#i love everything about this except that it's only no xbox XD

[gloryride]

Let's talk about Phantom Liberty DLC bc I finished yesterday !

Under the cut to avoid spoilers ♥

First, i enjoyed it. I played on my Xbox, now the new Serie X with a 4k tv, when i started with the Xbox One Serie S and a classic tv, was a whole change ! And i created a new playthrough, even it was still Vanessa as V. I rushed the main plot, took time to cry after Jackie's death, still adjusting my almost 3 years lore for Baby Girl, still did same choices (like spared VDB) and tadaaa, jumping into the DLC !

I liked it. Not totally what i expected, frustrated and angry on things, but it's really positive. The story is interesting, but i really love gigs and sides quests you can have here !

New locations ! Love this area can be explore in verticality, miss that in NC. Everything is good, a bit of Cyberpunk but also Fallout ♥ I love just exploring places, choosing a new road just to see if i can see something there ... Dogtown is REALLY good ! Organitopia my new best place, with the Black Sapphire of course ! New vanilla clothes are awesome, and cdpr stopped to do ugly colors (except for this ugly suit in Black Sapphire), i could imagine most of my OCs with these clothes, without need recolors. So many pink for Vanessa, the new formal dress are really pretty for Roxy too, the suits with ties for my corpo boys (and Valentin), some pants are really nice ♥ New gigs ! you can have choice to do things, have some consequences and morality. I really loved the one with the stupid cops and Dodger. Vanessa isn't a killer, so she was stealthy, knocked out the guards but didn't kill anyone. As a result, Dodger let everyone go without any bloodshed. I really enjoyed it. Just like the one where you have to get two idiots out of the Barghest and you can contact people (I chose Panam) to ask for help ^^ Truly, the main story is good but not as the rest. I also love Mr Hands, very interesting character and i prefer his new look and voice (they even changed in french).

And negative ? Eh ... None of main characters are loveable. Reed is cold, Myers is really a politician, i liked Alex but disappointed by her in the end, Songbird is the better but another liar ... And Hansen ? Why teasing him as villain to see him only 5min ? For nothing, he's useless. The story is a bit too focus on NUSA/FIA, less about Dogtown. When Mr Hands talked about politics, i thought there could fight for powers ... nah but the biggest no no for me, is this facial implant. The scene was creepy af, and why we needed to see the ripper working ? yrrk That was THAT where i thought "Vanessa couldn't do that" (so it doesn't fit with final quests).

So wasn't what i expected, i'm not disappointed. I think newbies will enjoy more than olders than me, who think about my OC since 3 years xD

So, what's my canon ? Vanessa is anti-corpo, so i don't see her side with Myers (she didn't do the sermon), she didn't vibe with Reed, only with Alex, and understands Songbird. But Hansen ? he has streetkid codes, he took powers, he's not better than others politicians but doesn't hide it. After Black Sapphire, Vanessa will do her own plan : talk with Hansen, tells him she's not from FIA, just a girl who want to survive and need Songbird for this. He accepts, let Song and Vanessa leaving with the matrix, and the Moon ending. When Song told Vanessa she lied to her, she will be pissed, another liar. But she helps her anyways, she both fucked, if one of them can live, would be a good ratio. Still don't know if she kills Reed or not, maybe fight against him and knocked out. In any case, the FIA won't be bothering her in Night City, and when they find out she's taken the Arasaka Tower, they'll leave her alone for a while.

[slashingdisneypasta]

Hello! Can I request a headcanon where the queen of hearts (1951), Maleficent, Cruella, Shang yu and Yzma (separated) take care of a lost (orphaned) little girl (like 5-6) and adopted her as their own. Thank!

These were sooooo fun to think of, omg XD I feel all warm inside, thanks for the request! I hope you like it as much as I do ^^

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Cruella DeVille (You can imagine either animated, OUAT or live action Cruella, but I liked this gif ^^):

·         Cruella, is more of a… fun, rich aunt. You know, when you can post the child back to its parents any time you like with a sugar high and new Xbox?

·         But, as the capable entrepreneur and businesswoman that she is, she rises to the challenge of ‘parenting’, when the stinky orphaned girl living on the streets (You, obviously) show potential in the fashion industry.

·         She takes you right to the adoption agency, picks you up and plops you on the counter like a pair of shoes and asks how much you cost. You just smile sweetly, like the most adorable munchkin ever despite the off way your new caregiver handles you, and the agent has some reservations, of course, but Cruella’s able to speed up the adoption process with her connections and her money.

·         Your relationship at first is similar to Oswald Cobblepot and Martin’s. And if you haven’t watched Gotham, I’ll explain; Sort of distant, but the adult is trying at least. They’re just not used to having a pre-teen around. And, somehow, they’re making the child feel more understood and taken care of then anyone else ever has, despite both parties’ reservations.

·         Slowly you bond (Over fashion, obviously) and Cruella turns into, honestly, a pretty good mum (For a villain who wants to kidnap puppies from her friend and make a coat for herself out of them, anyway). She learns to not gag when your shows are on the telly, she takes more time off work to take care of you and turn up to your school things (Like parent-teacher interviews, concerts, art exhibitions, and assemblies if you’re going to get an award- she even makes artful collages out of your work on the fridge), and you two even learn how to cook some easy dinners together.

·         (Cruella can cook, I think, but I can imagine they’re more fancy stuff that a kid really isn’t interested in)

·         You’re a two-person team kind of family.

·         She doesn’t like you to be around Jasper and Horace because their stupidity and lack of fashion sense could be contagious.

·         For the longest time, you just call her Cruella… until one day she says she loves you (Which is visibly difficult for her. Not because the words aren’t true, but because she’s not sentimental) and you finally call her ‘Mum’.

Maleficent:

·         You start following her around, lost and having decide the scary green lady with a cute bird pet is the one to go to for help. She tries to scare you off, but of course you’re already scared anyway! But not of her- of being left alone.

·         So you keep following her through the forest, until you reach her castle and Diablo has become attached to you and is sitting on your shoulder instead of hers, nuzzling your little face.

·         She leaves out some food for you for dinner and lays a clean blanket down on an abandoned bed in a random room down a dark hallway. It’s a spooky night, in that creepy castle… but the blanket smells like grass and you find that if you close your eyes and smoosh your face into it, you don’t think about the things that could be hidden in the dark. Also, Diablo comes in and keeps you company.

·         Mal is sure that you’ll be gone the next day. That’s why she was so kind. She was sure you were just a determined straggler and if she offered you a home for a night, then you would be the fickle little child that you are leave without so much as a thank you the next day.

·         But you don’t leave.

·         And you do say thank you, and even make her a mud pie outside the castle.

·         She gives you a bit of a smile (Not soft, because Mal is still an evil fairy, but it’s a refreshing look on a face that had been pinched the whole time), resigning to you. You’re all alone like her. Maybe it won’t hurt so much to let you stay.

·         Okay, as a parent, Mal isn’t so bad. She settles into the pace easier than Cruella or Yzma, at least, and her lifestyle allows for a far stabler childhood for you then Shan Yu’s. Plus, she’s outwardly very calm, which is a huge improvement from if you were living under the Red Queens roof.

·         Distracts you with magic when she’s busy or just when she wants to watch the awe in your face as you watch sparkles dance around the room like real life stars.

·         Keeps you away from all her villainy- you don’t need to be messed up in all that. Basically no one except her crow knows you exist and she’d like to keep it that way.

Shan Yu:

·         Shan Yu finds you after he pillages your village (And you’re the only survivor) and you followed along behind his men for a while until they noticed you. Which didn’t take long, of course, they’re a group of highly skilled Huns in the ways of hunting and warfare.

·         He uses his noggin (A very good noggin. Much cleverness) and identifies the favourable factors to having a little girl with them. You’re unassuming, for one, and can be trained (And moulded) to be used as a diversion for them in the kind of situations in which brute force do not apply and wouldn’t be helpful.

·         He also acknowledges the need to train the next generation into their image to continue the Huns control over China even after he passes away. So, off on the quest to take over China you go, with them.

·         He is so big, that you can perch on his wide shoulder and he’ll be fine still marching along.

