#i haven't blogged about ACTUAL BB in a while

[purpleandstarlight]

Don't ask me why I thought of this (I don't even know) but I feel like if Ciel and Lizzie tried to discuss a book...they could but it would be something like:

Ciel: [Brings an extremely insightful although quite edgy at times analysis of the characters and overall theme of the story.]

Lizzie: [She liked the book but was there for the vibe, didn't really think to analyze anything much]

(This ISN'T a "Lizzie is stupid" post. I love Lizzie. She's really smart and capable and if anyone even so much DARES to talk shit about her in those extremely misogynistic or Clearly-didnt-understand-her-character-at-all ways they usually do i WILL become feral.)

People can just like media without needing to over-analyze every detail. I know, it's different from what me and everyone else who's reading this post is used to, but it's something that happens. I get subjected to it every time i watch a show with my mum and I immediately get into deep analysis of the characters and their reasoning for doing things and my mum listens to my reasoning and likes the show but if I ask her a question about what she thinks about a character or smth she's there like "Idk I'm just following the show" WICH IS FINE!! IT DOESNT MEAN SHE ISN'T UNDERSTANDING THE OVERALL MESSAGE OR STORY OF THE SHOW!! SHE JUST DOESN'T JUMP AT THE IDEA OF GOING INTO OVER-ANALYZING EVERY SINGLE BREATH A CHARACTER MAKES THE WAY I DO!!! IT DOESN'T MEAN SHE'S STUPID!!!

So yeah. Although Lizzie would be different from my mum in the way that Lizzie would be able to point out her favorite or least favorite characters clearly - saying what she liked and disliked about them, and even enthusiastically comment on wich scenes she liked the most, wich means she and Ciel could actually have a two-way conversation that isn't like what me and my mum usually do (Me talking non-stop about themes and symbolism and what I think a scene could relate to irl while my mum happily but still silently listens - wich is also fine mind you, I just mean Ciel and Lizzie would go at it differently)

Also i know Ciel and Lizzie would probably prefer different kinds of literature but imo they would be able to find a middle ground. Ciel prefers darker stories, yes, but i believe he himself said he reads almost anything to keep up with what people like for his business, and either way he would compromise for Lizzie. He wouldn't MAKE her read something that could greatly upset her, just like she wouldn't MAKE him read something that is completely out of his interests, like a cheesy romantic novel that would bore him out of his mind five chapters in. They are pretty good at respecting eachother's boundaries most of the time, I feel.

So like...idk, Alice in Wonderland? Lizzie would like the vibes and overall fun colorful story. Ciel could maybe appreciate the non-sense theme in how everything works differently (as in he would sit there, compare it to things irl, and try to understand how the author got to the wilder ideas from there) and also compare it to how things work in the real world. (I haven't read Alice in Wonderland since I was really little - like late elementary or early middle school, so keep in mind I'm not an expert who could give a more exhaustive theory)

I have not read Sherlock Holmes ever (I tried once tho! And I do own some of the books!! I just never got around to reading more than a chapter or smth YEARS ago) so idk how Lizzie would find it, but it IS o!Ciel's favorite author and he loves these books very much so I feel like Lizzie would want to give them a shot. Ciel lets her because although it is a murder mystery, it's not a fully horror novel (be it flat out gore or psychological horror) - (...and also he is excited about talking about these books with someone he's close with, so he gladly takes a risk promising to himself he'll just stop her if she gets too upset about the deaths. You didn't hear it from me though).

[bonefall]

God I am so tired of Bramble fans who refuse to use critical thinking and believe that brambleclaw and squilf are equally bad. Many also hate on moonkitti's video which they most likely haven't even watched or misconstrued points in it. You can like a character without defending all their actions please I'm begging you

And people will sometimes jump to their defense, saying that people just dogpiled them for liking a character the fandom doesn't like, and while that can happen, sometimes people are actually dogpiling them for ignoring abuse and insulting creators with different opinions

(Some discourse happened on Twitter recently about this but it's something I've seen happen before, I'm not specifically talking about anyone)

I'm going to be honest and drop my feelings.

Never have I ever actually SEEN a Bramblefan "get dogpiled" for liking Bramble.

I come out here on my massive soapbox every couple of weeks and drop whole essays on this guy, I chat casually about how important he is to me as a character, both as someone who was abused in a way similar to Squirrelflight AND as someone who can relate to Bramblestar's situation, and before BB got so large and my attention was easier to divide I even ran an AU called Sweet Nothings which had a "big brother" Bramble take in it.

There is no shortage of Bramblestar-related posts around here, yet, I have never, NEVER gotten shit for when I talk positively about Bramble.

In fact, he's commonly cited as one of the favorite cats to see on this blog from my audience. I get praise for addressing him with nuance, explaining how his actions are abuse while also keeping him human, talking about how his life is a painful cycle of self-doubt that makes him double down on his worst decisions. Every time I post about him, I get an influx of comments centered around how my takes on him are appreciated.

What I DO see is people who make art where they try to bothsides him and Squirrelflight, or say something completely false about his behavior, or straightup post DARVO tactics to defend their fav's honor. When someone makes a comment that goes "uhmm? Bit strange innit?" they call it "harassment." Or when people block them, they call that "receiving hate."

OR when someone makes a vaguepost like "Heyyy, DARVO is an abuse denial tactic where the abuser or their apologists Deny the abuse took place, Attack the accuser, and then Reverse Victim and Offender to claim they were actually the person harmed. Bramblestans are playing this out, step for step, and that's bad!" they call THAT dogpiling.

Meanwhile Moonkitti got death threats and was actually harassed for posting Bramblestar Is Worse. To the point where she is hesitant to ever make another video on the topic.

So y'know what? Hot take? The stans don't actually like Bramblestar. They like the vague idea of a sadboy character who broke free from his dad's legacy so they slurp up the framing of the notorious abuse apologist writers, and they get mad when people who have critically engaged with the books don't see what they desperately crave.

How can you really LIKE a character if you can't engage with their actions? If you need to surround yourself in an unpoppable bubble and can't accept anything he's done in the 20+ years he's been active? How can you truly love a man without all his mistakes?

It's sooo hard to be me, Tumblr User Bonefall, the ONLY one who likes Bramblestar correctly. It's rough out here.

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I Feel Bad For Starlo. (pt. 10)

(so excited to be back to this series)

Starlo's really emotional but he doesn't know how to deal with emotions. He doesn't try reaching out to his family to sort things out with them. He doesn't directly comfort Ceroba and instead uses the same coping mechanism on her like he does on himself (escapism).

But you still, even after months of me making the "I Feel Bad For Starlo" series, can't convince me he's the only one who made a mistake during the WE segment. Attacking Clover and trying to kill them so he'd gain status WAS on him but what I truly wished to know was WHY things had turned out the way they had turned out (aka the Feisty Five splitting up).

