#i loooove this au so bad you dont understand..

[awnrii]

obsessed with @bambiilooloo (and @imheretocausechaos25)'s swap au because im a predictable eurylochus fan

[iznyangwoni]

EASY TO LOVE | chapter five !

“Y/N.” You hear Jungwon call you, so you turn around only to be met with a glacial look. You turn your head to the side, you bottom lip slightly pouted. “What is it?” You ask, but you can imagine what he’s going to say.

Jungwon looks at Sunghoon for a second, as if to tell him to go away. The older guy hesitates a bit, but then lets go of your hand. He leans down to your ear to whisper something, but you still don’t break eye contact with Jungwon. “I’ll catch up with the others. Call me if you need me.” He says before giving you a kiss on the cheek and walking away.

You sigh and let Jungwon guide you through the school park. You can tell he’s pissed off, not only by the way he’s not talking much but also the way he’s looking at you. You’d be crazy to not admit he looks hot. “Are you guys like… dating or something?”

You laugh, a hand running through your hair as you guys stop your walk. He rests his hands on the railing behind him, meanwhile you just cross your arms. “Since when do you care?” “Are you?” “No. We’re friends.” You cant really imagine anything more happening with Sunghoon, you’ve been friends for so long, its even weird to think about it.

“Are you jealous, Jungwon?” You ask, taking a step closer to him, a mischievous smirk on your lips. He scoffs, and once again you have that feeling that he’s not really taking you seriously. “I just want to understand what your plan is.”

You raise your eyebrows, still not replying, waiting for him to say more. Jungwon clicks his tongue, he doesnt like how you’re looking at him. You always look like you’re up to something, you look like you’re playing a game and you’re winning. and he hates that, but he can’t help but be so attracted by you. “What do you want from me? Is it attention? A night of fun?”

You still have that menacing smile on your face. You have plenty of attention already, you dont need him to get more, and you could get with anyone if you really wanted to, so its definitely not a night of passion that you’re looking for. “What can you bring me?” You ask, taking another step towards him.

Your hands reach his tie, adjusting it and the collar of his shirt. He gulps, nervous about the proximity. “have fun, Jungwon. Dont think much about it. We dont have to like each other either,” You say, your fingers playing with his tie, he looks down at you, his eyes piercing in yours. “I take you to parties, show you off a bit, have a good time together. Is it not a win-win?”

“I guess its not that bad..” He says, his hands stopping yours, his heart beating too fast, if you keep being this close to him he might explode. “I just dont like how you treated Minji.” You look down at his hand, slowly pushing yours away. You get on your tippy toes, whispering in his ear.

“She better not get in my way next time, then.”

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author’s note: hi! thank u all sm for all the love you’re giving to this smau i really didnt expect it 🥺 here to also say that i’d loooove to hear your opinions or questions abt the au and you can always send me an ask! once again thank you all 🥺🥺

[timidpumpkin]

Hey! I love the dark stucky n all but i honestly hate pink so that gave me an idea: reader being reserved and extra obedient and always freaking out if they mess up (and never going anywhere near the front door) and when stucky asks they say they dont want a pink room while crying

Awhhh but I loooove reader being sooo reserved and extra obedient cause she’s scared 🥺🥺🥺. And I think stucky would be super understanding and considerate if you didn't like pink at all.

So here's a little au about that hehe 🙈🙈🫶🫶

I’m just imagining reader accidentally dropping her sippy cup, making it spill everywhere🥺🥺…

((18+ minors DNI))

Of course, you start to panic, seeing the liquid spread all over the clean floor. You start apologizing profusely when they come to check on you after hearing a noise. 

“I-I’m sorries” you cry over and over again, beginning to shake, knowing you’ve done something bad–made a mess. 

“Awh no, Angel, hey-” Steve picks you up, noticing you’re standing where the liquid meets your covered toes. “It’s okay baby, don’t cry. It was just an accident.” He sets you on the counter as Bucky cleans your mess. You keep apologizing and crying. Steve and Bucky both reassure ‘it’s fine angel’, ‘don’t worry about it doll’.

After it’s all cleaned up, Steve hands you a new filled-up sippy while Bucky changes your damp socks, knowing they must not feel comfortable or help your distressed mood.

“How about we get you ready for bed early, huh doll?” he asks.

A simple question. But one that makes your already anxious mind mold into guilt. You didn't want to go to bed--Well, that wasn’t exactly true--You didn’t want to go to your room. Your pink room. It was perfect, in every way–except the color. It made you feel so bad. You knew how much they wanted you to love it. You didn’t want them to think you were bad.

“I’ll even read you two bedtime stories,” Bucky interrupts your thoughts, trying to cheer you up. He picks you up and sets you back down on the clean floor. It only makes you feel worse. You’d love it if he read you a million bedtime stories, but it just felt so hard going in your room. It just didn’t feel like yours.

