#i have maybe two other videos that might work for her but I'm gonna leave it here

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Maryke Hendrikse/Revy voice as Rangi

(I thought she had a nice rasp that worked for Rangi. I think both guys, Brian Drummond and Brad Swaile,who Yun represented worked for him as well tbh fjskldfj Also that first clip, woof. :'D haha that's how the lake scene went right? no? kinda just mor aggressive? :'D)

[muntitled]

Req - Something about Shotaro? Oh my god anything, your writing is just so????;!!;?$3

Maybe some smut on the toxic-ish side about how he appeals to be a loving boyfriend to your friends but behind closed doors he’s a lot more intimidating/manipulative, but you’re still just so weak for him (maybe even more so because of it???) and just can’t control yourself around him. Idk, I’m literally clueless but I just know I need that immaculate brain of yours combined with Taro!!!

Much love, and Happy New Year!!!

A/n: I'm not gonna lie... This took a good chunk of my sanity trying to write, I can only hope that you like it. Also happy new yearrr

𝗣𝗶𝗰𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝗣𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁

Osaki Shotaro x Fem!Reader

Summary: Shotaro is your golden retriever boyfriend... until he isn't

Warnings: Language, Established Relationship, Jealousy, Best friend!Sohee, Possessiveness, Slight Dark fic, Toxic!Relationship, Manipulation, Smut (+18) Dom!Shotaro, Fingering, Grinding, Choking, Teasing

Your shoulders are as rigid as two metal cinder blocks, keeping your head from rolling off onto the floor. Barbed wires twist with anxiety in the pit of your stomach because you know, despite the sunshine disposition, despite the smile, despite the glassy doe eyes, Shotaro is pissed, and he definitely wants you to know about it.

“I swear on my unborn child,” Sohee, your best friend (your best guy friend) exclaims over a mouthful of ramen, “Yours is the only man I'd ever let cook for me. The rest of the male population can choke.”

While Shotaro basks in Sohee's praises with a modest sunshine smile, you sigh under the pressure of your boyfriend's grip on your thigh as you swiftly say, “You're quite literally a member of said male population-”

Sohee lowers his chopsticks before assuming a vaguely threatening stance with his cheeks round and stuffed. “Begrudgingly,” he says, “Not by choice.” You do not laugh but you try to.

Sohee bounces up and down in his seat, seemingly oblivious to your nervousness and Shotaro's skillfully hidden vexation.

“This is why I needed you two to end up together.” Says Sohee, swinging his head towards you. “My Golden Retriever best friend,” he swings his head towards Shotaro, “And my Golden Retriever coworker-”

“It's getting late, Sohee-” Shotaro's voice is calm and his head is still tilted as he says, “Should I call your uber?” You gulp silently as Shotaro's hand rubs up and down your thigh in a dizzying motion.

“Not very Golden Retriever of you,” Sohee grumbles before slurping down the last of his soup, “But that's okay because you're perfect in everything else-”

“Are you trying to steal my boyfriend, Sohee?” You hope cracking a joke might alleviate some of the one sided tension only you seem to be aware of.

Despite the smile, Shotaro is having a very difficult time remaining patient, especially because he had plans. Before Sohee had hijacked your attention, Shotaro would venture to say that he was actually somewhat happy at the start of the evening… before he found himself sharing your time with your over exuberant best friend.

There was a lively, almost vibrant pep in his step when he got off work, despite the tiredness in his muscles. As Shotaro made his way down the corridor towards your apartment door, his head was bowed with his eyes glued on his phone.

Your whimpers resounded in the clarity of his headphones. He watched you cum around his fingers, absolutely transfixed- so transfixed he almost doesn't recognize movement in his periphery right when he reaches your front door.

Far too swiftly, Shotaro plastered a smile on his face as he paused the video, dropped his phone into his pocket and lowered his headphones before bowing to your elderly next door neighbour.

He muttered a polite “안녕하세요,” in greeting, and the tiny old woman responded just as amicably.

She, as well as every other person in your life is absolutely floored by his politeness.

“What a nice young man,” she said, as she continued her way down the corridor, leaving Shotaro chuckling to himself because the thoughts he was having were certainly kilometres off on what a nice young man should be thinking.

He could not help that he had been thinking about you the whole day. Not even just sexually. (Although he did miss your body terribly. Shotaro was absolutely obsessed with the way it worked: You were always so unmistakably pliant for him. Like clay). Even simply being this close to your space made his heart overblown with satisfaction. Your house had always been somewhat of a safety enclosure for him. His own little piece of peace away from the outside world.

As he inserted the password and turned the knob, Shotaro imagined how you'd be waiting for him after work by the door like you usually did. Swimming in his oversized shirt as you stood with your arms opened wide.

None of those things happened.

Shotaro trudged into your house, sweaty and physically defeated from another day of exerting himself with rigorous routine. The thought of melting into your arms had been the only thing keeping him vaguely upright, when all he wanted to do was collapse on a pile on the floor.

As he proceeded to kick his sneakers off at the door, Shotaro’s brain nearly short circuitrd at the sight of you standing before him… fully dressed.

Not for any reason beside the fact that he had hoped to find you dressed comfortably enough to touch each other while you both cuddled lazily on the couch.

He was not being unreasonable in his expectations.

“Are we supposed to be going somewhere?” Shotaro asked quizzically with his doe eyes widened in cute curiosity. He eyed your halter neck and maxi skirt with much discontent.

“Oh good! You're home! I actually have something to-” Before the words could escape your mouth, he immediately enclosed you in a hug that you drowned in.

“Missed you so much,” he murmured before splaying various sloppy kisses on the side of your face, “Couldn't stop thinking about you the whole day… your face-” A kiss, “Your mouth-” another kiss, “your boobs-”

“Taro, I have to tell you som-”

“God, I hate people!” he exclaimed above you with his arms falling to your hips.

“I shouldn't have to remind you that I count as people.” You jest in vague nervousness.

“When I say I hate people, never ever, do I mean you,” he whispered above you before patting your head down as if you were, less his human girlfriend and more something that went about its life on four legs.

“Do I count as people?”

Your shoulders stiffened and Shotaro's arms grew rigid as his head snapped up to look at your best friend- his co-worker.

Sohee makes his introduction behind you in the same outfit Shotaro saw him in at dance practice and he waved lightly.

Shotaro's shoulders sag infinitesimally but that smile on his face is all too permanent.

Sohee spinned around before mumbling, “Also I'd appreciate it if you two didn't hump each other out in the open for my viewing pleasure.”

Instead of actually feeling compelled to eat you now sit idly at the dinner table, picking and prodding at the ramen Shotaro has prepared for you all.

Your boyfriend's irritation is subtle and you could definitely miss it in the brightness of his overall countenance.

“I mean, it's not that I don't wanna be in a relationship- it's just that, seeing you two has inspired me… I guess you could say?” If it weren't for Shotaro's hand on your thigh you might have actually listened to the countless praises he dotes on Shotaro.

Praises about how good of a man he is. How perfect he is. How absolutely wonderful he must be for being able to put up with you.

All through the dinner, Sohee talks and talks, and you sit with your fingers curled around the end of the table, trying to stop yourself from not reacting to your boyfriend’s minstritations.

It is only when the dinner ends, and Shotaro escorts Sohee to the door, that you finally feel the first real signs of anxiety begin to solidify in your gut.

You're trying your best to load the plates into the dishwasher with a steady hand when you feel a daunting presence behind you. Evading eye contact, you swiftly and succinctly say, “I'm sorry. He had no where else to go-”

“He has a house. Try again.”

You sigh, letting your eyes flutter shut at the coldness in his voice.

“He's my best friend, Shotaro,” you say with finality before straightening your spine and turning to face him. You’re both pressed on opposite ends of the kitchen. Both with your arms folded.

“I don't really like your friends.” He says.

“I don't think my friends should be your problem, is what I'm saying.” You clarify. “And anyway, I thought you’d like the fact that Sohee’s my friend.”

Shotaro Scoffs as he says, “I'd like it more if he didn't try to inject himself into our relationship, babe.” Shotaro's voice is incredibly calm, but his words are aimed like an arrow doused in poison, as he closes the distance between you two. Your attention is fixed on him as he lifts his hand to trace small lines on your exposed collar, and you nearly fight the urge to make your eyes flutter shut.

“Not to sound like a tired fucking cliche but, I'm just thinking about what's best for you-” That snaps you out of it.

“What's best for me or what's best for you?!" You exclaim before slapping his hand away.

If only you knew how badly that particular passive-aggressive action affected him. Shotaro crowds you against the counter as he pushes his front up against yours until he's quite literally peering down at you. You refuse to crane your neck back and look up at him.

He was being ridiculous.

“I'm not choosing between you or my friends, Taro-”

“You're so pretty, you know that?” His completey-out-of-left-field comment, especially layered with that sweet-as-honey voice of his, shoots straight to your core, and you grab the counter behind you for support. “And smart too,” he says, before trailing his hand down your arm, eliciting a trail of goosebumps in his wake. Shotaro’s touch is not only sensual, but its molten fucking lava and it nearly has you melting into a puddle on the floor.

“So I trust you to make your own decisions.” He says, nodding with cute finality before lifting your face up by your chin.

