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[fleursbending]

𝐒𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐒𝐨𝐮𝐥, 𝐃𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐁𝐨𝐝𝐲. | Neteyam Sully

𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭 : Hi, I was wondering if you could write a Neteyamxhuman!reader where the reader takes the bullet for Neteyam, so they transport her soul to her avatar and they become really emotional upon waking up and seeing her human body, dead and they all (sully family and metkayina clan) have a funeral for her human body. Neteyam comforts her and mourns with her??

𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 : neteyam x human!reader (eventual na'vi!reader. sully family x reader, ronal x reader (platonic).

𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐬 : thank you @karmascale for requesting this! this was a challenge to write and i hope i did your request justice! i did a few minor tweaks just to make the story flow better. this slightly deviates from the original plot in the movie! feedback is once again, much appreciated - i love hearing ur guys thoughts! this piece is my prized posession 😭😭😭 if there's any mistakes pls lmk! reader is gn!

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 : atwow spoilers, blood, funeral, angst, mourning/grief, eventual fluff, gsw, death, detailed descriptions of pain/slipping in and out of consciousness, seizure.

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 : 5.6k words

𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 : @odessa-is-my-queen

closely helped me through writing this so here is something to listen to if you want to get even more immersed ↷

𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍'𝐓 𝐒𝐔𝐏𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄. That's the only thought that had been drilled into his mind ever since your body had struggled to stay afloat after jumping off the ship.

The once crystal clear blue waters were now tainted with an angry scarlet colour. Neteyam did not know what the source of it was. His heart had sunken, missing a beat when your head had not popped out of the water to cheer with the rest of them.

"Wait, where's Y/n?" Neteyam, panted as he tried to catch his breath.

Prior to all this, he had expressed how you should have gone back to Awa'atlu. But your eyes had a fire that even he couldn't shoot down. His family by definition was yours as well. You just couldn't sit this one out, not this time.

Your struggled gasps answered his question, your head bobbing back underwater only to resurface seconds later.

"Nete, I think I've been shot." You groaned in pain, as you struggled to stay afloat.

"You are such a skxawng, Y/n!" Neteyam cried, immediately swimming over to your side as he helped hold your much smaller body up.

"Hey, that's not nice." You tried to retort jokingly, only to cough up blood right after you had finished your sentence.

You weren't supposed to be there. Your link machine was experiencing issues, Norm was fixing it. Tuk, and Kiri, had brought you out to the ocean as you waited. You've been begging to see baby Ilu's ever since the Metkayina clan allowed you, Norm, and Max to stay behind after Kiri's seizure. Now seemed like the perfect time to do so, but they couldn't have been more wrong about their decision.

When you three had seen Lo'ak rushing off to warn Payakan about the tracker. Your friends not trailing too far behind him, you all joined too. You believed Lo'aks words from before, you didn't know such brutal consequences would come from such actions.

It was you and Neteyam who fled to drop the tracker further away, only to witness in horror as your friends were trapped in a net, being lifted by Ikrans and dropped on the large ship.

Only months ago were you all held captive, but the stakes are larger than life now. You were horrified. Neteyam curated a plan, only on the ship to cut them out of their restraints. Then you'd all head back together. But Lo'ak wanted to save Spider, and a sky-person turned Na'vi was blocking your freedom back into the water.

You weren't supposed to be there. He thought he got you out there safely, how stupid of him to think that.

His amber eyes caught sight of your gunshot wound when he and Lo'ak pulled you on top of Tsireya's Ilu. His world was crumbling around him, and all he could do was apply pressure.

"It hurts!" You grunted, the pain like nothing you've ever experienced before.

"I know, I know. I'm so sorry, Y/n." Neteyam shushed you, trying to give you some comfort while calming his own worries.

His father's words began to repeat in his mind from the training lessons he used to teach his kids when they were far younger. This one focused on sky-people and the type of weapons they use. The damage it can cause.

"Son, a bullet wound is deadly - only if there is an exit wound."

How did a bullet even hit you? It should have been him. Now he felt like he was paying the price.

Neteyam cursed to himself, yaymak.

"We must bring Y/n back! They can help them there!" Lo'ak interjected, trying to get everyone's attention. He was worried for his friend who wasn't even in their Avatar body. The tensions were through the skies that gloomed down on you all.

Tsireya, clutching onto her dear friend for life - nodded hastily. Yipping at her Ilu, they made haste back to their village.

Neteyam previously thought his greatest loss was the time he missed out with you. But now there was a chance of truly losing all of you. He couldn't bare the weight that train of thought held over him.

When his parents had told them that they'd have to leave all they'd ever known. He knew you wouldn't follow in their footsteps. They didn't even have a foolproof plan. And it would be too dangerous for you, your avatar was not ready yet.

He wanted to stay, but his family needed him now - more than ever before. They wouldn't allow it anyway.

"I will wait for you, Nete." You had told him, speaking so softly. Your words were full of warmth, full of promise. You sounded so sure, and it reassured him so much. He was utterly devoted to every fiber of your being. You already encompassed his entire mind. Each decision he had been making lately that would benefit his future, always circled back to you.

If he closed his eyes he'd still remember every minor detail of that day. The day he had to say goodbye. It was gutwrenchingly beautiful.

You stood on a tree trunk, and he wanted to curse Ewya for having to make humans wear masks. Because as your tiny hands grasped his face, his fists clenched in sheer desperation to caress yours. But he couldn't, not with that damned mask in the way.

Instead he opted for tucking a stray braid behind your ear, leaning down to place a kiss on your forehead. His hands hovered over yours above his face, before grasping them. You'd never get over how they dwarfed yours, how it felt to bask in his warmth. It felt like a reminder from Ewya that you were destined to be together.

You could see the tears he was trying not to shed, and feel the way his hands were slightly shaking. His ears laid flat, tail hung low. And it felt like a punch in the gut, a harsh reminder of not knowing when he would come back here.

The fear of not knowing when you'd be in each other's presence again.

His gaze kept traveling between every feature of your face. The boy did not have any artistic ability in his bones, but he'd be utterly dumb to not remember every minute detail that he had fallen for.

This wasn't earth, there were no devices that could reach as far as they were hoping to go. No mailing system. They'd have to rely on their trust for one another this time.

With purpose, you held his chin. "I. Will. Wait. For. You." You had annunciated every word.

Determination flickered in his eyes, and his hands held onto your mask, the part that covered your cheeks. You blushed, he'd never done that before.

"I will wait for you, Y/n." He declared as his forehead met yours.

"Come on, bro!" Y/n suddenly said, wait what?

His shoulders were being shaken, and he was brought back into the harsh reality.

"Hop on!" Lo'ak tugged on his arm, as he and Spider waited for him. Neteyam swung himself onto his Ilu. They raced back to shore.

He briefly saw Ronal ushering a member of the Metkayina clan who was holding his Y/n, into a mauri.

He started to head towards them with Spider when he realised Lo'ak wasn't following. He quickly turned around and beckoned him over, only to witness him hopping back on his Ilu.

"What are you doing?" Neteyam hissed at him.

"I have to go back for Tuk and Kiri! They are still there, mum and dad as well." Lo'ak explained.

"I'm coming with you." Spider walked back over, Lo'ak wanted to argue about it - but knew they didn't have time.

He could see the conflict in his older brother's eyes.

"I got this brother. I know that doesn't feel reassuring. because I usually don't. But this is our family, I won't fuck this up." Lo'ak insisted, he didn't want to risk a slim chance of potentially losing anyone else.

"Lo'ak...-" Neteyam tried to change his younger brother's mind.

"Please, trust me. You're going to regret not being here if Y/n gets worse." Lo'ak contested, he knew he was right.

Neteyam shut his eyes, taking in a deep breath. Contemplating his choices, he knew what he had to do.

"Go, but be alert. This isn't a raid back home!" Neteyam said.

Lo'ak nodded in acknowledgment, turning his Ilu and heading back to the ship in the distance along with Spider.

When they were nothing but a speck in the distance, he quickly rushed over to the mauri he saw Y/n and Ronal enter.

He rushed in, his heart somersaulting at the sight before him. You were pale, too pale. Your chest barely rises up and comes back down. He could tell you were on the verge of losing consciousness.

"Please mother, let me ask for the humans!" Tsireya begged as she continued to try to stop the bleeding.

"Fine, go get them." Ronal allowed it, continuing to do her ritual.

Tsireya was about to get up, but Neteyam stopped her.

"I can do it." He mumbled.

He made sure his comms were on the channel that had a connection with both his parents, Norm, and Max.

"Norm, Max.-" his voice choked up.

"I don't know what you are doing right now, but Y/n is dying. I need you to come to the chief's house, now! I don't- I don't know what you need to bring but just what you can! Please!" Neteyam pleaded as he fell by your side, his fingers running through your hair.

Blood splatter was speckled on the inside of your mask, and you blinked slowly in response to his barely there touch. Gazing up at him, a pained smile graced your face.

"Neteyam, is that you?" You asked.

"It's me, I'm here," Neteyam replied, tearing up at your whimpers of pain.

"We're on our way! Eta is 3 minutes!" Norm's rushed voice sounded through his comms.

"Tell her we are here. I am here." Neytiri's voice sounded forced, holding in the emotions she was truly feeling at that present moment.