You don’t answer him. Instead, you just stand there, looking almost petrified. 

“Doll? Hey, what’s wrong?” he asks as you make no indication of wanting to go to your room. Steve bends down, leveling himself closer to you.

“Sweet girl, can you tell dada what’s wrong? You know we're not upset about the sippy, what’s bothering you babygirl?” Steve asks gently. Still, you only cry harder, not wanting to say what you mean. How could you tell them something like that? Wouldn't they just think you’re a bad girl who doesn't want to listen to daddies and go to your room?

“Jus-jus’ don’t wan’ daddies to be mads at me” you sob sorrowfully into your own hands.

“Oh no, angel...we won’t be mad, as long as you're honest about what’s going on in that little head of yours,” he teasingly pets your head. “we could never be mad at you like that.” He encourages you to speak up, taking your little hands into his softly. 

“It-it’s jus-” you try making the words come out, but only more tears fall instead. Steve tugs you closer, hugging you as you weep into his shoulder. Eventually, there’s only one word you’re able to mumble out. Color.

“Color?” He questions gently, trying to confirm what you said, and pulling apart to look at you. You nod your head shamefully, unwilling to look up from the floor. 

“What color baby?”

“Room.” you say quietly. 

“The color of your room? Pink?” He questions. You nod your head, and it takes him a moment before he realizes what you’re trying to communicate. “You don’t like the pink babygirl?” He asks carefully.

You nod your head in confirmation but the admission only makes you feel worse, causing you to cry harder again. 

“I’m sorry,” you say woefully in between sobs. 

“Oh angel, no, no. You don’t need to be sorry about that,” You look up to meet his gaze as he wipes the tears from your wet face.

“Really?” You ask sensitively. 

“Of course not.” Bucky chimes in, reaching down to pick you up. He bounces you up as he places you around his hip. “Why didn’t you just tell us sooner, doll?” you shrug your shoulders, and mumble an ‘I dunno.’

“I’m so sorry we didn’t know before babygirl. That’s daddies job, we should have known. We’re the sorry one's little princess.” Steve reassures, caressing your cheek while still in Bucky’s arms.

You look back to Bucky, wanting to gauge if he was upset. However, he doesn’t look displeased as only concern laces his features as he looks at you. 

“You know, doll, I'm somewhat of a painter myself,” he says lightheartedly, causing a skeptical eyebrow raise from Steve. 

“Oh yeah, that so?” Steve jeers.

“Absolutely,” he defends. “After all, who do you think painted your room and did all that hard work in the first place?” he gestures his head towards Steve “not that guy” he teases, making you giggle, bringing a small smile to your face.

“You-you’re not upset I don’t like it?” you ask, still feeling bad since he did it all for you.

“Of course not Doll. What kind of Daddy would I be if I didn’t know your favorite color?” he explains, “now tell us, what colors do you want instead?” you ponder for a moment, thinking.

“Any color you want, angel. Nothing’s too much for our little girl.” Steve smiles at you.

[onwriting-hrarby]

hi hera, im rewriting this ask because my internet was slow and i dont know if it was sent thru 😭😭

im so in my feels i’ve been rereading a bit of IDNLUT, and its really so heartbreaking that mikasas dad had the shitty conscious to completely leave his family for another. it aches my heart to read whenever in mikasas pov the pain and insecurities she carried everytime she mentions or is reminded that her dad abandoned their little family for a white woman and their white child.

i feel really bad for mama sakura, the strength in the women under these situations is just insane. her husband didnt just leave her, he abandoned a whole ass child, his own daughter!!

in the fic mikasa is gradually reconciling with her father, and good for her and her peace but i dont know how she does it!! its so hard to wrap my head around characters like john, like hes playing God and just like nothing switching which woman and which child gets to be in the presence of his loving tender father/husband role. like its horrible, personally its unforgivable to me because the children in mikasa role are just left with so much trauma and thats so so unfair because why did their dad choose to hurt them and not the other.

(its so heartbreaking, i really want to hold IDNLUT baby mika)

i was wondering but only if you’re up for it 👉👈 would you be interested in writing a drabble or perhaps explaining a little more in detail:

1. john ackermans pov in the rawest honest form on why he had left his family for another. his desires, his selfishness and his regrets. (im trying to sympathise with him but its so hard 😅)

2. and if, whether he denies it or not, racism or racial preference had a role in his actions. (im asian, so i get it, theres an unfortunate beauty standard engraved in our minds and white women have that privilege)

(also when i think about it, IDNLUT john ackermans and RJ grisha somewhat plays the same role right?)

