#i kinda rushed the coloring at the end but it turned out good ig

[5t4r5and5uch01]

What i did for that one trend on twt. My fave Blue sillies. 💙💙💙

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Turns out I have a lot of thoughts about only the finale, so Im just gonna jot down my thoughts about season 5 bullet-point style before I forget everything and then make a seperate post about just the finale

I liked the return to form we got with it just being Ladybug and Cat Noir fighting villains instead of all these other superheroes that honestly just clutter everything, I am most certainly not looking forward to seeing how theyll handle this in the next season

I liked that they were kinda breaking out of the incredibly consistant formulaic episode structure and specifically that we got more interesting de-akumatizations than just Ladybug physically beating them

Monarchs design fucking sucked, why are his ears just fully out. slut

I quite liked Felix despite all the negative stuff Ive heard about him, I was honestly suprised that he played such a small role this season I think he only had like 6 or 7 appearances in the entire show

Feligami is not even working for me, even if I didnt prefer Marigami and Adrigaminette and even if I didnt think their relationship was rushed and felt obligatory and forced, theres just something kinda unsettling about how Felix has the ability to fully kill Kagami. Like, I dont think hes gonna do it considering how crushed he was when he to get rid of the big red orb that eats people, but it still adds this weird undertone to the relationship. I think the only way to resolve this that I can think of would be to have them swap miraculous, even just for one episode so that we can see that Felix genuinely trusts her with his life the same way he expects her to trust him

I already wrote a whole post about how the mostly male writers of this show clearly dont understand how teen girls react to other teen girls who are compulsive liars, so Im definitely not looking forward to Lila and her bullshit getting even more attention

Its so weird how Gabriel and Tomoe are clearly portrayed as in the wrong for wanting to control their children the way they do, but then when Chloes mom literally does the same thing with basically the same wording and everything its just like, karma ig?? Or atleast thats how I read it with how Chloe was written to be so comically awful for the entire season

Everything involving the Alliance rings was fucking bonkers who came up with that

This season felt a lot less magical and miraculous whimsical, like it was going into more of a weird sci-fi direction which I dont really like

I liked the stuff with the resistance and how the Miracuclass were still trying to be heroes even without superpowers and I liked how they called each other comrades, that was kinda based ngl

Kitty Noirs design sucked ass, who thought it was a good idea to put all those clashing colors on her head but I did like that we got to see Alya slay as Scarabella again that was fun

My favorite episode of the season and possibly the series tbh was Perfection, I actually teared up a little towards the end it was lovely

[qingxintea]

➼ chongyun || hiraeth

tw: mention of knives (no violence), kidnapping, explosion _______

you angled your camera to catch your face and upper body correctly and adjusted your blinds for the correct lighting. you put thin pieces of yellow and pink paper over your lamp to give off a sunset lighting sort of aesthetic in your minimalist room. your tiny cacao tree sat in the corner of your room, setting some sort of simple beach vibe.

then, you began to stream.

you watched as majority of your followers came to view as you sat in your rolly gaming chair. the greetings came rushing in and you noticed two of your friends had came along too, xingqiu and chongyun.

"hey gang, it's kingexplosionmurder here with your weekly sunday stream," you smiled and watched as comments came in asking you to notice them. beginning to select randomly, you flicked a short strand of hair behind your ear. "you have been noticed, yourlocalsugardaddy," you blessed them. and you swore you chose randomly.

on the other side of the screen, chongyun's face slightly flushed before eating his popsicle again. yes, that was his username, selected by xingqiu after the guhua heir was somehow able to trick him into selecting so. the situation must've been that he accidentally consumed some jueyun chili's, that was also xingqiu's doing.

he watched you smile as you explained your schedule for this stream, when he noticed you suddenly began laughing. it sounded genuine, he wanted to believe it was genuine, but there was a trace of disappointment in it. he observed your face, noticing you were looking at the chat box. "i agree too, scarymoose."

scarymoose: this streamer's kinda dog shit ngl 😐

by instinct, his fingers grazed over the keyboard as he analyzed the tone. this kid wasn't joking around with himself, he was really out to bring you down. he exhaled, shaking his head, wondering how you would deal in the situation.

yourlocalsugardaddy: miss karen this isn't yelp 🙄

he wasn't content with that yet, things could've gone onto more serious matters, but he knew you liked to keep your chat clean and peaceful. you went to the farther extents to keep that from happening, agreeing with rude comments yourself as a said joke, but actually have it sometimes harming you.

so chongyun tried his best to keep you happy.

redrumreaper: yo moose chill 😳

he recognized his friend xingqiu also trying to calm the situation as you just laughed it off and attempted to continue, sooner enough just beginning to ignore all his comments. some other viewers came up to your defense but in all honesty, you wanted to move on.

"s-so, i found some silk flowers outside of wangshuu inn yesterday, aren't they pretty?" you took a tiny bouquet of the said silk flowers and presented it to your viewers, holding it next to your cheek. the pink tone of the flowers matched the color of your cheeks and made for a nice picture. chongyun would've screenshotted it, but he respected your privacy.

yourlocaldumba$$: yes they're so pretty we love you 😍

13lue13erry: yes ong ong 💕 thiccer than my granny

Straw13erry: don't bring madame ping into this 💀💀

colino: are you sure it's alright to take from someone's legally owned property ?? much less from their garden

Straw13erry: u mean ur neighbors don't harvest ur flowers every day? 🙄 privilege spoke 🤚

yourlocalsugardaddy: vv pretty 😳

redrumreaper: simp 💀

you slightly choked over on your side and xingqiu calling chongyun a simp, for you. quickly clearing your throat, you regained your composure. your viewers could see that your cheeks had been dusted with a darker shade now.

13lue13erry: 👀

Straw13erry: 👀

yourlocaldumba$$: 👀

redrumreaper: 👀

sireluck: 💀

bazinga: 👀

dandelionn: 👀

poetichoe: 👀

"okay- anyways," you pushed that aside, watching the chain of 👀's coming in. you weren't too sure at what they were referring to, but just assumed that they were interested in xingqiu exposing chongyun. but, there was no way chongyun really felt like that, right? it was just a friendly compliment from what you believed. "just a tiny flex but y'all guys, i am so cracked at apex, not gonna lie. for all the new followers out there," you randomly commented. 'and to change the subject.'

"actually, you know what? fuck the schedule, let's go to trolling little eight year old kids posting selfies on instagram. due to certain reasons i'm just not gonna be blurring their usernames out, but please don't spam these people, i don't wanna be cancelled 💗" you sweetly smiled as you pulled up instagram and started streaming on your phone.

of course your sus notifications ruined it 🤡🤡

because xingqiu took advantage of the situation, sending messages to your discord. nothing mentioning your romantic life because he knew better than that, but just trolling. 'HEY GANG. ITS ME, TONY, AND TODAY WE'RE GONNA SEE IF IM FASTER THAN THIS MOUSE TRAP.' 'TURNS OUT, I AM NOT FASTER THAN THIS MOUSE TRAP.' 'AN UPDATE, IT HURTS. ALRIGHT. BYE GUYS.' you tried hard to contain your laughter, but certain giggles came out in the end, giggles that made chongyun's heart flutter.

xingqiu just kept spamming without a stop, to the point that you accidentally clicked into the notification instead of someone's username on a selfie post. so now everyone could see your group chat with xingqiu, chongyun, and a few other viewers that were actually your other friends.

13lue13erry: oh no 🤡

Straw13erry: 🗿

yourlocaldumba$$: HAHAHAHA WE'RE EXPOSED 🤡👌

just water support boy 😔: image.png

oh my god he's sending chongyun catboy edits. you made this concerning noise, glad no one really seemed to know who chongyun really was on twitch. you went back to instagram, beginning to dm a random kid, ignoring the situation that had just happened.

chongyun choked, slight heat running to his cheeks. what the fuck was xingqiu doing- how did he even get those pictures? maybe it was that one time xingqiu forced him to go to a furry con, but how did he ever get the time to photograph these? he nervously fidgeted and played with his fingers.

13lue13erry: 🤡

Straw13erry: 🤡

yourlocaldumba$$: 🤡

redrumreaper: 🤡

<— oraoraoraor

kingexplosionmurder: chav check

oraoraoraor: what

kingexplosionmurder: chav: check 😹😹

oraoraoraor: bruh

oraoraoraor: who tf are you

kingexplosionmurder: hope you like baddies cause i'm bad at everything 💗

oraoraoraor: bruh ok i'm blocking

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: 😐

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: wtf

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: wait wait UR that one twitch streamer?

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: ig ur fans gonna be so disappointed in you

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: hahaha wtf i'm gonna post this and tag you

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

afterwards you sent a barrage of really cursed images and left the person on read when they tried to complain and get a reaction out of you. you chuckled, extremely satisfied with yourself. this is what your viewers followed you for. you went on hunting for another user, "GO Y/N GO" filling up your chat.

you were just about to dm this other kid until you heard a ring from your doorbell. "oh what the fuck, i didn't invite anyone. but you know what, i'll pull something up to entertain y'all guys while i'm afk." searching on youtube, you typed in 'banana fish ep. 1' and clicked on the longest video you saw. then you got up from your chair, making your way to the front door.

you didn't mute yourself before because you thought there was really no need to, and you underestimated your mic sensitivity. god did you wish that you could go back and time and do just that.

twisting the doorknob, you opened your door and was met with... a certain, someone.

someone that you recognized and has caused you so much pain, and it was all so fun and games before they had to come along. "bruh. aight what you here for fam?" you played it super chill, though you were really sick and tired of this person's shit.

"(y/n). we need to talk," her stern voice made you flinch as you just stared straight into her eyes. you simply nodded your head and crossed your arms, shifting your weight onto your right leg. "we're thinking of taking you back home."

your froze, your breath hitching as you just stood there, waiting for her to go on. clenching your fists and looking down, you stayed silent for a little moment and questioned, "...why?"

"well, you have a stable income source, right?" she asked, putting her hands on her hips. "you can finally be of use to us," she clasped her hands together, a bright smile on her face. your finger twitched, awaiting an explanation. "you're a streamer, yeah? so you can be a useful asset to our family name."

"...you only want me to come back so i can make you all seem... good?"

and here you thought, just for a second, that you would be accepted back into the place where you really belonged. your shoulders slumped, as small tears began to well up in your eyes. "and for our profitable gain of course, it would be a shame to not acquire that from you."

you composed yourself and looked up. "im afraid my profit can only cover for one person, and it would be myself that i focus to make a suitable and independent living out of. you've kicked me out ever since i've graduated from college and had me fend for myself, now inviting me back once i have a stable job?" you breathed, fiddling with the sleeves of your black hoodie.

"oh, not inviting, dear. taking."

confused by her words, you let your guard down as she suddenly pushed a warm cloth over your mouth as you let out a constrained scream. you tried to break free of her grasp, reaching for the switchblade in your pocket, but the drowsing chemicals from the cloth took control of you and you felt disoriented. "you... bitch..."

your head hit the floor.

