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So in my “will-i-won’t-i” with Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss (where I procrastinate and don’t watch the shows and only absorb the content through TikTok, Tumblr and sometimes Twitter) I came across Staticmoth/ VoxVal.
I saw the scene with Angel and Valentino. His abuse and disgusting behavior. I have an idea on how this moth asshole behaves.
And I have seen some people think that their relationship would be toxic, that Vox and Val, if the predictions are correct and become (or are revealed to be) a couple, would beat the shit (physically, mentally and emotionally) out of each other on the regular, but I think the idea that him and Vox having a healthy relationship could be such a punch to the gut plot wise.
Because that would mean Valentino IS capable of understanding consent. He KNOWS what working with someone else means without disrespect. He FULLY knows what sex is supposed to be like.
But that’s is between equals. Vox? His equal. Fellow overlord.
Angel? His property. Why would he give a shit about his thing?
#hazbin hotel#voxval#staticmoth#angel dust#valentino#Vox#hazbin hotel vox#hazbin hotel valentino#hazbin hotel angel dust#some musings I had#I had this scenario in my head#of a juxtaposition of scenes#like that one scene in Arcane#where it’s Valentino and Vox pretty much making love#like Mel and Jayce#while Angel is in another room suffering THE WORST SHIT EVER for a new movie#like Viktor dying in from of the hex core#the previous scene could be Val locking the studio so Angel could not escape just to hammer home how little Valentino gives a shit#and it’s actively working to make Angel’s situation worse#while he is whisked away by Vox to have his pussy eaten
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do you consider your self made?
#my art#self portrait of sorts#been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things#for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer#(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good)#and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like#I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them#are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize#to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough.#things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either#im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now#just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later#anyways. love you#cw:#top nudity#artistic nudity#the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple#if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw#my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way#lindwormposting
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Me staring at test results: It makes so much sense for her, but if I don't specify or elaborate, then we end up with the fanon take. Ugh, how do I easily explain that if you look at the word 'sex' through a much more old-fashioned lens instead of the modern one, that you'll get a vastly different picture of it?
/takes angycat.png typing to my tags
#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.#[ post-it. ] in a way; you are poetry material. you are full of cloudy subtleties I am willing to spend a lifetime figuring out.#[ i'm so tired. i need to write a post on this or something. and somehow add it to my pinned. in some way. ]#[ 'sex' and 'seduction' are /not/ wrong in my opinion. HOWEVER-- they are /very wrong/ if we go by modern labels and perception. ]#[ god the horror of writing a muse that is so interlaced in a modern world; setting and culture but seems to /ooze/ something archaic. ]#[ this level of refinement isn't of our times in my opinion. these things that she loves aren't commonly loved nowadays. ]#[ there's so much about her that is old-fashioned to me and it's so in my face. and yet fanon doesn't see it. ]#[ i can't believe i'm an old millennial who's screaming boomer or older things. ]#[ but like can we acknowledge that sex in today's age isn't the same as it used to be? not /always/ but more generally so. ]#[ can we acknowledge that /seduction/ didn't always mean what people see it to mean now? ]#[ can we acknowledge that the FEMME FETALE TROPE HAS CHANGED /LEAGUES/ since the 2000s? ]#[ which is my biggest beef actually. and maybe all of my frustration plays into this most. it's that the femme fatale now is sexualized. ]#[ while that is /not/ what the femme fatale used to be. kafka plays into the old school femme fatale so well. film noir days. ]#[ i had this same struggle on yelan where they make VERY OBVIOUS draws to it by her music in her trailer. god; the jazz. ]#[ but kafka suffers from this so very much as well to a point where i don't dare to call her a femme fatale because then it's fanon. ]#[ the fanon i hate so much. ]#[ but just uuuughhhh. UGHHH. it's so much to explain. ]
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aww they're all so cute! i'm sure nothing bad happens to them, because nothing bad ever happens in this game. ahahah. right? right?
