#i love joochie tf

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confession 🥣 !%# hong joochan .

⠀⠀⠀⠀ 𓂃 爱 / 📝 : you have always had an eye out for joochan, one of your friends. will you have the courage to confess your feeling to him?

ଘ  𖥻 note : i’m not a native english speaker so this imagine may contain some grammatical errors which i’m deeply apologizing for. i hope you guys will like it! :]

“admit it, you like joochan!” said your best friend out of nowhere but you only rolled your eyes and continued doing your half-done maths homework. your original intention was to do it together though. “i saw how you look at him, even your eyes were sparkling! you know, this morning when we met in front of the school.”

“that doesn’t mean anything.”

“yeah, believe it or not, i know you’re totally head over heels for him.” she shrugged and went back to finish her homework finally. she didn’t say anything about this topic.

and that made up plenty of questions in your head which was seem to be unanswered. joochan has got your heart a long time ago, you admitted this to yourself but you tried real hard to deny. or at least to hide it from those who are the closest to you. you felt a bit embarrassed for liking a quite popular student in the school. and to make it even worse, he was one of your friends which you didn’t want to worsen or break. paranoia or not, you were terrified of being rejected. you didn’t want to loosen the kind of close and tight friendship of yours. you didn’t want to mess up the relationship between the two of you because of your adoration towards him. and you knew so well if you would confess your feelings to him, you would get into the friendzone.

or that’s what you thought.

even after you classes finished, you could only think about what to do. your friend made references to confessing, all day which made you more nervous than before. you wanted to focus on some other things that are completely not joochan but he came to your mind lot more times than usual. not to talk about how many times you had to face him. although you didn’t talk to him every time you two met on the hallways. but to twist the whole story, you had to spend your lunch break with him and his - which is yours too - friend group. you didn’t say any words though. everyone was suspicious of you because there weren’t any times when you would shut your mouth as the moodmaker of the group.

however, this time you were just eating quietly while listening to jangjun’s newest story of him and the new girl he had been trying to ask for a date. no one really cares about it, to be real honest. you had the courage to look at joochan a few times. of course as a secret because you wouldn’t have been able to deal with the situation after getting caught.

“meet you tomorrow.” you waved while saying goodybe to your bestfriend but she grabbed your wrist for one last time before heading home. “if you tell him what’s up between you guys, i will do your homework for the rest of the year!” she said believeing it would help you to come to a decision. “but if you won’t i will be the one confessing your feelings.”

with a devilish smile on her face she left you there, frozen by her words.

“damn, i hate you” was the first thing you could think of while watching his form slowly disappearing from your sight. you were trying to collect your courage while being slightly nervous. you were just about to finally go home but something prevent you from doing that.

and that was hong joochan and his engaging smile on his face which made your heart flutter. you didn’t care about the silly smile that constantly came to your face, it didn’t matter anymore. there’s a chance you guys would break everything that connects the two of you by the end of the day. and in that case, it wouldn’t matter how dumb you looked like.

“hi! should i walk you home?” he stood by your side and you just nodded as a response because you weren’t able to say anything. “are you good though? you were a bit... odd? today.”

“everything’s okay” you said quietly and walking beside the taller boy, you could only think about how to confess for real finally.

“are you sure?” he looked down a bit suspicious which you responded to with a nod. a not so convincing nod. “i mean, no. nothing’s okay.” you said suddenly, and it attracted joochan’s attention. his worried looks weren’t so encouraging either.

“what’s wrong?”

“what’s wrong? there’s nothing wrong” you shook your head but finally managed to explain everything. “i’ve just had enough of starting every god damn day with the struggles of not being able to confess to a person i really like. to simply not being able to tell him how much i love and adore him, how important his presence is in my life. i have to see his sweet smile every day, hear him saying kind words and i don’t have any chance to tell him how much he bought my heart with all of these. i laugh at his dumb jokes, watch him as he flirts with others and i don’t have the guts to do anything against this.”

“at least i’m not the one who feels just the same” he mumbled and you raised your eyebrows, not really understanding the meaning behind it. “you are really dumb, for real. to be exact, you’re just blind, that suits this situation so much better.”

you were all confused and tried to get what he said a few seconds earlier but everything felt overly surreal.

“isn’t it clear that i like you?” you only heard this one certain sentence, the others weren’t that relevant anyways. you stopped not caring about where you are, only being able to look at joochan’s eyes full of adoration. “oh god, i’ve been trying to tell you this for a long time, but...”

“i was a coward to” you completed his sentence quietly and he only nodded getting one step closer to you.

“the guys always bothered me with the confessing but i couldn’t. jibeom even offered that he would pay for my food in the cafeteria for one whole month!”

“it’s weird ‘cause that’s what happened to me. if these dumbasses...”

“it doesn’t matter. the only thing that matters now in the middle of this pavement is that i’ve completely fallen in love with you. i can only think about giving you a damn kiss but i never had the guts to do so. because you know how...”

he couldn’t even finish his sentence, you were already standing on your tiptoes and gave him a quick peck on his lip. it made him stop immediately.

“if we are really dating i have to make it clear that you can’t do this out of nowhere.” said joochan and you could only laugh at him. everything felt easier.

“i can’t promise, joochan. maybe i will greet you like this every time we meet.”

“i don’t have anything against this idea. so... can i get one more?” he said with a smirk on his face.

you were so happy

and you didn’t have to worry about your homeworks for the rest of the year.