#i know how they're related but my brain always looks for connections to the known (more often than not podcast and video game lore)

[juliamccartney]

malevolent is once again giving night in the woods

[imnotspencerhastings]

Spencer how are you so sure about your sp? isnt he a celebrity?

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For the longest time, I struggled with the concept of being able to have a relationship with celebrities.

I had limited beliefs about that word until last week, when I realized that it was just a title. We are so used to titles like police officer, teacher, mom, sister, brother, etc., but why do we give so much power to the word celeb? Celebrity is just a title just as much as the other words I just wrote; the only difference is that they're well known and have a lot of money; that's it!

So to answer the question, I don't question the how or why; it's none of my business. I also relate to the times when I met my favorite celebs when I was younger. I never asked how or why; I just knew I was going to meet them.

I also redirect my brain to the time when my friend and I met Ariana Grande, (during this time she was on victorious) and my friend ended up being close friends with her; she even follows her on Instagram. So yes, it's very possible. Either you want to be friends or have a romantic relationship, always remember that they're just human beings at the end of the day; they think, they feel, and they'll die just like us. They are not untouchable.

Another example is that my friend at the time was a huge Vanessa Hudgens fan; she ran a fansite and a fan Instagram.

She always knew that Vanessa was going to see her fansite one day and that she'd have a connection with her.

Vanessa now follows her account; she has met Vanessa so many times, and Vanessa knows her personally.

*Also a lot of celebs do not like other celebs, they love normal people like me and you. most celebs treat other celebs like co-workers

Why do you think Selena Gomez hangs out with the most normal-looking people? Why do you think Ariana, at the start of her career, gave her phone number to her fans, tweeted out her locations, etc.? They hate talking about fame and work. Most celebs actually hate being celebs, but they love their work so they suck it up.

My sp lives a boring life outside of his work; he doesn't even have social media, and he's very private, so I know for a fact that dating him would be very easy for me since he has dated fans in the past.

So, like I said in the SP post, deprogram your thinking and get rid of your limited beliefs and you'll have that celeb sp.

[clippy]

How did you become so interested in iasw? I’m genuinely curious and I would love to learn more about it! Also, what’s so special about… 𝐓 𝐇 𝐄 𝐂 𝐋 𝐎 𝐂 𝐊 .

Would you believe me if I said it was literally an accident LOL...

Like okay. I grew up going to WDW and Disneyland (as well as other theme parks but those were the main two; my dad grew up going to WDW so the obsession has spanned generations I guess lmao) small world was always a must-do, but my main theme park interests as a kid lied within everything Epcot-related (and it still does)

Anyway, my last trip to WDW prior to getting the Disney parks as a special interest was in 2014. I went with my high school band and it was kind of a whole thing (high school drama shit + spring break week + having to do performances in band) so we didn't get the most park time possible. We wound up skipping small world which makes me Wonder if this interest would have been kick started sooner if we didn't skip it. But anyway. Fast forward to 2018. I am visiting my friend (and now roommate) who is watching a bunch of animatronic and theme park videos and I, a clueless man, decided to watch with her and it literally awoke a sleeper cell in my brain or something because I've been *nonstop* obsessed ever since 🧍

Like literally during that session of watching videos I designed my objecthead version of Clockboy. My life has not known peace ever sense, and tbh has drastically been altered (I'll get into that later)

But yeah the Autism(TM) made me have an insatiable hunger for knowledge about everything small world-related... I still don't know EVERYTHING about it, as there are lots of variations and history, etc. involving the installments of the attraction outside of Disneyland, but my main focus is the original world's fair & Disneyland version of the attraction (since they're the same thing... Mostly) as well as IASW facades in general...

There are tons of people who have equally as niche interests within the attraction's history which I think is SO cool. Like the fact that this nearly 60 year old ride has enough meat on its bones to have whole sub-groups of what people like about it is endearing

The history about it is what has drawn me into it (aside from the funny clock) because it almost didn't happen! There was a near missed connection between a Pepsi exec and Walt Disney himself that, had that not happened, we wouldn't have gotten the ride at all. I don't want to relay the entire history here (the Imagineering Story & Behind the Attraction episodes about the world's fair attractions get into it, as well as a plethora of YouTube videos documenting the ride), but that story about the beginnings of it is so dear to me, and I can't explain why.

