#i made it relatable (my dog sucks at targeting & were both v good at nothing)

[morgsandmore]

My area of expertise: I can do Nothing™ all damn day

[xserpentlife]

Protect You

Request: @dietothemusic - Can I request a Sweet Pea x Male reader where the group is playing truth or dare and has to give Sweet Pea a lap dance? Or how about the reader is part of the northside being Veronica’s cousin and goes to a party meeting sweet pea and they have to hide their relationship until the reader gets tired of hiding?

A/N: If you don’t like Male x Male stories I suggest you get off my blog because on this blog we support everyone regardless. So sorry this is late by the way, again my schedule may be very off this week but I am going to try my absolutely hardest to keep it at least almost on track but fics may be a day late I’m not sure. Thanks to my beta @wayward-river

Warnings: Cursing? I think that is it.

Word Count: 3661

For weeks now you had been dating Sweet Pea the big bad brooding Serpent who always had a bone to pick with everyone. You met him three months ago when you started living at the Pembrook with Veronica, your cousin. It was weird the way you met, almost unconventional but also really told a tale about who the both of you were. Tonight was going to be a reminder of all of that. A reminder of the way it all started with the man you have grown to love.

*Flashback*

“Ronnie I can’t go to this party I don’t know anyone”

“Come on please Y/N”

“Ugh why”

“Because you're my cousin”

“Like that is a reason”

“Please I bet you will have a great time, actually I promise you will. And I am sure you’ll meet Kevin maybe you two will hit it off”

“And why would you think that? Is it cause Kevin is gay?”

“Okay well…” “No V you always try to set me up with these prissy guys and I am tired of it let my love life be okay”

“Fine but tell me you’ll come”

“I have to it is in this apartment and if you forgot I live here too remember”

“Touche cus touche, see you in a bit”

The party started off awkward at first. You didn’t know anyone considering you had just moved in a few weeks ago. You had only been to school a few times due to you skipping a few of your classes. You were usually an outspoken person not afraid of the fights or saying things to people, but the situation you were in now caused you to be scared and timid. Afraid that the people around you would not accept you. Your entire life you were the head dog. No one messed with you because they knew your family name, but when your parents passed away you became a target and moving in with the Lodges granted you that protection that you had lost. You weren’t like your aunt and uncle, hell you were barely like Veronica but you would only be safe with them, you hated living there. Hated the life you now had but you had to stay. You at least knew the Lodges had their own protection. Your life was too dangerous to go anywhere else. You wouldn’t be safe and no one around you would be.

You sat on the couch in your jeans and button up shirt feeling out of place wanting so deeply to just hide when you saw him walk in. He was hard to miss; tall, dark hair, built. You didn’t wanna seem like you were staring so you got up walking into your bedroom changing out of the button up, it seemed almost too formal for your liking. Formality always made you squeamish, remembering the ways your parents always had to be.

After changing you went back out sitting on the couch, and only a few seconds later that man that you saw at the door had made the couch dip as he sat next to you. Your breath hitched as he did so, but it was odd usually you didn’t get that weird stomach feeling for other people, something was different about him. He tapped you on the shoulder as you had been looking away and when you turn your eyes locked a light blush appearing on the stranger's cheek.

“Hello”

“Hey”

“Did you need something” What else were you supposed to say, you didn’t know him.

“Uh, oh nothing I just wanted to say. Figured I'd say hi you seemed bored, or annoyed, maybe pissed off, either way, uh I’m Sweet Pea”

“Oh cool name”

“Huh”

“Your name… it’s cool”

“Thanks most people ask if it’s real”

“Is it?”

“Yeah, haha”

“Well, nice to meet you Sweet Pea” You got up not wanting the conversation to go on any longer where you could ruin it. You also loved leading the mystery. Would he want to know more?

“Wait, where are you going?”

“Why do you wanna know”

“Thought we could talk more”

“What you think I am interested”

“Uh… sorry”

“I’m kidding Sweet Pea, follow me if you wanna get to know me so bad” You led him up to your room

“Oh, so you just wanted me in your room?”

“Shut it, I just was tired of that terrible music the party was playing”

“Yeah that shit was horrible, should we test to see if you have better taste”

“Oh so now I'm being tested”

“I mean if you want”

“Okay, I’m up for the challenge” You turned on your record player and played Y/F/A (Your favorite album).

“Okay, maybe you ain’t so bad preppy” The word, the word you hated. He knew of who you ran with he must have. Something told you to run but the smile he had given told you to stay.

“I’m not…”

“I know it was just a joke. I could tell you weren’t like most of the people at the party when you changed into a t-shirt and at that a band tee. I like your style”

“Thanks, I like the leather”

“Oh do you now” Before anything could continue a yell came from downstairs. Veronica calling you down. She couldn’t find you not upstairs, not like the way you were.

“We, we need to go downstairs, I’m sorry” You started walking out before your hand was grabbed and you were dragged back slightly.

“Are you alright”

“Yeah, yeah I’m good just my cousin needs me”

“Wait Veronica is your cousin”

“Yeah, wait you didn’t know? Isn’t that why you called me preppy cause I live here with her and you know she is?”

“No, not by a longshot. I had no idea you were related to her. I called you preppy for the pure fact that you were wearing the button up. I was just kidding, to be honest. I’m sorry about that by the way”

“Don’t worry about it Sweet Pea, everything is good”

“You sure?” “Yeah now I really gotta go see what she wants or she is gonna come up here”

“Alright let’s go” Sweet Pea walked out the door walking downstairs without another word.

