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today just will not let me rest huh. reasons are in the tags but i get very emotional just be warned
#hush n shush wifi#just a tad sad#actually more like angry as shit#okay let me TELL YALL about my day#first: the annoying#i was going shopping at a grocery warehouse and you know how those parking lots are always super crowded?#well it was. there were no parking spots and there were so many cars and people trying to go everywhere#i scraped my wheels too which is fine but one of my relatives who likes cars acts like it's a sin#so that shook me up enough that i didn't go outside for the rest of the day#and THEN#OHHHH AND FUCKING THEN.#if anyone remembers the absolute ass of a person from last year who i thought was my friend but said horrible things to me out of the blue#WELL THEY CAME BACK#i never got a chance to block them initially because they blocked me first#BUT I GOT FUCKING MESSAGES FROM THEM TONIGHT#AND ALL THEY WERE SAYING WAS ESSENTIALLY THAT THEY MEANT WHAT THEY SAID#they said some bullshit about the execution being wrong and that their ex wrote it for them#which by the way is just scummy on its own#and that they get mad emotionally which is a horrible excuse#and had the AUDACITY TO ASK IF I HAD ANY QUESTIONS#IN WHAT DELUDED SELF CENTERED WORLD DO YOU HAVE TO LIVE IN TO THINK I WOULD EVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN#my trust is a VERY VERY FRAGILE THING#AND THIS IS A VERY LARGE CONTRIBUTOR TO IT#this isn't an apology. they regret none of it#this is a way for them to make themself feel better#the scariest part is that this person by now is almost/IS an adult#which is terrifying if that means there are more people like that out there#i try not to wish ill will but i genuinely hope no one ever has to suffer through being their 'friend' ever again#anyways they're blocked on all of my platforms now.#if the person is somehow reading this. hi! never talk to me again. you're a horrible human being with no consideration for other's feelings
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when ppl are like "do u know ppl of x minority that ur still in contact with" as a gotcha ig to say ur not actually as open and progressive as you say you are but bud... i dont talk to anyone from my past, lmao, I dont think thats a fair metric to go by quite frankly
#no i dont talk to that person anymore. just like i dont talk to any of the privileged ppl i knew anymore either lmao#i kinda cut everyone off bc apparently ppl in my state just have a hard on for being judgemental assholes all the time and im tired of it#i thought maybe it was me but i hear from ppl who arent from here all the time that ppl are way more weird and cliquey here#and its hard to make friends so. i feel less bad now lmao.#i thought i was crazy but no im seeing reality perfectly clearly. ppl just are super cliquey here for no reason#and anyone who strays from the status quo in any capacity must be Shunned and Condemned for being Wiyuurrd#the more right leaning types dont try to hide it. but the progressive try to cloak their disgust and uncomfortability with people#being different with a bunch of excuses. literally making shit up about me to justify hating me so they can still feel progressive#while hating and making fun of me in an explicitly rw way#like. acting like kiwifarms people out here being fucking strategic n shit pretending to like me so they can make fun of me type shit like#you look like a nazi dawg lmao.#you make me feel like hanging out with my brothers friends- who definitely leaned a bit to the right- is more ideal bc at least they're#fucking out in the open and honest about making fun of me bc they think im weird. yall are too cowardly to just own up to it.#'n-no i swear its because he did [thing i either did but it didnt go down the way they said or something they made up]! i swear im not#just making shit up just to make fun of him !!!!!!! i promie!!!!'#i literally cut off all my hair bc of taking 'lsd' from those same brothers friends bc i went fucking crazy basically (trying to emphasize#how low the bar is that id rather hang out with these dudes than the more left leaning ppl i knew) and people assumed i did it bc some girl#who had or died of cancer that i never even fucking heard before??? like idk. ig they thought i was trying to be insulting or smthn????#i didnt even know who this chick was and it was my first time hearing about her when ppl told me someone spread that rumor.#bitch i was sitting in my bathroom for hours having weird discussions in myself and basically fighting between my real self#and what felt like an external force of all the judgements ppl have made about me manifest into one being (zero) trying to convince me#i couldnt be me and i felt like he possessed me to cut off all my hair and i heard him say 'THIS ISNT YOUR REAL HAIR!!!'#since it was dyed at the time and i was embracing being trans and embracing being my true self but something about that 'trip'#fucked me up and detrans and it had a lot to do w another trip i had w those same brothers friends making me feel inadequate.#i dont know who da fuck you were talking about bitch im living in a nightmare over here can we talk about that instead of whatever tf#you're going on about and making up to justify hating me and ignoring my suffering?
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Prior to Usagi's backstory where he mentioned his father's death and his mother and him living on the life insurance payout, I had a different headcanon for his backstory that explained why Meryl Mei insists he's a good kid despite constantly buying drugs from the gang and being an oddball.
Usagi is the oldest of many siblings ranging from those just a few years younger than him to toddlers. The Alohaoes have lived below the poverty line for generations and the family were no strangers to losing their members to gang life, drug addiction, crippling debt, or a combination of the three. Some of those members, like Usagi's parents, try to make an honest living as working class folks, but both end up working long hours to barely get by and government assistance can only go so far.
As the oldest sibling, Usagi ended up being de-facto man of the house, making sure his siblings get to school on time, attend their games and doctor's appointments, tucking them in at the end of the day, staying up when one or five get sick. Usagi's parents do love him, but there's that underlying obligation and guilt Usagi feels if he doesn't step up to help the family in any way, and his parents can only do so much after being out of the house for so long and splitting time between their kids for quality time.
