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Omg one of these are about to be pfp omg he’s so fine eeek
#criminal minds#spencer reid#dr spencer reid#doctor spencer reid#mggg mgg#mgg pics#spencer reid fandom#spencer reid pics#i love spencer reid
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Derek's stronger than me, i would've had my hands on that little twink the second we locked eyes
#i need him#i'm being dead serious#i need his dick#'sorry spencer' we all say in unison#i love spencer reid#mgg
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it started out as a crush, but I fear it is now a full blown obsession. please recommend some therapists
#spencer reid#matthew gray gubler#mgg#criminal minds#celebrity crush#girlblogging#this is a girlblog#tumblr girls#i love spencer reid
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2:34 am .
imagine you’re dating spencer and instead of him not being able to keep his hands off you, he can’t keep his hands on you. during sex he’s always to scared to put it in because he doesn’t want to hurt you, so he substitutes by sticking his pretty little face between your thighs and cleaning your messy cunt with his tongue and running your a warm bath afterwards. on your honeymoon, you guys had p in v sex for the first time and he did not hold back. it felt so amazing, but he ended up bruising your cervix and he wouldn’t touch you for like 3 weeks afterwards. he always muttered ‘i’m sorry- i’m so sorry-’ whenever he even thought that he was going too hard inside of you, he promises to be gentle at first but the pace he goes is always too underwhelming for him so he ends up fucking the lights out of you, only to feel guilty about you being cock drunk; barely being able to form a coherent sentence. he always tells you how pretty you are afterwards, begging you to forgive him. and you love it.
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Goob-Cats ! ✧.*
Cats that remind me MMG !!
Likes and re-blawgs are appreciated :3
#spencer reid#i love mgg#mgg#dr spencer reid#i love spencer reid#doctor spencer reid#dr reid#marrymespencerreid#spencer reid criminal minds#criminal minds#goobcats#blawgs#cats#mggcats#kitties#so silly#sill cats#gatos#matthew gubler#matthew gray gubler
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"i never have any normal fans"
meanwhile i'm chatting to him on character.ai
#'sorry spencer' we all say in unison#spencer reid#i love spencer reid#criminal minds#dr spencer reid#spencer x reader#i need him#mgg#i love you matthew gray gubler
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COFFEE
in which bau!reader hates coffee, but loves spencer!
warnings: tooth-rotting fluff because spencer reid is one of the cutest people to ever exist i just love his little face so much.
a/n: this is my first blurb i will be writing on tumblr yay! feedback is appreciated, and always read. going from wattpad to tumblr so please let me know if there’s anything i can change!
You hadn’t felt the presence of the other agents around you until a hand is pressed to your shoulder.
You jump slightly, head spinning around to find the person that had pulled you out of your fixation. A gentle smile was placed on Spencer’s face as he looked down at you, eyes soft. He had a mug in his hand, you could see the steam coming from the top.“What’s got you so focused?” He placed the mug down on your desk, coming to rest beside it, leaning against the edge where your desks connected. “I might have…forgotten some paperwork Hotch needed from me.” Your grimace was evident to Spencer, who only let out a low chuckle.
“I can help you. I read fast.” You gave him a genuine smile this time, placing your hand on top of his and giving it a light squeeze. “I know. Twenty thousand words per minute, right?” He nodded proudly, before leaning over your shoulder to read the papers messily spread across your desk. “You know, statistically, our subconscious can process up to eight thousand bytes of information per minute, so these fifteen reports should take us around a half hour.” All you could do was stare at him dreamily, he was a perfect picture. “Are you listening to me?”
“I’m always listening to you, Spence. But you forget, i’m not a genius, and my subconscious has a mind of it’s own, so this is going to take at least two hours between us.”
Spencer’s hand reached out, tucking a stray strand of hair behind your ear. “I’ll be right back, you’re going to need stimulation to maintain your focus on certain tasks, so i’m going to make coffee.” You gave him a gentle smile as he kissed you on the cheek, running off in the direction of the kitchenette across the bullpen. Morgan sat across from you, ears perked up throughout the conversation. He turned towards you, eyebrows furrowed. “You hate coffee.”
