#i just rent her apartment while she lives in her bf's apartment

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for putting my roommate’s dirty dishes in her bathroom?

I (20F) have four roommates, Alice (21F), Alice’s bf Jake (26M), Penny (19F) and Hannah (20F).

Penny, Hannah and I share a bathroom, while Alice and Jake share one. There is one kitchen and we do not have a dishwasher. Jake also doesn’t actually live with us he sorta just moved in with Alice. Penny was originally with Alice in terms of the bathrooms but started getting grossed out by Jake’s bathroom habits because he kept pissing on the seat, so Hannah and I let her use ours.

Alice never does the dishes. But she cooks a lot. She’ll pile dishes in to the point where it feels like we’re playing jenga trying to remove any of them to free the faucet. Hannah and Penny outright refused to do any of Alice’s dishes from the getgo, and mostly do their own… when the sink is clear. Jake refuses to do any dishes because he “doesn’t actually live here” (we’re very well aware of that, Jake. He doesn’t pay rent he’s Alice’s “long term guest”) Because of Alice’s dishes in the sink, Hannah and Penny leave theirs on the counter and block up space until the faucet is free and they can wash theirs.

Anyways, for a while I started doing the top layer of Alice’s dishes to free up space so I could wash my own, but I quickly got irritated because Alice would leave them for weeks at a time and not do anything and I was tired of cleaning her dishes for her before I did my own.

I talked to Hannah and Penny and we decided to give Alice an ultimatum, either do your dishes or we will throw them away. Over the course of the year we had to have multiple talks with Alice about doing the dishes that never ended up going anywhere because Alice would fail to follow through on any promise to do them.

Alice was upset about this and said we weren’t being fair because she has to “cook for 2 people” so I raised the point that then Jake should do the dishes because she’s cooking and he does jack shit. She got upset and said we were always trying to do a “us vs them” between me Penny and Hannah vs Alice and Jake. That wasn’t the intention but both of them are being crappy roommates so it seemed that way.

I told Alice then fine, if she left her dishes in the sink for more than 3 days, I’d find somewhere else for them. She said yeah sure whatever. I waited 4 days and then put her dishes in her and Jake’s bathroom. Filled the sink with them and then put the others in the bathtub.

Alice and Jake got pissed off about this because now they “couldn’t wash their hands or shower”. I mean, I couldn’t wash my dishes with their dirty ones in the way, so it seemed like a fair trade to me. The shower and sink would be free if they cleaned the dishes out of them.

Hannah and Penny disagree with what I did but they’re staying out of it because they don’t want Alice to be mad at them. I don’t care I just want to be able to wash my dishes without worrying if there’s weird mold and mildew growing on the plates that have sat there for weeks. We did get cockroaches at one point but Alice claims it was because Penny likes to leave the screen door open to get fresh air, while the rest of us are pretty sure it’s because she kept leaving food in the sink.

Jake tried to shower in our restroom but I told him no, he’s not allowed. He can go back to his own apartment to shower, or clean the dishes in Alice’s bathroom so he went home but not after calling me a “crazy psycho bitch”. Alice got really upset about this because I “chased Jake out” and is still refusing to do her dishes, it’s been 3 days as of writing this. I’m pretty sure at some point she’s used our bathroom to wash her hands but I know she hasn’t showered since then.

Penny offered to do Alice’s dishes if Alice paid her $5 per plate but Alice refused. She dropped it down to $2 per plate and Alice still refused. She has been exclusively ordering takeout the last few days because all her plates are dirty and we won’t let her use ours.

[winchesterdreamgirl88]

Famous In Love

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader

Warnings: So much freaking fluff!! Bf/n= Best friends name

Summary: This takes place in an AU where Jensen isn't with Danneel and is just a normal actor in Hollywood, and Y/n hears about an open casting call for a movie and goes to read for the part meets Jensen and things go from there:)

Word count:1.7k

A/n: I loved this show when it first came out so I figured I would try writing a story based on the pilot of this show. The pilot for this show gets all the credit!

"Come on Y/n this would be so fun to try. You never take any risks why not try this one." Bf/n was saying as you were walking down the street passing a billboard for an open call audition for some movie.

"No Bf/n you know that's just a publicity stunt. They're never gonna take some ordinary person like me. Besides I'm not pretty enough or good enough to ever be in a movie." You said as you stopped to think about how unlucky your life has been.

First your parents kicked you out at the age of 16 and you lived in your car while you worked a full time and part time job to afford rent. Then when you finally got settled in your new apartment it flooded and you had lost everything. You were 21 now and life was not looking to get any better. Luckily you had met Bf/n at work and she let you move in with her and you guys became inseparable.

