#i just want to look like a skinny scrawny 12 year old boy always forever u know?????

[calpicowater]

Week 30.2/52: July 25th - July 31st 2022 | KBBQ with Vicky! 🐵

Finally reunited with Vicky after postponing our meet-up 5 times for a month LOL it was the first time seeing each other since February! We went to eat dinner at Miss Korea BBQ and it was decently yum. We got the beef combo for two people and it was quite filling. A little bit salty but overall yum. It’s hard to cook and eat at the same time HAHAHHAA I’m never the parent friend who does the grilling but today I was (because I am technically Vicky’s replacement older brother - SORRY VINCENT) LMAO. The struggle is real. I still ate well! 

[simsstuffmarie]

100 Questions To Invade My Personal Life

I haven’t been tagged by anyone but I just thought I’d give it a go as I’m bored! Found this on @angelisims Simblr 😁

1. What's your middle name, and do you like it? My middle name is Marie and I do quite like it actually...it's pretty common lol

2. Are you artistic? Yeah I love doodling and just drawing random things occasionally

3. Have you had your first kiss? Duhhhhhh! I have a boyfriend!

4. What is your life goal? To be successful in my personal goals

5. Do you have any experiences with a famous person? I met Princess Diana when I was little, and a few years ago when I was doing my family tree I found out that my 5th cousin is Michael Douglas lol

6. Do you play any sports? Only if sleeping is classed as a sport?!?!

7. What's your worst fear? Being unhappy and unsuccessful....oh and spiders and heights

8. Who's your biggest inspiration? Myself....never aspire to be anybody else because it will never make you happy

9. Do you have any cool talents? Not really....I can fit my fist in my mouth! Does that count?

10. are you a morning person? HELL NO!!!

11. How do you feel about pet names? Me and Will have them....so I don’t really care. I never really call people by their proper names anyway 12. Do you like to read? Yes. But I rarely get time to sit down with a good book without being interrupted by someone 13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life. Grey's Anatomy - I’ve loved that show since episode one Band Of Brothers/ The Pacific - Just amazing True Blood - Yeassss Vampire Diaries - Ermmmmm....is their one member of that cast who isn’t hot?!

14. Do you care about your follower count?

I’m not overly obsessed with it, but it gives me a warm fuzzy feeling when I see I’ve got a new follower (love you all btw!!)

15. What's the best dream you've had?

I can’t really remember my dreams

16. Have you ever kissed someone of your same gender?

I always kiss my girlfriends....not in a passionate way, just a little peck! Especially when we’ve been out for the night haha

17. Do you have any pets?

Not personally, but I treat my boyfriends' dog like he is mine

18. Are you religious?

Nope

19. Are you a people person?

I get a bit anxious and stressed out/ short tempered if there is a lot of people around in large crowds

20. Are you considered popular?

I don't think so..............

21. What is one of your bad habits?

Self-doubt

22. What's something that makes you feel vulnerable

Being around people who “look better” and are in better physical shape than me

23. What would you name your children?

Girl - Raynor Boy - Finn

24. Who's your celebrity crush?

Tom Hardy, Kellan Lutz, Charlie Hunnam, Shemar Moore, Jamie Dornan, Henry Cavill, Tyson Beckford.....I could actually go on forever!! 

25. What's your best subject?

Human Biology, physiology and anatomy

26. Dogs or cats?

Both

27. Most-used social media besides Tumblr?

Facebook

28. Best friends name

Vikki, Hayley and Nikki

29. Who does your main family consist of?

Me, my mum and my older brother

30. Chocolate or sugar

Chocolate

31. Have you ever been on a date?

Several

32. Do you like rollercoasters?

Only if they have over-the-head supports....not just the lap bars

33. Can you swim?

Yes, but not very well

34. What would you do in the event of an apocalypse?

My boyfriend and me actually always have this discussion and have it all worked out! There's an old prison near where we live and an abandoned army base just up the hill - and the town centre is only 10min walk away! Perfect!

