#i know i said i wanna stop making gifs but like 15 people who regularly support me and reblog stuff are keeping me going

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1/2/3 for the wildly specific questions -corditeheart

Wildy Specific Headcanon Questions / @corditeheart

1. What's the lie your character says most often?

Malachi:

Given how many rescue/infiltration/generic observatory missions he's done over the course of not only his career as a SeeD, but as a realm-displaced Glaive, the answer to this is, tragically, "You're going to be okay."

From sites of war, to the peripheral villages and cities in the path of destruction- Malachi has seen more than his share of futile rescues, and many 'last moments' of those with no one to call. Yet no pre-assessment is going to stop him from providing what last, miniscule comfort he can to those that need it most. Being a realist doesn't make him an asshole, and admittedly much of that is due to life experience and age.

Nyx:

Inversely, Ulric's largest lies tend to be some variety of "I'm fine"/"I'll be fine". Not only from battleground injury or overuse of borrowed magic, but from the egregious and untreated case of C-PTSD and survivor's guilt that haunts his near-every quiet hour.

From auditory hallucinations of his sister to dissociative flashbacks and what-if scenarios that underline his potential for failure, Nyx Ulric is very much not okay. Guilt eats at him and can reliably be said to be his driving force: why he is so dead-set on being 'the Hero'. Perhaps if he saves enough of those in need, he can be forgiven for failing those who mattered most.

Ardyn:

If we're talking about (recent) active duty lying; for the past 30 in-universe years this man has been deceiving and manipulating an entire Empire, and regularly (within the last 3 years) not even knowing who he is day-to day. Yet if I were to hazard a guess/establish a HC right here, I'd have to say it would be some variety of "There's no need to fret~." / "Don't worry~.", with a potential 'my dear' added on by instinct.

If we are to speak on simply the lie spoken most often over the course of time itself; two-thousand years of simmering in the betrayal of your kin and hanging like a slab of meat, bound to an Astral-guarded Isle whilst boiling alive in the rage and confusion on what you POSSIBLY could have done to deserve such agony-- I like to think 'He didn't mean it/it was a mistake...' was likely the most often, deliriously uttered lie told to himself to comfort his shattered heart over his brother's betrayal.

Grief is cyclical. Imagine that cycle yoyoing for millennia.

2. How loosely or strictly do they use the word 'friend'?

Malachi:

In terms of using the word in general? It's flung all over the place if it will help foster goodwill for whatever his missions may need. He'll cozy up to civilians, merchants- most anyone who shouldn't be exposed to the ugly of his work- again whatever that may be. The world is already a disaster (either 8's or 15's, it's all a mess) and most everyone is just trying to make it day in and day out.

Also, one gets more with honey than with vinegar.

In the emotional sense on who he considers his legitimate, actual friends worthy of his trust and vulnerability? It's... I wanna say astronomically rare.

In his native amnesiac!Glaive state (and to an extent his ff8verse), a warbond is built - for him - out of necessity. He trusts them to keep him alive; to do what they are trained to; to give enough of a shit that they all go home to do it all again the next day in a world on it's last legs. In that sense they're war buddies, brothers-in-arms. But the amount of people he has fought alongside to GET that sentiment can be counted on one hand (to his failing memory) and half are dead.

Malachi is a bizarrely mixed case of abundant-if-restrained compassion, vaguely pessimistic realism, caustic wit, don't-give-a-fuck-itis, and introversion. So the previous point isn't to say he's cold and distant. He's remarkably personable, and will shoot the shit for as long as such a mood lasts. He'll even play guitar when requested- not that he can remember where he learned to do so.

He's a friendly sort to most, but only considers a handful of people friends to himself.

3. How often do they show their genuine emotions to others versus just the audience knowing?

Malachi:

It depends on the emotion, the situation, and the opposing "other" muse he's interacting with. And believe me, I want to shove a hot pepper in my own mouth every time I say the words 'it depends' because... I say it too often. But in this case it's less 'oh, he's soooo changeable' and more he's fair willing to show emotions to those he knows and trusts to some degree.

He's secure in the knowledge he can beat ass if someone wants to be a dick about it.

But as stated before, it depends on the emotion, situation, and person combo- so I'd say the audience gets far more exposition because I'm a slut for it, no matter if the scene is him mean-mugging someone.