"Please just do this one thing for me and if it turns out to be a disaster I'll do your laundry for a whole month. We'll go buy new clothes and go in there and nail this audition."

"Okay I guess we can give it a shot." You said finally giving in and letting her drag you to stores to pick out outfits.

Two days later you and Bf/n were sitting in a casting room waiting to audition. You were nervous but you didn't have high hopes. Expect disappointment and you'll never be disappointed. It was your friends turn to go audition and you wished her good luck as she disappeared down the hall. After about 10 minutes she came back with a smile on her face.

"So how'd it go?" You said interested to know what was gonna happen.

"It went alright, I definitely don't think I'll get the part but there was the most handsome man in the room watching me audition. I swear I forgot every single line because he was just so distracting."

Bf/n has always been super boy crazy so you didn't think anything of her mentioning another random guy she found cute. After about 10 minutes your name was called and you start to walk down the hall towards the audition room. Expect disappointment and you won't be disappointed you kept saying to yourself as you walked down the hall. You took a deep breathe before entering the room. When you entered the room you lock eyes with the most gorgeous pair of green eyes with a hint of brown you have ever seen.

Jensen's POV

I had been at auditions for only a few hours and I was already over everyone who had come and seemed to think it was a game or didn't really seem to try and care about what was happening. I started zoning out through most of the auditions because no one had that special spark that made me feel anything. Suddenly I hear the door open again and it's the last audition of the day, I lift my head up and look over at the door and see the most beautiful girl I have ever seen.

Reader POV

Your breathe got caught in your throat as you made eye contact with a man who looked to be about 25 years old. He had a very faint beard that you could only see in the light. You took a moment to breathe and then cleared your throat.

"Hi, my name is Y/n and I'm here to read for the role of Paige." You said walking up in front of the table that had the directors and producers behind it. You tried not to make eye contact with the guy who hadn't seemed to take his eyes off you since you came in the door.

"You may begin whenever you're ready."

You take a deep breathe before starting to read the script. "But what about me? What about what I feel. You don't just get to decide how I feel or how I control my life. I love you and nothing is going to change that." You said with your voice cracking as you finish up the scene. You notice everyone has a shocked look on their face, it seems like forever until the director speaks up.

"Thank you very much for coming today. We'll be in touch." You took one last look at the man and then exited the hallway to go find your friend.

Jensen POV

She captivated my attention from the moment she walked into the room. I could tell she was very nervous and shy because she kept her head down and wouldn't look at anybody. But as soon as she started the scene I couldn't help but just stare at her with astonishment. She's been the first person today that has captured my attention and actually made me feel something about the character. I realize she has to be the one for this part.

"She's the best we've seen all day. She knew the script, she was emotional, she was believable, and really cared about what she was saying." I said looking at everyone else in the room suddenly defending some girl I hadn't even said anything to.

"She's just a nobody though. It just doesn't seem right to give her the part." I was completely taken aback by this. "What if we bring her back in, and she reads a scene with me. If we have chemistry and it's believable then she gets the part." Everyone seemed to think that was fair so the assistant producer went to go find her while I tried to prepare myself.

Reader POV

You and bf/n were getting ready to leave the building when a slightly shorter woman ran up to you and stopped you. "Excuse me miss but they want you to come back and read another scene with your love interest and see if you can handle it." You were very shocked because you didn't think that you did that good. You looked back at your friend who had a big smile on her face telling you to go for it. You decide to follow the lady back into the room. When you open the door suddenly everything makes sense, the guy from earlier was playing your love interest.

Your heart started to speed up when you realized you would not only have to keep eye contact with this man but also try and remember words and talk to him.

"Hi, I'm Jensen I'll be playing Blake your love interest." He said while holding out his hand for you to shake. You smiled and shook his hand. "I'm Y/n."

"Okay so let's just read from the top of the page down and then we'll stop." Jensen said letting you know to start. "And action!" the director had called out.

"But what about me? What about what I feel. You don't just get to decide how I feel or how I control my life. I love you and nothing is going to change that."

"You can't love me. I can't stay here, I can't allow myself to fall deeper in love with you. You will only get hurt in the end and I can't let that happen."

"The only one hurting me right now is you. You aren't even considering my feelings. You're just doing what's best for you."

"What's best for me? What's best for me is being with you. But I just can't, I won't." He then turns away from you and you walk up behind him and place your hand on his shoulder.

