#i made pizza and it took like 2 hours lol

[notwaitinginthecorner]

Cooking for yourself is deadass a full time job jfc

[equallyshaw]

that one hurt | trevor zegras

zegras x oc hughes.

warnings: angsty, swearing, self doubt, and self belittling in a way. but, sweet ending (:

word count: 2.1k (longer than i anticipated lol)

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molly hughes, older twin sister to jack, glared at trevor as soon as he walked in and slammed the front door. trevor did not acknowledge her after the loss that evening between them and dallas stars. she crossed her arms as she leaned against the kitchen counter, watching as he walked right past her and to their bedroom. she sighed, cleaning up the rest of the kitchen after baking some cookies and heard trevor walk back in. he was going on and on about a harmless habit she did, "how many times do i have to fucking tell you about this shit? huh?! jesus fucking christ." he screamed at the girl. she froze in her spot, as trevor grabbed his keys from the counter and slammed the front door again. her hands quickly covered her mouth, as she let out a sob. she'd never been yelled at like that before, in her entire life. she'd made sure she was always in peoples good graces and always put the needs of others before her own needs and wants. she felt betrayed and felt as if her whole being had been stripped.

she quickly made her way over to the bedroom and grabbed a bag, throwing clothes and a bag of toiletries in there. she had one place she wanted to be and one place only.

-

molly pulled up to the townhouse alex had gotten in santa monica, and she saw alex sitting on the front step waiting for her. he stood up as she turned off the car, meeting her to grab her bag and give her a hug. he rubbed her back softly, as she cried into his shoulder. alex looked to molly as a sister and was beyond pissed at trevor, and was ready to tear him a new one if one of her brothers hadn't already gotten to him yet. alex took the bag from the back seat and let her walk inside first. "im-im sorry for just barging in like this, al. i didn't know where else to go." she said sighing as she made her way to the kitchen. "don't mention it molls, you're family. im always gonna be here for you." he said smiling and pulling her in for another hug. he kissed the top of her head, as she calmed down a bit more. "did you tell your brothers?" he asked softly and he felt her shake her head. "nah...you know one of them would be flying out here even if they have practice or a game tomorrow.." she said giggling just a bit. alex knew that to be true. "well good thing i dont have work tomorrow so lets make some pizza and watch the office?" he grinned, pulling back and heading to the freezer. "frozen pizza session? dont have to ask me twice." she hummed preheating the over and taking out two pans. the two worked in unision, opening the pizzas and placing them on the cooking sheets to go in. "do you have any seltzers?" she quesitoned opening the fridge and saw her favorite brand, "oh would you lookey here." she grinned taking it out and opening it. "its like you knew i was coming." she hummed chugging just a bit. "well if i didnt have it, we all know youd chop my head off." and she saluted him with a knowing smile.

the two spent the night watching the office and finished off both pizzas and molly with a few seltzers. the two passed out on the couch for what seemed like hours before molly awoke to her phone ringing with her brothers contact popping up. "hello?" she mumbled, rubbing her eyes and seeing the sun begin to rise. "oh thank god you're ok!" jack said rubbing his tired eyes and molly heard luke sigh in the background. she looked over at alex who was sound asleep and she headed over towards the first floor powder room. she turned on the light, chuckling to herself as she saw just a tiny bit of tomato sauce on her chin. "wanna tell me why you turned off your 360 location missy?" jack demanded and molly rolled her eyes. "you have us worried sick - not to mention mom and dad calling us at 2 am asking if we had heard anything and then you've got trevor als-" she cut him off, "oh he was worried as to where i was? im sure he could give two shits jack." she said pinching the bridge of her nose and sitting down on the covered toilet. "whats that supposed to mean?" he asked taken back a bit, "maybe you should call your so called bestie back and asked what he said to me last night and see if you can put the pieces together as to why i turned my location off and left the house." she spat, and heard jack whispering to luke to call him. "he said something that really hurt me jacky and i-i had to leave. im with alex, im ok. i proimse, im just very upset with trev." she said softly, her lip quivering. "oh lovey, im sorry. what did he say? just so i know what to scream at him." he added the last part, causing her to giggle just a bit. "um-- its stupid." she hummed, trying to downplay the situation. "lovey it cant be that stupid if it made you turn off your location so nobody could find you and it cant be that stupid if it made you go stay with alex. just tell us molls." luke said butting in and molly sighed.

"i just have a weird habit and i knew trevor was in a bad mood and i did it anyways and so its my fault that he blew up at me. its my fault he screamed at me." she said feeling a few tears fall out. "he yelled at you?" jack said in disbelief. trevor didn't have a bad bone in his body, when it came to molly. he looked at her as if she hung the stars and the moon, and never had any inkling to hurt her. "that son of a bitch." jack breathed as he took lukes phone from him and marched into his bedroom. "there is no reason why he should have yelled at you loves. none. i don't care if he was angry or upset at the game, he shouldn't have screamed at you. don't make yourself feel as if it was your fault. we all have our habits, and knowing you its a dumb one and one that did not warrant his outburst." luke said trying to comfort his sister. molly nodded, "thanks lukey. its just, nobodys ever yelled at me before like that." she whispered and luke's heart broke. he knew how sensitive she was and how hard she worked to make sure nobody ever got upset with her. "damn he's really going in on trev right now." luke said hearing the shouting coming from jack's room. "oh lovely, well im gonna go back to sleep. its 5 am luke, yall are nuts for calling me." she giggled and luke chuckled. "goodnight lovey, sleep tight." and she thanked him.

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it was around 11 am when alex and molly heard a knock on the front door, and mollys eyebrows crinkled. she sipped her coffee, before digging back into her sandwich while alex went to go see who it was. "seriously?" she heard alex's lack luster enthusiasm, "i know shes here. i want to see her." she heard trevors familiar and ever recognizable voice. "listen man, i dont really feel like yelling at you right now so please just leave." alex said and trevor wouldn't budge. "the three of them have already screamed at me and picked me apart for the better part of the morning. please, i dont need anyone else to add to that." trevor said with a hint of exhaustion in his voice. molly sighed, walking towards the front door and stood next to alex, "its fine al." and alex nodded and eyed trevor before he walked back into the kitchen. "outside. now." she said pulling the door shut behind her. "what the fuck do you want trevor?" she demanded, crossing her arms over her chest. she saw his under eyes darker and exhaustion in his eyes, and the look of pure regret and guilt written across his features. "im so sorry molls, i really am. there is no excuse for what i said or did and especially me leaving. i shouldn't have left and i shouldn't have said what i said. you know that i didn't mean it lovey, please. tell me what i can do to get your forgiveness?" he asked pulling her in close by the hips. "first off, you can take your hands off of me." she said pulling them off of her, "and secondly, you can leave. im not ready to speak to you yet. you hurt me trev, that one hurt. especially since you know its the most harmless habit of mine." she said setting her boundary.

trevor knew it would be hard to get her forgiveness, but he was also happy that she was setting boundaries because he knew that her being her, it was hard to do. even though it hurt him, he understood why she was. "nobody has ever yelled at me like that before. and i will not allow it to become a norm in it either." she said taking a step back. "so please, just go. ill talk to you when im ready." she said and trevor nodded softly, a lump forming in his throat. "alright lovey." he said taking a step in front of her, and placing a soft kiss on her temple. "ill be at home waiting." he said looking into her green eyes, and she nodded watching him leave.

