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rurik (@angeutblogo )dressing as patrick bateman for halloween (ignore the miscellaneous doodles around AJSBAHS)
#rurikliderc#this is what you get for halloween#i havent been doing digital ;v;#plus he runs after kids maniacally laughing with dante#theyre perfect for each other#fellpalette#rurik
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What ever man. Mekh blast 💥
I think they would look so good in a suit
#finally i can post this#Hi i’m still here#also still gay. and cringe#it’s been harder to do digital art bc of computer problems but i am trying#havent been able to finish v much tho :/#sky cotl fanart#sky children of the light#sky cotl#skyblr#thatskygame#valley elders#well just the one#but thats okay#my art#mine
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something to recognize that choosing recovery again and again is difficult work, and you are not weak for faltering
#comics#hey proud of myself for completing a multi page comic even if its not that long#i realized i tend to operate under made up rules about the art in a comic being super consistent and it limits me#so i tried letting myself be looser with it :>#i hope this makes sense let me know what u think i feel so incoherent lately#hope everyone is doing well !!! havent been v active but i just got a flatbed scanner so i should be able to post some drawings soon :O#been UNWELL super unemployed i am in the slime i am seeing the skull#digital art#autobio comics#ask to tag#self harm cw#self harm tw#addiction cw#addiction tw
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#SOULCATCHER MY FAVEEEEEEE#ive been watching a lot of chinese opera and myths#ive even done some study drawings! its so cool to me i love the costume designs and patterns#i havent been playing idv much lately but once my exams are done i hope to play a lot!!#i also hope to get composer he seems rlly fun and i rlly like rhythm games#my fave Chinese myths are nezha and sun wukong. i just think they are both so cool#nezha legit was like: oh youre gonna eat kids (beats you to death) and nezha js like 7. its brutal in the original animations#and theres gonna be more movies in the coming years and i rlly hope to watch them!! but cn movies dont get as much coverage 😔#there was a punk ver called nezha reborn and i cant watch to watch that SUN WUKONG IS SO DRIPPED HES SO COOL#but yeah!! i hope everyone is doing well 🤧💖 i hope to draw norton a lot!! OH i did doodle him today on paper!!! he was dancing :D#if you would like to see a dancing nort i will glady post it!!#to anyone that got this far have a free cookie :3 🍪#my art#sketch#digital art#identity v#idv#idv art#norton campbell#idv norton#doodle
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Hi sunny.. its been a while since i checked my tumblr.. just wanna say i really love your art and it reallyyyyyy inspired me to draw.. back before i only drew on paper but when i saw your art i too wanna try to do digital art! And so i did! I havent been drawing for a while.. but yesterday i picked up a pen and drew something.. it made me feel like i wanna keep drawing again.. uhmm if its not too much to ask.. can u give me some tips on how you do that lineart? I cant quite explain it but its just so amazing how you do that! Ya know when the lineart becomes that color.. lol when i draw my art looks so flat.. even if i added some shadows and stuff.. im just super curious on how you do art! Well anywayyy just wanna say it i love you and your art ☺️💖 thanks for being an inspiration!! 😘
heyy thank you so much! happy to hear that ;v;
ohh there's various ways, generally speaking unless your brush is a fully opaque line that entirely blocks out what's below, some of the color is gonna pass through, especially if you put it on multiply or add a filter on top like overlay, it's gonna change colors, I think you've mainly see me do one of these two lool (the first example is literally the SAI default brush and I only started using it again recently)
if you have a fully opaque line and want to change color anyway, you have to do so manually! hope this helps c:
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FORGOTTEN LAND'S SECOND ANNIVERSARY :3
I AM SOOOO BACK
I started this drawing yesterday around afternoon and finished it just a few minutes earlier.