"Yes you can, I'm not going anywhere anytime soon, you're stuck with me. I know you may think you don't deserve to be happy. But you do, you deserve everything in the world that would make you happy. Starting with me." You said and looked away because that was the end of the scene. Suddenly you feel an arm grab your wrist and pull you back and then you feel lips on yours. You were surprised at first because you thought you were done with the scene, but it looked like he wanted to go further. It takes a second but then your brain catches up and starts kissing back. Suddenly he pulls away "Okay, lets do this together." "And cut!" the director said as Jensen slowly backs away from you. You were so distracted by what just happened instead of seeing anything you just walked out the door and ran down the hall. You couldn't believe he had just kissed you like that. It had been the best kiss you had in years and it was from this random guy.

Jenson POV

She was such a phenomenal actress I forgot we were even acting for a minute. When she said her last line of dialogue I didn't want the scene to be over so I pulled her in and kissed her keeping the scene going. I expected her to pull back but instead she gives herself into the kiss and it's the best kiss I've had in forever. Right after she ran out the door looking very nervous. I just knew I had to get to know more about this amazing girl.

"So?" I asked looking at the director. "We like her she's got the part." I get a big smile on my face and go to run out the door to catch her before she leaves.

Reader POV

Suddenly you hear noises behind you and see Jensen running up to you. "You got the part Y/n, you'll be playing me love interest." You were so excited you just decided to give him a hug, Shocked at what you just did you start to pull away but then feel him hug you back. "Congratulations." "Thank you," you say with the biggest smile on your face.

"Would you like to go out sometime. Maybe just do something casual like get a beer and dinner and just talk." He says suddenly being really shy like he's nervous to talk to you. But why would he be nervous, he's him and you weren't anything special. You decided to take a leap of faith, "Yeah I would really like that." He gave you that signature smile and you knew you were hooked.

[sailermoon]

I’m also pissed at my little sister cause my older brother and his wife are also coming so they get the guest bed while I sleep on the air mattress. and I literally don’t wanna sleep in the living room if her bfs roommate doesn’t know simple boundaries like I can understand in public ppl might lack social ones sometimes but it’s a completely different story when someone is invading ur privacy in a personal setting like at home

idk why she’s being so nonchalant and finds it funny about this like I’m just imagining him waking me up or trying to instigate conversations at the most inopportune times seeing as he’s done it with other guests. I kind of want to demand she lets me stay at her apartment or I rent a hotel but I know I’m gonna look like a little bitch if I do I can’t win at this like I hate that no one’s taking my comfort seriously

[zoeysdamn]

⚠️ Absolutely not fanfiction-related, this is just some rant bc spilling my unstable emotional thoughts here is so much cheaper than therapy :DD

If you're not interested it's 100% normal, keep scrolling and have a lovely day, take care of yourself ❤️

I'm gonna rant because frankly I need to, so there's the thing:

My best friend, whom I know since high school, had moved in Korea around 10 months ago to spent vacation and a break (she didn't like her job so much). I was (and still am) super happy it, I love seeing her so happy and hearing about how excited she is!

Meanwhile, I was in the last year of my master degree, a rather complicated year, then 4 months in unpaid internship (well I was paid but barely enough to cover the transport expenses to go from home to the internship). In the same time my best friend had the time of her life, going to concerts, parties, getting a bf and having fun; still, she complained about a lot of things to me, as I was spending the 3 last months of the internship being bored as fuck, given no work was given to me. Note that internship is a super important part of my studies, because it's how I learn about my future job; so you can imagine how frustrating it was to spend 4h a day in transports to just sit and do nothing but occasionally tidy and stock past exhibitions' flyers.

Plus I've been dealing with depression for a long time and I had a pretty bad setback since May (and guess what: here we go again). In the meantime, who was having a super good time yet managed to still complain about it? The bestie.

There's a thing you need to understand: I come from a divorced parents family, and for the time being I'm living with my mom because things with my dad (and my brother living with him) can be very complicated sometimes. My mom's a social worker and money has always been tight. I always did the best to try to bring some money to alleviate the financial aspect of our lives, mainly by working every summer since I'm legally able to - even if the salary wasn't much. On the other hand, my best friend grew up as an only child (I have 2 brothers), with her dad having a comfortable situation and her mom also working. She had always been one complaining about money; I never said anything, but I found it pretty selfish from her, considering that she got a salary while living with her parents — so paying no rent or groceries, while I was living in my 1 room student apartment and struggling to meet both ends every months.

I graduated in October and ever since I'm in active job hunting; no success so far, one of the museums even turned down my candidacy after saying they'd hire me. I got a random job in retail in December to make some very much needed income; but I quitted after 2 weeks because my boss was a condescending cold bitch who put so much pressure on me about perfection and money to make - she knew I had never worked in retail or in cosmetic field - and I've ended some shifts in tears so I said fuck that I quit.

