#i love not using reference and then veing confused why my drawing looks nothing like the person

[skltart]

his huge eyes and loser transmasc energy have bewitched me mind body and soul

[roswelldetails]

RNM 2x07 - Como La Flor

Apologies for being so late this week!! Lots of translating to do, and research. Mucho gracias to @queenrikki for reviewing this one for me!

EPISODE SUMMARY:

OLD WOUNDS — Liz (Jeanine Mason) is forced to revisit a painful part of her past when her mother Helena (guest star Bertila Damas) shows up at the diner unexpectedly. Michael (Michael Vlamis) urges Maria (Heather Hemmens) to seek help after she experiences a strange vision, and Kyle’s (Michael Trevino) attempt to get Steph (guest star Justina Adorno) to open up doesn’t go as planned. Finally, Helena’s arrival in Roswell sends Rosa spiraling. Nathan Dean and Lily Cowles also star. Barbara Brown directed the episode written by Danny Tolli & Carolina Rivera (#207). Original airdate 4/27/2020. 

DETAILS:

Max and Isobel both describing to Rosa how it feels to use (and control) your powers.

Isobel:

"Ground your intention.  Feel the current running through your body, your hands guiding it with purpose."

Max:

"Okay, draw energy from your spine…"

Arturo on Rosa:

"I heard a little mouse crying in her room this morning."

Escamoles - like Liz says in the episode, they're ant larvae. One article I found called them "the Caviar of the Mexican desert". 

Helena calls Liz "mi corazón", which means "my heart".

"Arturito, te ves bien."

Arturo, you look good.

Adding "ito" to someone's name in Spanish can both be positive or negative.  It can refer to smallness or also tenderness (like an affectionate pet name).

@tasyfa pointed out that there was a little timeline error in this scene.  Arturo says that he hasn't seen Helena in 7 years, since Jim Valenti's funeral, but last season it was established in 1x12 that Valenti died in 2014.  Also, remember the show is a year behind reality right now, so it's still 2019. So off by 2 years.

The reason for Helena's visit - transferring her ownership of the Crashdown for Liz so that Liz can sponsor Arturo's residency for citizenship. I did a lot of research trying to understand and clarify why this is.  Thanks to those who weighed in when I was struggling to find a clear answer. Eventually I reached out to Define American, the non-profit org that provides support to the show on racial and immigration related issues.  Here's the response:

The short version is that Liz has to meet minimum income requirements in order to sponsor Arturo, because she has to be able to certify that she can financially support him.  Since she's currently unemployed except for the Crashdown, transferring half of the ownership to her makes her a business partner and helps her to meet the income requirements. 

The Spanish:

"¿Cuánto quieres, Mamá?" 

How much do you want, Mama?

"She has a very thoughtful manicure."

If you don't understand, it's cool. I'm not going to explain here.  Feel free to DM me though! I won't judge, promise!!

Narrative thread about Max's nightmare/memory continues from 2x03 and 2x06.  Don't forget that 2x03 was just Isobel remembering it. Max was a hallucination. So when he brings it up here, it might be something they haven't discussed in a very long time.

The Spanish from Rosa on her red jacket:

"Eres una mujercita."

Basically translates to you're a little woman or young woman.  I assume the "cita" is supposed to be diminutive here.

"Mom is an opportunist.  If she found out she had a kid who came back from the dead she would use you to get to Anderson Cooper. And then she'd use him to promote her latest lounge singer gig."

"Isobel pays double.  Becky tax." 

A Becky, according to common colloquial use, is an annoying white woman, usually entitled and privileged.

Lead bartender quit..meaning there's a job opening at the Pony…hmm. Wonder if any of our characters need a job... 🤔

Maria's vision:

Michael drops the change

Flash to Kyle dropping his keys & bending down to pick them up.

Kyle staring into a bright light.

Maria shouting his name.

"My heart was broken.  Liz ended things and a part of me died."

Max's story to Valenti… not all THAT far off from the truth.

Note: has anyone told him about Valenti investigating him? We know Liz and Isobel were questioned.  Michael was present when Liz was questioned. Kyle knows the whole theory his mom was pursuing. And he just wanders in there like nothing happened?

"Try leading several short staffed investigations with the mayor breathing down your neck."

Another subtle reference to the mayor, including the election banners hung around town in S2 and his "anti-immigrant agenda" which was referenced in S1.

Max has been with the department since he was 18 - this is the first time we learned that.  In 2x05 we learned he was there at 21. So that timeline has now been further clarified. Which also means he was hired during Jim Valenti's time as Sheriff.

