

-> you know, the ones where the air seems to be still no matter how many windows you open and every insect in a mile radius is actively trying to enter your home

-> you were spending the night at your boyfriend's apartment, ready to have a relaxing night in with him since your schedules had finally synced up and allowed you both to enjoy a day off at the same time

-> it took months of trust before sakusa finally admitted to you how much he enjoyed doing skincare

-> so whenever you two spent the night together, you decided to start the evening with some face masks and idle binging of a tv show

-> against his half-hearted protests, you had insisted that sakusa wore a headband while this happened (one that had a very cute duck face printed on it)

-> just to keep the curls out of his face, of course

-> whenever he caught you sneaking a candid of him with facemask and duck headband on, he just shot you a halfhearted glare and threatened you to never send that to atsumu or the rest of the msby team

-> (you set it as your home screen instead)

-> anyways, i digress

-> so tonight you decided to cool down from the heat with a few facemasks and cuddling in your boyfriend's heavily air conditioned living room

-> but he kept all his skincare stuff in the bathroom, so you went to go get them as he set up a show to watch along with some snacks

-> you flicked on the light, going to his cabinet when something in the corner of the room caught your eye

-> there was a fairly large spider, desperately trying to crawl up the smooth tile wall

-> you decided to take pity on it and release it

-> but when you had it cupped safely in your hands, you decided to terrorise your poor boyfriend just a little

-> "hey, omi, look what i found!"

-> your boyfriend perked up at your signature nickname for him, though his eyes narrowed as he saw your clasped hands held in front of you

-> "no"

-> "but baby, you haven't even seen-"

-> "no"

-> you giggled at how defensive he had become

-> "come on, don't you want to name it? it's very cute"

-> "i want you to throw it out, y/n"

-> "alright, alright"

-> you took the spider to a window, releasing it back outside before heading back to the bathroom and grabbing a few masks for real this time

-> sakusa gave you the cold shoulder as you sat down next to him, humming as you gave him a face mask and putting it on without a word

-> "aww, baby, i'm sorry"

-> "..."

-> "i'll give you a head massage if you stop ignoring me?"

-> sakusa turned to you, his eyes narrowed in thought as he stared you down

-> the act soon broke, though, and he smiled against the sheet mask that was on his face

-> "it better be a good one," he huffed as he tugged the duck headband off, already sighing at the sensation of your fingers against his scalp

-> "omi, come on, what do you take me for?"

❍ HAIBA LEV

-> ngl lev gives off equal amounts of being terrified of like the tiniest spider or just finding bugs insanely cool vibes

-> it's funnier to imagine this 6-foot-something guy scramble away from a fucking crane fly in terror though so this is how it's going to play out

-> when you invited your giant of a boyfriend to your flat, you didn't anticipate just how small he made everything appear

-> he even towered in your doorway, having to stoop to step through into your hall

-> "woahh, i love your place!"

-> it was his first time staying over for the night, and lev was making sure to drink in every aspect of your interior design

-> you found it sweet of him, and watched as he stared in wide-eyed wonder at the little trinkets you had collected over the years to make your small apartment seem more like a home

-> you didn't expect him to scream at the top of his lungs and practically run back to you, though

-> you jumped at the sound, watching as he scrambled away from your lamp and pointed back at it with a shaking finger

-> you squinted at it, making out the very menacing form of a crane fly as it bumped into the lampshade and continued on its path

-> "lev, you big baby," you giggled, heading to the kitchen to grab a glass and trap it

-> "y/n, don't leave me alone with it!" he yelped, and you rolled your eyes at his antics

-> you came back, smoothly capturing the insect and throwing it out of a nearby window

-> lev was sat on your couch the whole time, hands covering his eyes as he curled in a ball

-> "is it gone?" he asked, and you you giggled at how childlike he was acting at the moment

-> "it's all good, baby" you smoothed his hair and lev gratefully leaned into your touch, a sigh of relief leaving him

-> "thank you, y/n"

-> "i'll get rid of all the bugs in the world for you, lev"

❍ MIYA ATSUMU

-> gives off the vibes that he used to eat bugs as a child i'm sorry but

-> have mercy on his soul lmao

-> so twins are supposed to be identical right?

-> anyone who spends more than a few minutes around the miya twins know that that's a complete fucking lie

-> and you've had the misfortune of being friends with them for a very long time

-> like your mums were friends and you were all born around the same time

-> you've been pulled into their shit before you could walk or talk

-> so you're well aware of just how different these mfs are

-> even though they were both absolute bastards, osamu always had a slightly more mellowed out approach which would always end up with atsumu getting the blame for what they got up to

-> especially as a child, osamu loved to terrorise his twin with the unwilling help of you

-> one of the ways was through osamu exploiting one of his twins' fears

-> that being bugs and spiders

-> he always cackled at the sight of atsumu screaming and trying to run away from him due to the spider he was holding

-> as they both grew up, this became less of a frequent thing for osamu to do

-> you also somehow started dating atsumu, but nobody could exactly pinpoint a moment that signified a beginning to your relationship

-> but since you're dating the world's biggest manchild in disguise, and osamu gets annoyed with atsumu quite easily, you would have to swoop in to rescue him from time to time

-> recently the twins had been getting a little snappy with each other, and it had yet to sort itself out

-> from what you had heard your boyfriend was in the wrong this time, but you still listened to him whine and rant about it

-> you were going to the inarizaki school gym to say hi to your boyfriend and best friend before practice started, only to see absolute chaos unfolding

-> with kita yet to arrive, the twins were effectively unleashed and that much was clear with the way atsumu was practically screaming his head off as he ran around the gym

-> your eyes took in the rest of the players- aran had his head in his hands, suna was snickering with his phone out to record the newest miya twin fight, and osamu's deranged laugh could be heard above everything else as he chased his brother, hand held out in front of him

-> only one thing was capable of making atsumu scream like that, so you already knew what was happening

-> atsumu quickly spotted you hovering in the doorway, and made a beeline to where you were

-> his eyes were panicked, and you were quick to wrap him in a hug as you shot osamu a nasty glare over his shoulder

-> literally this lmfao

-> "that's enough, 'samu"

-> your best friend paused, before a smile spread across his face as he dangled the centipede in front of him

-> "you know it was rubber, right?"

-> you felt your boyfriend tense in your arms and you bit your lip to stifle a small giggle

-> but at least they would be back to normal by the end of today

back to the menu - ,, 🕷 ·˚ ༘ ꒱

[centuriantalevevo]

Losing the 50/50

He was right there.

So close yet so far.

And yet Diluc was pushed forward.

He could only sit there in devastation while watching them frantically try to get more primogems to try and get him to come home.

Now they were yelling at Diluc, and blaming him for them losing the 50/50.

They were wrongfully blaming Diluc, they knew that. But they just didn't want to accept that they lost the 50/50, and no less to DILUC. They said if they lost the 50/50, they wanted to lose to Qiqi or Keching.

"You! Why?! What did I ever do to you?! I already have Kaeya! I don't nEED PYRO KAEYA!" "Don't call me a Pyro version of that annoying ass man." The red haired man huffed, "Well that's whatchu are! You're his brother or whatever! Still! I wanted Xiao! I was SUPPOSED to have XIAO! He was supposed to come home! But no! You just HAD to take his place, didn't you?!" They yelled, glaring grabbing their own hair "Halo, calm down.. It's not his fault-" Albedo tried to cut it, "Yes it IS his fault! He could've not come! He could've let Xiao come home! Or at least have Qiqi or Keching go in his place but NOoooooOoo! He wanted to ruin it!" They shook their head "my disappointment is immeasurable and my entire life has been ruined." They growled, "That's an over exaggeration…" The blonde said.

"I want to tHROW YOU! I WANT TO HATE CRIME YOU! I WANT TO CHOKE YOU! WHY CAN'T I TRADE YOU IN FOR MY FUCKING ADEPTUS?!" They screamed, starting to tear up "it's just a game, it's not the end of the world-" Diluc tried to speak but got talked over "Yes! It IS the end of the world! I DON'T HAVE THE MEANS TO BE ABLE TO SPEND THOUSANDS ON THIS! I'M FUCKING BROKE! I'M WORSE THAN POVERTY!" "Why not blame Albedo?!" Diluc asked, "Hey! I didn't do anything." Albedo said in defense, "HE'S the one who made you get his first Constellation. Had you of lost that 50/50, you'd have Xiao by now. But sure, let's keep blaming me. Even when it was Albedo's banner that you won the 50/50 twice on." Diluc crossed him arms.

"I'm still salty about that, because I absolutely know I would've gotten Xiao if I didn't get 'Bedo's Constellation. I'd rather C0 Albedo and Qiqi with a guarantee of Xiao C1 Albedo and no Xiao. But you're STILL the one who showed up when it was time for Xiao to come home!" They said with a huff, tears starting to fall down their face.

"You'll get him, you're good at collecting things when you need to." Albedo said, wrapping his arms around them and holding them close, "I'll waste 100 dollars from Christmas money if I have to.." They said with a small sniffle, "that should give me around 81 more pulls, after throwing in I think… 40 from spending 2 sets of 15 dollars- with discounts- for more primos.." They muttered, leaning into the blonde's touch.

Yun Jin approached them quietly, "you at least have me. You did say you wanted me, so you at least have me even if you don't have that Gorou boy." She said and Halo nodded some "you're Constellation as well…" They said, "But… Xiao.."

That night Halo cried themself to sleep, and that hurt both Xiao and Albedo. The alchemist had seen Halo cry before, but it was in happiness when they had won their first 5 star, him. They cried for an hour and ran around with him just messing around. They worked hard to get him to be their highest level, and they were always proud to say it. Until they had to get others to level 80 to pass the AR Ascension 3. But they worked on getting him artifacts first, along with Xiao's. He figured they had enough materials to get Xiao to level 60-80, but nothing to upgrade Talents yet.

He was determined to get Xiao home, even if that meant breaking the game. He's Teyvat's best alchemist (save for his creator), he can surely do it.

And that he did. He didn't know the Adeptus personally, but Halo talked about him nonstop as well as explaining the reason for fighting the primo geovishap. Albedo questioned it since normally they never went anywhere NEAR that thing. They explained how they needed about 96 Juvenile Jade for Xiao, and 169 or so Qingxin flowers.

Then they went to a few domains to collect artifacts, only ever 4 stars though since they weren't strong enough to get 5 stars- aside from when a friend of theirs joined and helped them.

Once Halo had shut down the game and went to bed, Albedo started searching for a way to break the game. Miraculously, he found a way. He got into the system and hummed to himself "They have around… 18 or so wishes after Diluc? Yes. They planned on getting the one that will give them around… 81 wishes, 6,480 Genesis crystals, you're given an extra of that on first purchase makes 12,960… that gives 12,960 and you need 160 per wish… yes yes 81 wishes. 81 plus 18 is 99… that SHOULD ensure getting Xiao since it's supposed to be guaranteed the promotional character if you look the 50/50.." He muttered to himself.

"Forget paying 100 dollars for primogems, they can use that money on other things that are more important." He said, taking the 6,480 primogem purchase along with the extra 6,480 given and opens the Welkin Moon page. "I'll just break the game and give it to them for free." He said, putting it with the 90 primogems they already get daily, "There. And if this fails… I'll be doing some not so polite things." He closed the page and hummed to himself as he went to bed.

