#i live to make yall suffer

[aatom87]

w/e I'll just post my cringe half foot fc's plus a few other misc. half foots I scribbled a while ago.

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

today just will not let me rest huh. reasons are in the tags but i get very emotional just be warned

[incorrect-jojolands-quotes]

Prior to Usagi's backstory where he mentioned his father's death and his mother and him living on the life insurance payout, I had a different headcanon for his backstory that explained why Meryl Mei insists he's a good kid despite constantly buying drugs from the gang and being an oddball.

Usagi is the oldest of many siblings ranging from those just a few years younger than him to toddlers. The Alohaoes have lived below the poverty line for generations and the family were no strangers to losing their members to gang life, drug addiction, crippling debt, or a combination of the three. Some of those members, like Usagi's parents, try to make an honest living as working class folks, but both end up working long hours to barely get by and government assistance can only go so far.

As the oldest sibling, Usagi ended up being de-facto man of the house, making sure his siblings get to school on time, attend their games and doctor's appointments, tucking them in at the end of the day, staying up when one or five get sick. Usagi's parents do love him, but there's that underlying obligation and guilt Usagi feels if he doesn't step up to help the family in any way, and his parents can only do so much after being out of the house for so long and splitting time between their kids for quality time.

Usagi knows his parents are working multiple dead-end jobs, unable to be promoted or change to better careers due to lack of education and opportunities, and they end up coming home late at night to be taken care of by him before doing it all over again the next day. While balancing his own studies and trying to go through the day of caring for his family and house, Usagi ends up being addicted to hard drugs out of necessity rather than pleasure. Coffee and nicotine patches can only keep you up and alert for so long, and sometimes there are days where sleep is not an option; the longest he's stayed up is 31.5 hours straight followed by crashing for 5 hours and waking up to resume his schedule as if nothing happened. Sometimes, the drugs suppress his appetite, which allows him to go long without eating in case he doesn't get a chance to sit down.

The worst part and another reason for him being addicted to drugs is the fact that he's a natural genius.

Upon realizing how intelligent and inquisitive their son is, his parents are also banking on him to be the first of the Alohaoes to graduate high school and go to college without a criminal record or other issues. If Usagi gets a well-paying degree and job, the Alohaoes can breathe easier in terms of finance and Usagi can become an example for future generations to eventually get the Alohaoes out of the poverty cycle. So, not only is Usagi taking care of his siblings but he ends up overseeing the household such as taxes and bills, talking to authorities to prevent them from escalating situations near his home, filling out forms for welfare and arguing with health insurance companies at a very young age. His family unconciously expect him to be able to do anything because of his intelligence and they're hoping his grades would allow him to receive free scholarships among other things.

Like many who experienced living below the poverty line, the idea of mental health and attempts to ease this load while the system is intentionally working against you is met with "just deal with it" instead. Finding someone to vent to or provide help is difficult and could cause more harm than good if someome takes things out of context. Someone called CPS on them once because Usagi made an offhand remark on how tired he was; Usagi had to stop the case from escalating in fear that his siblings would be separated "because he made a stupid mistake" and feels guilty for what he did despite being honest at the time.

The drugs Usagi takes doesn't only keep him up but also hide who he really is. While he appears jovial, irresponsible, and amicable on drugs, he's the complete opposite when sober. I imagine him to be like Fugo: cynical, bitter, easy to anger but unable to express it. The bodysuit he wears is intentionally fitted not only to minimize issues caused by skin irritation and bug bites (seeing how he has that in his backpack) but it also doubles as a calming compression suit to ease his bottled emotions. It could be hiding other things but who knows. He's good at hiding things... too good.

Usagi doesn't want to lash out on his loved ones nor show what he's going through. He keeps himself high to maintain his fake persona and remain likeable, but it would only be so long before he breaks and shows who he really is.

Anyways, what do y'all think?

[clowningaroundmars]

i'm watching finance youtubers and their interviews with ppl who are struggling with debt

and like literally every single one of these ppl are making p good money and they have cars and stuff but... then every single one of them are drowning in debt bc they order so much food on doordash and ubereats and spend it on dumb shit all the time???

like... you have a car??? wtf are you spending over 500 bucks a month paying that car note for if you're not gonna use it to avoid doordash and ubereats fees?!

