#i haven't gotten anon hate for a long time haha

[findafight]

You're completely self projecting. Billy isn't gay, or bi. He likes women only and it's canon. Steve isn't gay or bi either. Only in bad fanfics.

Lmao yeah, that's why I'm on the self projecting and bad gay fanfiction website!

[idyllic-affections]

🌻 welcome to the adult world hope ull enjoy ur stay ABSJSMSKSK honestly.... i was yk scared? of being 18 cuz wow its such an age, im an adult now and i was scared what would change but... now that i look at it, there was barely a difference between 17 n 18. in my experience at least, cuz sure for others it might differ. its at least a pretty number <3

TAKE UR TIME oc asks can wait. yeah! no hurry at all <3 im gonna send the ramble in next ask cuz i wanted to answer first YEAH

OHOHOHO THOUGHTS ARE COMINGGGG sigh. dadtalone. the silly guy rotating in my mind.

(on another side side note... ill be finally posting a fic soon omg 😭 after so long... and its a furina fic. and i think im gonna leave to intepretation whether people want to read this fic as romantic or platonic cuz,,, both interpretations fit. anyways thats for later !!)

18 IS a very pretty number....... i always liked being even ages, ever since i was little HAHA and, for me at least, there isn't much of a difference. but i have struggled greatly with debilitating social anxiety (and i'm pretty sure other undiagnosed mental illness[es]) all through my teen years, so even though it's more manageble now (thank you to my therapists i love those women sm 🗣🗣🗣❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️) the idea of making my own appointments and being responsible for doing everything on my own is suffocating. i hate that shit. i don't even have a part time job yet. thankfully my mom's not one to abandon me to handle these things on my own 🙏

i love all the oc asks i get, it's just that everything gets buried SOO fast HEKSPDHKDGJ i get...... many many asks a day, usually from you all! the emoji anons! and my moots! which isn't a bad thing, it just means that i tend to lose track of the oc asks......

YEAHHH DADTALONE THOUGHTS i need to continue that series actually i just haven't gotten around to it

(I SAWWWWW I HAVEN'T FINISHED THE LANTERN RITE QUESTS BUT I SWEAR I WILL RB IT WHEN I DO 🙏 ambiguous relationhsip fics my beloved <33)

[rainbowsky]

I adore your blog! This is more of a question for you even though your posts all revolve around GGDD, but are you a writer in any capacity? Like novels or even fanfiction? Your writing composition and analysis of any given situation makes me think that if you aren't, you should be haha!

Aww, thanks Anon, you're too kind! 🥰

I have worked as a writer, yes. Non-fiction. I won't give too many details about my IRL stuff, but writing is something I'm into. I do dabble in writing fiction and poetry, but not anything I would share here. I have thought about writing fan fiction but haven't had a lot of time for it. Although I've had some hilarious ideas for stories. Maybe one day!

I'm autistic, and when I'm asked a question I have to think through all of the implications of it and write it all out before I have it settled in my mind. This is actually a big part of why so many apparently 'simple' questions I'm asked end up getting huge long, analytical answers. It's just my mental process at work.

Some people really hate that, and I've even gotten hate mail about it, but it's just my way of going about things. People who don't like it are under no obligation to follow my blog or read my posts. I have found that most people seem to like that I go into more detail, so like anything it's down to everyone to curate their own internet experience and find what works/fits for them, and avoid things they don't like. Attacking someone for not serving our particular interests/needs is just pointless and mean.

Anyway, Anon, thanks for your kind words. I'm glad you're enjoying my blog! 💛

[scriptaed]

I noticed you don't answer all your anon questions. How come? 🤔

i’m not sure if this is a part of the honesty hour thing or not BUT I DO ACTUALLY!! i haven’t gotten around to ALL of them yet because i have quite a lot since i updated bots and i don’t want to spam everyone with a bunch of posts HAHA either that, or i never got your ask :o

[wizard-hubris]

Hi! You seem like someone who really likes Orym and also gets a lot of different perspectives. I have been wanting to get a bit of input to my "problems" with him and why I can't enjoy his character, from someone who has a different opinion.