"Okay, okay. Mom is with you, she is rooting for you. You hear me, Y/n? We all are!" He hoped his words were giving you strength, he felt like anything he could potentially do wouldn't be enough. Neteyam could only pray to Eywa that his mother would be okay after what she had just heard.

Neytiri loves you like you were her own, to this day she cannot pinpoint why she held such prejudice towards Spider but not you. Maybe because his father killed her own and the fact he had destroyed her clan's sanctuary.

Your mother and father were fierce, in a sense they were seen as warriors through her eyes. Alongside Trudy, they had pioneered the revolution against Colonel Quaritch and his followers. Y/n's mother had worked side by side with Grace, while your father worked on the front lines.

Right before the battle, she had confided in Neytiri.

"I am with child. If anything ever happens to my family, please take care of her." Neytiri took this newfound information in and agreed, deep down only hoping for the best. They were some of Neytiri's and Jake's greatest allies.

But Y/n's father was killed taking a stand, and with too much sorrow in her heart. Y/n's mother carried you to full term. Only to pass away after being with you for the first three months of your life. Neytiri nurtured you alongside Neteyam. She too just like Neteyam, could only pray to Ewya that you'd be okay.

"I'm scared," you spoke so quietly that if he wasn't as close to you as he was. He wouldn't have heard you at all.

"It's okay to be scared, I've got you. You're going to be okay." Neteyam emphasised with you, trying to offer more alleviation to such a dire situation.

"We're here- fuck." Norm cursed, as Max unpacked a few things.

"Nete, I'm tired. I want to go to sleep." Drowsiness was tempting you, and the pain was beginning to fade into nothingness.

"No! You must stay awake!" Neteyam tapped on your mask, but your eyes rolled to the back of your head.

You started to seize.

Ronal and Tsireya continued to chant, as Norm turned her on her side.

"There's too much blood, Max!" Norm shouted.

It poured out like a languid waterfall, strangely just like some of the ones back in the forest. He felt the dread tugging at him, he was losing you.

He held your head to stop you from potentially hurting yourself even more when suddenly your body slumped. Your breaths come out in wheezes.

Neteyam could no longer hold back his tears, he had never felt so helpless and petrified. He wished the rest of his family was here, in a room full of people - he felt stranded.

Max clocking onto this, pitched out a thought. "I don't know if it will work, but I have an idea." He held a flashlight above Y/n's eyes as he spoke.

"What is it? We'll make it work." Neteyam insisted. He would do whatever it takes to be able to rid you of this agony.

Ronal eyed the boy, understanding his struggles. Then stared at the humans who were fumbling over Y/n's body, using foreign devices.

"You wish to transfer Y/n's soul to their avatar," Ronal replied as she listened to your heart. It was weak, but still persisting.

Max gaped at her, the Tshahik must have put two and two together.

"We cannot save Y/n from these injuries, they are fatal. That is the only way." Max further explained, not meeting Neteyam's eyes. He knew what he was suggesting was an ultimatum larger than life. But he could not see any other way, you were already advancing further in succumbing to your wounds.

"What you are asking of me is something that has only been done a few times, not once has it been performed in our clan. As the Tsahik I cannot guarantee this will be successful!" Ronal protested as she continued to tend to you however way possible.

Tsireya continued to plug Y/n's wounds, listening in, as Neteyam hesitantly let go of your hand. Moving to Ronal, he kneeled down before her.

Ronal noted one thing, the eyes she was looking into were drastically different from how she remembered them moments ago. Now it was untamed, yet persistent.

"I know my family has caused enough destruction. I know you never wanted us here in the first place. You believed we would not do our part, and I cannot fault you for thinking that way. We have learned your ways, adapted like my father did." He then motioned to you behind him.

"So will Y/n. In your eyes, sky people come from demon blood, but their parents fought on Toruk Makto's side. They made a difference, just like Y/n has started to do here. Y/n is an excellent fisher and healer. The children in this clan have warmed up to them. Because that's the effect they have on people! I swear, if you give them this second chance, they will be forever grateful. And if it doesn't go the way we wish for it to, I will not put the blame on you. The decision of whether or not she passes through the 'Eye of Eywa' only lies with our great mother." Neteyam held his chin up high, not bothering to wipe away the tears that began to stream down his face.

Ronal looked at Neteyam for a few more beats, before shifting to look at you.

"Prepare them for travel, we do not have much time before they get too weak for the transfer." Neteyam cried out in relief, thanking the great mother as he moved back over to you.

"Stay with me, just a little more Y/n," Neteyam begged, squeezing your hand encouragingly.

"I can't feel anything Neteyam, please I'm scared." You whispered to him, and he tried to put on a strong face. But he couldn't even imagine how scared you must be if he was already paralyzed with fear. All he could do was pet your head. and give you continuous kisses on your hair and forehead. Ewya, please be with us right now.

"Where are they?" Neteyam could hear his mother calling for them outside.

"In here!" He beckoned them over.

"Tsireya, get your father and gather whoever can come with us. We must leave to the Coves of the Ancestors, now." Ronal advised her child.

She quickly halted what she was doing and dashed outside of the mauri.

Neytiri's hand fell to her mouth at the sight of you, weeping as Jake whispered comforting words to her.

"Mother." Neteyam looked up at her, not knowing how to proceed from here.

"Ronal, may I bring her on my Ikran?" Neytiri in just a single moment changed face. Time was of the essence.

"Yes, you have not been where we are going. Follow along with us." Ronal commanded, gathering her things and getting ready to ride.

At this point you were slipping in and out of consciousness, but Tsireya had been able to temporarily stop the bleeding. Neytiri cradled you in her arms as she walked outside, calling for her Ikran.

The Sully family and Metkayina clan made their way to the Cove of the Ancestors. Ronal could not shake the feeling she had thought. That no matter what - they would end up holding a funeral there tonight. She dared not to voice such feelings.

Neytiri stayed leveled, flying closely side by side with Jake and Neteyam. She kept looking down at you through the short journey, checking on you. She wasn't the only one who was doing so though. Neteyam as well kept a close eye on you. Sometimes his Ikran would brush too closely to Neytiri's. She let it slide this time.

The last time Neteyam was here, you were in your Avatar body. You both had a deep love for sacred places to the Na'vi, and this one wasn't any different. Neither of you has heard of the place before, but it didn't squash the appreciation you both had for it. He recalls not just being in awe of his surroundings, but also of you. Your eyes held something remarkable, full of wonder. You'd given him one of your big grins, the one that only comes out in times like this. Your deep appreciation for monumental sites like this made him think of how your heart was just pure gold.

"You'd make a great Tsahik one day", is something he had cheekily said to you. In return you gave him a smack on the shoulder, scolding him. He harbored such great memories from that day, he loved it. He could only desire to relive that instead of all this.

The wind swooshed in her ears, but Neytiri faintly heard you say, "I like it here." She grinned down at you tearfully.

Truthfully, you don't know much about where you came from, to you - Pandora was and always will be your home. Nothing could compare to the beauty it beholds.

"Me too," Neytiri spoke wistfully.

You all were approaching the spirit tree, submerged in the ocean. It glowed like no other. The clan began to make a circle around it, linking their arms.

"Jake, we have their avatar!" Norm called from a rock not too far from the tree that they were safely able to land on. They had left before everyone else to get there ahead of time.

Jake flys down to them, retrieving your avatar.

Neytiri and Neteyam go to the same rock. They step off their Ikrans as Neytiri treats them like a feather. Your whimpers of discomfort do not go unnoticed.

Ronal and Tonawari approach them with a large leaf of sorts.

"You may place her in here," Tonowari told them.

You looked peaceful, too peaceful. You were placed in the leaf, as Ronal began to float you closer to the Spirit tree. The Sullys closely followed behind their Tsahik.

"Jake, attach their avatar to the spirit tree" Ronal ordered.

Jake nodded, placing a mask on your Avatar and activating it - an idea of Norms and Max as you would be underwater for an unknown amount of time. He connected your queue to the tree, the closest he could to the surface.

"We must put them to sleep for the ceremony to start. If you'd like to say anything to them, now is the time." Ronal gave you moments of privacy, swimming over to members of the Metkayina clan to further explain what was going on.

Neteyam couldn't remove his eyes from your Avatar that was shifted with the current of the ocean. Swaying whilst attached to the Spirit Tree, he'd never seen your Avatar look so lifeless.

Jake waved him over, "Neteyam, they are asking for you."

Tuk was crying, her head leaning against your own. You quietly spoke to one another, even while in agony - you managed to make the youngest Sully giggle.

Neteyam drew closer to you, even if you were facing away from him. Like clockwork, you felt his presence. Your head slightly turning to acknowledge him.

Tuk moved back, latching onto Lo'ak as she cried into his shoulder. The entire Sully family have given words of encouragement to Y/n, Jake especially - explaining the process and how it felt passing through "The Eye of Eywa". He could only pray you'd get that far. He was truly hoping this wouldn't be a repeat of Grace Augustine.

"This is not goodbye. When you wake up, I will be by your side the entire time. You are not alone. Oel ngati kameie." He stated, headstrong - like his father.

