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[leelesbo]

so this may be a bit of an odd request lol. im not personally into tickeling, but my partner is. i find it really attractive how into it he is, and am super willing to participate for him, but as hes into the lee and ler sides of it, sometimes when im taking the ler role, i sort of run out of ideas on what to say and do LOL. it doesnt come naturally to me like you all who actually Do have the fetish. i basically just picked your blog randomly cause we're the same age and you seem to have experience with it and i dont think he follows you already, but i was hoping you could offer some advice or ideas on good things to say and do that may not be obvious? i'd ask him but he gets so flustered over it that its basically impossible HDFJKGKDFHGL

this is the cutest sweetest ask omfg i would LOVE to help out. i love yapping about tickling you came to the right person (this turned out to be really long so it’s all under the cut LMFAO)

so for teasing, a lot of the times it really depends on Who you’re teasing!! for instance, im not personally a huge fan of the whole “coochie coochie coo” “tickle tickle tickle” thing bc its just Way too babyish and infantile for me, but ive found a lot of people in this community really like it and it flusters them a lot!!! if youre unsure, typical teases like that couldn’t hurt to try!

ok i said “tickle tickle tickle” didnt work on me but Actually in the right context that absolutely could work bc the simple act of Hearing The Word is insanely flustering. fr, if you just keep repeating how ticklish he is, asking if something tickles, maybe even figure out a way to force Him to say the word it should work. there’s smth about knismos where our brain overloads hearing that word and it’s even so hard to say, it’s extremely flustering being forced to say it!!

also, focusing on spots and Talking about how that particular spot is affecting them is killer. if you’re tickling his ribs and it’s making him giggle more than belly-laugh, point that out!!! “oh you really like the ribs, don’t you? you’re giggling so much you can’t even talk! try! go on, tell me how much it tickles!” for me and a lot of other knismos, tickling is a lot about feeling Analyzed. experiment with specific spots and see how differently it affects him. verbally take notes on the differences!

also, emphasize how much he’s enjoying it even if/when he’s Begging for you to stop or move spots. knismos love to pretend we hate it, it adds to the fun of the whole thing. but don’t ONLY emphasize that he’s enjoying it, also throw in how horrible it must be!! how he’s too ticklish to take it, how it must be so bad if he’s screaming for mercy.

(i literally keep thinking of new things to add this is going to be so long sorry)

AND AND AND!!! POINT OUT HOW FLUSTERED HE IS!! how red his face has gotten, how he keeps repeating the same thing over and over bc his brain is fuzzy and he can’t Speak Properly, maybe he can’t figure out what to do with his hands, or he keeps trying to hide his face! LET HIM KNOW U CAN SEE EVERY LITTLE REACTION!!! it’s about the attention to detail babyyyy

tickle teasing can also go beyond the actual Act of tickling. tease him when you aren’t even tickling him!! wiggle your fingers his way, throw the word in casual conversation (“what you said earlier really tickled me”), poke him when ur out in public!! little things :3

when you Are tickling him, make him tell you what spots tickle more. make him help you! maybe choose two spots at a time, tickle one spot and then the other, and make him tell you which was worse (this ofc will take Many trials and retests juuuust to be sure he was right the first time 😌). use different methods and make him choose which is worse! hands or teeth? feathers or raspberries? the list can go on and on and you’ll both be sure to have a lot of fun testing out the varieties of the game lol

okay so i could literally keep going FOREVER but ill stop here for now bc ive already written a fucking essay!!! if you want more i’d be elated to go again, my brain is constantly on Tickle Mode so im always happy to yap about it!!

anyway, hope this helped!! hope you guys have fun, im happy to be of service :3

[bangsinc]

I didnt see a rules list somewhere so im so sorry if this goes against them!

Could I get a Spot x Trans male reader (or non specified) coming out to him?

Like...Spot comes back after the whole collider accident and the reader is like "pshh thats fine, im different too" ?

💗 Spot x Transmasc! (And Transfem and Non-binary) Reader coming out to him! (Hcs) 🏳️‍⚧️

Thank you so much for the request! I wanted to make this as Inclusive as possible for any reader out there, so I made 3 different versions of different identities!

No big warnings, although gender dysphoria and identity is mentioned. Reader has some initial insecurities opening up, but the spot is supportive!

Transmasc! Reader -

The Spot is.. incredibly familiar with the feeling of not belonging in one’s skin. Every morning when he wakes up, he’s forced to face the reality that he’s an anomaly. He knows how it might feel being cast out and/or neglected by society, having experienced certain unwanted behavior himself due to his apperance, he is drawn to the your strength and resilience. You’re incredibly brave, at least to him! :)

Coming out is something uncomfortable. It makes you feel all sorts of emotions at once, and while the spot can at worst not notice and at best be akaward, he tries his best to validate you throughout it all. He’s open to hugs, pats on the head, and reassuring words if he feels as if you’re becoming overwhelmed.

It’s a big BIG deal to him that you would open up about something so intimate about yourself to him. It shows him that you trust him enough with your true identity and with who you truly are, and it means a lot!!

He offers a listening ear whenever he can, sharing his own experiences of overcoming adversity and navigating a world that often misunderstands and rejects him.

He considers, from now on, your journey of transitioning to also be a big part of his life too. He keeps track of when you take your testosterone shots and how much you take, and is pretty much willing to do anything if it means it can ease some tension off of your shoulders. He’s fully supportive, willing to take you to appointments to your endocrinologist, gender therapist, or a healthcare team at a gender clinic. Hell, do you want him to schduale them?

He’s also incredibly strict about binding, worrying that you might forget to take it off because of how good it feels with it on. You could break a rib yknow! Breaks are mandatory!

Gender dysmorphia comes in many different forms. Sometimes you’re about to take a shower and look at yourself too long and just feel so.. uncomfortable in your own skin. Your own body doesn’t seem like yours, and The Spot understands this. He’s willing to listen if you wish to talk to him about it, and be a shoulder to cry on. He sees you as a man, nothing more and nothing less, and sees no issue in reminding you.

So many compliments. Sooo many, but his favorite one is commenting on how handsome you are, because you are!! You’re his handsome little boyfriend, and he feels no shame in gushing about that.

If you’re thinking about getting any surgeries, expect his full and unconditional love. Typically surgeries are a very draining process, before and after. Therapy is required, and you tend to be incredibly sore after the procedure. Jonathan is willing to take care of you after, holding you, making your bed a little more comfortable for when you sleep, even making meals if you feel to drained too. (MALEWIFE behavior)

Transfem! Reader -

Similar to Transmasc reader, if you identify as Transfem, The Spot will immediately understand and be able to relate. He sees you coming out to him as the most intimate form of affection, as a way to let him see who you really are deep down.. and of course he’s just as supportive! He’d do anything for his wonderful girlfriend.

Coming out to him is hard, and once again, if you feel overwhelmed or uncomfortable he’s right there for you. He wants you to know that no matter what he loves you.