Star refuses to accept that his lifelong dream had been a lie. He refuses to accept that his excessive love for westerns and the human culture had been what separated him and his friends, who didn't share such passion. If he had admitted out loud: "Yeah, I got too into the role (even tho i actually didn't endanger anyone) and maybe I should tone it down a bit and not completely hide/ignore/forget about the fact I'm a nerd and not a cool cowboy", Starlo would have had to face the truth: that he feels like a nobody without the persona. Absolutely useless. And he really, REALLY didn't want to feel, or be reminded that he feels this way, so he snapped:

And no, I don't believe Star actually planned to fire everyone, because right before the four attack Clover, he cheerfully leaves for the badge: but not before telling them all to have fun.

All his actions, everything he stood for, It all comes down to one simple wish of his: wanting to be a somebody.  

We're told he was being selfish and reckless but... I disagree. I've already talked about as to why some time ago, so go check out my older blogs if you haven't already.

...You know what would have screamed "he's selfish and reckless?"

If, during the trolley problem, Star had summoned AN ACTUAL real train and almost hurt/ killed Ed/the rest of the posse + the random monsters tied to the track. He legit trusted that Virgil WOULDN'T do anything that would harm his team for the roleplay and that's why he let him outta the jail

I don't think any of them were actually scared (except the monsters who weren't part of the Wild East, I think there were two of them; they maybe didn't know it was just roleplay), they were just acting; it's their job after all

Or, if he DIDN'T say this about locking Martlet up (with a serious face)

Or if during the duel (mission 2) he DIDN'T use a BB gun and Clover lost HP thanks to an actual wild revolver. True, forgetting safety glasses is being forgetful & careless but I wouldn't use the word reckless. Why? Because carelessness is unintentional, while recklesness is intentional.

also, 'oversight' literally means 'carelesness' and not 'recklessness' (I repeat, they're not the same)

Or if he DIDN'T say THIS:

...Instead we get a larping session with no real danger happening.

[miupow]

I am actually alive🤡 but dk when I'll be dead again...🥲 btw hi lia! I've gotten busy, lately, like a lot. It has been so bad i haven't gotten even time to check my writing blog. Nor have i been writing any stuff many drafts, wip, etc none completed. Today my health gave up on making me stay conscious.... I have been on less sleep for uh... 2 weeks, so i passed out (wow💀) i have a lot of work as the class representative(yes they made me the class representative😭), and then i gotta work for organising events (why? Cause I am the representative so gotta work on behalf of my section) i almost passed out in bus yesterday so now I am checking all my social media for a little while as i rest and now our semester has all new subjects so less time to write stuffs as i need to catch up with the pace and be in my old prime to write stuff. Wanna take a long break so idk...🥲 gotta work, study and work and study etc(spoilers, it gets and is getting worse as time passes by)

— noulli❕️

hi noulli darling!!! i’ve missed u sm 🤧🤧 i didn’t know u changed ur url i’ve been looking for u everywhere … !!! it’s so nice to hear from you again!!!

ouuu noulli pls stay safe and healthy.. remember that real life comes before everything else!! don’t stress so much about writing and take a break if you need one!! you sound very busy… i hope you continue to do well in school 🩷 pls prioritize ur health!! i love u bb

[fereldanwench]

Hiya Wench! <3

It's me, the chick who always wants you to explain things xD. I have another polite request (won't be upset if you decline, but I have to try).

I had an epiphany about my posts today - I tag for other people, not myself (twitter influence). And I realized I don't even know how to quickly get to some of the older posts.

And then I remembered your page and how it's all neatly organized xD I previously haven't realized all your tags were actually separating your posts into categories and such... I love it. I had some big brain moments today xD

Would you please have any quick tips (perhaps you already do have them on your blog, I just forgot how to display the blog with the template on) for how to get started with your own template and neatly organized posts you can always find? Maybe even some template creators and such?

I used to do HTML & CSS back in the day, but it's been a long while, I don't have that much time to do trial and error anymore, and any actual coding is out of the question for me. It's gotta be user-friendly. (Free would be best, but I'm ready to reward the work done.)

I'm loving it here now and I post A LOT... I'd hate to reach a point where I don't even know what's on my page anymore.

Thanks! <3

Hi, bb! 💙

I've been asked about this a few times, and I honestly never feel I have a good answer for it, haha. I just like organizing and categorizing things, honestly. Best I can do is share my thought process and a couple of handy tools--Hopefully that'll help give you some inspiration!

My tagging habits actually come from ancient Tumblr functionality--Back in the day, the search function didn't exist as it does now (in which it will (theoretically) scan the body and tags in the post), and you could only find posts if they were tagged in a certain way. Sometimes I wanted to post about game stuff, like Dragon Age, but I didn't want my post to appear in the main tag (because of fanwank hell) BUT I also still wanted to be able to find it later because my blog is for me first and foremost.

So I started using "s: dragon age" to gather all things related to Dragon Age (in which "s" in my mind stands for "series") and "g: dao" for posts specifically about Dragon Age Origins, "g: da2" for Dragon Age II/2, and "g: dai" for Dragon Age Inquisition. And if it was a post I did want to go into the main tags, like a GIF set or fanart, I'd use both the default tags (Dragon Age, Dragon Age Inquisition) and my personal ones for my own blog cataloging.

Tumblr search hasn't worked like this in years, but by the time it changed, I was already in this habit for a while so I've just kept doing it. I do change the way I organize stuff from time to time, and there are some tools that make that easier:

Xkit Rewritten This is a life-changer and has a ton of great features to improve your Tumblring experience, but the "Tag Replacer" specifically is awesome if you realize you want to change a tag en mass.

Tumblr Tag List Generator And this is really helpful if you need to do some tag wrangling and figure out what tags you've used. I periodically run my blog through this to catch inevitable typos in tags so I can change them, and see if I can consolidate any similar tags (e.g. catch if I was using both "g: da2" and "g: da ii" so I could figure out which one I liked more.)

As far as the organization itself and how I choose the categories, it's just vibes, haha. It's just how I catalog things in my brain. Which I know is probably unhelpful. Prefixes like "inspo: ###" and "shows: ###" are pretty self-explanatory. "extras: ###" is for the random stuff that doesn't really fit anywhere else, like shitposts and cute animal pics. "topic: ###" is for more serious subjects and discussions, like LGBTQ+ issues. "mine: ###" is for the stuff I've made.

Two things I wish I had done a better job of is 1) organizing other people's OCs by fandom (if you visit me on Pillowfort, you'll notice I use tags like "other's ocs (cp77)" instead of just "other's ocs") and 2) separating my edits tag into a gifs and virtual photography tag. Calling all video game imagery "edits" is also sort of a holdover from Tumblr days of yore, but I wish I had made a distinction there. (I had never even heard the term "virtual photography" until about 2022, though, and I've been on Tumblr since 2010 so yanno. Whatever. This blog in particular is 8 years old, and I'm not sifting through thousands of posts just to amend that.)

And this is a mostly comprehensive list of all the tags I use, if you wanna see the categories and whatnot in action.