“Taro…” Your heart resorts to frenzy, and your head flies backward when Shotaro drifts his fingers past the seams of your maxi skirt. His are fingers- quite literally making their descent down your underwear while you remain too dumb to do anything but say: “I-I knew Sohee before I knew you.”

He only pushes up against you further, letting his hand grip the side of your neck. “You really think now is a good time to throw that in my face?” He asked with a tilt of his head and his hand now sliding over your cunt.

“You're not wet,” he whispers, “Why aren't you wet?” Before you're ever able able to answer, Shotaro drops to his knees before picking up the ends of your billowing skirt and disappearing underneath the fabric. A torrid gasp escapes your throat when his warm breath skates over your cunt and you're once again throwing your head back in absolute ecstasy.

He pokes his head up from underneath your skirt, cute smile on display while his fingers massage your aching clit. “You're always so wet for me, baby," he says with a childish frown, "What's the matter, huh?” He tilts his head again. “Is it your friend?”

He asks casually, as if his middle finger was not easing its way past your entrance … as if he his fingers were not already drenched in your arousal in less than a minute. “Fuck, Shotaro-”

“Is it because of him?” He continues to ask, now fully moving his fingers in and out of yoy while he remained on his knees- gaze never once wavering. “I'm sorry, bunny,” He says with faux concern, “I didn't know Sohee meant so much to you!”

“F-Fuck Taro-”

At the sound of his name, Shotaro's other hand grips your thigh, only opening your legs wider to split you all the way open against his fingers rough minstriations. He alternates between his middle and index. Sometimes splitting you open with both, until you were thoroughly bucking forward, to the pace that he had set and you were chasing your own orgasm furiously.

“You look like you're gonna cum for me, baby!” He exclaims with big bright eyes and a wide open smile. Equal parts adorable and completely fucking manic.

“Ask me to cum,” he whispers, still looking up at you like you were the best toy he could've ever hope to get. “I control your body. I control every part of you.” He says, “So ask me-”

“Please, Taro!- P-Please can I come?” Your hands have long ago found purchase in his blonde locks and you squeeze your eyes shut, bucking into him at a frenzied pace.

“Look at how pretty you are when you're following orders!” He exclaims as if you truly were a child. “So pretty,” he’s absolutely mesmerising, “My pretty girl gets to cum all over my fingers-”

You've already jumped off the cliff, letting your hips stutter as your eyes roll to the back of your head.

Shotaro's eyes appear almost pained by the sight in front of him. How easily you break for him. Whenever he wanted. You truly were in control of his entire being.

“G-God-” Your failed attempt at talking brings a wave of warmth over Shotaro's countenance, and he finds himself pleasantly satisfied once again. He lifts himself up to his full height.

“what a gorgeous girl,” he whispers before pushing his forehead against yours, “My gorgeous girl,” he murmurs before sliding his fingers - the fingers that were once inside you- past your trembling lips.

[sunnyie-eve]

21 | Gotta Pick

Series: Unexpected

Paring: (Matt Sturniolo x OFC Brock!) (Chris Sturniolo x OFC Brock!)

Word Count: 1k

Warnings: Fuck, Marry, Kill game

| MASTERLIST |

Today the guys were filming for a car video and originally Dani wanted to stay in bed and not be in it but the constant begging bugged the shit out of her so she gave in.

"I posted a thing that said car video topics ideas. What do you want us to do? So someone said have one all about Dani. So we have a ton of questions for Dani." Nick tells the car.

"I'm scared." Dani holds herself.

"Just a bunch of random Q&As." Chris tells her.

"Hopefully they won't be too rude or wild." Matt adds.

"First question, what's the stupidest thing you've ever done?" Nick reads off of his phone.

"Change how I dressed for a guy I liked."

"Did it work for you?" Chris asks her, "Or did you look like an idiot?"

"Little bit of both actually." She laughs thinking back.

"Your favorite triplet?" Nick reads them smiles at her so they all look at her.

"Obviously Nick. He is my spirit animal I wish to be at times. You can make me laugh at literally anything." She answers, "I love you two too but Nick takes the trophy." She pats the other two in the shoulders.

"Fuck, Marry, Kill; Sam, Jake, and Corey." Nick laughs reading off to her, "That's funny for you."

"That's actually so unfair." She tells him.

"Just..." Matt starts

"Ahhhh!" Dani yells.

"Colby is gonna love this." He tells her looking back in the mirror.

"That's like if it was you three." Dani groans, "No matter what I answer I'm screwed."

"Just say it." Matt laughs, "Super fast."

"Matt!"

"What?" He laughs more, "I'm trying to help you."

"You're trying to help me?" She gives him a look, "Fuck it. Jake, Sam then Corey." She gives an answer. "I hardly talk to Corey anymore sadly so that's why I killed him. I choose to marry Sam because he like a brother so I know he would treat me well. And just yeah for Jake." 

"Dani, I'm so sorry but the three of us is the next question." Nick looks up at her as her jaw drops.

"Noooooooo!" She whines throwing her head back.

"So you gotta kill one of us." Nick tells her, "Who will it be?"

"Can we label each one different so no one has to die?" She asks so Matt cheers, "And maybe change fuck back to kiss?"

"How about we make it Kiss Marry and Ignore for a week?" Matt suggests for her.

"Can we change kiss to hug?" She asks with a smile.

"Gotta have something to make it still a little difficult." He tells her.

"But why?"

"We can keep it OG?" He tells her.

"Might as well." Chris adds.

"No matter what way I go I can't pick a Nick for the first two options." Dani stats.

"Cause I'm gay."

"Exactly, so I can't kiss/fuck or marry you." She shouts, "I'm so not your type."

"So it's ignore me for a week/kill me." Nick stats.

"So that leaves two of us." Matt laughs.

"What if don't answer?" Dani sits up to lean closer.

"Have to,"

"Convince her why she should pick you to marry." Nick tells the two in the front.

"One, I'm slightly taller than Matt." Chris makes Dani laugh, "Two, I'm funnier. Better looking too." He adds his reasons.

"Why bring up height?" Matt laughs at him too so Dani says that why she laughed, "We're both taller than her anyways so it doesn't really matter to her."

"But I'm still taller than you so hush." Chris tells him.

"But I clean and drive compared to you." Matt points out.

"I drive my husband around." Dani laughs, "Excuse me, I have to go pick my husband up from work. Yeah, I'm his Uber." Dani jokes around making them laugh, "I'd also do all the cooking and cleaning too."

"I'll have my license by then." Chris looks back at her.

"Chris is not winning her over." Nick laughs.

"Honestly, like if I didn't live with you or know you well... I'd pick you for kiss/fu-, I can't even say it." Dani stops herself so they laugh at her, "I refuse to say it while it I look at you." She covers Chris's face with her hand so she can't see him.

"That's fair so you're marrying that thing." Chris nods his head towards Matt so turns with a smile to look back at Dani.

"Don't look at me like that." She laughs as he keeps smiling, "But yeah, I'd marry Matt out of you three. Unlike my reasons with Chris, I pick based on knowing Matt." She explains, "We relate with some things."

"I agree." He nods his head.

"Dani who is your favorite brother?"

"I don't have a favorite nor can I pick out of Colby or Gage." She explains to them.

"But if you had to choose? I'll even mute the audio." Nick tells her so she covers her mouth so no one can read her lips.

"Gage," She says so the guys try not to react so big.

"What to go into detail?" Chris asks so Dani slaps him.

"No, I will not, thank you."

Nick smiles at the next question knowing he shouldn't really bring it up but he wanted to just for fun, "Which Sturniolo is the best looking?" He looks over at her, "You've said to each of us we're good looking but who comes out on top?"

Both Chris and Matt look back at her making her look between them trying not to smile, but it was more like of put on the spot awkward smile. "Umm would it really matter? You're triplets."

"Dani you know we aren't 1000% identical and you have said that yourself." Matt laughs.

All three brothers were waiting for her to give them an answer and she was dreading because how fans would react and take it so out of context. Hell, Colby would lose his mind as well hearing the video.

"Fuck it, I hate you guys. I pick Matt since I'm a Matt girly. When I first saw you guys online, I became one. Now I'm ready to run away." She says then gets out of the car causing the three to crack up.

"Well, that's the end of the car video." Chris keeps laughing, "We have to go get Dani because she literally started walking off from the car." He adds as Nick shout for her to come back.

"BYE BYE!" She shouts still walking away from the car.

"Hopefully we can get her back in the car to go and hopefully she'll be in the next car video as well." Nick says before Matt stops the recording.

[sinner-sunflower]

Lucifer AU idea- Rabbit Hole

Y'all know that Rabbit Hole by Miku song with the animation trend? Imagine Luci doing that dance ugh

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The song is Angel Dust's first official music video that he wrote after breaking free of Valentino's deal.

Ozzie had offered him a job to Club Ozzie's first Pride ring branch and Angel never felt happier.

He got into music as an outlet for his emotions, releasing 'Addict' and 'Poison' to the public via Al's radio show. (He managed to convince Alastor to do it cos it would make his ratings skyrocket past Vox and Alastor loves nothing more than kicking Vox when he's already down)

After the success of his first 2 songs, Angel decided that maybe the 3rd one should have a music video.

With the help of Ozzie as his producer, the project is a go.

Writing the song was the easy part. Angel wanted it to sound fun but also resonate with his past experiences (just read the translation of the lyrics! The one angel wrote is from this Cover!)

