#i love songs with a tint of emo to them especially

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i really want to write a full analysis comparing dnp to that one stupid lil gay furry indie rock album with the dogs on the cover but that requires way more research than i thought... so for now here is a lyrical analysis of "Twin Fantasy (Those Boys)", the final song off the album Twin Fantasy (Face to Face) by Car Seat Headrest, and comparison to dnp wrt to their careers and lives.

the original context of this album and this chorus is that the narrator is reflecting on a tumultuous past relationship, at first viewing this romance through rose-tinted glasses (the dark, inside, fantasy) before finally being able to see the truth (the sun, outside, reality.) the pain of looking at the sun is the pain of revisiting the narrator's past. often times we use pain as an indicator that we are experiencing reality (pinching yourself to make sure you're not dreaming.)

these lines repeat throughout the song, yknow like a chorus...

the past few years of dnp's careers and lives have been very much on the reflective and introspective side. for them, the "fantasy" is the explosion of their careers, their success as creators, the audience who has stuck with them. of course all of this is true, but at the same time, the reality is that during the absolute height of their careers, they were in the closet, had repressed mental health issues, had overworked themselves, and had their boundaries frequently overstepped. and they have been reflecting on both sides of this coin.

the story and memories the narrator has retold will never disappear. the fond memories of the relationship will always be there, both figuratively and literally as they have been recorded in song form.

this is true for dnp as well. the memories that they share, both with each other and with the audience, won't go away. we will always have pinof 1. we will always have videos of them being silly and goofing off and just having fun with each other. and even when they have deleted stuff in the past, they are no longer trying to take any of it down and even reference deleted videos and old posts as they no longer have anything to hide in showing them.

dude im not even gonna analyze these lyrics i just wanted to add them here cuz like just fuckin read them what the hell is this gay shit this is so dnp (and also its the same concepts as seen above)

edit: i lied i am going to expand my thoughts on these lyrics

dnp have basically built their careers on having fun. they've taken jobs and sponsorships they didnt want necessarily, they were workaholic closet cases, but like. they always made sure to have a good time. you can especially see this in the very early videos as well as on the gaming channel, where they felt ever so slightly less pressure to put up a front. they LOVE creating stuff together, they love hanging out with each other, theres absolutely no denying this! theyre not kissing and theyre not fucking i mean who knows lmao but instead of interpretting that literally, its more like. thats not the point, that was never the point. are there shippers amongst us? yes fer sure, but that isnt what pulled us all in. what pulled us in was their connection, their dynamic, and how much fun they have on camera together!!!!!!! these two brothers lovers boys and their smooth-cocked youthful adventures!

the cover of twin fantasy is a very simple drawing of two anthropomorphic dogs in an embrace, their arms seeming to be conjoined, and the eye of one dog overlapping with the similarly drawn nose of the other dog.

dan and phil. are so symbiotic. how much of this do i have to explain... from the very start, from their first meeting. yes there are the superficial similarities (tall gay british emos who like the same media) but anyone can have those similarities. dnp knew immediately that there was a connection that they shared that was different from anyone else's. there was some sort of inescapable pull toward each other, call it fate or soul-bonding or autism, they simply could not keep away from each other even if they wanted to.

alright THIS. OK THISSSSSS.

ok ok so there are two versions of this entire album, and in the rerecording (which is what we're analyzing) some lyrics have been changed. this part is spoken word, and is completely different from the original. in the og (mirror to mirror) version, it seems the narrator is lamenting this awakening into reality, and breaking the fantasy for him is dark and twisted. in this new version, the narrator is no longer talking about himself in third person. he is Actually breaking the fantasy now, literally breaking the fourth wall, and directly addressing the person whom this album was written about. the contract is up, the names have been changed, aka, they no longer have to be tied down by this dark history. in the real world, the songwriter and this ex are still friends (or have become friends again?) and said ex even drew the art for the album that came after this rerecording. this story that the narrator had put out into the world, they no longer allow it to chain down what could happen in the future.

DAN AND PHIL. OK WAIT ACK OK so like circling back to what i was saying earlier about THEIR fantasy and reality, i mentioned how their reality was dark compared to the fantasy that they showed to us on youtube. and now they have shown us that reality. BUT AGAIN. they refuse to let that tie them down!!!! yes it took a few years of recuperation but they are creating stuff together again! AND AGAIN! the version of them that can exist outside of everything, is in their old videos. we can always go back! they will always be there for us (both dnp and the audience) to revisit. in theory i mean things get deleted but ykwim tho... the contract is up. they are no longer obligated by their management or by publishing or by radio to censor themselves or hide any aspect of themselves. the names have been changed. dan rebranded in 2017, but phil also very subtly and very slowly rebranded in his own way. the gaming channel literally came back from the dead, got a facelift, and yeah itll always be the same ole dnp banting and jesting but from the very first return video the energy is SO MUCH DIFFERENT and i PROMISE it is not just bc they are out as gay although OBV thats a huge part of it but they are just. happier! and more themselves! and its so visible in their faces and body language and tone and EVERYTHINGGGGG.

but listen, remember, these are only lyrics now. theres a version of them that exists outside of everything. and that version is in the old videos. yes they were closeted and overworked and mentally struggling, but they were still happy there too. and they never ever discount how happy those videos have made US. they know how much all of their older content means to us bc it means so much to them too. "you are as important to us as we are to you."

i'll end this with the last line, that repeats over and over before the song finally ends. this line can be interpretted so many ways imo, but i just think it generally ties together my entire thesis. thank you for reading my deranged gay rambling <3

when i come back, you'll still be here.

[acepsychic100]

Other friends or Drift away?

100% Drift away because I’m a sucker for emo songs. I’m so glad we finally got an electro swing song though bc that genre is underrated as hell.