With regards to blog templates, I've actually decided to stop focusing on that here because Tumblr has increasingly become a more app-driven userbase, and the pretty blog templates are only visible on desktop. Tumblr also nuked a lot of functionality of the custom pages you can make, which is where I used to keep my tags displayed. I still have a custom theme, but it's pretty bare-bones compared to what I used to do. (Now I get my CSS fix working on my Neocities website, although that is very much still a WIP.)

But there are fortunately still a lot of folks keeping the custom Tumblr themes alive! You can browse some of my personal favorites under my tumblr: themes tag, and @theme-hunter is a fantastic resource to find free user-made templates.

Oh, and because Tumblr is pushing more for a generic and uniform app experience, you do have to opt-in to activate your custom blog. It's this option under your blog settings:

And if you want to view someone's custom blog (if they have one), you'll have use the https://fereldanwench.tumblr.com/ URL. If you want to view the dashboard-like version of their blog, you'll have to use the https://www.tumblr.com/fereldanwench URL.

Hopefully this made sense and can give you some ideas to get started!

[gojonanami]

Lovely Sab!

I just wanted to send you a short message of appreciation for writing and sharing with us your beautiful stories!

I just discovered your page, and I honestly had such a fun time reading through your stories. I haven't read all of them, I must confess, but the ones that I've read were super enjoyable.

For me, personally, Three's a Crowd is a favourite. I'm just a little too in love with the idea of Suguru as an ethics professor. And Satoru was also such a fun and wonderful presence in that fic. I really enjoyed reading it. It was sexy. The dialogue felt authentic. You paid due deference to the characters while making them your own. It was truly a wonderful read, and I felt very sated!

I would just love to go through the process of discovering this fic anew. The introduction of Suguru was fantastic. Having him clean the board? The subtle detail of him rolling up his sleeves? His hair falling over his eyes? The way he talked about his course? The three lessons that he taught her? So sexy. And then the interaction later in his office? And Satoru coming in? So, so good.

And the circling back to that scene later on with Satoru bringing her to Suguru's office? And Satoru coincidentally making it to that party?

I just... it was so incredibly sexy and fun and enjoyable and entertaining and just overall fantastic.

Of course, I really liked your other fics. I'll be honest—I only read your Satoru and Suguru fics.

I really liked your domestic-orientated fics. I loved your fic Twenty Nine because it was so cute, but at the same time, it was just so bittersweet? I just wish he had actually gotten something like that. And I imagine that Satoru would be someone who would love to have a family.

In a similar vein, I loved Sit in My Lap. I just really love the idea of Satoru being a girl dad. And this little girl being sassy with her parents? How cute! And the fact that she, when she sees 'Santa', hides behind her mama's legs and needs her papa to take her to 'Santa'? How sweet! And the fact that she whispered to 'Santa' that she wants a sibling for her birthday? Also so, so cute! And the fact that Satoru heard that makes it so much cuter! Absolutely love, love, love it!

I very much look forward to reading more of your work in your future! You are a very talented, charismatic and charming writer! I can't wait to read more of your stuff.

(And also, please, do remember to take breaks and take care of yourself. I just wanted to emphasise this to you. I respect you as an individual, and I know that writing takes a long time, so please don't rush and just take your time. I just hope that you find writing and this blog fun, and we'll always be there to support you!)

Lots of love xx

oh my gosh, this message is so sweet. i've reread it several times, and i probably will reread it whenever i'm feeling down because it's simply so sweet

i'm so glad you enjoyed three's a crowd!! i'm glad their characters and dialogue came across authentic because that's one of the most important things to me so you saying that simply means the world to me T_T

satoru really deserves all the love - he deserves to be happy and deserves a family - and that's what i really wanted to express that want in that fic so i'm so happy you felt the same way through reading it!!

you're so incredibly sweet - i appreciate your kind words so much - it means so much to me :)

i really try to find this blog as a retreat -- sometimes it is hard because i feel like an arbitrary pressure to post which is literally from no one else but the productivity goblin in my head. i very much love this blog and writing and i will keep your advice and very sweet words in mind. thank you so much bb <333

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hi! i'm leslie, a multifandom nut.

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SheetBeat is my main, AO3 is 24HoursRemain (◕‿◕✿)

this is a chonky post! sections are a heads-up, my stuff, characters and links.

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I'm 19, based in the UK (BST/GMT) and love a ton of things. Honestly, this post is here mainly to keep my brain sorted, with satisfying anyone's curiosity as a plus.

I'm very into DQXI, Banana Fish and especially Hunter x Hunter. That's not an exhaustive list. The following won't be either, but it's a start!

In the following fandoms I'm less active, but I don't love them any less. If you want to talk to me about these things, that would be just as swell!

- ffvii (mainly the original)

- jjba

- cardcaptor sakura (haven't seen clear card)

- ace attorney (haven't played dgs/gaa yet)

- fallen london

-monster and mawaru penguindrum (these I don't read fic for but I do read a bunch of analysis posts!)

- and reading outside of games / manga (sometimes)! Peake, Poe, Le Guin...

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Should've used one of the many appropriate specific hxh image references for this, like the Troupe's coin-tossing habit and what happened at the Arena around the Succession Contest time. Darn. Anyway...

- My main is SFW, but many of the series I'm into includes more heavy stuff. And my AO3 (sometimes NSFW) bookmarks reflect that, I think!

- Will make it a habit to tag properly. Please let me know if I slip up! Just be aware that I'm a fan of Banana Fish, which is an animanga series that takes a stab at very sensitive and potentially triggering topics. Take care - I'll be as clear as I can with tags so you can make informed judgement calls.

- The same goes for tagging major spoilers. I'll tread even more carefully with ongoing series and manga spoilers.

- By the way, any HxH fan who hates Gon, thinks he's bland /a psychopath / a monster? I respect your opinion, but we're never going to see eye-to-eye on that one 😅

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I have work to do, but fandom is more fun.

- Betaing. I only do one fic at any one time.

At the moment, I'm very busy and very happy working on a HxH!BB entry :D

- HxH nerdcore recs including geek music from Brazil. Gets my minimal language muscles going and transcription is real rewarding. Plus, I get to share some cool songs!

I still need to start my nerdcore recs ^^"

- Greed Island writing prompt fills, provided by the server. It's a great community giving out HxH writing prompts based on the G.I cards among a ton of other challenges.

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I'm a fan of quite a few characters. Naming all of them would take a while. Here are the ones I read about / analyse / think about the most.

Roughly in order, but love isn't a science. I do like a bit of cheesiness.

HxH Gon, Killua, Leorio, Hisoka, Melody/Senritsu, Bisky, Kurapika, Machi, Netero, Knuckle.

DQXI Sylvando/Sylvia : the wholesome jester who is actually a jester.

FF7 Barret and Aerith.

Jojo Josuke, Jolyne, Johnny and Gappy.

