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thefandomenchantress · 8 months ago

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A new Disventure Camp episode came out today!! I figured now would be a good time to list some of my thoughts. Not only on this episode in particular, but also on Hunter's whole situation.

I mostly liked Ashley this episode, which is good since it was her last, but there's this one point in the episode that bothered me a lot, that being how she blows up at Jake and Ally for not getting along...And then just immediately forgives Jake the next scene when he gets sad?

I don't care if they make up, that's not what I'm getting at, but I really wish Jake would've apologized and said something like: "I'm sorry, Ashley, you're always so supportive and I just keep messing things up. I--I should've blown up at Ally like that-" and then have Ashley forgive him. As it is, I got some severe whiplash by how it seemed like Ashley was having a falling out with Jake and Ally, genuinely being mad at them, only for that to just be forgotten a few minutes later. I understand that Ashley is a forgiving person, but it seems too extreme even for her to just forgive him without him doing anything but complain about Tom being close. That's just what I think, though.

I really liked the rest of the episode, besides that small nitpick. I was worried I wouldn't like Gabby as much if she became evil and a legitimate threat, since I liked her more cartoony demeanor. Luckily, my worry was misplaced, because Gabby is just as silly as ever, even if she is trying to be evil. She literally said she was going to make a costume with a cape and mask to be evil in like she's a Scooby-doo villain or something, I love her so much. Then again, Yul did say she was a "Tumblr girl" so maybe it makes sense that I like her haha. While Gabby is a threat now, the writers don't try to make you take her super seriously, which I appreciated. Non-serious villains are always my favorites.

Sadly, I got Ashley's elimination partially spoiled for me (someone replied to a comment I made on the YouTube trailer for the episode, saying something along the lines of, 'yeah she goes home :)' to someone else in the replies who speculated she would. The downside of your comment becoming popular I guess). But I still liked it and genuinely considered that the person might've been lying when the elimination ceremony started. That was a pretty good subversion of expectations, I really thought Aiden was a goner.

I've never been a big fan of Jake, and while I'm not desperate for him to go home...I'm kind of over him, if I'm being honest. I know he's supposed to be flawed and partially unlikeable, but personally I just can't deal with all his bullshit, it stresses me out. I've never been too invested in TomJake, so all that nonsense this season hasn't been too fun for me, I'll be honest. I understand why people like it, but it's just not for me, I suppose. At this point I'm thankful James got out early, so that at least there's no drama between him and Aiden (yet). Most of the relationships this season are going downhill, haha. Except for Ally and Tess (please bring the polycule back I miss it it's one of the only polycule representations I've ever seen in media PLEASE--).

(Now starting the Hunter section. if you don't want to hear my insane ramblings about him, turn back.)

...I don't know when I'm going to make another post about Disventure Camp so I'm gonna vent about Hunter here, too. He was technically mentioned this episode, so it's totally relevant that I talk about him, right? Right.

Hunter was my favorite in season 2. I honestly don't know why, since he's pretty bland all things considered. Usually, I like the zany characters. I think it was him repeatedly failing to befriend Tess that pulled me in, since I can never resist a...Boyfailure? I think that's the internet term for it.

But this season I was just...NOT into his characterization. And as far as I've seen, I'm in the minority with that opinion, since I've seen a lot of people say they like him more now. The main line of reasoning I've seen is, "He was boring in season 2, and I liked him better in All-Stars because they gave him flaws."

And...I don't agree. I'm fine with them 3-dimentionaliszing his character, I agree that he was pretty flat before in terms of characterization. Actually, I'd love if they gave him some flaws! What if they highlight how bad he is at making connections/alliances with anyone other than Ally and Tess? They kind of do this by making Fiore be on his team and showing how his strategy of "win challenges to stay in the game" completely falls apart when he can't win challenges. And I thought that was all fine and good.

The thing I don't like is how they decided one of his main flaws should be being a not-good boyfriend. Which just doesn't feel right to me? His whole thing in season two was offering emotional support to Ally and Tess, and now they spin it so that he isn't paying proper attention to Ally or what she says, not grabbing her Switch, not listening to her when she talks about her games, etc.. I'm fine with Ally and Hunter having relationship troubles, but...I don't know, I guess I'm just a little mad they took his compassion away. He just seems a lot angrier and more mean-spirited this go around. He's not fun to watch. I think I have a good example to prove what I mean.

In the Secret-revealing episode of season 2, one of Ally's secrets is that she yelled at a group of children until they cried because they were using cheats in a game she was playing, and her excuse for doing so is that she was stressed. The writers bashing Ally aside, Hunter says something like, "Do you always yell at children when you're stressed?" in response, showing that even though he hasn't met those children who were doing something wrong, he doesn't think lashing out at them was okay.

...Meanwhile season 3 Hunter is yelling and lashing out at Fiore, a child, the whole time he's in the game. I know it's not exactly the same, Fiore is a bit of a demon-child, and Hunter was, ironically, stressed, but still. He seems so much more competitive and not as nice as he used to be. Being chill used to be his default, but now it's a sort of aggressiveness that just doesn't mesh with the original Hunter in my mind.

...I recently read that something happened behind the scenes that helped create this change in characterization, but as someone who wasn't aware of that when the first episodes aired and became upset when he was changed, I really would've liked to at least have an in-universe explanation instead of this just happening. Because until I read that information, I thought they changed him just because they thought the audience didn't like him much in season two. In short, I thought it was a needless retcon and became upset when there was no explanation for the change. If the behind-the-scenes stuff was a big enough deal that they wanted to change him like this without in-universe explanation...I might've preferred them just not using him at all. Then again, the season's not over. So I guess it's a little unfair of me to assume anything yet.

Anyways, that's all just my opinion. Feel free to share your thoughts or tell me why you think I'm being too dramatic about Hunter, haha. I feel like I'm one of very few season-two-Hunter enjoyers, so I'm not expecting that to be a super popular take. I'm just mopey that he changed, I guess.

#disventure camp spoilers #disventure camp #disventure camp ashley #disventure camp hunter #aiden disventure camp #disventure camp gabby #...i got a little passionate i didn't think i would ramble this much

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gingiesworld · 2 years ago

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Hi! Same one here that requested the last fic you wrote about the Olsen twins being bullies towards yn.

I was thinking if you could make a second part? Maybe yn met the twins again, being Lizzie's boyfriend and they at first didn't recognize him but when lizzie told them his boyfriend's name they apologize because after everything that happened they felt bad about it.

Xxx

Part 2 for Why Do You Hate Me

Second Chances

Elizabeth Olsen x Male Reader

Warnings: None. Just a short one of Lizzie introducing her boyfriend to the twins ;)

18+ MINORS DNI

After both Y/N and Lizzie had confessed their feelings to one another, the two had been going strong for a few months. He had already met her mother who loved him. Now as they were in New York for an interview, the twins had invited Lizzie and her boyfriend for dinner.

"Are you ok?" Lizzie asked him as they entered the elevator.

"Are you getting this sense of impending doom or just me?" He asked her making her smile.

"It will be fine." She told him.

"I know they hated me when we were kids." He told her.

"You were their rival. They were simply threatened by you and your talent." Lizzie tried to calm him down.

"I appreciate what you're doing but it isn't working darling." He told her as they stood outside the door.

"It was worth a shot." She kissed him softly before she led him inside. The sound of her sisters talking reached their ears.

"Lizard!" The two beamed as they saw Lizzie enter the living room. Hugging her close before they turned to Y/N.

"This is Y/N Y/L/N, my boyfriend." Lizzie smiled as both of the twins faces dropped. "I take it you remember him." Lizzie smirked as she watched her older sisters squirm before she turned to Y/N. "I knew this would be fun." He just chuckled as he shook his head at her antics.

"It's been." MK started as Ashley nodded with her.

"Years." Y/N stated as the two nodded.

"Can we just say how sorry we are." Ashley said as Y/N listened to them speak. "We were stupid little girls back then and selfish, and we're sorry for making you feel like."

"Shit." MK finished. "We made him feel like shit."

"We did." Ashley nodded. "So can you forgive us?"

"Well, I am extremely fond of your sister." He spoke as he looked at Lizzie with a smile. "And I don't have it in me to hold a grudge anymore. We're not kids anymore so I would be happy to be friends with you guys."

"We would love that." MK smiled as Ashley nodded. The two gestured for them to take a seat in the living room. Sharing conversation on how Y/N and Lizzie met.

"I told you it would be fine." Lizzie told Y/N as he drove.

"You were right darling." He smiled at her briefly before returning his eyes to the road, getting stuck in traffic. "Remind me to never rent a car whenever we stay in New York." He told her sternly. Lizzie just giggled before kissing his cheek.

#elizabeth olsen x reader #elizabeth olsen x you #elizabetholsen #elizabeth olsen #lizzie olsen x you #lizzie olsen x reader #lizzie olsen imagine #lizzie olsen

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theobsessiveloser18 · 1 year ago

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Headcanons of being the daughter of Gina and Ej

*You have an incredibly cheeky and clueless personality (That's why everyone loves you) *You were born to be the center of attention, you're a born star, but you don't get all fuss over it (your parents wouldn't allow it anyway) *You sing, dance and direct like your mother and have a talent for sports like your father *Your "uncles" have also influenced your skills, you write songs and play the piano like nini and ashley, you sing and design like kourtney, and you have the charisma of ricky and big red (only in your case you can also show it on stage) Unfortunately, you don't know how to choreograph like your uncle Carlos, nor have you been able to interpret the male version of something like your uncle Seb (you're not even a farmer). *You are a theater girl but you have "balance" you can be the protagonist, but also a secondary character with a really interesting background, an extra that appears only once on stage but devours with a solo, and sometimes you can even be found behind the scenes in charge of the organization *You love all your uncles, but Ricky is definitely your least favorite uncle, you can't forgive him for making your mom suffer for a while, or for almost spoiling your parents' "perfect summer". You have the perception that every time he visits them it's to spend time with your mom since she's been without a girl for too many years, and she's the most stable thing he's ever had after high school.(This is an alternate universe where Ricky is an on-and-off bachelor, that's how tim federle is done!)

"Go say hi to your Uncle Ricky"

"I won't talk to him all night mom"

"Let's see, what did he do this time?"

"he tried to flirt with you"

"He and I haven't flirted since I realized he loved your dad at the end of Camp Shallow Lake" (if this is an AU where Rina never kissed)

"I know what I saw mom, you should have seen him dad, with the hateful smile of him and the stupid charisma of him that I fucking should have inherited"

"Hey, mouth young lady," your mom scolded, you showed her your eye rolls.