Neteyam wanted to wipe away your tears, he wanted to lean his head against yours without the obstruction of the mask. He realised that very soon, it could be possible. If you make it through this, that is.

"Neteyam I-I, Oel ngati kameie." You stuttered, voice cracking. That was all you can manage.

Ronal expectantly surveyed the Sullys, Neteyam nodded. It's time.

"We will now begin the consciousness transfer. Neteyam, connect them to the Spirit Tree. You may rest for the time being, Y/n." Ronal announced, everyone, witnessing their mighty Tsahik.

Your eyes fluttered shut, Neteyam looked at his family, before taking a deep breath and bringing their limp body to the Spirit tree.

His eyes widened as one of the leaves reached out, attaching itself to your back. Eywa, are you here? A comforting hand met his shoulder, his foundation. His family.

The Sullys linked their arms as Neytiri and Neteyam held onto you.

The Spirit Tree was alive, its light brightening a tenth fold. Flickering, as it seemed to react to the chanting of the clan. The Sullys could only cling onto each other more tightly as each leaf on the spirit tree lit up. It was fascinating to witness, they were just hoping it would work.

Before they knew it, the lights ceased. Ronal from above the surface halted everyone, before diving down to where you were. Tonowari, Tsireya, and Ao'nung trailed behind. They all looked to you expectantly, hoping for any sort of sign.

Gasping you awaken, struggling to catch your breath as you immediately check your surroundings. Neteyam almost choked on the water as your eyes opened, he tried to get your attention but you were too lost in your own world.

You were in the water, but how were you breathing? The mind-numbing pain was gone, and you definitely felt different. You were trying to remember and process whatever had just happened. Oh yes, the ceremony. It must have not worked, you're still wearing a mask.

By instinct your hands move to cover your face in shame, instead, you see that it's your avatar's hands. You tilt your head down, the legs, feet! It's all blue. Did it actually work?

Neteyam swan closer to your side, pointing upwards. Signing to you to swim up to the surface, you nodded. Detaching your queue, you made your way to the surface - the Sullys except Neytiri followed behind closely.

This time when your head pops out from the water, there is no bullet wound. You weren't bleeding out, you were truly Na'vi. You've miraculously been given a second chance at life.

You removed your mask as grateful tears streamed down your face. You gaped at Ronal and the Metkayina clan, "Thank you, thank you so much." You spoke to them all, signing "I see you".

When you reached Ronal, you brought her into a hug. The soon-to-be mother of a 3rd child was in shock, looking at Tonowari. The man could only grin, urging his mate to return the hug. And so, she did just that.

"Y/n!" Tuk screamed in delight as she swam over to you, you disconnected from Ronal. Mouthing "thank you again", she let a smile slip as she took in your words.

You hugged Tuk, looking at Neteyam over her shoulder. He was looking at you, differently. It was expected that he was always more attentive towards you. It felt all too similar to when he tried to remember every piece of you before parting ways. He was in disbelief.

Neytiri came up from behind Neteyam, a large leaf in her grasp as Jake helped console her.

Neteyam let Y/n lean their head on his shoulder as he squeezed you, kissing your cheek. They all realised what exactly, or who Neytiri was carrying.

Your human body.

You didn't want to look, it felt far too strange to do so. While your avatar still held features very similar to that of your human self, most of what resembled your parents felt futile. It just wasn't the same anymore, and it never would be again.

You felt grateful that you were already aware of how it felt to live amongst the Na'vi in an Avatar body. Navigating this body isn't rocket science, you've been in and out doing so these past few months.

Tsireya comes, with a handful of flowers and seashells. She delicately spreads them around in the leaf.

"In our village, we give back energy to the ocean, the sea will allow their past self to rest peacefully." Tsireya indicated to the ocean floor beneath you all that held a yellow glow.

Neytiri leans her head down, kissing your now-closed eyelids. She felt a sense of deja-vu creeping up on her. Her family follows her actions, all of them kissing your eyelids, their own unspoken version of goodbye. As Neytiri and Jake brought your human body down to the sea anemone that awaited for you, all you could think and wish for - was more time.

You didn't understand why the circumstances had to be like this. As you watched that version of yourself begin to disappear, it physically felt like a part of yourself went with it.

Y/n no longer felt naive to Pandora. They knew more than most about this beautiful luxury. Now that they'd been gifted with a body that was stronger, and more capable. They would stand with their chin held high and fight. Just like their parents had done.

Slowly everyone disperses, making their way back to Awa'atlu. Neteyam can see how drained you are, he silently beckons you to follow him. They make their way back to his Ikran, flying back home.

Everyone's asleep. You had tried to do so yourself, but you only got a good hour in before being awoken by the thoughts circling your mind. Poor Neteyam was exhausted, so it didn't take much for you to escape from his hold and make your way outside.

You let yourself sit on the shore, gazing up at the twinkling stars and endless skies. Squinting your eyes, you saw someone making their way back. Ronal.

Her cyan eyes widened seeing you, hopping off her Ilu she walked over.

"Can't sleep?" Ronal inquired at the obviously distraught child.

You shake your head, no.

Ronal sighed, "I understand, today has changed your life. It is good that you have such a strong support system."

All you could muster was a grin, "Thank you, Ronal. I know I've said that countless times today. But I don't know what convincing it took, but I will forever be in debt to you."

This time, it was Ronal who shook her head.

"I am your Tsahik, you have proven to not be useless here. But that Sully boy, he begged for me to do whatever it takes to save you. I'd like to believe Tonowari would have done the same for me if I was one of the good sky people. You are essential to Metkayina, you are one of us now."

She let her hand linger on your shoulder. Before you could get a response in, Ronal was already walking away back to her mauri.

You looked over your shoulder, she'd done the same.

Speaking it out didn't feel enough, therefore you signed it instead.

"Oel ngati kameie." She did the motion in return.

As she walked inside her mauri, someone else caught your attention.

Your Neteyam.

He darted over to you, a worrisome expression plastered on his face.

"What's wrong? Are you in pain?" He blurted out, lifting your arms to check if there were any wounds.

"I am, not physically though. Thank you for worrying about me, Nete. I am mourning what I've lost, what those demons have robbed away from me." You explained to him, your hand movements were erratic as you were still trying to come to terms with everything yourself.

Neteyam clenched his fists, before bringing you into his embrace. You leaned your head over his heart, listening to the steady rhythm. It dawns on you, you could've lost this.

Your grip tightens, truly taking him in as you bring your hands through his braids. You could've lost him.

He seemed to be coming to terms with the same realisation. You heard him sniffling as he breathed you in. You made him lean back, your thumbs following his tears as you gently brushed them away. He nuzzled his face into your hands, his body shaking as he tried to conceal the depth of his emotions.

Neteyam tried to speak, his mouth opening only to close again. You let him reign his thoughts as you continued to gently caress his defined cheekbones.

You gazed into his eyes, they were dark, lost. He seemed worlds away from you..

"I simply cannot live in a world that doesn't have you in it." Neteyam spoke through clenched teeth. Like uttering those words was a physical blow to his gut.

"Nete...-" You tried to offer words of comfort, only to be cut off.

You let him - because you understand him.

He exclaimed. "You are my home! You are my person! It should have been me, Ewya worked her miracles today. But seeing you now, compared to how you just were. I keep doubting if you are even real."

Neteyam could not meet your coaxing eyes, his hands were gripping your arms for dear life. Truth be told, when he had woken up and you weren't there? He had thought the ceremony was a sick joke he had curated to cope. His heart almost gave out when he went outside the mauri only to see you sitting in the same spot you always seemed to endeavor.

"And you are mine, I am here. I am real." You carefully removed his hands from your arms, placing one on your cheek and the other on your heart.

"The great mother has given me a second chance, all thanks to you. Do not beat yourself up for something that was out of your control. We've already lost so much time, I cannot afford to dwell on it any longer." Your words settled in his soul, making itself an oasis there. It was like a thwack to the back of his head, just like the ones you'd do when you scolded him.

You're really here. He could breathe.

You were right, it all has already happened. All you can do is move forward. That you can both do, together. As a pair, you were an unstoppable force.

His eyes that were so lost a few moments ago opened, with newfound sparks of hope. A new sense of purpose. Behind all that flickered rage, directed at the sky people. They would pay for what they've done to you if they crossed each other's paths in life again.

You beamed at him, he looks so radiant at this moment. He let you lean your head on his shoulder as he held your hands in his. He traced random patterns on yours as he looked down at them.

"Tanhi, I forget even now your hands are still smaller than mine." He smirked at you as you snarled at him.

"Shut up, skxawng!" You giggled and he could only grin in return, giving your hands a gentle kiss or two.

Between one another you talked about your favourite memories of when you were human through the rest of the eclipse. Neteyam chuckled at one he was specifically fond of as you continued to rant about it.

As his nose nuzzled into yours, your cheeks became a deeper blue hue at his actions. He couldn't be more grateful for the Great Mother and her ways. Neteyam decided to take this whole experience as the beginning of something else entirely.

Eywa has secured a lifetime with you. His father was right, his family is a fortress. He will no longer take that for granted.

Neteyam may not become the Olo'eyktan like his parents were preparing him for. But wherever either one of you went, the other always followed. He will protect that honour for as long you'll let him, and he hopes it lasts for this life and every other one that the world demands of him.