“Yeah. But I love him.”
#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid#criminal minds#bau team#x reader#i love spencer reid#I LOVE SPENCER REID SO MUCH
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date nights with spence <3
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spencer/mgg…. im a WHORE for you <3
#dr reid#dr spencer reid#i love spencer reid#spencer reid#criminal minds#cm fandom#mgg#mgg pics#matthew gray gubler#my man fr#my man <3#matthew gubler#gublernation
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RAIL ME RAIL ME RAIL ME RAIL ME RAIL ME RAIL ME… anyways!
#spencer reid smut#spencer reid fluff#criminal minds#wattpad#matthew gray gubler#i love spencer reid#rail me#please
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Checkmate S.R
In which Spencer notice you were cold as you both were walking back to the BAU after a game of chess , he offered you his hoodie which smelled like him ..
I want that hoodie of his .. oops inner thoughts coming out
Paring: Spencer Reid ! Fem!BAU!reader
Category: fluff cute playing chess in your crush apartment you win spencer is speechless…
Content warning: none just cuteness overload
Word count : 1.K
Author notes : can someone teach me to play chess please thank you …. I need Rossi to teach me too ..
This is my first attempt of writing something like this
I’m still learning as I go along .
I hope you guys enjoy this .
Sorry if there is any mistakes I did my best to proofread I had to get a fic out to day it was way to long that I’ve written something. I’ve been working on this one for over two months it just got done .
It had been a week of playful banter and friendly rivalry between you and Spencer Reid. As the newest member of the BAU, you'd quickly formed a crush on the brilliant, albeit socially awkward, genius. During lunch breaks, coffee runs, and late shifts at the office, you’d teased him mercilessly, proclaiming that you could beat him at chess, even though you had never played a proper game in your life.
Your bold challenge had sparked a spark of competitive spirit in him, but to level the playing field, you quickly sought out the expertise of David Rossi, the BAU's resident game strategist and an experienced chess player.
“Rossi,” you said one day, cornering him in the break room, a muffin in one hand and a determined look in your eye. “I need your help. I want to learn how to play chess. I have a… challenge in mind.”
He raised an eyebrow, intrigued. “And who is this challenge against?”
You couldn’t suppress a grin as you replied, “Spencer Reid.”
Rossi chuckled. “Alright, you want to take on the genius himself. Go grab a board, and let’s get started.”
Over the next few days, Rossi taught you the rules, strategies, and intricacies of the game. You learned how to control the center of the board, how to develop your pieces, and most importantly, how to anticipate your opponent's moves. With each lesson, you felt more and more confident, able to visualize intricate patterns while trying to suppress the butterflies in your stomach whenever you thought about facing Spencer.
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Finally, the day arrived. Exhausted from the excitement, you had set up a chessboard in Spencer’s cozy apartment, which was filled with bookshelves crammed with novels and worn-out biographies. The atmosphere was inviting, but you could feel your heart racing with anticipation.
Spencer entered his apartment, casting his gaze around as he noticed the chessboard. His eyes widened in a mixture of surprise and intrigue. “You set up a chess game? I could have sworn you didn’t know how to play.”
You smiled sweetly, tapping your fingers on the side of the board as you replied, “Well, I had a secret teacher. Care to find out if I’ve improved?”
He chuckled, half-amused, half-challenged. “Alright, I’ll humor you. But don’t underestimate me, he says to you I’ve played chess a lot longer than you’ve been in the BAU.”
You sat down across from him, feeling a surge of adrenaline. “I wouldn’t dream of underestimating you, Reid. Just know that I’m ready to take you down.”
The game began, and you were in the zone. You moved decisively, recalling all of Rossi’s tips as you challenged Spencer’s every move. You could see his brows furrowing in concentration as he studied the board with that intense look you found so adorable. With each passing moment, you sensed the shift of power on the board—and in your stomach.
The game unfolded with a beautiful dance of black and white pieces. You’d managed to gain the upper hand by sacrificing a pawn to force his knights into less strategic positions. Spencer hadn’t expected this boldness, and for a second, you couldn’t help but feel triumphant.