[the-cheese-writes]

I wonder ~ Prinxiety

Requested by: @_becxmoonsy on Wattpad

TW: None

Word count: 1895

{Masterpost}

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To say that Virgil and Roman’s relationship was complicated was an understatement. It didn’t kick off smoothly if you wanted a base to start from.

Roman had been the first to meet him, and although Virgil had, somehow, greeted him, he didn’t exactly welcome him well.

‘Hey there, Princey!’

‘Oh… kay. Can’t stand that guy.’

And those were the first words they said to each other. Obviously, they had started off on the wrong foot (which was evident in later episodes where they argue and bicker constantly), but after Roman changed, so did Virgil and so did everything else.

Whether it was subtle differences like trying to nickname each other more nicely or bigger switch ups like Virgil’s style, it was apparent that they had both changed for the better and, seemingly, each other.

But with their development, came new emotions and feelings, especially for Roman. Seeing a spike of confidence in Virgil the day he donned a new appearance, sparked something in the prince, something he had never felt before or for anyone previously for that matter.

It was… a good feeling. It was exciting and sweet, like candy, but also a little nerve-wracking and it made him giddy inside as well as out. Roman loved it and he felt it the most around Virgil. He never dared speak a word about it to anyone though. Secrets like these were best kept hidden; they were fun to hide anyway.

Unfortunately, for Roman, he wasn’t exactly the best at concealing things, which was how the cat got out of the bag. (No, don’t worry it’s not a real cat. Patton’s allergies will be fine.)

***

“Hey Virge! Whatcha doin’?” Roman said as he approached his friend. Looking up from his phone for a second, Virgil smiled.

“Just scrolling through Tumblr, as usual,” he replied, patting the empty spot next to him, indicating to Roman that he wanted him to sit down.

The prince happily obliged and when he took his place next to Virgil, he laid down onto his lap. As he stared at the ceiling, Roman wondered about what he and Virgil were. What they did with each other normally happened around romantic couples, but they were just being friends… right?

They always hugged, and cuddled together, leaned on each other’s shoulders when they needed to and spent almost every minute of every day together. The only thing missing was the kiss.

His eyes then shifted from the ceiling to Virgil’s face. It was illuminated slightly by the light emanating from his phone and his expression was so… peaceful and he was smiling a little, causing Roman’s heart to jump a few hurdles.

Virgil was gently playing with his hair, softly stroking it routinely and massaging it occasionally; these actions made Roman wonder if they would mean anything more if they were a couple.

Nothing would really need to change, right? They would continue to do what they normally did around each other except then, they would be romantically involved. Would there be anymore significance?

His eyes then flickered to Virgil’s lips: always soft, always a little chapped but always kissable. In that moment, Roman wanted nothing more than to seize his face and drown him in affection, but obviously he couldn’t do that and he pushed himself off of Virgil’s lap and away from the sofa as quickly as he could to halt anything too… impulsive.

“Ro? You good?” asked Virgil, raising an eyebrow at him in confusion at his sudden movement.

“Uh, yeah. I just remembered that I needed to do something,” Roman lied, raking a hand through his hair. “I’ll be upstairs if you need me.”

And with that, he dashed up to his room, leaving Virgil completely baffled.

Briskly walking into his room, Roman closed the door, his back facing it, and sighed heavily. He looked ahead and tried to clear his mind of any thoughts of Virgil, but there was no use. He was there, imprinted and glued and Roman would just be wasting his energy trying to get him out.

But Virgil stuck in his head wasn’t such a bad thing though; at least his mind was, in a way, doing him a favour with images of his crush.

Being the creative side he was, Roman suddenly got an idea to place the scenario that had appeared on his head on a canvas - he had nothing better to do anyway. He grabbed his headphones and played one of his playlists on Spotify named ‘Virgil💜🔮🎵’. (It was called that because he would listen to it whenever he thought of him and what they could be.)

With a snap of his fingers, Roman conjured a pot of paint brushes and some paint and set to work constructing his mind’s image.

He started with the base of the painting first - the sky - with midnight blue which faded to a lighter shade as it descended. Then, he created the grass, using black paint since it would only be a silhouette and set it just below the halfway point and in the middle, he painted a bench with two people sitting on it, who he imagined to be him and Virgil.

Roman smiled at the thought of them stargazing together with nothing to interrupt them and their picture perfect moment but the occasional breeze. After making the trees on the side and the moon in the twilight sky, Roman tied the whole piece together with the addition of stars.

During this time, the song ‘Wonder’ by Shawn Mendes played and he grinned, seeing how relevant it was to his current situation. As he dipped his brush in white paint and flicked it across the canvas, Roman sang the words, not as passionately as Shawn did, but with as much energy as he wanted - which was a decent amount.

Unbeknownst to him however, Virgil had been listening outside the entire time. After his puzzling retreat to his room, the emo followed him, but what he heard when he was just about to knock on his door was a lovely surprise.

Roman was singing, as per usual, but what he sang intrigued Virgil. At that time, it was ‘Would You Be So Kind’ by dodie. He sunk behind the door, quietly singing with him and thought about how it tailored to their relationship. He had never been vocal about it, but he had always had a little crush on Princey, ever since the beginning; he wondered if he too felt the same way.

After a couple songs and unknown duets between them, Virgil finally decided to knock. When there was no response, he opened the door and Roman was still singing - a song he hadn’t heard before, but he listened to the lyrics. 

As he stepped closer, he realised what Roman was doing and admired the painting from afar. It was absolutely beautiful and from what he could see; it looked flawless and not a single stroke was out of place. Virgil didn’t really expect anything less than excellence from Roman’s work though. As the prince, he constantly strived for perfection.

‘I wonder what it’s like to be loved by you,’ Roman sang and Virgil instantly froze. They probably weren’t, but he couldn’t help but wonder if those words were meant for him?

