#i love 1team so much

[emeraldbabygirl]

Because I miss my groups so much I’m sharing a special edition of my old series song recommendations hehe I def recommend checking out these songs esp watching the mvs cause the visuals are insane uwu. I love these groups and miss them a lot. Most are disbanded and some are inactive and I’m still mad about it they will always be popular to me ~

VAV:

Give Me More

Designer

Poison

Thrilla Killa

Brotherhood

Seniorita

Lou’s Goodnight

Moto

E’LAST:

Dangerous

Kiss me Baby

Gasoline

Swear

Tears of Chaos

Thrill

Forever & One

Dark Dream

To Lie

Creature

Enoi:

Cheeky

Coin

W.A.Y

Omega X:

Icetag

Junk Food

Play Dumb

Love me like

Balia Con OX

Omega X

What’s Going On

IZ:

Angel

Eden

Ole Ole

Heartbeat

Hello

Final Kiss

Say Yes

Missing U

N.Flying:

Moonshot

Oh Really

Monster

The Real

Hot Potato

Video Therapy

Sober

Boys Republic:

Get Down

V.I.P

Eyes on Me

Bz Boys:

Close your Eyes

Outlaw

Vanner:

Purge

Lachata

Jackpot

Automatic

Form

Noir:

Airplane

Lucifer

Teen Top:

Love is Gone

D-Crunch:

Across the Universe

Panorama

Are you Ready

Pierrot

Addiction

My Name

Halo:

Mariya

OMG

Imfact:

Lie

In the Club

Lollipop

Casino

The Light

Map6:

Swagger

Love is Gone

I’m Ready

Black6ix

Swamp of Despair

Call my Name

TO1:

Son of a Beast

Drummin

Rude Boi

No More X

1Team:

Make This

Ullaeli Kkollaeli

Blitzers:

Hit the Bass

Will Make Mistake

Blank2y

Thumbs Up

Fuego

Great Guys:

Run

Dang!

Blind Love

Last Men

Be on You

Xodiac:

Calling

Special Love

Lemonade

Heyday

Triger:

Hurricane

14U:

Compass

Argon:

Gimmie Dat

UNVS:

Timeless

Give you Up

Sand Castle

2Z:

Doctor

Stupid

O@sis

I have to make 2 parts cause I can’t tag them all on mobile so here’s part 1 I’m sorry it’s so long but they’re really great songs I promise you will love them <3

[flops]

INA'S TOP 10 SONGS OF 2023 💙🩷

1team - firework // queenz eye - un-normal //kep1er - giddy // atbo - next to me //queenz eye - this is love // weeekly - vroom vroom // xodiac - midnight sky // n.ssign - higher // nmixx - love me like this // bxb - fly away

tagged by @hwichanis @strhwaberries @dongkwan @xiaojuun @eeunwoo thank you so much !! ❤️

tagging @berryjaellie @floweruna and uhm not sure who hasnt done this yet so 😭 sorry for not tagging more people also if you guys have already done this let me know bc then i missed it and i want to see your creations !

anyways i tried to stick my own usual rules.. so title tracks only and kpop only but... guys firework.... FIREWORK... i had to also higher is not a title track but it was a pre-release SO it works yes so true higher soty

special mentions: xodiac calling bc this is so soty but it has an ugly mv and i didnt want to work with it +++ dreamnote lemonade !!! also fromis album... aoty album of my life ilu

[gyuworm]

I wanted to dye it black in middle school. 😭😭😭 it makes me glad my mom told me no back then

AAA OMG YES TXT IS ONE OF MY #1 FAVES. I got too excited I forgot to add them. Their tied in the ult spot.

If u need content or help i got u bestie 🫡✨️✨️ They're one of the very few groups that I was able to stan since debut. They came out my last year of high school, and my friends made fun of me for it. 🥲 I tried to convince them to give it a listen but they refused. BTS is amazing as well. Unfortunately, I didn't find 1Team until after they disbanded, but Vibe is on my replay playlist. ALSO I'M VERY MUCH WITH U ON NCT and i was gonna give up but I think I'm getting there. For now I've decided to just stan Dream but I'm also getting more into 127 and WayV.

So u prefer like the horror genre? U should watch #Alive it's a zombie movie and it was really good in my opinion. Tbhhh I didn't care much for squid game. Idk why I just couldn't get into it. 😔 My sister continued on without me.