𝒇𝒍𝒆𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒃𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 ━━━ 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑

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[eitaababe]

Hiiii can i make a request for a possessive neteyam 🥹 i need one where he x reader argue, and he says something hurtful because he’s jealous and reader goes to leave the hut to cool off because she’s hurt but he makes it up to her ;) WINK WINK maybe a little touch of a begging neteyam as well hehe

Dirty filthy nasty talk as well sorry I’m done now LMAO

SOMEONE ELSE !

a/n — hi love! sorry i don't really feel comfortable writing smut with neteyam (or anyone lmao) just yet 😭 so i just made it a lil suggestive at the end i hope that's ok!! / also since the end is suggestive and implied to lead to something neteyam's aged up cause he's a minor and that would be awk🧍‍♂️

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To say you and Neteyam were inseparable was practically an understatement. Ever since you'd met as kids, you always stuck together. You were there for each other when you got your ikrans, even, and you'd always go on rides together. A dynamic duo, people liked to call you.

So of course, when his family left the clan for the safety of everyone, you couldn't just let your mate leave you. So with some convincing and promising that the Sully's would take you in as their own, your parents reluctantly agreed, deciding you could choose your own future.

Though you missed the forrest, being by the ocean was something you'd never experienced before, and it was one of the most beautiful sights you've ever seen. There were so many creatures and the people were different in many ways, you were excited to learn about everything.

However, you grew less and less thrilled when you realized the time you spent with Neteyam would diminish to very little. He was always out and about, getting to ride his ilu and protecting his siblings from those in the village who looked down upon them. He was always so stressed, so tired, that when you did hang out, you always felt like a burden, or an argument would start.

So you started to keep your distance, and as a result, met new people and made new friends. You started to enjoy the presence of a boy named Rotxo, who was allegedly one of Ao'nung's friends. You were skeptic at first, not hearing so good things about his friend, but the more you got to know him, he became a trustworthy friend. He heard all about your struggles with Neteyam, always a good listener and giving good advice.

Although, Neteyam didn't see you and Rotxo's relarionship as anything friendly. In fact, whenever he spotted you two, he could be sulking for the rest of the day. Granted, it was his fault you two haven't been talking as much, and he could probably just have talked to you about it. But he didn't know how, and as a result, you'd found another person to fill his company.

Was he really that easy to replace?

Finally having enough, Neteyam wordlessly grabbed your arm, dragging you away mid-conversation with Rotxo. He ignored your protests and took to a secluded area, stopping only to be met with a harsh glare.

"What the hell, Neteyam?" You shouted, crossing your arms. Yikes. He didn't think that one through. "What's your problem? I was talking to him!"

"Well maybe I don't want you talking to him!"

"Why?" You inquired, annoyed at his antics. "You don't get to decide who I can and can't talk to. I'm my own person. Plus he's my friend. And he's been better company than you, as of late."

His heart dropped at the blow, knowing you were right. "It just makes me uncomfortable, okay? I don't like him being close to you."

"Oh, you don't like someone else enjoying my company? Sorry Neteyam, but I'm not going to wait around alone and close myself off from everyone else just because you refuse to talk to me! I happen to enjoy talking to Rotxo, and there's nothing you can do that will stop me."

"Fine then," he snapped, jealousy overcoming him. "Go! Go be with Rotxo. See if I care," he paused, sinking his fingers into the palms of his fists and unable to stop himself from digging an even bigger whole. "I have others who want my company. There's many metkayina women who would enjoy my presence."

Offended that he would say such a thing, you scoffed, not recognizing the man standing in front of you. "Fine then! Go be with another woman!"

"I will!" He responded without thinking, immediately regretting it when he saw the look on your face.

"I never want to see you again." You seethed, eyes glossy as you walked hastily away from him, leaving a regretful Neteyam.

The days that passed by all felt like a blur, your heart throbbing. Did he really mean that? Was he tired of you? Were you making a mistake when you decided to follow him and his family? Rotxo listened to all your worries, comforting you and helping you avoid Neteyam at all costs.

He kept looking for you, wanting a chance to apologize. He wishes he had just kept his mouth shut, or went after you once you walked away. The scene replayed in his head constantly, thinking of what he could've done different to make you not hate him.

So he waited until after eclipse, and when everyone else went to bed, he went out to the beach, knowing you would be there. You always enjoyed the solitude of nighttime, when nobody else was awake and you could watch the waves peacefully on your own.

Neteyam slowly made his way up to you, awkwardly clearing his throat to grab your attention. When you actually turned around and focused on him he was shocked, wide eyed and speechless. "Um, hi."

"Hi." you curtly responded, ready to leave when he grabbed your hand.

"Please, y/n. I want to apologize." He pleaded.

You gave him a look, as if saying to get on with it. He hesitated, not completely sure what to say. "I'm...i'm sorry. I didn't mean it. Any of it. I was jealous that you were spending more time with Rotxo."

You stayed silent still, making him nervous. "And I don't want another woman," he added, looking you dead in the eye. "I wouldn't dream of it. You are the one I want to be with for the rest of my life. You are kind, sweet, loyal, and have been nothing but the best for me. I took that for granted, so when I saw you enjoying the company of another, it pissed me off. I cannot stand the thought of you being with someone who isn't me." he stopped, and you noticed his eyes starting to glimmer in the moonlight.

"I'm sorry. Truly. And if you don't forgive me I understand." Neteyam finally finished, his chest rising up and down shakily.

"Oh, ma Neteyam," you cooed, taking his face in your hands. You wiped away the tears that fell down his face with your thumbs, kissing where they fell. "I could never want anyone other than you. I just need you to talk to me next time, okay? No more keeping your problems from me. I'm here to help you with your burdens, not hide them."

The boy nodded wordlessly, pressing a chaste kiss to your lips. "I promise, my love. I will never make you feel like I want someone else again."

He then trailed kisses down your jaw, lips softly moving over the skin of your neck. His teeth grazed over it, biting lightly. He chuckled from the soft sound that left your throat, kisses drifting down below your neck. He pressed you against a tree, knee separating your legs.

"Neteyam, not here." You breathed out, not making any attempt to stop him. But, you really didn't want to get caught by anyone in a public area like this.

"Shh, my love," he soothed, hands wafting towards your loincloth. "I'm gonna make it up to you, okay?"

Oh, you were in for a long night.

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a/n — i literally had no idea how to write the ending i'm sorry if it's bad 🧍‍♂️

[lola-bunn1]

it's always been you.

❥ genre: angst-ish? to fluff

You and Lo'ak have been friends for the longest time, after the death of your parents, you were invited to hang out with the sully's way more often, considering they were your parent's friends.

When you were there, Lo'ak was the only one your age, so you hung out with him more than everyone else. Sooner or later, you two became best friends and went everywhere together.

You'd go to the tree of souls and talk about your problems there, you'd ride on your ikrans and fly late at night, sure his parents didn't like it. But Lo'ak was a rebel and he didn't really care.

Later, the sky people came for war again, and the sully's needed to find shelter in a place they don't know about. So you obviously went with them.

You stood with the sully children as they were introduced to the metkayina clan. You learned their ways and helped them around the village.

But something felt off about Lo'ak now. Things were different.

You sat with Neytiri to help her make some food while the others were out for lessons.

"So, what do you think of Awa'atlu?" Neytiri smiled at you, she was always like a mother to you.

"It's nice, the people here are different than our people" You responded

"Yes, they are. But it feels like a refreshing new start, with new people and a new home. I hope the children are getting along well with the others"

Before you could answer, Lo'ak came in

"Hey-guess what I learned? I could ride an ilu now. Check me out on the waves, girl!"

"That might be the most annoying thing you've ever said. Never say that again it's giving me the ick." You teased

Before he could say anything, Tsireya came in as well

"Lo'ak! Come on, it's time for our exercises." She smiled at him, he quickly nodded and walked away with her

You sighed, "Guess you're right Neytiri, your children seem to be getting along with them just fine." you mumbled and left the marui

When you wandered around the island, you found an area nobody went to, and it was the perfect place to relax and have some peace from everything.

You wanted to tell Lo’ak about it, but clearly he didn’t really care to know. So now it was just you, sitting near the waves, staring blankly at the ocean and fidgeting with the bracelet in your hand.

It was a bracelet you had made for Lo’ak, you wanted to give it to him. But he was too busy to even talk to you at this point.

You aren’t supposed to care this much about this. Lo’ak likes being around Tsireya and it wasn’t a problem. She was a beautiful and kind soul, he deserved her.

She was better anyway.

You felt a tear slide down your cheek and were quick to wipe it away, you shouldn’t be crying over something so stupid.

You got up and walked around the village, exploring and wandering on your own since nobody *ahem* was there to go with you.

You quietly hummed to yourself as you collected some seashells you found in the sand, when you suddenly flinched, feeling someone touch you

You turned around to see Ao’nung looking at you with a confused expression

“Uh-did i startle you?” He asked

“No I just twitch for no reason.” You rolled your eyes and kept looking for more seashells

“Well um, I couldn’t help but see you wandering around on your own, I collected some of these” He said as he showed you a collection of seashells

“Why…would you do that?” You furrowed your eyebrows

“I dunno, thought I could maybe help you look around. You can make really nice things with those shells” He shrugged

“Oh…” You muttered to yourself, “okay I guess” you said, and the two of you looked for more, and sparked up some conversation

You had to admit, it was a little weird how Ao’nung was acting. He was usually his smug cocky self, but for some apparent reason he was being nice, and you kind of enjoyed the company you’d been missing ever since you got here.

