#i know these are sooooo basic but I got bored and wanted to make these

[gatorbites-imagines]

The Hobie brown x male reader fics are non existent and it’s so confusing. Like he’s so fruity????

Sooooo- could u do hc’s for Hobie please? :0 either smut fluff or both! <3

Thank u <3

Hobie Brown nsfw alphabet

Have an alphabet :)

I am 100% blaming @trianglesimp for some of these headcanons, cuz oh boy. They got some of that toe curling content.

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Hobie would of course do aftercare if he ever topped, but he bottoms most of the time, so you’re the one who’s gotta take care of him instead. He doesn’t need too much, maybe a wet wipe to get some of the spit and cum off his face, if he’s feeling it, and you checking in on him, but other than that your good.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His favorite part about himself is probably his legs or his lips, on you its your dick, or your hands and shoulders.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Hobie nasty, but in the good way. He doesn’t care where you cum, as long as its on him or in him, or both. The type to gargle your cum if you bust in his mouth, just because. Or sticks his tongue out and lets it drip all over the floor or your lap.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

I cant see Hobie as the kind to have a dirty secret, why keep it a secret when he could tell you and have you do it to him, you know? Dirtiest secret is that he collects Pokemon cards or something like that, wont admit he likes it.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Pretty damn experienced, isn’t the kind to beat around the bush and has had his handful of one night stands or short relationships. The kind to try things out if they sound interesting, and keep doing them if he likes them.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Likes anything really. But if you are a fellow spiderman, you guys fuck on the ceiling more than either of you like to admit. Likes to be pushed up against the wall chest first, or for you to fuck his face.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Never takes anything too seriously. Would pick up a phone call if his phone rang. Takes you out of his mouth to answer his watch from the spider alliance, see what they want, and take you back into his mouth after, or even during the call if it’s boring.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Doesn’t put too much effort into it, sure he still wants to look good but doesn’t put too many hours into it.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

In the beginning of your relationship, I can’t see him as too romantic, but after a while and you two really do fall in love, he has his moments where he just wants to make love or babbles about how much he loves you.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Doesn’t jerk off a whole lot. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t have a high libido, because he does, but he just goes to you if he needs to get off. Why do it himself when hes got you around to help him.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Voyeurism.

Marking (Hickeys, spit, cum, knifeplay, etc)

Choking

Makeup stains (like making him suck you off when hes wearing lipstick, runny mascara, etc)

Powerplay

Praise kink

Degradation kink

Taking photos and videos

Semi public or even fully public

Collars or wearing a lock on a chain

Wearing a plug or different toys after you’ve filled him

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Anywhere, anytime. He does not care, as long as there’s enough space for you guys to fit.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Not too hard to get Hobie going tbh. Just look at him right, grab his thigh or put your hand in his back pockets. Send him a text to meet you in the bathrooms, or just motion towards it. He isn’t picky.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

I like to think he would try out most things, but something he would never do is things like raceplay, or finance play. Why would he want to bring something like capitalism into the bedroom.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Prefers giving, but has nothing against receiving. Just likes going down on you even more than he likes when you do it on him. Has no gag reflex, or has very little of a gag reflex, so he can easily take all of you and just let you warm on his tongue if need be.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

You guys’ pace tends to be pretty fast, mainly because you’re both worked up and don’t have the patience for going slow. Of course, you guys have moments where you take it slowly and full of love, but for the most part its quick and dirty.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

All for quickies, Hobie loves them. You don’t even have to ask for the most part.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

I like to think Hobie is the type to try out most things once to see if its anything he likes, so he’d be up to try anything you bring to the table, as long as you’ll try anything he brings in too.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Because of the spider bite he’s got incredible stamina, and there’s no way for you to keep up unless you were bitten too or have powers of your own. Could go all night and all morning if he wanted too, and still go out for patrol, if that says anything.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Owns a handful of toys, but for the most part its toys you guys can use together, or you can use on him. Hed rather just wait for you to get home to get off, instead of using toys.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

A big tease, loves to tease you and wear the clothes he knows you love, or rub up against you when you guys are supposed to just be hanging out. You give as good as you get though, which Hobie loves too.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Mans is loud and isn’t scared of being vocal. Its lead to you having to clamp a hand over his mouth as you fuck him, which just makes Hobie even louder, it’s a horrible cycle.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Knows how to sew, knit, anything really. Uses it to patch up his battle vest, or other clothes of his or yours. Why go out and get new stuff when he can just fix it himself. Knows how to make a pretty amazing orange cake for some reason.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Above average in length, but isn’t too thick, a nice size that needs a bit of work to get ready for, and you might be intimidated the first time you see it if you wanna take it in your mouth. A few veins. Cut.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Has a pretty high drive, and unless you are a spider person too it can be a little hard to keep up most days. But if you are exhausted, he will take care of himself if he has too.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Id you guys are in your bedroom he’d fall asleep pretty quickly after, as long as you are in the bed with him. But if its anywhere else he just walks it off like nothing happened.

[sammysdewysensitiveeyes]

I really enjoyed Mark Russell's Flintstones comic, which was pretty in-your-face satire, but still gave the characters some heart, so I'm willing to give his X-Factor a chance. That being said:

Gee, I'm sooooo glad we're back to pointlessly killing off D-List mutants after Krakoa did the work of putting everyone back on the table for writers to use, it's definitely my favorite part of the X-Books and not a creatively bankrupt waste or anything. I know people might say, "There's too many mutants," or "Who cares about Rusty Collins?" But despite there already being too many mutants for people to use, writers keep adding more (even this book has like three new characters), and every character is someone's favorite.

I don't even particularly like Rusty, he was one of those characters that never caught on for me. I thought his personality was bland, and even back when he was first introduced I thought being "just" a pyrokinetic was boring (at least characters like Pyro and Magma had some unique aspect to their "fire" powers). But damn, I feel so sorry for any Rusty fans out there, he was dead for decades, he was barely there in Krakoa, and now he gets killed off one issue into X-Factor. I still have some hope for Feral, though, given that some of the team is "clinging to life."

I don't know how much, if any of the characters history Russell is aware of. He at least knows that Rusty was part of the original X-Factor, so there's that. Too bad Rusty is dead again. I really don't know what Frenzy and Cecelia are doing on this team. I could believe it of Pyro, since he already served on Freedom Force, and was only too happy to attack his fellow mutants while on the government payroll. Still, I'd expect him to have a more realistic and cynical attitude about the new X-Factor, given that Freedom Force ended with him and Blob abandoned to die, and the US government not giving a shit. But then, that would require actually engaging with the character's history which neither Russell nor Duggan seemed interested in doing.

Pyro's new characterization seems to be "party idiot." I can't say I completely mind, Duggan's Pyro was at least a "fun" version of the character, but this is the second time now Pyro's been a cast member for an X-Book, is it too much to ask that a writer actually take him seriously? I don't even mean "make him a badass," I mean give us some actual crumbs of character development, even if he's still mostly comic relief. The dude died saving Senator Kelly after a long, lingering terminal illness, and no one wants to address that? Like, at all?

