#i haven't been online so i apologize for not getting to the messages sooner

[pinayelf-archive]

Palestinian fundraisers to donate to

Here are some fundraisers of people who have recently reached out to me. Please donate and/or share! Click the names to go to the gfm.

Ahmed Helles He and his family need help to raise funds in order to evacuate his family to Egypt. As of 8/19 they've raised 6,630/80,000 euros.

Tumblr: @/ahmedillles | vetted here

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Youssef Youssef is 18-years old and currently lives in a displacement camp with his family. His brother contracted hepatitis due to contaminated food, and his father is also ill. The funds will go to necessities his family needs, like food and medicine. As of 8/19 he's raised $3,190/$15,000

Tumblr: @/yousefjehad3 | Vetted here

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Nabila Nabila is a grandmother who suffers from chronic illnesses (diabetes, high blood pressure). She seeks to evacuate her family and be able to pay for medical costs. As of 8/19 they've raised $101/$10,000

Tumblr: @/nabila64 | The gfm link lists the person who has created the gfm for Nabila and her family and his contact with them, they have also said you can contact them for details

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Ghazi Younes Ghazi and his family has managed to escape the war, but his 70-year old aunt is still in Gaza. The funds will go to help her evacuate to safety.

Tumblr: @/ghaziyounes1967 | Vetted here

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Ola Ahel Ola is a graduate student from the faculty of science at Al-Azhar University in Gaza and is a mathematics teacher. She has lost everything since Oct 7 and she and her family have been displaced. Funds will go to help her family get food and water as they wish to stay in Gaza and rebuild their lives. As of 8/19 they've raised $28,357/$50,000

Tumblr: @/olagaza | vetted here #205

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Anas Al-Burri Anas is a 17-year old in Gaza. He suffers from type 1 diabetes and high blood pressure. He's lost many people during the war, including his brother, who was murdered by snipers. He seeks to raise funds to be able to afford necessities and evacuate. As of 8/19 they've raised 1,435/50,000 euros

Tumblr: @/anasfamilys | His tiktok where he posts videos of his family

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Mohammed Ayyad Mohammed is a 17 year old high school student. He and his family (including 7 siblings) have been displaced 4 times since the war. The funds raised will go to his family's evacuation and to be able to continue his studies. As of 8/19 they've raised 1,827/38,000 euros

Tumblr: @/mohammednasers-blog

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Mohammed Abu Zour Mohammed is a father of 3, where his family has been displaced. He and his son were captured and tortured and are currently suffering from the effects. His wife is pregnant and has preeclampsia. He and his family seek to evacuate and receive medical help. As of 8/19 they've raised 986/30,000 euros.

Tumblr: @/dinafamily (this is his wife's blog) | His tiktok where he posts about his family/situation

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Musab Musab is a 22-year old engineering student, but his studies were disrupted by the war. He and his family have lost everything to the war. The funds will go to provide his family, including his pets, with necessities to live as he hopes to rebuild his life. As of 8/19 he's raised 4,160/8,000 euros

Note: Musab's former gfm was shut down, as he wasn't allowed to withdraw money from Gaza (someone else from another country must withdraw for him). Read what he had to say about it here

This is his new gfm, his former one was shared by 90-ghost

Tumblr: @/musababed

[jewish-vents]

I lost my best friend of 25 years over this conflict. She was being purposely cagey about it because she didn't want to lose me, and knew she would. On the 7th itself when I turned to my best friend to help me through my grief and terror she just said "I'm not the right person to discuss this with. I'm getting on a plane. Can't talk. Bye."

And she left me to burn

I probably should have known it then. She told me she didn't want to talk about it because I might think she's antisemitic, as that's the pressing thing when the world just declared it's intent to hunt and kill me in horrible ways.

"I can't relate but I support you, but please don't talk about it with me."

How is that support?

And how could I talk about anything else?