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it was two days later and alex was off for a small road trip, so as molly hugged alex goodbye she decided she did not want to be alone and lonely in the house. she cursed herself at 'caving' quicker than she liked but trevor was also her person, she missed him. over the past 48 hours she thought about the situation, thought about what she wanted to say to him and she ran it over with alex who supported her wholeheartedly. she drove down from santa monica to newport, and savored the hour and a half driving down the coast with some alred's coffee. she pulled up around 2:30 in the afternoon and saw trevor outside with jamie, pulling their surfboards off of trevors car. good, molly thought. hopefully a surfing session did some good and helped him refocus. jamie smiled widely as trevor walked passed him, once he saw molly's car pull in front of the townhouse. trevor turned around to shut his car door and saw molly's car parked, and quickly made his way over towards it. "molls?" he called out and molly rounded the back of the car, coming face to face with the hockey player. shes smiled sweetly and then waved towards jamie, who just like trevor still had their wetsuits on. "ill be inside, im gonna go get settled." she said softly to trevor as she walked passed. "call me later if you wanna get dinner." jamie said to trevor and trevor nodded and jamie left. the hockey player quickly jogged inside, looking for molly.

she stood in the doorway of their bedroom, cream hydrangeas in a crystal vase sat tall on her bedside table. a new joan malone candle stood in front of it, and saw a small card with them as well. she smiled softly, walking over towards it setting her bag on the bed. she opened it, and sat down on the bed. the letter contained everything that trevor could never get out on his own, the letter explained everything that he wanted to say but knew he'd be too flustered to say it correctly and in the way he envisioned. trevor paused at the door and saw that she was reading the letter he had written once he'd gotten back from santa monica. molly's lip quivered, and she looked up towards trevor. he quickly found himself kneeling in front of her, grabbing hands that reached out for him. "youre not losing me trev, i promise you that. i love you way too much trev, youre pretty much stuck with me for life." she hummed, giggling a bit. he smiled widely pulling her in for a kiss. his hands softly grasped her cheeks, pulling her closer. after a few seconds, they pulled apart before going in for more.

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[remedyturtles]

out of curiosity, are you an only child? I'm one of four brothers (aged 2-26) and have multiple estranged half siblings, and I've always found the way you write familial interactions between the brothers to be just. incredibly realistic and raw

Especially between Leo and Donnie - their interactions in your writing will occasionally (bar the codependency...) parallel interactions between my older brother and I to a T and it's. so touching

If you are an only child, what goes into writing familial interactions for you?

If not, do you have any specific memories or experiences of your own that you melt into interactions between the brothers?

Your writing brings me so much comfort and makes me love my brothers just a little harder

LMAO definitely NOT an only child hahahaha. i have an older sister and an older brother, then two bonus brothers

hmm! experiences... let's see. under a cut bc you got me rambling abt my family LMAO

our family groupchat is titled 'live and don't learn that's us'

once my brother drove over 12 hours all night to come rescue my sister and i after our car broke down during a road trip and the only payment he took was pizza

i still have an envelope that my brother slid under my door after a fight with other family that says on the top 'I HEARD YOU WERE UPSET BUT BIG BROTHER STILL LOVES YOU'

at my high school graduation, my brother took a very expensive trip home for two days just to walk me down the aisle. i did a speech and wasn't nervous at all bc every SINGLE time i looked out at the crowd he was looking at me with the fucking BIGGEST smile on his face

after my sister moved out and went to university she called me every single day

there was a girl that was going after my brother against his wishes and my sister picked up the phone when she called and threatened her so hard that she never talked to my brother again and like ten years later he was like 'yeah she just gave up one day idk what happened' and we were like 'um sister happened' and he was like 'WAIT WHAT' LMAO

for years me and bonus brother #1 would steal sister's phone and make her background a selfie of us and she never changed it and even one year was like 'hey the selfie is super old can you guys take a new one'

i also have a photo saved on my phone after bonus brother #1 got out of a surgery legit in his hospital bed with the caption 'i lived bitch'

i have been wearing a jean jacket i stole from bonus brother #2 for years and last time he saw me i was wearing it and he did not even remember it was his anymore

every snapchat i've taken of bonus brother #2 is captioned with 'bitch'

last christmas we did powerpoint presentations over discord. sister assigned everyone roles in star wars. brother provided a satirical how-to on home maintenance. bonus brother #1 talked about magic the gathering.

i didn't take many pictures but i do have this moment from sister's that made me laugh out loud:

then another badly taken picture from brother's:

i know what you're wondering now. rem, what did you do your presentation on?

cue groans from my entire family. except, wait....

the only use i've gotten out of my bachelor's degree LMAO

anyway if you got this far, the point is that i am definitely NOT an only child lol. we have issues too of course but they're pretty cool

[enpr-ss]

The world border, forced to record at the same time, and proximity mod rules are actually so good lol.

What an unfortunate looking starter house.

He gave scar the flint and steel…. Grian you are the source of all the chaos.

“A village wide trading hall would be great” - famous last words

Him leading that creeper and then scar getting exploded…. The beginning of the end.

“Put your clothes back on!”

I am with Grian in the sheer disbelief that Scar has somehow managed to scam people out of their enchanted armor and items.

He made the sandcastle in under one hour? Incredible. And the endermen security / insurance is genius.

Cleo scamming scar out of his stuff for pizza’s location is genius and hilarious.

SCAR DIED TO A RAVINE LOL. He died for nothing lol.

Scar using his red to intimidate everyone. Finally a series where scar dying first just makes him more powerful. Grian’s just trying to do damage control and it’s just not working. AND GRIAN’S FIRST BOW SHOT WAS AT SCAR WHO JUST TOOK HIS ARMOR OFF. THE NARRATIVE JUST WRITES ITSELF. but Grian’s just indulging him and enabling him.

“We’re going to give him back his enchanting table.”

“You are FULL OF IT!” -skizz

Bro somehow that trap worked. Scar played his part perfectly, grian messed up the trap but jimmy of course set it off.

And then they all went to laugh at jimmy’s red name.

Grian is so transparently using scar as an excuse for chaos and murder.

I also can’t believe they were the first and ONLY to get netherite. Why.

The crastle siege was just clown music the entire time. But hey etho! And hilariously that his traps never woke the first time.

Grian just carries two spare flint and steels because he knows scar.

Everyone in disbelief as scar tries to swindle his way with etho

It’s always pets on servers. They’re the true martyrs.

IT WAS GRIANS IDEA TO ARSON ETHOS CASTLE!!!! OH MY GOD.

Grian: there’s a 33% chance he’s going to die.

Ironic that Grian is the one who mined the most sand. He just wants his traps to work :(

How does he always find his way into shenanigans. How. He eavesdropped SUCCESSFULLY on impulse. The half heart clutch multiple times!

“I’m yet see these muscles do the work they’re supposed to”

Etho’s Mary poppins looks so dumb from Grian’s POV but it puts the fear into them.

Bdubs would do anything for a clock LOL

BIGB NOOO

how is scar somehow the ringmaster. How. And their inventories were full. Of course.

“We’re going to win 3rd life using slow falling arrows and potatoes”

Of course Scar will betray you over a piece of paper. And of course he’s willing to do a Ren for grian. And of course he’s going to drag it out by burning the renchanting banners and tables.

And grian just casually punches him into the cactus and takes like 2 punches at most.

The final duel at pizza’s grave, grian jumping off it…perfection

He got the most kills on the server too.

[mire-mire-mire]

Day 8 - 11/8

Decided to pull out a trick from college. I set an alarm at 7, then another at 7:05, then another at 7:15 so it was more like gradually waking up than just getting up and going. So I got up, got ready, then did some yoga. I think it was pretty enjoyable. A little bit confusing trying to get the poses right and I'm still not flexible like. At all. But keep these 10 minute beginner videos coming and I'll be able to touch my opposite leg to the ground in no time.