Nyx:

This one's a bit easier to answer, simply because Nyx - to me - is a 'keep to himself' sort for a myriad of reasons (outside his friend group). Be it 'I gotta be the hero' to 'my friends are having a good time, I can't bring em down' to 'I'm having a good time, who tf is this asshat crashing the party' and in any of those situations he tends to mask up-- aka, the audience will definitely see far more from my exposition.

Military training (to my extremely limited knowledge and thus portrayal) also doesn't quite encourage soldiers to be anything other than ready to deploy/the weapon they were honed to be. With enough time a soldier can outgrow that- and had this pretty face been less traumatised about who and what he could trust (fuck you Glautos), and not - y'know - internally crispy fried, he may have been able to loosen up.

Mind you I'd be more than down to write plots and developments where he learns to trust again!

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#5

I'M CRYING BENNY I LOVE YOU, BENNY I NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU, YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS I KNOW YOU DON'T FIT IN WITH VAMPIRES OR HUMANS I KNOW YOU'RE HURTING, YOU'VE BEEN ALL ALONE FOR SO LONG AND AND YOU LET HIM--YOU LET DEAN--BECAUSE YOU...YOU DIDN'T BELONG AND AT LEAST HE'D HOLD YOU AND HE DID HE HELD YOU AND YOU DESERVE THAT, YOU DESERVE A SOFT LIFE WITH PEOPLE WHO APPRECIATE YOU BENNY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU STAYED IN PURGATORY BUT DEAN HE SAID HE'D WAIT FOR YOU IN MAINE AND TOU LET HIM BELIEVE IT BECAUSE HE NEEDED TO HEAR IT AND YOU NEEDED TO LOSE YOURSELF IN THE FIGHT AND YOU DON'T DESERVE THAT OH MY GOD BENNY BENNY I NEED YOU TO KNOW!! THAT THERE'S A HOME OUT THERE FOR YOU EVEN IF YOU DON'T KNOW IT YET

82 notes • Posted 2021-03-24 14:47:18 GMT

#4

No y'all are right, life IS full of little things that make things so worth it. Have you ever sat with a toddler and fed them off your spoon something they've never had before but clearly seem to like? Knowing that they trust your judgement enough to try it. Have you ever used a big dog as a pillow? Ever gotten a shy cat to lick your fingers? Ever gotten the worlds most satisfying headache from hours of high pitched squeals of delight. Ever taught the best sword fight techniques to an angsty preteen? Ever succumbed to a puppy pile?

Honestly, like, go forge a deep bond with something small and impressionable and leave them the sort of impressions you wish you had more of and maybe you'll feel better

98 notes • Posted 2021-04-15 16:40:05 GMT

#3

Cas with a cat would be too powerful because he will mirror back signs of affection when possible--even if he doesn't get them--and with Dean that looks like "I understood that reference" and "I need pie" but with a cat it would look like rubbing cheeks with them, and the cat rubbing their head along the underside of his jaw, seemingly unaware to the cat fur clinging to his face and clothes

162 notes • Posted 2021-07-22 13:40:23 GMT

#2

[misha cameo voice] "Would I rather... Deadname someone or be thrown into--into the sun. Hmm. Well, I think that being thrown into the sun is probably not a-- not a particularly fun experience, um, because you would die, most likely. Now, I'm not a scientist, but I imagine the sun would be a bit too hot, to um, for the human body. Now, deadnaming that's--I always thought that sounded a bit like killing a name, but I think names would, uhh, be kinda hard to kill, but apparently it Actually refers to um the use of someone's name at the.. time of birth, when they would rather you use a different name.... Which would be really quite rude but would probably involve less um vaporization. So, I think it would depend on if they're--if they're going to [nervous chuckle] kill me for being rude?"