I went with a messier type of drawing instead of more clean like the elfilin one from yesterday, i find it fun doing it like this, mostly cause i dont have to worry about making it perfectly so i dont get as frustrated as normal. Id place this one as my second best digital drawing. im pretty sure i havent posted what i consider my best digital drawing here, tho i do have it in instagram, i might post it here one day, tho these two are way too tied up, i love how this came out, its not exactly like how i imagined it but its really close to it, and also itd say that since i dont tend to play around lighting that much, this was such a joy to draw and i cant help but stare at it a lot, at least until i start hating it because i made quite a lot of errors. i also changed my elfilis gijinka just a tad bit from last time, but its not that big of a difference, mostly.
ofc i had to draw elfilis for forgotten land's anniversary, i tend to deny it in my head but yeah they're my fave of the kirby characters even tho i hate them a bit. I wanted to draw some more doodles, like, elfilis eating cake, kirby car, a bunch of other stuff (not elfilin cuz i already drew him yesterday) but when i tried i couldnt draw anything more, guess this drawing burned me out a lot, huh?
you can definitly tell i spent all the efforts on him cuz if you look a bit closer to the bottom part you'll see its almost barely detailed, but i mean, they're the focus so make sense i guess for me not add that much detail there. um also, maybe because i dunno i had OVER 130 LAYERS jeez no wonder firealpaca was slowing down so much, i need to manage my layers better next time, tho i did do something i keep forgetting, wich is naming them (most of them at least) that was a real life saver
Also, antares (fecto elfilis' spear/cadaceus), as always, was a pain to draw, but this time its probably been draw the most accurate out of every other drawing ive made with it in it, i didnt notice it was like, a little curved when it reached the blade
some close ups since his face is a bit hard to see
silly :3
fun fact! actually, this is technically a redraw, somewhere around between february and march i started a fecto elfilis drawing for the first anniversary, but i couldnt finish it in time, and i never finished it
thats...quite the improvement! (i remember being so proud of it)
also his wings are like that cuz i did not want to draw the pattern, its way too hard, i literally copy pasted it, wait, i was talking about the 2024 version but i looked at the 2023 one and i just noticed it also has the pattern copy pasted, i guess some stuff never changes since i still abuse the ctrl+c ctrl+v to this day
Also i ended up making a huge error there, i was planing to add the phantom spears from orbital pulsar (the attack he does first when you battle them at lab discovera) but theres an innacuracy, when they do the attack, they always close their eyes, i had actually sketched him (well i mean both these drawings are basically the first sketch (2023) or second sketch(2024) with some color, shadows and lighting. i didnt do lineart in the 2024 one cuz i wanted to be a bit like the og i made (too bad i sketched that one with black since the og was sketched with white due to me drawing the bg first)) with his eyes closed but them decided to make them open for a reason i cant remember, maybe i thought itd look nicer? idk
ive had the idea of redrawing this for quite some month now so it was kinda already planned
background cuz i think it came out really pretty
doesnt have the little stars since without elfilis and the structures it looks fucked up. the actual sky in game is more blue, but the clouds have some orange, in the 2023 ver. i made the sky orange, and in the 2024 ver i wanted it more accurate, but i didnt wanna loose the orange sky, so i did a gradient. pretty...
also here's a screenshot i took when i was like halfway trough it, its barely noticeable but i changed his mouth in the final drawing
I really love katfl, like a buncha whole lot, its basically almost my first mainline kirby game. 100% the demo, finished the game in almost one day, i literally play it monthly, like, every month i put the card in my switch, start it up, get morpho sword, and go shred elfilis in lab discovera. i would probably not even be here on tumblr and the kirby fandom if it werent for it. and i love it so much i genuinly cannot express how much i like it and treasure it with words or anything
Thank you for reading my unnecesarily long rambles lol
I hope i'll post tomorrow and dont forget like usual
Jambuhbye!
#art#fanart#kirby#kirby fanart#kirby gijinka#silly#digital art#firealpaca#fecto elfilis#fecto elfilis gijinka#my wife fecto elfilis and his new drip#yep changed them again#fecto elfilis lives in my head rent free 24/7#fecto elfilis fanart#kirby and the forgotten land#katfl#katfl spoilers#katfl second anniversary#kirby and the forgotten land second anniversary#katfl fanart#kirby and the forgotten land fanart#please reach a lot of people i spent way too much effort on this drawing#kirby series#kirby elfilis#kirby of the stars#:3333#:3#digital artist#artists on tumblr#small artist
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Introduction post☃️
My name is Erica !! I go by she/her
im mexican american, i mostly speak english online but do speak spanish aside
i think some people know me from instagram ? I have a different @ which is the one you see on my drawings in the corner @ rainbowlecat , im more active there
I also have twitter under the @ eigatoarcoiris
Im 17, and aspire to be a visual development or book cover artist !! But currently im working on college applications so i havent had much time to draw, i actually got my first acceptance yesterday yayyy!!!