"What makes you think you didn't inherit my charisma?" Your father asked, offended

"Don't worry, dad" you hugged him "I also inherited yours, only his influences me to death"

"I don't care if you like him or want him off planet earth, you're going to talk to Ricky whether you want him or not"

"I don't think it's a good idea to force the girl love, we teach her not to be hypocritical" Gina's look turned violent and she asked with the most affectionate voice anyone could imagine

"oh so get me started" practically you and dad scared the shit out of you, you started walking quickly while saying

"I'm always happy to see my brother Wildcat"

"uncle ricky is the best in the world"

*You are the number 1 fan of your parents' relationship (They are the basic reason why you don't want to have a relationship, they are the most perfect couple in the world, everyone else is a vile imitation, except your uncles' romance) *You and your parents are really close, they spend a lot of time together doing anything. *You anxiously wait for the weekend to arrive, to go on a trip with your parents, sometimes you go alone, other times your uncles and cousins accompany you. *You spend most of your time with your mother, cooking, knitting, shopping, and at work, it's her second favorite place in the world (your mom owns and teaches a dance academy, your dad owns several teams sports and has been director and organizer of several musicals) *You will be a theater teacher when you grow up

#hsmtmts #gina porter #ej caswell #gina and ej #ej and gina #portwell #ricky bowen homewrecker #portwell forever

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homelander-rp-blog · 6 months ago

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John is curling on the cold floor of the cage, listening to his imaginary Misty and his bad self chewing each other when he hears the door opens and it's that boy, Hughie's sound "oh my God.. Annie was serious, you really did get him.." Billy grunts "don't tell me you called to say it's 'emergency' only to come here and nag me about what I did or did not.." he stands there crossed-arms and the lanky man rushes to talk "oh, right, right umm.. Annie says you should let him go now, he has no power and won't be a threat to us anymore" "oh? that goldie locks said it? well.. go tell her go fuck yourself, love because ain't gonna do such a thing! Homelander will return to his lair, shoots more V in his veins and there you go, the previous monster-" Hughie shakes his head "I don't think he can even return.. have you seen the news? oh of course not, you hermit, now Soldier Boy is in charge of everything at Vought!" Billy laughs "so?" "meaning he can't return back even if he wants.. his own father will kill him. Annie says we should let him go because there's a girl that she knows.. erm, not her friend but she was so distressed when Homelander went missing and Annie thought if she was in her place and I went missing-" Billy throws his hands up, turning his back to Hughie "I don't have time for this shit! go tell her I don't care about Homelander's bed partner! this man dies here and today!" Hughie opens his mouth to say something but then closes it, his eyes sad "Butcher.. the revenge doesn't solve anything-" "-WHY you're still here, kid? get the fuck out!" he yells and the young man turns to look at Homelander for the last time before he leaves.. "you think your friends can help you, eh?" he goes to inject temp V to himself, not removing his eyes from his hostage "we'll see how it feels ripping you apart.. yeah.." and groans when green liquid flows through his veins. Calvin looks everywhere for Misty, Maeve calls him again "still no sign of her?" and curses when Calvin answers with a 'not yet' again. he knows Misty liked that monster but this much? "maybe she packed up and returned to her hometown? I think it had a bad effect on her now that Homelander is missing.." he searches her apartment but no trace of any being "did you mention Ashley gave her V?" he asks from the Maeve on the phone. she hums "yeah.. but I don't think that'll be effective.. if so, what she wants to do anyway?" Calvin leaves Misty's apartment "should I call Butcher and tell him about it?" and Maeve sighs "no need for that, I told him to move his place when we found that phone. I think he'll be alright. sides, I told him to just call me immediately if anything happens. we're going to send that monster straight to hell this time" Calvin nods while he knows Maeve can't see him on the other side of the line "yeah, my dad was in that airplane he caused to crash, I'll never forgive him.." they say goodbyes and after he hangs up, types a 'where are you? ;) call me' to Misty. John falls in and out of the sleep during the day, not daring to turn around and see what Butcher is about but from all metallic sounds he can say he's getting ready for the big event.. A single tear falls down his cheek "fuck.. why it had to happen for me?!" you're so pathetic, a crybaby! you're gonna die today and it's what you deserve! He covers his ear "no no! shut up!" but when it speaks, it's his Misty.. John, angel.. see that kit over there? Billy has temp V! think you can reach for it? just grab it and shoot a dose in your body.. he isn't looking over here now, come on! John turns around and is surprised to see that Butcher left his kit on the table near his cage and the man is busy setting torture objects in the middle of the barn. John crawls to that side of his cage, extends his hands for the syringe and is soo close.. "the fuck you doing, huh?" Billy turns fast, the temp V enhanced all his senses.

Maeve’s words only burn her ears. It feels like shes giving up. It wouldn’t be logical to stop now. Yet, how could she expect them to care as much as she does? None of them could love John as she had..

Her blood was boiling- not only from the anger, but from the V she’d shot up before coming all this way. The only person who knew was Ashley. Not wanting the others to call her foolish for such a last minute decision. She really didn’t need to hear Maeve’s scoldings about the choice. Especially not after she was already declaring their departure from the search.

It’s not soon after that a familiar voice rings out through the mayhem. It’s Calvin- coming to her aid with a warm blanket and even hotter coffee. At this point, she really was wondering if he was Clark Kent. He leads her to a seat, in which she follows and takes one next to him. Stressed out would be an understatement for her. Her mind was plagued with terrible thoughts. Meanwhile her body was in quiet discomfort from the V.

He gives her more reassurances, even patting her back softly. Being this close to him feels wrong. Sitting next to another man when John’s still out there. They could be doing anything to him. ‘My poor sweet Angel..’

Her eyes look up to see Maeve has made her way over. Between Maeve and Calvin’s claims she’s not sure who to give it to. Her mind juggles the possibilities before landing to Calvin, softly whispering to him. “Please.. please tell me it’s anything to help bring John back..”

Sooner than later, she makes her way back to the tower. Feeling just as helpless as before. Even worse, her head was pounding from that Temp V. A migraine that had almost felt skull-splitting. She needed a shower- rest. Even if she did want to find John, she was in no condition after today. She was moving too fast. Something the others had to drill into her for her to recognize that.

As the doorknob twists, she practically jumps at the sight on her couch. Soldier Boy had made himself at home- sitting on her couch, slouched back with Alice in his lap. He played with her absentmindedly before his eyes met hers. Two different sets of greens locked onto each other’s. He doesn’t say anything for a moment- as if giving her time to see that he’s here. Really here, in her own apartment.

Misty stands still, unsure what to do. Was he here to kill her? A way to hurt John even more? Her fists sit at her sides, tightening in fear before finally his voice rings out.

“So what- you’ve given up already..?”

He sounds almost offended oddly enough. His hands still working to play and mold against her tiny kittens brain.

“What is it with women and giving up so easily..? If it was me, I’d be-“

“Are you real?” Misty interrupts him, causing an almost instantaneous fit of laughter from him. He stands hearing those words, dropping sweet Alice on the couch. Sauntering over, his eyes never leaving hers. As if to intimidate her with his presence alone.

“Of course I’m fuckin real.. does this feel real..?” His hand is suddenly clasp against her windpipe, holding her up with unbridled strength. His eyes dark with a pleased grin to himself. His chest erupting once more in a low chuckle. “I don’t know what the hell you see in that brat, but I will tell you this sweetheart. If I was out there- rotting away in some fuckin cabin..” His lip sort of trembles, making Misty wonder what could’ve caused him to suddenly feel indifferent. Sure he was John’s father but did he care that much for him secretly? Little did Misty know, he was only recalling what the Countess had did to him. Only helping her as a way to enact revenge. To teach her to be better for John. Homelander didn’t deserve to feel such a betrayal.

He drops Misty, her hands immediately scrambling to her throat. Gasping, soft collective inhales followed by her own spit leaking to the floor. Struggling to regain her breaths. He’s looking down at her now- pitifully so, before he kneels down to meet her eye level again.

“He’s useless now- depowered, human.. weak.. kind of like you” He remarks as if it’s some kind of joke. She only wishes she had the strength to punch that jaw of his. However, she can only listen. Wondering what his game was here. “I can give you their locations- hell, I don’t give a shit what happens to Butcher now. I’m a free man. As long as you MAKE SURE that whiny fucker doesn’t come back here. I’m the new leader of The Seven. He can fuck off and go work at Voughtland for all I care”

Mistys heart drums rapidly, hearing the news. He’ll just give it to her like that? Her thoughts overwhelmed her.. Surely, if he wanted to kill her he’d just do it. Right? As she regained her voice again, she looked up at him with a thankful nod.

“Okay.. I-I can do that..” Her voice was shaky, trembling even. She planted her butt on the ground, listening to further instruction. Not wanting to piss off the man that’d so graciously decided to help her.

“One more thing-“ He licks his lips before continuing, eyebrows firm and furrowed. “Don’t tell any of these Vought idiots where you’re going. You just need to go. Butcher’s working with a leak that’s been telling him every time you guys have been close on them. You need to go, alone. I fuckin mean that too”

#[ cw ; mature content]#[ Well hug your kids right? 'Cos you never know what might happen. ( aus ) ]#misty #( hope the answer is okay! <3 )

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over-active-imagination · 3 years ago

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You're New (Nick Goode x Fem!Reader)

(Gif is @samblackblog, who's writing I am obsessed with)

Synopsis: A young teacher catches the eye of Sheriff Goode. She is everything he needs in a perfect wife, but isn't as easy to control. What will our heart throb of a Sheriff do to capture her heart?

Warnings: Female characteristics, implied Dark!Nick, manipulation, Implied murder, bakesales, eventual smut, slight!breeding kink (if you squint really hard at the end), Nick needing control, sexism.

A/N: I am in love with Ashley Zukerman at the moment and no I will not apologize for it. I also haven't written fan fiction in a hot minute so forgive me if this is a little rough! I have no idea what my plans are for this story so for right now lets say it will just be a 3 part series. Okay wish me luck :) Enjoy the shit show! Please feel free to leave feedback...I need it hahahahahaha.

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Part 1 || Part 2

The sun beamed down on the open air market that was being held on one of the town lines between Sunnyvale and Shadeyside. It was some sort of community plan to help bring the two towns together. Either way Y/n was happy to be outside rather then cooped up in her office grading papers. Everyone seemed to be in a good mood no matter which town they inhabited, a very rare occurrence. As she moved from stall to stall the young teacher appeared to have caught the attention of the Young Sheriff Nick Goode.

He was enraptured by how easily to made her way around the set up, smiling kindly at every person she passed. Pausing to make conversation with the young teens who only seemed to beam when her eyes landed on them. Goode had heard things, just mutterings about the new woman who moved to Sunnyvale but purposefully choose to work at Shadyside High. Did she not know how dangerous it was, how often Shadysiders resorted to violence. A beautiful creature like her deserved more than that. More than becoming a calamity of the town, of Sarah Fier's Curse.

Unaware of the Sheriff's gaze. Y/n smiled she approached Deena and her little group. Most of which milled around a stand with a messily painted sign. Josh, on of her brighter students sat looking cheerful while the rest looked as though they wanted to be anywhere other than place that they have found themselves.

"Wow, this is amazing everyone. I'm sure you will make lots of money for those new band uniforms you need" Y/n praises cheerfully looking over the array of pies, cakes and jams the group had managed to put together.

"Miss, you really don't need to pity us." Kate huffs and twirls her hair around her finger.

"I am not pitying any of you, These pies all look wonderful" The teacher smiles genuinely making Josh perk up more.