》●✿ time ● skip ✿●

silence.

thats all you heard when you awoke.

pure, unfiltered silence that overwhelmed you as you were completely lost. what was happening?

you tried turning to the other side of your childhood bed, the moon casting light shadows into your 'room'. there was a rope around your wrists you noticed, so you brought them up to your lips and starting gnawing on them until it broke apart. (guys we feral its not a furry instinct ok?/ ??  ?)

the material had irritated your skin, but you put that aside for now. escape- thats what you really needed to do. it was fairly dark, but you didn't have a good estimate of time. the analog clock was broken and set to a different time that displayed 11AM. you sat up, your fingers running along the frame of the window next to you.

for a moment, you stopped, thoughts rushing into your head. what if you could start a whole other life here where things could finally be peaceful, what if you didn't have to feel so isolated anymore, what if you could- ...

no. (y/n), get yourself together. what has happened will anyways stay there, and there is no healing scars. ...still, you couldn't shake off the feeling of missing this home so much when you had an amazing childhood, though full of fake actors who had manipulated you.

opening all the cabinets silently, you grabbed things that you assumed would come to your aid. a tiny backpack, which you then stuffed with other things around it. a first aid kit, a spare knife just in case, along with a clean oversized sweater and a couple dollar bills. all that, along with a compass.

you turned towards your window, stepping on your bed.

pushing open the sides of your window, your stepped on, the brown coldness of the frame coming in contact with your feet. you shivered just a little bit before stopping to think. what would you do once you were out of here? you barely knew your way here. and not to mention, your devices were still left at your other house, so there was no way of contact.

...

did your stream ever end? even if it did, had you muted yourself before leaving? no, you didn't, and you could remember in precise detail. someone out there, anyone, would be willing to help, right? you couldn't possibly be here forever, not when you're basically blown up all over your socials?

your friends, yes, your friends! xingqiu and chongyun were watching the stream and had made obvious interaction in doing so, and they'd be willing to protect you. if they just had a lead...

but... what lead was there? all they heard was the woman's voice and, that was probably it, wasn't it? only a voice with no other clear features that could identify her. it looked like you were doing this on your own.

you came in contact with the blades of grass tickling your feet and conveniently found a pair of sneakers outside. it definitely wasn't yours, and it smelled like the scent of your old room. most likely, it belonged to someone from inside your house, lavender and mint, but who inside there was in the age range to wear modern day sneakers..?

brushing that question aside, you unhesitatingly laced them on and they were just a bit too big, but you could manage.

you breathed, inhaling the freedom intertwined air, a much needed factor of bringing you back to your lost sense of happiness. then, the fear struck you once again, because you needed to improvise now. you needed to run, but which direction? you barely knew this place at all.

you dug around your pocket for the compass you had and it was pointing east. you remember that stepping out of your house was facing west, so you were going the right way... but who knows how messy the path was? it couldn't have been an exact pathway, but going directly ahead was your simplest option.

you heard a pair of footsteps coming from inside the house, probably a few seconds away to opening the door. you sucked in your breath and ran, ran as far as your legs could take you. your intimidating speed and played into your advantage, and taking one last look, you saw the lights on, before continuing.

a few minutes into it, you felt some elemental energy. it was a sense you learned to develop since you were young, giving you the upper hand in a variety of situations. you followed the trail of glowing lines, the air starting to get colder and colder. you shuddered, the crisp coldness nipping at your skin.

you sat below a tree, taking your backpack off your shoulder and took out the oversized sweater. you put it on over your black tee and light blue skinny jeans, its nostalgic aroma filling your sense of smell.

it was... warm.

it shouldn't be warm.

the warmth proved as a sign that someone had worn it before, but this size was from what you knew, too small to fit the woman you came across again, and you absolutely did not recall any other beings within the house. it was a small household.

suddenly, you remembered what she said.

we're thinking of taking you back home. you can finally be of use to us.

plural. you should've noticed it before and you shook your head, slightly disappointed in yourself. you didn't remember any other birth siblings. could it be the fact that during the time, they had, in a way, replaced you?

you sat up, then suddenly went drowsy. your eyelids were getting heavy as your back hit the same tree. ah, that clever bitch. you chuckled to yourself, but still unsatisfied how this was gonna end. reaching inside your pocket, you grabbed a bomb that a little kid gave you, and threw it as far as you could. it wasn't as far as you hoped, but it was exceptionally far considered your sleepy state.

in a few couple seconds or so, it was going to explode. you did that to divert the attention of her and slowly ran as far as you could. a few seconds in, you gave in, hoping that your efforts were enough. 》●✿ perspective ● shift ✿●

chongyun heard an explosion.

he raised his head in the direction smoke was coming from, and made a run for it, then stopping to think. no, you're smarter than this. he gathered his shit together and remembered that one day klee gave you a bomb. he deducted that you had used it as a diversion, and began to search around the area.

and finally, he came across your sleeping body. to ensure your living state, he crouched down and let two fingers travel across your neck, searching for a pulse, and was relieved when he found one, pulsing at a normal rate.

he then carried you on his back, picking up the pace since he deducted someone was out for you, would you need a distraction. he remembered some details of the woman, she had ended your stream with your sleeping form in her hands, a dirty smirk coming across her lips. she had dark hair with some natural highlights, but that was all he saw because the rest was concealed by a cloak.

a few minutes, maybe half an hour later, you began to stir. chongyun decided that he ventured far enough to liyue and slowed down for your comfort. he wanted you to get some well deserved rest. but slowly, you woke up, but only the tiniest movement was made. your eyes were still droopy and you wanted to return to sleep.

but the sight of pastel blue hair kept you from doing so.

you felt the familiar silk coming in contact with your arms as he kept on trudging forward at a more consistent and smooth pace. "..chongyun?" you muttered out weakly, earning a small smile from the male. he hummed in response, continuing forward.

your mind was cloudy, unable to interpret the language of the world. but softly, words effortlessly escaped your lips, "... did i do the right... thing?" blinking multiple times, you awaited his answer.

"yes, yes you did," his soft voice reached your ears, making you smile a bit. you nuzzled deeper into his shoulder, clinging onto him tighter, unwilling to let go.

"thank you," you whispered.

he chuckled a bit before responding, "anything for you."

_____

bro ending is a little off because i'm wrote this at 2:53AM and so my brain has went ⬇️⬇️ also i'm just hungry

copy and pasted from my wattpad,, @ppeachtea_

[heli0s-writes]

Good Enough

Summary: From this ask:  i read your deadcrush miniseries and ig i got caught in the feels and love the way you write 💛 i was wondering if you could write something bucky x y/n where she’s younger but they’re in a stable relationship and she becomes pregnant? like she‘s happy and excited but bucky is kinda worried bc of his genes, past, etc.

A/N: So sorry this took like five months! 2.5k words. Fluff with a little cussing involved.

Bag of Tricks One-Shots Masterlist

“How do you feel about the color orange?”

It’s a Friday night in the tower, almost bedtime when you embark of a journey of questions, carefully placed breadcrumbs for Bucky.

“I feel… fine?”

“Light orange or dark orange?”

“What’s dark orange look like? A dirty penny?”

“Light orange it is.” You scrunch your nose at the thought of painting a room the shade he’s imagining.

“What for?”

You shrug.

When you both brush your teeth, you take glance at him in the mirror, eyes trailing from his brow to his chin, attentive to the way his nose slopes and his jaw cuts. Jesus, you’d be lucky if--

Bucky mutters from behind a mouthful of toothpaste suds, “What is it?”

After four years it makes sense that he would be able to figure out when you’re keeping thoughts to yourself. He’s in your head, Bucky Barnes. Even when he’s not there, you’re thinking of him. Every second of the day, really. It’s Bucky breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and all other hours, too. It makes you a little bewildered with joy that you can feel so much for a single person.

Even before he kissed you at the end of that horrid mission--- when you nearly drowned in some lake in Scotland. He had plunged into the murky depths, arm gushing blood, yanked you up onto shore and performed CPR. Your ribs nearly broke and Sam was by his side, head in his hands. Get up, get up, get up, goddamn it!

With a final two-handed press into your chest where the slightest bit of crunching could be heard, you spat. Two mouthfuls of foggy blue-green right into his face.

FUCK!

Sam sighed in relief, leaning back with his hands on his waist because if you hadn’t woken up, he thought, Bucky would have burned down the entire country.

I think--- another sputter as you attempted to catch your breath—the fucking Loch Ness monster--- fuck. I think I saw that shit.

Blinking the prickling from your eyes, you struggled to see clearly from the swelling of your lids. Your sternum felt bruised, and in front of you, Bucky looked about ready to burst into tears.

You got a little—haha—my spit—on your face.

He snarled and you reeled back in response. He snarled and shoved you back into the mud and kissed you until you coughed again into his mouth, a final splash dowsing a blazing moment.

Sam looked away with a grin and spoke into his earpiece, updating the rest of the team of your status. She’s up. Well—sort of. Barnes is kind of all over her.

Even before that moment, your head had been swimming with all thoughts of him along with desperate attempts to drive them away—make them small and unseen so you don’t trail behind him like a lovesick idiot.

He was the damn Winter Soldier. He was a legend and you were just a loud-mouthed kid, only twenty.

You had been rough around the edges, needing a lot of preparation and training before you could run any missions. There was a lot of difficulty at first, especially when it came to Steve. You were always too clumsy, too brash, not enough pirouettes and cartwheels. Whatever.

So, after days of doing nothing but getting scolded and running simulations alone with FRIDAY, Steve dragged Bucky into the weight room where you were throwing a seventy-pound medicine ball around like it was a can of soup.

Punch her. Steve had commanded with a smirk, a little irritated that earlier in the day you kicked his legs out underneath his shield. Punch her with your arm.

You almost shit yourself. And Bucky looked like he could have, too. It took a lot of yelling from Steve, yelling back from Bucky, and incomprehensible yelling from you before Bucky was so overwhelmed with the noise that he just did it.

That powerful arm pulled back, whirred, launched itself forward and you had bat it away like a ping pong ball, feet grounded assertively. Wide blue eyes pierced you, made your heart leap into your mouth, and when he did it again you were so struck by him it hit square in your chest.

Steve clapped his hands together. Great. Meet your new training buddy. You two rough each other up—Buck, you get her right because she’s inconsistent and I’ve got her signed up for a patrol three weeks out.

As Steve promised, three weeks later, you were crammed into a tiny car next to Bucky. The second his shoulder rubbed against yours, you found yourself thinking that you were either going to have his baby, or you were going to die alone.

It was a joke, to start, but you really had it bad, finding yourself more anxious and fearful, and covering it up with smart quips and comments in hopes of throwing him off.

Barnes, you get The Avengers Ass Award from me, Cap be damned.

Absurd bantering during jogs together when he would stop to pull his hair back and you were struggling to keep up. Your spine tingled when a strand of hair fell forward and hung over his face. Bucky are you from Tennessee ‘cause you’re the only ten-I-see.

