#i liked [redacted] so much it's unreal

[lolalovesu]

i miss [redacted]

[sixteenstrikes]

PLEASE talk more about DurgeWyll and Hozier, PLEASE... I am rotating the songs you posted and the vision is so good

thank you for asking me :) (the doors close sealing you in the crypt)

i joke. ok first of all i need to cite ten @bladesmitten as a resident durgewyll expert and direct you to his blog... she's written some incredible fic & analysis of the durgewyll romance and made a lot of gorgeous wyll edits and art in general, can't rec his blog enough.

i have sadly never played through the durgewyll romance & only watched it so there are undoubtedly story details i am unaware of. alas i have only played the tav version of his romance so far

some spoilers for durge beneath the cut. i tried to be vague but a warning there. also i didnt stick my oar into unreal unearth or any of the adjacent eps for that album .. sorry

all that being said here are my 2 cents

i think the main draw for picking hozier songs for durgewyll is that incredibly sexy dynamic they have of being each other's foil as well as each other's love interest. both wyll and durge are bound to an inescapable doom within the story: to pay with their body and soul for the fate of baldur's gate. durge must destroy it to please their father, wyll must save it. (wyll's saved it already, at the cost of his soul, and durge has to sacrifice their soul to destroy it as (redacted), but i wont go further on that tangent lol. its fascinating though.)

i think a core concept of wyll to focus on here as well is his faith. in his act 2 dance scene, in response to one of the dialogue options, wyll replies that he 'still keeps faith in the old tales of true love'- this is crucial. wyll is the man to whom the gods gave a cold shoulder. he has no love or faith for them. but he keeps faith in the old tales- he keeps faith, specifically, in durge.. 'his greatest adventure'.. and if durge chooses to resist their father's authority, they spurn a god for wyll's sake. there's an incredible amount of mutual devotion there.

there is also the monster hunter/monster dynamic. i haven't delved into it much here bc i am more interested in how eerily wyll and durge parallel each other as twin mirrors and exiles from the gate, the light and dark sides, sharing almost a common doom, trapped in the long shadows of their fathers.... man. but the monster dynamic should absolutely be examined and explored, it's fascinating. i think it's another compelling aspect of wyll's character. he's a man with a lot of resonant contradictions. a monster hunter who refuses to hunt the monster of baldur's gate and instead severs them from the one who made them .... a monster hunter who holds out his hand to the monster he is supposed to kill... wyll's love of the mysterious and strange and his kindness, i think, predispose him to see durge as an ally and a friend. not from naivete, but from an open heart

my hozier picks for durgewyll overall:

it will come back - i love the way the view shifts in this. one of my top durgewyll picks for the way it evokes a lot of the horror & tragedy that wyll looks into and doesnt flinch away from & the hunger durge has toward wyll extending his own lonely & friendly hand

shrike - i see this as primarily from durge's view. picked for the devotion & regret

NFWMB - applies beautifully to both of them. theeeee durgewyll song to me from andy's works... consider the lyrics from both person's perspective to feel the world open beneath your feet lol

as it was - ditto, i think it encompasses both perspectives. also one of my favorite songs he wrote so im biased lmao. i think this is another very resonant choice for the durgewyll dynamic

like real people do - feels an overly obvious pick but it could work especially well for a resist durge

no plan - could be an intriguing choice. i can't quite swing it but some of the lines in this for durgewyll... i like them...

you could definitely make a case for from eden for another from durge's view. gives me a feeling of a durge who's not resisting but idk

[lakesbian]

Hello! Because I was curious and had this discussion before; when I first read through Worm I either by projecting or just a personal interpretation of sorts, came to headcanon Taylor as Ace. Do you think there is enough in the actual text to support that?

not even remotely. this and the similar "taylors thing with brian is comphet" read are So not there. So not there even a little bit in any way shape or form. she is so obviously blatantly textually horny for him it's like. i'm not even going to say it's unreal, it's actually Extremely Real. i love that being a teenage girl doesn't preclude her from being written as a whole entire person including the absurd levels of horniness most teenagers have going on. but it is Intense. girl who is always bluescreening and blacking out because she thought about brian laborn [redacted] [expunged] [loud plane flies overhead] [bus drives by] too hard and almost died. like we all remember the shit she's thinking when they're sparring and he grapples her. And don't even get me started on how much shes staring at other womens tits. asexual and or lesbian taylor headcanons are fully in the 'just making shit up for fun' genre of headcanons because taylor is, despite the homoeroticism, one of the most convincingly attracted to men female characters ive ever seen in my life ever

[notthatalex]

💛Smoshblr December Asks Day 19💙

What are your top 3 fave/dream cast constellations for smosh vids? (so typically 4-6 people each)

Bonus: What are your top 3 smosh ships?

I am just going to do the bonus because I don't think I can truly put together a top 3 for this. Would tear me apart a bit.

Ships:

1. Nintendogs

I see 2 guys that don't shower and I need them to kiss.

Unreal how much this rotates in my brain. This ship consumes me and has been for almost 4 months now.

And I am currently holding smosh at gunpoint to put those 2 characters in a video togehter again.