#✧— aphe's musings.#i already know what happens. finished that ep a few hours ago 😔🙏#that was awful but also yes my lady keep talking!!!! whatever you say. something about resolution fading into nothing?#yeah you're soooo right 🥰🤭🫶 (<- was not listening and was too busy admiring how pretty she was +#+ and how pretty her voice sounded)#/HJ /LH#I WAS LISTENING. BUT ALSO UHHH NOT REALLY HER VOICE IS LITERALLY HYPNOTIZING#too distracted by her mystical beauty fr no wonder she's called mystic flour cookie#crk devs need to make a beast that i hate i CANNOT keep liking them you guys 😔#anyway someone needs to give dark cacao cookie a hug because wow...... bro is suffering out here#pure vanilla & white lily come get your bf already damn.... he's experiencing The Horrors without you both.... 🙄😒
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Jesus christ 5 again
❝ woah... not me apparently being compatible with an arkham employee, ❞ barton let out an incredulous scoff upon seeing the results of this 'bingo card,' squinting his eyes at some of the boxes. like, what did she mean she doesn't hate his mask? and matches his freak? barton might believe it if elizabeth didn't work at the worst rehabilitation clinic on earth, but unfortunately, she did. but then again — he didn't really know much about her, did he? barton's lips curled downwards in displeasure as he let out an uncertain hum and tilted his head to the side. ❝ what exactly are you trying to accomplish by sending me this, hmm? to show that you are 'different from the rest of them?' ❞ he rolled his eyes at the very concept, looking towards the wall for something. aha... there it was.
❝ yeah right. how about you quit and THEN we'll talk, huh? but for now, get out of here! before i use your eyes for my next doll. i've got a lot to do, and you're preventing me from doing it, ❞ barton picked up the object that he was looking for, which turned out to be a broom, and then proceeded to use it to try to get her to go away. he pushed it in her general direction and waved it around as if he was trying to spook her. and honestly, it might have looked a little bit like this:
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#type bingo!#JSJSJ i'm sorry for using that as the visual aid but i literally thought it was just too perfect for this situation and i am by no means-#insulting elizabeth bc she is honestly SUCH a cool character in my opinion! i was just simply trying to make it easier for people to#imagine how he sees elizabeth (as that little guy running away even though she's literally quite tall LOL) bc he will commonly call people-#pests if they are bothering him so it seemed kind of fitting LMAO but anyhowww i know barton is being mean here and i apologize for that bu#he just really doesn't like ANYONE from arkham so although she got a LOT of bingos he isn't about to engage with her right off the bat.#it's basically the principle for him even though eliza isn't a doctor bc that place has caused him SO much suffering and also some of his-#friends suffering too so like. yeahhh like he said unless she QUITS then barton probably isn't going to even acknowledge that they could-#potentially work as a couple. i have nothing against her personally OFC though like i was saying! i mean i think it could be interesting-#to see if they could develop a friendship w/ each other since eliza did check off a lot of his boxes and then? who knows after that??#perhaps they could go on a date BUT as it stands barton is telling her to 'scram' so yeah 💀
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Your honor my client simply wanted to fuck around and find out
#mel's musings#briefly interrupting my hiatus to leave this here#context: i found a remaster of joking motive with the bw2 soundfont on youtube#and it gave me the absolutely HILARIOUS mental image of raymond shields as colress' defense lawyer#you know. because of the whole ecoterrorism thing (re: freezing an entire city just bc he was curious about kyurem's power)#cause like. there's NO WAY that didn't kill people right#there's no way there weren't some poor folks walking around the streets that got blasted w/ unbreakable ice#(oc tangent: denise nearly died in this attack and has permanent ptsd and aversion to ice/cold in general as a result)#AND YET the dude seemingly suffers no consequences for it. he's still just chilling on team plasma's ship in the postgame#which always made no sense to me because ghetsis and the sages got arrested in bw1 (even if the former escaped)#n's a different story because he was being groomed. but colress has no such excuse#either the pokemon world's justice system is REALLY lax or he had a really good lawyer#and guess what brilliant idea i just had today. i would SO be fleshing this out more if my brain wasn't still eating itself alive#↖️ this user is not normal about raymond shields ace attorney and you best believe she's going to make it everyone's problem#forest for the tree