You walked downstairs a few seconds after Sweet Pea had started. Veronica waited was waiting for you in the kitchen with a few other people shouting a follow me as soon as you had entered. A girl you learned to be Cheryl started talking once everyone entered the living room.

“Alright chums. We are going to play a fun little game of truth or dare. But there will be a twist. If you choose truth you will need to take a shot. Fun right! SO either you quit now before we start, or you will be stuck till it is over. So, ladies, gentlemen are you in or are you out?”

Truth or Dare. Were you in? I mean you damn well wanted to play, but could you now after all of that. You waited for the responses of others. When it got to Sweet Pea he had looked to you before looking to the door but ultimately decided to play. And then you had your answer. If he was playing you were definitely going to be there. So with a shot, you were in too. It started out basic, the normal truths being asked and answered but then it started getting juicy with Cheryl daring Toni to take off her shirt and then the bottle spun and it came back to you. Toni was now asking truth or dare but you had already done three truths and you didn’t want another shot, so dare it was.

“Dare”

“Alright, I dare you to give Sweet Pea a lap dance” Sweet Pea looked up his eyes turning to a new look you hadn’t seen.

“Toni what the hell I barely know the dude”

“Eh whatever that makes it more fun”

So you got up slowly sauntering over to Sweet Pea. The nerves in your chest at an all-time high. But why were you getting this feeling, you had giving lap dances during truth or dare with other guys but with Sweet Pea you felt something so different. You slowly brought your hands down to his shoulders bracing yourself against his body so you wouldn’t fall over the slight tipsiness taking hold at that moment. You slowly moved along swaying your hips as you made your way down dragging your hands with you along his body. Your legs made your way over his hips slowly grinding down against them until you were almost seated on his lap. You saw him biting his lip which made you want to go faster, you wanted his reaction, you wanted to be the one to make him react. Your hips grinded down slowly as you began humping his body, your lips slowly making the way to his neck. You brought your lips to his neck lightly hovering over before finally placing them down sucking what you learned to be his sweet spot, and that was his breaking point. As soon as your lips connected to his neck he had pushed you off lightly standing up and rushing out of the house.

You sat there for a second shocked before Toni had tapped you. “Hey don’t worry about him he probably just got pissed he never gave a lap dance that good” You rushed up before responding not caring what anyone would think, all you cared about was him for some odd reason. You craved him you needed to make sure he was alright. You were an ass and you knew it, you knew he was most likely straight, you knew you shouldn’t have done the dare but you did it anyone and probably ruined the slim chance you had at being friends with him. So you followed him rushing out of the house before anyone could stop you. But you couldn’t find him and then you heard the roar of the bike and you looked to the end of the driveway him standing there the smoke from a cigarette drifting into the air. You ran to him, as fast as you could and as he turned around you couldn’t stop fast enough as you crashed into him.

“Woah what the hell!”

“I…”

“What is your problem”

“I… I just wanted to say sorry”

“For what running into me cause that could’ve been prevented”

“No well yeah I am sorry for that too but I wanted to apologize about the dance… the lap dance. I should never have done that. I know you probably are not gay or bi or pan or whatever and even if you were there should have been permission, and I am so sorry to make you run out on your friends I just I shouldn’t have done that and I ju... “ Your voice was cut off as you felt his lips on your own. You melted into the kiss instantly, not caring what it meant, not caring if anyone was seeing. For once in your life, he was the only thing that mattered.

“I… wait. What? I thought you ran out cause you were mad at me”

“I left because well… take a guess” You looked to his cheeks seeing him blush as he looked down, a small chuckle coming from him. “Now shut up” There it was again… his lips felt like fire, hot fire that burned deep inside of you.

“I could get used to that”

“Oh, yeah?”

“Yeah”

“Wanna get out of here”

“Definitely”

*End Flashback*

The party started well just as it had so many times in the past. Sweet Pea stayed away keeping you at a distant knowing that you weren’t out. But you watched him. The party made you reminisce about the times you both shared together. You were scared shitless for anyone to find out, you needed to protect Sweet Pea. You had only ever gone to Sweet Pea’s trailer a few times. He was scared it wouldn’t be enough for you, but it was the exact opposite, you loved the getaway that his trailer offered and he knew that. He would often come up to your room during parties slipping away when people wouldn’t notice and he would spend the night before slipping out earlier in the morning before anyone would see. The only person that probably figured out the relationship was Smithers and maybe Sweet Pea’s best friends Fangs, and Toni. It was hard for you, and you knew it was hard for Sweet Pea as well. You didn’t want to have to hide but you also didn’t want to put Pea in danger either. If anyone from the rival families knew that you had someone who made you soft or someone you cared about they would use it against you in an instant, so you tried your hardest to keep hidden.

The time of the night you dreaded most came the truth or dare beginning. You sat next to Sweet Pea as you always had. You were ten minutes in the game going pretty smoothly no crazy dares and only a few shots. The bottle landed on Sweet Pea Toni being the person behind it. You knew the dare that was coming you saw it in her eyes as she glanced to you and back to him. “I dare you to give Y/N a lap dance” Sweet Pea glanced top you and you nodded as confirmation. If you didn’t let him it would have been a dead give away that something was going on. So you did. He slowly climbed on top of you still holding his weight up so he wasn’t fully pressing against your body. He grinded down his hips slowly connecting with yours. You couldn’t look at him. But at one point the way he landed made you gasp and turn fully locking eyes. Lost there for a moment his lips connected with yours. You pushed him off running away. Everyone would know. They would know that you were together. Others would find out. He would be in danger. You ran outside and kept running until a hand pulled you back.

“Pea let me go”

“No!”

“Drop my wrist now!”

