#i haven't been to an aquarium since i was about 10 i think

[feefivefoe]

Please can we hear your thoughts on what Bruce does/thinks when being confronted with his neglect by Jason (and maybe the other boys too)??

Thank you, and have a nice day!

Bruce is the one I have the hardest time characterizing tbh.

I think his first reaction would be denial? He hasn't been the best father, but even he wouldn't go as far as to forget his own chi...

Oh my god he doesn't know how old you are. You were...you were older than Tim but younger than Dick, he thinks.

Wait.

When was your birthday?

Did he ever give you a birthday party?

What wing of the manor did you sleep in?

Where were you right now?

Unlike Tim who starts the unofficial search, Bruce heads right to the batcave to find your official records. Social security number. If you worked anywhere or has anyplace legal to stay, you'd have to input that. He's ashamed he has to go through a government database to find it, rather than simply knowing it.

And just like Tim, he finds nothing. Which scares him beyond belief. Had he lost you already? Did he actually forget about one of his children and then unknowingly replace them? Was he actually guilty of what Jason had accused him of years ago, albeit to a different child?

In reality, you're living solely through cash. Plenty of individuals are eager to avoid paying all their taxes, and are thrilled to accept cash only payments on your rent, or paycheck. Legally, you haven't done anything since graduating high school.

Not necessarily hiding from them, per say, as you don't think they'd go looking, but just because you don't want to be known as a Wayne.

And god, there is so much guilt, fear, and anguish rolling around inside that man. He needs to find out where you are, and if you're okay, and if anybody had done anything to you.

He swears if they have, he'll rip the motherfucker to pieces-

No. That isn't going to help. So instead he checks every reported death within not only Gotham, but any city within a 50 mile radius. For the last 10 years.

As well hidden as you are, nobody can hide from Batman while he's concentrating every effort to find you.

He's hesitant to bring you home at first. How can he call himself your father after forgetting you for your whole time living with him? But his regard for your safety eventually wins out. Until then, you just get a concerning amount of money just...stashed in your apartment??? What the fuck??????

Dick also feels a lot of guilt, but he somewhat subconsciously channels that into abundant overeagerness. Instead of focusing on how many important moments he missed...that he can never get back with his first baby sibling...

...ah, he should focus on all the memories you can make going forward! He has to take you to all his favorite spots, and you take him to yours!

What interests do you have? Are you a go to the aquarium person? Family movie night? Spa night? Just having fun with everyone at dinner? He has to do these things with you! And then you'll be his family again, and he'll love you, and you'll love him-

In spirit, he shows up outside your door like Damian. But he is self aware enough to know that'd freak you out, so instead he 'coincidentally' shows up at your work...in the bad side of town...and his attitude definitely gives away it was planned.

He messes up your "I'm a nobody like all of you" persona you'd spent years cultivating, and by the time he leaves, all your coworkers and customers know that you're Dick Grayson's sibling...which means Bruce Wayne's child, but he likes saying you're related to him more.

Tim doesn't give a fuck at first, like I established. It really is a game to see if he can find you before anybody else does. When he loses that to Bruce (damn it-), he decides he'll just know you BETTER than the others to win.

So he starts literally stalking you and making a psyche profile, like you're a case rather than his sibling. Any interest you've ever listed in your social media is cross checked with any belongings of yours. Merch or posters? Songs you listen to? Any of that content, he consumes as well. He's going to need conversation topics with you.

I'm not entirely sure if he actually loves you as family, or if you're just a hyperfixation that's consistently buzzing at his brain. It's like he wants to dissect, then digest you. Pick you apart piece by piece so he sees every last skin cell, then make that information a part of him

Though, he'd claim it's the former. To him, there's no discernable difference.

He's the one who meets you at your hobbies. Claims an online friend brought it up, but hey, it's crazy to see you again!

Even though it's your first conversation...maybe ever?

He's chatting to you like you haven't been estranged your whole life.

And the look in the eye is...a little unnerving.

[elflikesfrogs]

🐢turtle owners - advice?🐢

I'm getting a turtle in abt 36 hours and feel unprepared so if anyone has experience with turtle care, please give some advice !! I've done a lot of research but just have some questions I can't find answers to. Details under the cut bcuz I'm anxious and have a lot of questions 😭

non turtle owners, if u could rb or boost for greater reach that would b appreciated 🥺🥺

I'm getting a turtle this weekend. She's a 2 year old red eared slider. She was given to me by her previous owner who was no longer able to care for her, and as it was an urgent situation I've had about 4 days to learn absolutely everything that there is to know about turtle/RES care.

I don't know much of her current situation, but she's in a 60 gallon tank right now. The owner is giving me the tank and filter (though I don't know what kind of filter) and potentially some setup stuff, but I'm not really sure what. So, I'm starting at a baseline of zero (plus tank, turtle, and filter) and working from there.

So far I've gotten a water heater from Walmart, although reading the reviews after I got back home, I discovered it was actually really bad quality and basically kills any aquarium that it touches. So... I looked for more higher rated water heaters, and I'm ordering a Cobalt Equatics Neo-Glass 200w heater, and a plastic heater protector to prevent glass shattering. Will the turtle be okay for a few days without heated water? It's arriving Tuesday 20th, and the temperature where I live is around high 60sF-low 80sF right now (during the day). If not, are there solutions to not having a water heater for a short while? (Granted, if the prev owner didn't have a water heater in the first place, I think it's probably okay until I get one, but still!)

I know ideally, I should fill the tank up to the full capacity (60 gal) and have an over-tank basking dock. However, from the photos I've received (shown below) it looks like she's only been in about half tank water with a floating basking dock. I want to ensure she's able to swim around and get to the surface without any strain; how should I go about slowly increasing the water levels?

Substrate: Gravel is too small for her and I'm scared she'll eat them. River rocks, while cool and natural-looking, I've heard are difficult to clean and can be quite loud. So I've decided on either doing a bare bottom tank, or sand substrate. If it's bare bottom, I feel like she'd be bored — I don't quite have all the decorations yet, so it would be a pretty sparse and empty tank — though I know sand makes it more difficult to clean as well. Thoughts?

Decorations: RES's are known for breaking stuff and biting whatever they can get their mouth around. Knowing this, I haven't gotten any decorations yet. I would like to be able to give her decorations she can play with but not have the risk of her eating and swallowing fake plants or whatever. What decoration brands/types are recommended?

Feeding: since she's 2, and still a juvenile (I think), she's mainly been eating protein pellets and freeze dried bugs. I got some basic protein pellets and freeze dried mealworms at Walmart. I've seen conflicting ratios for pellets-veggies-fruit (some saying 50%/40%/10%, others saying 25/65/10, etc) What sort of a nutrition ratio should i be giving a 2 y/o female red eared slider? I do know that I should be giving her no more than the size of her head, and potentially putting her in a second tank for feeding if possible (and making sure to remove any excess food after 15 minutes). Also, for a 2 y/o, I think it's every-day feedings, but if I'm wrong please lmk

Finally here is just a list of all the other things I currently have for the tank, minus the tank and filter itself because I don't know what type they are:

2 lamps, with 13W Aqua Culture Compact Fluorescent bulb for reptiles (UVB), and Aqua Culture 60W incandescent basking bulb.

Digital water thermometer.

Aqua safe water conditioner (I have well water with no chemical filtration, so I think it's not necessary, but bought one anyway.)

Aquarium brush.

Shipping soon: Aquarium-safe sand, water heater & plastic cover.

What else do I need? Water aeration? pH strips? Something else I'm forgetting?

Apologies for the long post. I'm super anxious about getting a pet, and I want to make sure I'm providing her with the absolute best care possible. Obviously, as time goes on (and so do my paychecks) I will be able to upgrade her tank with more features. For now, I'm looking for the absolute basics - how to keep this turtle alive and happy while I learn more about turtle care and eventually help her to thrive.

[chipped-chimera]

Time, yet again, to wade into a pit of contradictory information as I try to determine what I should do about my nuked tetra population while I'm still doing ich treatment.

