#i just wanted to share bc i’m kinda proud of myself

[obitohno]

tw: weight / tw: food ⤸

so, for majority of my life, i’ve always been underweight, n it’s been something that i’ve struggled with since early childhood. it doesn’t help that i’ve never had a great relationship with food, n even now, it’s a challenge for me to eat regular meals or maintain weight

in my late teens, i was stuck in a very toxic relationship, and it took a huge toll on me, both mentally n physically. stress had my weight plummeting so much so that i literally don’t know how i functioned, but luckily, that part of my life is now over, but it wasn’t until after i graduated from uni when i started to gain a little, mainly bc of the muscle that i put on during the time that i worked on a farm, n partly bc my old colleagues at said farm constantly pointed out about my weight/irregular eating habits. it made me feel self conscious—and quite frankly, shit—and even though i was trying so hard to fix how i ate, i started to hyper fixate onto how i looked in the mirror and stressing about what i saw bc i wanted to change how my colleagues viewed me

i admit, it’s not a great reason to try n gain weight, but, eventually, it started to work. but, bc of my metabolism, n bc i still don’t have a great relationship with food, i only gained so much. no matter how hard i try, i never enjoy looking in the mirror, especially without clothes, and although i haven’t been officially diagnosed, my family suspect that i may suffer from body dysmorphia. for a long time, i don’t like to look at any old photos of myself, n even now, looking back at them when i was much thinner, it fills me with a sense of dread bc although my bmi is only just on the edge of healthy now, anxiety fills me whenever i think of possibly dropping back down to how i was before. but! it also gives me motivation bc although i’m still working towards weighing more, i am currently much happier with how i am rn than i was a few years ago

this is getting a little long (apologies), but this post is a happy one. recently, i’ve made some improvements with my eating habits (i eat at least two meals a day now; with snacks in between, too!) n i’ve already begun to notice physical changes that i’m somewhat happy with—i’m even slowly starting to change the style of clothing that i buy after many years of avoiding doing so bc i always thought that they wouldn’t suit me bc i viewed my body as unattractive. i don’t know if i’ll ever look in the mirror n be a hundred percent happy with how i look, but at the age of twenty-six, i’m finally on a path that looks brighter

apologies if this little ramble is boring, i just wanted to celebrate the fact that i’m finally starting to learn how to be proud of myself ♡

[garagepaperback]

What are your favorite drarry fics?

oh. ooooooooooooh oh oh.

here are my staples:

draco, the magic dragon - libbydrew a fic i first read on livejournal (showing off the varnish of my casket here) that i thought about regularly for the almost two decades i fell out of fandom. canon to me tbh. libby invented my draco rubric: proud lil showboat even when everything around him has gone to rancid shit, sarcastic and aloof personality as a poor facade to distract from the big ol' gaping well of hurt.

Potter took a great breath, then let it out slowly – a low whistle between his teeth. "Malfoy, I had no idea. I thought—" "Why are you here?" Draco cut him off before the idiot embarrassed them both. Their shared past was water under the bridge – even if Draco had drowned in it.

nightingale - michi_the_killer

another back-in-my-day fav, even though i can only stand to read half of it. actually even thinking about it is making me stare off in a distance for upwards of three minutes. this one i would hand off wrapped in about a million miles of caution tape. + also a huge fan of michi's gory veela fic.

It was better than fighting, Harry thought, although sometimes he still wanted to rip into Malfoy, to hurt him. Other days, he thought, it was better than anything.

rookie moves - peu_a_peu

what can i say that hasn't already been said - peu is a MASTER. if you somehow know who i am but haven't read this, reassess your life choices through professional means but not until after you dive in.

“Feels kinda big,” Malfoy said, smirking. “For a guy your height.” “My height is average,” Harry said, although he was undeniably glaring upward at Malfoy’s face when they stood so close together. “And it is kinda big.”

stately homes of wiltshire - waspabi another one that crept into my heart and made a home. hard to choose between this and waspabi's other drarry fic, but there's something about the decrepit manor that just does it for me. a perfect harry and draco, perfect soft reaching towards each other.

Draco smiled and dragged Potter from the shop before he could charm any more elderly ladies with his unkept, take-care-of-me-I’m-confused-and-have-nice-shoulders aesthetic. Once outside in the drizzle, he realised he still had his hand around Potter’s forearm. He yanked his hand back immediately.

i wake up falling - warmfoothills

warmfoothills :,) just reading this moniker makes me vision go soft around the edges. their writing has made me out loud, quietly say "oh," multiple times. the prose is darling, this story is such a brief, aching glance. it was also really hard to pick just one (flashback, warm nights i also go in for).