289 notes • Posted 2021-09-03 02:42:37 GMT

#1

Baby!Jack truthing

Disclaimer; my Jack knowledge is through Osmosis and Canon is irrelevant. Feel free to add on and don't be shy abt commenting rather than tagging <3

~He sucks at pronunciation of names and other relatively simple things but he picks up on large words he shouldn't know Too fast and says creepy things sometimes

~He calls Dean "Dee" or "Deedee" when he learns to write it takes Years to stop writing "Deen"

~he regularly says vaguely horrifying things and Cas takes it in stride So well and the PTA moms Don't

~okay this is projection but if someone says "Your mom is here" while he's in elementary he gets Terrified but its usually Eileen, or Jo, or Charlie, or Jody, or Ellen, or any other woman he knows and he gets used to it eventually. "your dad is here?" Always gets "which one?" Which results in Teachers having to give a small lesson on how a kid can have 2 dads/2 moms for the kids w no clue

~Cas being able to hear his "prayers" saves their ass in a million little ways

~Jack only sort of knows what Mom vs Dad means and doesn't really know theres a gendered connotation to it and tends to just Guess

~He calls his friends parents "(Friend)'s Dad" defaultively, appearance irrelevant

~He loves bows and dresses sometimes, also bee related clothes and cowboy related clothes as he tends to associate each adult in his life with one Specific thing

~Cas makes Dean promise not to confine Jack to primitive human gender or sexuality based norms

~When Claire ("Care") comes to visit he is Ecstatic and she can't get rid of him

~He doesnt comprehend how he is tied to Jody or Donna so its "My Jody" and "My Donna" I think Ellen might be Nana and Charlie and Jo both Aunts but I'm not totally set on that

~Jack loves to sit on Deans foot or ride piggy back style or sit on his hip

~He sits on Cas' shoulder and in his lap a lot

~LOVES dress up

~Dean picks up humming Red Neck Woman (heard it karaoke at a bar once) because of the line about the baby on her hip

~Cas and Jack listen to the worst pop ever, he's a Katy Perry (thats her name right) fan

~Jack likes Sesame Street, Octonauts, and Paw Patrol

~as part of a prank war (Claire started this one) Sam teaches Jack everyword to "The Song That Doesn't End" and everyone is paying the price

I can and Will go on so Please encourage me

353 notes • Posted 2021-02-02 00:59:46 GMT

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#5

Falter (Jeremy and Michael)

this one got angsty. i hope that, when i completely forget the prompt in the text, the spirit of the word is still there.

Jeremy and Michael are drifting apart. It was always a possibility, obviously; not everyone stays this close with their childhood best friend for this long. That doesn't make it sting any less.

It starts when they don't go to the same college. Jeremy lost a few months of high school to the Squip, after all, so he decides to try community college instead, just in case he fails and 'ruins everything again,' in his words. He's doing that a lot, assuming he's naturally a destructive force even when he tries not to be. Michael sort of wants to take him by the shoulders and shake him about it, but he just tries to gently encourage Jeremy to look on the bright side.

Michael ends up going to Colorado College, which came from a combination of wanting to get the fuck out of New Jersey, go somewhere completely different, and end up with a film degree. His goal is to make his own documentaries, and this is the first step. Jeremy's pretty cagey about what exactly he's studying, but he's got some kind of determination to get through it, which has to be a good sign.

They swear to call each other once a week,and, for the first few months, they hold to it. Jeremy updates him about how everyone else is doing and complains about his math course. Michael tells him all about Colorado Springs, and the dumpling shop across the street from his apartment that he's working at.

Then, the calls slowly stop coming from Jeremy. They go from weekly, to every other week, to once a month. Every time, Jeremy claims he's really busy, and that he's super sorry.

Michael does the one thing he swore he'd never do, and logs onto Facebook for the first time since he was 14.

Jeremy's posts are infrequent, but informative. He's got a group of friends, whose photos he gets tagged in regularly, and a girlfriend. Aimee. She's pretty. 

He didn't say anything about them. It kind of hurts. He wishes-

He doesn't know what he wishes. He doesn't really think Jeremy owes him something, but it feels like he's being pushed away. 

He doesn't know what to do about that. He stops calling. He stops getting calls.

8 notes • Posted 2021-04-16 18:36:45 GMT

#4

i'm really interested in getting into photography, partly to spite someone who's no longer in my life, but mostly because it's one of the very few things i feel like i could really be good at, if i put in the effort.

9 notes • Posted 2021-03-23 15:32:46 GMT

#3

Trust - whatever media you feel like writing for (ideally one I know)

more carrie in that nobody died au! the last one i wrote gave me some inspiration for a longer fic, so i wanna practice a little characterization.