If you take Estrogen, Anti-androgens (testosterone blockers), or any other medication, you’ll find he’s very strict about when you take it and how much. Your health and saftey is very important to him, and he wouldn’t want you to get sick!

Expect him to take you shopping with all the money he stole ;3. He’d love to spoil you with all sorts of cute little outfits, and show the world just how amazing and pretty his girlfriend is! Might be a lot of black and white though.. what? No that’s.. not intentional.

He probably gazes at you like a lovesick puppy, like you’re just the cutest girl in the world. He’s not very shy about reminding you either, even if he is generally awkward.

If you also plan on doing any surgeries, he doesn’t mind caring for you before and after! He’d hate for you to have to go through such a long and tiring process by yourself, and he’d want nothing more than to be able to assist you in any way he can. He’s willing to adjust anything to make it more comfortable for you, cook, clean, you name it!

Nonbinary! Reader -

The Spot already has a very unique perception of reality, and readily grasps the concept of your nonbinary identity. He intuitively comprehends the fluidity of your gender and appreciates the fact that you’re brave enough and trust him enough to come out to him.

He doesn’t necessarily have a gender anymore either soo… twinning! Maybe that might make you feel a little better?

Of course, that said, The Spot can espically understand what it must feel like to be outcasted for how you appear. You’re not a boy, or a girl, and it’s hard for practically most people to understand.. but he does! There is no binary for you, and to him that’s amazing.

He doesn’t mind showing you off to anyone and everyone, and might even get a little mad if someone were to ask if you were the ‘boy or girl’ in the relationship. He’s generally a very docile dude, but he doesn’t mind getting a little agressive if he feels as if you’re being mocked. You’re everything to him, why can’t everyone see that you’re just.. the best?

This applies to everyone buttt.. he loves you :3

[mochimouiemarty]

CSOW day 3, Relationships!

Im just gonna list off the most of the operatives they wouldve encountered and describe their relationship with them:3 Some of these might be ooc, not sure though 😭

heads up, this is pretty long

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Crackle: They'd be kinda close! Chipper would enjoy hearing about his stories and experiences in Australia. (I think they'd also like his accent! random, but i felt like mentioning it lol)

El Topo: I think that they'd make a pretty good team when it comes to missions! Though outside of that, it's just friendly greetings and nods.

Le Chévre: Honestly.. I think he'd find Chipper a bit weird at first, but he'd be indifferent abt them/more friendly with them when he sees that they're not that incompetent! or smth idk.

And idk if Chipper would really care about him all that much😭 but they would def be impressed with his skill in climbing and whatnot!

Tigress: Another one who'd find them a bit weird, and another one that Chipper wouldn't really care for 💀. But! maybe itd be kinda similar with Le Chévre. oh and they'd be super interested in her mask + claws/nails.

Paper Star: Chipper would adore her style, and be impressed and a bit scared of how quick she can fold the paper + attack.

Neal the Eel: They'd wonder how the hell he can fit in such tight spaces, and how he seems so.. snake (eel) like. They also questioned his lack of eyebrows at some point 💀

Lady Dokuso: Finds her intimidating asf. They dont have that many thoughts on her!

Dash Haber: They like his hat, and even more so after they find out that its basically a glorified pizza cutter (im sorry, i love calling it that lmao). They immediately asked him about it after a mission and talked to Doctor Bellum about it!

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And as for special someone's...

look at my past content and account and tell me you didnt see this coming/j

but yeah! out of everyone, they'd be closer with Mime Bomb. They don't really need to talk that much around him, and they enjoy his charades! Though, they do find that the dedication to his role as a mime can sometimes be a bit troublesome, but they don't exactly care.

They never exactly dated, they were just. super duper close. And they'd have a bunch of quiet nights on Vile island during breaks, listening to the waves and asking questions neither would answer, but would definitely ponder later.

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@carmensandiego-ocweek

[olberic]

ranking anime i’ve watched in 2023:

as expected, here’s this year’s top 10 for how much i personally enjoyed the anime i’ve watched this year. ive watched more than this, but god i watched so many bad ones…. even number 10 sucks but everything else was worse. sad!

as always thank u gifmakers for ur service 🫡 the world would be nothing without u all

10. the legendary hero is dead! (2023)

dont watch this show. it sucks and its bad. hey. come here. hold my hand. now lets just watch and enjoy the OP ok? don't worry about the rest.

9. my daughter left the nest and returned as an s-rank adventurer (2023)

i have to admit this show charmed me. its not the best thing ive ever seen but its nice. comfy. yknow? i haven't finished it but it's enjoyable. can't rank it higher until i finish it

8. sabikui bisco (2022)

if it werent for the positively nonsensical jump in the middle of the show and the way theres just like. a lot of gaps? it’d rank higher. it’s a very cool premise for a show and i like the bisco/milo dynamic, and [SISTER] is fun as hell. it didnt wow me though overall, and while i enjoyed it i was hoping for more.

7. trigun stampede (2023)

im sorry trigun stans i simply didnt love it. i see the appeal i really do but it just didnt hook me. i really liked the animation and the storyline. im intrigued by whatever the fuck is going on with those plants and yall have said theres a tallgirl in the next season? so i’ll keep watching. i just didnt love it

6. that time i got reincarnated as a slime (2019-2021)

in contrast to #7, i can see why this show is weak HOWEVER i just enjoyed it. i like it. huge fan of how much gender the protag has. i love how they get new powers. i enjoy that it can be interpreted as an extremely bisexual show. it was well paced and the slime diaries OVA was a great addition. a lot of the characters really stuck with me too and its like. idk. one of my favourite isekais i guess

5. buddy daddies (2023)

this should rank higher. its so fun. its SO fun. its silly and it doesnt take itself seriously. i laughed in every episode. the dynamic between the guys is great. the dynamics between them and the kid is great. just a really solid show if you can stand the queerbaiting. i dont even care

4. bocchi the rock! (2022)

the bocchi side of tumblr is right this show rules. i like how real bocchi’s social anxiety feels (literally how it felt when i had it). the characters are entertaining, the show’s well done, they even have solid music (which band-based shows dont always do right!). its really funny and its really earnest and its a joy to watch

3. demon slayer: swordsmith village arc (2023)

i included the entertainment district arc in last year’s list so this arc makes the cut. im always late getting around to watch the new stuff and i dont want to read the manga but god DAMN does this show hit different. incredible fight scenes. i loved everything they did for the hashira backstories. i love whatever the fuck is up with genya. it even gave me some akaza to sustain me for the next year or whatever. ik this show gets overhyped but its normal hyped. to me.