Good question, Pyro, what IS Cecelia doing there? She was always one of the more reluctant X-Men who was more interested in being a doctor, how was she talked into this? Also, Pyro, your last direct interaction with Cecelia was when you betrayed her and got her fired after she saved your life treating your bullet wounds, you've got a lot of nerve flirting with her. I am reluctantly accepting that Pyro is basically being written as "straight" now, given that the "gay Pyro" storyline was stolen out from under him by bland replacement Simon "No one asked for this fucking character to exist" Lasker. Deeply bitter that the Pyro who got to canonically fulfill our movie-verse Allerdrake fantasies wasn't even the right Pyro.

Speaking of which, it would actually be a very funny meta-joke if Pyro gets killed off and immediately replaced by Pyro II/Simon, but if that actually happens I will absolutely start biting people. I waited decades for my fave to come back, do NOT take him away again, Mark Russell.

Also wondering how Pyro got the second-in-command gig. Was it just a stupid decision by corporate guy who doesn't understand how the team should function, or is there something sinister going on, like Pyro is more willing to toe the corporate line? Also, shut up, Alex, Pyro was actually doing some good with the Marauders while you were on the "fucked-up remedial last-chance" Hellions team

Like I said, I am willing to give this book a chance, and see what Russell does with it, but he's already shown he's willing to throw characters into the meat-grinder. I don't mind satire and a good story, but I also actually LIKE the characters. I like Pyro and Cecelia and Frenzy, I'd rather not see them twisted into satirical versions of themselves or abruptly killed off. I'd like to see their histories actually dealt with instead of jokes about Frenzy once working as a dog breeder. Despite the meta-commentary in the first issue about "the characters are interchangable, it's all about the story," in long-running comic series like X-Men, a lot of us actually DO care about the characters. That's what keeps us reading. Have fun with your story, Russell, but please don't break the toys.

I'm sure there's much more to say here about the writing for Havok and Polaris, but I'll let other people handle that, I'm mostly here for Pyro.

[woolying]

i meant to post this last week before the first in-game comic came out but i forgot oops.... anyywayyy i am sooooo obsessed with teruko plays among us so im posting my initial predictions based on canon/what i think would be funny (girl who likes mongy monday and drdt a bit too much and is trying to be normal about it) also i explain the roles for people who may not know them!

i might update these each week as more info comes out in the comic

(under the cut bc its long / drdt spoilers)

DAVID

jester (neutral role, has to get voted out to win) - i think its kinda self explanatory as to why lol (i hope teruko shoots him <3)

i would say imitator (crew, in meetings can select a dead crewmate with certain roles and take it for one round) and he uses it on xander if (probably when) he dies, to sorta match what he does in canon, but i didnt put down any imitable roles for xander... but i guess he still could be anyway if im wrong about xander's role

ACE

morphling (imposter, can disguise as other people) - bc blackened, and he imitated eden in the note?? idk

either that or swooper (imposter, can temporarily turn invisible) - bc hes sneaky like that

veteran (crewmate, kills anyone who interacts with them) - the scared of other people role

XANDER

executioner on teruko (neutral, has to get teru voted out to win) is my fav guess i think

maybe vigilante (crew, can guess imposter roles in meetings to kill them, if they guess wrong they die) - just bc it suits him?? idk

one of the imposter roles idk - bc attempted murderer, maybe teruko shoots him?

^^ i wrote these before episode 3 came out and we have since seen xander doing a task so this is a no (tbh i dont think executioner does tasks either?? i forget if its a toggle or not)

CHARLES

amnesiac (neutral, basically no role but if they find a dead body they can steal their role and be it for the rest of the game) - haha get it because he forgot...anyways

investigator (crew, sees footprints when people walk around), tracker (crew, can place arrows onto people to see their location), or spy (crew, can see exactly who is where on admin table) - investigative roles that don't involve dead bodies

^^ another update post episode 3: charles on admin table!!??? (but notes say he always does that what a loser)

WHIT

swapper (crew, can swap votes onto someone else in a meeting) or transporter (crew, can teleport two people to trade places during the round) just bc i think he'd have fun with it lmao, both can be very chaotic/annoying roles or rlly good/helpful depending on how the person uses them (he uses them to be annoying)

mystic (crew, gets notified whenever someone dies) - just vibes tbh

EDEN

engineer (crew, can vent and fix sabotages remotely) - a support role suits her i think

i kinda got nothing really oops??? we'll see i guess

MIN

undertaker maybe?? (imposter, can drag dead bodies) - bc blackened, altering the crime scene🔥🔥🔥

tbh a more suiting imposter role might be traitor (a random crewmate who becomes imposter if both die early) but idk how this group would manage to kill the imposters that quickly... either that or amnesiac picking up an imposter role based on the fact that She Didn't Want This

altruist (crew, gets to sacrifice their life to revive a dead participant) - min voice i just wanted to save you!! i can imagine teruko dying in the middle of nowhere and min bringing her back

J

vigilante or jailor (crew, can tag people to be jailed during the round and choose whether to execute them during the meeting) - i think shes pretty involved in trials so a meeting crew role makes sense? though j gives off such bad guesser vibes lol may she rest in peace

tracker - partially vibes, but also i think it would be funny if she got a role that can be kinda boring in some circumstances bc she'd be so mad about it

AREI

guardian angel on eden (neutral, wins if eden wins) - Arei "I guess this time I can be the person you rely on" Nageishi

jailor maybe - it reminds me of her in mins trial with the pen idk vibes

tbh im not rlly sure if the blackeneds will end up being imposters?? bc it almost feels too obvious but maybe the simplest answer is the right one yknow? also since min was added off a poll i was kinda doubting, but i feel like nico/levi could also be imposters if they were chosen instead? but idk who else would be if not the blackeneds bc at that point its just random so i cant really guess

these could be all totally completely wrong honestly im just having fun thinking about it! i cannot wait to see more YAYYY YIPPPEEEE

[haedgaf]

hello please share some tmi about your crush with the crowd (i got nosy after all these asks you answered yesterday..) (and obviously only if you want to….)