The thing that bothers me is that I have to say, I do find him boring but not in the 'he's basic and not interesting' way at all. It's more that all three of Liam's main characters so far have been gloomy and had tragic backstories. Obviously Liam has a lot of fun with the last part mainly and it always makes for amazing storylines but as Orym his behavior just doesn't feel all that different to Caleb/Vax. You can do only so much different kinds of acting sad/moody and it just honestly got boring to me.

In short, I know Liam likes tragic backstories and he does it very well, they just all seem to react to their trauma in the same way and behave similarly and this time around nothing about it feels different or special about his behavior which just makes me like him less than the rest.

Hey anon! Looks like I poked some kind of nest with that first answer, haha ^-^" (so many asks! I've never had three anons in my mail at the same day before! Exciting! :D) Thanks for reaching out, let's see what I can do to offer a new perspective for you.

First off, I get that sad and moody isn't for everybody, especially not all the time. That's completely fair and valid. There are tropes and things I get tired of, too, and don't want to focus on in media. If you find it difficult to care for Orym because of that, that is okay. Please don't think it isn't.

That said, I'm really curious how you see Caleb and Vax's personalities because those two seem very different to me, which makes "Orym doesn't feel all that different to those two" already a strange point to me.

First off, I have to admit, I'm not done watching Vox Machina yet by a long shot, so I haven't gotten to Vax's "real doom & gloom phase" yet. He's a laid-back guy who loves playing pranks on his friends. He's fallen in love with a girl and tells the guy he's on-and-off been flirting with about it, so there is no dishonesty between them. He'd do anything for his sister and bickers with her constantly. He's outgoing, a bit (excuse the pun) rogueish and a hopeless bisexual disaster pretty gung-ho about his own safety at times. Yes, he and his sister have a gloomy, dramatic backstory. One that's brought the two of them incredibly close together - you could talk about unhealthy co-dependence there if you wanted, maybe. I know things about that change in some capacity, I've heard about the problems Liam had in that time, but I haven't seen it myself yet, so I'm reserving judgement. But an interesting point maybe: the "main" trauma that most critters seem to have in mind when talking about Vax happens during the game.

Caleb, on the other hand, has his trauma baked into his tragic backstory so wholeheartedly and all-consumingly, that he cannot exist without it. Caleb is all about recovery, growth and forgiving yourself. He is a broken man in the beginning and we see him heal - messily at times and with setbacks inbetween - throughout the game. Caleb is also very different from the person he was before. I feel like I should compare Vax with Bren because, as I said, I'm basically still looking at a Vax "pre-trauma" from what I understand about the VM campaign. But the thing is, we never really get to know Bren. We only know Caleb, although I think we see some aspects of Bren shining through the more Caleb heals. Yes, Caleb gets often painted as the sadboi(tm) but he has a fun streak. It's far less pronounced than Vax's, though, for example. Caleb is a reserved person, a paranoid, desperate man who - for the longest time - thinks of himself first and is hard to trust. He is, in some points a harder, more jagged person than Vax (again, as far as I can tell). There is nobody who hates Caleb more than Caleb. But he's also sort of proud, he carries a lot of hubris despite his self-doubts. I could write an entire essay dissecting Caleb's personality and especially his character arc, but I think I am sort of bringing my point across that Caleb and Vax are vastly different and - at least to me - feel vastly different, too, when I watch the game?

And compare that to Orym - what do we know about Orym so far?

-He's on the quieter side - which is, granted, a bit like Caleb (especially how Caleb started out), but in a much more understated and chill way, whereas Caleb was desperate to get noticed as little as possible.

-He has a bit of a melancholic air to himself, I suppose, but that's just very Liam O'Brien, I'd say. Again, it comes across in a far less raw and hurting way as Caleb, for example, did. It's also not always terribly pronounced, I'd say, it feels more present than it is because he tends to be quiet overall, so we also don't get much of any joy, mirth or other fun.

-He does not want responsibility, he does not want leadership to fall in his hands. That is probably less of an issue with Vax since the group was already established when we met them, but Vax has no problem speaking his mind when he doesn't like something. From what I know of Vax and Orym so far, I'd say it's far more likely for Vax to go do something different from the group than Orym.