I need it badly, but also, it would destroy me for a bit.

2. Wet Cop/[REDACTED]

Ok we need like a good ship name for them btw...

The Keith gives couples therapy video is literally my fave smosh video EVER. They deserve each other and I don't even really mean that in a condescending way.

Ok maybe a little bit but also in a loving way...

3. Brosen

CHOSEN HAS 2 HANDS!!!!!! (And I also think Chosen/Augustus and Bri makes a cute and fun poly ship)

The It couple. I have a trans and cis guy characterization of chosen bouncing in my head at all times, but when I think of brosen it is just the trans one. Het t4t couple: painfully so.

Brianna is so down bad for him and I respect her for that. <3333

[jihyoruri]

what the eff r we talking about right now…🙁

also oh my god mmy school has a bunch of different foreign languages and one of them is mandarin and there are only THREE types of people in that classroom. -got placed in there randomly (their 1st option was full) -chose it because it was light work -ASIAN FETISHIZER

like don’t even play everyone took like spanish like a normal person and here comes [REDACTED] (i actually hate this girl like unreal amounts she’s my opp because she would like try to fight me oh my LORDDDD she thinks she’s so scary. shes like ‘I’ll kill u..’ girl w a bob that’s misshapen shut up)

she is only in mandarin bc she’s a koreaboo and weaboo and wants to be asian this mf is white like oh my god don’t get me STARTEDDD… definition of weirdo when she found out a kid was half korean in her class she started doing phrenology bs like “no I could tell.. bc u have aegyosal and u look like jungkook!” girl he is half bolivian what r u on about im more curious abt how his parents MET bro

i hate her so much she’s so FREAKING ANNOYYIGNGNFNNFNFN SMEJSIAJSJ enough of a rant❤️but I actually can not stand her she’s convinced she’s asian she is NOT

NAHHHHHH LMAOOOOO yk I’ve never met one of those in real life (thankfully)

[cheetahsprints]

Shadow is the coolest!!!

(Spoilers ahead)

STAGES: Eye candy, super fun and fluid.

My totally subjective judgement:

1. Chaos Island (It's a whole vibe and slightly scratches the part of brain that wishes Shadow could've appeared in Frontiers somehow. Ironically my least favorite full island in Frontiers... Speaking of, that was my first Sonic game besides TMOSTH so naturally I'm biased.)

2. Space Colony Ark (Currently all S-ranked, very fun and iconic location. After watching the demo players and waiting so long, finally being in it was so unreal.)

3. Sunset Heights (it's just delicious, I want to eat it)

4. Kingdom Valley (Utterly gorgeous and fun. Doom Surf parts were a little awkward, but don't take away from it much. I'm still salivating, so to speak.)

5. Radical Highway (I'm mad at this stage for skill checking me rn but... it's still the SA2 level remade... so cool. Expected to be hard as the last stage. The wonkiness caused by the game's story kinda takes away from the stage's original vibes for me though.)

6. Rail Canyon (Being at the bottom doesn't mean I don't love it, it just doesn't stand out as much as the others and... a lot of rail gaming as a given, y'know.)

BOSS FIGHTS: Biolizard and Mephiles are great, I'd rather not go through Metal Overlord again (I likely will), but visually it's cool. The gameplay of that was... not my forte. I didn't play '06 so the Mephiles fight in particular was a treat.

CONTROLS: Smooth!!! Doom Morph is kinda slippery sometimes, and I struggle with the sliding sections in Radical Highway. They're not Cyberspace, not Sonic Generations, but a secret third thing. (Somewhat an adaption of Overworld Frontiers controls to an evolution of Sonic Generations type level design? Something to that effect.)

CUT SCENES: My emotions grahh! I got no issues with the writing I can think of. I for one, enjoy the references, which were placed well imo. Overall, it's just really nice to see Shadow be an actual character.

GRAPHICS: Looks fine on the Switch, though I imagine it might be scaled down in places, I don't notice if anything is off. Didn't notice any stuttering, pop-in, or anything like that. I did have moments where the pause menu would freeze while I was scrolling through stages, not sure what that's about.

EXTRAS:

If you've played the game, White Space speaks for itself. It's great.

The 2D acts are fun wtf??? They flow so well? Sorcery! (Some parts of the 2D sections of Act 1 in Sonic Gens mess up my enjoyment of the stages.)

Missions are well done, as pretty much just tests of stage running skill, none of them making me want to punch the screen or just feel like I'm doing a chore as with several of the missions in Sonic Gens.

I don't like chasing music notes. [Redacted] those. The ones where you have to platform to a specific place where they're waiting for you are fine. Me problem though.

I sense if I try to improve my ranks I'm gonna have a love/hate relationship with the ranking system. I don't know yet if it's mostly based on time, but it certainly seems less generous than Sonic's.

Surprised at the lack of minibosses, it seemed like a fair number of people were expecting there to be. After playing most of the game... it makes sense though.

Next Session: Devil Doom...