One day, he and Ozzie were brainstorming at the Sin's office at the Pride branch.

Ozzie: Angel, this is your first music video! It must be grand! Showstopping! Jaw-dropping! Never before seen! Revolutionary!

Angel: But how do I do that, big dick boss man? I don't think even being greatest porn star Hell has ever seen will wow people now. I've done lots of things and I can't think of anything else.

Ozzie: Hmmm

Just then, Lucifer enters the office.

Lucifer: Ozzie! Just who I'm looking for. I need you to do some inspection regarding your crystals. I just talked to Belphagor and she said that her team just confiscated a whole ton in some imp warehouse in Greed. I know I don't need to meddle but I wouldn't be worried if it was anywhere else. Who knows what Mammon is doing with those and- oh! Angel!

Angel: Heya, Short king.

Lucifer: What are you doing here?

Angel: I work here, baby~

Lucifer: Oh! I knew that haha. And what's this?

The King of Hell gestures to the board they were using for notes.

Angel: Don't tell anyone, but I'm gonna be releasin a new song and it's gonna have a music video!

Lucifer: Really?! That's great! It hasn't been that long too since Poison, wasn't it?

Angel: Yeah, but we wanna catch these motherfuckers off guard

Ozzie: That's why we're brainstorming how we can wow these desensitised demons. I still think we can do-

Lucifer: Why don't I do it?

Angel and Ozzie blink in surprise at the King's words.

Angel: Do what?

Lucifer: Act! In your music video! You know, instead of you, I'll be the uhhh 'rabbit girl'? Not that- you're uh- not enough I just mean that uhm- I think the last thing they'd expect is the King of Hell a sinner's music video.

Angel: Babe, you do know this would be a not safe for work type thing, right?

Lucifer: Yeah? I know? I know you better than you might think, you know.

Ozzie: You sure? Cos Charlie might see this.

Angel: Yeah. I know I don't wanna see my dad basically naked dancing to music.

Lucifer: You can go through it with her if it makes you feel any better. But I'm up for anything.

The two others in the room just stare at him with their mouths wide open.

Lucifer: But if you don't want I...

Angel: Hell no! We are doing this!

Ozzie: Hell won't know what hit em.

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Charlie gave it a green light cos she's so excited about her dad finally socializing and breaking out of his cocoon to really realize what everything is about. Angel wants to record a reaction of the hotel for research purposes.

A few weeks later, the video is done and it's dropped out of nowhere.

Ozzie invited the Sins to the hotel for an exclusive live viewing (he and Angel ofc knew what time it would be released and set the whole thing up)

Everyone sat in the lobby in front of a giant projector (No, Alastor, you can't watch a video on the radio!), and as the clock struck at 9:13 AM on a random Tuesday, the video played.

Let's just say that it certainly did leave mouth agaped and caused mass panic.

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Ozzie anonymously sent a copy to Heaven and somewhere in a bright glowing building, 6 archangels lay unconscious at the ground due to shock,

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If you guys want me to write some dialogue for that first reaction in the hotel, drop the comment!

[schlattslonghairytoes]

chapter two

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iMessage!

##########

hey talia?

whom is this.

oh sorry its hansum

from last night

hope its alright I got your number from ted

oh hi hansum!

contact changed to "mr I shit my pants🪩"

sorry I left without saying goodbye, I was rly tired

oh don't worry abt it, it kinda fizzled out after you left

are you saying I carried the party?

read

wowwwww

hes ignoring me now.

yknow ive only been speechless a handful of times. 

this is one of them, I'm speechless.

so stunned I'm even using proper punctuation.

You forgot to capitalize! 😃

read  real life!

Talia 

hangover is one vicious bitch because it feels like my eyes are being ripped out of their sockets right now, and brittnay's door slamming habits don't fucking help.

"'ello me majesty, i have your water and your trusty advil, 'swell as an open ear for anything that might of occurred last fine evening". I swear britney would of flourished in the middle ages. I take my meds and sit up.

"I think I saw schlatt last night." I deadpan.

you would think I'm telling people someone died, two people in the span of ten minutes have been stunned to silence by me.

"wait a minute, schlatt schlatt? like obsessed with monkeys schlatt? fell off a city bike into a child schlatt? jonathan schlatt from high school?"

"girl you're smart, have you ever met anyone else with the last name schlatt." she shakes her head.

"how do you feel, oh my god did you talk to him?" silence fills the room "you didn't even say hi? oh wow you really are stupid, cmon, wait let me guess, you irish goodbyed too." the silence in the room continued.

"oh bitch you've got to be kidding, tal you cannot keep running away from shit, you are a strong independent woman who needs to stop leaving when things get difficult. do you hear me." brittnay has always been my biggest supporter, but even her words only go so far.

"brittnay its hard, I just feel like my only option is to run away as fast as possible, listen I know you have to go record with trixie, thank you, now go before your late and she kills you."

"you're so lucky i love you, stay strong, stop running and do the dishes, see you at 8." britney calls as she gets up and leaves the house. honestly I've always been a runner, i hate confrontation. i hate actually facing my problems, that's why i lost schlatt in the first place, we were to similar, both scared of outcomes.

"leave, get out of my house schlatt." Talia yelled in his face. "please lia you're leaving tomorrow. I know we don't want to talk about it, but we have too. please I can't lose you lia, c'mon for us we need to talk about it" he begged her in the pouring rain, as cliche as it sounds it was his last chance. he knew no matter how scared he was, he needed to try. "I can't jay, I cant I'm sorry" and she closed the door. closing the chapter on what they could of been

besides she was moving across the country to go to college, he was staying back to start his social media career and his business, it could of worked, maybe. just maybe if she didn't close the door.

iMessage!

theodore roosevelt 

lia

llai

lia

lai

what could you possibly need Theo

I have a huge question

like extremely large

like my johnson

ok wait I need to be serious 😔

gonna ignore the johnson comment

ok lets hear this ginormous ask

can you come to san fran to film some videos with us?

please you would make it so fun

pleaseeeeee

ted.

pleaseeeeee

when.

tomorrow?

😟 tomorrow?!?

and also

one more tiny detail

very tiny

oh goodness what.

schlatts gonna be there.

hmm??

[keylovesstuff]

Hiii Everyone!!!

I've been around for years now and have never introduced myself. mainly cause I just choose to vibe and enjoy the posts people share, but first time for everything. You can just call me Key, I'm 25 and I go by she/her. I enjoy a variety of stuff from manwha, manga, anime, video game franchises, and just a bunch of other animated media you name its probably buried down in my blog somewhere. Every now and then I get motivation to create fanfiction. I have only written works the Dragonball and Super Mario fandom All my works are under the "Keep Reading". My DMs and askbox here is always open if you ever want to chat I apologize in advance if I come across as a bit awkward (socializing is not a strong suit of mine) or if it takes me a minute to reply (adulting and hobbies am I right?), otherwise I'm a pretty chill person. Thats about it!

One of these days I really want to change my Penname...But I've had it for years now and I'm way too attached to it lmao.

Super Mario Fics: So a lot of these are Princess Peach centric and I'm just crafting up an origin story and some other events following the 2023 film. The links take you to the tumblr post but I have included the AO3 and FFN (for reading preferences) links either in the original post itself or in the case of my earlier stuff in the reblogs.

Lost And Found

A Learning Opportunity (2 chapters on both AO3 and FFN. They are both on the same post here)

Thoughts Over Tea

Aftermath

Finding The Balance

Little Events (Finished)

Chapter 1: The Dark

Chapter 2: A Decision

Chapter 3: The Coronation

Chapter 4: Proposals

Chapter 5: Changes

Fics Inspired by others:

Villainess Peach and Bowser Jr. (Inspired by the Player One Luigi AU created by Tiny-Prom and Casual-Derg). Please make sure to their blog's and check it out.

Dragonball Fics: The first fandom I have ever written for (and by penname you could probably tell what I read mostly) I have only shared them on FFN and AO3 until now. I was just starting to write fanfiction with the first two so they might be kinda cringe I guess but that's 16 year old me for you haha. gonna embrace the cringe by sharing it on here anyways.

Tournament Day

The Prince Before The Day ( I am never gonna finish that one or go back to it lol)

Bulla's Easter Day

Even when I started making fics I'm still not sure what goes through my mind when it comes to the title or chapter titles its literally the first thing that comes to mind and nothing after that but we will get it one day for sure.

Here's Some WIPs (that's both written and not) you guys can look forward too from me. I'll remove them and add them under the appropriate fic tags once I post them:

Uncle Yamcha fic: It is currently three chapters. The first one is him and Trunks, second is Marron, and the third one is Bra/Bulla. I really want to think of one for him and Goten but nothing has come to my mind. I just think he's more close to Krillin and Bulma where he'd interact more with their kids and I can't think of a scenario for him and Goten or what they would even talk about but maybe something will come. (I've currently sent this off to my Beta for review but lemme know if you guys want to see the un-beta'd version I have on here cause I'm really forward to sharing it)

Untitled EOZ fic following after Goku leaves the Tournament grounds to train Uub. This one sits at about 8k words (not sure exactly cause I added a bunch of notes at the end for my beta to see where my thoughts were going with it all) anyways this one focuses mainly on Trunks, Goten, Marron, Pan, and Bra as really the older kids look forward to what may lie ahead. A lot of it is just me focusing on the dynamics they have with each other. When I saw that dlc for kakorat was going to be focused on that one that really makes me want to share this one. Again let me know if you want to see that.