I normally go more romance even if it makes me mad and shreds my heart to bits. 😅 I recently finished The Fabulous with Minho from SHINee 🥰💖 ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVES THO IS RUN ON ✨️ and Wish You but that's a movie not a series. I dunno what I'll start on next !

What would be your top 5 songs from your ultimate faves?

~ 🍓✨️

hihi strawberry!! sorry for the late reply i had class today and was completely drained when i got home jsksjs. i hope you are doing well!

!!if you have any mv recommendations for txt please send them. i’ve seen sugar rush ride and that’s like . it. LOL i really like devil by the window by them! who is your txt bias?? right now i’m most drawn to kai, yeonjun and beomgyu but that’s based solely on like their aesthetics !

yes!! i’m a big horror/thriller fan just in general. i recently saw the new scream with my sister and i loved it. my favorite movie in general is called ‘marrowbone’ it’s a psychological horror film. i’m honestly the most annoying person to watch anything with because i analyze everything in what i watch and always end up guessing the twists in like everything 😭😭 — i thought squid game was good, i understand though i do feel like it was kinda overhyped and i honestly preferred sweet home and AIB to it.

!!! honestly romance genre suits your vibes if that makes sense HAHA idk just the way you type sjsjsjs i can’t remember the last time i watched anything romance tbh

OKAY!! top 5 songs is hard — my ult group is skz so i’ll just do them! (not in order & as of rn)

1. back door

2. red lights

3. taste

4. venom

5. miss you (hyunjin)

what are your top 5 songs from ateez and TXT? :D

[choi-hae]

1team for the ask game 👀💞

do i already stan them?  yes!! | only for the music | attempting to | no

if i’m familiar with them

my bias - BC, without a doubt. His talent blows me away and he’s a sweetheart + bias wrecker - Junghoon. He’s a cutie and his rap skills are 🔥. But Jinwoo is coming for me with his cute face and beautiful vocals.

first time i heard of them - I follow this k-pop reactor on YouTube and he reacted to Ullaeli Kkollaeli when it came out. I watched it because why not, and I fell head over heels for how unique it sounded. Turns out, none of their other songs sound like that! But I still love everything they’ve done. 

when i became a fan - My Spotify says I added their songs on August 4th, so that’s the answer 😅

favorite (and least favorite) title track - Favourite title track has to be Vibe. It’s my feel good song. Least favourite is hard because I really love them all 😭If I HAD to pick one, I’d pick Ullaeli Kkollaeli simply because I’m not a fan with how they did BC’s hair in the MV/teasers 😂

favorite (and least favorite) b-side - Ice In The Cup is my favourite b-side, with Countdown and Love It as close seconds. Least favourite might be Not Afraid but that’s only because I’m not super into ballads 😓

favorite (and least favorite) mv - Favourite MV is Make This. I love the colours, the styling, the sets, everything. Vibe is a close second because it’s super cute and colourful. I honestly don’t have a least favourite. I think if I had to choose, again, it’d be Ullaeli Kkollaeli for the same reason as before. They really did my boy dirty with that.

favorite (and least favorite) album - My favourite album logically would be JUST, only because I love all the songs on that one. Picking a least favourite is tough. I don’t think I can. 😓

a concept i wished they’d try - They do a lot of modern/streetwear concepts (aside from Make This), so maybe something sexy? Make This was kinda sexy but in a very subtle way. I don’t know if they’d be able to pull it off though honestly. OR maybe something fancy. I’d love to see them in suits. That’d be cute. 

what i like most about them - They seemed super confident and skilled from the beginning, despite being rookies. They’re still very new to the game, but they know what they’re doing. I also feel like they’re very unique. They stand out to me. I’m excited for them to release more music, hopefully that will be soon 💕

[minwooks-moved]

liveworks .... it’s on sight <3

the members of 1team deserved so much better — i truly hope they’re okay :(

[underratedmulti]

[antijacob]

cherry jehyun 🍒 [1-2, 3-4]

[xenhyun]

packing with bc 🕶🧢

[excusemyobsessions]

Idk if you've noticed but I've adopted the maknae line of 1Team as my children

(Don't come for me cuz I can't adopt the hyung line cuz they older than me goddamnit)

[sirasanders]