Now, still no response to the job offers I've answered to. All of my friends have either a job, pursuing their studies, having a purpose. And now my best friend told me super excited that she met someone - possibly new boyfriend hopefully! - and told me something along the lines of 'y'know it's great to feel finally loved and doing happy, right?'

And I was like girl. I live the fucking blankest life ever, I have no goal, no purpose, no social life. I'm constantly living with the gut wrenching feeling that I'm being a financial and emotional burden to my mom, thinking I'm a fucking parasite because I'm not use to literally anyone in society. The only people who had ever been attracted to me was the guys who assaulted me in the street. I'm spiraling down every day because I'm useless, sad, and use to no one. I have graduated with the highest honors yet nobody wants to hire me, not even in random jobs to sustain my basic needs like groceries. And you're complaining to me??

Wth, you never asked me how I was doing since you left, that's okay, but you're expecting me to sob with you because there's a minor - yet legit - inconvenience in your life?

I'm absolutely convinced that I'm no use (I legit am, let's be honest), not even an enjoyable person. People around me don't need me to carry on with their lives (which is rather reassuring honestly lmao), and yet, yet my best friend who's in vacation in her dream country for 10 months is complaining about it.

I know I shouldn't feel annoyed by that; no matter her situation she can have unpleasant feelings, and I'm always here to support her. What she feels is legit, I'm not one to judge.

And well, being without purpose — and being able to get a non-job related one, because I'm in on constant wait of museums maybe answering me, so I can't make any long-range projects — I'm just too fucking emotionally tired to have sympathy for her. It sucks and I'm probably a terrible person for that but, how am I supposed to find the sympathy right now? I'm not even able to be optimistic about my own next day.

But honestly? Fuck that, I'm way to depressed and useless to care right now, and I'm just angry at everything.

Bruh.

[girltomboy]

Idk if I already posted about this, but my stepdad is going to have his surgery this week, and my mom will be staying with me for a few days. I'm both excited and kind of mortified to have her in my very private space. I only have 1 bedroom and nothing else. I spent my weekend cleaning and putting things away, I'm not anywhere near being done done, but I realized I don't have to make anything perfect and sterile. I also took some days off to be able to guide her around the city, visit my stepdad in the hospital, etc.

This timing could not have been any better, cause I'm having another fight with my bf and he's being stubborn and cowardly again. I might just tell her everything and agree when she begs me to break up with him. He wants to postpone his move to December because rent is too high and he thinks the prices will go down then. Like why on earth would they?? I mean I don't disagree with prices being absurdly high, but you already knew that. He hasn't even told me how much money he has saved up, and his mom alluded to him having no money, sooooo idk what conclusion to draw. And I'm like ok what's a few more months? Just two more months it's not that bad. But on the other hand how many years have I been waiting for him to make an independent decision? And he's still letting himself get swayed by his folks (they were the ones who convinced him to wait 🤡 like are you BLIND they don't ever want you to go. They literally want you to stay there forever and bring me with you as well). Not to mention he still has a degree to finish, if he waits until December it will literally be just two more wasted months. No job, no college, no move, nothing but stasis. And that pisses me off immensely, because he is more committed to being lazy and ambitionless than he is to anything else on the planet. He just gladly accepted their suggestion to wait because he's happy doing absolutely nothing. And he will have exams in January, like if you move and probably (hopefully ig) get a job in December, in January you'll already have to maybe take some time off to study and take your exams while also learning a whole new job, like he hasn't thought anything about this through at all and that shit annoys me beyond words. Because someone else has to think for him at all times. Make plans, think things through. He didn't even know what to say on the phone to the landlords he spoke to. He almost scheduled a "viewing" for this week JUST TO LOOK at a place, like why do you have to look at it, there's pictures. Viewings are for people who already live here and CAN go to look at it. Going on an 8 hour train ride to a city where you can't stay anywhere just to see an apartment is fucking stupid!!!! And I genuinely cannot believe he had to be told that!! And he's the one who always makes a huge deal about how much he's looking forward to seeing me again and moving here to be with me, but he's literally all talk because when it comes to actually doing something to materialize that intention it's fucking crickets.