The next day, Halo had opened the game when they got home, hitting the X on their controller for the welkon moon until they realized there was a second set of primogems beside the 90 primos they already got. "Huh??" They tilted their head, studying the amount. 12,960.

They gasped and went into the shop, getting 82 intertwined fates "no way… how? There's no way I got that magically! I didn't even buy it yet!" They went through the wishes, gasping when they got Chongyun "Okay! Finally got him! Good I didn't need to pull on Childe's banner." They grinned, going through each 10 wish and holding their breath every time a color showed up. It turned purple but at first they'd mistake it for gold. They typed down on their wish calculator on their phone how many wishes they were in. They had done a few single pulls to get to 20 and went from there "60 pulls… okay almost there.." They nodded. 

Meanwhile, Albedo smiled knowingly, watching as everything went down.

The next 10 pull made 70, and thats when the star became gigantic and golden. They gasped and bounced in their seat "PLEASE! XIAO! PLEASE COME HOME! I'M SUPPOSED TO BE GUARANTEED YOU NOW!" They yelled, clicking through the things they received, recording on their phone all the while. That's when the shadow appeared.

I'll be quick to note that their younger sister was there as well- Aife.

The shadow of Xiao's splash art came and hadn't even lit up when they screamed "XIAO!! HE'S HOME! HE'S HERE! MOM!!" They got uo and raced into their moms room "I GOT HIM! HE'S HOME! I HAVE NO CLUE HOW BUT HE'S HOME!" They said excitedly, crying just like they did when they got Albedo.

They ran as fast as they could back to the couch and took a few pictures. "That's amazing how you knew it was him before even seen him fully- like.. just when his art was blacked out." "Well I've studied his character and everything," They responded, quickly switching out Sucrose and putting Xiao in the party "I'm so sorry Sucrose, I love you." They apologized.

"Finally, it took you long enough. You just took your sweet time, didn't you?" Albedo said as Xiao appeared "Oh hush. It's not like I wanted them to fail the 50/50. The wish thing just didn't let me." Xiao said while crossing his arms. "Well. They have 29 fates left.. are they going to pull again to try and get your constellations?" He hummed, "it only seems fair for both of us to have a constellation." He added, "doubt it. You'd have to be incredibly lucky to get my Constellation with 29 fates." Xiao shook his head.

"True, they don't have enough primogems to get more either. And they can't get more from the…stardust??? Starglitter??? I think it's starglitter… the more common one, the one that doesn't give you characters." Albedo said, that's when the two boys heard them speak.

"What about the rest?" Aife asked, "I'm saving the other 29 pulls. I'm saving for SCARAMOUCHE!" They said proudly, "you don't even know if he's gonna be playable though??" She tilted her head, "I've seen a leak that talked about dataminers seeing some of his data in there. He uses a catalyst, just like I said! He's supposed to come out on version 3.0 so.. I'm saving for him. I have enough time to save since this is version 2.4, but if I tried pulling for.. say.. Shenhe or Zhongli- kinda want Zhongli but the only ones I desperately want are Albedo, Xiao and Scaramouche." They said, "even if I pulled for like Zhongli in the next phase, to be honest I don't think from then to 3.0 would give me enough time to save. Because I need save enough to be able to afford doing 180 pulls in case I lose the 50/50 like with Xiao." They said, "I'm HOPING Scaramouche will be a 4 star for the sole reasoning that it'll be easier to get him that way." They continued and Aife nodded, "Alright then.."

"Welcome home. You have no idea how upset they were," Albedo said and Xiao huffed a bit "I have a small understanding of just how upset they were. Crying, even. But it feels good to finally be here." He said, watching through the screen as Halo got situated. "Unfortunately you won't be up to my level just yet because they don't have EVERYTHING necessary, but we're close. Minus the flowers, we have enough to get you up to 80 like me. And I'm still stuck at Ascension because they aren't AR50 yet," Albedo said, "sucks to suck." "I'm still going to be the highest level though.. They purposely didn't level Xiangling up because wanted me to stay the highest… until they HAD to for AR Ascension. You've got a lot to catch up on." Albedo shrugged and Xiao nodded in agreement, "I can see that."

Halo leveled Xiao all the way to level 64 "level 64 and yet he can kick inazuman enemies asses better than ALBEDO…" They said, "Hey! I'm not MEANT to be a main DPS you idiot!" Albedo huffed, "I try.." "do you always deal with this?" "Kind of… they've complained that razor- at level 60 needing Ascension- does better damage than I do. He's done up to the 800s meanwhile I'm typically stuck at 300s… o think the highest I did was 400??? And once was 1000 or so but solely because of my salad isotoma." Albedo explained, "damn, you're shit at this aren't you?" Xiao asked and Albedo groaned, "I'm supposed to be support.. not DPS… hell, my SWORD gives me higher defense, not attack. I think.my artifacts do the same thing." He said, "they worked hard to get yours sorted out. One of their friends came online who had like… level 90 characters and helped them get some 5 star artifacts and fight Childe… they were able to get my talent from like.. level 6 to 7. They haven't tried fighting him since because the last time they did that before getting help.. I basically died like 5 times in one go… I'm still asking myself how Barbara lasted longer than I did.. and Xiangling.. those two can dodge.." Albedo trailed off, "Well seems I have more 5 stars than you," Xiao said "Oh be quiet.. They have like a whole 5 star set for noblisse Oblige, but if they gave me those, it'd mess up the whole set they have for me because they want to keep the Archaic Petra for the geo damage. They're trying to get some 5 star Archaic Petra artifacts so they can fix everything- they just don't want to remove my Tiara Of frost… which is Clearly the better artifact… over everyone else's." Albedo said with a playful tone, showing the Tiara "don't others have that?" "Yes but mine is better," "pff, imagine having a Tiara as an artifact-" "you have one as well." Albedo interrupted, "damn…" He muttered.

"They make sure everyone has some sort of Tiara. Preferable the Tiara of flame or Tiara Of Frost because those lower the amount of time we are affected by cryo or Pyro. Most of the Pyro characters have the Frost Tiara I think- minus me and I think you." Albedo explained, "just a play style preference I suppose. Because most of the artifacts- minus the tiara- are 4 pieces.. they planned it out as 2 piece set of one artifact, 2 piece set of another artifact and then tiara. Or a 4 piece set and Tiara. They make sure to have artifacts for like Archaic Petra that can go on all other areas so the head piece is open … not sure how to explain it." Albedo hummed, "makes sense since the Tiara is a one piece set though," He added.

 "Oh yeah, that reminds me. Prepare to have all your talents really low for a while. They typically forget the talents exist… it took until I was… around the 70s for them to upgrade my talents." He informed the yaksha and the boy looked st the alchemist in disbelief "That's like… that main way you get damage higher! How can you forget about that?!" He asked and Albedo shrugged, "good question, but that explains why I've done shit damage for so long."

Barbara skipped over "I have!... um.. I think my 3rd Constellation!" She said excitedly, "great now if we can get your 6th one…" Albedo said and Barbara rested her hands on her hips "as long as the rest if you are able to keep me alive that's the only way the 6th Constellation will work," she said and Albedo chuckled, "is she always on the team?" Xiao asked and Albedo nodded "she's the designated healer. Well… the ONLY healer we have. Sucrose can self heal I think… only because of the catalyst she uses, same thing with Barbara." Albedo said, "Halo wanted Qiqi if they were going to lose the 50/50. Qiqi is also a healer I believe." He hummed, "why not Jean though? Jean also heals!" Barbara pointed out and Albedo nodded in agreement.

"I wonder that too, but Halo said it was because they just didn't want her. They had you and in their opinion you're the better option. You don't need to have an ultimate to heal, your skill does the healing. Your ultimate just heals more and faster." He responded and Barbara thought for a minute, "I suppose that makes sense. But they also only have 3 anemo users now. Xiao, Sucrose and the traveler- Lumine." She said.

"Either way, we have Xiao here now. And that's what matters… Now all we have to do is wait for that harbinger- not the ginger one.. I always forget his name. But the puppet one, Scaramouche." Albedk sighed softly, "oh, Childe. He gets on my nerves, I understand why Halo hates him." Xiao said, "They said they had NIGHTMARES about getting Childe 3 times in one 10 wish." "That's horrifying." Xiao shivered some, "that's enough to make me run away." "It sucks because Chongyun was there during Childe's THIRD RERUN. Luckily they got him now, but they never pulled on Childe or Hu Tao once out if fear." Albedo said with a small smirk, "thats dedication though. They're the only person I've seen that skips banners with ease. Everyone else says it's going to be difficult to skip… say… Hu Tao's banner so they can wait for someone else… meanwhile ours is over here acing the banner skips. The only thing that's hard for them to hold back with is wasting primogems on the standard banner." Xiao chuckled a bit.

"Why worry about skipping a 5 star banner when you should be worrying about wasting your primogems on the standard banner whole waiting for the character you want." Albedo joked, "Hey! What weapon is Xiao using?" Xiangling hopper up and asked "Um… Deathmatch." He said, "wait they got the polearm from the battlepass?!" She asked and Albedo nodded, "yes, they bought the gnostic chorus pass, so they also skipped ahead 10 levels. They said they needed the.. 680 primogems." He said, "they leveled it up to 50 like.. 8 days before the battlepass ended." He added, "They wanted to get the Jade winged spear but they only have 29 intertwined fates and they want to save those. Sucks, I won't get my normal spear. But this one seems to do well. I like the perks of using it." Xiao hummed, inspecting the red and white spear.

"They aren't too worried about that though," Albedo said, "why?" Barbara, Xiangling, and Xiao asked in unison, "Because the Jade winged spear is also on the standard banner but with a normal drop rate. The drop rate is just raised on the weapon banner for it right now." He explained, "oh, I never knew that!" Xiangling gasped, "that means I might get to have the Deathmatch spear! Might not be soon but.. one day!" She giggled and hopped up and down a few times. "You have.. that one polearm with the axe thing at the end, back off." The yaksha put his spear behind his back protectively, "oh, still! It looks so cool!" She said with a small huff.

Albedo looked towards the screen, "what do we do now, love?"

"Simple. Grind for more primogems, and race to get more stuff to get Xiao to your level. And also collect Acquaint Fates from the leveling up… also grind to AR50 so I can get you 2 to 90. First we need to get more Hero's Wit." Halo responded, "Blossom of Revelation?" The Alchemist and the Yaksha asked together. 

"Blossom of Revelation." They nodded.

I got Xiao- as my title of my page says- I said I'd write a fic on losing the 50/50 to diluc, but Xiao was TRYING to come home. So I did. I may make a version with reader instead, but this fanfic was a self projection and personal experience. A bit of a coping mechanism, I started this BEFORE I got Xiao.

[vacant--body]

MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of unaliving self, PTSD, Bucky have flash backs, vomiting, loss of pregnancy, ED if you squint, lots and lots and lots of angst. sad, saaaad, Bucky :(

female!reader x steve and bucky love triangle (not as much here)

Side note: HI! I'M SO SORRY! I LOVE YOU ALL:) *also if the text is in italics it means there's a flashback*

part 1

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It had been almost a month since Bucky had last seen Y/N. Tony and Steve thought it was best for Y/N to be admitted to the psychiatric ward at the near by hospital. But you have been gone a month. And you didn't put Bucky down on the approved list of people that could come visit you. The only thing he had left of you was the last conversation you guys had, and it was slowly driving him insane.

