#i hope that all kinds of alcohol taste like garbage because im worried for my health if i want it this badly now..
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Really wishing my water was vodka
#idk i wish i could go to school tomorrow tipsy..#i dont really know why. it just seems like itd make it easier..#my mom brought a pretty big bottle of some alcohol a while back from some girls cabin trip and she keeps it in the fridge..#i dont know shit about alcohol so i cant tell you what it is except that its clear..#i have hesitated twice now when ive seen it.. it really shows how much trust she has in us..#im not gonna take it but i still want to..#i hope that all kinds of alcohol taste like garbage because im worried for my health if i want it this badly now..#and i really hope it wont become a coffee situation where i never like it but still for some reason drink it..#i want my first alcohol to be in some rasberry bullshit drink so i will forever associate it with artificial rasberry taste.#and gag even at the thought of drinking more..#its just kinda sad everytime i pause in place. contemplating on whether or not to take one of the beer cans in the back of our fridge..#i mean. mom wont drink them and i dont want them to go to waste now do i..#i can control my urges if i want to. thankfully i still want to control that urge..#im just worried for when i have a really bad day and mom happens to be out of the house..#i dont want this.. i want something else.. i want a life where i feel like people are PC's.. thats a stupid way to describe it.#but other people truly do feel like NPC's to me..#they speak to me when i approach. otherwise they stick to their coded routine..#even the name yelling feels like i just achieved some invisible goal and now they do that..#the only reaction they have to being touched is when you shove them..#i hate this#i stood in the middle of our kitchen for 30 seconds doing visibly nothing because#i was contemplating on whether or not to ask my sister for a hug.. i didnt ask..#no one else just feels real but when im in school i cant just stare at people because they can actually notice it..#sorry i guess#i dont know if im supposed to be sorry about this. probably not..#venting
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