[lafortis]

what were the most memorable elden ring moments for you?

tough call but obviously malenia resting her nuts on my chin for international womens day (and intl womens day pt 2, and pt 3, and etc. ...) was up there, as was spending 6 on stream hours killing the fuckign horse. astel starborn ranks up there as just an insanely unique boss design, it visually really stuck with me. original radahn boss fight was sick design, that was really enjoyable and stuck for sure. the sense of discovery regarding nokron was goated in general, first going down the well and realizing how much farther down it goes than you expected, then second when the meteor opens up a fuckin hole in liurnia and you just keep going down it, both absolutely stuck.

lemme think. patches finally just giving up the game and sending me straight to fucking hell (i.e. telling you to go to the iron virgin in raya lucaria and then it sends you to the pits of volcano manor, which like, might as well be actual biblical hell) made me laugh uncontrollably iirc. like that's always been the vibe but this time he just up and does it. just tricks you into going straight to hell, do not pass go, do not collect two hundred dollars. just boom, seventh circle. see ya nerd. fucking hilarious.

honestly i mean it's a really fuckin memorable game imo. pretty much every demigod i can vividly remember, except maybe morgott, he's got a sick visual design for his real fight but he's a little undercut by having already fought him kind of, but everyone else i can call moments from to mind. maybe rennala gets second bottom slot on memorability, she was relatively standard fair, but visually the second half goes hard as fuck so that's fair game. fire giant goes crazy, maliketh goes crazy, mohg is maybe after rennala in terms of memorability but honestly NIHIL NIHIL NIHIL still sticks. then maybe godrick, who gets a bonus for being your first, then the ones i've mentioned, with marigon/radika being somewhere in between because you don't get any character but FUCK does the visual design go soooo hard.

there's probably more that i'm forgetting, it can't be understated how much i love elden ring. i'd struggle to argue that any game ever made is consummately better, more engaging, more lush and rich, or just more fucking fun than elden ring. like no glazing it might be the Best Game Ever.

oh also i didn't mention anything from the DLC because a. it hasn't been out for 2 years so i haven't measured its memorability as thoroughly b. it hasn't been out for 2 years yet so spoilers, but rest assured there's plenty in there. rellana is maybe my favourite non-demigod boss they've ever done, st trina and her whole thing is just so deeply fromsoft i love it so much, messmer fucks heavy and the phase change cutscene will stick with me for a long logn time, midra's shtick and cutscene and shit fuck so so so heavy, exploring the new areas was exactly what i needed out of an elden ring dlc it's so fucking DENSE, and then finally, of course, [REDACTED], Consort of [REDACTED] is stupid and can go fuck himself and is also so fucking cool it's unreal. the unique death status from the hug? absolutely incredible lore wise and gameplay wise. made me giggle fr. there's some overtuning in there tho, but tbf all it did was make me actually use all the tools at my disposal (which is completely fair enough, i can't just keep dodgeroll charged R2ing forever, sometimes there's gotta be some other other bullshit in there lol).

anyway thank you for letting me relive the greatest game on earth in my head real quick before work <3

[fiveappendages]

leans on the table//

so I see you’re an enjoyer of Nobody SCP 👁️👁️

looking with big eyes I’m so so normal about the GOI

FROLICS AROUND THE ROOM . yes i love them o much its unreal. i uh

yeah.

i cannot resist th appeal of "mysterious well-dressed man(?) that shows up to [REDACTED]". and i love that they're very vague and probably involved in Whatever the hell they want to be involved in. simply amazing. Universal Motherfucker. all moral alignments and none at once!!!

i also really love the dresscode. im a huge sucker for SUITS i lvoe suits

side note i'm a HUUUGE fan of the canons that have them be some sort of weird, mostly benevolent, sometimes silly, sometimes somber entity like the 4999-body canon, this, and the iconic oneiroi janitor take. top ten tales of all time.

sorry this paragraph is very incomprehensible but yes hi hello. I am indeed Quite fond of that fictional entity from hit web series SCP Foundation, designated "Nobody"

[aristocratic-otter]

I'm back from my trip back east and getting in the saddle again! Thank you to the lovely and talented group of folks who tagged me all week: @nausikaaa, @blackberrysummerblog, @artsyunderstudy, @prettygoododds, @whatevertheweather, @palimpsessed, @hushed-chorus, @facewithoutheart, @larkral, @aroace-genderfluid-sheep, @nightimedreamersghost. I've greatly enjoyed belatedly reading your words today!

From: Saving Simon Snow

Where was this hunger, this need, hiding, all those years I lived side-by-side with him? Where was the desire to wrap my skin around both of us, imbed him in my flesh and bones? How could I have been so blind to what he is to me? Baz didn’t help, I suppose, with the way he’s always hated me. But even that seems unreal now. Does he hate me?

From: an Age of Sail AU

The wind that whips and stings my face makes the barrelman’s cry of “Storm rising off the for’ard bow!” unnecessary. I can see the clouds rapidly boiling up in the east. A storm. A bad one. 

As if our lives depended on it (because they do, they definitely do), we all jump into action. Davy hurries off to douse the fires in the galley (it’s a bear to relight them, but open flame is deadly in hurricane conditions) and I run to help lower and tie down the sails.

From Snow Fox

We met clandestinely as often as Simon could get away, and while we were together, we spoke of our families and friends, and odd happenings in the world, but not about the war. Never about the war. 