But anyway, since my primary focus is the original attraction and facades, I've done some reading about imagineers Mary Blair and Rolly Crump, who have become two of my favorite visual artists and large inspirations for me. Crump has a few books and interviews out that have been interesting to read, but admittedly I've had a hard time finding firsthand accounts from Blair herself. I'm sure some art out there but finding them has been tricky since I don't get a lot of time to do research in general (the stuff by Crump was all found on accident, and he also had the benefit of being alive until 2023 so getting firsthand accounts from him was easier)

Otherwise I am just... Constantly googling stuff and looking for old pictures and merchandise related to IASW. It gets me a lot of answers, surprisingly. I go to Disneyland at least once a month to go ride it and visit my boy.

Still not entirely sure WHY my brain fixated on IASW and the clock specifically, but that's just the hand I was dealt I guess 🤷 don't get me wrong, I still love Epcot stuff and have other silly theme park guys I love (RX-24.... 🥺) but the small world clock has such a stronghold on my brain and I genuinely don't think he's leaving any time soon LOL

It's so funny to me because 6 years ago, I would never have guessed this would have been my next special interest. I was working at a job I liked decently enough. I was still dropped out of school and had no urge to go back, and I was considering moving to Seattle... But now I work in a theme park doing a job I never saw myself having (which is fine, I like my job!), I'm back in school (pursuing a degree I hope I can spin into a career in theme park design 🤞), and I live in California now. Wild how that happens.

The small world clock may not be special to most people (I mean, a lot of people DO like him, I see tons of people taking photos in front of small world with him as the backdrop!) but he is extremely special to me. I treasure him so so so much, and do genuinely think my life has been better with him in it... It's silly that a funny clock face has done So Much to my brain and life but :'-) I love him so it's okay!

Anyway sorry that this is long and sappy LOL, you happened to ask this close to the 6 year anniversary of me getting into small world (it's on March 31 to be exact 😊) so it made me reflect a bit lol

TL;DR sources for more IASW info:

The Imagineering Story Episode 1: The Happiest Place on Earth (1964-1965 New York World's Fair stuff is about 35 min in) -- on Disney+

Behind the Attraction Episode 8: "it's a small world" -- on Disney+

"it's kind of a cute story" by Rolly Crump (interviews; written down by Jeff Heimbuch)

Defunctland's 1964-1965 NYWF video talks about it a decent amount if I remember right

any pictorial souvenir guides about the attraction (currently, and slowly, working on scanning mine in, and will share them once I do, but they're up on eBay a lot if you collect that sort of thing)

Sorry I don't have 🏴‍☠️ links for the D+ stuff or the book but I currently don't have the spoons to search for them

[ghostblazewrites]

Children of the Forest Intro

BASIC

genre: fantasy, adventure,

status: finished first draft, editing

key themes: found family, exploration, fantasy, nature, mythology, magical realism, siblings, childhood friends, nostalgia, parasites, at this point i'm just listing things in my book i'll stop

𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼 𖤣 𖥧 𓋼 𓍊 𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼 𖤣 𖥧 𓋼 𓍊 𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼 𖤣 𖥧 𓋼 𓍊 𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼

STORY

Two boys are born in a willow tree inside a forest brimming with magic. They become obsessed with uncovering the secrets of this forest, exploring and researching the wilderness along with their childhood friends. When the forest suddenly vanishes and then reappears in struggling condition, the boys are left wondering what happened to their home, and if they can save it.

