#i havent met one person my age who gets excited about the new year anymore. not even people my parents’ age or my cousins’ ages
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me in 2019: yeah no i wouldn’t call myself an “old soul” i think my interests are fairly relevant. i don’t think i’d ever be one. me in 2024: .do yuo guys remember flappy bird and rainbow loom and minecraft letsplays and the dab and those shirts with the sequins and the cold shoulders on them and nightcore and animation memes and fidget spinners and vine and the area 51 raid and the day everyone posted chimneys and those memes where it was a character surrounded by heart emojis with some kind of motion blur around it and the magic card memes and funny reaction images and that thing everybody did where they put their arms in their sweaters and it made them look like little chickens or that one person with the hoodie who pulled the string things in all the way so it only showed their lips and then put sunglasses on over it so it looked like a funny face and. and. do you wanna see my cd collection or my books. can i have a physical copy of that book. i prefer my headphones to have wires thank u very much. yeah man i really want a flip phone or like. a refurbished older cell.
#sorry for getting really sentimental about the 2010s (and mentioning some 2000s stuff)#it will probably happen again#look man#i get some of these things are still around#but they dont feel the same#idk it just feels like ppl used to be a lot nicer??#like i think ppl have gotten too comfortable with just being cynical and mean all the time#i havent met one person my age who gets excited about the new year anymore. not even people my parents’ age or my cousins’ ages#the future seemed really bright but now it feels like nobody sees it that way anymore??#and i get it#shit happens#its fine to be upset with the world! ive been there a lot#but i feel like we as a society can benefit from being a little less doom and gloom all the time#like. covid really caused a huge cultural shift#earlier today i saw a video that was talking about how we dont really have any good comedy movies to have come out in the past couple of yr#which are dedicated comedies. and how people are leaning more towards drama with some funny bits#and like. thats the main reason why ive been thinking about all this stuff#that and the fact that youtube is recommending me videos from my 5+ year old ‘watch later’ playlist#like no thanks youtube i dont wanna watch ‘morgz’s mom went bankrupt’#anyway maybe im just uncomfortable with the passage of time and how things change#buildings get renovated trees get cut down playgrounds get replaced mall stores close sites shut down etc etc#it makes me sad and mad about the fact that i cant do anything about it and dont know what to do about how i feel#sorry for the random rant i just have a lot of feels rn
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Expectations | 01
Summary: One night out is all you need to get your heart snatched. You can call him a friend, a fuckbuddy or the guy you’re currently seeing. The label doesn’t matter. That’s what you both agreed on and you’re okay with that; until you realised you weren’t.
Genre: College! AU, fluff??? idk sis but soon to be hella fluff n later angst n meybe smutty idk (just letting yall know)
Pairing: Taehyung x Reader
Word Count: 1,334 (hella short srry)
Warnings: none atm apart from swearing~~
A/N: hi bitches im back after 3 years mwahahaaaa. honestly, idk if any of yall even remember me but like this time round i actually wanna properly start writing more (esp cos its gonna help with my HSC) and ill have a lot more time from now on cos im graduating hs soon!!!! this story is lowkey based on smth that happened to me a few months ago but obvs with tweaks here n there. my writing is hella rusty so sorry if it’s dry. its not really a full chapter but i really wanted to release it before i throw it away like always yeet. i promise to release the next one soon~~~. if yall got any feedback, it would be much appreciated TTTT would you like a 3-4 chapter piece? or a slow burn series? lemme knowww cos i havent fully thought about what i wanna do with this story yet. hope yall like the intro thoughjgghg <3 <3
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You’re still not used to it. The loud music blasting into your ear from every corner of the street and the hoards of people that walk past. It’s a Friday night and you wanna let loose this holidays, especially since you just recently turned the legal age. You’re just as excited and nervous as the first time you’ve ever walked into a bar. The nagging thought of the bouncers not letting you in persists at the back of your mind. You present your ID and give them a small smile, all the while fidgeting with your fingers behind you. However, your worries are immediately washed away as they smile back and step aside to let you in.
You walk in with Jinhee, one of your good friends who invited you out tonight to get you into the clubbing scene. Initially, you agreed in excitement and was looking forward to tonight for the whole week. But now that you’re here, you’re not so hyped anymore, especially now that you realise you have to introduce yourself to Jinhee’s friends. Meeting new people? While you’re sober? Nope, no thanks.
Regardless, you stick closely behind Jinhee as she struts over to the bar and orders a few drinks while you scan the area, appreciating the chill vibe in the bar. People are generally huddled in their groups all erupting in laughter and talks. The girls look stunning in their outfits and the guys look clean and fit.
“Y/N. Here,” You turn your head to Jinhee while she hands you two drinks, “Gin and tonic. That’s your favourite, right?”
You smirk and nod before you notice another two drinks in her hands. Why do we have so ma-
“We’re starting off strong tonight, I want to be wasted when we get into the club.” She smirks.
You scoff in disbelief, “You mean to say that these two will be all you need tonight, right? Lightweight.”
“Oh, shut up.” she retorts, “Come on, my friends are sitting on the other side.”
You follow her without a word and mentally prepare yourself for all the names you’re gonna have to remember for the night. Thankfully, the drinks kicked in faster than it usually did, allowing your social skills to skyrocket. The girls were all so nice and looked amazing in their outfits and the guys were really sweet as well. So many different conversations filled the circle and it was absolutely chaotic, but you didn’t mind it for some reason.
“Hey guys, we should head to the other bar in the next block for another round. Heard it was really nice there.” One of the guys shouted. Taejun, was it?
“You really want to see those dancers, huh?” one shouted back, throwing his arm over his shoulders, instantly going for the choke-hold, “Taehyung, you horny motherfucker.” Oh fuck, wrong name. I must be drunk.
You pay no mind to it as the need to freshen yourself suddenly overcomes you as you stand from the stool. You decide to sober up a bit before you leave and grab onto Jinhee while everyone starts heading off.
“Jinhee, I’ll be in the bathroom. Wait for me before we leave, okay?” You ask.
She throws the okay sign while stumbling towards the entrance to catch up to everyone else.
“That bitch better not ditch me like last time.” You mumble to yourself, doubtful of Jinhee due to her intolerance to alcohol.
Well, at least I’m having a good time. I haven’t had this much fun in awhile. You’re glad you came out and met some new people; you could really use some time to lighten yourself up from all that torture in the last semester.
You step out of the bar, expecting Jinhee to jump out at you, nagging you for being too slow but she’s nowhere to be seen. You sigh in disappointment. Figured. You pull out your phone to call Jinhee but is stopped by a sudden invasion of personal space.
“Y/N, right? Let’s go, Jinhee said that everyone will be waiting at the next place.”
You look up at his face in confusion before you realise that he was one of Jinhee’s friends.
“Oh shit, uhh, Taehyuk, right?” You ask while stumbling. Jesus, my tolerance must’ve gotten lower too, I can’t think straight.
“Hahaha, close. My name is Taehyung. Good try though.” He snickers.
Motherfu-
“God dammit, I’m so sorry. I’m really bad with names,” You stammer, “especially when I’m drunk.”
“Don’t sweat it,” he smiles, “We’re all like that when we’re a bit tipsy.”
Wow, cute smile.