"Bucky? Where are they taking me? I don't wanna go." You were still loopy from the anesthesia Banner had used during your surgery. The way you were talking to him made it seem like you had just forgotten everything that had happened over the last 3 months.

"Shh, it's okay." Bucky said softly. Talking still hurt his throat. "But you gotta. You gotta get better, okay?" You nodded and sniffled. "Don't cry doll. It's all gonna be okay." He tucked a strand of your hair behind your ear, like he always did when you were upset.

"What happened to your face?" You muttered, your fingers grazing across the cut on his cheek bone. Bucky flinched at your touch, not wanting to remember how it felt.

"Don't worry, doll. Just get some rest. I'll see you soon." Bucky stood up from beside the cot and nodded at the paramedics who were standing close by to take you to the hospital.

"Bucky?" You asked quietly.

"Yeah, doll?" He could feel the hot tears in his eyes getting ready to spill over.

"I love you."

"Bucky," Sam tapped his shoulder. "Are you listening?"

"Sorry." He mumbled. "Just thinking." He rested his elbows on his knees and leaned forward, wringing his hands together.

"I asked how you were doing?" Sam repeated.

"I'm fine."

"Don't do that Buck." He scoffed, slumping into his chair. "You gotta talk about this shit, man. And I know you normally talk to Steve but-"

"Sam, don't."

"Bucky-"

"I don't need your fucking pity.” Bucky growled, getting to his feet. Sam stared into his eyes with exactly what Bucky was upset about; pity.

"I am trying, damnit." Sam seethed through his teeth. "I am trying to hold you together and I am trying to hold Steve together. I hate being the middle man but if you two want to act like you're in high school and give each other the silent treatment, then I'll do it. I don't like seeing my friends hurting." He sighed and rubbed his temples. "You are very clearing showing signs of PTSD, and if you just let me help you, I can try to make it better."

"Everyone hates me, Sam." Bucky changed the subject.

"No, they don't. They're worried about you." Sam tossed his arms up in the air, exasperated. "You and Steve lost so much in one night, they're scared for you. They are mourning with you, Bucky. Please understand that."

Bucky scoffed and rolled his eyes. "I gotta go, this was pointless."

"Bucky-" He didn't hear what else Sam had to say before he shut the door to his office behind him and stormed down the hallway. He scoffed and shook his head. Fucking therapy. Tony had forced him to go or else he was sending him some place like Y/N was. He didn't need it anybody’s help, he was fine.

Bucky had wondered around the compound for hours after been you’d taken away, unsure of where he was going. This place felt so empty without Y/N here. He felt so empty. He found himself standing outside Steve's room after walking for hours. The sun was starting to rise now. His arm jerked as if he wanted to knock on the door, but he couldn't do it.

Then why did he knock?

Steve opened the door and was standing in front of him, eyes red from crying. His hair a mess. He definitely didn't look like the calm and collected Captain America.

"What the fuck do you want?" He spat, glaring down at his best friend.

"I-" Bucky was at a loss for words. "I don't know."

Steve laughed bitterly. "Get the fuck out of my face before I knock your teeth out."

"Steve, please-" Bucky's voice broke. "I need-I need you. Please."

"You need me?" Steve hissed. "What about what I need, huh? Does how I feel just not matter to you?”

“I’m sorry.” He whispered, staring down at his feet. He couldn’t look Steve in the eyes any longer.

“You were fucking her.” Steve laughed, almost as it was a joke. “You were fucking my girl. You got my girl pregnant, and she tried to kill herself. Because of you, Bucky. So get out of my face. I don’t care what you have to say.”

"You're the only one-" Bucky tried desperately. He needed to talk. And Steve was the only one who understood.

"Save it, I don't wanna hear it. You ever show up at my door again," He took a deep breath, his eyes falling on the bruising cut that was on his cheek. "I won't stop this time." Steve slammed the door in Bucky's face.

Bucky was standing in front of Y/N's room. The door had long opened and an empty room was staring back. After you had left, Pepper and Nat had cleaned your room up the best that they could. While cleaning they had found an ultrasound picture hidden away in your nightstand. Nat said she wanted to throw it out but Pepper stole it from her and brought it to Bucky one evening. Bucky didn't know what to do with it so he brought it back to your room, stashing it away where you had kept it. He didn't want to take anything out of your room for when you came back. He wanted it to look like how you had left it. Well- before you destroyed it anyway.

Bucky slowly sat down on the edge of the bed, the springs groaning at the sudden weight on it. No one had sat here in a long time. Bucky heaved a sigh and hung his head, his long hair made a curtain around his face. You were always telling him to cut it.

A frown crept onto his lips, silently cursing himself. You teasing him about his hair is was started this whole thing. It was 4 months ago, you guys had most of the compound to yourself and were passing the time playing a drinking game.

He still remembers the smile on your face when you had brought up his hair, thinking it was hilarious how it was so long. Your laugh was more intoxicating than the alcohol the two of you were consuming. He just couldn't stop staring at you, your beautiful eyes, your hair that smelled like lavender, your gorgeous smile. And every time you leaned over it would expose your cleavage from the top of the thin tank top you had on. By the time you were done giggling Bucky had leaned in and grabbed your face, pressing his lips firmly against yours. You were stunned at first but quickly gave into his advances, as you had been waiting for this moment too.

A noise outside the room made Bucky snap back to reality.

"Thought I would find you here." A soft voice whispered. It was Nat. She gave him a soft smile before sitting down on the edge of the bed beside him. "It okay if I sit?" Bucky shrugged his shoulders and nodded. "Sam said you're having a bad day."

"Sam doesn't know shit."

"I know some days are tougher than others. You seemed to be doing okay last week. Actually saw you smile." She laughed quietly. Bucky didn't say anything. "She's not dead, Bucky."

"Why the fuck-"

"Shut up and listen." Any hint of kindness in her voice was gone. "I'm not like Sam, I'm not gonna coddle you. She is alive and is doing better, I just came from the hospital."

"We'll I'm glad you got to see her." He scoffed.

"I know you're not gonna hear what I have to say, but just listen to this- you are not alone, Bucky. Okay? I know none of that matters because you don't have the people you love most around you. But the rest of us are you for you, and Steve. Okay?" Bucky opened his mouth to snap something back but Nat held up her hand. "Just tell me you understand, okay? Because if I have to clean up one more persons blood off the floor I am going to loose my mind."

Bucky sighed and nodded his head. "Okay. I understand." Nat patted him on the shoulder before standing up and left the room. A tear dribbled down his cheek and he quickly whipped it away. Why couldn’t everyone just leave him alone?

Absolutely exhausted, he kicked his shoes off and laid down, not wanting to pick himself up and walk back to his room. Everything just felt too heavy. His eyes slowly fluttered shut, no matter how hard Bucky fought against it. But it was just too heavy.

"Hey, I need to talk to you." Banner said quietly, standing in Bucky's door way.

"What?" Bucky grumbled from his spot on the bed. "If it's about checking my head, I don't want to hear it. I'm fine, he didn’t hit me that hard.”

"No, it's not that. I need to know-"

"Then what?"

"I need to know what you want to do with the fetus...the baby." He shifted his weight back and forth.

A heavy silence surrounded the two of them. "Why me?" Bucky croaked out finally.

"Well, you're the father and-"

"Don't. Don't call me that." Bucky pointed a stern finger at him Bruce stood there awkwardly, waiting for Bucky to tell him what to do. He blinked back a few tears and cleared his throat. "What do you think I should do?"

"Well, everyone else thinks you should bury him."

Him. It was a boy. Bucky was going to have a son. His son. Y/N's son. Our son.

"Then bury him."

"I think you should go."

"I don't want to."

"Bucky, please. You need to cope."

"Oh yeah, and how should I do that, doctor?" Bucky snapped back. Bruce sighed, defeated. "Go fucking burry the thing and get over it. I don't want to be there, got it?" Why was he saying this? That's not what he wanted to say.

"Okay. Sorry for bothering you." Banner exited his room in a defeated sigh, his shoulder hunched over.

Some more time ticked by before there was another knock on the door. Bucky jumped slightly as he just starting to fall asleep. He hadn't slept in about two days and it was starting to take a toll on him. The evening sun cast shadows that danced around in his dark room.

"Bruce I swear-" He opened the door and stepped back, surprised. It was Pepper. She smiled shyly at him. Bucky thinks she hasn't said more than 10 words with him since he came to live at the compound a year ago. Mostly just awkward good mornings when they came into the kitchen at the same time to get coffee. Pepper always got up early but Bucky was fed up of trying to fall asleep.

"Oh. Did...did you need something?" He asked looking down at her. Pepper wasn't as hard as everyone else at the compound, she hasn’t seen the things everyone else had. He had barely spoken to her and there were already tears forming in her eyes.

"Nat-" She cleared her throat and attempted to wipe the tears away from her eyes. "Nat and I were cleaning up Y/N's room, so it won't be a mess when she comes back. And we'll we found this." She held out some grainy pictures. Bucky wasn't sure what he was looking at.

"What are these?" He muttered, taking them from her.

"They're ultrasound pictures. I guess she knew..." She cleared her throat again, fighting back the urge to cry. "Sorry. I guess she knew about the pregnancy. Nat wanted to throw them out but I thought you should have them."

Bucky didn't know what to say. He didn't want to open his mouth and rip Peppers head off, because he knew that she was just trying to be nice. Trying to make him feel better, but honestly it was just making him feel worse. If you knew you were pregnant why did you try to kill yourself? Or is that why you tried to kill yourself?

Before he could think of what to say, a sob ripped through his chest, his knees giving out under him. Pepper moved quickly to his side and threw her small body against Bucky's, wrapping him up in a hug. She tried to hold him up the best she could, but they crumpled to the ground together.

"I'm so sorry, Bucky." She cried. Her hands grabbed the back of his shirt, like she was trying to keep him from falling apart. It wasn’t working. It felt like someone was chiseling away at his heart. He clutched the ultrasound pictures to his chest, another sob wracking through his body. He wanted Y/N. He wanted you here with him, mourning the loss of your child together. "I'm so sorry." Pepper repeated. Bucky gently pushed her away and tried to calm himself down.

"Thank you for these, Pepper." He babbled. "But I need to be alone. Please leave me alone." She shook her head at what he was saying and tried to protest. He held up his hand to stop her. “Go. Just go.” He pleaded. Finally, she left him there, sitting in the door way, holding the only pictures of his son that he would ever get.

Bucky woke up with a gasp, his clothes were soaked and sticking to his skin from his sweat and it felt like his heart was going to explode out of his chest, his stomach churning in knots. He scrambled out your bed and into the bathroom and vomited into the toilet. These fucking dreams would not leave him alone. Ever since you left that's all he was able to dream about.

He spilled his guts out a few more times before slumped down beside the toilet, he shoved his head in hands and took a few deep breathes, trying to ease his spinning head. He gagged at the taste of vomit in his mouth and spit into the toilet again. Standing up shakily, he looked at himself in the mirror that was above the sink. He hated the person looking back. He looked sick, disgusting.