DONT TOUCH ME RIGHT NOW THIS MAN MADE A WHOLE ASS SONG ABOUT HIS CATS IM GOING TO CRY IM SO EMOTIONAL

[malwootese]

Honestly with the amount of times I post about Jehyun you would think he's my bias or my bias wrecker. Or maybe that Junghoon is my bias since he's all over my profile. But my bias is actually Jinwoo. Like I can't. He is too cute. It hurts my heart 😍😍😍

[emeraldbabygirl]

:( literally like every group I’ve really like and fell in love with and members I’m like are my man just are gone. They disband and I find out my favs are in relationships or married with kids or they just have been inactive for so long I can’t find out where they are. Like I was looking at a lot of my old posts of groups I loved like for examples great guys, all the members left the company except for donghwi, baekgyeul and horyeong. With vav they disbanded right and i guess they’re off doing whatever now. T.a.n frickin disbanded, with n.cus they lost member and hojun left to be a backup dancer for enhypen along with kain who was in argon but they disbanded and I didn’t even hear about it. Now kain is still in the military. Soon got a girlfriend and got her pregnant, n.tic disbanded and that was really disappointing considering dowon just joined. Now I think sangwook and seunghoo have girlfriends. With 1team and enoi they disbanded but y’all know omega x was formed but now members are in the military and I think they recently released a dance practice. E’last has choi in and seungyeop in the military and i fear they won’t come back. I fear e’last will disband next and I’m sorry if i jinx it. iz disbanded and so did d.coy shortly after Kenny left (his name is actually sungwon) idk what happened to road boys but sun left. Then I loved megamax so much but jaehan my love left and then rohan, kan was gone for awhile but when he came back they added a new member and they are inactive and prolly just disbanded so that sucks. Who else…I still have my vanner but i fear they will be stuck again now that ahxian and hyesung are in the military :( I haven’t heard from 2z in a while but I haven’t checked just like vav cause I’m afraid THEN UNVS PISSED ME OFF THEY CAMEBACK AND DISAPPEARED AND I FIND OUT THEY ALL ENLIST AND NEVER KNEW WHEN THEY ENTERED OR GOT OUT AND THEN I FIND OUT A FEW MONTHS AGO ON TWT THAT JOOHYEON GOT MARRIED. So they dropped sandcastle and fucked off, xenex is still going I think but my man yuhyeong left and idk what he does now so I stopped paying attention to them but I think they had a line up change. G-most disbanded idk what jin is doing he was my fav. Who else is there..d crunch disbanded, imfact, halo disbanded and heecheon, ooon and yoondong are in orbit..imfact disbanded and idk if taeho is still at the company as a soloist or what I bet they all have gfs or bfs um noir never officially disbanded but seunghoon recently released something and now he’s in the military oh I miss him a lot and of course yunsung is rotting in prison. TARGET IS GONE AND I THINK WOOJIN AND ROI AND ZETH ARE IN RELATIONSHIPS Y’ALL JEALOUSLY IS A DISEASE AND I HAVE IT

oh and seungyong from n.cus is now in like a movie but they changed their group name to apex and domo left and they added two members but I never seen any of their mvs and I think they only promote in japan. Ummm bxk..so a few members of trcng debuted OH THEIR GROUP NAME IS BXB but idk what’s going on with them..I wanted to get into bae173 but idk what happened to them. And them avin from enoi redebuted in blank2y with taewoo from I think it was 1the9 but um and they were going to have a u.s tour back in 2023 but fucking what’s his face ruined the group and they disbanded but 5 members redebuted as d.vol I think but I’ve seen one video from them and I don’t think they are still around. I was going to look into bandage but I think they disbanded. About U I have no idea I think they added a member after victor got kicked out. Then there’s all the girl groups I really like OH MLD FUCKED OVER MOMOLAND AND T1419 as if they thought changing their name to tfn was going to promote them like they both deserved better. Tbh survival shows do not help the group I swear it only hurts them. The only group I know that benifited from a survival/competition show was vanner and I feel they are back in a rut again. Also Jongup and Heedo got more recognition but um that member of black6ix got shot down for no reason I felt so bad for him. After black6ix disbanded I heard ziki and taeyoung were supposed to debut again but idk if they ever did, with minjae from spectrum too and that one spectrum member is in jail I think, jaehan moved to omega x and rayoon I think or was his name euijin?? He debuted in um..aimers with another spectrum member villain.