-Orym was conceptualised as a support character. First of all, that is a fascinating choice for a Battle Master Fighter, but I think it works with him. Orym isn't afraid to put himself between his friends and something dangerous. He doesn't even really think about it, it seems to be more instinct. He protecc.

-Of course, we don't actually know anything about Orym's backstory yet, but I believe in the "dead husband theory" pretty firmly. Recovery from grief (and maybe growing/stepping out of the shadow a beloved person is/was casting on you? who knows??? I certainly don't, only Liam knows at the moment lol) is still about trauma and drama, but it focuses on very different aspects of tragedy than, say, Caleb's story does.

-Orym is a loyal supporter. He's created for that purpose. It's okay if you like others better or think they're more interesting. Liam wanted Orym so he can help the others shine. Personally, I love that idea very much. And you can also see that in some aspects. Orym is (or tries to be) very conscious about the people around him. He often asks for their opinions to help the group come to a decision. You could call him somewhat of a mediator, bringing people together.

-He has Tired/Exasperated Dad Energy. That's probably partially because the ExU gang is chaotique af. But as the designated person to hold the braincell, he has that right. Orym is the one with the common sense. Only, it's not so common with the people around him. He's a bit of an everyday man, and that might seem boring to some, but it also makes him actually pretty relatable. Something that Caleb (and probably also Vax) are far less so to a certain extent (saying this as somebody who immediately imprinted on Caleb because of his social anxiety).

-Something Liam does really well is putting these "straight-played" characters (not as in sexuality but regarding their function) in absolutely whacky situations. Did you watch ExU? If not, you don't have to, but if you did - please remember not only Nancy, but Orym's pie tasting and how Liam put Orym in Cinna Brightbow's performance as "the victim" (I hope you know what I mean when I choose that word ^-^") for example. Some of the most hilarious scene only work comedy-wise because Orym is involved. And Liam knows that. Liam plays to that.

-We've only had one fight so far, so for anyone who hasn't seen ExU, there's no idea yet what Liam can do when describing fighting moves. I know it might seem very reminiscent of his describing of Caleb using spell components in a certain way, but - idk, there's something about his descriptions that make me excited to play a fighter. And I'm not someone who would usually consider playing a fighter.

I just can't agree with your opinion that Liam's characters feel similar. Quite the contrary. They may deal with similar themes, but the characters feel very varied and nuanced to me. Then again, there is so much we don't know about Orym yet. So much of his personality we haven't discovered yet. We've seen him in one main campaign episode and eight for a mini-campaign with very different circumstances. Do you remember how Fjord was ten episodes into C2? How Caleb was? Yasha?

Give Orym a bit time. I'd say, especially because he is so unterstated, he can pale next to the more colourful cast around him, but that is the same thing that makes him a grounding presence. We don't all vibe immediately with all the characters, but he's someone where I suspect he'll worm his way into many hearts over time. Because that's who Orym is. Steadfast and dependable. A rock. A foundation. Not something you might take note of as special immediately, but something you'd miss as soon as it's gone. He sticks maybe out because he seems a bit "too" normal. But honestly, in a game that's as zany as D&D can be, that can also be a very interesting thing.

[thelightofthingshopedfor]

Hello, different anon here (I'm on anon because I have social anxiety that apparently even extends to Tumblr) and I just want to say thanks for your gender post! I've never felt anything but cis myself, so I appreciate reading accounts of how people who are anywhere else on the gender spectrum feel about it even if you don't identify with a specific label. Also I definitely cracked up at the "gender? I hardly know 'er / awkward finger guns" one, so thanks for that 😂

which is a completely legit reason to use anon, and also why I like to leave it on!

and haha you're welcome. I've always just assumed I was cis, but it's like...I dunno, I do still consider myself mostly cis, but also my gender is a shrug emoji. my gender is dumb jokes about gender. my gender is marking "woman" or "she/her" on medical forms or surveys but feeling kinda weird about it. my gender is a 404 gender not found page. my gender is void. my gender is not recognized as legal tender in this or any other country.