You two had the best time, you gathered them all up and decided to split them so you can both make some stuff with it. You sat by the ocean and talked about some stuff as well

When Lo’ak was done with his lessons he went to look for you, a little confused as to why you weren’t home. You weren’t exactly familiar with this island

When he found you, even more confusion set in his mind when he saw you talking and laughing with Ao’nung. It wasn’t even confusion, it was an odd feeling, like a mix of anger and sadness.

Something about the fact that you were hanging out with Ao’nung bothered him and he didn’t want it happening ever again.

“So you can make a necklace with them as well” Ao’nung said

“That group of shells would look so pretty on a necklace!” You said with a smile on your face

“What the hell are you two doing?” Lo’ak said with a stern tone

“Oh-hey Lo’ak, we were just talking about the she—“

“I wasn’t asking you.” He said, not even looking at you in the face, his eyes set on Ao’nung

“Uh, same as she said. Just talking about stuff” Ao’nung said

“We’re leaving” Lo’ak grabbed your arm and pulled you up from the ground

“Lo’ak—“

“Listen here, fish lips. Talk to her again, and you’ll get another black eye.” He said, walking away with his hand pulling you away as you mumbled apologies to Ao’nung who was silently nodding at you

Lo’ak finally let go after some time and you pushed him away

“What the hell was that.” You yelled

“What? I saw the way he was looking at you”

“He wasn’t doing anything wrong!”

“Yes he was, he was hanging out with you!” He yelled

“Oh so now I can’t hang out with anybody? What else am I supposed to do when all you do is avoid me and go hang out with your little Tsireya. Go to her, maybe she’ll fix your problem.” You said and began to walk away when he pulled you back

“I don’t want Tsireya.” He said with a serious tone, “Do you seriously not get it?”

“Why wouldn’t you want her? She’s pretty, she’s smart, she’s perfect—“

“I don’t want her because she’s not you, y/n!” He snapped

“What?” You said, taken aback

“You heard me. I don’t want her because she doesn’t make me laugh the way you do, I don’t want her because she doesn’t make me feel warm inside the way you do, I don’t want her because she doesn’t make me feel the way you do, I don’t want her because she’s not you.”

“But Lo’ak—“

“I don’t know what happened to me back there. But I do know that I never ever want to see you with someone that isn’t me. Because I see you, y/n”

It was quiet for a moment, and Lo’ak knew this entire relationship was over. Until a smile rose upon your face

“I see you too” You whispered as the two of you leaned in for a soft kiss

“You don’t know how long I’ve been waiting for you to say those words” He smiled, hugging you tight

“Wait!!” You suddenly said, pulling him with you as you ran somewhere, ignoring his questioning

You two kept running till you found it, the area you’ve been wanting to show him.

“I found this place a while ago, isn’t it nice? Near the ocean, peaceful, nice view”

“It’s perfect” He said, you dug up some sand and pulled something out of the hole

“I made you this” You said, giving him the bracelet, “do you like it?”

“I love it” He said, smiling as he wore the bracelet and kissed you again, and again, and again

“Lo’ak stop it” You giggled as you tried to get away, but he kept pulling you closer, kissing your neck and moving up to your cheeks and lips

“Okay okay, stop it” You chuckled as you lightly pushed him away, “one more thing! You need to go apologize to Ao’nung”

“We both know I’m not doing that” He said

“You have to, Lo’ak! He really didn’t mean any harm, he was just collecting seashells with me! He even showed me where the pretty ones are! Give him a chance, please?” You said, playing with his fingers

“Fine” he sighed and you smiled, “but only for you, ma y/n”

He had you now, and he’s not planning on ever letting you go.

[idcbabyialreadylostmymind]

Rude (Kiri Version)

Pairing- Kiri x reader

Summary- You try to win over your beloveds father who would rather her date someone else.

Warnings- kissing, fluff that it basically

You jump out of bed with a huge smile on your face. Today was the day you were going to ask your beloved, Kiri Sully's father, for permission to be her mate. Some would say it was too traditional but it was the way. You grabbed a necklace that had all kinds of weird colorful rocks that you just knew Kiri would love. You waved your mother and father goodbye as you skipped over to the Sully's so happy.

It was a quiet peaceful morning and it seemed Jake and Kiri were the only ones awake as they sat outside talking. You cough a little and they stand up. Kiri smiled sheepishly at you as you bowed your head. Jake looked at the scene in front of him and squinted his eyes at you. "Here for you." You say handing Kiri the necklace. She touched the rocks as she unclasped the back and put it in and her cheeks deepened in color. "Thank you." She said and you only smiled harder. The cute scene was cut short as Jake spoke.

"Is there any particular reason you've come today?" Your back straightens and you turn to him and give him a hopeful smile. "Yes Mr. JakeSully I would like to know if I have your blessing to be Kiri's mate." You say and Kiri had a look of astonishment on her face. She's been talking about you to her family non-stop.

Jake had a stoic look on his face before he spoke. "No you do not have my blessing and you will never have it."

"Dad!" Kiri spoke trying to go to you but he just pushed her inside covering the curtain that acted like a door.

Your face fell, no. You walk and it seemed your friends Ao'nung, Tsireya, and Rotxo had watched the whole thing unfold. "Oh my Eywa well not everything goes as planned but you've got hundreds of Metkayina girls and guys-"

"I'm not going to give up, Kiri is my love, my light, she completes me and I'll do everything in my power to win over JakeSully." You proclaim to your friends. Tsireya giggled as she clapped her hands together and Ao'nung and Rotxo only shook their heads. "How when he literally said he would never give you his blessing-" Rotxo was cut off by you. "Shut it. I already have a plan.

It was true you had cultivated a plan. First you would show him your strength and ability to take care of his daughter, then if that doesn't work you don't really have a back up plan but it's okay.

"Wait so you don't have a back up plan?" Ao'nung butts into your internal monologue. You roll your eyes as you put your spear down into the water slightly . "Yes– well no but I'm sure when I catch the Dinicthoid I'm sure that he will see I am strong enough to kill this vicious beast. I can protect his daughter, and then I will have his blessing, I hope." You say whispering this last part. "And what am I here to do?" He asked. "To make sure I do not die." You smile before something comes out of the water you yell before clutching your spear. It circled around you and you circled around it. You made your move through the spear into its side; it pierced the side of the creature and blood flooded the water. You stepped closer to the beast as I bled out, it flipped in the water, removing the spear it stopped moving only twitching at times. You whispered a prayer to Eywa before killing the beast off clean.

"See, I told you could do it." You laugh as Ao'nung chuckles, helping you put the dinicthoid onto your ilu.

You caught dinner and there would be a celebration. Two of the youngest warriors caught one of the most dangerous and prized prey. And there you would hope to get Jake's blessing.

The cooks prepared the dinicthoid perfectly and it spread around that you caught it and Kiri smiled before leaning against her father. "See, they are very brave and strong." She whispered to her father as he drank from his cup. "More like stupid they could have died and for what." He scoffed before taking a bite of his dinner.

And there you sat ignoring your food and admired Kiri, it was like she got more beautiful everyday. Her dark blue skin illuminating in the nightlight of Pandora, and her capturing smile that lit up the whole room, was so perfect.

Kiri waved toward you and you did the same before giggling. Jake stood up walking towards you and your smile fell as did her's. "H-hi Mr. Sully." You say and he just glares. "I need to talk to you." He said before walking away and to the beach. You scrambled yourself up and ran after him looking at Kiri who had bug eyes and a terrified look on her face.

Jake stood there in front of the waves as did you. It was silent and your eyes fell.

"I do love her." You say.

He looks at you confused. "What?" He asked and you looked at him with a gentle smile on your face and tears in your eyes.

"I love her. More than anything in the world. I would shout it from the top of the world if I could. If she wanted me to leave and never come back I would, if she wanted me to never talk again I would, I am utterly and completely in love with your daughter. She is my heart, she is what makes me feel alive, she fires my soul. And it may be stupid to be this in love but call me stupid I love her so much it hurts." You confess to the man who denied his blessing.

His expression was of disbelief, shocked most of all. "Really?" You hear a voice that makes your face light up, Kiri.

You both turn to her and your cheeks darken had she heard all of it? You shake your head shyly and she runs up to you as you did, wrapping you into a tight hug. "I see you." She whispers into your ear and your ears perked up and your eyes widened love-blown pupils. "And I see you." You whisper back.

Jake stood there in utter disbelief, his baby girl was finally a grown up and found love. He choked back the tears that threatened to fall as he walked back to the party.

As he walked back you brought Kiri closer, tucking a stray hair behind her ear before giving her a small kiss. Pulling away as soon as she tries to deepen the kiss, you giggle at her eagerness as she laughs as well.

From afar Jake and Neytiri met at the edge of the party watching you hug each other. "She's all grown up." Jake said to Neytiri who only smiled. "It is a good thing Ma' Jake" She whispered as she pulled him back into the party. Leaving you two dumb and in love.