2. frieren: beyond journey's end (2023)

oughhh frieren… ive only known this show for a few months but it means to much to me… i dont even wanna talk about it because its so good i just wanna watch it again. go watch frieren if you havent already its anime of the decade. to me

1. gundam: the witch from mercury (2022-2023)

ive never seen a gundam before but i will be watched them after this! what can be said about it that hasnt already been said on this site. the romance storyline is impeccable, the fights are awesome, the moral questions it posed were excellently covered. by the end of the first episode i was speechless. by the end of the last episode i'd cried like 4 times over the course of the show. this thing made me cry to happy birthday. what the fuck

[calfrxca]

whoops, somehow i got dragged into this /silly, love yapping about my ocs, thank you for enabling me @gemsbokk

that being said, WHY WOULD YOU PLACE THIS PRESSURE ONTO ME, HALF OF THE SONGS ON HERE COULDVE BEEN FLOWERFACE !!!

1. An event that describes your character's past

Blood In The Wine, "i was given a name before i was given blood / like you were given your faith, / before there was made a God / young rivers in your hands and / glass burning in promised lands / you can drink, you can feast / there's beauty in your beast"

aughhh, he was created before the idolization of megatron as a religious figure/"God" even existed to the deceptions *bashing my skull into the wall and eating drywall*

2. How your character sees themselves

Скованные Одной Цепью, had to add at least one russian song to this list, i had a couple more but alas, they didnt fit as well as this one 💔

3. How others view them

Digital Silence, smth smth religious hysteria and zealotry affecting everyone around him and how it's not even bordering on dangerous for him anymore, it just is dangerous for everyone involved

4. Their closest relationship (platonic or romantic)

The Bog Bodies - Dorm Demo, "someone teach me to love / without it swallowing me whole / if love is to be changed, im only worsenin' / mosquito larvae in my ribs / he only loves me when i rot with him"

LIKE SORRY, BUT IT'S SO. THE ITCH IS BEING SCRATCHED !!! if you know you know LMFAO, shout out old man yaoi, it was between this one and maybe by flowerface, but ive been brainrotting this one more

5. A major fight scene

The Death of God's Will, i know this is like. the most obvious choice i could've put but COME ON, the song is so good, and my ultrakill brainrot is eating me alive, thanks hakita for making this banger

6. End credits song

Heaven's Gate, there's something here to be said about the religious trauma that appears in all my OCs but that's fine; anyways, i think he deserves to have The Realization just before he dies lol, i was feeling a bit, Goofy Silly

was fighting for my LIFE on this one, good lord; too many damn songs, not enough spots

i tag @chownkiies, @fanfricksion, and @chubitheshroom for this one! anyone else who wants to do this is free to as well 🫡

shoutout to this bastard for being my tf brainrot for like. a year

[floralhuqzz]

𝐀 𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 (fem! reader x Kai Anderson)

(english is not my first language) <3

WARNINGS: stalker kai

PART 1

I woke up by the sound of my alarm, it was currently 7AM it was time to go to work. I work in a small coffe, shop just about 10 mins from my house. 

I got up and checked my phone, nothing. No messages. Nothing. As i expected. I am not really a sociable person, i dont have that many friends, neither i have a partner. I got up from bed and went to the bathroom to do my usual skin care routine. I finished and went straight into the kitchen when my cat Milo started meowing, like he was asking me to give him his morning breakfast. I chuckled and went to the fridge and grab some wet cat food for him and pour it on his little plate. When i finished with Milo i started to make myself some breakfast as well, I have one hour until my work starts so I have to be quick. I made myself some toast, fried eggs and coffee and sat down while i was reading my favorite book. When i finish i went to brush my teeth and get ready, not forgetting to do my makeup.  

I said goodbye to Milo with a little kiss on his head and i head and took some more coffee with me (im a big coffee lover) I took my keys, my bag and everything i needed for my 5 hour time job. I got out and start walking towards my car while i was too busy scrolling through my phone when i accidentaly bump into someone

“shit!-” i say after i notice i dropped my coffee on the floor

I looked up just to see a tall blue haired guy with coffee all over his jacket

“OMG IM- IM SO SO SORRY” I said still looking at his now jacket covered in coffee

“oh haha, its okay no worries, its just coffee after all, i can just wash this off” he said looking at his jacket and looking back at me

“are you sure?” I said worried and embarrased 

“totally fine haha.. and sorry for you coffee” he said now looking at my cup on the floor

“oh the coffee is nothing” I said picking up the cup from the floor

“I would pay you off somehow but im already getting late to work uhh” I said slightly chuckling 

“oh its totally fine, I was heading home right now anyways so dont worry” 

I must say he is pretty good looking, even with his dirty long blue hair and his jacket now covered with coffee. I feel like ive seen him somewhere but i dont know where... 

“Well then see ya around?” i said smiling and waving at him as i walk away

“see you around y/n” he said looking at me with a smirk on his face as he heads home

i suddenly stopped “how does he know my name?....” i thought to myself while seeing him walk away in the distance.

I head to work and start my shift. The only thing on my mind was that blue haired guy. Does he know me?. Do I know him?. I Certainly dont but, i feel like ive seen him somewhere but.. where?.... 

“miss.. miss?” 

I didnt notice that i was completely zoomed out while a costumer was talking to me

“oh! um- so sorry, that would be 3$ please” i said smiling and a little embarrased

I finished my work around 12 and headed to the supermarket for some groceries. I got inside and starting to look my grocerie list when i bump into someone.. “AGAIN? why is this happening to me” i thought to myself

“oh its you again” a mans voice spoke

“I look up just to see.. “HIM AGAIN? please god kill me” i thought 

It was the blue haired guy?! AGAIN? what is he doing here? is he stalking me or something??

“oh hi, omg i dont know whats wrong with me today im sorry” i laughed awkwardly.

“its completely fine, and hey, my jacket its not cover with coffee anymore” he said chuckling 

“uff im glad, sorry for that again” i said in relieve

“getting some groceries huh?” he asked

“yeah umm... my cat... my cat has no food and i have to buy him some” i said slightly smiling 

“ ohh, Milo? was it?” he asked looking at me dead in the eyes

“how does he know my cats name?... okey this is fucking weird” i thought to myself

“how... how do you know Milo?” i asked kinda creeped out

“oh, im your new neighbour, i moved next to you like what?, 3 weeks ago? and you know,  i asked about you around town and they told me you have a cat named Milo thats all” he said crossing his arms

my new neighbour? how tf i didnt know about this? i know now why his face sounded familiar.

“oh- omg, i didnt know im sorry” i laughed 

“its fine dont worry”

we stayed there looking at eachother with nothing to say. 