I started drawing digitally in 2020/19, my favorite story to tell is that the reason i even started drawing back then is because i wanted to make pretty covers like i saw on the kotlc books
Ive been in the kotlc fandom since then, but have read the books since before that!
I also animate sometimes !!(working on a stellarlune animation atm, hoping to finish it before book 10 is announced (like title and cover))
Uhhh what else to say
My favorite kotlc character is sophie !! I am very very patiently waiting for book 10🙂
Looking for more kotlc mutuals ⁉️ heres some of my kotlc art if youve never seen it before v (last one was @/visible_echo's dtiys)
#is this how an introduction post is supposed to look like#i feel like i said too much#kotlc#kotlc fanart
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apparently some people can't tell that my art is all watercolor on paper, which maybe means i've been doing a decent job cleaning the pictures? i draw traditionally, take a photo with my phone, then use an image editing app to adjust the brightness/white balance/what have you before posting. :)
havent been recording full process videos lately because i feel like there's nothing interesting to watch when i'm just painting little doodles ^^;;; so i only have this v short mini compilation.
idk if anyone cares about all this. i just thought it was interesting to see some people not be able to tell it's not digital 😅
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Okay but in all seriousness the way you use color just shifts something in my brain whenever I see it, ESPECIALLY when you choose vibrant colors for the entire piece or only add one vibrant color because just AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH the way I'm SOBBING every time because it's so damn good
Also when you opt for more pastel colors????? It's been a while but back during ✨️our Kirby days✨️ you posted an art piece of Meta Knight sitting in the moonlight and just. The lines, the moon popping out thanks to the limited color pallet, the pastels, the way you made him So Fucking Shaped. It's literally the first thing that comes to my mind whenever I think of Meta. It's just such a stunning artwork like hhhhnnnnggggggGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH IT'S SO GOOD YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE IT
AAGHHHHH THANK YOU SO SO MUCH
this made me smile sm
im rlly proud of that meta knight ur talking about.. it was originally a physical sketch but i liked it sm i turned it digital and then i got silly with the colors
ive always been proud of my colors, but in the past (like idk 7 years ago) i had a weird limited approach to things. i figured out the trick of like,, taking something whose base color is pink and shading with purple. and then that was all i would do, because it pretty consistently made stuff that was pleasing to look at
and i developed a bit on that sorta style for years until my spamton era happened. i started using mspaint a TON and it radically changed my approach to coloring. having to both go into a seperate menu to select colors AND having the black/white slider be required to color pick Made it so that i had to experiment a lot more. mess around, maybe try a lower saturation. and after a while i started getting obsessed with grey tones.
my old old art was all super colorful, but in a sorta predictable way. its nice but didnt leave much of an impression
but in like my current era i use a lot of toned down colors. desaturated, greyish in betweens, playing with warm greys v cool greys, actually appreciating complementary colors
butyeah thats all to say. uh. i like colors a lot and i think about them alot
there r always new ways to approach coloring something and u can make some crazy stuff
ill admit that i feel like alot of my doodles n stuff look a little samey atm. u can tell what colors i default to when im feelin lazy lmao (cream, teal, green, warm pink, etc. all desaturated of course) but then again i havent been drawing much lately, the sample size isnt super big
i wanna make more shit i just never have the ideas or motivation.. i jsut end up doodling fish furries lol
uh i got distracted. anyways. thank u sm.....
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Hey, I heard you like Duel Links Lore! As owner of the (inactive 😓) @incorrectduellinksquotes I would like to impart the Cursed Knowledge if I can.
First, an easy way to tell if someones AI? If they re-enact a duel in their talk. Pegasus and Kaiba(DM) roleplay their DK duel, for example.
Starting with DM, an interesting note about Isis/Ishizu - Even before Yami Marik was added, she and Rishid/Odion had a conversation about how Malik/Marik was missing from Duel Links... ish. If I remember correctly, what they actually say is that Malik is missing in general, and they came to Duel Links to try and find him. While Isis has evidence pointing to her being an AI clone, Rishid has no damning evidence either way. Its entirely possible that Rishid is the real Rishid, and Malik has actually gone missing. I wonder if (Yami) Malik's inclusion in the game was considered in poor taste and got backlash.