HAJDHAKDHSKDJDK OMG I LOW-KEY WANNA GIVE A WHOLE RUN DOWN PF EVERYTHING but let me just show the tweets i made that explain what happened 😒😒

BRO EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT AGAIN IS AHSKSHDKDB I WAS SO DEVASTATED 😭😭😭 june you don’t get it i want him sooooo bad 💔💔 he is so cute and funny and silly and that’s exactly what i look for in a boy, his only flaw is that he is like a few months younger but errr but at the same time i’m convinced i only like him because i’m so love and crush deprived after my two last class crushes left the college so i had to settle for him.. ANYWAYS

some crush lore: i swear at one point he wanted me not kidding you like last school year we literally had this moment where the teacher tasked students to help each other and i basically already knew what to do but he went up to me and asked me if i understood and i was like “yeah i did this last year” (since he was a new student last year while it was my second year) and he DECIDED TO STAY AROUNDGAJDHAKD BRAHHH and then he just talked to me for 30-40 minutes about EVERYTHING and at some point i placed my bag off the chair and he said “i’ll sit down here” EEEEEKKKK and just continued to tell me about himself brooo i learned so much about him that we literally found out we went to the same secondary school WE ARE SO MEANT TO BE IDKKK and i swear our conversation wouldn’t have ended jf it wasn’t the end of the lesson 😭😭

if i wasn’t already crushing on someone last year i would’ve been hitting on him but i think about it so many times now like fuckkk HE WANTED ME THERE IS NO OFHER REASON FOR HIM TO WASTE HIS RIME WITH ME ONSTEAD OF HIS FRIENDS 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ (but maybe he considered me a friend because i lowk used to always harass him by coming over to him because i was bored and wanted to know what he did) (BUT JUSY OUT OF FRIENDLINESS, now i’m too embarrassed to go up to him like fuck 😭)

there some other moments too but urghh this year i was just like he is so stinking cute man (i always thought this) and i was like ykw let’s make him my class crush and then i overheard the fact that he got eyes for someone else like FUCK MY LIFE MAN.

[dameronology]

timing's a bitch [5/5] - s.h

summer '87

“oh my love, i lied to you, but i never needed to" - liar, paramore (x)

“if you have chemistry, you only need one other thing…timing. but timing is a bitch” - how i met your mother

a.k.a the three times that steve harrington chose the wrong moment, the one time that you chose the wrong moment, and the one time you both got it right (series masterlist)

a/n: i am sooooo sorry for how long this took. i have a long list of excuses but i shall not bore you. we have, however, finally made it to the end and i owe you all the biggest fucking thank you in the world for all your support on this series. i love u all and i hope this is the ending u wanted <3

Twelve months was the longest period of time you’d gone without seeing Steve Harrington.

You’d seen him basically every day for your entire goddamn life and then he’d just…disappeared. Left the arcade in a cloud of shame and then you hadn’t seen him since. He was fine; you knew that much. A quick call to his parents had let you know that he was with them in Florida. Fuck knows why, because as far as you’d known he had hated his parents almost as much as he hated Florida. But, as it had turned out, knowing didn’t account for much. You thought you knew Harrington’s every move, but everything in the last year had completely blindsided you. Even if it was just an anomaly, it was enough to make you question everything. It had hurt more than you cared to admit – the sudden revelation, the disappearance, the lack of contact – but the realisation that he’d admitted to loving you had carried you for just a little while.

Only a little while. Three months at the most. After that, you lost hope and moved on.

Did it feel like part of you was missing? Completely. Was there anything you could do about it? Absolutely not.

Steve’s name became something of a curse word amongst your friendship circle. Friendship triangle, actually. The combination of Eddie and Robin had been the only thing carrying you through. Hawkins had changed as you knew it, because as it turns out, you and Steve had shared a pair of rose-coloured lenses. The town sucked without them and man you hoped Florida was even worse for him. Maybe one of the crocodiles or swamps would swallow him up. At least that way you could get closure.

It was hard not to think about him; to think about whether or not he’d started dating again, about how much he was probably suffocating under the same roof as his parents. The part of you that had been hurt by him wanted so badly for him to be aching too – for you, for the familiar, for the realisation that Tampa Bay might have been great, but no place was truly great without you – but the rest of you just pined. For him, for his dumb sarcasm and ridiculous ability to be so smart about everything, for his shitty driving and that stupid cologne and the cursed BMW that you were afraid to shine a UV light in for fear of a live Jackson Pollock experience.

You missed him.

Eddie and Robin were good company. Every time you were sad, you would find yourself with them at the Hideout, laughing about something stupid and then revelling in the realisation that you were going to be fine. Everything was going to be fine. You had your friends.

“So…I like her, but I don’t like like her, you know?” Eddie’s aimless ramblings filled your ears one cold Wednesday night. Class had been long, but not as long as this conversation. Was he even going the right way home? You’d no clue.

“So, break up with her then, Eds,” you replied, unable to resist an eyeroll. “It’s obvious.”

“But she’s so hot!”

“And?!” you shot back. “You can’t just hold out for someone because they’re hot.”

“Right. If you did, you’d be in a Florida swamp by now.”

You shot Eddie a glare. “Watch it.”

“I regretted it as soon as I said it,” he grimaced. “Sorry. I really am.”

Eddie reached across and squeezed your arm, giving you a smile. He was far too easy to forgive.

As it turned out, he had been going the right way, because your apartment building had finally made an appearance in the distance. One of the better developments in your life in the past year had been that you, Robin and Eddie found a place together. It was a complete shithole, and you were pretty sure your neighbour was a pervert, but it was yours. More yours than your place in New York had been. 

Hopping out the van, you shut the door behind you and fumbled around for your keys. Eddie wasn’t far behind, just taking a moment to assess the damage the pavement had done to his wheel when he’d collided it with at the morning. Something about the government shouldn’t have put a pavement there and I don’t pay taxes for this shithole to destroy my van.

Unlocking the door, you stepped inside and was immediately greeted by Robin. She was in attack mode, elbowing her way past you and towards Eddie.

“Munson!” she yelled. “How many times have I told you not to smoke week inside? I’m trying to study for my finals but all I can smell is your skanky goddamn stoner broccoli- “

“- woah, woah, woah!” Eddie held his hands up in defence. “Before you rip my head off, don’t you want to have that conversation with our beloved roommate first?”

You glanced at them, thinning your eyes. “The hell are you talking about?”

“Uh…” Robin trailed off. “We should go inside for this.”

“Or you could just tell me here?” you suggested.

Despite your advice, your friends both took an arm each and lead you inside to the sofa, where they laid you down. Robin did have a point about the smell in here.

“You should sit down for this,” Eddie began.

You propped yourself up on your elbows. “I’m lying down?”

“Oh…” he trailed off. “Then you might want to sit up for this.”

Rolling your eyes, you sat up and swung your legs round so they were on the floor. “What did you want to talk to me about?”

Robin gulped. “Steve called.”

“Here?” your eyebrows shot up.

“Yeah. Six times, actually,” she continued.

“What?!” you exclaimed. “When?”

Eddie and Robin glanced at each other.

“Guys,” you pushed. “When?”

“Three months ago. And also, nine months ago, and also ten months ago, and he also tried calling my house the week he left and…” Eddie trailed off. “Why do you look so angry?”

“Why the fuck are you only telling me this now?!”

“We thought it was best you didn’t know!” Robin chimed in. “He just made you so miserable and-

“- that’s not your decision to make!” you snapped.

“No, you’re right…. we know that. Now. We know that now,” Eddie said. “We just thought it was worth telling you because rumour has it, he’s back in town.”

“Rumour has it from who?”

“My eyes,” Robin admitted. “I saw him yesterday at the coffee shop down the road. I think he was looking for you.”