Banana Fish Am basic. Ash, Eiji, Shorter, Max.

CCS Tomoyo, Sakura, Syaoran, Toya

Ace Attorney Phoenix, Edgeworth, Maya, Apollo, Larry, Gumshoe, Athena

Monster Lunge, Eva, Tenma, Johan, Grimmer

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...If you want! There's a couple of blogs I've not properly fleshed out. Shorter To Sing and Sheet Dump are pretty empty sideblogs. These are my links:

24HoursRemain is my AO3.

SheetBeat (hello! you're here!) is my main. It's for general fandom shenanigans - mostly HxH.

pop me a message - i love a natter!

Due to timezone tomfoolery and life getting in the way, I don't know when I'll be active. But I love rambling about fandom and hearing others do the same. Feel free to send a DM my way. We can talk about about some amazing series!

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[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Hi Rachel! Hope things are going well for you! I was wondering, since this is a frequent topic on your blog/channel, how do you still enjoy your work while letting go of perfectionism? Enjoying what I write is super important to my process and with keeping me going, but the constant over-worrying and embarrassment of what I put down really slows me down and leaves me feeling terrible lol... I know I need to learn to think differently of my own work but I’m a bit uncertain of where to start and what else I could try and appreciate instead. Sorry if this is too vague or broad of a question! No pressure to come up with a solid, one answer or anything. Just hearing your thoughts/experiences would be helpful!

This is a really, really good question! I wrote THIS ask that sort of addresses this too, if you haven't already seen it!

I think at the end of the day, loving your writing despite perfectionism all comes down to graceful self-compassion. Not every day is going to be perfect. Sometimes I still hate my writing (me! right! now!), and it's good to know that ahead of time. If I'm aware I'm not always going to like my work (which is realistic for me), I can then also tell myself that it doesn't make sense to harp too long on things I don't like when my opinion will inevitably change.

Some days it's really about gritting your teeth and pretending you like the work (also! me! right! now!). Find words or lines or images you like and focus your energy there!

One of the mistakes I made when first endeavoring on my writing self-love journey was making goals that were too big. I remember when I wrote Moth Work, the goal was "let's just dump all my shit writing here and see where that goes" and where that went was me developing severe perfectionism LOL. I then went alllll the way to other extreme and was like "okay well let me make all this writing perfect" which is literally an impossible task! Eventually I found the middle.

Now, I'm able to write something like Seventh Virtue and be like "ah yes, let me dump all my shit writing here" because the project also demands different things. For MW, it made no sense to ask myself of that when a HUGE part of what I enjoyed about writing that book was the actual prose itself (I mean makes sense, it's literary fiction). For SV, the prose is important, but not THE most important thing, so my goal of "don't care what happens I just want to have fun" is more feasible within those genre constraints.

So perhaps look at the project you're writing & see where you can create a realistic goal for yourself? I find asking what I like about the project helps inform those goals. So as I said, I liked the pretty prose in MW, so I wanted to retain that. The goal then became, "alright, I'll draft what I can in the moment, and I'll accept that at points, I'm not going to feel comfortable and I will feel cringe and I will feel embarrassed. But after my drafting session, I'll come back and tinker with the draft if needed" (this is actually how I'm currently writing BODY BACK haha).

For Seventh Virtue, I'm quite sensitive to the plot being causally warranted, so the goal is "okay, I'll try to draft each scene from the previous so a firmer causal chain is created, but I will miss scenes, write scenes that aren't needed, etc, and that's fine because I can address that later."

When I realized I could tailor my goal for the specific project, things really opened up for me because it showed me I didn't need to stick to one writing process. On here, y'all get basically first draft Seventh Virtue (99% of it hasn't been touched since coming out of my brain), but get a franken first draft-ish (sometimes 2nd or 3rd) of BB because I cycle through phrasings in my mind while I write (which I don't do in SV LOL). Those are two different drafting processes, so they deserve two different goals so I can better enjoy them.

Also I would say... don't be afraid of discomfort. Writing is so uncomfortable sometimes. I mean look at me in 2020--I HATEEDDD MW! And now it's like... the best thing I've ever written, IMO. We're not objective critics of our own work when we go into it hating it so much (or being embarrassed/ashamed by it, etc, whatever emotion fits your current situation). So that shows us the feelings we're having are feelings, not facts. And feelings are good to have! But they don't have to dictate everything forever. Feel them, and then *try* to accept them and move on. That might not be easy, but the more you do it, the easier it becomes.

I used to STRESS so much when a sentence/scene/paragraph wasn't working. Is that how I explain the 30-60k of each novel I cut between 2018-2020? Yep! Now I stress a little less. And I hardly cut things until I get to the actual revision process (~2k/project).

Okay finally, I've been meaning to use this analogy and this is the perfect timing for it. I've been learning the fun fingerstyle guitar in Jeff Buckley's version of Corpus Christie Carol for almost two months now. When I first started learning that song, LOL, I couldn't play ANYYYY of it. It confused me. I was frustrated. But, I genuinely knew that if I kept practicing, it'd sound 100% better a couple months from now. And now I can almost play it well haha.

It's funny how writers (me included!) forget that practice and failing and sounding bad and writing nonsense is a very important part of the process, but how in other art forms, it's just a given. My brother is an incredible musician and I would never expect him to play a riff perfectly on the first go when he's only heard it once or twice. When he makes mistakes when playing, I either don't notice at all or don't care because it's a given. I just KNOW that as a musician, if I keep practicing, I'll eventually get it (and I almost always do--in some cases, it's too hard and I quit, and that's fine to do too).

I'm actually learning a new song on guitar rn, I'll record it and put it in a video as a visual haha. The amount of times you play the exact same note over and over again... The amount of times you KNOW you're playing the wrong thing but keep playing it wrong anyway because it hasn't quite clicked... It's all part of it! I still enjoy that practice, because it's fun! We can apply that to writing too.

[lovely-in-pink-shifting]

My pinned post! ♡

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I've been shifting since 2020 shifttok just about, like a little before the Dracotok boom (like a lil') and the subsequent apocalypse that happened after "Just kidding on the rights" Rowling's transphobia was coming out.

Yeah so fun fact I was NEARLY a Draco girly, I feel like the fallout was divine intervention stopping me at JUST the right time but that's besides the point, the point was to give you a time frame for long I've been shifting.

I'm making this blog with people in my age group in mind, I'm not gonna be posting smut or porn on this blog (and no blog's that do that are not the devil or something that's not the point) but I'm not really gonna be censoring myself either? I guess just be 18 or older if you wanna send an ask or DM, if you just wanna look or read my posts I guess that's fine.

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So my interests do shift pun maybe intended, a lot. I think of it as like a wheel, like, "Oh I'm bored? Time to spin the wheel of interests again then!"