Based on this Ask here you can already see that I've completed 4 out of my 5 ideas so that leaves the other ones and maybe more if I think of anything else. All of these will probably be added to my Little Events fic. a few little ideas not shared here but I've thought about and have some dialoge in mind but haven't fully created yet.

I want to do something where Mario and Haru interact I just think it'll be so neat.

Maybe something where I do my take on introducing Sarasland and Princess Daisy. Probably along the lines of Peach meeting Daisy for the first time.

I need to hop on the wholesome bros. content at some point and I know I wanna try my hand with Mia and Pio as a part of it.

I think thats it for now...I'll probably add more if I think of something as having somwhere to put it down no matter how small it is can be nice to look at and push me towards getting it done.

[anonraja]

I love it. I could not imagine a funnier result. Don't know what the fuck they'll do for Deer Bro and Baldr, but I really really REALLY hope Sharena gets something that ties her to both Peony and Henriette. Perhaps Sharena will be the first dancer for CYL? I doubt it, but one can dream. I feel they're just going to go with the "safe" Sothis Regalia attire for M!Byleth, but I'll be pleasantly surprised if they model him after Jeralt.

I'm fairly certain one of the reasons Heroes characters are doing well over others at this point is due to people who actually play mainline titles quitting the game. This trend would leave people who only know the franchise through Heroes, or those who's first introduction to the franchise was through Heroes and a lot of main characters from easily accessible titles are already in. This could also account for Three Houses still doing so well years later; people got introduced to 3H through Heroes and picked it up since they had a Switch or people picked up 3H as their first title then found out about Heroes. Whatever the case, it's likely CYL 10 will have at least one winner from Heroes and another winner from 3H. Unless a new Heroes OC that resonates with Heroes voters is introduced (either because thirsty or they genuinely like the character), I think Heroes voters might jump to Heroes Anna to complete the set or Freyja as she's still ranking highly.

I can't say for certain why Engage isn't doing well, but it's clear it's a combination of factors when even Reba Buhr campaigning for Ivy didn't work despite Mela Lee doing the same for adult Tiki in CYL 6 and Sam Slade helped boost Baldr's votes (although I think a lot of people were voting for Baldr anyway because she's pretty). Granted, Mela Lee's video for Tiki also came at a time when people were upset about adult Tiki getting zero representation. But this should be a similar case: people are upset about a lack of Engage representation, it's taken two years to get a decent amount of the cast in and some are still stuck as limited units (like Ivy herself being stuck not once but twice). I don't know exactly what it is, but it's more than just people quitting Heroes and vote splitting. Maybe the characters just didn't resonate with people? Maybe the game didn't sell well compared to other modern Fire Emblem titles so there's just less overlap between people who bought and played/finished Engage with Heroes players? There's likely more factors than that at play, but those two might be the main ones?

MY BABIES! THEY DID SO WELL!!! I'm going all in on Azura next year tbh. I love Sylvain, he's one of my absolute favorites, but I really want Azura to win.

I hope Tsubasa being Top 5 for women forces IntSys to see there's a clear and active fanbase for TMS that's still playing Heroes, but I think she's gonna need to pull off a win for that to happen. I really hope TMS voters will be able to go all in on her next year just to try and force her into the Top 3. Looking at Itsuki's votes, they can probably force a women's Top 2 for her if they all go all in on Tsubasa right at the start instead of swapping midway through.

It's interesting that Grima had more votes than Reinhardt, but seemingly does NOT count as a male. This implies IntSys might view Grima as female since F!Robin is seen as the "canon" vessel. We would need more data overall to 100% confirm that as it's also entirely possible IntSys views Grima as being genderless. Kinda want to see which side Grima would fall on if they clearly made the cut for Top 10 overall since it almost seems like they were excluded based on some sort of internal technicality.

[synonymouswithanonymous]

Chains lol

He's worked several times throughout the last couple of years, his voice over work for an animated film, nightwatch 2, 2 tv shows filmed and aired, two unknown projects one in Scotland (she visited him briefly) and one in Spain. Short film Pic. So it's not like he's been lumping around idle without work lol. He was filming something else in DK about 2 weeks ago, unknown new project. Also worked on his GF's podcast and been on several podcasts.

Now he's got a visa to probably work in NYC like he mentioned in an interview..for an international film.

Bali and Lebanon trips for G2N & RC.

Beyonce concert and Smukfest (article said Johanne was visiting family or friends during Smukfest). Plus a boys trip in Dublin. This is off the top of my head. He travels a lot. Lol Other concerts, even with his Dad.

So I'm not sure why some people are acting like he doesn't leave the house or his girlfriend keeps him chained at her side. That's clearly not what's happening. 😂😂😂😂 that's the new/latest irrational angle I guess. Or that she's keeping him from work or friends for some imagined reason haters imagined her to have. Just bc you don't see instagram posts of him with friends doesn't mean he's not been with friends. Just bc neither person posted them at Christmas together doesn't mean they didn't see each other at all ( their second Christmas together), doesn't mean they didn't have their "couples Christmas" and exchange gifts lol. And how are you going to use what you didn't see as a way to make up a story that she's manipulating him by withholding her presence. or gets mean when she doesn't get her way (lol random irrational assumption). Or keeping him from work and friends.😂😂 I mean really are you kidding me? 😂😂😂😂😂 this is imo, highly irrational.

Maybe they only show what they want to show, on socials, and are private with the rest (they seem more guarded with posts now). They're basically already living together (clothes in closet was posted so educated guess) but we don't see every minute of their days or nights. But again, educated guess, they're having sex. We won't see it ever ( good bc that's extra private) but I'm gonna guess that they are. To hammer my point home about the just bc you don't see it on Instagram doesn't mean it's not happening. Consider work schedules and real life for all involved, consider also when you're in a relationship you will spend a large portion of time with your partner. This is normal. Like when people have kids and unless you visit them you might not see them for awhile. Lol

This doesn't make him weak, it doesn't say anything bad about him at all. It also doesn't say anything bad about her either. Why is he seen as weak or a victim of some kind? It doesn't make sense. Why does she have to a villain to some people? And not just a normal couple with extraordinary jobs? They seem pretty solid even though he travels a lot. But she's an actor too, so she would understand the travel aspect of the job/life.

Sidenote the "hands" video, her face is so adorably sweet looking in the video. They're cute together. The tickling was funny. 😊😊😊

[bloodyshadow1]

Just because I have to criticize the things I love so they don't fester I'm putting my problems with spider man 2 under the cut. very spoiler heavy

The parry system is frustrating. Not gonna pretend it's not a skill issue but I don't like it and it's needed for every boss battle

I don't like that u need a full bar to use your focus to heal. Again might just be because I'm not good but it's hectic when I'm fighting a boss and having to dodge or parry while having a sliver of health and a sliver away from a full focus bar

I feel like harry needed to be darker before giving up the symbiote to peter. He has the blood lust towards Kraven after he stabs peter, but just some subtle hints while he still has the basic symbiote. Maybe getting a bit snippy when they're rescuing tombstone or fighting a bit more vicious than he had to be against the hunters

I feel like the Peter MJ fight after he wakes up is just bad. They fight about the article. not him being puppeted around by the symbiote, not him attacking her and almost killing her, no, they fight about an article about how he might not be good for the city which is something even normal Pete would be upset over. It feels like it should have happened earlier when he starts to become darker and more vicious and then had a bigger fight where he refuses to believe her about his rampage as his breaking point.

I feel like there's not enough differences between miles and peter, or rather peter doesn't have anything to differentiate him from miles outside of the symbiote. Miles has his venom/electric powers and peter has his iron spider arms, which I'm not gonna lie I've never been a fan of. I feel like peter should have had more basic enhancements like being stronger, faster, and tougher by a little because he's older and has been doing this for 9 years vs miles' 1. That way miles getting more powers would makes sense because that would allow him to keep up with the older, bigger, more experienced peter.

I feel like the wheel of web gadgets from 1 was better than separating moves from gadgets. I feel like the L1 R1 moves/gadgets gave you less choice than the gadget wheel from the first game.

more heroes should be around. I get that it's probably because marvel had issues adding them to a game even if it's called Marvel's Spider-Man, but in game, it feels weird that the avengers tower and the baxter building exist in this new york and not have them show up when the second time in 2 years new york is almost destroyed. Why can't they include daredevil or other street level heroes, they don't even need to be in the game that much, maybe Matt trying to talk to Peter and give him some advice about balancing his life with Spider-man's life, hypocritically of course, but it would be nice to see. Also it would be cool to have Miles and Peter backed by some other heroes, maybe even some villains as they go to defeat Venom

I feel like Peter and MJ should have had a scene together after he gets the symbiote off instead of just a phone call. Peter doesn't even go to oscorp tower right away so he has enough time to do side missions, until Dr Connors is ready, but he only gives MJ a phone call instead of a scene. It just feels really weak. It also would add to the story with Pete having the tube holding the Symbiote who is such a yandere for him. Seeing him with MJ after they separated and seeing the two of them having a moment of love and forgiveness would help with the story imo.

not really a complaint to finish off, but I feel like the app so people can ask Spider-man for help is crazy. It's one thing for Peter, and to a lesser extent Miles, to be spider-man and do the superhero thing, with patrols and all that, and leaving without explanations ruining his professional and social life. But to add on extra work as a superhero is crazy. Dont' get me wrong I understand why, it's a video game and this is an interesting way to get missions and side missions. I also understand that it's in character for Miles and Peter to do this, which is why I'm not really complaining, but Peter doesn't have a job, he doesn't have any money, he only has a mortgage so he doesn't even own the house anymore. I get power and responsibility and all that, but Peter needs to be able to be an adult and support himself to survive. I get that Peter's life has to suck for Spider-man media to exist, but to add onto his already heavy burden is self-destructive

[embeddedsystems-shius]

Ok dude, this is SO stupid, but I gotta confess right - I'd LOVE to be some kids dad.