“We should probably start heading over to where everyone else is.”
You nod in approval and begin walking through the busy streets. The two of you maintain a good conversation along the way, getting to know each other and finding similar interests. Throughout the ten minute walk. You couldn’t get over how good looking this guy was. His sharp, dark eyes were so mesmerising. There was a cute mole on his tall nose and his lips were of a pretty pink. Not to mention his freaking hair. It looked like black silk shining against the lights. It was luscious and so soft-looking. I would do anything to run my hand through his hair right now.
Unfortunately, your alone time with Taehyung came to an end as you finally met up with the rest of the group. You see Jinhee with her two bottles of soju, giving you the dirtiest look while being barely able to stand. You immediately walk over to her without much thought or any more exchange with Taehyung, feeling slightly embarrassed.
“This is for me, I assume?” You say with a glare, snatching the bottle out of her hand.
She ignores you and looks over your shoulder at Taehyung, which your eyes naturally follow.
“Already getting a hot one, huh?” She snickers.
“This wouldn’t have happened if you didn’t ditch me in the first place.” You grumble back.
“Your welcome.”
You sigh once again while downing a bit of the soju you stole from Jinhee and occasionally glance over to Taehyung. You two make eye contact from time to time and give a friendly smile but you don’t push for more. That small ten minute conversation was enough for you to constantly sneak glances at him. You’re not complaining though, he is really pleasing to look at. You feel like a child staring at a really expensive toy at the display window.
The night slowly moves on as you meet more and more people, all the while involuntarily having your eyes drawn to Taehyung, wherever he is; as if you have a radar on him this whole time. However, you don’t dwell on him for much longer than two seconds, allowing yourself to fully enjoy your night with your newly found friends.
The night was finally about to get started when Taehyung caught you glancing over at him once again. Reflexively, you smile but he doesn’t return the smile like he usually does. It throws you off guard and you freeze in shock before quickly turning your head back to the current conversation. You can feel your face and ears getting rapidly warmer. Shortly after, you feel a presence behind you and hear a deep voice call out your name.
“Y/N?” It’s Taehyung. You turn around. “We’re heading off to the club now, you wanna join us?”
“Uhh-” You immediately look towards Jinhee to ask if everyone was ready to leave before you get cut off by her loud voice.
“C’mon everyone! It’s time to hit the club, let’s go!!” Jinhee exclains to group while shuffling everyone towards the exit and gives you a small wink. That sly fox. You think in amusement.
“Alright, shall we head?” Taehyung asks while he cocks his head to the side.
You simply nod and follow him. Maybe it’s because of the alcohol in your system but you can’t seem to control your excitement at the possible opportunities that could follow tonight.
#honestly#this is such a shit start#itll become better#pls believe me uwu#im so rusty mannnn#had to edit so much lmao#i will try n upload within the next week#bts#bangtan#scenarios#kpop scenarios#bts scenarios#bts fanfic#fanfic#taehyung#taehyung scenarios#taehyung x reader#bts fluff#bts angst#taehyung fluff#expectations
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inidan american (desi) logan
a sequel to this post because people asked for more and i decided that they shall receive (and also i love writing these)
fair warning, logans a bitter kid, and this isnt as positive and happy as romans post. ive experienced two different ways of being desi, one where i lived in fully asian and indian community and didnt even think id ever feel alone, and another where i moved to a place where i havent met another desi in like 7 years of living here in a 3 hour driving radius. in romans post i played into my first experience and how at home i felt. in the second experience, the one im in right now, i am much more bitter about who i am and not really knowing anyone who gets it anymore. so i play into that A LOT in this. so keep that in mind. (and he will get happier in a future part. m planning on making this into a series)
ok so first off. his name is logan sanders. people (mostly other indians) dont believe him when he tells them. he tells them they dont know indian history. they say they do. he tells them that the british fucked around (quite literally) in india for four centuries so of course english names would stick with that precise wording
sometimes when he’s annoyed enough and doesnt want to explain this for the millionth he defends himself with this russel peters skit (watch it, it’s hilarious) because it describes his family. to a T.
he grew up in a community with not very many asians, and knew no indians outside his family so he felt a sort of disconnect to his culture
while his grandparents and parents would teach him about indian culture, he felt so distant from it since he knew no one outside his family who was indian, and since he didnt have any siblings or any nearby cousins to hang around with
he had visited india once but he was too young to remember it properly or too remember his cousins
the closest mandir was an hour away so that also limited the amount of indian kids/people he knew
he barely knew hindi because everyone in his family spoke english, especially in public
he felt guilty over the disconnect he felt and would always try to bridge it but would never accomplish this because it he kept losing passion since he rarely saw other people like him in the real world and in the media and he didnt see the point of trying
this all changed in eight grade when he moved next door to the Kumar family in a north indian street of some south asian blocks in an asian community
when his family first moved, the Kumar family invited the Sanders over to welcome them
it turns out the Kumar’s had a son who was the same age as logan
“hi logan! im rohan kumar! but i like going by roman instead of rohan!”
this introduction pissed logan off
he was seething because why would this kid who got to have an indian first AND last name change his name to an english one! why didnt he see the value of his name!
he knew right away that such a difference meant they could never be friends
“im logan sanders, but thats all youll get to know about me because i see no use associating myself with someone as... well, ignorant, as you”
roman decides to whip out one of the swears his cousins taught him and whisper shouts “who are you calling ignorant, bhenchod?”
it became clear to him that this was new turf, and people on this new turf must be speaking hindi. and that he was the ignorant one if he couldnt talk in hindi. he made a vow to learn it as fast as he could to make sure this roman kid wasnt better than him
but, logan grits his teeth and says “you, and i know it must be true because you were too dumb to understand me the first time”
this evidently struck a sore spot in roman because he didnt fight back but just stalked away. logan smiled slightly, happy to have won that argument
logan asks his grandpa to teach him hindi and his grandpa gets super excited
they start lessons immediately and despite barely hearing it growing up, it’s as if his brain was made for this because he picks the language up amazingly fast and in a months time, while not able to speak back yet, he can understand most casual conversation
his first diwali in basically little india is the most magical thing ever
diwali at his old home was very quiet because there wasnt anyone around to celebrate with
everyone is so happy in this new home however. everyone is dressed up and all the houses are lit up and there are diyas everywhere and he doesnt want to admit it but the kumar’s have the best rangoli on the street and it’s because of roman and he knows roman did it because sometimes he’d stare out of his bedroom window while doing homework and have a perfect view of roman delicately working on it for two weeks
(the kumar’s front porch had been covered with tarp waiting for diwali to make sure romans precious rangoli wasnt stepped on or ruined. when it’s finally let up, everywhere where there could be art, there is. it’s insane how good at colors roman is, logan thinks)
diwali morning:
he fights his parents because he doesnt want to miss school for diwali because americans dont have a day off for it. his parents set the clocks in the house ahead to make him think he overslept so he would skip school. (logan didnt know that his parents had submitted an excused absence form for religious reasons and that the school was very understanding. he thought it would be like his old school where he wouldnteven bother trying since he wasnt christain and the school was lkinda discriminatory)
they spend the morning in mandir and it’s nice. for once he doesnt feel different from his peers because he goes to mandir and not church or synagogue. he feels at home.
