#i just literally cannot be grateful enough to these phenomenal people and its making me emotional AF on top of everything else!!!!!

[125storejuice]

Ah!!!!!!!

[kattythingz]

Attack attack attack 🕯️🥤🥐🥝🐝

Literally every one of these questions was a targeted attack, what the FUCK Jinx. But fine.

🕯️ - on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? Why is that?

Unless I'm in a bad mood and/or the premise doesn't interest me, it's actually most often a 9. Sometimes even a 10. It took me a long time to realize this (hello fiction workshop), but it turns out my passion for editing is its own beast. Something about helping others' writing. Pointing out their mistakes not to laugh at them, but to further their writing because I want to see that!!! I want my friends to see their best writing and I want to help them get there! It's the greatest honor! And, when I really get into it, it's honestly just a fun process!

(Usually. We don't talk about the fucking blood that went into editing ch4 of Crown.)

🥤 - recommend an author or fanfic you love.

MAY I INTRODUCE THE FINE PEOPLE TO @asthmaticbee's BRILLIANT HP X FMA AU "of elder, stone and cloth (of death, rebirth and closure)". THE SURPRISE RAREPAIR IS AMAZING AND I AM SO UPSET I DON'T HAVE OTHER CONTENT FOR THEM AND THE CHARACTER WRITING IS PHENOMENAL. THIS AUTHOR GETS ED ON SUCH A DEEP LEVEL. It quite literally had me high for the three or so days I spent bingeing the fic. I CANNOT recommend it enough.

🥐 - name one internet reference that will always make you laugh.

SONIC FANDUBS LMAO. My little brother and I recite them at each other all the time (I suspect it's a verbal stim at this point?), and I can't. It's so fucking funny each time.

🥝 - do you lie a lot? What's the most recent lie you told?

Jinx, seriously. What have I done to insult you lately? /j

I do actually lie a lot lmao. That's kinda a necessity in a controlling household like mine, so it uh. Kinda happens like breathing. Which is mayhaps not a good thing, but. You know. Gotta do what you gotta do. I can't remember my most recent lie, aha. (Another shining endorsement for me, ik.)

🐝 - tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them.

I am honestly so blessed to say—it's so many people? I can't even tag them all off the top of my head. The recent support I received on ch5 of Crown was so fucking huge, I'll forever be unwell over how nice all my readers are?? I'm so grateful to everyone.

Off the top of my head, however, I MUST specifically tag @ilovepannacotta @sirchenchen @hijinks-n-lowjinks @crystalizedirongoblin and @thewitchqueen281

Panna, you brilliant fucking bitch, you've been struggling with your art lately but you are genuinely my favorite edling artist out there. You never fail to blow my expectations out of the water, and I hope you'll agree with me on that one day. Chen, your mind is so brilliant, and your aus are so thoughtful and deep and you ask questions I never considered before that then get ME thinking. Jinx, your understanding of Greed as a character, and Al too, have quite literally saved my ass several times. Citrine, I... can't think of sth specific cuz we don't actually talk often, but your support for my yj x fma crossover motivated me so much more than you think, esp since I was in a dry spell with Crown at the time. And Avi, you've literally been my ground support since ch1 of Crown. Your early asks gave me so much hope that this revamp might actually stand a chance, and then you further devastated me by writing me a goddamn 8k fic.

I'm grateful to all my readers, but you guys esp... you did sth deep to me. And I don't think I'll be normal again cuz of it. I love y'all <3

[cinematicnomad]

1, 7, 25 for the fanfic end of year ask :)

001. favorite fic you wrote this year i have a soft spot for take my hand (take my everything) which was the first fic i wrote this year! and kind of the first step back into writing creatively on something new that wasn’t the 7 year monster sterek fic. also my first foray into 9-1-1 fic and was just a lot of fun! 

007. longest completed fic you wrote this year the longest fic i wrote was my second for the year! so show me (family) wound up being around 16k+ for 9-1-1 which kind of burst out of me over the course of one 48 hour window unlike take my hand which took a few weeks to crank out. 

025. a fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read SO MANY FICS DUDE!!! i’m gonna rec a couple, some that i re-read this year and some that i discovered for the first time, all from a variety of fandoms. BUT heads up, you didn’t specify a fandom so it’s gonna be a little scattered. also someone else sent me this same question but specified 9-1-1, so i’m gonna reserve those recs for that ask. GET READY!!

and this, your living kiss by opal_bullets (7/7 | 84k+ | M) destiel; AU: college/university; john winchester’s A+ parenting; angst with a happy ending

only a very few people in the world know that the celebrated and reclusive poet jack allen is just kansas mechanic dean winchester, a high school dropout with a few bucks to his name. not that it matters anymore; life has left him so wrung out he never wants to pick up another pen.

until, that is, a string of coincidences leads dean to auditing a poetry course with one dr. castiel novak. the professor is wildly intelligent, devastatingly handsome...and just so happens to be academia’s foremost expert on the poetry of jack allen.