·         He gets a bit soft when interacting with you. At least, he certainly doesn’t treat you like an adult because you of course aren’t one. He encourages your childish wonder and your playing around. He’ll even play eye spy with you as you travel, or play a little tug of war if you get a piece of fabric or rope (Yes, like a puppy) and he’s just sitting down chilling somewhere on a rest break or at camp, pretending that the game is actually a contest until he smirks and tugs just a tiny bit harder and you fall forward onto your face XD (He only uses one hand the entire time)

·         He’s a really chill dad, really, despite the whole… killing everyone in your village… First impressions, amiright? XD

·         The rest of his men either hate you with every fibre of their huge beings or love you even more, and that’s the tea. One of them once rolled you up in a blanket and strapped you to a horse so you would stop annoying them by running around in front of the mules. You decide whether this was one who hated you or loved you. (Another came along and put a roll of bread in your mouth so you could eat, but didn’t release you)

·         You’ve also been tied (Safely and comfortably, yes but still tied with your feet off the ground) to a tree as a time out and dropped in lakes (Once they knew you could swim) to calm your shit when you got hyper.

·         You sleep in Shan Yu’s tent until you’re like 14 and declares that you’re able to defend yourself and can kill a man, so he can keep you safe.

Queen of Hearts:

·         Goodness, who let this woman adopt? (Well, I mean, no-one could stop her) Even Hades would be better, and he tried to have a baby assassinated.

·         This woman would be unintentionally manipulative towards this child (Like Norma and Norman Bates. Jesus christ). Whenever the kid doesn’t do anything that she wants them to, she’ll get p i s s e d, and that might legitimately mess with the kids psyche. She won’t behead the lil girl, of course, which I guess is bit of a saving grace (she isn’t that cruel) here? But it’s definitely a good thing the gentle King of Hearts is around, to settle the flames and calm down his wife and new daughter when games go awry.

·         (And ya’ll play lots of games. Some of the time, living with her and her husband as your parental figures is a dream for a little girl like you)

·         She does try her very hardest to be kind and not to lose her temper, and it is made so much easier by the fact that you’re an innocent little girl (Younger than Alice was), and she’s very fond of you. So, in a way, adopting you is helping her with her issues, and by extension, helping the rest of Wonderland.

·         You get a big fancy throne-like highchair at the royal dinner table.

·         Your little family is a bit or very messy, but you are never not loved. You always know that you’re loved.

Yzma:

·         When Yzma takes you in, its because Kronk discovered your little form sleeping in an alleyway and ran with you in his hands back to her, and BEGGED her. This sweetheart (Kronk, not Yzma) could not handle the knowledge that a little baby girl was abandoned and all alone on the streets. And Yzma’s the most well-off, influential person he knows! Of course he’s going to go to her for help.

·         When she finally gives in, its because you called her pretty. She’s just like… pause… “Seems like an intelligent enough… eugh… child... Kronk come! We have to disinfect it.”

·         Kronk rushes after Yzma, still holding you and clarifies for you: “She means a bath.”

·         So, now, you have your protective, psycho, affection-challenged mother and your sweet, dumb, beloved… uncle. Yeah, uncle. We’ll go with uncle.

·         Yzma takes a while to get used to you, and she’s very defiant against getting called ‘Mum’ or ‘Mother’ (Mama or Mummy have a more youthful feel, according to Yzma.), but she’s pretty immature due to her psychosis so she tends to blend well with your child personality.

·         You laugh so much, with her. Most of the things she says are hilarious, especially when she’s exasperated and mutters about Kronk.

·         She doesn’t want you to grow up without a brain like him (Or to mix with other children- she will not be dealing with chicken pox or nits. If you did get either of those things, she would be living in a full-on hazmat suit and spray everything you touch, and you. Kronk would end up getting the sickness because he gives you lots of hugs and takes care of you while you’re sick or you have the nits) so she gets you a home school teacher.

·         On your birthday (They do the day Kronk found you if you don’t know it), Kronk wakes Yzma up at the buttcrack of dawn drags her along to set up the day for you. Including a treasure hunt, where its clear that Yzma wrote the clues because its very translucent through the sentences she wrote that she didn’t have coffee before writing them. Very bitter.

·         She does want to make you happy though and buys you literally the best present for a child of that time. I don’t know what it is, but it’s the equivalent for them of a little car or coloured TV (Like the Barbie or Hot Wheel ones) for us. She’s so smug about it, too, like ‘Shove that up your 4 layer cake with different flavours, Kronk.’.

[thebraingremlinsaremad]

Daily Blog #15: August 22, 2021

Dollar Tree is honestly pretty fucking awesome 👌👌👌

I set my alarm for like 6:25 this morning, but it took 6 minutes for the "Horsin' Around" theme song instrumental to wake me up. I was pretty tired lol. I just dismissed it and went back to sleep.

I only went back to sleep because I knew I had another alarm set for 7:00. That got me up.

I should mention that this was still in the RV over an hour away from the house.

After I got up, I went to go get a shower, and did so successfully.

Unfortunately, I had forgotten my brush this time and had to do it afterwards after my hair had a bit of time to dry, which did make it a little more difficult lol.

I got dressed and grabbed my stuff, putting it into my car.

I made it a point to see and say "see you later" to my grandparents before I left for the flea market.

My dad insisted that I stayed to say goodbye to my mom, so I left.

I did NOT have cell service up there, as was mentioned in my previous 2 blogs of which I could only post today, so finding my way was a tiny bit difficult until I got some service to ask Google to take me to "...".

It worked and I got there.

On my drive, I listened to 1 by Simple Kid, a CD I had previously purchased at a Dollar Tree location.

I got a call from the guy at the flea market saying that I had some people there waiting for me. He asked how far away I was, to which I said "about 10 minutes." Ironically, that call made me miss my exit, as Google couldn't talk during the call, and added about 3 minutes to my arrival time lmao.

I did sell the Xbox that he said someone was interested in. I got $40 for it. I spent 27¢ on it. Pretty good return if you ask me.

I couldn't sell it with anything other than a power cord because the controller and AV cables I had been using to play it there were for my personal console. I'm just glad I can actually hook my Xbox up and stop having to drag them to the flea market along with a small library of games.

Not too long after I sold the Xbox, someone came in and asked if I wanted to see some electronics he had in his car. I went out with him. It was a pair of 3ft speakers and a Pioneer audio system with dual cassette decks (although neither of them works) and a 25 Disc CD-changer, as well as the standard AM/FM tuner. Additionally, there was a Fisher amplifier and AM/FM tuner as well as a Fisher Direct Drive turntable. He said he wanted $60 for em, but before that he casually, and probably accidentally, dropped that he was just gonna take em to the thrift store.

Big mistake.

I got em for $35 lmao. THERE GOES MOST OF MY PROFIT.

Oh well.

I tested everything. As I mentioned, the cassette decks don't work, but everything else does apart from the turntable needing a new stylus.

I posted some new photos of the shop to Facebook, and someone soon DMed me about a stereo system.

I priced everything, and it turns out I have about $300 worth of equipment from that deal, the Fisher amp and tuner being worth about $150.

The buyer will hopefully show up next weekend, for he wants to buy the Fisher stuff ($185 with the turntable), the 3ft speakers, an 8-track deck, and a Kenwood deck we've had for a week or two.

The speakers are listed for $50 (and are worth around $100-150), the Kenwood Deck for $50 as well, and the 8-track for $35. That makes it about $320 in equipment. Since he's buying so much, I'll knock it down to $270 and essentially give him the speakers or cassette deck for free lol.

Apart from that stuff, not much happened at the flea market. I sold some records, cassettes, CDs and I think 2 DVDs. One person bought a VHS tape? That money was the other guy's though. Oh well xD.

I can't say that I didn't miss my wonderful partner while on the trip. I actually brought along the stuffed animal they gave me (who's name is Greg) and snuggled with him both nights.

I was very happy to hear from them UwU.

They let me rant and I let them rant.

I honestly give them too much responsibility over me xD. I'm like, "Okay, I'm gonna do this. HOLD ME TO IT."

I know I can't hold myself to anything I personally say (this blog being the only exception apparently), but I listen to them pretty well I think 🤔. If they tell me, "No, you don't need that VCR," so long as it's not some weird specialty thing, like a worldwide VCR 🥵, I'll be like "Yeah, you rite bro."