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"I need them to die in eachothers arms and for it to mean something" then proceeded to make a terrible. horrible punch to the gut
#o.#ow?????????#its. coming off the future alt but sona's afflictions go from being chronic to terminal#and because of the mutations to his vampirism the only way to survive is to feed off of gods#which they find out the hard way when he gets *really* sick and nothing's helping so they panic and Stylus kills a god#as a last 'out of options' resort and he feeds off it and it *works*#and they come to that realization and Sona refuses to continue like that because he says hes not going to live off of other people's-#suffering anymore. and so he makes his choice and at some point they go to visit Will who's completely cut ties with them because she#blames god's death on them being cowards who didnt try hard enough to stop her#which she isnt happy to see that and doesnt take the news well at all and states that theyre just throwing god's sacrifice away by#letting him die which makes the situation even more conflicting for sona who muses on how even beyond the grave#god's putting him in shitty situations. of either living selfishly off of others' deaths or seemingly having let her die for nothing#and will storms off and Caraway [who she's living with now] tells them to stay the night so they do#but it doesnt even matter cause Sona gently wakes Stylus up in the middle of the night and tells him hes dying and so#they sit with eachother and just talk softly and reminisce about meeting the other and they both agree they wouldnt trade it for anything#then he dies very peacefully in Stylus' arms#and will wakes up the next morning and comes downstairs and Caraway gently informs her and she runs into the other room#and Stylus is still sitting there in the same spot just. holding whats left of him. unmoved for hours#AND THEN I HAD TO STOP BRUSHING MY TEETH. CAUSE WTF. MAN???#the emotional damage may entirely be dependent on the emotional attachment level to these guys#and nothing otherwise but. if youre me. yknow. [shatters like glass]#MHMMH#cool#character death#I GUESS#sonaverse#delete tag#lore dump#very much a noncanon thing but. mmgnmgmg [wiggly sheet of metal noise]
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He knows this itch… oh no he knows this itch .. he’s grabbing at one frumpy Wing, “I swear to me and to Hell if you start molting now I am going to rip all of you off … again”
#it’s like getting your time of the month early#it suuucks#but also mun got bit by so many mosquitoes#last night at the party and is suffering ..#OTL#time to make my muse suffer#dash crack#dash shenanigans#dash commentary#// dash and ask#stuff until#I can get to my#drafts at home
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It becomes super easy to consider S19 as a simulation when you know [for a fact] Grif and Simmons would never actually separate, [because of who they are and how they've grown through their whole ass experience together] and instead realize the only reason they did is because Church did the whole 'I forget you' with them. Because that's what he did so he'd assume that was the best way to handle that. I'd also like to think its the first sign of him having cascade failure and thus realizing he was inevitable to deconstruct which hearkens back to the 'lets run one more' in the teaser.
#rvb#red vs blue#look as someone who uses canon to write stories#and then the crew giving us carte blanche to pick our own ending#Im suffering here cause I ENJOYED 15-17 but liked Snippets of 19#So now Im trying to write a realistic heavy story with satisfying results to give my view of an Alt 19 - but its like#Do I add in 15-17? Do I not? There was a lot of growth I want to use; a lot of literary and plot devices#but also a lot I wanna gloss#DO I KILL DOC HEROICALLY?! DO I GIVE SARGE THE DEATH HES ALWAYS WANTED/ACTUALLY DESERVEDS/BLAZE OF MOTHERFUCKING GLORY?!#OR HOW TRAMAZIED TO I WANT WASH TO BE?! MAKING HIS DISABILTY FROM 15-17 GO AWAY SUCKS BUT ALSO DID IS A THING AND TUCKER NEEDS TO SUFFER TO#YOU CANT JUST WALK AWAY FROM META-ING!!! YOU NEED THERAPY MY DUDE#But also I still want them near/on/close to Chorus. . . and maybe revisit a certain closet (Bow-chicka-wow-wow)#Also this is just me musing again - I just like to think things over and extrapolate possible meanings behind things#rvb spoilers#?#In case? Are we still doing spoilers for 19?