--

It wasn’t in your nature to dramatically storm off. It was even less in your nature to steal Eddie Munson’s keys and aimlessly speed off into the night, but you probably earnt the right to do after learning that your best friends had been lying to you. Betrayal from Steve had sucked, but even more so from them. What sucked even more was the realisation that he hadn’t been ignoring you for a year. That was a lot to deal with.

You found yourself driving to Lover’s Lake. It had been an unconscious decision – less conscious that the one to fuck up Eddie’s tyres even more on the way over – but it was weirdly peaceful once you got there. Freaky alien portals aside, it was a pretty relaxing place when it was empty at night. The water was completely dark, lit up only by the moon and stars, where you could be alone with your thoughts and-

“I have a gun!”

The words from your mouth had been quick – and a lie – when you heard someone step on a twig behind you. It wasn’t the worse lie in the world. You could have had a gun in your pockets. Maybe. How big were guns anyway? You didn’t know.

“If you come a step closer I will fucking END you-“

“- you don’t carry a gun.”

There was only one person in the world who could be truly certain of that decision. Steve fucking Harrington.

A beat passed and before he could say anything else, you’d thrown yourself at him. You both fell to the ground – Steve breaking your fall with his body and letting out an ow – and for a split second, you weren’t sure you were decking him or fighting him. The decision came to you naturally, it turned out, because when he tried to sit up, you tackled him back into the ground with a hug. Steve sat there aimlessly for a second, but quickly wrapped his gangly arms back around you.

“Fuck,” you murmured. “What the fuck, Steve?!”

“Couldn’t I be asking you the same thing?!” he demanded. “You’ve been ignoring my calls for a year!”

You took a step back from the hug, glowering for a moment. “I haven’t. I promise.”

“Well you haven’t been answering them-“

“- it was Eddie and Robin!” you cut him off. “We moved in together…it’s too fucking long to explain, but they are meddlers. They are meddling meddlers. I’ve spent the last year waiting for you to call Steve and for fuck’s sake, man! It’s me. If you are genuinely stupid enough to think that I would willingly ignore your calls then you don’t know me at all!”

Steve was silent for a second. That was a lot of information to process. It was good information – encouraging, indeed - but it also meant he had to change his entire worldview that he’d spent the last year adjusting to. Not unlike you had in the last hour.

“Besides…” you carried on. Yeah, it was all coming out now. “You’re the one who accidentally confessed your love for me. You’re the one who ran away! So even if I had been ignoring your calls, who’s to say it wasn’t justified?”

“No, yeah…you’re right,” Steve murmured. “I’m sorry. I really am. I know that doesn’t cut it at all. It doesn’t even begin to make it right but if you would just give me the chance, I promise I will make it up to you.”

“A chance?” you raised your eyebrows. “What kind of chance?”

“The same kind of chance I asked for the night you left for college almost two years ago,” he said. “The chance that’s been fucked over and over because of bad timing-”

“- have you ever considered that maybe you were the one who was about twelve hours behind everyone else?”

“Have you ever considered that maybe you were twelve hours ahead?”

You smiled. “Get to the point, Steve.”

“I love you,” Steve declared. He flung his arms out at as he did, almost as though he were announcing it to the dark clouds above you. “I’m sorry for running away, but in doing it, I realised there’s only one place I want to run and that’s to wherever you are. Even if it’s almost midnight, by a lake, on a freezing cold night.”

“How did you even know I was here?” you asked.

“You have three places you go when you’re not home and that’s here, my house or the record shop and – look, I don’t want to rush you, but it would be really wonderful if we could circle back to where you stand vis-à-vis that love declaration-”

“- fucking obviously I love you too,” you cut him off.

Steve smiled.  There was no doubt in his mind that you were still seething but finally, after two years of swings-and-roundabouts, you’d finally said the same thing at the same time. It had been a two year long head-ache – one you still felt dizzy from – but hey. You’d finally caught each other at the same moment. And god forbid you’d ever let him go.

“But this has to be it now, Steve,” you poked him in the chest. “No one-night stands, no other people, no bullshit. I can’t take bullshit.”

“This is it,” he said affirmatively. “I promise. I’m not ever letting you out of my sight again.”

“You promise?”

Steve grabbed your hand, pulling your pinky out of your balled up fist and wrapping it around his. “You have my word.”

Finally, he kissed you.

You’d kissed multiple times before; that fateful night two years ago, the even more fateful one in New York, and the time it almost happened in the lake just two miles from where you were stood. All of those things had taken you a step closer to this but the moment in itself felt like a weight off your shoulders. Almost like it was something that had been written in the stars since the first day you’d thrown a Lego brick at him, and both of you had been holding your breath waiting for you to happen ever since.

“I’m gonna kill Robin and Eddie, by the way,” you quietly said.

“Don’t,” Steve murmured against you. “I only just got you back. I can’t have you going to prison.”

"Yeah, fair point," you laughed. "Besides, if I can forgive you, I can forgive them."

"Hey!"

"Sorry..." you trailed off. "I love you."

Steve smiled. "I love you too."

[subhumanselflover]

its ya boi (girl) back at it again and I am politely requesting an nsfw alphabet with happy chaos. you don't have to do all 26 letters ofc!! I'll take any few really :]c

- 🐲

note: this was the request that tumblr ate. i’m writing it up again and hoping it doesn’t disappear … here’s every letter though, just for you happy chaos anon!!

Happy Chaos NSFW alphabet!

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He’s a bit clingy, but not one for a lot of aftercare. He’ll call you pretty and tell you that you did well, but mostly he just wants to curl up with you and not leave.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

For himself? Happy Chaos likes his chest and abs. For his partner, he’s a big fan of hips and thighs.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

This is so unserious, but do you think Chaos can change the flavor of his cum at will..? Ahem, anyway.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Most of his past sexual experience remains a secret, but he had a fair amount of points of experimenting with different people. He doesn’t like to talk about it, though, Chaos would rather stay in the present with you.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Well, as per the last one.. he’s got a handful of experience, and certainly knows what he’s doing.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Any position that allows him to keep his hands all over you. It’s hard for him to pick a favorite.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He’s sooooo unserious most of the time. Chaos loves to mess around and make jokes here and there. He will get more serious in some cases though, like when he gets sappy.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Strikes me as the type of guy to dye his pubes or shave them into funny shapes when he gets bored. Mostly doesn’t manage them unless he’s got some reason he wants to though.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

I’ve definitely talked about this before, but he’s mostly not that intimate, except for when the sappy side inevitably kicks in. Then he’s the sweetest.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

I think that when he jerks off, he cleans up by just snapping and the cum disappears. Funny thing to use his magic for.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Temperature play and roleplay. Undoubtedly.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

His car. He loves that thing almost as much as he loves you.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

For a quick summary.. you do! You turn him on more than anything, he’s sort of obsessed with you.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

No answer to this one, it’s hard to decide.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

