#i just want to get my thoughts out

[clfixationstation]

twt ems on their "shipping ea is inherently misogynistic" bs again

sorry I'm just going to rant about twt silliness for a bit

ah yes, preferring another Eren ship means that you're misogynistic & hate Mikasa, because if you ship ea it must be because you hate her

I understand this criticism because I know this specific flavor of misogyny is very common in fandoms. But truthfully, I haven't seen any of that sentiment from eas. I've seen it with many other mlm ships, but luckily not with ea. Most eas I've encountered either love Mikasa, or simply criticize some of the misogyny in her writing & wish she was written better because she's really cool as a concept.

for me at least, I haven't been able to fully get behind em (despite really trying) because I adore Mikasa. I think she deserves better than how Eren treats her for much of the show - it's sad to me to see such an incredible girl devoted to someone who refused to show her affection beyond jealousy & protective violence for most of the show (+ scarf ig). That is my own perspective based on my own experiences, and other people are allowed to have their own interpretations. on the other hand I want em because that's what Mika wants :(

also, hate to break it to you, but eas don't see Mikasa as competition - either because that's a stupid and misogynistic view, or because she's not even a contender in their view of ema. Many also enjoy aruani and love annie, some prefer jeankasa or mikannie or mikasasha, and some even like em too - they aren't throwing Mikasa under the bus because they hate her. They're simply focused on ea (as many ems are focused on em) or they're expressing critique and disappointment in the writing of Mikasa's character, which is not inherently misogynistic!

In my own posts, until they're ea specific, I tend to include Mikasa. Partially to counter that perception, but also because I like her and understand her role in the story and in ema

Irritation or resentment among eas tends to come from homophobia and heteronormativity in writing and in fandom, and/or from the very overwhelming em fandom. Again, not at Mikasa, who is a fictional character subject to the whims of a studio!

also, sometimes people are queer and just prefer queer ships, simple as that

but hey, at least it's free entertainment!

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Listen, ships are fun and all that, but I am always going to be a #1 Quackity fan first and foremost. I'm glad he called off the wedding. After taking care of Tallulah, Quackity realized he's not cut out for being a father, and when talking to Sophia, I think that further solidified his decision to cancel things because he realized he was doing the wedding for the wrong reasons.

Almost all of Quackity's characters, regardless of the universe, are very lonely people who seem to search for fulfillment through romantic relationships. Maybe this is his first step on the path of self-growth and self-development. I hope he's able to spend more time working on himself and developing his friendships on the Island.

[bomblethebee]

So I've been playing Starfield through game pass and it's....

Fine.

The game is fine. It's not 10/10, but neither is it bad. If you like Bethesda games, you'll like Starfield. I certainly like Bethesda games and I'm enjoying Starfield, but I can't help but think, "Wait, that's it?"

This game that has been getting 9s and 10s across everything with people singing its praises until they go hoarse and all I can think while playing it is, "Yeah, it's okay."

Nothing about it wows me because I've already seen it before. The gunplay is Fallout 4, the huge planets are No Man's Sky, the routing of power to various systems while controlling your ship is FTL: Faster Than Light, a lot of the rest of it feels like Outer Worlds. And it's all of that but without improving on anything. It's just all...there. It does so many things, but it doesn't do any of them particularly well. They're adequate.

And honestly that feels like a summation of the entire game: it's adequate. At least a bad game says something. A bad game invites a discussion about what it did badly and maybe even what it did well in contrast. Starfield doesn't say anything. It's just there.

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[july-19th-club]

seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

[anna-scribbles]

emma dupain cheng on the brain😽🎀

more:

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

[raynewolferune]

DC x DP Prompt: Bruce is bad at emoting but at least ghosts are empathic (too bad bat kids are not)

Was reading Twincognito on AO3 when I stumbled across this gem again:

~

" “Danny, Tim. I was just…checking in. Is everything alright?” Curse his inability to make meaningful conversation when it wasn’t a life or death situation.

They glanced at each other and shrugged.

Then Danny hauled himself out of the bed and walked over to Bruce.

