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[atomiqueen]

smol psa that i'm not rly interested in writing with any asoiaf/hotd muses. i love y'all and wish u the best, esp those of you who i write with otherwise, but the source material just makes me uncomfy. i am happy to write with ppl who have muses from other fandoms on their multis, etc, but i probs won't follow back strictly asoiaf/hotd blogs.

also this is rly more of a reminder as i do have it in my rules (#11)! <3

[sanjisboyfie]

one piece smau: dating sabo edition

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[name]sblondie: this is exactly why im always late to work

tagged: sabosbf and d.dragon

sabosbf: DONT TAG YOUR BOSS????? HES GONNA FUCKING KILL ME??????

-> kokoala: LMFAOAOOA

-> sabosbf: i'm fuckin scared what is going on koala

d.dragon: This is hardly an acceptable reason to be late to work, Sabo.

-> [name]sblondie: boohoo just say youre sad and single

-> divaiva: SABO you're so dead.

freeluffy: cuddling is worth it

[liked by d.dragon, kokoala, and 200 others]

-> kokoeala: just heard dragon-san gasp in his office hold on u might be saved

-> [name]sblondie: thankgodthankgodthankgod

-> freeluffy: huh?

liked by [name]sblondie, divaiva, and 18k others

sabosbf: he's urethral guys idk

tagged: [name]sblondie

[name]sblondie: i think you're urethral too baby

-> sabosbf: i love u i knew u would get my humor

-> [name]sblondie: of course i would my love <333

portgasace: no fucking way u two are real

dni_nami: something is telling me theres something wrong with the caption, but lemme not

-> sabosbf: what's wrong with it :0?

-> dni_nami: ....

divaiva: u two are the cutest (please change that caption, i'm telling you this out of the kindess of my heart)

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-> [name]sblondie: my boyfriends caption is perfectly fine

liked by [name]sblondie, sabosbf, and 19k others

portgasace: barfed in my mouth i hate them

tagged: [name]sblondie and sabosbf

[name]sblondie: be nice to ur brother in law damn

-> freeluffy: [NAME] IS OUR BROTHER IN LAW NOW !?!?!?!?

-> [name]sblondie: future* brother in law my bad

-> freeluffy: booooo :(

sabosbf: yeah i hate u too ace, the only rzn u ever go out w us is so u can leech off our wallets

-> portgasace: thats a fuckign lie asshole

-> sabosbf: BROKE ASS

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boahancock: luffy's brother and luffy's brothers boyfriend are so cute <3

-> [name]sblondie: damn she don't even know our names

-> portgasace: professional luffy dickrider (for some rzn)

kokoala: my favorite gays <3333

-> [name]sblondie: ?????

-> sabosbf: thank u koala ;)

-> [name]sblondie: ???????

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[name]sblondie: guys do u think he loves spiderman more than me

tagged: sabosbf

sabosbf: if peter parker hit my line, im sorry

-> [name]sblondie: ????????

sabosbf: his theme song is my ringtone for u so i guess it connects?

-> [name]sblondie: YOU GUESS???

-> sabosbf: that just means ur my spiderman baby >///<

-> [name]sblondie: DONT TRY TWISTING THIS IN A COMPLIMENTARY WAY U JUS CONFIRMED THAT IM UR SECOND CHOICE

kokoala: spiderman >>>> any other man

-> sabosbf: u get me koala ughhh

portgasace: good taste [name], gooooddd tasteee

-> sabosbf: hehe

-> [name]sblondie: WHAT THE FUCK????????? STOP FLIRTING WITH OTHER MEN RIGHT NOW???

liked by [name]sblondie, divaiva, and 16k others

sabosbf: got jumpscared by this pic in my cameraroll pls someone buy this guy brown contacts

tagged: [name]sblondie

[name]sblondie: me looking at u when u wake up 🧿🧿

-> sabosbf: its ok babe jus please maybe think about blinking a little bit longer

kokoala: cannot hold a conversation with him without feeling like hes thinking about murdering me

-> portgasace: what i said

divaiva: nooo you'd ruin his natural beauty :<

-> [name]sblondie: thank u iva <3

-> [name]sblondie: YOU JUST VENMOED ME 40 BUCKS WITH THE MSG "listen to [name]" ???

-> sabosbf: LMFOAOA babe don't actually buy contacts i love ur eyes theyre pretty :3

d.dragon: They are quite terrifying.

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[name]sblondie: boyfriend appreciation post because even though hes got a weird sense of humor, hes still mine (...i guess)

tagged: sabosbf

sabosbf: HEHEHE he loves meeeeee

sabosbf: ok why that ugly ass photo of me as the second one what the hell is wrong w u u just hate me

sabosbf: I LOVE U SABO, LOVE UUU

-> [name]sblondie: love u too handosme (...i guess)

-> sabosbf: STOP WITH THE I GUESS i'd choose u over peter parker anyday baby pleaseee

portgasace: not [name] picking up on me and luffy's appetite too

[liked by kokoala, [name]sblondie, and 100 others]

-> freeluffy: bigger appetite is the best appetite !

sabosbf's story

RESTRAIN ME??? MY SEXY BOYFRIEDN IN MENSWEAR HOLY SHIT IM CREAMINNNNGGGG

[name]sblondie replied to your story: u shouldve told me sooner, i'll wear them more often now just for u babe ;)

[primoppang]

hi. hi. here to request. a little seungmin fluff where we are kind of lonely and sad and he reminds us that he’s always there : )

HI HONEY TY FOR BEING MY FIRST EVER REQUEST <3333 ily and seungie so I got u bby ◡̈ mwah ur the best ( ˘ ³˘)♡

warning: swearing is inevitable with me sorry ¯\_(˶′◡‵˶)_/¯, fluff, like gross amounts of it, seungmin says "this is so gay but..." because he cringes at showing affection but refuses to let you forget how he feels about you fr, he's a tsundere ok? ok. he licks your face(?) , one (1) kiss, he joking threatens to fight you, and mentions of self doubt and anxiety, angst if you blink but I think it's mostly fluffy... anyways! lmk if I missed anything!!!

WC: a little under 500 :D

AN: this is the first drabble I've ever done in bullet point format so just pls lmk how it goes??? Im super nervous I hope it's at least an easy read :(

so the first time he realizes that you're feeling lonely he slaps himself internally because how DARE he make you feel that way, but he's not home rn and can't show you physically so he comes up with a Plan™️

you're literally the light of his life

so he just >:(

but not at u

he just wants to make you feel happy and loved and safe

so he starts brainstorming

but he's naturally a menace

so when you're texting with him while he's working and you're being kinda short

because yk

u just feel :(

he just sighs and texts back

"look, please don't feel sad. I know this is pretty fucking gay but I love you."

which makes u giggle

because that's YOUR seungie that YOU know and love so much

<3

BUT whenever he's able to be physically with you and he can just feel your self doubt and anxiety creeping in and trying to swallow you, he once again uses his braincell.

so he just grabs ur hand

and leads u out of ur bed and to the living room

sits u down

and starts running around ur shared apartment grabbing every blanket and pillow that exists within the space

and I mean

E V E R Y. S I N G L E. O N E.

puppy zoomies moment hehe

and don't even think about trying to question him

he'll just say "shut up and wait while I set up a big ass fort for us to cuddle in, ok?? I love you but I wanna make u SEE THAT."

which u smile at

because him telling u to shut up

but then explaining why

and then also watching him move furniture and start building the fort, you tear up with happy tears

because???

:(

he's the sweetest and u love him so much

but when he hears u sniffle

he turns on Extra Puppy Mode™️

pops out from under some blankets and tackles you into the couch and holds your face

wiping ur tears

maybe even licked one because he's a freak and wanted to get a reaction

which u just squealed at bc wtf sir

but then he realizes

oh ur crying because ur so touched by this whole thing that he's doing

!!!

"... you dummy. stop crying... we gotta get snacks and stuff for our super awesome fort yk??? and you won't be able to see if you're cryi—"

you cut him off by giving him a little kiss on his pouty lips

as a silent thank you :(

which he realizes that oops maybe he got too serious and overwhelming

but you reassured him that you're just so glad to have him as your partner and best friend in one :(

"please just remember that I do love you, and I'm always here even if that brain of yours tells you otherwise, ok? or I'll have to fight you... affectionately."

and then he proceeds to smother you in kisses and cuddles :(

[idyllic-affections]

i just read both of your muichiro works and I’m really impressed 😭😭💓, so I would like to request some thing. What would the reader (gender neutral pls) have to do to cheer giyuu,obanai and muichiro when they are is sad 

what might one need to do to raise the hashiras' spirits?

summary. how do you comfort the hashiras?

trigger & content warnings. no applicable warnings.

tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. reverse comfort. muichiro tokito & reader, kyojuro rengoku & reader, tengen uzui & reader. 0.7k words. no pronouns for reader.

author's thoughts. hello lovely!! thank you so much. muichiro is like... my favorite ever, so recieving praise for the content i write of him is so heart-warming <33 on a more serious note, please please remember to read my rules before requesting. like any writer, i have boundaries. it states who i do and don't write for, and as of right now, i'm just not comfortable writing for giyuu or obanai. i replaced them w/ kyojuro and tengen. muichiro's is the longest though bc i love my son <3333 also this is kind of a different writing style than my usual content? if you guys like it enough i might try to use it more often.

T. MUICHIRO—

oh this boy. this poor boy.

i like to think that he goes through random bouts of sadness and frustration, especially before he regains his memory; he doesn't even know where his deep-seated rage towards demons come from! that fact just perpetuates his frustration. he can't understand why he's so angry and that only serves to anger him more.

also, let's not forget that he's a child. he is a fourteen-year-old child. he has a hard time processing his feelings and working through his trauma alone. children need love and support, love and support that he does not get enough of.

(the other hashira try their best, but let's be honest—they're all always so busy. they wouldn't realistically have time to attend to the emotional needs of a child.)

i don't care how independent canon muichiro seems to be.

he is a child. he grew up too fast.

to ease his soul, i think the best course of action would simply be to dote on him.

he needs the attention. he really does.

dote on him.

brush and braid his hair (braiding it would have practical value, after all!) with his permission, cook for him... just small, familial gestures.

he may or may not cry.

if he does, squeeze his hand and run your thumb over his knuckles. he's like a cat; do not make any further contact unless he initiates it first.

he probably won't vent because he doesn't know what's upsetting him. just let him cry it out. don't expect an explanation (and don't be surprised if he forgets about his breakdown soon after it happens).

give him a lil forehead kiss. he deserves it.