CHARACTERS

Theo Winter (he/him)

Impulsive, always-smiling, and just a tad bit reckless. He's the class clown, never one to take things seriously and it backfires. a lot. Theo's just having fun ok? Not his fault the god of the forest decided his body would be perfect as its puppet!

age: 17

quote: “I highly doubt any of what you said is gonna be a problem,” Theo said distractedly, then grabbed onto Kian’s backpack urgently as another thought struck him. He was always active, and always filled with energy. Kian didn’t think he ever saw Theo without a grin on his face or his blue bandanna off his head.

quick facts

he's trans (ftm)

adhd king

playboy (don't worry, he learns very quickly this isn't good)

inspired by oliver queen and lance mcclain

heart of the forest

Kian Winter (he/him)

Intelligent, oblivious, and always locked in his own world, he's always operating at 100% and extremely determined/stubborn. the inventor of the group, his tech assists his research on the forest.

age: 17

quote: John’s veins bulged from his neck, his eyes slitted. He turned slowly to look at him and his voice was low. “You’re dead.” “I’m very much alive. It’s Mothsong who is dead. I think.” Kian rushed to pick up his robotic insect’s limp body from inside the mess. “I’m sure I can fix this–”

quick facts

autism king

inspired by zane (ninjago) and gansey from the raven boys!!

always wearing his goggles and his jacket with a million pockets in them- with almost any gadget you can think of

gayyy

always known as the younger brother of theo even though they're technically twins and no one knows who's older

brains of the forest

Rue Ezeani (she/her)

Quiet, sarcastic, and always willing to stand up for what she believes is right, she's a punk who got kicked out of her home, and she's brutally protective of her friends. also, flowers grow on her quite a lot.

age: 16

quote: “Poverly, you don’t know shit about me,” Rue growled, taking a step towards them. “I’ve been to this forest longer than you, it’s more important to me than you’ll ever know. Of course I was working to get it back.”

quick facts

has freckles

trans lesbian

first friend kian and theo made

inspired by blue sargent (wow who could've guessed) and killer frost

eyes of the forest

can play electric guitar

i love her

Becca Hill (she/her)

Smart, cold, and competent, she is known as the 'normal' one of the group, although she has her issues, don't worry. Gets skeptical and annoyed easily, but connects with nature and animals very well. Natural-born leader.

age: 17

quote: “Oh my god, you guys can’t just break ceilings and destroy classrooms. Do you have any idea how much those cost?” Becca pressed her lips together, concerned.

quick facts

'token straight friend' (sure...)

inspired by laurel lance and pip fitz amobi!!

has a pet dog, turtle, and bird

complicated relationship with theo

ears of the forest

Cove Poverly (they/them)

If you thought Theo was impulsive, think again. They're a fighter, with a short temper and witty humour. Chews gum, tobacco, straw, lollipops...they like to keep busy. Mastered the 90's + 2020 aesthetic at the same time? A reaaal southern kid.

age: 16

quote: “Trouble in hetero relationships. Can't relate," Cove casually chewed on a piece of gum. They brushed past Theo, picked up a twig, and began drawing something on a nearby rock.

quick facts

heterochromia! (one eye is blue, one eye is hazel)

inspired by... tbh i have no idea where cove came from they just popped up

very blunt/no filter

nonbinary

m e n

likes arguing with rue (affectionately, they hate each other)

fists of the forest

Amora (she/her)

Mysterious, sassy and flirtatious imp, lives deep within the forest and a master of manipulation. Is she truly evil? Who knows? Some hate her, some love her, but no one trusts her.

age: ?

quote: Amora grinned, her eyes a deep mauve in this lighting. “No games, Thorny. I’m just here to help you save the forest. It’s my job.” She stretched the last part, singing it with a tilt of her head.

quick facts

wears a red cloak

inspired by darcy wu and parisa kamali

seduces like half of the characters

she has elfish ears

twig horns and long black nails

also has ties to a god/spirit...

Miiba (it/its)

no picrew for this mf but basically this is the god of the forest, it's a big pain in the ass for our main characters because there's...occasional possessions and flora growing everywhere on their clothes/body. it has questionable morals due to being immortal and its sole purpose is to preserve the forest. it doesn't have a corporeal form, instead bouncing its consciousness around any creature/living thing in the forest (plants, trees, animals)

AESTHETIC

FACTS

𖡼 i wrote this entire book during nanowrimo!! i won, but i added 13k after november so it's only 63k right now, but i am editing to make it longer. it took me two months to finish draft 1

𖡼 i came up with the idea during summer of 2022, based on a playlist that a close friend gave me - they said boom, make a story, and i did!!