(if you have some ideas/opinions about what I should do context below)

This is my first tank, so please be nice 🥺

I have a heavily planted, 20gallon (76L) freshwater aquarium which I had probably researched for about 3 months, then ran empty/with plants for about a month or so? before fish introduction. So absolutely cycled, bombproof setup that I have not seen a whiff of ammonia or nitrates in since I started testing (probably a month after it being cycling empty when my kit arrived).

I introduced 10 green neon tetra, which grew confident very quick within the new tank, like within the next day stopped schooling behaviour, bopping around and doing their own thing. But then I saw white spots appearing. In my delay of trying to determine if it was actually ich and conflicting info about it being 'stress ich' that could minimize in time with the stress reduction - probably me delaying it too because the meds were expensive - I probably doomed them.

I'm angry and sad at the same time, in part towards myself but mostly because I'm mad at the contradictory info leading to delay on a situation that was more time critical given the size of these little fish. Which I think led to their deaths.

I know quarantine is important but given my tank is heavily planted, I was struggling with bioload - as in not enough - so on the day I started ich treatment I put in 6 corycats which have been absolutely fine. So fine in fact I've noticed their barbels getting much longer! They're having a great time in there, and while I've seen some showing sign of being itchy, I've never seen a spot appear. Same with the Starlight Bristlenose, who was actually the first resident - she's weathered the ich outbreak pre-treatment fine (yeah I know it's hard to tell given she's a starlight but I've had a good look at her when I could, she's clear) and while she hides a lot during the day, I think she's happy - there are a stupid amount of tunnels and hidey holes in my setup, the centerpiece is a huge slab of driftwood so she has plenty to rasp on too. All the food is also the best quality I could get, and they get blanched veggies twice a week.

Unfortunately though, the delay was too late for the Tetra. First I lost one. Then more. I went from 10 to 3 today, if I am lucky it will stay at 3. Two of them look very good. One of them has minor body spotting. Worst comes to worst, it'll be 2. I think it'll stay that way, nothing new has been appearing.

What I am worried about now is I know the minimum for tetra is 8. While these guys I think know fairly well the tank is safe, and the presence of the corycats might help in terms of them having another grouping fish around to help them feel more confident, I don't want to be causing them unnecessary stress that might make the situation worse. Two of them left are grouping together, the one I am uncertain about is often hanging out on it's own which is making me worried I'll lose it too.

I am early on in the treatment at full dosage (I spent more time cranking up the dosage slowly since this is a planted tank with inverts, so that probably didn't help the ich situation) 25%~30% water changes daily.

Naturally online opinion on 'should I add fish during ich treatment' is about as confusing as it was when I was just trying to find info on ich. Some say hard no. Some say it's always in tanks anyway, it's the stress, may as well chuck them in during treatment. I'm going to have to grab another bottle of the stuff (so bleeding expensive) and I don't want to use more of it on a quarantine tank - right now anyway.

The treatment I am doing specifically targets parasites (Seachem Paraguard) but I also have Melafix and Pimafix, though I haven't really been dosing either since the smell of it I think irritates the tetra, and Paraguard supposedly has antibacterial elements that also target finrot. If I were to add new fish, I'd probably start adding both during the day, Paraguard goes in at night after a waterchange because it's lights-off after that (degrades under light).

If I added new fish, I'd be doing that for 14 days + maybe one more week just in case. But yeah, I have no fucking clue what to do and I very much want to not fuck this up anymore.

I'm also honestly kind of put off by tetra at this point - compared to the corycats they are very, very nervous and twitchy I think which didn't help their stress levels, even with me trying to make it as stress-free as possible. But also know I'm probably stuck with them if I want them to feel better.

Any thoughts/opinions would be good. I don't really have other treatment options available either btw, either because products are literally not available or the risk of killing plants/hurting other fish is too high (heat is NOT an option, corycats upper-limit is 26C so that's what the tank is set to)

My gut says it's probably okay to add fish, if I keep up treatment. But idk anymore :C

[donuts4evry1]

these are jellies from the S.E.A aquarium in singapore!! i think they had more jellies actually but i didn't take pictures... the aquarium overall was pretty cool though, they had lots of huge tanks with large fish and sharks.

the last picture is just a screenshot of a video, but they had the moon jellies housed in a tank where they continually rotated through different lighting colors. it was super pretty but i was wondering if the jellies would be bothered by the constantly changing lights??

AHHH THESE ARE LOVELY!! and your camera skills are so much better than mine, haha. I love how crisp and clear they all turned out ^-^!! (Maybe it's also because the lighting in the aquarium is better? Well, regardless, these are gorgeous photos.)

Rating (14/20):

Diversity - 6/10 - The included species seem to be pretty generic all things considered, but at least there's some variety

Presentation - 8/10 - Everything looks neat and clean, and the Rhizostomid jellyfish have some pigmentation on them. Also, I'm a sucker for Jellyfish Raves.

Learning - N/A - Haven't been there in person, can't say for sure how good the information is.

(I'll ramble a bit about jellyfish eyes under the cut!)

You actually bring up a great point! However, you need not worry about these poor jellyfishes' eyes- they should be completely fine.

Moon Jellyfish are part of Class Scyphozoa- which are about in the middle when it comes to "seeing organ" complexity in Sub-class Medusozoa (or the Jellyfish Subclass).

Their primary seeing organs (Ocelli) are contained within "Rhopalia"- which also control orientation (the uh, position kind not the pride kind) through statocysts and also bell pulsation.

Unlike Box Jellyfish, which have true eyes that can perceive different wavelengths of light, ocelli can only perceive brightness.

Moon jellies exhibit vertical migration (basically raise to the surface during the day and to the bottom at night), so perhaps if the brightness of the lights are played with too much, it might confuse their natural sense of migration? But jellyfish do not have a brain, so I think they will be fine regardless :)

However, since we are on the topic of rhopalia, did you know that moon jellyfish polyps were sent to space in mission STS-40? There's a video on youtube about that with the ugliest looking jellyfish I've ever seen (affectionate). Apparently, they developed just fine in space, though their statocysts seemed to develop improperly. Poor little guys.

[victoriouscabaret]

Imma ask several lol. Answer as many or as few as you'd like!

7, 16, 18, & 27! 💖

Hahahaha - I appreciate you <3

7. What animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

I haven't been to an aquarium since I was like... 10 I think, and back then it would have been dolphins or sharks or something. I think if I went to one now I'd be happy to just vibe with the tropical fish. I feel bad for super intelligent animals being kept in captivity, so I'd probably avoid the octopi, dolphins, etc.

16. Thoughts on mint chocolate chip?

Hahahaha - okay so when I was a little kid I was really low on the growth curve, so my doctor told my dad that he needed to feed me high fat foods to help me gain weight. So part of that meant sitting down to a bowl of ice cream every night before bed, which sounds like every kid's dream - and it is - until six years have past and you're still eating ice cream every night before bed and have been through ever flavor in existence a time or two. I did have a mint chocolate chip phase, but I haven't had it in years and probably never will again lol

18. Your boba/tea order?

I can't do boba - the texture is just not for me. I want to like it but I just can't get past it. Back in high school when I'd force myself to drink bubble tea to fit in I was all about coconut though.

27. What's your favourite or go-to outfit?

If I had my entire wardrobe clean, folded, and accessible right now, I would pick black skinny jeans, a sleeveless shirt, and either my Vans that I wore for my wedding, or my TOMS. That's my default state when I'm not at work or expected to dress up. I recently discovered the magic of wide legged pants after I got a thigh tattoo in April though, and they've been a game changer. SO COZY.