R. KYOJURO—

kyojuro is an interesting one!

i personally think that doing little domestic things with him would be a good way to cheer him up.

or even just doing things with him, spending time with him.

take a walk! go out to eat! make friendship bracelets! any activities done together are always a good bet with kyojuro.

simple little gestures are definitely the way to go, too. he's got a big heart. it's really not too hard to cheer him up, as long as your efforts are genuine.

also, definitely give him a big hug. he'd love that. squeeze him like your life depends on it. it won't hurt him; he's a hashira. he'll be fine.

i headcanon that he's a very good cook!

he is, however, a disaster with baking.

doing things like cooking and baking with him would raise his spirits so so effectively. trying to teach him how to bake would be really good for making him laugh, because i guaruntee that you & him would end up covered in flour and shit like that LMAO

be sure to listen to him talk if he decides on opening up. he'll appreciate having someone that listens.

U. TENGEN—

we all know this man is flashy and loud!

because of this, i think the best way to cheer him up would actually just be sitting in the silence with him.

no words, nothing. just calm silence between two friends.

observe the stars at night with him. listen to the wind rustle leaves and blades of grass.

anything that's simply low effort and relaxing would be good for him, i think. he's got so much energy all the time. tengen spends so much time being... loud and—obviously—flashy.

because of that, every now and then, he needs quiet time to recover.

he needs to decompress sometimes.

like kyojuro, i think he'd appreciate a good hug too. in his case though, it would be best and most effective to hug him once he's feeling better, not while he's feeling bad.

with his permission, massage the tension out of his shoulders. that would help too.

really, he just needs a judgement-free safe space in which he can wind down. i don't imagine him as the type to vent, so that's not something he'd be doing. he just needs someone who understands his need for the quiet, someone who won't pressure him to open up when he just isn't ready to.

he just needs a friend to be there for him.

please consider reblogging, it helps me out quite a lot!

[alphabetboyluvr]

I feel numb after finishing night crawlers. But in a good way. Kinda.

Idk.

I cant believe anyone has ever tried to do u wrong in life Holly. Fuck Virgo boy, fuck that motherfucking stupid ass fucking bitch ass boy. Fuck everybody else who has ever made u feel not happy and deserving of all the good things in life.

I Hope you get ur own jk one day. Ur work and art and writing is life changing. I love u I love u. Keep writing male characters that would do anything for their oc, pls pls. U are my favourite writer. I feel like I’ve finally met my fan fic soulmate. Or my soulmate in general. Me confessing my love for Holly rn lol.

<<3333

whenever I tell people the full virgo boy lore they're like holly wtf and I'm just there like he he it's fine :D and they're like.... no???

I'm afforded with so much love and kindness from those around me and also you guys here that honestly the boy troubles don't seem to matter as much these days (I say as if I've been able to have a functional, healthy relationship since then lmao)

there's so much of him in what I write - I always say bd jin and bd jk are both inspired by him and its true. its just a shame they exist within the same person </3

this is honestly the sweetest message. literally how can I be sad over boys when I'm on the receiving end of such kindness??? so lucky. so appreciative.

I hope you have the loveliest day, and please know 'fuck that motherfucking stupid ass fucking bitch ass boy' had me laughing for a good minute or so. impeccable energy✨️✨️

mwah x

[jaylaxies]

in my first ever relationship rn and this man is such an angel im crying I don't deserve him he's so angelic like he said sorry total of 8 times when i told him smth he said made me sad, he stayed up all night comforting me when my cousin got in an accident (they're fine now!), he has literally said stuff like 'id go damn crazy if u kissed me' or when i hugged him for the first time he literally collapsed😭he told his friends stuff like 'idk what i would do or where i would be w/o her' and 'shes so gorgeous' INFRONT OF ME AND HE CALLS ME MERI JAAN?? i could go on sm longer pls

I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU?? THAT SOUNDS SO SWEET AND I HOPE IT STAYS THAT WAY ALWAYS, the guy sounds so caring and nice it’s so 🩷🩷 i’m glad you found someone who loves you, anonnie <3333

[netegf]

so ready for this chap let's dive in <333 😱💖💖

“There’s nothing we can do for her now, ma ‘itan. She’s in Eywa’s hands now, we just have to wait and see.” Neteyam hated those words. With a burning passion. Wait and see. So passive, so out of his control, so… hopeless. And yet here he was. Waiting, to see if you’d ever wake up, to see if his family, his mother and father, his friends, his clan members would survive the night and the challenge that might overtake them without him being there to help or stop it, or even witness it. Seeing, seeing you, powerless and lifeless, just a flicker of the bright spark you've always been, it stirred something in him.

omg PLS!!😭😭🩷🩷🩷 the whole intro section was so heart-wrenching :(((( firstly, i FELTTTTT his frustration!!!!!! i am so utterly impatient!!!!!! and especially on a matter so close to the heart and potentially world shattering 😭😭😭 i empathize with him so much in this moment. and the spark imagery!!! they call her spark 😭😭😭😭 andra it hurts so good!!!!

"Look, I promised your dad I'd take care of you. I can't do that if you're gonna push us away. Whatever it is between you and Neteyam... it will pass. You love each other too much for it not to pass. But hiding, moping, walking 'round looking hopeless and aimless - it isn't you. I need you to be the spark I know and love and fight. You've never gone down without a fight - don't start now. Ok?"

this conversation between vi and jake is so important to me 🥺🥺🥺🥺 moments like this make me really understand how well thought out this series is omg. i loved this moment of looking into how vi feels after nete starts distancing himself / being cold - she must have been so confused and sad and distraught 😭😭 and the way it makes her isolate from the only family she has!!!! :''(((((( pls my heartttt 🩷🩷🩷 you can see how much this experience hurt both reader & neteyam and exactly how that has translated to where they are now!!! ugh. ur brain.

“Also… do I get a special reward for beating the Iknimaya in record time, the fastest it’s ever been done? I feel like I’m well on the way to stealing Neteyam’s spot as the next Olo’eykte. Wouldn’t that be just a riot?” 

adding on to the last comment - this was the moment where i was like 🤯🤯🤯 !!!!!! bc it's like u can literally SEE the wheels in vi's head turning and the birth of that volatile love-hate relationship ... it's incredible i can't <3333

"Why are you still here, big brother?"

this line of dialogue was so cinematic to me OMFG 🤭🤭🤭🤭💖💖💖💖💖 i ate that UP!!!! also i love kiri telling him like it is.... like yes girl.... wake him up!!!!!

"You haven't moved. You haven't slept or eaten, you haven't blinked. Our parents need your help bringing back the injured, the clan needs your help as the future Olo'eyktan, and yet... you haven't moved. I think that says everything. The first step in solving any problem is recognising there is one, brother. The sooner you admit your feelings, the sooner you can work towards fixing your broken relationship."

again, i love how candid kiri is being omg <33 and she is so right because this whole time, proving himself as future olo'eyktan has been so important to him... but he's having so much trouble tearing himself away from this situation with vi - ofc all that other stuff is still important because he is absolutely dutiful, but it just shows where his heart lies 🥺🥺🥺🥺🩷🩷🩷🩷 u still love her bb <3

"It's going to be alright, auntie. We're all going to be alright." His mother's words, a mantra he repeated to himself every second, now the only thing that he could utter, the only thing that didn't feel redundant... even though it was.

just sobbing over how strong he is trying to be for his people :(((((( the way he repeats what neytiri told him i'm actually going to cry all the water out of my body 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭!!!!!!!!!!!!

"This is for ruining my hiding spot. Enjoy hearing all the girls who don't recoil at the thought of being in my presence."

live reaction reading this:

“Understand the weight of my actions? Do you hear yourself right now? This whole mess, this whole shitshow that I’ve gone through, that we’ve both gone through, it’s all your fault. All of it.  This is going to weigh on me just as much as it will weigh on you, and the loss of these people, of Eywa’s children, will haunt me for the rest of my life. Of our lives. So don’t sit there and talk to me about responsibility, and about losing people.” He couldn’t help look at your unconscious form, that more and more felt like your own body was trying to protect you from the sadness that would wait for you when you woke. “I lost the person I loved the most, that was my shelter from the storm, a storm you caused. All you do is push me, and push us, and I’m so fucking tired of it.” a sob is all it took for his father to rush to his side, concern and confusion deeply rooted on his face as it met Neteyam’s, when his hands found his face and rose it to his level. 

literally this whole sequence of conversation my eyes were absolutely glued to the screen and my heart was RACING!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i feel like i let out a sigh of relief finally seeing nete let out what he's feeling!!!! and tell his dad what he's been holding inside him for soooo long!!! the thing that totally derailed his life and a relationship that meant so much to him!!!! 😭😭😭😭🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

i'm also SO HAPPY with the twist that it was all a misunderstanding!!!!! i hope this moment brings him some comfort and healing 🥺🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖 and i am DYINGGGG to see him navigate his relationship with vi knowing this now!!! how is she going to REACT 😱

"Have you seen her? Have you seen syä?" "What do you mean, Lo'ak?" "She's gone, bro. She's not in grandmother's tent anymore."

STOP i love how this chapter ends i am on the edge of my SEAT!!! 💖💖💖💖 i have a feeling i know where we went and it makes me 🥺🥺🥺🥺 (if i'm wrong that's so embarrassing LMFAO)

i love this series so so so so much 🥹🥹🥹🥹 i am eternally grateful for the escapism it gives me and i cannot wait to read the next chapter <3333 (and i can't believe we're almost to the end!!! 😭)

𝕄𝕠𝕟𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕀𝕟 𝕄𝕖 | ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕍𝕀: 𝕊𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘'𝕤 𝕄𝕒𝕕𝕖 𝕐𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝔼𝕪𝕖𝕤 𝔾𝕠 ℂ𝕠𝕝𝕕

Pairing: Neteyam x (f)Omaticaya!Reader

synopsis: Even in your state, memories of your past can't help but flood your subconscious, as Neteyam has a conversation with his father that will change the way he's viewed the last seven years of his life.

warnings: 18+ minors DNI, aged-up! Neteyam/Reader, enemies-to-lovers, angst (mentions of violence, battle, blood, death), strong language.

wc: 6.8k words

a/n: this chapter was written to pretty much be a mirror of last chapter, with the same concept of flashbacks vs present time, except this time we get to see Vi's memories from the 7 years they hated each other, which will hopefully provide context for why Neteyam's hatred doesn't only stem from that fateful conversation he overheard, but also from her petty, vindictive actions, that only grew as time went on. i hope you enjoy this chapter, besties (i feel very insecure about it so pls go easy on me, i'm still recovering hahaha) x there's only two chapters left, and i'm already sad about this story coming to an end, but i hope you enjoyed the ride. pls don't forget to leave a comment or a reblog and tell me your thoughts, i loveee to hear from you so much!

na'vi compendium: txepvi  - spark, sa'nok - mother, ite - daughter, Olo'eykte - female Olo'eyktan, oare - moon, nawm - great, syä - bitter

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You and I walk a fragile line I have known it all this time But I never thought I'd live to see it break

Neteyam hasn’t blinked since the accident, it feels. He definitely hasn't blinked since he did last, when you opened your eyes and then closed them again, never to be opened since. He doesn’t know why. He doesn’t know why it matters so much that he stays so acutely present and aware, so that his eyes are locked onto your sleeping frame, doesn’t know why the thought of falling asleep and missing you, missing your eyes fluttering open or staying shut forever hurts him so beyond reason or words, so beyond anything he’s ever known. So he hasn’t blinked. Everyone else was long gone, including his grandmother, who hurried to the tree of souls to pray for the safe return of her family and the rest of the brave Na��vi warriors who were still fighting in that wretched battle, the one that seemed never-ending, the one that riddled Neteyam with guilt for not taking part in. 