And then she changes the subject to someone saying something minor to her at work which set her into a crying fit, because she makes it a priority to tell me she bursts into tears 4 times a day every day so I can't ever have too strong of a negative emotion or it will set her off.

And then she told me she loves me but she can't say she likes Jews because "I haven't met all the other Jews." As though she'd ever say that to a Black friend about their entire people. She is the Most Progressive, you see, she is Very Aware Of Her White Privilege and stuff. She works with immigrants and would sooner jump off a bridge than give off a whiff of bigotry towards them.

But I'm a Jew.

She finally tells me she doesn't support Israeli striking back because there's children being hit. She hasn't seen any evidence to justify Israel's response. I ask to show her some. She refuses. You see she gets to have her uninformed opinion, gets the luxury of staying that way, she can just change the subject, I'm The Jew, that's my Jewish business.

My pain has always been her concern but not when it's Jew-related. I'm to hide that lest she burst into tears.

I gradually stop talking to her. She sends me anxious messages saying "I'm not sure if I can even ask how you are or if that's any of my business"

This from the woman who purposely made it not her business, DEMANDED it not be her business, and now she sniffing around like a hungry dog after telling me to just ignore it, that it's just online, that I should **uwu** watch my cortisol **uwu**

You need cortisol, I say, when you're being hunted. Sometimes cortisol is called for. She starts crying. How could I say that. She can't talk about this. It's too much for her. My cortisol is just too much for her. So now I have to shut up, because she's crying.

No one hunting her but she's crying

It felt like she was just hoping to wait around, have her private antisemitism, like she could hide her eyes from me, like I couldn't read her judging silence and her quiet insistence that though she admittedly knew nothing she certainly knew better than ME what was right. And if we get close, boom. Tears.

I felt so talked down to and invalidated. When I brought this up she said "I validate you" like that's a magic spell, you can just say the magic words AND that will cure neglect.

I finally blew up at her and of course there was big manipulative tears because how DARE I think she might have bigotry and how DARE I draw away from her after she made it clear she had no interest in my pain, after she tried so so so hard to hide it and used all the gentle parenting language she learned in her DEI courses to placate me, the Hysterical Jew.

I will always hate myself for apologizing to her for being angry, for my big violent emotions she would have preferred to ignore until I get over my weird Jewish thing, so I can get back to being the person she can subtly look down on and be holier than, and so she can cry to me, and cry, and cry, and cry, because someone gave her a minor correction at work and not because she's being hunted for being a Jew.

We should be able to disagree about politics, she says. We can't disagree about my existence and basic safety, I say. You don't deserve to be bathed in hate, get offline, she says.

They vandalized my synagogue. They attacked my friend's daughter on campus. That's awful, she says. I don't support that. Anyway, at work today -

We don't talk anymore. Haven't for months. Don't know if we ever will again. I've been angry at her every day. I feel like I let her get away with it. She gets to go out into the world feeling like she's right and Israel is evil and she used to have a Jewish friend who turned out to be craaaazy, it's terrible what Zionism does to those people. I'm sure she'll get clout at her super leftist workplace where she can never be progressive enough. Where she helps put DEI policies in schools and libraries that treat antisemitism as though it's a non-problem.

I'm just another oppressor-class Jew to her. Couldn't center her over my Jew Issues

I'm so angry at her and so angry at myself for not handling it better, for holding back, for indulging her crocodile tears and handling her with kid gloves, for not calling her out for manipulating me into muting my truth and thinking I'm so dumb that she could just refuse to address it, like I wouldn't know, for expecting me to just "get over" my people being slaughtered, for needing her and then sticking around long after she left me to die

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[uwukillmenowowo]

Requested by:

[eyeofthetiger501]

(Giant Kirishima finds reader in his cave/home reader was in front of it trying to find some wood for the camp site with her friends her friends went to hunt some animals or something but when reader went deeper into the cave she saw a giant shadow around she before she could turn around she was grabbed by Kirishima and she starts struggling trying to get out of his grasp so Kirishima keeps her as his mate)