“I love you,” he says, unable to stop himself. Draco blinks, a barely-there flinch, like Harry’s taken a swing at him. “I know,” he says, still oblivious to the reference, oblivious to the way his words scoop right into the meat of Harry’s stupid, hopeful heart. “It’s not enough, is it?” Draco shakes his head. Above, the stars watch unfeelingly on.

the pure and simple truth - lettered no one does dialogue with the mastery lettered does. my GOD. my god. i feel like this fic is drarry perfectly distilled.

“What’s he going to be?” Blaise raised a brow. “Pardon?” “You said he says Hermione should be Minister, and all those other things. What does Malfoy think he should be?” There was something much like pity in Blaise’s eyes. “He thinks he should never, ever be forgiven for the things he’s done.” Harry felt ill. “That’s not fair.” “When has Draco ever been fair?” “I meant―” Harry swallowed hard. “That’s not right.” Blaise looked more pitying still. “When has Draco ever been right?”

far from the tree - aideomai

the writer i avoid talking about the most bc once i start i cannot physically restrain myself from going on about their beauty forever. i sat for forty-five solid minutes frowning, trying to choose between this one and in the hand. and dwelling. okay anyway. i keep a doc of quotes from fics that resonate and it's 50% aideomai.

Draco wondered what Potter thought of this day, in the future the twins came from. If he had told Ginny about it. If he had forgotten it. He couldn’t forget it, could he? It felt burned into Draco’s body already, a final point that he had been moving toward for years without knowing.

i could go on but i think seven is a nice solid number tyvm for this ask!

[vechter]

2024 WRITING REVIEW

tagged by @malinaa my beloved <3 tagging: @acediscowlng @androxys @burins @danishsweethearts @daringyounggrayson @mintchocochipsposts and anyone else who hasn't been tagged yet!!!

number of stories posted to ao3: i kinda went crazy in the second half of the year... 4 fics although 3 are one-shots

word counted posted for last year: 46,426 of which LBIA is a whopping 40,444 oops

fandoms i wrote for: dc comics

pairings: dickroy... my brand and my heart <3

stories with the most kudos, bookmarks and comment threads: look back in anger sweep with 432 kudos, 277 bookmarks and 71 comment threads

work i’m most proud of (and why): gotta be look back in anger just bc it was a huge undertaking... for the 2 months before i posted the first chapter, i was furiously consumed by thoughts of it every free moment... so to finally get it out was just a catharsis... relief and a moment of pride

work i’m least proud of (and why): angie, they can't say we never tried because it was just a way for me to avoid writing the final chapter of LBIA lmao and i think it kinda shows in the writing... like it feels like a very surface level read? it's sweet but it's just a bit lacklustre

share or describe a favorite review you received: anything mintchocochips comments bc she's so good at pinpointing the metaphors and the moments that are integral to the scene... like it rlly feels like she really considers each line with love and that's so, so wonderful to hear <3 also this one just hit me rlly hard too:

(special shoutout to lys's long-winded threats on shaking it off to find a higher low... consider me endeared and scared bb)

a time when writing was really, really hard: can i say this whole year... like fr the first half of this year was a LOT so i had ideas but they never came to fruition. also november. fuck that month.

a scene or character you wrote that surprised you: listen... i write what i love so anytime you guys see dickroy in my fics, it should not be a surprise. but the dick & garth scene in chapter 1 of LBIA was very fun for me bc we don't often see garth get the same love as the other members of the fab five (i'm guilty of it myself sadly)... and i just thought it was such a missed opportunity for them to connect and mull over their respective deaths + subsequent resurrections. so, to write that was really interesting bc i wanted the tether of the titans to be a different thing for them post-death.

a favourite excerpt of your writing:

i've posted a part of this before but i looove this section from it builds and builds and builds:

It’s exhausting trying to keep track of Dick’s faith in him. The glow of moments Dick will trust him implicitly, the gut-punch when Nightwing is implacable, even to him. He doesn’t know how Dick does it— how he lives like that, the uncontrolled chaos of his mind that can either be a deadly laser or an explosive bomb on a dime. There’s no pattern to it at all; Roy thought he knew all there was to know about fickleness after Ollie but Dick’s always proving him wrong. (The first lesson Oliver Queen taught him: when you pull back the bowstring, you learn how to let go.)

how did you grow as a writer last year: bro i regressed... i used to be capable of writing happy endings... i don't think i remember how to do that anymore. but tbh, i did get a lot into the visual considerations and rhetoric of prose + how it contributes to overall mood while reading. it's why LBIA is so fragmented and so densely littered with indents/parentheses.

how do you hope to grow this year: i need to write less vignette based stuff and focus more on building a flow of events in the same chunk of text... i would like to be capable of moving from point A to point B on screen itself.