Also, its evident that The Real Kaiba used Kaiba (DM) as his avatar for a while, before DSOD world was complete. Oddly, Roland/Isono seems to listen to Mokuba(DM) as his superior despite Mokuba being an AI copy, which is just funny
Onto GX - Its true that most characters are pretty ambiguous, but theres some that are obvious. Judai and Yubel (separate, not Yubel/Judai) are both AI, Cronos/Crowler does the RP thing, Ryo/Zane is still a butt much, but thats about it. The only one who has any indication they're real is... The Chazz. Yes, Black Thunder seems to be the genuine article, if and only because of the company he brings with him. Ojamas Yellow, Green, and Black wouldnt be there if Manjoume was an AI, and even if they were they wouldnt Leak Yubel's Event like Yellow did.
5Ds... you seem to have a good grasp on them.
I never watched zexal :X
Arc V iirc kinda implied nobodys real? i dunno i dropped Duel Links at that point
Vrains is where it gets interesting again, but frankly thats its own post. The question isnt "are they AI copies" the question is like. If you're a digital copy of something already digital, and the original is gone... is there a functional difference calling you a copy? Or is it fair to consider you the original? the funny ourple blob boi is a philisophical nightmare and he'd probably enjoy knowing he is.
Sorry. but also im not
OH FUCK YEAH!! Thanks a bunch, this is a FANTASTIC compilation of interesting lore bits; I didn't know a lot of these! (as it goes, having not played the game for like...the first four years it was out dfhghsdfg) THE FACT CHAZZ MIGHT BE THE REAL DEAL, OF ALL CHARACTERS??!? ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS. PLEASE. proving his humanity thanks to Ojama Yellow. truly only the best for The Chazz.
The thing about if a character reenacts a duel in their dialogue being a good benchmark for whether or not they're AI is fascinating....the brings up an interesting side-tangent with that when you have two confirmed AI characters dueling each other, and their dialogue isn't a perfect duel reenactment but still implies an established dynamic and history (like aporia and z-one's dialogue when they duel each other /obligatory comment about my old men). The way the AI themselves are evolving and talking with each other and being their own variations of these people....that's a can of worms all its own.
Arc-V's been such a weird case because even if everyone there happens to be AI, they're so kneedeep in trying to figure out how the memory cloning process works, what brings a person into this world, that you wonder if there's going to be some sort of realization of the self for one of those guys on the horizon. Could be fun if so!!!!
very very interested to see where the VRAINS implications go cuz that is SUPREMELY INTERESTING lore (especially for a fucking FREEMIUM TRADING CARD GAME ONLINE) and I want to see what they do with it. havent even SEEN vrains yet but I like watching these characters try to solve a mystery that should have never been their problem in the first place. great stuff!
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AND LIKE okay SciSaru has a p western feel to its animation both bcs its unconventional use of certain programs and bcs they tend to hire very diversely (Co-founder and current CEO is korean, chief of animation is spanish, in animation credits you see a lot of english names etc.) which is SUPER rare to see in a lot of anime studios. Anyway anyway bcs they use a lot of digitally assisted animation it allows them more time to focus on movement and characterizing, and bcs they have a relativelt simple style compared to other studios that also saves time and allows for more stylization in their work. I rlly like it bcs it has a lot of signature anime-esque things (facial expressions, certain movements, scenery, formatting) but with more western elements as well. Its done beautifully, too !! Theyve done a lot more ambitious things like Devilman Crybaby and Ride Your Wave, but I think Eizouken is ons of their best works bcs the difference in the three dif main characters is so stark, both in stature and in personality. Being able to put a different personality to the same stature, and vice-versa, is incredibly difficult esp. for animation and theyve done it perfectly in eizouken. The movements also feel smooth and fresh, and its been stated that Masaaki Yuasa (former CEO) would often go to the animators and physically act our the movements he wanted to see so they would look more realistic.