After a few exchanges, the game reached a critical moment, and you carefully planned your next move. “You know,” you said, trying to divert his attention, “Rossi did mention something about how it’s not just about being smart; it’s about being unpredictable.”
Spencer smirked slightly but kept his focus. “Is that your way of taunting me?”
“Maybe,” you replied, leaning back in your chair. “Or maybe I’m just letting you know that this rookie is about to surprise you.”
You moved your queen one last time. It was an aggressive move, edging into his territory, and suddenly it clicked. You had him cornered, and with a thrilling rush of excitement, you called out, “Checkmate!”
Spencer sat back, his mouth slightly agape as he registered what had just happened. “Wait… what? You actually did it!”
You couldn’t help but laugh, the sound echoing in the cozy apartment. “I did! I beat you, Dr. Reid! Maybe you should consider letting me teach you a thing or two next time.”
He shook his head in disbelief, a wide smile spreading across his face. “This is… unexpected. But also, kind of amazing. You did learn quickly.” As you gathered the pieces to put back in the box in the board, your hands touch he smiles , “So who taught you how to play , he asked you ,
“umm just an old friend you say .
“He looks at you for a minute Rossi he asked ?
“Yes you finally gave in ,
well played we should head back , Reid says .
Sure you say .
The afternoon air was crisp as you and Reid made your way back to the BAU , “as you were walking side by side with him feeling the chill seep through your thin shirt and jeans. You shivered involuntarily, I should had brought my hoodie you say to yourself, “crossing your arms tightly over your chest in a futile attempt to retain some warmth.
Spencer, ever observant, glanced over at you with a furrowed brow. “Are you cold?” he asked, his voice laced with concern.
You nodded, trying to shrug it off. “It’s fine. I’ll be okay.”
He paused for a moment, contemplative. “Here, take this.” Without waiting for your agreement, he pulled his hoodie over his head and handed it to you.
You blinked, surprised. “Are you sure?”
“Absolutely,” he replied with that gentle smile of his, the one that always made your heart flutter. “I can’t have you freezing on the way back.”— “After all you did beat me in chess .
With a heartwarming mix of gratitude and delight, you slipped the hoodie over your head. It was warm, enveloping you like a cozy blanket. The fabric smelled like him—old books and a hint of his cologne—immediately easing the chill from your bones.
As you looked up, your smile was undeniable, reaching your eyes. “Wow, this feels really nice,” you said, feeling a blush creep to your cheeks. “It smells just like you.”— I mean I didn’t mean to say that out loud..
Spencer’s cheeks tinted slightly pink, a rare sight that made you feel giddy. “That’s because it is mine,” he said, brushing a hand through his messy hair. “I can always get it back later.”
You pulled the hood up over your head, tucking into the soft fabric. “I might not give it back,” you teased, trying to hide your grin.
“Just be careful with it,” he chuckled, his gaze lingering on you with warmth. “You know, it suits you.”
Your heart raced at the compliment, and your smile widened. “Thanks, Spence. I appreciate it.”
As you walked side by side, the warmth of the hoodie and his presence wrapped around you, the world outside felt a little less cold. You took a deep breath, savoring the scent that felt like a piece of him lingering near..
#criminal minds#spencer reid#dr spencer reid#doctor spencer reid#comfort Spencer Reid#spencer reid imagine#hoe 4 hotchner#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid fanfiction#sassy spencer reid#chess#i love spencer reid
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Isn’t he pretty?
#spencer reid#matthew gray gubler#criminal minds#my husband#love of my life#i love spencer reid#pretty boy#spencer inspo#in love
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my little Christmas wish list
#spencer reid#i love spencer reid#matthew gray gubler#mgg#mgg pics#criminal minds#celebrity crush#christmas list#girlblogging#this is a girlblog#tumblr girls
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𝖇𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝖍𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝖇𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐬.
summary; after falling in love with spencer reid, you navigate the challenges that come with your relationship. While you cherish your moments together, the rough patches can be hard to ignore. One day, in an effort to find clarity, you go shopping and unexpectedly discover something world shattering. But before you can share the news with Spencer, he comes home with a shocking revelation that could change everything between you.
cw!!; +18 content, minors dni!, spencer reid x reader, angst, cliffhanger ending, breakups, mentions of drug use, mentions emetophobia warning; vomiting -- mentions of pregnancy -- Y/N HAS A GIRL KISSER BSF !