Anyways. I went on my walk and brought an applesauce pouch with me. It felt pretty nice out, but it got warm pretty fast. I decided to only do my usual 2 mile route because I expected to go to the store to get the last little bit for my goal, but then we didn't go to the store lol. Oh well, we should be going Sunday, I think.

When I got back, I decided I wanted peanut butter and yogurt. So I melted a small bowl of peanut butter and mixed it in with some vanilla yogurt, cacao nibs, granola, and banana slices. It was eh. The texture was kinda weird and didn't taste all that great. I think it was the combination of vanilla and peanut butter flavor. Oh well.

For lunch, I had the last slice of the deli chicken with gouda cheese on a bagel. I stuck it in the microwave after I assembled it and I definitely enjoy it more that way compared to having a hot bagel, vaguely warm cheese, and cold meat. I also had the last of our baby carrots. Not the most fulfilling though.

My workout was pretty good today. Jumping jacks still kill me, but I learned that I am able to plank for thirty seconds. A full plank, like on my forearms, not my palms. So I was pretty proud of that. It made me the sweatiest out of everything I did. So after doing three planks within half an hour, I was DRENCHED. I took a well deserved shower. I definitely need to wash my face more often because I didn't realize how grody I felt until I washed it all off lol.

My mom ordered pizza for dinner, so I had two slices (pepperoni and onion) and some of the little garlic knobs. They weren't knobs, but they weren't balls either. They were more like bars. Yummy :p

Tomorrow I'm going out early to bird and then I'm seeing a performance so I'll be out all day. Hopefully birding will get me a good amount of steps! Probably won't eat very well though.

[moonshinemusings]

This blog *-* Can I have a headcanon for Price ? The ones for Soap and Alejandro are ghgffhh <3

Hello there! I'm really glad you like my blog, thank you! Here are some headcanons about our favourite Captain :)

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General John Price headcanons (Pt.1)

Warnings: slight mentions of PTSD, depression (?), smoking, canon typical violence

A/N: This turns pretty grim by the end, but I hope you still like it!

• This man watches football whenever he can and he's been at matches quite a lot in his life. He took Gaz with him a few times, even Laswell once

• Sometimes he snores like a dad and Gaz needed several days to get used to the sound in order to sleep when they started working together

• Tells horrible dad jokes all the time and he knows most of the guys hate them, but won't stop

• Coughs like his lungs will collapse but somehow he's healthy

• His knee always crunches like it's about to break

• He's mostly unperturbed by all the carnage and violence by now, but he saw a baby being born once and almost fainted and threw up

• In full honesty he doesn't mind cheaper cigars, but he likes to fuck with everyone by acting like he hates them

• The smell of the smoke on his breath/clothes is really noteable but he doesn't care

• Has a high alcohol tolerance. The only way you will know if he's getting tipsy is by noticing the subtle change in his accent to deeper and more slurred words. If somehow he's really gone, then you will know by the little red tints on his cheeks (which are mostly hidden by his facial hair, but you can see it up close)

• Not an early bird. He tends to be grumpy in the mornings, but if you give him coffee it's gonna be fine

• Which reminds me: his preferred drink will always be a good whiskey, but he usually downs anything he has to (coffee, tea, those horrible protein shakes, vitamin mixes and so on)

• Occasionally reads, mostly classics or novels

• Prefers salty food over sweet

• The secret of the facial hair? Patience and genuine care about his appearance. He shaves for like an hour every time because he doesn't want to ruin his mustache/beard (Alex is the same damn way I swear)

• He likes jazz music and 80's rock. Sometimes he blasts those horrendous English raps too because he knows the others hate it (sorry if I insulted anyone lol)

• Thinks pineapple on pizza is hideous (Soap loves it lol)

• He's had so many broken bones in his life, he has no idea if there is any in his body that he didn't destroy at least once yet

• He doesn't really like action/military based movies because of the unnecessary violence in them. They remind him of things he doesn't want to remember too much. He'd rather watch shitty romantic movies or even comedies, but he won't be caught dead while laughing at them. He also tends to laugh while watching horror movies, but the heavy gore can remind him of bad memories

• He doesn't care about social media or any of that stuff really. Sometimes Gaz shows him stuff like cat videos because he loves them. Everything he knows he got it from Kyle tbh

• He has no fashion sense whatsoever. Outside of work he either looks like a dad on vacation, or still wears too much stuff similar to his gear that he seems to be going back to work in 10 minutes

• He likes fuzzy socks btw

• Adores big dogs, he can just wrestle with them and when they lay on him it makes him feel centered and comfortable thanks to their weight

• Unreasonably good at poker and he has the highest record with like 2 wins behind Laswell (who he just can't beat)

• He can handcraft a bunch of stuff if you give him a piece of wood and a knife. He made little figures for Gaz and the guy kept them as lucky charms over the years

• He doesn't fuss around too much about food and he's not picky. Whatever he gets, he gets, and that's fine by him (he used to live off worst stuff anyways). He loves meat though, a nice steak always puts him in a good mood. Also probably makes mean bbq

• Drinks beverages like orange juice or even milk straight out of the carton

• He's a man who always keeps his promises. Not one to lie or feed half truths, he always straight up says everything he has to

• Has a collection of weird/dumb looking beanies he has received over the years from his team

• He met Kate's wife once and she made him feel like family in the best way possible. He was glad his best friend had such a great person in their life that they could go home to

• Very protective of his men. He has lost too many friends and doesn't want to lose anyone else

• His biggest fear is ending up alone, watching everyone he loves die

• Every man he has lost weights heavy on his shoulders. He remembers their faces, but not all their names which makes him feel even more guilty

• Tends to bottle up his emotions and act like everything is fine. Sometimes he breaks down seemingly out of nowhere, but only when he's alone

• Kate is his closest friend and when it gets really bad, she's the one he seeks out

• He has occasional nightmares just like everyone else, but feels like he's dealing well with them (mostly he does)

• He has a watch he got from Soap as a birthday gift once. He only wears it outside of work because it's too important for him to get it damaged in any way

• He rarely has free time or time away from work, but he gets the most out of it. He has a few safe houses, but prefers to spend his time in one in particular because it has all his personal belongings he has left

• At first he thought the "you're everyone's father" was a joke, but then he realized how genuinely they meant that and he kind of broke down. He didn't think he deserved that amount of deep affection and what came with a title such as that, but it made him feel unexplainably happy at the same time

• He's not sure if he ever wants a family. He knows the military is his life and would never leave it behind, unless he has to retire because he can't keep up anymore (even then, only if they force him). The idea of having someone who loves him waiting at home brings warmth to his chest, but he's not sure if he deserves it. He doesn't want to taint anyone with his hands that hold so much blood on them

[dizzyluc]

Incoming vent rant (needed to air out my anger after the past 3 days, considering my pain level I'd say is at a 6 out of 10, and the more constant pain I'm in, the more pissed I get lol...)