[mod2amaryllis]

hey so i've been trying to establish an aquarium for a betta lately, but i haven't been able to introduce him to the tank because for some reason i can't get the tank parameters right for the life of me. what kinda stuff do you use when you have to deal with stuff like ammonia, nitrite nitrate PH ect?

and i'm not sure if you have any issues with this but you do reccomend any ways to get more oxygen into the water? i have another aquarium with guppies that i think might have suffered from a lack of oxygen despite there being a running filter. i've transfered the fish out while i troubleshoot but all this stuff at once has been quite a nuisance 😔

GASP tank question *throws everything else off my desk*

I'm not sure what you've done so far trying to get the right parameters, but 9 times out of 10, the right thing to do is this:

STOP MESSING WITH IT.

stop adding any chemical fixes, stop doing water changes, just step back. if set up for success, it'll almost always figure itself out.

you said you have another tank so going into this, I'll assume you already know basics like the nitrogen cycle and to dechlorinate water. I'm also only gonna discuss planted tanks because frankly i can't imagine having a successful tank without plants. i know it can be done, but it's hard work and i got no tips. plants are for lazy fish keepers like me.

to answer your questions point by point: ammonia and nitrites spike during initial cycling, then are kept at zero by beneficial bacteria as long as the tank is healthy. for nitrates, lots of plants help keep them down, and high nitrates can be lowered with water changes. i don't use any "stuff" for these things, like chemical additives. (EXCEPT for in emergencies like random ammonia/nitrate spikes, in which case you can follow bottle instructions to overdose seachem prime (my dechlorinator of choice) to bind ammonia while doing water changes to bring levels back to normal)

now for pH. stop worrying about pH. the actual number isn't that important (for BETTAS. some fish and shrimp are more delicate). i have way higher pH tap water than what all the species guides will recommend (7.6-7.8) and my fish are fine. what's important is STABILITY. making sure the number doesn't swing suddenly. using chemicals to try and get it to a certain point is oftentimes doing more harm than good because you risk swings. just acclimate before adding the betta to the tank and you'll be fine. i also make sure every tank has driftwood and a catappa leaf; the tannins will gradually and safely get your pH to a comfortable level.

now oxygen. o2 is added to the water via surface agitation, and some is released by plants. just use a sponge filter. the bubbles create plenty of surface agitation and the flow is nice and gentle, perfect for bettas. between sponge filters and heavy planting I've literally never had o2 issues. if you prefer different filtration (like a hang-on-back or canister) then use an air stone, or arrange filter output so it's skimming out along the waters surface.

alright now you've got me on a roll so I'm just gonna keep talking about establishing tanks lol

you're gonna hear a whole lot of different opinions on how to establish new tanks. I've had mostly great starts and some bad ones and I've settled on a method that works for me.

plant as many plants as possible early on. you can source plants from anywhere, but the best imo is to take from other established tanks, whether from fellow hobbyists or from stores that grow/store their plants in a running tank. you want a little stink on these plants basically. then to kick start it i add: remediation bacteria (this is not strictly necessary, i think it's more superstition at this point since I've added it to every tank and it's worked), fertilizers, a sinking fish food, and most importantly some PEST SNAILS. then i just let that thing stew. i also have the benefit of being able to pull used filter media from other tanks which greatly speeds the process. if you can take used media from your guppy tank, throw that in too.

i use the api master test kit but i don't really bother testing until end of week 1, then I'll test as much as i need til i get a good reading. once you see 0 ammonia 0 nitrite and some nitrates, like 5-10ppm, you're ok for fish.

the problem with starting tanks is usually patience. you're excited to get a new fish so you hover and test constantly, which is freaky while your tank is still cycling cuz you'll see ammonia and nitrite come up and think you have to do something about it, but you don't. give it a few weeks, treat it like a garden. the worst setup i ever had was right before a long trip. the driftwood was infected with bba spores and everything kept getting covered in this stinky sludge. even after removing the driftwood it didn't seem to be improving. then the trip happened and i had to leave it (no fish, but one mystery snail) for a few weeks. came back and it was THRIVING. crystal clear, happy plants, perfect parameters, happy active snail. that experience really hit me in the head with the patience lesson; ever since then it's been easier for me to take things one week at a time.

if this is all old news to you, my b. the special interest demon possessed me.

[mebiselfandi]

An excuse to come into ur inbox 🤍

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8LdPvrD/

In all honesty, how are u? Are u feeling better? How is life treating u? Have u been taking care? Pls take care. U know I'm only a message away if u need/want to talk 🫂 ur the only star in my Universe that I stare at every night to admire 💖

I’M LOSING MY MIND CAUSE I LEGIT SAVED THAT TO SEND TO YOU OH MY GOSH! Our fyps really be like 👯‍♀️ TWINS! Kissing you all over😘🥰

Me? Great fine fantastic (not exactly but I’m no longer dying). COVID’s gone so yay :) the infection…complicated. Kidneys are killing me but oh well I can’t really do anything bout it but it’s coolio :) and don’t worry about me, I’m taking care as much as I can. And of course, imma come bother you very very soon🤭😌

Also pls that’s the cutest thing I’ve heard😭 c’mere so I can squash you🫂

1. Funny story, I started swiping when I was getting ready to send this to you yesterday but I saw the jade tub and the music and suddenly I just started writing tons and tons and I ended up forgetting to send. But yeah. The jade is very pretty and calming but I feel the way it's set up would make me a lil claustrophobic. The pinks a bit lout but I'd never leave

2. The pink is so pretty and I wanted to choose it but I felt like if I had to smell it irl it would be too floral and make my head hurt :( so I chose the green(also I'd picked so much pink in this)

3. It reminds me of a perfume I had before it was soooo pretty and smelled so good. Baby Rose Jeans

4. The waistline for the green would look weird on me but I know the pink would look so cute on me. Plus all my pajamas are pink anyways so it's only fitting

5. Pink robe is giving dramatics! Beauty! Elegance! 'Oh no my rich husband has been found murdered in the parlor whatever shall I do now with all this money left to me in the will' ! I love it sm

6. Lil frog is so cute but the pink is more something I would have in my cupboard

7. A BEE OH MY GOSH🥰

8. Mmm raspberries. I haven't had them since I was a child so gimme gimme gimme

9. The pink is a bit too much over the top in the wrong shade but the green is so beautiful. Me in my green room in my pink pajamas would be the perfect combo!

10. Fahrenheit 451 has been on my tbr list for the last half decade maybe more and one day I'll get there hopefully

11. Can you imagine the green room with the soft pink light shining pink roses onto the wall? Ugh I'm in love. It would be so so so pretty

12. Pink Teddy bear reminds me of the blue Teddy bear I have

13. Green looks like it might be scratchy against my skin. Also the pink looks so cozy and warm

This whole tiktok is so Cosmo and Wanda and I'm loving it sm! You're such an angel and now that I'm feeling better, I'm gonna get to your other asks which I've been staring at with heart eyes🥰🥰(especially the aquarium one. I think about it sm its so sweet)

Anyways, I'd missed doing these with you so this was so so much fun. And trust imma be back setting up camp in your ask box soon 😌

Ilysm and I'm with you always. Mwah mwah mwah keeping you wrapped tight in my heart and my arms

Also did this before I slept so I'm feeling so many sleepy vibes from you rn😴

[soullikethesea]

Bunch of random rambles

I made it to the quieter weeks! (Sort of time off, but not really). Yesterday I went exercising and accidentally continued for 2.5 hours. Woah, there. 😮

Today I was supposed to have the fun day at the aquarium, but it will have to be postponed for some time because of ~ circumstances. 🙁

I'm going to see T today. I felt strangely normal/okay/happy the last few weeks, which makes me think I'm perhaps seeing her too often normally. It just stirs up a lot and my body really craves rest/good experiences. I think that helps with parts work a lot actually. (Helps to see that life is actually OK now).

I also got curious based on some of your posts and filled out some schema questionaires. I remember that I filled out some of those around 10 or so years ago, so it was really strange to see the differences. I also kind of doubt some of my answers, because what feels "true" for me may not be universal me-truth. Anyway, apparently my most prominent schemas are now Healthy Adult and Happy Child. The things I still could work on were having strict norms for myself and sacrificing myself. Oh, and emotional surpression... obviously, lol. Anyway, the results make sense, but it also made me feel like I'm perhaps taking up therapy resources that I maybe don't need? Like, I have a hunch that based on these answers regular therapy place would turn me away saying that I'm fine and wishing me good luck. (And at the same time I'm obviously super glad that I'm doing so well with schema stuff!)