AND THEN BZ BOYS AFTER ADDING HAMIN I LOVED BZ BOYS AND THEN TAEWOONG WAS SUPPOSED TO ENLIST AND THEN DOUBLE D AND HAMIN LEFT. I have them all on insta, my Taewoong is busy taking diving classes and he prolly has a gf and idk what the other members are doing but outlaw was so good I wish all 5 members could’ve continued I found them through tiktok actually. Who else..so many girl groups like saturday went through so much and now it’s just minseo, ayeon and yuki but they aren’t releasing music I don’t think just doing shows in japan for old men it’s creepy. We lost a member of elris to some older hot ceo and that’s after they added two member, went on hiatus for idk how long and then rebranded as alice just to come out with one mv and disband. Ad.some?? I can’t remember the spelling they had one song and then two members left and I don’t see their tiktok account anymore. Triger just had the mv for hurricane come out and shawnee left due to health reasons I hope he’s ok but they aren’t promoted a lot but I have them. Roa dances a lot to other groups, he’s a great dancer and the members are so handsome and all models like 2z and great guys. NATURE DISBANDED AFTER THEY LOST SUNSHINE AND THEM LIMBO WAS A BANGER AND SOHEE LEFT AND SHE’S A DUO NOW. Hey girls lost members, had a lineup change then made a duo called 1chu and they make music now I’m assuming everyone else left. Tweety Idk what happened to them, bad boy was so fucking good. I still have rolling quartz but I don’t understand how their company really works but I love them and hope they get Mir and more popular esp since they are a girl band. Um…there’s other newer groups that I listen to like I like some songs by p1harmony and 82major and umm like the popular groups but I don’t have any groups that I really love a lot like the above ones anymore. Like my favs are just gone. AND IM STILL JEALOUS OF FUCKING J.HEART’S WIFE.

I just have my jpop groups I listen to now and the few thai groups I like. I still have kpop songs I like and stuff but I’m not like head over heels for all these groups anymore. I wish they were all still around personally great guys would be so popular if more people knew about them like I don’t understand how my favs never got the recognition like I hear fans complain that all these groups can’t sing or dance or the music is boring and my favs can sing and dance and rap and they’re really hot and talented and the music just hits different and sounds different and they do fresh concepts but no one knows about them.

Idk what happened to ghost 9 I only like like two songs by them I’m still trying to pay attention to them cause I really like shin and prince but I can’t listen to any of they title tracks without having a panic attack like my fight or flight activates. I also know teen teen added new members and they became ghost9 and I think Jinwoo?? One of the teen teen members left I thought. Now I hear prince is on tiktok breaking the rules trying to get popular and I just hope he doesn’t get in trouble but he just doesn’t care lol. And then the whole mont mess like they let beomhan in and then dropped the multiple units idea and now beomhan idk where he is but I hope he’s okay people really hate his song and I feel bad for him. Jay chang debuted in onepact and tag joined them after leaving ciipher? but idk I wasn’t into ciipher cause I knew they’d suffer like mblaq and madtown and it seems like I was right. Of course to1 went through so much but the former members seem to be doing ok becoming solo artists like jaeyun or jerome joined onepact and kyungho and woongi are in another survival show. Idk what the others are doing, no one cares about chanhyuk but me :( I love him I think he’s making solo music. They deserved better but I feel like everyone wants to blame chanhyuk for their disbanded.

I kinda like kep1er cause yujin was in clc and it’s nice to see her again and I like bai yeehee (idk how to spell her name I’m not trying to be rude I just pronounce her name like that) I’ve only listened to like a few songs by xdinary heroes and txt but I want to listen to more. It’s just I don’t want to fall for another group and be disappointed when they disband. And I used to really like ateez but I’m not a huge fan of them anymore. I do not like bts or stray kids anymore. I like niziu but they just do japan stuff right. Idk I just don’t feel it for kpop as much as jpop rn I guess. I really like my jpop groups and think more people should listen to them but at the same time I don’t want the music and vibes to change if people try to push the whole kpop toxic fan culture shit on them. But I really like what ini and jo1 are doing. I love psychic fever and am glad there are getting love and attention and I’m so happy that san and hikaru got to meet and I’m loving the kpop x jpop collabs I’m seeing. ALSO I HAVE TRIED TO GET INTO EPEX SINCE THEY DEBUTED AND I FINALLY LOVED THEIR COMEBACK FOR BREATHE IN LOVE AND THE OTHER MV THAT CAME OUT BUT A MEMBER LEFT DIDNT HE. And now they released the universe mv. CIGNATURE I FEEL SO BAD FOR THEM FREE THEM THOSE POOR GIRLS. Jinyoung left cix :( I LIKE A.C.E AND I AM EXCITED FOR THEIR COMEBACK. I am proud of them they’ve come a long way it’s so cool to see their progress. I was afraid they would disband during their military services. I like mcnd but flopmedia hates their groups i.e teen top, 100% and up10tion and now they have a girl group. I kinda like baby monster and I like treasure. I really loved their show I just haven’t gotten back to watching it, same with the atlas shows. I love Pixxie and 4eve and 4mix and I wanna look into bus more.