Saying Bucky looked rough was an understatement. His eyes were sunken in, which were accompanied by dark bags. His hair was ratty and dull and he hadn't trimmed his beard in weeks. He had also lost weight and muscle mass from not being able to eat. He couldn't. The only thing he was able to keep down was chicken broth and he hardly even eat that. He had no desire to work out either. His metal arm, which he usually polished at least once a week was dull too. And covered in scratches from him clawing at it in the middle of the night.

Bucky sighed heavily and rinsed his mouth and face with water. Patting his face dry with a towel he realized for the first time, he was starving. He could smell someone cooking bacon down in the kitchen and it made his mouth water.

Maybe Sam was right, Bucky did need to talk about this. Or maybe Steve was the one who was right. This was all his fault. He made the first move on you. The baby was his. Everything was his fault. Maybe if he had just left you alone, none of this would have happened. He couldn’t think straight anymore, nothing made sense without you here.

He pushed his thoughts out of his head as he remade your bed. Picking up his boots from off the ground, he slowly made his way back to his room. It was a hot mess inside, more than normal. Bucky doesn't remember the last time he picked anything up. He discarded his sticky clothes and got into the shower, letting the hot water fall over his skin. He hummed contently as he washed his hair, yanking to get the knots out. While he was in there he trimmed his beard the best he could without looking in a mirror.

Getting out and rubbed the steam off the mirror and looked at himself again. His beard and his hair looked better, but his eyes still looked empty. He still felt empty. Bucky tossed on some clothes that smelled the cleanest, which happened just an old pair of sweats and a t-shirt.

Taking a deep breath he left his room, or his cave, as Sam called it, and went down to the kitchen. It seemed like everyone was there, talking and laughing together. Bucky felt an instant nauseous feeling build in his stomach as eyes fell on him. He felt like an outsider, no, he was an outsider. Always has been as always will be

"Hey, Buck." Sam greeted, pulling Bucky out of his thoughts. "There's coffee in the pot if you want some." Bucky gave him a small smile and poured himself a cup, and grabbed a few pieces of bacon and fruit that was cut up. He sat down beside Sam and cleared this throat. Sam looked down at the small amount of food that Bucky had gathered and frowned slightly, but refrained from saying anything. He should be glad he was eating at all.

"Where's Steve at this morning?" Bucky asked, taking a sip of coffee, which stung going down his throat.

"Oh, he went to visit Y/N." Sam replied nonchalantly.

"Hm." Bucky stared down at his food, which suddenly repulsed him. Maybe this was a mistake, he should have stay in his room. Sam silently cursed himself for bring you up and tried to change the conversation.

"Sleep any better last night?" Sam questioned.

"A little. Fell asleep about an hour after we got done talking." He shrugged. “Woke up a little bit ago.”

"So you slept for 14 hours?" Sam chuckled. "We got done talking at 5, so you were out for 14 hours. I'd call that pretty good sleep."

"Doesn't mean it was restful."

"It's still a good thing that you slept through the night." Sam took a bite out of his bacon. "Oh my god, I swear Vision makes the best food." He goaded. Sam was obviously trying to get Bucky to eat.

"I know." Bucky faked a smile as he couldn't shake the feeling that he was going to get sick again. The feeling suddenly got overwhelming and he suddenly stood to his feet, his chair scrapping loudly against the floor, which caused everyone to stop and look. They watched as Bucky disappeared down the hall to the bathroom.

There was nothing in Bucky's stomach for him to throw up, besides that little bit of coffee. He was now just dry heaving, spit trickling down his chin. He just wanted this to go away, why couldn't it go away? Bucky heaved into the toilet one last time before picking his head up, wiping away the spit that was now traveling down his neck. He noticed there was a slight red tinge to it.

He brought his knees up to his chest and his hands shook as he pushed his hair out of his eyes. The room was spinning, he was so dizzy. His mouth felt he had just chewed on chalk. He was a super solider, god damn it. He wasn't supposed to feel like this. Something wasn’t right.

He slowly got to his feet, hanging onto the sink for support. Slowly he made his way back to the kitchen, leaning against the wall so he wouldn’t fall over. He just needed to get to Banner. Banner would know what to do.

Back in the kitchen, Bucky could hardly see. His vision was darkening and his ears were ringing. He could feel eyes on him. Gripping the wall for support, he dry heaved again. “Bucky?” Someone asked, concern in their voice. That voice. He knew that voice.

“Y/N?” He panted, his head snapping up. The quick action made his head spin and his grip on the wall loosened. He caught a glimpse of you right before he fell on his face, vision going black, everything falling silent.

part 3

[chasseuses]

reasons why I love jade leech and why you should too.

yes- my overwhelming love for jade has brought me up to this point. this is just me rambling about jade. i may regret doing this bUT FUCK IT LET'S GIVE THE MUSHROOM MAN SOME LOVE ༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽

NOT GONNA FUCKING LIE BUT THE FIRST TIME THE OCTAVINELLE BANNER THINGY WHEN TWST WASN'T RELEASED I-????

I THOUGHT THE TWINS LOOKED WACK + AZUL

"no way in hell am I gonna stan these two lmaoo they look wack smh"

turns out I was wrong-_;3+4+_(_+($_+($+$(&+$(+$(#+$

I PAID NO FUCKING ATTENTION TO OCTAVINELLE saying to myself that I AM A RIDDLE SIMP THROUGH AND THROUGH

lol but

chapter 3

changed my life

SIR HIS VOICE-- HELLO????????? BRO???_($99#($($($ I HAD LITERAL SHIVERS GO DOWN MY SPINE WHEN I HEARD IT BECAUSE O H G OD

the fact that his exchange with floyd, yes the "ne jeido" "e floyd" thingy, IS ABSOLUTELY SO FUCKINDHDSKDHJSVRJSGDHDDGDJDGDJDGSJDGJSDHJSHSJSJSJDJDJJ J CANT BRRATHE

ok I'll get serious now fuvk

Jade Leech, the vice dorm leader of Octavinelle and the twin brother of Floyd Leech. Founder of the Mountain Lovers club and a fucking adorable dork who loves mushrooms and terrariums.

God knows how I love him so much I can cry over him for weeks.

100/10 seems shady af- looks like he can kill you, and he can. that's kinda hot don't u think so???

bruh, the way he talks about creepy things while smiling all gentlemanly is kinda hot. ik it's weird to be attracted to this but pLEASE-

THIS MAN HAS SHARP TEETH I WILL CRY PLEASE [REDACTED] ME.

HE HAS REALLY REALLY REEEEEALLY NICE EYES‼️ IT'S ONE OF THE BIGGEST REASONS WHY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH‼️( also purple eyeliner hehehe u gotta love him )

His matching earring with Floyd?? Absolutely wonderful. The thought that the both of them have matching earrings i --- cr y a little everytiime.

Also- that darker and longer strand of his hair? I want to play with that, please.

his mf face oh god, do you ever think abt how he could say "I'll gobble you up." in his normal voice and we can't fucking tell if he's serious or joking because of his fucking normal expression oh god gobble me up please-- IM KIDDING OF COURSE, maybe.

He has nice, long, slender hands. Perfect for unprotected h*nd h*lding 😳 GODDAMN I WANT TO HOLD HIS HAND WHEEEJFHEKBFKEHDJFHDKCHKCHKDHCKDHCJ

Also the glove-????? I'D PREFER IT IF HE TOOK IT OFF BUT THAT'S ONE NICE GLOVE YOU GOT THERE 😳

holding hands with him will be a fucking blessing sent directly from the heavens above. pls stan him.

he's an eel. that is all

LOOK AT HIS MF EXPRESSIOFN I A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A SIR-??'?($83)$+#)+")$+_("!$

ok back to the topic-

do you ever think about how-- how he loves mushrooms sm and even founded a club because he likes hunting for them in mountains?? DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW HE'S PROBABLY ALL ALONE WHILE DOING THAT????????? LET ME INTO THAT CLUB‼️

He likes gazing at stars. Please pleasr please let me gaze at the stars with u sir

He's pretty good with his hands- or so they say 👀 he can cook-- and he draws 👀 you gotta love a man who can use his hands well don't u think so too 👀👀👀

this bitch is 190cm tall. that is all. i want him to tower over me.

"Fufu, I grew up in the deep sea up north. The cold in the freezer feels pretty good." YOU CAN PUT HIM INA FR E R ZER IT'S RLLY RANDOM BUT HE CAN STAND THE COLF WHICH IS A FNKDHFKSBDKSHDJSGDKXHKSGCKSHCKDGXKDHCKDKC

have I mentioned his obsession with mushrooms??? This!! THIS CUTE EEL RAISES HIS MUSHROOMS WITH ALL OF HIS HEART DJDJDNXB ALL THE LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR HIS SHROOMS..... ISN'T HE JUST-???"($(_+($+_ THE CUTEST?????

DO YOU SEE HOW SOFT HE LOOKS???? I WANT HIM TO LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT TOO WTF ༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽

AND THE WAY HIS CHEEKS..... HIS CHEEKS GO SQOOSH GFJSJSHZKHRKDHRJSHD JEIDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽

HIS TALENT IS SERVING TEA‼️‼️ DON'T U WANT SOMEONE AS GENTLEMANLY AND HANDSOME AS JADE TO SERVE U TEA ‼️‼️

Don't you just hate how Jade can go from "I'll have her home by 8" to "Your daughter calls me daddy too" bECAUSE I

I'm not even gonna explain this one.

JUST IMAGINE IF HE,,,,,, IF HE WENT FERAL‼️‼️ I WOULF PAY TO SEE THAY OH MY hjfhdkDHSKDHSKDHKXJDKXHD FERAL JADE E E E E E E E E E

yeah so you know his one voice line that goes "Clothes feel so restrictive… It’s been a while since I came on land, but I’m still not used to them." Yeah then take them off! I won't mind (☞ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)☞

DID I MENTION ABT HIS TERRARIUMS???? I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OH GOD HE'S SO CUTE DO U JUST IMAGIEN HDIFMFEBJFHDNFB FOCUSINDGFJDUFJDNJRNXKDBDKDBDKDJKFDHKXHFKDJDKDK wait jm freaking out

this man.... this man can cook. and that seals the fucking deal for me because 😭

He!! Loves!! His!! Brother!! KFNSKDHKSJDKSHDJD BABY 😭😭💖😭💖💖😭‼️HfbskdhHFKSBFKSBDKSNDN JEIDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

he likes unpredictable things which is why he likes being with floyd all the time i 😔 I'll be unpredictable for u ZjfjsjdJFBDJFND KIDDING

this is floyd's caretaker we're talking about 😭 which means he is husband material ™ DONT CHEAT ON HIM ༼;´༎ຶ ۝ ༎ຶ༽

or else 👀

did i mention how cute he fucking looks everytime his cheeks go sqoosh because istg I start simping whenever I see it.

ALMOST FORGOT TO ADD BUT LIKE-??? THE WAY HE SAVED MC AND CATER FROM ROOK AND TREY DURING THE BEANDESJD SEVENT I WILL FJDJFJFKDJFJJDHCJDHFKDHFKHFJDCJDHCNDJFBJDHFKDJFJDJFKCIFNCKFBCKFNFKFJKDJFKRBFKDJFKFJJF

KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR HELL YEAH HE'S PERFECT

lastly, i want him to punch me in the face. that's it.