“No Y/N what’s going on?”

“You knew Pea you knew”

“Knew what!”

“You kissed me and you knew I didn’t want anyone to find out, and you did it anyway”

“First of all we kissed each other, and you know it. Yeah maybe I started but you felt it too that moment and don’t say you didn’t because I felt it too. Look Y/N if your ashamed of me that’s fine but…”

“Sweet pea I’m not ashamed of you I just… I’m not out you know that”

“So what everyone knows. Toni, Fangs, Cheryl. We are together all of the time hugging, holding hands and doing so much more. I tried. We tried I mean, to keep it a secret we stopped the hand holdings when we saw someone, but people asked me I told them no but I don’t know if they believed me, does it really matter that much babe”

“Pea” Tears were streaming down your face at that point. “It matters Pea, it matters more than you know”

“I want to be with you Y/N I don’t give a shit if anyone knows hell I’ll fucking scream it right now. Look if you're not ready to come out that is fine, but… but I care so much about you and it’s not fair to me or you being hidden like this”

He thought you didn’t want to be with him and that killed you more. You looked up into his eyes the glistening of a few tears rolling down his cheeks and that made you crack. Tears were falling faster than before as you pulled away from him again. You couldn’t watch him as he broke because of you but you needed to keep him safe you had to.

“If you want to tell people I don’t think we can be together Sweet Pea”. Before you could process you were being turned around his large hand holding your cheek as he looked into your eyes and his lips connected with yours. Softer but more passionate than ever before, like at any second you would disappear from underneath him, but you needed to. To keep him safe you had to go away you had to stop seeing him. “Babe don’t do this. I don’t get it. I don’t get why we can’t just fucking tell people. People will support you like they do Toni, Fangs, Cheryl, and Kevin I mean hell even me. You won’t be in danger”

“That isn't’ the fucking point Sweet pea. I am not the one that needs to worry about the danger”

“What?”

“Fuck can’t you just let it be, I don’t want to lose you. I can’t lose you. I can’t have you in danger. I would rather leave you and lose you than lose you from you being tortured or killed. I can’t go through that, I can’t let you go through that”

“What the fuck are you talking about?”

“God I should have told you sooner”

“Told me what Y/N!”

“My life Pea it is fucking dangerous. The shady things that Hiram does well my family did them all to. I mean I was never a part of it, but… but when they died I am the one that became the target. The rivals all came after me. I had to move in with my fucking asshole aunt and uncle because of it. You think I choose to live here. You think this is the life I want. I hate living in luxury while others are down in the dumps. I fucking hate this place, but I have to be here or I would be dead. I don’t have enough to protect myself, I need to be here, but I can at least protect you. The rivals will do anything to get to me, even if that means taking you down so they can do so. I can’t let them hurt you, and… and you being with me means that they will know your my weakness. They will use you to get to me. They can hurt you, hell they could kill you and I can’t have that because I fucking love you Sweet pea. I a, fucking madly in love with you hell I would scream it to the world to but I fucking can’t because I need to keep you safe and protected” And there came the kiss. The way you melted into him automatically happening before you realized and pulled away. “Pea we can’t you’re just making this harder on the both of us.”

“Wait you're telling me that we were doing the same thing, I’m not leaving you Y/N”

“Same thing? Fuck Sweet Pea just listen! Fuck what don’t you get don’t you fucking understand Sweet Pea. What are you not getting about? You could be Taken! Tortured! or worse Killed!”

“Babe I know and I don’t give a fuck, they are not going to touch me.”

“Oh my god”

“You don’t know, do you. I mean I never told you… so I mean I guess you wouldn’t but babe I’m in a gang”

“I’m sorry what now!”

“Ever heard of the Serpents”

“Uh no”

“Didn’t you think it was odd I wore a jacket that matched my neck tattoo, or odd that Fangs and Toni, sometimes Cheryl wore the same?”

“I just thought, I thought they were like friendship jackets or some weird shit. Wait you're in a fucking gang”

“Yeah…” “Why the fuck didn’t you tell me”

“I had to fucking keep you safe. The same reason I kept trying to hide this too but I realized it wasn’t worth it, I cared more about being with you in public and unafraid, and I knew that if… if you were going to be targeted I would protect you. If we were public you would be a Serpent by association and you would be protected to”

“This is insane Sweet Pea” He grabbed your hands in one of his, and his other landed on your cheek.

“Babe, are you okay?” “I’m shocked I just… they can still come after you though we aren't safe Sweet Pea”

“Live with me”

“What do you not you understand about NOT! SAFE!”

“Live with me babe or at least think about it. You will be safe. You will be under Serpent protection. No one will come after you, and plus even if they did you would have a full gang of protection behind you. You will be safe I will make sure of it. I can’t lose you Y/N. I can’t deal with that. I love you. I’m not scared. I am not scared of anything but losing you, and if I let you go that is going to happen anyone so at least let me try to protect you, please.”

“I don’t want to lose you either Sweet Pea, I love you too”

Your lips locked in a kiss that felt like it hadn’t happened in a million years. It felt like it lasted for hours, and it was only interrupted by gasps coming from the front steps. All of your friends watching from afar and clapping as you both looked down blushing. You buried your head into Sweet Pea’s chest as he yelled for everyone to go away, and they did not want to question what was happening.

“Hey it is going to be okay, I promise, now you wanna hop on my bike and go to the trailer, our trailer… I mean if you want?”  

“Our trailer?”

“You were always welcome there, always”

“I know”

“I love you Y/N”

“I love you too Sweet Pea”

[team-adults-blog]

4.05 Tinder Box

In which I make 6 references- 5 numbered and then Wizards of Waverly Place- a few jokes, and a prediction that I think is SPOT ON. Join me on this reactionary journey (in chronological order). 