who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer, beta, cheerleader, etc.): @dandeeliion elle you were the first person to really hear about LBIA and you're one of the main reasons i got the courage to put the fic out so you have my unending love and appreciation. also, @ekleiipsis for listening to all my rants... i love you mar <3 also big shoutout to the gc for just generally gassing me up and loving my writing it means the world 🥺

anything from your real life show up in your writing last year: hahahah... what if you had been performing your whole life and you didn't know who you were when that performance was taken away... what then

any new wisdom you can share with other writers: a first draft is a first draft no matter how shitty you may think it is

any projects you’re looking to starting (or finishing) this year: pre-flashpoint long fic with a focus on dick, donna and roy + their respective traumas during dickbats era/blackest night/rise of arsenal. also really want to write a dick and cass case fic where their individual strengths and weaknesses are highlighted... only for the power of teamwork to save them ultimately <3

[luna-the-cretar]

Okay, I normally don’t post my art if I use a base as a starting point (which, I’ll be frank, I tend to do. Mostly just because I view them as dolls and they help me get character/outfit designs down), but yall. I had a fucking VISION. I started this yesterday at like 1 in the morning, didn’t stop until I finished the outline (at 3 in the morning), and I just finished it today (also at 1 in the morning…huh). And I am so fucking proud of everything in this and I just need to share oh my GOD

It’s he!!!! It’s human Kremy Lecroux!!!! And I know I don’t have his top hat, and that’s for a few reasons

1) the hair was already a learning experience on its own and I didn’t want to overcomplicate things and get myself frustrated because of it

2) the hairstyle I went with wouldn’t really allow for his hat

3) I can’t draw hats. Like at all. They always look like shit.

But anyway! I am so proud of the hair yall. I didn’t actually want this hairstyle, i actually wanted them to be down, but the hair just want hairing. The Timelapse doesn’t show the amount of times I hit the back arrow (which was a lot. Especially in the sketching phase. Especially for the hair), but it was A LOT. So I just kinda went with this. I think it fits Kremy though, probably moreso now than it would’ve before

Also, I used this watercolor brush when sketching out the hair, and then when it came to outlining, I traced over the individual brush strokes. I think it worked out beautifully. I then used that same brush later for the individual texturing when i started on the detail work.

Also, that tattoo on his neck was actually inspired by Kremy’s cane and Dr Facilier as a whole (I actually wanted to use the background of Dr Facilier’s shop during “Friends on the Other Side” as the background for this, but they all had Dr Facilier in the picture and I didn’t feel like copying all those details). That’s also the reason why I gave Kremy a shadow, instead of the thick white outline I have a tendency to do on my other works.

Also, notice the ring? I’m just gonna say that’s his wedding ring. Bc why not. It’s cute, it’s him, and the ruby in the middle is vaguely inspired by this fanart I saw on here that essentially had Kremy using his wedding ring as a makeshift lighter on the rare occasion his personal space heater of a husband isn’t there to light his cigarette for him. Just…ignore that it’s NOT on his left ring finger

(Btw, it’s also loosely based on my own personal headcanon—where essentially Kremy, Gideon, and the pixies all got these magical fae wedding rings that magically appeared on their fingers bc it was technically a fae pact so…)

And please ignore the hella inconsistent shading. I had intended on doing highlights as well, but I forgot. I also forgot his mustache. Ah well. I think you can still get the Kremy vibe without it lol.

Idk man I am just so fucking happy with this. I very rarely get so into a drawing that I just…draw. Like this. Most of my artworks lately are just simple shapes and flat colors.

[supermanddntdieforthis]

Allie!!

Hello darling, I hope you are having a lovely day so far. I just wanted to pop in and give you some love. It has been so awesome having you as a mutual and I’m so thankful to have you here with us! Seeing you post your art is such a highlight! I absolutely love your style and every time I see a new sketch or watercolor from you, I get so excited bc they are just so sweet. I know you’ve kinda been going thru it so I just wanted you to know that we love you here and this fandom wouldn’t be the same without my fellow Swiftie.

Please keep making art. Please keep writing fic. Even if you don’t share it with us, you really are very talented and you are creating and that’s something to be so very proud of.

Happy S2 Anniversary and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your weekend. Have a hug 🫶🏼

alskdjfalkj !!!

I'm sorry it's taken me so long to respond to this. I was kind of all over the place yesterday and didn't have the opportunity to properly respond. I also just kept coming back to look at it because 😭.

This really does mean a lot to me. I don't want to get into all of it, but I have been having a hard time lately feeling frustrated with myself. So it makes me so happy to know that someone enjoys what I put out there into the world.

I'm also really glad to have ended up here in this fandom full of people who are just as passionate as I am.

