#i just think i could do it anyway. maybe with a sunflower lanyard if necessary

[lemonine]

i turn into the most unpleasant person at the airport apparently 😥 theyre just very overwhelming places and i often end up on the verge of tears

my mom said this means im clearly not ready yet to travel on my own but i feel like a lot of the things that make me crabby is the fact that i was traveling with my parents. i had noise cancelling headphones on the whole time to try to mitigate some of the input but my mom kept trying to talk to me anyway, which meant taking off the headphones. and my dad is in charge of where we go, but he walks pretty fast and my mom has trouble walking, so i had to help her while also trying not to lose him in the crowd... it got a lot easier once we managed to borrow a wheelchair for her but man.

i just kept thinking about how much easier itd be for me if i was alone so i could go at my own pace and keep my headphones on the entire time