diwali afternoon:
the afternoon is spent with frantic cleaning and cooking and digging around for the diya’s that were still in boxes, packed away from when they moved
logan offered to find them all to continue with a diya science experiment he started two years prior. his theory was that the diya’s were multiplying and there were more each year despite no one buying anymore
this held true, because even though he could only find half of their diya collection, it was somehow more than the entire diya collection of two years prior.
diwali evening:
theres a big potluck and everyone in the neighborhood is out talking to each other, looking at the decorations at everyones houses, eating samosas, and playing with sparklers.
logan feels content
he makes a new resolve to learn more about hinduism. if this is what ti was supposed to be, then he never wanted to be away from hinduism.
he looked at the metaphors and symbolism in everything and finally understood what his dad meant he told logan that hinduism is just science written in poetry and that string theory is written in the ancient texts
middle school in this new town is so much better than middle school in his old home. why?
a. doesnt get bullied for being a nerd
b. doesnt get called gay slurs
c. the classes are harder
d. much less racism
e. all of the above
soon enough, logans asking his grandpa to teach him how to cook Indian food
Logan spends the day burning dosas and making lopsided rotis
(eventually he gets the hang of it, and a he'll be cooking food for an infuriating Indian boy ;) ;) psst it's roman)
Speaking of boys
Coming out isn't an option for logan
He knows that his parents arent really religious enough to really look into hinduism and see that no, gays are not bad
But they are traditional and conservative enough to be homophobic
not homophobic as in spewing hate with the westboro baptist church at a pride parade
But homophobic as in "the gays are fine as long as they don't do it in front of me" kinda thing
So Logan stays quiet
the closet kinda sucks but i mean what can he do
it’s safer inside, and he as illogical as wishing is, he wishes that people would use their brains and realize there’s nothing wrong with gay
anyway
in school logan makes his first desi friend, who was dubbed as anxiety years ago and cant seem to get rid of the nickname and now has a whole complex about his name so logan doesnt know his name
logan and anxiety meet in the school library: logan studying and anxiety hiding
people dont like anxiety
especially non-indian kids
surprise surprise it’s an old buddy called racism, but anxiety’s story is for another time
(but even though no one really likes anxiety, whenever racist shit goes down, it has to go through roman)
so logan and anxiety become fast friends
and they make fun of roman (a+ bonding)
logan claims that roman is a hypocrite for changing his name to an english one while being so immersed in indian culture
anxiety doesnt dispute this, but says he has a past with roman
a past that involved getting stuck with the name anxiety
again, another story for another time
one day, when logan and anxiety are eating lunch they see roman destroy some homophobes who throw around the word f*g and keep calling caitlyn jenner, bruce jenner
logans chest surges
he’s all like “what?? emotions?? pride at roman?? is he better than me for being so open and standing up for what he believes in??”
gay panic basically
but logan masked it well and pushed it away
the next day roman comes to school with a pride patch on his jean jacket
logan feels like he cant breathe
logan is supremely jealous of roman.
he can be gay in peace
he can pretend not to be indian in a way that benefits him
and he’s not affected by stereotypes in the same way?? like what does this kid not have
and by stereotypes i mean
roman is the complete opposite of all indian and desi stereotypes: loud, flamboyant, theatrical
logan’s personality is exactly how the stereotypes are. he’s nerdy and likes science and math and it seems like he cant escape the stereotypes. they follow him. and he feels guilty that he likes science and math and is nerdy.
as illogical as it is, he wishes he was different from how he is
but logan later learns that there are more than just his perspective on being desi and that every desi kid growing up faces challenges about it that are different than his, causing them to experience being desi differently
and logan will accept that, in another story at another time
for now, he’s just bitter. and as illogical as it is, he wishes the world was better
and now, i shall tag some people who asked to be tagged and some other desi’s who loved this because i feel like you guys might appreciate this too. also i love u. desi famders squad up.
@sssixeyedrunt @ultimate-queen-of-fandoms2 @caterpiller-tea @xxxbladeangelxxx @snufflesthegrim227 @cloudchaser7 @thelowlysatsuma
#logan sanders#logince#virgil sanders#roman sanders#desi#desi headcanons#sanders sides#mine#please love this#r#l#v
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Every question!!
SDFFSDFG DAM OK SIS
LONG POST AHEAD IF U LITERALLY WANNA KNOW ME PERSONALLY JUST READ THIS LMFAO
1: Name: Arche/Jupiter, my close friends know my real name so!
2: Age: High school has just been done so try to guess
3: Fears: Heights, oral presentations, the dark
4: 3 things I love: Drawing, men- concept art n stuff like that
5: 4 turns on: Oh here we go- uhh thighs, messy hair? when they give u The Look or when they. say things i will not talk about here HHGBDF n uhhh Arms 👀👀
6: 4 turns off: weird macho attitude, overly confident bullshit, being selfish and fuckboys in general
7: My best friend: not sure what this means but my bff is named Daphnée n i love her and ive known her my whole life so
8: Sexual orientation: homosexuale
9: My best first date: :))))))) as if
10: How tall am I: sigh. I’m 5″4
11: What do I miss: sometimes i miss the feeling loved ig
12: What time were I born: 12:19
13: Favourite color: pink!
14: Do I have a crush
15: Favourite quote: My senior quote!! “if what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, I’m telling you I’m immortal”
16: Favourite place: well? my room ig? I like my yard too
17: Favourite food: ugh ramen,,,korean dishes are TASTE as fuck but i also like classic ass spaghetti so like lol
18: Do I use sarcasm: does it look like i dont
19: What am I listening to right now: dr.phil LMFAO
20: First thing I notice in new person: Hair and eyes!! also how they laugh
21: Shoe size: Like. a 7-8 in women’s 6 in men’s
22: Eye color: Hazel/Golden yes bitch let me be special
23: Hair color: it’s either dark brown or golden brown idk
24: Favourite style of clothing: bruv its either kpoppie fuckboy or uwu skirts pastels
25: Ever done a prank call?: no i have anxiety
26: Meaning behind my URL:
27: Favourite movie: rise of the guardians and HTTYD
28: Favourite song: Comeback Home (BTS cover)
29: Favourite band: looks in the camera i dont know nan molla huh
30: How I feel right now: I’m fine im hungry
31: Someone I love: shoutout to my babeys in my server ily
32: My current relationship status: Single(tm)
33: My relationship with my parents: theyre fine ig just a bit tired
34: Favourite holiday:
35: Tattoos and piercing I have: Ear piercings? that’s it
36: Tattoos and piercings I want:
37: The reason I joined Tumblr:
38: Do I and my last ex hate each other? I sure hope not?
39: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? A bit ig?
40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Literally no
41: When did I last hold hands? Like last Friday
42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes
43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i havent shaved in like months
44: Where am I right now? in my room, in quebec, canada
45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? bitch i sure hope my friends would
46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? fuck my ears
47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yeah
48: Am I excited for anything? yeah? yeah
49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? ig? always
50: How often do I wear a fake smile? just at work tbh
51: When was the last time I hugged someone? not long ago i cant tell but my friends r cuddle monsters so
52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? i havent kissed anyone so
53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? lemme think uhhh no not rlly im not dumb
54: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up n i thought i had school lol
55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? oh john cock i want to be ur best friend
56: What do I think about most? i daydream 24/7
57: What’s my strangest talent? uhhh i can put my thumb behind my hand?