"I need eyes on you at all times now."

Definitely implies a lack of trust, or possibly still wanting to keep an eye on him for the purpose of her investigation (not a fact, just a theory).

Steph tells Kyle that she's always hanging around the hospital because she's doing admin work for her dad.

"I'm starting to feel like you're a ghost who only I can see."

"Ask them if they can see me. Or if you were just talking to a ghost." 

Note that ghosts have been a running theme this season with Rosa returning from the dead. This seems to be in line with that. Or are they subtly tying Steph to Rosa (I'm grasping at straws here, probably).

Liz leaves the safe on 3...but before she changes it is on 81. Helena leaves it on 78 after stealing the ring. Good continuity, RNM!

The whole "my mom hates cops" theme is a little confusing to me.  I mean, it makes sense given what we know about Helena. Except that she had an affair with Jim Valenti, who was… a cop. And also an addict.  Maybe it was different because they rehabbed together (just an assumption, not a fact). Or maybe the Jim experience contributed to her dislike of cops.

Liz...might be grasping at straws when she refers to police work as "something you love" to Max.  He didn't exactly seem enamoured by the job when we first met him in Season 1.

First time we learn Max and Isobel's father's name. And it is… Dave. 🤔

The Spanish Helena uses when she meets Max:

"Pero que guapo estas."

But how handsome you are.

"Cuidado Arturito."

Careful, Arturo…

Helena found Liz and Diego's wedding registry online. 

“Look there are medical reasons for non-drug-induced hallucinations - epilepsy, schizophrenia…”

“My mom has a degenerative brain disease. My grandma did too. I've always known I'd be next.”

Helena wanted to be Selena.

Which fits with Liz's lounge singer comment earlier.

And the "drunkenly singing in the car with your daughters in the backseat" fits with the story Liz and Rosa discussed in 2x02 about the car accident they got into as kids with Helena driving drunk.

Helena shows Liz her ten years sober chip, suggesting that she's been sober since Rosa died, but Rosa finds pills in Helena's car later in the episode.  Oxycodone. The same drug that Rosa used to steal from her mom as a kid (which we learned about in 2x04) and the same drug that she and Kyle discussed when he was checking her health in 2x01.

During Helena's toast to Rosa:

Preciosa = precious

Rosa Linda… still not sure personally if this is a continuity error or a pet name.  I’m inclined to go with a pet name. Throughout the whole episode Helena uses lots of pet names, nicknames, diminutives to address people. Rosa Linda may be just another version of this since Rosa's middle name was pretty well established as Helena in Season 1 between her grave, memorial pamphlet, etc.

Kyle calls attention to Steph's bandage on her arm.  She says she gave blood, but it feels like she's evading.

Also she calls him McDreamy, which is a Grey's Anatomy reference. Kyle called himself McSexy (another Grey's nickname) in 1x08 as well.

Note: I've seen some people talk about the speech about his sick friend as being about Maria, but I think he's really talking about Steph.  Or both, vaguely. He's certainly trying to get Steph to open up to him. Here's what he says:

"I just found out a friend of mine is sick. And I can't do anything to help her. And I hate feeling helpless."

Only after Steph puts her walls back up, does he gesture to Mimi's files.

The Spanish:

"Oh, ándale, gùero."

Ándale is like, go! Or let's go! Gùero we discussed earlier...basically white boy.

Por favor - please 

Rosa's art that we first saw in 2x05 now looks finished:

Isobel's graffiti "In Pod We Trust"

Both Isobel and Rosa's graffiti:

Isobel's assessment of Rosa's art

"That's a black hole. An unstoppable force of destruction. And it's getting closer. I see a girl looking into her own doom. She thinks it's inevitable, that she can't stop it, but she can. See, she created it. That means she can destroy it."

Rosa on Isobel's efforts to help her:

"You and Max, you keep talking about harnessing emotion and grounding myself, right? But I can't do that.  It is in my DNA to be screwed up. Literally. My mom's mentally ill. So, so am I. I was broken long before Noah did what he did. That's why he chose me to prey on.  That's probably why he chose you too."

Maria on her grandmother:

"When I was a child my Grandma Patty was the only adult who understood my make-believe world. Thing is, I was six.  So my favorite things about her were just illness, I guess…"

Maria on her mom:

"She was always kind of out there.  By the time I realized it was more than that, I just became obsessed with money. Wanted to be able to take care of her. I invested everything Grandma Patty left me, and I worked, scrounged.  It was about three days after my mom was finally fired from her job at the Pony, I bought the place."