Acrually back to the western-japanese meld it possibly came about when Yuasa was working w/ Ankama in its japanese branch bcs their use of adobe flash was smth he hadnt seen used before in animation (again- v different style than most traditional japanese styles). Also also its hard 2 fully explain the differences in framing and scenery between western and eastern animation- do yall know what I mean when i say that? I find anime specifically (havent seen a ton of other eastern shows) tends to play with the foreground and perspective more, but western cartoons impact the enviornment within it and use higher and more widespread shots, while also more commonly keeping the camera level. I think this might be because anime is usually adapted from manga, and in order to keep readers interested in still images you need to change the perspective and view and zoom more than is strictly needed within animation. Idk tho.
Anyway thjs podt kinda went everywhere. I like eizouken
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Get to know you better
got a tag from @dru-reblogs-stuff :3
Relationship Status: me and bf are v happy :3 we've actually talked about the concept of being married and planned 2 buy rings, we're both just sorta apprehensive about certain aspects of the institution
Favorite Color(s): uuuuh ill be real For Once abt this question: i like a Lot of colours lol. i dress in black almost exclusively at this point just bc i like it and its comfortable, so thats def a top pick. i am also very fond of deep greens, dark reds/maroons, burgundy, and dusty purples. in artwork, ive been very into bright and saturated colours lately, like gold and cyan
Favorite Food: this is like a rly difficult question lmao so im gonna list some general categories of food i guess? i really love seafood, and id probably put sushi rly high up on the list. also am very fond of super spicy food and soups/stews. i rly like greek, mexican, japanese, and chinese food also, as well as american food (i like eat a burjer)
Song Stuck in My Head: Pop/Stars by KDA, I KNO leave me aloooone
Last thing you Googled: lollll i searched "WoW ebyssian" because i named a flight rising dragon that, thinking i was being cool and original, when in fact i just forgot the wow character existed. oops
Time: 7:11 pm pst, i havent eaten dinner yet. oops. i will also take much longer to finish this lmao
Dream Trip: i dont have a singular dream trip so much as a desire to travel in general bc id be nice to go new places. i have never been outside of the usa, except for the occasions i was on sovereign tribe land contained within the usa. i would like to visit ireland, finland, japan, greece, and egypt :3 maybe australia also
Last Thing You Read: the king diamond abigail comic
Last Book You Enjoyed Reading: genuinely do not remember what i read previous to the abigail comic lmao
Favorite Thing to Cook/Bake: i rly like making spice bread and my cheesey chicken chili :3
Favorite Craft to do in Your Freetime: i used to do some physical crafts (like needle felting), but most of my free time is spent doing computer hobbies lately! i like 2 make digital art, pixel art, and starbound mods
Most Niche Dislike: honestly cannot rly come up with this one. i dont like citrus fruits except limes i guess. lemons in certain circumstances
Opinion on Circuses: fine as long as the animal cruelty parts are avoided lmao, but ive never actually been to one
Do You Have Any Sense of Direction: bruh i could not navigate myself out of a wet paper sack irl. ask me for directions in vivec city from morrowind tho and i can set u the fuck up
Tagging back: neh
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(347-362 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17] [18] [19] [20] [21] [22] [23] [24] [25])
names and thoughts below cut
347/ (all music compos at Deadline 2023) the bangers are in the tracked music compo "lost_in_brutalism" prolly my fav but also! i do like the feel that "mind control" manages to add to dnb
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348/ anosci - visions from dsp 23 (2023) ive decided to put my own releases in here too :) i made drums. i rapidly alternate between loving and hating this but i am infatuated with the results from these techniques
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349/ Dario Zenker - Reflection (2023) dubby??? beats??? this is pretty much the ideal soundtrack for driving at night listen to "Jah True" and try to NOT see the streetlights passing by. also "Round Ritmo" hits some kinda nostalgic bone, the way it mangles that housish texture.
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350/ VA - Funk it UP (2017) this is kinda funny because "funk" is a very broad umbrella term and the entries here touch every corner. what is "Luxurious"? idk. still slaps tho. most funky funk: "funky boy"? "Quicksand Telescope"? "Bep Bop" has a very tito trackery feel
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351/ easyFun - ACOUSTIC (2023) not as much my tea as ELECTRIC. definitely feels like it'd appear on a radio wait a second… "Damaged III" goes hard in a non-accoustic way! ive been lied to! this rules but yea, fav tune actually "They’re So Smart" i think. fun one.