Carrie technically has friends now. Sort of, at least. Sue and Frieda wave to her in the hall with smiles that seem genuine, and Tommy is more quick to defend her from the boys than he used to be. It's strange, and she doesn't know how to feel about it.

She knows what Momma would think, which is exactly why she hasn't said anything at home about it.  She and her mother are still in a firm gridlock, hardly talking at all and not very happy with one another. It feels like torture. 

Carrie's not sure why she tells Sue about it, but she does. Sue has a complex look on her face, frustrated and concerned and… sad, maybe. And then she apologizes and offers her a hug, which completely throws Carrie through a loop. She's only been hugged by two people, and one was Tommy at prom, so she doesn't know if it even counts. She very hesitantly accepts.

Sue gives nice hugs, warm and safe feeling, not tight and cloying like Momma's. She smells like some sort of fruit shampoo and maybe a little like flowers, and she rubs Carrie's back in a way that makes her feel just a little less disgusting, even if it reminds her of just how sweaty she is.

When Sue lets go, she makes Carrie promise to at least try to call if Momma tries to hurt her. She looks scared, and her hands are firm on her shoulders as she nods softly. She's still not sure if she can fully trust Sue, but having someone to talk to is nice.

11 notes • Posted 2021-04-16 18:55:48 GMT

#2

i was hardly-a-ghost jsyk

14 notes • Posted 2021-10-16 23:52:29 GMT

#1

Tea - character of choice from Carrie (book or musical... or movie, I guess, though I haven’t seen it)

okay so this is a very vague Nothing Happened at Prom and Carrie stopped her mom from killing her au. this is also the first time i've ever written anything for Carrie, surprisingly, so i hope it's alright.

Carrie thought a lot about killing her mother. She'd never admit to it, not even to God, but she thought about it daily.

In the weeks after prom, momma had only grown colder, more cruel. Dinner time was silent, and she spent nearly every day in her closet, locked away to beg for forgiveness. Momma was scared of her, and it made Carrie question nearly every part of her life to that point. She had tasted freedom and joy, and now her mother's Wrathful Savior felt… weaker. She still had nightmares of Jesus chasing her down halls, asking her to take up the cross, but they didn't make her sweat anymore. 

She stirs her mother's tea, one hand fidgeting with her hair as she flips to the next page in her bible. The book of Matthew, one of her favorites. The more she reads, the less she recognizes Mama's teachings. Jesus was angry, yes, but he was not cruel. She feels connected to his generosity and love for his fellow man. 

"Carrie? Is the tea ready?" Her momma calls from the living room. Her voice is firm, not as loving as it had been a mere three weeks ago.

"Yes, momma. I'll be out soon."

Jesus would not be proud of her for imagining her own mother, choking on some vague poison in her tea that, in reality, she would never be brave enough to add. Then again, Jesus wasn't cursed, but blessed. Jesus knew his parents loved him, knew that God loved him.

Carrie didn't have that same reassurance.

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✨ Holly Discography & OOC Meanings ✨

Storytelling = songs not written about her life but a story she made up

Red

1. State Of Grace ~ for Haley

2. Red ~ (Storytelling) Comparing love and emotions to colours

3. Treacherous ~ Park

4. I Knew You Were Trouble ~ Park

5. All Too Well ~ Adrian

6. 22 ~ Just a feel good, having fun song

7. I Almost Do ~ Adrian

8. We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together ~ (Storytelling) just a catchy get stuck in your head song, are specifically to be a single to get attention

9. Stay Stay Stay ~ Adrian

10. The Last Time ~ (storytelling) but in a way it's about her parents and begging them to put her first when it comes to them taking Haley. Because they never considered her in all their choices and it broke her.