note: i discovered this fic back in the pre-pandemic times of feb 2020 and i’ve read this fic TWICE since, leaving a lengthy comment each time. the poetry in the fic itself is stunningly gorgeous and i have a habit of reading it out loud to myself while reading bc it begs to be heard. this fic is seriously beautiful and makes me want to read all the poet!dean au’s out there in the world. unfortunately there aren’t that many so i just keep coming back to this well. i don’t think i can express enough how much i love this fic. 

lost time by ARCurren (105/105 | 350k+ | T)  bransonxsybil; AU: canon divergent; outsider POVs; original characters; slow burn

the story of a free spirit who was asked to give up the man she loved for a system she didn’t believe in and what happened next. AU after 3.04. 

note: did i think, when i stumbled across this fic years ago, that it would wind up being one of my all time favorites that i return to time and again to re-read? never. did i re-read it for like the dozenth time this year?? 110%. this fic is everything i want from fanfiction—it’s beautifully written, expands on canon, and shows me all the hidden moments the cameras never did (not to mention it’s historically accurate and delves deep into irish politics of the time). the first third or so of this fic is all about tom and sybil’s slow burn romance at downton, but the fic really bursts into its own when we follow the two to dublin and get introduced to all of the author’s deliciously detailed oc’s. heads up warning: this fic was never officially completed, though the final chapter is a beautifully written summary of the final arc of the fic. even so, it’s fucking worth it. 

misfire by mothlights & unpossible (6/6 | 28k+ | T) sterek; time travel; angst with a happy ending; alive hale family; magic; alternating POV

“the debt must be repaid,” she says, and it has the weight of a vow. the words resonate through him, ringing through his ribcage and the bones of his jaw, and stiles loses his breath and maybe his grip on reality because she draws herself upright and where there had once stood a supermodel-level MILK now there is galadriel’s much hotter older sister, a presence of unmistakable power in their ordinary, smells-vaguely-of-thai-takeout hallway. 

“oh shit,” stiles says. 

note: this fic is the first in the misfire ‘verse and i need you to understand that it literally broke me when i binge read these fics a month or so ago. i am a sucker for a solid time travel fic especially bc there are such few good ones in fandom. but this gets at the heart of it all by exploring the idea of stiles getting the chance to save derek’s family and taking it...after he and derek are romantically together in his true timeline and then actually dealing with the ramifications of how that alters everything and how stiles survives in this new present where he and derek are virtual strangers. everyone should definitely read this, but you should also know that i fucking sobbed while reading the sequel (which also has a happy ending, but really digs deep into the nitty gritty angst of the repercussions). 

map of the world by seperis (11/11 | 154k+ | M)  destiel; end!verse; alternate universe; canon divergent; original characters; slow burn

the world’s already over and they’re already dead. all they’re doing now is marking time until the end. 

note: look, if you don’t know about down to agincourt by @seperis, what are you doing with your life?? the series is over 1M+ words so far, the fic author is on book 4 out of a planned 8, and it’s fucking phenomenal. i know i’ve tagged a couple of these recs as slow burn but...this is the slowest slow burn to ever burn. canon!dean travels back into the end!verse timeline just as lucifer kills dean and somehow cas made it out alive and has to keep dean safe while he learns to become his end!verse counterpoint. the world building in this series is intense and i cannot recommend it enough. i’m still in the midst of my re-read bc it’s SUCH an endeavor but i highly recommend it to everybody. 

invictus by ellanasan (116/116 | 355+ | M) hayffie; au: alive abernathy family; pre-hunger games; canon prostitution; slow burn

“so then, before i can even think about doing something stupid like trying to stab him with his fucking golden paperknife, he gives me a choice, see?” haymitch continued, almost detached. “either i play nice like all the other victors or he’ll kill my family. i could either become his puppet—greatest punishment he could give me, according to him—or i could become the example.”

AU in which haymitch’s family lives.

note: hello, have you ever wondered what the hunger games series would be like if haymitch’s family were alive? i fucking hadn’t until 2 years ago when i stumbled across this fic and fell head over heels in love with this ship. @ellanainthetardis is my go to hunger games fic writer for anything exploring canon and i’m obsessed with anything she writes about the OG victors pre-canon (finnick, joanna, chaff, etc). this fic is just 300k+ exploring that world and all the intricate details of how cruel the games could really be. HIGHLY recommend. i definitely re-read it this fall when i needed a pick me up.

don’t know what i’m supposed to do (haunted by the ghost of you) by crazyassmurdererwall (1/1 | 30k+ | T) sterek; canon divergent; angst with a happy ending; ghosts; stiles POV

stiles sees dead people. yep. seriously.