[the-inkwell-variable]

friday kiss tag ˚.⋆

thank you, @the-golden-comet, for the tag! i'm trying something a little different today. today, i'm writing a scene from scratch instead of grabbing something from a wip. i desperately need the warm-up, and i think @leahpardo-pa-potato might actually riot if i keep avoiding the kisses (i'm teasing of course, ilu <3) consider the following part of the corpse and the killer - and hopefully enjoy! (SIDE NOTE: kia calls jason 'jas'. it's pronounced 'jase'. the e makes it look weird so i leave it off, but that makes it look like 'jass' and i hate that. idk man read it how you want i'm not a cop) TAGGING @drchenquill - @wyked-ao3 - @willtheweaver - open tag!

"I will fix it."

"Are you kidding me?" Kia stared into the soulless glowing slits that served as eyes. As long as he wore that mask, it was easy to forget who was underneath - easy to blame, to hate, to rage against. "Did you already forget how badly you've fucked Gotham City? In one night - one fucking night - you've blown up Ace Chemicals-"

"That was Batman."

"-set every major villain loose in the streets-"

"Not every major villain - and that was Scarecrow anyway."

"-and turned everyone in the streets into freakin' zombies." She ran her hands through her pink hair, over and over, until her space buns fell apart into waves that framed her face. "I don't care if you're Superman. You're not winning this one. No one is, not without nuking the city off the face of the earth and all of us with it."

"Hey." His large hands, surprisingly soft in their gloves, completely covered her shoulders. "It's going to be fine. My men are on their way to evacuate us. In helicopters. You've always wanted to ride a helicopter."

Kia laughed, a dizzied titter. "Right, right. It'll be great. We'll just hop on a helicopter and fly away from this mess, shall we? Pretend it never happened? As if the government won't shoot us out of the sky to prevent the infection from spreading. As if the zombies won't leave the city as soon as they realize there are no more people to hunt. As if you and Scarecrow haven't started the end of the fucking world." She laughed again and shook her head. "You've always been starting shit, Jas, and you've always gotten us out of it. But I dunno how you're gonna get us out of this one."

"I will get us out of this, Kia-bear." He pressed a button on the side of his helmet, and his mask slid up to reveal his face. The corners of his hazel brown eyes were pinched and tight. The scar, a jagged J, stretched across his cheekbone. She recognized his smile immediately - it was the smile he had always given her as a kid when he felt trapped in a corner. When he stepped forward to take Black Mask's beatings on her behalf. When he accepted a job that he knew he wasn't prepared for because they so desperately needed the cash. Jason felt as trapped as she did, but he was denying it to give her hope.

That should have comforted her.

"Stop fucking lying, Jason." She jerked away from him. Her arms immediately missed his warmth. "I don't know what skills you picked up when you were adopted by that rich bitch, but there's no way you're getting us out of this one. You fucked up, big time, and every single person left in Gotham is either already dead or going to die because of it. You call yourself the Arkham Knight - Gotham's savior - but you've fucked us all, just because you wanted to put a bullet in Batman's head."

She was shouting now. Militia members were glancing over. A few had their hands on their service weapons. She didn't care. She closed the distance between them again and jabbed a finger in his chest, as if their half-a-foot size difference didn't even exist. "We're fucked, Jason. Well and truly and completely and utterly fucked. No one is going to let us leave! We're better off staying on this rooftop and hoping the zombies starve to death before we do! Don't you get that?! Don't you-"

His lips crushed against hers, insistent and desperate. They moved against her greedily, sucking the fight right out of her. Her knees weakened and forced her to lean against him, cotton fluff hoodie against kevlar. His lips were softer than she'd expected - though she hadn't ever expected to kiss her childhood best friend. He tasted of peanut butter and cigarettes. She dug her fingers into his sleeves and forgot for a moment that they were going to die.

When he pulled away, she almost leaned in after him. Her heart pounded in her chest, desperate to follow him. Despite the cold rain that stung her face, her entire body felt like a fireplace - hot, sizzling, glowing. She stared up at him. He grinned down at her as if he hadn't just stolen the very breath from her lungs. "Trust me," he said, his voice a low growl that left her knees weak all over again. "I won't let anything happen to you. Not now, not ever."

[lamaenthel]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

thank you for tagging me @ahsokathegray !!<3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

25! 

2. What's your total A03 word count?

231k lmaoooo when did that happen I feel like I've been in a fugue state since February

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Star Wars (and technically, TECHNICALLY The Matrix but it's a Star Wars AU fusion lmao)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Porg Eyes, Princess For A Year, Ram'ser'ika, Better Than Nothing, The Contingency

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes every single one omfg I love everyone

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Well, Soft Dark Nothing is Ahsoka and Rex on the moon right after The Tribunal crashed so by default it's gotta be her (rip Jesse my beloved)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Not Bad ends up with Snips n Skyguy going to Biscuit Baron lmao

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not yet but I live in fear every day especially since I'm dipping my toe in the Republic Commandos pond and I know the girlies are passionate

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do and it's ridiculously graphic HAHAHA no but there's a reason I haven't posted any Rexsoka smut. Makin y'all wait for it until they COMMIT, gotta keep that tension in there somewhere uwu. But wlw, mlw, mlm, aliens and cyborgs gonna work their way in there eventually (?) I have Not Out Loud, which is an mlm fic with Boba tying up Cal and facefucking him (Kesett nation rise)

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Go Ask Ahsoka is the Matrix crossover that I wrote for AU August which I will eventually update lmfao

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No but I would cry

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not like… technically but Erika is my beta and my bestie and she comes up with amazing ideas and lets me play with her OCs so honestly she counts (ilu)

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Rexsoka 💙🧡, closely followed by Anidala (burning down the galaxy for a single person is objectively WRONG but also hot)

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Well Do Not Go Gentle is a huge fucking project that I HOPE I finish one day

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm pretty good at action. I enjoy it which helps lmao

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I get really ahead of myself laying out hints and red herrings which I then forget about (Princess For A Year especially is the worst about this, I am so sorry for all of those hints about Sylen being a pretend Mandalorian I fucked up so bad with that one but I'm going to rewrite it eventually to bring back a bunch of my dropped subplots)

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I enjoy it and do so regularly. Mando'a nuhur'shya ni ru'kar'tayli. And it makes my brain work in unexpected ways, it's like a puzzle trying to figure out the wacky ass baby's-first-conlang grammar that is Karen's creation (what the fuck kind of language doesn't have a passive voice)

19. First fandom you wrote for?

OKAY OKAY TECHNICALLY, TECHNICALLY????? It was the Lion King. I was in first grade and we had to write a little storybook and illustrate the pages they gave us with crayons and my story was How Simba Lost His Mane lmfaoooo

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

I have poured my whole heart, soul, brain, and pussy into Tivaevae pls read it it's longer than The Hobbit

no pressure tags: @soliloquy-of-nemo, @tangledlichen, @ink-in-books, @hannah-schooler

[theoxenfree]

And all those feelings will take time to settle, time and effort, and they'll never vanish, but you grow around them. Like you say, you're setting yourself free to start healing.

It's downright horrifying to have such a large part stripped away, no matter if it's done good or bad for you. Part of the beauty of the future is that it isn't set in stone, being afraid of who you'll be without could be what it takes to start working towards becoming who you want to be.

In the end, you have a say in that. And that's both scary and wonderful <3

I'm certain you already know all this, you strike me as very intelligent, but sometimes hearing it from someone else can be, in my experience at least, a much needed confirmation when your own thoughts are scrambled.

As much as I'm obviously shy - hence why I'm on anon - I've long wanted to try working up the courage to interact with you. Although an online friend can't substitute having someone you can meet in the flesh, having more people to chat with rarely hurts right? Respectfully giving you a thought hug, deep breaths, you're incredibly resilient to have gotten this far even if you shouldn't have had to be, this too will pass. I sincerely hope you can slowly start to build the life you want to live from here.

the chances of me having anything completely "normal" in this lifetime is pretty slim, even with therapy, because the damage has been done and twenty-five years of deep-rooted trauma and resentment likes to hold on pretty tight. but, I want to believe now that I still have a life worth living and that I deserve to find the comfort and peace in my life that I've never been able to have, or find, or believe I was capable of having.

I want to believe that I'm worth being loved and that I am capable of returning it to others in a way that doesn't become sour and destructive. I want to believe that intimacy doesn't have to be scary and that, someday, I'll find someone with the level of understanding and patience that I need.

but, you're right. the future isn't set in stone and it's up to me to decide what happens going forward. I feel like I've been going in the same circles all my life. over and over and over. digging a deeper hole in the ground without ever getting anywhere.

I am highly intelligent, extremely intuitive, robust, creative, passionate, and driven. I've pursued many things in the face of fear, and I'll have to do it again, just on a more... complex scale than any time previous. and I'd be a fucking liar if I said I know how to go about moving forward, or that I'm not scared.

but, I've known for a long time that I was probably never, truly going to be able to get where I wanted in my life unless I confronted those old beasts and wounds, and now that I have, well, the challenge becomes knowing that I can't hold myself back anymore from trying and doing.

I think I'll get there. it'll take time.