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a quick comparison of a comparison I'd done last month (19-Apr-24) while getting back into the knack of drawing my guy
#my art#my ocs#personal#cos here comes the tag ramblings#people following me not knowing that this OC showing up in my art was created for an original verse back in 2014#an ancient artefact of my highschool self who's grown with me#he doesn't get to be a savant on medical sciences without some kind of draw back now#if I don't get to know everything there is to know about all aspects of medicine he doesn't either#suffer the need to refer back to books and reference guides to make sure you're correct#having him back as a muse got part of me itching to go back to uni AGAIN only this time for medsci... but my GPA is too shit#max gpa in nz (all A+) is a 9.0 and to go into med as a grad you need min 6.0#and my cumulative after 2 degrees is... 4.9 >:|#I think my sheer determination to slam my head against the wall for 7 straight years while refusing to get medicated for anything should-#-merit special justification for entrance but that's just me haha#A better path for me would probably be gaining qualification in medical laboratory science - as despite being a lab tech-#-I am not positioned for the analysis n interpretation of samples for diagnosis but I'd like to#mostly I just isolate PBMCs and stand in the blast zone of 7 centrifuges almost as old as me#I find a lot of purpose in my grunt work... but it'd be nice to have a more direct understanding#but I know myself and I know I can't study and work at the same time- but hey... I could surprise myself#oc: JS Antyllus
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i wrote One Whole Thing are u all proud of me
#(ooc.)#my attention span is shot#well and truly#idk if what i wrote even makes sense#but alas#one day i'll get back to my other blogs#chuuya muse is strong but my energy to write is not#agony and suffering#if u got this far into my tags like this and i'll send u an ask maybe#hopefully
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im thinking about that stupid twink elf again and crying and throwing up
drawing some hot fanart of leonard tho (soon to be revealed..........) so it's okay :)))) (<- liar) good night
#drakengard#drakengard 2#yaha Drakengard#gu6chan's musings#a LOT of ppl especially in the west don't know his story and guys .........#GUYS.........#IT'S SO UGHHHHHHHHHH *Bangs head against the wall throws up explodes*#did you know the really neat picture of his death is called 'End of Suffering'???? DO U KNOW WHY#ASK ME ABOUT YAHA I KNOW HIS STORY AND I WILL TELL IT TO YOU#because when you hear urick shrug him off???? WHEN YOU HEAR HIM COMMENT ABOUT HIS PERFECT BODY AND THEN SAY#'MY BEAUTY; IT IS MY SIN' AND THEN HIS MAKING PEACE WITH IT LAST SECOND SAYING AUGHHHHB I'M LOSING MY MIND#context makes you KINDA understand urick but also#you'll want to slap him SO bad after omg#yaha was a victim and if his fight wasn't so awful and homophobia-inducing it'd make me want to DIE#since he was a little baby boy he's been dealing with shit..... please if any Drakengard 2 fans want to know about lore?#ask me about it#but most importantly#ask me about yaha because once you have the goods on him you'll want to throw up and rip yourself into tiny little pieces#just like me!!!!!!!!!!! any yaha fans out there im crying to the heavens ......#i have a lot of fanart i need to share about him lmao
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Besties I should not have spent 6+ hours writing yesterday. I am desperately floundering just trying to make basic conversation with people my brain is FRIED
#mel's musings#to be fair. i honestly did not expect i'd still be feeling this out of it a whole day later#it's my brother's grad party today and yeah. it's miserable out here#but at least i finally have an adhd prescription that doesn't make my life hell and actually lets me get shit done#and yesterday i just got a bit too silly with it. it happens#my brain is FINALLY coming back and i have 2.4k words of paldea au dena fic to show for it#not sure if i'm brave enough to share it publicly because i am NOT a writer at my core and i'm still very much pushing through brain fog rn#but just knowing that i did something i couldn't have managed a month ago is incredibly satisfying#took a lot out of me and i'm kinda suffering for it rn. but i'm slowly starting to feel like myself again and that's enough for me
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Honestly today’s just been brutal for my mental state since like 10 a.m. and none of my usual techniques have really helped, probably bc with guests im still stressed. Ended up deleting stuff and hit with extreme uncertainty / dissatisfaction at my writing/portrayals which is more or less why i kicked myself off for the dady other than the little bit i tried to be on earlier. but at least writing is distracting rather than me just being an Ouroboros in my own thoughts, so i’ll be around / lurking. Nor sure how much i’ll write since i can only write certain themes in this sorta headspace, idk if i have any asks/threads with that but we’ll see. maybe it’ll let up idk.