“There’s nothing we can do for her now, ma ‘itan. She’s in Eywa’s hands now, we just have to wait and see.”

Neteyam hated those words. With a burning passion. Wait and see. So passive, so out of his control, so… hopeless. And yet here he was. Waiting, to see if you’d ever wake up, to see if his family, his mother and father, his friends, his clan members would survive the night and the challenge that might overtake them without him being there to help or stop it, or even witness it. Seeing, seeing you, powerless and lifeless, just a flicker of the bright spark you've always been, it stirred something in him.

You were so beautiful. He hated himself for realising it, but you were. You always have been, and although so much of your beauty came from the soul that was wild and untamed and too big to be contained inside you, still, you were beautiful. And like this, no usual frown or defiant smirk that you reserved for him, he could focus on your face and realise that you haven’t changed that much in all these years, not as much as he has led himself to believe in time. Like this, in this light, with a peaceful look on your face, eyelashes casting shadows over your lapis cheeks, your tahni glowing dimly and flickering softly, your lips slightly parted as you breathed in and out, you reminded him a lot of the Vi he used to love, the Vi before the ugly fights, and the constant war, before the hurt and the pain, before every day was just another opportunity to see who could hurt the other the most. He always thought you won those, all of those. 

“T-tey…”

His musings come to a swift closure as your lips move minutely, air barely getting pushed past them. You were speaking, and he felt himself coming back to life with each sound coming out of your mouth. 

“Teyam…” 

It's getting dark and it's all too quiet And I can't trust anything now And it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake

“Teyam…” 

You wake up in a sweat, like you did most days these days since the Iknimaya, whimpering the name of the boy you used to call your best friend, that you no longer could, for reasons you still couldn’t understand, that you feared more and more you never would. In your dreams, you fight and make up, and he tells you he’s sorry and that it was just a misunderstanding and that he’ll do whatever it takes to win you back, because just like you’ve gotten used to over the last few years, you two will always be bound by the hip and there was nothing that could ever come between you. It was a nice sentiment, but one that never manifested itself to you in any waking moment, as, since your Iknimaya, Neteyam has treated you like a stranger, like an ugly thought he fought his hardest to banish from his mind.

With a deep sigh, you put new clothes on and struggled to eat a few pieces of yovo fruit you picked up off the floor on your last hunt. You missed the food Neytiri made, and although they still brought you nourishment fresh every time they made it, it wasn’t the same without the familial, loving atmosphere you’ve come to rely on all these years, so you barely touched it, choosing instead to give it to the other orphans of the war that hadn't been as fortunate as you. You couldn’t bring yourself to go back to them, no matter how many times they asked. Not when you knew that if you did, you’d be met with a dead stare you couldn’t handle looking into, not without crying, and there’s nothing you hated more than crying in front of people. There’s nothing you hated more than showing weakness, and he didn’t deserve to see you weak. Not anymore. 

Days dragged in training without someone to help time pass faster, without someone to brighten up your days, but they did pass. You had to sit next to Neteyam in briefings and in shooting practice, your ikran still played with each other even mid flight until one of you had to will them away from one another so as to avoid an awkward interaction, his presence and spirit was everywhere around you and in you and yet, it’s like you didn’t exist in his life anymore. 

"Come over for dinner, kid. It's been weeks. We miss having you."

You didn't know how many more excuses you could come up with to not do as Jake said, although you did suspect they knew about your and Neteyam's fallout. It was hard not to know, when the air shifted whenever you were in each other's presence, when it became icy and glacial and empty like a vast, cold tundra that you couldn't escape no matter how much you tried.

"Jake..."

"I know, you're sick and you don't want to get Tuk sick, you're too tired for food so you're just gonna crash in your tent, you have discovered a new allergy to an ingredient that Neytiri uses that's never been a problem in the years we've known you, but it suddenly is now... still, just come, okay?"

"Look, I promised your dad I'd take care of you. I can't do that if you're gonna push us away. Whatever it is between you and Neteyam... it will pass. You love each other too much for it not to pass. But hiding, moping, walking 'round looking hopeless and aimless - it isn't you. I need you to be the spark I know and love and fight. You've never gone down without a fight - don't start now. Ok?"

“Ma ‘itan.” 

Neteyam’s eyes snapped in the direction of the tent flap prying open, his mother’s lean, graceful figure emerging and he immediately rose from his spot to hurry to her side and envelop her in a hug they both desperately needed. She was fine. She was here, and walking and standing… alive. She was alive. 

“Sa’nok! Where’s father? What took so long? Is everyone ok? I am -”

“Shh, Neteyam.” His mother was a warrior, always. She was strong and capable and skilled, she was tough and knowledgeable. And yet somehow, beneath it all, she was still soft and kind and caring and empathetic, she knew exactly what her kids always felt, and she knew exactly what to say to make it better. When she her hand found the back of his neck, guiding him into her embrace, his face gently tucked in the crook of her neck, Neteyam found himself sobbing, finally able to let the pent-up emotion surface, all the anger, and sadness and guilt, and relief the last few days have brought washing over him and onto his mother’s shoulders, and she cooed affectionately, not saying a word. She knew there was no need for words, no words could ever made this better. 

“She’s dead, mum. Oare’s dead.”

“I know…” 

“Please tell me everyone’s alright. Please.” 

“It will all be alright, son. Everything will be alright.”

It will be alright… Everything will be alright.

Oh, I'm holding my breath Won't lose you again Something's made your eyes go cold

“Alright, now that you’re back in our tent, where you belong, we thought we’d celebrate both your and Neteyam’s incredible iknimaya! You both did phenomenally, kids, and we are so, so proud of you both. The youngest to ever have done it, too! I mean, I don’t want to brag, but I’m pretty sure it’s all my training regi-“ 

Jake ceased his monologue as soon as he noticed the dead silence in the tent, and the awkward looks that Neytiri kept shooting him when she discerned both your and Neteyam’s gazes stuck to the floor, a cold look on his face and an uncomfortable one on yours, neither of you in a celebratory mood, neither really ready or willing to relive the Iknimaya and how a beautiful, ethereal day turned into a nightmare in hindsight, plagued forever by the ill-feelings now tugging at both of your hearts.

You stared at Neteyam, as did most of his family, even the young Lo’ak who could not truly understand what was happening, why people were quiet, but could still feel the atmosphere shift, the air thicken, the silence linger and weigh heavily on all the people present in the room. Despite it all, you kept staring, kept hoping that throughout the newfound ice that enveloped the golden aura that he always exuded, that was your home and your light, your biggest question and adventure, your safety net and peace all in one, the memory of that night, so beautiful and far-removed, would bring him back to the boy you loved, the boy you needed, the boy you missed.

He was silent, still, a frown on his face and anger clear as day in his beautiful eyes, that you barely recognised, that you couldn’t believe belonged to Neteyam, your 'teyam. You kept staring and kept staring, until you felt the so-far unflinching sadness and despondency stew and seethe, until it changed and evolved, until you felt the familiar bubbling of anger remove reason or rhyme from your soul, until all you saw in front of your eyes was red, and Neteyam was the one taunting you with the blood-coloured cloth dangled in front of your face. Neteyam wanted this? Wanted to dismiss you and discard you like a toy he outgrew? Fine. You would make sure he regretted it - you have always been wild and creative, and without him, you now had heaps of time to be both, at the same time, all towards him. 

“Thank you, Jake. We couldn’t have done without your help and guidance all these years. Thank you for everything you and Neytiri and Mo’at have done for me, and I’m happy to tell you that, despite my momentary lapse in judgement, I am not going anywhere. I want to be here, I want to be part of your family if you want to have me, and I will let nothing stand in the way of that.”

As you talked, you rose from your spot to hug your adoptive parents, and they happily returned the gesture, pulling you tightly against their chests and pecking the top of your head. Lo’ak and Kiri joined enthusiastically and before long, you were suffocating in love and care and familial affection, Neteyam nowhere to be found. You were sad about it, you couldn’t help it, but for the first time in weeks the sadness was second-place, and so you found a small smirk haunting you at the prospect you were hurting him even a small amount - maybe a small fraction to the hurt he’s caused you, but there nonetheless. 

“Also… do I get a special reward for beating the Iknimaya in record time, the fastest it’s ever been done? I feel like I’m well on the way to stealing Neteyam’s spot as the next Olo’eykte. Wouldn’t that be just a riot?” 

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Something's gone terribly wrong You're all I wanted

"How is she?" Neteyam's eyes were heavier by the second, so tired and spent in light of everything that's transpired, in light of the bustling of crowds outside meeting what remained of the Na'vi forces that fought in a battle that while Neteyam wasn't sure, he suspected took more lives than he'll ever be able to live with. Kiri was quiet as she entered, and Neteyam was grateful for his sister, who stood with him most of the night, who checked in on you while the Tsa'hik was preoccupied with other, more pressing matters.

"The same, I think. She hasn't woken up, I don't think. She hasn't moved."

Kiri walked the length of the tent until she reached you, kneeling by your side and pressing the back of her palm on your forehead. She had something wrapped in a leaf that replaced her hand and Neteyam watched with curious eyes, hoping that by paying special attention to whatever remedy that was, it would work harder and faster, would bring you back screaming and thrashing and cursing him out, because if there's something that he's realised since your accident, it was that anything was better than the deafening silence that he couldn't escape and couldn't imagine living in for a second longer than he had to. Anything was better than this.