58: Do I have any strange phobias? trypophobia, if thats “weird”
59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? depends on what the video is, mostly behind
60: What was the last lie I told? idk answering to my deadname
61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? online
62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I slightly believe in ghosts? also aliens GOTTA exist so
63: Do I believe in magic? i think!
64: Do I believe in luck? yeah
65: What’s the weather like right now? very pretty i filmed a video outside!!
66: What was the last book I’ve read? L’Étranger d’Albert Camus in french class
67: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes my dad’s a mechanic
68: Do I have any nicknames? a lot a lot
69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? bitch @ my birth #neverforget
70: Do I spend money or save it? i have 40$ in my name right now
71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no
72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? yes highlighter
73: Favourite animal? cats or otters
74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? FBISDFD NO WE DONT TALK ABOUT IT
75: What do I think is Satan’s last name idk he can have any last name he wants!!!
76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? everytime i start hearing “waiting for you anpanman” or “i just wanna go home” 👀👀
77: How can you win my heart? aaahh. be a twink. b fashionable. b funny. cheesy. pls romance me like a npc in the sims 2
78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? s(he) died smh
79: What is my favorite word? cunt is SUCH a satisfying word
80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr? oh great uh honestly cant be fucked
81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? please have brain. PLEASE
82: Do I have any relatives in jail? i sure hope the fuck not?
83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? either invisibility or mind reading
84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? ahaaa “what are your intrusive thoughts”
85: What is my current desktop picture? my lesbian sims getting married LMFAO
86: Had sex? no
87: Bought condoms? no
88: Gotten pregnant? NO
89: Failed a class? i think yeah maths last year
90: Kissed a boy? :(((
91: Kissed a girl? no
92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no
93: Had job? I have a job rn so
94: Left the house without my wallet? yeah when i go to school
95: Bullied someone on the internet? define bullying?
96: Had sex in public? virgin squad
97: Played on a sports team? yeah
98: Smoked weed? no ew
99: Did drugs? no ew
100: Smoked cigarettes? NO EW
101: Drank alcohol? yep
102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no i’d die
103: Been overweight? i’m twig
104: Been underweight? i think i was underweight when i was young? i was very Small
105: Been to a wedding? yes very long boring
106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? bruh. everyday
107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? probably?
108: Been outside my home country? ONCE
109: Gotten my heart broken? TWICE !
110: Been to a professional sports game? yesss canadians game!!
111: Broken a bone? no
112: Cut myself? not technically
113: Been to prom? SOON SOON SOON SOSOSNSBFSHDD
114: Been in airplane? once
115: Fly by helicopter? i am not rich bitch
116: What concerts have I been to? noneeee- WAIT NO MARIE MAI
117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? not sex but for the purpose of pretending i have a penis yes plenty
118: Learned another language? yeah!! i learned english, i almost learned spanish and i’m trynna learn korean now
119: Wore make up? i try!! but i’m not super good
120: Lost my virginity before I was 18? not 18 yet but it’s goin that way
121: Had oral sex? as if
122: Dyed my hair? i wishhh
123: Voted in a presidential election? I WISH THE ELECTIONS R ONE MONTH B4 MY BIRTHDAY
124: Rode in an ambulance? nope
125: Had a surgery? yes at a week old
126: Met someone famous? i think yes but i was super small
127: Stalked someone on a social network? define stalked?
128: Peed outside? yes
129: Been fishing? YES
130: Helped with charity? i think? we do volunteering so
131: Been rejected by a crush? not directly
132: Broken a mirror? no
133: What do I want for birthday? boyf......boy..boyff
134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? oh man uhh maybe 2-3, i dont know their names yet honestly
135: Was I named after anyone? MY DAD NAMED ME AFTER A FUCKIN CLIENT HE MET. as for my actual name now I named myself after my fav video game character. lit
136: Do I like my handwriting? yeah!!
137: What was my favourite toy as a child? bitch hot wheels
138: Favourite Tv Show? hells kitchen,,,,judge judy,,,anythin like that
139: Where do I want to live when older? honestly i wish i could just live in japan or tokyo, or new york? but i will most likely end up in montreal
140: Play any musical instrument? i used to play the clarinet last year!!
141: One of my scars, how did I get it? the one on my knee, i scratched my desk with my knee
142: Favourite pizza toping? my dad makes AMAZING sea food pizzas,,,
143: Am I afraid of the dark? a lot
144: Am I afraid of heights? A LOT
145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? idk prolly? im a bit of a goody two shoes or however u spell it
146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end: dont we all
147: What I’m really bad at: organizing my anxiety n shit i get overwhelmed
148: What my greatest achievments are: finishing high school
149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: honestly has to be that time someone dug up my vent post about being dysphoric to try to say i hated myself with some dumbass DySphorIa Is SelF HaTRed argument
150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: pay my parents’ debt off, buy 284223$ of BT21 merch, pay my whole college/uni and transition
151: What do I like about myself: idk i like how i literally do not give a fuck anymore and ive learned to love myself instead of trynna care
152: My closest Tumblr friend: @peptobismol-official @ace-landofthesun @dorkalisious and ana but idk her @ anymore :((( ana pls
153: Something I fantasise about: we dont talk about that
154: Any thoughts on the paranormal?: lit. please stop crawling in my ceiling !
ok now that u know my whole biography. go doxx me ig. bye bye
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im a curious meanie so 1-134 muhahaha you get to relive the hell i just went through
etab i haTE U
1: Name
my name is marit lol but please just keep it mar
2: Age
i am 17 but i’ll b 18 in 2 months!!!!
3: 3 Fears
the dark, complete and utter loneliness, and clowns
4: 3 things I love
books, forest fruit tea, the sound of rain
5: 4 turns on
a nice smile that reaches the eyes, a nice smell, having a dog ngl, a soft touch
6: 4 turns off
extreme arrogance, insisting to pay for my meal if i want to pay bc its “what a man should do”, forcing lifestyles on me, not caring about my interests
7: My best friend
she does have tumblr but idk it but hey demi if u ever see this ur the bomb.com
8: Sexual orientation
im bi fam
9: My best first date
my bf and i went to amsterdam to go shopping and he followed me everywhere (even the bookshop even though he hates books) and idk i just love him it was a nice day
10: How tall am I
im 1,65m or 5′4″ but i can and will kick ur ass
11: What do I miss
nothing really??
12: What time was I born
ok so i asked my mom and she said i was born on a tuesday at exactly 12pm but i bet she’s lying
13: Favorite color
yellow!! im basic!!