AND I THINK THAT'S IT-??? ( Of course not- i can point out more things i love abt him but like-???? I NEED TO CALM DOWN!! anyways, pls stan jade i love him so much i cr y <3

[actualbird]

Honestly I feel a lot of Korean things got popular around 2017 out of seemingly nowhere. I try to pinpoint when and how they became popular and come up empty. It's kind of strange. Definitely not complaining though because a lot of it is very good.

Yeah I imagine soju still tastes strongly of alcohol because I can very much smell it. Even when the other flavours are added and I can smell other stuff it only makes my brain associate it with scented soap which is extremely sad because I do want to at least try it. I might try your suggestion though, it sounds quite interesting.

The sped up timeline kind of hurts. I felt my soul leave my body for RRG part 1 because I had been aiming for Vyn's RRG card and all the anniversary cards but now potentially a lot of time to save s chips just got taken away. I mean it was kind of for nothing when Skadi rolled around because apparently I don't like really romantic lines unless Vyn says them and the twitter preview kind of bit me there, but still. I should be able to get bday 2 though because not many of these year's banners interest me which means I'll absolutely have enough s chips unless one of the cards has a ton of lore.

With gacha games I've kind of developed this strange habit of absorbing spoilers from everywhere else but waiting to see the nuances in the actual story. It's definitely served me well because stuff like Luke's Shape of You ending hit harder when I read it for myself with the context instead of seeing it posted without context but it very much gets in the way when I have bad luck and cards don't come home. I'll probably cave for Vyn's RRG if I don't get it honestly, that card feels too important to skip.

MARIUS ROLLING A D20 DFJXG. Does he just roll it every time he visits Vyn until he gets the nat20. Honestly it might work a nat20 makes you feel invincible sometimes. Whenever you write that dnd au I will very happily read through and scream about it.

🌌

a lot of it is very good!!!! maybe theres a reason, maybe theres none, but either way, i am thankful for soju entering the global market HAHA. and YEEEAA it's a great drink mix!! theres like, set recipes online for the ratio of sprite + yakult to add to the soju, but i just mix by taste. i personally put a looooot of sprite cuz i like the sweetness haha. if ever u try it out, i hope u enjoy it :DDD

also apparently soju has a shitton of alcohol content in it based on ihavenotfallenyet's reply KJBKJSDK I HONESTLY DID NOT KNOW

my siblings drink soju on its own holy fuck. theyre so strong, stronger than i ever will be

the sped up timeline hurts me too :(((( not so much bc of s-chips tho bc im not too bothered honestly about not getting cards even if i want them since like, all the story will be available on yt after a day (thank u uploaders). im mostly hurt bc the out of order events jarred me irt to story development, MOST ESPECIALLY WITH MARIUS. i swear, when i was playing his route in RRG i was like. what. whats going on. why r u so nice, why is MC SO NICE, i know theyll get to a point i their relationship that is this point, but the necessary build up (which happened originally in xmas partyland and skadi that originally preceded it) hadnt happened yet ksjdbgksjd

ohhhh same-ish feel on wanting to go thru the story urself!!! same same!!! i just have a non-existent impulse control JKBKSJKGS back in like, october, i said to myself "okay im not watching any of the cn server future content" and then i broke after 1 week. not too bothered tho, that was my own doing sjdksdjks

and marius rolls the d20 he keeps in his pocket at all times for like, whatever random reason. he likes rolling high but even when he doesnt, he has confidence in his base charisma score

sucks for him tho cuz that wont always get him out scot free since im preeeeetttyyy sure that

vyn's perception modifier is high as it can possibly get

[heretic-altias]

3. Who do they worry about the most?

I don't have any fancy ask banners so like these are all going to be text walls but I'll bold the names lol.

Altais, for many years, only ever worried about herself. But then she met Solar (my friends' and I's group of WoLs) and over time she came to worry about them too. Slowly she's gained a bit of general empathy for their cause and thus the world as a whole, but herself and Solar are always the center of her worries. The Scions too to a degree, but she's definitely a lot closer to her fellow Warriors of Light. This is expressed more in actions than words, coming to someone's side when they're struggling in a battle for example. She'll come around and take everyone's weapons for maintenance after pretty much anything happens to make absolutely sure they're equipped to survive whatever comes next. She worries constantly that something will go wrong and one or all of them will die and she's doing her best to prevent it.

Akku, worries about everyone. He cares far too much for his own good sometimes, and takes it a little too hard when he can't save people. In every conversation he worries about saying the right thing in order not to upset someone. It's hard for him not to worry when his Echo lets him sense emotions, and he's seeing the internal struggles of everyone around him. At the end of the day, he'd also put Solar first because they're basically his family now, the Scions, and his horse Enbarr too, but that doesn't mean he worries about others less. He's good at talking people through whatever they're struggling with and will take the time to pull aside anyone he can help that he sees needs it. Helping people is really the only way to ease his worries, because if he can do something they might be ok in the end.

Kito, would definitely say Twintania, the Scions, and his idiot brother Kotah. His soul is bound to Twintania's, so all of her struggles are kind of his to share and he worries about her well being after being tempered and then controlled by Allagans for so long. Kotah is very high on the worry list too, he was kind of evil until Shadowbringers and Kito couldn't help seeing what he had become and fearing he would destory himself entirely. And while it was a relief to finally get through to him and help Kotah work through the grief that had led him down that path, there's still plenty to worry about considering Kotah's criminal record in the Alliance nations now. One misstep could easily lead to his execution, being in the custody of the Scions can only protect him for so long if he doesn't behave. The Scions I think are just an obvious one for any WoL, how can Kito not worry about the people who took him in when he was alone and now fight to save the world alongside him? Kito just wants all these people (and one dragon) he cares about to be happy in the end, and he would do pretty much anything to accomplish that. He's lost a lot in his life, and he doesn't want to lose anyone else.

[nothingbutfangirlsmut]

The Girl Out of Time

Pairing: Bucky X Reader and Sam X Reader

Background: Willow Roffe was born and raised in Brooklyn. She lived her life as happily as she could with her two childhood best friends Bucky Barnes and Steve Rogers. When they both left her to join the military she tried to continue with life but that didn't get to happen for her for the simple fact that she meant something to James Buchanan Barnes.

Rating: Story will be overall MATURE but not every chapter. There will be strong language, talk of both mental and physical abuse, some good ole angst, and smut. There will be a warning at the beginning of the chapter when it includes smut.

Chapter 14

We were forced to our knees with so many guns pointing at us. We could do nothing but let them arrest us. There was no reason to do anything else. They shoved us all roughly into the back of a van. Nat and Sam on one side then Steve and I on the other. Two guards sat against the back wall to watch us.

"Steve was that-" before I could finish asking my question Steve already had the answer.

"It was him. He looked right at me. He didn't even know me." Steve said in complete disbelief.

"How is that even possible? It was like 70 years ago." Sam said.

He is alive. The man I've forgotten. The man that according to Steve meant so much to me.

"Zola, Bucky's whole unit was captured in 43'. Zola experimented on them. Whatever he did helped Bucky survive that fall. They must have found him." Steve said with a look of pure heart break.

"None of that's your fault Steve." Nat said quietly.

"She's right" I added.

"Even when I had nothing I had Bucky and Will." Steve said softly.

I scooted closer to him then laid my head on his shoulder. He rested his head against mine as well.

"We need to get a doctor here. If we don't put pressure on that wound she's gonna bleed out here in the truck." Sam said pulling my attention to Nat.

She did look weak and pale. A loud electric sound came from one of the guards. There was a pause then one guard attacked the other knocking them out. The four of us stared at the guard in shock.

"That thing was squeezing my brain." The guard said as she took off the helmet.

It was Agent Hill.

We all looked at her in shock as she took in each of our faces stopping at Sam.

"Who's this guy?" Hill asked.

"Sam Wilson. He's a friend." Steve answered.

Hill nodded then got to her feet. She pulled a small device out of her pocket. She used it to cut off all of our cuffs then she cut a large circle in the floor of the truck.

"Let's go then" she said gesturing to the hole.

One after the other we slipped threw the hole into the road. Once we were each free Hill brought us to a van parked in a deserted alley.

"We have to be quick." She said opening the door.

It was a short drive to where ever we were going. Hill drove like an absolute maniac. Steve held a piece of cloth against Nat's wound trying to slow the bleeding. The van came to a stop in front of some kind of bunker or dam. Hill escorted us inside quickly.

"GSW she's lost at least a pint." Hill said quickly to the man running towards us.

"Maybe two" Sam added.

"Let me take her." The man said as he reached for her.

"She'll want to see him first." Hill said simply.

They led us down the long hall into a small room blocked off with plastic. As soon as Hill moved the plastic back we could all see Fury laying awake in a makeshift hospital bed.

"About damn time" Fury said in a chiding voice.

We all entered the room to stand around Fury's bed. Nat was sitting as she got doctored up.

"Lacerated spinal column, cracked sternum, shattered collarbone, perforated liver, and one hell of a head ache." Fury explained his condition.

"Don't forget your collapsed lung." The man doctoring up Nat said.

"Oh let's not forget that. Otherwise I'm good." Fury said nonchalantly.

"They cut you open. Your heart stopped." Nat said in disbelief.

"Tetrodotoxin B, slows the pulse to one beat a minute. Banner developed it for stress. It didn't work so great for him but we found a use for it." Fury explained.

"Why all the secrecy? Why not just tell us?" Steve asked in his skeptical tone.

"Any attempt on the director's life had to look successful." Hill said simply.

"Can't kill you if you're already dead. Besides I wasn't sure who to trust." Fury added.

After Nat was fixed up we all moved to another room that held a table like it was for a meeting. Sam and I looked at each other feeling slightly out of place. I stood between Sam and Steve and we all watched Fury. He sighed then pulled out a photo. He held it up to look at it.

"This man declined a Nobel peace prize. He said peace wasn't an achievement it was a responsibility." Fury put the photo on the table then shook his head.

"See, it's stuff like this that gives me trust issues." He added.

"We need to stop the launch." Nat said as she too watched Fury.

"I don't think the counsel is accepting my calls anymore." Fury said sarcastically.

Hill opened the case on the table then turned it around so we could all see the contents. It looked like three small electronic cards.

"What's that?" Sam asked.

"Once the helicarriers reach 3000 feet they'll triangulate with insight satellites becoming fully weaponized." Hill said.

"We need to breach those carriers and replace their targeting blades with our own." Fury added.

"One or two won't cut it. We need to link all three carriers for this to work because if even one of those ships remains operational a whole lot of people are going to die." Hill explained.

I gulped. I had never been on a mission that had this high of stakes before. I was still fairly new to all this. On top of that I just found out the man I've forgotten is still alive and a Hydra brain washed killing machine. What else could possibly go wrong?

"We have to assume everyone aboard those carriers is Hydra. To get past them insert these server blades then maybe, just maybe, we can salvage what's left." Fury said matter of factly.

"We're not salvaging anything!" Steve's voice boomed angrily.

"We're not just taking down the carriers Nick. We're taking down Shield." Steve said in a commanding and angry voice.

"Shield had nothing to do with this." Fury stated.