(he’s got this. he’s totally got this. so what if one of them is derek’s mom?)

note: did you know that @crazyassmurdererwall is one of my all time favorite people? and that she’s wicked talented? and that in our spare time she’ll send me a billion fic ideas that are amazing and i get to hear all the intricate details of her plot bunnies? but i digress. this fic is one of my all time fave sterek fics i’ve re-read it sooo many times. there’s just something about the heartache and stiles’ insecurity and the way he tries to shoulder it all on his own. and then there’s alli’s brilliant writing, the way she weaves through a scene and paints a picture just so and manages to tug at your heart strings with her precise word choice. there’s some amazing world building in this fic as it explores this other facet of the supernatural that canon teen wolf never touched upon, and i’m so grateful for that bc alli is the only one who should be allowed to write about ghosts and teen wolf together. 

lagavulin and guinness by snarfle (10/10 | 163k+ | explicit) hartwin; slow burn; PTSD; suicidal thoughts; graphic depictions of violence; domestic abuse

plenty of people had looked down on eggsy throughout his life. he had gotten fairly used to it. didn’t mean it was fair, but he knew how these things worked. what really sucked was that the new arthur was worse than the old one.

“eggsy grimaced. he didn’t know how to explain to harry—who seemed like he hadn’t been discriminated against a day in his life—that the new arthur kept giving him what amounted to suicide missions, and that he was currently bleeding out in a warehouse because of the deliberately bad intel she had given him.”

also featuring: dean is harder to get rid of than eggsy thought, his mum is going off the deep end, there are way too many nefarious plots in play, and eggsy is really beginning to wish that harry would stop holding his hand and kiss him instead.

note: look, i know i recced this literally less than a week ago but i ALSO stayed up til 5AM re-reading this last night and it was a-m-a-z-i-n-g. i was on a bit of a kingsman kick earlier this year, so i’ve actually re-read this fic TWICE so far in 2020. i will give you a serious warning in that this fic delves deep into domestic abuse through the lens of a variety of different relationships. it also explores the potential for abuse in hartwin, bc this fic is one of the few that actually commits to the fact that they’re literal spies who murder people. actively. a lot. but seriously, this fic is one of my fave in the fandom and i STRONGLY recommend it. 

waste of breath by bryrosea (1/1 | 22k+ | M) loganxveronica; canon compliant; missing scenes; navy; past child abuse

logan echolls, the nine years, and the navy.

note: bryrosea has an obscene number of amazing logan and veronica fics (her canon divergent series stay with me is another i re-read this year), but i’ve found myself returning to this fic a lot over the years. i’m a sucker for canon compliant fics that explore the missing scenes in between canon and this fic hits all the right buttons by diving deep into how logan echolls went from being a trash fire at hearst college at the end of s3 to being a decorated navy pilot by the movie. it explores logan seeking out therapy and making a life for himself that he can be proud of, all while pining after the girl who got away. and bc this author is amazing, she followed it up with a sequel from veronica’s point of view in the series done by only me. 

the law of equivalent exchange by awed_frog (8/8 | 60k+ | M) destiel; POV castiel; pre-canon; post-canon; canon compliant; immortality; reincarnation

“and what’s the point of it?”

“of love? there isn’t one. loving is its own purpose.” 

note: i mean??? i don’t really know what to say except that this is one of the truly most beautiful fics i have ever read. it follows castiel through time as he meets different reincarnations of sam and dean across history and falls ever more deeply in love. it is achingly tender and so ecstatically written that i die just thinking about it. and that summary? i mean. holy fuck break my heart why don’t you? i don’t know how i missed out on this fic for so long since it was published in 2015 but i only learned about it for the first time back in july and it was. life changing?? when the fic finally reaches the canon timeline and he meets THIS dean it’s peak yearning. 10/10 will read again.

ahead in the count by elisela (17/17 | 50k+ | E) sterek; AU: sports; pitcher!stiles; teacher!derek; long distance relationship; getting together

“yankee fan,” derek says, laughing when stiles makes a disgusted face. “the bronx bombers, stiles, you can’t be a new yorker and—”

“stop talking right now,” stiles sighs, shaking his head. “i can’t believe i still want to kiss you after that,” he says, pulling derek in by his coat. “this is making me rethink everything.” 

“i’ll never watch them again,” derek promises, and stiles laughs against his mouth. 

or: stiles is a starting pitcher for the NY mets when he meets and falls in love with derek. derek doesn’t know. 

note: i read SO MANY of @elisela’s 911 fics this summer, which i loved, and then she got into teen wolf and started writing sterek and i just about died. this fic is amazing, one of my fave sterek AU’s that i’ve read in years. it’s just the right amount of drama and angst and fluff filled with all the joys of miscommunication and character relationships that makes reading sterek such a joy. reading this fic and finding out eli needed fic recs pushed me to dive back in to reading sterek fics for a bit this fall so i can say with the utmost authority that this is one of the best i’ve read in a long time. 