𖡼 the story is set in the fictional town of pinevale, canada, and i do not have a name for the forest yet (i should probably get on that so it's less vague when i talk about the forest

𖡼 it's third person and the POV switches between kian, theo, rue and miiba, and amora for like one pov (i'll probably make it more consistent in the 2nd draft)

LINKS

spotify playlist

pinboard

𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼 𖤣 𖥧 𓋼 𓍊 𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼 𖤣 𖥧 𓋼 𓍊 𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼 𖤣 𖥧 𓋼 𓍊 𖡼 𖤣 𖥧 𖡼 𓋼

if you want to know more, please tell me! this took SO LONG but i loved doing it. i'll probably do it for my other wips!!

[anotherduckinthedepths]

Here be the den of someone who's interests always find a way back to Minecraft, one way or another

Anyhow, hello, I'm Depths! (It might change later just warning you) I go by she/her pronouns and enjoy drawing + rambling about things I find interesting.

This blog is for those drawings and ramblings, specifically those tied to the QSMP, DSMP, Sbi, mcyt in general, and maybe some ranboo content if Im feeling like it, I'm generally open for interactions with others! (Granted I'm not the best at initiating interactions) I only ask that you both respect the DNI list below DNI: - TERFs, Racists, Homophobes, just be nice to people please (I hope this is unnecessary but better safe than sorry) - Those who support death threats/doxxing towards ANY content creators ("but you don't like (Insert cc here)", doesn't matter, no death threat/doxxing for ANY of them, full stop, you can dislike people or heck even deeply hate them without threatening their lives or the lives of those around them) And please do not harass me or anyone else who might pop up here just on the stance that we happen to enjoy a game and a story that is unfortunately connected to some well-known but divisive people online. Important addition, do not feel afraid to interact if you happen to like the characters played by ccs I dont like/support ! I'm not gonna shoo you away, I see them as seperate entities, like a character in a movie and the actor that plays them who exists outside of that, to do otherwise would be hypocritical of me. I want to try and make this blog as welcoming as I can to fellow fans regardless of how I view things, I do not seek to change anyone's mind and make them agree with me, I just wanna provide silly content to whoever enjoys it. Important tags #Depth's Art or #Depth's AU Art - Drawings I have done on this blog, from sketches to fully-fleshed out art pieces (if I ever do that), the latter is used for drawings regarding AUs I have. #Depth rambles - Random silly thoughts. #Serious Depth mode - Mainly got this up in the event of more serious posts, likely focusing on issues/discourse in the fandom and/or just how it affects me. I dont imagine I'll use this often but I feel like I'll end up having to use it at least once to explain my view of things. If you'd rather avoid seeing discussion around this I would suggest blocking this tag. #Depth's OCs - The tag for my OCs, more than likely minecraft related. #Depth's Brainrot About Jubilant - A specific tag for a very specific character that's on the border between AU character and OC (if you don't feel comfortable seeing posts about them due to the character they're an AU version of (hint- 🟩 :) ) I completely understand and you're more than welcome to block this tag)

_______ I have had some AUs cooking up in my brain and may post about them on this blog, when this happens I will list them down here and provide the tag it's assigned if you want to see my posts for it. Unnamed Superhero Warlock AU (Features c!dream and XD as main antagonists for the most part) (Important Note - This AU is right now kinda in-between being an AU and an original work, it's definetely still in AU territory rn, but I'm thinking of trying to make it it's own thing) The superpowered world all knows and looks up to Pantheon, a long-lasting group of individuals granted with two powers instead of one, what the public mostly doesn't know is that this comes at the cost of becoming a servant to an entity beyond comprehension, and becoming nothing more than a puppet to serve it's desires to invade and control the material plane. Kristin is one of these members of the current Pantheon, tied to a entity of the afterlife, she's long been resigned to her destiny as Lady Death, she is doomed to hunt criminals (or just those who know too much) and those she's sent after are doomed to never escape, none she has been sent after even managing to escape one encounter with her. ... until a man soon to be named Sisyphus manages to get away. Tag - #Unnamed Superhero Warlock AU QSMP Pokemon Mystery Dungeon AU Exactly what it says on the tin, an AU where the players are humans turned into Pokemon and are now stranded in a large remote island in the Pokemon world. Littered with Mystery Dungeons and various other dangers that threaten both them and the pokemon they've been given to care for. Tag - #qsmp pmd au