35. Have you struggled with any kind of mental disorder

Anxiety - increasing at the moment.

36. Are your parents together?

Nope - divorced when I was really little

37. What's your favourite colour?

Any warm colour

38. What country are you from/do you live in?

ENGLAND!!! 

39. Favourite singer?

P!NK, Adele, James Arthur

40. Do you see yourself being famous some day?

Nope

41. Do you like dresses?

Yeah, as long as it isn't too tight

42. Favourite song right now?

Thunder - Imagine Dragons Skin - Rag’n’Bone Man

43. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

No, if you’re old enough to do it, you should be mature enough to talk about it.

44. How old were you when you first got your period?

I was quite late starting. I was 15.

45. Have you ever shot a gun?

Yeah

46. Have you ever done yoga?

Yep

47. Are you a horror girl?

I don’t mind them, but they can all be quite similar

48. Are you good at giving advice?

Great at giving it. Crap at taking it!

49. Tell us a story about your childhood.

My dad used to be in the army and we lived several places. When we lived in Cyprus we used to visit the old ruins and amphitheatre and there were loads of lizards that used to hide in the cracks of the old buildings. I decided I wanted one of them to take home so I grabbed hold of its tail, but it was stuck and I kept pulling and pulling and eventually the tail actually came off of the lizard! Immediately I started crying.

One Christmas 9also when we lived in Cyprus actually) I wanted snow on the Christmas tree, but we didn't have fake snow, so I decided to use my mum's expensive face cream and smothered the tree in cream. 

The same Christmas, me and my brother woke up before my mum and dad and decided to “sneak” into the front room to open the presents. When we got to the front room door, the handle had been taken off the door and closed, so we decided to go around the back door, which was also locked. Then tried looking through the windows but they had put bin bags all over the windows and drawn the curtains. We went back in and decided to sit my the front room door until they woke up, but we fell asleep and they found us asleep by the door on the floor.

50. How are you doing today?

Yeah, I’m OK. Thanks for asking

51. Were you a cute kid?

Newborn - yea I think I was Toddler - I was cheeky Child - Scrawny Teen - awkward

52. Can you dance?

When I’ve had a drink

53. Is there anything you do that you can't remember ever not doing?

Breathing? Eating? Drinking?

54. Have you ever dyed your hair?

Yeah quite a few times actually, just not for a long long time now

55. What colour are your eyes?

They change depending on my mood - green/blue/hazel/grey

56. What's your favourite animal?

Hedgehogs - I want one

57. Have you ever made a huge fool of yourself?

All the time!!!

58. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

My mum and I are close (even though she annoys the hell out of me) But me and my dad not really because he left when I was young. We still always saw him, but it sometimes feels like I don't know him properly...IDK....

59. Do you have good friends?

The most amazing friends....

60. Are you close with anyone of the lgbtq+ group?

I know loads of different people...I don’t really label anyone. If you’re decent to me then I’m cool with you...

61. What's your favourite class?

I don’t really have class at university....

62. List all the tv shows you are watching.

Love Island, Big Brother, OITNB, Sons Of Anarchy, Prison Break, Benidorm, Grey’s Anatomy

63. Are you organised?

I try to be

64. What was the last movie you saw? Opinion?

Split....it was actually quite good

67. Which tv character do you relate to most?

I have no clue

68. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness?

Finances

69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?

Travelling the world

70. What would you change about your life if you knew you would never die?

Nothing....because every decision I made before has made me who I am now

71. What would you do differently if you knew that no one was judging you?

I don’t care if nobody judges me

72. If you could start over, what would you do differently?

Nothing

73. Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Definitely

74. When was the last time you travelled somewhere new?

Today

75. When you think of your home, what immediately comes to mind?

My bed

76. What have you done to pursue your dreams lately? How about today?

I got off my arse and got myself into university

77. What did you want to be when you were a kid?

Everything! Nurse, Air Hostess, Vet, Super Model, Ballerina, Solider, Farmer, Roman, Pop Star, Barbie, Nightclub Owner, Architect, Interior Designer..... 