"You gave me this mission. This is how it ends. Shield's been compromised. You said so yourself. Hydra grew right under your nose and nobody noticed." Steve continued.

"Why do you think we are meeting in a cave? I noticed." Fury added just as harshly as Steve.

"How many paid the price before you did?" Steve asked.

That question seemed to hit Fury. He leaned back in his chair and sighed.

"Look, I didn't know about Barnes." Fury said softly.

My heart jumped at the mention of his name. Is that why Steve is so upset? Because Barnes is alive and working for Hydra? I couldn't understand it because I couldn't remember the man. Anything to do with him was wiped from my brain.

"Even if you had would you have told me? Or would you have compartmentalized that too? Shield, Hydra, it all goes." Steve said with a final sounding tone.

"He's right" Hill said softly then nodded.

Fury looked at Nat. She leaned back in her chair but stayed quiet. His eyes moved to Sam.

"Don't look at me. I do what he does just slower." Sam said pointing at Steve.

I couldn't help but smile at his statement. My smile fell quickly as Fury's eyes landed on me.

"I've stood by Steve since we were kids. Nothing is going to change that." I said as confidently as I could.

Fury sighed then leaned back in his chair again.

"Well, looks like you're giving the orders now Captain." Fury said.

"Gather everything and everyone we need. We'll head out soon. I need a breather." Steve ordered then turned and left the room.

I was quick to follow him. I knew he wasn't ok. He must have so many things going threw his head. I followed Steve all the way outside to a bridge. He stopped in the middle of it then turned to look out over the water. I quietly stepped up beside him then leaned on the railing.

"I wish you could remember him." Steve whispered.

"Me too" I said softly.

"I remember the day my mother died. You and Bucky tried to find me when I went off on my own only to end up waiting on me outside my house. Bucky tried to talk me into moving in with him. It was a moment that will stay with me forever. How you two were always there when I needed you most. I must have been so weak and pathetic to you both." Steve looked down at his feet.

"Stevie, no, not even close. I remember going to your place to tell you I'd always be there. That was our thing. Always. I would give anything to remember Bucky simply to help you threw whatever is going on in your mind right now." I said trying to make him feel better.

Steve chuckled.

"Bucky means as much to me as you do. All I ever had in this world was you two. Promise me that even though you don't remember him you'll help me save him." Steve said turning to face me.

"All I can do is try Stevie but I'll give it everything I got." I said with a small smile.

The sound of someone clearing their throat had as turning around to see Sam.

"He's gonna be there ya know?" Sam asked the both of us.

I nodded.

"I know" Steve said softly.

"Who ever he use to be, the guy he is now, I don't think he's the kind you save. I think he's the kind you stop." Sam said.

"I don't know if I can do that." Steve said.

"He might not give you a choice. He doesn't know you." Sam tried to explain.

"He will" Steve added confidently.

Then a thought crossed my mind. I grabbed Steve's arm turning him to face me.

"I think he remembers me." I said slightly out of breath.

"What?" Both Steve and Sam questioned.

"Each time we have seen him the way he looks at me isn't a empty cold glare. It's a wide eyed and surprised look. When I fought him or tried to all he did was block my attacks. He didn't try to attack me even once." I explained quickly.

Both men stared at me in silence.

"How could he remember you but not him?" Sam asked pointing to Steve.

I shrugged.

"If Hydra altered his memories then maybe they erased everything but me. Maybe it was hydra who erased him from my memories." I said thinking aloud.

"Why?" Sam asked.

"There's only one way to find out. Gear up its time." Steve said then started back into the mountain.

I went to follow him but Sam stopped me.

"Are you really going to try and save him?" Sam asked with a small amount of pain in his eyes.

I reached up then softly kissed him.

"We have to try." I whispered.

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Masterlist

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Unexpected Arrival - 2

Pairing: Eventual Bucky x Reader, Possible Steve x Reader

Summary: As if working with the Avengers wasn't exciting enough.... an unexpected visitor is about to change your life forever.

When the team got back from their mission Natasha went straight to Y/N’s room to check on her. When she opened the door and found the bed empty she started to panic, she had told her to go see Bruce if she got any worse.

"F.R.I.D.A.Y where's Y/N?" Nat asked the A.I.

"Agent Y/L/N was taken to medical by Captain Rodgers and Mr Stark"

"Shit!" Nat cursed as she turned and started running towards the medical floor.

"Nat? Whats going on?" Bucky asked seeing her running towards him.

"Y/N was taken to medical! I knew there was something wrong with her before we left! I should've trusted my gut and taken her there myself!"

"Well lets go check on her then" he said getting into the elevator with Nat.

Nat rushed out of the elevator and saw Tony and Bruce standing at one of the doors looking in while they spoke quietly to eachother.

"Hey, what happened is she okay?" Nat asked quickly wanting answers.

"Shes fine, we handled the situation" Tony said truthfully "did you not get my message? I tried calling you"

"My phone got trashed in the fight...."

"Its been an interesting night lets just start there" Bruce said running a hand through his hair.

"Interesting is the biggest understatement of the year Banner! It was literally the shock of a lifetime!! Especially for that girl in there" Tony said pointing towards the room behind him.

"Does someone wanna tell me what the hell is going on??" Nat snapped.

"You should probably take a look for yourself.... you’d never believe me otherwise".

Natasha walked over quickly, as she looked into the room Y/N was sleeping soundly.... Steve was sat in the chair next to her..... with a baby??!!

"What the fuck...... she.... she was pregnant???" Nat said turning to face the men behind her.

"What??" Bucky asked walking over to see for himself.... when he saw Steve holding the tiny baby in a yellow blanket he turned to the others looking horrified.

"Yep, a healthy baby girl. Born at 04:34am weighing 5lb 9oz delivered by yours truly!" Tony said sounding pleased of himself.

"How is that possible..... theres no way...." Nat was saying quietly to no one in particular.

"If you’re this shocked, can you imagine how shes feeling?" Bruce said nodded towards the room.

"Is it Steve's?" Nat asked seeing him holding the tiny baby and smiling.

"They say its not, she wont tell us who the father is until shes had a chance to tell him first"

"So she didnt know she was pregnant?" Bucky asked from beside Nat, his eyes glued to the tiny baby in Steves arms.

"Not a clue. She thought she had bad stomach flu" Bruce answered looking over her chart.

"She had been sick, she told me she thought it was stomach flu before we left. This is huge!"

"No shit" Tony rolled his eyes "she's gonna be out for a while, you want me to call you when she wakes up?"

"Yeah that would be good" Nat nodded

"I'm gonna check in with Steve quickly and make sure he���s okay" Bucky said and walked toward the room.

"just keep it down i don't want her waking up yet, shes had a tough night"

"Sure" Bucky nodded and headed inside.

Steve looked up when he heard the door open and smiled at his best friend.

"Guess you guys heard about the unexpected visitor we had" Steve said looking down at the baby in his arms.

"Yeah.... they just told us.... a..are they both okay?"

"Yeah they’re both perfect. Y/N is wiped out but after what she went through i cant say i blame her. It was amazing Buck!"

"You were there?... for the birth?"

"Yeah she wouldn't let me leave" he chuckled "that woman has got one hell of a grip i tell ya! Nearly crushed my hands. And this little lady..... i cant stop staring at her Buck! Shes so tiny and perfect. Look!" Steve motioned for Bucky to come and take a closer look at the baby.

"Wow.... shes beautiful! Look at her tiny little hands...."

"She keeps making the cutest little cooing sounds i swear my heart is melting for this kid" Steve gushed as Bucky pulled up a seat "You wanna hold her?" Steve offered his friend.

"No.... no i might hurt her" he said looking down at his metal arm.

"You wont, it'll be fine. Besides i really need to go to the bathroom"

"Oh... Okay" he said letting out a shaky breath as Steve stood up and passed him the baby.

"You good?" Steve asked checking with Bucky before he left.

"Yeah.... i got her" he nodded settling the baby in his flesh arm.

"I'll be right back" Steve assured him before slipping out quietly.

The room was quiet as i slowly opened my eyes, i could already sense there was someone else in here with me but just assumed it was Steve still. When i turned to look i was shocked to see Bucky sitting in the chair holding the baby.

"Hey..... you’re back" i said quietly so i didn't surprise him.

"Hey, Yeah we got back about an hour ago" he replied with a small smile "you had a busy night huh?"

"You could say that" i said pulling myself up in the bed so i was sitting up against the pillows.

"She's perfect Y/N" Bucky stated looking down at the yellow bundle in his arms.

"Yeah she is" i agreed "Buck....she's yours" I added quickly, there was no easy way to tell him that he was a dad "you know that right?"

"I had a feeling she might be" he nodded slowly and gave me a smile. Bucky seemed surprisingly calm about the whole thing actually.

"I swear i had no idea i was pregnant! I would've told you if i did. Having this dropped on you is huge.... i mean we're not even together! It was a one time thing and now we're parents!" I rambled away nervously "i was still going on missions for christ sake!"

"Y/N you didn't know, of course you'd still go on missions"

"I don't expect you to be okay with this, i can do this on my own.... no one needs to know shes yours, if thats what you want?"

"Is that what you want?" Bucky asked looking at me with sad eyes.

"No! Of course i want you to be apart of her life.... she needs her dad too. Im not ashamed to tell people she's yours Buck" i added knowing that was what he was really asking. He was asking if i was embarrassed about people finding out i had slept with him "but if you’re not ready for this i completely understand, i wont pressure you into it".

"Hey, you’re awake" Steve said smiling as he walked back into the room again interrupting whatever conversation i was having with Bucky.

"Yeah" i nodded with a quick smile before looking over at Bucky holding our daughter.....It really was a beautiful sight, he was being so careful with her. Steve must have noticed something in the way i looked at Bucky and Bucky was looking at his daughter because he suddenly let out an "oh my god....".

Bucky and i both looked up at him with wide eyes "what?" We said in unison waiting for Steve to tell us what was wrong.

"Is.... is she...." he pointed at Bucky and looked at you for confirmation.

"Yeah, she's Bucky's" i confirmed casually trying my best to act like this wasn't a huge deal.

"I didn't even know you two were a thing.....you never said anything Buck?"

"We're not together Steve thats why he never said anything" i said to save Bucky having to explain to his friend.

"So it was just a one time thing?"

"Yeah" i said with a shrug, i was trying my hardest to kept my shit together and keep calm. Keep my heart from trying to explode from my chest, i was pretty sure the two super soldiers could hear my heart racing though.

"Hey Steve, could you ask Nat to bring me a change of clothes down i really need to take a shower i feel disgusting" i said changing the subject before it became any more awkward.

"Sure, i know shes waiting to see you and meet this one here" he nodded to the baby in Bucky's arms "speaking of.... shes gonna need a name, have you thought about it yet?"

"Not yet, i don't want to rush into it and regret it. Parents normally have 9 months to decide on a name not 9 hours"

"Fair point" Steve chuckled "i'll go get Nat for you".

"Thanks.....hey Steve?" i called getting his attention as he reached the door.

"Yeah?"

"Thank you for being there for me today, it means a lot"

"Of course" he blushed before leaving me alone with Bucky and our daughter.

"I wish i could've been there" he said quietly "I'm sorry doll".

