#i just. i missed it live because i had work and i watched the vod and i just cried for an hour

[svtskneecaps]

so for context i sometimes get things people say stuck in my head, like when a song gets stuck but with random things people say (lmk if you can relate everyone i've mentioned this to hits me with "??? huh?")

roier has a voice where i tend to get things he says stuck in my head yknow. which is neat yknow i like his voice i don't mind him going WHAT THE FUCK?? with his whole chest in the back of my mind yknow like prior to qsmp i had seen a random clip of him chasing down rubius on some different server and saying his name a bunch and that got stuck in my head for a month or so and it's fun yknow it's neat

but right now there is a tiny roier in the back of my head saying "ven mijo ven!! ven bobby!!"

so yea i'm crying again lol

[charaznablescanontoyota]

"marn i missed sgdq 2024 what should i watch"

hi i decided i'm doing another one of these. it's been a minute. this past week was summer games done quick, an annual speedrunning marathon raising money for doctors without borders and also a great way to get into watching speedrunning. a lot of their content is tailored towards being both clearly explained and fun to watch for an audience outside the speedrun community, so you can jump in with basically no knowledge besides “this person is gonna play a game really fast”.

gdq has the full week's worth of vods up as a playlist on their channel, but here are some runs that i personally think you should check out:

ken griffy jr presents mlb by peanut butter the dog: look it's a dog playing baseball. i don't know what else to tell you.

the entire silly block: speedrunners get up way too early in the morning/late at night to play games that feel like a fever dream. some of the commentators are going on 24 hours of no sleep. it's brilliant. my personal highlights of what i've seen so far are stuart little 2, mad panic coaster, city bus simulator race, and the golf it wrong hole only race that the players dressed up as golfers for

alan wake 2 alan%: alan wake clips through walls and generally has a bad time while a bunch of gamers call him a sopping wet catboy. the runner for this one is really charismatic and it's very funny to see staff rushing to open up the pit as soon as we sing starts (yes they do the dance of course they do the dance). i just love joyful runs of horror games man

super mario 64 blindfolded randomizer: what if you played mario 64 blindfolded and also the stars were in completely random locations. and also you had to do it very very fast.

kingdom hearts 2 critical any%: every kh2 speedrun i've ever seen is a work of art and this one is no different. some of the boss fights go down so fast you will literally miss them if you look away for a minute. and also two of my favorite runners are on couch commentary!

balatro showcase: genuinely made me rethink how i'm playing some of the balatro decks. also great commentary and just fun all around despite (or perhaps partially because of) the absolute struggle session going on with plasma deck in the beginning

super mario world kaizo relay: kaizo is a shorthand term for a game hacked to its absolute limits of difficulty that often requires strict precision of movement and can punish the player for thinking they're smarter than it. in this segment, two teams of 4 very very good mario runners race to complete 8 kaizo levels they've never seen before in their lives

mario maker 2 troll level race: i always like the mario maker races for the same reason i like the kaizo relays. i love watching two speedrunners thrown blindly into the shit have to make up strategies on the fly via trial and error (and error, and error, and error, and...)

kirby air ride race: two high level kirby air ride speedrunners race for an actual physical title belt. the trash talk game happening here is of the insane variety that only two very skilled people who truly respect each others' talents at their game of choice can provide

kaizo mario galaxy: what if mario galaxy hated you even more than usual and would stop at nothing to kill you. also most of the commentators are only familiar with the vanilla game and their reactions to the added-in bullshit are hysterical

tony hawk pro skater 1, 2, 3, and 4: i fell asleep watching this and woke up in a cold sweat to the sound of a bunch of people singing superman by goldfinger. good run

super mario rpg remake: this was the finale block and it's just great to see a bunch of people who really really love the original mario rpg get to hang out and talk about how good it is and also watch a world record level player absolutely stunt on the game

halo 3 four-player co-op legendary: dudes rock

[rhiaarrow]

With Bad joking about preparing to go live as a hermit if the eggs are gone for a long time it really got me thinking about how important the eggs and their eggy actors have been to him.

Not that they haven't been important to everyone, the eggs are such a huge part of the server but tonights ramble is about Bad.

To the shock of absolutely no one! I'm a Ghostie first and foremost, with a hyperfixation and a penchant for writing novel length rambles. This is just the usual atp :')

Before the Qsmp Bad was not a daily streamer, not even close, just check his vods channel. Hell, even when he joined the QSMP he didn't stream every day of the start of the server. He only streamed one or two days for a handful of hours...but then he got Dapper.

And with him being a single parent Bad had to log on every day to do Dapper's tasks.

(Yes, Q was also a single parent but he had ppl babysit Tilin, also she died within the first 2 weeks of her being around soooo yeah, different circumstance)

Then because Bad was on every single day he took up a position of babysitter for most of the eggs since their parents couldn't be on as frequently.

To begin with it was mostly just Tallulah, she could've been taken care of by Philza but her schedule didn't originally line up with Phil's so it was easier for her to wake up for Bad to do her tasks.

Then Ramon started joining them some nights so he could hang out with Dapper.

Then Bad became closer with the French and started to watch Pomme for them when they logged off for the night since Pomme was a night owl.

Then Vegetta stopped logging in as often and Leo kept barely missing Foolish so Bad started taking care of Leo's tasks when Foolish couldn't and she started spending time with him as well.

Then Richas started hanging out with Dapper and Pomme, so they formed the late night trio and hung out almost every night which eventually became Richas just hanging out with Bad whenever he felt like it.

Then Pepito arrived and since Roier wasn't on as often late last year Pepito would hang out with Bad and Foolish most days.

Then Em immediately decided that Bad was her favorite Uncle and would hang out with him when Bagi went to bed if she wanted to stay up.

When the eggs disappeared, rather than his usual 6-10 hour streams Bad was streaming 3-5 hours because his entire time on the server was usually spent hanging out with the eggs.

I've rambled before about how qBad and Tio Bad are two separate things because Tio Bad isn't rp, it's just ccBad atp but I feel like some people don't realize the extent to which ccBad spends time with the Eggy actors.

Every single stream, from 5-12 hours, he's only ever without an eggy companion for a couple of hours maximum.

I mean there's the probability of each egg just showing up to hang out with Bad at any point in the day,

Obviously you've got these 3;

Dapper, Pomme, Richas - highest probability

Then these 3;

Empanada, Pepito,Tallulah, - high probability

Then these 5;

Ramon, Chunsik, Sunny - low probability

Chayanne, Leo - lowest probability

There is no egg that has never shown up randomly to hang out with their Tio Bad (and yes I am counting the Ghostie streams in this, it was still ccBad so yknow)

ccBad spends so much time with them.

Not counting all the stuff he's done on stream with all the eggs, he has;

built the snowman with Talluladmin and Pommin,

played battleship with Pommin and Ricardão,

worked on create farms with Dappmin,

worked on the signs with Pommin and Ricardão,

built decorations with Empanadmin and Pommin

Just to name a couple of the stuff we know, not even mentioning the nights they just spend together after stream doing nothing important

The server feels especially empty as a Ghostie because ccBad himself is just so used to hanging out with not just the eggs but the eggy actors as well.

His days are usually dictated by what one of the eggs wants to do, not even necessarily his kid.

If an egg wants to go on an adventure to find a particular thing but knows it's rare or could take a while, they know that the easiest thing to do (if they don't want to drag their parents to do it) is probably ask Tio Bad to take them to look for it. Em's done it, Tallulah's done it, Sunny's done it, Pepito's done it, Leo's done it, literally every egg except Chay and Chun.

His ass is always online and always willing to do anything for the eggs, unless it's ridiculously dangerous, then he draws the line.

If that man does go live as a hermit due to everything reminding him of the fact that the eggy actors are temporarily on break I will not be shocked.

ccBad spends so much of his time with them, not just their little eggy characters.

[thinking-emoji]

wait you’re cooking. it wasn’t a hiatus (just a dapg hiatus) it just wasn’t the content everyone wanted/liked/were used to/whatever.

writing a book and pitching shows and preparing and going on tour is hard work. he was working he just… wasn’t like live streaming writing lol. also he was extremely depressed for a while. obviously that warrants a break.

but i do think you’re right about people just not liking it so they just kind of black it out. which like, if you don’t like something, fine. but that doesn’t mean he wasn’t doing anything. and also, like you said, covid fucked everyone’s sense of time so like. it feels like it’s been 50 billion years since 2018, not 6. which obviously doesn’t help.

Thank you! People in the notes of the post also pointed out how dnp had been doing A Lot of work in the mid 2010s (remember when we had 3 liveshows every week, including one on the BBC?), so it didn't help that phannies were unbelievably spoiled in terms of regular content. But I also don't think it's fair to dnp to expect them to never change the type of content they want to put out. Like, phannies keep saying they'd still love weekly livestreams where Dan just sits at his desk and yaps for an hour, and like. I'm sure he could do that. But I genuinely don't think he'd be more successful with it than with what he did do.