[neighbourhoodwaifu]

For me I've always had the problem of mirroring people I see on TV, subtly adopting some of their mentality or traits if I'm exposed to them too long and relate to them on some level. It usually goes away after I stop watching the show. Typically protagonists I watch are men, and if they're cool or relatable I mirror them a little. I don't think I've mirrored many women on shows or movies. But I definitely easily connect with them. The one that comes to mind is Ripely from Alien. She's just a person, she's not a "girlboss" or something it has nothing to do with that. But she's so cool.

I also have always been fascinated by shows like Sailor Moon. I remember being a kid and wishing I could transform the way Sailor Moon does. I saw myself in her because she was pale and had blue eyes blonde hair like me. I didn't understand that this was weird for a while. I grew up to reject my more girly habits, and honestly became homophobic and a bit transphobic during my teenage years. Despite having weird fantasies. Lots of self loathing there.

The point is its been so hard to reconcile everything in my head and my life experiences because there's so much conflicting information. When I look in the mirror, and have a light beard and stern look, I think I look pretty good. Sometimes. But I look at my body and I want to be skinnier. I want to be curvier. I want to be sexy like a woman. Not like a man. But I've never been fit in a masculine way. Maybe I'd love myself how I am if I worked out more. But then I've always hated shopping, and never really liked clothes. Never really clicked. I ended up buying things I felt would make me look good for other people rather than for myself. Oftentimes I would lean toward things that broke the mould of what men typically wear. Like lots of pinks and pastels instead of blues and blacks. But it never felt like me. It felt like a costume. Like i was trying to fit in. When all I really wanted to do was throw on a shirt or sweater and some jeans or something. And women were so lucky because they have such amazing clothing and look so pretty or sexy or beautiful... and I think I resented help my wife pick out clothes because I was jealous. But it also would be fun to dress her up the way I want? Like... holy shit.

I am self diagnosed autistic. Shoot me. If you spent 10 years with me like my wife has you'd agree I'm autistic. I think people have always known, especially when I was younger and hadn't learned to cope or mask or fit in. None of it comes naturally to me and I'm not always "in" on what's going on. I've had to brute force my way to understanding by listening and shutting up for the first half of my life. Now I'm pretty good at navigating. But I think ive been holding back and pretending for so long that I never really found out who I am. And I think I've been depressed because I'm not really being what I want to be, just checking off the boxes everyday. And whenever I've had a wrongthink moment I've been scared of people judging me and thinking less of me. There so many threads and veins that interconnect and create this confusing concoction of emotions and holdbacks.

I think another problem I have is that I don't really FEEL my emotions right away BUT I will act on them in the moment. It's like the emotional side of my brain is living separately and just does whatever it wants with my body without me knowing until it shows itself. I don't cry much anymore except when really tragic things happen. But I have always had anger issues. Probably because of the autism, mostly. But also probably from not feeling comfortable expressing my emotions. Holding back tears. Holding back honest reactions and beliefs. It makes sense. It's not like I've had a terrible upbringing or friend group either. My family has been open to us being queer for a long time, and my friends are often queer. But the shame and fear of fantasizing about being a woman still remained my whole life. I've always seen it as a perverse fantasy rather than maybe a sense of desire to express my true self. Probably because of puberty. And my sexual attraction to women. I guess I couldn't tell the difference between gender envy and sexual attraction. Especially since I've never been sexually attracted to a man ever. So being a straight man was just obvious and simple. No extra steps needed. And I got a wife who loves me for me. And she's fine with whatever I want to do because she's probably asexual but she's worried because it seems sudden to her since I never really showed any of this. I never really considered it a realistic option. I assumed I never could be... but... I could... and it's the only life I have. I've though "I hope my next life is a woman, that'd be fun" but... there is no next life... so... if I want to be one I have to do it now. And I can. There are ways to do it. It doesn't have to he a fantasy. And worst case scenario I have to spend some money to undo some of the effects if I want to go back to being a man. But I don't think I would... because I don't like my face. I don't like my body. And I don't think getting toned and fit will remove all the apathy I have. Being healthy is good, but I think it's deeper than that.