Maria's blood does not contain the alien protein that Kyle found in the Pod Squad and Rosa after being in the Pod for a decade. (and yes, he actually said Pod Squad, which feels like an OG fandom victory)

"Look, there is one thing I noticed in your grandmother's file. Her insurance company is the same one that paid for my dad's cancer treatments...My dad got cancer because of an alien incident at Caulfield Prison. A fake insurance company established by Project Shepherd covered his bills."

"Okay so my grandmother got sick at the same alien prison where your mother died?"

More Spanish (there's lots of it this week).

Helena, when she gestures to the present:

"Abre tu regalo."

Open your gift.

Quinces is just slang for Quinceanera.

Just in case you're not familiar with quinceaneras (Liz's was also referenced in 1x02).

"Mija, me enseñas tus prom photos?"

Daughter, show me your prom photos.

Regarding the power outage.  Liz thought it was Max. Max thought it was Rosa. But the wire is frayed, like it was cut or chewed through. So it wasn't alien power related.  When Arturo finds the wire though, he says, "Must have been a little mouse." Which is how he referred to Rosa earlier in the episode. So the question is, does he actually think it was a mouse? Or does he think Rosa cut the wire? And if Rosa did cut the wire, then why? To distract them while she goes after her mom's car?

In the big Liz/Helena argument, Helena calls Max “a güerito cop”.  Güero means white person, similar to the more commonly used gringo.  But by adding the “ito” onto the end (like discussed before), Helena is basically diminuitizing Max.  She’s using the “smallness” above to basically imply that he’s some white nobody.

“I may not be the PTA mom who made cookies for bake sales or hosted sleepovers, but I sacrificed everything to come to this country to give you a better life.”

This is...not actually true.  Liz and Rosa are both natural born U.S. citizens, born in Roswell.  So she didn’t “come to this country” for that reason. She was already here when Liz and Rosa came into the picture.  And it’s not like she came pregnant with Rosa or anything, since Rosa is Jim Valenti’s daughter.

The ring that Helena took was ARTURO'S mother's ring.  It wasn't even Helena's family's heirloom.   

Liz and Arturo sharing flan for dessert.  At the start of the episode before Helena arrived they discussed making flan for Rosa.

Arturo admits that he always knew the truth about Rosa's heritage. (*fistpump* that's one of my headcanons coming true). 

"Rosa es mi hija, siempre y para toda la vida."

Rosa is my daughter, always and for life.

"Maybe you're right. I am playing the hero. Just like you're playing the politician's perfect arm candy.  See, I did a little digging. And your boyfriend, Dirk-- he ran for city council. It's very impressive. But there's no mention of your daughters. I'm guessing Dirk doesn't even know about Liz or Rosa.  Does he know anything about you, Helena? 'Cause it would be such a shame if he found out about a little town called Roswell."

Helena gives Max the ring, but keeps the box… maybe that's what Helena really wanted?

Huevos = eggs.  Basically, slang for balls.

"I know that face.  You uncovered a massive conspiracy."

"I checked the Caulfield drives. No sign of a Patricia DeLuca, but there was a Patricia Harris. Her maiden name. She signed up to participate in an experimental trial. Government was interested in weaponizing alien abilities. They wanted to create super soldiers. Your grandma was one of the first human subjects."

"Kind of wish I was an alien instead."

"What happened to the experiment?"

"It was a total failure. Caulfield shut it down in the '70s after people started dying. I don't understand how your grandmother got involved."

"I do. Henrietta Lacks, Tuskegee, Holmesburg.  The DeLucas aren't the first black people to be secretly experimented on."

Highly encourage you to read these if you're unfamiliar with any of these references.  It's African-American history (and really a black mark on U.S. history) that's rarely taught in schools.

Henrietta Lacks:

Tuskegee:

Holmesburg:

Reality versus Maria's flashes… great gifset by @rosaortecho on this here:

Kyle rips his jacket, staggers out to the parking lot, drops his keys, and is almost hit by a car, but Michael throws him out of the way with his powers (and Kyle still ends up injured because he lands on a glass bottle).

"Now that we know your illness is related to Caulfield we can find a cure for it."

"Maybe it's not an illness. I saw the future today, Guerin. When I first found out Grandma Patty was experimented on, I was furious.  But what if my genetic inheritance isn't just injustice? It's also actual superpowers. Saved a life today. And not just any life-- Kyle Valenti's. Tomorrow he's gonna turn around and save five more lives."