He would laugh and wink, call you baby, and egg you on because kids are inexplicable, and Peter Parker’s twitter feed had opened his eyes to all sorts of compliments used in the modern age between friends.

Yeah, you would grin, totally, friends. Me and you, totally, definitely, friends.

Eight months later, Scotland turned the whole thing sideways.

Yeah. We all knew. Y’all are stupid-cute. Sam had snickered. In your ear through the comm link were cheers and whooping. Bucky turned red like the cut on his arm.

-

“What about green? How do you feel about green?”

“You’re doin’ the thing again.” His comment borders on annoyed as he gives you a sideways glance, throwing his toothbrush back in the cup with a tinny clink.

“What thing?”

“Pretending you’re deaf.”

“Okay...” You smirk, “but what about green? You like green?”

He scoffs, moves so that he’s behind you and swings both arms around to lock over your middle. His chin rests on your shoulder, the scruff of his beard rubbing against your cheek. Once again, you’re reminded of just how much you adore him. Your tummy flutters with nerves as his eyes find yours in the glass, big and curious.

“What’s goin on with you? Tell me what you’re thinking.”

-

Tell me what you’re thinking.

The fallout of Scotland lingered awkwardly after the plane ride when he rushed back to his room taking long strides and not giving you another glance. He didn’t even have the courage to look at you—only facing the side wall, tucked himself behind the button panel.

Two weeks passed before you cornered him in his own room and spoke those words that would eventually become an integral part of your relationship.

Tell me what you’re thinking, Bucky. If it was a mistake, tell me. If it wasn’t, tell me. You’ve been avoiding me and look—Barnes, I want your goddamn babies, but c’mon. You gotta throw me a bone, I’m shit at reading signs.

There was a strange look in his eye, an overcast sweep staring at his hands clenched together tightly, and for the first time in a long time he didn’t laugh at your jokes. The plates whirred to his left, the knuckles turned bone white on his right. You opened your mouth silently. Three breaths passed before you pushed him up against the wall, using all your strength to peel his hands away.

Then, a kiss. The softest of kisses you could give another human being. Because he was made of memories and regret—pieced back together in the form of Bucky Barnes as fragile as a glass menagerie. You didn’t have to ask him what he was thinking again—it was all over his face: He wasn’t good enough. He was a broken thing. You deserved better. Someone your age, maybe someone who could give you a different life.

So, as you had always done, you bat it away and grabbed him by the face. The second kiss had bruised you both. Sam didn’t let either of you live down matching cut lips for a month.

-

“What’s your favorite animal?” You ask quietly, ignoring Bucky’s question as you snuggle up next to him in bed.

“Darlin’… I’m tired. Either tell me what it is, or lemme go to sleep.”

You pout and ram your forehead into his arm childishly, “Just tell me!” Usually he thinks it’s cute when you act like this, but tonight he’s had enough of it. He calls your name in a low tone, the same kind of voice Steve uses when you’ve been too nonchalant with mission orders.

In the dark, you grip onto his hand and press your cheek against his arm, commanding your throbbing heart to still just for a moment. “Do you remember when we went to Clint’s place last year?”

“For Thanksgiving?”

“Yeah. And he—he had some of Laura’s family over?”

“And that wretched green bean casserole?”

You laugh a little, swallow thickly, “Remember after dessert when I asked to hold the baby?”

Bucky pauses, digs around in his brain for the moment, “Yeah—you said it was ugly and…”

The lamp on the end-table floods the room orange as Bucky sits up and peers down at you still attached to his elbow. There is recognition in his eyes and suddenly he looks his age—pallid, gaunt, and so deeply afraid. You can only manage a tiny lopsided tug of your lips.

“Are you?” He asks, voice shaking.

You wring your hands nervously, shut your eyes, and hope that when they open Bucky’s expression would change from pained to elated.

“Shit, baby. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.”

“Okay, guess you’re not taking it well.” Your face burns with embarrassment before the heat falls into your stomach like stones. It should have been a moment of bliss—when the man you love would scoop you up into his arms and spin you around while confetti flakes sprinkles from the sky. Then, fireworks, shot by Iron Man would spell Baby Barnes! in the background.

Instead, Bucky looks like he might die on the spot.

He can’t help but feel so worthless, because he hardly feels like he deserves you most days, much less face the thought of bringing an entire person into the world. A child. An innocent. And him—unworthy of goodness.

He chokes, “Baby, I—the, fuck. I can’t give this kid—” He sputters and groans, throws his head back against the wall and you think you might hear the plaster cracking behind his skull. Your face twists into a look of irritation.

“You better not say what I think you’re going to say.”

He looks up, shocked, then quickly ashamed.

-

I can’t give you the life that you deserve. You’re… you’ve got better options than me. You deserve to be with someone your age.

Four months after the near-drowning and the most perfect, sweetest, kiss. Four months after telling you he would love you, Bucky pulled away in the middle of the night and shut himself out of his own future. You had laughed, and then cried, and then let him have his way. Okay. Yeah, if you really think so.

The next week, Tony threw a party for the new SHIELD recruits and you had gotten extremely drunk off eight mouthfuls of whiskey. Across the room was one very expensive Japanese vase, standing five feet tall and gaping at the ceiling.

The recruit next to you watched in awe as you tossed all empty shot-glasses clear over the heads of seventy people and they crashed into the chasm of the urn, hand up dramatically as if you were making a 3-pointer. Steph Curry with the shot, boy!

Tony sent Bucky a contemptuous look and mouthed fix this the same time the young man’s arm snaked around your waist. Then, you clasped your hand over his with a wolfish grin and waltzed with him out of the room.

Bucky stormed after, snatching you off the recruit who was happily kissing you against the wall. Bucky scowled, squared his shoulders and demanded to know what you were thinking.

With a wide and slow sweep of your outstretched hand, you bowed, teetering just a little.

Buck, you said I deserved better. Here it is. Its name is Henderson.

Bucky pointed at the agent, suddenly caught in the middle of a quarrel he never intended on seeing. The Winter Soldier, looking like he could level the floor, and you, just as strong, glaring back matching his ferocity. You think this … boy –a condescending scoff sent Henderson shrinking down-- could give you better?

He’s my age! Wasn’t that your suggestion? Hey! Henderson, you can give me ‘better’, right? Go grind on each other at a club like us kids do? Make-out in public and dry-hump in the car before fucking all night at your place? Or hey--- let’s fuck all night right here! Do you know—Henderson, do you know whose room is two doors away from mine?

Henderson had been smart enough to sneak away before he could see Bucky press you up against the wall and latch his mouth onto yours. Tears were streaming down your face, way before your tirade had finished. It poured and dripped and wet the front of both your shirts. Bucky Barnes, you’re full of--  

He didn’t let you finish. He held your face and wiped your tears. He kissed you again for the last first time, rekindling the fire he had been trying to extinguish.

It would burn, Bucky thought then, until you chose to leave him, because he wasn’t going to leave you again.

-

“Say it to me again.” You hiss, “Try me.”

“Baby…”

You crawl on top, grab his face with one hand and squeeze until his cheeks mush up and his mouth hangs open. “Don’t be so fucking self-deprecating! I don’t like it! You’re being mean to my Bucky and I’m gonna beat you up because I love him!”

“Un--- o—okay- hon, leggo—” the words escape him pinched together, but you are stubborn. You hold on longer, glare at him harder until he lets out a long-suffering sigh, relenting with a smile—still crushed by your thumb.

Happily, you give him a kiss on the cheek and let go. Bucky rubs his jaw where your fingerprints feel like they might bruise more than just his ego.

A tentative look at your belly, still smooth and firm. His hand finds the plane of it, fingers brushing the skin and over newly forming goosebumps. A surprising amount of excitement flutters in his own at the thought. It’d be good. A good baby. Made up of him and you, and the love you’ve fostered in him, too.

“Mmm, so… green?” You mutter, leaning down to kiss him once more. “How do you feel about green?”

Bucky laughs into your mouth. Defeated. Elated.

“Yeah. Green’s good, honey. Green’s good.”

-

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[marvelmadam08]

Baby Blues 6/?

Summary: Alex accidentally shares Ace's first milestone on IG before Chris.

Warnings: Baby shaming (is that a thing?), arguing, rude IG/Twitter comments

A/N: Would you guys like to read any of my original works? My friend has me thinking about posting my chapters on here. 

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4 Weeks (and 3 Days)

Although she didn’t want to give into co-sleeping, Alex found that it actually helped her sleep better having Ace closer. The self-soothing was still working for him, but rather than going back and forth during the night to feed, Alex moved his bassinet into her bedroom. Much to Dodger’s dismay.

“It’s temporary bubba.” Alex assured him

Ace gurgled from his place on the play mat, ideally set up for Alex to attempt some writing but once she was him practically hypnotized by the colorful toys hovering over him, she decided to put it aside for the moment.

"Are you having fun Alexander?" Alex cooed and tickled his little belly "You like the pretty colors?"

He kicked in response. Alex pulled out her phone, going to Instagram. She was happy when Chris finally caved and got one, she sent him so many Hamilton, puppy and Disney related videos. Now she would gladly flood his messages with videos of Ace.

“Say hi Ace, say hi to Daddy.” Alex tickled his tummy again

Ace squealed and flashed a smile.

“Was that a smile?” she repeated her actions, and he smiled wider, gums on full display and a happy grunt “You’re smiling! Look at you, your first smile!”

Alex quickly hit the send button before putting her phone aside, then went back to playing and cuddling with Ace.

“Wait until Daddy sees that smile.” She turned him over onto his stomach. He whined, tummy time was his least favorite thing to do "I know, I know but we gotta do it."

Alex moved so she was across from Ace, resting on her stomach too. He bobbed his head up and down until he met Alex's eyes and smiled again. She decided writing could wait until tomorrow.

When Renee got back from the grocery store the two duo were all smiles, Alex half singing a long forgotten nursery rhyme and Ace still enjoying the tune.

"He's smiling?" She rushed over

"Say 'yes I am, and it's not gas this time'." Alex said in a high pitched voice, getting another joyful squeal from her son

"I like smiling babies, come to Nana." She pulled Ace into her arms "Did you tell Chris?"

"Yeah I sent him a video. I don't think he replied yet." Alex looked around for her phone, finding it on the far side of the couch.

She was positive Chris replied over an hour ago, but she just wasn't paying the phone any attention. And surely enough there were missed calls and texts flooding her notifications. The most recent one being from her friends:

He's so cute Al!!

Looks just like Chris, but has your eyes 👀

About time you shared a pic!

You're trending rn

She came across the missed calls and texts from Chris.

Chris: Al call me back

Confused, Alex went through Twitter. She and Chris were in fact trending, the headline reading 'Alex Evans shares smiling video of newborn son on IG!'

"Oh shit." Alex jumped up from her spot on the floor

"Everything alright?"

Alex sped dialed Chris "Kinda sorta."

"Al?" Chris answered on the second ring

"Hey babe."