"Sam made the apple pies, even put the detailing of the witches hat see!!" Josh shows the her with much enthusiasm that causes the girl to laugh. The melodic sound hitting Nicks ears and he works up the courage to move a little closer.

"That is an amazing skill, I could never achieve something so detailed" Y/n cooed and Sam blushes.

"Thank you miss I spent four nights trying to get them just right" Sam starts only to be cut off by Deena who's eyes snapped up to the presence of the towns Sheriff.

"We haven't done anything wrong" Deena snaps and Y/N turns her head, her eyes catching Nick's.

"I'm not here to give any of you trouble." He laughs awkwardly, a bit annoyed his first impression to the perfect woman was being tainted. "I just wanted to see what all the fuss was about with these treats. Susana Jones won't stop raving about them" He lies watching each Shadyside child roll their eyes.

"Deena that is no way to speak to people" The teachers sweet voice says and Nick can't help the smile that crosses his lips at her words. Look at how easily she was falling into the roll of the perfect wife. Defending him against those who doubt him.

"Exactly right, I appreciate the support Miss.." He trails off waiting for Y/n to fill in the missing information. His hands on his hips, thumbs looped into his belt trying to keep composure.

"I wouldn't call it support considering you and your deputies constantly arrest and detain the youth of shadyside for simply walking down the street." Y/n's gaze hardening avoiding his question. His face shifts to shock as the children stifle giggles. Realizing she has in fact the man had been rendered speechless Y/n turned back to the children.

"I will see you all Monday morning. Remember you four have an essay on Dickens due by class" Y/n says to Sam, Kate, Deena and Simon and they all groan. She laughs softly and picking up the pie and walking away.

Nick frowns watching her before ignoring the children and following after, opening his mouth about to say something when she beats him to it.

"You know they would trust you more if you actually treated them like human beings " This catches him off guard.

"What are you? of course I treat them like-"

"You don't. You may smile and say the right words. Promise you are on their side while looking handsome in the uniform but your posture is always the same. Arms crossed, or hands resting against your belt, inching closer to your gun as you speak with them." She stops to look up at him "It would put any one on edge being treated like a monster by the one person who is sworn to protect them"

"You think I'm handsome?" Goode smiles charmingly at her trying to deflect the conversation to something that favoured him more. He didn't like that she wasn't worshiping him the way the other women do. "I don't think I caught your name back there" He tries again.

"God you're thick" Y/n rolls her eyes, quickly turning on her heels moving a little faster the before. Causing his strides to get longer in order to keep up with her.

"Hey.. hey!" He gently grabs her arm trying to keep his temper in check. He needed her to like him, he needed a perfect little wife for the next election and she was so sweet and pretty. "I'm sorry. Look I'll try and make more of an effort, perhaps you can help me?"

The young teacher lets him stop her, the skirt of her dress swaying with the motion as she looks up at him. Attempting to find any evidence that he was mocking her, or lying just to save face in public, but she couldn't find any. Sheriff Nick Goode seemed to genuinely want to repair his relationship with the Shadysiders. Perhaps she was being naive in trusting that maybe this was all a challenge of miscommunication. The he was as his name suggested, Nick Goode was a good man who just didn't understand how to help his community.

"You really want to improve your relationship with Shadyside and the children of it?" she asks again and he nods

"I do" Nick says trying his best to keep this ruse up. He could care less about the kids he just wanted her.

"Good, then I will see you at the School's job open house" She smirks and walks away without another word.

As the week wore on the more Nick Goode attempted to insert himself in her life. Everywhere she turned there he was, at the grocery store, the corner store, the gas station, the red-light just outside of Shadyside. It was like she couldn't shake this shadow. Perhaps if he actually spoke to her it wouldn't be as unnerving to just catch glimpses of him. It was starting to mess with her head, which unknowingly to her was his whole plan.

By the time the Job Open house arrived she was practically on edge waiting for him to appear around some corner. If he had the ability to stalk her all around town he surely would show up to the one thing she had invited him too. Bouncing on the balls of her feet she startles when someone gently lays a hand on her back. Looking up she makes eye contact with one of her fellow teachers.

"Oh...Mr Fier sorry, I didn't see you there" She says shyly and plays with her fingers.

"Its okay...Are you alright? You seem distracted today" The history teacher asks her and Y/n laughs a bit.

"No no..just um trying to make sure everyone is ready for the fair, that there isn't any more vendors coming" The younger teacher says causing the older to chuckle.

"I have the list Miss Y/l/n I believe everyone is here" He gently ushers her inside and she nods. Unable to explain how her spirits dropped when she decided he just wasn't going to come. She had not noticed that Nick had been there the whole time, parked just up the road smirking when he sees her move away dejected. He didn't like that the old man had his hands on her but that could be dealt with later.

He waits a few moments before driving up the the school and parking. Making his way into the gym making a point to ignore Y/n again. Moving around the room speaking with some Shadysider businesses keeping in mind what she had said about his body posture.

Slowly he made his way to stand next to her leaning in and whispering into her ear causing the poor girl to jump a bit.

"Did you miss me Y/n?" He hums in her ear and she turns into him.

"Oh..Sheriff" The girl bites her lip looking up at him shyly "Im surprised to see you here...and that you know my name"

"You did invite me and you seem to be the talk of the town" He teases and backs up watching her softly.

"Yes...well" She starts and then sighs thinking better of the side remark she was about to make "I am happy you came"

Nick chuckles at her admission and nods. Spending the rest of the event standing with her. Nodding at the children awkwardly and trying his best to not seem as annoyed as he felt. Soon the fair came to an end and the Teacher was happy to see Nick trying at least, even if it wasn't great. It was a start.

As everyone shuffled out of the gym both The officer and the teacher said goodbye. Nick couldn't help but to picture this happening at every event or party, only with his arm wrapped around her hip and a baby in her belly. All these thoughts where making Nick antsy to get her alone. But he knew better than to act on it now, he needed to get her to depend on him and him alone.

The only way to do that was to create a situation in which she would need rescuing and he knew just how to do it.

#nick goode imagine #nick goode #fear street 1994 #fear street tr #fan fic #sheriff nick goode #film #imagine #slowburn #ashley zukerman #part 1 #fluff #series #fear street part 2: 1978 #fear street part 3: 1666 #fear street trilogy #fanfiction #horror movie #eventual smut

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gamergirl929 · 5 years ago

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USWNT x Reader Masterlist:

Alex Morgan:

Little Did We Know, You’d Become My Favorite Star

🎄 You’re My Favorite Star

The Medic And The Forward

❤️ Valentine’s Day Surprise

🔞 That Wasn’t The Door!

🔞 Okay, So It Wasn’t The Door

The Intervention

Nutteloze Homo (Useless Gay)

You’re No Ones Shadow

You’re Trying To Kill Me, Aren’t You?

Olympic Dye Job

Miscommunication

I Object

Tell Me The Story Of The Sun And The Moon

Player 3 Has Entered The Game...

You Had A Bad Day

You’ve Got A Bad Reputation (And I Won’t Be a Part Of It)

The Morgan Genes

You’re All I See And All I Want

Baby Horse

We Fall In Love With People We (Think) We Can’t Have

🔞 The Flirty Photographer

Taylor, I'm Your Biggest Fan

They Hate Each Other (No They Don't, Not Really)

It Was An Accident That Brought You To Me

🍆 Don’t Wake Me Up

🍆 Far From A Dream

Second Chances

Amnesia

The Secrets That You Keep

Sing Me To Sleep

🍆 Movie Night

No Matter How Far You Run (I’ll Always Be Right Behind You)

🔞🍆 Hate Me, Hate Me (Chase Me, Chase Me)

🔞🍆 When You’re With Him Do You Call His Name (Like You Do When You’re With Me)

🔞🍆 The Grey Sweatpants Theory

When Somebody Loved Me (Everything Was Beautiful)

Age Is Just A Number (It Shouldn’t Hold You Back)

If It Were Up To Me (We’d Be Meant To Be)

🔞🍆 I'm Burning Up For You Baby

🔞🍆 You're Mine and Only Mine (I'm Yours and Only Yours)

Alyssa Naeher:

Don’t Be Afraid To Hold Me In Your Arms

The Goalie’s Girlfriend

A Giant Teddy Bear

Teacher’s Pet

A New Addition To The Family

The Call-Up

It Doesn’t Matter What They Say (All I Want Is You)

The Little Shovel Talk

Ashley Sanchez:

The Bodyguard

🔞🍆 Bumpin’ And Grindin’

Becky Sauerbrunn:

🎄 Who’s The Best Aunt?

The Snap

Carli Lloyd:

Silent Cues

Dressed To Impress

I’m More Than My Scars

An Angry Cinnamon Roll

Maybe We Shouldn’t Get Married

Wrapped Around Your Finger

No One Talks To You That Way (Not While I’m Around)

Chrislex:

The PPC

Christen Press:

Head Over Cleats For You

🔞 Under The Covers

I’ve Loved You Since The First Time I Saw You Smile

Dancing With A Stranger

🔞 Breaktime Shenanigans

🔞 A Player By Default

🔞 A Player Tamed

You’re An Angel

Flirting For Fun

Pregnancy Hormones

Live On Insta

A Life Lost

🔞 Private Fashion Show

The Sweater Thief

Finding Love Through A Lens

Life Is A Song (Love Is The Music)

Hey

The Woman Who Can’t Be Moved

The Clumsy Ball Girl

She Loves Someone Else (But I Love Her)

Forgiveness Is The Final Form Of Love

I’m In Love With My Best Friend’s Sister

Teenage Heartbreak

Happy Anniversary

Enchanted To Meet You

I Think I Love You

🔞🍆 The Second Our Eyes Met (I Knew I Wanted You)

Emily Sonnett:

🎄 Wow, That’s A Lot Of Snow

Lucky I’m In Love With My Best Friend

Finger Guns

You’re SO Annoying (It Doesn’t Make Me Love You Any Less)

Think Fast

The Place I Made With You

Take A Picture It Will Last Longer (I Just Might)

Nightmares

Marry Me

You Married Him (But I’ll Be Okay)

At My Weakest

I Don’t Know About You (But I Want To Know Everything About You)

The Dumbass Duo

A Day At The Park

Cherry

Secret Sisters

The Deep Thinking Midfielder

You Never Lost Me

Thank You For Taking Care Of Me

I’m Coming Out

I’m Still Coming Out

From The Sidelines (Straight To Your Heart)

Hope Solo:

Biceps That Could Crush A Watermelon

The Tiny Goalie

I’ll Always Be Here To Bring You Back

The NEW #1 Goalkeeper In The World

🔞 All This Time It Was You And Me

🔞 Backstage Pass

Julie Johnston:

🎄 Soccer Players Don’t Snowboard

I Can Hear Your Heartbeat

How Could I Say No?

An Adorable Family

Dancing In The Kitchen

A Skinned Knee

Family Workout

Warrior Princess

Tease

All Too Well

The Game Winning Goal

Jealous Johnston

Miss Americana And The Heartbreak Prince

A Date With The Wife

The Moment I Said It...