"Its fine, we didn't know what was going to happen Buck".

He nodded slowly but looked kinda sad that he had missed it, or maybe it was because Steve had been there and not him.

"I should go and let you get some rest"

"You can stay, you can watch her while i take a shower if you want?"

"You don't mind? You trust me with her?"

"Of course i do! Buck you’re her dad you’re not going to let anything happen to her".

"Id die before i let anything happen to her" he stated staring lovingly at her.

"See" i said with a chuckle "ive got nothing to worry about. Well almost nothing"

"What do you mean?"

"I have nothing for her, no clothes, diapers....no nursery. All i can do is feed her right now. Tony said he'll take care of it all but i feel bad leaving it all to him"

"He’s probably enjoying it doll you know what he’s like"

"Yeah i know, i just wish i had had time to do all that stuff myself"

"You would've kept her then? If you had found out you were pregnant?"

"I would" i nodded happily and truthfully.

A knock on the door pulled my attention and i turned to see Nat making her way in with a bag.

"Hey sweetheart, i leave you alone for a couple of hours and you go and have a baby?"

"Yeah sorry about that, who knew?" I laughed as she wrapped her arms around me and gave me a tight squeeze.

"Let me see!" She cooed as she walked over to Bucky to get a good look at the tiny bundle in his arms.

"Oh my god shes so precious! Absolute perfection. Y/N.... Can i hold her?"

Bucky looked like he didn't want to part with her but eventually handed her over to Nat gently.

"Hey I'm your auntie Nat. Uncle Bucky doesnt get to hog all the cuddles does he" she said rocking the baby gently.

"Erm about that Nat..... its not Uncle Buck.... she's his daughter"

Nat looked up at me with wide eyes and then looked at Bucky "what?? When did that happen??!" She said loudly causing the baby to stir slightly "shhhh im sorry baby girl go back to sleep" she said quietly.

"I'll give you two a few minutes to talk, i'll come back to watch our girl while you take your shower"

"Thanks Buck" i smiled and watched him leave the room.

"Sooooo, spill! You never told me you and Barnes were a thing!"

"We're not a thing, it was just the once"

"When?? You didn't even tell me you two slept together! We're supposed to be best friends!"

"You remember that mission we went on, the one where we had to stay at that safe house for the night to make sure they weren't tailing us?"

"Alaska?"

"Yep that would be the one. We were both beat up and were helping each other clean up.... one thing led to another and here we are" i said pointing to my baby daughter in Nat's arms.

"And it was just a one time thing...."

"Yeah, it never happened again. He acted like nothing had happened the morning after so i didn't make a big deal about it. We just carried on as normal" i shrugged.

"Did you want things to change? With you and Bucky i mean"

"Honestly? I was hoping it would" i finally admitted "i had liked him for ages Nat and when we finally.... i thought maybe he felt the same way. But clearly i was wrong"

"Y/N..... you should tell him! You guys have a daughter now"

"Thats not gonna make him suddenly want me Nat" i laughed "it doesn't matter anyway, I've already accepted that we'll only ever be friends" i said as i slowly climbed out of bed to grab the bag that Nat had brought with her.

"Hey be careful!" She said taking a few steps towards me.

"Im fine Nat just a bit sore, i can get out of Bed by myself" i told her as the door opened and Bucky came walking back in.

"take it easy doll, should you even be up and about yet?"

"Guys I'm fine, really" i tried to tell them "i just need a shower"

"Okay, Buck you wanna take your girl and i'll get momma to the shower" Nat said handing over the baby, he soon had his daughter settled against his chest and took a seat again.

"You’re a natural Barnes" Nat said sounding surprised walking over to me and taking the bag "lets go get you cleaned up".

"I wont be long Buck, you okay with her?" I asked wanting to make sure he felt comfortable being left alone.

"We're good, go take care of yourself. We'll be waiting for you when you get back" he smiled.

[vix-x-gaze]

Holy shit an ART POST

Even though my bio says I do art, I realized my blog lacks exactly that

Now

Behold

I decided to sit down and play each of these 9 songs and let my creativity take over. These are sketches for a soon-to-be painting that I have already started. I've posted this on my Instagram, but this is where I'll go ahead and explain in full detail what the story is behind the characters/stills.

Falling ; This song pulled me out of my head and saved me from myself. The lyrics really connected with me and what that panel captures is the lines "I see an ending. Take it all in. I'm gonna fall".

Suicide Circus ; Ringleader has been a character in my mind for quite some time now, I just had no idea how to bring him to life. All other ideas I had before felt forced, but whenever I listen to this song I have my own little music video going in my head featuring Him. Even his design has reason. His odd looking hands holding the banner really came from the "tick-tack-tack-tack" in the song, mainly because I imagine Him coming for me and tapping on the walls. Of course, I have my own meaning behind this as well being that you may seem happy playing with danger, but are you really fully satisfied with yourself? He embodies that as his head does seem inviting at first, but when you see Him as a whole its obvious thats not the case.

Vortex ➡ Fadeless ; I actually included Vortex because it was the song that really got me into GazettE. After about a month of running a complete blank, I switched to Fadeless which is in the painting process currently.

The Mortal ; Just as a heads up, if any of you get the blessing of hearing this live, no professional sound system will ever do Reita's bass justice. His bass shook my soul in Dallas. Anyway, I actually had 2 ideas in mind and multiple listens had said 2 ideas stick out the most. The second is on the second page thats the "floating" panel. It just gives me such ominous vibes and hearing it live, I may just go with the original panel.

Devouring One Another ; Another character of mine which never came about until this song. I honestly love this song beyond BELIEF and as much as I'd love to hear it live, fray screamo absolutely SHREDS your throat and I'm not trying to make Ruki go through that. Anyway, Teddy is heavily based off of the lyrics. Although he has participated in the gruesome acts that surround him, he's deeply terrified of it all and is constantly contradicting himself.

Derangement ➡ Red ; I know its already drawn in, but I couldn't get anything that I actually liked. I continued to blank on a design after the hand was drawn so I've changed it to Red.

Ominous ; THIS mf right here. From the moment I heard it, I absolutely LOVED it. I enjoy Dogma as a whole when it comes to the creepy, mysterious vibes. I wanted to create a blood moon with a clock face which, if you haven't guessed, is mainly pulled from the lyrics "Sleep, count me down again" and a bit from "true dread". That last bit comes into play as every time I hear songs like this I always think "ah yes, he's killed a man and now it burdens him".

Dawn ; This is honestly my jam. I was a bit sad they took if off of the setlist for the World Tour, but I still wouldn't change a thing about that night. It does tie in with the Ominous panel a little as Dogma's entire concept blew my mind. I wanted to create a story through those two songs. Althought it is supposed to be a sunrise type of setting, I'm very determined to make sure it still embodies the album, Dogma.

Two of a Kind ➡ Abhor God ; Two of a Kind is actually my second favorite song off of Ninth because of how well it worked in terms of the actual song, but I wasn't able to come up with anything for that either. When I taped off the canvas I was going to make it Babylons Taboo, but after getting back from the concert I was torn between Gush and Abhor God. Gush was a little too obvious for me and seeing as there's enough murder themes in this project, I'm going with Abhor God. I have the idea in mind, I just need to execute it.

And that is all for THIS GazettE related project. Something I enjoy doing is putting myself in music videos and drawing out what my outfit would be and such. GazettE has really brought out all of my artistic talents from sketching, to poster making, to nail art, to dancing. They've really made me hone in on what I'm good at as a way of coping with life. Im not sure when the painting will be done, but I will make sure to keep updates going. As of now, there probably won't be much with finals and EOC's going down in school currently.

[rreader]

Hello love, could i ask you a Bruce Banner x Reader fic, please? Where maybe there's some angst and stuff like that but then everything goes well? Or you can choose how to end it, if it makes you feel more comfortable!❤️ I absolutely adore the way you write and your blog in general, so i wondered if you could give our smol scientist more love, he deserves it. Thank you a lot, I'll be here waiting while I read your stuff❤️ Forgive me if you find any english mistakes, it's not my first language💔

Pairing: Bruce Banner x ReaderFandom: MCUWarnings: mentions of attempted suicide

Summary: You’re the personal psychiatrist of the Avengers and have a session with Bruce Banner, after he tried to kill himself once more.

A/N: wow, this is.. dark. like, this wasn’t my original idea for this story, but I just watched some bruce banner vids on youtube and this is what happened afterwards. don’t worry, it does have a nice ending, though! also, your english is great, don’t you worry babes fandoms page)

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“MisterBanner?” you kindly smiled at the man, sitting on the far end ofthe room, staring out of the window. When he heard your voice,however, he turned to face you. “Please. Come in..,” you openedthe door a little wider and waited for him to enter your office,before closing it again and making your way over to your desk.

“Ireally don’t think it’s necessary for me to be here, Doc,” he satdown across from you.

“Attempted suicide is a pretty good reason to see a psychiatrist, if you askme,” you opened the file and started scribbling down some notes.

Hedidn’t say anything, simply stared at you and sighed.

You’vebeen working with him and the other Avengers for a little over a yearnow, being their personal psychiatrist in matters that others of yourfield might run from.

Butthese people needed more help than they led on and you weredetermined to provide it, in any way possible.

“So..do you want to tell me what happened?”

“Why would I?”

Outof all the Avengers, Bruce Banner had always been your hardest case to crack.

Youknew that he was suicidal, but also knew that whatever method he would try,wouldn’t work.

Andnow, after what felt like ages, he had tried to kill himself once more, even though you thought he had finally accepted this part of himself that he hated so much.

“Bruce,”you leaned back in your chair and placed your elbows on the armrests, your hands flat on your belly, studying him intensely. “Iwill not pretend to understand what it’s like to change into theHulk, but tell me why you hate it so much. You help so many people,day in and day out, whether you’re the Hulk and do it inadvertently,or as Bruce Banner, an insanely clever doctor, who can do things thatother scientists and doctors only dream of.”

“He’sdangerous. I’M dangerous. An abomination that shouldn’t even exist,”he said, with so much spite in his voice. He turned his head to lookoutside the window again and only turned around, when you got up fromyour desk and walked over to a shelf with books and pictures.

Youcarefully picked one up and handed it to him, when you were standingnext to him a couple of seconds later.

“Thisis my younger sister. Haley. She just turned 19 last month. Clever,young girl… very driven. She’s going to Harvard, plans on becoming aNeurologist some day,” you sat down on the chair next to him, notopposite of him, like you were supposed to.

“That’s nice, but whyare you telling me this?” 

“Rememberthe battle of New York? When you killed that big Chitauri?”

“Not something you forget..”

“Mysister was there.. She was celebrating her 18th birthdaywith her friends..,” he looked up from the picture to look at you,but your eyes were focused on the photo. “My parents and Ithought it would be a great present. And she seemed to have a lot offun. And then.. then the news started to come in, about an alieninvasion in New York and none of us were able to reach her.”

Brucegulped, but kept quiet for now and let you finish the story.

“Wegot a call from the hospital a few hours later, that my sister wasthere with a broken arm and a concussion. We got into the car, drovethere and you know what the first thing was that she said?” you finallylooked him in the eyes, your own shimmering from the tears that werewelling up in them. “’It was the Hulk. He stopped the Chitauribefore it could mow down the building we were in.’”