...you know?

and I guess I've felt that for a while, in that I haven't felt an extreme attachment to my gender, but I haven't really put words to it until fairly recently. but I have been thinking about it for a while, and I've known for quite a while that I had a tiny handful of experiences in puberty that sort of lined up with what I've seen trans people describe about dysphoria even if I didn’t necessarily recognize those experiences as specifically gender-related, and more recently for some reason I've...I dunno, allowed myself to recognize a handful of other experiences that were also...something. not experiencing gender in ways I was expected to, certainly, but also...

okay so my last haircut prepandemic when I was 100% positive I wanted it all gone and the stylist basically refused, and it was like...I walked in nervous but excited because I was finally, finally going to get the hair I'd been wanting for so long, it was finally going to be out of my way, and in the car afterward it would be fair to say I was feeling a little suicidal specifically about my hair and the idea that I wasn't ever going to be allowed to cut it the way I wanted to, that it was just always going to be like this, getting caught on things and getting in my way, and...that sounds a little bit like dysphoria, doesn't it? easy to fix, luckily! and it didn't have to be about Gender, it might have just been about hair and inconvenience, and it probably wasn't all about Gender, especially because I very specifically think women with short hair are hot, but it's still like...when I started thinking about this a little more, I'd kind of go "well, obviously, I'm cis. I mean, I don't really care about gender that much one way or the other to begin with (that's not true, just imagining myself with a dick makes me feel vaguely dysphoric, which was an early interesting data point that made me assume I couldn't be trans and continued to make me assume that, for some reason, even after I learned nonbinary genders existed), or anyway I don't care enough to have had dysphoria about it. ...except for how damn uncomfortable I was in general about growing boobs. to, hm, yes, to the extent that my reaction to people with breast cancer getting immediate reconstructive surgery after double mastectomies was 'but why though, you have just gotten RID of an annoying and inconvenient thing and now you're going out of your way to put it BACK??' but I'm sure that doesn't mean anything."

--my point is, in the context of that, the intensity of my reaction to basically being told “no you are not allowed to get rid of hair that you genuinely hate every time you’re reminded it exists” could, in fact, be related to Gender. like, the fact that I hated my hair doesn’t have to be about Gender, and it doesn’t have to be solely about Gender, but it also...doesn’t have to be not about Gender, and it makes a little more sense now to look back at how furious and despairing I was over that damn haircut and go “ooh, okay, maybe I reacted so strongly because my hair was making me feel kinda dysphoric and she’d just told me, if not in so many words, that I was stuck that way.” 

anyway.

I have no idea who wrote it or I'd actually quote it, but I know there's a post about how it's always valuable for people to think about gender or sexuality, even if they end up on a better understanding of their own straightness or cisness, because--I mean, yeah! it's always a good thing to know yourself better, to know who you are and do it on purpose. that's one of the things that drives me nuts about conservative handwringing. we're not trying to turn anyone anything, we're trying to help everyone figure out who and what they really are.

[muselin]

This is strange asks anon

I have gotten a bunch but I delete most so here are two recent ones. I Made a post about intimate piercings (basically a MLT post) and someone ranted about *the germs* even followed it up with another ask that I didn’t publish where they tried to guilt trip me because I said something like “aren’t there more bacterial cells in your body right now than there are you cells?”, saying that I find them weird and made fun of them? Idk it was odd. Like, this was totally hypocritical but they took it why to serious 😔

Then someone send an ask announcing that they will no longer follow me bc I made realize that they are a sex repulsed Ace person and this was on anon so I have no idea why they would tell me?? My blog has like 450+ followers how would I know who unfollowed?? ^^;;;;

To answer some questions. We are not moots but we both share a moot so I see your posts on my dashboard sometimes.

As for audience and content, I write for stray kids and some of my stories did do pretty well (two of them even have like 500 notes with is a insane number for someone like me who used to write for smaller fandoms). I’m at university so I have time and do hang out on here (probably more than I should lol).

Last year I posted something every week but now I have a bit less time but more stress :( the other thing is most of my stories are pretty long (usually over 3k words) so they take a lot of time to edit. I keep track of my wips and I have like 80 k of unpublished, unfinished wips. rip me lol

Haha strange asks anon! I'll tag you as that then.

Tell you what, those people sound like some tumblr trolls. My policy with everything is: 1. Don't kinkshame 2. don't be abusive 3. don't be moral police over people's fantasies because what gives you the right over somebody else and 4. if you don't like something then don't read it and move on. I haven't experienced weird asks like that, just occasional hate ones that make no sense, usually when I've stood up for someone who's written something controversial and is getting kinkshamed or abused.