"Her fever's not going down. I think whatever it was she scratched herself on while she fell was poisonous. That, combined with the impact of the fall... she's lucky she's alive, Neteyam."

Neteyam couldn't help the shudder that took over his body. He didn't have any hair, the way that humans did, but he imagined if he did, it would all be standing up like blades of grass on the ground, taut and barely-moving in the warm breeze. He shifted slightly so Kiri could perch herself next to him, arms touching as she leaned on him, before placing her head on his shoulder.

"Why are you still here, big brother?"

Neteyam thought about it, until he couldn't anymore, because the thoughts weren't making sense, because they all contradicted each other, because he was tired and heartbroken and distraught, and losing Oare was obviously making him soft and delusional.

"You know you're in love with her, right? Please tell me you realise this, at least now, after all this time, in light of everything that's happened, in light of how you've acted it because of it. It's been so long, Neteyam. So long of us watching you be horrible to each other and hope that one day, you'd both wake up and realise the only reason you're acting like this is because you're too blind to see what's right in front of your eyes."

Neteyam's eyes widened progressively more with each word uttered, until they were so wide it hurt. To hear it out loud, spoken so casually, as if it were a fact, shocked the Sully man. Us? Who else thought this? Who else could possibly be blind enough to perpetuate such disparaging ideas that made Neteyam's skin crawl even at the notion.

"I'm not in love with her, Kiri. I can't be in love with her. After everything she's done... everything I've done... this can't be love. Maybe it was, once. Maybe I loved her once. Maybe I loved her so much I couldn't imagine my life without her." Neteyam sighed, looking at your face, tears pooling in his eyes as early memories of young Vi juxtaposed against later memories of you, so many memories he wanted to forget and banish from his mind, so many cruel, harmful, ugly memories that made up most of his view of you now. "But not anymore."

Kiri rises from her spot with a sigh, patting her brother's head with an exasperated sigh, before she leaves.

"You haven't moved. You haven't slept or eaten, you haven't blinked. Our parents need your help bringing back the injured, the clan needs your help as the future Olo'eyktan, and yet... you haven't moved. I think that says everything. The first step in solving any problem is recognising there is one, brother. The sooner you admit your feelings, the sooner you can work towards fixing your broken relationship."

Stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had But I still mean every word I said to you He will try to take away my pain and he just might make me smile But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead

Desire burning deep in you was the only thing you felt as Akxo continued to trail kisses on your neck, a string of saliva connecting the purple lovebites that still stung slightly from when he marked you with them just a few minutes ago. With your eyes closed as they were, it was almost easy to imagine you were all alone, just you and this guy you’ve known your whole life but only recently realised had become a man, powerful and strong after just completing his Uniltaron just a few days ago. Despite your imagination, though, you were, in fact, not alone, nor isolated, but in plain view, propped against a tree of the clearing where you all trained in, that still had people working hard to improve on their skills, which is probably what you should be doing. But there was something so innately satisfying about doing this instead, as soon as Jake had to leave and tend to his other Olo’eyktan duties and left you and Neteyam in charge, doing it so he could watch, so he could stew in the bile that was his existence and know there’s nothing he could do to stop it, because he had no leverage over you and no power to hold over your head. Not now, and never again.  

Jake had been wrong. Whatever it was that happened between Neteyam and you didn’t pass, not a few months and definitely not now, years later. If anything, it got a lot, lot worse. Because while in the beginning it was uncomfortable silence and cold and unwieldy dejection, it was now fire and blood, it was teeth and claws, it was anger and resentment. You recognised a lot of it came from you. Most of it came from you. Because Jake might have been wrong about some things, but he was right about others. You’ve never gone down without a fight - and if a fight was what Neteyam wanted all this time, a fight was what he was going to get. Because while he might have been comfortable with the quiet, you wanted yelling and chaos, to reflect the hurt in your heart that hasn’t diminished even after all this time. You wanted to make him pay for banishing you from his mind and heart, from his life that you used to know so intimately, and you were good at payback, and continued to get better over time. 

“Are you trying to derail this whole fucking training session?” His voice, that you wanted to say hurt your ears, but if you were honest with yourself, it never could, not when it was melodic and beautiful, not when it still haunted your dreams, made Akxo straighten up faster than you could tell him to not bother, and you chuckled, a low and humourless sound that you’ve come to associate with dealing with Neteyam. 

“Don’t tell me you can’t ever handle a bunch of 13 year olds, Neteyam. I knew you couldn’t do anything right without me, but still, this is low, even for you.” 

“Akxo, I don’t think I’m making myself clear. She may be immune from the Olo’eyktan’s judgement, but you, my friend, are not. I’m sure there’s better ways to spend your days than wasting your breath on her. Trust me, she’s not worth it.”

“Ah, Neteyam, there’s no need to be bitter.” Your smirk only deepened as you ran your hands over your new flame’s abdomen. “One day, you too will find someone who won’t recoil at the thought of being in your presence, but you might need to work a little harder to not be so hard to stomach all the time for that to happen. I can coach you if you want, I mean… it wouldn’t be the first time I’ve had to help you, and I’m sure it won’t be the last.”

I know, I know I just know You're not gone, you can't be gone, no

“These are the last of them.” Neteyam tried not to recoil in agony at the sight of so many dead Na’vi and pa’li, so many ikran, so much loss, more than anyone should ever know, but especially their tribe, that has had to come to terms with grief in a way most other tribes aren’t, in a way that’s unnatural and premature and wrong. It was all so wrong.

Kiri was right, he had to help. He had to help not because it was his duty, but because it was right. He couldn’t keep looking at you, not when every second he did, Kiri’s words rang in his ears and made his eardrums pound so hard it felt like they were about to explode, not when every second he spent thinking of you was making him feel a mix of emotions that he didn’t, couldn’t understand, not when the exhaustion from the last few days made him question himself and ponder if his sister was indeed right all along. So Neteyam left you in that tent and put you under lock and key in the back of his mind, and dealt with the immeasurable loss that once more plagued his clan. 

“Nawm Sa'nok, why?! My son, my son! There is supposed to be a balance! This isn't balance!” The wails of the woman, whom he’s known ever since he was born, that he can still remember playing with him when she brought his son over his family’s tent, hurt beyond comprehension. The usual peaceful, harmonious laughter and chatter intertwined with the sound of leaves rustling in the wind and soft, distant songs of animals and birds were gone, drowned by the cries and screams by the people that were trying to identify the dead, and figure out if life would ever be the same again. 

"Neteyam, ma 'itan. He's gone, he's gone! Oh, Great Mother!"

Neteyam's breath got pushed out of his lungs at the impact of her body crashing into him, that he struggled to keep upright as she was buckling under the weight of her loss. Her son was a good warrior, and a friend. He couldn't come to terms with his death, couldn't understand what was truly going on, his mind almost protecting him from the overwhelming grief by numbing his thoughts, by removing him slightly from the realities clearly displayed to him, that he experienced almost like in a dream.

"It's going to be alright, auntie. We're all going to be alright." His mother's words, a mantra he repeated to himself every second, now the only thing that he could utter, the only thing that didn't feel redundant... even though it was.

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Something's gone terribly wrong Won't finish what you started

Well, here you were, ready to eat your words, as the curiosity got the better of you and you found yourself sneaking to Neteyam’s new hiding spot, that he didn’t know you knew about, that you found yourself coming to a bit too often to call it nonchalance and yet, you just couldn’t help yourself. It was an itch you had to scratch, seeing what he was doing, who he was with, finding new ammunition for your petty revenge, it was all for research purposes, you always told yourself.

Whatever you saw here, and there were some wild things, you always kept quiet and left without ever being spotted, maintaining your cover and whatever dignity you knew would disappear if your friends found out you were stooping so low. But somehow, right now, watching as Neteyam was whispering sweet nothings in a stupid little healer’s ears, telling her how good she’s taking his cock and watching her eyes roll back in her head, your blood was boiling.

You didn’t know why it was boiling, it’s not like you haven’t seen him fuck girls before, or try to, it’s not like this was a completely unusual occurrence, but it was new just how into it the girl seemed to be. How desperate for his touch, how needy to feel him. Your fingers twisted around a branch so hard it snapped and you ducked as their heads snapped into the direction of the noise. You were just mad that you lost a subject that you knew got under his skin. That’s it. That must be it, not at all because your mind was conjuring all the ways that you should be in that girl’s shoes, and how he should be making you feel this way. No man’s ever made you feel this way. No man’s ever made you cry, the way she was crying, gripping at his back and shoulders so hard his skin was broken and bleeding. You hated him, that’s all. That’s why your blood was boiling. 

Well, he wouldn’t get the last word, not if you had anything to do with it. You returned to your spot around an hour later, half happy, half annoyed out of your mind that they were still going at it, and she was still screaming and crying, and he was still whispering praises in her ears, although they did have the decency to change position so at least you couldn’t see much anymore. With a wide smirk on your lips, you waited, until the unmistakable sound of footsteps echoed through the endless green forest. 

"Neteyam, are you there?"

Jake sounded angry, and you stifled an evil laugh as you saw them both scramble to untangle themselves from each other and from the floor, the girl's cries no longer of pleasure as she couldn't figure out how to tie her top around her neck anymore.

"Nete-, oh, my fucking God!" English came naturally to Jake, even 20 years later, whenever he was feeling any extreme emotion, and you were happy for the strenuous effort you put into learning it as a child just for this one moment, right here. This was all worth it. "Kole, your mother was looking for you. Can you just- oh, fuck - can you just go and meet her, please?"

"Yes, of course, ma Olo'eyktan."

You were still grinning about the interaction and the ass kicking that followed a couple days later, as you came back to your tent for the night. The smile faded progressively as you neared the entrance, as small whimpers and pleasured groans could be discerned vaguely, coming from behind your tent, a small nook that only you really knew about or frequented, that now was obviously occupied, by a person whose voice you recognised all too well. No way. Sure enough, as you snuck around the tent, a continuation of whatever it was you interupted a couple days ago was well underway, and you bit down a curse, enraged at the way not only did you not, in the end, get the last word, but Neteyam's new hiding spot was just about to ruin whatever remainder of peace and sanity you had left.

When you entered your tent, a small piece of paper with some writing rested on your sleeping mat, yet another human skill Jake insisted on his family to know, that you now regretted.

"This is for ruining my hiding spot. Enjoy hearing all the girls who don't recoil at the thought of being in my presence."