“so are you going to ask for my number or are just gonna stand there?” he said smirking

“w-what?” i asked slightly blushing at the question. i did wanted his phone number tho, im glad he was the one who asked

“yeah sure hah” i said unlocking my phone

“here you have it” he gave me a piece of paper 

“see you soon y/n” he winked at me and walked a way

i stood there in complete shock of what just happened. I decided to look at the  the paper he just gave me just to find something he written “see you at my house at 9 today? call me xxx

“wait i didnt catch your name” i said when he turn his head around

“Kai Anderson”

[closetdbisexual]

TOP 10 (or so) FICTIONAL CATS (from books i have read)

10. kitty (bad kitty)

they made so many of these comics . i think she was justified in everything she did that dog was annoying as fuck

9. skippy jon jones (skippy jon jones)

technically shouldnt be on this list since he is, in fact, not a cat at all. hes a chihuaha. i promise. hes silly though i miss him

8. martin (martin's mice)

sweet little guy. kind of stupid. he trapped some mice in a bucket because he didnt have any friends and didnt want them all to run away it happens to the best of us martin

7. sabine and puck (the underneath)

another book that touches on humans being terrible . this one is sad and i cant actually remember what happens in it but these little guys have a place in my heart anyways . i hope they ended up safe

6. aldwyn (familiars)

probably one of the more well-known cats on here. may or may not be magic. memorable enough for me to have found this book again, but not too interesting

5. cilla and betta (a cat story)

probably also some more iconic cats on this list. this book is adorable

4. the tabby family (catwings)

im sorry google didnt have an image of all of them ft. jane. well these cats they have wings and tell a story of how dangerous it is for stray cats , ending with the feral family being somewhat adopted and living as barn cats i think. good for them.

3. chester (bunnicula)

god do i love these books. and chester. the mulder to harolds scully, if you will. i always thought he was kinda gay

2. varjak paw (varjak paw)

depsite how often i mention this guy, hes actually my second favorite fictional cat ....i love him dearly though. probably the first main character i read about who WAS a cat, and his story was always pretty interesting. had the "paw" suffix before warrior cats had even come out.

1. gareth (time cat)

the real winner of cats i love forever and ever. hi gareth. you are so special to me. he can talk to humans and time travel also. i just loved this book so much ive read it quite a few times now all for you gareth <3

HONORABLE MENTIONS

fritti tailchaser (tailchasers song) - i never read this book. but people love this cat for probably good reason

bluestar (warrior cats) - did not include any warriors characters due to the pure excessive amount of them existing, and also wanting more unique options

pete the cat (pete the cat) - he has shoes

wonderful alexander (catwings) - hes funny and weird and orange . i liked him

puss in boots (fairy tale) - cat with a sword is just a pretty badass concept

silversides (ragweed) - not really a cat i like im just using this as an excuse to promote mouse xenofiction again. avi has a bunch of stories about mice living in the forest and city if anyones interested .

tao (the incredible journey) - i also didnt read this book. sorry. im making a list of stuff to read now and this is on it ! but this book is iconic so probably for a good reason.

okay my list ^ goodbye now.

[nmakii]

you're so damn talented! seriously! i devoured the entire thing in one sitting. how ??? i have a major thing for manipulation ( its definitely not healthy save me ) and the plot is beyond words. Yandere Alastor is MADE for this masterpiece. can i ask how did you become so good at writing? i've always wanted to be a writer but can never seem to get it right. sorry if there any mistakes english isn't my first language so..........

-i

OMFG 😣😣💞💞 ILYSM!!! tbh i dont have a particular reason why i got to where i am rn. it’s mostly just years of writing, but i think there are a few reasons so ill list them here

1. english lessons

i have an english class at my school that helps me improve my grammar, and also does literary analyses on books like macbeth and the great gatsby. we also write essays often so, that also helped my ability to comprehend myself on paper properly.

2. books

IM A BOOK NERD 😋😋 i love the writing styles of authors like dazai osamu, agatha christie, and fyodor dostoevsky. as well as the poetry of nakahara and yosano (BSD NERD IM SORRY). i went through a phase where i tried to embody the writing styles of dazai and dostevsky since they were very comprehensive in their characterizations and they gave many moral dilemmas that are common in stories (which gave me TONS of inspiration). but, i also like to read the stories of ranpo edogawa and agatha christie for their plots, since no good story is not without a plot twist and their murder mysteries are really fun :p

3. visual novels

if books arent your thing, i also played tons of visual novels which helped me to learn how to describe objects since there are many limitations to these types of games :p

i recommend games like doki doki literature club, your turn to die, and danganronpa!

4. anecdotes

most of my stories are acc stories from my life! if not, then they have some aspect of reality. my lipstick fic was actually from a time i was in math class and i was testing if my lip gloss was smudge proof by kissing my friend on her hand (it smudged 🙁). getting stories from your real life helps to make the plot more dynamic, especially if you’re quoting real people 😋

if not, you can try to make it real (if youre weird like me). i have a request rn for kokichi with a reader who basically follows him around like a puppy, so i did this with my friend since shes a close match for kokichi, and i followed her around everywhere to see what her reactions were (she didnt have any bc we follow each other everywhere 😣)

and, if you’re having a hard time with characterization, this works as well!! i like to find a part of myself that is similar to the character and work off of that. for example, im writing a little niffty fic and both her and i are really psycho when it comes to cleaning, so i’m using my past experiences as a basis for that story and my friends’ reaction as a placeholder for reader :p

5. confidence!!

i tried cooperating with other people on fics, but it never really worked cuz i like to butt heads 😋. beta reading doesn’t really work for me either because everyone has their own taste when it comes to writing and you can’t please everybody. so, i only really reread my stories to check for grammatical errors, since i’m pretty pleased with my plots. people will always have something to criticize when it comes to your work, so it doesn’t really matter. plus, this is the internet. if a fic flops, it flops! if you think that your story is good, then upload it! someone is bound to like it 😋😋

[cantarella-s]

who’s bianca conchita

OKAY OKAY SO. HAVE YOU LISTENED TO DAUGHTER OF EVIL AND SERVANT OF EVIL? (PERHAPS REGRET MESSAGE TOO?)

BANICA IS FROM THE SAME UNIVERSE! I'll try to be brief here but since i dont trust myself ill put the rest under a cut <3

Content warning for a lot. And I mean a lot of Cannibalism. also mentions of weight. and eating stuff that really shouldn't be eaten

Evillious chronicles is based around the 7 deadly sins (lust, gluttony, pride, sloth, envy, greed, wrath) (the order i put those in is important i promise)

Rilliane's (The Rin from daughter of evil-servant of evil-regret message) (theres more songs to that arc but those are the most popular and. personally not a big fan of twiright prank sorry </3) arc is pride arc!