Liz and Rosa's dueling big sister act is super fascinating.  Rosa admits that she wasn't going to burn the car, and then she saw Liz crying, felt helpless, and that's when her powers went all wacky and caused it to explode.

Meanwhile, Liz has spent the whole episode trying to keep Rosa safe from Helena, and is trying to comfort her here by talking about Helena's sobriety.

But--Rosa stole Helena's pills, so she knows Helena is not sober, and she doesn't tell Liz that.  Why? To protect her.

At some point these two should probably stop keeping secrets to protect each other and start actually sharing what they know.

Kyle stitches himself up.

Steph quoted in this scene:

"I was up in the gallery contemplating American downfall thanks to progressive socialism."

"People tend to bail when things get real. I'm not into that."

Cameron's car was impounded a couple hours away.

Max is turning in his badge and gun and is turning down desk duty to search for Cam.

Isobel and Michael's discussion at the Pony:

"Do you think that Noah chose me because I was already broken?"

"I think you are the only one of us who ever keeps it together."

"I'm serious, Michael. The night that drifter attacked me, why am I the only one who started blacking out? I mean, Max literally murdered a man, but I'm the one who breaks?"

"You were traumatized. We were kids. At that age, trauma gets etched on to your soul."

"But what if it's not in my soul? What if it's in my DNA? Look, my whole life, I've played Stepford wife, because I thought that's what I was supposed to do. But...I need to understand myself now. I need to know where I'm from.  And if I don't know who my biological parents are, how am I ever gonna know who I really am?" 

"What are you saying, Iz?"

"I know that we said we shouldn't look into the past, but…"

"It keeps pulling you back. Me too. I spent my whole life thinking I'd build a ship and blast off into the ether. And then the minute I decide to leave that all behind and focus on this good thing in front of me, I'm sucked back in. Maria's family was experimented on at Caulfield. I need to find out more so I can find a cure for her illness."

Rosa takes one of her mom's pills. 😭

MUSIC:

1. Cactus Groove "This World"

2. Shelly Fairchild "Drive"

3. Mathis Hunter "Mrs. Vinegar"

4. Big Stone City "Good For Zero"

5. Big Stone City "Way Down Below"

6. Selena "Bidi Bidi Bom Bom"

7. Elizabeth Moen "Best I Can Do"

8. Wagons "Keep Coming Back"

9. AG "Where Is My Mind" (Pixies Cover)

[dolcenco]

Ay, Mami Likes It Rough

(CNCO x Reader)

Plot: Spa day shenanigans with CNCO

Warning/s: Semi-naked CNCO and a small smut-ish scene in the end!

Syrah’s Note: I actually had fun writing this. Also, please note that these are the same characters from my other fic: I’m So Wet. Lastly, thank you to everyone who love and support my writing and fics, it means so much to me that people actually like them 😭💕 Don’t forget to leave feed-back, loves.

But now, on to the story!

-

You and Joel decided to spend the day hanging out in his hotel room while the other boys were doing whatever shenanigans they do on a day-off.

You were on the bed laying on your stomach, editing the latest CNCOMonday video while Joel was in the bathroom, too busy staring at his zit for the past thirty minutes.

It was bearable at first until he starts complaining about his monstrosity of a pimple.

“(Yyyyy/n), it’s huge!” Joel whines for the nth time that morning and being his good friend / media manager, you ignored him.

“uUURGH! (Y/N)!”

You sighed in annoyance and rolled out of bed. You trudged into the bathroom and grabbed Joel’s face forcefully, making him look at you. 

You grimaced when you saw the popped zit and finally get why he was complaining. It was sitting on top of his nose in all its oozing red glory.

“Ooooh, that’s one hella godzilla.”

He glares at you as you release his cheeks and sighed at this man-child.

”Joelito, sweetie, you’re not supposed to pop a zit when it’s fresh and not ready, now that’s gonna scar,”

“What?!” he panics and was about to pick at it again when you slapped his hand away from his face.

“Ay dios mio, Joel!” you scolded, flicking his forehead. “What did I just say? did you even wash your hands?!”

He ignores you and continues to intently stare at it as if it was going to magically disappear.

“Just wait it out a few days, you won’t die.” You say and start to walk back to the room but he grabs your arm and pulls you back.

“Make it disappear, pweaaaase,” He begs, his two hands clamped together below his chin.

You frowned, “Do I look like the zit fairy to you? If only we can-no, wait that’s it! I know what we’re gonna do today!”