. w/c: 4.1k -- don't forget to like / reblog !! this is not proof read + english is not my first language
You and Spencer had been privately dating for seven months. At first, it was exciting. sneaking around, leaving parties early to go hook up in the bathroom, the birthday sex, apology sex, apology for apologizing with sex sex, it was easy, it was simple—you both met through a party he and his team was invited to by your best friend Ciara, who was friends with the one and only Penelope Garcia. you both got to talking and by the end of the night, you were snuggled up in his bed with his dick in your mouth. and he learned two things that night. 1. he had never had head that brought him so much ecstasy. and two, by the way your outgoing demeanor fit perfectly with being his more shy and non-direct, you were the one for him and he would've been a fool to let you slip through his fingers. those late-night study sessions, stolen kisses in dimly lit hallways, and quiet moments over coffee made you feel like the luckiest person in the world. but the moment that you hit the three month mark, everything went downhill. and usually, at six months, its supposed to be good again, right? wrong.
the past few months had turned into a whirlwind of arguments. It felt like every time you talked, it spiraled into a fight over something that should have been minor. “You don’t understand what I’m going through, Spencer!” you yelled one evening after a tough day at work where he seemed more focused on the case than on how you were feeling. “I do, understand [y/n] I just don't care. Not everything has to be about you.” that night, you both had shouted over each other until the early hours of the morning, hearts racing, voices raised, and emotions running high. the tension felt suffocating. and to ease it you tried to have makeup sex, and he started an argument while literally inside you because he felt like you were faking orgasms and doing it in a obvious way to make him feel bad; you were.
It wasn’t just work stress that fueled the fire; it was the pressure of hiding your hardships relationship from your colleagues, the weight of lying to your friends, and the constant fear of him leaving. and the fear of you leaving for him only made him resent you more. sometimes, it felt like you were living a double life, and you didn’t know how to bridge the gap between your love for Spencer and the isolation that secrecy brought. the make-up moments after the fights were fleeting, filled with hugs and quiet apologies as you tried to mend the shaky ground you were standing on. you’d find yourselves wrapped in each other’s arms, promises lingering in the air that things would change, but deep down, you both knew nothing had really shifted.
but today, everything felt heavier than usual. you had woken up to yet another silent treatment from spencer, both of you too stubborn to reach out to each other first. the anxiety had burrowed deep in your chest, making it hard to breathe. you could sense it—Ciara had noticed. when she came over, she was met with a hurried and agitated spence who only muttered a cold greeting before walking out the door as fast as he opened it for her. her footsteps where light and quick, making her way towards your bedroom where she heard retching and coughing.
you spit into the toilet bowl, groaning in discomfort as everything you had last week came back to haunt you. you looked up at Ciara as she held your hair back, getting her fingers tangled as she took a moment to try her best to untangle them without scalping you. You sat there in front with your head down as you dry gagged, and once you were safe, you reached up and flu shed the toilet.
Ciara rubbed your back for a little before pulling your head to rest on her chest, planting sweet kisses on your forehead. you giggle at the sensation and make tsk sounds. “If you were a man,” you muttered, to which she rolls her eyes at you and lets you go with a smile, helping you stand up, she runs some water so you pat your mouth with it and spit out all the yucky residue left over. she starts asking questions and all you can think back at was this morning. it pained you and you felt your heart sink the more you thought back at it, you realize that him expressing his feelings, yelling, insulting, or even cursing you would've been better. he just left you, in silence. he didn't acknowledge you, and it just made you feel terrible. you looked at Ciara, overcome with emotions which got you a confused look. “What's going on with you--”
“He didn't even look at me, cee.” You muttered as tears filled your eyes uncontrollably. your emotions overwhelmed you as you melted into her arms, you were holding her incredibly tight, she probably wouldn't be able to breathe if you gave her an oxygen tank. She scrambled over her words trying to find away to not pass out from the lack of blood going to her brain because you were quite literally blocking any blood flow possible. She tapped your back and you released your death grip, to which she exhaled heavily.