"Are you aware that you posted a video of our son on Instagram?"

"Now I am, I get that you're mad-"

"Mad, why would I be mad? Just because his first smile was shared with the rest of the world before me." He said almost accusingly

"Chris, it was an accident. I thought I sent the video to you."

"I'm not-" he sighed "I'm not blaming you."

"Kinda feels like your are."

"I just said I wasn't."

"Well your tone says otherwise." Alex snapped. Renee signaled that she was taking Ace into the other room. “Chris, I can’t undo what happened.”

“I know that, but you just opened up a flood gate of self-entitled requests and opinions from people who have no right to our son’s life.”

Alex suppress a scoff but rolled her eyes “Flood gate is a bit of a stretch don’t you think.”

“You haven’t seen the comments have you? And I can feel you rolling your eyes.”

“No, I haven’t read them, because it doesn’t matter what they think, plus I stopped reading them after we got married.”

“Well a few of the following include: ‘He shouldn’t be on the floor like that, he’ll have to were a helmet.’  ‘Wow his wife just had a kid and he’s down in Mexico? What kind of guy does that?’ and my least favorite ‘isn’t he a bit dark? Cevans might wanna get a DNA test done.’ All the other ones I already have blocked.”

“You know that last one is just some asshole troll. And why are you taking it out on me? I already told you it was an accident.” 

“I’m not taking it out on you.”

“Yes you are! Otherwise we wouldn’t be having this conversation. You’d just be happy that your son smiled for the first time.” Alex snapped 

“I am happy.” Chris half shouts, then he took a deep breath “I gotta go, they need me.”

“Sure fine.” Alex huffed out 

Even over two thousand miles away, Chris could sense Alex’s aggravation “Give Ace a kiss for me.”

“Always.”

Both waited for the other one to speak up, but they were too stubborn for their own good. Alex could hear Chris being beckoned to join the rest of the cast before it got too late.

“I gotta go.” he repeats

“I know.” Alex opened her mouth to speak again when she heard the beep “I love you.”

* * *

 Chris stared at his phone, stupidly ending the call before he could say anything else. 

He believed Alex when she said it was an accident, a few birthday and party surprises had been spoiled from her hitting the wrong speed dial button or accidentally using  ‘reply all’ in an email. But having to catch his son’s first milestone after two million strangers bothered him. The thought of being away for any other big moments, only seeing them through screens, pissed him off even more. 

His anger got the better of him this time, he knew it.

 He wanted to call back, text, hell he’d hire a sky writer to make sure Alex got the message.

“I love you.”

[arsonistblue]

BLUE YOU HAVE OCS???? Please tell me everything about them

AAAAAA YES I DO!!!!! I’m writing a book (technically a series) and they’re all my children

It’ll all be under the cut bc this might get long (It did) since I’ve don a fuckton of world and character building, plotting, and meticulously planning the books, and I have a feeling people will want me to shut up but it’s my blog and I get to rant about my book if I want to kjlsdfkjlsdf

(I kinda have to explain some of the worldbuilding to explain the characters)

Most of them are from a different dimension similar to the “human” dimension, called the Middle. They’re also like humans themselves, but they each have a “difference,” which is what they call their power, for lack of a better word. It’s called a difference because, even if two people have the same ability, say, they could both control water, it would still be different for each of them. They’d’ all have a calling, for lack of a better word. And their styles have to be self taught.

There are 6 people, 2 sets of triplets, who are called the Crest. The Crest were an experiment to try and create a solution to help fix a corrupted world that seemed utopian. Sector 13, a rebel organization trying to fix said corrupted world, decided to tweak the genetics of six embryos to make them more powerful. Their idea of this was for these six to have two “differences” rather than the standard one (the thing is, though, they didn’t know just how powerful the six would be). 

Two sets of parents (The Quills and the Clearlys) volunteered to carry the children and raise them. However, word of the Crest got out, and in turn sparked a massive war. 

Okay, onto the characters!!! (picrew link)

This is Alex Clearly. She’s the main character, and a member of the Crest.

She was raised in an orphanage in the human dimension. She was born in the Middle, but due to being born in the midst of a giant war about her existence, her parents wanted to keep her (as well as the rest of the Crest) hidden away. So they (The Quills and the Clearlys) hopped from safe house to safe house while still in the Middle. However, they were found by a different organization who wanted the Crest dead (or worse), and a bomb was set to their safe house. The Clearly parents thought they were the only ones to survive, but then they found Alex (keep in mind, she’s a baby at this point) and decide “fuck this, she’s going somewhere objectively safer.”

So, they took her to the human dimension to be raised in an orphanage with one of Mrs. Clearly’s old friends (read: bitter ex-friends who don’t necessarily hate each other to death but don’t vibe any more) who was hiding out there. They would’ve set her up at a foster home but they were like, about to die from sepsis so they decided “this’ll work ig.” They did their best ok 

This orphanage, unfortunately, is run by a horrible old woman who (for reasons explained in the book) absolutely despises Alex. So Alex is kind of an outcast in this orphanage because of that. The only adult who actually likes her is Gwendolyn, aka Mrs. Clearly’s old friend. She also has a best friend, Eli. 

Now, given that Alex is part of the Crest, she has 2 powers. One appeared at birth, which was telepathy, which meant she could read others’ minds and emotions. But, because the universe hated her, she couldn’t block them, so she constantly has waves of other people’s thoughts and emotions hurtling at her (this is also me projecting as an empath jklsdflkjds hyperempathy is a bitch)

I’m currently debating whether to spoil what her other power is because you find out a few chapters into the first book 

Yknow what fuck it, she’s a hydrolic. She can control water and it’s awesome

I don’t want to spoil any more of her backstory, so now I’ll give some attributes!

Me, talking about Alex: So there’s this she/they

She’s been Through Some Shit (tm) but she’s a survivor, and taught herself self-defense, how to steal without getting caught (for when she really needed food/supplies), etc

She’s also a badass and tough as nails

However do not let her badassery fool you, she is in fact a Fucking Nerd

Trust issues are rampant

Definitely Not Straight (see the undercut [important note, the undercut does not exist until book 2])

V sarcastic

If you give her dumplings she will love you forever

Definitely said ACAB after the cops took away her Big Burly Guy Friends for Robin Hood antics (read: stealing from the rich and giving to the poor)

said Big Burly Guy Friends were Big Burly Guys, taught self defense classes in their garage. She (at the time, a skinny 7 year old) showed up and asked them to teach her to fight, and at first they laughed, but she learned self defense and every saturday she showed up and they gave her a juice box and some crackers

10000% has adhd

During book 1, she’s 13-14

In just a normal high school AU, she would be a closeted memelord

But would unironically say poggers

She hates rules

A lot

She goes out of her way to break the especially stupid ones

Stubborn as all hell

She’s also super protective and if you hurt someone she loves, you fear for your life

Long story short, she’s a badass nerd with adhd who could kill a man with ease

I love her so much it’s not even funny ok?? she’s my child

Next!

This is Eli Marcus. He was Alex’s best (only) friend at the orphanage. He’s also from the human dimension. 

Eli was at the orphanage since he was five. He was always friends with Alex, and tried to help her with her headaches, though Alex never told him she was a telepath. 

He’s a loyal friend, and always tries to cheer people up

He has a bad habit of forgetting to take off his binder at night, much to Alex’s annoyance

He loves to play the drums. There’s constantly a song stuck in his head, and he taps his fingers on tables or chairs or whatever to try to get them out

It works, then it’s replaced by another song

He probably has adhd too

He has tried to dye his own hair. It did Not work

Alex kept reminding him that he had dark hair but he was just “I am looking Away, I do not see it” so it only dyed his scalp red

So far we haven’t seen very much of him, he’s in the first few chapters of book 1. I’m planning on putting him in book 2 or 3 though!

This is Jazzi LeCiel, one of Alex’s best friends. 

Jazzi lives in The Middle, and she’s the same age as Alex. She’s a stratic, meaning she can control the air (like an airbender), but like most people, she didn’t discover it until she was around middle school age. Her backstory isn’t as developed since she’s not the main character, and the story is told from Alex’s perspective. 

She’s a disaster bisexual

She would unironically cuff her jeans

Loves causing chaos 

She’s pretty trusting up front but if you break her trust it takes awhile to get it back

Farily petite

Also a badass like Alex, but she’s also a dork jlsfljdfk

I love her so much it’s not even funny 

She’s one of the classic short-but-deadly people. By this I mean she could easily kill a man with her eyes closed and one hand behind her back, and probably would if he pissed her off enough

Very strong sense of community

She’s independent but knows when to rely on her friends and family, something she’s trying to teach Alex (since she always had to be independent)

She’s extremely creative and thinks outside the box, hell, she probably doesn’t even know where the box is

Next!

This is Torrent Rush. He’s another of Alex’s friends in the Middle.

Torrent is about the same age as Alex and Jazzi, maybe a few months older. He’s also a visidem, meaning he can turn himself (and, if he focuses, other people) invisible. (Also that’s not really what his hair looks like, but it was the closest I could find)

Daddy issuuuuuuues

His dad’s a piece of shit

He’s got an older brother, and thus is very competitive

He’s generally very caring and outspoken, also very kind even if you’re a total stranger

Though he has trouble keeping his emotions under control, and when he gets angry or upset enough, he tends to lash out

Someone get this boy some therapy

His favorite color is purple

Idk why I added that, it’s not relevant at all lkjfdskljdfs

He tries to be smooth and he kind of is ngl, but like not as smooth as he could be

He kinda has White Boy energy but he tries to not be like that, you know? Like he was raised with toxic masculinity but he’s trying to outgrow it

tl;dr he needs therapy and a nap

This is Ezra Quill, another of Alex’s friends and a member of the Crest. 

He’s lived in the Middle all his life as well, and is both a pyre (controlling fire) and a hypnolic (basically he can control other people’s minds and therefore bodies as well). He’s lived at a Sector 13 base for awhile, too. 

Imagine sunshine given human form. You have Ezra

Seriously he’s a cinnamon roll

I love him so much

He has on multiple occasions had fucking butterflies land on his nose. This is not an exaggeration. It happens multiple times

He’s a fucking NERD and will hyperfixate on anything 

He specifically loves baking 

Cracks a lot of jokes but he’s generally very sincere

Also he’s a tol bean???? child what are you doing up there

He’s quite fond of mango lassi and payasam

He plays with his fire a lot, purely to have fun. He loves lighting his hand on fire to scare people (Loretta, mostly) 

He fidgets

a lot

He always has to be moving, whether it’s tapping his fingers or doing that fuckin wave squiggle motion with his arms (he’s also really good at it)

He also hums to himself, but it always ends up with him making random sounds and making Alex think there’s a cryptid toddler in the other room

He loves big sweaters, not just because of how cozy they are, but also because he can slap people (read: Alex) with the long, flappy sleeves 

Next is Loretta, Alex’s adoptive mother and all-around wonderful woman.