I love you man xD. You control my craziness pretty well. I'm so thankful for you UwU.

#relationshipgoals

So part way through the flea market day, I went over to Dollar Tree to buy some snack, but ended up looking through the CDs to see if there was anything good. I took photos of about 18 CDs and flipped through them online for the remainder of the flea market day.

I deleted the photos of the ones I didn't want and kept those that I liked. Surprisingly, I ended up buying 13 CDs there, but not before dropping them on the floor like the dumbass I am.

Also, sorry for all the nerd shit I spilled on your lap earlier. No one cares about amps and tuners xD.

I'M LISTENING TO ONE OF THE DOLLAR TREE CDS RIGHT NOW THO.

I already transferred over to my online library on iBroadcast and put the disc into my CD changer, which is now holding 164 CDs.

Its max capacity is 300 discs 🥵

WHY AM I NERD

Oh well

I like being a nerd gurl

Also maybe a technosexual 👀

I get really excited over some electronics. Like. REALLY excited.

Some editing VCRs are like "Holy shit that is SEXY. Look at those goddamn VU meters 🥵. And hhhh there are like 7 inputs on this thing and individual controls for left and right audio gain, not to mention Hi-Fi S-VHS recording. Hhhhhhhhhhh please gimme 😭. Why are you so expensive?"

I uh, mean, uh, *cough* look, pretty lights.

Oh yeah, I was gonna say the album I was listening to xD. MAN I GOT SIDETRACKED.

It's 37 Everywhere by Punchline. Def give it a listen; it's pretty heccin good.

Another notable album I picked up was Page One by Steven Page. I very much like the first track, "A New Shore." It's quite catchy and he has a great voice imo.

Also at dollar tree, I bought a regular bag of Fieras and 2 bags of Fieras Sticks, which were marked down to 75¢/bag because they're expiring soon.

I honestly like the generic Dollar Tree version of Takis more than actual Takis. They're a lot more flavorful when it comes to the lime, but also hotter at the same time.

Don't get the hot nacho ones tho. Hot nacho? More like hot pile of shit.

HAH

Goteem.

They're not that good xD.

THE REGULAR ONES ARE FIRE THO

"How do you do fellow kids?"

I got home and started working on putting the CDs onto my computer, and then onto iBroadcast, but not without first adding The Music Man to my digital library, something I had neglected for a month or two. The CD had just been sitting there lol.

I also switched my digital file for "The Black Parade" to that of the uncensored CD, which I had purchased before I event started working over 2 months ago.

MAN I'M LAZY

I eventually get around to shit tho lol. I guess it's just a matter of priority.

What usually takes priority is digging through everything to find something that I forgot about but then remembered, making a mess in the process that I would then have to clean up, at least partially.

I think the album just ended. I've been writing for a while xD. I'ma start "I Made You Something" by The Island of the Misfit Toys.

I'll tell you where that album came from in a minute.

In the meantime, where was I?

I kinda lost my train of thought despite reading up to see where I was. Oh well. On I go.

I ate dinner and kept working on those CDs, eventually putting my clothes from the week into the washer.

I FORGOT TO PUT MY SHAPING UNDERWEAR IN. FUCKING HELL MAN.

I wanted to wash em for this week 😭

No tight pants for Leonna I guess qwq.

Meanwhile, the box of my CD album cases is overflowing. I need another box.

I keep all of the album artworks in a big CD folder. That's almost full.

I wanna fill my entire CD changer. That's one of my big goals in life. Idk why, but I just wanna legitimately fill the entire thing.

My clothes are in the dryer now. I don't think I have the time (or energy) to fold them tonight. I'll leave that for tomorrow morning before work.

And God. Fucking. Damnit. I start school again on Wednesday. NOT looking forward to that, and neither are my 2 coworkers. We already have low enough staff, but only the two of them working is gonna be a pain in the ass.

I'll still work Saturdays.

I need to contact my guidance counselor to get out of the gym class I signed up for. I scheduled this shit before I found out I was trans, and I don't wanna deal with the fucking locker room situation 🙄 I have far more important matters.

Okay so anyway, the album I'm listening to came from a cassette. I bought this cassette a few months ago at the flea market along with a few others. The reason I bought them? They were all newer cassette releases from the 2010's, and they're all actually pretty good music from very indie bands.

Currently getting mad at iBroadcast's compression algorithm. It's unnaturally fucking anything over -10db up. Oh well, there's not really anything I can do about it.

I have like 13GB of music on my phone btw. That's about 3.5k songs on 268 albums.

I'm kind of an audiophile, but I'm too cheap to pay for a lossless service. Oh well.

They do actually have a lossless service on iBroadcast, but once again, too cheap.

Someone just sent me a friend request who legitimately posted that BLM and the democratic party are hate groups.

BLOCK.

Goodbye ho.

I don't get that. They call the democratic party a hate group when they hate people like me, and I, being more of a democrat although not fully because the 2-party system is fucked, think nothing more of them than they're very wrong about certain things, especially, as shown, that black people, as well as asian, Indian, native, and people of all ethnicities and backgrounds, are not equal to white people.

Yeh.

Totally.

You go buddy.

Anyway, yeah, I can, and do, convert music and video from analog formats to digital files in order for me to archive and listen to whenever and wherever I please. I've actually made a bit of a business out of it, but I don't get too much work from it. At least I'm not overloading myself xD.

I honestly have so much more to say, but I should probably go to sleep soon.

A few final shoutouts to the following people and companies:

-Dollar Tree

-Steven Page

-Broken World Media

-The Island of Misfit Toys

-Simple Kid

-Punchline

-My incredible partner QwQ I love you so much. Thanks for being the best all the time. I hope I can give you the best life ever.

Anyway I suppose this is goodnight. Lmk if you want a full list of the CDs I bought today! I'll link that song by Steven Page here.

And here's a good song from Simple Kid

I really like music lol. Enjoy these pieces.

Anyway, goodnight lol.

Lots of love,

-Leonna.

[gaymer-hag-stan]

My Top Five Video Game Franchises

I wasn't planning on sharing this but it turned out good so I decided I will!

5. SoulCalibur

I'm a big fighting video game fan! I'm nowhere near being a pro though I can beat most of my friends in many different fighters. SoulCalibur is one of the games I played with an old friend during summer while at the countryside when we were kids. His uncle would occasionally come over at his grandpatrents' house and bring his Dreamcast with him and he had SoulCalibur with it! I also had the PlayStation 2 demos of SoulCalibur II and III. When I still had a Wii and a PSP I got SoulCalibur Legends and Broken Destiny for each console respectively and while none were particularly spectacular games I had hours of fun playing both and I was happy knowing I finally own two SoulCalibur games! I couldn't afford a PlayStation 3 yet and by then PlayStation 2 games were really hard to find in Greece. My main character is Ivy. Ivy is infamous for being a very striking example of female video game characters who are grossly oversexualised and while it never had any effect on me whatsoever I realised while growing up why it is an issue. Despite that, I believe that you can enjoy and appreciate characters despite their portrayal but at the same time I can understand people who want a better representaion of female characters and I support them in that endeavour. I tend to always appreciate video game characters on a deeper level, or at least I try, while playing a game and I think that even fighting video game characters can have more substance than what meets the eye, and Ivy is no exception, especially considering how SoulCalibur has really deep background stories and lores for all its characters. My favourite game is SoulCalibur III. I love its character and stage design, music, everything. I really miss this game.

4. Dead or Alive

Another game I started playing as a kid during the summer at the countryside with my cousins, I think you'll come accross this concept in almost all of the games I'll be mentioning 'cause you basically can't do anything in Greece in the summer during noon because it's too hot to go outside until the sun starts to set so gaming was our favourite pasttime after returning from the beach and while waiting to go out later in the day. My cousins and a friend had DOA 2: Dead or Alive 2 for the PlayStation 2. Since me, my friend and my cousins were four people but didn't have that many controllers we each played story mode in turns trying to unlock more costumes for our favourite characters. My main is Helena Douglas. Again, the entire female cast is grossly oversexualised but a lot of them are close to my heart. The first game I owned was, for better or worse, Dead or Alive Xtreme Paradise for the PSP, one of the side games that features only the girls in a tropical island basically playing beah voleyball, and... being sexy... The game is a mess but the voleyball part is actually really fun and trying to collect all the swimsuits for all the girls was strangely addictive! The series came back from the grave back in 2012 and I finally got to play a mainline Dead or Alive game again as it had been an Xbox exclusive from 2001 to 2006 and there were no new main games after that. The second update to DOA5, Last Round in particular is really fun and I've spent hours upon hours playing. Definitely my favourite in the series and one of my favourite games overall.