‘I wonder why I’m so afraid,

Of saying something wrong, I never said I was a saint.

I wonder, when I cry into my hands,

I’m conditioned to feel like it makes me less of a man.

And I wonder if someday you’ll be by my side,

And tell me that the world will end up alright.’

Virgil thought that he might be getting to the end of the song, so he shyly approached him.

Clearing his throat, he said loudly to get his attention, “Princey?”

Instantly, Roman turned around. He was fixated to the spot for a few seconds, before he took off his headphones and set his brush down.

“Virgil!” he said, smiling awkwardly. “How- how long have you been standing there?”

“Not very long. I just wanted to see if you were okay ‘cause you left really quickly downstairs,” Virgil answered, stuffing his hands into his pockets.

 

“Oh, no yeah I’m fine. I just wanted to do… this!” Roman then pointed to his artwork, showing it off and giving Virgil a clearer view of what he had seen only a little of earlier.

“Wow,” Virgil sighed, stepping closer. “It’s lovely.”

“Thanks.” Roman grinned, proud of his work. Virgil glanced at him for a moment, then quickly looked back down, both of their cheeks tinting cherry red.

“Who are they?” asked Virgil, pointing to the black silhouette of the two boys seated on the bench.

“Um no one. Just characters,” Roman replied quickly, blushing and fiddling with his fingers. Noticing his flustered state, Virgil smirked and decided to dig a little deeper.

“Hmm. They look awfully familiar,” he teased, rubbing his chin thoughtfully then turning to Roman who tried to play it off as innocently as he could.

“Oh they do? How interesting.” Virgil smirked and stared at him for a bit longer, but soon realised that he wouldn’t be getting anywhere if he kept it up. So, he tried something else.

Sheepishly, he walked up to Roman, keeping his hands in his pockets and looked at him through his bangs.

“You once told me that everything you say, do or sing has a meaning behind it. Well, almost everything. What were you singing about earlier?”

Roman turned away and fiddled with his sash. “You heard?”

Virgil hummed in response, then he sighed and decided that now was a better time than ever.

“Those words, those lyrics. I sang from somewhere. Someplace only I know and hope to share with someone one day.”

“Someone? Who is…”

Roman was on the edge of the cliff. He could see the crashing waves below and knew that if he didn’t have faith in his wings, he would plummet down, but if he clung onto that hope hard enough, he could soar through the cotton clouds and the exhilarating breeze to the ends of the earth. All it took was a jump.

So he held his breath and leaped.

“You.”

Virgil froze. His eyes widened and his jaw dropped; he was speechless, he didn’t know what to say. All these years of what he thought was once hopeless crushing and longing for something that he believed could never be, turns out he was wrong all along.

As Roman braced himself for the worst, the little smile of Virgil’s starstruck face grew and he lunged at Roman, embracing him in a tight hug.

The prince was surprised, but didn’t at all complain and hugged him back just as tightly. Even still, he didn’t want to jump to conclusions.

“Virge?”

“You wonder what it’s like? To be loved by me?” Virgil said as he pulled away, meeting Roman’s eyes. He glanced at his lips and Virgil noticed, so he swiftly leaned in and softly kissed him. But it wasn’t long before the kiss grew more passionate, making it clear to them both that they had waited far too long for this to happen.

When they eventually parted, they stayed close, gazing into each other’s eyes. Both boys then grinned blissfully at each other, satisfied in the moment that they wished would last forever.

“That’s what it’s like.”

[autistic-ace-bee]

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

7. earbuds or headphones?

9. favorite smell in the summer?

12. name of your favorite playlist?

18. ideal weather?

22. role model?

21. obsession from childhood?

24. favorite crystal?

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

28. five songs to describe you?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

66. favorite flower(s)?

65. any permanent scars?

88. your greatest wish?

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4. shy, smart and maybe teachers pet?

7. earbuds bc headphones hurt my ears more akdk

9. i dont really have any favourite smells? my sense of smell is shit in the first place and a lot of scents make me sneeze or trigger my asmytha aksdk but probably anything kinda fruity or flowery is nice

12. right now its my byler playlist boy the byler brainrot runs deep but overall its probably either my indie bops or bangers and bops playlists. also on the topic of music why tf was my most popular music genre this year emo?? genuinely perplexed like bc of you ive been listening to wayyy happier music aksdskad (i just looked at them and their both over 7 hours adskskd 7 hours and 52 minutes and 7 16 respectively aksdka)

18. Sunny with a cool breeze! I love to lie down in the sunshine with a gentle breeze cooling me off =^-^=

22. uh I've never really had any role models. My older sister maybe, just bc she doesnt give a rats ass what people think about her and ive always found that really cool, also shes like really good at everything, although she can be a bit of a bitch aksdksdk

21. i've never really had any huge obsessions, I kinda just used to copy whatever my older sister did, especially when we were younger. Maybe like playing fantage, poptropica, moshi monsters or LPS and the monster fashion one i forgot it now akdksd but yeah those were all things I did with my sister

24. I do not have a favourite i asked you that question because I guessed you would probably have some askdksd I really dont know the difference between crystrals enough to say, but I like clearer crystals maybe with a tint of of colour

i tried to find the names and its like amethyst/ametrine/quartz? ALSO I FOUND ONE THAT LOOKS LIKE A VENTOLIN

60. dragon asked me this question too and the answer is undoubtedly gay sports anime. You mentioned being decent at badminton, so well go with gay sports badminton anime =^-^= im fairly decent at badminton and its a lot of fun! originally i said soccer or tennis but badminton is just easier tennis anyway plus..... the shuttlecock 😏

65. yes i have a bump on my head from when i flipped over my bed on boxing day and cracked my head open on the tall boy. its funny bc in the doctors office i got a blood nose so they thought i was there for that but mate my heads bleeding what do you think were here for 😂 i also have a thin white scar on my thigh from where i cut it open on desk drawer, a thin scar on my knuckle from god knows what, and a burn scar on my wrist from when i burnt my hand trying to take a cake out the oven. oh also i have a small scar above my lip from when my sister stabbed me with a pen askdks