Loretta is a master hydrolic, and teaches at the academy. She’s probably a repressed lesbian too lkjsdflkjdfs

She was a part of Sector 13 from the beginning of their work on creating the Crest, and when she met Alex, she almost cried because of the strong young woman Alex was becoming. 

Loretta will see a child (read: anyone younger than her), say “is anyone gonna adopt that thing” and then not wait for an answer

She had to physically stop herself from making Alex sign the adoption papers she keeps in her pocket at all times the first time they met

If you hurt somebody she loves, run

Faster

She has some dark spots in her past, in her present, too, but she’s working to illuminate them 

Also she’s in love with her best-friend-turned-enemy but she doesn’t know it

She is a fierce fighter when she wants to be. Nobody expects it, either. They see her and think she’s more laid-back, some daresay delicate, but she’s anything but. She’s taken down a full grown man while wearing heels

She’s basically adopted Torrent, Ezra and Jazzi too

She adopted Alex, but she also saw Torrent and Ezra and Jazzi and decided they were hers too

“How many children do you have?” “Biologically, legally, or emotionally?” 

I love her sm 

[mikeshanlon]

Happy Pride! .... Like... more than halfway through the month lmao sorry, better late than never ig! I’ve compiled a list of some of my fave LGBT+ books, as well as a few I’m planning to read for pride/in the near future. Please feel free to reblog and add some of your own recs, especially for the sexual and gender identities that are lacking in my list!!!!!

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz: This beautiful, wholesome coming of age novel is pretty popular on tumblr and with good reason! It’s set in the 1980′s and follows Aristotle, aka "Ari”, as he grows up an tackles with his identity-- he feels like his story is written by someone else, that his path is not up to his control. Whether this is due to his complex relationship with his family, or societal expectations/stereotypes of Latinx men, or the fact that maybe his friendship with Dante might be more than that, and that kinda terrifies him. (Rep: Gay, Latinx, (I believe this is own voices) Warnings: it’s been a minute since i’ve read this but i believe some racism, internalized homophobia, and an instance of violent transphobia)

Red, White, and Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston: LGKNLKNGRG okay this is truly one of my favorite books of the year so far and part of the whole reason i wanted to make this. This is a New Adult Contemporary romance set in sort of a like... parallel America where a woman won the presidential election. We follow The First Son, Alex Claremont-Diaz, who’s charming, smart ass, genius icon. Him, his sister June, and their best friend Nora are easily marketable and loved by the public for the most part, but when Alex and his rival Prince Henry of England get into a public spat at a Royal Wedding, Alex and Henry must pretend to be friends to patch up relations and public image for his mother’s re-election campaign. Eventually their fake friendship turns real, and then becomes more as they get to know each other, Alex and Henry begin a secret romance that we follow over the course of the re-election year. This book is fucking HILARIOUS (like I have so many tabs for funny moments and i was trying to be restrained), but it’s just so. Like full of love and hope and it’s so beautiful???? It’s definitely political escapism from our current situation in America but still deals with current issues such as racism and homopboia, etc, but gives the reader hope for future progress. Alex and Henry’s relationship is so fun, and sexy, and beautiful and the friendships are so iconic and Alex’s journey with sexuality is... chefs kiss. Also like. Casey McQuiston mentioned that she listened to Texas Reznikoff by Mitski a lot while writing this in the acknowledgments so. what more do you need... (Rep: Bisexual (Own Voices), Gay, Biracial-- Mexican/White (Own Voices), Warnings: Racism, homophobia, mentions of a past sexual harrassment/assault. Since this is a New Adult, there are smut scenes. I wouldn’t say it’s like. Super explicit or anything but there is sex, though it’s often during Important Moments of their relationships so it doesn’t feel like p*rn-- again the sex is happening but its not in hella explicit detail or anything or for the same goal as say an erotica. P much proceed with caution if it’s not ur thing but it’s not too wild!)

Blanca y Roja by Anna-Marie McLemore: This is sort of a Snow White/Rose Red and Ugly Duckling retelling following two sisters, Blanca and Roja, who’s family curse destines that one of the sisters will be trapped into a swan’s body, never to be seen again. (So this is magical realism lmao). We also follow two boys, Page and Yearling, who were wrapped up in the magic of the nearby woods, but have returned to society. Page is a gender queer trans male, and his whole arc that was so beautiful and made me cry, but in a good way (also warning that I’m cis so like. I would love to hear what gender queer trans individuals think about the rep in this book bc I cannot really attest to it.) This book is really about sisterly love and love in general, with all the complexities that come with it. (also wlw grandma’s who grow apple’s it’s p iconic) (Rep: Latinx-- colorism plays a huge role in the story as well (Own Voices), Gender Queer Trans, Queer (Own Voices) Warnings: Some transphobia, racism, and abuse). (I believe most of Anna-Marie McLemore’s books are magical realism and have some Latinx and queer elements to them as well)

The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller: god..... This (gay ass) novelization of The Illiad is just so tragically romantic and beautiful... We follow Achilles and Patroclus as they grow up and grow closer, and eventually fight the Trojan War. There are so many beautiful quotes and scenes but like. You will most likely cry so keep that in mind eklrgerg. (Rep: Gay Warnings: Violence, there’s like..... a weird r*pe/homophobic scene)

Girls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan: YA Fantasy set in a world where there are three castes: Moon-- the highest caste, demons with animalistic features in a humanoid form, Steel-- humans with part demon physical features and abilities, and Paper-- fully human, the lowest caste. We follow our protaganist Lei, who despite being a Paper caste, has beautiful golden glowing eyes that end up garnering attention from the Demon King. She’s stolen from her home and forced to join The Paper Girls-- a group of paper caste concubines in training at the palace. As she tries to find a way to escape, she ends up falling for one of the other paper girls, Wren, who might be just the key to freedom. I love Lei and Wren’s relationship and I’m excited to see it play out in the sequel! (which i believe ngan said will introduce more LGBT characters) (Rep: Asian (Own Voices), WLW (I believe this is Own Voices as well). Warnings: As their role as concubines suggest, a large part of this book revolves around the patriarchy using women for power and sexual assualt/rape. There are no explicit rape scenes-- though they do occur ‘off screen’, however there are a couple attempted sexual assault scenes that I believe could be p triggering. This book is also largely about the Paper Girls taking back their power, and I don’t believe these scenes are done for shock value, however please proceed with caution. Subsequently, sexist and patriarchial views are present within the authority, though shunned by Lei, however there’s a lot of internalized sexism and objectification among some of the other Paper Girls.)

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell: I probably don’t have to talk about this one much since it’s super popular, but in what is like essentially Harry Potter but like gay and wholesome, we follow Simon Snow, the Chosen One who’s actually not that good at magic, his best friend Penelope, and his roommate and arch nemesis that’s totally a vampire but won’t admit it, Baz. (Except Baz is, like, totally in love with Simon and Simon’s just too dumb and wrapped up in his own shit to realize it). Truly just,... an iconic enemies to friends to lovers story that unfolds as the three of them try to uncover a mystery surrounding Baz’s late mother. Ik some people have found it confusing bc it’s sort of like starting the Harry Potter story off at book 7 and only getting some background info along the way but honestly I really enjoyed that lmao. Also there’s a sequel coming out this fall, Wayward Son. (Rep: Gay, Some POC rep. Warnings: not rlly any i dont think??? There’s  like. some Homophobia lmao bc we can’t have a gay book without it.)

Her Royal Highness by Rachel Hawkins: This is a cute YA contemporary following Millie Quint who, post being cheated on by her best friend and wanting to have a fresh start, flies to Scotland to finish off her senior year at her Dream prestigous boarding school, joining a handful of other girls as the first female class in the institution’s history. Plus like. Cool Rocks and Scotland. Only problem is that her roomate is sort of a bitch and also the Princess of Scotland who she totally just told off. So yeah yet another royal gay enemies to friends to lovers with a dash of and they were roomates LMAO. This book could be like.... a bit cheesy and rushed but overall it was cute and like...... The Cover.... (Rep: Bisexual, Lesbian, Warnings: Some homophobia. Also this is a companion novel to Prince Charming but you don’t have to read that first, there’s just some references to the couple in that book as the Prince is well.... The Princess’ brother and where they end up so if you don’t wanna be spoiled read that first ig!)

The Devouring Gray by Christine Lynn Herman: I talked about this some in this post, but I feel like I did kinda a shitty job so. A YA fantasy/paranormal series about the descendant’s of the town’s four founding families-- Violet Saunders, Justin Hawthorne, Harper Carlisle, and Isaac Sullivan (the most iconic one). The latter three have lived in Four Paths their whole lives, protecting the town from The Gray-- p much the Upside Down from Stranger Things lmao, using powers specific to each of their families. Violet and her mother move back after Violet’s sister died in a car accident, and she’s thrust into helping save the town as the Gray grows more restless and having to uncover the secrets of her family as well as all the history brewing between the other three. The Stranger Things and Riverdale comparisons are p valid, (but like. Riverdale in the sense of small town secrets and a bunch of tense history that the kids don’t really understand and must uncover, and some like love triangle but..... not Rlly Love triangles just a mess of ppl being like oh shit i like this person and this person.... Bisexual Chaos if u will... not like. The I’m cuckoo bananas for u let’s go get high and play dungeons and dragons and smash in a bunker LRGKJRLKGJ), the Raven Cycle comparison’s are kind of a stretch, I can see the abstract comparison’s if i squint but like. Don’t go into this expecting TRC lmao. I really enjoyed the theme of grief throughout this book and seeing the powers unfold (and one of the dynamics a lot) and while not perfect the series has a lot of potential and like. Bisexuals. So. (Rep: Bisexual (two mc’s are bi and say the word!!!!!!!! As well as some secondary characters), Disabled (one of the mc’s is missing one arm from the elbow down). Warnings: Grief, Violence)

The Gentlemen’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee: Also talked about this in this post and did a better job there, but to sum it up it’s essentially a friends to lovers, bed sharing, road trip au with a dash of magic but set in the 1700′s! There’s also a sequel/companion, The Lady’s Guide to Petticoats and Piracy that I have yet to read but it follows Monty’s sister, Felicity, and I believe goes more in depth with her identity. (Rep: Gay, Black, Disabled, Aromantic, Asexual, Warnings: Period typical homophobia/biphobia, racism, ableism, sexism)

Simon vs. The Homosapien’s Agenda by Becky Albertalli: Like. I don’t think i really have to explain this one LRKGJJRG but added it just in case. YA contemporary following Simon as he e-mails another gay student at his school and falls in love. (Rep: Gay, Black, Jewish, Warnings: Homophobia)