Usagi knows his parents are working multiple dead-end jobs, unable to be promoted or change to better careers due to lack of education and opportunities, and they end up coming home late at night to be taken care of by him before doing it all over again the next day. While balancing his own studies and trying to go through the day of caring for his family and house, Usagi ends up being addicted to hard drugs out of necessity rather than pleasure. Coffee and nicotine patches can only keep you up and alert for so long, and sometimes there are days where sleep is not an option; the longest he's stayed up is 31.5 hours straight followed by crashing for 5 hours and waking up to resume his schedule as if nothing happened. Sometimes, the drugs suppress his appetite, which allows him to go long without eating in case he doesn't get a chance to sit down.
The worst part and another reason for him being addicted to drugs is the fact that he's a natural genius.
Upon realizing how intelligent and inquisitive their son is, his parents are also banking on him to be the first of the Alohaoes to graduate high school and go to college without a criminal record or other issues. If Usagi gets a well-paying degree and job, the Alohaoes can breathe easier in terms of finance and Usagi can become an example for future generations to eventually get the Alohaoes out of the poverty cycle. So, not only is Usagi taking care of his siblings but he ends up overseeing the household such as taxes and bills, talking to authorities to prevent them from escalating situations near his home, filling out forms for welfare and arguing with health insurance companies at a very young age. His family unconciously expect him to be able to do anything because of his intelligence and they're hoping his grades would allow him to receive free scholarships among other things.
Like many who experienced living below the poverty line, the idea of mental health and attempts to ease this load while the system is intentionally working against you is met with "just deal with it" instead. Finding someone to vent to or provide help is difficult and could cause more harm than good if someome takes things out of context. Someone called CPS on them once because Usagi made an offhand remark on how tired he was; Usagi had to stop the case from escalating in fear that his siblings would be separated "because he made a stupid mistake" and feels guilty for what he did despite being honest at the time.
The drugs Usagi takes doesn't only keep him up but also hide who he really is. While he appears jovial, irresponsible, and amicable on drugs, he's the complete opposite when sober. I imagine him to be like Fugo: cynical, bitter, easy to anger but unable to express it. The bodysuit he wears is intentionally fitted not only to minimize issues caused by skin irritation and bug bites (seeing how he has that in his backpack) but it also doubles as a calming compression suit to ease his bottled emotions. It could be hiding other things but who knows. He's good at hiding things... too good.
Usagi doesn't want to lash out on his loved ones nor show what he's going through. He keeps himself high to maintain his fake persona and remain likeable, but it would only be so long before he breaks and shows who he really is.
Anyways, what do y'all think?
#the jojolands#jjba#jojo part 9#jojos bizarre adventure#jjba part 9#jojolands#jjba jojolands#jojolands headcanons#jojo headcanons#usagi alohaoe#i love making my favorite characters suffer#first we got paco's backstory and now here's my take on usagi's#poor baby needs a hug#this is kind of inspired by my mom bc she is the oldest sibling of many and ended up being defacto parent bc of the living situation#long story short granddad was in prison and grandma had to work to earn money and ofc its hard when youre a woman with many kids back then#but anyways this is my take on usagi's backstory#i'm just imagining how usagi finally reveals his true self and how the gang would react#older sibling syndrome yall
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Man I donât wanna go back to school⌠or2
#the most juvenile thing I can say as a 24 year old bruh being in college for this long is EMBARRASSING đ#itâs okay. this is my last semester I can do it.#but I will be complaining the whole time a bitch cannot suffer in silence#itâs once a month art post for us again yall#Iâm in middle school actually#saying I have to go back to school makes me feel like Iâm fucking 12 lmao#or2#oughhhhâŚ#pray for me#grad class this year o(-(#saw some grad class kids last semester and they practically just live in the print rooms#thatâs gonna be me
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me when the hiatus gets extended and I have to wait another 2 weeks to see my lovelies again
my poor ryan
give me my stinky
is okay! I can wait <3 I had to endure the year long hiatus as well, this is nothing đ¤đ¤đđ
anyways
me bc fanfics
I should totally make angst of the sbg gang--
OH YEAH THE POLL-
AHAHAHHAHAH
I WILL SEE WHO GOT PICKED, AND MAKE ANGST ON THEM
(That character gets no mercy)
#school bus graveyard#webtoon#origami cranes#ryan sbg#silly#i will make yall suffer#trust#promise#love you guys#love#live#lugh#ahsuf#sap#oak#tree#yum#cinder block#phantom#haha#:D
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Oh boy, Ms Winchester is burning on the ceiling
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I don't understand why there's such a pressure on representing your gender identity outwardly when it's literally so fucking dangerous. If you're brave enough good for you. If you have enough mental strength, good for you. But y'all need to stop taking that and using it as an example of how trans ppl should present themselves and then making them feel less than and invalid when they don't do it your way. It takes a lot of strength and a lot of bravery and a lot of mental strength, to be able to do that. Like an astronomical amount. Expecting everyone to have that ability is weird. And I know, logically, people don't expect that. When you actually sit down and have a nuanced conversation, everyone understands this.. but the way trans ppl who don't pass or don't outwardly represent a binary gender on their bodies, get invalidated and treated like they're not good enough bc they're not as brave as you,is ridiculous. It needs to stop.