This month, let alone this week, has not been kind to me... and it's only Tuesday, THE THIRD ">_> When this month starts off shitty due to something personal related (not health related thankfully, (although it IS insurance related is all I'll say, it could definitely be worse though, but...) it's actually put me in a pretty pissy mood these past few days, which I'm praying Friday it's taken care of, so hoping Friday goes over well) Monday, my "rest up before a long ass week" day, I had to take my car in to get an oil change as my light just lit up, went to a "Take 5" and after waiting 30 minutes, being inside the place that does it, with my car off cause no idea when they would actually just "start" doing stuff... "Oh, we don't have the right thing to change your oil, so we can't do it." THANKS FOR SAYING IT AFTER MAKING ME WAIT (instead of checking real quick if it can be done... then having me wait for everyone that came before me go... although I think they were understaffed too) Then after, I go to a local donut place, that I have been trying to get a coconut flavor for, for WEEKS, even went the day before and they said "oh we will have it tomorrow!" and they still didn't have it... (they have said this 3 times now at this point) pretty much making my outing a complete waste of time. Today being Tuesday? I've been almost crashed into 6+ times (at least twice my mom yelped at people almost creaming me) The donut place, after saying I'd be back at noon today? "It will be ready at 5-6 today!" How. Many. Times... I drop my mom off for her appointment, which normally this one takes 3 hours due to ALWAYS being behind, get a Slurpee... which tasted like a cheap drink... and then every place I went to, for SOME reason, after lunch? Big lines. I get done with the final place almost, expecting to get back and chill and relax after such a hectic afternoon and week so far... (after picking up a pizza cause a good deal usually happened at a certain pizza place nearby on Tuesdays) Mom texts: Oh, I'm just about done, there was no one in the doctor's office today! So we can keep doing errands once you get back! Me thinking... "Can I get just 5 minutes... FIVE. MINUTES." Dealt with more cars trying to ram me (If you go to Florida, be VERY CAUTIOUS about driving here, the people are lunatic drivers, even more so lately it feels like, literally had to slam on my brakes twice today because people THINK THEY OWN THE ROAD, TO PULL OUT IN FRONT OF ME) After finally eating today (I only had donut holes at this point btw today... it was pizza though, but...)

I think my nerves from all the shit happening these past few days finally caught up to me and I got nauseated for like an hour or so, which going back to the donut place didn't help (it still wasn't ready when I got there, it was almost 6 pm) and after they brought it out... it wasn't even the right donuts. "Wait, OHHHH... you wanted the white, coconut donuts we served like, 3 months ago right? With the coconut drizzle? Oh yeah, no that was discontinued." Me thinking: ... I LITERALLY TOLD YOU THIS EVERY TIME "I want the coconut donut that had white frosting, and coconut flakes drizzled on top of the donut" I got whatever the hell they made, got home, let dogs out (while it pretty much was almost raining) and it took me 2 hours to get a shower and now lay down in bed. ... and it just keeps going tomorrow lol... (Gotta be ready by noon, and will be out probably till 6 or so doing "Military Monthly run" aka pick up medicine, pick up veterinarian stuff for dogs, maybe mail some stuff or do a bank run (these 2 not always), followed by pick up cards and any random stuff at the Base Exchange, then the Commissary for almost 2 hours for the family monthly grocery supply [and this is why I call it "grocery day" as it's an all day affair, that literally is dedicated for goods for the month])

[jakespov]

California part 2: Joshua Tree & Palm Springs

This one's a bit crazy, lol. Hang tight.

Basically, I had told David before I got to California that I really wanted to visit Joshua Tree. So I met his friends and we drove there.

The drive there was beautiful—miles upon miles of open road.

We'd spent some time beforehand making sure we got the perfect AirBNB. It had great AC (necessary when it's almost 50˚C outside), a huge lit up pool, a hot tub, and a firepit we used to make S'Mores.

A lot of beer and pizza later, the first day was already up.

The next day we decided to go to Palm Springs (a one hour drive over from where we stayed) to go out.

After sufficient pregaming to avoid paying $20 for every drink, we drove there and had probably one of the best nights out in California I had.

Anyway. On the drive home we stopped in Palm Springs (and, of course, Trixie Motel) to actually explore the town and we went to Pasadena.

Last thing to note of my last few days in Ventura County is probably the night we hung out with David's friend Jesús, and I had way too many edibles, got way too high, and made these burgers on bagels that I think about every day. Some of the best food I've ever tasted (at least that's what it felt like at the time). As you can see on the pictures...

SO! That's the end of my adventures north of Los Angeles. I had the best two weeks ever, it was so amazing. I loved meeting all the people I met and still talk to a lot, and I had so much funnnnn. Also having a proper summer in 40˚C heat was very much neccesary after a year of the weather we had in the Netherlands.

My next post will be about my week in San Diego, and after that I'll get some pictures developed I took in Utah (I've already been here two weeks, sorry for the delays, lol)!

[nerves-nebula]

yeahh my parents have forgotten me too, same with teachers. My one teacher forgot me at school when the rest of the school (it was a school wide field trip) went to a local baseball game. There was a small group of kids left at the school and they put us all in the library, but it was really awkward waiting before a teacher found me and took me to the rest of the kids.

I've been left behind by teachers, I've been left in the hall, left in the car, left at the store. I've gotten good at directions so I could just walk home lol

My father even forgot my age and was telling people I was 2 years older than I was? Even though my parents forgot my birthday before so really they realistically they should have thought I was younger?

People be wild, but benefits of being forgotten is that people have, rarely when I was younger, forgot to ask me to pay for something, so I've gotten free stuff (I don't steal I promise, just when I was younger)

i wouldnt mind if you stole from businesses anyway, im not a fuckin cop. my little sister would wait for a nearby gas station to close up for the night and take home the extra/stale pizza leftovers. they gave it to her cause she was cute and really really good at manipulating people (I love her, shes so cool). i never saw her do it but I think she had a "Hungry Street Urchin" act going on. it wasn't even really an act though, its not like we got enough to eat from mom lmao.

i was terrified of being forgotten/left alone so i always stuck to the group unless i was upset, in which case I'd often intentionally stay behind to see if they remembered me (they usually didn't lol)

i have a very vague amalgamation of memories of waiting to be picked up from a lot of activities (that i usually didn't want to go to anyway) my mom was often late. and sometimes I'd be in the car when she went to pick up one of my siblings and she'd rant about how she was an hour late or something. it doesn't feel good to be the last one left with the coach/teacher or whatever. but i tried not to complain cause i felt guilty that mom was always busy with work.

ive got a very vivid memory of being on a field trip in some kind of waste or water treatment plant, and i was terrified of walking over the metal walkways high above these huge empty bowls where the water would go or something. i tried to follow the group, but just stepping on the see-through walkways made me panic. so instead i hid behind a door until they'd all gone so they couldn't make me. i don't remember who came to get me, but they walked me across the walkway holding my hand while i closed my eyes. i was terrified i'd fall and drown or break my neck or a million other horrific things. sometimes when my dreams get bad i have that same, vivid feeling of standing at the edge of something and knowing im not going to fall off, but feeling like i'm going to DIE if I move.

ANYWAY you're parents kinda sound like shit.

[lettersfromthecatcave]

2023 Kick-off Travel (2 of 2)

We woke up early for the second day. Excited ako kasi eto yun trek na hindi natuloy the previous travel because it was raining sooooo hard.

Since El Union opens an hour earlier than Little Cat, we grabbed our coffe from there. Haba ng pila, walang cold brew but it will do the trick.

We travelled for about 20 minutes and arrived at the tour guide spot. Someone approached us and said that it's Php 1,500 minimum fee for 5 pax, wala pa yun bayad pala sa tricycle nya (Php 300) and others that I will share later. Dalawa lang kami so we didn't care na about the fee and continued on. Whether nadaya kami or not, it's fine... we always think on such instances that it's their source of living and as long as they do the job, we'll pay.