I think it links into what I've been feeling, that pockets of Really Awful Shit are still compartmentalized into some parts, but that overall I've been doing pretty well. I think at the moment my biggest issues are around attachment stuff (daring to show myself/trust others), physical pain/conversion, and trauma bits that haven't been processed. And quite some struggles with low energy levels/difficulty with daily life tasks.

One of the next steps I will need to do to work on the endo is pelvic floor PT. I've been dreading it ever since they recommended it. Is there anyone on here who has experience doing that? (If so, how was your experience of it?)

I'm really glad that the Sun is shining!!! We've been having quite some months with very few hours of sun, so it's really welcome. Where I live it's pretty normal to have two weeks of rain or more in a row. :') I also can't help but think of some posts I read where people wrote about the preferred temperature to sleep in. Perhaps it's shocking, but my preferred temperature for sleeping is 14 degrees Celsius. :) Otherwise my blanket set-up gets too hot, haha. (I have a comforter plus thick fleece/wooly blanket on top). In Summer I slowly switch to comforter + light wooly blanket, to comforter only, to sheet only. And if it gets super hot, it will be cold wet sheet + cold wet t-shirt (sadly I do not have aircon and my bedroom gets up to 39 degrees Celsius). In Winter the coldest we let it get is around 8 degrees Celsius, but that's honestly really really cold for sleeping.

[fifteensjukebox]

5, 7, 18!

5. favorite form of potato?

cool cool starting off with the impossible question... i think either garlic matchstick fries or pierogi (pan fried bc deep fried is too greasy and just boiled ones are sad)

7. what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

this is such a fun q but i haven't been to an aquarium since i was a kid and i really hadn't thought about it! so probably just a general curiosity about everything

18. your boba/tea order?

i used to get green apple but this is another thing i haven't done in at least 10 years... as far as tea in general my favourites are chai and matcha lattes, but the caffeine puts me to sleep for some reason? so i have mint tea the most often

tysm for asking, bethany!

[furmity]

On aquatic plants

All turtle all the time right now: yesterday I went to my local aquarium shop (don't you love a specialist store? the guy's so enthusiastic and knowledgeable I have a blast) to get some more aquarium plants. Live plants are the best thing for water quality but of course Vincent eats them.

I was resigning myself that I'd have to start another "captive water" and start an aquatic garden (single Vallisneria tortifolia being $18.95 and all). But realised that's what the predatory turtle's pond is doing. In my dream situation I would put both of my turtles in a larger new pond, but the consensus seems to be that it's a bad idea.

Double checked the plants I have in there: polango (Cycnogeton procerum, an Australian native and good oxygenator) and delta arrowheads (Sagittaria platyphylla). I bought them with the understanding that they weren't toxic but Pond Beast would only eat them accidentally if his prey was sitting on them so I haven't looked into edibility.

Delta arrowheads are an aggressive weed in my country, and I can see it. My plant choked out the water hawthorns (Aponogeton distachyos) I used to have in there and is on a campaign of total pond domination- I pull loads out every few months. Double, triple checked the toxicity of the arrowheads and have satisfied myself that they can be a Vinny vegetable... sounds like the tubers can be a Furmity vegetable as well...

I used to have an Azolla sp. problem in there, they were reproducing out of control (caused a climatic event you say?) and I had nothing to do with the excess but put them in the compost. Then something else happened over the summer and they all died (turtle in fighting health so I just deep- cleaned the pond and shrugged) and I have not been able to get any more since. I was cursing it then but I could really use an overabundance of aquatic plants right now.

Second to star water quality is fleshing out the pond with other small creatures. I personally caught a bunch of mosquito fish (Gambusio sp.) from a park pond who have been happily breeding here, and I put a few in Vinny's aquarium. Two months later he appears to have finally eaten one of them.

Not content, and not nearly so good with aquariums as I am with ponds, I purchased some red ramshorn snails yesterday (Planorbarius corneus- I think). I knew they would gradually be eaten but they are supposed to be good breeders and great for cleaning up waste (turtles are such messy eaters, Pond Beast is fed in the sink minus a mosquito fish snackette).

Heard a strange noise last night and searched high and low for the source: it was Vincent CRONCHING. The first snail survived about five hours and while they are small and I have mixed gravel in there I cannot see a single snail right now. This little guy that I can't get interested in bloodworms and shrimps hones right in on snails? So this might be a bust on the tank- cleaning front but is a way to get more protein into them? Poor things, 10 for $5.

Years ago I had great reeds in the pond, which were A+ and had come with a bunch of really tiny black water snails which seemed to be too small for Pond Beast to go for. I couldn't keep them when I moved to the desert but that was a healthy pond my dears! It's such a hit and miss on which pond plants I can buy, things are in the garden shops and then never again... maybe I should just be brave and dig some reeds from a local creek?

Anyway, it's all coming together that when Vinny is ready to move outside they'll be in their own pond. Hammy- Pond Beast- Lachlann's pond can be a place for letting things grow, then they can be moved into Vinny's home as they eat up what's in theirs.

Lachlann is very food oriented but Vincent is a bottomless pit (growing baby ❤️), eating themself out of house and home.

[Vincent is ungendered because there's no telling until sexual maturity, which is several years away. Even then it's not super obvious except that the one fully grown (40 years old!) Macquarie river turtle l know lays unfertilised eggs... imagine that!]

[bubblyaquarium]

we're going to do all of these and yes it took like two hours but I had fun. just a warning this is super long lmao

1. What is your System name and / or the name you collectively go by?

Our system name is The Aquarium. We won't share the name we collectively go by / the body's name for privacy reasons, but it's nothing fun lmao it's a basic white boy name.

2. Which word do you prefer to use for your System? (example: System, Collective, Constellation, ...)

We prefer either system or plurality, Circus likes to jokingly call us a 'school' since our theme is based on fish. We also use Aquarium as a collective term for ourselves.

3. What are your Systems origins, if you choose to label them?

We use the term quoigenic as we partially don't know fully how we formed and partially because we don't want to talk about it, at least not publicly on our blog.

4. Do you have any Subsystems?

Nope.

5. Do you have any Sidesystems?

Nope.

6. What is your opinion on you& / your& language and similar types?

For us personally we don't use it, but I think it's a cool way to refer to yourself/others for those that do! It is a tad confusing for us though

7. What methods do you use to keep track of your System and it's Members?

Simply Plural is our main way of documenting everyone, we have pronoun.cc and pluralkit but those tend to be outdated.

8. What is your Systems ways of communication?

We don't really do anything to communicate to each other, we remember (almost) everything between switches so we haven't really had a need to. We can talk to each other or at least sense each other's feelings when co-fronting together.

9. Is communication hard or easy for you (and why is it the way it is)?

I guess it's fairly easy?

10. Do you view yourselves as parts of one person or as multiple people in one body?

It depends on the headmate, most of us see ourselves as parts of the core (albeit differently sized pieces of the core), though a feel of us (like Mirror, Ren, and Breeze for example) feel like separate people.

11. Who are you out to as plural?

Just our one close friend, who is also a system.

12. What languages do you collectively / one of you speak?

Only English unfortunately, we want to learn more but we are so inconstant we haven't been able to get past a few weeks before dropping it.

13. What is something you can't seem to collectively agree on?

Our hair lmao, it changes all the time.

14. If you have a collective Identity (such as Gender or Orientation), what is it?

Transgender guy and gay acespec.

15. Do you collectively identify as queer / LGBTQIA+?

Yep! Almost all of us are queer in some way.

16. Do you collectively identify as Otherkin, Alterhuman or Nonhuman?

Collectively we're demihuman (part human part not), though some of us have specific kintypes. Angel is dollkin, Circus is a cat therian, Ty is nonhuman, plus we have physically nonhuman headmates as well.