Happy s2 Anniversary to you as well! Here's to another year of geeking out, come what may 🥂

[tavania777]

i used to be addicted to sh (ig i still am lol) but i go through phases where for a while im fine and i barely have any urges and then sometimes i cant even get through a full day without breaking my streak. i dont have a great relationship with food and i dont think i have an eating disorder but i think im starting to get one. i checked my weight everyday for i think 2 weeks and i lost 10 pounds, i wasnt even conciously trying to lose weight it just happened (i dont eat breakfast or lunch and then when i come home i eat but not a ton) i think ive lost about 30 pounds in abt 6 months. i can feel myself sliding into shing more and i feel like im developing an ed. i feel like part of the ed is sh bc i like feeling hungry. when i was at my worst it was the only thing i could feel for the longest time so i think i kinda got addicted to it and i cant stop. i dont feel good unless im at least a little bit hungry, and i genuinely dont remember the last time i was full. but! good news! i had a panic attack the other day (i can dm u the details if u want) but i didnt sh to get it to stop!! i did fucking breathing exercises and they fuckign worked!

Im proud of you for using alternative methods instead of sh. Recovery is difficult but you do it great

I’m not sure to understand the purpose of your message but if you need help I can only recommend you to see a therapist because you already do what I could help you with

If you just want to share your story to someone and/or have someone to talk I always here of course

[blkkizzat]

Helppp I feel so dumb for not knowing that was already on your kicktober list from last year 😭🙏 not me being proud of myself for thinking I came up with a good, original idea 🥲

ANYWAYS... I know you still have a bunch of works to get to from last year but I honestly have a lot more ideas I think that are original or not that popular.

I don't really expect you to use these tho just because I'm pretty sure you have a bunch of ideas aswel!!!

Ok moving on. 🤩

Stalker!Toji

it would have drugging (not really a kink 🤷‍♀️),EXTRA dirty talk, and public sex 😍

He’s been watching you for a while now ever since you caught his eye while bartending at a local club, after following you home every night,needing to know more about you, one night he comes to the club, offering you a “friendly” drink on him, but who knows what he does with it once you turn your back 😈

that’s basically the “plot”, you can change it however u want 😭 I tried to keep it short so you could think of some ideas for it yourself 🫠

(I have 0 idea how to write) but i definitely think it would be noncon/dubcon but reader would enjoy/consent in the end, like you said in your general warnings on kinktober 23

Succubus!Sukuna

Okk I’m pretty sure this was already done before but I have my own twists 🤭

Virginity Loss (reader), Monsterfucking, Dumbification

Your friends were all talking about how they already lost their virginity and it made you feel left out that you couldn’t relate, so you do some research on the internet on how to easily lose your virginity and find out about Succubus’s, you do some deep digging and find out how to actually summon one! Obviously thinking it’s not gonna work, you follow the directions.

I didn’t know how to end it off so it’s a bit trashy… I actually really like this idea 😫

ClutLeader!Geto

I know he’s a cult leader in general but in a lot of peoples AUs he isn’t, plus i imagine this one a little darker, anyways it would have sex toys, bondage, edging.

You join a cult bc some reason you wanted to, you were a total newbie when you first joined in, you didn’t know where anything was or any of the rules, so you end up roaming the halls in the middle of the night, trying to create a map in your head, until clutleader!Geto finds you mindlessly wandering around and decided to take likening to you.

I could have totally continued going but…yknow 🤷‍♀️ you don’t have to use these at all there just plus you already used all these characters from last year, I just thought it would be fun sharing it, you can totally switch up the kinks to your liking if you do decide to use one of these, I just picked out ones that went well with the idea.

-🪼

Nooo 🪼 pookiess dont feel bad! That just means its an extra good idea if we both thought it up!

Stalker!Toji - so my YOU fic The Nursery is pretty much stalker Toji. But I can do more of a one shot kidnapping scenario as—omg wait you just gave me such a good idea and it has nothing to do with this but its still for toji dfjhadskhsdfkj. I can't spill the tea now until i work it out more but *kisses u*

Succubus!Sukuna - hehe is this genderbent sukuna? Succubus is the female demon that goes after males and Incubus is the male demon that goes after females. I can do something similar though like with a ouija board or something. its been done before so i would have to think of something unique for him. (also i might end up doing incubus!geto)

CultLeader!Geto - you know ive never done anything for him as a cult leader. Theres been so many delicious fics too, but I will think of something. Definitely could explore something here. Although I do write my readers kinda sassy so let me think on how this would go down. This also could just be bimbo reader. fhsdksjhdjkfshdbv.

But tysm for the ideas!! I do appreciate them. Even if I don't use them it can be nice just to get the prompts as that helps me with other fics too! 💓 🫶🏽

[borom1r]

hmmm 3, 5, 6, 11, 14, 20, 22, 26, 38, 40 for the fun questions meme <3

ooooooo ok these’ll b inchresting :3

3- 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

th lotr trilogy (duh), I Saw the TV Glow, The Last Unicorn :3

5- what made you start your blog?