Abby, Jackson is relaying the science info for the audience, not you. I know that you know, but we, the audience, do not. give him a break.

Oh, the Mt. Weather parallels. BUT Abby checks herself. To all the haters: this means Abby is good. She’s NOT doing what was done in Mt. Weather. Dr. Tsing is a foil; they are fundamentally different.

I too hate molecular biology

At least Helios is a good horse and stays with Octavia when she falls. Unlike that dog vid. (reference 1 here if you don’t immediately get this)

Hey it’s Niylah! Not on the show in the way I predicted (Octavia going to her) but she’s still playing the healing role so I’m proud I pulled that out of thin air.

Oh no Ilian I don’t trust you yet because you hate tech but thanks for saving O.

Miller’s dad is ranking officer. Yeahhhh boyyyy. So many speaking lines, such as: “the radiation’s our enemy, not the ice nation” awwwww so proud of you.

Clarke’s poker face about all things Bellamy needs some work.

Her come the prisoners. LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. its Kane and Bellamy. THE MOMENT CLARKE’S BEEN WAITING FOR. (reference 2, keep playing!)

[I had to watch commercials on this rewatch and why are there commercials for books? You don’t want to cast your character so it’s just a bunch of moving dark figures over an abstract background. Pointless. Plus this Riverdale show looks unrealistic.] I learned how to use line breaks and they please me.

Riley stop it. Only like 4 more episodes until your likely death.

“They knew you were coming”- Bell so hopeful. This is lovely. But I would have preferred a little more anguish and suspense before he and Kane know she’s alive. Some good acting and character development could have come from that instead of them finding out the next day.

Octavia knows she’s not lucky Ilian brought her in. Who didn’t question his taking all these explosives? Where is everyone?

Raven and Abby love and concern <3 they are the best. Hand holding throughout their scenes this week. I dig it. 

I thought we all knew Raven had the upgrade and thus still has ALIE in her head? Jackson and Abby are just figuring this out, fine, but I knew. The people I watched with did not? They just thought Raven was really smart? When did I learn this lil’ bit of information?

Abs we gotta go back to space! Raven’s looking at the gas lines and floor map to figure out there’s a rocket ship! She didn’t know where it was, but she knew what to tell the computer to do. PURE JOY! I AM SO HAPPY RAVEN FOUND A SHIP. This seem dangerous too though…

[Commercials are only acceptable in the actual air time. OMG THERE WAS A REALLY CUTE SHELTER DOG COMMERCIAL I TAKE IT ALL BACK cwgood.com if you want to see it. Omg no I had to watch 6 commercials wtf]

Riley you suck. I want to feel nothing at your death in 4-5 episodes.

P sure Costa was just on the island with doctor tech squad? They have to be more careful about where their quaternary-and-beyond(!) characters are.

Clarke is the only one who Roan listens to. Their cave scene was v good. Don’t brag about your lack of heart about your mom to someone who literally had the worst mom. Clarke, your mother cares about you. Roan’s mom used him as a tool in her ploy for power. Telling him that you care about your people more than your mom brings up some ethical values questions. Sacrificing one to save the many seems like a fine moral argument. But when you put faces onto those people things change: A ton of strangers vs your mom? That makes the decision harder. One stranger vs your fam and closest friends? That seems like an easy decision. I don’t know if it makes you a better or worse person for being willing to sacrifice your mother, but it’s definitely not an argument I would want to make. Especially with Roan. He let Lexa spear his mom. I cheered at that scene- it was badass. It was also clear she was a villain. And a completely different relationship dynamic. Clarke could use some advice from Selena Gomez and the Wizards of Waverly Place Theme, “you might run into trouble if you go to extremes because everything is not what it seems.”  You know, with the whole list thing and promising Roan safety in the Ark and taking Jaha’s advice. S3 Clarke could have used the line “be careful not to mess with the balance of things” when she was trying to change grounder culture. Season 4: “The end will no doubt justify the means” or, alternatively, “That’s what I said” in which Jasper goes around making that’s what she said jokes but about himself.  This didn’t directly relate to what I was talking about. My head just went there.

“Riley shouldn’t be here” Good Bell! AH-chers (Kane).I don’t understand why they all have to have American accents? Like let Ian’s lovely accent out. Let Bob’s vocal cords rest. A bunch of accents would have been initially present on the Ark because it was an international force. If English became the dominant language, fine. It’s an American show I don’t care enough to argue that point. One language across the stations is understandably necessary. BUT. Accents don’t disappear. I grew up with this guy whose parents are both English- a lawyer (now head judge, whaddup) and a professor. They’re all super cool. His sister taught me how to pop-lock-and DROP it on a mission trip and went to Oxford. Anyways, both kids have accents because their English parents taught them how to speak. I don’t know for sure if by high school this guy could turn his accent on and off, depending on the social setting, but he may have left it on for maaayyyybbeeeee pretentious reasons. He’s not pretentious, but he’s charming af and flatters my grandma at the Christmas Eve service and like. He’s a little posh. A kind, good person, and probs not posh in England, but he’s posh here. The point is I’m not an expert and don’t know. HOWEVER. It is possible that he can’t turn his accent off and I’m being a dick because I’m relating his ability of turning on/off his accent to my ability to turn on/off a southern accent. The difference is that I was not raised by parents who have the southern accent- I just took one on because I rode a redneck bus and was trying to assimilate. The moral of the story is this: accents, even over 100 years, would not have homogenized to the point that Ian and Bob and Eliza and Ricky and Alycia and everyone else have to lose their accents. It’s a skill but if we follow the English guy I grew up with not losing his accent despite being around other people (and not me singing ZBB’s Chicken Fried with my friends) logic, the different accents should still be there. But then that creates issues for the show runners of having to determine which countries has people in space. There were flags at the Unity Day ceremony, and I’m pretty sure I remember there being an Indian flag, so where are they? Put Dev Patel on the show. Jk he’s too good they could never get him. How did they even get Ian? I’m happy he’s here though. Isaiah can’t get larger roles because no one likes him. I may be projecting, but I also feel like Shonda Rhimes burned that boy.