88. my greatest wish is to have a gaydar so strong i can tell which of my friends is secretly gay i mean cmon theres like 20 of us there HAS to be another gay come on where are you hiding you little fuck

[d4rk3stn1ght]

Haunted Playmate

Happy Holidays @houser-of-stories ! I was also your gift giver for @sanderssidesgiftxchange and I hope you enjoy your gift

Ships: Platonic Prinxiety, mentioned Analogical and Royality

Warnings: Past character death, cursing, mentioned murder, not meant to be unsympathetic Remus but it kind of comes off that way, if there’s anything else needed to be tagged please tell me

There was a creak on the floor that hadn’t been there before. Was someone invading his home? Well, what was his home. He looked over the banister of the stairs to see a man unpacking his things in the house.“

“Well hello there.” Roman smiled and gently greeted the stranger. Logically, he knew that the man couldn’t hear him, but it was still polite. He had manners! He was a gentleman, thank you very much! Roman watched him from a bit afar. This man tended to talk to himself. Virgil? Was that his name? He mumbled it under his breath fairly often. Virgil flopped onto the couch with his phone, probably to order pizza. He would too if he were the one moving into be moving instead. He missed being able to eat and do things. Well, he could push things over but he couldn’t leave the house. Roman sighed softly before looking through the house to see what his new housemate had done with it. So far, he hadn’t gone up to the attic. If Roman had his way, he wouldn’t be able to. 

Roman hums a gentle song as he peered into Virgil’s room. Oh! He had a Nightmare Before Christmas poster! Too bad Roman couldn’t borrow it or give him his own posters. His were taken as evidence or removed. It sucked but he understood why. He couldn’t exactly stop them anyway, not that he didn’t try. He shook his head at the memories the thought brought. He didn’t need to accidentally cause an inside storm again. It accidentally hurt a small child and he felt so bad for it even though he couldn’t help it. The room itself wasn’t that bad. Yeah, it was a bit dark and dreary, but there was some normalcy from his time. A string of lights to illuminate the room during the night (purple rather than a soft yellow), a corkboard for pictures or necklaces... The desk was cluttered with art supplies. Was he an artist? Did he have any sketches out? A glance over the desk confirmed that that’d be a no. Of course. Why would an emo have anything out in view that could hint at their past? They wouldn’t unless they trusted you. He knew that a bit too well. But ohoho, what’s this? There was a picture carefully placed on the desk with a number with hearts around it. Now that was interesting. Stormy knight had a crush? On this... Logan Omair? The teach? Too bad he couldn’t call that guy at the moment or he so would. He noticed a cup of pens a little too close to the edge and grinned. New game time. How long can he knock things over before the new guy noticed or left? He knocked over the pen cup and laughed at the sound of his new guest jumping up to look.

Roman left the room quickly and headed to the kitchen instead before Virgil could get there. He chuckles at him cursing at the mess but quickly pouts at there being nothing close enough for him to easily knock anything over. Well, he could always knock over the chairs. He froze though at the doorbell. That was really quick or he was losing time again. That tended to happen more recently but it doesn’t bother him as much anymore.

Virgil ran down the stairs and looked out the window before opening the door with an apology. Was he paranoid? Was he running from something? Was he a criminal?! He’d rather side with the law! Maybe he was just anxious. Who knew? Definitely not Roman. He probably never would. The dark and paranormal walked into the kitchen without looking in Roman’s direction. He grabbed two cups, one he set on the counter while he held the other to get ice and soda. Why did he need another cup? Virgil left the cup on the counter while taking his soda one to the couch. When he got comfortable he immediately swiped the cup off the counter before bolting again. 

Virgil smirked at catching a glimpse of Roman’s retreating form, “Gotcha.” He was so glad he didn’t take out his glass cups. A after setting the pizza and the cup of soda down a safe distance from the edge, he got up to pick up the discarded cup and set it down on the edge of the end side table. “Try that one you overgrown cat.” He snarks but unpauses the show to finish it as he ate. 

The ghost thought he was slick, didn’t he? Virgil knew about the haunted house rumors and was ready for anything. Well, as much as Supernatural taught and the limited research he had. While he hadn’t been there long, Virgil had already attempted salting the doorways and windows. He’d noticed a few things, too. The ghost could both float above and walk straight through it, so salt was a bust.The ghost seemed to only do anything when he wasn’t looking or not even in the room. He doesn’t know anything about him aside from him acting like a cat. It was kind of amusing but the pens were annoying. Empty Solo cup? No problem. A full cup and he’s just being a pain in the ass. Virgil took a deep breath before getting up and put the pizza box in the trash. He froze at the clatter of the cup but sighed in relief when there wasn’t a splash accompanied. Virgil mocked him slightly when he laughed. He was just thankful the ghost wasn’t hostile and was just being a bit playful. He settled into the couch again and sipped at his drink while spacing out in thought.

Meanwhile, Roman was snickering in what used to be his room. This was great! He was playing along. It was kinda disappointing that he wouldn’t put anything full against the edge anymore, but he understood anyway. Roman would feel the same way if roles were reversed, at least. He gently ran his hand across the wall. He knew feeling the paint was impossible, but that didn’t stop him from wanting to try. Roman missed his tangibility, but… nothing could undo what he did. Roman closed his eyes to get his bubbling anger under control. It’s not that Roman  hated him, but he was still angry and understandably so. As justified as his anger was, the man downstairs didn’t deserve the backlash it would produce. When he had calmed some, he headed to the stairway to see the poor kid was passed out on the couch with his show running. It was kinda interesting but he couldn’t risk it yet. Maybe the next day but not right now. He nodded in the sleeping form’s direction before heading up to the attic. When he got up there he headed to check on his object. He knew where his body was, but that wasn’t what he was tied to. Instead, he was tied to his class ring from his senior class. He tended to wear it everywhere and it held most of his best memories. That’s why he never let anyone up in the attic. If they were to find it and destroy it, well... that would be it. He would be toast and no one would be able to know the truth. No one had tried to talk to him before but hopefully, Virgil would be the first if he so chose or if he could even hear and/or see him.