“Who, What? What are we talking about?”. you stared up at her with a expression of depression, not moving your lips to answer her question. It gave her the answer alone. “That's not... like him.”. Scoffing, you shook your head and wiped your tears, your mood switching from self-pity to pure and undeniable anger. “It's exactly, like him. Actually.”. She tried her best to calm you down but you couldn't, you just walked out of the bathroom and fell face first on the bed, screaming and letting out all of your frustration on his cotton sheets. You started mumbling out of intense anger, and Ciara just stood there, flinching with every curse that flew through your lips as if you were going to reach backwards and bite her.
It took you twenty-and-some minutes to calm down. It took you three to go back to being sad and depressed. Your mood swings were seriously giving her whiplash. You sat up and heaved, sobbed, flew your arms around like a toddler. Ciara sat with you and let you sob on her chest until you start hyperventilating, she blew on your face so you could catch your breathe, shushing you to soothe your tears. Your brain felt fuzzy, your senses has softened.
The only thing that you felt was the immense pounding on your head you couldn't help but feel. “How about we go on a little drive, yeah?” you looked up at her with your red eyes glistening was a tear fell down your cheek, you nodded. you needed fresh air. “Yeah?” She spoke in a soft voice, kissing your head. “Alright go put on some clothes ill be out here,”
Ciara sat behind the wheel, the engine humming softly as she pulled away from spencer's place. The cool breeze wafted through the slightly open window, sending a refreshing shiver through you. You let it wash over you, momentarily grounding you in the present. Still, your mind felt fuzzy, caught in a haze that blurred your thoughts and emotions. It was as if you were floating, untethered from reality, with everything around you blurring into a muddled backdrop.
the streets rushed by, and while the world outside was alive with the chatter of people and the vibrant colors of storefronts, you found yourself lost in your own silence. You stared at the trees lining the road, their branches dancing in the breeze, but even their movement felt distant and out of reach. each passing moment felt like an echo, reverberating through your mind but leaving no traces of clarity.
Ciara’s was talking, filled with energy and it made you feel oh, so worse because you were not listening. “No, dude, I'm being so serious. I told her that she can either get her shit together and stop acting like a little kid or she can pack her shit and leave because I've had enough crazy girlfriends to know it is not for the fucking weak.” you barely registered the words. they floated in one ear and out the other, your focus remaining hazy. you shifted in your seat slightly, trying to push the swirling emotions away, yet they clung to you like a shadow.
“You’d think we were fighting we were fighting over me burning her house down, no. A miss call, a singular miss call and I called her back immediately. And of course, she chose to get her act together because... honestly, would you leave me?” she joked, grinding in her seat to pop her ass a little;
the corners of your mouth twitched, but you didn’t have the energy to respond; the effort felt monumental. As the scenery shifted from commercial buildings to the broader expanses of the mall, you caught yourself wishing you could feel that lightness again. The breeze slipping through the window felt nice, but every now and then, a wave of discomfort coursed through you, reminding you of the things you were trying to forget.
Ciara continued talking, sharing the latest gossip, her voice a steady stream of sound that mingled with the whoosh of passing cars. “and after that, she tried to hookup with me as an “apology”. if she could lick my pussy a couple times and I'm going to immediately forgive her... she's right.”
Still, you remained silent, lost in thought. The feelings swirling within you were too tangled to unravel—the confusion, the sadness, the weight of it all. It felt heavy, and as you drove closer to the mall, the world outside turned brighter, but for you, it remained shrouded in dimness.
As Ciara pulled into the parking lot, the chaotic colors of the mall surrounded you. She parked the car, casting a glance your way. “Alright, no talk of Spencer with the little dick while we're here alright?”