#people are superficial and self absorbed#yes trans ppl too#and when a trans person like that transitions or outwardly expresses themselves and even moreso when they âpassâ#they DO (not always) make it a point to invalidate you or leave you out of the conversation#if youre not able to express yourself as well as they are#ppl put others down in order to make themselves feel valid#thats gotta stop#ive been irl friends with 4 trans guys#all who outwardly transitioned and are expressive and open about it#all 4 of those trans guys have excluded me from my identity#misgendered me relentlessly#i keep having to reiterate that im a man bc ppl see long hair and and âfemâ clothing#and imply that im not a man bc of it#yall are obsessed with cis normativity#youre obsessed with the gender binary#youre obsessed with pink meaning girl and blue meaning boy#you have not done the work to unlearn that ignorance at all#stop making ppl suffer bc youre insecure and ignorant#anyways its easier for me to look the way ive always looked and to be hidden. im used to living that life. i can cope with this saddness and#distress ive had since i was 4.im used to it... i cannot cope with more pain and distress added on by making myself an open target for hate#trans ppl arent martyrs and we should stop forcing ppl who arent comfortable and dont feel safe from the public and themselves#to be martyrs
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not me giving anxiety tartar and orca this really cute long lost sibling dynamic in a fic because i need to see them both happy for once
#splatoon#commander tartar#o.r.c.a.#yall dont understand i need this-#just let them be at peace for once in their eternal lives please#also me planning to make them suffer in like 1 or 2 chapters tops-
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if anyone ever and i mean EVER. says "delulu" in my presence again. i will actually get violent
#I'm seeing the impact of ppl watering down psychological/medical terms and im so angry abt it#'didn't know i had to be delusion to say delulu. yall gatekeep the weirdest things'#'that's not delulu that's psychosis'#get the fuck off social media and learn how to ve respectful of other human beings for once in ur miserable little lives#stop making shit into trendy jokes just to shit on ppl who suffer from what ur making fun of#i hate society all the time and rn i REALLY hate humanity#cassi rambles
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yeah but i really got fucked over by the people i told this abt loll
#some of yall might remember my vent posts and stuff and yeah this situation didnt end well for me#i could talk abt this for hours honestly this is so messed up#yknow ive been thinking how i never really tell my friends what i go through at home anymore bc i began to doubt myself#even tho i KNOW it all happened. They did abuse me. Still do. But some part of me thinks#that i just made this up or that it wasnt actually that bad. even though it was. it was so much fucking worse. and having to go through it#again and again and again. i have no words. sometimes my mind just goes blank bc i dont want to think abt this stuff. i just want it to be#over.#some part of me thinks that if i tell somebody im ruining my abusers lives. even though theyre the one ruining mine. nothing can harm them.#especially my words. they will never face consequences bc the system doesnt work. and i dont want to ruin their life.#i just want it to be over.#i just want to go on and live my life and leave this all behind and start anew.#im an awful person. i have younger siblings and this was the only reason i decided to go through with telling someone at school abt this. bc#i didnt want them to suffer like me. i knew what their mindless actions did to me. and to see my siblings go through that.#but my sister absolutely hates me for telling the school#she says shes ashamed to go there bc people know#she thinks i made it up for attention even though she literallywas there when they beat me. she was fucking there lmfao#im sorry if this is too much but i need to get this somewhere out. writing it down is not enough and i cant tell this at anyone#kill međ the only thing keeping me alive is dreaming. very corny i know. but fantasizing abt my far away future is the only thing making me#go on. thinking abt my life after this ends. but sometimes its not enough and i just spend all my time watching stuff or reading or whatever#just watching stuff abt lives totally different from my own. that helps me focus on something else for a while. sighhhhhh
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God guys yknow. I just never ever noticed that my dogs coat makes them hot in the summer !!!
#totally just. a new thing for me#surely its not that i just didnt know what to do about it short of brining them inside as quickly as possible or spraying them w a hose#no !!! its because im just really really dumb and dont realize i live in a PRAIRIE. and just like. have 0 capacity to put my feet in the#shoes of others to see that theyre hot.#nevermind that a lot of my ancestry is literally northern european. nevermind that i also get hot as hell when im outside too long#NEVERMIND THAT I KEEP MY APARTMENT IN THE 67-70 RANGE#naw im just really really stupid and never ever noticed how much my dog pants and drinks water after coming inside.#i just like. toootally never connected those dots đ¤Ş#anyways this is what im talking about when i say yall are disingenuous as all entire fuck.#not the two ppl whomst i already follow who avtually gave me solutions. but the rest of yall in the tags who seem to think im just trying#to come up with excuses to make my dog suffer. literally what in the entire fuck is wrong with some of yall.#genuinely dig yourself into a deep hole and never come out#and yes ! if you're reading this and grumbling about how im not doing enough ! yes i do infact CONSTANTLY try to remove her winter coat!#she hated when i do it! but i do it anyways! BECAUSE IM SMART ENOUGH TO RECOGNIZE THAT ALL THE LAYERS MAKE HER HOT#please ! fuck off and eat shit !
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letâs go into detail about whatâs going on with thomas sanders and brei grace, because i refuse to let him and the community sweep this under the rug:
thomas severely underpaid brei grace for her work on roleslaying with roman
thomas then laid brei off after creating a work environment that was bad enough to make her not want to return
thomas made a post âannouncingâ that rswr would be on âan indefinite hiatusâ. but it was only available on his patreon (im not a patron so i canât link the post or show a screenshot, but if i find a screenshot i will edit it into this post)
to amend the above point: i had seen many people saying there was a patreon post that touched on the subject of brei being laid off and rswr taking a hiatus, but in actuality, according to a patron, thomas mentioned the matter in a patreon livestream, not a full blown post. i apologize for the misinformation
just days later, thomas makes a tweet about his merch sale, and most (if not ALL) his current merch was designed by brei, who will not see a penny in royalties, and this is apparently a regular thing with thomas
finally, an entire week after the patreon âannouncementâ and brei being laid off, thomas says this on the youtube community page (among other things, but this is what im focusing on):
and brei has to clarify that she was laid off
i want to point out the phrase âbrei is currently not part of our teamâ and how thomas fails to acknowledge that HE is responsible for that. HE laid her off. and like a cowardly snake, heâs hiding behind vague corporate speak because he doesnât want to admit the truth
unfortunately for him, the truth is out there
i know i sound really serious and dramatic and yall are probably not even taking me seriously and you have your pitchforks at the ready, but guess what? i couldnât care less. i mean this IS serious, which is why im taking it seriously. but at the end of the day im just informing the community of what i know. what you do with that information is up to you
im not âcancellingâ thomas, or trying to start a witch hunt, im just so sick of everyone pretending thomas is a perfect harmless little angel who can do no wrong. cos guess what? he HAS done wrong. heâs done wrong by brei. but everyone is so busy sucking up to him that they donât seem to care that brei is suffering because of him
and this isnât the first time heâs done wrong by an artist, either (letâs never forget the mad libs incident)
to summarize: thomas doesnât make it a habit of properly compensating the artists he hires, he makes their experiences a living hell, and then he lies through his teeth about it
like i said, do with this information what you will, but i donât know how thomas sleeps at night
(oh, and if you plan on harassing me over this post, im literally just gonna block you lmao donât waste your energy)
hope everyone has a nice weekend (except for thomas tbh)
#im main tagging this because it NEEDS to be seen#thomas sanders#sanders sides#roleslaying with roman#ts crit#ts critical#ts criticism
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errrrâŚâŚ. heyâŚ
uhhh this is awkward hey what do we do when weâre grieving? write ab arranged marriages slayyyyyy errrr yeah hereâs that see yall next month or year or whatever
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âI want a divorce.â
Your tone doesnât waver nor break, voice engulfed in plainness.