17. Do you have a collective rentry / carrd / something along those lines? (feel free to share!)

Nope, we tried rentry but didn't like it much.

18. What does switching feel like for you?

For the most part it's real subtle and we don't notice it until later, but for a few of us it's more intense. Switching to Corci feels almost like having part of ourselves 'turned off', like we lose energy and our emotions become dull. Switching to Ro is like having someone else force their way into your brain, it makes us confused and dizzy. Sometimes switching out makes us feel jittery or causes us to dissociate, it depends.

19. Are you Monoconscious, Polyconscious or something else?

I believe hydraconcious, it's hard to wrap my head around having different consciousness or what that feels like so it's really hard to tell.

20. What does fronting feel like for you?

For me (Corci) it's feels like I'm in a dream, kind of like I'm just autopiloting through things but I'm only half-there. However I am often very dissociated and I know it's not that way for everyone.

21. How many System members do you have?

As of right now 33.

22. Which word / words do you prefer to use for members of your System?

I personally prefer headmates or members, though some of us use the term alter. A few of us refer to everyone as 'the others'.

23. Which age group seems to be the most common in your System?

Early to mid twenties, which is the bodies age.

24. Which gender seems to be the most common in your System?

Definitely male or masc-aligned.

25. Are there any talents / hobbies you picked up because of a Member?

No, but I'm not the right person to ask as I don't really enjoy any hobbies, and don't do the ones we share.

26. Do you have any in-system relationships?

Nope, I'm one of the headmates that's more like a piece of the core, and we don't have relationships, that's just the ones that are more separate.

27. Do you label roles within your System (and if yes, which ones?)

There's too many to list, but we tend to use more specific roles (like I'm technically a protector, but I use the term buffer, which is a more specific variation of protector).

28. Are most of your Members introjected, brainmade or something else?

I'd say it's 50/50, though brainmade headmates tend to be more complex and fully formed people than the introjects are.

29. Do you use names, emojis or something similar to sign off messages (and if yes, which ones and why?)

We use our names, we do have emojis but they're mostly just for fun and ngl we tend to forget ours.

30. Do any of your System members use Xenogenders?

Yes! Circus uses a lot (audiogender, stickhoardic, catgender, clutterboy, sanriogender, clowngender, etc etc, ze is a gender hoarder), and Buttercream is girlthing.

31. How do Members pick face claims?

We all tend to form with a pretty vivid idea of what we look like, so it isn't to hard for us to make ourselves in picrew.

32. Do you have any Introjects of popular sources?

Dio and Ro are both from jjba, and we have a bunch of introjects from nct.

33. Do you have any Introjects of unpopular sources?

Sian from tfn and both Oz and Pigtails are from IDV, which idk if that's considered unpopular or not but we don't see introjects from it often.

34. Do you have nonhuman Members?

Yes, quite a few. Pigtails and Oz are both dolls, Percy is a forest spirit, Buttercream is a deity, Zee is a virtual zombie, and Breeze is a dryad.

35. Do any of you use Typing Quirks?

Idk if it's a quirk or if it just can't spell, but Zee spells a lot of things weird.

36. Do all of you front, or only a selected amount?

Most of us do, there's a handful that can't. Dio, Sunny, Marky, Jay, Wyatt, Lenny, and Johnny have never fronted. Mirror can front but does so rarely, she usually is just co-con.

37. Are there any Members who can't or prefer to not speak?

Jett is semiverbal and struggles to speak, Amy doesn't speak often we assume because she's shy, and Percy is fully mute.

38. Are most of you short or tall in height?

Kind of in between, most of us are around 5'7 (the body's height) though some of us are shorter (Zee, Deliliah, Ren, Percy) and some are very tall (Buttercream and Oz).

39. Is there a Member that is collectively loved by all in the System?

We all like each other for the most part but we all adore the littles, and as our peacemaker Chloe gets along well with everyone.

40. Do any of you struggle with being front-stuck a lot of the time?

I do, yes. During stressful periods in our life I tend to get either frontstuck or switch out near constantly. No one else has that issue though.

41. Do you have a Headspace (if not, is there a reason)?

Not really? Mostly because we struggle to visualize, though we'd really like one.

42. What does your Headspace look like?

As I said we don't really have one, but there's a few places we have: a big dark room with a huge fishtank in the middle (for destressing or a place to hide when we're super overwhelmed or overstimulated), an alleyway where Chaos lives, and a fancy room with a library where Dio lives.

43. How do Members look like in Headspace? (example: Cartoony, Foggy, Realistic, ...)

Pretty realistic, we have a good sense of our what we look like.

44. Is there a reason why the Headspace looks the way it looks?

Skipping because we don't really have a headspace

45. Is it easy for you to enter Headspace?

It's very challenging for us

46. Do you remember what happened in Headspace when you switch into front?

Yes but then again nothing really happens there

47. Does time in Headspace pass (and if yes, is it at the same speed as in real life)?

No idea

48. What is your favourite place in Headspace?

I mean there's not much there lmao but for sure the fishtank room, it's so calming

49. Are there "NPCs" within your Headspace?

No, unless we're counting the fish

50. Are there any interesting fun facts about your Headspace?

Nope

51. Are there any "System Stereotypes" you fit into?

We have the stereotypical 'edgy persecutor' and a lot of introjects from our hyperfixations.

52. Who of you would be considered the "evil alter"? (in a lighthearted, joking manner)

Chaos 100%

53. What is your favourite inside-joke with a Member?

I can't think of any rn

54. What is your favourite Plural meme?

55. Is there any character that you headcanon as plural?

It's like semi-canon but Foo Fighters from jjba

56. Is there any show or movie that you believe is a good plural representation, despite that not being its intention?

I haven't seen many tbh

57. Is there any song that you believe describes your plural experience?

Not that I can think of

58. What about an artwork that describes your plural experience?

None

59. Which Member of your System do you believe to be the prettiest of them all?

Sian lmao he's our pretty boy, I think Buttercream is pretty too though

60. Do you collectively have a lucky number?

83 is our collective lucky number, I personally favor the number 9

61. When did you first discover your System?

A few years ago but we kind of just ignored it lmao

62. How many Members did you know about during your Syscovery?

6 or 7 (Gray, Delilah, Mirror, Rocky, Breeze, and Chaos + the 'core' or Inky at the time)

63. Was accepting your Plurality a challenge for you?

Oh yeah. Before knowing much about plurality we thought the concept was super cool (like not the trauma behind it obviously, but the way people's brains could just. Form other people) so we felt like we were unconsciously faking because we thought it was interesting, hence we ignored it for years.

64. How did you learn about Plurality?

Partially through tiktok (that's where we first heard of it), but we learned about it through an old friend of ours that's a system.

65. Where there any signs of your Plurality, if you look back at your past?

Yeah for sure, starting at age 13 or 14 we had a lot of instances where Chaos fronted, as well as Buttercream, which looking back is very obvious as they are super different from Chloe, who was the host back then.

66. Do you think your Syscovery changed a lot in your life?

Not really tbh, it's been a comfort to have names to our different 'moods' but it doesn't really affect how we live day to day life

67. If you're out to others as plural, have they ever told you later on that they already thought about it before you realized?

Nope.

68. What was the biggest struggle during your Syscovery?

Differentiating between mood swings and actual headmates.

69. Was there any big event that led to your Syscovery?

Not really? It was a gradual realization during a rough period in our life that hey, sometimes when things are super shitty I start using different pronouns that's weird

70. What is something you want questioning plurals to know?

It's okay to not know everything right away, it takes a while to process and learn all the terms and figure out headmates, and sometimes you need to just exist without worrying about who you are and who's in your head.

71. Are you Neurodivergent (and if yes, how?)

Yes, we might(?) have ADHD, plus a couple personality disorders which are like our Main Issues lmao, being plural is almost like a secondary thing

72. Do you have any physical disability?

Uh...maybe? We don't feel disabled enough to call ourselves disabled but we for sure aren't fully able bodied.