i used to think one day we’d tell the story of us by notequitegucci (2/2 | 32k+ | M) gendrya; alternate universe—modern setting; outsider POV; friends to lovers; friends to lovers

9 times a stark encounters gendry + 1 time he meets the starks.

note: again, this is the first in a 2 part series titled love me like you do that explores arya and gendry’s dynamics together through the point of view of her family. game of thrones ended last year with a whimper but i keep returning to the gendrya tag on ao3 to seek out new, amazing content and also to re-read some old favorites. i can’t remember if i came across this for the first time last year or this one, but i’ve read it and re-read it more times than i can count since and i love it more than i can describe. i’m a total sucker for outsider POV fics and my biggest pet peeve in canon is the fact that none of the stark’s ever found out that arya and gendry had a history together. this modern au fic almost makes up for it by giving me a gendry encounter with every family member and then the big reveal. it’s peak content. 

theeeeeeese recs got a little away from me. i wasn’t originally intending on adding lengthy notes to each entry but ... oh well!! these are all amazing so please enjoy. 

fanfic end of the year asks

[sebabestianstan101]

Suit and Tie - 003

Pairing: Ceo!Bucky Barnes x Reader

Synopsis: You’re good at your job as the Secretary in The White Wolf Enterprise for years now, with a great set of friends and co-workers and a really hot boss, James Buchanan Barnes. You have a pretty decent work-relationship with him, even if you have to use all of your strength and self-control to not jump on him at every chance you get. Nothing exciting is really going on with your life, until your boss himself decides to spice things up a bit.

Themes throughout the series: Smut, angst, fluff, slight dom!bucky x sub!reader (nothing too crazy..), there’s probably going to be more as the story progresses

Warnings this chapter: Voyeurism, masturbation

SERIES MASTERLIST  Teaser  001  002 

“Oh god, It’s beautiful!” 

Your eyes shine brightly, taking in the heavenly tropical view of vibrant blue water and white sand. You look up to see the bright green palm trees perfectly contrasting with the clear blue skies. The sight is breathtaking and you wonder if this is what heaven looks like. 

Bucky observes you with a soft smile on his face, feeling warm just seeing you so excited and happy. At that moment, he knew he’ll do anything to keep that look on your face. 

“it is, isn’t it?” He agrees with you, but he doesn’t really care about the view you’re referring to. He’s been to Barbados before as well as other countries that looked better than this, but nothing compares to how he saw you. 

While you’re busy looking at the area, Bucky takes the opportunity to really take you in. His eyes travel from your face and down to your body, protected by a white sundress thats still shows a bit of your cleavage from the low neckline, leaving the rest to his imagination. (Which he had imagined, plenty.) 

With the sun kissing your skin, you look divine. He starts to worry that this might be a bad idea; bringing you with him to an island, alone in his beach house wearing the least bit of clothing most fitting for the hot weather. How can he possibly control himself for 4 full days when you look like that? 

He then shows you around his beach house and  to your room which is right across his. Even his house looks so cozy and breezy with the perfect view of the beach. You feel a little bit guilty for feeling so relaxed when you’re really there for work. But you know, it won’t hurt to indulge a little. 

“Thank you, Mr. Barnes. It really is beautiful here.” You smile up at him. In the flight to Barbados in his private jet, you have been working on an upcoming project, and he’s kind enough to make you rest for the whole day. 

“Y/N, call me Bucky. It seems a little unfit for you to call me that in such a relaxing setting.” He grins. 

You chuckle, agreeing with him. Your heart warms at the thought of how casual this is. You have been working with him for years, and you’ve grown close, but nothing really went past the work dynamic. 

The relaxed smile on your face masks the whirl of emotions you’re feeling at how good he looks. The usual suit and tie he wears already makes you go crazy, but this casual, laid-back unbuttoned dress shirt makes you lose it just as much. Maybe even more. 

“Thank you, Bucky.” 

- 

You decided to take a short nap for a while, and you wake up from the sound of knocking. You stretch while checking the time and see that is noon. Bucky is probably calling you for lunch. 

Still a little groggy from your nap, your feet lazily make its way towards the door. You yawn as you open the door and is met with Bucky who smiles at you almost apologetically, knowing that he woke you up. 

“Ooh.. I think I disturbed someone’s sleep.” He lightly teases with an eyebrow raised. You give him a playful glare and roll you eyes. 

“If you weren’t my boss, I would’ve beaten you up.” 

He chuckles, shaking his head, “I hope the good lunch we’re about to have can spare my life, then.” 

The sound of lunch –– a good lunch, made your stomach grumble. Your cheeks heat up and you smile sheepishly at him.

“Uh, I think your timing is perfect.” 

You both make your way to the table and your mouth waters at the sight of the amount of food on the table. There’s almost a little too much for the both of you, and you give Bucky an incredulous look. 

“How many people are you feeding?” You gape at him

 “I wasn’t sure what you’d want so,”  he simply shrugs, and gestures to the food. 