It was one of the issues Ellieâs had since your marriage: an act to combine assets initiated by your parents. They never intended to have a daughter â you told Ellie the night of your honeymoon â but when your mother laid eyes on you, warming you with the skin of her chest for the first time, she painted your entire future in her mind. An object. The finest to be drenched and drowned in riches and diamonds, only living under multi-million dollar homes owned by your husbandâs family name. Just as long as you played your role. A silent, unopinionated, docile baby-making machine.
Your parents nearly had a heart attack when they found one of your diaries filled with pictures of naked women, either hand drawn or torn from pages of your fatherâs filthy magazines. Your mother told you she shouldâve aborted you, just when you thought youâd finally have a normal birthday party. The heavy breaths of your sobs extinguished the flame above your 18th candle.
But youâre 22 now; fabulously wealthy, married andâŚ
Staring at your wife⌠plainly, even though the flames in your eyes rages war. The dining table is a battleground and a red dot punctures right through Ellieâs forehead. Sheâs not sure what you are.
Your marriage was not ideal. Not only was it forced and filled with shame, but Ellie grew resentful rather quickly. Towards the man that brought her into such a shrouded lifestyle, towards the heavens above for cursing her with life, but when she couldnât attack, she brought it to your bedroom. You suffered, sheâll admit. It only took two weeks into your marriage for her to find an escape through other unassuming women while you laid in your shared bed with a tear-soaked pillow. You never knew when sheâd come home, but when she did, she never failed to berate you. It carried on for months, the blame; blaming you for everything thatâs happened to her thus far, despite her knowing that youâre a victim just as much as she is. You were her only emotional outlet. Or punching bag.
But despite every torment she threw your way, you never failed to smile at her the next morning with her coffee in your hands.
You always remained silent. Until now.
The delicious meal you prepared has soured on her tongue. All she can do is stare at you in disbelief.
She takes in the polite fold of your hands, 16 carat, rose gold, wedding band still on your ring finger. Her eyes rush over the plumpness of your lips, the delicate curve of your nose, the rise and fall of your chest⌠the way your breasts expand in your flowery dress with each breath.
Ellie swallows, nearly choking at the sudden dryness in her throat.
â⌠What?â
âI want a divorce.â
Your tone raises. Not aggressively; that wouldnât fit you. You wanted her to hear you.
She huffs despite the burning tips of her ears. âIâm sure.â She mocks with a smirk.
Your eyes squint. âIâm not joking.â
âYou know who else wasnât?â She leans across the table, pinning you with her gaze, âOur parents. They donât give a fuck about what we do and donât want. Weâre lucky they put us together.â
âIâŚâ
Ellie flinches when your voice cracks to a whisper. Never once has the shell you mask yourself in cracked. Not once. Not in front of Ellie, your parents, her family, even strangers. Youâve never failed to put on a dazzling smile for the spectators.
âI want to be in love.â Tears free fall from your eyes and your chin trembles, âThereâs no⌠I donât have anyone. I never did.â
âI thought we could⌠at least be friends. I know you didnât want this, I know â b-but⌠I canât keep doing this. I feel like Iâm dyingââ
Ellie knows youâre talking about her, and guilt swallows her whole. Itâs a shame, really; youâre gorgeous when you cry. Whyâs her heart pounding this madly?
âI want someone to treat me like I-Iâm alive, no one sees me, I d â donât feel real ââ
Ellie stands when your often assembled appearance begins to crumble. Sheâs never seen you so shattered, gasping for air like itâs limited. She recognizes this. Youâre breaking, just like she did the night before she signed her life over to your family.
âHeyââ
Your seat goes flying back when your heeled feet plant on the marble floor, manicured nails clutching at the skin of your chest raw. She rushes over when your sobs crack, desperately trying to get air in your lungs with pleading and fearful eyes.
âHey, hey, look at me, câmonââ
Your fists pound against her chest in between wails, makeup streaking down your face, clumping your fluttery lashes. She calls out to you with hands on your soaked cheeks, tells you to count, to spell your name for her, but you canât hear. You canât function. Have you ever been this close?
Ellie curses before her hand flies into the jug filled with sphered ice cubes, shoving them into the side of your neck. They melt instantly from the heat of your skin, but you gasp and flinch from the cold.
âYeah, feel that? Feels nice? Focus on that.â
Her hand delves into the jug until your jerky breaths calm into spluttered exhales. Sheâs sure sheâs frost bitten.