You nodded slowly, but your mind was still a storm of thoughts and emotions that had yet to settle. The sounds of laughter and footsteps filled the air as you stepped out of the car, but even amidst the noise, you felt like you were still floating, caught between what was real and what was just a distraction.
“There's no reason to lie to make me feel better,”, she laughed.
as you and Ciara stepped into the mall, the vibrant atmosphere enveloped you like a cocoon, yet the comfort it should have provided seemed out of reach. the air hummed with energy: laughter echoed against polished floors, the shuffling of bags blended into an excited chorus, and the enticing aromas of popcorn, pretzels, and fried food wafted through the space, each scent calling to a desire for comfort that you just couldn’t find.
you glanced around, taking in the kaleidoscope of people—the families with cheerful children, groups of friends chatting animatedly as they moved, and couples entwined in conversation. Yet, as the cheerful masses moved past, a heavy discontent settled within your chest, a constant nagging feeling that wouldn’t let up. Your thoughts were tangled, fighting the urge to not talk about spencer.
the urges whooped your ass.
“Ugh, I can’t believe how dramatic Spencer has been lately,” you began, shaking your head as you ambled towards the escalator up to victoria's secret each step feeling heavier than the last. You reached for a sleek top on a nearby rack, your fingers brushing the fabric as you stated, “He didn't even tell me what his problem was this time, Ciara. He's like a fucking kid,”
Ciara nodded, her attention shifting between you and the vibrant clothes on display. “He's exactly like Manny. You know if you were a lesbian, I'm pretty sure you would've been with her by now.”
"Har-har." you let out a fake laugh, pulling the top closer to you and inspecting it in the harsh fluorescent lights. “and its not like I don't fuck with him. Of course I do, but its only okay when I do it! and i never do it first.”
She stared at you.
“Okay, I mostly never do it first.”
you stepped into the fitting rooms, pulling aside the curtain with a little more force than necessary. Ciara leaned against the wall outside, concern evident in her eyes. “Well, it sounds like he’s really going through something. I mean the last time he had a girlfriend was years ago, plus she did get shot in front of him. Maybe, just maybe... he needs time to adjust to having you.”
“It's been 6 months, how much time does he need.” you admitted, slipping into a pair of jeans. “I’m trying to support him, but at the same time, it feels like whenever I need support I'm the 'crazy' one.”
you spun in front of the mirror, checking the fit, and briefly appreciated the outfit, but the satisfaction was fleeting. You couldn’t shake the gnawing frustration and worry that lingered in your mind. After trying on a few more items, you settled on a cozy sweater that draped nicely over your shoulders and a pair of jeans that tugged your ass and thighs perfectly.
Stepping out of the fitting room, you caught sight of Ciara’s bright smile—a thumbs-up that fueled a flicker of confidence despite the dark cloud of your thoughts. “You look great! Food?” she chirped, her enthusiasm piercing through your fog. “I look like I got fat, but, yes.” you giggled.
“Yeah, only in the right places.” she replied, leaving a quick smack on your ass. the idea of food felt foreign to you, your appetite making you uneasy. and the more you thought about it, you weren't really prone to gaining weight. in the last eight weeks, you've gained almost seven pounds. even as you walked toward the food court, the excited chatter and laughter felt like a cruel reminder of the happiness you were struggling to hold onto with Spencer.
as you navigated through the chaos of the food court, the aromas wrapped around you, each scent competing for your attention. You scanned the options—pizza, burgers, Asian stir-fry, sizzling hot dogs—but as much as your stomach wanted to respond, it remained cold and distant.
Ciara and you eventually settled on a plate of asian food. You found a table, and despite the enticing food in front of you, the heaviness in your chest pulled you down, dimming your appetite further.
while Ciara was talking about her sex life, your own thoughts lingered on Spencer: his hands, the way his mind worked like a finely tuned machine, how he would
“when I tell you she had me bent in ways I can't say out loud because I would be put on some kind of list--” Ciara’s words finally broke through the fog in your mind, and you looked at her, your voice barely above a whisper, “I feel… weird.”