I don't know who I wanna be just yet, but I'll hang onto my spite and rage bc there's still a whole hell of lot to be pissed off about in the world right now

anyway, thank you for reaching out and talking to me despite feeling shy. your words give me courage to feel that I've done the right thing for myself, and, hopefully, for other people in his life. I accept your hug wholeheartedly 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 ilu, my dear

I know that some folks who follow me have been through similar things. and I'm so sorry. from the bottom of my heart, you have all my searing rage, my anguish, my love, and all the strength in my soul and bones

I know some of you can't speak, won't speak, or don't see the point in it, but just know you've always deserved better, you still do, and it's time to try to live the lives that we all deserve to have

[chernayavidua]

🍒 + esoterium :3

                 i know i already raved about them over on their bucky blog and i think on their multi as well,,,, BUT I WILL DO IT AGAIN !! dearest dixon! darling dixon! first i want to thank you for being so nice, chill and welcoming. you were super open to tossing ideas around when i first approached you way back when and you've been just as welcoming, nice and chill ever since. secondly, i want to say that i absolutely adore how you write. i mentioned it before --like over a year ago-- in another ask / comment i sent your way about how i love that you can write steve and bucky so well despite how different they are. i would write with pretty much any of your characters at this point bc i truly adore how you write them. and you use can paint an image so well without falling into the fiery pit that is flowery orbs hell. like the reply from david where you write how he sees her in the reflection of the glass and the light creates a red halo around the top of her head. *heart eyes* idk i just loved that description, it was so so good! and don't even get me started on your reply to steve and natasha dancing. and this one from your bucky is ?????

No motion to make acknowledgement that his heightened senses can already smell her feather light perfume. He knows it well..

                 like??? her feather light perfume that he knows well???? fuck off ! i remember when i read that i had the biggest dumbest grin on my face bc yes! HELLO??? someone finally acknowledging that she wears perfume (not always but in the circumstance of that reply, it absolutely made sense for her to wear it. also knowing her she wore it on purpose so that he would know she was there but that isn 't the point) idk it is the little things about my character that someone drops into threads either on purpose or by accident that i truly adore when writing with someone. and it is also something i try and do with long term partners. also ? this tidbit i found while scrolling your steve blog ??

Nothing about his wiring’s been reconnected to make him okay with killing. He’d never want it to be. It’d mean he was too far gone, too far lost off the borderline of their side verses the enemy’s.  And the most sickening thing is--sometimes--he feels himself close to that point of no return. Feels relief knowing it’s him that’s going home. Even at the cost of someone else.

                 let me just take a moment to appreciate this gem because, to me, it hints that the change he's gone through since coming out of the ice. acknowledging that he isn't that kid who just wanted to help the war efforts. that sort of "naive out of touch" 1940s all american guy that we perceive him as in the avengers movie isn't there anymore. sure, some things might still be there but he's come along way in this century and has seen a lot both during the war and after being defrosted, especially after the fall of shield and that bit you wrote really expresses that. i freaking love it. hope you have a good holiday and spend it with loved ones along with your doggies. maw! ilu! ♡

END OF THE YEAR POSITIVITY FOR @esoterium + @loyaltyworn

[bitchlessdino]

Hello Nana ilu sm and I miss u even more I hope ur doing well beloved 🥹👋🏼💖 did you know I've been thinking a whole lot abt ur man???? He looked so good and insane, I'm obsessed with his hair color and him grabbing his tiddies during idubily????

Also I've been pondering a lot abt playing strip poker with Mr Lee chan...? I just think he'd casually suggest it like it's no big deal. Knowing how competitive he can really get makes you think it's a ploy to get you out of your clothes. But surprisingly there are a several hands of him losing, especially when he gets more and more flustered when you lose a couple rounds on purpose.

Although he's one who is definitely wearing less. It's almost a grand teasing game because he keeps eye contact every time he slowly removes a layer, getting ready to remove his shirt after last game ended with him removing his pants.

But he's getting really worked up, clearing shown by the growing bulge hidden in his boxers. And the room is getting hotter the more clothes are being shed. And goodness, it's getting harder and harder to not want to touch him. Especially seeing his bare chest risen and fall under your gaze, abs flexing, and yearning to see his cock irl.

For your sanity, you lose a few more times after that just to prevent him from stripping anymore. Not that it helps because the look in his eyes grows needier by the minute. And finally he asks, "You wanna makeout?"

You can't say yes fast enough but just when your lips are about to meet, he leans back with a smirk. "Winner gets to fuck the loser however they want."

Let's just say that's the fastest you've ever won a game of poker.

Also fbi agent elv can confirm loser lee chan's search history definitely has "how to play strip poker (with pictures) wiki" stored 🔍

Elv you’ve send some fucked up shit BUT THIS doesn’t just take the cake it’s taking the whole party. HOW DARE YOUUUUU?

THE STRIP TEASES HES DOING. WHY CAN I IMAGINE IT SO CLEARLY WTF. AND WDYM HE GOOGLED HOW TO PLAY AND STILL LOST???? THATS SO HIM AND KNOWING HIM IT STILL MAKES HIM FUCKING HOT IM SO HEHFHGHFG

So much jail time for you.

[roseofcards90]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSEEEE ILY ‼️‼️🥳🥳🥳🥳

THANK U SO MUCH DEAR MOOT OF MINE!!! :D ILU TOOOO I HOPE YOU'VE BEEN DOING WELL!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[aberfaeth]

top five fics (ever. for a fandom/pairing. by people you know. by strangers. whatever u want go crazy) ORRRR top five fob songs bc I know u and ilu and I wanna hear ur thoughts

hi sav. hope you know what you've unleashed here.

TOP FIVE FICS.....EVER

tell me about the big bang (star wars sequel trilogy, Finn/Poe, 37.8k.) i made my mom read this fic and that's not a bit i literally had her read this. and she isn't even a star wars fan. like she's seen tfa but she wasn't even that into it i just made her read this because it's one of humanity's greatest literary achievements and she still brings it up to me in conversation that's how much she enjoyed it. sorry this turned into more of tmatbb being one of my mom's top five fics but yknow. context. anyways i don't want to say too much about it because i don't want to spoil it for anyone who might check it out which Please Do That but suffice to say. it is a work of fucking art and i can only hope to someday write with half the talent nina varela possesses in her pinky finger

darling i'd wait for you, even if you didn't ask me to (the great pretender season 1, Laurent/Makoto, 11k.) swear to god this isn't me sucking up it is still the best gift i have ever received in my life. hey you reading this have you ever conceptualized a fic and went "boy i wish i could feed this into a machine and it would execute the idea perfectly in a way that managed to surprise and delight me as i read it" well you simply must get yourself a sav. because she will do that for you. anyways watch tgp season one literally just to read this fic.

Be Gay; Solve Crime (american vandal, Peter/Sam, 9.2k.) this fic has everything--outsider POV! perfectly in character banter! angie and michael who are real and canon to me! mr fernandez did you eat shit! gay lou carter! do your string thing man! MING, EVEN!!!!!! consider this a rotating spot for the work of my lovely lovely friends in the hanover high AV club, who have churned out some of the bangers of all fucking time which i talked about some of those in a top five ask four calendar years ago

Over & Through (dimension 20 fantasy high, gen, 62.7k.) also made my mom read this. she got the riz chapter first and said it gave her horrifying acid trip dreams. which is honestly so fair. if you are a dimension 20 fan and you haven't read this fic what are you doing. the form is inventive the prose is stunning the characterization is painfully sharp. if you've been watching neverafter going hey i wish this was actually horror READ THIS RIGHT NOW THE HORROR IS IMMACULATE

If You Could Let Me Inside Your Heart (leverage, ot3, 2.5k.) remains my favorite leverage fic of all time and also my favorite group character study. what a lovely premise and executed with such grace and perfect understanding of character and pacing like so much work is done for its length and GOD IS IT ALL GORGEOUS

okay haha onto the fall out boy--JUST KIDDING. I HOPE YOU HAD YOUR WEAPON READY TO TAKE ME OUT BECAUSE ONE TIME I SAID IF I EVER MADE A RECLIST WITHOUT I HATE TO LOOK INTO THOSE EYES AND SEE AN OUNCE OF PAIN YOU WOULD HAVE TO SHOOT ME BECAUSE I'D BE A POD PERSON. SO HERE'S ME DOING THAT, PLEASE READ IT, READ IT NOW. WHAT FANDOM OR PAIRING OR LENGTH? YOU GET TO FIND OUT WHEN YOU CLICK! THAT! LINK!

okay haha onto the fall out boy. so i earnestly did try to come up with my top five fob songs on my own. then i had a breakdown and filled out the whole damn fob song sorter yes all 500 battles. heres my top 25. note the repetition of numbers indicating my inability to make decisions

elaborations on the medal winners:

THE KIDS AREN'T ALRIGHT: when this song came out i was thirteen years old (in middle school) (did not have my own itunes account) (did not have spotify) and as all songs do it was released at midnight (i was thirteen) (supposed to be asleep) (it was a school night) i hid under the covers with my ipod touch on the lowest brightness setting (supposed to be asleep on a school night) midnight arrived and i could not buy the song on itunes because then my parents would get an email about the purchase and know i had stayed up (i was supposed to be asleep) so i just listened to the 30 second preview on itunes for like an hour straight (i cried) (a lot)