But then Charleston was captured by the British. 

Tory families like mine were well-treated, but anyone with a documented history of fighting against the crown was imprisoned under the threat of hanging. Many of the common soldiers were eventually let go, under the reasoning that they were just following orders. But the officers were kept and sentenced to death. 

That’s when Simon Snow Salisbury became the Snow Fox. 

From: Raising Dragons

Is it wrong to find Simon even sexier when he’s struggling?

Maybe it was wrong to assign Ebb and Nat to Simon for swimming lessons…but Simon’s boundless energy is much better suited to keeping those two out of trouble. Not that I’m bad at it. But I know Simon is insecure about his parenting skills, so I like to ask him to do things that he’ll be competent at. 

That may have backfired today. But it’s hilarious, so I’m not too bothered. 

From a mystery gift (not a mystery for much longer!):

“Human females like seeing a woman’s underclothing on the outside, do they not?” Niamh asks. She’s staring at me. Her eyes are dark and dilated, and her skin glistens with sweat. All of her skin. Of which I can see far too much. 

“I would not know, [redacted]. I am not interested in seeing human women without their clothing."

From Westward Son

For the first time since the Snake River, I see the ghost of a smile on Simon’s face. “What if,” he says softly, “I don’t want alone time? What if I want you–to be with you, I mean?”

I grin broadly. “That, Simon, can be easily arranged.” Then, finally sensing that now might be the right time for it, I spread my arms wide, offering myself to him. 

His eyes widen, and the ghost of a smile becomes corporeal, and then he’s in my arms, letting a last few tears wet my shirt. “I thought I might never see you again,” he admits wetly. 

“I’m grateful you were wrong,” I whisper back, my voice husky with emotion.

From my COBB which has a name and no I'm not telling you 😉

"Is there something you’d like to tell me, Mr. Snow?” She gives me a pointed look, and I wilt under it. 

“You may as well tell her, Simon,” Penny says. “It’s not like things could get any worse.”

I turn to glare at her. I can think of plenty of ways things could get worse. Miss Possibelf could tell me that these are definitely [redacted], and that would mean…Baz and I…it would mean…too much.

From To Heal a Broken Heart

 ‘Basilton, you’ve left me no choice. You are too deeply involved in Mr. Snow’s life to be unbiased in his care. I am transferring his patient files over to Dr. Davies. You may no longer prescribe for him or decide treatment. And, you are on probation. Do not step one more foot out of line, Dr. Pitch, or I will have to relieve you of duty.”

(Yes, that's 8 fucking WIPs) (I've also just started a Simon's Birthday Exchange fic, but there's barely even 6 sentences written, so hopefully I'll have something to share next week!)

Tagging (for Wednesday or just a consensual hug): @frjsti, @angelsfalling16, @bazzybelle, @bookish-bogwitch, @bloodiedpixie, @carryonsimoncarryonbaz, @dragoneggos, @erzbethluna, @excalisbury, @fight-surrender, @fatalfangirl, @giishu, @ionlydrinkhotwater, @ileadacharmedlife, @ivelovedhimthroughworse, @j-nipper-95, @jasonfunderberkerthefrogexists, @krisrix, @letraspal, @messofthejess, @moments-au-crayon22, @moodandmist, @mostlymaudlin, @onepintobean, @chen-chen-chen-again-chen, @prettylightsbigcity, @raenestee, @cutestkilla, @thehoneyedhufflepuff, @theearlgreymage, @twinkle-twinkle-up-above, @tea-brigade, @technetiumai, @upuntil6am, @whogaveyoupermission, @yu-miou, @yellobb-old, @yeonjunenby, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe

[chatgroove]

💼🎯🥊🧊🧠💀

For Lord Markus

-🍫 Chocolate Anon

Ohoho Lord Markus, yessss good!! Also idk if youve ever sent me anything before chocolate, but if not, it's nice to meet you!! <3 If you have I apologize, my memory lately has been...not great dfhjdf

💼 - What do they do for a living?

Markus is one of the seven heavenly virtue seraph lords who run and protect over a kingdom in Heaven. His kingdom wasn't that big tho and he was quite lonely in his endeavors and also....massively envious of everyone around him. Now after being taken over by [REDACTED] his main job is to bring down the other realms and have his realm be the only one in power.

🎯 -What do they do best?

Hurting others UH you mean a serious answer ha ahaaa. He;s a very good strategist and has this unreal ability to command people to do his bidding and even sacrifice themselves for his cause. Master manipulator I guess I should say.

🥊 -What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?

Destroy his competition and strike fear into anyone who opposes him, and also [MAJOR SPOILER STUFF ] He hates having to put on airs that he's just a 'normal ass seraph' and do royal duties and stuff when he'd rather be putting his plans in motion. Micah often has to remember to tell him to "eat like a person, please, people are watching."

🧊 - Is their current design the first one?

Kind of? Markus hasn't changed appearance wise in a long time and I don't think much has changed from when I first made. The biggest major design choice is that he's being 'controlled' by some unseen force now.

🧠 - What do you like most about the OC?