14: Do I have a crush
well i sure hope so @ boyfriend
15: Favorite quote
to the stars who listen, and the dreams that are answered
16: Favorite place
my bf’s house tbh, specifically his bed
17: Favorite food
pizza, specifically the hot chicken one from ny pizza
18: Do I use sarcasm
nah fam (ofc i do im a little shit)
19: What am I listening to right now
god is a woman by ariana grande
20: First thing I notice in new person
how they look at other people when those people don’t notice it
21: Shoe size
38/39 idk the other size lol sorry
22: Eye color
its blue but it changes with my mood (oh my god im so sorry im kidding please don’t hate me)
23: Hair color
im a blondie
24: Favorite style of clothing
sth casual but also a bit towards the punkish style, but i also rlly love looking tiny and soft and cute lol
25: Ever done a prank call?
ok so there’s this hotline for kids who have troubles with their parents and families but it was a shit hotline tbh so once i called it up with my friends pretending i was crying and the man on the phone asked me what was wrong so i told him that all my friends had fire type pokemon and i only had grass type pokemon and they kept beating me and i didnt know what to do and then man was so confused it was funny af
27: Meaning behind my URL
idk man i wanted a name that could b easy to remember and i was inspired by ridgeport tbh
28: Favorite movie
the perks of being a wallflower
29: Favorite song
Fav song atm is anything from p!atd's newest album and my fav song of all time is probably train of consequences by megadeth
30: Favorite band
megadeth lol
31: How I feel right now
pretty good but also annoyed bc i have to go to work in half an hour :(
32: Someone I love
my bf
33: My current relationship status
if u guys havent noticed by now im taken
34: My relationship with my parents
p ok
35: Favorite holiday
halloween/christmas
36: Tattoos and piercing i have
I have my ears pierced and thats it lol
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
i rlly want a few bookish related tattoos, like a tiny raven, a little lightning bolt, and the city of velaris and then i also rlly want a sleeve tbh but imma be a teacher and idk if i can :/ about piercings: i rlly want a helix or tragus and maybe get second holes in my hearlobes
38: The reason I joined Tumblr
ok so ive been on tumblr for about 5 years and initially it was bc i was Depressed™ and then about a year ago i found out about simblr and i was hooked
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
tbh i dont even talk to him anymore i dont rlly care about him in any way
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
yes bih
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
hes my bf so yea lol
42: When did I last hold hands?
wednesday
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
about 45 minutes bc im lazy and i keep getting distracted
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
nope
45: Where am I right now?
in bed lol
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
either my bf or my best friend
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
depends on where i am
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
mom
49: Am I excited for anything?
tbh moving out but thats gonna take a few more years
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
*insert bf here*
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
every time im at work lol
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
wednesday
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
lol bye
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
nope
55: What is something I disliked about today?
the fact that i have to work a day shift instead of an evening shift
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
my internet friends tbh it’d be cool to meet all the people from my bookish discord or from @booptherat‘s discord
57: What do I think about most?
what book i should read next
58: What’s my strangest talent?
i can finish a book in about 4 hours
59: Do I have any strange phobias?
not rlly? i hate the whole asmr thing tho ew
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
behind lol
61: What was the last lie I told?
i dont remember tbh
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
neither lol
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
look im not saying that believing that we’re the only living species in the entire universe is narcissistic, but it is. also dont fuck with ghosts
64: Do I believe in magic?
hell yes
65: Do I believe in luck?
hell yes
66: What’s the weather like right now?
idk probably cloudy and windy
67: What was the last book I’ve read?
fahrenheit 451 by ray bradbury
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
nah not rlly
69: Do I have any nicknames?
i guess mar?
70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?
when i was 2 i fell from sth and slammed the corner of my eye onto the corner of a table and i couldve been blind but thank god im not
71: Do I spend money or save it?
both
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
yup
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?
post it notes
74: Favorite animal?
doggg
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
reading lol
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
idk man
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
i gotta feeling by the black eyed peas lol
78: How can you win my heart?
give me a samoyed and a 1000 books
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
“a boss ass bitch”
80: What is my favorite word?
fuck?
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
@cubersims @imvikai @ridgeport @cowplant-pizza @bloomlet @tiptoptab
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
spend fiddies, pet kitties, hold tiddies
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
not that i know of lol
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
the power to choose whatever power i want at any moment
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
“do you like working here?”
86: What is my current desktop picture?
its an august background from @emmastudies
87: Had sex?
yes
88: Bought condoms?
no
89: Gotten pregnant?
no
90: Failed a class?
yes
91: Kissed a boy?
yup, i’ve been kissing my bf for about 2,5 years now lol
92: Kissed a girl?
yup, i’m living the bisexual dream lol
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
yes
94: Had job?
yes, im working at a movie theater right now!!
95: Left the house without my wallet?
tbh all the time now that i can pay with my phone
96: Bullied someone on the internet?
yea i used to but that was when i was 12 and i’d like to say that i’ve grown a lot in the past 5 years
97: Had sex in public?
nope
98: Played on a sports team?
yes
99: Smoked weed?
nope, even though i live like 20 minutes away from amsterdam lol
100: Did drugs?
nope
101: Smoked cigarettes?
nope
102: Drank alcohol?
yupppp, i love me some raspberry cider
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
nope
104: Been overweight?
nope
105: Been underweight?
nope
106: Been to a wedding?
yup
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
lol all the time tbh
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
yup
109: Been outside my home country?
yup, however never outside of europe tho
110: Gotten my heart broken?
a few times
111: Been to a professional sports game?
yess, i saw the dutch female volleyball team once!
112: Broken a bone?
nope
113: Cut myself?
yes
114: Been to prom?
we dont do prom in the netherlands lol
115: Been in airplane?
yes
116: Fly by helicopter?
nope
117: What concerts have I been to?
k3 (only dutchies and belgians remember this), one direction, megadeth, and ed sheeran
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
yupp
119: Learned another language?
i mean im from the netherlands and im fluent in english thanks to myself
120: Wore make up?
yuppp
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
yes
122: Had oral sex?
lol yes
123: Dyed my hair?
nope
124: Voted in a presidential election?
not old enough to vote :(
125: Rode in an ambulance?
nope
126: Had a surgery?
nope
127: Met someone famous?
nope
128: Stalked someone on a social network?
nope
129: Peed outside?
a few times lol
130: Been fishing?
nope
131: Helped with charity?
yep
132: Been rejected by a crush?
a few times
133: Broken a mirror?
lol yes
134: What do I want for birthday?