Sorry I’m ranting and complaining I just feel like all the kpop groups I loved are gone and I just have no fav favs anymore. I’m just hanging out with jpop and tpop groups now. I kinda want to look into boys next door?? I like dangerous and i think leehan is the cutest lil guy and i kinda like a few songs by enhypen but if anyone has any group or recommendations for kpop or jpop or tpop idk um feel free to send in an ask or drop a comment or message me. i am really slow checking stuff out tho, it took forever to listen to every nct title track lol and I've heard two day6 and two xdinary hero songs. That's a lie, the last xh song I heard was haircut :)

So long as rant/story short I have…e'last and omega x and a.c.e and..vanner left. :) my favs I guess, plus the jpop and tpop groups I like. OH AND ONLYONEOF BUT IDK WHATS GOING ON WITH THEM. if there's any old people that have been with me I really started loving them during their libido era that was such an experience for me. but junji cut his hair and honestly i am sad over if like i know it's just hair but idk something about him was so attractive and eye catching with the long hair. OH AND I LOVE CNBLUE AND N.FLYING AND CNBLUE JUST HAD A COMEBACK I BELIEVE BUT IDK WHEN WE'LL GET OT5 N.FLYING AGAIN. I think I am done rambling. if you made it to the end thanks :) for listening to my shit. Please I recommend checking out all these groups tho like just cause they disbanded doesnt mean you have to stop listening to their music.

I REMEMBER STREAMING FICTION BY N.TIC, FALLING IN LOVE?? BY BERRY GOOD AND DOOM DOOM BY NOIR AND XENO-T'S ONLY SONG FOR DAYS LIKE EVERYDAY CAUSE I WANTED TO GET THE VIEWS UP AND I SWEAR TO YOU I WATCHED THE POISON MV BY VAV 50 TIMES. til I couldn't listen to the song anymore because I wanted them to win on a music show so badly and I was so sad, we were in second place fr but txt won I was so upset. ALSO FROMIS_9 I HAVE NOT LIKED A SINGLE SONG BY THEM SINCE THEM MOVED TO PLEDIS/HYBE. Ok I think I am done now my knuckles and fingers are cramping. i just look at my older posts and get sad when my favs are gone :( I miss them all. They made such great music, will forever be archived in me heart and their songs will always be platnium/number 1 in my bedroom :)

I ALSO LIKE XODIAC AND XG :) 👍

[floralbfs]

hi i love 1team's junghoon

[gummygowon]

happy new year!

alright so i've never done one of these end of the year post things but i do just want to take the time to get sappy here for a second. first of all, thank you so much to everybody who has supported, read, liked, commented, or reblogged any of my fics. it truly means a lot that my 2am thoughts are appreciated by many people. to be honest, i started this blog with the intention of just posting my oneshots for shits and giggles and never would have i thought that i would have almost 300 followers on this account.

apart from writing though, this year has been a little hectic for me. i started my senior in high school, trying my best to get into college (and possibly play a college sport), got a job and my license (after failing the first time). it's a little bittersweet to realize how much i've grown as a person this year and i cannot wait to see what's going to happen next year.

again, i would like to thank everyone for supporting my blog, it just really really means a lot to me and i hope all of you have a great and safe 2022!!!

notes to some of my favs <3:

to @agustdiv1ne: ashlee! i am honestly so thankful for your presence. you've endured so much of my bs this year and i can't thank you enough for being there for me countless of times. it's freaky to think that i've met someone so similar yet, we've never seen each other irl (power of interest friends 🤪). good luck in college and hopefully we can meet soon!!