3. as a white man, does john ackerman acccctuallly understand mikasas insecurities and pain. especially racially, can he see mikasas perspective, does he get that mikasa sees her dad having a racial preference by leaving her asian mom and her for a white woman and her white child. (im just wondering if john actually evaluates the consequences of his actions, and that hes just not feeling bad and thats it lol (maybe i also just want to see the man in pain for the pain he caused his (our) favourite girl 🥺)

4. in this au, would mikasa ever fully lash out at her dad, like a full blownout confrontation or a full conversation where she lays eeeeverything, her hurt her pain her childhood trauma he caused her and her mother, i wonder if she demands answers and if hes able to give her them. (hehe would you ever write this as a drabble? but i would respect it if you dont want to!!)

i loooove this fic, thank you for sharing it with us. and sorry my ask is so long!!

Alright, dear anon, finally I have some time to delve into this. So, what can I say? I saw this ask first on Monday and it completely made my day. Not only to receive such a nice comment, but also from a reread and also from i did not live until today! I always worry my stories are not enough to make people want to reread (which is what I do with things i like a lot) so this anon made my heart flutter.

i'm so glad you pointed out to this flaw in mikasa's character. i got a lot of people who read the fic who didn't like how mikasa treated her dad and how her insecurities affected her life in general, and didn't like mikasa's character very much. i understand this happens because she's not an agreeable character, and we sometimes hate that she's so self-centered, especially towards sakura, because she only wants what's best for her. but people who grief are normally self-centered, so i wanted to delve into that and not make the protagonist be like a heroin. i'm so glad you feel for her and share her pov, really, justifice for mikasa!

you're right that grisha in RJ and john might be alike, but i think the difference in john is that he really fell in love with his new wife, and left the family because of love, and not so much because of prejudice. as you say, prejudice is very much there, although i don't think john is really aware of it—like an unconscious pull—and it's much more of something that mikasa projects. because i always tell everything from mikasa's pov, i play a lot with an unreliable narrator (not that "evident" though).

i don't think parents choose to hurt us purposefully. of course, it would be better for mikasa's health if the parents had stayed together under good circumstances, but when the circumstances are bad, or the love doesn't sweep through, believe me, it's better to divorce (both my boyfriend and me come from divorce parents, and our experience is very different, so i know both outcomes). in the end, growing up makes us realize that parents are their own people—they do not live to serve our wishes. they live to protect us, to make us grow, but we cannot submit them, i believe. when we are parents, we don't transform int just parents. we do not become different from what we were, we don't lose our personality or wishes. some wishes are not compatible with being parents, of course—but love is. and if someone doesn't find love in the parent they have around, we're people, and it's better to be a family if there is love and respect. at least that's what i thought and what i wanted to express!

okay, so onto your questions! i am going to drabble point 1, so let me go straight to the others (i don't know WHEN i'm going to write it, so please, bear with me, i'll upload it!)

2) whether he denies it or not, racism or racial preference had a role in his actions > as i said, i didn't plan john to be aware of it like grisha is. grisha does have inherent racism in it, and some of the decisions are very evident steeping from there. but john is not aware, even, that race might exist. i don't know if that makes sense. grisha would see sakura and see the race, while john doesn't really see it, but he still has a preference for the other because the other is "better". does it make sense? in that sense, john would be equivalent to Eren in RJ when he was a teenager (but without the violence that accompanies Eren). It's as if John had to pick between salad or soup, and he's been always told that salad is better. he doesn't really care about the difference between salad and soup, but he feels slightly pulled towards salad because of the discourse about salad and how good salad is. he also likes soup, but he can't say why he would prefer salad. i think a lot of racism nowadays is like this: people know racism is wrong, and they wouldn't care to be with someone from another race but they are still attracted to white people every time.

3) as a white man, does john ackerman actually understand mikasas insecurities and pain > he doesn't, no! also because a lot of issues from mikasa don't directly come from race, and the ones that do i feel like he might not really understand them because again he doesn't recognize his preference. but he knows that a lot of the issues that mikasa has are because of him leaving, and i remember that at some point they even talk it out! so he does feel guilty towards it.

4. in this au, would mikasa ever fully lash out at her dad, like a full blownout confrontation or a full conversation where she lays everything> oh, i will definitely drive it as a drabble! i will try to mix it with the 1st one. she definitely would. as i said, i think they touch the subject but i don't believe there's a full lash out! i picture mikasa after some years (before she goes to mitras with eren) talking it out with her dad, but calmly. i believe eren allows mikasa to open like a dam, so she knows how to express her feelings. mikasa's growth in IDNLUT i believe is about accepting the feelings and growing communication!

AGAIN i am so so so happy about your ask, and please do NOT hesitate to send me another one with your thoughts on this (if you have any) or if you were reading my work another way! i don't want to influence on your reading as an author, so do not fret if something wasn't as you were thinking: i love that everyone makes my work theirs!

[gaynarutodude]

Ahem I am also stan. I am gonna ask twice. You should just answer all the ones you haven't yet Game Boy.