78. If you dropped everything to pursue your dreams, what would you be risking?

Nothing...because real friends and family support you no matter what.

79.When did you not speak up, when you know you really should have?

That's really personal and I don’t wanna talk about it.....sorry.....

80. Describe the next five years of your life, and your plans, in a single sentence

Finish my degree, get a job, buy my own house, get married and have children

81. What would happen if you never wasted another minute of your life, what would that look like?

Skinny

82. If you could live forever, how would you spend eternity?

Seeing new things, trying new food, living!

83. How would you spend a billion dollars?

Same as above - maybe invest half of it and buy a new house and treats for my closest

84. If you could time travel, would you go to the past or the future?

Future - there is no point in trying to change the past as it got you to the place you are now....Live and Learn

85. What motivates you to succeed?

My family, friends and boyfriend

86. What dream that you’ve had has resonated with you the most?

It was an awful nightmare - about my brother and mum being murdered in front of me

87. Would you rather live in the city or the woods? Why?

The woods - because it's peaceful

88. Do you believe in life after death

Yes

89. What teacher inspired you the most? How did they?

They all thought I’d fail. Love proving people wrong. It makes me fight for everything

90. What’s your fondest childhood memory?

Living in Cyprus

91. If you could have dinner with any one person, living or dead, who would they be and why?

My Grandad - I miss the old grumps

92. What would you have to see to cry tears of joy?

Some of these really beautiful videos about people helping in the time of need, really romantic marriage proposals, and probably my first ultrasound scan if I was pregnant

93. What is the hardest lesson you had to learn in life?

You need to make a decision for yourself. Never be pressurised into it. It may be a tough one to start with and it will probably make you cry for years and years to come. But somewhere it was the right decision for you. 

94. What do you think happens after we die?

Life carries on....

95. What would you do if you could be invisible?

Sneak into loads of celebrities houses because I’m nosey

96. What's something you can't do no matter how hard you try?

Roll my tongue and roll my R’s

97. Would you want to choose the sex and appearance of your offspring?

Nope - they'd be perfect no matter what

98. How did your first crush develop?

Not very well lol

99. Is there a feeling you are trying to ignore? What is it?

Anxiousness and regret

100. Do you live or do you just exist?

At the moment I just exist - but I’m trying to live

I’d like to nominate people, but it is actually really long, and took me forever to do. So if you fancy doing it, just tag me because I’d love to read them all.

[killyourmockingbirds]

The Love of a Cat

Many people say that cats are evil, emotionless and incapable of love. As a cat lover I know this to be true. While they can be evil sometimes when they attack your feet at night, or when they decide that your leg makes a good scratching post. They definitely do have emotions, and they are most definitely capable of love.

I am the part owner of 3 cats and a dog currently. Each one holds a special place in my heart and I love them all dearly.

Mika, our little moggy was the runt of the litter, and when getting to pick a kitten, I chose her. She would be last to be chosen if she got chosen at all and I knew this. I was an outcast, and so was she. Now at 8 years old, she’s fiesty and grumpy, but truely one of the most loving cats, when she wants to be. When she doesn’t should could probably surgically remove an eyeball if she wanted.

Charlie is our baby. He’s fluffy and the stereotypical “Callander cat”. He’s the biggest softy in the world and you couldn’t ask for someone better to hold onto while you cry and ache. He’s not really a baby anymore at 6 years old, but he’ll always be our baby.

Robbie is our one and only dog. He’s what I like to call a “distinguished gentleman” and the best way to describe him is the handsomest boy in the world. He’s old and slowing down, but I know that in his heart, and in mine, he will always be that goofy puppy that got his head stuck behind the toilet, even at 13 years old.