It was a 30 minute-ish tricycle ride to the starting point of the trek. The guide says it's 1 hour, but hindi ko alam anong pace nun mga ganon. Haha. It actually took us around 1 hour and a half, with stops for photo taking. I gained 7 kilos so it was indeed an experience getting used to this new body while I trek after 2-3 years since my last.

But, the view is so fucking worth it.

Every photo I took and the videos I had for a reel I made are filter-free. Hindi kailangan. Sobrang namiss ko yun pawis, hingal, akyat, baba, gapang... it was relatively an easy trek but because we were wearing shoes, scaredy cat ako sa dulas. LOL.

Going back, we were recommended to just take the habal-habal. It's Php 400 per person, and you need to pay for your tour guide's ride as well so total of Php 1,200. Dahil super nakakatakot yun 40-minute habal ride ... as in malala pa sa roller coaster... napa-tip kami. Kasi we survived it and buhay kami. LOL. Aside from that, may environmental fee pa na Php 60 isa.

After that, we grabbed a VERY LATE linner (lunch & dinner) at Seawadeeka. Legit Thai flavors, awesome staff. They adored Fofo so much na nun kakain na, they asked if they can take care of him para makakain kami. Tapos ayun, kinidnap nila papasok sa kitchen at pinanggigilan haha.

Share ko na din pala yun hindi planado but turned out to be quite a looker na outfit ko.

We then went to the beach so Fofo can enjoy a bit of the litter sand. LOL. Ates came up to us asking if they can take photos with him. Nakakatuwa lang kasi we adore how Fofo can also share some happiness to other people.

We then brought Fofo back to the hostel to rest. And for us to also recharge energy a bit, before going to La Kantina... again.

Love their cocktails, while the beer is husband's usual order... same sa Sarsa kasi. We got complimentary pizza.

To be honest, it still feels like a dream how much our travels have improved. Same travel buddy, but ngayon, hindi na kami about budget. We can eat and hike without thinking so much about expenses... though, sa totoo lang... hindi din naman kasi kami magastos or luxurious. We don't do steaks, or high-priced wines and we sincerely love being muddy and dirty and walking when we can.

Masaya lang ako. This is all I want in life, tbh. And while some dream of international travel - which of course I'd love too - ang dami pa din talagang lugar sa Pilipinas na pwedeng pwede pang diskubrehin.

[andstilliam]

today was a pretty chill day. i didn’t move at all. tomorrow i do have to run to walmart to get a couple things but today i just stayed in. i finished my biol lab. the statistics questions was a nice addition because i have very low foundational statistics knowledge and so in this context, it was new. i want more of them because i have to practice!! statistcal knowledge kinda feels like when i weigh my food, t=0 the scale, and the scale keeps changing +1 or -1 and i have to either deduct/ add that from the overall weight or choose what i want to believe. statistics kind of feels like that :P LOL

i still really dislike the formatting of the biol labs. it’s very scattered and it takes me forever to comprehend what the question is asking. some of it feels like it’s fill in the blanks. 

i also disliked the psych lesson and lab this week because first of all, i’m not interested in anything hearing related, but it’s a branch of neuroscience so i can’t get out of it until the later years when i specialize. i did eventually get into it actually but it took a while because i was unmotivated and didn’t care about the topic at first. but i actually learned more about how to read my audiogram than i did throughout the entire summer at a hearing research program, so that was cool. i feel like i really learn a lot in my psych class. i really like how structured it is and that it’s directional learning. it’s not about whether or not it provides you with answers, but it can provide you with clear cut questions to investigate yourself. i didn’t really learn anything over the summer because it was self directed which is just extremely challenging for anyone to navigate. i learned a bit here and there and did a couple things i wanted to do but it wasn’t directed learning. there wasn’t a set of steps that preceeded the overall learning objective; no building blocks. last year, my cs prof told me that i run before i walk which suits me as a runner haha omg that made me swoon hard, but like, she’s totally right. i was working with functions ahead of the lab schedule which is cool but of course i find it hard and give myself a headache over it. in the end, i didn’t really learn anything. i just quickly applied a function i wanted to learn; no building blocks. so that’s how i feel like this summer went. i had to basically create my own tutorials. it was a pretty shitty expierence. so i like that i feel like i’m actually learning something in these courses. but also RE audiology, it is necessary for physics which is necessary for medical imaging, which is necessary for machine learning within physical sciences.

i really want a slice of pizza and or a kids serving of pasta- those are my 2 top cravings at the moment. the worst part is that there are 2 pizza joints across the street from my house and i just know i won’t get it. according to Jen’s book, i go to different fast food drive thrus and puke in my car wishing i looked like other girls at the gym. so you mean the car that i don’t have with the drivers licence i don’t have? maybe that’s why i don’t have my damn licence……. oh, and let’s not forget my fav part, that i’m magically healed after a course of PPIs that i’ve never been prescribed consistently. please don’t write a Sick Enough 2…….. i’m disgusted by the subtle racist undertones in my case study!! but i understand that it makes for a good case. i’m kind of proud. i feel proud to represent my race in a case like this. i mean, i’ll try my best…….:) just don’t put me next to people who are 300lbs in your next book. god, that’s mortifying. i don’t know whether to laugh or cry. that’s not cool, man. 

still deciding whether or not i want to go for a stroll later in an hour or so. today’s intake was close to yesterday’s which i don’t really like but honestly i’m so tired i can barely talk, so i feel like that kinda helps. i feel like i just want to stay in tonight. i’m cozy under my heating blanket and i wanna break the compulsion for a moment and read a book. i just, like, really need to read a fictional novel. so i think i’m just gonna chill and read It Ends with Us on my iPad. i hate reading off a screen but my niece shared the book with me through iBooks, so. i only like iBooks for educational reads so i can highlight and add notes. plus i don’t have my runners which means i have to settle for my other runners which are just normal sketchers and they don’t always feel that great for walking, at least it doesn’t compare to Asics!

[olchowys2024]

Yesterday was a day of highs and lows. It’s our first time to this region, Calabria, so we’re learning lots as well. It’s a zone we might be able to afford so we spent a lot of the day eying up and assessing different towns we drove thru.

First though, we drove down Mount Everest from our castle in the sky. Honestly, down was way easier! We then caught the ferry out of Messina to the mainland. It was a super commuter car ferry with a little cafe/sandwich bar even though it’s only 20 mins across. Very civilized!

Scilla is a town that I’ve been very interested in for awhile and it lived up to my hype! We walked up up up to the castle overlooking the water for at least 270 degrees of its circumference. There was even a few suits of armour and a nativity diarama of the town in the 50s but if baby J was born there. It even had glittering stars and a Mary moved to rock the cradle. It won an award this year, gold cup!

Scilla (named after the ancient sea monster, as seen in the fountain picture) has a beach to die for and we could hear the waves all over town, which towers above. And, it was pretty quiet, very walkable… Honestly, it’s now on our list for possible living.

And, there’s a train station so you can get around to other parts of Italy fairly easily. Very great stop! After about 3 hours of wandering and some so-so but very cheap gf pizza, we were off again.

We really liked driving thru Calabria. We were mostly right along the West coast, with huge rounded and heavily forested hills on our other side. I googled the various towns as we drove by. We liked the look of a larger town (about 70K population) called Lamezia Terme. It’s all nestled into the hills, surrounded by meadows and orchards. The huge valley area was introduced to silk production and silkworm farming by Byzantine monks and it became Europe’s main producer of silk for generations. The town is a modern construct where they combined 4 traditional towns into one modern city. It looked like the historical zone is a donut around the core downtown which is modern, established in the 1960s. I’d like to stop in sometime and get a better feel but it seemed great from what we saw!