You shake your head, thanking him still, as you take a seat. You mentally remind yourself that this is Bucky’s normal; the same situation with the dress and jewelry he gifted you. He really splurges on extravagant things because he has the capability to, so you can’t really say anything. What you don’t know, however, is that a part of him really just wants to give you what’s best. 

Lunch went well, and you got to see a much more relaxed side of Bucky which you enjoyed. 

He’s a very intimidating man; perhaps it comes with the power and the way he carries himself as a CEO. But once you get to really spend time with him, you experience his charming and humorous side. You start to wonder what other sides of Bucky Barnes you’ll come across in the next few days. 

“By the way,” Bucky stands, grabbing another box sitting on the counter and hands it to you, “we can check out the beach later at sunset. The view is phenomenal; you’d like it for sure.” 

Confused, you questionably eye the box, unsure of what it is for. He’s not giving you more gifts, is he? 

“Bucky... What’s that for?” 

He glances at the box, furrowing his brows before realizing how strange this probably is for you; him handing you a random box midday. 

“Oh right,” he chuckles,”I realized that I didn’t really tell you to pack swimsuits –– maybe you did, I don’t know, but just to be safe I had some ordered for you.” 

You gape at him with a million thoughts running through your head. Your uneasiness must be evident on your face as he looks at you with concern. Just as he was about to ask you if everything was okay, you beat him to it. 

“Bucky... I don’t think I should... I mean you’ve already given me enough these past few days from the dress and this whole thing.” You gesture at the luxurious house. You appreciate his gifts, really, but your overthinking nature gets the hold of this making you feel a little self-conscious. “I’m grateful for these, I can’t thank you enough. I just don’t want you to think that I’m ––” using him? Taking advantage of his wealth? You didn’t know how to exactly word it, but when his eye his soften, you figure that he understands your implication. 

“Y/N,” he says softly, “I admire you for your... humility and politeness, but you don’t have to worry. I want you to accept these, sweetheart, you deserve it.”  

Your heartbeat quickens at the casual nickname he dropped. It sounded so natural, as if he’d been calling you that in the past. Yet again, it’s probably nothing. There are some people who can casually use words of endearment and maybe he’s just one of them. 

“Thank you, Bucky. This is very thoughtful of you.” You shyly smile, still unsure of how to react with such affectionate gestures. You’re not very used to being treated so kindly, given your past toxic relationships. 

That’s my girl, he wants to say, but that would probably be too soon for that. Instead, he nods in approval and that alone was enough to have you preening. 

- 

You get ready to go to the beach while trying to pick the swimsuit to wear. You packed some of yours, but you figure that it would please Bucky if you wear what he had given you. Plus, they were a lot better than what you originally had. 

You can’t help but notice that all of the swimsuits he gave you were white. It’s perfect because white is actually your favorite color. Bucky doesn’t know that yet; he just really likes seeing you in white. The color is so pure and so innocent – perfect for you. 

You ended up picking a white one-piece with crocheted detailing along the neckline down to your chest. It isn’t too revealing, but it hugs your body perfectly and you feel confident wearing it.

Grabbing a cover up, you hear Bucky knock at your door to which you open immediately. A wave of shiver travels down your spine as Bucky moves his eyes along your body. You’re sure that he’s really just admiring his work – the suit on you, so you try not to dwell on it. 

But he isn’t. 

He’s admiring you. Fuck the swimsuit. It looks good on you, of course, but he’ll rather see you without it. 

He clenches his jaw, somehow hoping that it will relieve the tension he’s feeling. He’s aware that he’s basically eye-fucking you, but he can’t bring himself to look away. Unprofessional, maybe, but he doesn’t care. 

Bucky holds on to the last bit of self-control he has, and with all his willpower, clears his throat and looks back at you. Only to see that you’re also checking him out as well. 

He smirks, feeling less guilty as he catches you doing the same. He knows you’re both just practically dancing around each other, waiting to see who’ll break. (He also knows it’s him.) 

“Ready?” 

You glance back at him and you spot that familiar glint in his eye. Is it hunger? Desire? Whatever it is, you hope you can keep your composure. You cannot jeopardize your work, let alone your relationship with him. 

“Let’s go.” 

- 

The beach was incredible. 

What made it even better was seeing your insanely hot boss shirtless. And wet.  

You were so hot and bothered with just the thought of his defined chest and toned muscles against you that the heat of the sun could not compare. 

Your legs unconsciously press together as it tries to alleviate the tingling sensation between them. Your pussy clenches at the thought of him, and you’re so desperate that you can’t even bring it within yourself to be embarrassed. 

Which is why as soon as you reached his beach house, you hurriedly made your way to your bathroom to splash yourself with cold water. You look at yourself in the mirror with a flushed look on your face, unsure if it’s from the sun or your sinful thoughts. 

What’s wrong with you? 

