#i hope yall are alright while i was gone 💞💞💞

[versadies]

hi,,,,,,, idk how to explain myself 😀😀😀

[boonsmoon]

hey i was thinking about a romance by mu qing × f!reader, in which she is xie lian's older sister and in the old days mu qing had a huge crush on her, but because of the things that happened she didn't It has been seen more since Xie Lian was first expelled from heaven. in fact she was wandering all this time and became a supreme ghost queen, and then at the end of the book she would appear again and mu qing would see her and how would he feel? Would your feelings come back? Would he feel abandoned because she had been gone all this time?

With how this is written in ~questions~ I'll write this in hc format Also, I haven't finished the manhwa or anything, I've literally only watched season 1 of the donghua, so sorry if this is inaccurate

Request Masterlist Mu Qing x f!reader Genres:🎊🥀💞🧪

Unrequited Love Headcanons

Let's state the obvious, Mu Qing will under no circumstance confess within his comfort zone

Emotions? Feelings? Never heard of her

So when he was loving you, it hurt to watch you choose a banished god over himself

To put it simply, choosing Xie Lian meant abandoning godhood, and in turn you were also banished from Heaven

Xie Lian was family after all, and you had no beloved that was tethering you to heaven

Back in ye olden wanderer days, the goal was actually to keep Xie Lian from completely going insane; however, after his second ascension you lost track of his whereabouts

Your conviction to family though is actually what kept you out of heaven, because after being banished never sought out to ascend

Eventually after centuries of wandering you become a Supreme Ghost Queen

Rumors from gods and goddesses have compared your power to that of the Crimson Rain Sought Flower

It wasn't until you heard of the current state of your brother and the Supreme Ghost King that you would seek out your reason for banishment again

What you didn't expect was to find Mu Qing during this journey

You felt surprised, but nothing negative against the God or leaving him

That part of your life was long ago, you have no reason to dwell on it

This was no the same for Mu Qing; however, at first he felt relief in knowing you were alright

But then he felt betrayal, like a knife was stabbed through his chest a hundred times over

You abandoned your rightful throne for a family you haven't seen in hundreds of years, centuries of happiness you could have with him were lost with that singular choice of yours

While your feelings did not initially return, Mu Qing made it his mission to set aside your past decisions and rekindle your bond

kinda yikes ngl

hope yall liked this one because angst is NOT my strong suit

[fictionalsownme]

lengthy life update (/vent) for anyone interested 💞(tw for things like life stressors, moving, anxiety, etc)

Hi everyone :) so I just wanted to take a sec to update yall on my life and what’s been keeping me so busy. This is gonna be pretty venty but they’ll be a tdlr at the end if you’d like that instead 💞

As some of you probably know already, I just went through a huge move with my partner. We went from living on the East coast on a farm with my family, to a big city in California on our own. We had (and still have) good reasons to do this that I still stand by, and we knew it would be hard, but it’s been so much weirder than I expected.

It’s been hard to be away from my family and to be in a big city that doesn’t feel safe. We’re alright, don’t get me wrong, and after staying with my partner’s family for a few months we both got jobs that we like and we were already able to get our own place which has been really cool.

But now that we’ve moved in and are living on our own for the first time day to day, it’s the weirdest feeling in the world. Unpacking boxes has been taking so much longer than I thought, and there’s so much to keep track of, with new things getting stacked on all the time (for example, someone stole a part from our car while I was working, super expensive to fix 🙄).

There’s a million things I want to improve about my life and about myself (I want to dye my hair, I want to exercise, I want to organize the house and declutter my wardrobe, etc etc) but I’m too busy managing everything day to day. This has always been an issue of mine for a long time, but whereas before it was more of an excuse for myself, now it feels like I have no choice.

My anxiety has also been pretty bad. It makes sense, but it suckssssss. I’m anxious driving, going to work, for literally no reason at all lol, etc. I had my first “panic attack” in over six months the other day (in quotations because I’ve never had a doctor able to give a diagnosis, we just assume). They really mess with my memory, which just makes everything weirder 😓.

I also really miss tumblr! I miss drawing and working on the game and stuff. We get more things set up and unpacked every day, so I think I should be able to get started again sometime soon. The idea of that makes me SO excited. I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before, but doing art for work is my dream. Like game development, or a webtoon, or even just regular commissions! I want to work on my projects like they’re already my job, but that’s really not practical rn :( I think I’m almost there though!!

And things haven’t been all bad! I have my dog with me here now! For those three months we stayed with relatives, she had to stay with my family on the East coast, but she’s here now!! And living on your own, while scary and overwhelming, is a huge privilege and I know I’m super lucky that it’s even an option for me. I hope no one thinks I’m being ungrateful, I know I’m super lucky for the opportunities I have, it’s just hard rn. But I know it will pass eventually! And if it doesn’t, I have more options and paths to try! I just gotta stick it out for a bit, and I know I’ll be happier soon.

I wanna thank you all so much for all the love and support that you’ve given me, especially while I’ve been gone. I really hope I can come back soon and grow this blog into something special! Thank you guys for your patience and for listening to me rant 💞 I can’t wait to come back full time 🥰💞 feel free to send me any asks or message me or anything like that if you need someone to talk to or have any questions. I hope you’re all having a great day, and if not, I hope things get better for you soon 💞

tldr: I just moved and things have been really hard lately, but I can’t wait to come back hopefully sometime soon. Thank you all so much for all the love, support, and patience 💞