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352/ VA - The Sound of SceneSat Volume 7 (2023) huge bag etc naming a few hilights: Infamous kicking ass here esp with "Chaos Theory"! "Strolling in Okinawa" what in tarnation! this rules! "Bright Velvet" :O!!!! loving the hifi rendition of "Good Thing"! "2050 Or 2051" hits hard
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353/ ZULI - Numbers (2017) delightfully mangled. "What You Do" highlight maybe? massive.
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354/ Appo Sound Project – Digital Trip Dirty Pair Synthesizer Fantasy (1985) lol why is this "Lovely Mugi" arrange 20000x better than the ost version "Silent Inspiration" too but not by as much it kinda tapers after that, to my taste. glad to have given this a spin on a whim tho
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355/ greenhouse - arc,regn (2023) ok this may sound silly but: in the 90s, necros (among others) were making some rad tracker music with a very very specific synth sound and overall vibe that i simply havent heard since. this hits that for me. it's sleek and clean and beautiful
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356/ The Black Dog - My Brutal Life (2023) some of these pass me by entirely. some of these grab me: "Hey Serry", "It's Not Enough"
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357/ Howler - Initio (2023) this one just doesnt quite hit me. it's clean but. idk. "Fagin It" kinda vibes tho that and the wobbling filters of "Oh Yeah" became the only tracks i kept
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358/ VA - Winter Chip XII (2017) all over the place ofc standouts / thoughts: "ILLOGIC" The Good Stuff :D possibly fav? "Beneath The Ice" is a worthy winner tho. v banger "Sega Channel" is a hell of a bop "SMStep" idk how "old" this gets, i love the wob. on old systems too!
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359/ Patricia Taxxon - TECHDOG 1 (2023) the wild textures of ae threeJay etc, but with beautiful tones. feels like a fresh fun take on "chaotic beats over a sine synth" oldschool idm. it hits good!! t7 feels like a clean tigerbeat6 thing :O favs? t3, 5, 2, 8… lots to digest.
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360/ Sinjin Hawke & Zora Jones - Vicious Circles (2018) lots of rly cool textures in here, grounded by trap(?) beats. the title track esp. i think "Lurk 101" is my fav of the bunch tho
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361/ Patricia Taxxon - TECHDOG 2 (2023) t2 goin off tho t4 maybe [representative] highlight? t6 oh holy shit, what a texture. tigerbeat6 TWO t10 wild mix of textures. md flashback very funny to end a highly harmonic album with the abstracted beats of t11
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9/22/23 — 1:20am
i hate wanting to be productive in the middle of the night. i was tired all day tdy, and now i just want to do something productive. no!!! i work earlier than usual tomorrow!!!!
im doing my skincare now... i wore makeup tdy so i have no choice but to do it 🤯
im tired still but i dont want to sleep. i feel like i havent been productive enough tdy even though i went to 3 different appointments and within the 2 hours before work i cleaned my bathroom sink (that was incredibly disgusting, i am not exaggerating. no one has cleaned it in like a little over a year. my dad shaves his face there whenever it gets like 5 inches long and doesnt clean the hair out of the sink/on the counter. its gross.), made ramen (it wasnt v good).... at work i walked around almost the whole 6 hours. my feet hurt so!! bad!! after i work. it happens every time. it doesnt help that when i fell down my stairs, my "sprained" foot didnt heal properly. i also hurt my hand at work and have not seen a doctor .... im ngl im like a mess and if i tell anyone abt this theyll tell me its because im fat and need to lose weight WE GET IT. I KNOW. IM TRYING, AND JUST BECAUSE I AM DOESNT MEAN THAT I CANT HAVE SMTH WRONG WITH ME?????
anyways
im tired. like mentally and physically. i had counseling tdy and i told her everything and the time still wasnt full. she shared some things abt her life recently... still didnt fill the time. she didnt respond much at all, but she's grieving, so i understand
im not telling anyone except u and my digital diary about my situation with my ex... i need to stop complaining to people abt him and making it everyones problem when its really my fault i keep letting him back in my life. its bad! ive literally had dreams where he did that *thing* but like in an extremely worse way, and i told myself that i just had to live with it, that i have to get used to it. and, i mean, i guess i do... if i can *** ***** then he can do whatever.
