#i haven't started yet btw

[masteraqua]

i'm taking my steam deck with me on the train tomorrow to play kh1 :) the trip will be about 5 1/2 hours long and i'm planning to play on proud mode, so i've got a fun question for y'all

[nattikay]

OC lineup! All the characters that currently exist in this "story"

[flickering-nightfall]

ubemaster (they are ube colored to me)

[copia]

not sure how intentional this was but tobias has popped off with helping us warm to papa v before he arrives. he released an upbeat and emotional bop that feels like a hug & a memory that nihil said he was 'saving for the new guy'; i don't know papa v yet and will always be sad to see copia go, but tfiafl has already killed off any tiny resentment that might have been there for a replacement. can't wait to see him sing it, whoever he turns out to be

[monstrsball]

sugawara koushi and his lesbian work wife ❤️

[s1lv3rp4w3dc4t]

shout out object shows with canon queer ships. I'm talking on screen kiss or even just verbal confirmation. all things considered it's a bit strange you don't really see them that much when you think about how gay everyone here is. I love you ii but c2bc did what you didn't and I think that's actually really nice.

[lunarharp]

being attached to that moment qifrey held a baby one time and my ideas for the future :)

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[motogp-museum]

If you are now a motorsports blog, I hate to break it to you, but you will inevitably become 1 of 2 things

- a kpop blog

- or a ski jumping blog

I'm sorry, it's just science. We all eventually morph into one of them. I've seen it happen hundreds of times

[caluupin]

been catching up on TGAA/DGS !! :D

[cursezoroark]

color page of characters i rarely draw

[skyefeys]

they seem to be very good friends 🤔🤔

[hollowaluminumvessel]

I would just like to say. Since I cannot find a Canon age for either character, Echoes of Wisdom Zelda is 17 and Link is 12. I don't make the rules except I do and I made these ones

[karmirage]

hickman really has the ideal writer's job. he gets to start a bunch of stuff and write the beginnings to cool concepts and he never has to follow up on any of that. they just give it to someone else and it's not his problem anymore. just vibes straight up

[acquiescest]

irt the lrb what would you say if i said liam & noel spent new years 2023 together in paris

what would you say if i said liam bought the house in france (the one with noel's name carved into the walls) in march 2023 and that month noel talked about wanting to spend several months in paris

which could mean nothing

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

'grays and greens (unidentified fucking objects)'

lie in the grass,

serving up ass;

is it alien to you?

the master of all youth?

you pair your grays with greens,

like i think i know what it means:

you know too that you're alive

and you're scared you're gonna die.

how come you're calling time, ref?

when you know we have time left.

even though it might not be too much,

you know i felt life in ev'ry touch.

when we were there under the trees, deep, in this city,

the streetlights weren't the only thing with electricity.

(i mean it truthfully when i say we were eye-fucking.)

now i'm encouraging the encourager to keep on trucking:

i say that you don't need dye

(but you can have it, of course,

rainbow, pain-bowed, pony-horse.)

because we're all gonna die;

let's do it like we did it in spite of the distance,

your hand in my hands and ankles in the waists of pants.

unidentified fucking objects seen in the sky

when we know we have to die.

- ellie revenge