These are the things I like enough to be "canon" to my messy hodgepodge of a DR

♡ Touken Ranbu (I don't understand a lick of Japanese but beautiful boys? Sign me up, the warriors game is um, there too)

♡ Demon Slayer (It's not the best shonen anime granted I don't like many, but I find it enjoyable and cute)

♡ My Hero Academia (Also not the best, but hey, I love it a lot! Still need to catch up on the anime)

♡ Sonic the hedgehog (If you think being a furry is cringe you are more cringe than you think being a furry is. You can call me a furry if you want though I don't personally self identify as one, doesn't mean I'm embarrassed though!)

♡ Yugioh (The game is like- dog shit but hey Jaden Yuki has had a grip on my clit for too long and HE WILL NOT LET GO. We're childhood friends to lovers btw ♡)

♡ Ayakashi romance reborn (It's really good you guys, play the stripped down mobile app while you can, the switch port is kinda sorta bad: says someone who bought it on switch anyway)

♡ Bakugan (RIP gen 2, I never knew you Gen 1 but will always have a crush on Dan and Shun, Gen 3, we don't talk to Gen 3)

♡ Beyblade (It's fun, Jan, why do I need any other eXcuse to like it? Real bladers will understand my dumb joke)

♡ Miraculous Ladybug (I only watch it to fuel my own better version of the show that exists solely in my own head, but that's just the case for the whole fanbase at this point)

♡ Kingdom Hearts/ FF (My favorite game in the series is Dream Drop distance or Union Cross, that should let you know how normie I am to a deranged degree. What I love about Kingdom hearts is the shit I make up about kingdom hearts. Also uh, Cloud hot or something.)

♡ PriPara/ Aikatsu (I'm not shifting to really interact with any PriPara or Aikatsu character it's more like the general Idol stuff is just in my DR. I'm also listing it because PLEASE TALK TO ME ABOUT PRIPARA OR AIKATSU AAAAA-)

♡ Fate Grand Order (It's really fun and interesting when it's not doing something questionable, Prisma Illya, whenever they're doing something with that poor little girl it's questionable)

♡ Genshin (I haven't bothered to play Fountaine, Genshin takes up a 100 gigs and my sister refuses to delete farcry six sorry-)

♡ The other 3 Hoyo games (Yes I'm grouping them all together but I play em' pretty casually)

♡ Diabolik Lovers (My 2nd problematic fave ♡)

♡ Black Butler (My number 1 problematic fave, all my BB fans out there know it is not of god ♡)

♡ Pokémon (I only WISH I could play into gamer girl stereotypes more by liking the Sims too)

♡ Danganronpa (Did I spell it right? I don't care tbh. I don't like the gameplay, sorry, I don't like investigating in any game period, I play it pretending it is an otome game, aka I play it wrong.... just need to actually finish 2 and play 3)

♡ Uta No prince sama (It's peak. Need I say more?)

♡ Obey me and What in hell is bad? (I think they both some of the most greedy and scummy gachas I've played but uh... love the characters. I don't think it's AS evil but I love UnholyC too!)

♡ Twisted Wonderland (I don't have to tell you I've connected it to the KH stuff right?)

♡ Cardfight Vanguard (Yugioh was like crack cocaine to me, it was the start, you think I wasn't gonna seek out TCG ecstasy either?)

Shadowverse (Card game weed... I wonder how obvious it is I'm writing these drug jokes as someone whose never done drugs...)

♡ Cookie Run (Uhhh, Uhh, running out of neurons to justify anything uhhhhh, twink cookies go brrr?)

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I also really like dress up games and I really wanna learn more about fashion.

I like hello kitty (The best character is my melo, DUH!), Bratz, Barbie, I really liked Rainbow high but they were like... doing a lot at once for me.

My favorite two dress up games are Life Makeover (Okay it's actually number 1) and Suit U (I love it but it is so god damn uniquely greedy) Everskies is fun too but I find it hard to find clothes you REALLY want and it can get samey, for me at least.

I'll be making a DR self lore and master list... naybe... soon? If you've seen my first post you know I want things to be relaxed here. I guess with previous side blogs I got anxious? I guess? But I'll update this paragraph here once or if I do that to a link.

I'll be doing a lot of DR self vanity posting and hey, if you wanna vanity post in my ask box go ahead if you'd like, being vain is very fun. But don't send real pictures of yourself, I think that's fair.

[raeseddon]

This this this! Social media really made it a hell of a lot easier for the people who wanted to send death threats and bully people off the internet to connect in numbers that were really impossible for us olds to imagine. Because before social media, it was actually really hard to bully someone totally off the internet, or out of every fandom they were ever in. Social media, and the normalization of sharing personal details, and how every social media platform is linked to each other, has actually made it possibly to bully someone completely off of the internet.

That said, I don't think all of it is revisionist history either, because before Live Journal, before these aggregate blog sites, it was actually easy to completely miss certain fandom wank because it only happened on one forum, usually one of the larger, well maintained ones-- and if you weren't on that forum, you might have heard about it down the grapevine in AOL chat rooms or MSN Messenger, or even BBS boards but it never actually got in front of your own eyeballs. So depending on the fandom, where you posted, if you had your own fan site, any of a dozen other factors, there are people who genuinely missed a lot of that shit entirely. It doesn't mean it never happened, but you're right, it was easier to miss or completely ignore, if you were one of those people really, really dedicated, even back then to believing that the sometimes grim reality of human interaction had no place in your personal online experience.

And while there isn't so much a worse "cruelty gene" in the younger generations, there's a lot of factors that are true for the fandom yougin's that weren't true for us, and the elephant in the room is the fact that Gen Z is living through a literally global, conservative, right wing social and political insurgency, and the pressure that puts on especially tween and teen fandom yougin's is like nothing any of us experienced outside of the few years after 9/11. Anyone a little bit weird, or trying to figure themselves out online has that hanging over them in ways I'm 100% certain sociologists are in the process of writing dissertations about.

That, and degree of social control that began with our parents using v-chips to control what we watched has become an entire industry for parents who want to keep their children "morally upright." They have zero privacy, their parents have apps that allow them to see every bit of personal communication they make, and how that's translated to their online behavior is thus:

They're online, knowing that it's impossible to disable the apps/whatever their parents use to watch what they're doing. They're on Tumblr. An adult doesn't tag something (because it's a personal choice to tag or not) and something come up on their dash that they know their parents won't approve of. They know getting angry at their parents is pointless, it never gets anywhere, so the only direction they can lash out is at that adult on Tumblr who didn't tag That Bad Thing That Got Them In Trouble.

Is it misguided, and have a fair number of them turned that resentment into an endless Outrage Machine because it turns out they enjoy it? Yes and yes. But the effect of increased social control isn't something I see come up as a possible reason why it seem like so, so many of these kids are very Not Alright.

It's not okay, it was never, ever okay, but I don't think it's all coming from a place of fandom olds wanting to revise our history to make the yougin's look bad on purpose: it's a conflagration of social media, and social control, and the fact that for a lot of olds, the internet was a much more insular place and we still haven't really wrapped our heads around exactly how untrue that is anymore.