You have so much content waiting to go!! That's insane! That's a very different writing process to what I have, I post a finished fic maybe once or twice a month and usually only have one or two things in WIPs. I keep saying this, I don't believe I'm that creative as a person really, and if I had that many fics all going at once they would just get crappier.

I'm not being very useful again, I just don't know what the actual secret is to good content. I just do what I know, which is put out fics, do some ask games (like confessional monday) but not too often, read other people's stories and share what I like about them.

I'm curious who you are now, I might have read your stuff! If you feel like it, send me a message and we can talk some more. Or anon asks are also fine if you don't feel comfortable ❤

[gunsatthaphan]

Hii!! I love your blog, it's one of my favorites among bl blogs.

I'm writing this beacuse I have a VERY unpopular opinion and since I follow you and you engage with people I felt like sharing it with you.

Basically, I watched why r u some time ago and when I first saw Zon (played by Tommy Sittichok Pueakpoolpol) I thought he was like 30 or 35 years old. I felt SO bad beacuse I found out that he's 25. But he really has that old look to me, I don't know why. So it felt so awkward seeing him with the actor that plays Saifah, who I think has a baby face.

I don't hate him, he has done a great job in the series but I couldn't shake the awkwardness of looking at them together, especially during the kisses. I feel so bad because that's his face, he's good looking and I don't want to say that he's ugly or anything, just their couple was odd looking (TO ME).

Also, I haven't seen any behind the scenes so I don't know how the actors are together in real life, if they're close or not, but I have to say this: the first part of the series was ok, i got used to them.. but when they started to get close, their hugs and kisses were kind of weird. I don't know what it was, but saifah (Jimmy) looked so out of place. Their chemistry was good tho, and their interactions cute and intresting.

To finish this on a positive note, I didn't hate their last kiss, it felt a bit more comfortable. The actors did a great job in expressing the longing (zon) and the fear (saifah).

Again, I don't hate the actors or anything like that. Can't stress that enough 😂

hello anon!!!

unpopular opinions are always welcome as long as they don’t offend anyone lol so don’t worry! 😊 Also let me tell you I’ve gotten way worse ones haha.

You’re right though, I don’t know how else to put it but so many actors just don’t seem to age lmao. 90% of the actors that I know all look 22 even when they’re 30 lmao. So the actual age difference between pairings is mostly not noticeable. But in Jimmy’s and Tommy’s case it very much is lol. To me it’s not that Tommy looks old bc to me he looks like a 25 yr old haha. But Jimmy does have a baby face lol so. Their age difference def shows. Even more so Jimmy could easily pass as 17 lol. 

Also not to mention the fkcing height difference lmao which I have to say is my absolute favorite thing about them. Jimmy is a giant and seeing them next to each other is sending me every time jkdfhds.

So yes they have very different looks and therefore maybe don’t look like other pairings together but to me that doesn’t affect anything bc their chemistry is insane and what you said about them being awkward is EXACTLY what I’ve been preaching since why r u aired bc that’s EXACTLY what I love so much about them. They’re not awkward together as actors but what they’re doing is they’re capturing the innocence and awkwardness that comes with your first love/first date/first kiss and the way it evolved up until the last episode AND how it’s not continuing in the special is insane like holy shit they’re doing SUCH a good job at that. I could scream about that for ages jkhsfd. But still, I get what you mean! 

Thank you for sharing your thoughts anon and don’t worry I’m not holding anything against you and you were very respectful! 😉 - have a good day! 💜 

xxx

[kebinwooo]

Hello! It's me again!! (This is long so bear with me!) I got home yesterday, I was traveling with my family to Michigan to see some family (not a great idea rn but my objections were ignored sooo.. what can you do). I do love traveling and it was nice to see my family but still. Onto happier things! I'm so glad that older groups are getting attention as well! I'm a fairly new fan so I haven't fully gotten into most older groups (cause it's sad for me to try and get into groups that... 1/4 - 🌹💎