But today we'll be talking abt Banica, whose arc is gluttony. She's a Meiko module(? i think thats the word) and therefore very pretty <3

She has two songs as far as I remember, first of which takes place during Gluttony arc [Evil Food Eater Conchita] and the second of which takes place after in the. Limbo areas tbh I don't understand how the court and graveyard work </3 but this second song is called Master of the Graveyard

Only one other song from Gluttony arc is coming to mind [Drug of Gold] but i think there are a few more that are somewhat related? Like Hänsel and Gretel's songs mention their incarnations as Arte and Pollo

So! Now that that's out of the way, I'll start explaining her story to the best of my ability (<- went through evillious wikis religiously last year) (sorry vany if you're seeing this i went a little insane back then)

It starts off with people celebrating Banica's birth (she's a future duke! unless im misremembering she got the title of duke and not duchess) with a feast! But the baemu pig they ate happened to have the glass of conchita (vessel for gluttony) in it's system and ended up giving everyone that ate it The Disease™.

this disease (its called Gula) kills them if theyre not full all the time. so they end up eating a lot of fucked up shit (iirc cardboard was on that list?)

banica didnt have gula but her mom still made her eat the same portions as everyone else AND THEN BASICALLY EVERYONE DIES. at some point banica's mom tries eating the corpse of a dead servant when her dad shot her mom.

after the death of her mom banica locked herself up in the food storage basement thing of her mansion :( but a little while later two twin servants appeared, arte and pollo! (they are reincarnations of hänsel and gretel. basically the kind of people that rilliane and allen were supposed to be) she became close friends w the twins and stayed w them basically all the time <3

basically arte and pollo were introduced to banica by her dad or some other surviving servant. timeskip a lil and she's engaged to this guy called Carlos Marlon who's a prince. they spoke and she did make a good impression on his parents! yay!

and i dont rmb how true this is, but i do think i read somewhere that carlos commented on her being overweight? sorry i wasnt nearly as fixated on gluttony arc as some of the other arcs

over a bunch of months, they became close and warmed up to the idea of marriage. but like during this time she ate less than usual bc she was afraid carlos would dislike her if he found out what she was like

then another feast. but there was a wine glass. this brought all of banica's trauma relating to the glass of conchita back and she became fixated on the left overs before eating all the food on the table. this then led to her engagement getting cancelled :(

after her engagement was cancelled, she went back to the mansion and she decided to immerse herself in food and food culture. she gained the title of a gourmand in her country, beelzenia! (im p sure its based of spain :3)

she travelled to several other countries (arte and pollo in tow bc ofc <3) to improve beelzenia's food culture! girlboss! she learned abt many famous chefs, one of which was josef crim. unfortunately he's dead :(

copy pasting the next para from the wiki -

' Supported by Juno, Banica introduced her ideas to Beelzenia, greatly improving its food culture and adding to its cuisine, radically increasing the domestic foods in the empire as a result. During this period she began developing a new wine, dubbed "Blood Grave", with the cooperation of the local farmers. '

so yeah! things are going great for banica! she even got the formal title of "Noble Gourmand Banica" (gourmand from before was probably more of a nickname)

and then her dad died

sorry queen </3 just like when her engagement was broken off, she found solace in food. around this time is when she got the title of duke. she traveled some more bc she was still grieving her dad when she got the news that one of her loyal servants, Ron, went missing.

but she collapsed when she went back bc of organ abnormalities. when she got checked out by her doctor, they concluded it was bc of her overeating.

but arte and pollo, loyal servants as they are, had been keeping the glass of conchita (that housed the demon of gluttony) with them! and since their master might die soon, they decided it was the perfect time to use it. they kept it by her bedside and the demon started talking to banica.

it told her abt how she'd only eaten half of the world's food and theres sooo much more for her to consume <3<3 she should totally make a contract with it! she wouldnt die if she made the contract + she'd get to eat more and more of the food this beautiful world has to offer

she initially declined bc yknow all of that stuff happened that happened when she was young? she knows that her mom and the other servants died bc of the demon (or more specifically the disease which was caused by the demon)

the demon left but kept the wine glass and said that if she drank from it, the contract would be sealed. -> "The next morning she awoke and saw the glass, realizing it was full of baemu blood when smelling it. Consumed by her curiosity, Banica drank after minimal hesitation, making the contract." [copy pasted from the wiki]

after making the contract, she 'miraculously' made a full recovery! she also became thinner. with her new abilities, she decided to try eating stuff she's never tried.

she held a banquet with her, the duke, as the host. at the end, she asked her servants to bring dessert which included live insects and spiders. [sorry banica but thats kinda gross </3] the audience she had was pretty disgusted but she had fun at least?

some time passed after the banquet and she decided she wouldn't leave the mansion anymore and have arte and pollo manage the estate and her territories. she did it on accounts of her organ abnormalities :3

after denouncing the outside world she used the demon's powers to reanimate the dead bc yes! she reanimated the servants and created an undead army to guard her mansion. she also reanimated livestock to serve as her meals.

after that point she began hiring a bunch of chefs to make her food but she was always irritated at them bc they were disgusted by her appetite. so of course, she had arte and pollo kill and then cook them so she could eat their corpses. girl moment fr

after getting rid of one guy, she hired Josef Crim. but you might be wondering, isnt josef dead??? well. thats not josef. thats Carlos. her former fiance. so at one point she gets drunk and they fuck 👍 she's pregnant now

oh yeah the imperial family's kept sending letters to her but she ignored them like spam callers. so they sent an army! but she has an undead army WOOOOOO!! Carlos-Josef recognized Ron (guy from earlier) and banica told him how she now wants to devour the world <3

carlos was scared so he tried to escape. banica sent arte and pollo to catch him and he gave the excuse of trying to take a vacation but. he's not allowed vacations <3 banica is niceys tho so she didnt have him killed. yet.

a few days later, carlos served her poison soup (that he'd eat together bc dying together is pretty romantic. carlos really was onto smthn there) but she is a demon contractor and cannot die unless its at the hands of another contractor or vessel so. Only carlos died. a shame, really.

banica figured out what happened so since he's already dead, might as well have arte and pollo cook him. nothing like eating your lover <3

fast forward a few months, her baby is born! woooo!!! i dont really rmb what happens next but she does end up eating arte and pollo. in the words of leo, Oh kaito we're really in it now

banica ran out of food and servants. and since she's a contractor of gluttony, she's still hungry. fuck. oh shit her baby's crying. hey. the baby is food, right? she can eat that, right?

so she took a plate out and put the baby on it.

and she was going to eat it but after seeing the kid's face, she decided not to bc thats her kid.

the demon doesnt like that very much and tells her that hey, actually, yknow that poison that guy fed you? yeah it's actually one of the few things that *can* kill you and is actually do it!

basically the poison was shavings of the vessel of wrath (the golden key. hence. drug of gold) and it def can kill her. not sure if it would work as slowly as the demon is claiming, but it would most definitely kill her in larger amounts. and she ate carlos who also had a dose of the poison in him.

the demon said the kid is a 'vaccine' for that (bro thats. Not how vaccines work at all) but she still refused to eat her child. she began to see the demon take shape in her mind and it looks like a baemu pig with bat wings. yeah. sounds horrifyingly disgusting.

so she ate herself! wahoo <3 copy pasting the wiki again

' Exploiting her contract, Banica's consumption of her body allowed her to become a demon herself; gaining all of the demon's knowledge and power. '

so thats technically the end of gluttony arc but she does have more to her story (from Master of the Graveyard and i think a few other songs?) but i dont rmb most of that sorry </3

if you actually managed to read all of that. damn Thank you

[the-kipsabian]

card, draw and gimmick! :3

Card ~ If you could pick the matches for a wrestling event who would be in it and for what event? oh my god i have so many faves i would book to win tbh LMAO. i dont often fantasy book outside of my favorite storylines, so im just gonna stick this with one current dream match, but im just waiting for kip sabian vs speedball mike bailey to happen. i dont know how realistic that is since idk how open speebo would be with appearing in aew and kip doesnt do indies (yet?), but. i want it lmao