Youâre quiet again. Docile again. Anxious. Embarrassed. Heartbroken. And so fucking angry. Ellieâs getting whiplash looking into your eyes. Theyâre speckled with gold and⌠something foreign. She canât place it. The hand on your cheek swiftly falls to her side.
âYouââ she clears her throat when you wobble, vibrating form pushing up against her, nose almost brushing hers, âYou alright?â
But you say nothing, eyes distant. You simply step out of your heels with tightly clenched fists and jostled hair before walking towards the staircase.
âIâm very tired.â You say plainly over your shoulder before trekking up the steps. She watches cautiously until a door slams shut. She, after minutes of gawking at the staircase, takes in the scenery around her. Everything is where it should be⌠minus your plate is cold and untouched. But your wine glass is empty. She's not sure where the bottle is. Since when do you drink?
Her mind is unsettled and thereâs a stutter in her chest. Your home is silent. A heaviness that weighs her down.
She assumed that the uncomfortable twist in her gut was from her own wrongdoings since your marriage.
Not at all.
Ellieâs concerned. Thereâs something off about you.
More off than usual.
#ellie williams concept#ellie williams au#ellie williams angst#ellie williams x female reader#ellie williams blurb#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams#ellie x fem reader#lesbian#arrangedmarriage!au
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REBEL GIRL
Chapter 4: Ugh! As If!
rockstar!sevika x influencer!reader
summary: reader has to suffer the consequences of her actions.
mentions: modern au, fame au, drama, swearing, mommy caitlyn, groping, kissing, neck biting and kissing, drunk truth or dare.
notes : drafts somehow deletedâŚand I didnât back it up so im writing off of hopes and dreams. love yall đŤľâ¤ď¸đ¸
chapters : one, two, three, four, five, six
The morning sunlight filtered through the curtains, casting a warm glow over the room as you made your way to the bathroom for a much-needed shower. The hot water cascaded down your body, soothing the lingering tension from the previous nightâs chaos. You hummed softly to yourself, allowing the steam and the scent of your vanilla body wash to envelop you.
As you rinsed off, faint noises from the room outside caught your attention. You figured it was Caitlyn moving around, likely getting ready for her own day. Brushing it off, you continued to enjoy the quiet moment of solitude.
After about half an hour, you stepped out of the bathroom feeling refreshed, your skin soft and glistening from the lotion youâd applied. A fluffy towel was wrapped securely around you as you walked back into the room, ready to pick out an outfit for the day.
Your peace was short-lived when you noticed someone sitting on your side of the bed. It wasnât Caitlyn.
âOhâŚitâs you,â you said flatly, your tone dripping with irritation as you recognized Sevika lounging on the mattress like she owned it.
She smirked, leaning back slightly, her arms crossed as she watched you. âGood morning to you, too.â
Ignoring her, you made your way to the closet, pulling out your luggage to sift through your clothes. You crouched carefully, mindful of the towel wrapped around you. You knew Sevika was probably watching, and you werenât about to give her any kind of show.
When you finally found something to wear, you stood up and placed the outfit on the bed. Turning, you noticed Sevikaâs eyes still fixed on you, her gaze unrelenting.
âWhat the fuck do you want?â you snapped, annoyance clear in your voice.
Sevika let out a dramatic sigh, shifting to make herself more comfortable on your side of the bed. âAn apology,â she said simply, her tone laced with mock seriousness. âMy phoneâs been blowing up all morning because of you. Maybe a littleâŚgesture of goodwill would help. Head sounds like a great place to start.â
You glared at her, utterly unamused. âUgh, as if!â you shot back. âAnd honestly, you should be happy youâre getting so much recognition. Free publicity.â
Sevika raised an eyebrow, clearly unimpressed.
Rolling your eyes, you huffed. âFine. How about this? Iâll buy you food as an apology, and Iâll take care of debunking everything. Happy now?â
She regarded you with a skeptical expression, her eyebrow arching even higher. âFood? It better be something expensive. Iâm sure a girl with a four-million-dollar net worth can figure that out.â
You froze, staring at her in disbelief. âOh my gosh! You stalkerâŚwhat the fuck? Youâve been looking me up?â
Sevika smirked, standing and stretching as she made her way toward the door. âYeah. And your dating history, too. Youâve got pretty good taste. Might text one of them later.â
Your jaw dropped. âYouâ!â
Before you could finish, she opened the door and stepped out, narrowly dodging the pillow you hurled at her.
Her laughter echoed in the hallway as you stood there fuming, shaking your head. âUnbelievable,â you muttered under your breath, already regretting offering to buy her anything.
But as much as she got under your skin, you couldnât ignore the faint smile tugging at the corner of your lips. Something about Sevikaâs audacity was maddeningly entertaining, even if youâd never admit it.
After pulling on your outfit and styling your hair into something effortlessly simple, you grabbed your phone and sat down on the edge of the bed. The articles and posts about you and Sevika were still fresh in your mind, and you knew your manager was probably seconds away from blowing a gasket if you didnât address the rumors.
You needed a tweet that was professional enough to appease your manager but also blunt enough to shut everyone else up. It took you a moment to think before your fingers began typing.
âMe and Sevika are just friends. If Iâm in a relationship, I wouldâve already confirmed it by now. Get off my dick and leave my friends alone.â
You reread it once, nodded in approval, and hit âPost.â Within seconds, the tweet was blowing up. Likes, retweets, and comments flooded in, most of them praising your straightforwardness.
(y/n)smaingf: This is why I love her LMAO
viseye: UghâŚI was in the middle of fanart about yâall
sevileftnut: Ya know whatâŚHell yeah!
You decided not to scroll too much furtherâno point in diving into the cesspool of opinions. Tossing your phone onto the bed, you grabbed your bag and headed for the door, ready to start the day.