No Matter Where You Are (You'll Always Have My Heart)

Don’t Hate The Playa, Hate The Game

Kellex:

Morgan-O’Hara

🎄 We’d Never Let You Spend Christmas Alone

When I’m At My Lowest, You Keep Me From Falling

I’d Take A Bullet For You

Together At Last

Kelley O’Hara:

Love Is A Lot Like Dancing

24/7 Champion

🎄 Christmas With The Flirty Cousin

Kiss Me Like We Just Won The World Cup

Overprotective Sister

I Fell For You Unknowingly

Duck Dive Straight Into Your Heart

You Want To Know How I Got These Scars?

Roughhousing

Don’t Touch Her

Flying Squirrel

My Defender

Jelly Kelley

The Defender’s Ride

🔞 Bathroom Ballads

🔞 Dirty Dreams

I Never Stopped Loving You

FORRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEE!

I’m Here For You, Always

A Single Mother’s Defender

Wow, That’s A Lot Of Blood...

A World Cup Victory and A Crushing Defeat

🔞 A Night To Remember

The Concussed Midfielder

A Night At the Grammys

🔞 More Than Just A Matter Of Security

Touch The Sky With Me

Head Over Boots For You

🔞 🍆 The Bet

Krashlyn:

I’m Coming Out

I’m Still Coming Out

Kristie Mewis:

Wait, Isn’t That YOUR Jersey!?

Thank You Autocorrect

Beach Day

A Much Needed Snuggle Session

Would It Kill You To Smile? (Yeah, Probably)

The Alpha And The Omega

I've Been Waiting For Your Touch

Back Where I Belong

Live. Love. Drum.

🔞 Without You (I Found Her)

🔞 🍆 The Not So Little Secret

The Call

Thank God You Introduced Me To Your Sister

With You

We Could Be So Good

We Don't Meet People By Accident (They Are Meant To Cross Our Paths For A Reason)

You’ll Get Better Soon (Because You Have To)

Seven Minutes In Heaven

It’s Different With Her (Everything Is Different With Her)

🔞🍆 Your Biggest Mistake (Became My Future)

🔞 I Shouldn’t Be Jealous (You Aren’t Even Mine)

🔞 The Morning After

🔞🍆 It’s Gonna Be Me, You, And The Dance Floor

Lindsey Horan:

Home

Mallory Pugh:

Say You Remember Me

Welcome Home

I Love Her

Megan Rapinoe:

The Prodigy

Preath:

How Could You Do This To Me?

Sky High

3 Women And A Baby

I’m Definitely (Not) Sick

Sugar Rush

Your Obliviousness Knows No Bounds

So’Hara:

Going Under The Knife

Sophia Smith:

I Want To Ruin Our Friendship (We Should Be Lovers Instead)

Tierna Davidson:

She’s A TKO (Total Knock Out)

Tobin Heath:

So Gay:

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5

🎄 A So Gay Christmas

Second Best

Teach Me How?

🎄 A Christmas Proposal

I Can’t Love Alone

The Dark Horse

Sleepy Snuggles

The Babysitter

Say You Won’t Let Go

🔞 Keep It In Your Pants Heath

Love & Basketball

Baby Heath: Loading...

Finding You Again (But We Were Never Lost)

Thɘ Rɘ-Inc Strɘam

A Secret Union

A Soulmate's Touch

She Was A Skater Girl

The Fall

Our Bodies Were Printed As Blank Pages To Be Filled With The Ink Of Our Hearts

It Was A Dark And Stormy Night...

The Greatest Healing Therapy Is Friendship (And Love)

USWNT:

Dance Like Nobody’s Watching

I Wonder If They’re Proud Of Me

I Don’t Care If They’re Proud Of Me

A Hit And A Miss

Mend My Broken Heart

Cruel Comments

Accident

After The Accident

Love Is Taking Care Of You When You’re Sick

All Is Fair In Love And Paintball

Back Off

🎄 Christmas Kisses

🎄 I Won’t Be Home For Christmas

🎄 Newest Member Of The Team

Water War

Days Off With DnD

Secret Badass

24 Floors

Into The Unknown

I’m Fragile Please Don’t Break Me

Laughter Permitted

Laughter Still Permitted

Scare Tactics

The Aussie And The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

Mismatched Eyes

Forehead Kisses

What Will We Do Without You?

Don't Let Your Past Ruin Your Present

The First Cap

Kellex VS Preath

Inner Battle

The Smollest Goalie

#uswnt #uswnt x reader #uswnt imagine #uswnt x reader masterlist #uswnt masterlist

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period-dramallama · 3 years ago

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Queen’s Gambit (novel) review part 3: the CURSED CURSED CURSED

MY EYES THEY BURN

Thank god I didn't pay money to read this

here be spoilers. cw for csa I guess.

-It’s not too annoying but I do dislike how Kat Ashley is portrayed, as looking down on Dot and being catty about Dot’s favour from the Queen.

-Also Elizabeth befriends Meg only to abandon her when she falls sick and never visits her deathbed. Which isn’t accurate to Elizabeth’s character, but who needs facts when you’ve got internalised misogyny?

-Not only does Elizabeth sleep with Seymour in this book, but Katherine Parr “can’t bring herself to call it what it is- a betrayal.” “As Elizabeth plants a kiss on her cheek, she can’t help but think of Judas.” I hate this so much. The real Elizabeth not only never slept with Thomas Seymour, she didn’t flirt with him. He was going after her. She wanted him to leave her the fuck alone. She loved Katherine and never betrayed her. Never, never, never!

-”tears well up in Katherine’s eyes and she wonders if she had been wrong all along about her. She had thought Elizabeth so very misunderstood. Sister Anne disliked her- Dot too. She wonders if she has simply fallen for the Elizabeth charm, as Meg had. After all, she was fallible to the Seymour charm- it withers her to think of it now- so why not also Elizabeth's?"

A fourteen year old girl being compared to her abuser in terms of manipulativeness. These were real people. I want to smash something.

-"Elizabeth leaves tomorrow, and good riddance. Dot can't wait to see the back of her." It has been quite a while since I have disliked a character as much as I dislike Dot.

-"I suppose in time," utters katherine, as if thinking out loud, "I will find a way to forgive Elizabeth." "But /how/ will you forgive her?" Dot asks. She can't imagine that such a thing could be possible....

"It is not Elizabeth who made seymour the way he is. He was ever thus." She meets Dot's gaze. "It was I who did not see it."

"But-" Dot begins. The Queen raises a hand to hush her. "Elizabeth is..." she pauses with a sigh. "She is only fourteen." ...."Elizabeth suffers more than I for her deeds. It is easier to be betrayed than to betray, Dot."

But Dot cannot forgive her. She was horrified by what she had walked in on that day [seymour and Elizabeth naked in bed together]. It was as if she herself had been betrayed. Regret eats at her still for the way she led katherine to Elizabeth's chamber...but Dot couldn't help herself, and in her mind it was her loyalty to Katherine she was thinking of. If she's honest though, she'd also done it for her loathing of Elizabeth. Only it ended up being katherine who was hurt. Would it have been better if katherine had never known? Dot wishes she could be more like Katherine, forgiving, instead of the type to harbour a grudge. But she still blames Elizabeth for meg's misery even more than she blames Murgatroyd [Meg's rapist]."

This page really set my teeth on edge. Elizabeth in real life did not need forgiveness from anyone for the events of 1547-8. Not Katherine, not Dorothy Fownten, not anyone. She did nothing wrong. The idea that she needed to earn Katherine's forgiveness is disgusting, even tho the events are fictional. What's even worse is that the author KNOWS she was 14. And yet dot can't forgive a literal teenager for the actions of a guy she knows is predatory? And she thinks Elizabeth abandoning her friendship with meg is worse than rape?! Vile. Dot forgives Elizabeth at the end of the book in the epilogue where she's having her happy ever after with her husband and children. Which I don't care about because I don't give a flying fuck what Dorothy Fownten thinks. Elizabeth owes her nothing. Nil. Nada. Nihil.

-later in the book, filled with guilt, Elizabeth compares herself to a boy who pulls the wings off flies.

What's disgusting about all this is that the real Elizabeth DID suffer. The pain is historical, not fictional. But Elizabeth didn't suffer because she was guilty.

#elizabeth fremantle #ec fremantle #historical fiction

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stuckinapatriarchalbullshitland · 4 years ago

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Hiii babies and dear Anons 👋🏼🤗 You know how it works by now. These are the answers to the asks Mari/Stuck sent me. And happy Valentine’s Day to you all!! 🌹🌹 Enjoy 🙃

A lot of people have been interested in them, dear Anon. From managers, to publicists, to sponsors, partnerships, producers, etc., etc. and no, it was never a problem between them. That’s part of their job.

No, dear Anon. Camila and Ashlee are best friends. Ash ships/ped Camren. She has helped them a lot of times. I know why you thought this. Just as I know it may seem that Ash takes advantage of Camila because she created a lot of videos with her, made two songs about her, and brings her up at every opportunity, but it’s not what it seems. Do you have any idea how hard it is to try to emerge as an artist in that world? Do you have any idea how many artists there are out there that you’ll never hear about because they’ll never make it to the top? Why do you know Ashlee? Thanks to 5H. Without having been their guitarist, you wouldn’t even know she existed. The fans that Juno has, are Harmonizers/Camilizers and some that she managed to make herself afterwards.

Ash is a real friend to our Mila. She has helped her more times than we could ever know, even by leaving the tour to help her friend. And Camila’s the same for her. Did you know that on June 13, 2020, in the face of the Black Lives Matter Movement she helped Ashlee sponsor a free scholarship for 20 black students to participate in the JUNO’s Guitar Bootcamp to help them create more opportunities in that field in their future? [Diana Foster, who I believe is her girlfriend or a great friend of hers anyway, also helped] Why on earth would Camila willingly help someone who ‘presumably’ would be taking advantage of her friendship? May I suggest you go watch one of the last videos they have together in Camila’s backstage? It dates back to 2019. Go watch it, dear Anon, and tell me if you don’t get an automatic smile on your lips.

Forgive me, Anon, with all due respect speaking, but what are you saying? “Camila has made mistakes (she has not been the best girlfriend possible)?” Are you for real? What are you talking about? Camila made her mistakes, but so did Lauren. So why are you only pointing the finger at Camila? Did you pay attention to their story? Did you hear/see what Lauren said on the podcast? Have you ever listened to their songs WELL? Because apparently, you didn’t. A couple is made up of two people and mistakes are made by two, not just by one.

No, dear Anon. Closer was never a song of hers in the first place, let alone one she could sell. The Chainsmokers wanted her in the song. She recorded a rough demo for them and then turned it down. I know that when she turned it down and they passed it on to Halsey, she wrote and contributed to some of the lyrics (she appears as a songwriter in the credits), so I believe she wrote those in the place of the ones Mila wrote in her version, but I’m not sure. I don’t know if Camila had the time to write her part like Ashley (Halsey) did, or if she directly recorded the demo as she did with The Middle. Until it’s leaked, we won’t have an answer.