More like, I guess - if I was a kid's parent, I guess - I'd want to be that kid's dad. Ok wait this might actually make me cry hold on

I mean, bro I'm almost reaching my 30s, at this point (I'm 28). I think it's kinda natural for me to start thinking about this kinda shit. Right???

Its something I actually had to SERIOUSLY consider, when I proposed to my ex-partner (who is male). And yeah that engagement didn't go through for a lot of different reasons - but one of the biggest worries I had was the fact that I couldn't really bear the thought of being someone's wife, or some kid's mother.

It felt... Weird.

I'm not sure if that's dysphoria or whatever - but in terms of like, relationship roles, I've always been on the side of being the protector and breadwinner of the two. It's made a lot of the people I date INCREDIBLY insecure, because my long-term relationships were always with men.

Who I am has ALWAYS caused a lot of insecurity in my partners - and in the roles that they see themselves carrying within a shared future. I don't really think I would ever really get anything to work out in a traditional family setting (where I am someone's wife, and someone's mom), and if I did, I don't really think I would actually still be myself, at that point.

Cause if I were to be someone's parent... I think I'd really just want to be that kid's dad.

Dude... Shits gonna make me tear up. It already is.

But the thought of, ya know, the simple shit that my male friends and colleagues talk about - the shit that young dads say when they're talking about their kid learning sports with them or playing video games with them... Ya know? Cause bro....

Yeah no actually just crying at this point but. Man.

Im... Kinda really jealous, of that.

It's a pretty standard dream, to have a family like that. but still. There's a lot of things to it.

Its probabky kinda stupid, but just imagine, right?

Just imagine that when you're fucking toiling away under an unreasonable boss; that you kinda stop and remember that theres a point to all of this. That there's a meaning behind everything that you put yourself through.

Imagine that when you get home from work - that theres somebody there, waiting for you at home.

A wife, a pipsqueak kid - maybe a dog. Maybe a cat, even.

Imagine being able to spend your home life surrounded by people that you love. Having difficult times with the kids from time to time, and helping your wife out where you can with her own life. The stupid mistakes and fights and shit that end up just being funny, at the end of the day. The simple things like waking up in the morning and knowing that you're not alone.

The simple things like waking up beside somebody else. Things like waking up, knowing that you have a kid that relies on you to be teach them how to stand, and fight.

To watch that kid grow, and mature.

To grow old with your own wife, and to stand beside them - even through pain, sickness, and strife.

To watch your child grow into who they are, and to watch them stand on their own - carrying a part of you with them, always.

The things you taught them won't leave. The knowledge you've imparted, and the feelings that every child holds to the people they consider their parents. It'll always just be a part of who they are.

...and its a simple dream, I think.

Its not... Attainable, for me. But it's a simple, common dream.

Cause if I were being honest, right.

If I were being entirely honest - I think I'd like to have a son.

I'd like to teach him how to do some sports (not the standard stuff, but I'd REALLY like him to know how to be good at ultimate frisbee and darts), and I'd really like to teach him how do other random stuff like fishing and camping. If I ever get that hunting license with my own dad, I'd probably want to teach him how to hunt, too.

I'd probably want to show him how to treat animals right - how to befriend a scared dog, because most people are afraid of dogs that might bite. I'd want to teach him how to make friends with people - and eventually, how to handle being in an intimate relationship with somebody else.

I'd teach him what it means to provide for somebody. To protect them - but to respect them, as well.

And if they didn't want to be the provider or protector of the other person - I'd probably be a lil confused, but I'd do my best to be supportive of them anyways. Hopefully my wife would know how to handle his scenario, in that case.

I think I've always wanted to be some kid's dad. I dunno why. But thats the only thing thats ever really felt right, for me.

I don't know why.

...But still, I sometimes feel crushed under the weight of these thoughts, knowing that that isn't exactly possible.

I'm not a man.

And it's not like HRT will make me magically grow a penis. I already have enough testosterone as it is.

I am not a man. And I'll never be someone's father.

I'm.... Not sure why I'm so sad, about it.

I don't really know if crying, as I am - is the appropriate reaction for any of this. I don't exactly experience dysphoria, in any way, either.

I wouldn't even count as being trans.

But I guess, the more I actually know about myself - the more I can't hide from the fact that I feel like I... I don't really wanna be who I am.

When everything I've ever related to, and the only world I've ever seen or really seem to understand - isn't even something I can ever really reach, while I'm alive - I don't know who I'm supposed to be.

I don't really know what the world expects of me.

It's kinda suffocating. Haha.

[mla0]

shaunvin for the ship bingo. ik you want to

Ohhh okay man right okay this is like my ship of all time, besides Shormy that is. I may be the only one that gets it. But that’s okay. I’m going to talk about this ship so much, so I’m gonna put it under a cut.

I get why people might find it to be weird but I need to explain it because I have so much to say about this one. If you don't get it, maybe me being insane about it can help someone understand where I'm coming from here LOL

Genuine warning this is LONG. 

God, okay, where do I even start. So, I put it as both crackship and ship because of the canon, because this is true. It is a crackship, in the sense that Shaun and Vinny only “talked” in one instance. However, the canon is still why I ship them. They both altered each other’s stories so much, especially in Vinny’s case since he lived lol. But just… the fact that Shaun was what broke Vinny and made him leave, or try to anyways. The fact that even years later, Vinny specifically apologizes to her by name and almost cries in the process. That is insane to me. The moment I saw this shit I started shipping them, and I am not kidding. The ways you could work around Shaun either coming back magically or surviving somehow, and how they’d interact as a dynamic. The difficulties through it, the slight toxicity and probable hostility from Shaun in the beginning. Like okay sure, it’s a silly ship, but I also find it incredibly genuine. It’s the kind of shit that’d work so well as a slowburn. It's about trust!!

There’s also just the fact that they’re both similar characters… but also opposites, in a sense? They’re both bystanders. Intentionally positioning themselves outside the “real” danger, but their reasons for this are not the same. Shaun is distant because she 1. Doesn’t trust Michael, 2. Is terrified of the truth / slenderman in general, and 3. Is in extreme denial. Shaun wanted to NOT be involved. Shaun didn’t want to watch in the background, she didn’t want to watch at ALL. She wanted to blind herself to reality because it made her feel safe, and it got the people around her hurt! Vinny, too, stays back and watches, or tries to anyways. He’s the voyeur, his job is to be a relatively distant, logical bystander. Thing is… Vinny’s pretty bad at this. He isn’t lacking in the emotional department at all, he can’t detach himself from what he’s doing, from the fact that he’s hurting people. He questions himself and reflects so often in the series, you can tell he has deep, gashing regrets for everything he does and is doing. Vinny is forcing the plot forward, Vinny is pulling his own eyes open, Vinny is desperate for answers. Shaun wants to hide, keep her eyes SHUT, keep it AWAY and OUT of her head, she’s desperate for NORMALCY. And I think Shaun experiences a lot of regret too. Even when she says some really shitty things, in a lot of videos you can kinda tell she’s hesitant and doesn’t want to be saying this stuff. Personally I think she takes that extra step because maybe she thinks it’ll push Michael away. 

And, well…. There’s differences between them that makes it so they’re obviously not clones, while ALSO having similarities that can make them relate to each other in some ways. Shaun can’t accept her role. Vinny can’t escape his. Also just… sigh. The healing the two could have. Them both learning to trust someone else outside of their own circle, to take in the better and worse qualities about the other and try to learn from them. Venting about the expectations placed on them mixed with the complicated feelings they both have about that. Their fucked up family lives. Their fucked up but still ultimately good family that they both love and want to do better by. They both have a lot of regrets, and who better to help them through it than someone who knows what it feels like? They could be each others anchors. They both have DEEPLY flawed qualities to themselves, partly due to their own choice, and partly due to circumstances outside of their control. Both have been shoved into positions neither wanted since childhood, things they’re not allowed to really grow outside of in their normal environment. Shaun, around everyone she already knows, probably feels like “that asshole who put her brother away,” or “the younger sibling of that guy who’s barely even around and might hate her” (In her mind.) Vinny’s the voyeur, Vinny’s been getting molded by HABIT since literally Fairmount and escaping that role is not easy, if even possible. Also a personal headcanon but…. I don’t think Corenthal was a great dad. I think he probably put a lot of pressure onto Vinny to be the Good One, and I think Shaun might’ve gone through similar. I can practically imagine Shaun’s parents saying some shit like “you don’t want to be like your brother, do you?” They both are constantly compared to and put above someone who is scapegoated (Michael, Evan) and that is going to fuck you up BAD. Shaun doesn't want to keep the act up. Shaun is so tired of self sustaining this standard because she feels like she has to, and I think Vinny is fucking tired too.