THIS blog? suicide bait on my old blog :3

tumblr in general? a friend showed it to me in high school n i made one n my life was irreversibly changed lmfao

6- what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

ATTENTION. double edged sword. like ok i try not to let myself care abt attention and try to be rlly careful now abt who i interact with but at the same time it rlly is validating when things Get Attention. some of my favorite fics have little to no engagement :( n like yea its not healthy to create FOR engagement (fast track 2 burnout) but its also like very disheartening to put time n effort n passion into sth only for it to fizzle out in the void

but whatever. ill make weird art forever

11- what do you consider to be romance?

THIS IS SO FUNNY 2 GET bc soooo much recently has made me reevaluate like. how I perceive this lollllll

anyways short answer: idfk man!!!!!!! close friendships n romance r incredibly cloudy in my mind cuz ive got a bad case of dogbrain!!

long answer is i just don’t quantify that stuff the way neurotypical ppl do :3 ties into th autism + nonhumanity. i also think cis ppl being attracted to me is gross lol. ideal romance for me is bein held n tended to like a noble knight tends their sword. I feel love like a dog feels abt their human!!! dogbrained!!! romance is being a guard dog, being a Really Good Boy but just soooo disconnected from like. idk allosexual/neurotypical quantifiers of “romance” for me lol

+ i don’t use th label rlly but im def somewhere on th ace spectrum lol like physical intimacy is only rlly “safe” conceptually when its completely disconnected from th realm of possibility. like thirsting over celebrities or like th knight i have a crush on. + cis ppl desiring me is rlly like.. ew 😒 don’t look @ me anymore man

14- what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

UM. funnily enough im gonna do th Big Thing this summer :3 im going 2 th renaissance festival shirtless this year now tht im post op

s’gonna be scary showin off my scars but i rlly wanna go all out n celebrate finally havin top surgery. like im alive!! despite everything im alive n im happy ^_^ so cis people be damned, im gonna run around like a lil wolfguy for the first weekend!!!!!

20- favourite things about the night?

i love the moon :3

i also love how still n quiet things get

22- say 3 things about someone you love

ITS SO BRAVE!!!!!!!!! ITS LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST GUY I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO PROUD OF IT FOR HOW MUCH WORK IT DOES TO BETTER OUR COMMUNITY N PROUD OF IT FOR PURSUING TRANSITION + CANT WAIT TO SHARE MORE TRANS JOY W/ IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(hiiiiiii Ly hehe!!)

26- fave colour and why?

when i was a kid my favorite colors were neon yellow n neon pink :3 they still kinda are but now i usually stick to like lime green or bright red paired w black. forest green + dark blue r gr8 too

38- fave song at the moment?

DONT ASK ME TO PICK JUST ONE???????

here r some I’ve had on loop lately: Far Away (Roadside Ghost), Anthems for a Seventeen Year Old Girl (Broken Social Scene), I’m Already Gone (Baroness), Sex for Homework (MSI)

40- any bad habits?

oh yea i have dermatillomania lol

it doesn’t rlly bother me to talk abt bc i think “gross” stuff like that deserves to be less stigmatized— my shoulders n back are COVERRRRREED in little scars + scabs

[positivelypositive]

Hihihi ! First of all wanna say I love ur page sm ty for posting ur personal motivational messages!! They are always so comforting. <333

I just wanted to rant about my major, since I’m in college and that’s like my whole life right now haha.. I keep struggling with getting bad grades (not failing, but not amazing enough to go to a good graduate school in the future). Even though it’s very common since I’m a STEM major in a fairly tough school/major, it doesn’t stop me from feeling like a failure and that I’ll never get better.. I know that I need to just keep taking steps to improve myself and my grades, but it’s so especially hard when my friends in the class are really complacent, settling for the bad grades and not trying to be creative with ways to improve themselves. They choose to be lazy instead and deal with the consequences by dropping a class or a minor that isn’t easy (relatively). I have one other friend in my major who is as motivated as me to do really well, but she isn’t doing the same minor that I’m aiming to do — so we don’t have those classes in common to relate with and help/motivate each other on. So if I’m struggling in the classes for my minor, I know my friends won’t be much help because they’re probably struggling more than me ! Or if they aren’t, they just aren’t as helpful in explaining things because they don’t have an intuitive grasp on it if that makes sense, and would rather just give me their answers.

Anyways, it’s just an overall frustrating experience, but I saw that u were accepting rants hahaha and I kinda needed to get this off my chest. What would u do in my situation? Try to maybe make some new friends? It’s hard because I try to avoid people with big egos (bc they’re annoying 😭 but sometimes they end up being the smartest/most motivated…) but I could also try going out of my comfort zone to meet new ppl, but I also have social anxiety so it’s scary hahahha

Much love 💕

hey anon,

thank you for your kind words! i'm so glad you took up my offer to rant and shared freely. lastly, i'm sorry if i'm getting back to you late. i have been away from my account for a little while and only saw this today.

now, on to what you shared- i want to begin by telling you how proud i am of you. you want to do better even when those surrounding you are complacent. that takes serious motivation. you're awesome!