3. Tekken

Again, a fighting series and yet again, one I played with my cousins and friends during summer at the countryside xD ! Tekken 5 was one of the games all of us owned and played the most so it's also my favourite and among my favourite games overall, definitely my favourite fighting game. My main is Nina Williams and along with Lara Croft I think they're my ultimate favourite female video game characters. They have a very similar demeanour and character design though Nina's costumes lean a lot more on the sexy side than Lara's ever did and she is a lot colder than Lara is but both were among the things that helped me realize how very gay I am. I think that any other fellow male Greek gamers or gamers from more conservative countries in general are very familiar with the concept that "playing with girls is gay", a sentiment I haven't really seen fly around in more open-minded societies. In any case, at some point I realised that I actually was gay all along so all these people were right and there was nothing wrong with it. So in that regard Lara and Nina are kinda my main heroines. I even got her own action-adventure spin-off game. The game itself is... mediocre, but I loved it because it was all about Nina! It kind of had a Tomb Raider meets James Bond feel to it. A friend of my dad's gave me a couple of games as a gift at some point and one of them was Tekken Tag Tournament that had all those classic characters that were either dead or a thousand years old in Tekken 5 featured while they were still in their prime so we also had a lot of fun with that game during summer. In 2009, I still couldn't afford a PS3 so I asked my mum for a PSP and Tekken 6 was included with it, spent countless hours with it and eventually got it again when I got a PS3 along with Tekken Tag Tournament 2.

2. Final Fantasy

Final Fantasy is a series I absolutely hated until I somehow didn't anymore... I tried a Final Fantasy X demo as a kid and I was extremely put off by the turn-based combat system. It was something no other games had at the time, none of the games I had played anyway, and it felt really weird and unintresting to me. so I decided that I will hate it forever and ever... Until 2015. By then I had just started university and I was kind of depressed because I really hated what I was studying and felt very trapped. For some reason that still puzzles me until today I decided that I wanted to try out Final Fantasy again. I made a little internet search and found out Final Fanatsy XIII was the most recent entry (side note: I hadn't upgraded to PS4 yet). I rented it from the video store and spent a week staying home playing it instead of going to uni... I understand now that it wasn't the most sensible option but it was honestly a break I really needed in order to truly realize that I should seek out other options if I'm not happy with my studies, and I did. After XIII I got VII for the PS3 and last March my friends got me XV for my birthday. A couple months ago I went on a "shopping spree" and got VII, VIII, IX, XII and X / X-2 for the PS4 and I am currently waiting for my copy of the FFVII Remake to arrive. Final Fantasy is probably the series that has made me cry the most and also inspired me a lot. It's also the only one that has ever come close to replacing Tomb Raider as my favourite series. Lastly, Final Fantasy XIII along with Resident Evil 6 and Tomb Raider: Legend are my "holy trinity" of video games people love to hate but I personally adore xD I'm not sure I can pick a favourite as I've enjoyed all of the ones I've played but maybe X? Though I'm feeling the VII Remake might surpass it.

1. Tomb Raider

Again, the summer story, you know the drill. I remember first playing Legend's demo and then while I was staying at my cousins' at their home in a town which is near the countryside we usually spent our summers, our uncle would have us go pick up games to rent at the video store after returning from the beach. We kept on renting Legend and trying to beat it. We only ever got up to the waterwheel puzzle in Ghana... If you have no prior experience with Tomb Raider (and you're literally nine!) Legend can actually be very challenging! Next year I got Anniversary, which was the first Tomb Raider game I ever owned and then got Legend. At some point during one of our video store raids my cousin decided to rent Angel of Darkness instead of Legend so we also got to experience that. It's probably his favourite. On my playthrough I got up to the point where you see Kurtis running off with his bike and then I think I got stuck in the sewers and didn't really know what to do next! I haven't been able to get my hands on it ever since. After the summer I converted a bunch of my classmates into Tomb Raider fans. Two of them had a good PC and that was the first time I ever got to play Chronicles. I got Underworld in 2008 but it was just the crappy PS2 version. I own all main and Lara Croft games except AoD. Lara Croft has been my favourite video game character for about as long as I've been playing video games. She is very special to me for reasons I already explained with Nina and it's very very hard to imagine how my life would be without her. I'm truly thankful for her and Tomb Raider. Legend will forever be my favourite and possibly favourite game ever.

[robin97]

11 Questions Game

I was tagged by @verypurplepenguins aaaahh thank you!!! :D

I’ll tag @eliios and anyone who wants to do this!!!

1. If you had to spend seven years post collapse with one Seed in their bunker, who would you pick and why?

I was gonna say Jacob bc he seems like he’s the best when it comes to survival but then again he did eat that guy Miller that one time so maybe i’d only choose him if we had a lot of food in that bunker XD but i think im gonna choose faith...I feel like she wouldn’t try to kill me once we’re alone in a bunker...we could just chill and get high together...

2. What would your last meal on earth be?

If im gonna die my last meal better be pizza and an ice cold coke

3. Have you played any other Far Cry games?

I’ve played all the far cry games except the first one bc it’s too old!!! I’ve played far cry 2 bc it was a gift for my brother but he didn’t like it so i started playing it instead and then i saw an image of vaas on tumblr and i was like oooohh niiice!! and now we’re here XD

4. If you could travel back in time for a day, where would you go? I’ve always wanted to meet my great grandfather Dante he seemed like a cool dude so like my grandparents house around the 70′ 

5. Which Gun for Hire is your favorite, and do you always travel with them? omg so in far cry 5 i love boomer but im too anxious to fight along side him bc i don’t want him to get hurt T-T so i only choose him when im travelling around not doing missions BUT when i do have to fight if im trying to be stealthy I’ll go with Jess and peaches but if i want to fuck shit up I’ll go with Hurk and Sharky.

For New Dawn i love Carmina but never fight along side her bc im too protective so if im doing stealth I’ll use the judge and once i fail stealth I’ll go with Hurk and Gina 

6. Do you game on Xbox, Playstation, PC or a combination of the three?

Playstation!!!

7. What is the best thing about me?

sometimes im funny?? idk XD some friends told me that im funny other that im easy to talk to others that im compassionate

8. Do you have siblings? Unfortunately i have an older brother...and we don’t live in the same house but i also have a younger step brother 

9. What’s your favorite movie genre? Action, adventure, horror, comedy

10. What would be the perfect date night? idk we could just chill at home or we could go to the movies something simple like that

11. If you could save Jacob, Faith or John, who would you choose to save and why? dbajdbsa everything revolving around the seeds is so tragic and the fact that Joseph used their fragile states to make them lead his cult is even worse like you can see how John and Faith worship him but are also scared of him and they all did terrible things and i hate them but i also love them so much and im djkjdsbakdlsak idk!!! like i wanted to say Faith bc even tho everyone says that she’s liar and a manipulator i totally believed her story during her boss battle so i guess if i could i’d save her?? (but omg the whole reason i want to save all of them is bc i want to see them in new dawn and maybe they could help the cap defeat the twins bc i love that trope so much!!) 

[jocelynships]

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I got into Marvel and how at first it was just a silly little obsession and how it turned into something that ended up meaning so much to me.

So, I apologize for this sounding so sappy and for how long (it’s really long and I apologize greatly) and emotional this gets, but here:

Warning: Talk of past mental abuse and thoughts of self-harm/suicide

So here’s the funny thing, when I was between the ages of 10-13 I wanted absolutely NOTHING to do with Marvel. Everyone was talking about it and I will admit I was a bratty kid and if something was popular I had to Hate It™️. I’ve grown from that mindset and I’m SO glad I did. But anyways, not the point of the story.