The fact is that Closer was simply a project that was proposed to her when she was still in 5H and that she turned down because 7/27 was about to come out. Just as she declined to participate in Taylor Swift’s Bad Blood music video for them (5H). And I still wonder how the haters still consider her a bitch 🙄🙄

Ligas, or hair bands, or también se dice colitas, verdad? Or hair ties as I like to call them, were originally Lauren’s. Lauren had two on her wrist at X-Factor and then, magically, one ended up on Camila’s wrist. I personally think that was their first symbol, but of friendship. And no, dear Anon, they didn’t replace the rings. The rings didn’t yet exist at that time. If the rings were one of their symbols of love, the hair ties were symbols of friendship, at least in the beginning.

P.S. dear Anon, I would like that as soon as you finish reading this post, you’d type ‘garters’ on Google and click directly on images 🤣 I really, REALLY, love you for this, believe me 😉❤️

I watched all the interviews held in Spain in 2015 and you can see the differences, dear Anon. The two interviews with Revista Bravo and the one with Vodafone Yu are more or less normal. There’s tension between all of them because the big mess had recently happened. But in Alyson’s one with NSP PROJECTS and the one with LOS40 in which Alyson is in as well… Gosh… Your second question is my answer, dear Anon. Yes, they broke up, but that was even before they went to Europe.

As for your last question, on the one hand, I think she was single, attracted to the interviewer, and that she didn’t have to be accountable to anyone because being single, she could do whatever she wanted. But on the other hand, I think it may have been done on purpose for revenge since they’ve always played these jealousy games. I don’t think she managed to control herself though. It shows in both of those interviews, although it’s much more evident in the one with NSP PROJECTS. I don’t think she really realized the gravity of what she was doing because she was too wrapped up in Alyson and too busy in impressed her than everything else. I don’t think she noticed, at least not during the interviews, how hurt Lauren was.

I don’t want to tell you yes or no if her behavior was correct or not, simply because I don’t know if she did it because as I said she was single and didn’t have to answer to anyone, or if she did it out of revenge because she wanted Laur to be jealous. My instinctive response would be that it wasn’t corrected because of the effect it had on Laur who was also going through the dark diary period, but I don’t really know why Mila did what she did. She may have had her reasons, and maybe knowing them, my answer would be different, or the same. I don’t know because I don’t know the reasons behind this. Lauren has done a lot of things in the past that have hurt Camila, and Camila has done a lot of things in the past that have hurt Lauren. They’ve hurt each other many times. Sometimes on purpose and sometimes not. So I prefer to abstain because, at least in this case, I don’t feel like judging something I don’t know. Much less point the finger.

Hi @ camilalauren0327 😄👋🏼 yeah, writing is therapeutic for them, as it is for many other people, myself included. Dancing was for me as well. Many people find it therapeutic to play sports, others find it in various forms of art, etc., etc.

I don’t know if Camren did couples therapy 🤷🏻‍♀‍ I think if they really did it, they did it after 5H.

Doctors of all kinds, and therefore also psychologists, consultants, therapists, psychiatrists, etc. are bound by the federal law HIPAA (Health Insurance Portability and Accountability Act). Many therapists themselves indeed, prefer to establish confidentiality limits even before starting therapy. For example, the fact that they’re required to maintain therapy content is established regardless, but with you, they can determine who they can contact with your written permission, or if they can’t contact anyone. If YOU client prefer it, you can also establish that outside those four walls, you’re not really in therapy and that therefore if you meet your therapist in a supermarket, for example, they’ll pretend not to know you and will not acknowledge you at all in order to protect your client-therapist confidentiality. So, at the end of the day, it really depends on you and what you establish with your therapist.

This, however, is sometimes not enough for celebrities. Those who really, but really care about privacy and don’t want to take risks, require their therapist to also sign an NDA as a backup and reinforcement plan, so that it covers everything, including sections that HIPAA doesn’t administer.

Both, dear @camilalauren0327, and hi again 👋🏼😊 In the Consequences video and on the day of Say You Won’t Let Go she was paying tribute to Lauren and to the old Camila. For Consequences, that was one of the many symbols we find in the video that served as a clue. For Say You Won’t Let Go it was yes a tribute to Lauren and to old Camila, but it was more of a message for her. The song was for her, the bow was for her, and the rose on her pants was for her. It was like: “Hey, I’m still here. I’m still me. See the bow? See the rose? The song? It’s all for you. The title of the song already speaks for itself. Let’s try again”. That was indeed still the period of rapprochement between them. As for the other times she wore it, and I remember that she even wore it around her neck on more than one occasion, it was for style.

Sure thing, dear Anon 🙃 Curious is a song discarded from the album Camila, and I don’t know if you’ll like my interpretation, dear Anon, because this song is not about Lauren (for me).

Verse 1

“I lose myself when you start talkin’

There’s something riveting about you, it’s got me confused”

Camila finds this girl so fascinating, that not only does she gets lost when she talks, but it also makes her confused. Confused because she didn’t think another girl could have this effect on her while her mind was always on Lauren. And yes, girl. It’s not the first time that Camila has had to mask this in her songs.

“If we went back to your apartment

Would you be a gentleman and a bad boy too?”

She’s provocative here. She’s literally provoking and teasing the girl: “Could you be sweet and at the same time rough enough to slamming me against the wall?” If you know what I mean…

Pre-Chorus

“I know you think, I’m innocent

Little do you know where my mind has been?”

When you see Camila in videos and interviews, you’re hit by her energy 80% of the time. She’s this cute and goofy and clumsy and dorky ball of bubbly energy that cracks a smile from you all the time. She’s funny with her lame jokes that however always make you laugh, and most of the time, you see her in this innocent light. And it’s true. She looks like this innocent little bean that must be protected at all costs. But we also know that she’s far from innocent. And here, that’s what she’s telling the girl: “If you knew what I’ve been thinking about you, about us, about what I want to happen, you’d understand that I’m not that innocent after all.”

“I don’t have much experience

Could you relieve me of my ignorance?”

The only sexual experience Camila had had up to that point, had been with Lauren. So unlike this girl, Camila had only had one partner, and she’s telling her just that: “I don’t have much experience as you do. Could you help me out?”

“It’s true (It’s true, it’s true)

Been wondering about you”

Here she’s basically questioning whether the expectation equals the reality.

Chorus

“I’m just cu—, I’m just curious

What you do, just got the two of us

Hit me down, take me up

Can you teach me how to love?

I’m just curious”

She’s telling her that what they do in private between them, will stay between the two of them. And then… Ahem-Ahem! *Throat clearing* I’m really trying to hold back as much as possible here guys… If I hadn’t received complaints in the past about some of the answers I gave in other posts, I wouldn’t have had any kind of problem explaining exactly what she says sentence by sentence, but I’ll just limit myself by saying that she’s asking her to teach her to be more expert on the subject matter.

Post-Chorus

“Dum, dum-dum-dum

You got me feeling

Dum, dum-dum-dum

You got me feeling”

This girl makes her feel in a certain type of way that Camila herself refrains from saying what she really wants to say. Still if you know what I mean…

Verse 2

“I’m kinda nervous but I like it (Yeah)”

Because it’s a good kind of nervous. An exciting kind of nervous.

“Will you live up to the image that I got of you?”

Again. As I said before, she’s basically asking if the expectation equals the reality.

“You’re not usually my type, yeah

I think that that might be the reason that I’m here with you (Oh, oh)”

And this, speaks for itself. Who’s Camila’s type? With whom is she making the comparison? Who does she have in mind to justify her actions? She’s there with this girl because her type is who?

Before I wrap up, I want to explain to you why this song has nothing of Lauren for me. So I’m going to rewrite some pieces of the song to debunk it’s about Lauren.

“If we went back to your apartment”

Lauren didn’t have an apartment yet. She wasn’t living alone yet. 5H had two apartments that they shared together in the months of recording, and for the rest, they lived constantly in hotels. This girl (older than her) had an apartment.

“I know you think, I’m innocent”

Lauren and Camila had already had sex. Hello? Since the Like Friends Do situation. So she’s not talking about Lauren because she already knew Camila wasn’t innocent.

“I don’t have much experience”

Again. Experience she’d precisely had with Laur.

“Been wondering about you”

She had to wonder about Lauren if she had already been with her sexually? What would have been the sense?

“What you do, just got the two of us”

If she was really talking about Lauren, this would’ve been a big bullshit because there were people who knew about them. The ones closest to them for sure. Like DNA. DNA knew about them right from the start and lived their story basically along with them. Not to mention that they heard them on more than one occasion. Hell, even we heard them thanks to that takeover.

“You’re not usually my type”

Definitely not Lauren! Isn’t Lauren Camila’s type? In which universe?

“I think that that might be the reason that I’m here with you”

Exactly! This girl, whether it was physically or of character, wasn’t like Lauren.

Aaand these are the reasons why I’m 100% sure this song is not about Lauren, dear Anon.

Of course I can, dear Anon 😄

Cleopatra is a song discarded from the album Camila, and created during The Hurting. The Healing. The Loving. era. C ended Something’s Gotta Give in mid-March 2017 and we know it was the last song of The Hurting. The Healing. The Loving. era before the album name changed to Camila, so Cleopatra was finished before that.

Verse

“Ridin’ ‘round town in the backseat

Looking like the real deal

Looking real, real, real

Spent so long cuttin’ my teeth

Thought you were the real deal

But it wasn’t real, real, real, uh”

Camila is in the back of a car and, you know how sometimes you find yourself spacing out and thinking about something in those moments? Maybe by looking out the window but not really looking because you’re thinking about that something? It can be something trivial or something important, and in Camila’s case, in this case specifically, she’s overthinking about her relationship with Lauren. They had clearly broken up, and Camila is thinking about how she believed L was the real deal.

With ‘cuttin’ my teeth’ she used a slang to indicate that she learned something early in her life. The slang of cut my/your/her/his/their teeth was born in reference to the exit of the teeth from a baby’s gums and consequently indicates a first experience. So, here she means that she spent too much time learning the ropes believing for real that Lauren was for her, and then realize that she wasn’t.

[Don’t be discouraged and keep in mind that in this case, they were passing thoughts because she was definitely angry, bitter, and sad. We all are after a fight or a breakup with a partner. Besides, we all know that L is the love of her life. Think of songs like Never Be the Same (It’s you, babe), All These Years ('Cause after all these years, I still feel everything when you are near), Taxy (The greatest love story that’s never been told), and many others up to one of the ‘most recent’ ones: Anyone (You are the only one I’ll ever love) 😉]

Pre-Chorus

“Every night it was a different fight

It was a different girl

It was a different lie, ooh-ooh

Every night it was a different fight

It was a different girl

It was a different lie, ooh”

Aaaand back at it again with their communication problems. Even if she has generalized a lot here, she still makes us understand the essence of the problem.

Chorus

“I think I kinda wanna cut my hair like I’m

I’m Cleopatra”

When people move on or try to move on after a breakup, what do they usually do? They look for a change. They want to separate themselves from their past selves, of the ones they were when they were in a relationship with the person they broke up with, and they seek a change, aka self-improvement. Most of the time visual, and therefore physical. This change is seen as a new beginning, a new chapter in their life where they want to feel good again. They want to feel attractive. And this is how self-innovation begins. Some go on a diet, others change their style and wardrobe, and then there’s what many see as a rite of passage: a new haircut.