THE (SHIPPED) GOLD STANDARD: me for real bc im literally no good at math

(COFFEE'S FOR CLOSERS): also in middle school i used to doodle song lyrics to keep myself focused during class and my history professor was taking a walk around the classroom and spotted my doodle of a little coffee cup with the lyrics "i will never believe in anything again" and went "aw why not," clearly concerned for my mental health and wellbeing. and despite that horribly traumatizing experience, coffee's for closers remains one of my favorite songs in the world. so thats proof that its really very good

OF ALL THE GIN JOINTS IN THE WORLD: you only hold me up like thiiiiis cause you don't know who i really aAAaaAAAaam

PAVLOVE: sorry its the quirky girl tendencies again. when will they put this on spotify so i can scream my little heart out to I WANT TO MAKE YOU AS LONELY AS MEEEE SO YOU CAN GET GET ADDICTED TO THIS YOU CAN GET GET ADDICTED TO THIS! anyways folie >

now, a disclaimer: this sorter is obviously older than two weeks and thus does not include the songs off SMFS. i feel like recency bias means i can't accurately fit them into the list but i will say that there is no universe in which hold me like a grudge doesn't make top fifteen

if you've reached the end of this post, thanks for going on this journey with me. i meant to be asleep an hour ago. but i did this instead. was it worth it. well whos to say. if you ended up reading IHTLITEASAOOP then yes it was.

[kazuhas]

HAIIII LOML BLUSHES TWIRLS HAIR.... MY CALENDAR SAYS ITS UR BDAY SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY THE LOML !!!!!!!!! U ARE SO LOVELY AND I HOPE YOU'VE BEEN TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF AND THAT YOU'VE BEEN DOING WELL. U DESERVE NOTHING BUT WARMTH AND KINDNESS AND ALL THE AMAZING THINGS IN LIFE AND I HOPE YOUR DAY GOES AMAZING <3

I AM AT THE VINEYARD 3 BOTTLES IN AND MAYBE ILL CRY PLS ILY U R SO SWEET AND KIND TO ME ILU VERY MUCH THANK YOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES 🥺💗🥳🎉

[lola-bunn1]

The moon and the sun.

Chapter Four: I knew you could do it.

a/n: this chapter is a little short sorry my loves

"You, go take care of the Ilu. And you, go help your mother with the knitting."

"...what about me, father?"

"Everything needs to be perfect, you've done enough."

☽-☼

Neteyam sat with his family as he ate breakfast. They all seemed to be normal, talking and being casual while Neteyam was silent. His thoughts set on you.

You seemed like a very nice person, quite smart, quite skilled.

So why did you always talk down to yourself? You were just as good as everyone, if not better.

"Yo bro" Lo'ak said, snapping Neteyam out of his thoughts, "Why are you learning with that girl instead of Tsireya and Ao'nung?" He asked

"The girl has a name, Lo'ak. Her name's Y/n and she happens to be their sister."

"Wait wait, Ao'nung has two sisters?" Kiri asked, "That's weird, he doesn't really mention her"

"Yeah, kind of got that." Neteyam said to himself, staring at the ground with a bothered look on his face, "I'm gonna go get to lessons early" He abrupty said as he got up and left

He walked to your marui pod, looking for you, he couldn't find you there. But instead, he found your parents sitting there, talking. Before he could speak, he couldn't help but overhear their conversation.

"Y/n's teaching the Sully children as well?" Tonowari asked

"Yes, she seems to be doing a good job. That oldest boy now knows how to ride an Ilu." Ronal said, nodding

"Well then, let's hope she doesn't do something to embarrass us all"

Neteyam froze as he heard them talking about you, they were your parents. How can they speak of you like that? Neteyam walked away, shaking his head and sighing.

This wasn't his place, he shouldn't say anything.

"There you are!" You said as you walked towards him, his eyes softened as he saw you, "I went to your marui, your brother said you were coming to my marui" You said, a light chuckle coming out of at the thought of how you two went the opposite way to get the other person

"You're a natural at riding the Ilu, so we should focus on the breathing exercises today. I'm sure you're gonna be just as good as you are on the Ilu" You said as you both walked to a spot to sit

He glanced at you, and looked down. You were so sweet, the way you encouraged him, the way you'd smile at him.

That damned smile.

How could anyone think less of you?

"You okay? You've been quiet for a while" You asked, genuine concern in your eyes

"Uh yeah, yeah. Just hope I can get it right this time"

"You will, I'm sure! You're great, sooner or later you'll be able to stay underwater for longer than I can" You assured him

He lightly laughed, "Sure" He snorted

☽-☼ You two sat there, your hand placed on his lower stomach, softly speaking

"Close your eyes, listen to the sounds of water." You whispered, "Feel the wind around you, breathe in" You said, breathing in with him, "Breathe out"

He breathed out, opening his eyes to look at you

"I think it's time" You said, he nodded and got up, you stood up as well, looking around and finding a seashell, "Wait for a few seconds to make sure it goes deep down" You said

"Okay" He nodded again, you threw the seashell into the water, waiting for a few seconds till he jumped into the water, you got in the water and dipped your head in to see him

You watched as he swam deep down, you fidgeted with your hands, ready to help him if he's out of breath. He was gone for a few seconds, and your eyes widened, just as you were about to go check on him, you saw him swimming back up, the seashell in hand

Once he got to the surface, he smiled widely at you

"I did it! I wasn't even out of breath!" He exclaimed

"I knew you could do it!" You cheered, hugging him

"Me? It was all you! You taught me, didn't you?" He chuckled as you two let go of each other, you just smiled and looked down, He lifted your chin up with his finger, "Thank you for teaching me" He softly said

[sunlightbabe]

11 amd 16 for the fanfic asks please!

of course, thank you!

11) Would you like to try any new fanfic genres or tropes this year?

oooh yes definitely. I still have the halloween prompts I wanna finish, but I definitely wanna delve more into spooky/horror stuff because that's my fave genre ever. I've also always loved soulmate fics and wanted to take a swing at it- maybe 2023 will finally be the year 👀

16) Do you have that one fanfic that you wrote a ton for, ages ago, but never posted? Will this be the year, come hell or high water, that it WILL get finished and posted?

bestie I sure hope so sldkfjslkdfj there's two actually!!! one is a masquerade reader x ethan fic that @bethanysnow asked for Forever ago and I am DETERMINED to finally finish that beth you've been so patient ilu and the other has been sitting in pieces in my drafts for well over a year now, but it's a reader x damiano in which damiano gets collared and leashed. it's sorta d/s but not quite, but very much is just focused on two people learning about and trying to incorporate a new kink into their relationship <3

[gemfyre]

Thoughts on HotD S02E02

Tom Glynn-Carney fucking ATE IT UP this episode. Even if your character is deeply unlikable, he's thoroughly entertaining.

STOP TORTURING MY POOR HELAENA. Send her and her kids to Dragonstone, let her be supported by a woman who fucking UNDERSTANDS.

I'm kind of okay with there not being Maelor. I guess the showrunners were like "do we really need MORE gratuitous violence against small children?" The story still works without his demise. We've still got Joffrey falling off Syrax.

Fuck me Emma D'Arcy's EYES.

Daemon you asshole.

ILU Rhaenys.

A My Little Pony dragon, can't wait to see Moondancer in all her turquoise glory. (and Morning in her pinkness).

I like this set up for Rhaenyra and Mysaria. Mysaria has been constantly mistreated by men. Rhaenyra gets that so she's like "righto I'll stick to my word because I am a woman and know the shit you've been through." and thus earns Mysaria's loyalty. Nice.

Yay for some almost book accuracy Erryk/Arryk fight. I was hoping their hug would be mutual death too but we got Hara Kiri instead, oh well.

[starglitterz]

Oh about Blue Lock. I started watching it and I'm glad I listen to your recommendation😘😘. I'm a sucker for sports anime, so when I saw it was a soccer anime I knew I was gonna love it 😍😍💕. My favourite characters at the moment are Isagi, Nagi, Bachira, Kunigami and Chigiri ❤☺☺ and I can't wait to see them grow. Who are your favourite characters -🌊 anon

🌊 ANON YOU'RE SO REAL FOR THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! marrying u platonically as we speak <3

IM SO GLAD YOURE WATCHING BLUE LOCK AKJWDKJASKJD!!!! and yes omg it's such a good sports anime aside from the fact that it is totally deranged 👍 and omfg bestie your taste?!??! CHEFS KISS IMMACULATE !!!!!! <33 u should totally read the manga if u can !! all their development there is so crazy 😵

and bro picking faves in blue lock is SO DIFFICULT bc there are so many pretty boys... but my all time favourites are def: sae, nagi, reo, bachira, isagi <3 nagi is my pathetic little meow meow while isagi is my little loserboy & bachira is my unhinged boyfriend + i would let sae [REDACTED] and also reo deserves the world poor bby HAHJSDJSKD sorry im normal abt them i swear...

i hope u continue enjoying blue lock!! it only gets better and better (in my totally unbiased view), feel free to come talk 2 me abt it whenever!! ilu wave nonnie hope you've been doing well <33