All For the Game Trilogy (The Foxhole Court, The Raven King, The King’s Men) by Nora Sakavic: If y’all have been on my blog at all you know i’m back in aftg hyperfixation mode after another reread lmao. Is it a lil messy is it a lil dramatic... yes. but i love it!!! We follow our protagonist Neil Josten, who’s been on the run from his crime lord father, The Butcher of Baltimore, since he was young. After his mother dies on the run, Neil finds a new place and adopts yet another identity, and ends up playing high school exy (a made up sport but like we’re barely here for the sports lmao), something he used to play as a child. Despite playing a new position, he attracts the attention of the PSU Foxes, who’s coach David Wymack specifically recruits players with a troubled past to give them a second chance. Neil really shouldn’t sign-- it goes against everything his mother told him, it puts him at risk of being in the spotlight for his father’s men to find him, and puts him on the same team as Kevin Day, someone from his past that knows his true identity. Still, something draws Neil to joining the team, to finally try to live instead of just survive. UGHHHH like truly this book just makes u fall in love with all the characters and the beautiful and broken found family that develops over three books and one of the most iconic and amazing (ha....) slowburn relationships ever.... Also if i recall they’re super cheap on iBooks (at least when i bought them, the first book was free and the other two were $1.99). (Rep: Gay, Demisexual, POC, Warnings: MAJOR trigger warnings for like. everything bc all the foxes have fucked up pasts. But the biggest ones are probably rape, abuse/torture, and substance abuse)

Six of Crows Duology (Six of Crows, Crooked Kingdom) by Leigh Bardugo: Idk how much I really have to talk about this bc it’s popular but I am physically unably not to reccomend this duology bc its just. So. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. The most barebones summary is that this is a YA Fantasy about six people coming together to perform an impossible heist. This is truly like...... a masterclass in developing characters and has one of the best m/f ships i’ve ever read... But also since it’s on here there is some gay shit going on, 3/6 mains are Not Straight and there’s a cute m/m couple! Also you don’t have to read the Grisha Trilogy to read this but u can if u want (I have yet to). (Rep: Bisexual, Gay, Disabled, POC, Warnings: Again these ppl have fucked up pasts, biggest are PTSD, past sexual abuse)

The Raven Cycle Series (The Raven Boys, The Dream Theives, Blue Lily Lily Blue, The Raven King) by Maggie Steifvater: Again i don’t think I really have to explain this one but like. In case you haven’t read this series it’s truly iconic..... Idk even how to explain this LKGJLJRG just like magical realism wonderfulness and found family and amazing relationships and shit.... (Rep: Gay, Bisexual, Disabled, Warnings: Abuse)

The following are books I plan to read for pride/in the near future. I can’t wholeheartedly reccomend them obviously, or fully detail all the rep/warnings, but I’ve heard some great things about these books and a lot of them have representation that the first part of the list is lacking, so I figured I would add them! (Also if I use ‘queer’ that’s because that’s the only label I have been given by the authors or reviewers, or the characters identify as queer)

Radio Silence by Alice Oseman: To my knowledge this is a really emotional YA coming of age/college story that has to do with like. A podcast? Idk a lot of people love it and side note I’ll be suing B&N bc they NEVER have it relkj (Rep: Bisexual, Demisexual, I belive Latinx.)

Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand: I believe this is a YA horror-ish novel where there’s a monster stealing girls on and island. (Rep: I believe all three main girls are queer Warnings: Since this is horror im assuming. Horror stuff LMAO)

I Wish You all The Best by Mason Deaver: A YA contemporary romance about Ben who comes out as non-binary to their parents and gets kicked out, and moves in with their estranged sister. They soon are taken under the wing of a senior named Nathan Allan and begin to fall. (Rep: Non-Binary (Own Voices), MLM/Queer, Black (im assuming from the gorgeous cover lmao. Warnings: Misgendering, homophobia, anxiety, depression)

Summer of Salt by Katrina Leno: YA Magical Realism about Georgina, who has yet to inherit the magical powers that have been passed down her family, including her twin sister Mary who, unlike Georgina, is coming into her powers. (Rep: Lesbian, Queer, Aro/Ace, Warnings: Rape and sexual assault, underage drinking, animal death, drug use.)

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Biri Gyaru - Flying Colors「ビリギャル」Review

Biri Gyaru - Flying Colors「ビリギャル」(2015)

Youth/Comedy/Drama

1movie - 117 mins

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*not spoiler free lol*

Summary (strictly from memory a week and a couple days later):

Inspiring. I felt like I needed to study after watching this movie. She was a delinquent, then she totally wasn’t, and it became strictly a studying montage.  But actually as a delinquent she wasn’t that bad either :”).  Just blonde. And had cigarettes but those were allegedly for a friend or something, so she’s a good kid on the inside who just wants to have fun all the time!!  Also she had family issues ;( Her gyaru friends totally dump her to encourage her on her studying journey but actually it was for her own good and they come to celebrate with her later so they’re actually pretty good friends even though the rejection was harsh. Basically a poor student is trying to get into KEIO!!!! Will she make it???? Watch to find out :) Also watch for her tutor. And her fellow ex-delinquent turned studier sorta potential boyfriend who didn’t turn out to be anything ;( Yee-aahh!  Good movie good movie. 

MVP: mr. tutor sorry we forget your name ;(

RATINGS:

Overall: 7.32/10 - We enjoyed it!! very funny and for the family...maybe.

Pacing: 7.89/10 - Not rushed nor particularly dragged out. She decent.

Characters: 8.22/10 - They were fun and relatable and didn’t feel like they were moving just for the plot! Except for that one teacher who was super against her for no reason, just ~conflict~

Sayaka’s motivation to study: 12/10 - I felt it.  I wish i had that motivation lol

Realism of studying: 4.31/10 - Come onnnn as if someone could stay that motivated for that long, especially someone who is used to having fun all the time! I’m used to studying all the time and I could not study like her.

Sayaka’s Transformation™: 7/10 - She straight up went for it man. A lil unrealistic but if only it was like that

The dad: 5.22/10 - he was kinda definitely not a good father but ig it could definitely be a real situation… so points for realism but minus points for how terrible he treated his wife and children. Also he kinda turned around near the end and it feels like Sayaka forgives him so here’s to hoping the heal in the future of that movie universe

The mom: 8.99/10 - amazing, so supportive, a little weak but she knows what she wants for her children and she works for it

The little sister: 10/10 - she was totally a supporting character she deserves more.  She was also so obedient and supportive of sakaya…

Baseball brother: 5/10 - it was felt but I can’t believe they actually burned ALL his stuff that he basically spent his whole life using man… all that time and $$... but I can see why.  He was kinda mean to his sisters too ;(

Mean teacher: 6.78/10 - He was mean and unsupportive but the actor is a bro and totally kudos to him for actually standing kinda naked at the graduation lol (follow up on your words!!! Even though he never explicitly promised to!!)

Mr. Tutor: 11/10 - he pulled thru and was supportive and fun AND realistic. Just what u need for a tutor.  Sorry we couldn’t remember your name. But we stan. His lil high five thing was too cute.

Obligatory rain scenes: 7/10 - pretty good, didn’t feel so forced, matched the mood

Fellow ex-delinquent’s test result: 3/10 - Can’t believe they just brushed over his *spoiler alert* rejection from college?!? he worked hard too. keep working dude u got this

Sakaya’s *reveals* of scores: 4/10 there were so many times we thought she was checking her results but literally every time it wasn’t it. Sad and clickbaity

Final shot after credits: 10/10 -  it was very cute. We got to see the mean teacher actor was only acting and is a dancing bro at heart

Lack of song we were expecting: 0/10 - Tbh we watched this movie for this song (linked) ((which is a bop… sue owns our <3)), but turns out it was only for the Chinese version trailer or something. On us tho. This rating was not included in the overall rating. :’)

Plot and movie scenes coming full circle: 7/10 - (when mr. tutor opens the window) pretty good, suited different the moods

Getting into Keio: 8.41/10 - #realistic good on her for getting into the school!! And it’s not like she suddenly became genius and could pass with uh,,,, flying colors but she worked up to her capabilities in that amount of time so good on her

Sensitivity to coffee?: 6/10 - did not really get this part but ig she doesn’t drink coffee usually? Never change ur morning routine on test day folks! it was funny though but also stressful yikes

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Give it watch! She’ll motivate you to pass your tests with flying colors! :flying colors emoji:

See you next time on bromomovie reviews ;)

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USE THIS WEBSITE TO GENERATE YOUR MUSE’S POKEMON TEAM.

so i got tagged like,  fifty times yesterday to do this and while i answered a huge long ask about this here we go lmAO.  the only thing different here is,  like,  dante’s houndoom is actually a mega hoodoom,  i was just very tired fighting the generator and went with the good boy that’s kinda the same thing.  anyway   ---   pokemon information is under the cut  ;  i go into detail how each othem really work with  /  for dante.  missing out on the  seventh  pokemon which is usually just whichever pokemon partner vergil has that dante kinda hangs onto for a long time,  folks. 

dante’s pokemon partner  and   first pokemon is an   arcanine  that is nicknamed  ace  and holds a pretty large scarf around his neck  ;  the color of the scarf is predominantly red with gold fire flames on it.  dante evolved his growlithe with the fire stone he acquired on one of his jobs  ;  though the evolution wasn’t really standard as his partner evolved to protect dante   when he was injured on a hunt.  

the stone had fallen out of his pocket and his growlithe who’d been doing his best  already   to assist his friend and was wanting to help  . .   tapped its snout on the stone and evolved to fiercely defend dante who was almost unconscious due to a blow from a demon.   ace’s   current  move set are as follows:  fire fang,  extreme speed,  teleport and retaliate.  

dante’s secondary partner,  though not   actually   his is whichever pokemon   was   vergil’s pokemon partner.  the two share quite a deep fierce empathetic bond just like dante shares with his arcanine.  there had been a roadblock between them for some time,  especially when dante was upset just after vergil fell to hell   ;   the bond between them did get better and after mallet island while it became strained  . .  the secondary pokemon didn’t blame dante for what he had done.

it mourned with him,  feeling the pain and loss with the shared empathy and it was then the lucario  (   or whatever pokemon partner vergil had ig   )   telepathically communicated the forgiveness and it was then that dante and it’s bond grew to be greater than before.

dante does have a full team of six   –  seven including vergil’s own partner who,  with ace, stay clear of pokeballs 95% of the time. the team took a bit of time to make since he running all over the place doing what he usually does  –  demon hunting  –  but he does have a full team.  dante doesn’t do competitive battling as of right now even though he used to for a time and won   three   small scale championships.  currently with his team he’s out and about on jobs getting rid of demons like in original canon.

the full team   is as follows:

zoroarck  ;  nicknamed   zoro   or   z   with the move set:  dark pulse,  night slash,  nasty plot   and  protect.   he originally found zoro in its disguised form of a child when he was passing through.  with the child,  to dante at least,  seeming to be lost dante had put it upon himself to help them out.   both got into a spot of trouble and the little pokemon gave up disguise to try and protect  –  only for dante’s arcanine to protect the little zorua and keep it safe.  in the end,  the zorua became close to dante and ended up on dante’s team and evolved into the powerful and loyal zoroarck once it reached level.