“What?”

You grinned at him, getting all excited for your amazing idea. You dashed to your hotel room and returned back to Joel’s with your skin care essentials and numerous face masks. You even brought your small humidifier with you. 

After preparing everything, you and Joel decided to have a stress-free, relaxing spa day. It was not long until you both were lounging on his bed in your bathrobes, sipping chamomile tea with clay mask on.

You both sighed in contentment as the room filled with the scent of lavender and calming sound of spa music. 

“So…” Joel starts as you take a sip from your cup.

“Are you falling for Chris?”

You spat your drink, coughing while you clapped on your chest from your sudden outburst. Once you got it together, you glared at Joel. 

“Of course n-“

Your reply was cut short by a sudden knock on the door. 

You and Joel froze giving each other a knowing look. No way you’re going to let anyone see you both with a face mask on, so you both pointed at each other.

“You get it,” You say at the same time. 

“Admit that you’re falling for Chris and I will get the door,” Joel says with a devilish grin on his face.

“You’re the one with godzilla on your nose!” You retorted and he glares at you in return.

When you realize he wasn’t going to budge anytime soon, you groaned and hopped out of bed. You reluctantly opened the door and sighed in relief when you find Zabdiel on his phone texting as he leaned against the doorframe. 

“What can I help you with zabdaddy?”

We got to admit. Zabdiel is the absolute daddy, hence, the fitting nickname you gave him. He didn’t mind you using it but what you didn’t know is that he secretly likes it when you called him daddy. 

He looks up and was slightly taken aback when he saw you in your face mask but stifled a giggle because he was just sweet like that. “Que estas haciendo?”

“Joel and I are having a spa day, wanna join?”

He smiles and shrugs in response. You let him in, closing the door behind you. He sighs when the lavender scent hits his nose, feeling relaxed already.

“(Y/N), who was it?” Joel asks lifting one cucumber from his eye.

Zabdiel laughs at the sight of Joel and takes a photo, “Te ves ridicula,”

Joel snickers, placing the cucumber back and murmurs, “Still perfect though,”

You instructed Zabdiel to change into the spare bathrobe Joel had in his hotel room while you prepare the clay mask for him. 

Moments later, you were briefly interrupted again with a knock on the door and when you open it Richard and Erick enter with a bottle of wine and drinking glasses. They were wearing their bathrobes untied so their chest and abs were exposed.

“What are you guys doing here?” You asked closing the door behind them.

“Zab told us that you were having a spa day and your daddy needs relaxing.” Richard says setting down the wine on the table before plopping next to Joel, taking a cucumber off his eye and eating it.

Zabdiel emerges from the bathroom with his bathrobe on, setting his neatly folded clothes on the table. “I’m ready!” He exclaims with so much enthusiasm.

You sat on the sofa with the bowl of clay mask mixture and patted your lap, “Come lay here, Zab”

He sits next to you and rests his head on your lap as you begin applying the paste mixture. He hisses the moment the mossy green substance touches his face. 

Erick sits on the floor next to you like the little kid he is, dipping his finger in the bowl and taking some of the paste on his finger.

“Is this edible?” He asks sniffing the mixture.

“I don’t think-ERICK COLON DON’T EAT IT, GOD!” You slapped his hand away from his mouth when he was about to lick off the mixture from his finger. 

“Sooo, (Y/N)......” Richard begins, “Are you and a certain someone dating?”

“Who?” You retort mindlessly, mixing the paste. When you were about to apply it on Zabdiel again, he was already looking at you expectantly. Even Erick looked amused.

“I’m not dating anyone,” You clarified, knowing damn well who they were referring to but hey it was true. You weren’t dating anyone. Sure, you shared flirty banters but it was nothing. 

“Oh, you’re not dating our laughing ass boy?” Richard grins from ear to ear in amusement waiting for your reaction.

You sighed in exasperation. If you get a dollar for every time someone asks you that question, you’d be a billionaire by now. 

“We’re not dating!” You snarled, throwing a face towel at him.

“Sure you aren’t, kiddo,” Joel pats the top of your head, making his way to pour Richard and himself a glass of wine.

Before you could protest, a knock interrupts you once again, halting the conversation.

Did the boys arrange a party or what? 

You made your way over to the door and when you opened it, you were greeted by the devil himself: Christopher Velez.

And he was topless and wearing only his boxers.

 Oh my god, damn this pendejo and his sex appeal. 