Not to out myself as #old but it’s really so funny to me how so many people who regularly used the internet in the 2000s wanna play revisionist history and pretend teenagers getting upset over something that doesn’t even remotely matter in the scheme of things and sending death threats to cope or whatever is a new phenomenon, like yeah I remember the aughties, I remember excitedly reading encyclopedia dramatica “articles” (read: extended callouts with a bias that would put any tumblr user to shame) while pretending the constant jokes about women and black “people” (lol oxymoron amirite) didn’t get to me, I remember the fandom wank communities where we’d mock middle and high schoolers for making bad Harry Potter fanfiction and then double down when they got upset, I remember phone numbers and addresses posted on 4chan because someone’s crush wasn’t reciprocated, I KNOW the FBI recognized swatting as early as 2008. The only reason any of us knew of Brian Peppers is because of ableist teens having fun

This isn’t a defense of the harassment campaigns or disingenuous callouts on tumblr because those are inexcusable and a non insignificant portion of you need to stop using your shitty home life and alleged desire for social justice to rationalize your poisonous ass, as if being abused negates you being a bully.

but like…lmao at people in their 20s/30s already prepared to start that “back in my day we respected each other and let people enjoy things” bullshit because no tf we didn’t. Social media didn’t exist ten years ago the way it does now, and that’s a bigger reason why online bullying is more apparent, not because “this generation” evolved a cruelty gene

[thought-tracing]

media of the week!

10/11/2024

Music

Panavision by Roy Blair

well yes!!! I've actually... never listened to Roy Blair before the track, and I really like this one. The fact this track has production credits from CFCF, Deaton Chris Anthony, AND Instupendo like woah... he's tapped in, even more then me I fear. Excited to see where his new album takes him :D

Why Lies by SOPHIE

One of the songs I liked more out of the new posthumous SOPHIE album. I have my thoughts about the album.... will I publish those, nope. Not worth it, fun track tho!

Elevator Music: Swami Sound (DJ Mix) [Apple Music Exclusive]

Ohhh hell yeah, I love Swami Sound as an artist, and this DJ set is incredible. He had been teasing it a while ago so I guess Elevator Music delayed it for some reason, but its FINALLY out and its so fun. Had to listen to this on the morning commute it made the drive so much better.

Brat and it's completely different but also still brat

Ok so this album has practically taken over my life this week. It came out Thursday night and that's practically all I've been listening to for the day, its incredible. It's everything I wanted a remix album to be. I absolutely fucking adore the brat project, I think I'm gonna write a blog post about it, its just so good.

Here are my select standout (new) tracks:

Club classics featuring bb trickz

Sympathy is a knife featuring ariana grande

Everything is romantic featuring caroline polachek

Rewind featuring bladee

So I featuring a. g. cook

this one especially is so beautiful and amazing and fun for being such an emotional track. I love everything about this remix, its amazing.

B2b featuring tinashe

Mean girls featuring julian casablancas

and of course... 365 featuring shygirl

ok so that's practically all of the new tracks... but they are all incredible so listen to them anyways.

Movies

Joker: Folie à Deux

Ok, this movie is not as bad as everyone is making it out to be, it was pretty enjoyable to me. BUT I have NOT seen Joker (2019)... so this likely effects my opinion a LOT. Like sure I could see how the plot would be boring for someone coming from Joker (2019) (haven't seen the movie but I've heard enough to know its crazy), like I would probably be dissapointed if I was a fan of Joker (2019) and was waiting patiently for a new one. But like... its not as terrible 0/5 unwatchable garbage as everyone is making it out be. idk I enjoyed myself, maybe it was because I was just making fun of it with my friend in the theater lol.

another thing to note: me and my friend were the ONLY ones in the theater. there were other seats reserved for our showing, and they didn't show up. we had the entire theater to ourselves. which is a... wild experience. I mean to be fair it was a Thursday night but like, brand new Joker movie and nobody is showing up????

TV

I watched Heartstopper Season 3, it was okay.

Games

I've just been playing Counter-Strike 2 lately.

SEE YOU NEXT WEEK!

[sol-consort]

Hey, I've been reading up on your Dragon Age Inquisition adventures! Your Inquisitor is indeed pretty and I love the explanation you give for having her be a dual dagger rogue. Snotty nobles <3

You're right, the world is really big. The common advice is to get out of the Hinterlands ASAP or you will get bogged down, but back when I played the game (which was around the time it was released 😭 so my memories are bound to be even more muddled than my memories of P2 when I first found your Patho blog), I was categorically incapable of doing this until I did everything there was to do. I left no stone unturned, in any of the areas, and never lost interest, but I also had a lot more time and patience for that type of game then. That being said, I'm excited for DA4.

I also always had a physical strategy guide open in front of me so that made it more manageable, lol.

Cassandra and Vivienne are my faves ♥️ "something something characters who are religious are hot" asdfhg honestly that's so real. When it's a fantasy setting I feel the same apparently.

In my first playthrough, my Inquisitor was an elf archer and she became my favorite little gremlin ever ♡ She only looks gremlinesque though; she was rather diplomatic and moderate, or as Lana Del Rey once said, "No moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality," a.k.a. the human behind the screen wanted to experience all companion quests and be universally liked.

She romanced Solas and I loved it! Listen yeah I know some people can be a little annoying about Solas (stans and haters both) and I'm not attracted to the guy, but narratively it was satisfying. Yes he's a dillweed, whatever, I don't care 😇 #noregrets. I would have romanced Cassandra if possible, but I played on PS4, so no mods for me.

Second playthrough, my Inquisitor was a human mage who romanced Cullen. I was going for the whole internalized magephobia thing and the Cullenmance seemed the proper course of action for that, but I won't lie, it was kind of dull. Absolutely would have romanced Vivienne in this run instead if I could have. Similar to your Inquisitor, mine also quickly started to believe she was the Herald of Andraste for real.

I feel like I'm always doomed to fall for the unromanceable companions/characters. A fact that could perhaps be psychoanalyzed.

Here are the bbs. Sorry for the hastily cobbled together composition.

While we're on the topic of magephobia uhhhhhhhh I've never played DA2 but Knight Commander Meredith?? Now there's an evil woman I need biblically.

I hope you're well and taking care of yourself :)

wait what? So I'm not actually the herald of Andraste?? if that's true, that's a massive plot spoiler. Why would you mention it, I wanted to experience the game organically, this is my first time playing any dragon age game.

I didn't ask to know about cullen's romance being dull, I wanted to experience it for myself and form my own opinion about him. Same with Solas, I didn't think he's popular in the fandom, I haven't looked through the main tag yet to avoid spoilers.

I understand that you're excited, but you shouldn't have gone into as much detail as you have. You got to play the game many times, this is my first, I'm not even using a guide and it's hard enough as it is to accept my losses when they come and not worry about approval.

I would've loved this ask if you had just skipped over your playthrough details and just showed me the inquisitor pictures. I know you didn't mean to spoil things but information will slip you by.