im not even with him... just flirting heavily. he picks up on it, i think so, anyway....
im tired
i saw that u updated ur music playlist you sent to me recently ! so heres a song for u in return
2:51am
idk why it pisses me off so bad but when b says shes ugly it makes me so angry. "why cant i be like the pretty girls?" she is the definition of a pretty girl... she may not see it because people were mean to her growing up but its like... ive cried SO much because of how pretty she is. my parents call her the pretty girl, people at school say shes pretty all the time... it just makes me so upset that someone as pretty as her cant see it. and i wish she could, honestly.
and i hate that this makes me so angry. i have so much envy that it rips me apart every second of the day, and i hate it!!!!! im the fat, ugly friend, and i always felt bad for her being friends with me. she says that im one of the prettiest ppl she knows.... if that were true, would she have deleted all the photos of me off of her phone? who knows. and the fact that people compliment her all the time at school and in public should say A LOT about how pretty she is. it happens all the time! and i mean all the time. maybe she doesnt think it was genuine or she forgets? idk... i think the last time a stranger complimented my appearance was a year and a half ago at a taco bell drive thru. the last time i was called pretty (besides when my mom says it) was at leastt 6 months ago. im like distraught because she is literally so beautiful fuck
this is going to make me cry myself to sleep because i cant say any of this to her because this is really just unhealthy of me, like the envy and making me seem like the victim. it just makes me so upset that everyone thinks shes pretty but herself
yeah im def crying myself to sleep gn i work in 11hrs which sounds like a long time from now but i havent slept yet lol
3:16am
ok i lied i messaged her and said "i saw you commented "i wish i was one of the pretty girls" on a tiktok, and i really need you to know that you are the pretty girl. youre so incredibly beautiful not only on the outside but the inside too... it can be rare to find someone like that. i hope youre able to see yourself through my eyes someday and see yourself for what you truly are—beautiful"
i hope it doesnt come off weird
ok i cried and messaged her i should rlly just sleep now
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Lil nort
#he has christmas hat :))!!#my art#sketch#digital art#identity v#idv#idv art#norton campbell#idv norton#ive been tired anlot this week so i didnt draw much#ive been warching a lot of dimension20 dnd stuff tho i rlly love neverafter#havent bren playing idv either#i tried composer he is fun!!#if anyone sees this feel free to send me asks i wouldnt mind doodling a norton request or if ure my mutual u can send me whatever#do you think norton would sing mariah carey all i want for christmas is you#im biased so imo he would be good at singing 😚
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What would be your dream Digimon fan project?
I got this ask during work, so I couldn't answer it yet, but I have been thinking about this non-stop!
Dream Digimon fan project... Now whether you mean for me to do or for some other fan to do and me to enjoy kind of affects the answer, as I am lazy lol
I think... I would like a comic/manga/anime/novel involving a story about adult digidestined. None of that "You're an adult now so your digimon has to die." crap that Kizuna pulled. Cause growing up has nothing to do with giving up what you love.
The people would be handling real life adult problems, with the added bonus of having to save the day from an evil force (which never fully goes away, as Light cannot exist with out Darkness). I want to see scenes with adults who still havent found their calling, trying everything to see what clicks, while their partnermon cheers them on from the sidelines. I want Digimon finding romances of their own with their best human buddy going all Hiccup from how to train your dragon on how to woo them.
Digimon are like they are with Digimon Survive, not simply data created by humans, but spirits living on a parallel plane of existence, bound to their partner no matter what.
V-pets are simply windows into that world that change view everytime a digimon leaves (when the v-pet "dies")
The world is still getting used to digimon, no governments trying to steal them, but everyone uneasy about monsters roaming about, especially around young children.
Going between the Analog world and the Digital world with ease, never being torn between the two, and able to access two homes when ever. Maybe even something like a netherportal system, where you can go in starting in japan, go to another monitor, and pop in your friend's living room in Iceland?
I could go on and on and on with ideas and dream tidbits about this dream project lol But I should probably stop there.
Alternatively, I'd love to see an Open world style Digimon survival game, where you can connect with friends, but not necessarily like an MMO like Digimon Masters. I'm talking gathering building materials, finding food, building structures, while still bonding with your digimon partner and helping them grow into stronger and stronger beings.
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