You’ve had many thoughts about him in the past. Literally he has been the star of your imagination when you touch yourself. But this is different. He’s under the same roof as you, and it’s just a little too risky. 

Hearing a door close, you assume that he’s in his room. The sound makes you pause. 

You glance back at the mirror, your bedroom door, then your bed. 

With the pulsating pressure in your pussy, you won’t be surprised if the wetness trickling down your leg is from your own juices and not from the sea water. 

You both haven’t had dinner so you know that he will probably call you to eat. You’re not sure when, so you debate if you should give yourself some relief now or later. 

You clench once again. Clearly, you wouldn’t last that long. Sitting a few feet apart from him with completely drenched underwear is obviously not a good idea. 

Your gaze hardens at your bed before making your way to it. You can make it. You can bring yourself to your own climax fast. Lying down on the soft cool bed, you cover your mouth with your hand to muffle any sound you might make while the other travels down to cup your sex. 

Bucky can call for you any minute now, so you know you don’t have time to edge and tease yourself. You immediately get on it, rubbing fast circles around your clit with an image of Bucky hovering over you. Your hips buckle wildly against your hand, desperate for release. 

You’re so lost in your own thoughts and pleasure that you don’t hear the knocking outside your door. Bucky waits for a few minutes and starts to wonder if you’ve fallen asleep. He gently opens the door, peeking in and –

Holy. Fucking. Shit. 

He stands frozen by the door, eyes wide, knuckles turning white with his hard grip on the door handle. Talk about a great view. 

Bucky knows it’s wrong. He can’t just watch you pleasure yourself, it’s just inappropriate. But again, you make him do things he has never done before. The sight of your hand on your glistening pussy, looking abused with your back arched was phenomenal. His cock twitches his throat dries at the sight that will forever be imprinted on his mind. 

You gasp, eyes opening up at the ceiling as you feel the familiar coil in your belly snap. You shake through your orgasm, trying to keep your hand between as you rub through it. You’re still unaware of Bucky’s presence, too lost in your own pleasure to be aware of your surroundings. 

Bucky tries his absolute best to close the door, but just as soon as he was going to, he heard his name. He freezes, thinking that you caught him. Luckily, he spots a mirror adjacent to the bed and gives him a view of you. Your eyes are now closed, breathing heavily as you reach the end of your high. 

He takes rapid breaths when he realizes that you were fantasizing about him. 

And holy shit does he find that the hottest thing ever. 

He closes the door as he continues to catch his breath, back leaning against the wall right beside your room. For a moment, he finds himself in a daze and forgets how to function. His eyes are screwed  shut as the image of you panting his name while rubbing yourself kept replaying in his mind. 

Bucky doesn’t know how long it’s passed, but he doesn’t even react when you open the door. He’s still breathing heavily as his eyes bore at you, dark and full of lust. 

Your eyes are filled with worry, wondering if something bad happened while you were indulging. You open your mouth to ask him what’s wrong until you catch. a glimpse of his hardened cock through his shorts. 

Oh. 

As if you just haven’t had your release, your pussy clenches at the sight. You’re unsure of how to react. Your mind is spiraling with your hot boss with a painfully hard boner staring at you with lust and hunger. 

The sight is enough to make you rub your legs together, making Bucky groan as he notices the movement. 

Well aren’t you a greedy girl. 

“Buck ––” you gasp when he traps you against the wall, pushing his hips against your front making you buck your own against him. He hisses, closing his eyes at the sensation. 

Heavy breathing fills the hallway. He hovers his lips closely against yours, your eyes flickering at how delicious they look. 

“If you want me to stop, just push me away, Y/N. Please, I need to know.” His voice is strained, trying to keep it together. All he wants to do is rip that swimsuit of yours and fuck you raw against the wall. 

In response, you grind against him once again, making him grip your hips tighter as a warning. 

“Please,” you breathe out, “please, Bucky.” 

“Please what, Darlin’?” His lips trail along your neck, forming goosebumps all over your body. “What is it you want me to do?” 

You let out a moan when he sucks just below your ear. He surely left a mark, but you don’t care. He can do anything and you’d let him. He makes eye contact with you, grinding against your core, urging you to answer him. 

“Whatever you want,” you gasp, “I’m all yours, James.” 

A/N: BITCHASS NEXT CHAPTER IS THE START LOCK UR DOORS AND CLOSE UR BLINDS!!!!!

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[billie-harper7]

Albums of 2019

Thankyou so much @ayixha!!

It’s taken me so long to choose only 9 because there’s been over 30 albums I’ve loved so much this year and couldn’t decide between. I’ve narrowed it to one per artist but even still, it was very difficult😂

I also apologise for this being v v v long, you only have to list your 9 favourites but I got carried away ranting about them, as per. You can just scroll past if you want😂

1) City Lights - BAEKHYUN

My favourite album of the year. No doubt. Despite being a mini album with only 6 songs, I love each so much and could never get tired of them. An album I can listen to in every mood. Going out out? Going to sleep? Getting ready on a morning? Trying to study? Relaxing? It works (for me, anyway).