Bellamy (and a reluctant Echo) to save the day. I hope by the end of the season 1) Echo is still alive, and 2) they’ve forged some sort of trust. They’ve had a cool bond since Bellamy saves Echo from the cages™ in Mt. Weather. Then Echo “saves” Bellamy from the Azgeda assassin who blows up Mt. Weather by tricking him into going to polis. She’s like I saved you, dude. And he’s like no, you lied to me and made it possible for a bunch of my friends to die. Then she’s like hey, be my friend, I’ve had sooo many chances to kill you and still haven’t, that’s friendship right? Bellamy’s like. No. I don’t trust you. Boom. Echo captures (? She brings them into the throne room, idk if she captures them herself) Bell and Stevens (rip, tattletale) and could have killed them both. She doesn’t kill Bellamyyyyyyy… Then this scene with Riley. There’s obviously trust issues on both sides- She doesn’t remove Bell’s chains. “so much for building trust” Bell. She’s worried her king is going to be shot. This is not the moment to scold her But I think she still wants to be friends. It must be rough to be such a badass spy and not to have just one friend. Bell seems to be the Chosen One™ and I hope they can work out their differences. Post Riley they share a secret, so they’re working on itttttttttt.

[I had to reload the page and I’ve now watched 8 commercials. The girl at the booth next to me is talking about her authentic (highly not-authentic) Irish pub experience and all the musicians playing their “banjos and fiddles.” Shut the fuck up. The page timed out again. Enough. I have to watch another 6 commercialssss. I’m tired of this proactive commercial, but at least the CW knows their target audience #annoyed]

SHA-BoO0M GOES THE ARK. Well that bad deal Clarke just made is over. She may have promised Azgeda protection from radiation, but what about Trikru? You’re going to help Roan and not Indra? Not a fan of that deal. Glad it went up in smoke. Da dunn tsssshhhhhh. Puns are fun. (reference 3, same as 2). I now know why the episode is Tinder Box. It all makes sense.

Bellamy and Octavia reunited. Another shot of the shoulder tat. Clarke and the Blakes holding hands (well Bell’s holding O and Clarke’s holding her hand. Poor Kane has no one to hold. Where’s awk bff David Miller? Hold him. The Blakes could at least invite him over.

Back at Doctor Tech Squad- Raven has a stroke! Possibly fatal, who can say? Raven’s just excited to go to space, and I’m happy for her. Abby also at risk, but doesn’t want to be tested until she’s showing more symptoms than those she already has from being sleep deprived. This is pretty normal for people whose parents get diagnosed with genetic diseases. Some people want to know, but not knowing can give you hope for things that can’t be cured. Abby wants to focus on helping adorable Raven save the whole world. But. Hey, how ya doing, well I’m doing just fine, I lied, I’m dying inside my brain and starting to have hallucinations of my daughter dying from radiation. (reference 4. I couldn’t find the one I wanted but imagine a vine of that over this) So now we’re worried about Raven and Abby. Will Abby tell Jackson? My thoughts- No. she’ll try to hide it as long as she can, working on a cure for Raven, then help herself. Yet I don’t see either of them dying? Raven is too important plot-wise and the writers and viewers lovelovelove the character. My argument for Abby living is more of a personal one and then behind the scenes of Paige Turco being a parent who’s very forward with her scheduling (why she doesn’t typically do up fronts etc so she can have separate work and son time) and probs has her contract locked down.

Not my fave episode, lots of callbacks to earlier seasons, but generally not super satisfying plot. Mainly because 4.04 set up these storylines- Octavia on her way back, Doctor Tech Squad reaching the lab, Bellamy and Kane as prisoners. The Polis/ Arkadia plotlines fell short somehow of their build. There were conflicts, but it lacked drama? If that makes sense.. I enjoyed the lab plot because all Raven x Abby interactions have great energy, not to mention they found a rocket. That story still feels like it’s still advancing and keeping the drama up. Props to Miller Sr. for getting more speaking lines in one episode than he did in the entirety of S3.

OMG- A THOUGHT-

what if. they send. Thelonious frickin Jaha. into space instead of Raven?

Stay with me here: Raven could have a seizure which is a risk. Jaha was an engineer and is capable- they’ve been slowly using that in the story and I was wondering when it would actually become plot relevant. BTS: Isaiah Washington finished filming his stuff before everyone else. I doubt he’s dead, but if all his stuff is him by himself/ him video chatting in from the ship, this explains how he could have wrapped up so quickly without dying. Additionally, he needs a big redemption for people to like him again after the CoL. Holy cow I think I’m on to something here! He and Kane S1 were rivals both trying to become martyrs/ find salvation. Thelonious wins, Marcus goes to Earth. But then Jaha makes it to Earth too because he knows how to run a pod. I am heartbroken for Raven, it’s really going to suck getting benched if I’m right. More so when I know Abby and Jackson are probably going to be the ones to tell her and they’ll get so much hate. But Raven and Abby can coach Jaha through some of the medical/ technical stuff (a la Apollo 13-reference 5- and Lieutenant Dan. I don’t remember the dude’s name in that movie- the actor is Gary something p. sure, but he’s in Forrest Gump with T.Hanks too so I don’t feel that bad. He also got benched for a medical issue (back to Apollo 13) that he didn’t get so this tangent was not a waste. He was needed to problem solve and figure out how to save the men on Apollo 13. Raven could parallel this.) and still be a team, which I like. I just want Raven to be happy, she deserves that. I don’t want Jaha to have a lot of glory for doing this either. If it was Raven hell yes. But for him it’s the least he can do. That’s wrong of me, but their histories are incredibly different. 