to @prodbyteez: riaaa! you are an absolute ball of sunshine and hope you continue to bring happiness and light to yourself and others next year! it's been awhile since we've talked but just know that i miss you a lot :) good luck with college and i hope you passion for dancing never withers

to @hwaflms: eve! even though we just met a couple months ago, you're a super cool person and i just wanted to let you know that i've missed you sm! good luck in 2022 and may you live the best year of you life :)

to @yunhoflrtz: q! we literally met like two weeks ago lmfao but i really hope we can get closer this year! you're an amazing writer that i look up to so much and you have the sickest blog that i've seen on this website. happy new year bby!

to all my moots:

happy new year! i hope 2022 is filled with amazing and great things for all of you and i really appreciate all of you guys so much! thank you so much for making my 2021 :)

@luvanter @woahhwa @bobateastay @sweetheartsannie @ateezinmymind @masterninjacow @cherryatiny @hyetiny @yeostars @atozfic @treasure-hwa @tinkerbellwoo @annasbananas

some of my favorite songs from 2021!

nabi - bibi

fireworks - ateez

leave the door open - silk sonic

perfect - ph-1

boom! - dpr live

소년, 소녀 - loona (haseul)

mmmh - kai

queendom - red velvet

back 2 u - nct 127

perfect world - twice

trivia 承 : love - bts

stay with me - miki matsubara

asap - stayc

vibe - 1team

final note!

thank you everyone for all the support you given me this year and i promise i'll try to be more active this year and not just post once in a blue moon! i have so many drafts that i need to finish so please look to that! stay safe and have a great new year everyone!!!

with much love,

mai <3

[lumini-317]

Hello!

This will be my official “introductory” post!

My real name is Erica, but I go by many names. My nickname repertoire includes but is not limited to: Lumi, Lumini, Cricket (I have a habit of rubbing my feet together, lmao), Jinx, Eri, Er, EriJoy, Sunbaeby, and Aceir (my real name but in alphabetical order).

This is my first ever Tumblr blog. I’ve had it for a while but have rarely posted anything, that along with the fact that I’m on mobile is kind of a mess so I apologize for mistakes and all that.

I have 3 older brothers, an older sister, and a younger brother.

I’m an ambivert. Sometimes I love hanging out with bigger groups of people, other times I dread it.

I’ve taken the “16personalities” test 4 times and all 4 put me in the “Diplomat” category, however I got “Advocate” (INFJ) 2 times, and “Protagonist” (ENFJ) and “Mediator” (INFP) 1 time each.

I am LGBTQ+. I’m asexual, aro+panromantic flux, and while I feel like I’m genderfluid, the changes are very subtle and so I sometimes just go with agender, gendervoid, or neutrois. It’s a lot less complicated that way. I’m ambiamorous, and also pronoun apathetic!

I love whump. I’ve loved it for as long as I can remember but only found the whump community maybe 3(?) years ago.

I also love K-Pop, C-Pop, J-Pop, and Asian dramas, mainly K-Pop and K-Dramas, though.

I’m a HUGE multistan. ATEEZ, SKZ, TBZ, EXO, BTS, Red Velvet, SHINee, iKON, MONSTA X, TWICE, TO1, WANNA ONE, SuperM, X1, MIRAE, Ciipher, Golden Child, Purple Kiss, BAE173, SF9, IU, ONEUS, ONEWE, The Rose, PIXY, LUCY, STAYC, WEi (which I pronounced as “way” for an embarrassingly long time), Dreamcatcher, Brave Girls, TXT, ENHYPEN, SNSD, KARD, AKMU, SHAUN, Gaho, NCT, GHOST9, 1team, SE7EN, Cross Gene, D1ce, AB6IX, CRAVITY, BLACKPINK, CIX, VIXX, f(x), 4Minute, CLC, YEZI, B.I, Wonho, (G)I-DLE, EVERGLOW, SEVENTEEN, BROOKLYN, Ha Hyunsang, DAY6, GOT7, Teen Top, BAP, TREASURE, UNIQ, etc! It goes on, far longer than I can list. I am also very much against fanwars, they disgust me.