When you got downstairs, the group was already waiting for you in the lobby. Caitlyn leaned against a pillar, her arms crossed, while the others stood or sat around, all wearing smug expressions that immediately annoyed you.
You raised an eyebrow. âWhat?â
Vi smirked. âWe saw the tweet.â
âAnd?â you asked, exasperated.
âYouâre treating us to free food, obviously,â Sevika chimed in, crossing her arms as she leaned casually against the wall. Her smirk was just as infuriating as the rest of them.
You rolled your eyes. âFine. Free food for everyone. Happy now?â
A cheer went up from the group as you pinched the bridge of your nose, already regretting your generosity. âCan someone at least order the Uber, please?â
Jinx raised a hand. âI guess Iâll do it.â She pulled out her phone and started tapping away.
Caitlyn nudged your shoulder. âYouâve got a way with words,â she said with a small smile.
You shrugged. âSomeone had to say it.â
As you waited for the Uber, you dug into your bag and pulled out your mini vlog camera, the familiar weight of it a comforting tool for killing time. âWhile we wait, letâs make some content, please?â you said, flashing a quick smile as you powered it on. The red recording light blinked on as you turned the lens toward the group, framing yourself and everyone else in the background.
Fixing your hair in the little camera screen, you caught Sevika rolling her eyes in the reflection. âAye, I can see you, Sev,â you said, turning your head to glare at her playfully.
Sevika leaned back against the wall with her arms crossed, her expression unimpressed. âHurry up already, princess. The Uberâs gonna be here any minute.â
You ignored her impatient tone with a dramatic sigh, pressing the record button. âHey, you guys!â you said in your most cheerful voice, pointing the camera at yourself. âGuess what? Weâre heading to Five Guys, and Iâm paying. This is my charity for the dayâIâm feeding starving artists.â You smiled mischievously at the camera before panning it to the band behind you.
The group groaned collectively at your teasing. Jinx leaned into the shot with a smirk. âYou do know itâs 1 v 4, right? Youâre outnumbered.â
Without missing a beat, you fired back, âOh, please. I can take you all at once.â
The air froze for a second before Vi raised an eyebrow and burst out laughing. âWoah, that sounded wrong.â
âOh my god, you freak!â you shouted, clutching your chest dramatically as if offended. The others joined in with their laughter, the sound of it filling the parking lot and making the moment feel more alive.
âCut the camera, Y/N,â Caitlyn teased, nudging you gently. âBefore this vlog turns into a comedy special.â
You shrugged. âHey, this is pure gold. The fans will love it.â
Sevika, still leaning against the wall, muttered, âYeah, great. Let them see you lose your mind before dinner.â
âSev, the only thing Iâm losing is patience with your attitude,â you quipped, spinning the camera toward her. She glared at you half-heartedly, but you caught the faintest twitch of amusement in her lips.
Just as you were about to retort, the Uber pulled up to the curb. âSaved by the ride,â Vi joked, pointing to the black SUV.
You turned off the camera, tucking it back into your bag. âAlright, letâs go, starving artists. The food awaits.â
Sevika brushed past you as the group piled into the car, her hand grazing your lower back in a way that felt both accidental and deliberate. âAfter you, princess,â she said, her voice dripping with mock politeness.
You rolled your eyes, climbing into the back seat. âOne of these days, Sev, youâre gonna wish you were nicer to me.â
âDoubt it,â she shot back, settling into her seat. The banter continued as the car pulled into traffic, and you couldnât help but smirk, already anticipating how the night would unfold.
The ride back from Five Guys was anything but quiet. The car was filled with laughter, teasing, and the occasional groan of someone who had eaten too much. Vi leaned back in her seat, hands on her stomach, a satisfied grin on her face. âAlright,â she announced, âI think Iâve had enough carbs to fuel me for the entire night. Iâm officially ready to party.â
Jinx, sitting beside her, raised her hand like she was in class. âI second that! Weâre hitting the club tonight, and Iâm not holding back.â She leaned forward, grinning at everyone else.
You, however, were still half-reclined in your seat, your head resting against the window as you groaned. âYâall really have that much energy after all that food? I need at least two naps before even considering going out again.â
As the car pulled up to the hotel, Caitlyn suddenly turned to you, her voice firm. âNot so fast, (Y/N). Youâre not going anywhere tonight.â You froze, blinking at her in confusion.
âWhat? Why?â
Caitlyn crossed her arms and arched an eyebrow. âBecause last night was a disaster waiting to happen, and Iâm not about to have you causing chaos again.â
The group laughed, but Caitlynâs expression remained serious, leaving you groaning in protest as everyone else headed up to get ready.
Minutes later, you found yourself sprawled across the bed in your shared room, flipping through channels with one hand and scrolling your phone with the other. The TV droned on about some crime show you werenât really paying attention to, but it was better than sitting in silence. You huffed in frustration, tossing your phone aside, just as the door creaked open.
âI thought I was locked in,â you said dryly, not bothering to glance up. You assumed it was Caitlyn coming to check on you.
âGuess Iâve got the key,â came a familiar, low drawl.
Your head snapped up to see Sevika leaning casually against the doorframe, her arms crossed, a small smirk tugging at her lips. She was dressed down compared to her usual style, wearing a loose black shirt and jeans. The relaxed look somehow made her even more infuriating.
âWhat do you want?â you muttered, sulking deeper into the bed.
She shrugged and strolled in, letting the door click shut behind her. âIâm putting myself in time-out too,â she said nonchalantly. âNo oneâs allowed to have fun without me.â She plopped into the chair near the bed, slouching back as if she owned the place.