When I was a little kid I watched the first Spider-Man movie with Tobey Maguire and Fantastic 4. I watched a lot of Spider-Man cartoons too. I can’t remember if I ever watched X-Men or not, but I remember seeing them in a few Spider-Man episodes. My dad liked Marvel and he’d play the movies (this was all pre MCU I should mention) and I think I’d watch bits and pieces of them while I played with whatever toys I had in my parent’s bedroom or living room (when I was a kid if my dad was home I HAD to be around him). So I had a VAGUE understanding of superheroes and who they were. I’m certain I could have named a few of them when I was younger, I just didn’t necessarily care.

So Avengers came out when I was finishing up 8th grade, and all my classmates were talking about it, but it annoyed me greatly. My best friend, Rebecca, had seen it already, and was freaking out about it with some of our other old friends. I made a comment like “is it really good or are you guys just trying to be cool like everyone else?”

And Rebecca goes, “Jocelyn, you really need to see it. I think you’d actually like it.”

“Superheroes are so overrated!”

“At least watch the trailer!”

So Rebecca pulled up the trailer on her iPod Touch (god I feel old just saying that), sat me down at one of the benches by the basketball court our tiny private school had, and I watched the trailer. I was kinda interested, but not totally sold. I decided the guys were hot, and if I would go if asked.

Then when I got home from school, I was looking for something to watch like most kids were. Nothing was on, but Disney XD was playing some Marvel cartoons and out of simple curiosity and not really liking anything else that was being played, I turned it on. And holy shit I ended up getting hooked.

So a few days later after watching these cartoons I suggest seeing Avengers to my dad. He gets this look on his face like, “who the hell are you and what did you do to my daughter because she hates superheroes?” He asks me if I’m a Marvel fan now and I mentioned the cartoons, so he went and rented the movies leading up to the Avengers, and I wasn’t actually expecting to like anything, I just wanted to see it because I thought the guys were hot.

So I ended up really enjoying the movies, and my dad and I started seeing the other MCU films that came out. I told myself I was only interested in the Avengers and Spider-Man really (the Amazing Spider-Man came out the same year as the Avengers and my dad took me to see it). I told myself didn’t really care about any of the other hero teams.

BUT THEN I GET INTRODUCED TO THIS REALLY COOL FACEBOOK MARVEL GAME! They sadly don’t have it anymore which in my opinion is BULLSHIT, but it was called Avengers Alliance and they had a shit ton of characters in it. My goal was to get them all but I never did bc it got shut down (listen I would kill to have it brought back okay THEY HAD A BUNCH OF X-MEN CHARACTERS) But basically I saw all these characters I had no idea existed and me being me, my mind went “I MUST KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM”! I really don’t know everything about them and I’m still discovering characters but that’s okay!! The Marvel universe is HUGE and I love learning new stuff about it!! But anyways back to my original point!! I remembered I really liked the Fantastic 4 when I was younger so I started watching the original two movies again (I haven’t seen the 2015 remake nor do I plan to ever). Then I saw we had the first two X-Men films, okay lets watch those. Oh, who’s Daredevil and the other Defenders? They seem cool!! Ghost Rider? Hell yeah, a skeleton on fire how cool is that?! Agents of SHIELD? I loved Phil Coulson, I had to watch it! Hey, the Guardians of the Galaxy are really cool too! I know nothing about Doctor Strange but he was in some Spider-Man cartoons and he seemed awesome! Blade, a vampire that doesn’t sparkle? SIGN ME UP!

Basically from the time I was 14-17, I was just basically running down an aisle at a grocery store picking out characters I thought looked cool. I also learned a lot about the characters from some mobile games I downloaded bc hey, I like games.

But at the same time as I was going through everything, I started developing some extreme anxiety and depression problems. I didn’t exactly realize it WAS anxiety and depression, I just thought I was extremely sensitive and did a bunch of shit wrong, so I assumed I was just a screw up whenever my mother yelled at me for getting a B in class or blamed me for her being late to work when I was ready to go and she was just getting in the shower. It wasn’t until my senior year did I realize something was wrong with the way she was treating me and the way I was feeling. But again, I brushed it off as nothing.

I went through my senior year feeling anxious and depressed a lot. But I was a SENIOR! I was almost done with high school! I had a great group of friends and we’d hang out on the weekends and go off campus for lunch to the Taco Bell down the road! Things couldn’t be bad!

But tensions were rising high at home. I was sort of oblivious to a lot of it and to be honest, I’m a little upset with myself for not noticing it sooner. My parents were fighting a lot, and halfway through my senior year of high school, my sister and niece had to move in with us because her ex husband was an alcoholic and was getting abusive. (She ended up going back for about another year, but left permanently the second time she moved in with us) And needless to say things were really rough since there was now five people in a two bedroom apartment and my sister and my niece stayed in my room with me. Which was difficult since my niece was 4/5 at the time and had quite the temper, and I was also her favorite person, yet I was occupied with school work.

My anxiety and depression got worse, and it got to the point where I was having meltdowns in class and would have to leave school early or just stay home. After a month or two and a HUGE fight between pretty much everyone (except me, they only stopped when I had a massive panic attack), my sister moved back.

And things were slightly okay again. During that break I got reintroduced to X-Men through a couple different things: my best friend, @rosyinlove, X-Men Apocalypse was coming out, and my brother gave me his old Xbox 360 and the game Marvel Ultimate Alliance. I’ve seen the first two movies at this point and I was already kinda curious about them, but wasn’t until that year did I realize “hey these guys are kinda cool!” So I played as them in Ultimate Alliance just because they were the most fun to play. And while he sadly wasn’t a playable character, Nightcrawler was a character and you had to rescue him in a quest (or kill him and save Jean instead, I had a dilemma over the very idea of killing him and this was BEFORE I started shipping with him!) and he fascinated me. IDK if it was my brain just liking him as a character or going “WHOO BOY HE’S HOT”, but my interest in him was growing and I was kinda sad he wasn’t a playable character!

And with Apocalypse coming out the day after I graduated high school, I decided I had to see it, so I impulsively bought the other movies and well... the rest is history. I started watching the cartoons and while I didn’t get my hands on any comics, I read bits and pieces online.

And for some reason, the X-Men just spoke out to me in a way I can’t explain. I loved all the other heroes I came across, but there was something about the team of mutants that really pulled me in. Maybe because I related to the fact of being outcast? But in any case, I was drawn to them and I latched onto them and just didn’t let go. Even when 70s and 80s pop culture was the main thing on my mind in 2017, I still had the X-Men in the back of my mind and I thought “oh hey, this song reminds me of the X-Men”, “Kurt would like this song”, or “omg this movie would be a cute AU for me and Kurt!”

But anyways, the summer of 2016 was kind of rough. My mother was getting onto me for every single little thing and even yelled at me in front of my friends once for asking her to bring some some soda after she OFFERED to get us some. My friends pulled me aside and said, “hey, that’s not normal”. And I was in a really bad place. I loved my mother, but I felt awful being around her. I felt like I had to walk on eggshells around her. If I said the wrong thing I’d be punished. I was afraid of her.

So I noticed whenever I got anxious or depressed I would turn to the X-Men movies and cartoons and I’d feel a little better. Then I started writing dumb little stories and made silly doodles of me hanging out with them. It was something that was fun and made me calm down when I was getting anxious.

Then August of 2016 came around.

I came home from spending the night at a friend’s house, and I was feeling really tired so when my dad asked for me to sit down and talk to him about something, I tried brushing him off because I just wanted to shower and go to sleep.

But he said, “it’s really serious” and whenever someone says that my anxiety shoots through the roof and I think of the worst case scenario, such as someone was dying or was dead. So I sat down with him and I’m expecting him to tell me someone was dead, but he just goes:

“Your mother and I are splitting up.”

Basically my world came crashing down at that point.

My mother started getting more and more irritable and began yelling and screaming at me over the smallest things. And she was convinced I was going to stay with her and she talked to me about all her plans she had for us, but I was going to move out with my dad. But I didn’t want to tell her because I was terrified of how she was going to respond (she lashed out when things didn’t go her way), and I said, “I still haven’t made up my mind on who I’m going with”. That still caused her to lash out.