[witch-with-wifi]

Posting this here bc I wanna vent without family or my boyfriend seeing and I know I haven’t been on here in a long time but long story short I moved from North Carolina to Texas at the end of last year with my boyfriend and about 2 weeks after we moved we found out I was pregnant (as I’m typing this I’m 29 weeks). This is the first time in my life that I’ve been this far from my family and I’m very home sick and my family is trying to convince me to move back home and as much as I want to, money, the lease on our apartment, and my boyfriend doesn’t want to move back is what’s holding me back from going. I don’t want to end things with my boyfriend and we both think long distance would be hard for both of us and I want him there for our daughter. But on the other hand we have no childcare help out here, we’re no contact with his dad atm and his mom lives 8 hours away. He has a few friends out here but I haven’t really connected with anyone here to be friends with and if we moved back to NC we would have an abundance of family to help while we work (if my bf can find a job, it’s partly the reason we moved was for him to have a better job opportunity, with my job I can just transfer) and this would be my parents first grandchild and I want her to grow up surrounded by family. I’m having my baby shower in a few weeks and going to nc for it since my family and friends can’t all fly out here and at some point when me and my bf were talking about the idea of me and the baby moving back while he worked in tx and I brought it up to my mom about keeping an eye out for places to rent back home in case that’s what we decided and she thought I was coming home for good so I had to tell her today that I’m not moving back and now she’s mad at me saying she’s not gonna be able to have a relationship with her grandchild bc we’re so far and she can’t afford to visit often which I understand sucks but I can try to visit more often due to me getting a higher position at my job that gives me more vacation time and money and maybe when our lease is up move back home that way we have time to save money. I just hate that I’ve disappointed her and made her cry and I just feel like I’m stuck between choosing between my bf and having him in mine and my daughter’s life or my family

I’ve been crying on and off bc I miss them and my friends so much and of course I want them there for my daughters milestones and to see her grow and I’ve been so lonely out here going through this without them but i know my bf doesn’t want to go back and I don’t want to keep his child from him or be absent in her life

[princessdreamie]

DBH part 54

LM was not sure what to make of the sudden shift in Br's mood. Now their roles have been reversed after they left the jewelry shop. She didn't even buy anything there unlike the other places they have gone into.

LM drove her back home and even Helped her putting everything away in her room.

Br shoved him out off her bed room so that she can be alone for now. LM, still in disbelieve, walks down to Ct's office to discuss they previous problem. In other words: skip!!

Insie of Br's room

The girl set a reminder for the movie premier and lastly sent C a list of outfits to wear for him

Back to Sa infront of her apartment complex

Sa watched the cars go by hoping to see her friend's to arrive. Luckily for her, C & Na get there without anymore trouble.

C helped La's mom with both their luggage, while Sa helped her bf eat lunch. Na watched them carefully interact. Well more so how she interacted with him. The boy didn't much as much as a muscle except for him opening his mouth and blinking eyes.

The young girl knew that Sa loved him a lot. She figured that he must too since he would have bern pretty lonely without her support. If he needed something from Sa he would just use his translator & his GF would get it for him.

C asked Na if she could put away the empty boxes so that they wont block their way. Said and done, the kid put the cardboard Boxes in the bath room for now.

The place they rented was bigger than the usual apartments but also more pricey. And since they had still the bathroom equipment in the car that was as good of a place as any.

The older woman talks to C, thanking him for all the help to Which he modestly replied: „I just got her a good deal on the place, everything else was Sa's doing.“

It was true. He bargained with the landlord & as a true Ferguson no one could win against him in business. They got the rent for 20% less than it was advertised for. Might not sound too much for some but for the 3 who would life here for more than a year it us the best they could have wished for.

While the 2 kept on talking C got a notification on his phone, low and behold it was Br with a frightening long list of suits and fitting Shoes. The boy groaned as he read the text message but he didnt let it get to him. He knew what he was in for so now he had to deal with it.

Meanwhile with Sa put La on the couch to watch TV. She knew what kind of shows he liked. Over the years his preferences changed a bit but he still lived to watch game shows or nature documentaries. There weren't many of those on this time of day so they watched whatever was on.

Na joined them on the couch but quickly got bored from the current program. So she kept typing something on her mobile, which already made C suspicious since they drove from the airport.

[bvbygrl-writes]

OKOKOK so I dunno if I told you but sometime last year I got a bf! And we just celebrated our 1 year anniversary earlier this month, HE BOUGHT ME A FUCKING RING(not an engagement ring but still an expensive ass ring)

Not so great note I had a huge falling out with a close friend and we haven't spoken in nearly 7 months now

But another good thing is my bf and I adopted a dog! HIS NAME IS NUGGETTT he's adorable and I love him so much

I spend like 95% of my time at his place I basically live there but still pay rent at my own apartment lol

Another root so great note Nugget might have epilepsy but we're still figuring that out but ong has this year been crazyy

-🦡

OMG you had a crazy ass year, congrats on your 1 year!!! It's like a promise ring essentially? That's so cool!!! Also I'm sorry you fell out with your friend, I haven't spoken to mine in about a few months either and idk if I ever will.