11. Holy Ground ~ Adrian

12. Sad Beautiful Tragic ~ Adrian

13. The Lucky One ~ Herself discovering that starting to be known and fame isn't exactly what people expect

14. Everything Has Changed ~ (storytelling)

15. Starlight (co-written with Soraya) ~ for Soraya

16. Begin Again ~ meeting Adrian again after the 4 year gap

17. The Moment I Knew ~ a birthday she spent just after she had Haley and longing for Adrian to come back even though she knew her parents wouldn't have even let him through the door even if he had. But it's not nearly as bitter @ him as the song suggests

18. Come Back... Be Here ~ Adrian

19. Girl At Home ~ (storytelling) girls supporting girls

Fifteen (EP)

(the EP based off the songs she wrote in school/post losing adrian)

1. Love Story ~ Adrian

2. Fearless ~ Adrian

3. Fifteen ~ Herself and kind of a message to Haley to put her dreams first

4. You Belong With Me ~ Adrian/Paisley but lowkey any girl taking interest in him. I.e. margo etc.

5. Better Than Revenge ~ Paisley/Margo

6. Last Kiss ~ Adrian

7. Enchanted ~ Adrian when they met again at St Judes. their first official date was at a ball esque thingy

8. Ours ~ about Adrian @ her parents and the disapproval

9. Mine ~ Adrian (Storytelling) what she imagined

Safe And Sound (EP)

(The EP about/for haley)

1. Safe And Sound ~ a lullaby for haley

2. Innocent ~ about herself in a way and trying to forgive herself for hr mistakes when it came to haley and the choices she make but also reminding her that she could stay innocent and young for as long as possible

3. Never Grow Up ~ wishing she doesn't grow up too fast because she very much did and it was terrifying

4. Untouchable ~ How haley's kept away from her

5. Breathe ~ the follow on from untouchable and not being able to breathe without her

Welcome To New York

1. Welcome To New York ~ Her love for the city and dreaming of living there

2. Blank Space ~ (Storytelling)

3. Style ~ Adrian

4. Out Of The Woods ~ the aftermath of (tw) the rape and holly fighting to get out of the dark place and there's obviously hints of Adrian in there being with her through it

5. All You Had To Do Was Stay ~ Soraya & Dallas (storytelling)

6. Shake It Off ~ speaks for itself basically for her fans

7. I Wish You Would ~ Adrian after he disappeared when she first got pregnant and they separated

8. Bad Blood ~ Anyone against her and labelling her as the mean girl. She went very theatrical and played on it. Although everyone thinks it's specifically about Hensley, she was just one name on a long list

9. Wildest Dreams ~ back when she first started at St Judes and met Julian again, his was another sing based on their first date at the ball-esque event

10. How You Get The Girl ~ at Dallas about Soraya

11. This Love ~ Adrian

12. I Know Places ~ wanting to hide from the insider and paps and opinions whether it's with Adrian or on her own.

13. Clean ~ The last song she wrote for the album and it's about (tw) the rape. It was the first thing she ever wrote about it so it's extremely personal

14. Wonderland ~ (storytelling)

15. You Are In Love ~ Adrian

16 . New Romantics ~ St Judes/Monroe life

Reputation

1. Ready For It? ~ preparing for battle in a way. this was one of if not her biggest album and it was all about her fighting back and taking control of her public narrative. She wrote/sang about things you'd never expect and said ings you'd never expect so it's getting ready for that

2. End Game ~ Adrian

3. I Did Something Bad ~ Everyone who did her wrong and called her the mean girl

4. Don't Blame Me ~ Adrian

5. Delicate ~ Adrian

6. Look What You Made Me Do ~ are you ready for it 2.0

7. So It Goes... ~ Adrian

8. Gorgeous ~ Adrian/Haley/Soraya

9. Getaway Car ~ Park

10. King Of My Heart ~ Adrian

11. Dancing With Our Hands Tied ~ Adrian

12. Dress ~ Adrian

13. This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things ~ about the shit she gets for winning awards

14. Call It What You Want ~ Adrian and their relationship but it's aimed at their parents

15. New Years Day ~ painting a nice picture of new years day (because She was (tw) raped on new years eve night just before midnight) and basically how Adrian was there for her the day after and picked her back up

Lover

1. I Forgot That You Existed ~ anyone not on her side and lowkey about the guy who r*ped her. Although that's on her mind a lot, this would have been her when she's enjoying her time with someone and she forgets for one night. Or how she wishes she could forget about him for good.

2. Cruel Summer ~ probably her brief rebound of a relationship with park tbh and she convinced herself it was love to try and make herself feel better about the guilt. But ultimately they both knew it wasn't good or going to work.