You shot the image of you running your fingers across his chest immediately when you hear him cough.

You didn’t realize you were gaping at him until he smirks and says, “You like what you see?”

With that, CNCO spa day chaos has commenced.

-

That afternoon, the spa day turned out to be the complete opposite of what you expected. It wasn’t the soft-kind of relaxing you and Joel opted for but it was rather amusing…

Richard was pinning Erick down on the floor, doodling on his face with the clay mask while Chris filmed his helpless friend for his instagram story. On the other side of the room, Zabdiel was giving Joel a full-on back massage, behaving like the good little children they were.

There came a point that you had to take the bowl of clay mask away from them because Richard and Erick thought it would be a great idea for Chris to taste the healing clay mask.

When night fell you were finally at peace when the boys decided to settle down for pop-corn and netflix. Erick and Joel were on their makeshift bed of blankets and pillows on the floor while Richard and Zabdiel occupied the bed.

As for you and Chris? You both sat on the couch with Chris laying in between your legs and his head on your lap as you stroked his hair absentmindedly. Every time you stopped, he would squeeze your hand, telling you to continue.

And yes, you were just friends. 

While you were focused on the movie, you can’t help but notice from the corner of your eye: a bulge forming in Chris’ boxers. You snorted and Chris looks up at you, confused. “What’s so funny?”

You shrugged and giggled, “Maybe you wanna calm down a bit?” you say, your eyes looking over his bulge. He follows your gaze and smirks. He chuckles before drawing his attention back to you.

“Or maybe you can not be boring and help me calm down?”

You blinked. You didn’t know if he was joking or not.

But hey, you don’t mind helping him with his little problem, oops.

“You’re such a horny ass shit, aren’t you,” You tugged on his fringe for his crude comment but only to have him respond with another.

“Ay Mami likes it rough,” He smirks, wiggling his eyebrows up and down.

“Ugh, you’re so annoying!” You groaned, flicking his forehead.

“Get a room!” Erick yells.

“Ooooh, Chris and (Y/N) -” Before Richard can finish his sentence, you glare at him menacingly threatening to color his nails as you did with Erick, who was furiously removing the nail polish.

Everyone continued watching the movie but as minutes pass, the boys grew sleepier and sleepier. Zabdiel was the first to retire and slept on the bed. Erick and Richard went back to their rooms while Joel fell asleep half-way through the movie.

You and Chris managed to switch positions wherein he was sitting upright and you were laying down with your legs on his lap. You yawned and blinked the sleepiness away.

“Tired?” Chris looks down at you, rubbing his hands on your legs which sent chills through your body.

“A little,” You murmured and he looks at his phone to check the time.

“It’s late, I better go.” He said gently lifting you legs from his lap as he stood up, placing them back on the couch. You were kind of disappointed that he didn’t want to stay and sleep together but hey, it’s whatever, right?

“Okaaaay” You said sleepily, reaching out your arms to him for a good night hug. He giggles at how cute you looked. 

“Good night, babe,” He says, leaning down to give you a hug and your wrapped your arms around his neck.

You feel him nuzzle into your neck but what he did next caught you by surprise.

You let out a breathy moan when you suddenly feel Chris kiss your neck, gently sucking on the skin before giving the spot a small lick.

Before you could react, he pulls away and kisses your forehead. You stare at him in disbelief as he opens the door, blows you a kiss and finally exits the room, leaving you hot and bothered.

Your hand flies to to the spot on your neck where he kissed you, the sensation of his lips lingering as you sat there in shock.

What the hell just happened? Why did he do it? I wasn’t drunk enough, he wasn’t drunk enough. Did he like me that way? I mean, I liked him but what????????

Thoughts raced through your head and you couldn’t sleep that night but before the night ended, you thought to yourself:

I am 72 shades of done with Christopher Velez.

[laceymorganwrites]

The Girl who spoke nerd: Peter´s pov

Word Count: 1,828

Pairing: Peter Parker x female!Reader

Warnings: mentions of bullying

A/N: I love writing pov of a character. And Spiderman. Hope you enjoy :) (Chester is an OC of mine, playing a part in my Deadpool Story)

„Stark, Parker“ the voice of my science teacher brought me back to reality.

I had been staring at her again, she knew.

Of course she knew, it was as obvious as me blushing at the fact my teacher hadn´t only caught me staring at her, but also decided to put us in a project together.

It was strange, somehow the teachers really liked it when I embarrassed myself in front of her.

We were also always seated next to each other and had to do several projects together.