Ciara’s smile faded, concern etching itself across her face. “What do you mean weird? ”
The discomfort swelled inside you as the weight of your stomach pressed down further. “I don’t know. It’s just everything… ugh. I really don’t feel good.” The admission felt heavy on your tongue, yet fear flooded through you, mingling with confusion and anxiety.
“Hey, [y/n] uh--” Ciara said, her voice laced with concern as she leaned closer, trying to draw you back into the moment. “Breathe, okay? Just uh--”
her voice did no help, the world around you began to tilt, the bright lights and laughing voices tuned out as your vision began to blur. A rising wave of dizziness crashed over you, swallowing every sense until you felt on the verge of vanishing into the void of darkness.
before you could utter another word, the world slipped away in an instant—darkness encased you, quieting the chaos of the food court and pressing down into a silence that felt weighty yet freeing. You couldn’t tell if you were floating or falling, but nothing remained except an overwhelming absence -- and then your body hit the floor.
“[y/n]? [Y/N]! Someone help, please!” Ciara begged and yelled out as she breathed on your face, checking your pulse. you were breathing, that's all that mattered. being in school for nursing, really wasn't doing her any justice at the moment.
three-hundred-thirty-eight minutes. that's how long it took for you to wake up.
you gradually regained consciousness to the muted buzz of light and occasional distant sounds filtering through the haze of your mind. blinking several times, you squinted against the warm, yellow light spilling through the curtains in the hospital room. the glow felt too harsh against your eyelids, and as you turned your head slightly, a wave of dizziness swept over you.
a sharp ache spiked through your temples, and you instinctively raised a hand to your forehead, feeling the softness of the pillows beneath you. your body felt heavy, soreness settling deep in your muscles—each small movement sent prickles of discomfort shooting through your limbs. you groaned softly, the sound a mere whisper in the stillness of the room.
The room itself was a comforting chaos, the machines beeping, the flowy blue curtains. But it was the smell that truly caught your attention: a mix of treacle sweetness from ciara's half-eaten candy bar on the nightstand, which you grabbed over and took a chunk out of. the clean scent of freshly laundered sheets, and just a hint of the medication. it was oddly grounding, and for a moment, it eased the nausea rising in your stomach like a tidal wave.
taking a deep breath, you lay still, attempting to collect your thoughts. fragments of memory flickered through your mind—little moments of laughter and joy interspersed with the anxiety that had been consuming you before everything went dark. You remembered the bustling vibe of the mall, the annoying feeling of your heart racing, and a sudden wave of dizziness that had pulled you down. panic surged through you as you recalled Ciara’s frantic voice, calling for help when you collapsed.
“there's, no way I actually fainted.” you murmured to yourself, the thought sending a shiver down your spine. “ew, that's so corny.” you felt a flush of heat creep up your cheeks, a mix of embarrassment and concern. you turned to ciara, whose face was unchanged the entire time. her face stayed the same -- she looked horrified. concern. something was wrong with you, and you had a really bad feeling about what. it wasn't stress, it wasn't spencer. it was something else.
thirty-eight minutes. thats how long it took for you to find out.
ciara stayed by your side, her face didn't dare to flinch. a nurse stepped quietly into the room, her hesitant movements breaking the fragile quiet that enveloped the space. the atmosphere felt charged, and you could sense the shift immediately, your heart beginning to pound. the light from the window framed ciara, washing over her in a way that felt almost ethereal. as her expression morphed from concern into something more serious, an unsettling tension settled between you, pinning you both in a moment that seemed to stretch on.
when the nurse began to deliver the news her words flowed without sound, each gesture amplifying the weight of what she had to say. you felt your breath hitch as a wave of uncertainty crashed over you, the reality of her news unsettling sinking in like a stone. the room, once familiar and comforting, suddenly felt small and suffocating, the walls closing in as vivid memories backtracked through your mind—laughter, plans, and dreams that now teetered on the brink of change. the warmth of the space became oppressive as your heart raced, fear mingling with disbelief.
in an instant, the safety of your world unraveled, and the gravity of ciara's presence anchored you to an unsettling truth. the air was thick with unvoiced questions, your heart heavy with the weight of responsibility and the unknown. as the silence roared in your ears, every breath turned bittersweet, a reminder of how everything that had once seemed so certain was now tinged with complexity. you stood there, caught between the past and an uncertain future, realizing in that moment that everything had changed.