So she screamed at me and told me things like “I was leaving her to die” or “I was a horrible daughter for abandoning her”. And from that she just lashed out over everything. Not to mention my sister and my niece moved back in that September.

So my mother was constantly fighting with my dad, berating me, and my sister and my niece never gave me any alone time despite being in my first semester of college. I had very little time to work on homework and would stay at school for longer than I needed to be there just to work on homework without my sister and my niece bothering me. And I also got stuck watching my niece quite a bit because my sister was running off with a guy she had just met. And I get that she was going through a really rough divorce as well and really liked this dude, but it happened every night. I needed an escape from it all.

So I started binge watching Marvel movies and cartoons every chance I got. Mainly X-Men. I fantasized often about Kurt bamfing himself and the X-Men into my apartment, sternly telling my family I was going with them and they couldn’t stop them. I wrote and drew more and more of my silly self insert stuff because it was a way to forget about all the bullshit that was going on at home.

Eventually things just got worse as the time for my dad and I to move out got closer, and my mother would start up fights with my dad just about every night. And she did this when I was in the next room and could hear everything. She also got physical with him and while my dad could have easily defended himself and fight back, he didn’t because she was trying to get him fucking arrested.

So I was having difficulties dealing with their constant fighting and my mother trying to pull me into the middle of the drama. My dad told her to keep me out of it since none of it had to do with me. Needless to say she kept pulling me into the middle of things and tried to get me to side with her and would scream her head off if I didn’t want to talk about it. I got called selfish for having anxiety and depression, and she threatened to hit me on multiple occasions. She never did, but holy shit I got so scared every time she held her hand up like she was going to smack me across the face. I showed up to class crying quite often and when my classmates asked what was wrong I’d brush it off and tell them it was nothing. 

And as time went on I had falling outs with everyone on my mother’s side of the family and both of my siblings (I have made up with them separately, but things are tense between them still because they don’t like each other’s spouses and it stresses me out because they shit talk each other to me and I have to act like I’m on their side), and my dad and I were struggling and I felt like a huge burden on him. Needless to say it got to the point where I felt like I was doing something wrong, that everyone would be better off without me, and I wanted to end it all.

I actually did go to grab a knife once when no one was home bc I was having urges to hurt myself, but the instant I grabbed the knife a little voice in my mind just went into panic mode and screamed, “Captain America wouldn’t want you to hurt yourself!”

And then that voice kept listing off as many heroes as it could, and when I started thinking about the X-Men not wanting me to hurt myself, I just dropped the knife into the sink and had a breakdown.

And still to this day when I do get those thoughts I always think about how a certain fuzzy elf wouldn’t want me to hurt or kill myself. I haven’t cut (I have participated in other self destructive behaviors in the past I don’t wish to discuss, but I’m fighting it), and honestly it’s because I don’t want to worry the X-Men.

They may not be real, and I’m not sure they would really care about me if they were, but still the idea of having a group of people who also come from fucked up families and are outcast from society acting like a family to each other really helps me get through all of this.

I just keep telling myself that if all these superheroes could go through hell and back, then so could I. Sure, I’m not fighting villains hellbent on taking over the world or struggling with having superpowers I can’t control, but still it’s inspiring to see them continue on despite their hardships. If they can do it, then why can’t I?

And the X-Men have really helped me through that. Like I said, they aren’t real, but they are extremely relatable characters. Especially Kurt. I’ve been outcast before and while I do have my group of close friends, I still feel like I don’t belong. He’s been outcast and shunned by society for his appearance. While both of Kurt’s parents are awful and my mother didn’t try to kill me (to be honest I was afraid she was going to snap and kill my dad a couple times), we both have kinda fucked up familes. But despite all of this we still try to see the good in others and do good for people. And I want to help him through his hardships and have him know he can always come to me for comfort.

When I started the Night Roses and the Jocelyn and the X-Men stuff, a lot of it was coping. I wanted to be rescued by Kurt and the X-Men, and I wanted to help them overcome their issues. A lot of the Night Roses relationship is being each other’s support system. The idea of not only having Kurt comfort me, but me comforting him helps me so much. It gives me something to live for. When I was going to therapy, I told my therapist about it and she said it was a great coping mechanism and a way for me to practice self love and acceptance.

And while he’s just a comic book character, I sincerely hope I can find someone just like Kurt in real life one day. He means so much to me, and I hope whoever I get with in the future will understand that.

I apologize for this being so long, but really, Marvel means the absolute would to me, and it’s really hard to explain to people why and I often get written off as an obsessive nerd who has no grasp on reality. But I know how I feel and I know the people who matter understand how important Marvel is to me. Honestly, I don’t know where I’d be without Marvel. I probably wouldn’t be here. I’m still struggling with a lot of issues, but I know I can get through it thanks to the X-Men and the other superheroes of Marvel. ❤️

[christina-dh]

@aelinsassryvergalathynius tagged me, thanks honey!

1. Coke or Pepsi?

coke

2. Disney or DreamWorks?

mostly Dreamworks, but they’re both my childhood :3

3. Coffee or tea?

tea, even the sweetest coffee tastes bitter to me :/

4. Books or movies?

books (except for The Lord of the Rings, those movies are masterpieces)

5. Windows or mac?

windows

6. DC or Marvel?

why must you do this dc

7. Xbox or PlayStation?

playstation

8. Dragon Age or Mass Effect?

haven’t played either, but Dragon Age seems pretty cool

9. Night owl or early bird?

night owl for sure

10. Cards or chess?

chess

11. Chocolate or vanilla?

the answer to everything is chocolate

12. Vans or Converse?

converse

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar?

these are from Dragon Age, aren’t they? I haven’t played so I can’t really choose..

14. Fluff or angst?

angst. GIVE ME ALL THE PAIN

15. Beach or forest?

beach, if only for the lack of insects (this is a very close tie)

16. Dogs or cats?

I love both

17. Clear skies or rain?

clear skies

18. Cooking or eating out?

cooking!

19. Spicy food or mild food?

spicy food, definitely

20. Halloween/Samhain or solstice/yule/Christmas?

christmas, cause all my friends come together! also we don’t celebrate halloween in greece :/

21. Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot?

too cold, I’m constantly a little hot, it’s ridiculous

22. If you could have a superpower what would it be?

teleporting or fire powers, they’re my favourites!

23. Animation or live action?

animation, I guess

24. Paragon or renegade?

and these are from mass effect lol. couldn’t you ask me about assassin’s creed? xD

25. Baths or showers?

I’ve never had a bath showers

26. Team cap or team ironman?

team ironman

27. Fantasy or sci-fi?

fantasy

28. Do you have three or four favourite quotes, if so what are they?

Let’s make some bad decisions. ~ Diana Farley, Glass Sword

No one is born evil, just like no one is born alone. They become that way through choice and circumstance. ~ Julian Jacos, Glass Sword

Καθε πολτισμός είναι πολιτισμός ομορφιάς. which translates to:

Every civilization is a civiliziation of beauty. ~ Unknown

29. YouTube or Netflix?

youtube for music, netflix for series

30. Harry potter or Percy Jackson?

I haven’t read any Percy Jackson book yet, so I’ll go with Harry Potter

31. When do you feel accomplished?

after I spend a whole hour on a physics/chemistry/biology exercise and eveything finally comes together nicely

32. Star Wars or Star Trek?

star wars fight me on this

33. Paperback books or hardback books?

paperbacks cause they’re less heavy (but paperbacks are so beautiful!)