Im so sorry,, I failed to recognize the holy trinity of mother-cocoon stans (cam if you see this, youre the virgin mary) I love you so much bby,, I hope this book youre making me write is penance

2. What work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?

-It was one from when I went to this summer camp on a military base,, I wrote it while suffering from heat exhaustion because Im pretty sure the counselors wanted us dead, and it was about a refugee—it was rife with spelling errors and bad grammar, but somehow it got published in the navy paper,, it was so bad that my baby teeth grew back in and my penis shrunk 5 sizes

3. What order do you write in? Front of book to back? Chronological? Favorite scenes first? Something else?

-When writing I go chronologically, but when coming up with story ideas I start with favorite scenes, then the ending, then the beginning, and I let the middle figure itself out

5. Character you were most surprised to end up writing

-Leia Organa from the Lost Hope au 

6. Something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late complicated to change now

-I don’t understand the question so probably this answer

7. When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

-Im really happy but reserved at the same time because I love my stories, I just dont like sounding like an ass because theyre all I really think about

12. Your weaknesses as an author

-I loooove repeating certain phrases because I adore how they sound, but Im so comfy using them over and over and over–Im also not good with giving physical descriptions

13. Your strengths as an author

-Finding ways to give characters beautifully tragic endings

14. Do you make playlists for your current wips?

-Im too poor to know what wips are

15. Why did you start writing?

-Out of spite because I was tired of seeing everyone else know how to read and write in kindergarten

16. Are there any characters who haunt you?

-Jioha (Funkocalypse) Erko (Avvantavya) Jarred Lake (All of the Lights) 

All of my villains spook me tbh

17. If you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

-make everyone gay

19. When it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, etc.?

-I have like 5 writing journals with bits of every story in each one,, I also have a decent memory when it comes to my babes

21. What do you think when you read over your older work?

-Usually hate it

22. Are there any subjects that make you uncomfortable to write?

-I don’t like writing anything explicitly sexual, it’s just not classy

23. Any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

-No sir

24. Have you ever become an expert on something you previously knew nothing about in order to better a scene or story?

-Yeah, Star Wars

25. Copy/Paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of

(From ‘Lost Hope’ Chapter Two)

-“Nothing to say, your Grace?” Tarkin toyed. “No words of inspiration? Where is your hope now? Where is your rebellion? You’ve lost,” looking down at her, he gave a slight nod, and the sound of a blaster shot burned in Leia’s ears.

The yelling stopped. The crying. Everything.

All that sounded was the soft thud of Breha’s body hitting the cold station floor, a thin trail of smoke rising from the hole in her chest.

“Hope,” Breha whispered, her eyes finding their way up to the window where Leia was watching. Leia couldn’t tell if her mother even saw her, if she felt her daughter’s presence at all, or even knew that Tarkin hadn’t taken everything. “… Is never lost.” Breha let out a slow breath of air, and the glow of her pulmonodes went dark.

[multi-purpose-tool-guy]

6, 8, 9! :3

6. favorite kylux au?: This is a very tough question bc I am SO WEAK for aus in general, but I can name a few ultimate faves!! Modern aus are my absolute jam, and I love when kylo is like a bouncer or a boxer or something all bad-boy-aesthetic and hux is a teacher! I just really enjoy seeing them with normal jobs being their terrible selves and falling in love how everyone else does XP I also loooove supernatural aus, specifically ghost/haunted house aus O.O 

8. Which do you like best: how they got together, established relationship, or bitter exes? If i see a fic tagged established relationship I will be on that like white on rice hoo boy, but I also love meet-cutes and seeing their relationship evolve from the start! I will say though that I really don’t enjoy the whole bitter exes thing, in any fandom :(

9. What’s something Kylo would only do in front of Hux? I dont know if this is ooc or not but I like to think that he doesn’t let himself like full-on cry in front of anyone but Hux. and dont get me wrong, he’s a crybaby, but most of the time when he loses control and breaks down in front of people its through anger (temper tantrums, destroying things in fits of rage) whereas he wouldn’t ever let himself break down in a hopeless, messy sadness in front of anyone, Hux included. But, I feel like once they get closer and understand each other a bit more, Kylo would feel comfortable sharing his pain with Hux and trusting that he understands, and doesn’t think he’s weak or pathetic or not strong enough. 

thank you for asking, and for making the meme in the first place!! :D

[hrrytomlinson]

i looooved when you look like that and loving with a little twist but i dont read wips (i have a bad memory and cant follow along sdkjfhal) so im v v v excited for you to finish this soulmate au i can tell its gonna be good !!!!

i’m so happy you’re a fan of my fics!! thank you for reading along with my funny little stories :’) i understand that you don’t read WIPs bc i don’t either (only under special circumstances lol) but i hope you read it when it’s finally all up! at the latest it’ll be posted in full by May 12th!