fifteen minutes. that's how long it took to get discharged.
the car glided smoothly along the dark road, the headlights casting fleeting beams of light onto the pavement, illuminating the otherwise shadowy world outside. ciara sat in the drivers seat seat, her silhouette a quiet presence lost in thought, her silence wrapping the cabin in an almost palpable stillness. each soft breath she took seemed to mirror the steady thrum of the engine, but the weight of her unspoken emotions filled the air, creating a tension that was hard to ignore. the familiar contours of the landscape slipped by in an undulating blur, trees lining the road like silent sentinels.
as the miles rolled on, your mind began to wander, seeking distraction in the rhythmic pattern of passing objects. you started to count the trees, the sturdy trunks becoming a makeshift anchor in the sea of swirling thoughts. one after another, the arboreal figures flickered past, offering a sense of solace as if each counted tree marked a moment of time that moved further away from the hospital. the darkened silhouettes blurred together, yet you found a strange comfort in the repetitive task, allowing your focus to drift into the rhythm of your surroundings.
six hours, thirty-one minutes. and not a single call from spencer.
as the car glided to a stop in the driveway, the familiar surroundings of your home greeted you with an unsettling mix of comfort and anxiety. the sky was turning shades of purple and orange, a vivid sunset framing the moment. ciara turned off the engine and sat in silence for a moment, her eyes fixed on the front door, as if gauging its significance. you both understood that what waited beyond that threshold was life-changing.
you unbuckled your seatbelt and took a deep breath, your mind swirling with thoughts you had been trying to organize all day. today had felt unending, a series of moments stacked upon one another, each one urging you toward this very conclusion. the weight of what you needed to reveal pressed heavily on your chest, and you were acutely aware of the time you had spent wrestling with your emotions.
ciara glanced at you, her expression a blend of concern and encouragement. you could tell she wanted to say something, perhaps offer reassurance, but instead, she simply gave your hand a gentle squeeze. the gesture felt grounding, a reminder that while you were stepping into the unknown, you were not entirely alone.
with a nod, you exited the car, the cool evening air wrapping around you like a cloak. you took a moment on the doorstep, hesitating as you glanced back at ciara, who offered you a reassuring smile before she drove away. the sound of the engine faded, leaving you with the echo of your own heartbeat.
spencer sat there, something heavy on his mind. his shirt was off, and he was stood in sweatpants and the line of his boxers showing. his hair was damp and flew down to his shoulders, his arms clinging onto the back of his neck and he eyed you up and down. you stared up at him with heavy, red eyes. you set down your purse and stared off into the distance.
he stared at you in silence. it was pissing you off. he was acting like a fucking child, and now really wasn't the time. your heart raced as your thoughts spiraled, the weight of everything you had been holding inside bubbling just beneath the surface. You could feel the frustration rising as you realized you were no longer willing to play your eyes met, and in that shared moment of understanding, something unspoken ignited.
“I can’t do this anymore,”
“I'm pregnant.” You blurted simultaneously.
The air shifted, charged with the gravity of your revelation and his confession, and the silence that had ruled the room felt like it was finally ready to crack open, revealing the unvoiced truths waiting just beneath the surface. your eyes widened and jaw feel open, as you grasped what just came out of his mouth. tears welled up at your eyes, and his met with yours with the same expression, and at the same time you both uttered;
“What?”
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He my man, he just don't know it yet <3
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me and my friends were talking about celebrity crushes and 'hear me out's and i showed Matthew Gray Gubler for my celebrity crush- obviously??
these freaks said he was a 'hear me out'
THAT MAN IS SO OBJECTIVELY GORGEOUS HOW DO THEY NOT SEE IT????
i showed them these images, and they're still stupid.
#mental illness#i need him#i'm sorry matthew gray gubler#thinking about matthew gray gubler#i love you matthew gray gubler#spencer reid#i love spencer reid#mgg#hear me out#celebrity crush
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