[royaltea000]

Man I don’t wanna go back to school… or2

[hozaloza]

me when the hiatus gets extended and I have to wait another 2 weeks to see my lovelies again

my poor ryan

give me my stinky

is okay! I can wait <3 I had to endure the year long hiatus as well, this is nothing 🤗🤗💖💖

anyways

me bc fanfics

I should totally make angst of the sbg gang--

OH YEAH THE POLL-

AHAHAHHAHAH

I WILL SEE WHO GOT PICKED, AND MAKE ANGST ON THEM

(That character gets no mercy)

[that-catholic-shinobi]

Oh boy, Ms Winchester is burning on the ceiling

[nururu]

I don't understand why there's such a pressure on representing your gender identity outwardly when it's literally so fucking dangerous. If you're brave enough good for you. If you have enough mental strength, good for you. But y'all need to stop taking that and using it as an example of how trans ppl should present themselves and then making them feel less than and invalid when they don't do it your way. It takes a lot of strength and a lot of bravery and a lot of mental strength, to be able to do that. Like an astronomical amount. Expecting everyone to have that ability is weird. And I know, logically, people don't expect that. When you actually sit down and have a nuanced conversation, everyone understands this.. but the way trans ppl who don't pass or don't outwardly represent a binary gender on their bodies, get invalidated and treated like they're not good enough bc they're not as brave as you,is ridiculous. It needs to stop.

[trashgoblincreature]

not me giving anxiety tartar and orca this really cute long lost sibling dynamic in a fic because i need to see them both happy for once

[4sidedtrianglz]

Hunger games was a great book to have read when I was a pre teen but it is also such a fucking annoying book to have to see meta-analysis abt on tumblr and tiktok a decade later

[ronithesnail]

People really be like “uwu look at these quirky trans people born in the wrong bodies owo what a quirky lifestyle lol” like no bitch im in so much pain rn that i cant fucking get out of bed and my spine is so fucked up from slouching in order to cope with the dysphoria and ive been binding so much that its causing severe chest and stomach pains and I STILL KEEP DOING IT BECAUSE ITS GENUINELY BETTER THAN THE ALTERNATIVE

“Being born in the wrong body” is a fucking dehibilitating condition and i desperately need medical treatment for it.

[beatbawksradio]

slán

[autotheophagic]

if anyone ever and i mean EVER. says "delulu" in my presence again. i will actually get violent

[rockandrolldisgrace]

yeah but i really got fucked over by the people i told this abt loll

[snekdood]

God guys yknow. I just never ever noticed that my dogs coat makes them hot in the summer !!!

[epicthemusicalstuff]

My Thoughts on the Thunder Saga

I’m going to go in order of the songs, but oh my gosh, these songs were something else. I knew it was going to get dark, but this was so fast-

Suffering: JORGE LITERALLY SHARED A CLIP OF THIS AND LET US THINK IT WAS A CUT SONG? At this point in the saga I was confused, thought either I or Odysseus was hallucinating an alternate timeline. We weren’t, it was sirens, which brings us to my second point HE TOLD US THERE WERE NO SIRENS?! Which maybe he could have meant no sirens like they appear in the Odyssey, but rather twisted them to fit his own story? But still. Sad that there was no real Penelope, but I’ll keep waiting.

Different Beast: Holy Smokes. I knew he would become the monster, but I didn’t expect like that?!?! The tone shift?!?! The rawness?!?

Scylla: Probably my favorite song from the saga, it’s was beautiful, it was haunting, “you know that we are the same”. EURYLOCUS. He’s a huge hypocrite, like, I get that Poseidon was already mad at yall, but due to his actions one could argue that’s how men died. Sure Odysseus is also at fault, BUT ITS PARTICALLY HIS FAULT TOO. Lighting the torches to intentionally sacrifice six men?!?! I thought that like the Odyssey the six men would be random, BUT NOPE.

Mutiny: THEY STABBED HIM. “You miss your wife so bad you’d trade the lives of your own crew” now this children is what we call a self fulfilling prophecy. Eurylochus thinks Odysseus will sacrifice them all to get home. Maybe he will, maybe he won’t. But through his actions he has brought that upon himself, because if he wasn’t going to before, stabbing Odysseus and killing the cows definitely brought it around. HELIOS’ COWS. DUDE. Luck runs out reprise. I’m not normal guys.

Thunder Bringer: A while back I predicted this would be one of my least favorite songs, purely because I don’t like Zeus as a character, but I am taking that back. I still might not like Zeus, but, OH MY GOSH. HE MADE HIM CHOOSE. ODYSSEUS ACTUALLY HAD TO CHOOSE. AHHHHH. He fights for Penelope. We’ve known this since the start. And now he must make another decision to see her-

Overall, 10/10, love this saga, but it is definitely heavier/darker than the ones in the past. Will definitely be going feral over these for the foreseeable future.