as for not having someone to motivate you to do even better- i'm in a field where none of my friends or family had any experience so i was a loner for most of my career. eventually, i found people to share with but i understand where you're coming from.

i think youtube used to and still helps me the most. try to look up efficient study methods for your specific subjects or course type. now, it can get overwhelming because youtubers have their on-camera, pretty lives in extreme order.

what you want to do is start small. maybe pick one idea that you see common amongst a few videos and try implementing that. see if it works and then keep adding slowly.

remember to not overdo it. perfection is overrated and for a sincere person as yourself, it can quickly turn demotivating.

take care of yourself anon. you sound like a very pleasant person. feel free to drop by for another rant, anytime. sending you warmth and positive vibes ✨

[godfckdamnit]

So today I was watching falling stars bc it’s a special night tonight - of the perseids!

And I started a fast at 1:30 pm and nearly broke it bc my family made hot chocolate after we came back and I almost forgot about the fast but fortunately I remembered and made myself some tea:))

I’m just proud of myself so wanted to share:)

It’s a small win but still. Kinda proud. One step closer

[dangerous-disposition]

F, K, and H if you haven't received those yet for the fic writers ask game!

Thank youuuuu for the ask!

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

I have answered this, but again I have so many fave dialogue scenes, so I'll answer this one as many times as I receive it ;p I'm choosing a scene from i can't tell where you end and where i start, with Our Boyfriend Tig:

“You’re right, it doesn’t, but just… those are the facts,” Steve said weakly, his lip trembling. “I love you and need you in my life, but just… not the same way as you, and I promise I hate myself so much for that.” “Steve, stop, I don’t want that,” Tig said and he shifted to sit at the edge of the bed and wrap his arms around Steve’s waist and pull him into a tight hug. “I don’t want you to beat yourself up over how you feel.” “Why are you comforting me right now?” Steve asked, his voice pathetically small as he wrapped his arms around Tig’s shoulders. “Because I’m hurt over something you can’t control, and you’re hurt because I was mean,” Tig said, his words a bit muffled against Steve’s chest. “I don’t want to lose you either.”

First of all, I'm just ridiculously pleased with the positive reception to Our Boyfriend Tig, and secondly just... I'm a huge slut for open and honest communication and I just... really like the way this entire conversation played out, but especially this part, especially the "I'm hurt over something you can't control, and you're hurt because I was mean" like idk how to explain it. I think about this dialogue a lot.

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

Okay so the angstiest idea I've ever come up with is actually something in my original fiction. So essentially there is this species of aliens that have like a tree that is their tree and such, and they're like magic trees (this is just a quick explanation there's a lot more to it than that i promise). Anyway, these trees are affected by the relationships the person has and such like, changing colours, have different leaves, growing thorns just stuff like that and there's a whole like... grieving/mourning ritual where, if a loved one or partner passes away, their remains are buried at the base of the mourner's tree and that tree will always have a piece of that person in them, and that person connected to that tree can... kinda commune with that loved one that passed, but it's largely just memories and dreams to fill in the gaps.

Anyway, this is relevant bc there's one character, who is one of these tree aliens, who has a human lover who gets uh.......... he gets got, and like they were so in love y'all, like they were soooooooo in love. Anyway, yeah so he gets got and the tree alien, who was reconnecting to their culture, performs this grieving/mourning ritual and kinda descends into this... rly gut-wrenching depression like it's just. ANYWAY THAT'S IT THAT'S MY ORIGINAL FICTION ANGST.

H: How would you describe your style?

I've already answered this one!

Send me more asks?

[roosterbruiser]

i just want to say thank you for feeling comfortable to share your abortion experience because 1. makes ppl aware that they could also be immune to the numbing and 2. because you are normalizing it! i’m so sorry you had to go through it though. also! broke up w my bf of 4 years a few months ago and it was harddd. we’d been together since i was in high school too but kinda the same thing where i was rlly thinking about my future w him and i just didn’t see it :( which was so weird bc i had before! but we were together for so long to a point where natural progression felt like moving in together and he was talking ab putting me on his credit line. i was just like :0, bc i feel like i still have so much to get to before i’m there but that doesn’t make sense in our relationship bc WE should be ready for that atp if i’m making sense? i just rlly had to get real w myself and came to the conclusion that i believe he is my soulmate and we will find each other again but i am just not the person for him rn. like when we were in high school i was in a totally diff stage in life and we worked rlly well at that time, but being in college now i felt like i was stuck in between coming into a new version of myself and still hanging onto the old one. to make this short i just recognized that i need to work on me before i can be there for someone else, and i hope this helps if yours trying to make any big decisions ab ur relationship :)

honestly, thank you so much for sending this ask!! I really want to work in normalizing talking about abortions because it HAPPENS!! it's happening!! someone you know has had an abortion--more likely, MANY people you know have had one!

and also just a quick little note about the numbing agent: it works on most people!! I am a weird medical anomaly this is allergic to surgical grade adhesive and numbing agent!! if you ever find yourself in a position where you do have to get an abortion, the likelihood that you will be immune to the numbing agent is very low!!

and honestly!! sounds like we are having very similar experiences!! maybe you'll know what I mean when I say that it's really scary being super in love with someone and just feeling it...fade? but not even because they did anything!! just because of life and the ebb and flows of humanhood!