73. Do you have a dissociative disorder?

No idea

74. Do you have any other disorder?

Borderline Personality Disorder 🤩 we have npd as well but bpd affects us the most by far it SUCKS

75. Do symptom vary in intensity depending on the fronter?

Yes! I'm the bpd holder so bpd seems to affect me more than the others (Delilah and Chaos as well), and npd affects Angel the most. Circus has the worst ADHD symptoms.

76. Do you think your disability / disorder has an influence on your plurality?

For sure, we're heavily affected by bpd and it causes us to be blurry a lot as well as making it hard to keep track of headmates as we have awful mood swings and identity issues and it's hard to tell what's an episode and what's a new headmate. In fact we sometimes wonder if most of if not all of us are made up just to explain away how inconsistent our personality is, which even if that is true we've found a lot of comfort in being a system and it's helped us tons so we wouldn't change how we label ourselves even if we aren't wrong.

77. Do you have amnesia of any kind?

Mostly emotional amnesia, though we have memory blocks between certain headmates, like Mirror and Buttercream.

78. Are there Members who deal better with symptoms than others?

Some of us cope with things better than others.

79. Do your disorders / disabilities influence communication or switching within your System in any way?

It makes it harder to keep track of switches

80. Does being plural help with your disorders in any way? (example: another Member switching in to take care of the body during difficult times, ...)

Yes but I don't feel like elaborating rn

81. Which is your favourite plural flag?

I'm biased but I like the quoigenic flag most. It's like a sunset over the ocean.

82. If you have one, which is your favourite plurality related tumblr blog?

This one (pluralasking) not to be a suck up lmao we just like answering questions

83. What is a fun fact about your System?

We are collectively super hyperfixated on scambaiting! I can't tell you how many hours we've spend watching / listening to youtube videos and livestreams of scambaiters. We know Way Too Much about how scams work.

84. What is a flavour of ice cream that describes you collectively?

Cookies and cream. Don't ask why the vibes are just right.

85. Which pride flag is the prettiest, in your collective opinion?

We love pride flags but our favorites are omnisexual, queer, and abrosexual. Plus there are a ton of xenogender flags we like as well.

86. If you collectively had to choose between being a sweet or a sour candy, which do you pick?

Sweet

87. Your body always morphs into what the current fronter(s) look like, would you want this power or not?

Uhh for me it wouldn't make much a difference. I supposed overall it would be cool but considering how often we switch it would bring a lot of unwanted attention, plus we don't always want it to be known who is fronting

88. Is there a Hatsune Miku in your System?

No lmao

89. Who has been in your System the longest (if you can remember)?

Chloe is the original so for sure her. Amy, Breeze, Chaos/Corci (we split off from each other at some point but we used to be the same person I'm pretty sure), and Buttercream have also been here a while.

90. If you collectively had to choose, would you rather only eat sweet foods or only eat savoury foods for the rest of your life?

Collectively sweet, but I prefer savory

91. If you collectively had to choose, would you pick to become a vampire or a werewolf?

Vampire

92. Your body is transfered into one of your Members sources, which do you pick and why?

Sian, his source is pretty and gives us a lot of gender envy

93. If all of you turned into animals right this second, which animals would we find in your System?

A lot of cats, deer, and mice lmao

94. What would a Minecraft server with all of your Members look like? (example: chaotic, peaceful, laggy, ...)

A mess, just all sorts of unfinished houses and farms everywhere. And we'd only play on create mode.

95. If you could choose between only living in Headspace or only living in Meatspace (real life), which would you choose?

Headspace, idk if it's basically nonexistent I don't like the real world

96. What topic would you collectively make a youtube channel about? (it can't be plurality!)

Scambaiting, or queer or otherkin related stuff

97. Which superpower would your body obtain, if you had to collectively decide on one?

Shapeshifting or invisibility (or like making ourselves unnoticeable to people)

98. Who would pick the coolest tattoo for the System and who would pick the worst?

Coolest would be Chaos (he wants us to get a snake that wraps around our arm) and worst would be Circus (it would be something jjba related I just know it)

99. If you only were allowed to eat one food for the rest of your life, but you would have to decide on the food collectively, what would it be and what would the decision making look like?

Ramen because A) it's easy B) we all like it and C) I'm the host and I say ramen

100. What is the most fun about doing polls and answering questions, in your opinion?

Talking about ourselves lmao, we have npd we will take any excuse to focus on ourselves

#One-Hundred

[pt: #one-hundred]

In order to celebrate 100 days of posting, here are 100 questions for you to answer! You can either answer them all at once, or let others send in the numbers they are most curious about!

Some of them are general questions, others are just really silly and should not be taken too serious. I put a lot of effort into coming up with all of these, so I truely hope you have fun with this!

For simplicity sake, all questions will use the words "System" and "Members".

1. What is your System name and / or the name you collectively go by?

2. Which word do you prefer to use for your System? (example: System, Collective, Constellation, ...)

3. What are your Systems origins, if you choose to label them?

4. Do you have any Subsystems?

5. Do you have any Sidesystems?

6. What is your opinion on you& / your& language and similar types?

7. What methodes do you use to keep track of your System and it's Members?

8. What is your Systems ways of communication?

9. Is communication hard or easy for you (and why is it the way it is)?

10. Do you view yourselves as parts of one person or as multiple people in one body?

11. Who are you out to as plural?

12. What languages do you collectively / one of you speak?

13. What is something you can't seem to collectively agree on?

14. If you have a collective Identity (such as Gender or Orientation), what is it?

15. Do you collectively identify as queer / LGBTQIA+?

16. Do you collectively identify as Otherkin, Alterhuman or Nonhuman?

17. Do you have a collective rentry / carrd / something along those lines? (feel free to share!)

18. What does switching feel like for you?

19. Are you Monoconscious, Polyconscious or something else?

20. What does fronting feel like for you?

21. How many System members do you have?

22. Which word / words do you prefer to use for members of your System?

23. Which age group seems to be the most common in your System?

24. Which gender seems to be the most common in your System?

25. Are there any talents / hobbies you picked up because of a Member?

26. Do you have any in-system relationships?

27. Do you label roles within your System (and if yes, which ones?)

28. Are most of your Members introjected, brainmade or something else?

29. Do you use names, emojis or something similar to sign off messages (and if yes, which ones and why?)

30. Do any of your System members use Xenogenders?

31. How do Members pick face claims?

32. Do you have any Introjects of popular sources?

33. Do you have any Introjects of unpopular sources?

34. Do you have nonhuman Members?

35. Do any of you use Typing Quirks?

36. Do all of you front, or only a selected amount?

37. Are there any Members who can't or prefer to not speak?

38. Are most of you short or tall in height?

39. Is there a Member that is collectively loved by all in the System?

40. Do any of you struggle with being front-stuck a lot of the time?

41. Do you have a Headspace (if not, is there a reason)?

42. What does your Headspace look like?

43. How do Members look like in Headspace? (example: Cartoony, Foggy, Realistic, ...)

44. Is there a reason why the Headspace looks the way it looks?

45. Is it easy for you to enter Headspace?

46. Do you remember what happened in Headspace when you switch into front?

47. Does time in Headspace pass (and if yes, is it at the same speed as in real life)?

48. What is your favourite place in Headspace?

49. Are there "NPCs" within your Headspace?

50. Are there any interesting fun facts about your Headspace?

51. Are there any "System Stereotypes" you fit into?

52. Who of you would be considered the "evil alter"? (in a lighthearted, joking manner)

53. What is your favourite inside-joke with a Member?

54. What is your favourite Plural meme?

55. Is there any character that you headcanon as plural?

56. Is there any show or movie that you believe is a good plural representation, despite that not being its intention?

57. Is there any song that you believe decribes your plural experience?

58. What about an artwork that describes your plural experience?

59. Which Member of your System do you believe to be the prettiest of them all?

60. Do you collectively have a lucky number?

61. When did you first discover your System?

62. How many Members did you know about during your Syscovery?

63. Was accepting your Plurality a challenge for you?

64. How did you learn about Plurality?

65. Where there any signs of your Plurality, if you look back at your past?

66. Do you think your Syscovery changed a lot in your life?

67. If you're out to others as plural, have they ever told you later on that they already thought about it before you realised?