A few days later the game was still on. Random cups would fall and Virgil had yet to see anything more than a glimpse of the ghost and the sounds of laughter, followed quickly by a cup hitting the floor. That said, the ghost was getting a bit bolder. He would linger especially when Supernatural was on. Virgil could feel the drop in temperature but if he tried to look, the ghost wouldn’t be there. Virgil had done more research on the property and found a few different murders but he didn’t know which one this ghost was from. Tired of the cat and mouse, Virgil hatched a plan. He needed a job for money and, since this was his second rewatch of Supernatural, he could miss a few episodes of the show and be fine. , Virgil decided that was going to announce he was leaving and leave the show on for the ghost to watch. Then, hopefully, he’d come back from applications and finally see the ghost.

Virgil set his trap the next day, leaving and returning a few hours later. When he got back, he made sure to be quiet as he crept in. His eyes widened. Sitting cross-legged in front of the screen was none other than his ghostly roommate. Dressed in jeans and a white t-shirt, he looked a bit younger than Virgil. Unable to see much else from behind, Virgil slowly crept towards the ghost’s side to see any other features so he could compare them to the other murders on the property. Unfortunately, the episode started the credits and the ghost turned, making a shout of surprise and scrambling back, 

The ghost almost looked panicked, “Um, hey! You’re back!” 

Now that he was facing Virgil, he could see everything. The gold crown on the breast pocket, the line on his throat from where it had been slit, dull green eyes and tanned skin muted by death. 

“You’re Roman!” Virgil exclaimed

“You can see me?!”

“Yes?!”

“That’s awesome!”

“No! Not awesome! I knew you!”

“You did?”

“Yes! Roman Kingston and Remus Kingston!”

“Highschool?”

“Yes. You kept making doll eyes at Patton Amato!”

“I did not! But, uh, uh how is he?”

“Frankly, weI haven’t talked much.”

“Who have you talked to?”

“Logan Omair, Remus, Janus,Remy... But I’ve only  Remy and Logan recently.”

“Cool…” Roman slowly unfreezes and shifts to a more casual posture. “So, I saw your little love letter.”

“What?!” Virgil, who had been doing the same, tenses right back up.

“The number? You-!”

“No! Why you?!”

“No idea. You should ask Remus,” he spat bitterly.

“Right… The article said…” Virgil trailed off, rubbing his neck.

“Yeah.” Discomfort is plain as day on Roman’s face. “Let’s not… Anyway, why’d you move here out of anywhere.”

Virgil is glad to change the subject, “You know, settling down and-”

“It’s because Logan lives here, isn’t it.”

“Shut!” Virgil snaps as his face tints pink.

“So it is Logan! Hah!”

“I will kill you again, you ass!” Virgil lunges towards Roman.

“You caaaaan’t,” Roman sing- songs and laughs as he dodges Virgil’s fist

“Get back here!” Virgil chases Roman through the room, thoroughly annoyed by the fact Roman has more mobility. 

“Nope! When’s your date?”

“Shut! Up!” He catches up and swings again, hitting nothing.

Roman just laughs at him, “Come oooon!”

“We aren’t dating!” Virgil flops down onto the couch in defeat.

“Not yet!” Roman teases.

“Not anytime soon!”

“Who says?”

“Both of us.”

“Why? You both liked each other in high school.” Roman also calms down a bit, sitting on the other end of the couch.

“Yeah, it’s been a little while.”

“Oh right.”

“Yeah. We said someday but for now, we’re just talking as friends and meeting up with anyone still in town.”

“Like?”

“Patton, Emile, Remus, each other.Remy will pop in someday soon.”

“What about Janus?”

Virgil shrugs, “I haven’t heard from him.”

“Ah.” Roman pauses a moment before speaking again. “When will you talk to Remus?”

“I’m going Wednesday.”

“Can you… can you ask him why for me?”

Virgil looks to Roman out of the corner of his eyes, “I can’t promise he’ll answer.”

Roman nods “...Right.”

“Yeah...” Virgil rubs the back of his neck, sensing Roman’s discomfort.

“Sooo... how’d job hunt go?”

“I’ve applied. They’ll call me to set up interviews.”

“Nice. By the way, what’s up with the emo aesthetic?”

“I told everyone it wasn’t a phase,” he jokes slightly.

“We didn’t think you were serious.”

“Dead serious,” Virgil grinned.

“You did not.”

He just burst out laughing.

“I can’t believe you did this to me! Me of all people! How dare you, sir!”

Virgil put an arm around his stomach as he kept laughing.

“You can’t be serious! No! Don’t answer that you dark fiend! I trusted you!”

He only seemed to laugh harder at his dramatics. Roman only pouted as Virgil slowly calmed down.

“You’re an ass.”

“You still love me platonically anyway,” Virgil teases.

“Sadly.”

He chuckles breathlessly,shakinghis head.

“Hey, did they ever find out why that band split up?”

“The one you listened to religiously in high school? No.”

“Damn. I enjoyed their music.”

Virgil shrugs, “I can play some for you.”

“You look like you know something.”

“Maybe, maybe not.”

“You tease! I can’t tell anyone!”

“I know,” *Virgil grins, “But this is more fun.”

“Asshole.”

“Nice to talk to you, jerk.”

“Bitch.”

“Ahhh, there he is.”