But basically its just if i seem off / not answering / not talking really in tags, its not anything anyone has done here and i dont want anyone to think its their fault or anything! its not. So please don’t feel it is !! its just being pushed to max stress or days on end, people irl only talking to me about stressful things, lack of sleep, and stress for tuesday without a space of my own pushing me to my limits after several days.
#negativity tw#i hate making negative posts but just like#i dont want anyone thinking im ignoring#bc im not try too#no ones done anything wrong#its all on me#but in case i do post or answer things but not be talkative#gestures vaguely this is why#᛭ — [OOC] angst is the game and tears are the currency#stares at some of my muses; we can Suffer together with our struggles#the only vague good thing i guess#is just writing wise some themes i can hit harder#(its the struggles and suffering)
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cute sig/sieb hc bc valentines comin up:
siebren being the big spoon holding their body pillow.... ...... meanwhile reverse is sigma using gravity to be the little spoon....
#mission records + ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ sᴇᴇɴ sᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ; ᴛʀᴀᴠᴇʟᴇᴅ sᴏ ғᴀʀ +#2023 is just me forceshipping my own muses LOL#me daily; HAVE YOU CONSIDERED HOW IN LOVE THEY ARE#u might think this is a recent development#but my canon was like this from day 1#over THREE YEARS of developing this gay af canon#but now i just dont really care anymore and wanna post all 5000 of the hc's i've accumulated and you WILL suffer#I HAVE TO MAKE MY OWN CONTENT AND YES I WILL MAKE EVERYBODY SUFFER FOR THAT ALONE LMAO#THE PRICE OF HAVING TO SELF INDULGE SHIP CONTENT#I'M CRINGE I'M CRINGE!!!! (I KNOW I AM LOL)
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Besides Nero's awkwardness, the sound of boots echoing around the vehicle was perhaps the most noticeable noise. Eventually, he takes a seat opposite her, hunched over with hands clasped in thought, arms resting on parted legs. He purses his lips, slightly frustrated and agitated at having come one step closer but still not being close enough. His forehead gleamed with a few white hair strands clinging to it as he contemplated. Trying not to stare at her too long, unable to look at Lady directly -- observing that she was still surrounded by just fabric. His questions are numerous, but where do they begin and end?
" -- And, Dante? What happened to him? "
starter for @elegiies & Lady !!
#「 Muse: Nero 」「 When this is over; I'll make you submit / Do you have a problem with that? 」#[ see now i Know we have this scene where she briefly says xyz -- but like consider we put a little more meat in this sandwich -- like#what's a blt without the bacon -- y'know ?? ]#[ I also just like RespectfuL nERO like henlo its practically naked woman aVERT EYES Church Boy Tm Tm Only ]#sjkdhkdjhdkjl#<3#[ This might only be small but this is the most writing i've done here in a minute and nero is buzzing in my head hehehehehehhe so if you#see me @ ing you on discord (: good suffer me <3 ]
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