Sometimes I wondered if they just had a strange sense of humor or were straight-up cruel.

„If you keep staring at me like that, I might explode, Superman“

She said it in an innocent way, but her smile was wicked and herr eyes gleamed mean.

The class had a good laugh at her comment and I just looked down at my failed attempts to draw her.

I could feel the heat in my cheeks and her merry laugh.

„I...I wasn´t...staring“ I tried to defend myself, but ended up stuttering, like always.

„Oh, Pete, I was just kidding!“ (Y/N) laughed even louder.

„Of course you were, creep“

Flash Thompson was the embodiment of a coitus interruptus, always too late and always failing, but everyone seemed to love him, to me he was just trying too hard.

He was afraid of (Y/N) because she was a mutant, which never bothered me, but because of that Flash wanted her to like him, so that she wouldn´t kill him.

Felicia Hardy asked him one day why he tried to impress her so much, which I heard the answer of.

He left and (Y/N) showed up to a Felicia who laughed villainous and told her all about it, to which (Y/N) responded: „You don´t need to be a mutant to be annoyed by Flash Thompson, but why the hell would I want to kill him? His wrong answers already do that“.

I laughed.

Her best friend then grabbed me, because I dared to cross their path on my way to my locker, and took away my sketches of (Y/N) just to show her.

That was about two months ago, in (Y/N)´s first week at high school.

„Ew, that´s creepy!Such a stalker nature“ she reacted.

„Yeah!I bet he does a lot of handwork on them, if you know what I mean!“

They laughed.

„I´m...I´m not that kind of guy!“ I tried to defend myself.

„Sure you aren´t.“

Then Chester, another mutant, came by and punched me, I just proceeded to leave.

It was weird in the first few weeks with (Y/N) in school, she acted like a stereotypical mean girl, desperately trying to find new friends.

One day she casually sat down next to Michelle, an introvert girl who never hid that she hated basically everybody.

So Ned and I were really excited to see what would happen next.

The day started with (Y/N) walking into school without her miniskirt and high heels, instead she wore dark ripped up jeans, a tight black shirt and sneakers, her hair was done up.

Michelle´s look was priceless, a numb expression on her face, eyebrows furrowed.

She put down her book and smiled back at (Y/N), who proudly showed her new outfit.

„Finally, you want to see the sketches?“ they did a secret handshake and Michelle laughed with (Y/N). „Yes, please“ (Y/N) responded and as soon as she saw them, she snorted. I always thought her laugh was like chirping, but this was cute, I couldn´t help, but smile. „What is going on?“ Ned whispered.

„I have no idea“ I was lost in the conversation, (Y/N) laughed at Michelle´s sketches and they talked about dancing and the band, gossiped about the stereotypes and in the end (Y/N) thanked Michelle for being her friend.

Suddenly the `Add sugar spice and everything nice´- attitude changed into the `She´s beauty she´s grace she´ll punch you in the face´- attitude.

And I had the biggest crush on her, and a science project to be done.

„I´ll swing by later“ (Y/N) interrupted me from grieving.

„Er...yeah...cool“ I gave her a quick smile and then packed my things for the next lesson.

It was funny how everyone was so scared of her when she was so awesome, Ned was afraid of her too, so I couldn´t tell him how I felt about (Y/N), that´s why I told him I liked Liz, the sophomore girl he was into.

The bell rang after another day of school which lasted too long and I hurried to get home.

I even spared the drive to the dumpster where I normally go to collect computer items.

„Hey, May, Ben“ I locked the door behind me to greet my aunt and uncle.

„Hey, Peter, how was school?“ asked May through the kitchen.

„It was pretty good actually, (Y/N) will come later, we have a project to do on X rays“ „X rays, huh?“ laughed uncle Ben.

Sometimes it happens that I don´t listen when I´m talking so the words just come out and it´s awkward.

„Is (Y/N) the girl you talk about all the time?“ May asked.

„I thought her name was Liz“ Uncle Ben called from the living room.

„Yes that´s her, Ben, Liz is just an alibi for Ned, he shouldn´t know I like her“ I tried to explain, as I accompanied him on the Couch.

„Why not?” he asked me. „Because she´s a mutant“ I answered and shifted awkwardly, the Topic of mutants was quite controversial. „So what?“ Ben shrugged. „I know you´re really tolerant, I don´t have a problem with that either, I just don´t get why people have, it doesn´t feel right!“ I got defensive again, but I knew I couldn´t Change a Thing.

„You´re just like your dad“ Ben smiled and I had to too.