Draw ~ List 5-10 qualities about your favorite wrestler(s) that caused you to be fan of him/her/them? 1. hes just incredibly hot okay. like im not gonna sugarcoat it i first noticed he was cute and it was all downhill from there 2. his wife is hot. again, not sugarcoating it 3. hes funny as fuck 4. hes british. he has an accent. im gay 5. CROP TOPS 6. he has talent in the ring that captivates me like no other. the way he arches that back and moves those legs. again, i am Gay 7. hes also stupid as fuck (affectionate) 8. hes a nerd 9. he just keeps it real. like hes not above talking about things related to his life and career, he has opinions hes not afraid to share, if theres a thing he wants to talk about he will 10. hes also one of the nicest fuckers out there like. genuinely. he will stand up for other people. hes an ally. he goes out on his way to make sure others are good and comfortable. ive never seen him interact badly with a person who didnt deserve it (we talk like trolls or just assholes in general). he always takes and makes the time. hes just. so fucking wholesome

i could list so many more but lmao sorry

Gimmick ~ Your favorite and/or least favorite gimmick match? -OR- Favorite & least favorite gimmicks? i have a love/hate relationship with any and all gimmick matches so im opting out from answering that LOL buuuuut as for character gimmicks - its not a secret i love whatever the fuck orange cassidy is doing and has been doing for years now. his character is legit the reason i wanted to tune into aew since the beginning after all lol. another im gonna credit is monday night messiah seth rollins cause i was absolutely off the walls about him during the pandemic era. come back to my life you stupid crossfit jesus <3

as for least favorite gimmicks. i dont wanna say when a guy doesnt have a gimmick, but more like.. when a guys gimmick is "just some guy". like hes nothing but a shit brick house in speedos like. why should i care lmao. i usually dont hate gimmicks, some are extremely stupid sure, but i enjoy idiotic garbage so who am i to stay anything lmao

wrestling asks ~

[hayleylwong]

materialism <3 (unironic)

1. fenty lip gloss in the color fu$$y i lost it winter quarter and i was so sad.

2. my airpods. i lost them at the same time as my lip gloss. i only managed to have them for like three months. sorry mom and dad

3. rom&nd glasting melting balm in color 1 2 4 or 6 i bought color 2 last quarter and lost it the same day. i was so sad. lol the same day i lost everything else

4. my cream color cardigan i lost fall quarter. do you see a pattern lol. it was so cute and cropped w balloon sleeves but it didnt have the thing where the sleeves have like a weird cuff. and it was drapey in a good way.

5. pretty gold thin jewelry. i have been wearing the same necklace every day since junior yr hs. i should change it up. i should start wearing rings. i should get more earrings since i keep losing them. lmao i didnt even mean to list another lost item

6. the pink gucci flora gorgeous gardenia perfume im running out of my mini size one but it smells so yummy imo i want more

7. a private room. why are there so many people here everywhere. how is it 4am and i cannot have the lounge to myself. i need to decompress.

8. glow recipe toner. i got a sample of it two months ago but i am out now. it was nice but it is so expensive. and i need new toner.

9. aritzia jeans oohhh i tried them on before looking at the price tag and i had to put them back after. but they were so nice they fit so well.

10. white or black or grey cargo pants. last week i had to pee really bad and i broke the zipper of my old ones taking them off. lmaoo it was hella embarrassing idk why im saying this here. but does anyone rly read these? anyways idc now i need new ones.

okie bye <3 this one was fun to make i am fr a material girl

[6okuto]

QKHDEKRBWBDJDH Im too shy to go off anon but just know that im ur secret admirer ahshdjshdjejd also sending u anon love is fun hehe 💓💓😚😚

im glad to hear that ur eyes r getting better! Hope ull be able to get the rest u need and deserve after ur sem is over <333 im doing great myself !!seeing ur reply to my ask just made my week 💗💗💗💗💗 i hope u too r eating well and staying hydrated and most importantly get enough sleep 😭😭😭😭 i hope ur day continues to be filled with happy things love u !!!💕💕💕💕💕

U dont know what kind of beast uve unleashed when u said u wanted to know more abt my ocs ong...Osjxiejdieje pls dont mind my rambling im so shameless byeee 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️ also these infos might be weird its just based off my own understanding of stuff and not accurate to common knowledge so ⚰⚰

The alchemist- she's a bit on the gloomy side and honestly just tired of life 😭😭 i went with this origin first so her personality is like pretty much based off the game mc we play as, just a tad bit more passive 🚶‍♀️will melt down and turn into mush at the slightest bit of affection so i paired her with leander, and since shes gone through a lot i thought, she deserves some treat <3 and throw in mhin into the equation too hehe another random fact abt her is that she loves plain water... a LOT. Since shes a mage apprentice, i imagine that she probably learn a lot of magic stuff after meeting leander, mostly to get stronger and for self defense

The hound- she got massive trust issues (being betrayed by her friend in the thief syndicate and all) so shes extremely wary of the LIs, like if u think the in game mc is wary of the ppl in eridia, she's like 10x worse. Honestly lowkey like mhin 2.0 except a lil bit snappier 😭 i pair her with kuras and their relationship is kinda like him trying to get a stray cat with human issues to warm up to him 😭😭 doesnt get along with any of the LIs at all and always keep an arm's length around them, but she only lets kuras into her life (and fun fact he loves feeding her) surprisingly tolerates mhin too, and learns a lot abt how to use weapons from them, and since she was in a thief syndicate i imagine her agility lvl is v high (and dont tell this to my unnamed mc but my alchemist and hound mc is my favourite children...)

The unnamed- shes raised like a royalty all her life, since being an oracle means that everyone borderline worship her, but being raised at a temple also means theres many restrictions and shes honestly lowkey sick of being treated like it, though she keeps the perfect facade up, all smiles and all. Shes kind of a lil shit since after running away from the temple, she finds it hard to keep her nice facade up but still tries too hard to keep em (this results in her going 😄😄 but when she suddenly snaps she was like- omg i accidentally let my true colours out- and went back to being nice and all smiles as if her previous outburst didnt just happen- yes shes two faced) i pair her with ais and vere (aka the lil shits 😭) honestly their relationships r just ais and vere trying to make her snap and drop her nice facade its kind of hilarious

Andd yeahhs thats abt it abt them !! Sorry this got much longer than it shouldve been 😔😔 but thank u for being curious abt my silly goofies 🥺🥺 my personal fave is mhin!! And after finish talking to ais and kuras i...im lowkey interested in them disjdjejdjejdj theyre so fun??¿¿ 😭😭 leander is high up in my list too but i mostly see him as a big bro figure bc of his friendliness 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️