INSANE skill at giving head. He’s so good at it, and it’s fun for him. He has fun with it, but he does enjoy receiving as well! He likes playing with your hair (and grabbing at it) when you give him head.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Normally keeps it pretty fast and rough, it’s more fun for him.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He likes quickies every so often, they’re pretty fun for him. Not all the time, though. Likes to be able to have fun and take his time.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

OF COURSE!! It’s Happy Chaos, he loves to experiment and take risks. He’ll try just about anything.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Can go all night. He had a lot of time to build his stamina and endurance, after all.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Practically has a box. Loves to use them on you, and loves having them used on him. Use a vibrator on him? He’s going wild. You wanna peg him? He’s entirely game. You want him to make you fall apart with a toy? He’s on it. Number one switch.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Teasing FIEND. Happy Chaos loves to tease, and he’ll tease you even more if you whine about it.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

When he’s topping, he’s pretty loud but mostly huffs, groans, and growls.. with some fun dirty talk sprinkled in. When he’s bottoming… that man whimpers. Whines, moans. Yeah.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

I have certain feelings about transmasc Happy Chaos. If he’s on t, well… you know how that sex drive is probably going to go. Also, I think his horns are sensitive— do with that what you will.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

I mean.. you can already see what’s going on under most of them. He has pretty muscular thighs and calves, and.. tbh I think his ass is kinda flat. I have mixed feelings on what to talk about for his thang. Vote for pussy or penis Happy Chaos below in the comments 🔥🔥🔥

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Pretty solid sex drive. If you have a higher sex drive, he’ll be ready to work with it, but he’ll accommodate if you have a lower one. Basically, his mostly depends on you.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Depends on the day, or the intensity/timing of the sex. Easily falls asleep a lot of the time, but sometimes ends up staying up for a few hours, holding you and just thinking.

[imthepointe]

no offense maybe I just don’t understand multi shipping a character who only has ever had eyes for one person, especially when he’s been obsessively visiting them in ice like I can’t imagine them even glancing at someone else

hii anon no offense taken! i’ll do my best to explain why i personally like multishipping (with armin, in aot, and in general)

first, you’re definitely right that armin and annie have the most “canon” relationship. they clearly have intense feelings for one another that are certainly romantic. aruani is absolutely my favorite armin ship, too. i just think their characters mesh so well together and the dynamic is delicious.

but just because armin and annie are “canon” doesn’t mean that i don’t like the idea of having armin, annie, and whoever else romantically involved with other people. if aruani *were* out of the question, then i think jearmin is my next fav armin ship. jean and armin also have such an interesting dynamic— just like aruani! jean is a natural leader, with an unforgettable presence on screen as both a charismatic authority and close friend of everyone in the 104th. and, honestly, jean has helped armin and comforted him (and vice versa) more than annie really has. jean and armin compliment each other so well, and honestly for me, it’s super easy to see them in a romantic context because of the intensity and nature of their relationship— especially during the 4 years annie was in the crystal.

and, of course, eren and mikasa. i rlly love arumika/eremin a lot!!! this is because i think armin and mikasa share such a close bond. throughout aot they are able to communicate just through their eyes multiple times. mikasa is always there for armin and armin for mikasa. they are seriously each other’s only constant in life— again, makes for a pretty good romance. same thing with eremin. eren and armin are genuinely connected at their soul to each other! there are sooooo many romantic eremin moments too, literally since chap 1 of the manga, and i daresay more than aruani moments. this was certainly fueled by the anime ending additions but it’s always existed.

for one, some of these ships can coexist; it’s highly doubtful that armin ever only had one crush on annie for years, and even if he did, he’s 19/20 by the time annie is finally out of her crystal and i’d venture to say has probably kissed someone before. who knows? maybe he and sasha got super drunk one night. maybe he comforted mikasa in more ways than one when eren left in marley. maybe he and hitch got bored one day. maybe he and jean experimented some. these are all things that could have happened and are worth exploring or headcanoning.

second, i think that some multiships as a whole are typically, like, in parallel timelines. for example im a suckerrrrr for post rumbling aruani and post rumbling jearmin, and i don’t typically think of these ships as occurring in the same universe. basically im treating these ships as separate timelines that don't affect each other.

i totally love aruani more than anything, but every other armin ship has a reason to be compelling because armin is just a compelling character whose relationships are *literally* the thing that keeps the plot moving in aot (eremin moment). armin did visit annie in the crystal for years, but you could just as easily focus on the fact that eren and armin promised to spend eternity together or that mikasa and armin can actually read each other’s minds to justify the other ships. interpreting some of his interactions with the other characters as romantic is a totally valid thing to do (within reason lol). and, to me, these are relationships worth exploring and loving! sorry this is so long lmao but thanks for asking! <3

also armin is just such a fuckable and breedable guy. who wouldn’t want to get in on that?

[bakurasilver]

hello I am so curious about all of the WIPs but I'd love to hear more about Wout and About - being bratty on the bus <3

Sooooo way back when I was the world's most devoted shipper of Julian Alaphilippe/Tim Declercq (which I still am, even though they're on different teams now. There are like ten or so pictures of them where neither of them Julian is making a face.) but this was obviously not going to be a pairing which Took Off 😭. Reading other people's work (back when we had at most one fic a month) got me vaguely into the possibility of Wout/Mathieu, and I had a tentative go at writing them as the B Couple in a Julian/Tim fic (one of the others on the list), but then I saw them actually racing, and how could anyone not love Wout!! And despite how much this season is affecting their rivalry (also the media being constantly all, Wout Is So Useless), he and Mathieu will be linked forever in rl, let alone in fanfiction land. And whilst I think real Mathieu is way more 'no thoughts head empty' than my version of him, he's just so narratively honed that it's almost unrealistic he actually exists. He's just the perfect shape to project almost anything onto.

Then I had a just super pornographic dream about them, and thought, well, I don't even have to edit this, beyond removing Guillaume Martin (who was wandering around entirely bored by sub!Wout kissing dom!Mathieu's feet... I keep writing GM into the corners of things I shall never publish, knowing this will make no one laugh but me, but whatever shenanigans are going on with the main couple, he'll just be around and so wearily disinterested in their love life.)

But in this random bit of porn they were using hand gestures to continuously convey consent, and I couldn't help but wonder why. So I started a prequel to answer a question no one but me had, which is what Feeling bratty on the bus is.

The plot, such as it is, is Wout is grumbling on the team bus that sometimes he wants to push back against what Mathieu tells him to do for a while but does still ultimately want to be obedient, only Mathieu always halts procedings because he doesn't want to do anything Wout's not enthusiastically consenting to. Sepp Kuss (That's me, putting the dom into domestique! which I still think is one of the funniest lines I have ever written) then gives him a lecture about how it's okay to be a bratty sub, but Wout needs to explain this to Mathieu, as clearly neither of them have done any research. He attempts to give some examples from his own entirely offscreen relationship with Brandon McNulty (I'm still convinced this is a ship which has potential, but I do Not know enough about either of them to write it), but Wout is Inspired, and runs off to message Mathieu.