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this I thought I had you figured out Can't breathe whenever you're gone Can't go back, I'm haunted

Neteyam watched as his father entered the tent, a heaviness that he rarely lets people be privy to wearing him down and slouching his shoulders. Neteyam couldn’t imagine what his father was going through, couldn’t imagine how someday, he’ll have to bear this burden and do it well, do it honourably and proudly and still keep a head held high and keep it all together so other people can fall apart around him.

Neteyam had mostly love for his dad - deep, unconditional love that will never falter, not even in the face of adversity, or in the face of the deep seeded resentment that Neteyam still had after the years of torturous training, of pressure put on his very young shoulders, of guilt-tripping and being blamed for his brother’s mistakes, of being pushed aside and replaced with you, the perfect daughter who could do no wrong in his father’s eyes. Even despite all of this, Neteyam loved his dad. And yet, watching him come in, sad and worried sick about you, his lips pursed in a straight line, words on his tongue that Neteyam knew were coming and was terrified of… the love faltered just a little. 

“Mo’at said she got poisoned falling off her ikran.” 

“Yes. Oare’s dead.”

“I saw her in the line-up.” His father turned his sights from you to his oldest son, sighing as his eyes set on him, anger flashing in his eyes briefly before composing himself.

“What the hell happened out there, Neteyam? We were counting on you. On both of you.” 

Neteyam had no answer to that. He’s tried so hard to bury the thoughts, because he knew that if he succumbed to them, the guilt would eat him alive and pick its teeth with what remained of his frail bones. He didn’t think of how this was his fault, your fault, how if these stupid fights, that now seemed meaningless and daft, didn’t occupy so much space and time in both your minds, you would have slept, you would have not been tired and distracted, Oare wouldn’t have felt the nerves and fears emanating from you, and you would’ve done what you do best, inspire some people, kill others, be next to Jake, like you always were, like Neteyam was normally next to his mother, and get it done. The two of you were indispensable to the clan, as much was clear now. And although it wasn't fair, how much pressure there was on both your shoulders, it was the way things were. And now both of you will have to live with the consequences of your actions, will have to find a way to look the people in the eye again, knowing that you directly caused their family’s demise and the clan’s sorrow.

“Do you understand how serious this is, Neteyam? We lost good people today. Good people, strong people, dependable people. And the two people who I counted on the most left us all for dead, to fend for ourselves. This isn’t what I taught you. This isn’t who I raised, Neteyam. Even Lo’ak pulled his weight. We’re going to be reeling from these losses for the rest of our lives, and this has set us back months, and I need you to understand the weight of your actions.” 

Another sigh and a frown that aged the Olo’eyktan by a good 10 years was the last sign of disapproval before his attempt to leave Neteyam by himself, but for the first time in his life, Neteyam couldn’t let that happen. He didn’t know whether it was his words, or the continuous battle with you that he’s had to fight for the last 7 years, all years in which he’s felt heartbroken, and resentful, and inadequate, and pushed to the side, and ignored, and worked to the bone for very little appreciation, or the fatigue wearing him down, or the loss of your ikran, or the guilt that’s been gnawing at him long before his father’s contribution, but for the first time in his life, Neteyam’s anger was directed at someone else rather than you. 

“Understand the weight of my actions? Do you hear yourself right now? This whole mess, this whole shitshow that I’ve gone through, that we’ve both gone through, it’s all your fault. All of it.  This is going to weigh on me just as much as it will weigh on you, and the loss of these people, of Eywa’s children, will haunt me for the rest of my life. Of our lives. So don’t sit there and talk to me about responsibility, and about losing people.” He couldn’t help look at your unconscious form, that more and more felt like your own body was trying to protect you from the sadness that would wait for you when you woke. “I lost the person I loved the most, that was my shelter from the storm, a storm you caused. All you do is push me, and push us, and I’m so fucking tired of it.” a sob is all it took for his father to rush to his side, concern and confusion deeply rooted on his face as it met Neteyam’s, when his hands found his face and rose it to his level. 

“What are you talking about, son?” 

Neteyam’s chest was heaving with unshed tears as he looked in his father’s eyes through the fractured, refracted lens of the liquid threatening to spill. 

“I heard you.” One tear. “That night, the night after the Iknimaya.” Two tears. “I heard you telling grandmother how you want her to be Olo’eykte in my stead. How she deserves it.” Six tears. “I heard you… as you told her Vi would never have me. That she said she would never want to be my mate.” Too many tears to count. 

“Oh, Neteyam…” 

“I worked so hard, my whole life. I sacrificed more than anybody I know. And I did it all to please you, to live up to you. I did so you’d be proud of me, so you’d love me, and accept me. I did it all so I’d a good leader, a worthy Olo’eyktan, someone the clan can rely on to protect them.

I spent my whole childhood crying and aching, hating my life, wishing I could be anyone else instead, but I thought it would all be worth it one day because you told me as much, and that I have a title to live up to. And then I met Vi, and she changed everything… and I loved her, dad. And in one night you managed to take everything away from me.

Do you have any idea what that did to me? What the next seven years, in which we hated each other and competed for your love and praise, for your attention and affection, did to me? I’m there for everybody all the time. Every day and night, I am here for you, and for mum. I am here for Kiri and Lo’ak and Tuk. I am here for the clan. I am the mighty soldier, the doting brother, the dutiful son, the concerned clan member, the understanding karyu, the unbroken arrow in the quiver of your army.

Do you know there’s not a single day that I don’t hurt, that it doesn’t kill me inside, little by little, without a single soul to talk to, that cares or bothers to listen to my struggles?”

Sometime during that monologue, that Neteyam’s kept in his soul his whole life, he found himself in his father’s embrace, who was quiet and listened, who said nothing and just waited. Neteyam was sobbing in his father’s shoulder now, and he couldn’t find it in him to stop, like a spring that was buried underground with none the wiser until poked in just the right way, with unending streams now able to either fill a dam or flood a village. 

“Neteyam… fuck. I’m so sorry, son. I didn’t know. Any of it, I didn’t know. Neteyam… you never said anything. You never brought up that night, and I wish you did, son… I wish you did because if you had, then you would know that those words that you heard… those words weren’t mine, Neteyam.” 

There are very few moments where Neteyam feels like his soul has somehow exited his body and he’s experiencing a moment almost like from outside himself, like a stranger looking in. That’s how he felt now, as he could see himself removing his head from his father’s embrace, a dazed and almost uncharacteristic expression trying him. 

“What did you say?” 

“That night, if I remember correctly… we were talking about how well you did, both of you, in the Iknimaya. We were laughing at the fact you were both late, how I’d have to pretend to be mad and punish you, when in reality I not only expected it, but almost desired it, that you took that day to enjoy yourselves, to feel free of some of the burden I know I’ve placed on you.

I was reminded, seeing her, of her dad. Her dad who asked me to take care of her before he passed. Of the words he told me. That even back then, as nothing more than a child, he knew that she was special. That under other circumstances, she would have, no doubt in his mind, become the next Olo’eykte. That she was born for it, made for it. Those words always echoed in my ears as I watched her grow, and seen for myself the talent that comes so rarely, it seems almost like a fable. That I only ever saw in you. I considered it, making you both leaders at the same time - unheard of, maybe, but you both deserve it, you’re both made for it, and you used to complete each other, like two pieces of a perfectly fitted puzzle. That’s it, son. I would never want to replace you, Neteyam. I would never even think of it. Not only because you are my son, but because you are the greatest person I've ever met. Because there's no one else, there can be no one else.” 

Neteyam saw his face drop, his entire body shuddering under the weight of the new information, that changed everything, that he could have known all these years and yet didn’t, that shifted Neteyam’s whole world on its axis yet again and he almost wanted to reach out and console himself, the man that looked as young and scared as a pup lost in the woods, like he used to look all the time before he met you, like he swore to himself he’d never look like again after he lost you. His dad didn’t want to replace him. He never wanted to replace him. What was he supposed to do now, with this momentous information that he never thought he’d get to hear?

“I’m so sorry, son, that you’ve had to bear this weight all by yourself. I’m sorry for my contribution in it, and that I failed to see how I made it all so much harder to stomach. Your mother and I love you so, so much, Neteyam, and we want to be there for you, but, son… you don’t talk to us. You keep everything buried inside. We can’t help what we don’t know. We try our best, and we’re so sorry we failed you… that I failed you. And about Vi… Neteyam, you have to speak with her. You’ve carried this in you for far too long. You need to let it out. Let her explain. Let her give you an answer, or closure.” 

“What if she doesn’t wake up?” 

Neteyam didn’t know if his dad was saying this more to his son or to himself, but right now, it didn’t matter. 

“She will, son. She’ll wake up.”

The only other time Neteyam's left you since the accident was after the talk, the overwhelming urge to wash his face at the nearby river finally too great to be ignored. The water helped a little. It grounded him and nourished him, as much as it could, and Neteyam was slightly taken aback at the way his soul felt just slightly lighter, how his father's words, and the conversation he should have had years ago and didn't, changed so much in his mind. His father was right. Kiri was right. It was time to talk. Years and years of torture and pain, and it was finally time to talk. He just hoped you'd actually be there to listen.

Neteyam was startled by a frenzied Lo'ak, rushing to his side, panting as he put a hand on his chest, trying to catch his breath as he spoke.

"Have you seen her? Have you seen syä?"

"What do you mean, Lo'ak?"

"She's gone, bro. She's not in grandmother's tent anymore."

You and I walk a fragile line I have known it all this time Never ever thought I'd see it break Never thought I'd see it

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[tahdashi]

omg :o sayu ? sayu ?? wait it's been such a long time that i don't even know if you remember me 😭😭😭 it's ele ur childhood best friend

i stopped being active for like a year because of uni and heaps of work but i've decided to procrastinate by spending my time periodically here on tumblr because it reminds me so much of :(( of you guys and haikyuu which i don't think is v popular now :((((

but procrastination is not a good idea 😓 i still love my hq boys tho sjsjsj

anyway i hope you're doing okay, and i'm so so glad you're alive and still on my hectic feed ily sm<3333 i missed u sm<333 it's sad that a lot of my other moots and favorite users have archived their accounts but it makes sense you know? i think tumblr is that one app where you get all excited and post every day for half a year or so until you realize you're super busy so u say bye :')

alright i'm prob not going to pop up in your inbox for another few weeks/months/year :cccc but pls know i rly love you</33 mwah

HI MY LOVE sorry i'm answering this so late! OFC I REMEMBER YOU !!! how could i forget :( i totally get you w being inactive bc of uni. i haven't been on here much either (or as much as i used to be hhdsjhfk)

I MISSED YOU TOO and i'm glad you're alive and well <3 i hope you've been taking care of yourself i love you i love you i love you

[lesbicosmos]

heartstopper episode 8 thoughts!!

