#i hope vacation is going well!!

[soft-girl-musings]

Chamomile, taro, and Jasminen💕 for the flower ask thing 💕

will do bb 😚

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

literally anything lol. I am so easy to please, and I love being given anything someone decided was for me. I'm a big fan of rocks, art, and tiny spoons to name a few favorites from the past

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

my d&d campaign and how I hope my character progresses during our next session

going solo to shakespeare in the park + other things i hope to do by myself

how much i love working with my middle school students <3

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

maybe all the light we cannot see (anthony doerr)? it was such a good read but idk if I'll reread it anytime soon/at all, it was really heavy (I say this after realizing the series drops on netflix in 2 weeks so we'll see 💀)

get to know me, cowards (affectionate)

[lynzishell]

They are everything to me

[lunarharp]

thingies

[hopecomesbacktolife]

not me reading this definitely m/f romance novel but reading heavily into every interaction between the main character and her best friend…

[ahagisborn]

I typed up an impassioned rant yesterday about some family bullshit that I'm in the middle of but by the time I was done I wasn't Yosemite Sam-levels of angry anymore, but just quietly frustrated and sad so I'll post the gist (bc I do still need attention and I think my mom is sick of talking to me)

my cousin's husband's mom had knee surgery on Thursday, but they also left for vacation on Thursday? I guess they thought she'd have inpatient rehab, but said cousin's husband would come home early if needed. well obviously she got discharged to home the next day and I started getting texts from my cousin about how much money flights back were. I told them all I couldn't be the "on-call" person for this but I guess they decided they could just disregard that and now cousin's husband is not coming home until next weekend and I am indeed the "on-call" person for this? which I know from my cousin's husband's mom asking me to do all this shit I said I couldn't do, as my cousin has stopped texting me and her husband NEVER ONCE texted me

[tenebriism]

// Alright, it's 'bout that time. I'm in the back office today, so more of an opportunity to write. :)

INBOX CALL! Please specify muse OR fandom! Multiple requests are okay!

[linguenuvolose]

Booked my first driving lesson in almost five months 😭 let’s get back to this gals 😭 my permit expires in just over three months 😭

[good-beanswrites]

oomph i know i'm definitely really early with this ask (changing time zones for vacation is weird o.O) but I was thinking about it over the past few days

for the lights, camera, sing your sins au, are the interrogations somewhat scripted where the prisoner knows what to say and Es is mostly just reactions or questions to that? I feel like we've talked about this but I have forgotten jandjnf o.O

because all i can think about is Es getting beaten up or close to tears in the first voice dramas and man if it's scripted, i feel bad for the prisoners who have to do this to es o.O

Hi Mug :D No worries, a slightly late reply because I was on vacation too haha! 🍂

And I mean it's whatever works best in people's minds, but I always pictured there being very little scripted, actually! I'd hoped that everything was as natural as possible. The prisoners just have to make the little shift to act as if they did follow through with the murder instead of talk about how close it came -- other than that, everything that happens is the characters' honest questions, answers, and reactions.

When explaining the no-violence ban to everyone, Fuuta and Kazui (and later Amane) tell Jackalope how they would think during their interrogations. Jackalope instructs them all how to act in order to stay consistent with the barriers/losing strength stuff. I think the only explicitly scripted action is Mikoto's violence, since Red admits he may resort to that if Blue felt threatened. Jackalope tells him to get to the point of violence no matter how the interrogation goes, as it's necessary (to proving Mikoto's situation, to driving home the central ideas of Mikoto's case, to reveal Milgram's process and 'limits,' etc).

And yeah, it definitely tears him apart to actually do it -- he has to verify that Es signed up for this several times (which they did), and it still takes a lot of resolve to follow through with hurting an innocent kid like that. I imagine that's one of the reasons he's not really upset that Kotoko surprised everyone by intervening: he felt so guilty about the attack and was grateful someone came in to stop it.

Although it wasn't physical pain, Mahiru is also really upset that she brought Es such emotional strain. She thinks it's cruel to fool them into feeling bad for her when she's okay, and it takes a lot of reassurance from the others to convince her it's for the sake of the experiment -- every part of the process has toyed with everyone's emotions, she's not a terrible person for doing so.

Whether in the middle of the trial or the final executions, I think any characters who die next trial will also feel awful for making Es mourn for them when they're still alive. It's not all one-sided guilt, though. It's balanced by anger/sorrow towards Es for condemning them to death in the first place because of their decisions. Any time they get too caught up in thinking "I'm so cruel for tricking them like this," they have a moment of "well, they did specifically order my death, so..."

When I'm looking for a pure fix-it, I'll let those emotions go pretty easily <3 But unfortunately my writer ass is never free from The Themes asdfsdf and sometimes I still get caught up in the project's major focus -- not only is Es facing the original Milgram dilemma of choosing whether or not to follow authority, but now the prisoners are faced with the exact same decision. Do they physically/mentally hurt this child "for the experiment?" Because someone in authority told them to? They're doing this to prove a point about justice and fairness, but where should they draw the line? At what point is it not for the greater good and they are just causing more harm?

I think I mentioned it before but in this au the prisoners are extremely motivated by the promise that this experiment will help others like them. Yuno wants to make a statement about society's views on abortion and sex work. Muu wants to make a difference for bullying victims. Kazui hopes to be a voice for all those who have had to keep theirs quiet about something. Mikoto hopes his story creates more awareness and acceptance for people who are usually terribly stereotyped and feared. Kotoko wants to bring to light the problem of corruption and what can be done about it, and so on. In the end, they can always justify causing a little emotional/physical harm because they are doing it for a good reason.

[betweenblackberrybranches]

What are the old ones? Like, not spoilers obviously, but what are they?

Coming to you from the breakfast buffet of a kind of dingy bed and breakfast im staying at just to answer this because i got asked this muktiple times and yea i should probably explain that.

Okay the old ones are essentially a mix of the fay and undying spirits, some are kinda weak like the small nature spirits, who move in groups and the ones that are more powerfull often stay alone, though friendly groups of powerfull old ones have been observed before. Humans have worshipped the old ones (especally the more powerfull ones) for a long time so now they also often hold the place of local deieties

The old ones apperance can vary greatly btw they can look like anything maybe a stag that kinda looks weird or a tree that speaks. Or a big guy just chillin in the woods

[accio-victuuri]

xiao zhan - milan 2019 📷

[ghostofasecretary]

it's been a while since i've cried hard enough to have a headache but. sure got there today, babes!

[ame-to-ame]

public transit... *collapses to the floor*

[seaofreverie]

So busy with Sparkstember that I almost forgot that I go back to school on tuesday

[sleebyconfy]

..

[painfulgoodbye]

i miss dream :((

[spacecrows]

this morning i am thinking about how i've been nervous for like. all of august?? about the upcoming yearly summer get together at my new job because i didn't know how to present myself, if these people are going to think i'm weird and unprofessional if i'm myself or if they'll think i'm fake and boring if i mask and what if everyone hates me or they all think i'm an anxious mess because i don't talk to anyone all night??

well the event was last night and it was really nice and i'm just thinking about how. when i was helping with clean up after the event i said "i don't think i know these bowls, do they go back in the cupboard or did someone bring them from home for this?" and one of my coworkers said in a small high pitched voice "oh, hello ms. [last name], we are the bowls :)) nice to meet you :)))"