One of them was dating our other best friends boyfriend while they were still together and didn't tell me (yeah didn't even tell her) until after they broke up and I cut her off bc at that point he had Saif so much shit about me and I found out she had been shit talking me with him??? So I cut her off. She was also flirting with two of the men I had been with and the one I'm still with which I didn't fuck with.

BUT THEN, the other friend the one i cut off this one for started to treat me bad and made me feel like a terrible person so i cut her off. She turned our entire new friend group against me and so now it's just back to me and my long distance man essentially!

I also have a job now and I grew my hair out! But yeah CRAZY WHAT CAN HAPPEN IN A FRICKIN YEAR

[melodyvsthesea]

Worst things I ever did

1. Once i dove into a strangers truck in the back and when they confronted me I accidentally spilled cool ranch Doritos in there and then ran away

2. I burned a hole in my mattress and some unreplaceable photos and it set off the smoke detector so I started pouring water all over the floors. Then when the fire fighters got there I admitted everything instead of telling them I was just cooking and it got Smokey

3. I flashed my lady bits to a group of EMT’s while claiming that I was Rick Sanchez and Albert Einstein. And I believed it too and I told them while pointing at my vagina “is this what you want” then let them take me to the hospital only after my roommate convinced me

4. I kept everyone wide awake yelling that I hate all of them (my exes family) for two nights straight

5. I had sex in a park with a guy I met on tinder at 2 am and a guy with a dog walked by but I kept riding him

6.I had a meltdown about catching HIV on two separate occasions (I didn’t have it). I sent essay paragraphs to people I had sex with, freaking out about it

7. I told a guy I wouldn’t have sex with him because we were both the same mix of race and it would be too “meta”. The truth was I just didn’t want to do it because my mother was in the other room

8. I walked out of my house a few times in the middle of the night with no pants because I was sleep deprived and paranoid

9. I had such loud sex with my ex girlfriend in our apartment that several people complained and one even mocked us to our face and said we “moaned better than hookers”. One of the complaints was from a mother of 3.

10. I convinced my ex girlfriend to go to another country and give her child away to the baby daddy so we could be free because we were broke and stressed and the kid wouldn’t eat so I thought she would get worse.

11. I lived with my exes family for 6 months and didn’t pay rent nor did I look for a job until I thought my visa was expiring at the last minute. I let my ex not work too and we’d eat takeout a lot and go on dates using the grandparents money.

12. I’ve made my mother cry several times by saying she was the worst mother ever, but I’ve heard of worse.

13. I have led on and the blocked countless men. I have cursed out so many people too and destroyed their character with words. There are many who can’t stand me due to this.

14. I am very easy and slutty. I’ve given head to about 40 people, kissed 100+, and had normal sex with 30+. I swallowed every time too. It’s a miracle I never have gotten and std

15. I slapped my girlfriend twice while in severe psychosis and mania. I also choked her when she said she looked down on me for not getting a college degree. Now we still talk idk how

16. I slept with my friend of many years bf because she had always been mean to me and calling me ugly every day. I did it intentionally to hurt her feelings.

17. I took LSD with a guy I had only known for a year and I killed a huge insect in the sink while high and I could feel it hurting but I kept flushing it down the sink with water.

18. In kindergarten a bunch of me peers decided to dogpile on top of each other. I said I wanted to join but I was tall and they said no. So I jumped on all of them with my full weight because I was angry that I was being excluded. It hurt some of the kids and I got in trouble. When the principal asked why I did it I lied and said I didn’t know what would happen, but I definitely knew.

19. I’ve crawled on the ground sexily in the mental hospital and even kissed a man (consensual) that was a stranger, had sex with a stranger there, and kissed another guy (non consensually) with my COVID mask on and then apologized.

