#i honestly dont know what to do (i do. go to a doctor or summ sheesh) I DONT WANNA.

[autism-corner]

guy should really probably be doing something about this.

[ikkanrana]

honestly it felt sorta… idk validating to hear mum say that “[my sister] has never been there for you she always has done everything for attention shes never been there for you genuinely” because idk…. she ruined so many things for me emotionally and mentally that ive had to clean up myself and ive always felt that well i mean she did do this and that and she was always someone i thought was real cool growing up but that was purely a younger sibling looking up to their big cool sister you know?

there has always been that feeling of stress and unease around her because she Always always always finds a way to put you down and when youre blinded by “this is my tough awesome big sibling” you look past that shit one time too many….

shes a piece of shit and her daughter and i talk about deeper personal stuff already than what she wanna share with her own mum so like her son stays with his dad at like all times so he doesnt have to be around my sister either cause shes so mean and shitty

i mean i know i’ll be over it but it just hurts me that she basically called me useless and that i dont try hard enough to get my life together… she doesnt fucking know shit and it pisses me off that she think she has the right to sit there and judge and barf whatever garbage she cones up with like she doesnt care about me she doesnt genuinely wanna know anything about me she doesnt know SHIT, and it feels very disrespectful that she even dares spew that bullshit she doesnt know i was two seconds from jumping out a fucking window last summe she doesnt KNOW whata been going on at the t-team she doesnt KNOW what doctors and school has done to me or what ive been struggling with or how ive felt

she doesnt fucking know anything about anyone and she doesnt CARE and she doesnt deserve to k ow anything either its disgusting shes 40 years old fucking GROW UP AND STFU