Firstly I would like to apologize for not posting this sooner. It was done and everything but I completely forgot to post it. T_T

That and also I was looking at my Wattpad page and I haven't been online in a WHILE hahahaha-

anyways, sorry I didn't message you about this sooner QwQ

Please enjoy-

Mate Captured

[Giant! Yandere? Kirishima x F!Reader]

Notes:

This is set in a Quirk less World

SLLLLLIIIIIIGHT non-con

Reader and her friends have been looking forward to their camping trip for months now!

but once they got there, they realized that they didn't pack the one thing they needed...

FIREWOOD FOR THEIR FUCKING FOOD!

In tears, everyone was given a task to make their camping time better.

And Reader ended up getting the short end of the stick, having to collect the firewood while the others either hunted or set up the rest of their equipment.

He watched with both confusion and amusement. The small human he kept an eye on won't know what hit her.

{Second POV}

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You sighed heavily as you continued to grab some firewood. 'I just had to pick scissors' You pouted as you thought back to the Rock Paper scissors game you and your friends played for what jobs you all had to do. You picked up another big stick and placed in into the box to hold it easier.

*Drip*

"Eh..?" You looked up only to see that it started to rain. "What? I thought it was gonna rain tomorrow!" You started to run for cover. not only to keep you dry, but also so the firewood wouldn't get wet.

You ran for a while until you found cover by a huge tree. You sighed in relief and took a seat by the tree to catch a breath. You just watched as the rain poured and poured. It was satisfying. *Brrr* You looked down and saw your phone ringing so you picked it up. "Hello?" You asked.

"[Y/n]! Where are you? It's raining cats and dogs outside!" You chuckled as the mom friend of the group scolded you. "I'm alright Iida. I'm just waiting out the rain by a big tree." "Are you sure!?" You heard Ochaco's worried voice. "Its gonna be a storm in the next hour! You should take shelter in the cave to your right" You blinked twice in confusion. Looking around, you saw a cave just like Ochaco said. "How..?" You asked.

"Google maps." "Ah- okay." You got up, carrying the box of wood. "I'll see you guys in a few hours then?" You didn't bother waiting for a response because you knew that the others would ask if you had stuff to keep you okay. Like snacks and water. You just sat by the entrance of the cave in boredom. The rain just kept pouring.

Hour after hour, all you did was wait.

Eventually, you got too bored and decided to pace around the cave. That was... until you found out that the cave went deeper than it did. You hid the box of wood behind some rocks so that no one found in and then you ventured down. You didn't want to just wait for hours. boredom can kill.

Turning on your phone's flashlight, you looked around. The cave looked... well kept? The floor was smooth and had no pebbles on it, as if someone was living down here. The deep you went, the bigger the cave became. 'What on Earth..?' You thought, and took more steps down until you found yourself tripping on your feet and tumbled to the bottom of the cave.

Groaning, you reached out to hold something as you stood up, but once you got up, all you felt in your hand was... squishy..? You turned over to look at what you were holding, hoping that it wasn't a bear.

All you saw was a huge shadow. Scared, you tried running but you felt something grabbing you. You screamed in shock, not wanting to get hurt. But that's when you were met with a figure that you've only seen in movies or animations. The fiery red hair, the massive body, those piercing eyes and sharp white teeth.

Your vison adjusted and you gasped when you saw the giant humanoid. you blinked twice and shook your head, making sure that your own eyes weren't deceiving you.

When your eyes got used to the darkness, you saw that the one before you...

Wasn't as scary as they looked before.

Their red hair was spiky, but in a cute way. Their massive body was laying on the cave ground like a child, arms spread out. Their eyes soften as they met with yours and their barred teeth retracted, instead, staring at you, their mouth opened in awe.

"How small..." The one holding you awed, their eyes sparkling at the small creature they were holding.

You also stared, but not in awe. You were terrified.