You stared at her for a moment, debating whether you wanted company. But as the TV continued to drone on, you sighed, realizing it beat being bored alone. âFine. If youâre staying, weâre making this interesting.â
Her eyebrow quirked as she watched you sit up, reaching for your suitcase. From its depths, you pulled out a bottle of whiskey, your secret stash for nights like these. You placed it on the nightstand with a sense of finality, grabbing two glasses.
Sevikaâs smirk deepened as she leaned forward, elbows on her knees. âDrinking truth or dare?â she asked, her voice tinged with amusement.
âExactly,â you said, pouring the amber liquid into both glasses before sliding one her way. âUnless youâre scared to play.â
âScared?â She scoffed, picking up her glass. âYou donât know me at all, princess.â
The game began innocently enough. Sevika dared you to do a horrible celebrity impression, which resulted in a laugh so loud it made her throw her head back. In retaliation, you dared her to sing a verse from a Taylor Swift, and the sound of her gruff voice struggling through the high notes of Lover left you in tears from laughter.
âAlright, truth,â she said after finishing her whiskey, her cheeks faintly flushed.
You grinned mischievously. âWhatâs the most embarrassing thing youâve ever done on stage?â
Sevika groaned, her hand rubbing the back of her neck. âI ripped my pants. Front and back. In front of a packed crowd.â
You burst into laughter, nearly spilling your drink. âNo way!â
âSwear on it. And I had to play the rest of the set like that,â she admitted, her voice tinged with both embarrassment and pride.
âLegendary,â you said, raising your glass to her.
When it was your turn, Sevika leaned forward, her smirk widening. âDare,â you said confidently.
âI dare you to prank call your manager,â she said, pulling her phone from her pocket and sliding it over to you.
You grinned as you dialed her number, lowering your voice to imitate a stiff, formal tone. âHello, this is Officer Jenkins with the local police department. Weâve received a complaint about you being a raging bitch. We got a warrant for your arrest.â
The sound of Laurenâs confused, half-asleep voice on the other end made Sevika snort with laughter. â(Y/N)âŚIâm not about to play witââ
By the time you hung up, both of you were doubled over, Sevika clutching her sides.
As the dares and truths became bolder, the atmosphere started to shift. You dared Sevika to share her type, and her answerââsomeone bold, someone who doesnât back downââcame with a pointed look that left your cheeks warm.
âIâm not gonna lieâŚsounds like youâre describing yourself,â you teased, earning a low chuckle from her.
âMaybe I am,â she admitted, her gaze steady, almost daring you to break eye contact.
When your turn came, you chose dare, feeling emboldened by the whiskey warming your veins.
Sevika leaned forward, a lazy smirk spreading across her lips. âI dare you to sit on my lap.â
Your breath hitched, your cheeks heating, but you werenât about to back down. âFine,â you said, standing and walking toward her with as much confidence as you could muster.
Lowering yourself onto her lap, you felt her hands rest lightly on your waist. Her touch was casual, yet it sent a shiver up your spine.
âComfortable?â she asked, her voice low, her breath warm against your ear.
You cleared your throat, trying to ignore the way your heart raced. âTruth or dare?â
âDare,â she replied, her eyes never leaving yours.
You leaned in closer, your faces inches apart, your lips hovering just shy of hers. âI dare you to kiss me.â
Sevika didnât hesitate. Her hands tightened on your waist as she closed the gap between you, her lips capturing yours in a kiss that was anything but hesitant. Her movements were deliberate, her lips soft but insistent, making your pulse race.
The kiss deepened, her tongue brushing against yours with a confidence that left you breathless. Her hands slid under your shirt, her fingertips grazing your bare skin, sending a thrill through you.
Your fingers tangled in her hair, tugging lightly as her lips trailed from your mouth to your jaw and then to your neck, leaving a heated path of kisses that made you arch into her. She gave you one last kiss on your collarbone before finding your lips again.
Her mechanical hand slid lower, gripping your ass firmly as she shifted you on her lap, pulling you even more against her. The other hand, far from idle, slid under your shirt. Her fingers, rough yet somehow gentle, brushed over your bare skin, grazing your ribcage, going under your bra before boldly cupping your breast. Her thumb flicked over your nipple, sending a jolt of heat straight through your body.
You gasped against her mouth, your hands tangling more in her hair as the kiss deepened. Her tongue swept into your mouth, teasing and dominating in equal measure, leaving you completely breathless. You arched into her touch, your body responding to her as if it had been waiting for this moment. She pulled away and found your neck again, this time leaving love bites.
âSevika,â you moaned breathlessly, barely managing her name as her teeth grazed your skin.
âShh,â she murmured against your neck, her lips returning to yours in a kiss that made you forget everythingâuntil the door swung open with a loud creak.
âAre you fucking serious?â
Caitlynâs voice was sharp, cutting through the haze like a bucket of cold water.
You scrambled off Sevikaâs lap, your shirt hastily tugged back into place as you turned to see Caitlyn standing in the doorway, her arms crossed and her expression a mix of disbelief and exasperation. You were immediately sobered up.
Sevika, by contrast, remained unbothered, lounging back in her chair with her usual smirk firmly intact. âWe were bonding,â she said lazily, her tone dripping with amusement.
Caitlyn raised an eyebrow, setting her bag on the table. âIf this is bonding, Iâd hate to see what happens when you two donât get along.â
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. âThis is all your fault,â you muttered toward Sevika.
Sevika chuckled, leaning closer to you, her voice low and teasing. âDidnât hear you complaining.â
You shot her a glare, though the small smile tugging at your lips betrayed your annoyance. Caitlyn shook her head, muttering something about ânever getting a breakâ as she climbed into her bed.
You grabbed Sevika by her arm, pulling her out of the chair and pushed her towards the door. âItâs time for you to go, Sev,â you said.
âAwe, but we were having so much fun,â she teased turning towards you, getting closer along with her face.