Mathieu does some research before the bus gets to the hotel (why is he there? Reasons! Why is he suddenly such a fast reader? Well he can read, he just doesn't!) and they go up to the hotel room, where Wout freaks out at being emotionally vulnerable. Mathieu tells him it'll be fine, even if Wout doesn't know how to say any of the above out loud, and that all Wout needs to do is find a way to let him know he's still super into what they're doing. Hence, the hand gestures. They then cuddle, and Wout takes a nap, exhausted by Having Had Feelings.

It's basically done, but also probably the least sexy BDSM-adjacent fic ever written (I don't think they even talk about sex, apart from in the vaguest terms). So I'm just not sure the world has any need for it, but sometimes I have an urgent need to read, Wout Was Having A Difficult Moment But Then Cuddles, hence why it's still sat there <3

[garden-0f-ed3n]

I did die. It was a terrible tragedy and I genuinely cried real tears. Absolutely wild work.

Valid!!! Wicked is one of the first musical theatres I ever saw so it has a special place in my heart!

How’s your day been today? Mine’s been alright, I’m currently trying to do online christmas shopping and got reminded at how absolutely terrible I am at this. Actually raging right now, I hate hate hate having indecisive friends. Literally had to do an in depth google search into this specific minecraft beanie my friend wanted because one of her fav tiktok lesbians had it. I did find it. Also wanted to kill her. Overall : Christmas shopping sucks.

. Xenna

NOOOO WHAAAT… DONT DIE WHAT THE FLIP. THIS IS TERRIBLE NEWS…

Omg im sosososo jealous i wanna see wicked live sooooo bad… ive watched slime tutorials, but obviously nothing would compare to the real thing. But thats so wonderful, and how nice to have such a close connection to something you love!!!! 💗💗

Omg I actually looove shopping for me and others… I’m super sensitive which basically makes me an empath.. (dont make fun of me shut up) so I always kinda know what to do and what to say to make people happy.. which makes gift giving fairly easy if I know the person well!!! But that’s so sweet of you to search so deeply for something just because your friend wanted it!! My day was boring.. just school. Super boring. Wasn’t able to talk to really anyone either >:( but whatever I suppose…

[megaawkwardhuman]

OK hi hey hello I know these photos have been out for a bit but uh I'm really bored rn and I haven't looked too deep into minor shit in a bit sooooo

let's dissect some promo images shall we?

(pulling these images from this post btw)

I have nothing to really say about this image (it's most likely nandor defending guillermo's idea of going to the mall)

I just want all of us to take a moment to appreciate this photo

1 DEREK'S FACE XD

2 memo in this photo <3

and 3 this is like five seconds before the turning gets fucked sideways

I'm assuming guillermo is talking about how he didn't expect this is how he's going to get turned, how this is a new chapter in his life, he'll try to make the change he wants to see and/or how from that point on word he'll be a new guillermo de la cruz (basically what he said at the beginning of season 4)

AND THE LASZERMO SHIPPERS GO CRAZY

I AM HERE for this fucking photo

now we all know this is five seconds before they aggressively make out and laszlo is making sure nobody especially nandor else sees this is probably the moment guillermo tells laszlo about his current situation

HOWEVER what I'd like to point out is the fact that this convo doesn't happen until the second episode (you can tell it's the second episode due to the outfits)

also I would like to also point out the fact that if the whole baby colin shit didn't happen laszlo wouldn't be helping guillermo out not just because baby colin brought them closer but laszlo is probably gonna use helping guillermo out to distract and cope with the loss of baby colin

he's been helping colin out for the last two seasons and now that he doesn't need his help and he doesn't really remember and entire season of him and the gang helping him he misses the feeling of helping out someone who is helpless to their circumstances

aND GUESS WHAT GUILLERMO IS

so yeah weirds ass coping mechanism laz but I'm here for it

my gut at first said this was derek warning guillermo about being a vampire BUT THEN I REALIZED GUILLERMO IS WEARING A DIFFERENT OUTFIT

soooooo what is probably happening is guillermo talking to derek about this whole thing going all fucky wucky

or this is after the turning and guillermo just changed into a different shirt since the other one got bloody idfk

and finally why tf did they go to a steak house??????

overall OJDQIW0UHOGJDVGHIWPGFJEVKBDWLHKSDJBLWHFBKVHIQOJ WE'RE GETTING SO CLOSE TO SEASON 5 OMFGGGGGGGGGGG

[lionfission]

How long does it normally take you to finish making your art?

(Also, I love your art style)

SDHGJKFFHGFHKJ tysm!! tbh I've been struggling to get my art style to a place I'm happy with for a long time- still working on it but I'm glad you like it so far!

As for your question about how long my art takes- it depends! (obligatory boring answer)

Right now it feels like I work sooooo slowly but I'm trying to be more patient with myself- it's a skill you've gotta build up with practice/experience. I'm lowkey getting back into fanart after a huge (like 4-5 years huge) dead period so I'm still trying to figure out my workflow :')

A lot hinges on how complicated the initial idea is, how polished I want it to be, and how many new things I'll have to learn to properly execute it.

Really basic posts (mostly just studies or doodles I wanted to clean up a little) take two or three days with maybe 3-5 hours per day. More complicated/polished posts take closer to a week/week and a half.

The most recent couple posts were originally on one big doc that I split for my own sanity to make more digestible. Started those on June 1st and posted on the 4th and 10th, but have been spending a little more time than usual per day to complete them.

This is already long so I'll end it here but if you wanna know more about process or how I got back into making fanart again, I will GLADLY talk your ear off

[bangthedoldrums]

Ikr?! Rey gets an entire trilogy about her lazily rehashing Luke's journey and she still is given another movie, while we hardly see screentime of his Jedi order and students besides Kylo Rat. She poaches so much (Luke's last name, lightsaber, X wing, his damn legacy) from a better written character that preceded her... and it doesn't matter that she doesn't have much of a defined personality or unique arc, we're just supposed to congratulate Disney and love it because she's a girl. That's insulting to female fans and actual good female characters.

And people fixate on any criticism of her as sexism, while ignoring the racism of how Finn was screwed over in a bait and switch. We could have gotten such a cool story about a black Jedi leading a rebellion but no, he's pushed aside to highlight another boring white girl protagonist. I will never forget how John Boyega was mistreated.

I also still believe that just making Rey Luke's daughter would have fixed a lot of those flaws, along with not hurting Luke's legacy. But since they were sooooo against that I don't get why they didn't let them bond at all. Nope we got a shell of a character who is instantly good at everything and we feel like we can't even criticize it because then "oh you don't want female stories then?" Ughhh

And the sidelining of Finn..... Oh boy the way that shit boils my blood. They set him up to be a main character, then walked it back after tfa but continued to act like they were so progressive for having a diverse cast. And Finn's story became so... I don't even know??? Sorry I didn't think the ex stormtrooper torn from his family and basically put into slavery would need to have the "bad guys are everywhere" lesson taught to him. They gave him nothing.