Also just in terms of personality I think they work. Shaun’s a bit more of a hothead than Vinny, but I don’t think she’s to the level of, say, Evan or Noah. Snappy and sarcastic, but fully capable of being like... genuine to the point of dorkiness ("I found the key.... to your heart" is a thing she canonically says to her girlfriend. She's a loser.) They’re both goofy nerds, and I think they’d go out of their way to try to accommodate for the other. Both are lonely. Both are grieving the people who were taken from them. Both are so, so deeply fucking GUILTY for how they've treated others, for what they've put others through because of their inaction. Shaun canonically did plenty of nice things for Stormy, like buying her flowers (so cute…) and Vinny was pretty adorable in regards to that librarian girl. I think they’d genuinely both care a lot about each other. It might start as a guilt thing, but over time it'd be out of a genuine sense of just wanting to see the other be comfortable and secure. Yes, there’s anger at first. Shaun would be fucking pissed at Vinny for tricking her in the beginning, and in a scenario where Shaun gets Vinny out of his situation, Vinny might be pissed right back because now they’re both in danger of being caught. They see the flaws of the other that reflect themselves, and it makes them both angry. They don’t want to sympathize with each other because then they’d have to reflect on themselves, and realize that maybe their self hatred is unfounded too. 

Then they start to relate to each other. Then they start to talk, and see more and more of the life they’ve lived. They get more personal, more caring even when they both pretend to be aloof. Shaun putting a blanket on Vinny when she thinks he’s asleep. Vinny making sure she eats. Both of them making sure the other doesn’t get overly consumed in their goals. Both wanting to protect each other. Slowly but surely, they go from weird runaways, to friends, and eventually I think they’d tell each other they like each other. I think they’d keep that internal for ages for obvious reasons, but one might slip on accident and it just kinda. Becomes a very awkward conversation. They don’t talk about it too much at first, but they lean into it anyways. Nothing needs to be said, to them. But eventually they’d have to, and they’d very slowly start tiptoeing into territory they both probably thought they’d never be in again. And it’s fucked up and maybe things aren’t okay for a while. But maybe, maybe eventually it could be. And I just really like that. 

[perpetual-fool]

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I've been thinking of others' behavior as 'to what effect' rather than 'for what purpose', since intent seems to be entirely unrelated to their actions. But that framing might be useful for understanding myself as well.

There are two things that have still been bothering me, both culminating in "I'm sorry for being a stupid piece of shit", despite my trying to just not be sorry. And I've spent lots of time on the 'piece of shit' part, which is largely undefined. It's just a vague idea that there must be something wrong with me. But the compulsion is to apologize, and the effect of that would be.. that they understand my feelings and respond appropriately? That ain't gonna happen of course, but it suggests that the 'being sorry' part is actually more important than the 'piece of shit' part. Instinct is to blame myself for it, but it's just the pain of alienation. And the other thing, the generic confusion and unrelenting pain when trying to understand anything, that's just the cognitive dissonance of not understanding.

Or, is lack of understanding not supposed to hurt? I mean, it's not just that I don't know things, it's that things 'should' be a certain way and they're not. I 'should' know how to do this already, or this 'should' be working.

And like, the reason I don't understand is sabotage. For the example, let's go with something simple and mundane that seems to really have been done in good faith. So, how do you cook eggs without them sticking (without a nonstick pan)? And there are a ton of videos that are like "just do A/B/C, and then your pan will be nonstick (like teflon)!" And all of those are lies. If I do A/B/C, and then start stirring the eggs around without any worries, they stick every fucking time. It didn't work? oh, you just didn't use the right kind of butter, or you didn't let the eggs come up to room temperature first, or you didn't slide the eggs in gently enough, or the pan was too hot and/or too cold. And they're all red herrings, because things that aren't teflon don't have the chemical properties of teflon. They're different, they work differently, different things are happening. And these claims are to the effect of subverting my ability to form any coherent mental structures at all. (Which I've probably stated before.)

Hm, no, I don't think the pain is from simply not understanding. S'yeah, considering it from the outside, I should reject any imperative 'supposed to be' type thoughts. And maybe genuinely learning about something will leave me with good feelings instead of the crushing pain.

Tangent, I wonder if my concept of 'authority' is messed up? I mean, I don't really know what others mean when they use the term, but some of the ways it's used sounds like it might be related. I find myself assuming there's a reason for things. Like, if there's a spatula of a certain shape, then there must be a set of circumstances for which that spatula is perfect. Or there must be something to claims people make. Like, even if they're wrong, there must me some way of looking at the truth to arrive at that conclusion. And for me this is simply attempting to understand. But often I find that other people's input is worse than nothing at all. Practically speaking, it would be much more effective for me if I required others to earn the privilege of having me not simply ignore them. And I'm wondering if that's basically what everyone else already does. Am I thinking of everyone else the way others think of authority figures?

And the crushing pain has lifted since I started writing this. The key thing being to assume no one has any fucking idea what they're doing (until proven otherwise). I hope it keeps working.

And there's a feeling I'd prefer to be having. I don't know how to describe it. It's a feeling of having tools to work with and things I can do with them. It sometimes happens with new games or when I learn a new skill, but quickly goes away when I learn that what I've been taught doesn't work or that there's nothing I can actually do. Like, it's pretty straightforward with games. Either you're very limited in the type of interactions you can actually do, or the game is totally broken. You can't invent anything the developers didn't already think of, ya' know? And I've never seen a game with an optional mastery-level campaign that triggers once you discover the potion of infinite strength or whatever.

I was hoping this would come to a coherent point but that's not happening.

[the-alconbury-chronicle]

Creepy romance books

Okay!

So I didn't expect to be posting again so soon, but I have something I wanna say to more than just my family.

So as I might have mentioned...literally like two minutes ago, I am trying to write.

I do not plan to write romance novels, but I might still want to include relationships in my work.

For that reason, and that reason alone, I went to look for some romance books that include a trope I like.

In doing so I stumbled upon a video of books that use that particular trope.

"Huzzah!" I thought. "At last, a source of bountiful knowledge on this somehow niche topic!"

Imagine my disappointment when the very first book of the video completely bastardizes the trope I was looking into.

It didn't even just do it poorly, it totally corrupted it.

Which is a very funny joke...to me.

The book is called "Corrupt", okay?

What do you want from me, I'm not a comedian.

Anyway, the synopsis of the book is as follows:

Erika I was told that dreams were our heart’s desires. My nightmares, however, became my obsession. His name is Michael Crist. My boyfriend’s older brother is like that scary movie that you peek through your hand to watch. He is handsome, strong, and completely terrifying. The star of his college’s basketball team and now gone pro, he’s more concerned with the dirt on his shoe than me. But I noticed him. I saw him. I heard him. The things that he did, and the deeds that he hid…For years, I bit my nails, unable to look away. Now, I’ve graduated high school and moved on to college, but I haven’t stopped watching Michael. He’s bad, and the dirt I’ve seen isn’t content to stay in my head anymore. Because he’s finally noticed me. Michael Her name is Erika Fane, but everyone calls her Rika. My brother’s girlfriend grew up hanging around my house and is always at our dinner table. She looks down when I enter a room and stills when I am close. I can always feel the fear rolling off of her, and while I haven’t had her body, I know that I have her mind. That’s all I really want anyway. Until my brother leaves for the military, and I find Rika alone at college. In my city. Unprotected. The opportunity is too good to be true as well as the timing. Because you see, three years ago she put a few of my high school friends in prison, and now they’re out. We’ve waited. We’ve been patient. And now every last one of her nightmares will come true.

Already sounds pretty gross, right? But it gets worse!

Apparently Michael is planning to harm, or even kill Erika, because she somehow got some of his friends arrested?!

Hey dude, hey Michael. Fucking how? Okay? How are you and your buddies, all grown adults by now, gonna hold an 18 or 19 year old girl respnsible for their arrests? Is she a teenage detective? Did I miss that part of the summary or something?

Regardless, Michael gets close to Erika, intending to gain her trust before betraying her to his friends.

But uh oh! Michael falls for her! So now, he has to protect this girl from a situation HE put her in!

Honestly, I feel like a title like "Corrupt", coupled with it's description of "dark romance" perfectly encapsulates the nightmare that must lie between the covers of this book.

I hope to anything that might be listening that people stop feeling the need to write books like this.

Like seriously, just write likeable characters, okay?

I know it's not that hard to write characters that aren't either total dumbasses or awful people!

Just write about two decent people who have a healthy relationship, and let any drama you need to be able to, you know, have a plot, come from other people or situations.

Hell, you could have a romance that fits into another genre!

Superhero romance? Sure, maybe a pair of vigilantes are into each other and their relationship is the focus of the story rather than the crime fighting.

Fantasy romance? Great! Two characters in a magical setting with cool magical crap going on who also love each other, write about that!

Why does every "romance" book have to be a toxic or even abusive relationship, huh?

It's gross, yucky.

Anyway, I think I've gotten that out of my system.