Like. Look at the other popular youtubers from the time of dnp's zenith. Zoella stopped posting. Marcus Butler stopped posting. Troye Sivan has fully pivoted towards music. Connor Franta gets 40k views on his videos. Tyler Oakley streams on twitch? For 60k subscribers, idk how many people he's usually got online in there? And like, the big guns? Shane Dawson? Pewdiepie? Should've quit! Jenna Marbles? Did quit!

I'm rambling on again but like. People need to understand that being a YouTuber from 2014 is not a long-term sustainable job. I honestly think it's almost a miracle that the phandom is still so committed and that they managed to keep their engagement so high (coming out at a time when most people expected their careers to be over probably helped a lot though. To be clear I don't think they came out in order to revive their careers, not at all, but I'm convinced it helped. A lot.)

But yeah what I was saying is. I get that phannies want the content they know and that they grew to love dnp for. So do I!!! But I think we're overestimating our stamina in watching the same thing for years and years and years without ever getting a taste of what it feels like to *miss* that thing. I don't know if the gaming channel return would have been as successful as it was if they both (especially Dan) hadn't disappointed us a little before. And like, I'm kinda sad for Dan bc I don't think that was his plan. I would love to like WAD! I would love to see the vod have millions of views! But unfortunately, I don't love it, and I don't want to click on it when I see it in my recommended, and it feels even more disrespectful to give it sympathy views. Because I want to have fun watching Dan and Phil. And I think we all do.

[megumishousewife]

Streamer! Megumi x Chubby!Streamer Reader

A/N: I have been gone for a MINUTE so imma try and make this lil story the best I can because I’m really doing this because I had an idea one night. Annndddd even though this is more oriented to plus size girls, I want everyone to enjoy this piece. ANYWAYS…

For today’s stream, your chat decided to play a little bit of Resident Evil 4 since it was a new game popping off at the time. You’re a big horror fan so this makes this even better, but you were a little late to the party, seeing that other youtubers and streamers had already beaten you to the punch. You told your fans that even if they have probably seen other people play the game before you, all that matters is that they are getting the uncut Y/N version so they are in for a good one.

 “Just letting you guys know that we are donating to a charity that helps families in need of major necessities so please donate and help the cause. If we do raise past the goal today, I might let you guys pick your rewards. Maybe a 24 hour stream or another vlog, but it’s up to you guys,” you said with a smile.

You watched as your chat was lit up with multiple comments and you just laughed at the excitement of your fans. Even though you probably pull in 10k a stream, you want to make all ten thousands of your fans happy. Also on your youtube channel, Y/N Games, you have already reached 1 million subscribers, which you told everyone was a big milestone. Continuing on, you played RE4 for a good three hours with nothing but a few deaths, multiple donations, giggles, and you simping over Leon because who wouldn’t.

You said, “Y’all, if I was in the zombie apocalypse and I had to have one of my crushes save me...you guys already know who he is.”

Your fans already know how much you gush over the streamer,Megumi Fushiguro, aka Megs. You always found his stoic attitude very sexy and the jokes he made were very similar to yours. You could probably go on for hours talking about this man since you found him way before you even considered doing content. He has probably around an average of 25k viewers and 5 million subscribers on Youtube. You always talk about how you see him at conventions and never speak to him because you were scared of what he would think of you. For some reason, your stream was blowing up the chat about him and that he’s live right now with his best friends, Nobara and Yuji, who are also content creators. 

You laughed, “Guys, I will react to their stream tomorrow, butttt I see that we have reached our goal of donations! Thank you guys so much and we can actually take these last few minutes to discuss what you guys want for your reward.”

After looking at the comments for 5 minutes, you have narrowed down to 3 options.

“You guys really want me to come out of my comfort zone with these,” you said with a nervous laugh, “Option One: collab with fav youtuber or streamer. Two, ask out my fav youtuber or streamer. Or three, prank calling my streamer friends. This decision isn’t up to me, so I will put a poll on my twitter so you guys can take a vote on what we should do. It will be open for 24 hours so you guys can pop in anytime to vote. Thank you so much, I love you guys and good nigghtttt!”

You clicked off the “end stream” button and you felt your heart pounding out of your chest. The first two options were already embarrassing because how in the hell were you going to get in contact with Megumi. And knowing your fans, they were not going to do the last one because it’s too easy. Sighing, you got up to take a shower and flopped on your big bed. Just for background noise, you turned on another plus sized youtuber that you always watched do a random storytime while you got to work. The fastest thing to do was to upload the VOD of tonight's stream that one of your mods saved to your youtube channel. since you stream Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays; you didn’t want your youtuber watchers to miss out on your newest gameplay. Next, you went to Twitter and uploaded the poll, feeling a small pit in your stomach. You also saw that you were tagged in a video of Nobara, Megumi, and Yuji rating Youtubers and streamers. You pressed play and saw what was about to unfold.

Nobara said, “Next one is plus sized youtuber and streamer, Y/N games!”

You could feel your face flush up instantly. What. The. Fuck. They are rating you out of all people and the only thing you can do is brace yourself for what to come because when it comes down to being a plus sized content creator, or just being plus sized in general, you have to be thick skinned and not let the hate get to you. But, the friend group actually took you by surprise. 

“Not gonna lie, she kinda bad! Megumi, you’re silent. The fans need your feedback,” Yuji said, nugging his best friend.

Megumi looked as if he’s even embarrassed to say anything but he managed to get a few words out as his face reddened.

“She’s pretty,” Megumi said, keeping his response short. 

Nobara and Yuji laughed as the chat was blowing up saying he might have a crush, but you rolled your eyes and logged out of Twitter for the night to go to sleep. Even though your body felt tired from the day’s work of streaming, editing, and sending emails, you couldn’t take your mind off of Megs’ face when he called you pretty.

“Maybe I’m just in over my head,” you thought to yourself.

After trying to let the thought pass as best as possible, you allowed yourself to drift into a deep sleep.

Don’t jump me! I know this is a little short but I think I’m going to post them in sections because chile, I’m acting like I haven’t typed in forever. But I hoped yall enjoyed it!!!

[mbat]

it sucks when a youtuber who streams most of the time and then uploads cut down versions of their streams is like 'you couldve seen this whole thing had you actually been there btw. you should watch my streams actually' cause its like. not everyone can or wants to sit through live streams, especially ones that are either really long or theres so many people in the chat that youre basically just watching a video that you cant pause or skip forward or backwards on

like just upload the full vods and if people want to go to the streams they will, your advertising should just be you, you shouldnt need to be like 'you should feel bad or like you missed out because for any reason you missed the stream lol' like ? skill issue

cause the whole reason ive even checked out pretty much any live streamer was because i saw one of their vods and was like 'that seems fun, i would like to see more of these, and try to be there live if i can!' and like its not a 'im gonna miss out on everything if i dont see them live :[' thing yknow

ive mostly been referring to one youtuber this whole time that i used to watch cause i liked their videos but i unsubscribed mainly for this specific reason (because without fail theyd say this stuff in every video and it was beyond irritating) but i just know other people do it

also i know this probably comes out of left field but it also goes hand in hand with the 'only 20% of my viewers are subscribed!' thing (which that youtuber also did) and its like. bitch if i wanted to subscribe i would subscribe. they say 'you can always undo it later!' yeah or i could just not do it at all. shut up. that shit makes me want to subscribe even less. is it meant to be guilt trippy or something? 'look at the people who arent subscribing to me, it makes me sad :( please make my arbitrary number go up pleeassseee :(((('

im not gonna say this stuff feels manipulative because like, this is ultimately pretty unserious and is just annoying at most, but it rubs me the wrong way. like either youre good enough for people to want to see your streams or subscribe to you and you shouldnt need to worry about people not doing those things, or youre insecure despite already having THOUSANDS of people watching you and subscribing to you and your little arbitrary number not going up at breakneck pace is bothering you for some reason

i guess i cant say that people only do this for fun anymore since this, like everything, "has" to be monetized now, and i admit i dont know (or give a fuck) how that all works, but like. come on. just let the results speak for themselves and stop grating on the nerves of anyone watching because you cant just let your videos and streams be enough on their own

[herohikara-wol]

FFXIV Write 2k23 - Day 4

Off the Hook (Modern Day Streamer AU)

“Welcome back Scions!” Hero beamed as he waved at his camera set up, the stream was live and his mod team was ready for the chaos. Hero was usually a cozy game streamer- if he wasn’t doing his baking streams, known for things like Animal Crossing or Stardew Challenge Runs. However, he could be convinced to do other styles of games- and one of his friends had talked him into trying something new. “No we are not taking a trip back to the farm today, we’re doing something special!” He already had the capture set up for the switch anyway.