Camila in this case used Cleopatra’s cut as a metaphor for the change she wanted to make about herself. Cleopatra is one of the most famous known queens in the world. Strong, intelligent, powerful, and that radiates charm in everyone since ever. But Camila isn’t talking about Cleopatra the person. She’s talking about her haircut. Cleopatra’s cut in this case is a symbol of power and freedom for Camila. Remember how I said earlier that Camila finished Something’s Gotta Give in mid-March and that she finished this song before that? Well, although this song talks about 2015, it was made in 2017. And guess what happened in that same period? Camila cut her hair by getting bangs. To be precise, it happened on March 31, 2017 (picture + caption: “joined the bang club now”). Coincidence? Yeah, sure, I don’t think so. Plus, although she used it as a metaphor, Camila has actually always wanted a Cleopatra cut, thing that, if you think about it, she now has for real. [Oh, oh and, rumor has it that Cleopatra was bisexual as was 100% Julius Caesar🤫🤭]

“Wanna dance on cars

And forget it all after

Skip these sad love songs cause I

Need something faster and now baby

Kinda think I’m ready”

The freedom I was saying before? (Cleopatra’s cut in this case is a symbol of power and freedom for Camila) She talks about it here. She used the wanting to dance on cars and the skipping sad love songs as figurative expressions of the freedom she wanted to feel, and that she wanted to feel fast because there was gonna be no crying in the club this time. 🤣🤣🤣 Sorry, dear Anon, I had to 😝 No but, seriously though. She just wanted to shed the past and move on right away because she was ready. And she was also ready for the power part I referred to earlier that she explains here:

Post-Chorus

“Needed to be all eyes on me

Baby all eyes on me, ooh

That’s what I want

Needed to be all eyes on me

Baby all eyes on me, ooh

That’s what I want, yeah”

Now. Now, now, now, now, now, now, now. We have a double interpretation here. I’ve said this before, and I’ll say it again: Camila is a fucking genius. And being the fucking genius lyricist that she is, she used a double meaning here to let everyone interpret this part as they please. The double interpretation is so well hidden, that people who listen to this song without knowing the details, such as for example knowing something about Camila’s life or the year the song was made, would never know because they wouldn’t even notice.

The first interpretation ties into what she says about wanting to dance on cars in the chorus. That’s also a way of saying she just wants to dance thoughtlessly and have fun, but on cars? It’s a metaphor to say that she wants to do it by drawing everyone’s attention. I want you to picture something now, okay? Picture a party with a bunch of people dancing and drinking, and in the midst of the fun, someone climbs on the hood of a car or a counter or any other high surface to keep dancing. Can you picture what would happen at that moment? Can you picture how all the people there would turn to look at that person and shout, clap, and cheer them on? Now picture the same scenario with a person still climbing on something high, but to announce something. It’s the same thing. It’s the same purpose. Getting on top, getting on top of something, is to automatically draw attention. So the connection that leads us to the first interpretation is: Wanna dance on cars - Needed to be all eyes on me.

The second interpretation, on the other hand, is basically the same as regards wanting attention on her, but with another direction and another chorus sentence. Camila is a singer. She’s a performer. She LOVES to perform. She LOVES the excitement, the adrenaline rush, the anxiety, the nerves, the pressure, and the feeling of shitting herself before entering a stage. She LOVES the almost blinding stage lights, the screams, the cheers, the applause, and all the love from the fans. She LOVES mastering the stage, interacting with the audience, and delivering a show. She sings her heart out and LOVES it when the audience sings back to her. She has so much passion and she’s so fucking good at what she does. Why am I saying all this? Because with this hidden interpretation, Mila refers to her solo debut. Like I said, this song was made in 2017, remember? So the connection that leads us to the second interpretation is: Now baby, kinda think I’m ready - Needed to be all eyes on me. Ready for her debut.

Both indicate the attention and power (feeling of power) that I mentioned earlier that comes with it.

Bridge

“See, see

You right to be that

You bein’, you needin’

See, see

You right to be that

You bein’, you needin'”

This part is cryptic. Since they broke up here, I think she’s just saying that it’s okay. That it’s okay for Lauren to be the way she is and that it’s okay if they’re letting each other go (Yeah, sure, Jan 🤣). No hard feelings. Or at least, that’s my interpretation.

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Before concluding this post, I’d like to make amends. My friend, the same one I ‘roasted’ in my last post (📄 - ɟ), hey, hi girl 😝 literally shoved her phone in my face a few days ago to show me an ask sent to @emisonme (hi to you too if you’re reading 👋🏼😄) in which I was mentioned. I’d like to apologize to all of you because I made a mistake, although not intentionally. I didn’t know Simon was no longer one of the directors of Simco Limited. I went to check it out and immediately understood why I didn’t know. Because it happened more or less recently (on September 17, 2020) and I hadn’t done a thorough research on the piece of shit since last summer (July) when Syco integrated into Sony.

I got really mad at myself for doing one of the things I hate: giving out wrong information. Camila and Lauren are ‘free’ from Simon, and I put that in quotes because one of the clauses that are in every Simmenthal Cow contract includes not being able to speak ill of him. I’m not kidding. This is a piece of an article from many years ago that is still on the internet today that talks about X Factor contracts: “The contract, which runs for 80 pages, also reportedly states that the rules are enforceable anywhere ‘in the world and solar system’ and that artists may not be critical of the company, ‘including its personnel and, in particular, Simon Cowell’. The contract makes clear no-one can speak badly of X Factor supremo Simon.”

Supremo… Supremo? Like what, the Supreme from American Horror Story (some fans of the series like me here)? Should I start calling him Cordelia? No, no, no, no, no, no, no. I could never. I’m sorry Sarah (Paulson) for even giving it the slightest thought, love. I’m deeply ashamed. Sooo, like what? A supremo Super Saiyan (Dragon Ball)? If he clenches his hands into fists and screams, does his hair turn blonde? No, huh? So like what exactly? The supremo asshole? You know what? It doesn’t matter. He’s ridiculous enough per se.

Anyway. Camren are free I hope completely from Simon, but we don’t know yet if the contract ended along with Simon’s exit or if it’s still standing. We’ll see as soon as one of them releases a new song.

Please accept my sincere apologies, guys 🙏🏼 And thank you @emisonme for giving me a great news, albeit indirectly. You’re a real one 😊

🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍

Aaand I’m done 🙈 I hope I was helpful in this case too. As usual, I’m always available for those who have questions, so feel free to ask 🙃 And as always, I thank Mari for giving me space in her blog and for making this exchange possible, and thanks to you Anons for your asks 🥰

Be kind, to others and to yourselves. Be a good example. Be patient. Be safe and take care of yourselves. Sending you virtual love and hugs 🤗🤗🤗 I love you, babies. Always with love, F ❤️

P.S. who wants to be my virtual Valentine? 🌹 🌹 🌹

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I have to say sorry to F again because this submission should be posted last night and I couldn’t. Thanks for the long ass post F.

Another advice, I closed the inbox for anons as you know and I will open it again in a few days when I don’t be too busy. Save your asks for F anyway, anons!

#submission #f anon #long ass post #valentine answers #sorry for the late post #anon #ask #f answers

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themadauthorshatter · 3 years ago

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If you're up to date with my posts, then you know what's about to happen.

I've read the books, WE'VE ALL READ THE BOOKS, but this is a somewhat fun switch-a-roo.

Expect a BUNCH of changes that I'll try justifying, especially painful ones, so bear with me🙏

OTP SWAP PART 1: THE CRUEL PRINCE!!!!

I'm starting with the first book for obvious reasons

Like before, we start in the mortal world with Ashley Duarte(yes, human!Cardan's last name is Duarte, but like I said, bear with me) making tacos in the kitchen while one of the MANY dogs and other animals wait for her to drop some food. Baby boy Cardan and his older half-sister Rhyia are watching some human stuff, maybe Looney Tunes or old Mickey Mouse cartoons, when the door is knocked on, which alerts the animals and wakes a half asleep Cardan; Rhyia does not wake up.

Cardan answers it and finds a cloaked Madoc at the door. Rather than ask who he is or call for his mother, he stares at this man, who kneels and asks as evenly as possible if his mother is home.

Cardan slams the door in his face, which prompts Ashley to ask why he did so.

Madoc BANGS on the door and shouts, "Asha!" and Ashley pales as she realizes who is at the door.

She demands Cardan to go upstairs as Madoc kicks the door open and walks inside, giving the same speech as the original, that Balekin told him she'd ran away with his daughter, that she killed a woman who was just as pregnant as her, that she ran away and married some lowly farm hand and blacksmith. He thought it was a lie, but nope. Here she stands.

Asha(which is her real name) is deeply ashamed at his words, and tries to pull Cardan away; an angry Madoc is an unstable Madoc.

Like before, Justin rushes in to save his family, but ends up getting kebabbed with his wife.

Rhyia does wake up to see both and Madoc spills the tea that she's his and needs to pack her bags because they're leaving, and Cardan's coming with.

Cardan, despite being seven, is outraged and tries to kick Madoc into oblivion with no avail. Rhyia, however, swears that she'll never love a monster like Madoc, who simply scoffs and tells her to wrangle the human and gather her things in half an hour, because they're leaving for Faerie.

Reluctantly, they do and they never see the mortal world again for a very long time.

Jump to the present day as Cardan, a now seventeen year old human heart throb, is getting prim and proper for a revel. His hair is getting styled nice, he's in a nice suit, he's wearing a cool belt that makes him look like he has a tail, and has ear cuffs that make his ears look pointed like a faerie.

He also has rowan berries on his wrist, because he doesn't want the necklace to be easy to see as a lot of his shirts show his chest.

He's dolled up and meets Locke, his brother that came around when Madoc married Oriana and had Oak. The two did not get along, at first, but they began to tolerate each ither as they realized they were the only humans in Faerie that were gentry kids.

Locke is more of a bard or a poet, always seen with a little book, and doesn't wear the same stuff Cardan does, so no pointed ear cuffs for him. He's also more accustomed to Faerie, being good with half truths and minor deception. He's on good terms with both Madoc and Oriana.

Cardan, however, is not on good terms with either of them, as he has tried multiple times to leave Faerie, with and without Rhyia with him, and every time ended with Madoc outside scowling at him and leading him back to his room. Still has that 'no kill' rule, but he's better with sneaking and a sword, having been able to lighten his steps so he could sneak past Madoc and his guards whenever he tried to leave. He's not bad with a sword, but he still has a lot to learn, being 17 and all. When he doesn't have a sword in his hands, he has an animal in them, i.e. a foal, a dog, or, at one point, a skunk that was calm enough to not spray him. Yeah, animal lover that can hold his own.

The two exchange banter and Locke shows show rare excitement for this revel, saying the two will have the time of their lives. Locke, who isn't as close with her, wonders where Rhyia is, but Cardan reveals she's not attending, instead going to visit some friends in the mortal world.