I thought Vivienne was romance-able, I swear I picked flirty options with her...she isn't, huh.

[xazz]

Hey BB!

I'm the anon from a few weeks back who was asking about moth wings and said I was going to reread Flocking Movement

I actually ended up rereading Back For More from start to finish lols!

I did end up commenting on both and I've reread/read a few new things too :)

I've been having a tough time mental health wise and for whatever reason reading your fics actually helped with my writers block (based on what I thought was physical health/brain fog) and I've been writing sooo much recently I've added like 15kish to one of my WIP and 8k on the other!

Hope you've been having as much progress with your writing :)

I remember a while ago reading some old fanfic of yours with a character named.... Spa? Spayar? I think I saw him mentioned on your writing blog (I follow both! Been tempting me into maybe making a writblr haha) I think he's one of your original OCs right?

I don't recall if you have any of your original works on Tumblr / AO3

Sorry for the blather, I'm playing DND while typing this so my heads a bit all over but I has the courage to type this while playing so wanted to send it while the shyness went away <3 - D/V (can't remember which I used to sign off last time whoops for having two internet fake names lol)

Ah B4M. Haven't thought about that fic in years oof

I'm glad my silly writing helped you break out of your writer's block. That's a lot of writing I'm really proud of you.

Yes I do have original stuff on my AO3. The VERY old version of Zealous Servant (which is where Spayar is from) and some other stuff set in that universe. I do plan on posting the new versions on my writblr and AO3 again but not until I'm back home from the holidays.

[spacecowboysfrommars]

FAM WHEN I SAY I'M SCREAMING I-

I-

no actually no I'm whispering whatthefuckwhatthefuckwhatthefuckw

my BOYS

TOGETHER

MY BOYS

Congrats I'm returning to tumblr (once again shh) for the sole purpose of SHRIEKING AT YOU ABOUT THAT LAST CHAPTER OF TWWW

Oh my GOD.

SPOILERS IF ANYBODY HASN'T READ IT YET (though like fr what are you doing if you haven't? fake fans) ANYWAY

Tony opening up to Nat?? Nat understanding and bringing up her sister???? NAT FIGURING OUT HOW TO FIND PETER (which like GOD they're all so stupid but like wow what a solution hiding in plain sight wtf). Tony not waiting even a second for backup he's just like FUCK this I'm finding my kid?? Osb*rn's little drama??? PETER STANDING UP TO HIM??? FOR TONY??????? my child BETTER take that as a healing experience and not feel guilty for removing such an evil waste of space from the surface of the earth. man dESERVES to rot in hell thanks bb. The part where Peter ends up like hugging Tony so hard and they're both collapsed on the ground and peter's trying to crawl closer into tony's chest (which you KNOW is my favorite shit like that's my shit right there)????

FAMMM!!!!!!!!!

T-TTTTTTT

(spoilers over)

the ONLY lil note i'd mention is like, you say "shaking like a tree in a hurricane" kinda a lot, and it's such a kickass line that maybe u should save it for only the most kickass moments. but otherwise this is a fucking masterpiece

I can't wait for the epilogue <3 <3 <3 I despise you <33333

(in the lowest of keys, any chance you've already written it and would send it to me privately early? in addition to kicking myself off tumblr I'm probably gonna kick myself off ao3 starting tomorrow :( just because I have truly zero self-control and therefore cannot be trusted with nice things while also having Responsibilities. i'd just...be so sad if I couldn't read the epilogue :( and I'd also be a lil bummed if i had to break my "no ao3" in order to read said epilogue because then i'd probably be like, "well, next month I guess :D" which is NOT a good idea lmaoo. no pressure if you can't or haven't written it yet or don't want to tho)

right so tldr I cannot STAND you and I value and adore you so much. You cannot be trusted with my heart, and yet you hold it in one hand and in the other you've got thro's motherfucking hammer full of your words and you're holding it with a DEMONIC amount of glee

UGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhHHH <3

HZHSIWJWBDJWISHSBD

LOVE YOU

ok so I would absolutely be okay with privately sending you the epilogue, but my private messages on Tumblr aren’t working whatsoever, and I’m unable to see messages or send anything) I’ve emailed the support team but never got a response) so if there’s any other way I can work out sending it to you, that would be great (maybe in your AMA?)

P.S so happy that you’re prioritizing your mental health at the moment (even if I miss ur regular blog updates terribly) because Responsibilities are important. Take all the time you need <333

[graphicabyss]

2021.06.18 さんまのまんま初夏SP 5/5

Sanma-san then asked whether they have social media accounts and they said they don't, though some Johnny's have them these days. Shige added that they haven't really discussed it because they really just focused on making it through this year. Massu then said that even though they don't have sm, they have their blogs and Koyama posts a lot of selfies. He thoroughly imitated it to Koyama's quiet protests. Shige joined in telling about Koyama taking selfies in the dressing room. Sanma-san admitted he was surprised Koyama was the narcissistic one because he was sure it would be Kato. Massu said people on Instagram would be posting photos of the places they've been to and such and Koyama just takes pics of his face, in a bath, in a bed or in a car. Koyama said he doesn't even know how many people are reading his blog and Kato said it would be bad if there's only like 300 people. They kept trolling him mercilessly until Shige reminded they might become a duo.

They then noted that some people who are watching the show might not know NEWS and Shige said he was lacking confidence as they're still "new" but Massu stepped in to say that they have always been in the band from the start and have always worked hard. We know, bb.

Sanma-san said that their friendship must have strengthened this past year and they agreed. Shige said the dressing room became very quiet. I can imagine. Sanma once again teased them that it might get even quieter if someone else leaves and they were mock exasperated asking him to stop trying to guess but he did saying it would probably be Kato because of his writing career. The last few minutes were spent trying to explain the title of their latest single, Burn, which I didn't really get. I don't like the way Japanese shows just cut off the endings randomly.

Anyway, it was a great show and while there's no escaping the NEWS' loaded past, I am so relieved to see they are holding on strong and seem happy. I also actually enjoy the deadpan self-conscious humour. That's just my cup of tea.

[huenjin]

2020 year end greetings.

disclaimer: this is going to be very long ( ˶ ❛ ꁞ ❛ ˶ ), but that's how much gratitude i have and so much more of love.