-god the scene with charlie and tori at the beginning always has me in tears, my fav siblings ever

-tori is so supportive i love her with my entire heart (now give me a solitaire adaptation pls)

-THE WAY NICKS EXPRESSION CHANGES FROM SO HAPPY TO SAY HI TO CHARLIE AND HAVE LUNCH WITH HIM TO COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY HEARTBROKEN THAT HE SAID HE CAN'T

-the tao and nick scene is such an important scene for both characters

-tao's reaction to nick telling him to try rugby is priceless, it's giving "do i LOOK like-"

-our window has me sobbing every time </3

-tara darcy and elle's friendship is everything

-charlie just let nick talk to u please u both need it :(

-"don't let anyone make you disappear, charlie" </3 i love mr ajayi sm

-wondering if they literally couldn't get a shot of joe putting the bib on without him getting tangled in it, we see him holding it, then cut to tao, then when it cuts back to charlie he's already put it on 😭 the blooper was too funny

-YES CHARLIE STANDING UP TO BEN <333

-side note: charlie's the main character, why is he so underrated?? i love him with all my heart

-charlie holding isaacs book while he does his javelin <3

-tao ily but i think u were right, taking art gcse was a mistake

-when i watched this the first time i was so mad tao and elle didn't kiss in this scene, but that was before i read the comic, after reading it im so glad they left it bc their first kiss in the louvre in volume 3 is so <3333

-THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER I LOVE ALL THE COUPLES IN THIS SHOW SO MUCH

-nick looking for charlie </3

-charlie looks so goddamn proud watching nick in the match

-genuinely thought nick was just gonna go up to him and kiss him in front of everyone on my first watch, the actual scene is so fucking cute tho

-THE WAY IMOGEN SMILES AT THEM SHES SO HAPPY FOR THEM AND SHE FINALLY UNDERSTANDS WHY NICK SAID HE FELT OUT OF PLACE I LOVE HER

-nick's whole speech is one of my favourite scenes, he loves charlie so much..."it's all worth it to be with you"

-THE WAY THIS PARALLELS THE KISS IN THE BEDROOM IN EPISODE 4

-someone walking past the door rn: 😀

-the rainbow in the background at the train station

-ALICE CAMEO <333 I LOVE THAY SHE WAS DRAWING THEM ASWELL

-the running towards the beach shot being the last one they filmed is so perfect

-THEY'RE JUST SO FUCKING HAPPY I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

-"i love liking you" nick i love you so much

-THIS SCENE WAS PULLED STRAIGHT OUT OF THE COMIC AND ITS PERFECT

-its so sad when you realise the reason charlie's so hesitant to call nick his boyfriend is bc of ben </3 b*n h*pe hate club!

-nick why. why did you go in the ocean with ur vans on. just why.

-THE PAINTING BEHIND NICK IS SO SIMILAR TO THE FLOWERS THAT APPEAR WHEN HE COMES OUT TO HIS MOM IN THE COMICS, I LOVE THE TINY DETAILS LIKE THIS

-but also this scene makes me sob, i'm so proud of nick and his mom is actually the best

-the compilation of them from the very beginning with i belong in your arms in the background gets me every time

-i love this show so fucking much i can't wait for season 2

[hajimescutie]

Hey madi, could I please request some Bokuto and Iwaizumi comfort scenarios (separate of course) with an s/o who is always scared of showing their weak/sad side to them?

Like their s/o is afraid of crying in front of them because she fears of being judged by them? And when Iwaizumi and Bokuto found out about it they immediately comforted her and reassured her (please put some cause my love languages are; physical touch, and words of affirmation. This is also kinda based on me cause some people I know says that I’m not allowed to show my weak side to anyone cause they say that I’ll just be a burden them and that I’m annoying when I vent too much so I mostly cry alone at night when no one’s around so yeah sorry for ranting though 🙏🏻). Thank you!! I think this is my second request to you. I’m sorry for requesting so much😭😭. I’m just really stress lately and I overthink a lot😓. You can add two more characters if you like though.

-🐧

# — haikyuu boys with an s/o who’s afraid of being weak

includes: k. bokuto x f!reader, h. iwaizumi x f!reader

genre: hurt/comfort

warnings: just a lot of sadness and self doubt :(

a/n: HI BABE IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG also pls don't ever feel like you're a burden with your feelings. whoever is invalidating your feelings are ignorant, your feelings are 100% valid bby and my inbox is always open if you need to rant!!! i hope you like this my love i love u <3333

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BOKUTO:

bokuto knew you were hiding something a few months into dating. he knew you weren’t cheating, you always proved how loyal your love is to him. he couldn’t put his finger on it. he felt like you were holding back something, a secret maybe? but you’re practically an open book by now, he knows anything and everything about you.

he feels like the only time you seem like you’re hiding something is whenever he asks if you’re okay, or if he’s checking up on you. you always answer with “i’m fine” or “i’m okay”, or something short and sweet. and even though bokuto may come across as spacey, he picks up on these things. and honestly, he’s a little worried.

he wants to be there for you, he wants to be your shoulder to lean on when things get too hard, he wants to feel your tears stain his shirt as weird as that sounds. he wants you to be okay with feeling vulnerable, because even he feels vulnerable at times. ask akaashi, he’s there every time it happens.

so, he decided to put on his big boy pants and confront you about it.

he was sitting on the couch, waiting for you to come home. practice had ended early but he wanted to surprise you and take the opportunity to talk to you. his knee was bouncing unconsciously, nerves getting the best of him since he had no idea how to bring this up without making you feel forced to open up to him.

what if he pushes you away unintentionally? what if he makes you upset? god, the last thing he wants is to make up upset. but if he doesn't talk to you about this his nagging feeling will never go away. he runs a quivering hand through his frosted tips, leaning over rest his elbows against his knees with his fists up to his mouth.

question after question ran through his brain, overthinking every scenario that could go wrong. what if you break up with him over this? he feels like he's going to throw up.

"bo?"

the golden-eyed male let out a screech, flinching so hard against the couch before he looked up and saw your concerned figure. you had your hand reached out to him.

"hey, you okay? i've been here for like 10 minutes," you said.

"huh? oh- uh- yeah i'm okay. um- are you okay?" he stuttered.

there was that look again. he could see it in your eyes that you were holding something back.

"'m fine. was just worried about you," you started to walk away before bokuto desperately grasped your arm.

"w-wait! can we talk?"

you gave him a questioning look before nodding and sitting next to him on the couch. "sure babe, what's up?"

"um, well you see. how do i put this..." he mumbled. you were starting to become a little scared. you wracked your brain for something that might've lead to him wanting to talk to you about god knows what. and that something was troubling the professional volleyball player a lot.

"baby, what's going on? you're scaring me..."

"fuck i'm sorry it's just," he looked at you, "are you okay?"

you let out a sigh of relief.

"i told you i was fine babe, why are you-"

"no! i mean like are you really okay?"

you were taken aback by the question, blinking your eyes a couple times to process. when you didn't answer he continued.

"i don't know, i just feel like you're hiding something from me. not that i think you're cheating! i just feel like you're holding something back from me and i want to be there for you. if you'll let me. because i love you," he rambled.

you felt your hands tighten into fists, forcing yourself to keep your emotions at bay.

"i don't want to force you to open up to me, but i want to know if you're okay. honestly. and if you're not, i want to help you through it. if that makes sense. i'm sorry i'm probably overstepping my... boundaries..." he trailed off when he saw tears well up in your eyes. he immediately pulled you into him.

"fuck i'm so sorry. god i'm an idiot i didn't want to make you upset. please forgive me baby i'm so-" you cut him off with a watery kiss to his lips.

"it's okay, bo," you cupped his face in your hands, your heart melting when he leaned into your left one, "i grew up hiding my emotions. i don't like to feel vulnerable in front of others. i felt like no one would really care or no one would understand. that's why i hold back, and honestly props to you for noticing."

he scrunched his eyebrows together, "of course i would notice! you're my girlfriend, i'm supposed to know everything about you."

you let out a soft chuckle, nuzzling your face into his neck, "'m sorry i hid away from you. i was scared."

you felt his arms wrap around your waist tightly, "don't apologize baby. i'm always here to listen, whether you're okay or not. your feelings are valid, and it's okay to not be okay."

you pulled away to give him a soft smile, "since when did you become such a poet?"

"hey! i'm trying to help here," he pouted, hair deflating slightly.

"i know babe," you pecked his lips, "i know."

IWAIZUMI:

iwaizumi isn’t prone to being vulnerable. everyone knows he puts on a strong, dominant front. he isn’t labeled as “the pillar” for nothing. that’s why it was so easy to get along with him, since you yourself weren’t prone to being vulnerable.

but, usually the more you get to know him, the more he tends to open up how he feels. he slowly starts to express things that make him happy or sad or angry. when he first opened up to you, you were shocked to say the least. you didn’t know what to say at first, just looking at him with big, doe eyes. when you finally processed what happened, you immediately welcomed him into open arms. you tried your best to comfort him, but you both were practically the same when it came to feelings, so you couldn’t really understand.

at first he was fine with it, he’s always been one to put himself in your shoes, which wasn’t hard. he did his best to try and encourage you to tell him how you felt about certain things or certain topics. he thought if he could do it, why couldn’t you?

he quickly discovered that even though it’s now been almost a year since you guys started dating, it seems like he’s made no progress in getting you to let down your blockade. he was growing increasingly frustrated and worried. he tries not to show it though. he’s always been good at being patient with you, the last thing he wants is to pressure you into something you’re uncomfortable with. but come on, there has to be some effort on your end, right?

he had to talk to you about this. but how? he definitely doesn’t want it to end up in an argument. that would just push you away even further. he texted oikawa, mattsun, and makki on advice to handling this.

oikawa, of course, was dramatic about the whole thing and suggested he start off slow and ease up because “you were so fragile.”

both makki and mattsun said to be straight up with you, and that you were a big girl and could take his concern,

iwaizumi went with the ladders.

so here he was, sitting in front of you on the bed in your shared bedroom, looking at you with genuine concern and a good amount of fear of upsetting you. you couldn’t understand what had him so jumpy, for once in his life treating you as if you were glass. just because he’s going with the straight approach doesn’t mean he’s scared out of his mind.

your soothing voice broke him out of this thoughts, “haji, what’s going on? you’re acting weird.”

iwaizumi rubbed his sweaty hands along his sweatpants, letting out a deep breath before taking your soft hands in his. loving, olive-eyes bored into yours, letting out a deep sigh before opening his mouth.

fuck it i guess.