Ohh I love love love the new trope I did with him, I fucking love characters being used as meat suits by much eviller characters lmao I also love how just fcking vile he is in getting what he wants.

💀 - Does your OC have any phobias?

Good question!! Possibly the [REDACTED] who put his OG body away to begin with, but if asked he will just claim he hates them and will eradicate what's left of them. It's hard for a being like [REDACTED]!Markus to feel phobias in general, because he's just...so insanely corrupt and powerful and is the one striking fear into others.

[decaydanceredacted]

yo that's the video that my pink sunglasses gabe redacted was about! also kinda forever ago, ofc inspired by that video, I wrote this whole thing around the idea of him putting the sunglasses on my face and also eating me out? just gonna copy and paste some parts here for y'all to enjoy (pls be nice)

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"C'mere," Gabe calls over the music, although it's not really necessary with how he reaches through the crowd with a stupid long arm and takes my hand, then pulls me into his space. It's a welcome reprieve and I feel my shoulders drop in relief as he angles his body between me and the bulk of the people. "That guy was getting too close."

"I'm not yours," is what comes out of my mouth unbidden, albeit with a teasing smile. "But thanks. Really. I didn't like it either."

He just sort of looks at me, appraising, then scoops the obnoxious magenta glasses off his face and pushes them onto mine. "There."

They feel a little low on my nose, so I nudge them up with my knuckles but don't take them off. The pink is distracting around the edges of my vision. "Okay. Thanks?"

He rolls his eyes like I'm missing the point. "Now everyone's gonna know you're with me. They won't mess with you."

"Oh," I laugh, leaning my forehead against his hoodied shoulder. The glasses feel even weirder now, but it's a good weird, I think, one that makes me feel sort of warm inside. No one's ever claimed me like this, slapped a bright neon sign across my face that screams 'hands off'. "So I am yours."

"For tonight." Gabe puts a hand on my hip and squeezes just a little. "Promise I'll take good care of you," he says with a wink and a little grin that shows a sliver of his teeth, and oh, alright, I'm down.

"Just make sure to return me on time," I toss back, nudging the glasses up again. "The late fees are unreal."

-

"Oh no, girlie, you're not getting away that easy. I haven't even made you cum yet." He pushes those stupid fucking glasses up his head again, flashes me the grin of someone having the absolute time of his life, and dives back in.

I want to shoot back with some witty retort, make it clear that I've got plans of my own here, but he licks up my pussy again—one long, slow slide with the flat of his tongue—and the wave of heat through my veins makes my head fall back against the pillow as a breathy whine comes out of me. I scrape my thoughts together enough to try to protest as he does that again but slower and harder and good, so fucking good. "Gabe, I can't—god, I don't even know if I can."

He cocks an eyebrow up at me and breathes out, warm on my honest-to-god tingling lips. "You're doubting me? That hurts my feelings, you know."

"I'm doubting myselfffuck—"

Rudely, he interrupts me with a firm roll of his tongue around my clit followed by taking a mouthful of sensitive everything and sucking on it with a vengeance.

I gasp for air and mercy, and my legs kick out of their own accord so of course he just grabs them and pins my knees down with each stupid big hand as he relaxes his mouth just enough to get his tongue back on my clit. And I'm moaning because how could I not be, high, stuttery sounds that sound too desperate, but I can't really be bothered to care, not when I've finally got free rein to make as much damn noise as I want. It feels great, and somewhere in between it all he goes "c'mon, grab my head, gotta make my hair look good," so I do, and it just makes him suck harder.

Then Gabe lets up, pulls back to that slow, gentle licking, enough to let me think again but not enough to let the pleasure fade. It's only when he does that I realize how hard I'm breathing, hell, how hard I'm holding the sheets. "Oh my god," I say between breaths that shake when his tongue hits my clit, staring up at the ceiling like it could save me. "Okay." I swallow. "Not doubting myself. Or you. I stand corrected, your honour."

He laughs, sudden and snorting, and it might be the first real laugh I've heard from him all evening. "You're the cutest fucking thing, you know that?" His tongue does hot and pressurey things around my clit and my legs shake under his hands. "Gonna make you cum so hard, you don't even fuckin' know."

.

[camellia-thea]

The asking game for Dove, numbers 2, 14, 19, and 24 For Taralin it's numbers 6 (and more of a how easily could they be convinced to go against their core values, since we all know Taralin's moral compass is shaky at the best of times), 20, 14, and 24

I hope this isn't too many, but i also know how much you like to talk about your blorbos and I want to hear it

<33333333 thank you glorious game master

you and kaz managed to overlap some of your questions, so i'll take different angles so we get different information!

these are a little shorter than normal perhaps, but uh. this definitely still needs a cut.

dove!!

2. What's something about your OC that people wouldn't expect just from looking at them?

dove sits in her kitchen most evenings, the crappy desktop screen flickering ominously with each click of the mouse.

she enters the open-late supermarket near her haven to buy batteries, and the electric doors falter. the checkout dislikes her card, so she pays in cash.

when her desktop shuts down on her for the third time that evening, when the doors fail to open for her at all, when the self checkout refuses her cash as well, she turns her eyes the the ceiling and fights back an inhuman snarl.

fucking lasombra. fucking bane. fucking technology. she can't even answer a phone now. microphones hate her, the crackling static almost impossible to hear over, even if she can convince her button phone answer it.

but--- she used to be so talented. she was good at technology. ask her to crack into someone's laptop? it's already half done. dove was good. better than good, honestly. once.