Calabria’s two biggest industries are tourism and agriculture, which is apparent. The gorgeous coastline was filled with seasonal dwellings ready to house folks from wherever who want to enjoy the seashore in the summer. And farms, vineyards and orchards are everywhere! Plus signs pointing out every historical thing they have here.

We got the spooks from the shuttered tourist housing zones as they were basically ghost towns but we really liked Diamonte and Paola areas as they are more established. They made sense to us and felt functional. lol.

In Scalea around 5 pm we hit an Airbnb snag. It was zany. The host instructions were inaccurate and no one knew at the building to expect us. Just getting to the door with key in hand took 45 minutes, a very kindly maintenance man and a lot of google translate. Then, the key basically melted? It did not make a snap noise but it broke in 2 with half the key very much inside the door lock. I do not understand what happened but did notice the keychain was cut at a weird angle across it and only 2/3rds of it remained. I wonder if the key was cut somewhat thru in the same incident and it was barely still in one piece? Regardless, another half hour to get into the place and then… Boy that was no airbnb I would stay at! Gaelan compared it to living on ship. No one had prepared for our arrival so we had to locate our linens, and couldn’t find appropriately sized ones. The bed was 2 twins taped together with packaging tape. There was only 1 top sheet (twin sized) so one of us would have to use a twin sized duvet cover and there were no twin duvets. Only one big blanket. And like 7 twin duvet covers. Anyway, finally I took a look at the towels and said: “no! We’re out!” As we tried to reset the place, we realized the security shutters were stuck open now too and the door to the balcony would no longer open…. We just left. Had to. So, we are at the Grand Hotel de Rose right on the water and are hoping airbnb reimburses us. Either way, we were not going to relax at the other place so, whatever. We’re 28 great experiences out of 30, not bad.

Apparently we get an umbrella and spot on a private beach plus a gluten free breakfast here so we’re off to explore Scalea properly and hope to find better food than we’ve had in the region so far. At the least, the local wine has been great!

[megan-loves-surveys]

#47.

Under the read more.

1 • favorite dried fruit? Apricots probably.

2 • do you wear a ring every day? Not everyday.

3 • would you rather wear a dress or a suit on your wedding day? Neither, cos I'm not getting married.

4 • if you chose dress, will it be long or short? -

5 • if you chose suit, will you wear a bow or a tie? -

6 • have you ever wanted to be a police officer? Not at all.

7 • favourite insect? Butterfly.

8 • Chinese or Indian takeout? Indian.

9 • do you have a nut allergy? No, but I do hate them.

10 • favorite dog breed? Corgi and Labradoodle.

11 • if you had to dye your hair lilac purple, baby pink, or mint green, which would you choose? Purple, cos I have purple hair already xD

12 • do you accessorise with chains? No.

13 • how often do you cook dinner? Not that much.

14 • how do you entertain yourself while copying a long text? I do typing for my job, I'm used to it.

15 • order these things from most to least important: What things? You didn't put anything xD

16 • better too much or not enough of (thing)? Depends what it is.

17 • what have you given up on recently? Caffeine - it was affecting my sleep and my heart rate, so I've basically given it up.

18 • favourite condiment for fries? Tomato sauce/ketchup.

19 • ever had bangs? No.

20 • do you know any Italian people? Most likely.

21 • ice cream or ice pops? Both.

22 • which farm animal would you like as a pet? None.

23 • which zoo animal would you like as a pet? None.

24 • have you ever dated someone lgbt+? Yes.

25 • how many hours do you wish there were in a day? 24 is fine lol.

26 • if you were at Hogwarts, which pet would you want (out of cat, rat, toad, and owl)? Cat, definitely.

27 • what color would you like your future bathroom to be? Purple or blue.

28 • do you add sugar to plain cornflakes? Yes.

29 • are skeletons cool? No.

30 • favorite Selena Gomez song? Stars Dance or Kill 'Em With Kindness.

31 • do you like coffee flavored cake? Not particularly, but I'd eat it.

32 • do you still watch your favorite kid shows/cartoons? Sometimes.

33 • do you like going on walks? what's your favorite thing about them? how far do you normally walk? Depends.

34 • last time you had a hot drink? Thursday, when I had Milo.

35 • last time you went to Pizza Hut? Ages ago, but we're actually having it for dinner tonight!

36 • do you listen to Cher? No.

37 • what's your favorite thing that you're wearing? The Mox hoodie.

38 • would you change your hair color if you could? No, I like my hair the way it is.

39 • how could I cheer you up if you were sad? Depends.

40 • have you ever lived in a city? was it crowded? I currently do, but it's quite spread out so it's not bad.

41 • would you prefer to live in a big city or the woods? City.

42 • have you ever climbed a mountain? Yes, but only a small one lol.

43 • have you ever pet a donkey? Not that I know of.

44 • do you hear owls or crickets at night where you live? Crickets, sometimes.

45 • ever run away from home? No.

46 • are you scared to ride public transport alone? why? Not at all, I do it constantly lol.

47 • is marriage on your mind? No.

48 • do you miss the 2000's? Sure.

49 • did you own a dollhouse when you were younger? I did! It was a custom made one, built by my uncle and it was MASSIVE. It took up like half our spare room lol. It was big enough that when my cat was a kitten, he could fit inside it xD

50 • does the room you're in have a tiled floor? No, carpet.

51 • would you rather have claws on your knuckles or sharp teeth? Sharp teeth I guess.

52 • how many pairs of earrings do you own? None, cos my ears aren't pierced.

53 • what's your favorite cooked vegetable? Potatoes.

54 • ever had a crush on a book character? Yes.

55 • lastly, is your washing machine in the kitchen or the bathroom? Neither, it's in it's own tiny cupboard room.

do you have a favourite sibling? I'm an only child.

apple or android? Apple cos I have an iPhone, but my TV is an Android one xD

what colour is the blanket/quilt on your bed? It's grey on one side and black on the other, you can switch it.

any languages you want to learn? Japanese.

is maths easy or hard? HARD.

do you play basketball? No.

ever prank called someone? Yes, as a kid.

ever tried carrot juice? No.

what's an unusual/weird food combo you like? Hmm.

favourite milkshake flavour? Lime.

favourite type of milk? I don't like milk on it's own, only in things.

would you rather wear a suit or dress? I've never worn a suit, so a dress.

best year of your life? 2016 ruled.

how loud do you like your music in the car? -

prefer to write or read? Both.

favourite apps? YouTube, Spotify, Facebook, Pokemon Sleep etc.

did/does your favourite teacher wear glasses? I don't think she did.

how do you like your eggs if you like them at all? Poached and fried.

ever seen snow? Yes.

ever gone sledging? No.

favourite holiday? Christmas.

is your hair long? Kinda.

do/did you play an instrument? No.

do you have a nintendo switch? Yes.

ever skipped class? Yes, but only PE and Maths lol.

ever skipped a whole school day? No.

what is a fruit you refuse to eat? Anything that gives me migraines so plums & raspberries, and also cherries just cos they're gross.

would you rather gain weight or lose weight? Lose weight.

would you rather gain height or lose height? Neither, lol. I like my height the way it is.

when was the last time you ate cotton candy? Hmm... man ages ago.

are both your eyes the same colour? Yes.

do you prefer to carry a backpack or a purse? Both - I use a backpack for the gym, but I have a purse/handbag for the rest of the time.