cubone  ;  nicknamed    c    and otherwise doesn’t   like   nicknames with the move set: bone rush,  head butt,  growl  and   thrash.   c is past the level needed to evolve into a marowak by far,  it’s stayed as it is.  the two have gone through quite a lot,  especially since the cubone was the   second   pokemon dante ever caught.  it was with him during vergil’s fall,  it was with him during the supposed murder of vergil and it refused.  dante and the cubone have both grown as a team and have helped each other through their trauma.  dante with the lil’ guy’s mourning of its mother and keeping the tyke comfortable during full moon’s and c with dante’s own loss.  it never needed to be something bigger  –  its always been there for dante in its original ‘guise and it will continue to do so.  

mega blaziken  ;  nickname   blaze    or   b   with the move set:   high jump kick,  sky uppercut,  focus energy   and   flare blitz.   dante found the blaziken before its mega evolution once again on his travels and this bond is mainly forged out of mutual respect  – and loyalty.  originally found by chance   –  and put to a battle,  blaze had been a tough opponent for ace to begin with but dante had put a pause to the battle.  with the blaziken’s moves mainly been fighting based rather than using fire against opponent   . .  dante decided to spar with the pokemon.  caught by surprise but not backing down,  the pokemon took up the challenge  –  losing just by a hair.  it held a touch of honor by its loss and wished to join ranks   ;   become part of dante’s team in hopes of a rematch down the line.  there’s loyalty between the two and genuine camaraderie between blaze and dante.

talonflame   ;   nickname   fletch    or   t    with the move set:   brave bird,  me first,  roost   and   flame charge.   originally found by ace by chance at its lowest evolution   (  fletchling )    when it had an injured wing in the middle of forest nowhere close to civilization,  dante worked his best to nurse it back to health.  currently on a job which would have taken longer if he turned back to get proper help,  he had decided to bring the bird with him.  ace had left the meeting with a rough talon scratch to his nose but all was well besides that.  as it went and by the time the job was complete the wing had all been healed with what little potions and remedies dante had on him.  he wasn’t sure if the lil thing would survive but he was damnest sure to try his best.  thankful for the help fletch stuck around,  becoming dante’s pokemon and usually preferring to stay out of pokeball to fly and scout ahead during any hunts or simple trips   –   she’s good at bringing down lesser demons with her talons,  picking them up and dropping them to their death from great heights.

mega houndoom   ;   nickname   doom   or   hound   with the move set:   payback,  fire charge,  feint attack   and   howl.   originally found in wild,  dante had a stereotypical catch with the pup and it was only afterward that that a bond was formed.  with houndour’s existing in packs and show unparalleled teamwork,  the pup grew to find the team as its pack and family over time.  coming to trust dante over watching his trainer’s care for them all to be equal and worry about them the same it gave the same back.  fiercely loyal to dante and unwilling to abandon a team member,  instead choosing to fight and protect them as their family.  out of pokeball the fierce houndoom is bound to be close to dante or bothering ace at any given opportunity,  wishing to play - fight with its new found family.  it wouldn’t give them up for anything.

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Yng&Rich Concert Seoul 7/27/19

I ended up in the middle because I got there late so my entry number had already passed. I entered with people who had like number 300 (mine was 147!!!). Anyway, not that big of a deal because something happened later that was SUPER cool and would have been LESS cool had I entered at the time I was supposed to.

So first, the people from Super Bee’s show came out. It was a solo guy who performed two songs and then 3 guys who performed 2 songs. They were alright. They were also in the VIP section on the second floor all night turning up and having fun. That was cute.

Then Twlv came out. I didn’t know much about him before this except for the song that just came out “Golf Wang”. I DEFINITELY now about him now though! All of his songs were good and I love his singing voice!

Then, Super Bee came out! I was SOOO happy and excited. He’s not blonde anymore like I was expecting but he has like this brownish hair color. He performed a bunch of good songs. It was lit, I was happy. I didn’t really get much video or pictures at this concert though because I was kinda far back and I could barely see with my own eyes lol.

Then Uneducated Kid came out. Girl....lol. His performance was wild. He performed his songs and people were having a good time and stuff. Tell me why closer to the end of his set he walked off stage and stopped the song? He did this to go to the second floor by the middle of the crowd (where I was standing) and climbed over the railing. Now, at first, I just thought he was gonna perform there since it’s high up and everybody can get a good view of him. Then he climber over and I was like “Shit! PLEASE don’t fall!” for someone reason it hadn’t registered to me that there was a whole crowd to catch him even if he did. I thought he was gonna stay THERE and perform. But no, pretty soon I realized what he was gonna do when the security rushed into the crowd. He jumped!! Thank GOD for security catching him because there was literally a bunch of women and teenage dudes so who knows if we would have caught him the right way? (side note but I was at a concert before where someone did that but off a speaker in stead of a balcony and a lot of people moved and he landed on me and another girl basically so I actually HAVE seen this end pretty crappy before. Luckily no one was hurt in that instance but both the guy who jumped and the other girl ended up on the ground so it could have been MUCH worse). This was WILD because I literally felt him brush my arms a bit before security clutched it and caught him themselves so a bunch of us didn’t have to do it hahaha. Anyway, this opened up the crowd enough so that I could go further up and I could see better. He performed “Amazing” and I was HYPE! Cause after jumping off I knew the set was close to over but he was still doing like every song BUT that one. I was already ready to DM him on IG after the concert and be like “Hey! Perform Amazing at your concerts asshole <3 <3″ but he performed it and I went OFF!

Then All three of them came out and performed “Golf Wang” and the other Yng&Rich songs. Then Super Bee did some more solo stuff “SuperBeeWhy” and “Heu”. Then the encore was “Golf Wang” and “Party Party” which I think is unreleased because nobody was singing along and I’ve never seen a song that was named that (I couldn’t understand most of his introduction about that song. My Korean ain’t THAT good!)

Overall, I had fun. I’m glad it was only two hours and not monstrously long like Buzzer Beat lol. The standout thing was DEFINITELY Uneducated Kid jumping into the crowd though. Every time I see him so crazy shit happens lol

[talinexa]

Fire Child - One-Shot

I was re-watching Birth By Sleep because apparently I like torturing myself and this just kinda sprouted.

“Terra!” I cried, rushing forward to see Terra’s armor standing... over... his body. But his body had... white hair. I looked between the armor and the body as the armor sunk his Keyblade into the ground and knelt behind it.

I went over to his armor and knelt opposite his keyblade. “Terra? Is that you?”

The helmet tilted up to look me in the eye. “Ig... Igni?”

“Yeah! It’s me!” I whispered.

“You have to get out of here, kid,” he said. “You’re too young to be here! How did you even get here?”

I manifested my keyblade. “I followed you after Xehanort’s dark spell started to devour the Land of Departure. I couldn’t stay there alone. I didn’t know what else to do,” I said. “And I’m thirteen. I can... keep myself out of trouble.”

“Igni, you need to get somewhere safe. You’re in danger here.”

“Terra, why is your body over there? What’s going on?”

“It’s a long story. Just... get out of here. Please.”

“I’m not leaving you guys!”

“You have to! Go! Follow your heart to Master Yen Sid’s tower. He’ll keep you safe and finish your training. Explain what happened to the Land of Departure. You just can’t be here! It’s too dangerous for you.”

“But---”

“Now, Igni.”

I started to cry. “Terra... I’m scared.”

“I know. I am too. But I need you to keep yourself safe, okay? You have to make it. You have to survive.”

The metal of his fingers lifted and wiped my tears away.

“Promise me you’ll be safe, Igni. Promise me.”

“I... I promise.” I sniffed.

“Good. Go. Now. Before this gets worse.”

I pushed myself to my feet. “Mkay. Be safe Terra.”

“You too.”

I nodded and pointed my keyblade at the sky. I opened a portal before throwing my keyblade into the air and leaping onto my vehicle and shooting through the portal.

As I hurtled down one of the Lanes Between, I pulled out the Wayfinder Aqua made me. Mine was unique. She’d made the others out of single colors of glass. Mine was a particular kind of stained glass. Near the center it was yellow, but it faded to red at the tips with orange in between. I had no idea how Aqua had managed to make it, but I loved it and I hoped our connection was as unbreakable as Aqua intended it to be.

I glanced behind me at where I’d left. “Be safe, guys...” I whispered.

*****

Many Years Later...

*****

“Terra!” Ven exclaimed, rushing over to our friend.

“Ven!” Aqua protested, reaching out for him before following. I glanced at the other guardians of light before running after them. Ven and Aqua... they didn’t know for sure what I knew. That our friend standing there wasn’t the Terra they remembered. It was hard to look at him and not immediately think of Xemnas---even with his brown hair and blue eyes. “Terra---please say you’re in there.”

Terra didn’t say anything, just looked up. I was already tugging on Ventus and Aqua’s sleeves, pulling them backward. When Terra’s eyes met Aqua’s, she pushed Ven behind us, forcing him---and by extension me---backward.

“What gives, Aqua?” Ven demanded.

“I know you’re not him!” Aqua spat at Terra’s possessed body.

“Huh?” Ventus wondered.

“Now let our friend go!”

Terra’s hair turned white and the blue of his eyes was replaced by yellow. Ven looked ready to pass out for another ten years from surprise.

“Today’s the day you all lose,” Terra-Xehanort said in a voice that wasn’t Terra’s. I closed my eyes and tried to keep my heart from falling back to darkness at the very sound of that voice and the anger at losing Terra that overwhelmed me.

He said something else, but I didn’t hear it.

“We’re not gonna lose to you,” Sora retorted.

A smirk that made my blood boil.

Terra’s body---possessed by Xehanort---vanished.

There was a loud CLANG! and a huge plume of dust rose around us.

When it settled, Xehanort’s keyblade was blocked by a familiar one---and a set of armor.

Gold, orange, and brown armor.

I gasped. “Terra!” I whispered. Ventus didn’t even hear me and he was standing nearest me.

“Got you, Xehanort,” Terra’s voice said, soft and barely audible from our distance away.

They started to fight. Ven ran forward to help but Aqua and I caught his arms. “Them first,” Aqua said, nodding behind us at the wave of Heartless coming in.

When no one was looking, I rushed to follow Terra’s armor and his body.

But didn’t get very far before I was surrounded by Heartless. I hissed in frustration. “Be safe, Terra,” I whispered before leaping over the swarming Heartless to get back to the others. I spun my fiery keyblade, knocking it gently against Lea’s and Ven’s and Aqua’s to let them know I was there since they were nearest. Aqua gave me a look. She’d noticed I’d gone after Lingering Will---as Sora had once referred to Terra’s heart within his empty armor---and Terra’s Xehanort-possessed body.

But I was back so she didn’t get the chance to lecture.

*****

“Aqua! Ven!” I shouted, running around the maze in the Keyblade Graveyard looking for my friends. I just got them back---after twelve years---I wasn’t losing them again. “AQUA! VEN!” I ran around recklessly, blowing past fights the other guardians of light were engaged in. They were handling themselves---I had to find Aqua and Ventus.