ANYWAYS I LOVE U SM OKAY RMMBR THAT NIA SENDING U LOTS OF VIRTUAL HUGS THHANK U FOR BRIGHTENING UP MY DAY 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

its fine i know who u are. im lying. im not. i have a hypothesis i wont say bc well thatd be awkward if i was wrong wouldnt it. STAY PERF! SENDING U ..NOT ANON LOVE...wtf is the opposite of anonymous. KNOWN! IDENTIFIED! jesus. i need to go back to sleep i think i slept for like 3 hours my body hates me or sometign....THANK YOU!!!! i will continue 2 look 4 happy things 2day. reacted under cut 2 save space :heart:

HELLO ALCHEMIST MC!!! the plain water imcirny?@%? that's real actually stay hydrated OMGG learning magic after meeting is saur smart... is she ending up w leander... WHAT IS MHIN DOING. stay so strong

HOUND MC AND KURAS that's so real. handling 2 mhins...u can do it bro... LOVES FEEDING HER 🙁 i cannot wait 2 hear abt how she lets her walls down i think the hound option is just soo good for that and kuras is an interesting choice 4 it.. + w mhin's own...defensiveness and such....yeah . stuff is going to happen here

WOWW. UNNAMED FACADE OF HAPPINESS...love the trope I LOOVEEE WHEN CHARAS DO THAT i giggle a little like omg AIS AND VERE. jesus. wow. oh wow. there is so much u can do there. oh that sounds like itll be so fun to develop

DO NAWTT APOLOGIZE i like 2 hear abt everyones ocs bc i dont make them LOL i am sure mhin would love u. i think they need the same amnt of support + self care reminders u give me like TAKE CARE OF URSELF...LET PEOPLE TAKE CARE OF U... i hope something so awesome happens for u today :heart:

[m333myselfandiii]

Awww you're welcome! I have a bad aesthetic problem, I try to be it so bad but it turns out bland. You, on the other hand, made an amazing blog aesthetic. Great job ^^

NONO actually good thing! I stopped watching anime because I got into TV series more! Do u have animes you would recommend?

For the manga question,, well, i kind of like to read some out of WebToon or illegally on some website I find. I love some popular choices like Death Note, My Hero Academia, Assassination Classroom, Tokyo Ghoul, Haikyuu (very cute, and im not into sports, just grew up with those silly volleyball players), Black Butler, but uhhh not a great fan of Dragon Ball or One Piece unfortunately. Kind of liking the hype on Jojo but I didnt got into it. I also like to shop but rarely since they cost a lot. Love me some random, unknown shōjo mangas. Come on, soft romance stories are amazing sometimes,,,,, Oh! Plus!!! There are Mahwas (i probably spelt it wrong) which are basically mangas but korean. And that's where I get very ignorant <3 i would recommend going through many lists online!!! People share very underrated mangas you don't know existed haha.

Thank u for replying to me.

-🪩anon

AWW thank you sm I'm so happy you say that cos I spent hours on Pinterest for HOURS to make it look good yk but it still looks kinda bland to me, im glad you think otherwise 😭 and also, I'm pretty sure yours isn't bad at all :33

GURL BYE-

WHY IS YOUR TASTE EXACTLY LIKE MINE OMG? I've never seen anyone else like assassination classroom (not anyone I've personally interacted with 😭), N THT MAKES ME SO HAPPY HHHHHHHH. I've watched Death Note, Black Butler and My Hero Academia, and Haikyuu's been on my watch list since forEVERR I just keep procrastinating lol :') as for Tokyo Ghoul, I really did try to get into it but it js... wasn't my type sadly 😭 I've heard of dragon ball and have dipped a little here and there into One Piece but I'm not rlly attached to it lol :') n same with Jojo lol!! I've heard the hype but I've never checked it out for myself lmao

Nd tbh where I live buying Mangas n other stuff sadly isn't available :') so online shopping it is that I hv to resort to lmao. And you're totally right bout the soft romantic shojo Mangas that somehow nobody seems to know about lol 😭 like,, they're SO SWEEETTTTT <3 they're like,, so random- but somehow manage to be the best pieces of literature that bless my eyes lol ✨️😔 there was this one I rlly liked a while back- tho the name was kinda odd. It went smth like "is long term employment possible - my pre-employment life with an unsociable magician" n I rlly liked it lol cos it was js so SWEETT ugh :33

Ngl I've been looking to get into Manhwas for a while- do you have any recommendations? Also with the movies since you mentioned you like TV series :3

Also also also- for the anime recommendations- I don't think I have good taste, but there are some rlly precious ones you can check out if ur not too busy lol :3 there's "horimiya" which is a short n sweet high-school romance, and "ancient magus's bride" which I don't see get talked abt a lot, but is still just as cute and sweet lol :33

And thank you so much for the ask, I'm rlly happy to get to interact wth you!! I'm so sorry for the late reply btw I was kinda busy 😭😭

Hope you have a great day, anon!! :3

[chubbygrape]

Spotify Wrapped????????????????Stats????

??????????????????

I have so many questions -- I know people are already complaining about it so I am not nec trying to join the bandwagon , I just OBJECTIVELY want to talk about my stats and experience cause ???????

Exposing myself here real quick, guys I like background music, I write a lot also so I need a good vibe set so i listen to a lot of ambience/liminal/drone music, i mean i LOVE it. And this year I explored a lot and got super hooked on it.

Lets start with top artists real quick:

Top artist being REPULSIVE -- 100% ; 'homesick' album was recommended to me on spotify one random day early in the year and the cover horrified me so i listened to it as a joke; come to find out it would become my year-long obsession, i love this album, i love the horror vibes, i love the nostalgic feel of the two 'soft' songs - no doubt there, this is mine, my legacy and I am PROUD of it

few more names from there, One Heart, Leapyear and Willix - 100% also, totally believable so far so good --

But then Skinny Jones??

Listen, Skinny Jones has been my top artist for the past 2-3 years - lOve love love them ; but not this year. This year ive been in my ambience , liminal bag, okay. And I LOVE Skinny Jones' music so I would KNOW if I listened to him this year or not -

And Matter of fact, where's Zerofuturism????

I streamed the CRAP out of the Lotus album, I legit would put this on and then write for hours ('Cobalt Core' track couldn't catch a BREAK), like HOW did Skinny Jones make the list but not Zerofuturism??? And then I've been also streaming excessively the White Marble Album as of late too, how did this all not count in stats??

But then we move onto songs??

Just real quick before I get into it --- WTF is 'Frutiger Aero Abstract K-Rap' ???????? Hello?

Idk if anyone reading this knows of Don Mills and Deepflow but these guys are hardcore boom bap vibes ok, WHERE DID THE FRUTIGER AERO COME FROM.

Anyways back to the point ---------------

I'd argue I've streamed 'homesick' WAY more than 'lullaby' but hell, i just put on songs and let them play, who knows how long i streamed what - 'This Feeling' is also valid

But WHERE DID 'TAKE MY HEART' SNEAK IN FROM??