[ruminate88]

12/28/24

Being in an online one-sided relationship that turns toxic is hard to discern and very confusing. They’re saying everything you want them to say and sending you selfies, so you believe they’re “into you” but yet….. Their actions are off.

For example: my ex Andrew and I had only FaceTimed/snap-chatted. We didn’t actually hang out in person so I gave him that excuse. I also knew he was in a fraternity so, ok…. I’m now making excuses that he’s busy with his frat bros. Oookay but it takes 2 seconds to send me a “hey sorry I’m busy ttyl” text…. How hard is that!????

Would be a Friday or Saturday night and I’m at the movies with cousins and he’s also out at the movies posting a snap story same as me and he’s with guys (so it looks) but yet he’s not texting me… AT ALL. Some times he took hours to respond. Also sometimes it took 2/3 days…..

After I kept finding excuses for him, I got tired of waiting around on him. It wasn’t like that when we first met. So what changed??? He had told me “I love you with all my heart soul.” Okay, so why you not texting me if you “love me so much”? 🥴🥴🥴 Was very very confusing!!!!

I stalked his Facebook religiously and yet kept convincing myself “well you haven’t even met in person yet, you don’t own him….” BUT he’s supposed to be my “boyfriend” and when he does text me, it’s “hey babe 😘” and he acts like nothing is wrong and plays dumb as if he doesn’t know it’s been 2/3 days since we last talked. What’s wrong with that picture????

I knew nothing about being emotionally unavailable or toxic. I don’t say things I don’t mean to people. Of course him saying he’s loved me with his heart and soul, meant sooooo much to me. I wanted it to be true and I wanted to trust him but the more he ignored me, the more on egg shells I was whenever he would come back. Why did he keep disappearing on me??? What was he hiding from me???? I KNEW possibly he had other girlfriends and doesn’t want anyone to find out about me. Just, why you so ashamed of me if you love me as much as you say???

I couldn’t figure him out. I couldn’t ever make him stay 😢💔 He was always going to leave me… He could seemingly appear so interested in me one minute but then act irritated with me after. When I did find proof he was talking to other girls, I KNEW the relationship had to end but uggggh I was stuck on his prior words. I was stuck on the idea of him….us…. I wanted him to be everything I believe he was but reality hit hard. All the “ideas” I originally had of him, came crumbling and as hard as it was, when he refused to dump me, I dumped him instead. I hated it. I cried soooooo freakin hard!!! I shook the whole night and basically fell to pieces.

Truth is, why would I want to be with a man who is never there anyway??? Yes what little time he did give me was often super romantic but the whole relationship was just very very one-sided. Him updating his Snapchat story but yet not even texting me at all….. don’t tell me you love me when you ignore me. Even if you were not wanting your friends to know about me… why!??? I was telling alllll my friends about him. I was trying to visit his campus to see him and he promised me he was going to see me in person but said “right now I have too much going on with school” soo…. In other words, you aren’t serious enough to meet me but still want to see my nudes and sext with me. He still wants to text me when he’s bored or lonely but don’t come mess up his little world. (Whatever he had going on)

I felt his energy strong today. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Was hard not to see his face in my mind. We talked for a year dirty/romantic before breaking up. That’s a long time for nothing to have been real. How can someone “pretend feelings” that long ??? Idk…. But I understand IF he was serious about me, he would’ve made a way to be with me. Distance wouldn’t have stopped him 💔💔💔 I would’ve went to the moon for him but would he have even crossed the street to see me? 😔 I was crushed when he told me not to come to his campus yet…. Guess he enjoyed crushing me.

[peacchie]

What’s New? • Blog

A while back, me and this girl had a fight. Not physically, since I don’t even know how to throw a punch. This fight—not physical—or even that serious, all started because i got a text on my phone from insta.

It was a “you received a follow” and a “who’s this?” text.

Now after a while me and this guy just talk a bit, and I find out he just got away from this toxic relationship, and obviously I left bad for him.

“You wouldn’t happen to know her? I mean..” He goes on talking about her, his toxic ex.

He gives me her name and

oh my gosh.

I heard all about her before.

This girl had beef with someone I knew, and from what I heard, she cheated on her ex boyfriend with an absurd amount of guys.

I feel so bad for him. As someone who has been cheated on, and just as most people are, I text him something like, “I’m so sorry. I heard what happened no one deserves to be cheated on”

“Cheated on?” He texts me back.

“Where did you hear that?”

“Who did you hear that from?”

“Please tell me”

“Please”

“Please.”

“Hello?”

“Hello????”

From this point, I obviously didn’t say any names or tell him who I knew that from. But then I realized.

Oh shitttt I think that’s the wrong ex.

Until.

“STOP LYING YOU” yk.

(ㆀ˘･з･˘) ermmmm!!! what. I really didn’t know what to say. It was sooooo like.??? Off putting?? Such a change of tone and vibe?

So I text my friend, I find out that isn’t her ex, it was her boyfriend.

The amount of shit this guy’s girlfriend blasted me with that day omfg…

Anyways!!!! Fast forward like a month and I’m in school and I’ve totally forgotten that all of that happened

I’m going in the restroom and I bump into this extremely short girl (I’m 5’2 and she reached up my chest…) I said sorry without really looking and I go inside to clean myself up

There’s this clear bag of 20s on the floor

the urgeeeeeeeeee

I think anyone who have seen a bunch of money on the floor, without anyone around it, would also think ‘I could really use that money (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)’

but like the other three girls there, I don’t even get close to the bag

The short girl comes RUNNING back and brags the bag, like she’s in a rush, and that’s when I notice who she was

Omg THATS the girl who talked shit to me on the phone

I really should’ve picked up that bag, but I also get that kind of feeling where “think about morals.” I don’t want to be a bad person but I meaannnn

ʅ（◞‿◟）ʃ

The next week I’m walking around and I see the person I knew she had beef with, and we start talking

“Hey remember (the girl that talked shit to u)”

“Well they broke up, had a massive fight. The guy hit her, (and she tried hitting him, but I have no idea if she actually hit him) because they were both cheating on each other and mad about it”

Hobbies & Goals

Lately I’ve been studying, and I’ve been really focused on making this year more productive.

I’ve joined an art club, but I’m thinking of joining a book club too. I don’t think I’ll have enough time afterschool though.

Maybe I just feel bored?

I want to do something more with myself. Something new, productive, something that makes me feel better about myself

I have time to study, but I’m planning to get a job as soon as I turn 16. I want to be able to balance all of these things, blogging, clubs, a job, AP classes, and I will find a way.

I’ve been trying my best to look better too. Jewelry, light makeup, hair care, and cute flared jeans are all I can really do.

I wish I could get more things and not feel guilty about spending. I’m hoping that once I get a job, I can use part of that money to spend on myself. The rest of the money I’ll save for college, since I’m planning to take one/two years local for my basics, and the rest further away (money for gas, books, and foodstuff)

But I don’t think my parents are that excited about me wanting to get a job

Body

Calorie count Aug 29 ~ 700

I’ve been sick for over 1 month, and for one month I haven’t been able to eat well.