You immediately stopped her, putting a hand on your chest. âTo be continuedâŚmaybe,â you said as you opened the door, gesturing for her to leave.
âIâll take your word on that,â she added in quickly before leaving.
You climbed into bed beside Caitlyn, still feeling the heat of embarrassment from earlier. As you pulled the covers over yourself, you glanced at her. âAre you mad at me?â you asked softly.
Caitlyn let out a long groan, turning her head to look at you. âNo. I mean⌠at least youâre standing by what you said last night.â
Her words made your stomach drop. âOh, shit,â you muttered, sitting up slightly. âI talked about her while I was drunk? What did I even say?â
Caitlyn rolled her eyes, though a small smirk tugged at her lips. âSomething about her being annoyingly hot and how you wanted to fuck her so bad. Seems like you were in the process of it.â
You groaned, burying your face in your hands, but Caitlyn wasnât done. Her eyes zeroed in on your neck, and her smirk widened. âSpeaking of⌠how long were you two going at it? Youâve got two huge hickeys on your neck.â
Your eyes snapped open, and you sat up abruptly. âWhat?!â You scrambled for your phone, turning on the front camera to inspect the damage.
Sure enough, there they wereâtwo dark, unmistakable marks standing out against your skin. âJesus,â you muttered in disbelief, your fingers brushing over the spots as if that would make them disappear.
Caitlyn chuckled, leaning back against the headboard. âYouâre lucky Iâm too tired to lecture you about keeping things professional. But just so you know, Iâm giving you side-eye for the rest of the trip.â
You flopped back onto your pillow, staring at the ceiling. âThis canât get any worse,â you muttered.
Caitlyn shot you a look. âDonât jinx it.â
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Hi! I know mc forgot all their memories from other lives and all, but how would they react if the reader got into an accident and had amnesia ? Thank you
*intense flashbacks to rick grayson* anyway i did this w the assumption that zayne is the only one unaware that this isnt the first time you lost your memories bc i think. he also lost his memories so yall are in the same boat lmaoo
He is absolutely devastated. He blames himself for your injury, feeling that he should have been there to protect you. He should have taken your injury, done something besides just happen to be there when you finally woke up in the hospital bed. He hates how tired you look, the way you glance at him as though he were nothing more than a stranger. That look haunts him, and he finds himself stuck in place as the doctor gently pulls him aside and tells him it seems you're suffering from amnesia. The doctor reassures him that it's most likely temporary but they're going to keep you in the hospital for monitoring.
The others all need a moment to process the news. He's upset, sure, but he also hates that sense of familiarity that settles in his chest at the news. It's not to say he isn't surprised, just that unfortunately, a part of him knows how to receive this piece of information.
He's going to be at your side no matter what, this dull ache in his chest only slightly abated at the doctor's promise that this is temporary. Sylus and Xavier take the news better than Rafayel, keeping conversation light and easy with you. You can see the pain in their eyes at not remembering him but he won't say anything to you about it. You wish that you could remember him now but you also know that rushing things won't do any good. Instead, you decide to ask him questions about your life together, feeling a sense of relief wash over you as you realise even if your brain doesn't remember him, your body seems to feel comfort in his presence.
Zayne wishes for a moment he didn't spend so much time focusing on cardiology. Maybe, if he swapped to neuroscience he would have an answer right now, or if he focused more on becoming a general physician he'd know more. He hates the not knowing, understanding on a technical level what the doctor is telling him but none of it fully processes, not until he's at home without you because they thought it might stress you out too much to come home to a strange place.
He comes to visit you every day, not insisting on your time but comforting enough that you don't really mind. You're also glad to know he's also a doctor, feeling safe that if something were to happen to you he'd be able to help until your primary doctor appears. You find it hard to believe that this incredibly handsome and talented surgeon is your lover but he shows you some photos that prove the fact.
He's very patient, only able to be so because the doctors have agreed to show him the scans of your brain to calm his nerves. He's sure that even if your symptoms continue to persist he'd be able to keep you in his life, whether that be as his lover or just as a friend. Simply being able to be with you is all he ever wants, whatever that means.
Rafayel is pissed beyond belief. You don't recognise the man standing in front of you but you can tell by the quirk of his brow and the way his fingers tap against his thigh that he is not happy. Despite his turmoil, it only takes him about a second before he sighs tiredly, kneeling at the side of your bed and asking if you seriously don't remember him. The slight shake of your head is enough for him to understand the gravity of your injury, making his heart break.
This time he feels like he has more control over it, thankfully. He decides that despite your amnesia he'll do his best to make a stronger impression on you this time. He's not overbearing but he is consistent, keeping you company in a friendly manner. He doesn't want to scare you off by being too attention hungry but he also misses your touch, trying his best to keep his hands to himself as he tells you about what the two of you did last week.
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idk i really do understand the defensiveness and hostility when youve grown up with the world not taking you and your traumas and your place in the global hierarchy seriously and i understand taking things in bad faith bc of that. i really do. but i also think its so important if you truly care abt developing theory and actually becoming educated on how to combat these problems and how the world works to put those feelings aside, even briefly, to listen and fully understand the position we're all in.
i've absolutely felt my share of defensive when talking about imperial core privilege being indigenous myself but ive also had to learn how to sit and think without my feelings in the way for a second and rly ponder and understand what it means to still be a us citizen. anyone whos seen a reservation understands the poverty and the suffering and the ongoing attempts at finishing the genocide but also like - idk, as everyones said - its still not the global south, we still have usd, we can still fuckin order on amazon and eat food farmed by undocumented global south workers. etc.
idk! swallow your pride i think and instead of letting it make you defensive, allow it to make you feel true solidarity with the global south. if this is how bad it is for us, and we still live in the imperial core - can you begin to imagine how much worse it is there? cmon yall. please.
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