do you like glittery things? Not really.

ever watched a play in the theatre? Yes.

are you naturally blonde? Yep.

do you have a pet rabbit? No.

do you have a pet fish? No.

do you have a pet cat? I wish.

do you have a pet chicken? No.

best thing that's happened today? I got Starbucks and McDonald's hashbrowns lol.

opinion on brussel sprouts? Not my thing.

what colour is your country's flag? Blue, red, white and black.

are you studying any languages? No.

how many followers do you have on instagram? I don't use Instagram.

how about twitter? Barely any, but I don't care.

are you brave? Depends.

how much would i have to pay you to get you to do karaoke? I'd do it for free, it sounds fun even though I suck at singing xD

would you rather watch a movie from home or at the movies? Depends.

last time you went ice skating? YEARS ago.

have you cheated on a test? Yes.

painting or drawing? Neither, I suck at both.

art or science? Neither.

dancing or singing? Both are fun, but I prefer singing.

history or geography? Geography.

favourite season? Summer.

do you watch supernatural? No.

if you could change your eye colour would you? No.

what colour would you change it to? -

what is your religion? I'm an atheist.

are both your ears pierced? No.

Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? You mean like aliens? I'm not sure.

On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? 1.

The person you would never want to meet? A serial killer of some sort.

What is your favorite word? Not sure.

If you were a type of tree, what would you be? Something majestic.

When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? I was brushing my hair, so I was just thinking I needed to put dry shampoo on it lol.

What shirt are you wearing? A green and blue striped jumper.

What do you label yourself as? Nothing.

Bright room or dark room? Both at different times.

What were you doing at midnight last night? I was playing Pokémon Ashen Frost.

Favorite age you’ve been so far? 21.

Who told you they loved you last? My boyfriend.

Your worst enemy? Nobody.

What is your current desktop picture? The Shield - it's a pic from 2018 that I've never changed since then, it's been 6 years now xD It's one of their best pics, so no need to change it!

Do you like someone? Of course.

The last song you listened to? TLC - Case Of The Fake People

You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? Dunno, maybe a serial killer of some sort.

Who would you really like to just punch in the face? Logan Paul, cos he's a shithead and had to come to WWE and take up airtime. Fuck off Logan.

If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? Hahah, dunno.

What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional) My boobs xD

If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? I'd like to think I'd look like Roman Reigns or Drew McIntyre lol.

Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it? Depends what you consider 'secret'.

What is one unique thing you’re afraid of? Ladders. I will not climb one under any circumstances.

You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal. I just want an egg sandwich with loads of mayo.

You just found $100! How are you going to spend it? I'd go to the Converse outlet store and buy a pair under 100.

You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? NYC or London.

An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be? Jim Beam.

You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? No onions in food xD

What is your favorite expletive? Gotta be fuck lol.

Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? My teddy bear I've had since I was a baby, cos I'd likely already have my phone on me, cos I never go anywhere without it.

You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? Getting hit by a car.

You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! NYC!

The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? That's a hard one.

What was your last dream about? I don't really remember, it was a mishmash of things.

Are you a good… [insert anything you’d like here]? Good what?

Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? Yes.

Have you ever built a snowman? No.

What is the color of your socks? I'm wearing black and white patterned winter socks lol.

What type of music do you like? Pop, J-pop, K-pop, rock, classical, new age, dance etc.

Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets? Sunsets.

What is your favorite milkshake flavor? Lime.

What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer) None.

Do you have any scars? Yep, I have a big one on my shoulder from surgery.

What do you want to be when you graduate? -

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Flatter stomach.

Are you reliable? Depends lol.

If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? Are my boyfriend and I still together? Hahah.

Do you hold grudges? Not really. I forgive, but I don't forget.

If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? Dunno.

What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? Oh, I've had loads with my best friend, cos she's random as fuck.

Are you a good liar? I like to think so.

How long could you go without talking? Depends.

What has been you worst haircut/style? Dunno, maybe one of my super short hairstyles.

Have you ever baked your own cake? No.

Can you do any accents other than your own? I can try.

What do you like on your toast? Vegemite or jam.

What is the last thing you drew a picture of? Dunno.

What would be you dream car? Dodge Viper.

Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. Sometimes xD

Do you believe in aliens? Maybe.

Do you often read your horoscope? Sometimes, for fun.

What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? M. My name starts with it and so does Mox xD

Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? Dinosaurs. They actually existed xD

What do you think about babies? Cute, but I don't want one.

[ayearlaterletters]

15jul2024 - 17jul2024

Hi Michael, 3 days have passed and I'm writing this on 17jul. Let's just recap the days since we've been together.

15july2024 Monday: you started your new job and I worked in the morning. after work you went home to do some errands then you dropped off flowers and chocolates. short visit but you had to go home and take care of some things. lowkey sad I only saw you for like 5 minutes but better to see you regardless of time. wish I could've seen you longer but I'm happy you're alive. I was feeling a bit down so I decided to take a drive to La Jolla Shores. I haven't been to the beach since last month before my trip to Waikiki. It was cloudy at the beach but sunny where I reside. the weather was chilly but that didn't stop people from having fun on the beach. I decided to read a couple chapters from my book, and then I started to feel hungry so I went to my fave pizza shop around the corner. i get my usual 2 slices and 16oz beer for $15. they didn't have my typical pizza slices so I got the ricotta and spinach slice and a veggie slice because that's all they had left. i think during this time you were taking a shower, cooking dinner - you said you made a stir fry, and by the time I got home you were watching tv. i don't remember the show name it was long but I called you to say goodnight and the day ended. i thought about calling you but I didnt want to bother you since u were watching your tv show. we both understand that sometimes we need alone time. i wish u called me because u told me u were having a panic attack. you said it was no big deal but panic attacks are something serious. I'm just glad u are okay. even if we don't talk i think about you. i miss u always.

16july2024 Tuesday: you went to work and it was officially my first day off in a very long time. after work you went to target then picked me up. we talked in the car and i admit i was feeling homesick and i needed a hug. you told me what triggered ur panic attack. Memorable: I told you to not be sorry for waking me up or being a bother. you are not a burden and I always welcome you in my energy, space, and aura. then you wanted to tear up because you said no one has told you that before or made u feel that way. as a child we are to be seen and not heard. once again we had another connection that made us feel closer and loved.

we finally made it to the fancy hotel for our rooftop cinema date which planned a week prior but didn't book it until like days before. it was your first time watching the notebook and I haven't seen the notebook as an adult so it was like my first time too. i cried and you teared up. def not expecting a death scene but its the cutest and sweetest. if ever we are old together and I need to rejog your memory I would read you our love story daily. we also dranked some fancy cocktails. i had a blue hawaiian my favorite and u had a berry sangria. we were both feeling it. i also beat you in connect 4 and we each both got connect 5 lol. we made out in the parking lot because we went back to get the tissues. we took every escalator to the cinema lol.and the view with the best person equals a beautiful lovely night. we went to armandos got some food, drove back to coronado centienal park and ate along the edge to see the nice view of downtown, then we snuck off to make some love in a random dark street with like one lamp glowing. we didn't finish until like an hour and 30 mins later it was for sure almost 2am and we started at like midnight. i knocked out and snored on the phone with u and u drove home, took a shower, slept with me on the phone, I woke u up to let you know your alarm was ringing, u fell back asleep, then got ready for work. by the time I woke up around 9am u hung up I figured since u were at work. the day with u is amazing. ur amazing. and I cant wait for our staycation because I get to be with my handsome man. the one I'm so deeply attracted to...intellectually, emotionally, physically, and deeply spiritually!