14. How does your OC want to be seen by other characters?

dove likes when eyes pass over her, and catch her with concern before moving on -- it's none of their business, but they doubt her. it's fun. she played the young, overworked and under appreciated secretary, the one who got the job a little too young, with a little too few credentials, and those defenses lingered.

let them underestimate you, little mouse

it's the beast, not him but... well, it isn't wrong.

then destroy them with all you have.

19. How does your OC behave when enraged?

dove has good self control, really, she does. she knows it. she's got a good handle on her beast, a good handle on her hunger, and well, a good handle on herself.

except when she doesn't.

when her control is pushed. when she finally snaps. it's catastrophic in the way it always is, when a kindred's beast is unleashed. violence is too kind a word for what she falls into. a callous ruthlessness that requires perfection and destruction in one.

cruel and bloody.

24. What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

the sun shines brightly on [REDACTED] as she walks home. she's tired, sure, but in a way that belies productivity. the office is only a few blocks away from her new(!) apartment, and while she said no to the internship (much to her parent's disappointment), but she's studying law, and enjoying it. it's... good. great, even. she's living off campus with someone she might be getting... closer to, and well. she has a plan. she has a stable income, and is close to a second degree (somehow?) with another job lined up for the summer between graduation and beginning her masters.

life... looks good.

----------------------------

taralin!!!

tws, violence, death, and unreality for the first one. number 24 has a pregnancy mention. i think that's it.

6. How easily could your OC be convinced to do something that goes against their moral compass?

it's a knife at kit's throat and a cone of cold at the party that makes taralin freeze.

they're in the sewers.

or... daedalia?

the memory is fuzzy, but taralin is panicked. aisling is already dead, and rhiann and kadana are battered, bleeding. torvold is down as well, but she can see him breathing, so for now, he's fine. gex is--- somewhere, hidden hopefully, but kit is their main concern.

kit-- there's blood beading at his neck, it shines gold, not red. it's-- it's the morrigan. no-- it's haj.

it's haj who holds the knife, and she's saying something about the price magic should be sold at, but it sounds like they're underwater.

taralin calls out--

stop--------

and the world slows.

haj smiles.

and taralin

for kit. for gex. for rhiann. for kadana. for torvold. even for aisling.

makes a deal.

they jerk upright silently, she's crying, she realises. silently.

nyral shuffles himself into her lap. he licks her hand, and snuffles back into sleep.

it wasn't real.

it wasn't real.

14. How does your OC want to be seen by other characters?

taralin likes composure. likes the armor of competence and charisma. he doesn't need the charm, as long as there is a wall of consternation. it's a weapon as strong as any knife, and she's perfected her technique.

she doesn't smile unless it's a threat.

20. Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

something sits lodged in her throat, as she watches aisling and kit be the fire. it's bitter, and only gets bigger as kit grins at the woman. she's--

not everything. she's violent (so are you), she's callous (so are you), she's angry (so are you), she's dangerous.

so are you.

but she's treated with such-- kindness.

it's bitterness that causes taralin to invite sand in the nose along, as much as it's caused by his like of the gnoll. a desperate, subconscious hope that aisling will be caught out, punished, maybe.

in a similar way taralin has been.

the zone of truth still stings.

and really, they were more attached than aisling is now. been with them longer, proved themself.

he'd do anything for them, do they realise? do they know?

but there sits aisling.

gex smiles at her too. smiles at her more than he does at them. they're still mad at him, still furious. and their trust has been shattered, but--

they thought he liked them more than that.

rhiann is wary enough of aisling that it feels-- fine. but she doesn't get it. she doesn't get why taralin feels so-- wrong about it all.

it's... a surprising betrayal.

and they watch aisling, welcomed without a word into their party, and they wonder why they tolerate it. wonder why they stay alongside the woman who almost stabbed a companion. who taralin knows would leave them to die without regret.

the feeling chokes them. it'll explode soon enough. but for now...

they swallow it down.

24. What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

it's warm.

taralin lies back on a picnic blanket, a hand over her eyes.

"happy birthday, starfire."

his voice makes her smile. "only happy because you're here." she pulls her hand away to gaze at him, his smile, his eyes, his hair. he dips down to kiss her, and she eases into it, before pulling back with tenderness in her gaze.

"i love you." he laughs at that, bright.

"and i love you." another kiss. "but-- i'm starting to burn. so we can move into some shade, or head home and finish our picnic there."

"mmmmm. not much of a picnic if we're inside." he laughs at them, and warmth burns in their chest. gods, they love this man.

"okay, to the tree then, fair maiden."

"maiden today, am i?" it's teasing.

"galant sir?"

"perhaps."

another kiss, and another, and another. eventually, taralin pulls away.

"what happened to shade?"