“What?”

“The prick of a prince.”

“Hey!”

“Hello.”

“Why must you be so rude to me?” Roman swoons back, the back of his hand against his forehead.

“No one else can.”

“Rude!”

“I’m not that rude.” Virgil rolls his eyes.

“Yes, you are!”

“Nope.”

“Yes.”

“Not arguing.”

“You’re boring.”

“To you.”

“Exactly.”

“Ah, there’s the brat.”

“So good to be back,” Roman said sarcastically but it soon just turned into them giggling.

“By the way...”

“Hm?”

“Don’t tip over anything full ever again.”

“No promises.”

Virgil looks pointedly at Roman, “Roman.”

With a mischevious grin, Roman turned and ran, phasing away through a wall.

“Roman get back here!” Virgil scrambled to chase after him.

This seemed like a great beginning to a new chapter of both of their lives. And what a wondrous start it was.

[carter-constantine]

(tyler young / demiguy ) CARTER CONSTANTINE is 22 years old and is a JUNIOR at thales university. HE/THEY is majoring in MUSIC and is known for being THE MELOPHILE as HE/THEY can be PASSIONATE and CREATIVE as well as INTENSE and OBSESSIVE. every time i see HIM/THEM, HE/THEY reminds me of CHIPPED BLACK NAIL POLISH ORNAMENTING CALLOUSED FINGERTIPS, LILAC TINTED UNDER EYES UNDERNEATH JET BLACK EYELINER, A LIVELY STAGE PRESENCE THAT UNDERCUTS HIS NORMALLY SULLEN DEMEANOR.

Background:

Grew up with his mother and twin brother, Cameron, in Marietta, Ohio. Dad died when he was 8.

His mother, Dianne, was obsessed with appearances. She wanted to prove that she was a successful single mother, so she put a lot of pressure on her kids to maintain that appearance. Carter and his brother were expected to pick up a sport, maintain good grades, and fit comfortably into a “golden boy” image.

From an early age, the stark differences in the two siblings personalities were apparent. Where Cameron was charismatic, great at soccer, and able to find his place amongst anyone, Carter was shy, artistic, and slow to warm up. Naturally, their mother favored Cameron.

Carter found refuge in music, and at age 14, he asked his mother if he could have guitar lessons. She refused, stating the reason as “Cameron needs new cleats for soccer, and I can’t afford both”. In response, Carter found a job at a local record store, saved up the money for a guitar, and taught himself over the internet.

Music eclipsed everything. Through music, he finally felt understood. Nirvana, Placebo, EDEN, Three Days Grace, Mayday Parade, My Chemical Romance, David Bowie, Foo Fighters, Radiohead, Ben Harper, Elliot Smith and many more made him feel less alone.

Music also helped him come to terms with his complicated relationship with gender. He’d never fully identified with the male experience but never felt entirely feminine either. Frontmen like Kurt Cobain, Gerard Way, and David Bowie helped mold the formerly narrow view of who he had to be, and later, he found the label demiguy resonated with him most.

He spent his high school years studying to get good grades, practicing his music, perfecting his songwriting prowess, and practicing his band instrument (alto saxophone) because he was determined to leave home. If asked to describe home, he’d just offer a blank stare and say “suffocating”.

He received a scholarship to Thales university and was all too happy to pack up and move somewhere else.

Currently in (former member) Worm’s band singing, playing guitar, and songwriting.

Personality:

Sagittarius sun, Pisces moon, Capricorn rising. ISFP. 4w3.

Generally comes across as kind of dry, sullen, and sarcastic. He may come off cold or distant to those he doesn’t know well as he’s naturally kind of distrusting.

Prone to emotional outbursts, especially when it comes to his musical image/legacy, relationships, etc. Not afraid to make a scene in public.

Super intense when it comes to music. Usually looks tired because he frequently stays up all night popping adderall to finish a song.

Loves parties because he sees them as an opportunity to numb all the emotions he often feels consumed by.

Kind of reckless but dismisses dumb choices he makes as “inspiration”.

Petty. If someone breaks his heart, he’ll write a song about them, immediately find a gig, pretend to make amends by inviting them to the gig, and then play the song at the gig just so they have to hear him.

Overall, just emo and chaotic tbh.

Wanted Connections:

Exes (bisexual, biromantic), brotps, party buddies, someone who lets him geek out about music without judgement, maybe someone he tutors?, hookups, rivals, enemies, roommates, a muse, crush (unrequited or otherwise), a levelheaded friend who tries to talk sense into him, etc.

[teamjacobthot]

new moon and imma break down all the reasons why:

it’s the most visually appealing film in the whole series. the visuals are so rich because of the warm tinting. I never liked the blue tint in twilight bc while it makes the vampires look good, it makes literally everyone else look so sickly that it makes me uncomfortable. billy and jacob and angela and especially LAURENT didn’t deserve that. and all that is just on top of how the blue tint looks like a bad instagram filter. maybe I’m just biased towards warm tones anyway but the brown and gold look of new moon made bella, jacob, charlie, everyone else who isn’t a vampire finally look healthy. even edward looked alright with the slightest bit of color. the tinting contributes to the more timeless image of new moon and it is so pleasing, visually, so it’s held up very well over time.

the music! the new moon soundtrack has roslyn, satellite heart, a white demon love song, and SLOW LIFE. it perfectly captured the emoness of the movie. it also introduced me to one of my all time favorite artists, lykke li.

the music part 2! alexandre desplat did what carter burwell couldn’t in terms of instrument arrangement and overall richness because he wasn’t afraid to utilize a string orchestra. alexandre desplat is one of the best film composers there is and his music contributed to the gentle, tender feel of the movie.