3. Lover ~ about Holly and Adrian finally being in complete control of their relationship but still having insecure moments where she worries about losing him, but he's there every time. It speaks for itself mainly tbh.

4. The Man ~ the feminist jumped out LOL she aimed for this one to be relatable in every sense cause she knows it's a very common topic. But some things jump out from her own experiences like: "when everyone believes ya, what's that like?" About the r*ape trial.

5. The Archer ~ I love how holly it is 😩 reflecting on how she handled certain situations like things with hensley (bad blood) and how she's made a lot of mistakes. And being lowkey terrified she'll lose people because of it. I think mainly Adrian and Soraya tbh.

6. I Think He Knows ~ Adrian

7. Miss Americana And The Heartbreak Prince ~ about the negative affects caused by st Jude's and "fame" and having Adrian there through it all. The second first specifically would be about the night of the r*pe and when she told Adrian and he was the one of the only ones who cared what the truth was. Personally I think this is the most holly song on the album! I knew exactly what she'd write it about as soon as I heard it lol

8. Paper Rings ~ Adrian

8. Cornelia Street ~ kinda Begin Again 2.0 for holly and it basically being about that first time she saw Adrian again after they're 4 years apart and the fear she had of losing them/him again. I especially feel the line "It's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend"

9. Death By A Thousand Cuts (storytelling)

10. London Boy ~ her dream has always been to live in New York so she's kinda made herself new York in this album and Adrian's the London boy, even though he isn't English LOL? but their relationship lives in London basically. And she loves NY but she'd go wherever he is instead.

11. Soon You'll Get Better ft The Dixie Chicks ~ Soraya's health problems, how much her wellbeing means to holly and how desperately she needs her to just be okay all the time.

12. False god ~ I picture her breakup with Adrian back when she was pregnant and they were kids. How it all went to shit but that small hope still there "We might just get away with it." She probably would have taken snippets from old journals back from that time for this.

13. You Need To Calm Down ~ It's about ever form of love

14. Afterglow ~ this one hits me so much and cause I'm so invested in holly and adrian, hurts my heart. Basically apologising for hurting him ever, mainly with Park. But lowkey the r*pe thing too. Even tho he'd never be mad or blame her for that, she blamed herself at one point. And She panics regularly that it would ruin them.

15. ME! ~ a confidence boost for herself, her friends and her fans.

16. It's Nice To Have A Friend ~ being in love with your best friend. Also how I picture her and Adrian starting out in school.

17. Daylight ~ about how her and Adrian both had other things while they weren't together, but since they got back together, it was like stepping back into the daylight and nothing can be as perfect as that feeling they have with each other. They never really had it with anyone else.

Folklore

1. The 1 ~ (storytelling)

2. Cardigan ~ recently holly has defo felt kind of forgotten about and falling into the shadows. And as always, Adrian is slowly started to pull her out of her dark place.

3. The Last Great American Dynasty ~ awhile ago Adrian bought them a kind of holiday home and she wrote a story about the previous owner (storytelling)

4. Exile ft Bon Iver ~ the last song she wrote for the album. Her and Adrian recently broke up and have one of if not their biggest arguments and this was about that

5. My Tears Ricochet ~ Her Parents

6. Mirrorball ~ about being what the media want you to be and being perfect and when you fall and break they watch as if it's entertainment

7. Seven ~ (storytelling) a childhood friendship where one is suffering (tw) in am abusive household and the other wants to rescue them. It's also about wanting to stay young as long as possible and when we stopped doing the little things only children get away with

8. August ~ Park

9. This Is Me trying ~ Herself and her struggle to hold it all together. She defo would have had that moment of being on the edge of a cliff and having the moment she decided to back away from it

10. Illicit Affairs ~ Park

11. Invisible String ~ Adrian

12. Mad Woman ~ Herself and women in general

13. Epiphany ~ (storytelling) a couple/people during world war 2

14. Betty ~ (storytelling)

15. Peace ~ for Adrian

16. Hoax ~ (storytelling)

17. The Lakes ~ wanting to run away but of course only with Adrian

Other Songs

Back To December

Sparks Fly

Mean

Long Live

Beautiful Ghosts

Christmas Tree Farm

I Don't Wanna Live Forever

Babe ft Sugarland

Only The Young