"you're just so enchanting, love of my life, light of my soul."

she rolls her eyes, and pulls him toward the tree.

they curl at the oak's base, taking shelter in its' shade. the view over the cliffs to the sea is spectacular. the sea glitters, bluer than the sky.

aiden presses a kiss behind her ear. "twenty-eight. how does it feel?"

"perfect." and steals a proper kiss from him.

her hand rests on her stomach, his bracketing it. there isn't movement yet, but they know there's life there.

it's another step. another chapter in their story. and taralin cannot wait to write it.

[smileymoth]

tw suicide/self harm/disordered eating idk im having a moment

best part abuot being a fucking coward is that i dont think id ever kill myself. like i am too scared to just injure myself . i cant even cut myself too deep without freaking out like i see a drop of too much blood and i feel like im gona faint . but boy if i do not think abt just ending it every day. i sometimes start thinking about details and it freaks me out so i stop but its just like a passing thought of ohhh i cant fucking take this anymore i need to kill myself . it would be better if i just fucking died bc i dont bring any sort of value to society. im deathly afraid of not getting a job. i dont want to live with my mom for the rest of my life like my aunt. i dont think i could handle it. i need to be alone and i need to be indipendent. ive been hurting myself since i was like 10 by just scratching myself or whatever but like actually starting to cut myself at age 22 is kind of embarrassing like. im an adult. what am i doing. i cant fucking do this shit man. i cried today bc i was all nice n cozy in bed and i just cried bc i was like god i wish this could just be how it was every day. i dont want to do anything i dont want to go to work i dont want to do schoolwork i just want to draw and get paid for it. but i just suck at everything. i need help with everything. i need to kill myself. tbf i could probably do the museum job forever. but i am never getting hired bc they dont need me there. i do feel like a job would be better than school. school makes me want to kill myself. im so fucking stressed about everything right now its unreal. i need a scale so fucking bad too and i need to get back into the flow of restricting properly bc ive just been fucked in that department lately bc im so overwhelmed. its so impossible to keep ttrack of what you eat when youre busy. when you dont have a specific routine. im autistic arent i. whatever. i need to just make sure im always under [redacted} kilos so that if the surgeon finally fucking calls i would not have to be like oops sorry i cant im still an obese cunt who you cant operate on. idk. i need to kill myself as per usual. like i cant keep up with all of this shit. i just want to not be so fucking stresserd all the time but life is all jut about being stressed and doing shit and i dont know if i can handle it. i can barely handle school and now im flipflopping between volunteering at the museum and school and im dying im just straightup dying like im pretty surre why i got so sick now was bc i was stressed tf out bout everything and not resting. and yet i feel like i havent done enough. i have done fucking nothing to secure myself a job in the future. i have no plans for the future beside "ill figure it out as i go" but things really dont work like that. im fucking wasting my life away im useless like. i have nothing to offer anyone. who want me no one. shoot me in the headddd nowwwwwwwwww i need to kms and die forever

and like i dont even know why i am like this. like im just fucked in the head. i feel like im gona be like this forever. idk if i can live to 40 like that. i have no horrid trauma that would result in me being this much of a sad freak who keeps whining. like i feel like im just pretending or like playing the victim to get idk brownie points from god or something bc i dont tell shit to anyone beside like 3 of my friends and all of tumblr but i rly doubt anyone reads these anyway like this shit too logn. tl;dr whatever. whatever. it feels like its my fault that im like this. i feel like i fucked my life up on purpose somehow. that its my fault that i want to kill myself. idk if it works like that. but the thought of that only makes me want to get worse. like ive contemplated so many times of just making myself bleed so hard i pass out but i cant bc im a pussy but i feel like it would prove sth to someone. probably to myself. that im not just making it up for attention even though yeah sureeeee the attention you get from slicing your skin and then making sure to always cover that shit up to make sure nobody ever sees . whatever. i hate this shit if you ever think abt cutting just dont you wont get rid of it and if your mental health keeps getting gradually worse so will that bc hashtag coping mechanism. its like the only thing rn that even helps it like calms me down but then its like aw shucks theres new scarrsssss that take ages to heal. fuck my shit life idk. im stupid and stubborn and i dont think ever. i think too much actually. i hate that i dont feel sick enough i hate that i just feel lazy and ungrateful. i hate feeling like im being weak so that others would do sth about it while i push away any and all help i get offered . if i do accept it i feel like shit afterward bc im not enough to get it done myself. i hate feeling like im always behind. like im sdomehow behind all my friends . ill never be good enough. ill always be behind. i peaked in 9th grade and it was all downhill from there. i shouldve been someone else from the beginning. i hate that i exist i feel sorry for my mother for having to put up with me i feel sorry for my friends for having to put up with me . im just pathetic and sad and i do fuckin gnothing to help myself

[muninnhuginn]