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RITES OF PASSAGE

Linus: Wow this feels like a long time ago. Back in week one you hardcore targeted me for some reason. Maybe it was because of that one time we played a mini and Johnny and I caused "hold one I froz, can som3 one on for me" to become a meme :^ )

Linus: The mini version of the mess that was Carolynn. I really had nothing against you so again it really sucked that you were also trying to target me so hard :( 

Ashley:   We didn’t get to interact a whole lot, but I hope to get to know you and maybe be in another season with you sometime! 

Linus:  Love you <3 (Well, I don't know you, but Im sure I would love you if I did :P 

Tommy: OMG RICHIE! I really enjoyed the time we had before you were voted out. I hope all is going well with you. You had one of the brightest personalities among the cast.

Ting Ting: I was really sad to see you go but the brief time that I spent talking to you was really nice. You seem like such an awesome person, I just wish I could’ve gotten to know you better! brave the dangers of australia. Btw your dog is absolutely adorable and I want it. http://i.kinja-img.com/gawker-media/image/upload/t_original/1318327549856060774.gif

Linus: You are the one and only person I feel like the age gap might have screwed over a bit. You we're definitely more active than some other people and were also probably  going to stick with the fans honestly, so you probably could have gone deep had we not been on a preswap losing streak :( 

This game was definitely a new experience for me, I tried hard to make friends and try my hardest to at the very least fit in with the group, but I wasn't that successful. I came back for redemption, or at least a chance to get a second shot in this community, and honestly it doesn't really feel like I got my second chance. I reconnected with some people, and met some people who piqued my interest, but other than that, this season wasn't what I anticipated. Although, here's to looking forward to talking to some of the fans!

Ashley:     Oh Gaston, I really truly did adore you. That tribal that you went was between you and Sam, I fought for you to stay but it is hard when the numbers just weren’t with me. Not wanting to cause anything so early in the game, I had to go with the numbers. But I hope to play with you again, once we actually started talking I really liked you and would have wanted to pursue working together, sorry it ended up the way it did. 

Linus: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuJTqmpBnI0

Tommy: Omg considering your vote out was one of first on the season it was one of the hardest of the season. You were so robbed. I think you have an amazing job though.

Ting Ting: Literally you are such an awesome person! Like I felt like I could really relate to you especially because we both seem to live in like the middle of nowhere…yikes. But anyways, I definitely wish I could’ve worked with you more in the future because you are hilarious and it’s sad to see someone go because they happened to vote in the minority. Also Canada is amazing and I want to move there because…well…

“It was an amazing game! I loved every second of it and it sucked that I did the most work on the tribe and it didn't pay off. I'm proud of how long I stayed in the game, and i wish that it didn't end so abruptly, but I have no regrets.....”

Ashley: Adrian I think we talked a little bit, not as much as I wish we had. But tbh the video we made was kinda bad. I know it isn’t your fault but like damn. Hope we get to play together again!

Linus: My one official ally on the starting fans tribe!! The swap happening totally sucked because you did not deserve to go at all. You were good in challenges, in the fan majority alliance, had people in the minority feeling dependent on you, you were so well setup until that extra vote came out :( 

Tommy:  You're a really nice dude. Again so robbed by the Fans vs. Favs dividing line. I really did wanna work with you in this game and you always tried your best in the challenges.

“This game being my first ORG ever actually was very interesting. I loved the challenges and the Mata tribe was amazing. To top it all off going on a blindside just made me love this game so much”.

Ashley: Nehe you could have worked with Amanda and I but noooo, you just had to go spreading rumors that literally followed us through the whole game. This ain’t no Gossip Girl. 

Linus:  Oops you got  caught being shady af :^ )

Tommy: You were definitely one of the more interesting personalities this season. You were pretty iconic before and after being voted out. You got pretty far considering you were the youngest person on the cast and never played an ORG before.

Linus: Like Adrian you were a fan who was super well set up, so the swap was super unfortunate :( . Im sorry I had to go for  you at the swap because I really did like you and want to work with you. 

Tommy:  I've heard so many good things about you. I really wish you would have made merge because I'm sure if you did we would of worked together at some point. I thought you had the best cast intro of everyone on the season. P.S. Your tweet being read on the Mvs.GenX live show finale was really cool.

Krysten:  I unfortunately didn’t really get the chance to get to now you because we were never on a tribe together for that long…but when we did talk you seemed like such a nice and amazing person! I mean just going off your like 15 second intro video, you just seem like such a ball of happiness ((sun)) https://media.giphy.com/media/10d3NDzD40xb0s/giphy.gif

“I came into this game hoping for another shot at redemption so I could make my dreams come true, unfortunately Fiji and other factors ruined that, but at least I'm repping myanmar in all stars, I'll try to make you guys proud”

Ashley: My love!!! Ugh I miss being able to talk to you so much. I can’t wait to be able to reconnect after this game is through. The way you went had me annoyed, but I understood it was a strategic move. I just really was looking forward to working with you down the road. After that hell of a ride in Westeros, I am so happy we got to play this game together. Can’t wait to catch up!