I'm really proud of you for getting real with yourself and understanding your worth! that is truly amazing!! I believe you did the right thing!!

and thank you for the wisdom!! def need to get real with myself!!

[kithtaehyung]

RYEN!! HELLO HOW ARE YOU? 🥺

I’m so sorry for the inactivity lately but I promise I’ve been here and catching up still! 🥺 I’ve recently just got out of a 3 year toxic relationship and your writings have been such a huge source of comfort for me 🥹❤️ I’ve always been able to relate some of the characters personality, thinking, or relationships so I feel more connected and emotional while reading them 🥺🫶🏼 ( may have read forfeit a billion times and cried on all of them.. kinda scared for myself once ch 10 comes out.. shivers )

It’s always nice to be able to just click on your page and being able to just reread them !! please know I mean every word I said when your writings are masterpieces and filled with love! I not only see you as an author but a friend! the way you interact with your readers is so wholesome it feels like a small community where we’re all respectful of each other and that just makes me so soft to see!! 🥹❤️❤️ I grown comfortable sharing things and I can tell other readers feel the same! speaking of readers, I hope all of them are doing well and staying healthy! 🫶🏼❤️

also.. HSJSJ I MIGHT BE ABLE TO SEE YOONGI IN LA !! AHH!! LETS JUST HOPE I GET THE TICKETS FIRST 🥲 AND JIMIN SOLO? JSOSKS I’m incredibly overwhelmed right now but honestly? I’m buckling up and ready for whatever the future brings me!

I hope you’ve been able to rest and enjoy yourself!! make sure to drink water!! ❤️❤️

WITH LOVE,

🍷

WINE BABEEEE oh my goodness, i wanna hug you. very, very proud of you for recognizing that relationship was toxic and had the courage to leave. that takes incredible strength that no one really talks about, so i just wanted to say that i'm glad that you're out of it now❤️

i'm also happy you're able to just come over and either read these stories or just check out what's been happening! making things comfortable here is top priority despite all the filth in the library lmfao. but i digress: you've read forfeit that many times?? i seriously can't wait to get to it on my 3tan reread journey lsdkjf i feel like it's gonna hit different after reading everything before it rather than editing and rereading it to hell while working through it lolol and yeah. get ready for 3tan10 lol. it's not gonna be easy.

you are so incredible, you know that?? i'm sure all the readers here would also consider you a friend and someone cool to hang with! we're all about just having a good time as you know<3 i hope you're all staying safe and healthy, as well❤️

LETS GOOOOO IF UR IN LA WE CAN PROBABLY LINK UP! i plan on stopping by no matter what :D and staying for quite awhile, too. don't talk to me about face bc i'm already planning so many sets LMAO the behaviors are not as healthy as they should be!! but thank you for all the love and i will drink water :'))

[hearts4sammonroe]

EMETOPHOBIA TALK! ⚠️Details about sick

Hey😝😝

I wanted to share this bc I’m #proud

So I’ve got bad emetophobia but it’s mostly secondary emetophobia if that makes sense. I also have ocd so my mind just kinda tells me I’m gonna throw up, or see someone throw up all the damn time. Like I can handle myself throwing up (I’ve had anxiety since I was little and it just made me react by puking) but the second someone else gags, I’m bolting.

Okay here’s the detailed part, and if you can’t handle that pls scroll 🙏🙏. So around this time last year, when I still went to public school, we were taking those big tests you take before winter break. The kid beside me suddenly projectile vomited vegetable soup. It didn’t touch me but it was right by my feet. We couldn’t go anywhere because we were all testing but my poor English teacher screamed, threw the trash can towards him, and ran into the hall 😭. The guy that yacked went down to the nurse so he could be picked up, and we all had to move to one side of the room so the janitor could come in and we could finish our test. So since then I’ve been terrified of that damn vegetable soup.

And at my house, we have soup all the time in the winter and my mom said she was making vegetable soup tonight. I’ve had it a couple times in the past couple months, but I’ve only ate a few bites and then I panic too hard and can’t eat the rest. But I’m a #chef today and my mom said I can help make it so maybe I’ll feel better about it. So I acted like a chef and I made it.

AND I ACTUALLY ATE IT ALL 😝😝😝

I panicked a bit with the aftertaste, but my head wasn’t telling me that I was gonna throw up every 5 seconds. I ate it all, even though it took forever cause I ate it as slow as a sloth, but I ate it all 😝. Idk why I wanted to share this but hopefully if any of my mutuals struggle with this too it could help them.