Not what I expected from his solo music after discovering SuperM & EXO but very pleasantly surprised. So smooth, so chilled?? Sexy? Absolute heaven. Baek’s voice is just something else entirely. Idk man, this album’s just a lot.

Favourite song/s: them all, I couldn’t honestly choose any in particular.

2) SuperM The 1st Mini Album - SuperM

I was hesitant when I first saw all the promos for SuperM but when I actually listened to the album?? Wow wow wow. All 5 of the songs are so catchy, listen to this album once and you’ll most likely be singing, humming or dancing to them for days. Even the 2 instrumentals are lovely to listen to.

My brother who hates kpop refers to Jopping as 'the one with the cars and helicopter' and doesn't mind this song at all which says a lot (I've decided it's my gateway to get him into more lol).

I’m also very thankful that this album introduced me to 4 other groups and many albums this year, 3 of which made it onto this list.

Favourite song/s: also them all? Although Jopping, I Can’t Stand The Rain & Super Car are my most listened to this year. 

3) April, and a flower - CHEN

I literally discovered this album about three weeks ago?? I also did not expect Chen’s solo works to sound like this after listening to EXO but it’s honestly perfect. 

I don’t normally listen to this kind of music but his voice is so delicate and soothing? He could sing absolutely anything. Every song is so beautiful and calming, the perfect playlist for relaxing and/or falling asleep to.

Favourite song/s: Flower, Beautiful goodbye & I’ll be there

4) The Balance - Catfish and the Bottlemen

I kinda stopped listening to CATB for a while when I found kpop as I was constantly discovering new artists. Around September/October I disconnected with kpop for a little while and when I found this album I listened to it for weeks on end.

Not a single song to skip and I happily listen to on a loop. Also one of my go to albums when I’m fancying a change (or when I’m just missing their sound).

Favourite song/s: Longshot, 2all, Sidetrack, Encore.

5) OBSESSION - EXO

My first EXO comeback and boy, they did not disappoint. The title track is absolutely phenomenal and I’ve had it stuck in my head since its release (how can you not?) but the entire album is such a great listen. It’s just, different? I can’t even explain how but it’s so distinct and exciting, I love it.

Also the most intriguing group I've discovered this year with all their different sounds, personalities, sub units and solo works, very looking forward to everything's that's coming up next year.

Favourite song/s: Obsession, Trouble, Ya Ya Ya & Baby You Are.

6) MIRRORS - Jackson Wang

An emotional rollercoaster of an album that I’m so grateful to have been on. It has songs that’ll make you want to cry (BULLET TO THE HEART, ON THE ROCKS, I’m talking about you), songs that’ll have you dancing and feeling like that bitch, songs that’ll make you soft, songs that’ll get you thinking.

I feel like he put so much into this album, so thankyou Jackson Wang. I love you.

Favourite song/s: BULLET TO THE HEART, ON THE ROCKS & DWAY!

7) MAP OF THE SOUL: PERSONA - BTS

The first kpop album I ever listened to (and bought!!). I found BTS as the second teaser for Boy With Luv was released and without them, I wouldn’t be on here and have come across so many lovely people. Nor would I have discovered all the music and artists I now couldn’t go without, so this album is very special to me.

Probably one of my most played albums of the year too, I love each song so much and it never fails to get me all giddy and hyper like a child (don't put Boy With Luv on around me unless you wanna see me rip the choreo to shreds).

Favourite song/s: I choose them all.

8) TREASURE EP.FIN: All To Action - ATEEZ

This was also my first ATEEZ comeback and having waited what felt like forever, it was so, so worth it. While their other 2 2019 albums could’ve made it onto my list, this is by far my favourite.

I remember listening for the first time going ‘this song is my favourite’ then played the next song like ‘nevermind, this is it’, which happened for practically each track.

Even the 3 shorter tracks are amazing (I don’t know what you call them, there are words so I can’t call them instrumentals?? But you know what I mean).

AND I ALSO GOT ATEEZ TICKETS FOR LONDON SO CATCH ME SOBBING WATCHING THEM PERFORM LIVE, LIKE WHAT IS HAPPENING???

Favourite song/s: WONDERLAND, MIST, WIN & SUNRISE.

9) The Book Of Us: Entropy - DAY6

Another album I only really found last month (through Sweet Chaos). I’m pretty new to kpop this year and I’ve not heard anything like DAY6 before, I’m in love. My housemates compare their sound to McFly and honestly, I can hear it. 

I cannot praise them and this album enough. I’ve a feeling I’ll be listening to this one years from now. 

Favourite song/s: I honestly can’t pick ahh, but Sweet Chaos is my most played. 