I haven’t ate solids, I’ve had a lack of appetite, basically to cut it short—stomach issues.

Today I ate too much in a little amount of time, a few short minutes after eating some pudding, a tiny fruit smoothie, and some coconut milk

soooo much pain

I laid on the restroom floor. I feel like the restroom floor is just the best place in your house to be when you’re sick.

The doctor said he didn’t know what I had so I’m just taking pills for symptoms and pain

[spade-club]

I know this is an ask game but Im bored and wanted to answer all of them sooooo B)

🌲 well in terms of how many we've been aware of, we started with like 8 but since have discovered lots and lots of us that have been around forever, I think the official count right now is 32 but I /know/ theres quite a few more.

🌻 "when kurby swallows mario he become de kart" -Olli

🌾 I have a whole playlist actually! but I gotta say We Are Broken by Paramore reaaaallly gets me personally.

🌙 we have quite a few special relationships but I think most of all our family dynamic is suuper important to us! Donnie, Cass, & Olli find their siblingship very important, particularly.

🌊 couldnt call them inside jokes if everyone knew about them.

🌺 Rose's room is kinda the most important place we have because shes the only one who actually uses the innerworld casually lately. its all pink and black and white & she has a canopy bed. there are candles everywhere. & she even has a vanity and a bay(?) window :) peak comfy space for her to zone out in tbh

🌍 kiiind of?? for those of us who are capable of thinking in pictures the innerworld is great & even partially malleable. we do have someone in charge of the innerworld, but they're rarely around to mess with stuff so its basically for Rose and Chloe and sometimes one of the kids.

🐛 personal opinion (from Cass, hi) is that Bee has made the most progress of all of us since finding out about the system. she used to be very antagonistic and forceful (internally) but spending more time in the real world and making connections and having a partnership has really taught her how to use her energy for good & now wants to make everyone genuinely happy as often as she can, both in sys and in our partner sys!

🍂 idk how to make fusion happen! but theres a few of us who want to whenever we can figure it out

☀️ We like leaving notes for eachother but most of our communication is either out loud or in very loud vivid thought conversations when we cant talk.

🌱 Im pretty open about it in my personal life, most of my friends either know or im comfy hinting about it around them. (ofc most of my friends are systems themselves) but professionally and with my family no one knows!

🌄 oh for sure, I havent had as many doubts lately as I am very aware of how my system dynamics affect my everyday life, but I still very frequently feel kinda "cringe" about acknowledging it because talking about it can feel unnatural sometimes :/

🗻 again it depends on who you ask, many of us have no ties to the innerworld at all, but for Rose it is her home as much as our physical home is (if not more?)

🍁 Names come about in different ways for different ppl. though a lot of it is from music. Donnie got both his online & irl names from songs (What a Catch, Donnie.) Chloe was from the Grouplove song. Cloud (short for Collide) came from Collide With The Sky, the PTV album. Juice is a nickname from my real name. & Candle Rose are just two things she really likes aesthetically lol. most of the rest were a bit more random tho

🌈 Most of us consider ourselves human but as far as self inserts, characters & other such AUs Donnie is a fairy (occasionally a vampire too,) Rose is a vampire, Olli is wolf boy, Cass is a puppet of sorts. & the genuine non-humans are CeCe who is an angel, & Ghost who,, is a ghost

🦔 I miss Indie all the time where the FUCK did she go?? Olli has also been hibernating for a minute, miss that kid :(

👥 My partner & my best friend are both pretty good with understanding when I unmask fully. Some of us, however, still have trouble not unsettling our autistic friends when we unmask. Donnie in particular tends to get a very polarized reception, for that reason. everyone thinks hes mad all the time but really he's just quiet.

🦚 honestly we're pretty open about it & tend not to mask too hard anywhere so I would consider us overt but overtness is a complicated concept because no one who doesnt already know would know, yk? (Olli does mask in public pretty well though!)

DID / OSDD ask game

🌲 How has your numbers of parts changed over time?

🌻 Favorite quote from a part.

🌾 Any songs you relate to DID / OSDD?

🌙 Share a special relationship between parts.

🌊 Any inside jokes in your system?

🌺 Describe one part of your inner world.

🌍 Can you change your inner world and access it freely?

🐛 Which part made a lot of progress?

🍂 Did a fusion happen in your system?

☀️ How do you all prefer to communicate?

🌱 How open are you about your DID / OSDD?

🌄 Did you ever went through phases of denial?

🗻 How much does your inner world feel like home?

🍁 How do your parts get their names?

🌈 Are there any parts who view themselves as something other than human? Or who have supernatural powers?

🦔 Are there any parts of you that you miss?

👥 Is there a person you all can be yourselves around?

🦚 Ho covered / overt is your DID / OSDD?

❔ (ask any other question)

[kaswee]

Today’s thoughts

I just ate a buffalo chicken wrap way too fast…

As I sit here and digest, I’m thinking about real housewives of New Jersey. Is anyone sick of Teresa? Yes, she is very good TV. But I’m just over her lack of accountability her owning any of the behavior that she does. She married a tomato. It’s just cringe to watch her on TV anymore.

Also, Melissa is getting pretty boring. But I do like her. But it’s the same old thing with her and Joe and Teresa. Also, I love Gia, but I don’t really want to see her on real housewives of New Jersey.

As for Jen Aydin, I never liked her. Day one, I found her extremely annoying. I’m not going to sit here and make fun of her marriage issues because I think that’s gross to do and that would be a cheap shot. For me, just from the get-go I did not find her entertaining. I found her annoying. Her family is annoying. I got to say after that fight between her and Danielle, Bill was probably high. I guess that’s a safe assumption, right? But I know if my husband just sat there when someone called me Satan… idk what I’d do but that’s embarrassing. But anyway, I’m ready for her to go.

Danielle, I know a lot of people don’t like her. I, for one, find her so sweet and funny. I think she speaks before thinking sometimes but I think she is genuine. I don’t get bad sneaky vibes from her.

Rachel, I find her a little boring, but I like her

basically I’m just over everyone being super toxic.

Dolores, I always love her, but I think she lacks a little bit of a backbone sometimes. But still love her. As for Margaret, I really don’t know. Maybe she is really sneaky, maybe she is a mastermind, Really haven’t decided how I feel about her. I do see similarities between her and Lisa Vanderpump, with kind of saying things, but not putting them in writing and let other people say things. like, having other people do the dirty work with making accusations, rumors, etc. I guess I’m kind of indifferent towards Margaret, but I do kind of see why people say what they say about her.

Did anyone catch watch what happens live last night? I miss Kathy Wakile sooooo much. Her and Rosie are just my favorites

Well, anyway, that’s today’s thoughts

Over the weekend, I had a little bit too much to drink with a couple friends, and I cried a lot. Over things I wouldn’t typically cry about nor am I that really upset about. Ya know, just the normal stresses of life. So I’m pretty embarrassed, because I’m not much of a crier.