#grayschefera

[lqfiles]

im a little late but i went out to distract myself and just had the time rn to read the new update!!

but not jaemin and renjun bonding over fruit cats 😭 i knew it. they’re gonna become like this 🤞🏼 and share custody over the cats

also the new account? 😭 FamilyGirl1739262? LMAOOO idk i love that even though it’s completely random

ALSO THE WAY haechan is just like “hey sweetheart” and y/n just completely dismisses it (bro ngl me too like pls call me that more heh) and idkkk i just love seeing that he notices the difference between her usual responses and her dry responses. he wants her so bad 🤭🤞🏼

the “im all ears baby” made me giggle

he’s so desperate for her attention i love it!!

also, thanks for the update. i didn’t know how i was gonna handle the update and commenting but, i know bella (who was always napping) would’ve wanted me to read it and she’s somewhere napping and watching me frfr

you’re so talented! and thank you again for your kind words 🤍

so proud of you FOR EVERYTHING

- 🫧

(it’s been 3 days since bella passed but, even tho it intensely hurts, im learning to cope with it little by little. it took a lot of sobs and tears and a lot of guilt to wash away, and even though i shed a bit of tears smelling her plushies (they smell like her stinky breath heh) im doing better. your update made me smile and im happy to have good memories here bc of her and you)

(idk what to give small updates about now, but i hope everyone has a good day! it’s been getting hot, too, so i hope everyone is doing well during this heat and staying hydrated 🤍)

(you’re so cool and very cool and so so cool <3)

i hope you’ve been feeling well lately and if you need anyone to talk to you, you know you can message me <3 i feel like i should tell you to take time off social media but if it really made you feel better than that would make me even happier, i’m sure bella would’ve loved the new updates too and probably bitten your finger, we will always love her and never forget her :(( i hope you’re mourning at your own pace, don’t think you have to get over it quick!!! take as long as you need to move on, you don’t even need to move on!! i just hope you’re in the right headspace and will feel better soon, people like that driver deserve the worst type of hell and don’t worry god has karma planned for him bae <3

its the start of the renmin e2bffs arc, idk if i’ve said this before but this smau is fr just all my fave dynamics in one writing e.g jaemark, renmin, renyang, renhyuck (kinda).. maybe i can even squeeze markmin into it :P

it might be random but i characterised y/n as a character that LOVES family guy (which is why she got peter griffin as her pfp for both accounts) i was also gonna make haechan like family guy, and they’re gonna bond over uit 😆 HIM NOTICING HWE SOEECH PATTERNS LIKE OOOUUU YOU LIKE HER SOOO BAD AND YOU WANT HER ATTENTION SOOOO BAD it’s becoming embarrassing @ haechan 🤦🏽‍♀️

you’re so lovely i love you and hope you’re having the best days coming up, i’ll always root for you ^^!!! stay hydrated too and eat well!!

[skinny-mini-xx]

Started school again today, first day was easy. I finished 3 assignments but they all were just introductions for the teacher but oh well🤷🏻‍♀️

I also had a driving lesson today so that was good, saw my bf driving to work while I doing my lesson 🤣 I thought it was funny. I had a few mess ups but I never hit anyone or did anything illegal so there’s a plus.

I did eat today, it was two chicken drumsticks and maybe a handful of rice. It just tasted so bad I couldn’t finish the rice. I ate some salami and had a rice cake too but it was stale and old so not very good. And I did eat some candy that I’m not proud of.

Honestly I think I eat bc I’m bored and I hate being bored. I just need something to occupy my time. I don’t wanna spend time with friends or at least my group. I like that they are the party type but honestly it kinda seems like they suck. I like them don’t get me wrong but it seems like I’m wanting to move forward with myself life and they are happy with being losers.

I know I sound like a asshole I’m not dismissing that I get it but one has two kids with two different dads and it seems like she’s on her way to the 3rd with another guy. One 3 of them still live at home and I do too but my one friend is in her 30s with no job. Like wtf!! Another lives in a basement and plays video games most of the time. And the last one refuses to dump her bf even tho he is clearly using her but nope we can’t voice our opinions about eachother without hurting another one’s feelings. I want friends who want something in life. Who want to take the next step like I am.

I’ll share my accomplishments with thr group and only one of them actually celebrates with me the rest of them just ignore it and then when we hang out they all gang up and make jokes that I’m late to the party with getting my license and schooling but they are the same. Most of them waiting to get their license and none of them have their highschool. I honestly think I’ve put groen them. Don’t get me wrong I still like going out with them and drink but they like it almost every weekend or randomly during the week.

I do wanna included but not like that. I want to go thrifting or to lunch or I wanna even just go grocery shopping with them. I think maybe i should get new friends. I just feel alone when I’m with them.