I’m also a HUGE animal lover, and a big softie. I can’t even squish insects. I don’t care that they can’t feel pain and don’t experience emotions, I just can’t bring myself to. I make it my mission to save any type of animal I come across. I find toads in our koi pond and immediately pick them out and take them to a safe place. I help turtles across the road. I got a mouse out of a puddle and revived it, releasing it when it was healthy enough. I saw a snail on a piece of wood that was going to be thrown on a fire and carefully pulled it off and put it somewhere else. So far I’ve found 5 stray cats (Piper, Toothless, Felix, Kai, and Kit Kat—all were found as skinny, sickly kittens) and took them in, raising them as my own. I rescued a chipmunk from certain death-by-cat. I’ve even saved a few baby raccoons, ducklings, lizards, spiders, and snakes in my time. And I’ll keep doing so for as long as I live.

I love writing, drawing/sketching, and painting, however I’m not confident that I’m good at any of those things, lmao. I mean, I don’t think I’m the worst, but my finished “works” often leave me unsatisfied with my “skills”. But of course, that won’t stop me from trying to improve!

I’m a maladaptive daydreamer. This can cause issues in some places while helping me out in others. On one hand, it makes doing chores and such kind of difficult. Like one time I had to take care of my dad’s pigeons while he was fixing our shed and one time he pointed out how slow I was with the chores. His words were something along the lines of, “I’m already almost done with what I have to do and you’re still working with the pigeons.” Also, it (and maybe ADHD if I do have it?) made school a nightmare for me. But it’s also helpful because then during church it’s really easy to keep myself occupied while the pastors go on about their Magical Sky Daddy™’s son throwing a tantrum and killing a figtree because it didn’t have any figs and how that story should “challenge” us or something.

The characters in my daydreams are weird, though. They merge and separate with each other to make different characters depending on the situation. Most of them don’t have definite genders. Only a handful of them have names because they’re always merging and separating like some kind of Shadow Clone Masters or something. Stuff like that.

One of my characters is for sure a demi-boy, though, and his name is Kyler.

I brought this up because I was watching The Andy Griffith Show and Andy was giving Opie a lecture on how many poor kids there are in the world and used the ratio “one and a half boys per square mile”. Opie then says that he’s “never seen a half a boy before”. Kyler just sort of pops into (fake) existence, jumps off the couch, and throws his arms in the air while saying, “Half a boy, right here!” I burst out laughing. Thankfully it didn’t seem weird, since my parents started laughing at Opie and thought that I was just laughing at it, too.

Any-who.

If I daydream while I’m standing, I’ll often pace and gesture with my arms while moving my lips. Sometimes I’ll even whisper. If I’m sitting down, I usually fidget a lot (such as pick at my shirt and rub my feet together), stare into space, and move my lips or whisper. My family sometimes ask me, “Why are you whispering?” Or, “What are you grinning about?” And I just shrug because I don’t know how to explain it to them without risking them calling someone to pray over me, lmao. I mean, I wasn’t even allowed to have imaginary friends because that was “evil”. When I was about 7, I told my parents about my imaginary unicorn friend and they gave me a lecture and “prayed over me”. It was embarrassing and awkward for me.

I’m suspicious that I might have ADHD, but don’t have the money to actually get a professional diagnosis. I’m also too scared to ask my parents about it.

Speaking of which, my family and I don’t see eye-to-eye. I mean, they don’t know it because I’m good at hiding it, and they think I agree with mostly everything they do but boy, is it a mess.

You see, they’re evangelical conservative Christians. “LGBTQ+ people are going to hell”, “ThE LeFt ARe eViL AnD ARe TrYiNg To BrAiNwAsh OuR ChiLdrEn”, “Trump was sent by God”, “Intersex is fake”, “Women must submit to men”, “You should get married no later than in a year or ‘the temptation’ to have sex might become too much”, the whole bit.

Meanwhile I’m over here with my (imaginary) pride flags, just existing as an agnostic leftist who wants everyone to have equal rights, regardless of gender identity or sexual orientation, and would rather redo my horrifically atrocious kindergarten closing program role than pray to a god who (if they/he/she/it/whatever exists) gives cancer to kids and killed millions of innocent animals and people in the Bible.

But they have no idea that this is how I feel and now expect me to be baptized within the next month to show that I have “accepted Jesus Christ as my savior”. Yeah...that’s gonna be an awkward discussion...

Anyway, that’s just some things about me. Sorry that I got sidetracked a few times, lmao!

I look forward to posting more and maybe even making friends!

Thank you for reading (:

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