Linus: Rip the alliance between you, Christian and I :P . I think the fact that you went as a merge boot is a testament though to how crazy this season was with people voting all over the place. By all means you had one of the best social games and I really think in 4/5 seasons you're name wouldnt even be thrown around when it was.

Tommy: Omg let me just say, MICHELLE YI'D. You were an awesome social player in this game and a huge threat and I could of saw you winning this game. You were one of the most friendliest but also most dangerous players in this entire game because you were so friendly and had amazing social bonds. I enjoyed our convos we had especially the night we were all suffering during the pre-merge paintball challenge.

Ting Ting: STEFFEN OH MY GOD! plz do good in life and everything! i missed you when you left because you were always so active on all the chats ever and were such a beautiful little ball of energy and fantabulousness (?). I miss screaming into the void with you and definitely being close with you throughout the game was amazing. I’m so sad that you left and were basically blindsided but it’s ok because now you’re in allstars (which you better do well in because i’m pretty sure i drafted you. don’t screw up my draft.) your daily snaps a works of like lowkey ugly art but it’s ok. also bless your legacy advantage. boi that saved my ass.

"In Fans vs. Favorites, the fans have to work hard to not be overshadowed by the favorites while the favorites have to work hard to live up to the name they've made for themselves. It is absolutely incredible how hard the majority of the cast played to leave their mark on this game that we love. I certainly gave it my all."

Ashley: Aweee Brett! I really loved our conversations about food that would always make me hungry, and how you would always tell me the sketchy things you were hearing around the tribe. I am very appreciative of the support you gave me when I was worried I would be voted out. You told me to figure it out and that I could get through it, and I did, so thank you for that. I can’t wait to talk to you again once this is over. <3

Linus: Yooooo! The unofficial leader of the fans! Like Steffen it was shocking  that you would be cut  so early in the merge. Then Brett being booted I  think is what  forced me to play as aggressively as I did the rest of  the season. I was very much against the flip to get rid of him, but I saw the numbers just were not there to make a change so my only chance was  to flip and hope for some change ups later on down the line.  

Tommy: screech Omg you have me shook every time you say something, you are hilarious. Like I literally laugh out loud at some of the things you said to me. I really like the friendship we have and your cat is super kawaii. I miss the way we would just chill out and just talk about random things like sailor moon or how we hate Trevor for making us do challenges that cause us to lose sleep. LOL

Ting Ting:  Well I never really talked with you that much but when we did you seemed like a great person. unfortunately there was a lot of talk about you being rude and stuff to some of the girls but since i never got to know you as well as i would like i only had pretty positive things to go off of. I just wish that you could’ve stayed in the game so that i could actually get to know you better to form a better, more well rounded opinion of you. ((heart)) 

“I came into this game the ultimate newbie; I had no idea Tumblr Survivor or even ORGs were a thing. I played my hardest, put everything I had into the game and even though I didn't win, I went out with a bang and couldn't be happier with how I played!”

Ashley: Keegan! My little buddy I was always trying to work with. I really was willing to make some moves with you, I hope you know that. It just got to the point where we all thought you were working with Brett, and that was kind of scary, so the numbers yet again screwed over my plans of working with someone. Hopefully we can play in another game again and we can work something out!

Linus: After Adrian I always considered  Keegan my closest Ally on the fans tribe. Especially after we stayed up for that endurance comp. Even though we never had an official alliance or anything, but I think to an extent we tried to have each others back. Sadly it just wasnt in the cards for my game when he went home :( 

Tommy: fist bump Omg Keegan I can't believe when we did the music video you got those Christmas lights. I was so happily shook you have no idea. I really think you're a cool and down to earth dude. I also think you're really caring with the stuff you tell me you do in your everyday life. Great things are ahead of you.

Ting Ting: Keegan i am soooo sorry i couldn’t get you past that tribal. literally you were an amazing person to talk with and i realized that after the brett vote, i shouldn’t be basing votes on things that other people said without formulating my own opinion. Of the times that i talked with you, you showed yourself as such a nice, genuine, and transparent person and it didn’t make sense that people wanted to vote you out like that. like i really don’t think you deserved go home especially since you were actually participating in the game. 

Ashley: Christian this game was kind of hard between us. You having been my ride or die in Sicily and then coming to this game was a bit of a transition. I am upset that we never truly got to work together but I figured it could be too obvious if people found out we had been an f2 before. Since we really hadn’t had that much interaction I figured I would go with the numbers and prove we were not as close as we once were, I am sorry it had to happen the way it did. I do miss you though and hope we can reconnect! 

Linus: I think one of my turning moves in this game was becoming friends with Christian since that really gave me an in to work with the other Favourites. It was hugely disappointing to see you go since I really did want to go far in the game with you and your vote was the only one in the whole game that I think truly blindsided me. 

Tommy: We barely talked this season, all I know about you is that you're a Meme Queen. However, I hear you were the most honest of everyone on the cast so props to that.

Ting Ting: that girls alliance was iconic (i’m pretty sure you made that). like literally it was so amazing and it was an awesome idea continuing that alliance and having it there in this game. also all of your votes were so iconic. feminist icon.

"pls don't call me a hypocrite again last time i cried"

Ashley: Okay Jay, I probably know how you are feeling about me right now. But I just hope you know it definitely wasn’t anything personal, tbh we all just felt really threatened by an f2 of you and Sam. Girl, you are a fighter though I will give you that. You had us running around like crazy before that vote trying to figure out what the hell was going on. I really do respect your game, but in the end it has to be about who you can beat, and I didn’t think I could beat you. I am sorry, and I adore your snapchats of you cooking because it always makes me hungry and I hope we can look passed this game after and be able to be friends.