20. I riled up a very strong tall man in the mental hospital so much that he threw a chair at the window.

21. I pretended to be about to jump out of my sisters car so she would take me to the ER.

[rantingsofamildbitch]

being an adult fucking sucks. friends asked to move in with us bc their lease was up amd the area was too expensive for them. said yes with the agreement that bills would be split four (4) ways. a week after they move in, and after only a single day at his new location, my friend's bf QUITS. because apparently his gf knew the manager as a pos, and while the guy was nice to both of them, i guess her bf couldn't... deal? so he quit immediately, without telling us and with no backup job ready

so now he's just been sitting in the house, not doing anything to even help her out. we had to volunteer to split rent into thirds bc he was willing to just have her pay their entire HALF of bills??? he also has apparently been having her look for jobs FOR him???

they've doubled our electric bill, continuous heat the apartment to near 80F because they refuse to cook in anything besides an air fryer (tall ceilings and poor ventilation are definite factors, which they know). guess it doesn't matter to them, since as soon as they moved in they got a personal AC unit to put (not properly sealed) into their window

they CONSTANTLY baby talk at each other/their dog, to headache-inducing levels. fr. the high pitched squeaking gave me a migraine from across the fucking room

but they're the therapy-speak, we're perfect as we are and don't need to change anything type people, so if you try and say anything, no matter how polite, they get hella defensive. and she's a swiftie/celebrity drama bitch, so when she gets defensive she immediately turns into a Mean GirlTM

idk, i was looking forward to built in friends as a way to make this shit more positive, as an introvert who dislikes living with other people? but now i don't think i like them very much.. at least not him.

[kittenlolita]

Really sad right now. I feel really isolated and I want to isolate myself more. I’m exhausted, I want them to respond. I know I’m selfish. I love them so much.

Gonna try to have less of a dependency. I am irrevocably obsessed and in love with them. I love them more then anything. I love their smile I love how they look because it’s them I love their eyes I love just staring at their teeth sometimes. I love how they can go on and on about the things they’re passionate about. I love how they tell me about stuff I don’t know I love them so much. I love looking on their page and seeing what they’re up to. I love when they tell me about their day because I am genuinely interested in how it was. I love them so so so so much. I love how sweet they are, I love how they treat others. I love them because they are them. I love how they talk about their friends and say such great things about them. I love them so so so so so so so so much.

I want to have long conversations with them and tell them everything I could never tell another person. I love them to a degree I have never loved anyone. I have never been loved ever like this.

I was abused most of my life, most of my life physically and mentally ; My adopted mom and dad are divorced and have been separated for a while so my dad has his apartment somewhere in Chicago, which I have little to no stuff. My dads abusive and my mom cut me off completely; she hasn’t talked to me in forever and wants little to nothing to do with me. I fucking hate my father. I hate him so much. My whole childhood I was sexually assaulted and raped by my father. I hate having to live at my fathers.

My bio parents are the worst fucking people ever. Mom left me completely at 5 years old was a druggie and would let her bfs abuse me constantly for ever fun. Left me alone so many times. My bio dad is narcissistic, abusive lmao not much to say

I live with 40-50 yr olds rn who are mentally abusive, narcissistic and it’s the only sense of “balance” I’ve had it’s the most safe place I’ve ever had. Roommates get into arguments constantly and are horrible with cleanliness; I clean everything and put away everything. I pay $300 for rent each month + utilities. Money is from my job/hush money from past abuser.

God I love oversharing to a horrible degree on here. I cannot, not over share.

[mcleemlis]

creativity & organization

I'm finally getting around to giving myself space to write an update. I completed the 90 day probation period in my new job last week (so woohoo to it being more difficult to fire me, not that it was likely to happen anyways, lol)! I have been pretty overwhelmed these last couple of months. Between starting this new job (that has so much more work than my old job did, which is a mixed blessing), moving across town, partaking in a dear friends' wedding (it was the first wedding I ever went to and I was a bridesmaid :D ), and assisting my roommates with their recent transportation issues, I've been SO DAMN TIRED. The surprising thing is that I didn't realize how stressed I was until a couple weeks ago when I had a mini breakdown at work and pretty much realized the sheer amount of things on my plate. Since then I've had some conversations with my team lead and unit director about work stuff, and some of my personal responsibilities have wrapped up or my stress has been mentioned to contributing parties and is beginning to be addressed.

Something that has been a real challenge for me during the past few months, but is really helpful once I get a system set up, is organization. With the new move and the new job, I have been experiencing a lot of disorganization as I adjust to my new spaces, responsibilities, and roles. In the move, we ended up downsizing in a couple of ways. We lost a roommate who recently moved in with her new husband. In losing that roommate I also lost what felt like one of my main support pillars in the house. Lets just say she and I made up the responsible half of the household, so I've lost some of that... guaranteed/instinctual support (maybe that's the way to say it, basically I didn't have to tell her to clean, or do things around the house, or check that she paid bills, etc.). We also went from renting a 4 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom apartment. I personally went from having a bedroom (that I share with my bf) and an office/studio, to just having the shared bedroom and trying to fit my office and art supplies in the living room.