And here’s the other albums I wanted to put into this list (so you can see the stuggle I had picking only 9 oops):

Divinely Uninspired To A Hellish Extent (extended ver.) - Lewis Capaldi

MTV Unplugged Live - DMA’S

Without Fear - Dermot Kennedy

Call My Name - GOT7

TREASURE EP.3: One To All - ATEEZ

TREASURE EP.2: Zero To One - ATEEZ

FOLLOW - FIND YOU - Monsta X

Take 2. We Are Here - Monsta X

Dear my dear - CHEN

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[disneydreamlights]

Hey so I went off in the tags but I don’t think I talked about it here.

So let’s talk about the new Lion King songs, or actually basically the six old ones that existed prior to the movie.

And yes, by the way, I’m very salty.

Positives:

He Lives in You is in the movie. For those who don’t know it’s a song that started in the Broadway musical and eventually made it into the sequel. It’s a very good song that deserves every bit of attention it’s getting. And it’s a very good rendition of the song too. The lack of nostalgic ties makes it easier for me to recognize it for what it is and that’s amazing.

Circle of Life is an exact remake of the original song just with a new vocalist. I’m sure you expected me to consider this a negative but you cannot improve on perfection so the fact that they instead decided to replicate it is a good decision. I still stan Circle of Life.

Can You Feel the Love Tonight surprised me? I didn’t expect to like it and while I find the additions they added to Pumbaa’s lines a little grating when Simba and Nala are singing they steal the show. Beyonce’s voice also was really good in this song, which was another surprise since it’s very different than the stuff you normally hear her sing (R&B is very different from showtunes). She has a voice that fits a wide variety of genres and that in and of itself is impressive.

Overall they didn’t change the background melodies much. They’re still very clearly recognizable and this shouldn’t be important but literally if you’ve heard the A Whole New World remake where the singers were phenomenal and it would’ve been great except they turned the background music into bland terrible badness, you know why this is important. None of these songs have bland background tracks and are very faithful to their originals, probably the most faithful of all the Disney remake songs thus far, with one exception.

Negatives:

They ruined the best Disney villain song ever. With the lackluster effort they put into Be Prepared (spoiler alert, it’s fucking terrible) they might as well have not included the song. It doesn’t feel like a song, it’s just a poor mockery of the phenomenal and fun original. I hate it.

I Just Can’t Wait to be King lacks the same energy of the original. The baby Simba and Nala voices are actually really good and they did a great job with it but Zazu’s voice actor stays to serious. It’s boring and lacks the same staccato and energetic feel that the original does. As a result it feels too slow in contrast to the upbeat and fast paced singing and background of the song. The effect is further contrasted by the fact that several portions of the song in the latter half (Anything Zazu’s solo part) almost feels like they’re trying too hard to make it a Disney epic while also trying to keep it lighthearted and fun, but it’s not a combo that works because it forgets what makes the song fun to begin with. It’s not necessarily bad, it’s just a decision I don’t care for. I’m assuming it’s going to be similar for the scene as well, which is a shame since it’s one of the most fun pieces of Disney animation.

Hakuna Matata is...bad. There’s far too much banter between Timon and Pumbaa that it detracts from the song and paying attention, and almost none of it was funny. One line got a chuckle for a highly personal reason because the idea of Pumbaa being “Brad” (the most fuckboy name of all time imo) is just honestly hilarious, especially when you take into account I had a fairweather friend named Brad. In fact there was one line that took an actually funny joke (“And I got downhearted” “How did you feel” “Everytime that I--” “Pumbaa, not in front of the kid” “Oh, sorry”) from the original song and actually took a shot at it. (”Everytime that I farteeeeeeed aren’t you gonna stop me?” “No I’m not”) And it wasn’t funny, it was downright mean spirited. Like I didn’t hate it as much as I did Be Prepared, but it pissed me off anyways.

Other:

Did not listen to any new songs from the movie. I believe it’s just Beyonce’s solo but the point of my listening to the soundtrack was to assess the old songs since the new songs Disney has made for its rereleases (Evermore, Speechless, etc) tend to be pretty solid overall so long as they’ve had the vocalist to back it up (which with Beyonce they definitely do)

Anyways I didn’t really have a lot of hope for this remake and this didn’t really give me any reassurances. Kinda did the opposite. More trash from people who didn’t understand what made the original great and change things for the sake of answering nonexistent questions and “perceived plotholes” while taking jabs at earlier Renaissance Disney for things that don’t deserve jabs are on the horizon.

It’s actually sad because Circle of Life gave me hope because it was the first I listened to because I was looking to be salty, and then I was pleasantly surprised by Can You Feel the Love Tonight and He Lives in You, then that hope just got dashed by the latter half of my listening spree.

(Interestingly enough, this broke the trend from BatB though where the more I liked a song in the original the more I hated it in the remake. My song ranking list remains about how it was, just with Be Prepared being last instead of third. My favorite songs from the movie remained unscathed.)