Linus:  I don't think theres a ton I have to say about Jay since it was probably blatantly obvious to everyone that you were my closest ally. It was super fun playing with you and Im really glad you were here for my first Tumblr org.

Tommy: You played one of the most entertaining games this season. Like if I were a viewer I would be mesmerized by the entertainment value you brought. I think you were a huge kingpin of the season. I think your vote out symbolized a whole new direction in the game for everyone. As a person I really enjoy talking to you about personal life and hearing about your life.

Ting Ting: You were such an amazing player throughout this entire game. and unfortunately that’s the reason that you were voted out in the end. like if i could have your strategic mind my life would be so much easier. like girl you slay life. your hair is amazing and you are amazing and i absolutely loved working with you on votes and just having conversations with you. literally stay beautiful.

“For being the flop I was I'm expecting drags out of all four of you.”

Ashley: LEAH!!! Okay, so once I heard people were thinking you, Amanda and I were an f3 I was like what? And came to you to talk to you for literally like the first time and omg, I know now that I should’ve gotten to know you sooner. Girl you are freaking hilarious and I loved that we were basically the same person. Too bad that f3 wasn’t actually a thing. We could’ve run like everything! But noooo, people just had to think we were some strategic masterminds when we really just love It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia. I miss you already and really can’t wait to be able to talk again. <3

Linus: I always feel like Leah and I were kind of forced into the position of being rivals in the game. She was gunning for me for a while, especially after Keegan went, which sucked because going deep with Leah would have been a really good game move, but such is life. 

Tommy: If anyone has personality this season, it's you. You're loud and not afraid of saying what's on your mind or how you feel about people. You were the last female fan standing which is a huge accomplishment AND you're a part of the 7th place chat with Trevor, Sam, and I! Lastly, CHEETAH is an icon know that

Ting Ting: Girl. girl. girl. you are a ball of absolutely sarcasm and just doneness with life and i can relate to you soooooooo much. plz don’t hate me for voting you our but you are fucking fantastic and amazing and i hope that we can work together in bb.

“I can't emphasize how damn proud I am with my gameplay this time around. I overcame a reputation as a player that would only get me as far as early merge, and yet, by the end, I believe that I changed that rep into one that made me a true contender to win.”

Ashley: Sam. I tried so hard to be able to work with you. But you were just so sketchy. It was literally terrifying to my game. So, I may have been the one to get you out. I hope you can understand this, as I know you know this is just a game. I tried my best to be honest with you and not come apologizing after the first time I sent your name around. I hope you can respect that and we can work together sometime in the future! Because damn, you are good. 

Linus: Sam was truly given the short end of the stick in this game because Jay was after him so heavily. Sam never did very  much to lead anyone to believe he was untrustworthy, and he seemed like a really good ally to have. Sadly, along with Jay's rhetoric putting Sam at a disadvantage when it came to people wanting to vote him out, it also gave him a big advantage if he got to the end since he would have been someone everyone was always talking about yet he pulled through.

Tommy: Stop picking your nose on snapchat you RAT. Anyways it was such a pleasure to work with you basically all game leading up until Final 6. We've had so many convos on skype and you know I think you're fantastic. I'm really happy for you that you ended up changing your game. Maybe you're not the cut throat rat/snake everyone made you out to be, maybe you're really a penguin who likes to dance in place or blow kisses in the mid air LOL. Give me a good review of Slaybells at ponderosa for me.

Ting Ting:  i’m crying. i’m actually dead. when you got voted out and seamus found out he messaged me and we were both so sad. literally why? that’s the only question. your tribal was sad and it makes all the good people out there sad. #shots4sam

Ashley:     Amanda, my love. My ride or die. My partner in crime. Omg how I already miss you. I am so sorry about what I did. The whole situation was ridiculous. I really feel as though I found a friend in you and I know you can look passed this. We understood how this game could end up. I am so happy I got to know you through this and I can’t wait to be able to fangirl over Hamilton with you again. I will now quote Disney movies that remind me of you and make me feel better. 

You’re the Terk to my Tarzan “And you'll be in my heart Yes you'll be in my heart From this day on Now and forever more” 

You’re the Woody to my Buzz“You've got a friend in me You've got a friend in me If you've got troubles, I've got 'em too There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you We stick together and can see it through Cause you've got a friend in me You've got a friend in me”

You’re the Timon to my Pumbaa “Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze It means no worries for the rest of your days It's our problem-free philosophy Hakuna Matata!Hakuna Matata?Yeah. It's our motto!What's a motto?Nothing. What's a-motto with you?”Love you!!!!! <3 <3 <3

Linus:  Despite being one of the people I talked to the least, Amanda was actually one of my downright favourite people to work with. We had a non aggression pact if you will for a large portion of the post merge where despite us not being officially aligned, we would keep each other safe to both progress. Even though we weren't allies to the very end, I truly do think neither of us would have done as well as we did had each other not been in the game and I enjoyed being able to skip a lot of the smalltalk since we could both see that each other being around improved our position.

Tommy:  I was so happy I got to finally play a game with you because I see you're in different seasons all the time in this community and we never got to play together before. You're super intelligent and smart. I really enjoyed our convos about threatre/plays. You have a really kind heart.

Ting Ting: you are so beautiful and amazing and nice! i so wish you were on more and active more so that we could more conversations and stuff but when we did talk you were such an absolutely amazing human being. yas queen.