Her funeral as the boys saddle up with Oriana amd Madic and go to the revel.

Similar events occur, like Oriana telling the boys to be careful, Madoc talking to Dain and Balekin, and Locke leading Cardan through the revel so they can have a good time.

IT GOES DOWNHILL WHEN THE GREENBRIAR TWINS AND THEIR FRIENDS ARRIVE. Jude, her older sister Taryn, and their friends, Edir, a bard that can sing and play anyone under the table, Valerian, who's a sadist, and Nicasia, the princess of the Undersea.

Jude and Taryn may have the same face and body, but don't be fooled, Jude has horns, always wears a sword, and will slap you in a dress and then set it on fire without a second’s hesitation. Taryn, however, always has a bunch of flowers in her hair, always wears a dress, and uses words as her weapon. Did you know that she broke on of the most boisterous men in Faerie qith nothing but her words? True story. Edir is the guy that keeps them both in check, an order of Balekin's, which we'll learn later. He is also more of Jude's friend and Taryn's bed buddy, in SFW terms. Nicasia is Jude's friend, like FRIEND, and Valerian is the same, really, just more of an ass now that he has more even targets.

Everyone bows to these guys, even Cardan and a smirking Locke. That smirk vanishes when Taryn winks at Cardan, who Jude GLARES AT.

Locke feels the same way, cinfused and angry, but no time to think in it because Valerian storms toward a confused Cardan and grabs him by the collar, snarling that he can play dress up and make believe all he wants because it won't hide his plain hair or round ears or barn dog smell, so he shouldn't even bother.

Valerian throws him back and Locke rounds on Cardan, asking him what the hell that was between him and Taryn. Cardan brushes him off, as it was just a wink, not a lap dance. Before they can REALLY go at it, crying draws their attention and see that Jude just pincushioned someone who didn't bow, said someone nkw having a hole in their stomach and a slash across their torso. Taryn is annoyed, Nicasia and Valerian are trying not to laugh, and Edir, who's embarassed, is scolding Jude for losing it at a revel.

Jump to after the revel and the day of school. The boys do indeed get dirt kicked on their food, but instead of 'make me,' Cardan snaps, 'TRY me,' because Nicasia asks if he's as filthy as other human boys. Locke talks him down, but Valerian, kicking more dirt and even throwing some IN Cardan's face, asks if the two qould like them for friends.

Locke apologizes for Cardan, but Jude commands he prove it by dropping out of the tournament, it'll be less embarrassing than getting his ass beaten in front of everyone.

Nicasia spots one of the ear cuffs and pulls it off, asking if he stole it. Big mistake because the cuff burns her hand, as it is iron and iron hurts Faeries.

Cardan smirks and the group leaves, Locke scolding him for being stupid.

Later, at dinnner, after talk of Dain's coronation, Cardan, despite some minor objection from Rhyia, asks Madoc a question: May he please have a green sash for the tournament? Why? He would like to be a knight, please and thank you. Madoc chikes on his wine, Locke coughs to hide a laugh, Rhyia winces, and Oriana os shicked into silence.

Madoc gives it to him straight: he's not bad with a sword, he's good on his feet,and he's the best damned rider that anyone's ever seen, but no. He cannot compete for knighthood, on the count of being the furthest thing from a killer imaginable and just being in over his head.

Cardan protests that he can do just fine, but Madoc warns him to stop before he gets himself thrown in a dungeon instead if his room until the coronation of prince Dain.

Cardan relinquishes and we get the salt prank like before, except Locke is pissed beyond all reason at his foster brother. Cardan doesn't mind until he's grabbed by Edir and Valerian, Locke being pulled by the hair by Jude and both are thrown in the river, which has Nixies in it.

Thier supplies get yeeted, Locke gets pulled out by Valerian and is made to kiss Jude on the lips and both her horns, but, when asked, Cardan does not give up, vowing that he will never give up, which makes Jude laugh and the group leave.

Locke and Cardan walk home, get some baths, and go to bed, except they go to the mortal world with Rhyia and meet her friends Vivienne and Heather at the mall. Vivienne apologizes for Jude's behavior, and we learn that Rhyia is planning to leave Faerie, and is probably going alone.

The boys return and endure a lesson, but Jude pushes Locke's buttons, so Cardan pushes her into a tree. Challenge accepted.

TOURNAMENT TIME!! Cardan fairs wellin that Valerian is lazy, Edir is out of shape, and Jude got cocky, so he wins.

Jude fumes at him, later grabbing him by the tail on his belt amd demanding he beg for her forgiveness. He does... NOT! And spits in her face that she may push him down, but he'll pull her down with him, and it will hurt her like hell.

Taryn approaches him and expresses interest in him, saying that she once took both Edir and Nicasia from Jude because people just like a sensitive girl.

She leaves and the tournament eventually ends, which leads Cardan to return hime and meet Dain, who requested one of Madoc's people to tell Cardan one of Eldred's children had come for a visit.

Dain and Cardan get talking and Dain offers him something that isn't knighthood: spying. Plus one wish.

Cardan knows what he wants: to not be controled.

Granted, but Dain can still control him and the fruits of Faerie will still effect him.

Screwy, but deal, he's a spy now

STAY TUNED FOR PART 2!!!!!

#the cruel prince #the cruel prince trilogy #folk of the air #cardan greenbriar #jude duarte #locke #taryn duarte #otp swap #jude x cardan #jurdan

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sharonisantisocialimagines · 4 years ago

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Dear Darling - Part 8 (Bucky Barnes AU)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x female!reader Summary: Breaking hearts was something Bucky Barnes was always really good at. Charming smile, bright, blue eyes and a voice to make every girls knees go weak. But what if he had to break the one girls heart who he gave his own to? And what if after years, she is not ready to forgive him despite his efforts? Words: 1210 Warning: fluff

Last chapter before the epilogue guys!!!!

Masterlist

“So tell me, how’s loverboy doing? Did he get in your panties yet?”

“Gross, Nat, I really don’t want to know that about my two best friends!”

“Don’t be such a prude, Steven!”

Clint and you laughed out loud at they’re bickering, you swore they were gonna end up fucking sooner or later. It was obvious they liked each other, even if Steve always talked about that other girl.

“What is it now, (Y/N)! Come on, Clint and I have been betting each other on how long it’s going to take!”

Natasha said, and even though you probably should be mad at them for betting on you, you couldn’t. They knew you well enough to know how much you liked Bucky, and to be honest, you were really tempted to make a move as he cooked dinner for you. But you didn’t, and you were proud of yourself. At least your brain, your pussy… had another opinion there.

“No, we haven’t had sex yet. And it’s gonna stay that way until I’m sure he’s not playing games again!”

You said and Nat huffed as Clint grinned. Guess who won that bet? But the whole thing was pretty unfair, in the end, it had taken Clint a while to get you in bed, too. You were always attracted to each other, but to figure out whether the two of you had feelings or not was hard. And you were glad you waited until you were sure of yourself before you agreed to your ‘relationship’.

“I’m proud of you, even if I lost the bet!”

Nat said and hugged you from her place on the couch next to you. You were currently all at Steve’s place, where you planned to watch the newest episodes of Game of Thrones, that was until Bucky entered the place and asked you to go with him. The others protested, but you waved them off.

„It’s alright, guys. I know who dies anyways.“

You winked and instantly heard the panic of the others as they started discussing who was gonna die in the next episode.

“Do you really?” Bucky asked as you were outside and on your way to his car. You laughed and shook your head as you sat down and put your seatbelt on.

“Not a clue!”

You grinned and leaned back to stare at Bucky. He looked handsome as always, his hair was a little longer, almost to the length you knew back when you first met. Over the last few weeks, Bucky and you became very close, and even if you weren’t official, it still felt as if you were in a relationship already. Movie and dinner dates, good morning texts and flowers delivered to your workplace every now and then. It felt as if you were in a movie, but for once it was all real.

“Where are you taking me?”

You wondered after a while of Bucky and you singing along to the songs on the radio. He had a surprisingly good voice, and you really liked listening to him.

“There is someone who really wants to meet you. I told her a lot about you, and she adores you. I think it’s time you two meet each other.”

Who was he talking about? You had met his mother already, and you knew he didn’t have a sister (for the sake of this story), so who did he want to introduce you to? Bucky grinned as he saw you furrowing your brows, but decided against telling you any more. It was only a couple more minutes until you would reach your destination.

As Bucky pulled into a retirement home, you understood instantly.

“I’m meeting your grandma?”

Bucky smiled and nodded as he parked the car near the entrance before turning the engine off and turning to you.

“Nanny loved you. She didn’t know you, but I told her all about you after we met. When I… when I left you and started dating Ashley, she almost cried. She would ask me every time I visited if I talked to you, and would always tell me how I wasn’t as happy with her as I was with you. And she was right. Grandmothers always are. So, I want you to meet her, if that is alright with you?”

A bright smile built on your lips at his words. You were glad to know someone stood behind you, even if you didn’t know the woman yet. And to hear that Bucky was never that happy with his ex girlfriend was the most satisfying think you had ever heard.

“I would love to meet her.”

Bucky registered the both of you at the reception desk before he pulled you to the third floor and to a room at the end of the hallway. He knocked three times before an elderly voice called him inside. It was amazing to see how his face lit up as he met eyes with his grandmother. He hugged her hello before he sat down opposite her at the small table.

“Grandma, this is (Y/N).”

He introduced you, and the happiest smile you ever saw appeared on the woman’s face. She stood from her seat and pulled you into a hug that was much stronger than she looked. Surprised, you hugged her back before taking a seat next to Bucky.

“I can’t believe I finally get to meet you. Bucky always spoke so highly of you, I was devastated when he brought that other girl to visit me and not you.”

You were at a loss for words. Did she know what exactly happened between the two of you? What did she think of you now after all these years?

“You are so much prettier than Bucky told me!”

She gushed, and you blushed a deep red. Bucky cleared his throat then and asked her how she was and what she had been up to, but she quickly changed the topic back to the two of you. She told you stories about kid Bucky and about his brother, told you about all the pranks they pulled until topic fell back to his ex-girlfriend.

“He never smiled as bright as he did when he talked about you. I’m his grandmother, I notice these things. He didn’t love her like he loves you, but I couldn’t tell him that, could I? Man always think they know what they do, but they don’t, do they? I remember how my husband once…”

You honestly couldn’t focus on the story she told you after that. To hear these words meant so much to you, and you had a feeling it was why Bucky brought you here. If he knew what those words would do to you or not, you had no idea, but you were certain that you had made a decision now.

Under the table, you reached your hand out for Bucky’s and intertwined your fingers with his before squeezing them, and his eyes instantly snapped to yours. He saw the smile on your face, the pure happiness and love in your eyes, and he fell for you all over again.

He would never hurt you again. He would give his life to make you his and keep you happy, to give you the life you deserved. He loved you. He loved you four years ago, and he loved you know. And he was certain he would love you for the rest of his life.