Ask game: The Locked Tomb

thanks for asking and sorry in advance. this is so 'it depends' >_<

my favorite female character

Gonna be pretty boring with this one but Harrow. She's got some many layers of denial going on there (okay tbf so do a lot of the characters but shh) but she knows what she's good at and her particular mix of pride and bluffing is so fun. and it's neat how her psychosis interacts with those traits (thinking specifically of her interactions with Ortus in htn in terms of using him as a measure of what's real whilst not letting on to anyone else her 'weakness')

my favorite male character

Palamedes. I will admit there are probably more layers to John Gaius than Pal overall in terms of the whole... dubious ethics in STEM deal, but personality-wise I definitely prefer Pal to John

my favorite book/season/etc

Harrow the Ninth. I like the unreality vibes and non-linear timeline. It reminds me of fic in a good way. The sense of humour in htn also leans the closest to my own sense of humour (aka, whenever it highlights the absurdity of situations) though I will admit the memes take a knock to my personal rating. Harrow narration and humour also focuses a lot more on what interests me personally than Gideon or Nona. (Also, nothing else has been able to replicate the rush I got in htn when we got [redacted] POV. And that could only be pulled off by holding off for so long)

my favorite ship

Locked Tomb has a specific blend of the platonic and romantic which makes it kinda hard to choose any one as a ship more than a dynamic to study? Like, Griddlehark I probably like more as a concept than what's on paper. Ianthe/Harrow is intriguing but ultimately not endgame for either party and both of them are well aware of that. G1deon/Wake/Pyrrha is almost entirely told in implications, same with Mercymorn/John/Augustus (we do get to see more of them in action but we're missing so much about their past it's like looking at an incomplete jigsaw puzzle). Then there's whatever's going on with devotion and miscommunication with both campal and the tridentarii where they're so codependent but have such wildly different approaches (and in the case of the tridentarii, they're working at complete cross purposes with each other without even seeming to realise it)

uhhh tldr; I'm not sure I can decide on a favourite dynamic never mind a favourite ship. I'm partial to the 'playing house' 'family' in nona though because it never could have lasted. it may not have been 'real', but they scraped out some brief happiness for themselves in the time they had

a character I’d die defending

uh, none of them. I can like them all plenty, but their flaws are generally what make them interesting and I'm not connected enough to the fandom to have been subject to all the worst takes yet

a character I just can’t sympathize with

John Gaius. I can understand theoretically how he was essentially radicalised and has had millennia to convince himself his self-justification and recollection of events places him "in the right". And it's clear that the amount of effort he puts into convincing himself and everyone else that he was right means that he recognises on some level just how much he chose to destroy in the pursuit of what he'd call "saving people". But at the same time, I don't ever see him showing any form of repentance. And, like, I know characters don't *need* redemption arcs etc etc, but like. He's had his descent arc now. It's done. I'm about as sympathetic to him as Yagami Light.

a character I grew to love

I can't choose here. The thing with this series is in the first book I didn't truly feel like I "knew" the characters beyond Gideon and somewhat Harrow. But then htn and ntn both returned to characters and provided so much more context to them that I know that whenever I get around to my reread gtn alone is going to kill me with its implications. Will give shout-outs to both Ianthe and Camilla though

my anti otp

More trainwreck fascination here, but John/Alecto is very... in a series of incredibly unhealthy relationships these two give the impression they're heads and shoulders above the rest in toxicity (which is saying something considering the dios apates). I want to know more.

[cashandprizes]

I'm blessed to know so many Lexis in this fandom. Each one of y'all are fucking badass, you know that?

Alexis has always been so interesting to me. In a story, I don't care about morality, I care about what kind of emotions a character invokes in me and how they drive the story. And besides, I feel the hate that Alexis receive feels super over the top.

NSJNFKJDS - I didn't expect the Alexis/Christian fever to catch on! Listen, I fell in love with Alexis the moment she was mentioned by Vincent but Christian? He snuck into my heart! I didn't really care much about him, even when Milo mentioned that he and the other Wolf Shifters hazed him, but after that one Winter Solstice party where Asher gave him that watch, I was like... "Ok... ok. I see you, Christian. I see you!"

I became enamoured with the idea of Alexis with Christian after that. They'd made a powerful couple! With a side of bitch and all attitude, you know?

FFS - I EVEN DREAMT OF CHRISTIAN LAST WEEKEND! The love for this man is unreal! (Also, Christian is the ONLY redacted boi that I see as a sour cream. Mayo muncher. Fan of floor mattresses - ok, ok, I'll stop)

I'd say my Lexi is pretty fucking good, so I agree. I love my sunshine.

I could go on and on about Alexis (and I have) but like my point remains: she was damned if she did and damned if she didn't, it feels weird that the only canonically female character is so evil, we support women's rights and wrongs, etc.

Christian did not sneak up on me, but I think he snuck up on Lexi Sun. And then they clobbered me over the head and were like "ok cool I have dragged you by the ankles into this fandom and now I will talk about my favorite characters" and I listened. Here we are.

My favorite flavor of them in power couple too! I think their combined bitchiness makes them so fun. It's a lot easier being the least liked person at the party when you have someone else who is the least liked and you can do it together. Plus, in my head they serve looks.

CHRISTIAN IS ABSOLUTELY A MOON CRICKET. A CHALK CRUSADER EVEN. In my head, the only white characters are Christian (I mean. Come on.) and Quinn (ESPECIALLY NOW THAT HE'S BRITISH?????)

Sooooo what was the Christian dream about 👀👀👀👀👀👀

[pepprs]

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