I'm tired of living how I'm supposed to and want to live more hedonistically. I'm not a hedonist, but I want to embrace my natural desires more. If I want to buy a cute article of clothing I should just do it. If I want some cutesy item I should get it. But I don't want to gaslight myself and give into stereotypes. I want it to be my genuine desires. It's so hard to avoid falling into traps of "pretend" when my whole life has been some level of pretending. Putting on a show. I'm performing an act and the character is me. I just want to be me. I just want to be.

[sysmedsaresexist]

I want to add in my own experience, as someone very old that grew up without knowing anything about... anything.

We actually didn't have a headspace until very recently.

Growing up before the dawn of the internet (it was there, but few people had a home computer, let alone connection to the internet, and what was online was very... not in depth), we didn't realize anything was even wrong until I was almost twenty. Early twenties I started therapy with a specialist.

At the time, inner worlds or headspaces were... basically reserved for PF systems. All resources that talked about them discussed them only in the context of large systems with heavy fragmentation. These systems were extremely heavy on the dissociative side, and now, looking back, are thought to have had MADD.

MADD very, very much feels out of your control. Even going into a daydream is out of your control. Spells come on very suddenly, and you're just gone. It can feel like getting knocked back from front. Occasionally, we would do things that we don't remember during these spells, alters stealing the moment to do things, but more often, we would sit there, completely silent and still and off in space.

It sparks the question, though.

Where do you go whenever another alter fronts?

Well, into whatever daydream I wanted, until we settled on a design that worked for all of us.

My daydreams at that time were not my headspace, but what I see described by people sounds exactly like what I experienced with MADD, and having created my headspace, I can tell you that both feel extremely similar. Had I known I was a system when my MADD was at its worst, they would have been indistinguishable.

Headspaces are not the norm.

Before the internet, therapists had techniques to help their clients build headspaces. The one used for us was called the round table.

You imagine a round table, and you invite your alters to sit with you. You're basically trying to meditate while you do it.

Simple.

And that's where my headspace started.

We still have the round table, it has a chair for everyone in the system, but by design, some of us can't see others. For example, if we all sat at the table, I wouldn't see anyone sitting in 3 or 4 of the chairs, but other alters can see them, and some can't see me.

It takes a bit to confirm everyone made it to meetings, but this is because us mixing makes for a bad time.

The room expanded to have doors lining the walls for each of us, a couch and TV to visualize fronting.

And that's the key, it's all visualization. A way to help put images to things to try to understand better. For example, when one of my alters gets angry, he flips the round table. I don't always actually see it, it doesn't always happen, but it helps me visualize those spikes in emotion and who they're coming from. In this way, my headspace always feels active, which can make things more confusing.

And things change in headspace, and that also feels out of my control. We have an alter that lives in a broom closet (no, it's not HP related, he's a little and he's scared). Sometimes the room has a light, sometimes it doesn't. Over the years, I've found it has a light when he's feeling more scared. No light? He's calm. This isn't actually happening, it's my brain putting a visual in to help me understand what he's feeling. When there's no light peeking through the door, the vibe is much calmer, but whether he has the light depends on what he's trying to convey and how I'm interpreting his emotions alongside my own.

MADD tends to taper off as you get older, and I think having experienced the two at separate points in life without overlap can give a unique perspective on the interpretation of headspaces.

And that's my story.

I forget what point I was making.

what do you think of people who are adamant in saying that the innerworld is just a collective daydream? I can see why it would be like that for a lot of systems but it's not always like that and also a whole other lot of systems have a premade innerworld. I'd like to read some insight of yours on this

Man, I gotta be real with you -- I don't know.