“iwantyoutoopenuptomemore,” he jumbled out.

“what?” you asked, eyebrows furrowing together.

“um- i want you to open up to me more,” he said slowly, carefully eyeing your reaction to his words.

you were silent for a minute, teeth pulling your bottom lip between them as you were entranced into deep thought. the athletic trainer’s heart felt like it was going to combust. he didn’t like how quiet you were.

“angel,” he said, his heart now dropping since you wouldn’t meet your gaze with his. maybe mattsun and makki were wrong about the straight-up approach…

“‘m sorry,” you whispered.

he raised an eyebrow, “why are you sorry?”

you fiddled with his fingers, “i know you’re trying to help me open up more, and i appreciate you for that, but it’s hard.”

he stayed quiet in order for you to continue.

“i’ve grown up with people disregarding how i felt, everyone always telling me i was ‘too sensitive’. i was sick of it, so i put up my walls. i wasn’t totally emotionally unavailable, i just knew my boundaries now.”

you finally looked up at him, “but then you came along and actually started to get somewhere.”

iwaizumi pulled you into his chest, your head buried in the crook of his neck as you let out a shaky sigh. he rubbed his rough palms against your back, “this might sound hypocritical from me considering i’m not the best with being open either, but it’s okay to be vulnerable.”

“i know it’s hard letting your guard down, i know it’s scary to be real with people you’re close to. but i can promise you that you don’t ever have to be scared with me,” he pushed you away slightly to gaze into your teary eyes.

he swiped one of his thumbs across the apple of your cheek. the way he was looking at you with such fondness, such love and sincerity, it terrified you. you hated being weak, you hated putting your walls down, you hated all of it. but, if it was with iwaizumi, maybe you hated it a little bit less.

“i love you pretty girl,” he pecked your lips, “and i’m always going to be here to listen. whenever you’re comfortable of course.”

you let out a sniffle, wiping away at your nose, “i love you, hajime. thank you so much.”

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[oh-katsuki]

🤯🥰🏆🤯 pls baby

aali my beloved, my angel, the light of my life and my dreams oh how i adore you hello

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

lolll okay so there are a few but i really struggle with action and like... capturing the action through descriptive movements (it's why i hardly write it OOF)!! also... i struggle with writing something that doesn't hurt feelings. literally every single thought i have about a fic will have some aspect of hurt feelings... even if i don't want it to. everything i write feels a little sad in a very vague way LOLL

🥰 How do you feel about reader interaction? Are you open to receiving questions about your fics?

i cannot say ENOUGH how much i love it. i genuinely cannot explain in good words how happy interacting with people who have read my fics makes me. i love talking about them.. i love getting questions from people after they've read a fic of mine asking about what i think (or what they think) happens after the story... i love it when readers come into my inbox and talk to me about certain themes i included or certain aspects of the character i wrote about;. getting a question about a fic i posted or a wip im working on genuinely make my entire year. it is my favorite part about writing on here and i'm open to receiving questions about both my posted fics and wips all day, every day.

🏆 What's your most popular fic?

i have to go check this one brb LOLL. okay so on ao3 it's my armin series validate me and on here i genuinely don't know!! i want it to be novelty though so im gonna say it's novelty since that (along with in case you don't live forever) is definitely the fic I've received the most messages about!!!

thank u for playing with me <3333

fanfic emoji ask game!

[frogboyandzombieface]

Hey !!! I heard your bored , so am I :) I have a few questions for you , you can answer them if you want <3 ( I‘ll only ask stranger things questions I hope that’s ok )

Favorite season ?

Favorite characters ?

A scene you want to see in season 4 ?

Is Mike gay or Bi ( or straight ) ?

What season 4 storyline are you most excited to see ?

Favorite ships ?

Favorite quote?

Least favorite character ?

Least favorite ship ?

I can’t think of more questions right now lol sorry 🙈. Have a great day and stay safe!! 💗

HIII OH YM GOD THANK YOU!??? I LOVE YOU???? DHDHDHS 😭i did NOT expect to get this many ... yes of course it's totally fine non !! (that's my nickname for anons lolol) THANK UUU ok here we go

favourite season?

SEASON TWOOO BAYBEEEE i just LOVE THAT motherfucker . it's got the BEST 80's vibes and awesome soundtrack and THE BYLER!!!!😭😭😭😭and also MAX AND STEVE AND ALSO I LOVE PUNK EL I KNOW THAT THAT PART OF THE STORYLINE IS CONTROVERSIAL AND I AGREE IT HAS SOME ISSUES BUT I LOVE PUNK EL OKAY and i love her exploring her darker side and using her powers to get revenge but she too much of a sweetie to be like kali. she's an angel. i love el . adore her <3333 and the colour palettes and the scenes and GAH!! i just love season 2 okay. though season 1 is SUUUPER close because holy fuck that one is so beautiful and emotional especially with joyce and will being missing and learning about hoppers past and GOD !!!! just fuckign great. And I LOVE THE LITTLE KIDS THEYRE SO CUTE ! AND SO MUCH FUN!!! god i love it . season 2's my fav but s1 is So So close by like a sliver ...

favourite characters?

MAX . ROBIN. UHH WILL. DUSTIN. MIKE. uM .... csnt fucking decide oKAY 3)33&28/8922 i love them all!!! they're all my blorbos and i adore them with every bit of my tiny little pathetic gay heart !!!?2! THOUGH.... my fav FAVs are max will and robin. im not gonna chose they're all at the same level i love em thoigh robin maybe just a tiny bit less because we don't know as much about her yet , i get more attached the more we learn though i guarantee that when season 4 comes out and we get a bit more robin stuff (hopefully)... she will definitely be with max and will. I just love them. though I LOVE DUSTIN AND MIKE TOOO!!!! dustin is such a great character he's been such an awesome staple and the show definitely would be bad as hell without him. and i love mike because i LOVE HIS FUCKING STORY AND HIS CHARACYER ARc he's just my pathetic little sad gay repressed homosexual. this is probably not making sense im so sorry😭

a scene you want to see in season 4?

GOD. anything. i just want to see A SCENE . i am so desperate for content that i will literally take anYYYTHINGZZZ ... though we have gotten some new shit lately in the lead up to s4 but it's been like what?? 3 years since we've had new stuff ? or is it 4? no it's gotta be 3 .. im terrible ag maths. but tbh i reALLY REALLY want to see ronance content , el discovering herself and like finding more things she's happy about specifically a hobby, i really want her to have an interest in something because she's had like . literally NOTHING except like all her trauma or just interest in like . mike. lIKE WHAT DOES SHE LOVE OTHER THAN THAT?? can she paint? will she write ? like give me a hobby pls!!! 💀as max says there's more to life than stupid boys please let her flourish as an individual . but like dude .. there as so many scenes i wanna see and this is So long already and i think i will leave it there before i go on an incomprehensible annoying ass tangent thank u

is mike gay bi or straight ?

ohhhkay so this discourse i been seeing a lot lately . ummm ima be dead honest he seems to be more queercoded as gay rather than bisexual like .. he throws himself into a relationship with el and like yes he does show genuine interest at first and like im going off the top of my head but basically just read @beepboop358 's byler proof google slides. that will summarise my whole opinion on the whole thing tbh. BUT !! im not opposed to him being bi!!! we have no idea at this standpoint guys rememebr that ! mike has a long way to go in terms of accepting himself and coming to terms and discovery etc let's just see what the duffers are gonna do with it !!! :)) so im gonna say it can be either one but i am leaning slightly towards gay because of all the subtext .

what season 4 storyline r u most excited to see ?

ALL OF THEM !!!! literally all of them. god im so so fuckimg exicted we're gonna get CONTENT BAYBEEEE i been watching the same 3 seasons for what feels like a goddamn lifetime like PLS.. ima be a bit basic and say the pizza gang mainly because i wanna see byler develop (and it looks like they're really leaning into it now !! HOLY SHIT FHDHDJDJB!!!!! i been shipping them since 2017 and ppl thought it was like a crack ship my god we've come so far .. ) though also very excited to see the older teens storyline especially with eddie seeing what kinda character he is !!

favourite ships ?

ummm obviously byler 😭😭😭😭and also elmax GOD elmax ... and also lumax !!! fucking love them. but also ronance and stoncy and also byclair and henclair .... like so much. i love em all. AND HENDERHOP very cute <3 and hopclair!!! i just love them ALL and also steveddie even though we barely have any content yet but i have a feeling it's gonna be really fun :))

favourite quote ?

mmm this is a good question honestly !!! i really like jonathan's quote "you shouldn't like things just cause people tell you you're supposed to" i love that honestly . makes me very happy :)) but like .. also hoppers letter at the end of s3??? it just gets to my heart in a way i can't explain... like damn. i remembr first time i watched it i CRIED my eyes out like jesus but also. half the quotes from season 1 i love 'em . so many iconic bits in that season

least favourite character ?

lonnie and brenner . those cunts can go rot in hell 🥰

least favourite ship?

umm i don't know to be honest. i don't have a ship that i hate , well actually h*rringrove i DESPISE they can fuck off .. hate the billy / karen thing years are taken off my life ever time im forced to see it..

i don't like j*pper very much (but only season 3, im not about to get into it rn i cant be fucked though i don't hate it) j*ncy is eh and m*leven . i don't hate melvin but i don't think they right for each other same with j*ncy. but otherwise idk i don't hate that many ships .. there's not that many that get under my skin except i don't prefer it if they don't really have chemistry or have issues though not saying relationships can't ever have issues that's unrealistic ,

and ITS OKAY THATS PLENTLY OF QUESTIONS FJDJDJ and i hope u like my annoying long ass answers becaude i have so much shit to say !!! I HOPE YOU HAGE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT TOO ANON THANK U I LOVE U <3333

[callilouv]

Just out or curiosity, what do you think my ship dynamic with my biases would be? They're Xiao, Ganyu, Shenhe, Kazuha, Maki, Yuji, Yuta, and Inumaki

eheheh everything is under the cut because its so long and I mean extremely long😭 have fun reading either way ehe <3

XIAO X JING

ok so like I feel ya'll would have this "actually sweet person that wants to make ppl happy x tsundere that melts for them but refuses to acknowledge the fact that they are, indeed, falling" FJSJHD IDKK I feel like he'd be a bit mean at first (not surprised) but once u two like,, get to know each other better, he'd be a little bit more soft he's still mean but he does little things for u like watching over you during your commissions in case u get hurt, leaving anonymous notes in ur room for when u come back saying "smiley yanxiao has your food prepared already, hurry before it gets cold." YEAH ALL THAT ITS RLLY CUTE FJKHS <33