34. To live in a world without literature or without music?

you come into my house- seriously though, I can’t choose between my children

35. Pale faded colours or vibrant colours?

pale and faded

36. Good characterization with a bad plot or a good plot with bad characterisation?

the former

37. Favourite Disney movie?

the Aristocats! :D

38. TV show adaptations or movie adaptations?

TV shows (again, except for Lord of the Rings)

39. Museum or library?

no. nope. you can’t make me choose

40. High School musical or Camp Rock?

I’ve only seen HSM, but I don’t really care for either of these

41. Three songs that have a special meaning to you?

Light a Fire - Rachel Taylor

Amen - Halestorm

From The Wreckage Build A Home - The Wind & The Wave

42. What’s your 3 best / 3 worst traits?

my 3 best: patient, understanding, supportive my 3 worst: a litlle self-destructive, socially awkward, perfectionist

43. Favourite smells?

a new book, the sea, petrichor, the wood from my violin

44. If you could do your life over, would you and why?

yes, cause I wish I knew not to push past my limits last year

45. Would you kill someone you love to save 20 strangers?

you know, we’ve been asked this in school, and it still fucks me up a little

46. If you could have personally witnessed anything, what would you want it to be?

probably something from ancient greece, they were all such sassy little demons xD

47. If you had to pick one colour to represent you as a person, what would it be and why?

blue, cause it reminds me of the sea

48. What passion would you pursue if there were no restrictions on your life (money, time, ability/education, etc)?

probably I’d become a book tranlator

49. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be (can also be a mythical one)?

DRAGONS

50. What is your spirit animal?

DRAGONS :D

I’m tagging: @lovebooks23, @highlady-casandra, @wrathofabooklover, @mitsundereh, @paperbacktrash, @lu-cien.

[theragamuffininitiative]

Another Tag Post! :D

Rules: Answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions.

I’ve been tagged by @thisbibliomaniac​! ^_^ (Sooooo many questions o.o)

Coke or Pepsi: Ooooh, hard choice. I love them both.

Disney or Dreamworks: Depends, but usually: Disney.

Coffee or Tea: Tea, hot or cold, it’s so much better than bean juice.

Books or Movies: Television shows are not an option, so both.

Windows or Mac: Windows. Mac...is so confusing...and just... like has to do everything its own way to be unique. Chill, Mac, take some chill.

DC or Marvel: Marvel aaaaaaaaaaaall the way.

XBOX or Playstation: I have played way more PC games and apps than either, but XBOX is what my bro had when I played with him - and got temporarily obsessed with Minecraft.

Dragon Age or Mass Effect: Hmmmm: Nancy Drew. ;) (I haven’t played these)

Night Owl or Early Riser: I am practically a vampire at this point, but I get to see the sunrise, so take your pick.

Cards or Chess: Chess.

Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanillllaaaaaaa.

Vans or Converse: Converse.

Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash or Adaar: Somebodies early into this were big on Dragon Age stuff.

Fluff or Angst: Fluff! But, like, angsty fluff so the fluff is more satisfying. ;)

Beach or Forests: Mountains. JK, both. Except... beaches have less poison ivy so there is that.

Dogs or Cats: Cats, but I love my dog too.

Clear skies or Rain: Rain is ever so much more romantic.

Cooking or Eating out: I... am a terrible cook.

Spicy food or Mild food: Spicy, but only if that spice is primarily garlic. (this is an ironic answer considering the vampire one)

Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas: Christmas! ^_^

Would you rather be a little too cold or a little too hot?: Cold, cold, cold. Let me swaddle myself in sweaters and scarves and slippers.

If you could have a superpower, what would it be: “ever read the bayern books? that.” <<<<< aaaaaaa! Okay, but: shape-shifting is also a good one. It would be very useful.

Animation or Live action: Yikes, that’s hard. Probably live action, but I do love animated features gosh dangit.

Paragon or Renegade: What is with all you gamers?

Baths or Showers: I can’t remember the last time I actually took a bath instead of a shower. I like my showers.

Team Cap or Team Iron Man: TEAM MY BOYS NEED TO WISE UP, CHILL OUT, AND BE FRIENDS

Fantasy or Sci-Fi: Both, definitely.

Do you have 3 or 4 favourite quotes: More than that, here’s four off the top of my head: “be more heart and less attack” [Needtobreathe] “You're never owed anything. You have to go get what you want and that comes with work and putting time and effort into what you want.“ [Ramin Karimloo] All of Matthew 6 [Scripture] “Courage, dearheart.” [Aslan]

YouTube or Netflix: I spend more time on Netflix, but YouTube has more musical related content.

Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: I haven’t finished reading either.

When do you feel accomplished: When I actually do a thing. XD

Star Wars or Star Trek: BOTH BOTH BOTH BOTH BOTH <—- SAME<<<<<______<<<< TRIPLE (or quadruple I’m not sure) SAME

Paperback books or Hardback books: Hardbacks are good and hardy and keep looking best on the shelf, paperbacks are much easier to take along and read.

Handwriting or Type:Typing

Velvet or Satin: Satin is smoother

Video games or Movies: Movies.

Would you rather be the dragon or own the dragon: I will be a dragon with my own smaller pet dragon

Learning Chinese or Learning Spanish: If there weren’t a lot of intellectual barriers: Chinese

Would you rather be able to speak every language or be able to speak to animals: hypothetically if you speak “every language” that would infer speaking to animals, at least according to their own systems of communication.

Be front row for your favourite artists and not meet them, or meet them but have lawn seats: Meet them, definitely. I’d pretty much rather meet them than see the show entirely.

City or Countryside: Both, but I’m becoming quite the city lover.

Would you rather be a mutant, jedi or wizard: Wizard

Fried pickles or Mozzarella Sticks: Mozzarella Sticks. FRIED PICKLES?? WHAT ARE YOU DOING OVER THERE

Vampires or Werewolves: I don’t really prefer either

Pizza or Pasta: Eunhhhhhh I like more kinds of pizza but spaghetti is my all-time favorite meal.

Watching a movie at a cinema with the excitement of its night premiere or wait a few days and watch it later more relaxed: Premiere! Aaaaaaall the excitement. And, if it was worth it, you can always go back for another viewing. :D Plus I have very romantic notions about movie theater so. XD

What is your favourite band or singer?: Needtobreathe is my favorite band. Ramin Karimloo is my favorite singer. ;)

What is your favorite fruit?: Strawberries or peaches.

Fuzzy socks or slippers?: Slippers. Fuzzy socks go all sweaty.

Dusk or Dawn?: Both. *starts humming “Sunrise, Sunset”

Would you rather Travel Through Time or Travel Through Alternate Universes?: Alternate universes are so heckin complicated, give me time travel if necessary.

What’s the first book you remember reading? Digger Digger, Where’s Your Bone? It’s an adorable lift-the-flap book from my childhood.

Deep space, or deep sea? To experience second-hand? Sea. So interesting. To be in? Space. Space is less terrifying to me than deep water.

My turn! Night on the town, or sleepover?

This was a blast! Tagging time. Heck, how many questions are there. Disclaimer: you do not need to feel guilty if you don’t want to answer all of these. XD

GUYS THERE ARE 54 QUESTIONS HERE

If you are seeing this post, at any point in time, please feel free to do it. Especially my old followers, especially my mutuals, especially my brand new followers I really want to get to know you! <3

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5 things you’ll find in my bag:

My bag is a backpack so the common things are my textbooks for school.

Notebooks, of course.  I try to keep one for each subject.

Pens and pencils.  Even when I’m not in school, I have writing implements galore.  You never know if you have to loan one, jot something down, or utilize it as a weapon.  The potential emergencies are countless. :P

Post-it note and tab booklet that I got for free from my college.  They hand them out for free at the beginning of fall quarter.  Currently, the first post-it is a doodle that drew of Solas.  I shared it on here ages ago.  Shows how much I use post-it notes. XD

My wallet.  It contains my debit card (with a perpetual 49 cent (US) balance), library card, state ID, Student ID, and almost every single receipt from the last year and a half.   My regular bag/purse is pretty much the same except there are not any textbooks or notebooks.  I have a boring life.

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom:

A really cool tree picture, drawn in pastel, made by my best friend for an art project.  The tree looked so cool and I loved the colors that I begged her to let me have it once she was done with it for school.  It adds a pop of color to my very gray room.

A ribbon that holds my button pin collection.  I love button pins and I started a collection.  A majority of them are from college events, but I hope to score more from other places.

A hurricane lamp made out of recycled vintage tins.  I bought matching ones for my best friend and myself.  She has a tall one and mine is short.  Also a colorful edition to my room.

TV and my Xbox One, where I play games like The Witcher III, DA:I, and Skyrim.  I prefer PC, but my laptop is a very basic machine for school, but I hope to get a decent rig so I can play my favorite games. 