(hi 🌹💎 anon! i put this under a cut bc it got real long with my answers tacked on too oops)

have broken up) but it's great to see them getting recognition for their hard work! Also yes, fancams give kpop fans such a bad rep. I'm not on twit so I haven't seen it a lot but like, spamming people with them is just going to make them hate you and kpop in general. Okay, now onto the questions! Very Nice: Picking up my dog from the sitter after not seeing her for a week!! She was so excited to see me and just wanted to cuddle and nap together for the rest of the day. ❤️ She's so... 2/4 - 🌹💎

cute and she knows it. Clap: I don't binge watch stuff bcs I'll just end up with a migraine (both of my parents suffer from chronic migraines and passed it on to me 😬) but the last show I watched was My Hero Academia. Like I said, I tend to avoid subs so I don't watch anime but it's got a decent English dub so I enjoy it! Fallin' Flower: I looove wintery/Christmasy scents like cookies, hot chocolate, gingerbread, spices, etc. I do all my candle shopping in the wintertime cause it's... 3/4 -🌹💎

all the best scents are sold! My all time favorite candle was Bath & Body Works Hot Chocolate candle but they discontinued it a few years back. ;; Okay! Even tho the event is technically over I wanted to ask a few more questions: Home, Mansae, and Thanks! Also sorry for the super long reply whoops. 4/4 - 🌹💎

oh dude that’s me and my mom. she’s been trying to get out of the house and for the most part she’s only commuted to work and back home, but a few days ago she went to the mall (YES YOU CAN ROLL YOUR EYES AND GROAN) and the entire time i was trying to talk her down but it didn’t work 🙄 ahhhh when did you become a kpop (or svt) stan? i’m an old old old kpop stan so definitely seeing my 2nd gen groups getting attention makes me so so happy ;u; i totally get you tho about old groups :// but if you’re ever interested, i’d always be happy to send song recs and the like! (hint hint: might slip some into your playlist)

awww that must be so nice seeing your dog again ;; they’re truly instant mood brighteners. ooooo interesting! i’m usually an anti-dub person (sorry HAHA) but that’s good that my hero academia had a good dub! i started the show bc my friend loved it and i watched like three episodes and for some reason stopped watching LOL maybe i’ll pick it back up some time. mmmmm all those scents sound (?) so good! Christmasy scents are definitely good go-to’s bc they’re just so cozy hehe 

PSH it’s totally fine that you ask a few more questions haha 

Home: What makes you feel nostalgic?

i told myself i wouldn’t bring up my 2nd gen kpop groups again but then realized that they truly make me feel the most nostalgic OOPS but yeah every now and then i get into a mood and i miss how simple it was in the past and then i end up blasting music from my 2nd gen groups at max volume. like listening to their music is such a comfort and reminds me of how much fun kpop was back then (not saying it isn’t now but it’s definitely different) and yeah i just really miss 2nd gen kpop :’( all those collaborations... all the funky music... the super distinct groups... take me back ;A;

Mansae: What is something you really want right now?

there’s nothing really specific i want right now i think... aside from finishing my scholarship application LOL oh and having monsta x talk about ukiss LOL OR having seungkwan talk MORE about ukiss bc seungkwan best kissme :’) OOOO OR for covid to be over UGH i miss social interaction and i also really miss going out and also concerts T__T my monsta x concert was supposed to be four days ago and i was going to see my best friend again but nope miss rona had to ruin all my plans (....so turns out i want a lot LMAO)

Thanks: What can you spend hours talking about?

I actually was asked this by somebody else LOL but! if it’s not obvious enough, i can talk a lot about my ult groups (ukiss, seventeen and monsta x) and also about 2nd gen kpop in general. i actually had an irl friend ask me about ukiss once and i LITERALLY talked about them for hours with her LOL i can also dissect certain kdramas for hours and actually depending on the topic, i can definitely talk about a lot of things for hours upon hours (i talk a lot if you can’t already tell from this super long reply) 

ok! so sorry for the LONGGGGG reply. for the next event, i need a bit of your input to get a better sense of your music taste! what genre do you normally like? what are some of your favorite seventeen songs? (that’s a hard question but try to pick a few!) if you listened to seventeen’s playlists on spotify, which member’s taste is most similar to yours? are there any other kpop groups you like listening to? and what kind of general mood are you in recently?