GANYU X JING

OKOKO "overworked bb x the concerned gf that always has to remind the other to take care of themselves" LMAO I feel like even though shes working, she always has u in her mind hejhkf <3 when she comes back home, she'd always have some flowers and food that she knows u like <33 she could be wandering around liyue harbor doing her duties and then suddenly, she' buying some food for u two to enjoy later <3 omg she probably gets flustered at her own thoughts of you KJSHDV LIKE,, she could literally be thinking abt u and her making flower crowns for each other and she'd be vv red in the face LMAOHJGS she's such a precious bb pls give her love and affection, she loves it even though she chickens out sometimes <3 she doesn't mean to refuse ur affections but sometimes its just too much for her to handle yk? like "woah this woman is holding me like no-one else ever did wow is she hugging me? oh my god shes so warm is it bad that I want to kiss her?wdugfheurvhf *sort circuits*" shes gay panicking so bad pls help her HSHKAS

MAKI X JING

pre-shibuya I feel like she'd be vv protective of you ESPECIALLY if you're not a shaman, she would bring u to her training sessions with Panda and Toge bc she won't be at home a lot so why not bring you with her LMAO Panda and Toge probably teases Maki a lot when ur not around and it almost always ends up in Maki chasing panda and toge around the school FJSJHGSD lets you wear her glasses ehe <3 she thinks u look vv cute in em AND SAME GOES FOR HER CLOTHES !! a part of her just goes "dkhsHGDKJG" when she sees u wear her shirt <3 shes straight up gay-panicking LMAO post-shibuya cw : post-shibuya manga spoilers !!! I think at this point shes like,, yk,, traumatized from the Shibuya incident FKJHSD <//3 shes a bit more silent now and more stoic-ish and its just so sad, man, fuck Shibuya <///3 oh also, I hc that shes a bit insecure of her burn scars so when u have soft, intimate moments w her and yk calling her beautiful, she goes "you don't think my scars are ugly? :(" still a bad bitch though and we love her for that <3 URGH I WANT TO HUG POST-SHIBUYA MAKI SO BAD but I think we can all agree that she became 29846x hotter

YUJI X JING

bro yall r so cute istg "chaotic cinnamon roll x mature but also a chaotic cinnamon roll" HAHA yuji gives me strong golden retriever vibes A.K.A. absolutely whipped for you <3 Talks a lot about how pretty and wonderful you are to nobara and megumi but sometimes he gets too carried away and talks about you non-stop KJHSDGV what happens next? oh nothing, just nobara and megumi grabbing some duct tape for Yuji's mouth <3 he's just a vv sweet boyfie in general, I love him <33 he's by no means perfect, he has his depressive episodes too but he loves u so much that just looking at u makes him all giddy and happy, soon forgetting abt all of his worries SJKDVG <3333

YUTA X JING

UGH YUTA MY BELOVED <3 hes not ur man anymore jing, that my man now /hj "two softies in love" dynamic fr :( hes vv soft for u and so r u! I can see a lot of playful kisses in the mornings ehe <3 since he has to wake up early for his missions, he takes the time to admire ur sleeping face and its just so skjhfgsdgf if u look close enough, u can see hearts in his eyes fr and before he goes out of the house, he kisses ur forehead and whispers "I love you :)" AND URGH ITS JUST SO SO SWEET, those 3 words that he's too shy/nervous to say to you outwardly so he says in when ur sleeping instead <3 u have definitely tried faked sleeping before bc u were curious abt his morning routine but then u hear him say ily along with a forehead kiss and honestly,, WHO WOULDNT LOSE THEIR COMPOSURE??? I would be grinning like a fool in love for sure AND WHEN HE REALIZES THAT UR NOT ACTUALLY ASLEEP, HIS FACE WOULD TURN SO RED FHSJKHD "I⏤i should get going now before im late" he says while he has his back facing you but u can still see his ears flush a pretty shade of pink ehe <33 bro im just. i. I love him so much pleals;el😭💘

[yeonjuins]

i'm definitely a lot better, thank u so much <3 aside from being super super tired, i'm all good now and have fully healed :)) my bed has been so comfy these last two mornings, i've not wanted to move. i just want to take my bed with me while i work lmao. i think one of my problems in the morning is staying in my pjs while i work and i should probably work in my skinny jeans or smth to wake me up a little. :') i totally get you, i can fall asleep pretty quickly but if i have a nightmare or a cat stands on my face, it wakes me up and disturbs my sleep :(

that sounds like the absolute perfect pc 😍 that's basically what i want. as i play a lot of big games, a powerful pc is my goal. it's been really sad watching my games start to crash as time went on and now i can't play anything. one of my moots plays overwatch which is my favourite game and i'm excited to play it together with her <3333

WHY'S THAT SO FUNNY OH MY LORD 😂 i hate having those dreams that feel too real, like i had a dream that i broke up with my s/o over text and it felt SO REAL, i checked my phone in a panic and was so relieved that i didn't break up w him🥺😂

certain dreams mean certain things but some of mine don't make any sense sometimes. i always remember my dreams and when i tell my s/o, he looks at me like "what's wrong w you" LIKE I CAN'T CONTROL MY DREAMS???? i once had a dream that i went to a creepy zoo and there was a creepy old witch in one of the cages and then she saved me from being chased by a giant pencil. like what does that even mean 😂😂😂😂😂

i do not cope sleeping in warm weather, i need the fans on to sleep <3 i always worry for my kitties in the hot weather. uk houses aren't ventilated, they're not designed that way so the only way to keep them cool is to put loads of fans on and put ice in their water bowls :(

I SOBBED SO MUCH but then again when do i not at movies. i really enjoyed it :((( i watched it with my mum bc she was having an off day and she loved it <333

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truly my bed is super comfy... i'm able to wake up in the mornings but the hardest part is literally leaving my bed imo ;; does not matter what time i went to sleep at, if i have to be somewhere i will be awake but i do not want to leave my bed <3 which results in me falling back to sleep (": taking your bed to work with you seems like such a dangerous play... i'd fall asleep at work at any given time that i am tired and mess up my sleep schedule even more </3

THATS SO CUTE pls i hope once u get your pc built you're able to play all the games your heart desires <3 i have more of a knack of watching gameplay rather than actually playing it myself... my sense of logic with this is that i do not want to think on my free time and therefore, i will just watch others do all the thinking PAHAHAH one of my favourite games of all time is the ace attorney franchise and it's a... mystery? detective? sort of game? problem solving? LOL but it requires a lot of piecing together evidence to statements which my brain goes [STATIC] too <3 i love the game overall tho... the plotline is so funny and good (":

chased from a giant pencil... so true... that sounds like a good disney movie imo LOL the pencil gets all angry and begins to sharpen itself to make it's tip sharper and suddenly it's a weapon to society LMFAO AND OMG HAVING A DREAM U BROKE UP WITH YOUR S/O ;; that's acc horrifying... i had a couple dreams like that where my main group of friends left me </3 but i've had several funny ones and i'd wake up and send my friends voice notes INSTANTLY so i can sleepily talk about it and remember it for later times since they're so insane....

whenever it's summer, the ac in my house is always on full blast for some reason so it feels like winter in a sense LOL and it's vice versa for winter... my house feels extremely hot ;; it's nice in a sense knowing i'm all cozy or cooled but really not nice to experience during the extremes of the two weathers imo PAHAHHA i hope ur cats do okay in hot weather ): giving them my hugs

i also cry very easily to like.... legit anything LOL so me crying is not a good verdict of whether or not something is actually good <- is just very emotional but ! i did enjoy turning red, it was really cute hehe (:<

[inkykeiji]

Clariiii. I light up when talk to 🥺. Aww you're just a freaking treat haha. I'm doing good! Starting Monday, im gonna be a web developer aahhhh 😊. Im VERY excited, like waahhhh. and my team is so nice and chill. But enuff abt me! Im slowly catching up on your blog and you mentioned things were chaotic so um giving you lots and lots of hugs(how i wish it could be in person 😤). Im so much better at pep talks in person, but look! No matter what, you are whole and you are you. No. Matter. What!! So make sure you get some sunlight, some water, and enjoy your tomodachi. Also that abandoned building you went to 😥. It really is so sad how things like that are just left to rot. Uughhh. This message is getting so long tho so i will end it with a take care of yourself, or else...

MAY I AM SO MUSHY RNNNN AAAAH <33333 u are literally the best i am SO glad we met <333

ARE YOU SERIOUS oh my gosh that is absolutely FANTASTIC news may congratulations!!!!!! holy shit i'm so happy for u and proud of u!!!! that's a huge accomplishment, i hope you've celebrated with those close to u in some way!!!! i totally would've taken u out to get ur favourite sweet or something waaah 🥺 i am wishing you all the luck in the world my great friend, i'm sure it's going to be incredible!! <333

omg pls take ur time haha tho honestly i don't think there's too much to catch up on!! AAAH me too :(( u gotta move to canada so we can live in a cozy lil cabin up north and be cute as heck egirls!!! hehehe <3 oh may, thank you so very much 🥺🥺🥺 your words and compassion mean a ton to me, seriously. it is very comforting to know there's a good friend, a good PERSON, out there just cheering you on softly <3333 i hope you are taking care of yourself as well!!! you deserve nothing but the absolute best <3 i love u!!!

[catcze]

I don't have any ocs(mostly because Im scared of making them very extra or just a self insert) but I enjoy reading abt everyone's ocs! I actually finished this relatively quickly but,,, I kind of got lazy with the whole leg :( I fixed it a bit BUT hopefully in the future I will gib you something better than this for now just look from the bent of the arm up(or whatever looks good) haha

I also can't draw animals and I was fuled by genshin vas singing Lmao

At first I didn't know what to draw but I just looked at Mao huas name and kinda went with it also also,, she wasn't supposed to look sad, I messed up on their expression

I tried to make her look as accurate as possible the information you've given us,, so lmk if I should make her tanner or anything else!

Goodnight ! And have a good day :)

-shrimp anon

BABE PLS THIS IS SO CUTE OH MY GOD I LOVE IT 😭💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

SHRIMP BABE PLS I LOVE U SO MUCH THANK YOU KASJNDKJSA <333 pls I hope u don't mind that I saved it and that I am never going to delete it from my laptop oh my god aksnaskj <3333💞💞💞💞ajhas💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