Bruce tried not to let too much excitement show on his face. "

~

Now I really want to read a story where Bruce adopts Danny post Meta trafficking and is being his usual emotionally constipated self. His kids keep getting mad at him because he's treating their new meta brother who was trafficked poorly (generally being stilted in conversation with him, walking away hurriedly mid-conversation, avoiding Danny when he's feeling really awkward, etc). They think Bruce is discriminating against Danny for being a civilian, meta, dealer's pick, but really it's just Bruce being horribly socially awkward. Danny knows this because of ghost empathy and find the whole thing hilarious. The whole thing comes to a head with the Bat Kids staging an intervention in the Bat Cave.

[egophiliac]

WAIT when did he get FANGS

[kentopedia]

nanami kento, who hates dating, and didn’t do much of it in his early twenties. but now, he’s almost thirty, watching all the people he works with settle down, have kids, and he thinks he wants that. so he might as well try.

so satoru sets him up on a few dates — friends of friends, he calls them. and at the end of every one of the dinners, kento goes home empty, exhausted, because he knows what they want is not the same.

still; he thinks maybe he’s being a little self-destructive, maybe too picky, maybe he just got so used to being alone. with satoru’s insistence, he gives all the women another call, invites them over to his apartment.

the first time was a disaster… kento had barely set the dinner on the table before his cat had hissed at her, scratched her down the arm in a thin gash. and though it did draw blood, it was hardly enough to warrant that reaction.

he didn’t even try to stop her as she picked up her bag and left, huffing like she’d been morally offend. kento, though, could only smile to himself in amusement.

because maybe kento was a poor judge of character, a man who was secretly hoping nothing would pan out — but his cat could certainly tell the good from the bad.

it became a little game to him, after that. seeing if anyone could win his pet over, and if they could, perhaps they were the one. his darling animal was a fickle thing anyway. a bit too defensive, quick to bite anything threatening after years on the streets.

naturally, no one came back twice.

he was close to giving up, accepting his solitude because he was tired of empty conversations over dinner. but then, he ventured out over the weekend to a new coffee shop, during hours he normally didn’t spend out of his home, and met you.

though you only talked for a moment, kento felt like maybe he’d known you in a past life. a part of him thought maybe it was strange, the way he kept coming back to talk to you, catching you at the end of your shift to see if you wanted to grab a coffee sometime.

by the second date, kento started to think you could turn out to be his best friend.

by the third date, kento wondered if soulmates were real.

on the fourth date, almost two months later, an appropriate time to get to know someone when you were as reserved as kento, he invited you over for dinner. it was, perhaps, the final confirmation he needed to let himself be with you.

he let you through the door, smiling softly as you told him about the book you were reading, and hung his coat on the rack. a moment later, you stopped, distracted, hands covering your mouth in a gasp.

“kento! she’s the cutest cat i’ve ever seen, you didn’t even show me pictures!” you exclaim, and, a few feet away, crouched down. “look at her pretty eyes…”

“careful,” kento said, “she’s not very—“

but the cat approached your outstretched hand, sniffed once, before letting you scratch her under her chin, purring loud enough for kento to hear across the room.

“shes such a sweetheart, you told me she was mean!” you smiled, making a cooing noise as you threaded your fingers through her fur. “kento’s a liar, isn’t he… you’re so precious.”

a few moments later, she snapped her jaw at you in a biting motion, and you only laughed, withdrawing your hand. “alright, i get it, i won’t bother you anymore.”

though she still brushed against your legs, just as she did kento’s, and seemed to communicate some sort of message to him.

“do you want any help cooking?” you ask, tucking your hair behind your ears. “i’m a disaster in the kitchen, but—“

“sure,” kento said, his chest tightening as he blinked back at you, only in his apartment for minutes and already looking as at home there. he wondered if it was possible to fall in love so quickly. “but only if you want to.”

[arealtrashact]

'The cage is open. You can walk out anytime you want. Why are you still in there?'

[artkaninchenbau]

People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again

[hinamie]

i'm exactly as normal about him as I thought I'd be

[beif0ngs]

everyone on tumblr @Buggy the 🤡 right now 

[identitty-dickruption]

one of the worst things in the world is that feeling unloveable can (and will) make you act in ways that reinforces itself. I feel unloveable so I don’t respond to messages so people reach out less so I feel unloveable. one of the hardest things in the world is fighting back the brain demons long enough to break the cycle

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me