some books, money, cake, more books, makeup
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i forgot to copy andpste the rules fuckjdjh anwyay taged by @younghyuuns and @pupcats :D thank u guys for tagging me i havent done this in ages
tagging: @minhyukwithagun (just saw ur new icon ffuck) @briwoon and @tokayhk u guys dont have to tho ily all oh also @hyunghoney and @hyungkyunnie and @minhyukt suddenly im tagging everyone u guys dont have to do it either ily toohdjh
last:
drink: water hddhh im so happie to hear everyones answer is water too stay fresh
phone call: ................ oh my mum i was gonna say i dont call ppl but she called the house phone yesterday
text message: ‘what’ jhddsjhjhsh
song you listened to: beside you by 5so/s im wheesinghs falen kdhs
time you cried: really cried??? january on a thursday aka last month i broke down in school djhhsjh schools the place i cry the most i couldnt go through one month without breaking downdjhdhs every year i have 2 cry there at least once apparently jesushdjs
have you ever:
dated someone twice: i havent even dated anyone once
been cheated on: see above
kissed someone and regretted it: see above
lost someone special: immmdmfmmdkks i guess not? in terms of friends they were special but not anymore so i guess that doesnt count
been depressed: nope
been drunk and thrown up: in this house we only drink water
in the past year have you:
made a new friend: heck yeah? i made so many good pals after revamping this blog im so happie :(
fallen out of love: no lol i stopped having this crush on this person at the end of 2016 best decision of my life
laughed until you cried: one too many times but i cant remember any ;-/
met someone who changed you: falen?? but everyone has an effect on mehjd
found out who your true friends are: well . yeah
found out someone was talking about you: idk i dont rememberjhdhjhs i dont care enough
general:
how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: only karissa and she doenst even use tumblr much ;-/
do you have any pets?: i wish i did D: but not now.. jsjd maybe when im out of this country/place
do you want to change your name?: ifjkksj not rly..??????? i just hated it for a while when i was younger bc i didnt like the nicknames that came with my namejhddh
what time did you wake up this morning: 11am fuck my life
what were you doing last night: giffing :D and then i gave up bc it started messing up so i went to bed
name something you cannot wait for: school to start bc im excited since its a whole new jhhdhsh thng? but im also terrified im learning physics theres a reason why i took biology instead man my course is called biotechnology nothhjjhhjjhsjhhf physics dont interact
have you ever talked to a person named tom?: the only tom i know is tom from tom and jerry
what’s getting on your nerves right now: the gifs
blood type: a emoji
nickname: when ging said her answer i lost my mind how many of you arent using ur real names tf... does ging stand for ginger also this question is about me hold onfjdhhhjshd uh egg and meggan i guess? nutfucker toojhdjhhjdh bc that was my ig name so irl ppl would call me that and embarrass me thanks or just nut because of that username too
relationship status: never dated thank god
zodiac sign: capricorn sun and taurus moon im the .optimum dirt call me soil hdjsh also i showed ayesha my chart and she lost her mind saying the reason why i say oh worm so much is bc im like 50% earth i couldnt stop laughing tumblr install a filter search function in chats i need to dig that up
pronouns: she/her
favorite show: haikyuu i aint gonna stop loving u bitch
college: idk what this means either im not gonna tell yall my school im gonna be doing biotechnology tho trust me i dont know what the fuck that course is about im a fool all i know is that it has to do with cells [changkyun voice] well its cells
hair color: black but i like to think its brown
do you have a crush on someone: crushes and the whole. love game is cursed
what do you like about yourself: i learn... from my mistakes i guess idk also im generally friendly . ...
firsts:
first surgery: none
first piercing: none im a [redacted]
first sport you joined: fucking. golf or swimming or tennis i used to be all about sports now i just. walk
first vacation: probably malaysia
first pair of sneakers: converse which i used to deem as clown shoes ... now all i wear are converse dkhhdshj
right now:
eating: amylase
drinking: nothing i need to drink water im thirsty hold on stay hydrated if ur reading this drink some water
i’m about to: pee i need to go,
listening to: spotify ad time hates me. ill go back to this later oh wait this isnt a spotify ad anymore scavenger by finish ticket who r they? idk either my friend recommends me songs and theyre good but by bands ive never heard of
want kids: no iwnt animals
get married: marriage ? sounds phake
career: ive been saying this since 2016 but farmer
which is better:
lips or eyes: i hate myself i read lips and thought of l** m*nhyuk ;-/ singularity’s impact! and nojhhsjjhdh idk? fucking both i guess ??????? i dont look at peoples faces often
hugs or kisses: depends on the kiss but i love huggingjdhjhd i dont think. id be able to hug certain people tho? which is weird im fine with likejhdhjsjh hugging this person (usually happens when we’re watching movies bc djdkjjs im a [redacted] again so i have to hide my eyes) but i cant imagine myself.. hugging my other friendshjhdh??? idk itd be awkward ig
shorter or taller: taller ! love me that height if ur below 165 cm dont talk to me
older or younger: older ???? or my age idk
romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous im always like this with my friendsjhfhjhdh me: hey lets walk there instead my friends: ready tof ucking kill me
sensitive or loud: a ? a mediudndjs like... an in between
hookup or relationship: preferably nothing but relationship of coursehjhd
troublemaker or hesitant: an inbetween jjdshjshd?? idk shit lads
have you ever:
kissed a stranger: nope
drank hard liquor: drank sparkling water once it counts
lost contacts/glasses: no im so blind they always have to be on my fucking face
sex on first date: sex never .
broken someone’s heart: yeah but when i was kid so it probably didnt mean much
been arrested: iddjsh i was gonna joke but i cant think of anything so no
turned someone down: jhdhhdjs yeah but mostly like hangouts?? hdjhd not like dates and shit
fallen for a friend: let me think the first girl i liked wasnt a friend but when we became friends i was like o womrie nvm but she did help me realize im Not straight as did tumblr which even tho i constantly insult it helped me a lot fjdhjhs but my two crushes after were on my friends ;-/ my first crush unfortunately on a guyddhhs wasnt my friend either tho damn now u guys know my whole backstory :D
do you believe:
in yourself: sometimes bitch has 2 get those grades man
miracles: yes you (love live) please come home........ ... ....
love at first sight: dam. was gonna talk abt anime again but hjhdhshj no ? i guess not maybe like wow ur attractive at first sight but thats it
if u read until the end thank u ur the realest have a good day!!!!!
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a few years ago i had joined a roleplay community. it wasnt very big, pretty close knit. like after a few days you pretty much knew the people who would visit the chatroom regularly, those who were regular submitter to the artists galleries and the likes.
whenever someone new joined the community the atmosphere was always pretty excited? since its a new face in a very small group of people and everyones curious what theyre like as a person and excited to roleplay with someone new as a change of pace
it was during this time i met a lot of great and talented individuals and had a lot of fun roleplaying and goofing off during my downtime. everyone had great characters and despite the depressing premise (where everyone was dead p much) the community was pretty jolly and light hearted. although maybe im just thinking that way because im seeing everything through rose colored glasses idkthere were bad times though too. and one time in particular still just.. fucks me up. it was with one member from the community and recently i ran into them again and i just dont know what to do. cause everytime i talk to them i think about the last time we had a real conversation together and it. just. sucks.back in the day the community was split pretty evenly between people who lived in the united states and canada and people who lived in australia and the phillipines. so basically opposite ends of the world.i ended up adding a bunch of them on skype so we could talk whenever and continue talking forever, including this certain member
now to be fair we were friends. i wouldnt really consider us friends now just because i havent talked to them in ages but. at the time we were. we’d talk for hours about our characters and the inspiration that we put into them. i had a lot of fun talking to them and they really made me think about what makes a good character in general
the character i had in the community was basically a self insert. he was originally a poor attempt at some kind of bad boy flirty type that gave way into my own frustrations with depression, apathy, and mangled relationships. but of course at the time i had no word for depression, mostly out of denial, i thought if i said that my character had depression people might actually point the fingers back at me and ask if i was also depressed. which was a road i didnt not want to go on.
this member was not afraid to talk about it though. they were very upfront about having depression and talking about how much it sucked. what led up to it. what they do to deal with it now. i both admired them for being so open and candid about it.... but i was also afraid for them.
a year earlier i had lost a friend to suicide. i had never met them and to be honest i dont think he really cared about me at all. but being in the same situation where someone was talking about how often they wanted to die... it just kept remind me of slo. and how, as an internet friend, there wasnt a whole lot i could do but listen. and eventually i just had to stop.