68. What was the biggest struggle during your Syscovery?

69. Was there any big event that led to your Syscovery?

70. What is something you want questioning plurals to know?

71. Are you Neurodivergent (and if yes, how?)

72. Do you have any physical disability?

73. Do you have a dissociative disorder?

74. Do you have any other disorder?

75. Do symptom vary in intensity depending on the fronter?

76. Do you think your disability / disorder has an influence on your plurality?

77. Do you have amnesia of any kind?

78. Are there Members who deal better with symptoms than others?

79. Do your disorders / disabilities influence communication or switching within your System in any way?

80. Does being plural help with your disorders in any way? (example: another Member switching in to take care of the body during difficult times, ...)

81. Which is your favourite plural flag?

82. If you have one, which is your favourite plurality related tumblr blog?

83. What is a fun fact about your System?

84. What is a flavour of ice cream that describes you collectively?

85. Which pride flag is the prettiest, in your collective opinion?

86. If you collectively had to choose between being a sweet or a sour candy, which do you pick?

87. Your body always morphs into what the current fronter(s) look like, would you want this power or not?

88. Is there a Hatsune Miku in your System?

89. Who has been in your System the longest (if you can remember)?

90. If you collectively had to choose, would you rather only eat sweet foods or only eat savoury foods for the rest of your life?

91. If you collectively had to choose, would you pick to become a vampire or a werewolf?

92. Your body is transfered into one of your Members sources, which do you pick and why?

93. If all of you turned into animals right this second, which animals would we find in your System?

94. What would a Minecraft server with all of your Members look like? (example: chaotic, peaceful, laggy, ...)

95. If you could choose between only living in Headspace or only living in Meatspace (real life), which would you choose?

96. What topic would you collectively make a youtube channel about? (it can't be plurality!)

97. Which superpower would your body obtain, if you had to collectively decide on one?

98. Who would pick the coolest tattoo for the System and who would pick the worst?

99. If you only were allowed to eat one food for the rest of your life, but you would have to decide on the food collectively, what would it be and what would the decision making look like?

100. What is the most fun about doing polls and answering questions, in your opinion?

[huntedspy2]

gonna scream into the void for a second

trying to be more genuine with myself and others. Reaching out or complimenting people even if I'm scared to do so. opening up to people more, asking for help or setting boundaries. I also want to feel less scared of how I use tumblr. I want to be able to use my main blog without feeling like ill annoy others, or being more open about my kin identities. I often feel cringe for it which makes no sense because this is the "cringe website". like I can and should be myself this is my online experience

I was planning to redesign my blogs' structures before making the Big Switch but I think that's what's holding me back

For about a month now too I've been building a personal website on github purely for my gender hoard, kinlist, and pronoun/name info. It was originally for ponytown (lol) but it's been helping me improve my html and css skills andddd its been making me feel more inspired to make a general personal website

the ideas I have for a personal website would to just make it my place. I want to have info about my ocs on there, thoughts on certain media, random pages with useless shit that are there just because its fun. and I want to include stuff like the gender hoard and kinlist pages on there too because again, I want to be more genuine

I am the most stressed and anxious I've been in so long. my jaw clenching has started up again, I'm getting acne again, I constantly feel tense and my chest is always anxious feeling and tight, I've been losing the motivation to make meals and eat and losing energy. I cant keep up with college and at this point I don't know if I made the right choice in computer science. I have a passion for working with computers, but I realize now that passion leaned more towards the IT side of things and. im in CS. I have no motivation or ideas for doing projects outside of coursework unlike a lot of my peers. I'm closeted so I feel like I'm just fitting their stereotype of "girl cant do cs!!!!!". fuck!!!!!!!!

parents stressing me out and overall not taking into accountability I have disabilities

thats another thing, I haven't been able to get my ADHD properly treated since I got it diagnosed 4years ago. I also know im autistic but I dont want to get formally diagnosed bc of several issues, so speaking up for myself with that disability is impossible when my parents don't think im autistic and don't like self diagnosis

maybe its not too late to finish my degree and do a 180 and get into 3d modeling. I'm sure my passion with art could mesh with my programming skills there or something

I don't know who I am really. I always feel like other people have aesthetics or themes that fit them, and here I am with so many different interests in aesthetics and themes that I cant choose one. hoe do people choose a theme for a website? how do people decorate their profiles with a clear and solid theme? I feel like I always have 20 different themes that I want at the same time, its hard to choose one and have people only perceive that one with you

I have a headache rn

on the plus side i also had the tastiest clementine in possibly my whole life

I always remind myself I am only 21 I am so young in the grand scheme of things. but outside pressure wants me to know who I am at this exact moment. its so hard

fish and aquariums have quickly become a special interest within the last 2 months id say. im debating between a 10 or 20 gallon and what id stock it with. im thinking honey gourami and neon tetras and shrimp, but I love the idea of a betta fish or a crayfish. I've had to take care of a crayfish before they're lively little creatures

I want to be more social with people and make new friends or at least gaming friends, but im always apprehensive because I know ill be masking. need to try to open up more, might play more vrchat to socialize but its hard

[mysticsapphicsblog]

The aquarium as a date, seems so cute tbh. No doubts, just fishies. :( <3

Yes little fishes and when the when the rays come up to the edge of the tank with their lil smiley faces and the starfish and the glowy fish and the cool domes and the-

[idyllic-ghost]

☆ bee's recommendation list ☆

Here is a collection of some of my favorite fics. The list will be updated over time, of course.

Each story gets a small annotation about why I liked it. If the story contains anything explicit there will be a 🔞 beside it, meaning MDNI with those posts.

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Aquarium Date (SVT Wonwoo) by @strawberryya I might be biased since we're friends and this story has sharks in it, but I think it's such a lovely domestic story. An absolute fluff bomb and I loved reading it.

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Obvious (SVT S.coups) by @leejungchans This is an absolutely adorable piece, and I loved the slight twist ending. It's written so well and feels very realistic.

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[3:19] (NCT Yuta) by @gyeomsweetgyeom I have a big big big soft spot for Yuta, but whenever I go looking for Yuta fanfiction I never find anything that fits my taste. BUT THIS. I love this. The domesticity really sells it to me.

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Tomorrow (SVT Wonwoo) by @genezpen I have read this a few times now just because it's so sweet. A great comfort fic that I absolutely love.

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[20:23] (SVT Jeonghan) by @jaetaimjadore While this is more of a blurb, I still love it and it deserves a place on this list. If there's ever made a full version, I'd want to be notified. I specifically love the dialogue, it flows naturally while still keeping an old-fashioned tone.

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The only exception (TXT Beomgyu) by @byeomtori The detail in this story is what sticks out to me the most. While reading it, I felt like I could really see everything in front of me. It's also such a cozy read!

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Like a Cowboy🔞 (SVT Mingyu) by @fallinwoozi The reason why I love cowboys so much. I love this concept, it's definitely something I don't see enough of. And this is incredibly well written and feels easy to read (which my attention span is very grateful for).

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Behind screens (SVT Woozi) by @ravixen I haven't been able to stop thinking about this since I read it. It is constantly in the back of my mind. I love professor AU:s and this one especially.

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Push it down🔞 (SVT S.Coups) by @dontflailmenow This is a series, but only reading the first chapter is enough to get you hooked. I was on the edge of my seat the entire time while reading. Enemies to lovers done very well (from an "enemies to lovers" lover)

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Between Glitz and Glamour🔞 (SVT Woozi) by @himbocoups Nu has my entire heart, and she crushes it with this fic. I love the time skips in this one, I usually don't like a lot of time skips but this is executed so well. And you can really tell it's set in the 20s. Just absolutely perfect all around and I love it.