With work, you might say I've upsized. I went from being in a position that was poorly defined and where I had so little to do and so few expectations that I was consistently looking for work to do and things to improve the sad state of the library. Now I work in a position that already had a clearly defined role with a variety of tasks and responsibilities assigned to it, as well as projects in development and underway. So now I have a pretty full plate at work that I'm still analyzing and understanding as I try to figure out what my regular work flow might look like and how I should be prioritizing various responsibilities. I've been juggling more tasks and responsibilities lately, and organization has been key in knowing what all I need to work on. I'd been wanting to have a bullet journal for a while and even bought notebooks and outlined what all I thought I wanted to record in it and looked at different spreads and layouts, but it pretty much stopped there. Between my indecisiveness on layouts and fear of messing up, my physical bullet journal went nowhere. But the idea of a digital bullet journal had sprouted from all of my layout design searches.

So after looking at some templates others had made, I went to Canva and made one of my own. You can check it out at the link at the bottom of this post. I made it over the course of maybe 6 hours over 3 days? It was something I was able to put little bits of time into here and there as I kept it open in one of my browser tabs. The ability to make major and minor adjustments was key to my being able to "complete" the template in that amount of time. I say "complete" because I developed this template as a draft, knowing I would make new templates and adjustments as I figured out what I wanted, what works best for me, and what theme I wanted to go with. So the template I made is only setup for about 3 and half months (from late February to the end of June) and has a fairly basic layout. There are daily and weekly spreads, with monthly calendars and pages for monthly goals, a couple pages for notes, and that's pretty much it. I wanted to make something pretty basic and flexible on the daily pages, to see what I ended up using it for or not using it for, so I could consider adjustments going forward. The short time commitment for this template has also allowed me to learn more about how to use my template in OneNote and ways I might make my next template different to take into account some of OneNote's quirks and features.

All in all, the planner has been helpful in organizing tasks I want to accomplish at work and outside of work, as well as providing reminders and space for some of my hobbies. Now I'm trying to work towards finding better balance between work, supporting others, and doing things for myself. Case in point: my zines. I (laughably) thought I would be done with my manifesto zine awhile ago, but I haven't devoted as much time to it as I thought I would be able to, nor did I accurately predict how long it would take me to do some of the research and to mess with the layout of the zine itself. At this moment I still have 1-2 pages to research and fit into the layout, plus the bibliography. I also have the problem(?) of thinking up lots of ideas for zines but not having (or making??) the time to work on these ideas, despite very much wanting to. Hopefully over the coming months I'll be able to find some balance. With Fall semester being a busy season for my unit, I think I'll be keeping my expectations low for my hobbies then, but I'm hoping this summer I'll be able to indulge in them more!

You can check out my planner here: My first planner

[queenwille]

1. agree? honeyboo, that’s the whole difference between you and me. we take facts very seriously, even if they seriously suck. yep, even if they hurt our narrative. y’all don’t give a flying fuck if what you say has any truth to it or if a drama seeking college kid from atlanta sitting in his dorm wrote it cause they think it might make some sense from this reel they saw on ig. also yeah, i do aGrEE that hostages don’t have super powers or were not handed by the israeli gov some super mega innovative personal dome that protects them from israeli strikes and are just in as much danger? happy? wanna shake hands? 😀

2. Noa was one, just O N E of 19 female hostages. those posts you sent are about some solid intel the gov has about some of the girls (that don’t include noa) that are FOR SURE being raped and maybe pregnant. they know that from testimonials from returning hostages and from prisoners taken back from gaza. it’s mostly the 19 year old unarmed female soldiers on the horrible videos that were brutally taken barefoot in their pjs while being told they’re so beautiful and that they’ll make them their wives. noa was never discussed, as the two men she was with got killed, remember? honestly, nobody knows what noa’s been through yet, since again, she didn’t speak publicly about it yet. she might never do and we might never know, which is fine, too. it’s none of our business and her being held hostage for nearly a 250 days, far from her home, scared for her life, far from her family, dying mother, her partner, deprived of food and to go get the education she paid for, live at her apartment she pays rent with her bf, wear what she wants and simply her life cause she went to a dance party… well that’s awful enough for me, even if she wasn’t sexual abused, but that’s just me. keep posting random pics with no context. you do you. 🙃

With all the propaganda by Israel, I assumed the hardest moment for her in captivity would be experiencing all those rapes and torture?

[jungkooksbully-archive]

ok i’m gonna say this here bc idk where else to say it and i’ll probably never actually do it but whatever

[musicinthebranchesoftheveins]

Don't you ever just want to be home alone??