Like, for me... My innerworld is absolutely a daydream. I conceptualize it entirely as a think I made up in my head. Was it conscious? Nope -- but most of my dissociation isn't really conscious lol.

When we first recognized ourselves as existing -- which is where a lot of our memories of high school start to clear up some -- we were already there this whole time. We just didn't know we were. And we conceptualized ourselves, back then, as OCs that Rice had made up, so that she would have someone to take care of her. It was just a fun lens of looking at ourselves, nothing more and nothing less.

So... yeah. For us, our innerworld has always been just a collective daydream. And while our innerworld was "premade," it also adapted for us. It felt like we always had it -- but we've also shaped that place to become our own, to heal with us. Isn't that the goal?

If others see their innerworlds differently, baller! I struggle to conceptualize it as anything else, myself, but I won't question other's self actualization.

[twinkle-with-stars]

Astrology observations

5🖤

Disclaimer: I'm not a professional at this. these are just what I've observed in people around me . do not repost or reword.

Here with the 5th one...

♕ venus-south node aspect might have a past life lover with unfinished business, they might meet again in this lifetime and this meeting or person will effect your purpose of this lifetime (North node).

♛ venus-uranus in a chart doesn't necessarily mean a commitment phob. It simply means a person who likes to have their individuality alive in relationships.

♕ Children With 9th house placements or influence often are adopted or fostered, if not the case then might have connections outside the birth family that feels like family. As they tend to build their families on their own.

♛ mars in 3rd house have more brothers or masculine energy surrounding them in form of siblings and cousins.

♕ people with saturn in 5th house mostly are considered old-souls with strict attitude.they also have a hard time expressing their creativity and innocent, childish side.

♛ people with south node in 9th might have strong resemblance to their ancestors. Might even be known as the re-born version of that one particular ancestor.

♕ mercury in pisces or retrograde is a "trickster" placement because they have a flow in their thinking and ways of communication, they know how to get information out of you, because they're so soft spoken unlike a scorpio mercury that you would never see them as a threat to your secrets.but keep in mind that it's upon the person if they use this ability for good or bad or not at all.

♛ Leo risings often easily resonate with the setreotypical traits of their zodiac sign as they have sun as the chart ruler which is also our zodiac sign in western astrology.

♕ venus-chiron harsh aspects always struggles with the topics like luxury or Beauty. These people can easily see beauty in others but not in themselves usually they require other people to ensure them.

♛ virgo+Aquarius in a chart shows a person who's a social worker and happily and actively helps individuals out but they are always people with bigger visions. They're the type of people who want to build a legecy for their future generations.

♕ mercury in 7th house is a great placement for a lawyer. Why? Because mercury rules brains, thoughts, intellect and 7th house rules justice these people are really good at settling down arguments and even prove their point.

♛ mercury in 3rd people are smart we all heard that, but..talk to them and you'll have soo much fun these people have many words in their vocabulary invented by them only and plus funny? Oh yess they are.

♕ your 12th house might somehow relate to your south node giving you more detailed look into your past life through your bith chart.

For ex- I have sn in 4th, the house of cancer and my 12th house is also ruled by cancer stating the same themes.

♛ you tend to be jealous of people who have their sun as your North node. Credit @the-falling-star

Now I've checked this in my chart not jealous but yeah I do admire or envy geminis. Because their soul and ego is already what my goal is.

♕ Libras often find it hard to fulfill their promises, as they promise more than they can deliver because they want to say no to anyone.

♛ virgo/gemini or mercury in second house tend to have sharp features and small mouths.

♕ saturn-pluto individuals often have to go through painful transformations in order to learn their lessons. Some self-destructive habits or behaviour is a way of the transformation.

In this pluto's house placement shows the self-destructive habits and the position of Saturn shows it's impact or the area where the lesson is learned.

For ex- someone with saturn in 10th and Pluto in 4th with this aspect might purposefully pass alot of golden opportunities in career or not socialise(put efforts in building a reputation) because they don't want to sacrifice their innate comfort and don't want move because of the stubborness and obsession with the comfort of home.

