#christina talks

[loverboykinard]

Buck doesn't tell Maddie about the break-up until 2 days later. he's sat at her dining room table, clutching a cup of coffee between his hands while he tells her about what happened. he doesn't look at his sister the entire time he talks, doesn't want to see the pity on her face. he ignores the tears as they slide down his cheeks, dripping down off his chin onto the sleeves of the hoodie he'd thrown on before coming over. when his story has finally run its course, they both remain quiet for a moment and Buck's thankful Jee's playing in the living room because the sounds of her talking to her dolls drown out his quiet sob when Maddie removes the cup from the death grip he has on it. she grabs on tightly to both of his hands, and it's then that Buck realizes that he's shaking. he thinks he's been shaking since Tommy walked out of his life.

it's the next evening when someone knocks on his door. Buck's heart is in his throat as he walks over to answer it, feels his stomach swoop in both relief and disappointment when he sees it's his sister and niece. Jee pushes past him into the apartment like she owns the place, and Buck watches her go before turning back to see Maddie holding up a reusable bag. "After you left, she asked if you were okay. I told her you were sad because someone you cared about wasn't going to be around anymore. So she insisted we come over so she could make you cookies." Maddie's eyes sparkle as she smiles at him then over at her daughter. "Howie always makes sugar cookies when either of us is sad. So Jee said she had to do that for you, too." The lump that's taken residence in his throat makes it impossible to speak as he takes the bag from his sister, who squeezes his arm. "Have some fun with your niece tonight. If you need anything, don't hesitate to call. I'll pick her up in the morning."

and that's how Buck finds himself tossing his apron on before helping Jee-Yun into the kids' size one he keeps around just for her. they get the ingredients out of the bag, Buck pulls out his mixer, and they make a tupperware full of chocolate chip cookies and then one of sugar cookies. Jee laughs when he dabs some flour on her nose. Buck laughs when she smiles at him, face covered in melted chocolate. when everything's cleaned up and Jee's been tucked in upstairs in his bed for the night, Buck is standing in the kitchen putting the rest of the cookies away when realizes his hands are steady as he snaps the lid shut. his knees wobble, and he sits down hard on the last stool at the island, the same one Tommy sat in before he broke Buck's heart and cries the hardest he has in days.

[fandomohana]

[love-me-anyway-buckley]

All I’m saying is, when Buddie goes cannon they better outdo that make out scene times ten.

[christinawrath]

You've been following me for a long ass time and every time I see your username it makes me smile.

This makes me smile. =^_^= I'm happy to see some of my favorite blogs still around even after the great tumblr migration.

[betweenironyandsilver]

seeing hozier live last night gave me five new kinds of mental illness <3

[glorixuspurpose]

totally didn’t just post two stories carried over from my ao3….

[loverboykinard]

booping people is so much fun I love booping people :)

[loverboykinard]

like I am well aware that this is just a tv show and these are fictional characters and relationships and it literally isn't the end of the world but I will never understand how a show can have such a good thing going and then they just go and fuck it up. like, this whole thing was completely out of left field, and for what reason? you have such a beautiful coming out story for a main character after 7 years and you give him a boyfriend and it looks like it's going great, they're supportive and smitten with each other and you even hint that there might be love already there and then you have them break up in that same episode? hello?

[loverboykinard]

'weirded out' and it's just a multiple scenes of Buck explaining the most unhinged scenarios to a very confused looking Tommy who is trying his best to support his boyfriend while being extremely concerned about the entire situation

[loverboykinard]

the Lou photo shoot oh my god!!!!

[loverboykinard]

thinking about Buck with his hands under Tommy's shirt, fingers tracing down his sides and back as they make out against the front door. Tommy's got one arm slung over Buck's shoulder, his hand guiding the other man's head in the direction he wants as they kiss. his other hand is settled on Buck's waist to keep him close. but after a while, Tommy's brain catches up, and he's trying to get Buck's attention because they were just supposed to be talking, trying to be friends, getting some closure even. so he tugs gently on Buck's hair, murmurs a quiet "Buck" between them as they separate and Buck's eyes are hooded and his lips are kiss swollen when they look at each other and all Buck says is "don't call me that. call me Evan like you used to, like you want to." and a shiver runs down Tommy's spine as he groans out an "Evan" between them before they're both surging forward into another bruising kiss.

in that moment Tommy decides they can talk in the morning.

[loverboykinard]

the flight instructor who has only ever used a simulator not being able to help Athena land the plane safely so they need a new plan and fast but there isn't time to bring in anyone so they start trying to find someone on-site and that person just so happens to be Mr. Tommy Kinard?? 👀

[loverboykinard]

would love to see a moment where Buck or Tommy go to walk away (maybe after seeing each other for the first time after the hookup, maybe after a near death experience 👀) and the other person grabs them by the wrist, spins them around and just kisses them like their lives depend on it

[love-me-anyway-buckley]

I love that they’re discussing whether or not buck is in love with Eddie on the tv now, because I’ve been doing it in my house for the last 6 years…

[loverboykinard]

god, I'm just thinking about how often Buck, Hen, Chim, and Eddie have turned to Bobby for anything and everything over the years. and how he offered them his wisdom, encouragement, and comfort. how even when Bobby wasn't with the 118, they still went to him for advice, and he didn't hesitate to give it. and thinking about after he's gone. after the funeral is held, after the grave has been filled. after everyone gets back to work and life continues on. how Eddie and Chim will pick up the phone to make a call. or how Hen and Buck will look around the station for the familiar face of the one man they want to talk to before it hits them all over again that Bobby Nash is gone. and unlike all of the other times in the past, this time he won't be coming back.