one night they ended up calling me through skype. i thought it was weird bc up until then we never called. and i dont think i ever told them that i had a slight fear of the phone. i answered it though because, there wasnt much of a reason not to? i was home alone and i was just doing homework so i answered it.turned out the guy had swallowed a bunch of pills and was just looking for someone to talk to while he waited out his death sentence. when i found out i just broke down. i immediately thought of slo, even though his death involved a car crash and this guy was just drugged up on some unknown cocktail of pills.
i tried to talk them out of it. but theres nothing to talk a person out of when they already did the thing. i begged them to see the brighter side but even i couldnt see what that bright side was. i tried to explain what i did when i felt that way. rubbing my hands on car keys or taking in the texture of the carpet. i remember him alluding to cutting. eventually they passed out from the pills and stopped responding. skype disconnected the call, and i, in a panicked state called 911 and talked to an operator who told me there was nothing they could do when they didnt know where the guy lived, what his real name was or any piece of information. they werent miracle workers. although they could pray.
i dont think i went to bed until early the next morning. my body was too seized up and my mind was just stuck thinking about slo and the unknown state of my friend. im pretty sure one of my roommates came in after hanging out with friends and tried to comfort me at some point too but they went to bed a little later due to being too tired.
in the end they wound up being okay. their girlfriend found them that morning and helped them to get better. i guess whatever cocktail of pills they got just wasnt lethal enough to do much other than give them a really bad stomach ache. which was good. and im really glad for, and part of me also relieved to find out they’re still alive after all these years
but at the same time i just... dont know how i feel about them anymore. after that night i slowly stopped talking to them. kinda avoided the chatrooms for a bit and i think i even removed them off skype when i was cleaning up my contacts. when they were removed from the community for being inactive i was secretly relieved. which then prompted me to hate myself immediately afterwards. i mean! what kind of friend am i? to be secretly glad a friend who i know is severely depressed being removed due to inactivity? im not a friend im a fake.
but at the same time, they terrified me that night. and ever since then whenever i talked to them i was always worried about them somehow calling or telling me that theyre in the middle of killing themselves and theres nothing i can do about it. it sucks. and im powerless and i cant do anything. its a terrible feeling to have and forcing anyone to be in that position is a selfish powerplay. and so... i just stopped talking to them. i’d let time and silence erode the friendship we had until we were total strangers again. let the space between us comfort me while i tried to ignore my own guilt for turning away someone who’s hurting badly
but now theyre back again and, i dont know what to do. i mean i know what to do. i should talk to them and talk about that night and how it fucked me over so badly and how they need serious help. i know i should do this. this is my second chance here but at the same time. i dont want to think abotu that night again. im trying so hard not to think about death. and here comes the person who everytime i think about them i think about killing myself and that powerlessness and slo and everything bad and it makes me sick
but things would get better if i just opened up and talk... wouldnt it?
#whispers#everythings alright im just.. trying to sort through some feelings#thought writing it down might help and if not coming back at a later time with a clearer head might help things along#tw suicide#tw death
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1-134 lets go.
idk if i love you or wanna murder you rn
1: Name
Fiona (Fifi and Barry work too)
2: Age
16 (in 3 day)
3: 3 Fears
-drowing
-sleep paralysis
-never truly enjoying anything
4: 3 things I love
-my cat
-webcomics
-german delis
5: 4 turns on
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
6: 4 turns off
too bitter, too often
7: My best friends
matilda and tessa
8: Sexual orientation
labels r 4 soup cans
…
(I’m honestly unsure and i prefer not to worry about it)
9: My best first date
I’ve only had 1 first date and it was p much my dream date
10: How tall am I
5′7
11: What do I miss
tessa, cosplaying, thoroughly enjoying things
12: What time were I born
2:08pm i think
13: Favorite color
mint green-blue
14: Do I have a crush
no
15: Favorite quote
“Life is tough but I am tougher, I’ll be fine.” idk who its by i just saw it on tumblr once
16: Favorite place
downtown seattle or in the woods sometime between spring and summer
17: Favorite food
baked ziti
18: Do I use sarcasm
all the time
19: What am I listening to right now
buzzfeed video
20: First thing I notice in new person
idk
21: Shoe size
womens 10
22: Eye color
some say green, others say blue. I think green.
23: Hair color
light brown
24: Favorite style of clothing
80s fashion, anything pink and flashy,
25: Ever done a prank call?
yep, but it was years ago
27: Meaning behind my URL
I like raspberries
28: Favorite movie
The grand budapest hotel,
29: Favorite song
Colors by grouplove
30: Favorite band
idk
31: How I feel right now
Hungry, melancholic,
32: Someone I love
Gus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
33: My current relationship status
sangle
34: My relationship with my parents
okay i guess
35: Favorite holiday
Call me old fashioned, by i love christmas. I love love love giving gifts and warm sweaters and getting 2 weeks off school, its just so good.
36: Tattoos and piercing i have
Basic ear piercing
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
no other peircings. I know its cheesy, but I love minimalist flower tattoos, but theres nothing valuable enough to me to get a tattoo of.
38: The reason I joined Tumblr
All my friends were doing it. I actually really hated tumblr and i never wanted to join but here i am
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
no
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
I get snapchats if that counts
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
no, i dont think so
42: When did I last hold hands?
idk probably sometime today
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
about an hour
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
nope
45: Where am I right now?
in my room, hunched over on the pink chair my cats like to tear up
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
probably matilda, or gus, there is even an off chance it could be nell
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
depends, if im alone, loud, any other case i go reasonable.
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
yes
49: Am I excited for anything?
my birthday on thursday :3
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
nope
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
everyday p much
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
today probably
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
i wouldnt care
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
yep
55: What is something I disliked about today?
forgot breakfast, my classes kinda sucked
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
michael cera, i wanna fight him in his own home
57: What do I think about most?
eating
58: What’s my strangest talent?
dont got one
59: Do I have any strange phobias?
i dont think so
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
either way, love attention, love creating
61: What was the last lie I told?
idk
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
video chat, though i havent done it in months
63: Do I believe in ghosts?
not really, but i have a little hope
How about aliens?
yea to some degree. I think they exist somewhere in the universe but i don’t think we’ll ever meet them
64: Do I believe in magic?
not really, but i have a lot of hope
65: Do I believe in luck?
depends on the day.
66: What’s the weather like right now?
rainy
67: What was the last book I’ve read?
I read a little bit of huntress by malinda lo, but its really just been sittin gon my bedside table for 3 months
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
not really
69: Do I have any nicknames?
fifi, fio, fif, fiobird
70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?
idk
71: Do I spend money or save it?
depends, i usually save but recently ive been spending like crazy
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
yep
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?
yep, my clothes are pink, my chairs are pink, my sheets are pink, and ive got a buncha pink stuffed animals.
74: Favorite animal?
Frogs, bears, and bunnies!
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
sleepin
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
its hard to choose cuz ive got a whole playlist but heres a few
lifes a happy song
talk too much
kiss you
pay no mind
78: How can you win my heart?
food, similar interests, positivity, a sense of humor
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
“Y’all watch this”-final words
80: What is my favorite word?
amygdala
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
idk
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
“Howdy”
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
don’t think so
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
freeze time, or to be able to morph my body into whatever
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
“Are you a dog person or a cat person?”