A really pretty blue and white quilt.  I was once homeless and I remember there was this lady who would make regular visits to the park I would frequent and sew her quilts (she liked to do some parts by hand).  I really loved the colors of the one she was working on and I told her so.  I didn’t see her the next day, but the day after that she handed me the finished quilt and told me she hoped that it would keep me warm, and when I wrap it around me that I would feel the love she put into making it.  She was Wiccan and she often blessed her work as she made them.  Protection, warmth, and love were what she put in and I have an awesome sense of that when I sleep with it.  It was the best thing someone outside of my friends and family ever gave me. 

5 things I’ve always wanted to do in life:

Travel somewhere that is outside of the US, preferably off the continent.  I have always wanted to visit Europe.  When I was young, I wanted to visit the famous major cities like Paris and Rome.  Now I am aware that cities have too many people and I’m not a fan of that, so I would love to visit the rural villages and towns. 

Swim with dolphins.  Preferably in the open sea and not captivity.  I know that’s not a likely thing, but a girl can dream.

Adopt a panda.  When I was about 4 or 5, my grandparents took me to a county fair and one of the booths had a video about how the habitats of pandas were being destroyed, and how they were dying out.  I was so upset and when I learned that you could adopt a panda, I begged my grandfather to do it.  My grandfather was a very doting one and had a hard time saying “no” to me or my brother (he did sometimes, but it was very difficult for him).  He spoke to a lady at the booth and brought out his checkbook and filled it out.  After all was done, he was given a certificate and other paper work, everything but a panda.  I was inconsolable upon learning you don’t actually physically adopt pandas.  It wasn’t until my grandma handed me a stuffed panda that we got as a thank you gift that I became content.  I was a fickle 5 year old. To this day, though, I am still pissed that I didn’t get my panda.

Attend a convention.  I have never been to one.  My guy friend invited me to one. He wanted me to wear a retro Star Trek costume and help him sell his homemade action figures.  Sadly it was on my nephew’s 2nd B-day party and his mom would have never forgiven me if I skipped it.  So I had to turn him down. :(

Be the first member in my entire family, both sides, to graduate college.  Which I will do next month!

5 things that make me happy:

My nephew, who is the most awesome 5 year old ever.  My 17-yr-old niece too, when she’s not being a bratty teenager, I love her to death though.

My field trip that I’m going on tomorrow.  We get to visit Mt. Saint Helens and I’m excited.

Roadtrips in general.  Every male in my family have been long-haul truck drivers, and I think that contributes to my wanderlust.  

My grandparents.  Sadly my grandfather (the one who adopted a panda for me) passed on two years ago, but I have my grandma still.  I got to visit her last summer and I don’t remember ever being so happy or my former self.  Memories of my grandfather are sometimes sad, but mostly happy because he was awesome and I miss him terribly.

Baby animals.  I mean seriously, how can anyone look at a baby animal and not feel warm and fuzzy?  Monsters, that’s the only way I can explain them.

5 things I’m currently into:

Dragon Age

Shameless (US version).  I swear this could easily be my family. 

Harlots (on Hulu).  I am so into the drama of this show.  I even like that the soundtrack is modern even though the series is set in the 1700′s.  Reminds me of Sofia Coppola’s Marie Antoinette. 

Books by Juliet Marillier.  I love how she writes her female characters.  Strong but you still get a sense of their fragility. They are almost never portrayed as damsels in distress, but rather heroines in their own right.  One saved her brothers from a curse.  Another saves her lover from the fae world.  She’s awesome and deserves to have more readers.

Knitting, though I never finish the things I start.

5 things on my to-do list:

Finish that final chapter of my fic, maybe even work on more sketches for Cassandra (my drabbles)

Actually start my homework assignment way before it’s due.

Clean my room.  It is a disaster zone.

Mail my homemade mother’s day card to my grandma.  It’s cheesy and kind of bad, but she’ll love it anyway.

Pack my lunch for an upcoming field trip.

5 things people may not know about me:

I was homeless for nearly three years.  First year of that was spent living in a van with my dog.  Second was spent in a women’s shelter, the third was a transitional shelter before I finally got back on my feet and was able to get my own place.

I can eat jello with chopsticks.  It’s a fun party trick.

I am terrified of the sound of popping balloons.  I have no idea why.

Not really uncommon knowledge and many do it, but I procrastinate a lot.

I have a weird and secret relationship with a friend of mine.  We kind of get a thrill out of being the only ones who know.  We don’t really have the same circle of friends, so it’s easier to maintain the illusion of not really being anything more. 

[mistress-light]

Gaming Ask! 8, 12, 15, 25, 43, 49, 53, 54, 60, 61, 63, 64, 65, 71, 72, and 75! Sorry that it's a lot, but I hope you have fun with it!

Gaming asks

Wow so many hahah! Alright well here it comes :D

8. The game with the best atmosphere/scenery?

I can’t possibly choose only one game for this question. So I will name a few that personally really appeal to me. Okami, ABZÛ (that game is like therapy), Horizon Zero Dawn, Nier Automata, The Witcher 3 Wild hunt, Rise of the Tomb raider (and all of the other tomb raider games), Alien Isolation, Dead Space. Zelda the Wind Waker (more like the style that really appeals to me aka atmosphere)

12. Most bizarre game you’ve ever played?

I think it would be that game I bought once for the Wii, Ju-On the grudge (it was bizzare and awful) but it’s pretty funny when you play it with a group of friends watching……while being drunk. I never laughed so hard in my entire life.

15. Favorite animal in a video game?

Hmmm, I never really gave this any thought tbh. A unicorn is all that is coming to me atm xD

25. Proudest accomplishment in gaming?

I am still proud that I managed to get all the trophies from Bayonetta. But I am not exactly a hard core trophy hunter. I play a game for my own fun, and not so much for trophies and such. But besides those trophies, there isn’t anything really in particular I am proud of lol.

43. Favorite sidekick or companion?

Elika, 9S, Jansen Friedh, Midna, Aiden (beyond two souls), Ignis. I could go on and on imao xD

49. A game you haven’t played in forever, but want to replay?

Lost Odyssey, I really plan on playing that again this summer break. Sadly It is such a underrated game, it is just another Final Fantasy game, but god it is a true pearl in my opinion. The story is just…..so well done and it’s characters are amazing. And the overal theme is so emotional and heartbreaking, but it also gave me smiles and laughter. I could go on and on. But seriously if you are a Final fantasy fan and love JRPG’S in general GET THIS GAME! It is however a xbox 360 only game. I will always preach this game. 

53. Your most immersive game?

The Witcher 3 Wild Hunt. I really love it all in this game. Politics, war, love, conflicts etc. And I just really want to add the books here as well, because omg…they are so good and really make the game even better. So much references oh man, so much nerd over material.

54. A sequel you really want?

I really want another sequel of Prince of Persia 2008, I am still salty over that cliffhanger ending.

60. The game you are best at?

There is not really a game I am best at lol I am kind of modest when it comes to such things hehe.

61. A game you know everything about?

The Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time (kinda, lore wise and such. I adore the Legend of Zelda games in general. I grew up with them)

63. What’s a game that has inspired you?

Perhaps not really inspired, but a game that just really touched me is lost Odyssey. It is a game that is about all aspects of life, and how important those aspects are to me. The theme was so powerful. The effects of memory loss, and how horrible it is. And the thought of being immortal in a world like this would be more like a curse, seeing all your loved ones die, except for you. It made me appreciate the small things I have, and that I cherish them. 

64. Describe your favorite video game using only three words?

I can’t answer this, I just can’t pick one game……..

65. Any favorite screenshots of games?

Not really in particular.

71. A game you can’t stop talking/thinking about at the moment?

FFXV, I have been caught up into this game too much already imao.

72. Have any guilty pleasure games?

Yes I have, Prince of Persia 2008. From what I know it is not the most populair game in the franchise, but I seriously love it, especially the banter between Elika and the Prince xD

75. Do you focus on main storyline/quest or do side quests first?

I do a bit of both actually. I really want to enjoy a game to it’s fullest, and so I try not to rush too much through the main story line quests. Unless most of the side quest feel meaningless to me, and are annoying fetch quests. What I seek in side quests is above all meaning and depth. There are a few games out there wo do this really well. 

Thanks for these questions! :D