I mean, science can't explain this!

A giant being just in a cave? A being so large that their own hand was as big as your own body, their eyes as big as your own head.

But at the same time.

Fascination.

How long has he been here by himself? Were there others? How come there were no sorts of reports of these giants? What was his food source? It’s not you is it??!

Questions raced through your mind but the giant then placed you down.

"Who are you?" You asked first. The giant being smiled and gave you a closed eye smile, "My name, Kirishima"

The next 30 minutes was just of you and him bonding. He found out you were waiting out the rain and you found out he was looking for a mate so that he won't be lonely anymore.

He said that he has found a couple of... options but so far, he has a number one option.

You wanted to know. A giant that no one has never seen before, and he wants to court someone? You were quite excited.

You, an average nobody, making a new discovery??

It was pretty exciting!

He asked you if you wanted to come with him to meet her and being curious, your agreed.

Biggest mistake of your life.

You found yourself. being coddled to your ever need. Which doesn't sound bad...

But Kirishima tried forcing himself onto you many times. You told him multiple times how you didn't want it, how you wern't ready.

And he listened... But that didn't mean he would listen forever.

He was going to claim you one was or another.

After one more hour, you got a call from your phone. You were glad that you still had battery and when you checked it, you saw it was Iida calling you. "Hello?" You asked. "[Y/n]. Where are you? The rain stopped two hours ago."

Getting up and walking away from Kirishima, you excitedly explained where you were, but when you were about to mention Kirishima's exsistance, you found yourself getting grabbed and pulled away, dropping your phone, you were placed in Kirishima's lap.

Concerned at his sudden actions, you asked what was going on.

And he stared at you, the smile you got used to seeing was now replaced with lust filled eyed and a sensual smirk. "I can't take it anymore. You're mine now. And I can't let you leave me so suddenly like that" Confused by Kirishima's sudden tone, you laughed ervously and tried to get out.

However, Kirishima tightened his hold on you. "Uhh... okay buddy... You can let go of me now. I gotta get my phone." Kirishima didn't listen to you. Instead, "This phone?" He pointed out before crushing it with his finger. "H-Hey! That was my phone!" You panicked since you couldn't call your friends now. "I had to. I can't let my mate leave." Kirishima shrugged as he started walking deeper into the cave, holding you tight.

Just then, did you remember his words, hours ago when you asked him about who his mate was. When Kirishima saw your expression, he smiled.

"Did ya figure it out, my small precious mate?"

I hope this was okay.

I bet you can tell I didn't want to write anything dirty

;w;

[sevensssys]

I think I need to post one last thing and it's probably gonna be a bit long so I'll make a tldr at the end if this is the case.

The past weeks and days have been extremely tiring, both social media, personal and in general, I haven't had a break in a long time. I don't have professional help, I don't have a lot of money and I definitely don't have a stable life outside the internet. People forget this.

My ex, who was and had been throwing labels on me publically, has professional help in his case, and yet he believes it is okay behavior to continue to leave and not even apologize to us for his own errors, it fucks me up but I can't do anything.

Part of me is glad I'm leaving social media, the other is just depressed because it's for reasons that shouldn't make me leave like this. But, it's for the best.

I made an edit to the previous post about my doc and my ex, I'm considering giving the doc to those who are really curious to read it, but for now it's just archived.

My art commissions are continuing somewhere off the site but you can always ask about them through my email or through discord, feel free to message me to get those two.

I hope this helps me with my current state of mind and maybe I can return with a better health and stability to thrive off platforms, it's fun but it can damage us if we get addicted, in which we were, so I'm cutting it off.

TLDR; Online drama caused too much stress, we're gonna be available through email and discord, we hope to get help someday and come back maybe.

Besides all that, thank you to those who gave us wonderful and kind messages, I'll get back to some who wanted our discord.

Much love to everyone we met and had a blast with here, maybe I'll see yall sooner if things go as planned.