♛ Neptune in 1st house people like to look pretty and cute but they also think everyone's there for just them. They kinda aren't good at understanding boundaries either theirs or others.

They have a hard time defining and understanding others boundaries which makes them kinda pushy without even knowing, these people come with good intentions tho.

♕ Lilith in 7th house not Only make people in social circles and partnerships jealous but they get jealous too and alot.

♛ Sun in 6th house people are very giving no matter what happens they'll always try to help you, solving problems kinda helps them relaxing.

♕ Beware of becoming lazy when your chart has a good amount of trines in it, as trines do give talent but they never give the drive to persue those talents and you tend not to work on your trines as you're already good at it( doesn't mean better than the rest).

♛ squares and oppositions in a chart is where you have drive and will, where you put efforts to become the best or atleast improve.

♕ when someone has a harshly aspected sun and have a difficult time living out their sun sign they tend to exhibit the most negative traits of the opposite signs.

Ex- someone with a harshly aspected sun in Aquarius in 4th house might be seen as rude, selfish, arrogant, attention seeker and a narcissist by the public because this person is exhibiting the most negative traits of leo sign.

♛ sun in 12th/leo in 12th people I've noticed always try to hide themselves, not be too much noticeable and come in people's eyes, they kinda go like "don't notice me" but they somehow are always noticeable.

I'm done here for today. Do share your opinions on these and I would love to know thoughts on these.

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just as i wondered why we were hearing the song playing in the room like a dance practice rather than just hearing the album audio like a normal performance video, i found out. i really REALLY like this video. i think it feels good for new years time, and i think the look of the space really suits an aesthetic that i've been interested in lately but don't have the words to describe

and i also think that if i want to reach, and if i want to read the ditto MVs as a little more literal (these are real girls at Heesoo's school who she fantasizes about being close with but can't bring herself to approach in reality) then part of my brain is like "oh this is the kind of space the girls' characters in the MV would hang out in. somewhere with a party atmosphere, somewhere where they can show what they're working on and people will be entertained." and that kind of makes me sadder for heesoo because... a lot of times friend circles are a lot more open than they seem. sometimes a party or a gathering is less "i only want people who deserve to be here" and more "if there's a chair for you to sit in, room for you to stand, and you aren't going to be an active shithead, then you have your place there."

a lot of people in the comments of the Ditto MVs have talked about relating to Heesoo, and i always wonder what that's like because i'm just... not that kind of person. but ive known those kinds of people. you know? i've also never been a major center of attention (despite my desire for attention and all the stupid shit i've done to make people laugh), but i've always been kind of a tag-along. so i suppose if i mentally canonized this pv as part of the DittoVerse (lol) my highschool self would have fit into the social category demonstrated by the backup dancers here. i'm not a heesoo, and i'm not a newjeans.

with those thoughts running through my head, this video also kind of brought back the sadness i'd feel for loners in school. because, to me as a teenager, the world was wide open. everybody was someone to talk to. but for more anxious people i knew, they felt like they were trapped alone in a school building with hundreds of walking social riddles that they'd never be able to solve, every day.

recently, i described to a friend how in school i used to occasionally befriend people who i saw alone a lot and then introduce them to one another, because to me there was no use in them all being alone when they all obviously had the same interests and social preferences. the friend i told this to called this border collie behavior. that comparison made me laugh

now that i'm not in school, i feel like an anxious border collie with no idea what to do. i've never had so much difficulty seeking out social experiences. i've always had hundreds of people to pick from, and to introduce to one another. i've always been able to just tag along, be an intentional third wheel, or focus on trying to help others find their future best friend. in much smaller groups of people to make connections with, i feel a little helpless. i'm not alone in life now, but i wish i was in a room lounging on a couch where someone more radiant than me is making everyone laugh. i wish i was cheering someone on. i wish i was a tag-along with someone who really belongs in a place and just invited me because there's room. i wish i had someone a bit awkward and lonely to bring with me and introduce to people.