Now comes someone slightly more complicated. Jessie started off as ours around 12 years ago, back when Robbie was newly ours after having belonged to my late uncle. We didn’t have Mika or Charlie, but instead the grumpy old man Tigger. Tigger was my baby sitter and put up with being dressed up and ridden like a horse. When we got Jessie he was about 13, and unfortunately due to lifelong depression had to be put down at the ripe old age of 15. Now if that doesn’t tell you that cats feel, I know what will.

Jessie came to Aberdeen as a stray. A gorgeous stray might I add. She appeared to have come from a well off family that looked after her. We don’t know what happened, and we never will. She could have been dumped or abandoned after she left the “kitten” stage. She appeared in the garden of a family friend. This skinny little fluff ball was taken into this woman’s home, but the cat that already lived there did not like her.

The poor little cat had to be moved again, this time to another friend of my mothers, whom she stayed with for a few weeks. Until the woman had to move into a flat that did not allow pets.

Already this cat had not had the best start in Aberdeen, being uprooted and passed on like a toy. My mother took her in, and we tried desperately to make it work. She was so small and weak, that we feared that our territorial beast of a cat would actually kill her if she made a wrong move. Robbie had no issue with her. He left her alone just as much as he left tigger alone.

The only logical this we could do was uproot her again, but this time she didn’t go far. She went into the home of my uncle, who owned the flat directly below ours. After her vet check ups and vaccines we discover that she was definitely a she, and that she was around two years old.

All it took was a few weeks of settling in, and this scrawny wee cat, blossomed into a healthy (if still scrawny) and loving cat. After all her passing around she had found a forever home in the single man that lived all alone and dreamed of finding the man of his dreams.

After getting Jessie (who was named after my great granny) he was happier. My uncle had suffered from depression for years, ever since his teens. This little cat brought something new into his life. She adored him even more than I did, and that was a pretty big feat. She would just stare up at him adoringly, even when he would yell at her for going to the toilet where she wasn’t meant to, or when he would trip over her. You couldn’t have asked for a better match made in heaven.

Jessie looked after him better than we ever could, because she could always be there, at his brightest moments and his darkest. He was an alcoholic. And a serious one at that when he relapsed but she stuck by that with patience and she loved him. She would lay on top of him when he passed out drunk, or curl in at his side when he needed comfort the most.

Even without official training, she was a therapy cat.

They were companions for 12 years until the summer of 2016. He had gone through and extremely rough patch, and even though we thought he would never leave us, or almost more importantly leave her behind. He did. He took his own life.

It devastated everyone when we found him, but nothing was more evident than Jessie’s devastation. She never used to make a sound. She would open and shut her mouth but a meow would never leave it. She only purred. The night she lost him, she yowled and meowed and whimpered louder than any one had ever heard. You could hear the heartbreak in her voice.

She refused to move in with us, and would stay in his home and wait for him. It wasn’t until November when we finally managed to get her up to stay for a night. She slept in the sink.

Now it’s March and she lives her, eats the food, has her own spots and even fights with the others. She has a new house but a familiar family. She’s not at home. And she’s not herself. She’s lost that adoring look in her eyes. Before you would take a step near her and she would start to purr louder than a motorbike gang.

Now it’s rare that she even purrs, never mind the noisy ‘keep-you-up-at-night’ purr. She’s not happy, but she’s content enough to stay. Just like us, she is grieving. She lost the love of her life and we know that she’ll probably never be the same again.

Even more than half a year later she sometimes stops outside his door, or her head pops up when the door downstairs gets shut like she’s waiting for him to come home to her.

You hear people talking about dogs that never leave their graveside, and that when they lose their owner they are never the same. Well Jessie is a cat, that loved her owner so much, that when he died, part of her went with him, her whole world collapsed around her. She will never know a love like it again in her whole life, but she will mend and gradually get better, just like we will.

Cats are not evil, cats have feelings, they care, and most of all, cats are capable of a love that’s just as deep as ours.