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Work Me Out🔞 (SVT Mingyu) by @highvern A fic that will never leave my mind! I won't be able to enter a gym without thinking about it. 10/10 will read again.

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[9:47] 🔞 (SVT S.Coups) by @husbandhoshi This might just be a short drabble, but it has not left my mind since I read it. Every time I see it on my dash, I read it again. The absolutely perfect blurb!

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astronomical fuck-up for one, please (SVT Joshua) by @ceebit I read this a while ago, but it came across my dash again and I couldn't be happier about it! Anyone who knows me, knows I have a soft spot for girl dads😭 And girl dad Joshua??? Sign me tf up! It's such a delightful read even the second time! I love this concept <3

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Ugh, As If 🔞 (ATZ Hongjoong) by @ennysbookstore First time I read this, it changed me- second time I read this I was still somehow shocked by the E V E R Y T H I N G of it. The pacing is 10/10, the build up is so satisfying, and I just know I'll be thinking about it for the rest of my days.

13 ways to say "i love you" with seventeen (SVT ot13) by @mingtinys While this isn't ONE fic, I couldn't simply pick one of the blurbs to put on this list. Every time one of these popped up on my dash I got so happy. These are a huge source of comfort, that I love to reread whenever I have the time.

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The Hair Tie Test 🔞 (SVT Woozi) by @sluttywoozi The VISCERAL reaction I had to this is no joke- this is what I call perfect smutty fiction. TOP TIER. I will never be the same....

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Burnt Coffee (SVT Hoshi) by @highvern I can't believe I haven't added this to the list sooner! This was my Valentine's gift 2024 and everything about it was perfect!!!! I reread this whenever I feel a little down and am in dire need of firefighter!Soonyoung.

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More to come...

[bellafragolina]

Go get some rest, everyone needs some, Renee. Sorry I haven't been more active too because damn exams gave a strong sucker punch!

Oh and I have something to give, another SPYxFAMILY AU for Volo and Makoto.

Sabi was the adopted one from the orphanage, she may not have the power to read minds, the orphanage owner offered her to for his request was a smart child, she is smart, a predicting what's next to happen!

Lian is already under Makoto's care for as long as he could remember. His power to read minds really helps him with knowing his foster mother's identity as , but doesn't question it, she did it for the better. Oh spare him when Makoto praises him in her mind, he will always turns red and Makoto doesn't even know what to do.

The kids were...really surprised with their parents' sudden marriage. Sabi expected this, she saw a vision of it, and she doesn't care, she just loves to have a mom and a brother. Lian was kinda troubled, his mom, married a spy, but...a spy dad, assassin mom, and a sister (he doesn't know yet), and the fact that knowing "this country wants to start war!? I have to help"

Thus, they zip their mouth about the secret

Whoever trash talk about their kids... *nerveously glances and Makoto and Volo's fists* yeah

Entrance Exam. Send help to these children. Telephathy and Clairvoyance won't help, the whole room is crying, only the thought of Papa Volo's prayers and Mama Makoto's hugs after the exam gives them the motivation

Pokemon exist in this world! Volo and his Togekiss, Makoto and her Hisuian Zoroark! Look at them fluffies, Sabi always has the tendency to ride on them

(In SPYxFAMILY this is the arc where they're gonna have Bond the dog so here's the Bond role in my AU)

The kids want Pokemon of their own too, Lian to befriend Kamado's child (Rei) and same with Sabi. Volo and Makoto's a little conflicted at their sudden request.

'I found Kiku (Hisuian Zoroark) when I saved it from a snowstorm, the <Caretaker> allowed me to have her because of my dangerous missions. Isn't it too early for them to have a Pokemon?' - Makoto

'Togekiss has been with me since she was an egg, <Handler> let me take care of her on my own since she's my first ever Pokemon from an egg. But Lian and Sabi still has years until they're 10 to train their own Pokemon, it's better to wait for that time to come' - Volo

Lian heard dad, mama and papa. Sabi saw the future, mama and papa, that you will say no. A little convincing that they will be safe with a Pokemon, they will take responsibility, they can befriend Rei with their love for Pokemons they can prepare themselves to become a skilled trainer when they're older!

The couple reconsider. A memory of Sabi's kidnapping and both children's abduction (once actually, the aquarium incident was a cover up so Mama Makoto can beat the guy up), maybe another Pokemon would be a nice addition

-🦀anon

Ahhhh!!! So cute!!!

And they fall in love!! They become a beautiful family full of love!!!

I missed you!! I’m glad you’re back and still thinking of wonderful ideas!! This one is especially sweet!! I love it!!

~Renee

[gracereally]

Settling in

It's hard to believe that it's been over 4 weeks since I boarded a plane to come to Korea. I've only been free for half of that time, but I've already explored and learned so much. So far, things are going well! There are still growing pains, but I've been really enjoying my time here despite the strict covid guidelines that prevent me from being able to travel often or teach the way I would prefer.

It's crazy, but even after only two and a half weeks at work, I already feel myself settling into a routine. Routines have always helped me understand what to expect from the days and weeks ahead. This post is a quick rundown of what a typical day looks like for me in Korea.

9:00a: Wake up! I set my alarm for 9 so that I can still have a productive and full morning. Occasionally, I do wake up earlier than this. Other times, I'm so exhausted I only want to lay in bed. Luckily I have plenty of time before work for either option.

9:00a ~ 12:00p: During my mornings, I like to speak with my family and friends, since it is the evening for them. If I don't speak to anyone, I try to do something fun for myself, like read a book or play a video game. I also make myself breakfast every day. While I get ready for work, I watch TV.

Between 12:00p ~ 12:30p: I prepare to leave for work. All of my co-workers live in the same apartment building, so travel to work together. We can walk or taxi. Typically, we like to walk when it's nice out, but taxis are quick and easy (as well as cheap!) when the weather is bad or it is way too hot.

1:00p: Arrive at school

1:00p ~ 3:50p: This is my prep period. It may not seem like a ton of time, but we have a lot of resources for our lessons, so if we use our time effectively there's plenty of it for lesson planning. So far, we haven't been finding out what classes we teach that day until we get to work, which has been a huge downside. I would much prefer to be able to plan ahead or use any extra time for future lessons. However, I think this will change soon and I will get a regular schedule as I and the other new teachers settle in.

3:50p ~ 6:00p: I teach two classes to younger students, typically between the ages of first to third grade.

6:00p ~ 6:50p: Dinner break! Every day my school provides dinner for us. We order from a different restaurant each day and everyone submits their order before classes. Our order is waiting for us during our dinner break :)

6:50p ~ 9:00p: I teach two more classes, this time to the older students. The students in this block are typically between third and sixth grade.

9:00p ~ 9:30p: my co-workers and I try to finish up some grading and other loose ends before we head out. The work day technically ends at 9:10, but we often stay later to finish a few things. I really don't mind since I hate taking grading home.

I typically get home before 10:00p. We usually take the bus, but we can also walk on a nice night.

For the rest of the night, I have free time! I usually do my chores, like taking out the trash (such a hassle in Korea) or going for groceries. I try not to snack too much, but sometimes the convenience store is too tempting! I like to watch TV or do some online shopping to relax at night before I hit the hay around 1 or 2.

But there's fun stuff too I swear!

On weekends I've been exploring and shopping! Below are some more photos I took last weekend. I met up with a friend in Itaewon for lunch, and we also visited the war memorial museum. On Sunday I went to Lotte Tower, which is a mall here in Seoul that spans five huge floors and an enormous underground complex. There's an aquarium, cinema, tons of restaurants, a big department store, and so much more. I spent way too much money lmao

So that's what I've been up to! My day might not seem exciting but it's been very relaxing for me. I know my schedule might seem very different from the normal 9-5 setup, but it's honestly perfect for me. It's a stark contrast to my old job, in which I was constantly rushing to get to work in the morning and working in a stressful environment that I didn't enjoy very much at all.

So far I love teaching, despite sometimes having mixed feelings about the school itself. But that's a post for another day hahaha

Peace out ✌️

Grace