That's all for now,

Tyr

[sushywritez]

The Call | Eddie M. X Fem!Reader

Summary: A night at home takes a turn for the worse when you and Eddie have an odd encounter with an anonymous caller.

i got this idea after watching a few horror movies and thought maybe it would be fun to experiment with some ideas using Eddie, because this man is final girl material m'kay so, please enjoy. of course if there is anything you'd like to see horror or fluff wise let me know.

There was no foreseeable end to the torrential downpour. It had been raining for days and it made for a rather slow day. However, this was a constant reminder of how much you needed to pack up and leave. A small town with hardly anything to show for, mediocre jobs, zero support and horrible pasts. Life wasn't all sunshine and rainbows, but Indiana wasn't the home you wanted. Even if you’d lived in the shitty town of Hawkins most of your life, some good had came from it so you held off.

You had made some friends by scoring a job at Family Video, thanks to Robin. She was the first true friend you had, but you couldn't have her without Steve Harrington. He used to be the showboat type flexing and flaunting his parents money to any girl he saw. The man that could flirt with anything that moved yet he was somehow different. He grew on you too. Naturally you became a die-hard trio until you met there other friends. Dustin and the crew of children that hung around were a delight.

Things were starting to get back to normal and then one day changed everything. You had met Eddie. He was so proud to be himself unlike most men he was honest. Wearing his heart out on his sleeve. You still remember the day the you met. Having dropped by the video store after one of his shifts to return a couple of forgotten. The man was a massive flirt, but he was surprised that you returned the playful banter. It was like a game. One that had gone on for several months before he asked you out.

Another two before it was official and by another year Eddie had surprised you with an apartment. One you two shared and enjoyed, but were really interested in a house.

However, it wasn't exactly affordable. So for now you were content with the small space you both shared.

The sound of jingling had yanked you right from all the thinking, followed by the sound of a creak and shuffling footsteps. “Baby?” 

Oh, Eddie was home. You’d been so busy with all the housework and caught up in your thoughts that time was just irrelevant. 

“In the living room!" You call out to him.

Eddie works off his boots kicking them aside, “Hard day, baby?” He asks, shrugging off his jacket, no doubt soaked from the rain.

“Not really.” You reply reaching down into the basket once more. “Just been doing laundry and cleaning up around the house. Plus you’ve got clothes to sleep in now.” You joke and he chuckles.

"Perfect. I'm gonna shower." Eddie waltzes down the hall passing you on the way. However halfway he stops. "You wanna join?" The smirk that curls his lips upwards is undeniable and you know exactly what he'd been implying to.

However it'd hard to ignore him, so you give in, "Alright, just going to finish this last shirt." You instruct and although it may have been cruel to make such a pretty man wait. Like the child he was Eddie cheered.

You folded the shirt neatly and set it aside in a pile, before pushing yourself off the couch. Only to be stopped by the phone.

Eddie's voice calls from down the hall, "Babe you coming?"

You curse the caller in your head. "Yes, just a minute. It might be Robin." Of course Eddie groans. He's a desperate man right now.

You giggle and reach for the phone, not even to bother with checking who it was. Lifting up the phone to your ear you smile.

"Hello Robin." A smile that could be felt through the phone. Eddie had made a point to tell you that many times his favorite thing was to see you smile. "I was wondering when you were gonna call me I-"

"Hello,(Y/N). You're looking lovely this afternoon."

"Who's this?"

"You'll find out soon enough. For now enjoy your shower."

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[krikeymate]

So I've seen stuff where Sam sneaks off to the shrine alone after Gale's attack. But what if Tara snuck off instead? Like after Sam offers to give herself up maybe she tells Sam that she left her inhaler in Bailey's car or uses Danny showing up to slip away and then leaves to try to stop them herself. She calls Bailey to set up the trap at the shrine after leaving. Because we all know Sam ain't the only one that would do anything to protect her sister.

OH. GENIUS THOUGHT MY FRIEND.

Tara sneaks off and calls Bailey to set a trap. She isn't going to give Sam the chance to sacrifice herself, not after everything she's done.

Bailey can't believe his luck.

Ghostface sends Sam a video of Tara in the shrine, alone, with them waving a knife in front of the camera (like the Amber video, Ghostface is standing on the balcony looking down at her). The follow-up message says come alone or she dies. She tells the others she's gonna go find Tara, and makes her own escape. She sends Kirby a text as she stands outside the shrine: going to the shrine, my sister's in trouble, if you don't hear from me in half an hour, I might be dead. She turns off her phone.

Meanwhile, Tara is standing in front of Billy's case, thinking about how this all started, wondering how he and her mother - two of the worst people she knows - could have made something so wonderful as her sister. She hears a noise from somewhere behind her, but doesn't see anyone come in the entrance. Something feels wrong, she opens the case and takes Billy's knife.

She goes through the stage side entrance, quietly, to investigate. Bailey said he was on his way, but that was a while ago... surely he should be here by now? She feels like she might be on her own in her plan after all.

~

Sam enters the building, preparing herself for the worst. It's empty, it's quiet. She thinks about calling out to her sister, but she knows there's at least one Ghostface here already. She scans the display room, looking for any sign of movement. Finding none, she decides she should move on... then she spots a chain and a padlock resting on a nearby display case beside a familiar pink jacket.

She decides to lock the entrance, she doesn't want any more surprises showing up, and if no one can get in, no one can get out either. She knows what Tara came here to do, and she wasn't wrong, Sam can begrudgingly admit... she just wishes she hadn't tried to do it alone.

"Like you were planning?" says a familiar voice from somewhere over her right shoulder. "Shut up," she mumbles. She's so not in the mood for his commentary right now, or ever. "She's smart," the voice continues, "your clever little sister, trying to lure these fools into her trap... or maybe you're the fool falling into hers." Sam spins around, ready to confront the voice. But there's no one there, it's all in her head. Fuck, she wishes she'd kept her meds on her.

Sam turns and yanks open a side door.

~

Tara's finished tying a knot when her phone rings... it's an unknown number. She wants to ignore it, her thumb swipes to accept the call anyway as she gets back on her feet.

"Tara, Tara, Tara. Did you really think you could make a difference? That you could save your sister? Save yourself?"

"You have no idea what I'm capable of."

"Oh but I do, I've been watching you."

Tara's eyes flick to the camera in the corner of the room. Bailey said they could use them to their advantage, but it seems the Ghostfaces were one step ahead of them.

"It's you who has no idea what I'm capable of. Your sister is on her way, and I'm going to gut you while she watches. But first... I'm going to make you beg."

The caller hangs up as the door behind her opens. Tara spins around, knife slashing out. An arm collides with her hand, knocking her armed hand to the side as the figure steps into her trap. The figure is pulled upwards by their ankle. She can't believe that worked! I mean- wait, "Sam?"

Sam's unimpressed face rotates into view. "What the fuck, Tara?"

"Oh shit, give me a second." Tara cuts at the taut rope, releasing her sister from the snare trap.

"I can't believe you would do something like this," Sam begins, voice angry as she gets up from the floor. She's about to continue when her eyes are drawn to the rope and the makeshift pulley around the door frame, then back at her sister and the bloody knife she holds. "Did you make this?" she asks in disbelief.

Tara frowns, a slight pout to her expression, "it was supposed to be for Ghostface."

Sam shakes her head, she can praise her sister later, after she's scolded her for scaring the life out of her. "What were you thinking, coming here alone?"

"I just... every day you make the decision to protect me, I just wanted to protect you for a change." Tara makes it so hard for Sam to stay mad at her. She pulls her in for a hug. "You have no idea how scared I was," Sam confesses, "every time you're out of my sight I'm terrified that it might be forever, that the last time I saw you could be the last."

"You're never going to lose me, Sam. I promise." Tara's arms squeeze around her tight, and Sam closes her eyes for a moment, resting her head on her sister's.

When she opens them again, it's to a Ghostface stabbing her sister in the back.

[whateverthedragonswant]

4x14 -

Taylor: "That was it?"

Buck: "Yeah, it felt like some kind of weird reverse psychology thing. I kind of prefer it when he yells at me."

Taylor: "Oh, I could yell at you if you think that would help."

Buck: "Come on, you can't be mad. You weren't even there."

Taylor: "There's at least a half a dozen videos on the internet of your climb up that crane. All taken from nearby windows. Any one of those people could have had a gun and shot at your big stupid head."

Buck: "I was wearing a helmet."

Taylor: "Not made of Kevlar, dumbass."

Buck: "Hang on a second. It almost sounds like you were worried about me."

Taylor: "I'm annoyed with you. You're not invincible. You could have gotten hurt. Or worse."

Buck: "I didn't."

Taylor: "Sorry."

Buck: "Uh, okay."

Taylor: "Not sure where that came from. Could be the wine."

Buck: "Maybe we should talk about it."

Taylor: "I should go."

*she leaves, Buck gets call from Ana to tell him that Eddie's awake*

Buck: "Ana. Everything okay?"

*he's running in the halls to Eddie's room, Ana sees him, smiles, and steps aside*

Eddie: "Hey, Buck."

Buck: "Hey."

...

Eddie: "Appreciate you staying with him."

Buck: "Carla offered to bring him to her house but I figured this was overwhelming enough without having to sleep in a strange bed."

Eddie: "He doing okay?"

Buck: "Better than me. Um... I kind of lost it when I told him you got shot. I'm sorry, I should've held it together."