bella and jacob’s friendship, but jacob in general. I’ll never ever in my entire life get over them. y’all ain’t trying to hear it but jacob was such a ray of sunshine in new moon and his friendship with bella was beautiful to watch. he was there for her even when she didn’t have much to give back in terms of friendship and she actually started to enjoy her life a lil bit. the fact that bella doesn’t have any real friends always upset me and made me feel so bad for her, but jacob being there added a warmth to the series that twilight completely lacked. i understand why, but twilight was so oversaturated with romance, so new moon gave me the chance to breathe.

the wolf pack. i know y’all don’t really seem to care about them (or any other characters of color tbh but that’s another conversation for another day) but seeing a group so warm and fun and youthful and the exact opposite of the cullens was beyond refreshing for me. someone else pointed this out on here (i forgot who sorry) but it was great to see bella just kind of exist and not be burdened by a huge age, money, and intellect difference like she was with the cullens. she got to be more normal when she was around jacob’s friends and it was nice to see. i love human bella.

better makeup and wardrobe. rip to the hair department tho.

new moon has so many tender little moments that go SOOO overlooked like when edward and bella came back from her birthday party, the moments where charlie actually talked to bella, the scenes with bella and jacob in her truck...... so tender.

did I mention the emoness 🥺🥺 im such an emo bitch so i just ate up everything in new moon from edward leaving to jacob phasing to the scene in the rain to bella and edward reuniting in volterra .........i love it all.

the only real flaw of new moon is that we didn’t meet leah and seth clearwater then and they totally changed up how harry died, which didn’t invalidate leah’s reasons for being angry when we finally met her on eclipse, but it definitely altered them already a little bit.

Ok I wanna hear people’s response to this:

Which do you think is the best Twilight movie and why?

[ollis-beard]

please do all of the aesthetic themed asks C;

My goodness.. let’s do thisflower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?A few minutes ago, i sing to myself all the time. It was the baby song Finn sings from the Adventure Time episode “The Jiggler”

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?What my life’s purpose is, what i’m meant for

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?Graduating from high school? Lol i haven’t done much

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?I was playing with my dog a few minutes ago, she always looks so happy and cute, it makes me want to explode

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?I would try to go out and experience more but I’m still dependent on other people for adventures.. so i guess i’d get my driver’s license and explore on my own

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?I don’t have one, i’ll have to put one together

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.My favorite person, we used to be super close and talk everyday. They’re super silly and goofy and one of the only people i can be really open and honest with. We used to have so much fun and we’re getting back to being close again

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?Yeah but it wasn’t really exciting either

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?A month ago maybe

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.A friend i’ve had for a few years but haven’t gotten close to until recently. We’ve actually gone stargazing a few times before and each time is magical, everytime we do it, we see shooting stars.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?Probably because i love deep conversations and probably couldn’t stop myself no matter how embarrassing it might become

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?An ex lol we’re friends now though

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?I would tell my youngest brother to keep working his way through life, he has so much potential and a lot of people seem to put him down, they don’t realize how hard he’s trying

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?I love, love, love them! Any kind of brown, a bright golden honey colored brown, a soft muted medium brown or a deep dark, almost black brown that has the most beautiful flecks of red and gold. I love all of them and think they are absolutely gorgeous on both men and women.. its probably even part of my “type”, i just think they’re the most adorable feature

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.“Keep moving forward” - Monty Oum, just him telling people to keep living their lives and doing what they want even when things don’t go right or get tough

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?“Why did I do that?”

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?Spend some of it on a little house for me and a business to make more money, then use whatever’s left and whatever i earn to spoil my friends, family and pretty much anyone who needs it

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?I think so, i think i know when someone deserves my forgiveness

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.All i have to say is don’t be afraid. Make new friends and forget about your old ones. You’ll learn to love your new life and you’ll hate yourself for not accepting it sooner and spending your time being miserable. Your bitterness now will only hurt yourself in the future. Stay away from asshole guys, you will be happier on your own and their love is not real. They will only hurt you. And please.. please for the love of god.. skip your emo phase. Its nowhere near as cool as you think and loving bright beautiful things does not make you weak. Try to enjoy everything.

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?I’m like perfectly in the middle right now, i’m transitioning into pastel but i still have a lot of punky hottopic shit

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.I love them, they are art to me!

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?On a daily basis, no. I wear makeup like twice a week but when I do, I wear about a medium amount.. tinted moisturizer/mineral foundation, light eye makeup, light contouring and lip liner. I’m just not good enough at makeup to do a lot, only what i need

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.Rammstein helped me get through a very abusive relationship. It just made me feel strong and empowered. I loved how elegantly vulgar they are, using poetic songs to tell terrible, disgusting stories

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.Just stop, everyone needs to lay down, stop fighting and listen to each other.

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.I went to a Maroon 5 concert with my best friend when i was in like 4th grade, i don’t remember it much lol. I went to a Between the Buried and Me concert (mostly went for Animals as Leaders) a couple years ago, it was my firs real metal show, i was dressed like a slut and got pushed over by a drunk guy so thinking about it makes me anxious. I went to an Animals as Leaders concert (With Plini, yes!!) a few months ago for my birthday, it was excellent and i was there just holding hands with my girls and crying so it makes me feel warm and loved.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?An ex, just telling me he loves and misses me like i know he does. I just want to hear a lot more from him

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?Lol i have a desk but i don’t do work there. There’s just makeup on it so that gets out of hand when i need to use it, especially if i’m in a rush and will be gone for a while

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?I take a shower (use the oil cleansing method for my face), moisturize, brush teeth and watch youtube in bed until i get sleepy

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?I almost got period blood on my parents’ new couch one night, my mom loves that couch more than me and my brothers, my youngest brother isn’t even allowed to sit on it lol

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?I want to dye it a lighter strawberry blonde or a peachy color and cut it short with wispy bangs, i think it would look cute on me

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?Three of my sister-in-laws and my two best friends. We would have a Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas style trip