So a few games of the new Splatoon wouldn’t hurt. “Alright chat, I want you to guess while I set up my switch. Mods, give ten thousand channel points to- let’s say- the first three correct guesses! I’ll help narrow the field though, it’s not an indie title and it’s got online multiplayer.” He actually was just waiting for the game to finish downloading, while keeping an eye on chat to see if his friend would show. Granted, he could just yell down the hall- but chat didn’t need to know they were living together now. It’d lead to rumors and unneeded speculation.

Especially since Zenos was supposed to be dating his lead moderator- Asahi.

Not that Hero wasn’t also dating Asahi, but there was this whole royal wedding fiasco that they had to resolve first and he didn’t want to make it public that they were a triad until it was resolved. Partially by suggestion of Zenos’ fathers. Specifically Regula, the biggest advocate for online safety and anonymity he knew. Partially because the pair of them have managed to keep their relationship out of the spotlight for years- hell, no one could even tell Varis had transitioned after having Zenos. The royal family knew how to keep secrets- even in an online era.

Finally Asahi posted a message in his mod chat.

[GildedSAM: Zenos forgot your Splatoon Debut stream was today.]

[GildedSAM: So I’m moderating his stream right now.]

Oh, that would explain a lot. Okay, Hero could work with that. He’d watch Zenos’ VOD later just to see whatever he did. Hero wasn’t one for games like League or whatever competitive fighting game of the week Zenos was punishing people in, but he liked to watch Zenos play anyway. He never got tilted, even when losing, he just got excited for a challenge. Watching his smile spread when he found someone who made playing interesting was Hero’s favorite part of his streams.

[CensorshipNutkin: thx for the intel]

[CensorshipNutkin: u n fordola got it covered?]

[GildedSAM: Between me, Tsuyu, and Fordola we should have Zenos’ stream under control.]

[CensorshipNutkin: kk]

Hero sighed a bit, that meant his team would just be Thancred and Raha today. That was fine, his streams usually didn’t get crazy so two would be enough. “Alright bets are off, let’s get this started!” He switched to the game screen to show off the Splatoon logo, “I played the WiiU version way back when so I’m not totally clueless, but I wonder how it’s changed for the switch. I think I’ll miss Marina though, I loved her outfit. Maybe I'll cosplay her sometime.” He winked at his chat and grinned as the heart emojis poured in. “Also, fair warning, I was a splat roller guy before so prepare for me to make a lot of mess.”

Honestly the stream was going great for a while- until he wound up in one specific lobby. “Who the flip is this sniper? He’s stupid accurate and-” Hero paused for a moment, long viera ears turning to ear Zenos talking to his own stream. He could barely pick up the words, “effective on rollers- can’t have that,” before he quickly pulled up Zenos’ stream on his other monitor. “Chat I’m going to have to pause after this game.” He was going to beat Zenos within an inch of his life over this. It couldn’t be intentional, he knew they weren’t trying to get into each other’s games.

Shame someone in chat realized why he was angry before he had the chance to elaborate.

[WarriorOLight and GarlicPrince are in the same lobby. GP just sniped WoL from half the map!!!]

Fuck, whelp that cat was already out of the bag.

Suddenly his chat lit up with messages of support. Calls to kick his ass and run him down were rampant.

“Guys I’m not going to chase him down specifically, that’s unsporting of me.” He laughed a little, calming down for the moment. “I am, however, going to turn this whole flippin’ map pink and send him a clip when I win.” Not if.

When.

Time to do what he did best, be a nuisance. Don’t get cooked, stay off the hook indeed.

[atthebell]

“if it’s not your speed it’s not your speed” i 100% agree that streamers don’t owe us edited videos, and while i do think a good portion of people are complaining about streams because they’re, as you said, “not your speed”, another major problem for people is probably time. i’m a student, and between school and homework i miss just about every stream. as well, it’s really hard to go and look through vods to try and figure out what happened that day. while liveblogging is useful and really appreciated, at the same time i would like to be able to see what happened for myself, yk? so as someone with nearly no time (or energy by the end of the day) i really love the idea of edited videos. (and i’d like to reiterate I DONT THINK STREAMERS OWE US ANYTHING- this is more so just my personal, really frustrating problem)

anyway sorry for the rant i’m incredibly frustrated over my lack of time to keep up with qsmp and needed to talk about it somewhere💀👍

i get that its frustrating to not be able to see everything from an smp you're really interested in (i have a lot of time on my hands and still dont catch everything i'd like to, qsmp just has THAT MUCH content, its literally impossible to keep up with even just one character really) but my issue is the amount of complaints ive seen where people are literally saying they think ccs suck shit for not editing down their streams into youtube videos. like. dude. you are not owed shit. and i keep seeing it presented in this way, not just for edited videos but in general, like people complaining that cellbit doesn't post his qsmp vods to youtube and saying that that is the bare minimum creators owe us. no it is not! he doesn't owe you that! no cc owes you that! you are not owed content! i don't care if you're a tier 3 sub or whatever, you are not owed anything. people feel incredibly entitled to creators right now and it feels emblematic of how people consider entertainers and labor generally (because yes, entertainment is a job, including twitch streaming), and i find it really disappointing. creators do not have an ethical obligation to provide you with content, and definitely not personalized content. to assume otherwise is parasocial and weird.

i understand that not having a lot of time makes streams really difficult. there was a point in time a couple years ago when i worked 20 hours a week as a full time grad student and had to try to catch streams on my walk home, and it wasn't fun! edited videos are much easier to consume, and i get why that would turn people off something like qsmp where 95% of content is livestreams and only like. two people post videos and not even regularly. i also do think "if it's not your speed, it's not your speed" doesnt just refer to taste-- i'm well aware many people do not have the time to catch that many streams if they can catch any. that sucks! it does not make it a moral failing on the creator's part, and it doesn't mean you can't watch any qsmp, but it does mean that your ability to watch it is hampered and you probably have to live with that. i'm not saying people in this situation can't complain. i'm saying don't turn it into a moral issue. to me the way that people talk about it is so rarely framed as "man, i wish i had all the time to watch this," or "i wish there were more creators editing down their videos!" and more often framed as something creators dont do because they're stupid or careless. they're not either. they're twitch streamers. many of them don't post youtube videos at all and have not in years. that just isn't the content they make. and i'm sorry that that means some people can't watch, but it doesn't make it a failing on their part.

like, feel free to kvetch about not having enough time to see bagi and pac lose their minds over fed worker murders! i also do this! i complain weekly about missing streams to take care of my nephew, even though i love spending time with him. but don't talk about it as if it's a war crime that phil doesn't edit down his qsmp lore. and i'm not saying you do this, anon, bc obviously i have no idea who you are. but all of the above and what i said in my notes is about the people who actively, vocally talk shit about ccs like they're personally owed edited down videos when that just isn't the case and makes them look like jackasses.

[pass1onepr1ncess]

CW for this post because I talk about suicide a bit! It's positive in the end, though, I promise!

At the ripe age of 14/15 years old, I fully planned to kill myself. I had done research, I made my peace with it, I had a plan. I even had a backup plan. But when the time actually came, I couldn't follow through. Not because I knew things would get better or realized that I still wanted to live- because I didn't- but because I knew my abusive family wouldn't take care of my cat properly if I was gone.

That cat is dead now, unfortunately. Funny enough, she died because of my shitty family's neglect of her after I moved out and couldn't take her with me. I hate to say "I knew it" or "I told you so" to no one in particular, but I did. I have her urn in my room and I now have two other cats that I love dearly, but that's not the point of this post.

I was thinking about it all, how if I had gone through with it all just how much I would've missed. If I had ended my life at 15, I never would've met my best friend at 16. Who I'm still close to to this day, going on strong for 5 years now. And all the people that I've met because of my relationship with him, I never would've crossed paths with.

I never would've gotten to walk the stage and got my diploma, even if the cap and gowns my school had were ugly as hell. I never would've gotten to move out and cut contact with my abusive mother. She still stalked me for a few years after and some of the damage she's done to me is permanent, but she can't get to me anymore. She can't hurt me, and I've made significant progress in healing from the damage that isn't irreversible.

I never would've met my wonderful, lovely partners who keep reminding me everyday that all the things I always thought I'd have to settle for are all things I should strive higher for. That I shouldn't have to sell myself short because I think my actual wishes are too far-fetched or that I don't deserve it. I don't know about soulmates, but I truly believe that fate had it in the scripts for me to meet them at just the right time when I was ready for everything I ever dreamed of. And if I had offed myself when I was still in high school, I would have died thinking the world was a loveless, cruel, unfair place void of joy or any light at the end of the tunnel.

But I didn't. And so now I'm laying here in bed under my blankets watching an old Penny Parker VOD of her RE4 remake streams. One of my cats is laying on my chest, purring while she drifts in and out of sleep. I have work in a few hours, but I'm saving up to go visit my best friend later this year and possibly my partners if I play my cards right.

Life is good. My life didn't end at 15, and my life is good. I won't pretend like everything is sunshine and rainbows. There's still a lot wrong with the world and I still have problems of my own, but at least I'm not suicidal anymore. Whatever issues I face, I know that there's always either a solution or a chance to rebuild. I won't give up. I will keep going and keep living because as much as I would've missed if I had died at 15 I know there's still so much of my life that I'll have missed if I give up now.

I will keep living to see what my future has in store for me. Be it good or bad, I don't want to miss it.

[ponponpopcorn]

PON'S ANIME NYC REPORT

went to anime nyc on friday! had a great time, i cosplayed as pan and i was surprised to have people ask for my picture. it's probably the closest thing i've done to a proper cosplay so it was a new thing.

i ended up only buying stuff from my friends' booth, because i was looking for gamma merch and so i was trying not to buy anything else in hopes of it (i did not find any except for the figures i already had, sniff). there was a gamma 1 cosplayer that i saw on the way inside, and i deeply regret not asking for their contact info as a fellow gamma fan.

if i got a 3 day pass i'd 100% go back to buy this vegeta plush because he looks so funny. little thing! i think i ended up missing a lot of artists/people that i only ended up seeing via posts on twitter so i wish i could go back, but alas, next time.

i also stopped by a vtuber booth (not holo) and ended up saying hi. i didn't realize it was on a live stream on youtube until i already said hi (earlier i saw that it was through discord, so i assumed it'd be that way for every vtuber there. i was wrong) and i sheepishly kept saying hi and who im cosplaying and the mic didn't pick up half of what i said. i'm not actually sure what exactly was being heard through the stream because i got so so embarrassed that i couldnt watch the vod back for more than like 5 seconds. i haven't had an embarrassing moment like that in a very long time and i can't ask the vtuber for this but i hope she deletes that vod. the title of the stream was like meet a vtuber waifu too like get me out of there!!! i just wanted to say hi in fellow vtuber solidarity. sniffle. i'm sure it wasn't that bad but yeah.

i was just very glad to see a lot of db merch and fans even if i didnt see any in the artist's alley, and there's a lot of cool artists there i felt like i was seeing celebrities. and i met a lot of internet friends too!!! i had another embarrassing moment where i met one of those friends, but forgot i had never shown them my face or been in vc for very long w her, so she got scared bc i was even asking for a pic until she was able to recognize me with my dmg plush. sooooo yeah pon was a bit of a fool. if i can attend next yr i will cuz it was fun! yay. thanks for reading i have to do my work

[insomnicbypasser]

Ho boy what a past two couple weeks am i right guys??? This post will just be me throwing my thoughts at the wall dont expect any sense of consistance im going to be topic hopping probably also just to let you all know this post wont have much if any neg because i honestly font hold those feelings towards purgatory sorry xD however if yall do have neg stuff feel free to have an open discussion in the replies i wanna study yall under a microscope

THOUGHTS BELOW

Alright first of all lets give it up for Bolas guys lets be honest no one not even they themselves thought they were gunna win fr

As a sole Bolas watcher ill have to say these streams have been the most fun ive had watching a stream in a while ive legit fixed my sleeping schedual just to watch these streams lemme tell you

I know that alot of people are unhappy with the ending that we got today but just to remind everyone that i dont think the admins or quackity would do anything TRULY permant without discussion with the cc's

Maxs death was obviously planned days in advance and seeing as the cc's didnt know anything about the eggs conditions or whereabouts i think its safe to assume none of them are actually dead

I trust quackity and qsmp not to do something that would obviously be so unsatisfiying to both the players and the fans, mostly because several months of build up definitely wouldnt lead to that

I think purgatory will be used as a learning experience for qsmp staff as how to make events more enjoyable, and i have no doubt that the week(s) inbetween this purgatory event and the next will be spent working out bugs and making qol changes, we cant expect everything to go perfectly without making mistakes

I think that the ending to purgatory played into the whole theme thats been hammered on over and over again by quackity both in and out of game: this event is made to make you unhappy and uncomfortable. It was tailored to brew conflict and make you unsatisfied, whivh judging by peoples reactions worked very well!

This event is definitely going to make past and future experiences sweeter. Were going to look back on pre purgatory as the good ol days before disaster and look at post purgatory as the catharsis period after a disaster. Puragatory is defintely the growing pains need to bring new life into the server, ots the absence that makes the heart grow fonder.

I have a serious question to ask people down in the replies: how many of you came back to qsmp or started WATCHING qsmp because of the purgatory event. Ill be honest after the first couple months i only tuned into mr charlie slimecicles streams and those were few and far between but after puragtory started i began to feel the insatiable lust for more qsmp so i began to watch recap videos and vods at a horrifiying pace. I started watching other povs because of how well bolas played off of each other and i didnt want to miss a single second of their shenanigans.

This single event has made me more excited for qsmp content then anything in the past couple months. I got a fucking twitter account for christs sake just because i wanted to know wehn people were going live and to see recaps on what the other teams were up too.

I know these past two weeks have been stressful and uncomfortable for some people so i ask yall to take a step back and detoxify so we can come back to this with clearer and fresher prespectives so we can focus on the fun and intruiging aspects of the event

Lets wallow in the angst and let chaos take the wheel with theories and ideas on how everything will pan out from here, i have hope that everything will turn out in the end even if its brought about woth blood sweat and tears :) as long as we all have fun in the end thats all that matters yall

[lord-radish]

Top 5 Media Experiences of 2022

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Snapcube's Ratchet and Clank 3 playthrough

DanganRonpa 1 and 2

Dar Williams

lord-radish

First of all, I liked all of her RnC playthroughs a lot. I loved it when she sold Clank for 640,000 bolts, and the tangent about Ratchet going over to someone's house and doing sideflips in front of them after chat tricked her into the boob glitch. Her ship voiceover for Going Commando was one of my favorite parts of those sections, I love how it became like defacto knowledge that it was the ship itself making those noises.

"uhh yeah can you get me one of those chiccy sandwiches please? thank you thank you thank you" is burned into my brain bc Youtube kept losing my place and I kept having to start that VOD from the start. The tangent about the clothes seller in Tools of Destruction comes from a goofy place and I love it. The first four streams go from strength to strength - they're incredibly entertaining and immensely quotable, even months later.

I watched a LOT of Ratchet streams this year. Never quite finished Crack in Time and beyond, but I saw the rest. And 3 is my favorite, because A) that was the one big formulative Ratchet and Clank game I played as a kid, and B) 3 is probably the funniest and most well-structured game in the PS2 era. I never knew because I had limited experience with the first two games, but it's no surprise at all that 3 was the first game with a dedicated writing staff after seeing the other two (which are perfectly great games in their own right).

So clearly I have a bias here. Penny seemed to have an absolute blast with this game, I remember her losing her shit at the Courtney Gears music video and she bought into Dr. Nefarious after being wary of him due to prior exposure to the character. That bias played a role in my enjoyment, sure, but it also just felt nice to see such a funny, cozy stream because I'm not used to that.

I've historically watched a lot of Vinesauce, Game Grumps etc. for like odd games and video game corruptions - I feel like even the more homey aspects of that content is steeped in irony and shitposting, with Game Grumps in particular being noticeably caustic. There's just as much laughing at the content creator for falling short at their sisyphean task as there is in sharing their victories, maybe even moreso. That's sort of been the cornerstone of how I consume game media. I've become very jaded and irony-poisoned over the years.

I think what made the Snapcube streams so special is that I was almost never laughing at Penny, but I was laughing with her. Yes, losing a bunch of lives can be frustrating and it can be funny to see someone react to that. But for every time Penny misses a jump and goes "Fuck!" with a small laugh or a bit of rage, there's an extended comedy bit she does that ends up being really funny and well-built, and it comes across as her having great fun with it too. I think it's that crowd work that makes her stand out the way she does.

That energy carried into RnC3, which was an incredibly nostalgic experience, and I enjoyed seeing her react to the game itself almost as much as I liked her own additions and embellishments along the way. The fact that she was playing such a nostalgic game was a bonus - personal memories or not, I was looking forward to entry #3 of like #8 of this awesome, entertaining game marathon I was enjoying so much. The nostalgia was still a huge highlight though.

Beginning to watch Snapcube streams as a whole was a highlight of 2022, but RnC3 just put a smile on my face like nothing else. The Sonic fandubs are really good, I absolutely saw those before I saw her streams, but these streams were what made me a Snapcube fan.

[sudden-memory-loss]

!!!!!!!!! I've just woken up, and I'd love an excuse to ramble. skizz is genuinely one of the most entertaining people ever. every single episode I watch on my lunch break at work, I come out afterward and retell my favourite bits to my coworker (some recent highlights being the wither skeleton situation, his comment on impulse's skin, his build being too large, him using his bit with tango to get someone over, I could go on). she actually sat there with her mouth fully open in shock while watching the wither skeleton situation. he manages to make every situation even more funny and even more dynamic. I said in a comment on zed's stream during stream weekend, I think the "naked nether shopping" stream may have been my favourite stream he's ever done, and skizz was a massive part of that (and I'm not just saying that, truly, his unnecessary screaming makes my day).

but skizz's brilliance is not limited to hermitcraft, oh no. I was an impulse-enjoyer first (via hermitcraft), but I quickly started watching imp and skizz's hardcore skyblock streams as I was spending hours alone in a mostly empty house, volunteering. it was so comforting. it made the time pass so much quicker and definitely made it feel less lonely. only downside was I'd get so absorbed I'd almost miss the buzz that a person was there who needed to be welcomed in. and impulse could not have made that series by himself. like technically speaking, yes, he could, but it would not have had the same level of hijinks and shenanigans and charm that came from that series.

and skizz quotes live in my brain! I just think about them sometimes!! from the skyblock series you have, "you didn't say there'd be an F5 tornado localized centrally inside your guest house", during impulse's construction work. you have the most out of pocket first two lines from any phasmo vod ever: "doesn't make me feel bad, I don't have a soul. dude, dude, I am eating blueberries, they're the size of small apples" (I don't think he realised how funny this was). skizz is the most incredible addition to every phasmo stream, actually, I swear. the old-school sacrificial skizz, the running out of the house screaming every time he got spirit box? unparalleled. I have a clip saved of the first time JITS got the tarot cards, which- that whole stream was so funny. I think all three of the clips I saved were skizz oriented (impulse showing him his hiding spot and the ensuing hunt, skizz dying in the hunt they didn't think was a hunt, and the tarot card conversation). he makes every moment funnier, I swear. I wouldn't have even watched the building game videos if he weren't in it.

and don't even get me started on naked and scared. n&s 23 is such a comfort series; I watch it all the time when I'm upset or just wanting a pick me up. it boasts such amazing moments as: "CAUSE WE'RE JUST THAT STUPID?!", skizz getting attacked by a llama, that goddamn pufferfish, and my favourite line delivery from possibly all of n&s: "oh DIPPLEDOP, you are the LIABILITY this season!"

I may have gone slightly overboard here, but honestly, I could have gone so much longer! I also want skizz to know how much he's adored. I don't care what he's doing! I don't care if it's good! we come for him, not for incredible building or fancy redstone or anything like that. all of those quotes came straight from my brain! I did not look up a single thing. genuinely, I was jumping up and down in excitement when it was revealed he was a hermit. I couldn't be happier for him. we just want him to continue being him, because that's absolutely the best part of his videos: him.

everyone, if you've been undecided on whether to watch skizz, this is absolutely your sign to do it. please. it's so worth it.

26 February 2024

no clip again today, but if you would like, please reblog and tell me what you love about our beloved skizz is, things he does that make you happy, favorite moments, etc. i want to gather up a bunch of positivity and see if i can get one of his mods to pass it onto him, the man is so hard on himself and i’d like him to see just how much he’s adored

[kaminocasey]

Positions

Summary: Rex invites Cody out to 79s, only because they have bigger plans for you tonight.

Pairing: Rex x F Medic!Reader x Cody

Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI; S M U T, Fingering, oral (both receiving), threesome, unprotected sex (wrap it up, guys), p in v

WC: 3.1K

A/N: So I got this idea last night and just HAD to write it. I've been in a bit of a Cody mood lately. Ugh. The two of them together... I can't. I love them so much.

Here's the little playlist I was listening to while making this.

The music in 79s was booming all around you. It was maybe a tad bit too loud for your taste, but you were into it. The song was catchy enough. You scan the bar for your 501st boys until you see them hanging out in their usual booth in the back corner. You notice Commander Cody was with them. That was unusual. Nothing to complain about, though.

“Commander. As I live and breathe.” You tease him.

“Cody, you remember-” Rex starts.

Cody sighs your name, locking eyes with you, making you nearly drop your drink. You like the way he says it. You want to hear it again.

“I was under the impression that commanders don’t take nights off.” You sit next to Rex, watching Cody as you take a sip of your fruity cocktail.

Cody doesn’t take his eyes off of you. “Needed to blow off some steam.”

You don’t miss the way that Rex places an arm around behind you, squeezing your side encouragingly. Cody smirks at you, sending you a wink, and you smile back.

So that was the end game for tonight, then.

“Commander, do you dance?” You ask him.

“Sure.” He shrugs.

“Rex?” You look at him.

Rex smirks, following you when you get up. Cody follows behind him and you hear the rest of the 501st boys hooting and hollering.

“Come find me if Rex can’t keep up!” Five shouts to you, earning a laugh from the group.

Cody steps in front of you, taking your hand and leading you to the dance floor, spinning you into him once you reach the middle of the floor. Bright neon lights blink and twinkle around you. You can’t help but admire the way the lights accented Cody’s eyes as he stares down at you. He settles his hands on your waist, pulling you as close as possible. You wrap your arms around his neck at the same time that you feel Rex behind you moments later, his hands resting just above Cody’s. Your skin under your dress felt like it was on fire.

Rex pushes himself up against your ass and you can’t help the gasp that leaves your lips. Cody looks down at your cleavage with another smirk as you grind to the music. Rex brushes his lips against your neck and your eyes close at the feeling. You feel Cody’s lips against yours at the same time.

Cody’s lips are just as soft as Rex’s, but more firm. It feels like he’s been thinking about this a bit.

You worked with the 501st as one of their medics. You and Cody barely ever had time to converse. Most of your words were exchanged with glances and stares. You and Rex, though… your flirty banter has been going on since the day you met. You have been sleeping together almost as long, your chemistry completely undeniable.

“Do you mind sharing your cyare with me tonight, vod?” Cody asks Rex.

“As long as she doesn’t mind.” Rex answers, knowing the answer.

“She doesn’t mind, do you, love?” Cody asks you.

You shake your head, already thinking about the possibilities.

“Good girl.” He murmurs in your ear.

Rex grinds his hardening length against your ass, pulling you against him. You turn your head toward him, crushing your lips to his, letting him know you wanted him just as much. You feel Cody’s hands reach up to your breasts from behind you, groping you roughly, making you whimper into Rex’s mouth.

Rex smirks. “The commander doesn’t play as nice as I do, mesh’la.”

“That’s fine by me.” You bite your lip.

You stay like that for a little bit longer, the guys grinding against you, taking turns kissing your open skin.

You feel your panties dampen and as if Rex can sense it, he leans in close. “Take them off and give them to me.”

You look around, hot in the face. “Right here?”

“Don’t leave your captain waiting.” Cody is in your ear, warning and commanding. Something he’d always be excellent at. “Or do you need help?”

You whimper softly.

“I think that’s a yes.” Rex chuckles. You assume Cody checks to make sure no one is watching, or maybe he just doesn’t care, because he starts pulling them down until he helps you step out of them.

“Mind if I hold onto these, vod?” Cody asks Rex.

“They’re all yours. She has plenty, believe me.” Rex tells him as if you’re not there and you can feel yourself start to drip down your thighs.

You feel Cody’s fingers slide in between your wet folds from behind you. You can feel how hard he’s become in the last few seconds, and you know it’s going to be time to leave soon.

When you feel his fingers slip inside of you, your knees buckle and Rex has to hold you up. You let out a filthy moan, unable to hold it in. Rex chuckles.

“Fuck, cyar’ika.” Cody groans in your ear, biting your neck lightly.

“Told you her pussy was out of this world.” Rex tells him.

“Can’t wait to sink into her.” Cody grips your hip tightly.

The way that they talk about you like you’re not even there makes you even more wet and you rest your head back on Cody’s shoulder as he continues to grope you with one hand and finger you with the other. Rex just watches, his pupils completely blown with lust.

“We need to go now.” You tell them, feeling your release nearing.

You really didn’t want to orgasm in front of all of these people. You feel like you’ve already given enough of a show. Rex understands and nods to Cody. Cody’s fingers slip out of you but slide up to the underside of your dress, resting on your ass.

“You tell the boys we’re leaving.” Cody tells Rex who nods and makes his way back over to the table.

“Let’s go.” Cody murmurs in your ear.

Your legs are still a tad wobbly as you make your way toward the door. When you reach the cool night Coruscant air, you release a breath you didn’t even realize you’d been holding in.

“You’re sure you want this?” Cody asks you, softly.

“Yes, sir.” You smile.

He smirks down at you and you know that was definitely the right answer.

“Rex talks about how you’re such a good girl for him, I’ve been wanting to try you out for myself.” He pulls you into his arms, both of his hands resting on your ass, under your dress, now. “I see you walk onto the bridge sometimes and it’s a good thing I have my codpiece because I get hard instantly… thinking about everything I want to do to you.”

You look up at him, your lips parted, speechless.

“Ready to go?” Rex’s voice is in your ear moments later.

You nod, smiling at him. You catch a taxi back to the barracks. The entire ride, Cody decides to tease your slick folds again and you try to hold in your whimpers that so desperately want to escape. You bite your lip when Cody slips a finger in. You bury your face in Rex’s neck when he starts rubbing your clit. If the taxi driver were to look back, he’d see your dress up around your hips, your pussy exposed. You feel like you’re going to explode by the time you get to base.

Rex and Cody have to refrain from putting their hands on you as you walk through the base. Who knows what kind of trouble you’d all be in if one of the Jedi generals caught you.

Cody guides you to his private quarters, quietly.

Once the door is closed, Cody gently pushes you against the door. You look for Rex who’s sitting on the edge of the bed, watching you, never taking his eyes off of you. Who knew how long they’d had this planned out.

What else is there to talk about in the heat of battle, you think to yourself with an internal chuckle.

Cody slips your dress down your body and you step out of it, feeling more exposed. You get a slight chill and feel your nipples become hard. Cody takes notice and runs his thumbs over them. You let out a sigh, closing your eyes and resting your head against the door.

“Perfect, isn’t she?” Rex asks for his brother’s approval.

“Fucking perfect.” Cody agrees.

“Commander…” You whimper, still feeling the dripping down your thighs.

“As much as I love hearing that come from those pretty lips… you can call me Cody if you’d like.” He tells you.

You open your eyes and he’s smiling warmly at you. He brushes his lips against yours softly, letting his hands trail down your body, pulling you against him. You rest your hands on his chest, sighing into the kiss. You weren’t expecting him to be so soft with you.

He backs you up to his bed and Rex guides you down to it. You notice that Rex is without his clothes now, his length still hardened. You take it in your hand as you watch Cody undress, squeezing harder when Cody reveals his cock. Rex chuckles at your reaction and Cody smirks.

“I think she’s impressed with what she sees, don’t you, vod?” Cody teases.

“I think she is.” Rex agrees.“What do you want, mesh’la?”

“I…” You struggle to find your words. “I want…”

“Whatever you want… you can have it.” Cody tells you.

You look up at him, releasing Rex’s length, and getting down on your knees on the floor. Cody’s mouth drops slightly and you smile up at him. He walks to you and you open your mouth for him as he brushes his thumb across your lips.

“You’re a lucky man, Rex.” Cody never takes his eyes off of you.

“Don’t I know it.” You can hear Rex’s smirk.

Rex is as proud to have you just as you are to have him. You love him with every fiber of your being. There wasn’t anything in the galaxy you wouldn’t do for him and you know he feels the same about you.

To be shared with his brother, you knew there was an infinite amount of trust present in your relationship that didn’t need to be talked about. It was just there. You would never have to question each other.

“You’re sure?” Cody asks you one last time.

You nod. “Yes, Cody.”

He sighs the same way you did when he said your name earlier. You suck his thumb into your mouth and he runs the pad of it across your tastebuds, smirking down at you. He tasted like whatever his last drink was. You close your eyes at the feeling, taking more of his thumb, and he moans softly.

“Tell me how bad you want to taste my cock.” He demands.

“More than anything.” You whisper, pulling away from his thumb.

He teases the tip of his cock against your lips. You open wider for him, eagerly.

“You’ve trained her well.” Cody glances up at Rex.

“That’s all her.” Rex chuckles.

Cody pushes his leaking cock into your mouth and you can’t help but moan around him, making him grip your hair and moan, himself.

“That’s right, my love. Take your commander.” Rex encourages you, rubbing your back.

You take more of Cody, letting him push into your mouth as much as he wants. His cock fills your mouth so perfectly. You tease the underside of it, providing suction around the rest of it. He groans softly, thrusting in and out of warm tight walls of your mouth.

“You- Ah… kriff.” Cody struggles, slowing down his thrusts.

“Told you that mouth was something else, didn’t I?” Rex chuckles.

“Yeah… you did.” Cody huffs out a laugh, pulling out of your mouth.

Cody helps you up to the bed and you sit next to Rex again. Rex presses a sweet kiss to your temple.

“Go to the head of the bed, cyar’ika.” Cody tells you.

You scoot up the head of the bed, leaning back on your elbows so that you can see the two men at the foot of the bed. Rex joins you, kissing you passionately. Your tongues dance along each other and you let out a loud moan when you feel Cody’s mouth on your dripping pussy.

You break away from Rex to look down at the Commander in between your legs. He’s watching you intensely as you feel Rex’s mouth on your breasts, sucking marks into you so that you could remember tonight for the next few days every time you change your clothes.

“Rex.” You whimper.

“I’m here, mesh’la.” He assures you.

You guide his fingers down to your clit and he starts rubbing it perfectly, as always. Cody continues tonguing your hole, squeezing your thighs as he pushes them up toward you.

“So good for me, baby… Fucking drenched.” Cody praises you.

You moan, throwing your head back against his pillows that smell so deliciously like him that you're tempted to ask him if you can take it with you in the morning.

“Fuck… Cody.” You feel your orgasm approaching again.

“That’s it, baby. Let go.” He encourages you.

He replaces his tongue with two fingers, hitting that perfect spot deep inside you, causing you to writhe and shake underneath him. You feel all of the heat pool into your stomach and when Rex pulls his fingers away for Cody to spit and then start rubbing again, your release inside of you snaps. You cum moaning Cody’s name so loud that Rex has to put a hand over your mouth.

Cody allows you to come down, peppering the insides of your thighs with sweet kisses, smiling up at you.

“Now…” Cody sits up, helping you wrap your thighs around his waist. “My turn again.”

Cody lines his cock up with your entrance and sinks into you with one thrust. You both groan loudly. He grips your hips tightly as he starts thrusting into you.

You feel like you’re having an out of body experience, he’s so close to hitting that sweet spot inside of you. As if he understands, he pulls you up into his arms and starts thrusting again, helping guide you up and down on his cock. He holds your arms behind your back with one hand as he starts licking and biting at your breasts. You throw your head back in bliss, not even trying to hold in your moans. Who cares if the entire GAR knows what a little slut you are for your captain and commander?

You’re met with Rex’s lips against yours. Cody continues slamming up into you and you can’t help but whimper. Rex was right. Cody wasn’t as nice as he was. You loved it, though. You never wanted it to end. You wanted to stay in this exact moment forever.

When Rex pulls away to look into your eyes as you’re being fucked by his vod, his eyes darken and you see the way he enjoys watching you be ruined. You need your mouth on his cock right now. You give him needy eyes and he just understands you.

“She needs more.” Rex tells Cody.

“What are you thinking?” Cody doesn’t cease on the thrusts.

“She wants my cock too.” Rex smiles at you. “Don’t you, cyare?”

You nod to him. “Please.”

“Go stand at the end of the bed, Rex.” Cody commands him.

Rex gets off the bed and stands at the side, waiting for Cody to push you to the edge. Cody doesn’t let you turn over, though. He pushes you down so that you’re laying on your back and then pushes you toward the edge so that you’re hanging off slightly.

“Go on. Give it to her.” Cody demands.

That makes your pussy clench and Cody chuckles, noticing. Rex slides his cock into your mouth and you moan around him. You’ve never tried it from this angle before.

Rex starts thrusting deeply into your mouth, feeling it in your throat. He moans loudly, wrapping his hand around your throat, feeling the bulge his cock is causing.

Cody starts slamming into you at an unforgiving rate and you whimper and moan for him, around Rex.

“She fucking loves that.” Cody groans, gripping your hips tighter.

“Is that true, cyare? You love having my cock in your throat?” Rex teases you.

All you can manage is a hum around him and he huffs out a laugh.

“So good for us, baby.” Cody starts rubbing circles around your clit.

You immediately start shaking around the two men, feeling another orgasm about to hit you full force. Cody applies more pressure, picking his pace up on his thrusts and your whole galaxy crashes down around you, your vision going white, and your body pulsing. You can’t help the desperate whimpers that try to escape out of your throat around Rex’s cock.

Rex comes down your throat right then and you excitedly swallow every drop he has to offer. You loved when you got to swallow him. He collapses to the floor, kissing your face. He nuzzles his face against yours and you look up at Cody. That seems to be the snapping place for him. His hips stutter and he fills you up, fully. You can feel him leaking out of you and he hasn’t even pulled out yet.

“Sorry… it was a lot…” Cody whispers.

You warmly smile up at him, pulling him by his wrist to you so that you can kiss him again. He sighs softly into it, as if he craves your touch. You reach for Rex, turning to him so you can kiss him too.

“You want… both of us?” Cody asks, curiously.

You look at Rex and he nods. You look back up at Cody and nod. “Very much.”

Rex gets up and disappears for a moment, coming back with a wet towel so that he can help clean you up. You settle at the top in between the men once they clean themselves up. Cody pulls you into him so that you’re facing Rex, who’s smiling at you like you pieced the galaxy together yourself. He leans in to kiss you once more before closing his eyes, holding your hand. Cody sighs against your skin, kissing your bare neck and shoulders softly, wrapping an arm around your waist. You finally felt like the puzzle that you called your life was complete, Cody being that last missing puzzle piece.

TAGS: @livi-s @studioramekin @zoeykallus @brynhildrmimi @madameminor @dumfanting @rain-on-kamino @wolveria @misogirl828 @rexandechosandwich @corona-one

[transphilza]

I have no where else to talk about this bcs i'm too terrified to post abt the dsmp after the whole dream thing. I don't support him and want nothing to do with him but my love for the story surrounding wilbur and tommys characters is so immense it makes me really sad that i cant talk about them online anymore bcs everyone seems to be dropping the dsmp, even if i have to argue that it can be separated from the dude its named after. Lmanburg means the world to me, and c!wilbur means a lot to me for a lot of reasons. I guess im just very upset about the events that have ensued lately, i miss the dsmp

hi nonnie <3

i thought a bit about whether i wanted to respond to this or not but i have seen so many concerns just like yours that i feel the need to state outright: just because the dream smp bears his name does NOT mean it is all his, nor does it mean anything to do with the smp has to be “tainted” by his association with it.

a lot more under the cut

c!wilbur is one of my favorite characters of all time, he means a lot to me and just like you i find a lot of joy in the stories he told on the dream smp. the best part about all that? it was WILBUR who did that. WILBUR is the reason why c!wilbur was amazing, and TOMMY was the reason c!tommy was amazing, and so on for everyone else on the server. it feels like a disservice to all the hard work so many people put into their characters and their storylines to allow one guy to ruin all of that. WILBUR wrote those scripts, WILBUR wrote that character, WILBUR poured his heart and soul and energy into creating an amazing story for us, and NOTHING and NOBODY can change that. it was he who made his own story amazing (and this applies just the same to c!tommy and all the other people on the smp who worked so hard)

furthermore, and firesnap spoke beautifully about this already, i’m BEGGING you to listen to your OWN instincts about this entire thing. what do YOU think is right? what feels right to you? what makes sense to you? the people who are choosing to no longer engage with the dsmp whatsoever are entirely valid to feel however they feel which led them to make that decision, but you would be just as valid to come to a different conclusion. as long as you are thinking critically, you’re on the right track. there is no Right reaction to all this. you can refuse to watch anything to do with it from now on, you can just engage with past lore, you can watch the vods, you can watch live but leave when dream appears, or you can watch the entire thing live (and though i would not personally recommend doing so, my word is not god and my morals are not Your morals!!) you can do whatever feels appropriate to You.

life is not as simple as “someone i loved turned out to be someone i no longer want to associate with, therefore i will cut ties with them and everyone they knew or anyone they work with and i will no longer have any positive feelings about any impacts theyve had on my life or any of the things they or anyone they associate with have created.” this is an unfair expectation to put on yourself or anybody!

don’t punish yourself for feeling however you feel. you don’t need to feel guilty for still being attached to the dsmp — hell, i’m going to be candid and say that c!dream is one of my favorite villains ever, and while i really enjoyed watching and talking about his character, because of this situation i no longer feel comfortable publicly enthusing about that character. this doesn’t change that i really enjoyed the character, that i STILL think it was a great character, despite having difficult feelings toward its actor/creator. you are allowed to FEEL, FEELING is not endorsement, and as long as you think critically about how you engage in fandom, however you are doing so is probably just fine

understand that nothing about this is black and white, that you are allowed to have opinions and feelings that are different from your peers, and that if the idea of one man changing your perception of other people’s creative work simply by association feels wrong, then you don’t have to let it

much love ❤️

[findingjoynweirdstuff]

Dream SMP Recap (March 17/2021) - Ranboo’s Story

Everyone is building on the Dream SMP today. Phil works on his projects in the Arctic, Foolish continues construction on the massive mansion, Niki works on her underground city.

Ranboo takes some time to do something else: tell his entire story as it stands so far, in preparation for what’s to come.

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- Ponk meets Niki at the Community House. She notices his red eyes.

- Niki leads Ponk to her haven city for a tour. Ponk thinks it’s a pyramid scheme. Maybe a cult.

- Ponk asks if there’s a jail in this city.What happens if someone does something bad? Niki explains that they just get thrown out. She’s friends with some powerful people.

Ponk: “Look. With friends come conflict, Niki. Just remember that. Wilbur was Tommy’s friend, look what happened! ...So I’d be careful who you trust. But I may be coming back here soon, maybe to join you.”

- Ponk says his goodbyes and leaves the city. Definitely a cult. 

- Tubbo visits Michael and decides to plan out what rooms he wants for the mansion. He speaks with Foolish to discuss the layout.

- Tubbo and Foolish work on the mansion

- Hbomb logs in and chats with Niki as she works on the underground city.

- Phil works on the Syndicate room.

- Ranboo shows Phil the infested stone he collected

- Quackity whispers to Phil “Look Gorgious” and leaves

- Phil keeps working. Foolish calls him over to Snowchester.

- Foolish tells Phil the mansion is for Michael and Phil points out Michael is tiny.

- Foolish shows him the list of requests

- Phil gives Foolish “fool’s gold” (honey)

- Phil visits Foolish and puts on his canonical glasses (shaders)

- They go back to the Prime Path and put on creeper heads to become Sam.

- They briefly visit L’manhole and Phil tells Foolish he used to live there.

- They go scouting around Eret’s castle and then head back to the Arctic.

- Before Foolish can come into Phil and Techno’s territory, Phil asks Foolish how he feels about government. Foolish says he’s neither pro nor anti. He’s never been a part of a government, since all that ended before he joined the server.

- Foolish does his shift dance. Phil throws him some real gold.

- Foolish leaves and Phil continues working

- Phil does acid (shaders) in L’manburg

- He explores the bottom of the crater. Phil feels no regret about what happened.

People can’t be replaced, but things can. As someone who’s been around for a long time, who’s seen people pass over hundreds of years, people are so much more important than possessions as a result of that.

- He’s lived for so long he’s forgotten for how long, but at least hundreds of years.

- Phil’s known Techno since Techno was young.

- Foolish returns to the mansion. He speaks with Tubbo about the layout again.

- Foolish commits arson on James

- Niki accidentally dug into the Kinoko Kingdom library while working on her city. It will either be the spark of a beautiful friendship, or a war.

- Her Syndicate name is Nemesis

- After more work in the Nether, Phil goes to Niki’s underground city for a visit.

- Niki gives him a tour, and Phil drops off the quartz

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Ranboo’s Lore Recap: The Story So Far

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Ranboo logs in at Spawn. He went outside, punched some trees, got killed by Dream a couple times (non-canonically), got a tour from Niki.

The next day, he got a tour from the President of L’manburg, who asked if he was going to run for President. Ranboo decided to live in L’manburg. He shaped Ranboo’s beliefs at the beginning, that L’manburg was good. They went to the Nether and found Michael, and put him in a boat.

Then, they were approached by Tommy, who told them about his plan: to grief George’s house. As they walked over, Niki and Puffy (on their date) were there. Ranboo and Tommy asked for Niki’s armor and went over to George’s house to do it. They ran off after burning it down by accident.

Niki and Puffy knew it was them and asked, but Ranboo realized…he didn’t remember. 

Dream started building a wall around L’manburg, and they didn’t know why. He showed them George’s house. It got blamed on Tommy. 

During the trial, Tommy stood up for Ranboo and so Ranboo didn’t take the blame, as he had bad memory.

They decided to meet with Dream and created the Meeting Hall, and for the meeting, Ranboo became the minutes man of L’manburg.

There was a pig guy watching them during the meeting.

The meeting didn’t go well; Tommy used Spirit as leverage to get Dream to take down the walls, but then Dream stopped and told them he didn’t care about Spirit, only the discs.

There was another meeting set up. Ranboo realized writing stuff down to remember it was a good idea, so he created the first “Do Not Read” book. 

He watched from the ground as the cabinet met with Dream on the wall. Ranboo saw Tommy being taken away for some reason — he’d been exiled. Ranboo felt guilty.

Back in L’manburg, things were going great! Ranboo had a house now, pets…but the guilt remained. Ranboo visited Tommy in exile a couple times, and things seemed off, so Ranboo wrote letters to him to try and help.

One day, while writing in his book, starting an ice cream shop with Fundy…he was approached by this fellow named Quackity. Quackity told him about this wanted pig guy, Technoblade, the reason everything was gone — Techno was a traitor, and Quackity had plans to get Techno and bring him to justice. 

The first Butcher Army meeting was held. Ranboo was a bit confused, but decided to help, because betraying someone’s pretty bad. So they all went off to fight Technoblade. Quackity got a horse named Carl, and Techno surrendered, and though Ranboo thought there’d be a fair trial, there was just an execution. Techno miraculously survived, ran off, and Quackity was killed.

While this was happening, Phil — who had saved him from lava one time when he was trapped — was apparently helping Techno, the traitor. So L’manburg put him on house arrest, and he wasn’t happy about that. Ghostbur called Ranboo an “Aaron Burr” and went with Ranboo on a trip to then snow…to Techno’s place.

Ranboo still had Techno’s armor, Techno tried to kill him, then Ranboo gave all his armor back. Someone else was there was well — Tommy.

Ranboo wrote all of this down in his Memory Book and returned to L’manburg, told them that he had no idea where Techno or Tommy were…at which point Ranboo realized…he’d just betrayed the entire Butcher Army.

The next few days, Ranboo kept seeing Techno and Tommy around with a lot of dogs. He continued to write things down, being kind of on both sides. Ranboo decided he couldn’t choose and instead would help everyone. 

Things were going fine. L’manburg was planning a Festival to kill Dream, as Dream would finally respect the laws of L’manburg and attend with no armor. Ranboo made a trident game.

At some point, Ranboo created a fake memory book that got burnt by Skeppy around Christmas during Skeppy’s sister’s visit.

Before the Festival, Ranboo realized he’d lost his Memory Book. He found it in a chest…but that wasn’t where he’d put it. How did it get there?

Ranboo created a panic room out of obsidian, a place to reckon with his morals, a place to think. The water created white noise that helped him think. It was there that he decided to stop choosing sides, and start choosing people.

The day of the Festival, Ranboo secretly met with Techno and Tommy in Purpled’s Skull Base. Dream arrived and started building the wall again.

Dream led them all over to the Community House, and they all saw that it was completely destroyed. It was apparently Techno and Tommy, who shortly arrived. Tommy and Tubbo fought, Dream asked for Techno’s help to blow up L’manburg the next day. Then, Dream told them that Ranboo was a traitor. He gave Tubbo a little book — the first Memory Book.

Ranboo thought he had the Memory Book on him. How could it have been switched? He opened up the one he had, but…all that was left was a smile. And that smile symbolized his betrayal. This was the second Memory Book, the replacement.

At the announcement of Doomsday, everyone somewhat banded together. Ranboo gave a speech, that if they kept trying to save L’manburg, it would just keep causing problems. People were looking at Ranboo, the eye contact made him aggravated, he lashed out at his friends.

He went back to the Panic Room, started talking to himself, thinking about what he would do. Would he help or not? It was at that point that he began to hear something — something that was Ranboo…a voice. A voice that sounded like Dream. It told Ranboo the last thing he wanted to hear: that by trying to help everyone, he’d betrayed everyone. Ranboo didn’t believe him, thought he’d only given the armor to Techno. The voice left, and Ranboo decided the best thing he could do was help. Help the people who helped him: L’manburg.

  He was still missing something: the first Memory Book.

It was time for Doomsday. The dogs, the Withers, the explosions all started, and L’manburg went. The people who’d been for L’manburg suddenly switched. But out of all of this, Ranboo heard something. He heard Techno ask, “What’s this ‘Do Not Read’ book?”

Ranboo ran to Techno, who gave it to him and told him to run. Techno showed him mercy.

Ranboo talked with Fundy after, he’d hurt Fundy. Ranboo talked with Quackity, who seemed to forgive him, because he’d read Ranboo’s Memory Book. He’d been the one to have the book, and he read it.

Ranboo visited the Panic Room, not knowing what to do…

Someone came and asked if he was okay: Phil. Phil offered him a home with himself and Techno, and they got along.

He thought he was safe, and everything was good, and that’s when he heard a disc: Mellohi, from someplace very far away. It was from the Panic Room, so he went back. He took out the disc, and an old friend came back: the voice. This time, the Dream voice told him that he was more of a traitor than he thought. It told him that he’d been helping Dream this entire time, he just didn’t remember. It told him he blew up the Community House. But the voice wasn’t Dream, Ranboo figured it was just a voice trying to fill the gaps between his memories. It told Ranboo to mine a block, behind which were two pieces of TNT.

Ranboo kept chilling with Techno and Phil, build himself a place to live. It was at this time that Tommy and Tubbo were planning on trying to get their discs back.

For a while, Ranboo lived in solitude. For the first time in a while, he was happy. He decided he was done living in fear of the Dream voice, and went to confront it, to tell it that there’s no way he helped Dream. The Dream voice told him he had one of the discs. Ranboo thought there was no way, so he went back to his house and searched, and dug up a chest with the Cat disc inside.

Ranboo realized that something was going on. He realized he’d been sleepwalking, of sorts. 

Something happened: Tommy and Tubbo were going to fight Dream. Everyone thought they were probably going to die, and…what happened after that?

Dream was put in prison, Ranboo started to be able to pick up blocks, and Ranboo decided to call this state: Enderwalking.

Everything seemed fine, besides the giant Egg. The prison was open for visitation, and Ranboo had a good idea: what if he visited Dream? Everything went normally, except Dream told him exactly what he didn’t want to hear: that apparently, he and Dream had been talking in his Enderwalk, and Ranboo was one of Dream’s best friends. Dream handed Ranboo his own Memory Book. The entire chest was full of Memory Books. The prison started to crumble, Dream disappeared and then…Ranboo guessed the entire visit had just been the Dream voice but…worse. He decided to keep his head down for the time.

Ranboo needed to visit the prison again, but for real this time, to actually get closure. He went up to Sam, made his way to the lobby, and told Sam it was his first time visiting — which he thought it was. Sam thought he was joking around. Sam told him that he’d visited before…the Enderwalk. Sam showed Ranboo the books, and they were written in Enderman.

Sam told Ranboo he had a book on him — Ranboo now had a third Memory Book, but there was nothing in the books about any visit.

There must have been a fourth book.

Ranboo, to this day, still does not know where that fourth book is. This fourth book…it wasn’t a Memory Book. It was a book of the Enderwalk.

So for the time being, Ranboo tried to work against the Enderwalk, but nothing worked. So…he was just kind of living. His beacon disappeared, his tools kept getting to low durability randomly. He didn’t know why. He just decided to stop getting involved in things and just keep living.

Ranboo visited Snowchester, he did cool things with Techno, he was happy. 

Then, he got married for tax reasons and decided to build a hotel to rival Tommy’s with Tubbo.

Then, one day, after saving Michael, after everything, they received news: Tommy had died. And Sam had just let it happen.

Another day, in his house, Ranboo decided he should just relax. He saw Niki outside and wondered what she was doing there. Techno offered him a place in an anarchist organization called the Syndicate. Ranboo decided to join, he told them that Tommy died.

Then Tommy was alive. Somehow he was alive.

Ranboo was brought to a room with two shrines and a hallway with a place for everyone's treasured items. He started to remember, started to hear things. Dream had a revive book. Tommy and Tubbo didn't die because everyone went there and saved them, but Ranboo didn't remember this.

Ranboo realized that Dream had to be stopped before he brought back the villains, and...then he'll finally be happy. He has Michael to protect now.

He was hanging around with Tubbo when they were approached by Tommy, who had the same idea. Ranboo agreed. They began to build a watchtower, Ranboo spoke with Ghostbur, who didn't seem like he wanted to go.

And now? Ranboo is trying to figure out a way to kill Dream. But there's also a larger issue to figure out.

He figures that Dream gave him a set of instructions while he visited the prison in the Enderwalk, and Ranboo needs to find a way to stop the Enderwalk.

It hasn't happened in a while, right? Maybe he already has.

So now, Ranboo is figuring out the Enderwalk and protecting Michael at all costs, even if he might have to lose a little bit of life…

And that is the story so far.

[This story was told as c!Ranboo — not really, but if Ranboo could collect his entire story and tell it. So some things have been left out.

For example, Sapnap giving Ranboo the message…]

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