Eddie: "You were there for him when I couldn't be. That's what matters."

Buck: "Still, I think it might have been better for him if I was the one who got shot."

...

Taylor: "You are not dead."

Buck: "And you came back. Uh, wasn't sure that was gonna happen."

Taylor: "Yeah, I kind of ran away."

Buck: "Yeah, I noticed."

Taylor: "You didn't chase after me."

Buck: "Listen, I, uh, I spent a long time feeling like I wasn't enough. And I don't want to do that anymore. So, if you don't want me..."

Taylor: "I do. I really do."

...

Eddie: "So, you might have noticed. I almost died. Again. Man, I've had a lot of close calls. This wasn't even my closest."

Buck: "Eddie--"

Eddie: "Just let me finish. After the last time, when the well collapsed on top of me..."

Buck: "Which you survived."

Eddie: "After that, it got me thinking. What would happen to Christopher if I hadn't. So, I went to my attorney and changed my will. So, someday if I, uh...didn't make it, Christopher would be taken care of. By you."

Buck: "What?"

Eddie: "It's in my will if I die you become Christopher's legal guardian."

Buck: "I mean, how does that even work? Don't you need my consent?"

Eddie: "My attorney said you could refuse."

Buck: "But you know I wouldn't."

Eddie: "I know you wouldn't."

Buck: "I mean, he has grandparents. Other family."

Eddie: "After Shannon left, they all tried to guilt me into giving Christopher to them. It's not what I wanted then, it's not what I want now."

Buck: "If it came to that, wouldn't they fight for him?"

Eddie: "I don't know. Maybe. Probably. But no one will ever fight for my son as hard as you. And that is what I want for him."

Buck: "You said you did this last year. Why are you just telling me this now?"

Eddie: "Because, Evan, you came in here the other day and you said you thought it would have been better if it had been you who was shot. You act like you're expendable but you're wrong."

Besides the obvious convo parallels and how Eddie and Taylor already have some parallels and how just two episodes before it was literally framed as her vs Eddie with Buck in the middle, it just kills me every time to see the scene with Buck and Eddie where Buck says that it would have been better for Christopher had he gotten shot, Eddie's expression afterwards, and then of course the legal guardian scene.

Eddie has been reassuring and building Buck up emotionally ever since 3x01 at the very least. We've seen that Maddie has been trying to do that since they were kids and since she's been back on the scene. We saw Buck get closure from Abby in 3x18, we saw that his relationship with Ali didn't work out because she wasn't sure she could handle him still being a firefighter, and we saw how it became a casual thing with Taylor the first time she was around. Now his friendship with Taylor has suddenly morphed into her having feelings for him, and him returning those feelings, and them wanting to move forward, though Taylor was scared and ran away at first. Which I think is more than just coincidence but I digress. The point is that it's been Maddie, Eddie, and Bobby (and the firefam by extension) who have been helping Buck, stone by stone. Bobby is the father figure (with Athena acting the mother figure at times), Maddie is the sister (and the other maternal figure at times), and Eddie is the best friend/partner. But what absolutely just tugs at my heart is that while all three of them are trying to provide support and love to Buck, while also helping him to grow, they're all doing it in different ways, that is relative to their roles.

Eddie's role in Buck's life has expanded, it's grown, and I think not only can we see that in season 4 but I think it's also relevant here. Not just because of how Buck reacted to his being shot or his caring for Christopher, but because we see that the reason Eddie tells Buck the legal guardian info is not because he almost died again, but because of what Buck said. He even says it as much in his dialogue. "Because, Evan, you came in here the other day and you said you thought it would have been better if it had been you who was shot. You act like you're expendable but you're wrong." He wants Buck to know that he matters. Not just to Christopher but to Eddie and them as a family. He even goes so far as to use Buck's name, which definitely grabs Buck's attention, so Buck will hear him.

These guys give something to each other that it doesn't seem any other character can provide for them in a way that they need. Shannon was supposed to be that person for Eddie, that co-parent, but it ended up not working out in the end, even before her death. Now he's started to date Ana and already, the show is pretty much sidelining her and making sure to let the audience know through Carla that Eddie's heart isn't in it. Ali was supposed to be a new start for Buck from what happened with Abby, but in the end, she couldn't handle Buck being a firefighter and taking risks, which is exactly who Buck is, so it didn't mesh. Taylor and Buck had a not so great start in the beginning but then she came back, seemed somewhat changed after the pandemic, and now she's here. But ultimately, like many others have pointed out on here (and they're completely right), that scene where Taylor kisses him before Ana calls, that's a definite echo or callback when Buck used to take risks and get hurt, in order to gain attention. And as we know, Buck didn't make himself a target for those reasons. He did it to protect the firefam, and because he felt like he couldn't protect Eddie when he got shot. He may have told Taylor that but we came in halfway to the conversation so we don't know if he did or not. But Buck's cocky responses to Taylor reminded me of Buck 2.0, Buck 1.0 even. We don't see him as cocky with Bobby before that scene or with Eddie when he talks to him. Not that Taylor didn't see Buck vulnerable before, she did see him when he left the hospital to go see Christopher, but I think it's odd they had Buck acting this way right when Taylor acts on her feelings, then is freaked by it, and runs. Though, imho, I think it was done this way purposely. I also think they chose the difference in wording purposely. Invincible is how Taylor sees Buck thinking of himself vs Expendable is how Eddie sees Buck thinking of himself = Taylor doesn't really know Buck like Eddie does. Even if Buck had told her why he risked himself, the fact that she chose to say that word after the fact means she still doesn't get it. She's right, Buck isn't invincible, but at the heart of it, Buck just thinks he's expendable and that it's better him to take a bullet than the rest of the firefam. He couldn't protect Eddie; like he said, he can protect them. So they definitely showcased the difference here. Taylor is a fling or at the very least, another girlfriend who may be around for a bit, but I doubt it will end in wedding bells and kids if I'm being honest. They don't have that connection; even Abby had a more emotional connection with Buck during their friendship, even before the relationship happened.

I do like that Buck told Taylor that he didn't want to feel like he wasn't enough anymore. That's definite growth and it was good that she had to come to him, he deserved that at the very least. But what made me side eye this conversation between them at the door is that while that was an honest line for Buck to say, it wasn't the entire truth, not what we were shown anyway. He did start to say something to stop her when she ran but Ana called and that took priority, understandably so.

And one thing I just can't stop watching is Eddie's expression (in the gif above when Buck says it would have been better if it was him), to me that expression doesn't just say "what?" but it's heartbroken. When I say that, I'm not talking about the ship or even romance; that's a heartbroken expression because Eddie has been trying to get Buck past this expendable mindset that he has of himself. That Buck is worth something, and to someone. I know everyone talks about the "Are you hurt?" scene in the fire truck with Buck and Eddie but I think there's a very telling scene right before that. When Eddie got shot in 4x13 and fell to the ground, there is a moment, right before we see the captain racing to knock Buck down to the ground, before we see Buck in the sniper's sights, Eddie glances up and you can see the fear in his expression. And he is staring right at Buck who is staring down at him. Sure, those moments could be explained away because Eddie knew if they both died, who would Christopher have, right? But like Buck says in that hospital scene, Christopher does have other family even if Eddie doesn't want him with his grandparents (and who can blame him? they're major jerks) or if Christopher goes to live with Abuela or Pepa. Or one of Eddie's sisters. The point being, Christopher won't become a ward of the state had Eddie died and then Buck. No, I think the fear we see Eddie having in that moment, and then the heartbroken expression up above is purely about Buck for Buck, not because of the legal guardianship. And I think that's why we see Eddie reaching out his hand slightly, that Buck subconsciously mirrors. That's why the "Are you hurt?" Buck was treating him and standing; Buck was the one who pulled Eddie out of the line of fire and picked him up to get him in the truck. Eddie might have been slightly out of it to not realize these things, but he was obviously lucid enough to see the blood all over Buck and ask the question. He was worried for Buck.

But, going back to my main point, though (about the heartbroken expression and expendable), Eddie has been slowly building Buck up emotionally, tiny piece by tiny piece, from his role/vantage point in Buck's life. We saw it in the Buck Begins episode. We saw it in the Red episode, with the pool table scene. Where funnily enough, Maddie is also trying to reassure Buck that he won't be the one left behind, that she'll make sure of it. Eddie always teases him and ribs him just like guys do, brothers and best friends even, but he is always there as emotional support, too. And Buck is doing the same for Eddie, in the way that Eddie needs, when it comes to Christopher, and even when it doesn't. He not only introduced Eddie to Carla, he talks to Bobby beforehand when Christopher needs to come to the station, he sets up the Christmas dinner with Athena so the firefighters' families can spend Christmas with them, he gives Eddie another option when it comes to the skateboard so Eddie doesn't have to tell his son "sorry, you can never do that", etc. And it's because he mentions Ana in front of the firefam that Bobby ends up having the conversation with Eddie that he does, about moving on.

Basically, it just kills me how complementary they are to one another and how strong their emotional foundation is, and how the show is really going out of their way to show us the strength of that connection. Just how much they support one another and give each other what they need, which the same can't really be said for their love interests on the show. Somehow, those ladies are always falling short, in some way. After Eddie's revelation and the Carla bomb and now Taylor in the mix, I can't imagine how incredible Season 5 will be. I am here for it.