“Xingi!” Sora called. I skidded to a stop.

“Sora!”

“Aqua and Ven are that way.” He pointed behind him with his keyblade. “They’re okay.”

I nodded. Sora had a smile that didn’t quit and it helped me feel relief that the guardians of light were keeping their spirits up. I set a hand on Sora’s shoulder and ran off.

“Aqua! Ven!” I shouted again.

Whirling around a corner, I nearly face-planted in surprise.

“T... Terra?” I asked quietly.

A familiar face looked up from where a familiar body and clothes were helping Aqua and Ven with their injuries. Blue eyes held a sparkle as a smile I missed terribly greeted me. “Hey Igni.”

“TERRA!” I cried, running forward and slamming into him, wrapping my arms around him. He returned the hug---gently because he was still way bigger than me and still strong enough to snap me in half---and buried his nose in my hair. “You’re---you’re back!” I could barely speak past the tears building up in my eyes and throat.

I felt more than heard his chuckle. “I’m back Igni. You listened to me.”

“I did,” I sniffed.

“Ig...” Ventus mumbled.

I knelt and made sure he and Aqua were okay. They needed a minute to rest but they’d be fine. Terra sat next to me. “Tell me, what happened after you left?”

I let more tears fall. “You won’t be proud of me.” My voice was thick with emotion. “I went to Yen Sid, like you told me to. He did train me a little bit more. But... not long after you, Aqua, and Ven disappeared he asked if I would... cast off my heart and join the original Organization Thirteen. I recognized you immediately. Xemnas had your face. Every day I had to see you but you weren’t you. And it... very nearly ended me. Every time.”

“Why would Master Yen Sid ask you to do such a thing?” Terra asked quietly.

“To keep an eye on their activities---and to protect the keyblade’s chosen one from the Organization when they appeared. I waited ten years for Sora to show up. Empty and alone. Heartless. A Nobody. And your body was right there but you weren’t. It was awful. But I kept Sora as safe from the other Organization members as I could. And when he finally defeated my Nobody, Xingi, for good, I got my heart back.”

Terra held my shoulders. “Igni. I am proud of you. You gave up everything to keep Sora safe. Without him, I wouldn’t be back. So without you I wouldn’t be here.”

I nodded. “Thanks.”

“Whaddaya say we go catch up with Sora?” Ven asked, trying to sit up.

“Nope. No, no, no,” I said. “Give it another minute.”

“I’m fine Igni,” Ventus tried to insist. I cocked an eyebrow at him. I’d perfected the skeptical authority figure look over the last twelve years and turned the full force of it on him. He stood down almost immediately.

“We’ll meet up with the others at the end,” I said. “For now, they have their own fights to finish. Personal scores to settle.” I thought about passing Axel and Saïx. I didn’t envy them that fight. Nor did I envy Aqua and Ven their fight against Terra-possessed-by-Xehanort and Vanitas. I’d wanted to be there for that fight---but had gotten lost in the maze because Luxord was a jerk and I had to give Marluxia a good smackdown.

I gave Terra another hug. All three of them had always been loving to me when we were training under Eraqus---despite how much younger than them I was. Terra was twenty when I was thirteen. And due to their circumstances, I had aged past all of them.

Terra held onto me tightly. “You’re okay. You’re safe. We’re not going to let anything happen to you anymore.”

Ven sat up, ignoring my glare. “Yeah. You’ve been through so much, Igni. All on your own. Let us help you now.”

I sighed and wished I could curl up against Terra’s chest and just let him hold me like he did when I was younger and had a bad dream or a rough day of training. Whenever I felt like I was falling apart as a kid, Terra had been there. His strength felt like he was holding me together---keeping my pieces from flying away.

“Mkay,” I muttered. “When all this is over.”

“Yeah. For now we should get moving,” Aqua said.

Terra and I helped Aqua and Ven to their feet. “How old are you now, Igni, anyway?” Terra asked.

“Twenty-five,” I answered.

His hand rested on my shoulder. “I’m sorry we missed so much.”

“It’s not your fault. None of you. C’mon let’s go.”

Joyous at being with my family again, I smiled as we ran to catch up with Sora.

*****

“Terra, Aqua, Ven, Igni. Forgive your foolish teacher,” Master Eraqus’ heart said to us. All four of us stood with barely-contained emotions.

Ven broke first, running forward and throwing his arms around the glowing form. “Master!” he exclaimed. Aqua echoed it as she hugged his other side. Terra and I followed slower, hugging our teacher from behind Ventus and Aqua.

“Master,” Terra said quietly.

“Ven, I put you through such a harrowing experience. Aqua, I left you with such a heavy burden. Igni, I left you all alone with no guidance or guardianship for so long. Terra, look after them for me.”

Terra, who had taken a step away, nodded.

When Master Eraqus released me, Aqua, and Ven from the tight embrace, Terra wrapped his arm around my shaking shoulders, holding me so tight that my shakes quieted. I held onto Terra’s sturdy torso like it was a tree trunk and I was a child lost in the woods. The last time I saw the man who basically raised me, I was thirteen and had just watched him try to hurt Ven and then raise his Keyblade against Terra before getting struck down by Xehanort.

It had been twelve years. I could tell Terra didn’t blame me for crying. He just held me tight to his side, reminding me of my childhood when he was the protective one of our group. When I used to have bad dreams and wake up with a scream. He’d be in my room within moments to hold me and rock me till I went back to sleep.

Everything and yet nothing had changed.

*****

Riku, Roxas, and Terra went running by in the sand, Riku clearly in the lead and Terra getting exhausted in third place. Lea’s Frisbee went shooting past my face, very nearly missing me. “Ven!” I shouted.

“Sorry Ig!” he shouted.

“Riku wins! Again,” Aqua said. She and I laughed as Terra came in last, dropping his hands to his knees and panting.

“You alright, Terra?” I asked jokingly.

“Fine. ‘M fine,” he said.

Riku chuckled and clapped Terra on the shoulder. “Ya get used to running in sand eventually. Don’t take it so hard.”

Terra rolled his eyes at both of us. I gave him a playful hug.

Inside, I could sense the light in my heart. The last vestiges of the darkness that had consumed me when I joined the Organization to watch for Sora and then keep him safe were finally fading away. I could feel joy again. I did feel joy again. After so long of feeling nothing as a Nobody, the happiness was almost overwhelming.

Terra hugged me back. “We’re here,” he reminded me quietly after a nightmare that I’d had while snoozing on the flight to the Islands of losing him, Aqua, and Ventus all over again. “We’re here and we’re going to stay here. With you. The three of us won’t ever leave you again, ‘kay?”

I nodded into his chest. “Okay,” I said. “Thanks Terra.”

“Of course,” he replied, resting his chin on the top of my head and holding me tighter. “You’ve been so strong for so long---all on your own. Allow yourself to lean on us.”

“I will.”

Aqua appeared at our shoulders. “Everything okay?” she asked.

“Yeah. Just needed a reminder that it is,” I replied.

She set her hand on the top of my head. Even though I was now older than all of them, I was still the shortest. “We’re here now, Igni,” she said before giving me and Terra a smile and strolling off toward where Naminé and Xion were gathering seashells.

Terra kissed the top of my head. I squeezed him tight. He was solid, anchoring me to the reality that my nightmares weren’t real and I was okay.

“I love you, Terra,” I whispered, not even sure if he’d hear me.

“I love you too, Igni,” he replied quietly.

[aguiiilar]

[ liza soberano / cis female / she/her] ┆‹ ❝ oh, them? that’s [ dyra & aguilar ], one of vivienne’s precious sixteen. they’re known around here as a [ middlemen ], which works since they’re [ expressive ] but also [ brusque ]. let’s hope they mess up soon, so another one can rise. ❞ › 

OK HII so ig was /that/ tired yesterday bc i actually fell asleep right when it opened for plotting lmao. but!! im here now and ready to plot w everyone :’) so i’m may and i’m currently 20 & i live in the gmt time zone!!! pls bear with me tho when it comes to dyra (pronounced as die-rah) bc she’s still kinda new and needs to be more fleshed out bc i also dont have her full bio yet lol you can find some basic info abt her under the cut!!

► GENERAL INFORMATION

FULL NAME: aguilar, dyra araya NICKNAMES: dee AGE: twenty DATE OF BIRTH: 31st of october ZODIAC: scorpio PLACE OF BIRTH: manila, philippines GENDER: cis female SPOKEN LANGUAGES: english, tagalog SEXUALITY: bi

► APPEARANCE

FACE CLAIM: liza soberano HEIGHT: 175cm WEIGHT: 55 kg DOMINANT HAND: right HAIR COLOR: dark brown EYE COLOR: brown BUILD: slim

TW: some mentions of murder, sexual harassment, physical abuse & alcohol 

► BULLET POINTS

honestly?? she’s actually kinda nice

that is if she doesnt accidentally spill her actual thoughts hgsinfd

so let’s just say she /tries/ to be nice

anyways

dyra was born into a pretty poor family and was the youngest of the 5

her dad was an alcoholic & her mom couldnt handle it, but anytime she’d try to fix everything, it would only make things worse, resulting in having to hide the bruises from her children

ofc dyra’s older siblings noticed and knew what was up, the oldest one even ended up trying to fight the father, but sadly couldnt survive all the beatings

that same night, her mom took all her children with her to run away

dyra was only 9 by then

bc her mom had little to no money, she couldnt afford to even take care of her and her kids

her only option left was to put the ones who were still underage up for adoption

she did this by leaving 3 at different adoption centers so that the father would have a difficult time finding them if he tried, having the eldest of 18 stay with her

that was the last time dyra had seen any of her family members

years passed, as well as households, but the girl was too unstable to stay with any

except for one

though it was an unusual household, as it wasn’t an actual family, but rather a “family” of adopted teens, somehow it felt like an actual home to her

dyra was 16 when she had given the order to deliver a package, in return she’d receive money. she had no idea what was in that package, but whatever it was- it must’ve been expensive as hell, as she got an envelope shoved into her hands containing more money than she’d ever seen

the girl had accepted her “job” as a deliverer, despite the fact that as time passed, the harder it got, things had to become more secretive, clients got greedier, richer, dirtier, you name it. her body got used to the hands that’d caress her body a little too long for her liking

it was clear that at some point the clients wanted more than the package, seeing who’d deliver it- there was no denying dyra was a pretty woman

as if she had nothing left to lose, she’d just accept her fate as some sort of escort

one night, when she had to deliver a package to a new client, she would’ve never expected to deliver it to someone who’d turn her life around once more; vivienne

a new, somewhat better life was offered and dyra grabbed it with both hands, she had enough experience and seemed good enough for someone, why not? the feeling of getting to prove herself left her with a warm rush

who knew something so little as a yes could do so much?

SORRY this is kinda eh but i promise her bio will b Nice and more Detailed

SO YA IF YOU’D LIKE TO PLOT WITH ME THEN PLS!! im rly nice and i love plotting ok :’)