2020. ah, this year was a very emotional journey for me and how i wish i could sing jessi's gucci all throughout. however, that was not the case. tumblr helped me run away from all those irl miseries. these people made me feel at home.

this skz writing blog has been existing from the last few days of september and it came to life when i was losing motivation to write on my main (which i closed down because stray kids made me like writing back again) and it's stayed since then. you guys have stayed since then. grateful, a one hundred times and more.

so, this is rue, getting sappy and so much more thankful for everything i have and recieved with this blog. this is rue, asking you to accompany me for a little more and to listen to the stories i have to share. the is rue with heart full of nothing but love for each one of you.

to each one of my mutuals, for whom i pray to the stars to shower you with nothing but fortune —

@sinisterlyhan ♡ eiko, best thing i ever did was hit you up. how are you always so calm? or at least that's the tone i have in my head when i read your texts. it's so pleasant to talk to you. ily. and let me get started on your writing — you've heard this from me like every day but ma'am, you make magic. you lace stars together to form such a beautiful constellation of a writing and i fall in love a little more. thank you for inspiring me to always do better!

the hyunsung demon!au (whew!) — 01. 02. 03.

this hyunjin bad boy!au

@mochinnie ♡ isa, how i wish you handled yourself with a little more care. you're so fragile and delicate and i just want to protect you ?? so much ??? you're precious and one of the most beautiful people i have met. your characterisation is just perfect and god, i wish i could once write headcanons like you do. thank you for being my friend and for fangirling to me and for loving me. it means the world. psst, ily.

this seungmin fic

querencia | hh

@sparklemin ♡ nara!!!! big brain nara! god i love how your asks make my whole day and how you bring up different minho agendas in my head. you have my whole heart and i'm in love with you bye

girlfriend | bcn

hidden confession | bcn

@bearseungmin ♡ dawnie babie thank you for being such an enthusiast all the time while talking. you're so cheerful and happy and thank you for being this nice <33

beat it to the door | bcn

could listen to you read the dictionary | lfl

@chogiout ♡ yah, kira! sometimes i want to whack the back of your head like i whack my sister's, okay? it's the same kinda sibling love with you. fuck, not ever going to let you leave me. after all, my parents taught me to take responsibility of the stuff i rid innocence of. (lmao, sorry, bitch ily!!)

memoir | jyh

this youth of craziness | csn

@mikoto-ica-fics ♡ mi, bb! thank you for being so supportive. istg, if it weren't for you reblogging that one fic of mine, my fics would have never seen light to this day. it's easy to get lost in the tags hehe. and then i happen to text you and omg, aren't you the nicest ever? i love your story ideas, the way you write, the way you interact with people and thank you for talking to me. you make me want to be better.

entangled | lmh, hjs

power grab | hjs

@toffee-hwa ♡ ana! anaaaa~ you're so enthusiastic and supportive and fuck, i looooove ranting and fangirling to you! and the minute i know you're watching the same kdrama as i am, i just go like wheeeeeee— HAN SEOJUN!!! lmao, but thank you so much for talking to me, for listening and for caring! my romanian queen, you pretty human, you're the best!

yet, pt.i

yet, pt.ii

@chandisiacs ♡ yah, pav! must i drag you back to tumblr from twt? must i? i miss you. i really do and i can't wait to have your arse back here. thank you for being such a lively person to talk and hang out with, eee! and not at how you succeeded nano! inspirational! thank you x

thread of all your legendary aus

starboy | bcn

@unsaidhj ♡ you're so soft. and god i love you? and your aesthetics. it's a thing, ma'am. i existed to see your aesthetics lmao. and then i text you and you're so kind omg. i could never hate you so please, ma'am, stop telling me that in panic? huihui, ily and i hope you stay healthy. place yourself first, bb.

knife under my pillow | hhj

scammer, scammed | bcn

@sleepylixie ♡ yo, neighbor! you reminded me how small the world can actual get! love love talking to you about irl stuff because you can understand how messed up it is! and you're so kind, ah!!

in umbra

passion's abyss | lmh

@dreamyhan ♡ one of the few people i see on my dash and go like — hazeeeeeeeeel! you're just so nice, god. like if cotton candy was a person, it would be you, alright? and then there's your writing ability that skyrocket off the roofs because it is that good. thank you for being so supportive and nice to me! x

next time | bcn

in his arms | hjs

@itsapapisongo ♡ boy, my main man, javi!! your work was once my most favorite thing to listen to. loved how the mall worked and everything. and then there's how supportive you are like omg. if only i could explain the courage you give me. it's infinite. you make me feel infinite. also, #hardhours, right?

george of the jungle

swimming fool

@kabira ♡ typing the url down was even more romantic, manx. don't ever change this. love how strong and bold you are. love your opinions and love your writings even more. you're one of those few people who write like they mean every word from their heartstrings. thank you for providing us with stories to tell for eons. x (psst, ily so much!)

backstreet driving | hhj (that's the first skz fic i read because it was from you and not because it was skz and aren't i glad?)

sic semper tyrannis | lty

@dalknow ♡ the only other person on tumblr that i text religiously on discord. i love talking to you, bb. love getting personal with you. love how i can share absolutely anything. thank you for trusting me. thank you for listening to me. thank you for loving me. can't wait for you to put your stories back up on this acc. you're undefeatable and i know you'll have that known.

to each one of my anons, for whom i pray that you stay safe and healthy and most importantly, happy —

🧸 :: put you on the anon list because in my head you are that anon — my very first one and the one that lit up my whole world. it's kind of a very proud moment when someone wants to talk to you. you made me feel that. you made feel loved. and to see how well your blog is doing now, god, i feel like a proud mother.

🐠 :: my greek princess. the fact that i learnt more about breads from you than from my school makes me laugh hehe. you really did light up my world with every ask you sent me and had me unknowingly hope that you are happy in every minute. and now that i know who you are, i'm even more content because you're a mutual too now!

🍧 :: god, you have a special place in my heart, ice cream anon! maybe because you liked me more than my fic and followed me here even though you were an anon from my bts blog. fuck, if that didn't make my heart flutter, nothing ever will! (hush, your relationship is something i am still rooting for!!)

🦊 |🌹| 🥀 | 🛸 :: the way you guys keep checks if i'm staying hydrated and healthy. i am. and even when i wasn't, your asks made me go drink a cup of water ha! thank you for loving me x

tiktok anon :: ♡♡♡♡♡♡ yes idk what else to say to you but that i would give you a piece of my heart. your tiktok asks make my whole day. it's something i look forward too! thank you for always making my day!

and to my other anons, tagged or untagged :: thank you for sending me an ask. every single one, either telling me to stay happy or hydrated, or that my fic was great or that you're feeling extra horny that day (we've all been there!) i appreciate it and thank you for making me smile! x

to all the mutuals that i admire, look upto and wish we talked waaaay more, let's do it soon please! and to some mutuals that i just miss talking to! —

@nightshade-minho (ily! x nicest bean ever!!) :: @satanssmuts :: @lovebini :: @seraplantery :: @xiaojunssmile :: @chan-skz :: @chanluster :: @decembermoonskz :: @bangtantaegi (queen!!) :: @yunhozone (i miss you!!) :: @inkigayeo :: @vocalyunho

i hope each one of you stay happy, content and loved. my memory is pea sized and so i do pray that i haven't forgotten any! thank you for being my mutuals, for sharing laughter and talks with me for these months i've been here! i’m sorry if i missed anyone, but i seriously do appreciate everyone that i’ve ever talked to on here though! i hope to see you all next year and let's be happy together !!

with much love, x rue!