17july2024: i slept all day i woke up then fell back asleep i didnt officially get up outta bed until like 4pm then I decide to clean my room and reorganize my room. finally lol because its been something I want to do but I don't. u went to work then after work you went home, showered, talk to your granddad, made chicken rice and brocolli, then called me. we are currently on the phone. currently our time call will hit 4 hours! yeah you've been asleep since the sun's been up. but we didn't get home until late last night like almost 2am. i like sleeping on the phone with you. i wish we could sleep together. i am very excited for our staycation :)

[aroaceofthesea]

Anyways a bit of a recap of my life these last few weeks bc its crazy how much stuff ive done what do you mean its only the 14th of july it feels like summer should be ending soon and ive been very inactive on here:

Starting with sant joan lol (aka 24th of june) some friends came over and we hadnt really seen each other in a couple years (like yes but not really really like it was always super awkward but it was super cool this time😋😋)

Then the next day when they left one of my best friends came home too :) he was at the town next to mine and we spent the afternoon together :)

Then we did diving classes with my mom and also some family friends im now an open water diver that was pretty random ngl

Then after like. 2 days. chilling with just my mom (my sister was like 100% of the day every day with some friends that were around) some friends from a summer camp i did last year came over😋😋

They spent like 4 days i loved every day ngl we played cards a lot we went to the beach we did so many things how did we have time to play mao so much thats crazy lol (also so many crazy rules @ ppl that i know irl i have so many great rules to add when we play again weve gotta do iit)

When they left it was sad :( but i had no time to mope bc i had exactly 15 minutes at home so i kust took a shower and then went with another friend to canet rock (catalan music festival) it was super coool :) had the opportunity to see oques grasses live again♠️🪿 (though they didnt play bancals😭😭 one of my fave songs ever)(they have too many epic songs to play them all they need an extra hour at least ngl) anyways it was crazy loved almost all of it (not miki nuñez why did they put that guy in there) and yeah it was super cool

Then i went home arrived at like 9:15 am and proceeded to sleep almost 25h until 10 am the next day im told i missed a sushi lunch with family friends :(

The next day some friends were like who avalon :) so ofc i was like meee (usually during summer im not in the city but i was that say so ofc i was like i gotta go) (just so you gt an idea i couldnt talk like at all like half my sentences were whispered bc i had lost my voice at the festival and that game is like. you gotta talk or why are you playing lol) anyways luckily they guy i had gone with to the festival was also there and also couldnt talk so at least i wasnt alone😅😅

Then i was going back home and on the way home i met one of my only remaining childhood friends lol she went with me to elementary school (or idk what you call it until 6th grade whatever) and plays the trumpet with me and we spend a lot of the summer together and it was nice to see her she had also gone to that festival (its a very very popular festival and ppl my age could go basically for free so a lot of ppl went) and also had no voice lol but it was nice to see her

Then with my parents we went and had a pizza :)

Then i spent the week in barcelona (were talking about this week already) and tuesday a friend came over bc hes from outside but had a play in barcelona like every night that week (he plays the trombone hes reaaally good) so we spent the mornings together and then the afternoons he went there (i wish i could go they were playing with fucking dagoll dagom (catalan company that made famous musicals in catalan like mar i cel and they are closing the company this year😢😢) like hoow i wanna go😭😭)

Then friday i went to my summer home and there were my mom and also that friends brother and father lol so anyway weve spent the weekend together and it was rlly fun

And also like i was looking for cool concerts around here this summer bc festa major concerts are just 🔝🔝 you get to see your fave groups for free and like even if they are pretty popular when it isnt in a big town or a very well connected one maybe you have 100 or 200 ppl to very known bands like its crazy anyway i was checking (using the very efficient method of looking where each concert of each group was and putting it on google maps) and i was getting kinda depressed bc there werent any of the bands i like most and then i was like ok whatever lets check buhos AND THERE WAS ONE YESTERDAY (THE DAY I WAS LOOKING) AT LIKE 20 MINS so obviously we went and like even though i was basically alone (bc the guy i was with is like 14 and he knew some friends that were also close and went too so he spent most of the time with them and i didnt have any friends close) it was a buhos concert so obviously it was super cool also rlly cool bc they are like one of the only bands i like that didnt play at the festival from last week so rlly cool that ive gone to concerts of all my fave bands in just a week i love this (also i was like. 3 meters away from where the tahirt they threw fell😭😭 i wanted a buhos supporter tshirt thats sad)

OH ALSO yesterday too we went to the beach and we played volleyball with random ppl and it had been a whilr since we did that bc they usually see my sister who is very good and they are intimidated but my sister wasnt there so ppl kept coming and asking us to play (we have a net which is like telling ppl pls comee if youre less than like 7 or 8 ppl) and it was rlly fun (even though that one guy was very very annoying but the rest were rlly nice lol)

So yeah now you know basically everything about my life the last 3 weeks

[butteryunlikelylady]

Okay well since I can’t find my OWN POST I have to post screenshots of it that I luckily took. I want to note the progress I’ve made so far on these guidelines I set for myself.

🖤 My dating apps have been paused and I haven’t unpaused them 🙏🏾 no urge to

🖤 I find that I don’t have that “maybe I will find romance today” feeling every time I leave the house. Maybe it’s me being numb to life rn but I just go about my day and mind my business and I’m not falling hopelessly in love with any man I speak to throughout my day or daydreaming endlessly about love anymore. Ofc I dream about romantic love but I recognize I don’t really want it rn or need it. Fuck men

🖤 I have been journaling more although I could try to be more consistent with it

🖤 I meditated for like 2 nights then fell off lol. I am kind of failing at this, at letting my mind wander, but I’ve also been super busy with my pt job, not much time to just sit and stare at the wall

🖤 I still need to work on sharing less at work but I’ve made it a point to not share what I’m doing when I take time off. ✌🏾

🖤 I have definitely fallen short in the scrolling less department. Much to be desired here…

🖤 I haven’t had much time lately to watch television but when I did, I tried to be fully present (as opposed to watching and scrolling) and watched however many episodes I wanted

🖤 I’ve certainly been reading more consistently. Even if it’s not 10 pages every night, I might get 5-7 pages in, but at least I’m reading instead of scrolling before bed

🖤 I did secure a second part time job!! It’s only seasonal, which may be a blessing, but hopefully the paychecks will be worth it. I’m tired 😪

🖤 can confirm I’ve taken a short day trip recently. And planning to visit a friend in Boston in January. We’re going places 🚗

🖤 definitely did daily walks when I had the time, now I get my steps in at my pt job 🥲 I haven’t properly been outside in a little while

🖤 always love connecting with and making time for my friends. Had my weekly wine night with a friend last night!!

🖤 my spending habits haven’t changed too much but I am trying to give myself what I want especially if it’s a seriously reasonable desire (like getting pizza last night or scheduling a blowout bc I felt pretty when my hair was straight) and I have the money for it. Life is short and I love myself, ofc I’m getting her whatever she wants (within the budget)

🖤 I am still steeped in grief and discontent but whenever a strong wave of sadness washes over me and I spend a few hours crying, I notice I am mostly able to bounce out of it by the next day as opposed to weeks/months ago when I’d spend days on end having been knocked over by my feelings. I’m still grieving but I’m healing even if it doesn’t feel like it. I’m allowing each day with its feelings to move through me and trying not to judge myself based on that

🖤 I’ve been doing slightly better on speaking sweetly to myself but could 100% do more to combat negative self talk and be nice to myself