LOOOOVEE Absolute Terror (the artist of the song) and 'Take my Heart' is my FAVOURITE, in the past 1-2 years its been on my top ; BUT I can guarantee you I maybe played it like... 6 times this year though. AND IF. So how on earth did it make it on the list???

Thing is with me you can see patterns as well in my listening habbits - Absolute Terror and Skinny Jones kinda give me similar music vibes one does kinda drift phonk, the other a mix of hiphop and trap perhaps , both genres i was super into in previous years but this year didnt touch me at all.

And im sorry but i wouldnt expect stats from previous years to bleed into THIS year's stats -- I've worked with data before guys, it's not a difficult thing to filter things out.

But then also -- Actually, let's assess the biggest offendors:

1. WHERE is Zerofuturism (as mentioned)

2. WHERE IS EVERYST !????

I listened to SO MUCH EVERYST THIS YEAR - Specifically 'Save Yourself' , think i melted that track

COMPARATIVELY !! Like I can't accept Skinny Jones and Absolute Terror appearing in this year's list when Zerofuturism and Everyst are missing with 'Cobalt Core' and 'Save Yourself' respectively.

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Overall:

On a serious note, this was such a fail to begin with because of how boring and uninspired it was, especially compared to previous years.

Also the animations and design? Apologies to whoever set it up but it was UGLY. I kept cringing it hit my eye so bad.

But whatever, I was happy to get my stats but then I looked into it and i PROMISE you these dont make sense. In the slightest.

It's one thing to have a boring execution but to mess up the stats?? I dont understand this.

I mean, im not going to lose any sleep over this , ill be okay i promise, but it was such a bore, i mean i DO save these you know. uGH anyways

ill edit them myself lol for journals <3

[midnighteloquence]

den

…

im gonna kms

this hasnt been saved

for the THIRD FUCKING TIME

okay lets do it again i guess fucking bitch i had such good writing in here

heres my code names up to date i guess 🙄

(leaving A out til the end :3)

Friend B: i will never have anything negative to say about her. shes literally in the top three list of people i love. shes the reason im still here. shes my day oner frfr. im so glad she pointed out my bag that one day two years ago, because idk where i’d be if i wasnt her friend. being friends with her has brought me so many other people, so much of my personal development, and in general shes just amazing. not to mention shes so pretty. she makes school actually bearable. in the morning i’ll be pissed off about waking up and she’ll pick a crane fly off the wall or smth and my mood is immediately lifted. i love her with my whole heart

Friend C: oh boy where do i start

the main subject of this rant blog. every other rant on this blog is about him. i will admit that there was a time i liked him. but that was before we even knew each other. it all started going wrong when we became friends.

i admired them because in my eyes they seemed cool. we shared similar “alternative” interests, and they had so many stories to share. but now? i wish i could stop myself from being their friend. i hate their guts, i admit that, but maybe theres a different universe out there where i could like them. where they didnt hug me non consensually, or verbally attacked me as a “joke” (because of how much they love me 🥺), or made sexual jokes about me, or would ask repeatedly for things instead of accepting i said no, or lied pathologically, or did anything of the sort. but thats not this universe, and so in this one i can have and express that i dont like them and theyre a terrible human being. i hope you burn, but i also used to like you.

got melodramatic there whoopsies

Friend D: i admired them alongside C. ironic how admiring people from afar caused them to be terrible people. i hadnt noticed D’s red flags until a couple weeks ago, where i was properly educated, and now im pissed off. theyre scum to me. not in degrading way, theyre a genuine terrible human being. which is such a pity since they seemed like such a reasonable person. did not seem like the typa person to do these typa things (i have a rant here explaining). oh well, ill live. i barely talked to them anyways. theyll stick to thinking theyre not the problem, and ill stick to ranting about them in my tumblr posts.

Friend E: blast from the past wowoowowowowowiw

i was close to them like last year summer, but dropped them ages ago this year. i had my reasons, and obviously made sure that i told them my reasons instead of just leaving because i knew that was the right thing. tbh? idr what half of those reasons were. im sure most were reasonable, but also i was extremely petty back then. nowadays i dont rlly care for them. im neutral. like if they chatted to me i would be fine with it and chat back, but i dont wanna be their friend. and its fine because they understand that and dont wanna be mine either. its the first breakup (friend breakup) ive had that ends with communication instead of leaving on read.

Friend F: yippee some positive sprinkle in yo life! i dont talk to her often but shes so cool and admirable as a human being and generally really bubbly and fun. shes the reason i ever found out im autistic! which thank you for that. they dropped D for their mental health and that’s soooo admirable and respectable of them. i admire them from afar and wish we talked more. even if we arent in the same friend group anymore, i still think theyre neat!

And finally…

Friend A: a bitch /j

okay okay for serious they are the reason im alive. im not exaggerating when i say you saved me. youre an actual angel (if not a wholeass goddess) sorry im dumping a “if not for you id be dead!” thing whoops. NEWays she makes my life and school life so much better and is so entertaining to talk to. not to mention pretty like??? im going to actually confess here and now that there were a couple times i needed you to repeat what you said because all i was thinking about is “how can someone be this pretty?” /gen /ily /p

bulleting holes- points because you did so >:3

the most creative mf on the planet when it comes to plotlines, lore, character designs. AND THEN YOU STILL FIND A WAY TO MAKE MORE PLOTLINES AND CHARACTERS???? insane dude

your make actual schedules which is maddening considering i cant even think of what im having for dinner

pretty…

hilarious because why you got me giggling and kicking my feet at your texts

CAN SOMEHOW PUT UP WITH ME YAPPING

super duper duper passionate about interests >:3

distance

science is so boring without you come back…

your remarks are so funny man like genuinely how do you come up with stuff like that on the spot

i lovevevevvrvevevevvevevvevec your clothing style ahhhh im gonna steal your clothes

i love you

thats a bullet point

ily man never forget 🤙

I think thats it! (i excluded mario, friend 1 & 2 because cba)

bye bye if tumblr doesnt save this im loading a glock

[smashstiel]

also its me once again . sorry for sending so many but. did you notice the used gay sex couple. i mean theres a lot of gay sex bc its the used and i say so but . blow me and choke me . also also if u want stuff to listen to PLEASE listen to fearless vampire killers i love fvk so so much i wish they were more popular i cant believe my bf saw them live when they were opening for bvb and didnt like them. pain and suffering anyway concede repent destroy but album version <333 also they have a song called bite down on my winchester and i never connected it it genuinely never . ever connected that to spn but

also bow ties on dead guys <33 generally great band great music videos i love them . please let me know if ur tired of me sending u so many asks abt random shit btw . also even ghosts forget has one of my fav lyrics ever . through bloodied kisses like cocaine we tell each other were still sane <3

BITE DOWN DOWN ON MY WINCHESTER??? dont mind me if i do. :3

wait wait ill make a list and listen to it all in like. few hours when im more awake (saw deadpool and wolverine in theatre AGAIN and im not normal) . AND I LOVE YOUR ASKS IM LITERALLY SO HAPPY WHEN I SEE YOU SENT AN ASK ilyily