Yousoftly placed your hand over his and smiled at him.

“Yousaved my sister and so many others that day. They’re alive, becauseof you. So many people are. So you might think of yourself as anabomination, but to my sister and.. and to.. to me,” you softlyrubbed your thumb over his hand. “You’re a hero.”

Helet out a breath, he had held unconsciously, then he tried his bestto smile, but it was clear that he didn’t mean it.

“Imight’ve saved someone that day, but I’ve killed many on others.”

“Andyou think you’re the only one? How many people do you think that Thorhas killed? Natasha? Tony? Even Cap..,” you put your other handover his as well, so you were holding his in both of yours. “Youcan’t save everybody. And I know that, even when you’re the Hulk, youtry to do so. Maybe accidentally, but you do. You do save them. And Iknow that you’re not the same Hulk you were five years ago. You’remaking process every day to control him. And one day, you’ll be ableto control him fully, if only you work on doing so.”

Somehow,you ended up sitting so close next to him, that your faces werealmost touching.

Youhad to remind yourself that he was a client, when you felt him move alittle closer and could feel his breath on your lips.

Youcleared your throat and got up, smoothing out your skirt, thenwalking back around the desk, before it would get awkward.

“Howdo I control him?” he asked after a little while.

“It’sall about emotions. Think about love. About somebody or somethingthat you truly love. Maybe about the smell of someone’s hair, or the waythe person smiles. Think about a place that makes you feel likehome.. anything that makes you feel loved.”

Itactually made a lot of sense.

Lasttime he had changed into the Hulk, when he had been fighting Thor on Asgard,he had stopped himself from killing him, by thinking about the one personhe just couldn’t stop thinking about for months on end.

Aboutyour kind smile, about the smell of your perfume, about your voice, about the way you sometimes looked at him and he secretly hoped that it was more than just a professional relationship.

Andwithout even realizing it, he had changed back into Bruce Banner.

“Thankyou, (Y/N),” he nodded, taking all your words into consideration.

You made some more notes, before putting down the pen and getting up.

“I’dlike us to have a session twice a week from now on.”

Henodded and got up as well, then you walked him over to the door,but before he opened it, you placed your hand on the doorknob.

“Youare a great man. And the world isn’t ready to lose you yet.”

Helooked up into your eyes.

“Theworld? Or someone specific?” his voice was full of hope.

Youblushed a little, but smiled nevertheless. You had to remind yourself that, for now, he was a client. Maybe one day, he wouldn’t be anymore. And when that day came, you’d be the first to call him.

“Perhapsboth.”

“I’llkeep it in mind, then. I promise.”

Hestill hadn’t accepted the Hulk as a part of him and he probablywouldn’t for a long, long time, but for now, it was enough knowingthat he was able to help people as the Hulk. And he didn’t want tostop helping people just yet.

[chasseuses]

reasons why i love jade leech part 3

I don't know why I'm doing this again I am a big fool goodbye ☠️ but ahhahahwhahjwhsjfhfjfnfkbdsjbdkdbjd im a doormat for him so. haha. I'll just. fukcignvkjgknv everyone pls look away this is the last post i swear 🤩

Part 1, 2

So.... 🤡 Hi I'm back again with another simp post I'm your local Jade simp and I'm here to point out reasons why I'm an absolute doormat for this eel and why I'm staying as one.

I'M FUCKIFNCGD. SCRVEN AMWIANAJWBAJVWKQVWKAGAKAVDKFBYKDGSKEIANSJAMEINSLENDKEBEKSBEKSHEKDJEKSJRKDJRKDHSKDHKEHSKEBSKEJDLDHDKDBDKHRKDBEKSHEKSUSMS

Ok so, URGFKFHDKDUDKSJSKFHDKGDKDHD if you've been here long enough or something i think i posted something about his initial birthday suit up illustration here which i wrote while i was sobbing and being overly emotional over him.

BUT BASICALLY. IT WAS ABOUT HIS SMILE. I MEAN RTHGJKHJGK JADE LEECH..... SMILING.............N N .VJV.JV. WITHOUT ANY ULTERIOR MOTIVES...... IM FUCKFING DEAD YO!!!!!

HEAR ME OUT. I JUST GJVKJGKVNGKV ... dont u think there's just something about someone as shady as jade who looks shady 90% of the time look like he's not shady for the first time ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ

idk if that made sense but yeah.

ALSO IDK IF ANYONE WAS SIMPING HARD ENOUGH TO NOTICE BUT LIKE 😭 IF U COMPARE HIS HANDS TO FLOYD'S THERE'S A DIFFERENCE.

and now if you've known me long enough to know that i am a big fan of his hands, you'll know that i went absolutely crazy over this detail!!!!!! THEY WERE ROUGHER THAN FLOYD'S AND THAT WAS JUSTHGJJGKGKFNKFKGNGKGNFKDDJFKGNGKFJF A DIRECT HIT TO THE GUT WHAT THE FUCK DISPLEX YOU CANT DO THIS TO US 😭😭😭😭😭

do u see the fork he's holding?

yeah

i wanna be that fork so bad

im not even kidding

i legit want to be that fork.

why?

.

haha.

you dont need to know

ANYWAYS. ONTO THE STORY 🥰

we got a lot of lore for the twins this time around and i am tHRIVING :BIBBEK:

"However, and this is unusual for me, but so many people wishing me ‘Happy birthday’ has made me rather embarrassed." HELP?????????&(&!4(£;#(-__8-##(-_(£+£(£ I II I I I I HUCHJWNWISHEJDHWOHSKWGSKSYAKGSKA HI KAUAKSGKAGSKSGSJAYJAGSJAGAJSYSIGSJGSJSHSJAHsks

Their mother!!! Uses!!! -san!!!! At the end of their names!!!!!!! Which got me going 🧐 that is not usual at all!!!!! wtf is going on in the leech household

a lot of ppl theorized mafia stuff and all of that which honestly makes sense imo and also because i find that hella hot HAHSMDGSKDHKSJS mr leech...... 😳 mafia.... HELPGKFJKGJFKF

wait. won't that mean he's rich.

bonus points eyy /j GFJFHFJDHJFNF

"Well, they do say that married couples take after each other… It’s good that they get along well." MR LEECH YOUR HAND IN MARRIAGE RFNJVJKHKGKGKOGJGKVJKFCKIJGKTJKFFJKDHDKXHFFHFJ

guys im losing it

if that wasn't already obvious RHUFHGUF

HELLO????????? ONE OF THE REASONS WHY HE LIKES TERRARIUMS??1?"!"!'! HELPFKVKV CONTROL IT'S CONTROL

"Whether they live or die is also up to me…" i just think.

no i dont think but you get what i mean why the fuck is that line lowkey hot lmfao something is wrong with me

i dont knwo why the fuck but the fact that he likes unpredictability is also kinda????? lmao how boring was ur life that everything u did went exactly your way 😭 how does that bring u amusement i cant relate gomen mr leech

or am i completely wrong idk 🗿 mr leech tell me more about you onegai

Ok honestly, before the birthday card came out, I thought their earrings were like,,, from their parents or something. like heirlooms!! i thought they were precious in that aspect but what i rlly didn't expect is for them to fckinghgkgngknfkf FIGHT A DAMN STURGEON FOR ITS SCALES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

deadass why would a sturgeon challenge them anyways 🧐 and the twins were just like, "ok sure but can we have your scales if we win" and they rlly did 😭 just how strong were you guys before middle school wtf!!!!

and they turned the scales into earrings 🧐 which is now what they wear!! p cute

they're apparently popular to use as amulets in the coral sea so i. i fucking rotted over this AHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA hrufhfigjofhckfbcjc should i delve deeper into this? no. but perhaps you can find out what my rot is about just by reading this single bullet

"Floyd and I have gone near beaches on nights with fireworks as well." HELEPEHLEPDFKLEGSLDOSODB EGHFKCNDKMCURLDHLDGSMX

WATCHIFNFG FIREOEKSKF WITHHF JADE AJFNJFVJFHKDHF

ohmigod this is getting way longer than intended 🤡 should i continue

yeah fucj it HFJVHFJHCJFHJCJ everybody pls ignore my rot 😌

as all of you know, jade wears purple eyeliner. that's right.

Purple eyeliner.

Why does this matter, you ask? Oh sweet summer child, it may not matter to you but to me—eyeliner is super fucking hot I kid you not I started crying at night when I thought about this and wrote a mini essay about it like a fool so I'm just going to.

I am legitimately losing my shit over this like-?? Who allowed you to fucking put on eyeliner? You're already deadly without them and more so with them.

It honestly makes me wonder if he puts this on his own or not but seeing how deft he is with his hands, it's not a stretch to assume that he puts it on his own.

And I find that really hot since look at those clean strokes..!! He's better at applying them than me. I have this desire to let him do my makeup but when I think about it I start making incomprehensible noises and bury my face into my pillow. Purple eyeliner just-? Looks so good on him?

It should be illegal at this rate he looks so tempting I hate it. Sometimes I just have this urge to ruin in, I don t care how I just want to smudge it for some reason. Like deadass, I just want you all to appreciate how good his eyes look!

HELP HIS EYESDHFHTKHEKFHDKFHDMFHKDHFKSGDK IM FUCKFINDG LSOING IT

WHY DO I LOVE HIS EYES SO MUCH I DONT FUCKING KNOW I'VE NEVER BEEN A FAN OF CHARACTERS WITH MISMATCHED EYES BUT WITH HIM IM JUSTHGJJFJG KG NVM

His eyes are fucking beautiful, man. 🤡💞 Could stare at them for hours and never get tired!!!!

Need I say more?

BRO IM FUVKGIGNVJKGVKNGKFHFKFFJF HIS TEETH IM CRYIGGN WHAT THE ACTUALLY FUCK I KNEW THEY WERE SHARP BUTJGKVJGKGJFKGJCKFJKCFJKFFHKCJFKGJDOFHKDHFKDHDKDHDJ BARKBARKBARKBARK

I mean what 🗿

guys displex is insane because they literally made jade have two ssrs in a row with banners that were available at the same time do you know how painful that was for me

when jamil bday card dropped all i lost ebg because i panicked over the thought of a jade bday card and started saving!!! and i did!!!! i managed to save up 100 pulls and i was so fucking chill after that but then,

abema stream happened

i was asleep when that happened so when i woke up i had like 283628 pings in discord telling me that he has an ssr for the halloween event and i was just 🗿 yo say sike his bday is soon displex must be joking

haha nope! they were dead serious.

that shit was painful i started crying 🤡 what the fuck because i didn't have enough gems for both ssrs and his halloween card was just absolutely beautiful.

so i went insane and saved 200 copies of the same jade card in attempt to make him come home before pity so i dont have to whale

I mean,

Black nails.

The bandages.

The harness.

The hat is kinda ugly but that's ok.

THE BELTS AT HIS WAISTFJTKDJRKFBFKFHOFHDKDHDKSGDKSHSKXHSKJS

SO I WAS REALLY DESPERATE AHHSHDHFJFGHJFJF THANKFULLY THEY BOTH CAME HOME BEFORE PITY SO TYSM JADE I LOVE U FOR THAT AHAHJAHDJ

oh shit this got long so imma just end this here 🐬 if you read this far, congrats HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA