#i just. have a reallly hard time understanding idk

[dwtdog]

yeah considering the state of the dteam's reputations if anyone had serious shit to say it'd probably have happened by now, most likely the people with personal beefs saw the beating punz took and realized they'd get clowned to death if they took their petty squabbles public like that

right like if they come out with it after george and caiti's final statements it'll just be blatantly obvious they're just trying to take dteam down

[transbee]

having did and being online in any capacity is so fucking exhausting because you literally can't go anywhere without seeing the most heinous takes about your existence or validity it's like. can we be normal. can we please be normal and Chill for like two seconds.

[liquidjapanesetit]

Just me talking about avatar the way of the water and voice acting under the cut

Soooooo, recently i rewatched atwow in english for the first time and one thing i noticed was how the both versions give you a different perspective of the story's being told.

So, usually in brazilian voice acting the studios get VAs with the same age as the character and thats the case for atwow (thats a recent thing and is not the rule you still get some modern shows and movies with adults voicing children but with the past years that changed a lot)

my first experience with the movie was dubbed because i watched with my siblings so my first impression was an sort of coming of age very cliche and sweet for the sully kids because they actually sound like children

then i watched in english and that all changed

dont get me wrong, jack campion, britain dalton and jamie flatters did amazing job's and i would have to make an whole post just to talk about sigourney weaver because she is so *cheff kisss* but they dont sound like kids at all and i think this holds back the audience a little to engage with the story for what it is. Is reallly hard to understand spider when he looks like he just hit early 20s and idk maybe thats me but kiri sounding like a grow ass woman freak me out a little at first ascnaksk

im just rambling but if anyone read this you should give a look at the brazilian dub of the movie you'll get what i mean immediately

[gooboogy]

Homestuck!! And malevolent

Ooh! Okay Homestuck first

Favorite character: man this one's hard bc there's a bunch that are in the favorite tier. Probably Striders, Bro especially

Second favorite character: similar deal with a second favorite tier, Karkat and Meenah for sure

Least favorite character: Hussie lol

The character I'm most like: the problem is no one in Homestuck shuts the fuck up and I tend to be a quiet person lmao. Probably Dave or Dirk

Favorite pairing: Stridercest of many varieties are always in my heart, but Daverose and Davekat are up there too

Least favorite pairing: Probably Vrisrezi, never really got into it

Favorite moment: right off the top of my head I liked when the art style got experimental to the point of claymation. I still don't really understand what the hell happened there. I think it was the nonsense of putting all those guys into lil cal?

Rating out of 10: for me Homestuck is a 7/10. A LOT of stuff going on, interesting characters, world building, really good use of the mediums presented. But there was a lot of stupid bullshit that made no sense and was just. Bad. (Looking at you meteor massacre) overall a fun experience to read through though

And now Malevolent!

Favorite character: Kayne <333

Second favorite character: Arthur, John is extremely close though. I'm putting Arthur bc he's so so so guilty, a cannibal, and admitted to a room full of people and the police that he's killed at least 7 people <3

Least favorite character: idk none of them are Bad. Maybe King in Yellow just bc I don't really care for him as much as the others but still okay

The character I'm most like: Faroe lmao

Favorite pairing: Jarthur is just very solid, a classic

Least favorite pairing: Kiy/Arthur, not bc it's bad I just don't have much interest in it (but willing to be persuaded)

Favorite moment: anytime Kayne laughs <33333

Rating out of 10: so far 8/10. I honestly don't know anything about Eldritch lore and horror and I'm confused most of the time. But I reallly like John and Arthur's dynamic and how they are really doing their best to get along and be there for each other despite The Horrors. Also a big fan of the in universe explanation for it being a podcast medium

[party-of-1]

I recently reconnected with a friend or should I say acquaintance. We grew up together and was never super close but similarish circles. I hadn’t seen this friend in 2 years but last time I saw this person was at a party so it’s really been maybe 10ish years since we last really caught up. We can all em A.

A is at a good place in their life rn I can tell because they’re happy to share but almost in a boastful way. I can understand this because I know when I’ve been feeling my best I’ve made comments where when I got home I thought that maybe came off wrong. Anyway throughout the night A would make passive jabs at me and other people. When I said I wasn’t working at the moment to study for my next credential A automatically asked if I lost my job during the pandemic. I thought what? That’s years ago… I said nothing more. When I said I was moving out into the city A asked where and said oh that’s areas a lot cheaper. This irked me because what’s A insinuating but again I didn’t say anything. A then went on about how buying a home is the way smarter decision. A is taking over the mortgage from their dad and paying it off as theirs. Awesome I said but that’s just not in our best interest rn. In my head I’m thinking taking over a mortgage for a home alrdy bought & probably refinanced during Covid vs the interest rates rn to buy a home is so different but that’s still good for them go off. Whatever, but snarky comments left and right & at times it felt like A was putting people down. I think what really was the last straw for me was as we were leaving together A made a comment about our other friends and said they were losers because they work in construction. So what? This friend who works in construction happens to be a really hard worker with amazing work ethic and his family actually makes a lot from it even though he doesn’t seem like it.

Throughout the week I just kept thinking about my conversations with A. Replaying them over and over again. It bothered me but why. Ultimately I realized it’s because A hurt my ego. Maybe if I were doing better and happier with my life rn I wouldn’t be as hurt? Idk but I kept trying to put myself in As shoes. Maybe they didn’t mean it like that. Maybe it just came off wrong. I know I’ve said things that came out the wrong way before. Idk why I kept trying to empathize with A give them benefit of the doubt. I kept thinking I reallly don’t think they meant it that way I really don’t.

But throughout the week I kept thinking I SHOULDVE SAID THIS & THIS & THAT. But in the moment I just really didn’t care to correct A or give more info because seeing how much A was trying to 1up people put me off to it. Why do I have to try to prove myself to this person. But at the same time how long do I let someone disrespect me/others before speaking up.

Anyway my takeaway from this is to remain humble when I’m doing good in life. Not everyone needs to know everything. Watch how I word things that can come off wrong. & maybe stand up for my friends next time. I don’t have to do it for myself but I really regret not saying anything all those moments A put them down.

[roanofarcc]

Sorry this is so late but spring break just ended for me so I was a little bit busy soaking it up and finishing any last type of homework I had to do so. Now yesss with everyone being able to strategize the situation. Now that you said it, it’s also a huge part of their characters and growth. Like they are being pressured and have a time consuming and life or death situation; yet they’re all able to plan their move. While maybe the plan also involves another life or death situation and risking themselves: it also is a good plan and is based on their understanding of everything happening. This is another thing that separates their goals from the government. Like you said they’re able to strategize and come up with plans (which is kinda hilarious in a way how not everyone will be close with each other and yet are able to be on the same wavelength and piggyback off of each other’s ideas). It’s so different from the way the gov (from what we’ve seen) works. With brenner he looked like he had a few close people who was on the same page as him. Meaning that brenner was the one in charge of the operation and he had a few close (I guess you could say) right-hand men/women. But other than that everyone else in in the operation is lesser than him and he could sacrifice as many people as he wanted. Brenner didn’t care at all. Meanwhile, our gang here is a place where everyone’s contributions mean something and no one is lesser than each other. So because of that everyone is able to come up with plans and carry out those plans. I think season 2 is where you can really tell how well everyone actually works together. (Not saying that season 1 and 3 didn’t have that because they surely did. I just think season 2 is the strongest for some reason if that makes sense).

So I’m going out of order but yess witb the couples breaking up. Honestly the only couples that I truly care about are Lucas and max with maybe a hint of Joyce and hopper. I loved Joyce and bob but they were doomed from the start so I’m ducking pissed about that. Also I can see a poly thing happening between Joyce, bob, and hopper. Idk why but I’ve been sitting with this thought for a while. I don’t even remember how I thought of it or what made me like it but honestly I’m still digging it to this day. But bob died and that ruined my hopes and dreams sooo. Yeah a big part is about them growing up. Stranger things is about soo many topics/themes that sometimes it’s so hard to keep up. Because you have that infusion of a lot of media/things that the duffers tell us. I think it’s great that st does that and I think it’s what makes amazing. However, the actors/actresses are what also make this concept amazing. Like maybe if this was all jumbled on some script pages it could be read as annoying and in a way put people off. However, everyone does such an incredible job with this that it’s so hard not to love it or be put off by it. Which is one thing I am incredibly happy that the duffers do: they never shy away from telling us what show/movie/book inspired them and will have parallels in st to that work. Like the van throwing thing and how that was in ET. It’s never a guessing game and they’re so upfront about it, that’s it’s kinda refreshing in a way to see.

Okay yes with them ‘teaming’ up the gov. Like you said they reallly only had the threat of the gov hurting their families. I guess the deaths of bob, and Barb could be considered repercussions but also it kinda wasn’t. Like barb’s death was before they found out anything so it’s not like the gov actively killed her in order for the gang to keep quiet. Also her death was by the hands of the demogorgon sooo. And bob’s death was at the hand of the mindflayer and demodogs. Even though the gang is aware of the threats from the gov and know that they played a part in these deaths: it wasn’t necessarily a threat and more like these deaths accidentally happened. They were just victims of the upside down and because the gov was messing around with it; the government. The only death truly that was intentionally done by the gov was Benny and that was only because he wanted to help el out. The thing is: is that they are completely aware of what the gov will do. And yes another thing you said: it would be soo cool to see them ‘working��� together. Like we kinda got that in season 2 with the massacre of the lab part but it didn’t truly go into it. And I think it would be so cool to see because the gang and everyone else pays for the government’s sins. They are the ones who have to live with the trauma and yet they have to team up and try to act nice with them. Everyone would be so pissed but also so nervous and on edge. Like you said if it does happen most likely the gang will not be listened to at all. Which I think also leads into another thing: the gov would want to treat them like little babies and yet they’re the reason that the gang had to grow up so fast. They’re the reason that they are soldiers in the first place. And god it would be soo interesting to see that: they’re being treated as if they know nothing and yet the government is the whole reason they know this stuff. Because if it wasn’t for the gov messing around with this: they wouldn’t know a damn fucking thing. And it would be such this twist and like a knife in the gang’s back. Because while they know the gov doesn’t care about what happened to them: now they’re faced with the reality that gov doesn’t even give a shit that they ruined everyone’s lives. They feel no remorse, disgust, or anything. They’re just not attached to feeling anything over this and that would 100% make the gang feel like they want to die.

I fee like since they are so close and they're kids they have another advantage of like being able to believe in the unbelievable, not just because they've witnessed it obviously but their brains are just wired to work differently than adults. So like their strategizing is very different and they always are on the same wavelength as one another, which I love how connected they are all because it shows how strong their bond is and just how close they are friends :') but with that, like you said, they are so close that they refuse to risk each others lives, on purpose at least. where as Brenner doesn't care who lives or dies as long as he gets what he wants. and like a typical villain that's probably where is downfall will be and where the gang will succeed. they want to save the day/the world, sure. but they want to save each other above all else.

yeah as far as couples go I do really hope that Lucas and Max stay together, and I do hope that Hopper and Joyce end up together because they both deserve to be happy and live a sweet little life with their kids after everything. and all of these actors portray these relationships so well; it's easy to see the chemistry but like even above that they make it easy to see their connections to their families and like really drive home the importance of having people in your life that you'd do anything for. because I feel like so many of these characters have had period of their lives so isolated from that feeling, and now that they have it they'd do anything to keep that feeling and their friend/families/loved ones safe.

I also love the tie ins and references to other 80s films specifically. it's such a fun and like self-aware aspect of the show.

the more think about the whole government team up the more I want it to happen. like if Brenner has gone rouge with his experiments or something along those lines while messing with the upside down, so the government and the gang have to team up (probably via Dr. Owens bc he would be the direction connection between the two). they need the gang's knowledge of the upside down/lab, and they need the government's force/power/etc. so they're put in this position where they have to work together but it just doesn't work because they are children and the government doesn't really care about individual lives only the bigger picture. there's too much butting of heads. then you have the issue of El, right? if the government what's to stop Brenner, they'd have to stop everything and they wouldn't see El as a kid they'd see her a weapon first and foremost. they'd want to either capture her or kill her. and obviously the party, Hopper, everyone would lose their minds at the sheer idea of the touching El. Or, if the government only partnered with the gang for the Upside Down business and not the Lab and then the party ends up figuring out that it was the government allowed Brenner to continue his experiments after the Hawkins Lab had been such down, it would be like a stab in the back. there's just so many ways it could go down with betrayal and all that good stuff!

[redscharms]

Thats healing time! Honestly kpop is reallly hard to keep as a hobby or stress relief. But since i care so much about them, they help me. But can't ignore the stress tho

This is gonna sound crazy but they have a korean comeback on this 19th and an English one next month i.e December. They also have a movie coming up next month. All of them have some or the other solo projects going on whether its radio show or variety.. Hyungwon's web drama started airing this week as well. Wonho finished his promotions and offline concert. The concert was an emotional roller coaster. He's doing fine ... i guess.. but the concert really helped! Seeing fans in person, experiencing that after years. But only clapping was allowed lol but its still nice. His performances 🔥🔥🔥 He has universe variety shows coming up. In short they are BUSY and i cant draw the line between whether thats cool or scary

My monbebe irl friend too fell for Ateez xD I know theyre super good but idk i guess the tiring part of kpop prevents me from checking them out

First of all the “tiring part of k-pop” is so true! It’s all the frankly unnecessary drama caused by the big corporations and questionable mentality when it comes to fans-idols interactions that tire me out.

I will never understand how these corporations allow the general public to play such a big part in k-pop idols lives on stage and behind the scenes. As a foreigner this concept will never sit well with me and I won’t be able to understand that mentality. As much as I appreciate the culture I can’t turn a blind eye on its negative sides.

And because they make the lives of idols so public once you start getting invested in a new group you inevitably get invested in their lives too and it creates an emotional attachment.

I still can’t believe the impact Wonho’s forceful departure had on me. I barely knew them back then but seeing the most fragile at the time member being treated so inhumanely really pissed me off.

As for Areez, I like their style a lot. I stated doing those personality reading for fun again because my friend in few months became a big fan of this group and we usually do this little game of me trying to read their personalities and see how much I get correctly. But I don’t think I’m interested in getting fully invested with this group. I like their music, I want to support them monetarily, I don’t mind hearing here and there about them but not going any further than that.

It’s the same with Stray Kids. I saw a clip of them dancing and omg they’re so nice to look at. And I don’t mean that they are attractive (although they are) but how cheerful they are and how much they enjoy doing what they do. Their energy is amazing. Their smiles are so genuine it makes me like them just for that alone.

However getting sucked into the stan culture is exhausting. K-pop artists should be treated better and not be used as human sized teenage fantasy dolls.

MonstaX will do a movie!? What? 👁👄👁

Also I’ve recently seen Hyungwon’s photos and oh dear lord he’s gotten huge!!

[inactivenotinuseetc]

what are your fav yakuza games ranked??!

so i’ve only played 0-4 (and half of 5) and seen mooost of 7 (i don’t have it, but my friend has been playing it and streaming it to me), so i guess i don’t really have a rating on 5 or 6 but tl:dr: 0, k2/5 so far, and 4/k1/3 are kind of on the same level for me though 4 might be higher only because saejima ... but elaboration below because (: we live in my world (definite spoilers)

0 - my absolute favorite so far, and, like, as much fun as i have in the other games, nothing comes close. i went into it relatively, if not totally, blind and so that made it MUCH more enjoyable. i like the darker tone too and i am like... so biased towards everyone in this game i immediately love them more than anyone else (except nishitani. hate that bitch. whatever). two of my big favorites are from this game alone (kiryu and majima, and like yeah they’re in other games but their characterizations here... well... i’m in love. also hi the other one is saejima you didn’t ask but you shall receive). i’m really happy i played it before k1 because i think i kind of would’ve fucking hated nishiki and majima (also, hi, i really really love nishiki in this game and i was like, trying to look up a ref for him while playing and saw that he died and WELL. turns out that’s just k1).

it just hits so hard. all of it. it made me scared makoto was just going to not even make it to the end. tachibana’s death was so ): ))))::::. both the car scene and the end of shibusawa’s fight with nishiki and kiryu are stellar. i love majima’s absolute catharsis moment at the end up until the epilogue (also i just.. in general love cathartic moments for characters. sexy.). i went from being like wow oda is kind of fucking scum to wait this guy is kind of chill to oh my god what. it was just a really fun experience to not know what was going to happen or who was going to make it or not.

doing side content now, all the hostesses are my besties now. we’re all friends. i love love yuki and ai. also i’m like. so good at disco. not really but kind of. disco should be in more games.

k2 - okay so this is mainly so high because i find it so fucking pretty. i’m in love with the way it looks. i love being able to walk in places with no loading screen. sotenbori is so gorgeous and so is kamurocho. it’s so... <3

kiryu and sayama’s romance was like laughable and the fact that the end was that was ... so fucking funny to me. i don’t really care about sayama at all at all but the end with her and ryuji was sweet to me (and made me like him a bit since a lot of the time i just... don’t have opinions on characters). i really like daigo in this too. the majima saga was fun to me because i’m weak willed and well... i really love love makoto. 

5 - i haven’t finished it but i find it really really fun. every part has been super fun to me and i’m on haruka’s right now. i know a bit about it which is... unfortunate (um. like probably anything regarding majima. as in he definitely isn’t dead if he’s in the next two and also, like, stuff with park)... i have many many thoughts and emotions about saejima between this and 4. park was also growing on me a lot but then um well. it seems she died so um. well that happened. i’m excited to see where it goes! all of the jobs have been pretty fun (hunting has been my least favorite so far because it kind of felt tedious and i keep getting attacked by bears, i finished off taxi while in the story, and i like. have to stop myself from doing all of haruka’s stuff because i totally love it, it’s my favorite. honestly kind of scared of shinada’s because i um. ..  don’t know how good i’m going to be at it since i think it’s baseball). it’s just pretty good!

4 - i wasn’t super invested in it. i loved saejima’s part and he really quickly became my favorite but my god, some of the stuff regarding him was fucking stupid. the rubber bullets? kinda stupid. yasuko dying for like... no reason... kinda stupid (mainly because i just.. i want ONE happy sibling reunion after ryuji/sayama and tachibana/makoto). akiyama and hana are fun, tanimura was nice and i still don’t know what the hell happened to him but bye i guess since he just seems to have vanished off the face of the earth. i can’t really remember anything kiryu did and i think he was just kind of a weaker protag, he’s much better again in 5. um... basically though... saejima... i like seeing a more genuine majima too again.

3 - i guess i wasn’t super invested in this either. some of the stuff was cute (like kiryu dad moments) but i just... didn’t really care... at all... about anything going on... the kazama look alike thing was like, um, ok. couldn’t really care about kashiwagi dying because i’m like,,, girl i know you’re in 7 (also i really like him in 7 he’s funny). majima kiryu bestie moments. i like all the kids except the certain riona part was so fucking uncomfortable (also idk why kiryu is telling them they’re all families and saying he saw everyone at sunflower as siblings then trying to put riona and mitsuo together. also weird). kind of don’t understand the mine hype because like he looks and sounds nice but ladies.. he bulldozed a fucking orphanage. how more typically evil can you get than that. literally hates orphans. it’s so... and i just didn’t really super care? he was interesting at the end i’ll give him that but then he just suicides so like... bye. also richardson’s voice is really funny to me. 

k1 - so i played this immediately after 0 and well... having really liked nishiki and majima in 0 made this .. um . it was almost comedically similar with the same boat fight and the same car chase, but, just, lame. it was kinda eh. i didn’t like it. i kind of feel like nishiki could’ve been done way better. majima is just suddenly.,.. he’s um doing things alright. it was just a biiiiiiiiiiiiig let down compared to 0. makes me bitter.

also i realize i didn’t rank 7 at all, but, um, kinda don’t understand what’s going on, and i’m REALLLY not invested. kiryu’s existence makes me livid. so fucking stupid. saejima and majima’s fight was fun because i like saejima just swinging majima around that is a fun concept also brother Momence which i <33 love seeing them together same in 4 and the start of his part in 5. all the party members are fun for the most part except nanba got really annoying. i didn’t see some of ch 3/4 either so. i don’t really have anywhere i’d place it. also i haven’t seen the end because my friend is just playing k1 instead  SO ... forever in chapter 15 purgatory.

[blackwomenconfessions]

English isn’t my native tongue and I feel really lazy, so I’m going to make it quick. I am alone and lonely at the same time, I have no friends like I have messenger, snap, instagram, twitter, tumbler, even fucking tinder( lol to fill the emptiness inside of me with some men’s attention tbh, I don’t really care about none of these dudes and even on tinder, I may have a lot of dudes who seem into me, nobody is talking to me), I can’t make friends at my job because I just cannot trust these people. The closest person I am at my job is this white girl who’s like the boss favorites but she is kinda hypocrite and I don’t know I don’t really trust the girl. My family never calls me, like my parents call me like 2 times a month maybe, but my two other sisters ? It’s like I don’t exist to them. And oh let’s not talk about my aunts and my cousins who live in the same area as me, they don’t want to fuck with me, not even a bit. One of my aunt came to my job( i work in clothes store) and I was like so happy to see her and she just ignored me. In August, I had no more money left so I couldnt eat, and I asked my cousins and aunts to help me ( in christmas time, let’s call her aunt 1 told me that if i need food and help i can call her, that’s what i did and her son barely help me ) and like yeah i’m not even going to continue on this that is too disappointing for me lol. My family doesn’t financially and emotionally help me and that shit hurts. My sister is probably “ wealthier” than me ( we both live on our own, im 18 almost 19 btw and my sis is 22 i think) and i asked for one damn dollar one day( i wanted to see her reaction) and she said no. So that tells you a lot about my family.

Friends now. HA HA HA. i feel miserable, at my job no one wants to fuck with me idk why, everytime i talk to them at break they are doing shit on their cellphone. My friends from other cities, they never talk to me. There was this white bitch who came back in my life and like i really liked her and we were good friends but i’ve noticed that that she was always being dramatic and making the convo about her like even when i was like feeling down she was like “ okay why it is right now who tell me this??? You dont trust me???” like i need emotional support dumbass right now, not a fuckinng lesson. And she gives these super rainbow calinours advices that we all know that cant help, and since she have her boyfriend, she just stopped to talk and she told me she will never let me down and she is and im not even being dramatic about and like aaahhhh fuck off. My life is just shit. The two “ friends” that are the same area as me is this lightskin girl but she is like so toxic and disrespectful but at the same time, she is the only one who can chill me with me and stuff and she’s kinda cool and the other one is an asian who is cool but like she always want to go in a bar and get drunk, i dont like spending my money. When i am in bars with her, she is the one who get all of the attention so no.


The people around me suck, i am not the attractive kind of black girl, i am self centered and kinda of narcissic, and like i really need help. I am not in college, i took like few months to relax myself from college but i want to go back in winter if they accept me but im scared as fuck. I applied to an anglophone college and maybe y'all dont feel concerned about this because this blog is predominantly african american but as a franco canadian this is a big challenge for me. The college i go to is not only super anglophone but like most people there are fucking rich kids from the suburbs and i’m not. I live on my own, i pay on my shit, since im 16.

You know what scares me the most? Is to be alone but like forever. I will never find true love dont fucking tell that i will because that is a lie that im tired to believe in. Like yo, im not your typical black girl. Full 2017 trendy dressed, with beautiful loose curl and a random straight wave with makeup on point, and big curves, im not like that. I am not trying to brag here but i really do believe im different from most black girls and that is a good and bad thing. People expect me to be extravertie and funny but i just cannot be like that, not everyone understand my humor sense, anyway. And yeah, this is mean but i dont like to waste my time talking to unecessary people if there’s not something in it for me, right??my personality is horrible as well as my looks and i reallly dont think a men will find a once of beAuty in me. I forced myself into loneliness because i dont want to have hope and get disappointed. The last dude i like “ dated” is on fucking hard drugs and want to become a girl ( not because he’s trans tho because he wants to “ experience” and he’s tired of his masculinity) ohh good lord, i hate seeing these average boring lightskins or black or asian girls getting all the men and like people seem to easily like them. I make one fucking mistake at my job and everyone be hating me for this. Jesus christ, how other black girls deal with being … a black girl? Im 18, caribbean, franco canadian and black and i’ve always have problems because i am francophone and black and a girl. Can someone help me. I have my first appointement with a therapist soon ( like tomorrow, we are the october 9 today) and i hope this wont be useless and will lead me to something good. Most therapist i met, just let me down and disappeared.

To fill my lack of daily love and cuddles and attention, i decided to focus on money and grades. But i know that one day, when i’ll be really wealthy i’ll miss being with people. 
Im getting bad and bad and bad. I started AGAIN to cut and to bleach. This time im using lemon and baking soda instead of buying toxic shit, doesnt seem to work tho…


I need comfort please 
Help me

[survivesalem]

Rites of Passage

Liam:  We Never Met :(

Jessie: your name keeps trying to autocorrect to Chernobyl idk why I’m sure you were a lovely person!

Jay: You were so robbed in this game, I hope you have the chance to play another and have a full experience.

Liam:  We Never Met :(

Jessie:also didn’t get to know you ♥️ heard you self voted but like I kinda wish I got to meet everyone

Jay:  Pepe the frog

Liam: We Never met #CanadianQueen

Jessie:a fellow Canadian who I also never got the chance to Meet ! 

Jay: I didn't get the chance to meet you but I bet you're rad

Liam: Strategic King! Super intelligent! King of Kentucky & Dairy Queen

Jessie: One of the most down to earth people I know we will get to play again together sometime soon I hope 

Jay: When I saw you on the cast I was excited but also worried because I had to vote for you in Atomic and I was worried you'd be mad. But you deserved to do way better than you did in this game

Liam: We didn’t have the opportunity to meet but I heard you were a force to be reckoned with!

Jessie:  fellow Canadian robbed early due to going after my aly actually so sweet love your cosplay lipsync you did in atomic

Jay: One of these days we'll actually be able to play together lmao. I think you're wonderful and wholesome but you're also very strategic so when we had the chance we had to take it.

Liam:  #AlaceForever!!! Sweetest of hearts

Jessie:  we never met but maybe a future game ?

Jay:  Totally swap screwed, if you had made it to merge I'm sure you could have done some damage. It really feels like forever since we talked even though it's only been like 30 days.

Liam: Your personality was super eccentric and I STAN! We had a small period of time getting to talk but when we did you were funny asf!

Jessie:  such a chaotic individual you were the first one to call out the tribe throwing and I thought you were joking . Would of been fun to see you pop off on people again

Jay:  I don't think we have played together before this game so when I saw you were playing I REALLY wanted to work with you. Unfortunately there were other circumstances this season that prevented it, but you were still an icon of this game while you were here. ILY and thank you for all the love you've given me during my times in Atomic.

Liam: Future Broadway STAR! Always had a positive energy and just icon all round

Jessie :a fellow nerd who got cut when Dylan was suppose to go you were done dirty.

Jay:  Soooo we never really spoke and that's definitely my bad but I don't have much to say other than I hope you had a good time this season!

Liam: Probably the smartest person on the cast. Your brain is POWERFUL! I love our nerdy talks about ATLA! It was sad to see you quit tho :(

Jessie:  when you quit the game I told you I hope everything’s turn out okay because your a lovely human I meant that

Jay:  I also didn't talk much with you, and I don't know why you wanted to leave but I hope you're doing alright now

Liam: The man, the myth, the legend, the kiwi! It was great to have an ANZAC with me and you were the perfect shield MWAH!

Jessie:  we became friends after atomic and I’m glad  we did . You are such a interesting person and I loved our convos .

Jay: AHHH MAC I miss you so much, you and I were tight from the start and getting to meet and play with you was a treat. I'm very excited to see you again after the season.

Liam: Board Games king!! Let’s play monopoly one day pls! I feel the worst about voting you out :(

Jessie: you are a very smart individual and you knew what was going on. Your intellectual game convos your last few rounds reallly made me think about things .

Jay: You and I didn't talk too much and again definitely on me because you seemed wonderful from the times we did talk or during tribal.

Liam:  Gizmo & I had our ups and downs… Our relationship was rocky at points but overall I did like him as a person and his passion for this game and also your passion for teaching & science!

Jessie: a quiet soul but you managed to not get first merge boot which is impressive . I saw you and Cameron as a duo . Sorry we didn’t talk more 

Jay:  You were a strategic FORCE in this game, but unfortunately everyone knew it. You played hard and I really respect that. When we talked towards the end of your time in the game, I really regretted not talking more to you sooner. I know you weren't in the best place when you were last in the game and I hope you're doing better now.

Liam:  Robbed of Pripyat and now robbed of Salem!!! You were the biggest threat @ F6 so unfortunately I had to cut you! Stoner King! Happy Birthday for Sunday my dude!!!!

Jessie: oh Brien I could say lots of nice things about you high key . Your one of the people I was friends with the start of the season and you were gonna win ♥️ your such a sweet human and I’m glad we got to play together . 100 percent your loyalty by giving me that steal a vote I’ll never forget.

Jay:  Omg Brien you're the best ilysm, voting you out was the hardest vote for me to cast all season, but I hope you can understand why I had to :( but other than that, you were one of my top allies and talking to you on call so much really reinvigorated my love of playing these games. Hope you get player of the season~

Liam:  RAFFY!!! The Bottoms really snapped this season and Raffy was the ultimate power bottom! He played a really smart game from the bottom and I was really impressed by his game overall.

Jessie:  fellow witch, your energy was definitely contagious I loved the vibes you gave off . You weren’t afraid to pop off when need be. Even though your mad I wanna be friends after this game 💕

Jay:  Raffy I have SO much respect for you. You never once gave up this season, you had fight even when you were on the wrong side of the numbers. Getting to play this entire season with you, whether we were working together or not, you made it exciting. It was really great to see you again after a few years, a real throwback.

Liam: Giraffe Icon!! I wanted to be honest with you @ the final 4 tribal and say I voted for you! 

Jessie: you were always trying to make moves until you got voted out I applaud you for that . If we connected sooner you could of been sitting here I do believe 

Jay:  Welllll it's an understatement to say we weren't so close this season. I think it's impressive how far you made it while constantly being in the conversation to go, so you definitely did something right. I think in your next game if people give you more of a chance, and I'm definitely guilty of not giving you a chance sometimes and I'll own up to it, that you could do some real damage.

Jessie:  when we first met during tribe swap I didn’t think we’d get along I thought you seemed really quiet but eventually we talked and got over that hurdle . 

Liam: The purest of hearts thank you for your loyalty and your overall kindness <3 forever love you

Liam:  Where do I even start?! I loved our lil Nerdy Conversations from day 1 and just your overall attitude you're such a queen and you deserve the best from life ilysm <3

Jay: Jessie omg I know we had a slow start but I feel like our relationship really blossomed the longer we were here. I think you played this game hard and I hope the jury gives you the credit you deserve, keep on being your wonderful self 💜 

Jay:  I WISH we got to be on the same tribe premerge because I wish our relationship could have started sooner. It's wild that we didn't really talk too much before we aligned cause you and I worked together SO WELL! This game wouldn't have been the same without you, I can't believe it's your first game ever. You killed it.

Jessie:  day one ride or die . I’m forever greatful for our convos in this game I could probably write a really long paragraph and I might after this game. This is a real friendship that I got from this game and I’m excited to be nerdy friends after .

[adhdcharleybrewster]

I had a fix-it au I was gonna write once where agustus escapes with delta and all the little sisters and also delta makes it but he's in a coma for a while so I remember only bits and pieces But I remember elanor understood delta pretty well just by his like, posture or something simple, and agustus said it was nice to be able to see his face and that way they could at least communicate a little And anyway the plot was elanor and agustus spent a long time trying to figure out how to remove the suit without killing delta, ect, and it starts when he wakes up and sees elanor and he and elanor and agustus live in this little house on the beach and elanor learns that agustus calls delta Johnny and like he tells her stories about him from Before everything and delta starts to remember who he was before the big daddy program because of the stories and Agustus has this Big moment where he's asking for forgivness because he's one of the reasons Johnny ended up as delta and it took a long time to get a response cos Johnny has to write it all down cos he's mute and none of them have learned sign language well enough yet (that was another thing, them learning sign language) Anyway Johnny forgives him because if he hadn't been a big daddy he wouldn't have elanor and he probably would have died down in rapture and also Sinclair helped save him and bah blah turns out they had an almost sort of relationship before the big daddies program and Johnny starts to remember it and Sinclair has a lot of moments where he's upset because of the "things he had to do to survive rapture" blah ect And also elanor is really great and she and Sinclair got along really well during Johnny's coma because they both had a common goal which was bring back delta, and because they both cared about him so much, and blah, it just set a good foundation for them having a good father/daughter relationship and also they can both shot talk Sophia together sjdjshsksn But yeah it was just a thing, I hadn't worked out how Sinclair made it yet like, maybe he wasn't dead and he ended up being okay cos he was in his diving suit and he got to the surface the same way delta does in the ending Anyway all of the au was based off of the Good Ending but that was probably obvi And anyway, elanor (with a little instructional help from sinclair) is the one who figured out how to take his suit off and not damage him ect , she's a smart cookie And anyway, all the rescued little sisters either get returned to their parents if their parents were on the surface (like that one guy said in the logs how his daughter was kidnapped) and if they actually are orphans, Sinclair and elanor take reallly good care of them whole finding them good homes (all of that happening while delta is still in a coma) Anyway I just love the idea of sinclar, Johnny, and elanor living in a little house by the beach, being a happy family, with Sinclair telling them stories about when rapture was good/ life on the surface before rapture (since Johnny doesn't remember and elanor was born in rapture) and anyway they just all have a good time doing science and experiencing surface life and being a family And Delta/Johnny is just so fucking happy to have his daughter and Sinclair and not be alone and stuck in that suit where people can't even read his facial expressions or body language (there were a lot of jokes about the faces he made at Sinclair and eanoe I remember that from the small bit I wrote) Anyway eventually they all learn sign laungague and its all domestic bliss and elanor and johnny help each other through their ptsd, and Sinclair doesn't understand it the way they do/the way they understand each other but he's still supportive of them, mostlly, even if he still kind of is the same self serving business man he was before. For the most part, seeing what delta went through and spending time with elanor changed that And idk maybe elanor could show him all the memories she got from delta since like, Sinclair was a big daddy for a bit and elanor has her Powers and shit ... Either way Sinclair has changed a lot as a person over the course of the game's canon, and what happened before Johnny woke up Wow this post is long but I'm going to keep writing it cos this is for personal reference no one wants to hear my bioshock 2 Agustus Sinclair/ subject delta aka Johnny Topside fix it au and I just feel like talking about it Eleanor is growing up in a way her mother could be proud of if she hadn't been so intent on her child being the messiah If she was just happy with a smart, talented, extremely caring, imaginative, determined, and hard working daughter, like a good parent would be. Like Sinclair and Johnny are. They are very proud of her and she is very happy to be back with delta in a place where they're both safe and don't have to wear giant armoured diving suits and get constantly shot at just for having a bond that neither of them panned on in the first place. Sinclair, Delta/Johnny, and Elanor are all that's left of Rapture, (except perhaps gil alexander who might be able to survive and might be some kind of sea ceature I... Was never clear on exactly how that worked or what he was) and they have each other and they're picking up the pieces together and trying to get used to life above ground and Sinclair is trying to talk them through things BUT HE'S BEEN UNDERWATER A WHILE TOO, so things have changed. Johnny starts to remember things from above ground and helps him out some times. Eleanor is just in awe of everything about the surface and how different it is and like, making friends, seeing other people her age, that's also extremely new and good to her. Going to school and stuff. Sinclair makes a lot of money off a book about rapture, provably (now we're at the part where I'm making stuff up as I go) he and Johnny probably could have a little bit of fame going and Johnny doesn't want that, he's content just to live a peaceful life and have elanor back, but Sinclair is writing books and going on the radio and doing newspaper interviews cos Lord knows he loves a lil money and fame. Johnny just stays home reading, listening to the radio, cooking for elanor & augustus, doing monotonous things because he's had enough "excitement" for several life times. Anyway, Elanor is adjusting well, and when she has trouble, she's always got her father. Sinclair is doing well, and though he didn't get his private island and his bouquets made out of money, his press and living on the beach with Johnny is close enough. Johnny is just happy to be alive because he's almost died (or actually died) at least 5 times,, he's content just to keep the house up, go see a movie every once in a while, and spend his time learning whatever he can, because he's been gone a long time. Like physically and mentally, he hasn't been around in a while. Anyway this might be the longest post I've ever made, but.... Everyone's happy and alive, just a sweet, soft spoken, prodigy daughter, a mute hero father who has the routine of a retiree, and a boastful business man dad who actually didn't mind settling down a bit as much as he thought he would have.

[minblush]

don't be too sad, I just started stanning bts a few months ago cause someone on twitter kept posting jimin's fancams and I fell in love with him. some may leave, but others will always come. he's just that type of guy that draws you in

aw, that’s true! he has that power ;; thank you! 

Anonymous said:is it bad to have two biases?? bc i reallly love rapmon and jimin and if i try to rank them it’s really hard… but then i feel like i’m being unfaithful 😭

it’s not bad! loads of people double bias, some people are even ot7 biased, i started that way but then jimin crept up on me over time hh ;; you don’t have to rank anyone, as long as you love and support them that matters the most

Anonymous said:i actually dont know anyone dropping jimin..i must be following the right people. my heart hurts just at the thought. he deserves only the best.

i’m glad for you! because yeah it’s kind of aksdjad yeah… weird feeling to see it

Anonymous said:i’m a jungkook stan but i’m kinda becoming a jimin stan😩

lol well :x go ahead? kajsd to be honest i don’t really understand bias switching in general, i get it if you’re a newer fan and still haven’t figured out who you really like, haven’t got to know them that well so it takes some time to find out who you like the best or fall for someone genuinely, but once you’ve been a fan for a long time and had the same bias for a while… then i don’t understand how you can switch, whether it’s from jimin or someone else ;; but that is just how my mind works orz, i think it’d be hypocritical from me to say YAY BE A JIMIN STAN YES DROP KOOKIE when i was just being kinda sad about people dropping him so idk what to say :D just… follow your heart?

[neptuneisgay]

Tumblr is not a diary, but im gonna use it as one anyways. I jist finished watching Skam season 3 (aka the best season for obvious reasons) and whats really sticking out to me is the last line "life .. Is now." and like idk but this line os just hitting me real hard. The whole time i was watching this season (which is literally just today cause i watched it all in like 6 hours) i kept feeling this ... Longing ... Craving?? God neither of those are good words but basically i just reallly wanted a relationship like Isak and Evens, like maybe without all the drama but like all the scenes with them cuddling or just holding each other just being in each others presences just made me long for a relationship so much more than i already was. But its not just that, this show as a whole just makes me realize how much im not living. Lile sure im breathing and i wake up every day and most days i eat and drink and occasionally i leave the house but im not living. The lyric or quote i cant really remember which "i wanna live not just survive" as cheesing and cliche as it is, is really the perfect example of how i feel right now, im not living im just surviving and even then its only barely. I want to live so bad. I want to wake up and have places to go and people to see and god i want to live without constantly wanting to die. Life is so short and i know this, but im wasting it, im wasting my life away, as dramatic as that may sound its true. But i dont know how to change it. Im homeschooled, all of my friends are over the internet, the last time i had actual human contact or even just a conversation with someone who wasnt my mom or my brother was October. October. It was 5 months ago. And before that it was 3 months. Before that 7. Im so alone and its killing me. And no one fucking understands because all of my friends have other friends, people who they see everyday and talk to and hang out with whereas im lucky to have one person whos not my mom just text me at least once a day. Im so isolated i feel like im drifting away from reality. My depression has gotten so much worse as well as a new symptom of disassociating. My anxiety has calmed down only because im to depressed to even have panic attacks. Everything scares me. I signed up to do some volunteer work and its taking everything in me not to back out because just the thought of having to go out and do something ive never done before with tbe knowledge that i dont know what the fuck im doing and that ill be completely alone with no one i know, makes me want to jump off a cliff because im so scared of messing it up. My mom wants us to join a church, she wants me to join this youth group so i can make friends and i dont know how to explain to her that im terrified of going there, because no matter how much i love God and i dont believe he hates me or that im going to hell for being who i am, i know that most churches and christians dont think that way, and even tho this church seems very progressive i cant find a single thing about their views on homosexuality and im terrified to go there and make friends and have that constant fear of what would happen if they found out, would they hate me, shun me, tell me im going to hell? And i cant explain this to her because she doesnt get it and no matter how hard she tries shes never going to get that fear. That fear of going to a place where the likely hood of everyone there thinking that your an abomination, something disgusting, and wrong is astronomical. And just im so scared of everything. Im scared to go back to school, sometimes the fear of school and getting there and just failing everything is so bad i think maybe it would be better off if i just died before i can fail. Im so afraid that im not enough. For anything. Im not smart enough. Im not pretty enough. Im not kind enough. Im not strong enough. Or fast enough. Or good enough. Im just not enough. And no amount of studying. Or training. No amount of hard work and determination that adults are always shoving down our throats is going to make me enough. Im so scared of failure. And thats it. Thats my biggest fear. If you ask me in real life what my biggest fear is ill probably say needles, or the ocean, or alligators. But its not. Sure im afraid of those things. But my biggest fear, the thing that keeps my up at night, that keeps me from living and trying, is that no matter how much work i put into to something no matter how much time and effort i put into things, that i can give everything i can possibly have to give, that i can give everything in me there is no more work to be done no more effort to be put in, ive done everything i can do, but it still isnt enough. There is no try harder this is all the try i have. This is me at my full capacity, all of my capabilities are front and center, and its still not enough. Im just not enough. And i never will be. .. And then theres the flip side, the flip side that tells whilst not being enough i am also simultaneously too much. Im too loud. Too annoying. Too clingy. Too energetic . i talk too much, too fast. Im just too much for people to handle. And thats why everyone leaves. Im just too much and not enough all at the same time. I give people too much of all the things they dont want, and not enough of all the things they do. And how do i live knowing this? How do i put myself out there and life this life thats actually worth living when i dont even think i was made for life at all. .. So ya thats the end of the diary entry. If you read this far; im sorry it was so long, i talk too much.

[gillgmesh]

Ok webcomic! Now yeah it’s a reallly good idea! And I can understand how you’d want to start with that there, and honestly it’s not a bad idea! I’m upset I couldn’t think of it, but hey you did and that’s awesome!

Starting smaller like a comic would be more wise definitely. And I can see why you would want to “start smaller” because the easier it is, the sooner you can see content and who doesn’t want fanmade content? The sooner you see the results the more gratifying it will be. Or at least that’s one of the reasons why I would think you’d bring it up, but reasons aside.

I feel like it is possible, and actually more convenient. Not everyone can animate, but a lot of people can draw!

But the reason for my idea for the reboot was for it to be a fan collaboration, because if no one is going to give us the reboot, and we all really want it, why not us?

But I see a few problems arising. Since I think it should be fan made and a lot of people love this idea and want to contribute, I feel it might be hard to make everyone feel appreciated, but even with the webcomic I was feeling this problem might be relevant... but I was thinking you know we get writers, and you know we have a discord, so even just people who want to be in that can talk about ideas with everyone and the writers and the writers and the overseer (me, if you don’t mind me voulenteering myself since I offered the idea) would confirm when and where these stories would happen. Because I think it would be cool to actually have a plot, maybe some filler chapters/episodes but for the most part have a continuous story with the Beatles as they go through the years from the mop tops to sgt pepper and on. And maybe ya know even flashback episodes/chapters to talk about the young lads, Rory storm and the hurricanes, and Pete and Stu!

But I feel, and feel free to share your own thoughts, but I feel to make everyone happy we can have different artists draw a whole chapter so the art style wouldn’t be the same until all the artists went and we start back with the first artist and add anyone into the group if they came in later.

And have you ever seen the comic marmaduke? The one about the Great Dane? Well usually at the end of those panels they have a little poem that tells a story that can relate or be completely different to the comic strip just read. So to include more people I think it would be neat to have poems or maybe small stories we can add at the end?

And then since most webcomics are digital, and obviously not everyone has a neat ol’ expensive tablet, I think it would be cool - if people were up to it, to have our artist for the week draw their art on whatever they can, if it can already be digital, great! But if now maybe we could have the artists with tablets go over and basically copy it to make it digital so even though the art style will change some chapters we upload won’t be on paper and others all digital, to keep it a bit more consistent?

But if not- that’s totally fine!!

Oh and I know now people are in the heat of the moment and super excited for this to be a thing! But this will be like a part time job, like we have to come up with material which you know I feel we need a good plot first before we draw anything! But I want to make sure this doesn’t flop because people will say: yes yes yes I will love to work on this! I will!

But then 3 months later your burned out and realize that maybe it involves more work than you thought or it’s taking too long for anything “exciting” to happen.

But I’m just saying if everyone is down, and know the consequences... (and I understand you ma want to participate but not feel like it’s a second job to you, or maybe you do? Idk. But it’s okay if you don’t really want to make stuff and maybe just see behind the scenes in our discord) but I’m sure there are some people who might be dedicated enough to do this long term!

But I know people may get busy and we may not have regular scheduled updates, put if we get our plot going with our writers and even anyone else who suggested something, and we get people who want to draw and or apart of this... the plan is to at least maybe post a comic chapter/ page every month? Maybe two? So honestly no real rush? This should be a chill thing - he’ll even if it doesn’t pan out well right now, at the beginning, a few people who are in our discord (me included) are in uni and are studying to become writers or animators. Which is why I said it might take a few years, because ya know people may need to develop the skills and learn the stuff to make sure this is actually going to succeed. So I feel like again, even if it doesn’t get off the ground it think the idea - like right now we just have an idea- and it’s neat to see how just the idea of it gets so many people excited because it’s a fan made thin made out of love, and I think just being able to be apart of it may be nice to reflect on even if later nothing happens. Lol just trying to brighten the mood a bit, but being realistic about our goals and what’s to come is needed in being able to plan things out well. And hey, I’ve never done something like this! I talk big- this isn’t the first time! But my teacher did say- if you have a good following of people who like your work like maybe 1000+ and maybe some money from a kickstarter producers may not be able to turn down your offer because they see you have a big following and they see the money you racked in and they know they might lose money by not accepting what you want to do... but yeah lol I just woke up so if somethings I listed are a bit weird or don’t sound right or whatever imma blame it on my tired brain and the fact I didn’t proof read it

How about we start small like a Beatles web comic

we could! Like I could maybe start a new tumblr and add admins, and we could have people produce artwork for a running comic? But maybe since we want to make it a fan thing, or try to as best as we can? like we could take submissions? And have a discord where we discuss the main plot and stuff and maybe every week or month depending on the admins schedule we could produce a different art style for the comic which would be the same story plot but you know just different art so many people can be a part of it?

Sorry I’m tired (and I neeed to get some sleep SOON) but this needs to be discussed more but I read your ask and wanted to reply ASAP so you saw it, but yeah! I mean lol give me a few hours to sleep and I’ll reblog this post with ways to make it better and just comment your ideas for now if you want or message me again and I’ll respond better when I’ve got my sleep and a clearer mind lol

[survivor-guyana]

Episode 9 - "I have a bad idea......" - Tim

ummmmmmmmmmmmmm okay. so yk how i said I had a bad feeling? my bad feeling came TRUE klajdflskfajsdfa APPARENTLY when I thought everyone was on board for the Dani thing, all of my closest allies (Except for Tim, love that bitch) wanted to blindside SAMMY!!! in the process,,, blindsiding ME!!! so lets backtrack a lil,,, the dog emoji alliance (consisting of myself, Sammy, Tim, Chelsea and Devon) got exposed by Devon to Alyssa and Jess, and suddenly everyone knew about it lmao. AND Devon exposes the plan to get Alyssa and Jess out to alyssa and jess, and APPARENTLY there was a plan to get Maynor out??? no bueno for me. not at all. Alyssa/TJ/Maynor/Jess all explained why they did what they did,, and honestly? I totally get it lmao. as long as I'm included and I know about why they did it, I totally get it. I MEAN I may or may not have cried,,, but i'm at peace. ALSO,, i'm gonna try and give alyssa the benefit of the doubt and say she's on my side? it might not,,, seem smart sklafjdslfk BUT but but BUT,, I know I have the numbers and will keep having the numbers if Jones's Angels continue to thrive, yk? we just have to make sure that we're all on the same page from now on,,, then we'll be good!! Knowing that Jess and Alyssa were able to explain everything to me,,,, i really appreciate that yk? I appreciate when people are open with me, and I try to be as open as I can be too. so knowing that they did that made me feel a lot better about it :) but devon,,, oh devon. he's being super sketchy?? like he's trying to make it seem like he's the innocent one that DIDN'T flip on me when I know full well that he's the one who snitched on the alliance? like,, he doesn't know I know, but I can't get a good read on him, and that's p sketchy to me. I think I handled the exposure well though,,, I can't just blow up at people and cry, yk? which I didn't (except to alyssa but she understand why I cried skaldkjf) so yeah!! F11 baby!! guess i'll die!!

Samuel leaving was honestly amazing for my game. His goodbye message not so much. However, if people will strike I just hope it's not this round. I do see people trying to take me out over Alyssa. She's way more connected and people love her.

Devon put himself into such a hole right now and I'm kind of living for it? I think him being the one to make this move happen will put a giant target on his back or at least put some seeds of doubt into others about him. I don't think I'd use my idol on him though.

Jones not telling Alyssa or myself about knowing Sammy was coming for us is her official first strike. It has put her on "Jess's Watchlist" officially. I don't CARE if she was "waiting" to tell us or if it "Wasn't that serious" you fucking tell us. That just proved to me I can't trust Jones and she's acting in her own self interest.

The MOST concerning thing about this current Jones situation is.... how easy Alyssa is dismissing the current situation and all of its red flags. Am I missing something? Because someone who we thought we trusted and have an ALLIANCE WITH.... knew about a plot to get us out, didn't either of us tell us, and is now mad at us for leaving her out of a vote to get out Sammy? LIKE WHAT? This just fucking proved to me that those two are mega-close and I'll be dropped the INSTANT I become useless. As soon as I threw a little bit of Jones doubt Alyssa's way she wanted to call with Jones? LIKE GIRL. I WASN'T BORN YESTERDAY.  RED FLAGS EVERYWHERE. THESE HOES AIN'T LOYAL.

Tisk Tisk Tisk. I come back to the game and I see to my genuine surprise that Sammy has been eliminated from the game. I am genuinely shook. To my knowledge, Jones, Devon, Sammy, and I are the only 4 that voted for Dani. Someone who I have no idea is, voted for Chelsea as a security plan. The other 7 votes went to Sammy.

To my knowledge, Chelsea flipped on the group?? Which to me is super dumb and no benefit at all??? But then again it could be Devon who is lying to me.

UPDATE: DEVON IS LYING TO ME AND CHELSEA IS INNOCENT. 

Devon you lying mothertrucker lmaooo. I am so disappointed in Maynor and TJ especially for not informing me or Jones about the plan. Now we look like Boo Boo the fool. I am pissseddddd lmaoooo and I wasnt even that close to Sammy its just the principle behind it all. Aidan disappointed me too because I had told him that the vote was Dani ahead of time in order to gain some trust with him and this mothertrucker didn't even tell me what was going on.

What is even more funny to me is the pathetic damage control that these people call themselves doing. I am.... disgusted. But DEVON is literally lying to my face and I am on the verge of confronting himmmmmmmmm.

That was HUGE for my game! Sammy was playing a huge role, but I dealt with the circumstance poorly afterwards.

I am afraid that Tim, Jones, and Chelsea may lead a strike against me next round. If TJ and Maynor were smart, they would join that strike and knock me out.

My gameplay has been aggressive, but to the point where I may be losing jury votes. Hopefully I can lay low and keep the target off my back....who knows.

I want to win this immunity because everything is still up in the air. It may not be me leaving but at the same time it can be. Im just nervous from last tribal.

Well, this should be a fun round; not only for rebuilding but for strategizing the next move. How do I position myself correctly.

General groups that I have: Me, Alyssa, Jess, Devon, Jones, Maynor Me, Jones, Maynor, Tim Me, Dani, Aidan (with the help that came with last round)

So obviously my target should be Chelsea or JD because those connections are as easily there, but I feel as if there are divisions I need to make in other groups like Jones, Maynor, Alyssa (even though Maynor just told me he would go for Alyssa). So is this the round to cut those ties, or is there a different plan... I'm glad I'm not the center of attention right now, but damn.

I am so sad that i messed up this challenge, I have full faith that I would have been able to do it too lol all well, shit happens. I feel like my name will be tossed around cus it would be an easy one I think. We'll see if I decided to play my idol or not :) 

Also, im not sure if I brought it up here or not but I am playing the game different then i ever have before. Rather then  ... Caring about the game I am just doing what I want. Telling people what they want to know, or basically if they ask me a questions I am gonna tell them the answer to the best of my knowledge. Including, who said what :3

This round one of the angels will go home. I promise you that. I feel like it could be either me or Jones but Maynor and TJ are also on the table. Me and Jones had a talk about what we think we should do this round and we mentioned blindsiding Devon. All we need is 6 votes and we think we can get them. TJ, Maynor, Chelsea, JD, Jones, and myself would be that 6. All we have to do is try and get Chelsea and JD on board which is gonna be the hard part.

Jones wants to hold out on the Devon plan but I reallly dont want to. The time is NOW.

I am pushing for JD to go. She called me a threat in comps and i dont need that to be in anyone’s ear right now. I hope this works cuz need her gone.

JD or Chelsea?!?! Idek.

This round is so messy....JD is the biggest nut case in the history of Orgs....Let's pray for tonight

Damn, Maynor really got over 2000 on his counting score. He did THAT. I swore my 1200 was going to beat everyone but he killed it. Anyway, I'm pretty sure Devon, Alyssa, and Jess want me out because we have not talked in the alliance chat since Sunday, when Sammy got voted out. Alyssa has reached out, but Jess and Devon had not, which leads me to think that they want me out. I am incredibly disappointed if this ends up being true. Tim brought up voting Jess and at this point I am not against it. I would like to work with JD, Jones, Tim, Aidan, and TJ, even Maynor if possible. Even though we haven't talked much, none of them give me any vibes of being total sneaks. *shrugs* idk, im probably gonna go home tonight so oh well. This has not been the best game for me but since I just got voted out of my other game, I'm willing to be more focused and make alliances if I do happen to stay another round.

If I could describe this round in one word it'd be: MESS My name is being thrown out so in the words of Devon "Uhhhhhk". I'm not too sure if I'm in trouble. I don't even know. I want soooo many people out at this point.

Omg. All chaos broke loose. JD finally coming out to play huh. It looked like Chelsea was leaving this round but JD may have caused her own downfall. I hope because i want JD to go.

So listen up here's a lot of Tea on this messy round:

I have a bad idea... If the two inactive people came online I swear I could make something shake sjdhs but Chelsea and JD are in and out like they're doing the twin twist.

(Tim approaches JD about voting out Dani by using her vote along with Chelsea, Jones, TJ, Maynor, and Tim ofc to get her out. JD then decides to say "fuck all that lmaooo" and runs back to Dani.)

Like JD are you DUMB why would you run back to Dani and tell her I said her name when IM making an effort to play the game with YOU especially considering that you're on the chopping block???

So I came to JD about maybe voting out Dani instead of her and Chels and she went back and TOLD Dani. Now Dani thinks Im pushing her name. She then runs back and tells TJ and TJ tells the Angels and then the Angels do damage control ajdhdbs.

Chelsea made a group chat of Me, Jones, Aidan and TJ with JD IN ITTTTT to talk about the vote tonight after I've told her that the vote is JD. Sis..... She then REMOVES JD and creates a big ole mess lmaoooo. I expose Devon to her and warn her about where Aidan's loyalties lie. The angels DIE of laughter and insanity. JD aka Justgonna Digmyowngrave is hopefully going home and thats tea.

This vote is a fucking MESS and so many things happened and changed but I think Tim might be going home? or JD? But I don't want Tim to go home but I guess I have to learn how to be a good ally and not always get my way.

Honesty I'm just taking the game a few rounds at a time and really trying to situate myself comfortably.

okay,,,, JD is cracked right now. lemme see if I can list what she did in the past 4 hours? hmmmm okay: - she told Tim that she wanted to vote Jess - told Dani that Tim, TJ, and myself are voting for Dani - called Chelsea and TJ a final two - according to Dani she's still being shady skskksks

AND JUST SO YOU ALL KNOW,,, I haven't talked to JD this entire day??? so like??? IDK WHERE SHE'S GETTING THIS INFO,, BUT clearly there's at a printer or something bc these aren't fax. likee,,,,, you really can't just show up to the game 10 rounds late JUST BECAUSE your name's getting thrown out. like,,, play the game or don't sign up for it, ok? it's not fair for the other people who actually came to play ig. idk. she's really making this easier for everyone else tho,,,,

ALSO okay, so i love Chelsea. but she made an alliance and added me (without asking me btw) AND LIKE,,, ahhhhhhh!! she also added aidan,,,, like,,, I love aidan,,, but of all the people to add to that groupchat,,, she chooses aidan? isn't he like, not trusted?? idk??? um but yeah now i'm in a new alliance with chelsea and aidan so that's nice :) more coverage on my entire ass. TJ and Tim are also in the alliance so that's cool too, and Maynor knows it exists this time, which is gucci. so yay :) hopefully everything works out? who knows, time to cry!!

Please tell me something isn't going on... I'm shaking in my fucking boots... or socks at the current moment.

[anything-advice-blog]

Submission about Dance

Urgent!! There will be some sort of dance rehearsal for the school event. I feel rlly okay for performing. I kinda enjoy it. But the thing is, the school has this mean scary adviser for the dance rehearsal. We would practice on stage but he makes comments harshly. for the better, they say. But, I can't help backing out. Plus, i feel really pressured. Plus, my physical stature (small) isn't really fit for this. This is my 1st time participating in such an event. Idk, i might quit. Ty!

Urgent!! time senstive! resending this again bc tomorrow will be stage rehearsal. This is my first time joining a dance. And, im okay w/ it. The thing is, we have this mean adviser who keeps harshly commenting on the participants(e.g. dance better! u shouldnt have joined if ure gonna be like that! etc). Its reallly making me pressured and scared. Im not really confident in my physical stature (small and kinda chubby). Idk, i might quit. Ty again! I hope u guys received my last ask!

Time sensitive(i guess). Just wanted to let you guys to know that i already quit the dance club. Idk why you guys didnt answer my ask when i sent it twice for the last few days. If u guys didnt believe some parts, im guessing it was the stage. Our school has this small stage. A really small one. They set it up every school event. It really hurts to quit something I really like doing. Thank you anyway.

Time sensitive ** (i guess) Im the anon that quit the dance club. I marked the asks urgent. I really needed advice that time. I just feel really sad right now. I hope im not a bother. Ty.

4 part submission_____________________________________________

 Hello love!

I’m sorry that we didn’t get to this submission as soon as we should have. I hope you can understand and forgive us. We are trying our best to get everyone but we have a lot of submissions daily and are trying to evenly proportion our answers to those who are still waiting and those who have urgents. We also have to attend to our own lives so we hope that everyone that sends their asks will be patient with us. Once again, we’re so sorry we were only able to answer to you after your dilemma.

First of all, I’m really sorry again that you quit the dance group. It takes not only a lot of confidence to just appear to the rehearsals and even more so to get up on that stage. I already admire you a lot because I would never even consider it despite it being my hobby. So some serious kudos to you.

I know that it’s hard to wrap your head around, but constructive criticism is the best type criticism. How you dance and how much you dance is something for you to enjoy and pursue no matter how many people are against it. You learn a lot about yourself through the guidance of others. If you are able to re-wire your thinking about how and why someone says something about your dancing, it’ll become a gift to you and something you can use to your advantage to improve instead of just being a weapon. Being a previous dancer myself, I know that it can be a hit to your confidence when you hear that you aren’t as good as you had previously thought, but that should push you to prove them wrong and be even better than even you expected. Remember, the only person who can beat you is yourself. Compete with yourself instead of others. There will always be a better dance come a day, but one thing they can never have is your dedication, your uniqueness and your will to keep going.

Coaches are always harsh, but they reason they do push you is really very simple. Think about it this way, if they are harsh on you, it means you have potential and they approve of you. If they don’t even bother to say anything to you, either it means they think your good for your level or they don’t think you’re worth the insight at all. Criticism from a professional is not because they don’t like you, but more like they actually like you. You will be able to recognize this later on when you go back to dancing or anything you do in life. Professionals will always put you down for good reasons, like reminding you of the importance of staying humble, being able to regain confidence despite hard times, and always overcoming and facing obstacles head on.

Build up your confidence until you feel ready to perform. If you are too uncomfortable with the thought of going to a dedicated dance group that has a harsh instructor, you can take classes so you can become closer with the professional. By dancing alone at first (try YouTube choreos and learn them yourself at home or in an empty studio) and eventually with friends, and even strangers when you rebuild your confidence. Try to remember why you love dance and rediscover your passions. If you love dance, then you’ll be able to face this obstacle and have the courage to overcome it.

Don’t be too disappointed with this missed out chance. There are always opportunities in the dance community, and since dance is internationally known, there is no such thing as not “being good enough” in the dance world. If you can move, you can dance, so don’t ever think you’re not good enough or worth it. If you love it, you will find plenty of chances to incorporate dance into your life and you will be warmly welcomed. Look for local bulletin boards, online forums and recreational clubs to join. Try to be open to any type of dance style and expand your horizons.

No such thing as only one type of dancer. There are skinny dancers, curvy dancers, male dancers, female dancers, tall dancers and short dancers. There are dancers of all shapes and sizes. Just because you don’t think you fit in a specific genre, you’re very wrong. You don’t have to be slender to be a ballerina, and you don’t have to have a specific attitude to excel in contemporary. Dancers come in all different types of body figures and sizes and that includes you. Don’t think that just because there’s a regularity in different types of dance that you have to fit in it. Dance is an internationally known form of art and is very accepting of people. In fact, many famous choreographers end up being completely different from their original chosen specific genre of dance.

If you truly love dance, you don’t need a club to do what you love. I suggest trying to find a more recreational group or form a group of your own, if the stage isn’t your thing then just learn dance for fun. It important to be able to learn dance in a safe environment where you are comfortable, criticism is great but if you are judged all the time you’ll be too afraid to dance and that would be worse. You could find a cheap-ish dance class too perhaps, and get some friends to join. All I’m trying to say is find a way to keep dancing, no matter what happens.

Good luck!

~Ella  ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