86: What is my current desktop picture?
just a pattern of flowers
87: Had sex?
no
88: Bought condoms?
no
89: Gotten pregnant?
no
90: Failed a class?
no
91: Kissed a boy?
no
92: Kissed a girl?
yes!
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
no
94: Had job?
no
95: Left the house without my wallet?
yep
96: Bullied someone on the internet?
i dont think so
97: Had sex in public?
no
98: Played on a sports team?
yep, everyday
99: Smoked weed?
no
100: Did drugs?
no
101: Smoked cigarettes?
no
102: Drank alcohol?
no
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
no
104: Been overweight?
yep, since forever
105: Been underweight?
no
106: Been to a wedding?
yes, I loved it so much!!
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
probably
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
probably
109: Been outside my home country?
when i was 4 i went to ireland, when i was 6 i went to canada
110: Gotten my heart broken?
idk
111: Been to a professional sports game?
yep, went to a couple seattle sonics games when i was a kid. there were other things but idr what they were
112: Broken a bone?
nope
113: Cut myself?
nope
114: Been to prom?
nope
115: Been in airplane?
yep
116: Fly by helicopter?
nope
117: What concerts have I been to?
Weezer when i was 8 i think, the flaming lips when i was 10, and fun when i was 12 or 13
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
yea, for a short while
119: Learned another language?
I’m trying!!
120: Wore make up?
yep, but never anymore
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
no
122: Had oral sex?
no
123: Dyed my hair?
yep, in 8th grade. it was purple and also the worst
124: Voted in a presidential election?
no
125: Rode in an ambulance?
no
126: Had a surgery?
yep, earlier this year
127: Met someone famous?
no
128: Stalked someone on a social network?
kinda
129: Peed outside?
yep
130: Been fishing?
yep, i used to go with tessa all the time
131: Helped with charity?
no
132: Been rejected by a crush?
no
133: Broken a mirror?
probably
134: What do I want for birthday?
tbh? stickers and manga
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@alexanderthenotsogreat tagged me in this ayyyyyyyyyy thanks babe LAST…
[1] drink: Fanta Orange
[2] phone call: i called my mom to ask her where she kept the puppy needles at the clinic for my T shot
[3] text message: me and my friend being Petty
[4] song you listened to: Movin' Out (Panic! at the Disco cover from last nights concert whaddup)
[5] time you cried: LAST NIGHT AT THE PANIC! CONCERT DURING GIRLS/GIRLS/BOYS BOY HOWDY HAVE YOU EVER… [6] dated someone twice: honey i've never even been on a DATE
[7] been cheated on: HONEY I HAVENT HELD HANDS W ANYONE ROMANTICALLY HOW COULD I BE CHEATED ON
[8] kissed someone and regretted it: NEVER KISSES ANYONE RIP
[9] lost someone special: yea
[10] been depressed: boy howdy
[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: nah, i've only ever been buzzed tbh LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:
[12] gray
[13] maroon
[14] black IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…
[15] made new friends: ye
[16] fallen out of love: nah
[17] laughed until you cried: lmao yEAH
[18] found out someone was talking about you: lol yeah bc they're fckn COWARDS
[19] met someone who changed you: i mean we all change each other constantly bUT yeah i met this one guy who changed my life
[20] found out who your true friends are: MMMMMHMM
[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: AGAIN. NO. THANK U FOR REMINDING ME GENERAL…
[22] how many of your tumblr friends do you know in real life: ~5 i think ?
[23] do you have any pets: lol i live on a farm my boys
[24] do you want to change your name: YEAH MY DUDES im changing it to Alexander Quinn
[25] what did you do for your last birthday: i sat in my basement and played Dragon Age with my friends 🙃
[26] what time did you wake up: 7:30ish
[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: falling asleep lol
[28] name something you cannot wait for: starting college in the fall !!!
[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: a few hours ago
[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: would my gender count? i sorta wanna b a cis boy tbh
[31] what are you listening to right now: my friends trying to play hide and seek in the dark in my friends basement rip
[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yepp
[33] something that is getting on your nerves: my inability to go into a boys restroom alone bc im scared Where’s [34]?
[35] elementary: ive been going to the same school since kindergarten rip
[36] high school: graduating in the top 10 of my class
[37] college: going to Columbia College Chicago in the fall!!!!! super excited god bless
[38] hair colour: brown with mint tips ayy
[39] long or short hair: shortshortshort
[40] do you have a crush on someone: not really but i fall into small infatuations w cute ppl who smile at me tbh
[41] what do you like about yourself?: idk my voice finally dropped/is dropping
[42] piercings: ears but imma get a lip ring soooooon
[43] blood type: R O Y A L
[44] nickname: Xanny Phantom, Sheep Boi, XanderGander, etc.
[45] relationship status: single but not the fun kind :(((
[46] zodiac sign: im an Aquarius binch
[47] pronouns: he/him
[48] fav tv show: idfk
[49] tattoos: until i have money saved up, but i have my first one all planned out B]
[50] right or left handed: right, but i used to be ambidextrous rip FIRST…
[51] surgery: N/A
[52] piercing: ears
[53] best friend: a girl named Heidi who i dont really chill w anymore bc shes sporty and im not
[54] sport: Tee Ball
[55] vacation: Disney World when i was 8--also my only vacation ever
[56] pair of trainers: light up sketchers whaddup binches RIGHT NOW…
[57] eating: nada
[58] drinking: mtn. dew like a good gamer boy
[59] i’m about to: scroll thru my gay ass tumblr dash for those Gay Feelings
[60] listening to: See [31]
[61] waiting for: the Sweet Release of sleep
[62] want: a cute boy to smooch and get jiggy with
[63] get married: nahhhh unless they the real deal, u kno?
[64] career: HOPEFULLY an illustrator for graphic novels and/or author of said novels WHICH IS BETTER…
[65] hugs or kisses: i am unable and unqualified to answer this
[66] lips or eyes: mmmmmmmmmmmmm depends
[67] shorter or taller: mmmmmmmm taller? depends tbh
[68] older or younger: older
[69] [nice] romantic or spontaneous: either or both depending
[70] nice arms or nice stomach: armsss
[71] sensitive or loud: loud
[72] hook up or relationship: both or just hook up :]
[73] troublemaker or hesitant: both?? HAVE YOU EVER…
[74] kissed a stranger? I WISH
[75] drank hard liquor? yah
[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? YAH
[77] turned someone down: BINCH NEVER TALKED TO ME BEFORE EXCEPT FOR WHEN I PUT HER DOG DOWN SO UH, YEAH. DIDNT END WELL.
[78] sex on first date? nah but ,';]
[79] broken someone’s heart? idk hopefully not
[80] had your own heart broken? nah
[81] been arrested? nop but my dad used to be a DNR officer and hes terrifying
[82] cried when someone died? yeap
[83] fallen for a friend: nah DO YOU BELIEVE IN…
[84] yourself? to a point
[85] miracles? to a point
[86] love at first sight? nah. only attraction.
[87] santa claus? negative
[88] kiss on the first date? pls
[89] angels? to a point OTHER…
[90] current best friend’s name: Binch (@solarscam)
[91] eye colour: brown :[
[92] favourite movie: uhhhhhh half the gay movies on Netflix rn. ((currently obsessed with Closet Monster tbh))
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