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angstysebfan · 5 years ago

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Did I Take A Step Too Far Part 5

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Summary: You and Bucky were best friends, but one night you took your relationship to the next level. You you want to continue moving forward, but Bucky acts like he regrets it, and even tries to move on.

Warnings: just angsty

You woke up the next morning disoriented. You were very warm, and you felt warm breath on your neck. Then you realized you were wrapped in someones arms. When you finally opened your eyes you saw you were being held by Bucky, who was still asleep.

You took the time to admire his soft features in the morning sunlight. He looked so handsome. You always thought he was handsome, and adding his personality, charm, and sense of humor was enough to make you fall for him. You weren’t sure how he felt about you, but given that he abandoned his girlfriend to hold you while you cried, had you thinking maybe he felt the same.

His girlfriend! You didn’t know where she was. Was she still here in the tower, or did she go home? Was he sleeping with her before he came to you? All of these questions floating in your head made you feel nauseous. You had to separate yourself from him, needed space to breath and think.

As you started to gently pull away, Bucky’s hold tightened. You heard his breathing change, and knew he was starting to awaken. Your heart rate immediately spiked. He nuzzled his nose into your neck and then looked up into your eyes. He didn’t react immediately, but then you saw his eyes widen slightly before he pulled himself away from you.

The loss of his heat was felt in more ways than one. Even though you had a similar reaction to your situation this morning, seeing him react hurt. You told yourself to keep the tears back because didn’t want him to see you cry anymore. You just gave Bucky a sad look that brought him back to reality.

His face softened and he sat back down on the bed looking intently in your eyes. “Are you okay?” he asked softly. Your voice was caught in your throat. You wanted to tell him everything. Completely spill your guts, but in the back of your mind you knew that he had someone else who cared about him. Someone he cared about too.

How could you tell him everything and make him choose? You distanced yourself from him. It was your choice, to save your heart. You need to hold on to that and continue to keep him at arms length, no matter how much it hurts. you know in the long run, it will be better.

Bucky caresses your face with his flesh hand, and it takes all your willpower to not lean into it. You close your eyes and bask in the feel of his skin on yours. When you open them again, you just give a tentative nod. You clear your throat, “Uh, so where is Ashley?” you ask.

Bucky immediately drops his hand from your face. You think you see disappointment in his face, but you are not sure. “She uh... she is in my room. I ran over when I heard you crying.” he says, looking at you with an unknown expression. You nod and harden your face to look emotionless.

“Well, thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder. Especially after everything that has happened between us, but don’t worry, I will leave you both alone.” you say as you get up from your bed. Bucky looks confused and hurt? You start heading to your bathroom but stop and look at him. “Ya know, I know I was a bitch to Ashley before, but she really is sweet. I am happy you found someone good for you. I wish you both the best.” you say trying to keep your voice even.

Your heart continues to break with every word you say. Bucky just looks at you not knowing what to think. “I-I wanted to talk to you Y/N, about... well everything. I-” you cut him off.

“Bucky, I can tell you care a lot for her. And I can tell she does too. Don’t let her go.” you say in a whisper, losing your control. Bucky stands up and walks to you and holds your face in his hands. “I know how you feel about me, Y/N. Stop pushing me away and let me make my own decision.” he says, tears pooling in his eyes now.

Your breath hitches and you swallow the lump in your throat as you look into his beautiful blue eyes. Your heart is pounding, and you are sure you can feel it. “And what is your decision?” you ask. Bucky now closes his eyes and leans his forehead against yours. “I guess it depends on you.” he whispers.

You pull away from him and look into his eyes. “Bucky...I-” “I love you Y/N. Damnit I have loved you since we became friends. I always wanted more. I didn’t think you did until we slept together. I wanted to tell you how I felt that next morning but I dragged into that stupid mission and then you distanced yourself from me.” Bucky’s voice was getting louder as he spoke.

“You hurt me so bad, Y/N. I figured you obviously didn’t feel the same, so I moved on, or at least I tried to. I met Ashley, who is sweet and caring. She accepts me for everything, even if I think i don’t deserve it. I tried. I tried to move on, but you make it so fucking hard.” his voice cracks at this last part.

Bucky turns and sits on the edge of your bed, his head in his hands. “I want to get over you, because I have a feeling that you are going to keep pushing me away. Why can’t you just be honest with me and tell me how you feel. Tell me you love me too! Tell me I am the one! I will choose you, Y/N! Tell me, please!” he begs.

You stare at him, in shock. He loves you, and has always loved you. You were so stupid to think he didn’t. And you blew it! You hurt him, the man you love. You pushed him away into the arms of another. You can’t forgive yourself for that. You know he cares for Ashley, and poor Ashley doesn’t deserve this. He deserves better than you. He deserves Ashley.

You kneel down in front of him and pull his hands away from his face. You wipe away the tears that are falling down his cheeks and you give him a light kiss on his lips. “Bucky, I... I do love you. More than anything. Which is why I am telling you to choose... Ashley.”

You hold your hand up to silence him. “I hurt you. I didn’t trust you enough to let you in. I pushed you away and hurt you, when the woman you love should never do that. Ashley is great, and kind, and everything that you need. You deserve so much more than me. You deserve the gentle and kind girl, not the fiery argumentative one.” you give him a small smile that he doesn’t return.

“It’s because I love you, that I have to let you go. I have to let you move on, like you wanted to.” you say looking down at the floor, tears now falling. Bucky lifts your chin with his finger and kisses you deeply. You open your mouth to let him in, one last time. When you finally break away, you look at him and nod.

You get up off the floor and give him room to stand. He hugs you and kisses the top of your head, before heading toward the door. He looks back at you one more time, before leaving your room and closing your door. You choke on a sob and cover your mouth.

You did it. You let him go and be happy. You sacrificed yourself for his happiness. That’s what someone who loves wholeheartedly does right? If it was right, why does it feel so wrong? Why does it feel like you will never breath normal again?

What did you do?

Bucky dries the tears on his face before walking into his room quietly. Ashley is just waking up and gives him a warm smile, which melts his heart. She sees his eyes are red and puffy and frowns. “Babe, you okay?” she asks concerned. Bucky walks to the bed and sits down, leaning against the headboard. Ashley automatically slides over and cuddles into him. They look at each other for a moment before sharing a soft kiss.

Bucky sighs and looks at the wall he shares with you. “I... I will be. It’s been a long night.” he says. Ashley says nothing and just snuggles closer to let him know she is there for him. It makes him smile as he kisses her head. He keeps looking at the wall and thinking about what he wants.

“Hey, let take a walk today.” he says. Ashley looks at him adoringly, “Okay!” she says.

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Chapter 3: Beyond the Stars

Narrated by Ashley.

Joseph: ...Over the past two months, I always walked to Lake Silvermoon. Unfortunately, I’ve never heard the singing of an angel again...

Narrator: With my head down and clutching my cloak, I walked through the crowd to a small corner near the stage.

Joseph: If the starry sky heard my wish, did it send my invitation to the angel?

Narrator: On the stage of the theater, Joseph is like a real prince, telling about his feelings.

Joseph: If, even in case, you really answered my call, please sing again by the lake.

Narrator: He bowed and began to play.

Narrator: He frowned slightly and the violin quivered slightly.

Choose either “He loves your singing” or “Joseph is very handsome.”

If “singing,” ...

You: It seems that he really likes your singing.

If “handsome,” ...

You: Joseph looks hot when he plays the violin.

Narrator: That’s why everyone likes him so much, don’t they?

Narrator: I may have been deluded for a moment and began to sing low to the sound of the violin.

Narrator: The sound of his violin stopped.

Narrator: Then, he continued to play more.

Narrator: My singing was embraced by the sound of the violin. I sang more freely to the melody.

Narrator: I closed my eyes and sang with all my heart in the crowd, on the shore of the lake.

Narrator: It’s like walking into a meteor dream.

Narrator: When the music gradually stopped, Joseph stepped off the stage and came to me step by step.

Narrator: My heart was beating faster and faster.

Narrator: Maybe... He’s really different...

Joseph: Angel by Lake Silvermoon, may I...

Narrator: He raised his head and stopped abruptly.

Narrator: The 14-year-old looked at me and the smile on his face was frozen, showing a look of horror that I was all too familiar with.

Joseph: Ah, I’m sorry... I made a mistake.

Narrator: He looked away slowly, not knowing what to say for a moment.

Narrator: It was as if I dropped from heaven to the bottom of the lake, and I felt cold and stiff.

Narrator: I knew I had to run away, but I just grabbed my cloak and pretended I wasn’t here.

Paisley’s Voice: Thank you for your invitation, but the lady won’t be happy if she’s mistaken for someone else.

Narrator: The sound of Paisley came from in front of me.

Joseph: Ah, it was stupid of me to mistake someone else for my angel.

Narrator: People laughed.

Paisley: Puff... But I won’t forgive you easily.

Joseph: Let me play the violin for you again. The center of the stage is yours.

Narrator: Joseph took Paisley’s hand and walked to the stage. In the warm cheers, he played the violin and Paisley began to sing.

Narrator: No... Stop... That sounds horrible, doesn’t it?

Narrator: ...Am I not right?

Narrator: People were intoxicated by the singing as they watched Paisley dance on the stage infatuated.

Narrator: ...Why?

Narrator: That’s definitely not the same singing.

Narrator: That’s definitely not the singing of an angel.

Narrator: That’s not my singing.

Narrator: Why, why didn’t anyone say it?!

Narrator: Joseph on the stage was so in the performance that he never looked at me again.

Middle-Aged Man’s Voice: Poor thing, the girl in the cloak...

Middle-Aged Woman’s Voice: Stop it. I just saw her face. Wow, I was startled...

Middle-Aged Man’s Voice: Shh, keep your voice down. She can hear you.

Ashley: ...

Narrator: How I wish something could happen at this time to make everyone in this theater disappear.

Narrator: Disappear from my world.

Narrator: I clenched my fists and fled the theater with my last strength.

Narrator: The sound of the violin is still so melodious, and Lake Silvermoon was silent and gentle.

Narrator: But... As far away as possible, leave my world!

Narrator: I’ve never hated the starry sky that seems to be close.

Narrator: The illusion of sinking is like the meteor that people look forward to.

Narrator: The meteor won’t come and my tomorrow will still be dark.

Narrator: ...

Choose either “Are you okay?” or “They went overboard!”

If “okay,” ...

You: ...Ashley, are you all right?

Narrator: No... I’m all right. It’s all in the past...

If “overboard,” ...

You: They’ve all gone too far!

Narrator: Is it too much? To me, this is perfectly normal.

Narrator: You didn’t expect that, did you? Even if it’s someone like me, my heart is not cold and hard at the beginning.

Narrator: But when I yearn for love, I’m bound to be hurt.

Narrator: This kind of pain and suffering... Even if you look at my memories in this way, you won’t feel the same way.

Narrator: So, please don’t say anything and don’t comfort me again.

Narrator: My heart can’t take any harm or any warmth anymore.

Choose “Old Hendrill saw you leave from behind.”

You: But I saw it... Old Hendrill on the side of the stage watched you leave.

Narrator: The sound of his violin quivered slightly. I heard that. I know that...

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