„Everyone´s afraid of her“ I frowned, still not grasping it.

„Don´t you want to tidy your room?“ May remarked.

I checked the time and ran into my room, bashing the door and hysterically screaming a „Sorry!“.

Then I cleaned my room in ten minutes so it looked like (Y/N) could sit somewhere.

Finally the doorbell rang.

„I´m coming!“ I rushed to the door, passed  laughing May and Ben before I stopped to breathe and opened the door.

„Hey“ I grinned widely.

„Shall I pass?“ she smiled and after laughing at a reference of a movie I was pretty sure she had never seen I stepped back so that she could enter.

„You shall pass“

„So you must be (Y/N)!“ Ben stood up from the couch and shook (Y/N)´s hand.

„Yes, I am. It´s nice to meet you, Mr Parker“ she smiled widely. „Hello (Y/N), Peter has told us so much about you! Dinner´s done, do you want to join us?“ May came out of the kitchen and also shook (Y/N)´s hand.

„That would be really nice, Mrs Parker, thank you“ (Y/N) was very Kind. „You´re welcome“ May smiled and then gave me thumbs up.

„This is delicious, Mrs Parker“ (Y/N) said.

The dinner went on pretty good, as we finished I showed (Y/N) my room.

„Pretty“ she noticed.

„Thanks, so on what aspects should we focus?“ I tried to Focus on the Project rather than our future marriage and children, „Of course how x rays work, how to use them, x ray vision, maybe history, like who found it and how it developed“ she thought out loud. „Okay, I´ll start the presentation“ I offered and took out my Laptop. „Alright“  (Y/N) placed herself on my bed, searching her notes on the topic, staring at me.

I turned around to show her the design, she was smiling.

„What?“ I asked, blushing.

Her smile widened.

„Nothing, it´s just, you´re so nice to me“ she said. „Well, why wouldn´t I be?“ I asked. „Because I was pretty mean to you when I first came into school“  she almost sounded as if she was apologizing. „So what, everyone´s mean to me. I don´t mind“ I tried to Play it off cool. „Yes you do, Penis Parker“ she smirked. „Come on, not you too“ I was annoyed at that stupid nickname. „See it bothers you“ she remarked. „Of course it bothers me, who wouldn´t be bothered?“ I gave in. „Then why don´t you do anything against it?“ she asked, as if doing anything would help. „Cause I can´t, if I did, nothing would change, they would just keep going, only stronger this time. If I ignore it, it might go away“ I confessed. „You know what, Parker?“ she smiled at me. „What?“ I was confused. „I think you´re pretty awesome“ she now grinned and I had a rapid heartbeat. I didn´t respond to that, maybe I should´ve before I lost her, but it was too late, so only the memory remained, I wish I´d done something before she vanished.

Instead we just finished the project and one week later, I became Spiderman and uncle Ben died.

Since that day she wasn´t in school, rumor had it that she returned to the school for gifted youngsters.

I haven´t seen her in six months, neither have I spoken to her.

But Spiderman has, I´ve seen her in Brooklyn and Hell´s Kitchen, so why did she lie?

One day I walked around in the Bronx and I saw Tricity, my hero idol, she just fought King Pin with the Punisher, then they turned into a corner, where she unmasked, it has been (Y/N) all the time, and I watched from the rooftop.

That explained a lot, but it didn´t look like a mission, she left me alone.

So you can see why I am so surprised seeing her sit on my couch with her dad today.

He said I won a scholarship, but I was suspicious about that.

„Hey, Pete, can we talk?“ she looked at me with her (Y/E/C) eyes and stood up.

I said nothing until we were in my room.

„Listen, Peter, I´m sorry. I know the last months were rough for you, maybe you needed me, I don´t know that, I just know that I feel really guilty for just leaving you. I just, your uncle died, I didn´t know how to handle that, I still don´t, maybe you needed space, maybe you didn´t want to see me, and trust me, I understand that you´re angry and I´m so sorry.“ Her voice cracked. How could someone be so perfect? I just looked at her, I couldn´t believe she was really here right now.

„Peter, say something“ she whispered.

„You´re awesome, Tricity“ I smiled slightly and she sat down next to me with a big grin.

„Spiderman“ (Y/N) was so near to me, she looked so beautiful, she cut her hair and got her braces removed, her lips were full and rosy, her lips…

I leaned in without thinking and then I kissed her.

Her hand grabbed mine as she placed her arm around my neck and deepened the kiss, then her dad came in.