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.I wish i was super fckn rich so i wouldn’t have to worry about money anymore, i could take care of my friends and family, pretty much anyone that needs itAnd that animals could never get hurt, everyone treated them well and didn’t use them for whatever evil needs people haveAnd hmmm maybe that people aren’t hating on each other all the time about things like race, sexuality, religion, then people could work together better and solve the real problems

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.I dressed up as Dipper Pines the halloween before last! That’s when i decided that i don’t like trick-or-treating anymore because even though i was dressed in a totally non-sexual costume from a children’s show, i was still getting weird stares from older men, one tried to look down my shirt… bleck

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?I can’t even say.. so instead i’ll say something funny, i pissed in the bushes of my friend’s apartment complex when i figured out that i couldn’t get in her place

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?Hurt an animal.. there’s not enough money in the world for me to do that

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?I’ll choose to only see one person, and we could listen to all the music we want! I love music too much and people are overwhelming, this sounds great

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.Yes, its scary because you know it’ll hurt when they leave, no matter how hard you try to hold on to them

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?I wish i could have short hair.. it just wouldn’t look good on me

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?S’mores frappucino right now boooiiii

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?Keeping myself and my friends happy

Thank you for the ask.. my hands hurt lol

[eggyyoon-archive]

10, 18, 24 :)))

I’M SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS OVERFLOWING MY FEELINGS BUCKET;;;;;

10: Last group you started to listen to?

astro!! i listened to some of their songs a couple weeks ago and they’re?? so cute??? to be honest i was kinda reluctant to listen to them because i’m already so deep into svt but i think i should kinda expand my horizons;;

18: Tell me about your bias. Why is s/he your bias?

my love, jeonghan.. there’s so much to say about this lovely boy

first of all, appearance wise: eyes that are wide and innocent when he’s absent-mindedly doing his own thing and suddenly change when he’s swindling or cheating, his nose WITH THE CUTEST NOSTRILS THAT FLARE WHENEVER HE’S LAUGHING REALLY HARD, his LIL MOLES ON HIS RIGHT CHEEK AND NECK, the nicest squirtle lips that curl into the brightest smile and can pull off lip tint so effortlessly, HIS ADORABLE EARS, his broad shoulders, AMAZING HANDS WITH FINGERS THAT LOOK SO FUN TO PLAY WITH !! and finally, his hair that can pull off any color;; he can also pull off any outfit; jeonghan could be wearing a clown suit with insane makeup and i’d still be yelling and clapping for him (AND HE LOOKS NICE WITH GLASSES)

i love jeonghan so much because he seems like such a comfortable person to be around; especially when you see him with people like woozi and woozi doesn’t seem like a touchy feely person?? but when he’s around jeonghan he turns into a koala.. and joshua’s normally very chill but when jeonghan appears!! he suddenly goes from 0 to 100 and it’s really entertaining to see!! i feel like jeonghan’s the type to melt other people’s walls and expose a side of them that hasn’t really been shown before. I also love how he claims other members as his own, for example, when he calls chan his baby and the8 his sunflower and dk his fool it’s very endearing;;

at first jeonghan wasn’t satisfied with his voice, saying that it was too childish, but i think that it’s amazing?? he’s also king of high notes wow  and also how he’s so absorbed in everything he does and tries his best whether it’s performing or singing?? this boy hasn’t tried dancing before but somehow manages to catch my eye every single time he performs and his improvement in both singing and dancing is astonishing like have you heard his high note in their cover of gfriend’s rough or very nice acoustic version? my ears have been blessed

i’ve began to notice especially during the time that jeonghan did battle likes with josh and ofd in japan that he’s been so much more open to the camera and also cheating on shows and it’s really good comic relief whenever i’m stressed out because he makes me laugh;; his mc-ing skills improved a ton and it makes me very happy that he’s getting comfortable doing the things he loves..

i’m also in love with the fact that he never gave up even though he said that training was a difficult time but that didn’t stop him from being the cheeky vocalist that we know today;; he could have really given up so many times during his trainee period but he got over it and got to debut!! (he also said that he would have probably become a barista and honestly?? that’s an amazing concept, and the fact that he wants to study psychology is just so inspiring) he turned from the shy long-hair boy in 2015 to the TITLE OF GREATEST SWINDLER in 2017 and i’m so proud of him? 

also i don’t see many people talk about this but his handwriting is actually the cutest!! like remember on his birthday he was like “i have bad handwriting” and I STARTED YELLING AT THE SCREEN HE HAS THE CUTEST HANDWRITING I WANT HIS HANDWRITING;;; and his signature is the cheekiest lil face on the ���j’ like when will i create a signature that’s adorably creative like his;; AND THE FACT THAT HE LOVES EGG YOLK BECAUSE IT’S SOFT AND SQUISHY i didn’t know where to put that so i’m putting it here

yoon jeonghan is a kind boy and i don’t deserve to be his fan;; whenever i see him doing his thing and having the time of his life i get teary and at times i cry very hard.. but!! if jeonghan is happy and content with where he is right now then i’m the happiest;;

anyways this essay is all over the place and it’s getting super long so i’m just going to stop haha

24: A group you never thought you would ever listen to?

i’m going to be completely honest and say seventeen and pristin;; i never thought that i’d listen to a couple of rookie groups because i’d been into some older groups for a long time. but then svt’s girl group medley JUST SO HAPPENED TO SHOW UP ON MY YOUTUBE RECOMMENDATIONS and then i clicked on it and jeonghan popped outta nowhere and took my heart away from me;;

as for pristin, i kinda had enough with cute girl groups but, of course, they’re svt’s labelmates so i decided to give them a try?? and all of them are so gorgeous and lovely and i wish them all the best!! also if you haven’t listened to ‘sickness’ by eunwoo and vernon i highly recommend it;; it’s a good song for emo hours